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If you receive this, you make somebody happy! Go on anon and send this to ten of your followers who make you happy or somebody you think needs cheering up. If you get one back, even better! <333
But... but I don't even do anything. A thousand thanks, sweet anon! This was lovely ❤️
#now to remember to do this tomorrow#when I'm awake again#hopefully I'll also have at least a little time to work on something I promised concerning Finnish spoken language#I did write some of it today#but I'm so picky about examples#and I'm once again hit with the evidence that I probably have adhd#because man I can't focus on that task for shit#accidentally started and finished a whole course plan for one of my English courses on the side#did I plan on it? no. was it something I needed to do? not today. so of course I did it instead of the things I actually should've done.#I promise I'll finish what I promised though!
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I'm certain I've seen this said somewhere else already and I cannot for the life of me track it down but Dream's favourite colour being purple and Nightmare's being yellow
Everybody assumes Dream's is yellow because, well, he's dressed in it head to toe and his magic is yellow and his eyelights are yellow. It's just a bright happy colour, it must be his favourite! Only Blue and Ink know it's not, Ink because he takes note of how Dream favours purple any time he gets to pick something or joins in on an art project and Blue because he just asked.
Everybody assumes Nightmare doesn't have a favourite colour, that if you asked he'd say he was above that sort of thing or tell you something edgy like black because it's the colour of his soul. And it's kind of true, if you asked he would never admit to liking a colour, especially not one so cheery and bright. But the boys have definitely noted how he has paintings of sunrises in his offices and sunflowers planted outside.
#UTDR#UTMV#Dream Sans#Nightmare Sans#Big day for Dream posting lol#I'm losing my mind trying to remember where I saw this post but tumblr search says I'm crazy so maybe it was a different site#Anyway. brothers!!#They like the other's colour because it was safety to them as kids#When Nightmare lies in bed and stares at the yellow picture on the wall he feels safe for a moment#When Dream rolls over and bunches up the purple blanket in his bed he feels calm again#And when I lie awake until 3am thinking of these guys on a work night I'm being so normal!!!#Also I love to add that the boys could - if they really theorised about it - possibly put together that he likes yellow because of Dream#Blue and Ink don't make the connection at all because Nightmare is goop-coloured to them#They just think Dream likes purple for reasons
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This is probably because I grew up watching 24/7 animal planet, but what finally made the allo/aplatonic thing click for me were the nature's of big cats.
Lions are powerful, regal creatures who are uniquely adapted to pack life. They need these connections to live a healthy life; A lonely lion is a miserable creature indeed.
Jaguars are solitary, beautiful creatures who live happily solitary. They prowl their lush world with self-sufficient majesty. A jaguar is not lonely without a pack. In fact, forcing jaguars to share space with others they do not enjoy is just as damaging as forcing a lion to live alone.
A lion may choose to head out on it's own for the most part, but in the end must return to the pack to thrive. A jaguar can choose to trust and enjoy the company of others, but they never feel the need to form a pack.
Is a jaguar selfish for this? A psychopath, a narcissist or any other such horrid assumptions? Is it a less moral creature than a lion, who seeks others like it to thrive?
Is a lion pathetic, or needy, or selfish for wanting community? For requiring contact with others like they require water? For their inherent need to string complicated webs of relationships that may seem silly or dramatic to others?
Of course not. These are ridiculous questions to even ask.
They are simply lions and jaguars.
In fact, is a jaguar that chooses to spend time with you not as magical as a lion's love? For a creature that needs no bond to thrive to still enjoy your presence enough to share it a time? Is a lion who can prowl the night alone not impressive in its strength and resilience? Is it not awe-inspiring in its ability to conquer a life it was never wired for and reign still?
Are they not both beautiful and awe-inspiring in their own ways, without being wrong?
Alloplatonics. Aplatonics. Are we not both special and beautiful in both our bonds and self-confident happiness equal, in each our ways? Is there not unique beauty in lifelong bonded packs and magical encounters that need no perpetuity to carry life forward?
