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we need to have an in-depth discussion about rafayel definitely having a scent kink. âtry and smell something iâm familiar with? which means i should sniff you, yeah?â IS THIS SOMETHING THAT HAPPENS OFTEN? SIR????
the way his voice gets deeper and his breathing gets heavier? and the fabric rustling in the background? is he supposed to be grinding into you while doing ALL THAT?? and his âyeahâs?? this man is definitely a talker oh my goddd. iâm definitely not thinking about the way heâll talk you through it right now. good thing he didnât call us a good girl in this one because i fear i wouldâve spontaneously combusted.
this isnât funny anymore i need him inside me. or maybe i need to be taken out back and shot, iâm not picky
he is a fucking talker, he will guide you through everything and just. he definitely has a scent kink but the WHOLE FACT BOTH HIM AND MC ARE BLINDFOLDED TOO??? excuse me, sensory deprivation a whole ass thing.
NO BUT NONNIE FOR FUCKING REAL the way his voice drops when the aphrodisiac hits??? the heavy breathing??? the way he just "so... much... more" and LIKE IM NOT ABOUT TO LISTEN TO THIS AUDIO AGAIN WHEN I GET HOME just to make a whole long horny ass post again like the time i was just looking for a damn part in his god of tides myth and got ATTACKED BY HIS SMIRK when i paused.
*screaming into the fucking void* yeah?
i'm STILL MELTING at "if you're scared you can cling onto me but i'm not gonna stop" *INHALES* boi.
if he had called us good girl or anything equivalent to ANY FUCKING PRAISE i wouldve fucking COMBUSTED, IMPLODED. YOU NAME IT. that voice? praising you?
i need this man carnally and if i were to speak of the thoughts in my head right nowâ i shall nOT
#im afraid the thoughts#what if i indulge#what if i- no#im completely sane for that fish boi#COMPLETELY. UTTERLY SANE.#rafayel#rafayel love and deepspace#love and deepspace#lnd#lnds#l&ds#lads#also like#FR HOW TF IS THIS GAME RATED 12 AND UP????
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'Yuu!'
#twst#twisted wonderland#art#ram's art#ace trappola#deuce spade#twst grim#twst yuu#haha hey what if i drew something self-indulgent--#something something yuu's leaving and they cant come back and the first years arent too happy 'bout it lol#i would have drawn the other first-years but. i couldnt fit them properly so. oops#felt like doing something simple but still fun to draw lol#i try not to post any of my 'angst' stuff but#yea#anyways im such a sucker for the first years caring about each other - ('specially the original trio of yuu ace and deuce)#i am also a big ol grim fan - i love that he cares about us in his own silly way#if you've read my tags so far - can you guess the song i was listening to on loop whilst drawing this lmao#(to narrow it down it's in pro/ ject sekai :] )#(hoping it wont show up in that game's tags lol)
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and then jayce rode that high and was floating on air for an entire week :)
#this is so self indulgent#arcane#arcane fanart#jayvik#jayvik fanart#viktor arcane#jayce talis#jayce arcane#jayce x viktor#digital art#comic#fanart#art#illustration#artists on tumblr#clip studio paint#csp#also jayce is incredibly smart and i feel like he isn't always given his due lol#plus a second set of eyes is important!#at work I'm not allowed to send anything to the publishers unless it's been vetted by someone else and you know what that's just#good thinking lol
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Got a new brush
new brush goofying
#one piece#zosanzo#roronoa zoro#black leg sanji#waffle art#bday indulgence cause i was doing homework and commission work and i was like 'its a sunday its my bday what am i doing'
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POV: You save your timeline, but lose your arm anyway.
Casey does NOT let Leo get away with being so self-deprecating, dw
#this looked and sounded way better in my head#i way overthought what leo was supposed to be saying here smh#you stare at words enough and they start to sound not like words#i was up so late last night indulging in angst when i have like 50 other WIPs#such is my lack of discipline#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#art#sketch#leo#tmnt#casey jones#fanart#drawing#rise of the tmnt#teenage mutant ninja turtles#posting now before i can second-guess myself further ahhhhh#myart
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One in a million.
