#what is time cuz apparently it dont exist or smth

[katetcake]

Finally got to Zora's domain. And uhhhhh

That's very gay my guy lmao

[spotsupstuff]

I need to know your opinion on the not mayor- guy-

dont really have one, tbh!! he just kinda Exists for me, he's a plot tool n das it sorta deal. so i'm rather confused by the fandom's apparent thirst for him? might be because of the concentrated boomer essence within me or cuz my type is polar opposite of whatever is goin on with Him but i find him repulsive rather than hot or whatevs

i was also one of those peeps who doubted his credibility when it comes to bein A Person. i legit thought for the longest time that he was just some kind of spell of WBS' or smth alike of that (in FT he IS a piece of her skull that came to life so yanno 👁 im a fan of questioning what it takes to be a person)

when it comes to his canonical story the things i find most interestin with him is who did he serve before WBS cuz id like to know if the place really was in heaven or if it was somewhere on earth n also if the emperor ruler guy had any name n all that... i really miss more concrete world building in this show, man.. but also his situation after WBS takes out those spirit things outta him to possess SWK. like was he that strong that she had to pump him with all that shit.. n also the drastic difference between unpossessed mayor n unpossessed host are interesting- like i lowkey wanna study the seemingly "insanity" effect WBS' possession has on a being. obviously it has smth to do with the time he spent under her control but what exactly happened there? was his sanity sapped away, was his original soul booted out of the body or was it devoured by the WBS stuff like there's so much "Fun" that could've gone down there

[frankensteindotpdf]

69-💯 ask meme GO

oh god here we go. under the cut

69. Extrovert or Introvert?

ambivert tbh...i usually spend a lot of time being alone or being with people and after too long i crave the opposite.

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

nope. almost once but my mom said it was too expensive

71. What makes you nervous?

every single thing ever. legit just...everything. Being in a car. Talking to people. Not hearing from people. Eating. Not eating. Watching my nephews. Letting their parents watch them instead. Wearing clothes that make me look good. Wearing clothes that make me feel comfortable. Ghosts. The concept of just stopping existing instead. Like...name a thing that exists or doesnt and im nervous about it.

72. Are you scared of the dark?

yeah, sometimes. depends on my mood. Outside? All the time if im alone. Inside? a lot of he time if im alone lmao ok so usually yeah but not if im with someone else

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

depends on the mistake and the person? but most of the time i do, yeah

74. Are you ticklish?

yes extremely so but if anyone tries it ill fuckin kill you

75. Have you ever started a rumor?

not that i know of. i try to stay out of drama. It’s exhausting.

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

just like...babysitting. Or I guess cadets (like military club for kids in Canada) counts but im terrible at it. I cant give orders

77. Have you ever drank underage?

hehe yeah

78. Have you ever done drugs?

not yet ;) nah real talk i wanna try edibles or smth but i also am worried about psychosis so im gonna wait till my brains a lil more developed (even tho weed is legal now yee yee)

79. Who was your first real crush?

oh god probably this kid in my class in SK...i had a crush on him for like 10 years it was nuts (unless you count fictional characters because lbr probably madeline or hermione)

80. How many piercings do you have?

just the classic earlobes, but im seriously considering getting a helix

81. Can you roll your Rs?

yep and my brother cant so i mock him all the time hehe

82. How fast can you type?

average for a person who has to look at the keys i suppose

83. How fast can you run?

not very fast at all. ive always hated running. im more of an endurance type of guy. ill walk for hours but i can only run for like...30 seconds

84. What color is your hair?

Supposed to be teal, faded to a minty green. (naturally brown)

85. What color is your eyes?

Hazel, leaning more towards green (though my mom would beg to differ) but my three year old nephew says they’re green and he’s v confident in his knowledge of colours so duh mom clearly they are green

86. What are you allergic to?

GOD i have seasonal allergies and on top of that im allergic to cats, apples, cherries, some scents and detergents, peanuts and tree nuts, maybe carrots?? and maybe this one brand of toothpaste??? i need to get tested again (THIRD time) i hate it. I still eat everything im not supposed to eat tho (aside from the raw fruits..those ones make my mouth hella itchy)

87. Do you keep a journal?

always wanted to, never had the commitment necessary

88. What do your parents do?

Mom’s a nurse, dad’s a business clerk at a hospital

89. Do you like your age?

yes. Im having a Great Time. I wanted to diiiieeee in high school but university is such a good time (im like a week away from my bday so like...not yet but in a week ill be having a Good Time cuz ill be able to buy alcohollll)

90. What makes you angry?

People judging other people, especially when you dont know em and also stubborn people??? like GOD nothing makes me more angry than a person who just refuses to do or try smth for no reason i dont know why other than that i dont really get angry too often (mostly just frustrated lmao)

91. Do you like your own name?

I DONT KNOW im having such a problem with it i just dont know its pretty femme and spelled weird and i cant decide if i like having a femme name or not cuz i dont like being percieved as feminine most of the time but i dont hate hate hate my name???? for now ill just say i dont like the spelling and idk if i like the name

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?