Are we not but lions and jaguars? Neither wrong, neither selfish, but just different and beautiful creatures in each our ways?
That's how I've come to see it, anyway.
#lgbt#aspec#lgbtqa+#asexual#aromantic#aroace#loveless#aplatonic#alloplatonic#animals#I woke up at like 3 in themmorning to write this so I apologise for weird wording#I'm not awake enough to go hunting for the videos but if you want to see more about the equal majesty and difference in cats bonding#I suggest looking up Kevin Richardson's work with lions and panthers#I love animals. I hope I didn’t come off as degrading to anyone by using them as comparison#I can assure you the association only carries the deepest respect from me.#anyway all the aro discourse floating about made me think of this issue again#and how explaining allo/a-platonic needs has been a difficult task in the past#you're all valid no matter your labels or shapes or spots or manes#remember that when an orientation you don't understand comes to the lgbtable your job isn't to test them#it's to make room
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To Taste Sweet Silver: Prologue Release
PLAY HERE | INTRO POST
To Taste Sweet Silver is an 18+ Gaslamp Fantasy about bringing a crumbling world to its end.
Total Word Count (w/code): 16.9k
Prologue Features:
A memory of childhood
The spilling of your blood
Five different endings which decide your origin
What was done to you? What have you done?
Content Warnings:
Severe: Depictions of violence, blood, and gore
Moderate: Body Horror
Mild: None
Upcoming in Chapter 1:
Time skip to present day adulthood
Get more into the details of what you did between childhood to now
Walk through the gates of the City of Forgotten Silver
Make up a fake identity
Avoid the City Guards, Mages, and one strange Jester
Notes:
Hello and welcome to my side project IF! While the demo isn't too long right now, I hope you enjoy and that it gives the general vibes of the game well enough. I'm honestly pretty pleased with how it turned out overall!
If you notice any issues, feel free to send an ask and I'll do my best to get to it! Hope you enjoy!
#SS: updates#twine game#twine if#twine wip#interactive fiction#interactive novel#cyoa#cyoa game#if you notice any issues it's because it's 4am and I missed it sorry!! will go through everything again when I'm awake!!
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#artists on tumblr#digital art#illustration#pixel aesthetic#fight club#fight club 1999#the narrator fight club#doodle from class#survived today with 4 hours of half sleep#I hate it when I'm both asleep and awake during the night ugh#he's all I draw#I guess I have a confort character again#yay :)#one day I'll post something original I promise#looks weird cause I drew it with a trackpad during class#coucoenfneffk#martyryo
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guys please pray for me
#I don't know how to explain what's going on but I'm struggling and don't know how to get a handle on it#I think that there's two issues going on that are probably somewhat intertwined because I'm fixating on them as such#so maybe I need to separate out the one that is stupid and I shouldn't be fixating on it#and then just focus on the other thing as it is and not as a symptom of whatever else#idk but it's so weird and complicated that I just can't figure out how to explain it#and I've gone to my mom over stuff related to this enough lately so I won't again#idk I'm just. maybe I'm having a hard time because I'm so tired. I've been getting up early every day this week#and yet still can't fall asleep earlier so I'm not getting enough sleep I don't think.#I haven't had a break since friday#maybe that's part of it#bc I was fine for a while and then this week I'm fixating on what ifs and my own failures (that are somewhat out of my control#because I... don't know how to capture my thoughts while I'm literally mostly asleep? probably habit when I'm awake lol)#so i think there's a level of spiritual attack making me fixate and also just#tiredness#yeah.#anyway.#prayer request
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I feel you, its so bad 😭, I had to go on a functioning adult human schedule for school and good god, out the house by 7am... bad bitches are not built for that..
