#when it was fresh everything was a backdrop of pain. i was compartmentalizing like crazy just to get through it all.
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for songs that have to be listened to 5 months after a loss, rather than 5 days after a loss,
no wonder it didnt stick back then. this is a song for now.
#speculation nation#music#audio#i am just... yeah#when it was fresh everything was a backdrop of pain. i was compartmentalizing like crazy just to get through it all.#that first week especially. working to get his house packed up. working to arrange the funeral. going through all those pictures#because I was the one in charge of putting together the slideshow.#there was no peace. it was just exhausted perseverance. just trying desperately to hold on. one foot in front of the other.#but this. 5 months later. ive been healing. little by little. but as this song states. Everything is different now.#yeah. this album is hitting so much more now. i really did need to wait 5 months for the loss to be less fresh to really get it.#i think this song might be my favorite from the album now. just because. this song feels like my constant state of being.#the past is in ashes. the past is a basket that catches all that's tragic.#the future's an intruder that will seduce you. the present is a madness that's impossible to catch. and the past is a bastard.#just the old grief chapter.#idk. it just feels so right.#Spotify
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