#when you're almost 30?

[mylonelydreaming]

People here on Tumblr are so scared to acknowledge that people do in fact get pregnant in their 20's and that it isn't inherently always a bad thing

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

[citylighten]

these two songs have had me like

[corfisers]

im around if anyone's wondering i just feel like my sanity is slipping

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

[ardri-na-bpiteog]

I feel like it really shouldn't be unreasonable for 2 professional workers in their late twenties to feel like they should be able to afford a 2-bedroom apartment

[chickenparm]

weekly reminder that i'm not dead, just workin' on myself!

[britishchick09]

i know it's midnight but...

I FIGURED OUT REWRITE CHRISTINE'S DRESS UP GAME!!!!! :D

@half-as-big-as-life!!!

[silverskulltula]

going to get my fuckin car back from the body shop today let's GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[slender-wannabe]

i need both new friends and hobbies...my life is so fucking boring when i'm not working lol.

[ppg-villains-defense-lawyer]

So Chapter 29 of Sins Of My Youth is (basically) done!

My plan was to post today, but since it's nearly midnight where I live, the new plan is to wait until tomorrow. Which, honestly might be for the best; I've been staring and editing at the thing for half the day and at this point I'm just blind to it. Hopefully reading it with fresh eyes will help me see it clearer before I send it off into the world

[cosmicdreamgrl]

before i came on to reblog stuff as usual, i was just going through the things that were made for me this year by both @raplinenthusiasts & @cordiallyfuturedwight, and i can't tell you how grateful i am to have met such lovely souls on this site. i will cherish every single one of these sets forever 💗

[vhstown]

those of you who claim to be "anti-nazi" and "anti-fascist" and are still saying and doing nothing about palestine, you are nothing but scum.

[whoslaurapalmer]

god literally anyone in the family besides my mom saying stuff like 'oh lulu is so strong or kind, such a nice person, we're so proud of her' makes me. unbelievably angry. like I feel like my mom says it with genuine appreciation!!!!! I like hearing her say it!!!!!!! but anyone else saying it just feels performative and uncaring and like im still a fucking child to them and they're so surprised I can do things or take care of my mom or even do ANYTHING right

[ranger-kellyn]

made a spreadsheet to better help me visualize how i'm managing my time and u g h i'm so sick of work being the primary activity.

[wewontbesleeping]

seeing posts about people lining up for eras tour at SEVEN AM to get barricade. oh. i would not be doing that. in any lifetime. lol.