WE REALLY ARE... and man, I can brute force myself into any schedule if there are things that HAVE to be done at certain times (like school, like you said) but it absolutely never feels "right". it feels like waking up at 3am to go to the airport type of shit. and it is truly so annoying... to get hit with the "that's a Normal schedule, you need to Fix your schedule" okay. alright. but let me hit you with this one. is it "normal" or is it just conducive to a 8 - 5. because no matter what my sleep schedule is like, or how locked in I am, I'm more clear headed at night + more productive and energetic. and no matter what, I'm tired during the day, especially the brightest times of day when the sun is allegedly supposed to be signaling my brain to be awake and alert. and it doesn't matter how much sleep I got.
#I can wake up in The Early Morning after going to bed at a reasonable hour the night prior and be exhausted throughout the daytime#and if I make it to the night then I'll suddenly perk back up. if I woke up at 7am that morning (with 8 hours of sleep under my belt)#I can comfortably stay awake until 5 or 6am that very next morning.#I need to Adapt to the daytime schedule- but if I loosen my grip on myself at all I will instantly SNAP back to the nighttime one.#full rubberband moment.#I don't need to transition back into it. my body just wants to click it back in place#I'll go right back into the swing of it as soon as I'm allowed to again#sergle answers#also I don't have trouble sleeping in daylight hours. yeah I have the curtains drawn in my room#but they aren't Blackout curtains. it's dim in there but not Dark. that doesn't impede me at all#it is crazy the way that people are so confident in telling me to my face that I'm on a bad and lazy schedule#bc they are categorizing my wake-up time as 'sleeping in' bc they're measuring it on their standard of when THEY go to bed.#i could go to bed at noon and wake up at 3pm and they'd say that i slept in
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IDK if I'm phrasing this correctly, but in my brain, Vasco is, like, the personification (caninification?) of an afternoon chilling on a back porch swing.
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#ah#that's adorable#I can totally imagine him doing that#answered#anonymous#Vasco#to me he usually conjures the feeling of being warmed by sunlight#winters in northern Finland where I'm from tend to be pretty rough at least for me they are#they last about six months or so#sun starts to set earlier and earlier until it gets dark before 2 pm#in december the sun barely rises at all it's like this brief moment of twilight at noon between two 22+ hour nights#it gets harder to wake up in the morning and your energy levels plummet you go into battery saving mode#polar night messes up your brain seasonal depression gets really bad#and the cold and dark goes on and on and you feel like you'll never feel warm or happy or properly awake again#but eventually it starts to veer towards spring and on one day you notice that the sun is shining??!?!#not like bleakly and weakly but proper sunlight with warm hue and capability to actually warm the things it touches#you've forgotten what it looks like when it's truly light outside#and it's the craziest feeling to see bright natural light it blinds you and pierces right through into your very core#being kissed by the sun for the first time in months feels unreal it feels SO GOOD#I don't know it's probably not that big of a deal for people around me#but I personally react to things like changes in temperature and the amount of daylight pretty massively#I like to think that Vasco is a first ray of sunlight hitting you after you've spent what feels like an eternity in someplace cold and dark
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...have some little doodles of Beleg Cúthalion in Falešne společenstvo's Děti Húrinovy that I drew instead of going to sleep like a normal person
#they're not great but 1) i've not drawn the actor or the character before#2) the paper of the notebook isn't great for ink but for some reason i used ink anyway#3) again. i drew this when i should've been going to sleep so i'm not as awake as i could be#beleg cuthalion#the children of húrin#falesne spolecenstvo#deti hurinovy#silmarillion#fanart#my art#drawing#middle earth#silmarillion fanart
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i'm about to go to sleep but just wanted to reiterate my last ooc post for the night crowd; please take care of yourselves ❤️
#drink water keep yourself fed and sleep as much as you're able to!#when i'm awake again i'll also available in dms if anyone needs anything ❤️#* OOC.
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Any idea why this guy is so patched? The website says he's a red silver tabby
https://pin.it/1fTfNgFAh
Kernes Dallas Gold | red silver classic tabby
I think for some reason the silver effect failed at some places, and those are the darker patches. If i'm not mistaken, the inhibitor gene overall is a little wacky, its effect is often somewhat uneven, so this could be a more serious case of that.