Nope. Im not carrying kids so i dont need to unless i end up with a partner that wants to (and the like....science and money to do so). I also like the idea of adopting, so if i do have kids they’ll already come with names lmao

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?

gender....is not important*

*obvs except when dysphoria is involved but like...it dont matter to me a kid’s a kid (also who says they wont be nb) (yes most sjw answer ik but i seriously could not give less fucks)

94. What are you strengths?

im pretty nice and good at art (in different forms)

95. What are your weaknesses?

im bad at admitting my strengths lmao and im a big ole hypocrite and i could keep making this list forever

96. How did you get your name?

My parents wanted to name me after my grandmas but their first names were a lil odd so they went with middle names, but then they didnt want alliteration so they changed a c to a k and then they also didnt like the way one name was pronounced so they tweaked it and now i have a name that seems obvious but is apparently both very difficult and very difficult to spell and say, considering no one ever gets it first try (Karaline, pronounced “Kara-line”)

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

Not that im aware of

98. Do you have any scars?

yeah, just little ones from scratching mosquito bites too much or random childhood injuries nothing too interesting Except for one/two on my arm from a staple sticking out of a chair it hurt so bad lmao and now ive got a scar that (tw) looks like self harm and i was so mad cuz like...i never did and now im stuck with this mark that looks like i did and PEOPLE HAVE COMMENTED ON IT i want to die everytime

99. Color of your bedspread?

grey and black cuz im EMO but also i have one that looks like a galaxy and i love

100. Color of your room?

purple and white

in conclusion f u lola but also this was kinda fun so maybe..not

[bibbleboo]

god i rly do think the only way im ever gonna be happy or have a life im not miserable dedicating to somebody else is if i find a way to live alone. but i literally dont know if thats possible shdfsdfhs i cant drive i cant do dishes i make $500 a month im like. so fucked and honestly if i wanted to i could probably solve Some of these problems but im not. even given enough time to work on honing my adult skills. 

yall not to sound bitter or whiny but straight up since my early teen years all ive ever known is being forced to take care of other people. i was never given the unconditional care and support system it takes a teen to learn how to grow up without worrying abt failing bc i was too busy being roped into caring for other people and fixing all their problems and they in return would help with my disability issues. so i never Grew from that or rly i grew at a snails pace bc i had to barely squeeze in time to work on myself. all my progress was halted by that and i was just stuck in that spot. cuz like for them its only ever an exchange to accommodate me and anything less is unfair and they just stop doing it. and part of me feels guilty and cant help but feel like, ok how can i expect more than that though. like how can i expect accommodation without balance. ppl need 50/50. but also literally, how am i supposed to take care of myself and grow when i am constantly trying to pay off a debt to others just for existing with needs. 

and then they fucking complain im not doing enough for them or for myself and like i!!!!! ok shit or get off the pot then!!! i WANT to do this im just scared if i fail yall wont take me back in bc i stopped being ur fucken slave and then im gonna go back to 11 yr old me attempting sui.ci/de twice bc thats how i look at rock bottom apparently and i dont trust her!!! and its YOUR GUYS FAULT LIKE.... i love my family but . they ruined a lot of shit for me with this fucked up cycle. telling me ‘you just need to push yourself’... when do i have the time when im playing ur fuckin mommies. literally. where am i expected to pull the time or strength or energy or motivation . fuck off like. im needy bc yall didnt give me enough time to learn not to be and i feel like intentionally or not part of it was to keep me around to help them out like uuuuuuuuuuuuuugh i hate this oh my goddddd yall didnt give me the tools to be an adult and now just to escape u im gonna have to jump the shark with Nothing and hope i dont end up homeless or forever fucked in bad credit debt land , while knowing if i got evicted or smth i would literally right away try to kms , again because i waSNT GIVEN PROPER CHANCES TO FAIL OR SUCCEED OR LEARN BC I WAS TOO BUSY KEEPING YALL FROM FAILING LIKE I----- AAAAAHH WHATT DID U EXPECTTTttTTTTTTTT i wanna scream. i never wanted to be a hyper dependent idiot that asks for this much w.o being able to return the favor well enough but yall didnt give me the fucking care i needed to learn how to do anything else so good luck w/o me babes when i figure a way out of here xoxo . but no honestly part of what pisses me off most tho is that when i leave they WILL be able to figure it out, theyll be angry and struggle a little at first but theyll adapt. i rly might not be able to figure this out, itd be my first time adapting to relying on myself and filling Only my needs. its so ufcking wildly unfair i just wanna cry and punch somebody