#AAAAUGHHH BRO IS IN MY BRAINNN#I was just thinking about how there were so many flowers in the true lab that were also injected with determination#but only one of them worked#this is very self indulgent I just wanted to make a full piece no matter what the subject was#undertale#flowey undertale#undertale flowey#flowey the flower#flowey#my art
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Who is this sassy lost child?
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#lan wangji#a-yuan#A-Yuan knows how to to utilise his big wet eyes to get treats. What a little legend.#The crowd comments about LWJ being 'daddy' and WWX being 'the mother' are a little too 'fan-service bait' for me.#So I am personally reimagining it as another layer of 'misinterpretation of a more complex situation' commentary.#I like how the different styles of interacting with children WWX an LWJ exhibit say so much about their own childhoods.#We - human beings in the real world - take two lessons from how we were parented: What we valued and what we wish we had.#LWJ leaning into indulgence is him pushing back against his own childhood of asceticism. It's something he didn't have - so he gives it.#WWX on the other hand has been *so* defined by his drive to indulge. And here he is the restrictor!#It takes a bit more to see what's going on here. The factors are not singular.#but to keep it in theme with LWJ; I'd propose it is partly his way of establishing structure when he did not have it as a child.#Both approches are a way of saying 'I didn't have this and I wish I did.'#With LWJ it's pretty obvious why...but WWX? What is at your core? What is your regret towards a lack of restriction?#Or...What benefit do you think it gives this child to learn the harsh lessons of going without?#Did it make you strong when you were a child? Do you think it is just the nature of the world and we all must learn it?#How we interact with children is such a fascinating topic to delve into our psychology and neuroses.#In a more light hearted turn of topic:#WWX confirmed to be 'person taking the car to the drive through to order one black coffee for himself' on the triangle spectrum.#LWJ is saying 'we have food at home' as he is opening his wallet ready to order for everyone.#(Technically this is comic 213 but yippee! We are in the 200's now! Thank you all so much for reading and cheering me on!)
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Endless Abyss(kinda)! SY AU
First things first, this is very much inspired by this post by @/rainbowsmagicandshit and @/allpiesforourown, HIGHLY recommend reading that fist just to get a glimpse of where I started off, but do note I have accidentally deviated from the original idea a bit, so uh, oops ig.
This was born out of a mix of different ideas (as usual), so think of this as âThe AU where SY is a demon, and also the Endless Abyss, and also my excuse to have Binghe possibly make a harem consisting entirely of SYâsâ, or, as I like to call it:
As per usual, Shen Yuan has died. It happens to the best of us, and of course, he died while reading the glittering piece of trash that is Proud Immortal Demon Way.But, as he is in the process of getting snatched away by the System, something goes wrong, and the System has to quickly redirect itself and it causes SY to get knocked out of course.
His soul scrambles to find a new host, and it manages to find someone suitable enough. When SY wakes up though, he isnât greeted by the sight of a roof, or a forest, or anything remotely familiar; instead, the moment he regains consciousness, heâs senses are flooded with as much information as possible. Itâs like a computer with too many tabs open, but in this case, you can see all the tabs at the same time and all of them are playing the most obnoxiously loud videos possible, in fact, everything feels so overwhelming even thinking becomes too much.
What SY doesnât know is that he has transmigrated into the body of a Titan, an almost extinct godly demon race that only existed in the confines of Airplaneâs first drafts, and it turns out shoving a human soul into the body of a deity doesnât bode so well, since what the human mind is able to process doesnât even come close to what a Titan is able to feel. So because SY canât get a hold of his own mind, his control of his own body is also not great, and he is completely unaware as his newly acquired body goes on a rampage.
See, SY is currently in a very old version of the Demon Realm, so old in fact, Heavenly Demons still rule over the Realm. It really is quite a shame that SY wasnât in his right mind at the time, and instead of being able to observe how ancient Heavenly Demons governed demonic society, he instead accidentally set on a path of destruction, with the casualties being anything that had the bad luck of standing in his way. In fact, the destruction got so bad a few of the Heavenly Demons rulers, who notoriously hated each other, settles on a temporary peace agreement and joined forces to stop the mad Titan.