#sorry maybe tomorrow when i'm more awake i'll try again to find something more reliable#also honestly i think this cat has white spotting too like come on those paws are white#ask and answer#red silver tabby with white#cats
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public announcement that the dash really needs to stop being deader than dead between 3pm and 10pm AEST because I'm eating afternoon tea, dinner AND supper and I'm so lonely I look like this the whole time
#WHERE ARE MY FRENNSSSSSS WDYM YOU'RE SLEEEPPINNGGGG#WHAT ABOUT THE HOBBIT MEAL'S I MADE FOR EVERYONE#WHY DOES NO ONE WANT TO COME TO MY DINNER PARTIESSSS#i just miss ya'll#my free time is in the afternoons/evenings and that means everyone's sleeping#which makes me saaadddddd#bc then everyone wakes up and comes on when I'M SLEEPING#i wake up and catch up on the night dash and by the time i'm awake and ready to interact everyone's GONE AGAIN#like i could cry about it bc i miss being able to parallel paly with everyone online
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When you bump into the local Angry Bug Enthusiast on your first route. They're mad about it, but they're also pretty cute...
#welcome home#eddie dear#frank frankly#eddie x frank#When youre written as the clumsy one and it's all for a gag but listen#Now you gotta find out if Angry Bug Enthusiast is single#Frank is embarrassed. Hip checked straight into the bushes and now Julie thinks it's funny#Frank is going to lie awake thinking about this moment forever. First thing he ever said to his future husband is calling the guy a moron#He's lucky Eddie's too stubborn to be easily deterred by that prickly personality#Yes I've delved into this. Here I am. Once again.#Unaffiliated with the incredible Welcome Home creation I'm just a fan having fun!
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@ my body: would you STAY ASLEEP
#i had the saddest fucking dream. do you wanna know what it was?#i dreamed i woke up and checked my phone and it was past noon#meaning i'd gotten roughly 5 hours of sleep#and then i drifted off again#but when i REALLY woke up and checked my phone it was just past NINE#I FELT SO BETRAYED I WANTED TO CRY#I'M AWAKE NOW I CAN'T FALL BACK ASLEEP AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#tox.txt
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Had a weird Hollow Knight-related dream a couple days ago, so I decided to draw a major scene I remembered from it dgsgshf
More context will be in the tags, for those interested!
#hollow knight#little ghost#hk ghost#the knight#hk hornet#hornet#alright. as of writing these tags it's been a week since the original dream so! let's see what i remember dgsgsgf#i was playing a game. which was a sequel to hollow knight ((Not silksong though))#there was some new sort of divine infection in hallownest and hornet had asked ghost to investigate it. they ended the last one after all!#the red glowy spike gate thingy is what you jumped into to enter the 'infected' areas#though it actually led directly to a hub world type of place. which was kinda like an expanded base for the grimm troupe?#more like an entire lair instead of a camp. also some greek gods were there for some reason lmao. they had their own special rooms too#so sidenote but- new headcanon that there are grimm troupe members named ares athena artemis &... venus lmao. not aphrodite for some reason#also monomon was there?? i think??? except she was cooking????? she had a sidequest to deliver something to someone though i dunno hdgfhdgh#i remember going back to the grimm troupe lair a couple times throughout my 'playthrough'#anyway. the 'infection' this time around was more of a glitchy physical corruption thing? rather than a mind corruption.#though there were still aggressive enemies to fight. but i remember getting a map from cornifer early on and he was. probably infected#i think part of his body was covered in electricity or something? so he wasn't fully visible? but he was still acting normally#there was also a moth who was the seer but then later wasn't the seer (but was still the same moth) dghgdhf. i delivered stuff to her#that glowing white wall thing in the drawing was like a one-way gate. you could only cross it from the other side and ghost came from there#i guess things looped back up somehow i dunno ghdgfhgf#anyway. ghost's red eyes. those are significant! those happened while i was walking through a corridor. it had pools of shallow water#(shallow enough to just walk through) and also creatures that were lightseeds but red.the implication was that they were full of Blood lmao#and as i went along killing them--as one does--as i walked through the hall. they started turning the water red too#there was also narration about this as it was happening ashdgsf. specifically the narrator said the water turned red before it actually did#ghost's eyes slowly turned red too. but aside from that they were fine! since. they're the player character and the player is perfectly fin#BUT. when they encountered hornet again. she thought they were infected. and that she lost the only family she had left </3#she didn't attack though. instead she just jumped into the red spike gate without a word. decided to try to fix everything herself#but eventually you'd encounter her again down below and she'd fight you. didn't actually get to that in the dream though#aand i'm out of tags </3 i wanted to talk about what i'd do to make this make more sense as an au or something now that i'm awake but. :c
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Melatonin
A FluffyNight drabble to celebrate reaching 50 followers on this account. It's pretty short & not beta read, but I think it's alright for being written in one sitting. Happy reading!