[lnane]

between the ages of like 10 and 14 i spent a majority of my free time and school recees walking around and daydreaming about one solid story and its different spinoffs constantly. 

in this story i essentially created a universe like ours except it revolved around the logic that if “the emotional/mental pain you feel is great enough, you wont feel phyiscal pain” cuz i was like 11 and edgi and thought i was so very special compared to my peers.

so anyways this storys protagonist was a self insert character who, just like me, went to school and all that jazz. And then, as many preteens/teens might dream about, a Tragedy™ struck my school and it was Attacked by Random Terrorists™ and my character so Heroically Died Trying To Protect Everyone(™)

so anyways due to plot points i cant exactly remember but might get to the character didnt actually die. INSTEAD, they were thrown back into the dawn of time. Like, they ended up being the first thing existing. And the thing was that due to this was before literally everything else existed, death wasnt a thing yet. So! Character could not die! Just. Yeet around and exist! What a wonderful existance!

So anyways after like. A Long Time™ of that, gods just sorta appeared. And they did Not Like the existance of this character. like: “this dude is not only older than us but sentient and cant die???? bitch. fuck you” was their entire character. also they were evil and garbage.

But this didnt affect Character much. After all, they cant die. so why be afraid? they kept yeeting around trying to find a meaning to existance for a while.

And then! Sentient life happend. Dont remember if it was accidental or the gods created them or smth but anyways the Character fell in love! :0!! Got a nice wife and cottage to live and was happy!! :D

then the gods basically grew tired of the sentient life and killed them all. which made Character mad. And gave them super emotional pain cuz 12 y/o me thought “hm. whats the most emotionally painful thing that can happen to you? losing someone you love? like a wife? hm. make sense. lets roll with that” and yea.

so Character was not only basically immortal before, but now theyre Super Immortal! wow! so yea they went on a rampage hunting the gods and killing them all. (god of war style)

And this is were the Fun Stuff (according to 13 y/o me, cuz i reapet this part of the story Constantly) happens! When killing a god, their powers got absorbed by Character! So by the end of it all they were The One All Mighty God. which was like. neat ig. 

and then time passed or smht idk i dont recall anyways it rolled aroudn to the time The Character Aka Me would be born and they foudn out that they lived in a time loop! and had to basically give up their existance to place their soul in the child thats about to be born so they can exist and everything will repeat forever and ever. 

character was like. hm. ok. i will like. fix this so i am born. but like. fuck the not existing part. 

and just. didnt cease to exist. idk how this worked it just Did and apparently they never thought of this in the previous loops or smth? so anyways they decided to return to their old life like. either right as they died or a year later. i never made up my mind which version to roll with

version 1: right after they die

so imagine this kid just died infront of the entire school due to some attack or smth and suddenly they just jump back up and demolish everything. yea thats the plot

version 2: a year later

so imagine this kid who died a year ago shows back up at school all of a sudden but now theyre Super Cool and Edgy and also like. and all powerful god. yea thats the plot. 

so anyways after living the regular life for a while they decide that. hm. lets do smth else. and then just fucks off to do whatever the fuck i could think of across the multiverse. 

remember that thru the entire thing they always had the “i am in too much constant mental pain to feel any kind of physical pain” edgy broodin attitude. and kept it forever. plus they were literally an all powerful god so they could do anything but was like. nah. im gonna use like 2 powers on like 0.00000001% forever (it was a literal Big Thing several times that they would like. use “100%” but in reality they just use like an entire 0.00000001%. cuz they kept limiting their own power for the lulz). 

and also at several points they transformed themselves into a woman for several reasons, some top mentions being: 

idk how it just happend. 

why not? 

to fuck a man cuz if two men had sex thatd be Gay and 12 y/o me didnt know that that was an option

to fuck a woman cuz apparently being a lesbian still was an option? idk man im dumb now cuz i was very dumb back then

lmao you got your manly pride ruined by a woman. suck it loser

idk man point bein this happend a Lot and i probably shouldve realised i am trans way earlier than i did

i think i stopped daydreaming about this story fully when i was like. 15. cuz i cant remember any of it beyond 14.