SY, in his frenzied state, didnât even notice as hundreds of years went by as the Heavenly Demons tried to stop him, and also barely noticed when they finally managed to chain him down and cast him away to be forever banished to the Endless Abyss. His body, once so tall it grazed the clouds, was torn apart, with each of its different parts sealed away in various locations as an attempt to diminish the Titanâs power. It worked, actually, and unbeknownst to the demons, SY slowly began to get his thoughts in order; the event that finally pushed him to coherency was when a few of those Heavenly Demon rulers got greedy, and while sealing away SYâs body parts, attempted to harness his power for themselves, and tried to create legendary weapons out of his flesh and bone.
Most of them failed, a Titanâs power to overwhelming for even a Heavenly Demon to handle, but one of them succeeded, and created a powerful sword made from the Titanâs own heart: Xin Mo. Unfortunately for the creator of Xin Mo, it didnât take long for them to fall into madness and eventually succumb to Xin Moâs power, casting themselves away to hold onto the sword forever in the same valley SYâs hands were sealed; but it is as they say, one manâs trash is another manâs treasure, and while Xin MOâs creator perished, they managed to take enough power away from SY for him to finally be able to think.
It had been a thousand years at this point, and SYâs first coherent thought was that he desperately needed a break, and that in all these years, he hadnât managed to get a single glimpse into the world of PIDW, and what a waste! Specially since he was now in the most interesting area Airplane had managed to create, he was itching to explore the world. Of course, in his current state he wasnât exactly able to move (having his limbs cut off certainly didnât help, but apparently it had been so long since he was imprisoned that his Main Body had started to fuse with the Abyss? Really, more of a slight inconvenience than anything), but he also had become tired of his Titan body with itâs Titan feelings, and so he decided to split his consciousness and create a small army of human sized avatars who were later dubbed his âWatchersâ, whoâs sole purpose was to explore the Endless Abyss and send their findings back to the Main Body (in bite sized, easy to understand thoughts).

It is the first years of his Watchers wandering about that SY finally understood what had happened to his body, and figured out that Xin Mo was a product of his flesh. He figured that since demons tried to use his body for malicious purposes before, with one even succeeding, he decided that one Xin Mo was enough, and came up with a plan: He was going to piece his Titan body back together as a means to prevent anything of the sort happening again, but he was immediately going to seal the Titan body away again, as to not have to deal with itâs overwhelming power.
As the Watchers were sent to locate his body parts again, one of their first findings were the hands, which also meant the resting place of Xin Mo itself. How lucky, he thought! He could just take the hands away and maybe leave one of the Watchers guarding Xin Mo so when Luo Binghe eventually comes to retrieve his sword, SY at least can catch a glimpse of his favorite protagonist! He wasted no time, and while his avatars tried to unseal his hands, one of them went to move Xin Mo, just so it was out of the way, and in doing so the sword retaliated and ended up disintegrating the poor Watcher. What a rude sword, going against its own body.
Fine! If Xin Mo was going to be difficult so be it, and SY formed a new plan: before reuniting his Titan body back together, SY send his Watchers to keep an eye on as much of the Endless Abyss as possible and the moment Luo Binghe fell in, he would turn to hugging the protagonistâs thigh and help him survive the harsh environment as long as Binghe took Xin Mo. Well, it should be no problem, right? Binghe was fated to get the sword one way or another, and SY is sure his involvement will be small insignificant enough that it wonât be much more of a side quest for the future Demon Emperor!
Now, if he were a half human, half Heavenly Demon teenager who just got pushed into hell by his teacher, where would he landâŠ.

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So, as you can see, this is mostly more like SYâs origin story lol, but Iâll probably write Bingheâs first meetings with the Watchers sometime soon (hopefully).In the meantime though, enjoy some more of the bonus sketches I did while figuring out the AU, and of course, if anyone has any questions or thoughts about this, feel free to send them to me!