Beep! Beep! Beep! The sound of Ccino's alarm forced him awake, pulling him out of the pleasant dreams he had been having. Even now, Ccino could feel them slipping from his skull, leaving him wondering what exactly he had been dreaming about.
The continued beeping of his alarm pulled him from his thoughts & Ccino groaned, pushing his face into his pillow. Blindly reaching for it, Ccino attempted to turn it off without looking, knocking his hand against the other things on the nightstand before finally managing to push the button to silence it.
Blissful quiet filled the room as Ccino felt Nightmare shift next to him. Arms wrapped around him & pulled him close, holding Ccino close to Nightmare. Ccino smiled sleepily, turning on his side so he faced towards the other. He hummed quietly as he observed Nightmare looking back at him with a lidded socket, an annoyed expression on his face.
"Sorry, did I wake you?" Whispering so as to not ruin the atmosphere, Ccino questioned worriedly. Nightmare shook his head & moved slowly, readjusting them both until they were situated comfortably against each other.
Ccino smiled wider & closed his sockets, holding the other in his arms. Together in each other's arms, they both quietly drifted back to sleep.
Bonus scene!
A shrill beeping jolted them both back awake, causing Ccino to jump in Nightmare's arms. Grumbling to himself, he slowly sat up & reached over to the alarm, shutting it off.
Sitting up properly, Ccino stretched his arms above his head & groaned as he heard his joints pop, rubbing the bottom of his sockets with one hand. Picking up his phone & turning it on, his sockets widened in shock as he let out a loud, "Shoot!"
Scrambling & throwing the blanket off of himself, Ccino barely noticed as Nightmare sat up in alarm. "Is everything alright?" Ccino stammered out a reply, mild panic in his voice as he began changing out of his pajamas.
"Everything's fine! We just overslept a bit!" Relaxing slightly, Nightmare observed as Ccino got ready for the day, rushing around quickly so he wouldn't be later than he already was. If he concentrated, he could swear that he heard the meows of hungry cats impatiently calling for their breakfast.
Hastily walking over to Nightmare, having gotten dressed quickly, Ccino leaned over & placed a chaste kiss against his lovers cheek, smiling. "Love you, see you later!" With that he exited the room, leaving Nightmare sitting alone on the bed with only a warm imprint of where Ccino laid as company.
#i barely looked this over#i'm actually kind of proud how this turned out#i had a vague idea of where i wanted to start but not how it would go or when it would end#if you see any mistakes please let me know#i originally had ccino saying fuck but i think i read somewhere that he doesn't like explatives#so i ended up changing it to him saying shoot instead#this is inspired by the many times i have woken up only to realize i accidentally/purposefully turned off my alarm#which is why i now use multiple alarms & also have ccino doing so#we all love to sleep in but are never prepared for the consequences of our half awake actions#sorry if this doesn't make sense#i barely know what i'm doing while writing#it's mostly just me typing whatever comes to mind#onto the actual tags#fic rec#utmv#nightmare sans#ccino sans#nightmare x ccino#fluffynight#fluff#morning cuddles#personal writing#now i have to think about what i'll do for 100 followers#i'll probably let y'all decide again#mod sleepy
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