#now this is what I call a drabble#just me yapping away#why create multiple small AUâs when you can fuse them all together into one#svsss#shen yuan#luo binghe#bingqiu#bingyuan#binggeyuan???? maybe?????#binghe is like a half blackened lotus when this takes place#slightly charred lotus even#kommâs endless abyss travel guide#this couldnt be more self indulgent even if I tried#long post
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star abducted :3
#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#loop#siffrin#myart#fanart#pls clck on the frst picture tumblr destroyed my line quality ;v;#tfw you almost meet your parents and you are nowhere near emotionally prepared for that-- let alone being emotionally prepared-#- to meet your younger self who immediately adopts you as their best star friend#:3#helpful imaginary friend loop#littol siffrin pulls up an extra chair at the dinner table and everyone goes along with it#but Loop is actually sitting there#and watching their family eat and banter in ways that are both so painfully familiar yet alien#everyone is asking littol Siffrin about their star friend (yknow like indulging what they think is a kid making up an imaginary friend)#and littol Siffrin is 'they're just being shy right now!'#'but i'll ask them later!'#i don t think i'll be drawing more of this to make an official au out of it bc i just wanted an excuse to draw littol siffrin#but i would not mind if people built on top of it :3c
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I have a LOTT of sketches I could post rn but these 2 are recent and I'm fond of them <3 Steph costume ideas and Tim/Damian cringe bickering inspired by Batman: Brave and the Bold #18!
#dc comics#dc#damian wayne#stephanie brown#tim drake#been drawing more self indulgent doodles lately which is nice#these r sort of a part of that lol#i drew the tim and damian one back when that stort actually came out it's. definitely interesting#if only for portraying Tim and Damian as equally flawed individuals (contrasted to the zdarsky batman for example)#AND unintentionally highlighted how low-key embarrassing it is that Tim is still robin. it's got a part two coming out sometime this month#and the Steph doodle was inspired by me rereading her batgirl run since the trade came out! and remembering how hard Lee Garbetts art slayed#but yeah while i figure out what to post and how- have this#the tim and damian one got like 3 likes on the bird app meanwhile the Steph one is at 1.3k w 93 bookmarks#say what you will about the bird app but when you get the right ppls attention that place does NOT have to be batboy centric#(or soley batboy centric. i like them a lot (damian mainly) but the variety is nice compared to here)
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transhet t4t AU sorry im just playing w my touys in my dollhouse pls donât get mad at me look away if you dont like
#cringe cope comfort#my art#labru#i feel bad bc a lot of ppl wanted me to draw t4t labru but this is prob not what they had in mind.#also take this more as an AU than smth fully part of my main universe bc its just so extremely self indulgent and canon divergent
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I have noticed a pattern & Iâm guilty of all of these
#no serious art yet only scribbles#I love this godforsaken sketchbook#making self indulgent shit instead of working on actual things â€ïž yay#more gay malevolent fanart coming soon I fear#my art#malevolent#malevolent podcast#john doe malevolent#LOVE seeing john fanart going aww silly guy đ and then right under it the most horrific creature#its a little game in my head by now to look for which entity is on what end of the scale#lovecraftian memory cards u might say
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he's so mean
#my art#twisted wonderland#twst#oc#twst oc#twst yuu#jamil viper#shiokawa mayu#jamimayu#jamil viper x yuu#yeah this was inspired by that miku trend#i think everyone should draw their yuus/ocs in vocaloid cosplay#jamil voice: what is a hatsune miku#does miku exist in twisted wonderland though#or maybe she goes by a different name like uh#hatsune magiku....#extremely self indulgent joke but mayus (secret) theme colour is mint/teal so i had to#girls when you take their leek#he took everything </3
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Was practicing poses but it turned into a desperate beg for certain demon cat to not kill him
#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jjk ino#ino takuma#Udi's art#please Gege let Ino live PLEASE-#I can't lose another pookie đ#This is a bit self-indulgent I just wanted to see him blushing#I'm very normal about him......#Also first art post on this blog yippee!!#I draw fanart instead of my oc once in a blue moon so what better start than this :]
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ehhdsseddrdvvhgvhfrddeddfdsefhujgftdtthgughhfygyv yeah.
#this is so self indulgent like what is thisswsswehwjhj2h2ejjwejejieeibwkdnekd#punching the air when i was drawing this#waugghhhghhhgggywhehwhehwhehdjwjdjwjwheje#jesus fuck i need like actual help#froodles#stardew valley
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a little late to the party but!! here's worldwide miku but mixed chinese/mexican :D
#outfit is based off what i wore to my schools ifest last year đ#cheongsam shirt and jalisco folklorico dress with sneakers :]#i love this trend sm actually it gives me a reason to be self indulgent#hatsune miku#miku worldwide#mexico#china#veves ultra cool art#also happy birthday miku đ©”đ©”đ©”
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