#what i needed to read right now

[missmoonfrost]

Not tonight - a wolfstar short fic

Remus couldn’t sleep. He rolled over and curled up with his knees to his chest and the quilt over his head in a vain attempt to shut the world out. It soon turned uncomfortable and hard to breath.

It was only a few days since full moon, but it hadn’t been worse then usual. Nothing especially bad had happened. He could think of no real reason to feel this grumpy and anxious. He knew he shouldn’t bother Sirius. That he was being a needy brat didn’t mean Sirius shouldn’t get to sleep. But he felt so lonely…

Sirius lifted the quilt and wordlessly welcomed him. Remus carefully slid into place, trying not to disturb him too much. Sirius fingers started to trace patterns over Remus back, over his arms, down his chest. He pulled up close and whispered in his ear: "You are so sexy.”

Remus didn't feel sexy at all. This was one of the days he just felt worthless. He had hoped he would feel less awful, less lonely and misplaced, if he crept over to Sirius. But Sirius touch just brought it all to the surface.

"Not tonight. I'm too tired."

"Okay. We'll just sleep tonight." Sirius hands continued to paint circles over his chest. Sirius nose snuffled in his neck and ruffled his hair.

Remus chest tightened. Obviously, he was giving him the wrong impression. What had he expected, coming to Sirius bed at night? He got up.

"No, no, no. Wait!" Sirius grabbed his wrist. ”Where are you going?"

"I told you. I don't want to."

"Remus, that I find you sexy doesn't mean we need to have sex. Don't you want to sleep here?" Sirius let go of him.

"You're not disappointed?"

"No! Why would I be?"

"It's just... You always want to, and I... I say no all the time. It doesn't seem fair."

"Thats nonsense! Well, I mean... I would like to have sex you. But that means nothing if you’re not up for it. I'm so sorry if I've framed it any other way."

This was a useless argument. Sirius didn't get it. And Remus couldn't explain exactly what was wrong either.

He sighed and lay down beside Sirius again. "You sure?"

"Well, I can’t promise I won’t get a hard one with you next to me" he said in an attempt at joke that Remus didn't muster a smile for. "If that makes you uncomfortable, of course we can sleep separately. But if not, I would love if you stayed here and cuddled."

Remus wound his arms around Sirius and buried his face against his chest. "I love you."

Sirius pulled him close and delicately stroked his hair. "And I love you. So very very much."

Sometimes it felt like this. Like he would never deserve what he had. Like everything he did or said were somehow wrong. Like the world would be a better place without him.

He knew, logically, that it was temporary. He knew that he didn’t feel like this yesterday, or the day before that. But right now, it seemed this was the only true interpretation of the world, that every day he had thought he’d been happy had somehow been him gravely misjudging things.

He tried to have faith that the feeling, this time as well as every time before, would eventually subside. The arms around him were not enough to chase it away, but they made it easier to endure the waiting.

Sirius fingers gently swept tears from his cheeks.

"Want to talk?"

He shook his head against Sirius chest.

"Okay, baby. Then sleep."

Maybe Sirius didn't understand. Maybe Remus would never be able to properly explain it to him.

But maybe it didn't matter all that much. Because no matter what, even when Remus had nothing to offer, Sirius was always there for him.

[egophiliac]

buckle up lads we're going BACK INTO THE BOOK

[ronanlynchbf]

tshirt that says NO LIVE ORGANISM CAN CONTINUE FOR LONG TO EXIST SANELY UNDER CONDITIONS OF ABSOLUTE REALITY

[noornight]

Long distance besties. This definitely happened after the third movie (source: trust me bro)

Based on this

[keferon]

…..SO. AHAHAHAHAH. I finished reading Mistakes on mistakes until (technically I finished chapter 68 which is the last one currently~)

What a ride OH MY fuckINg god

[its-alittleobsessed]

Exactly ONE person asked me for spn fic recs and it sent me into a mania i cannot explain. So here is my personal top fics that I feel no one talks about enough and that everyone should read right fucking now.

(In no particular order)

WARNING: some kind of have some dark themes but i have reread them more than once. So it’s worth it:

Canon-verse:

1. A second grace by Sometimeswelose

2. To the bone by bluehorses

3. The Lord Tests the Heart by imogenbynight

4. Unrelentingly in view by a_good_soldier

5. A complete kingdom by komodobits

6. Mouth to Manhattan by a_good_soldier

7. A thousand lives by fairy_tale_echo

8. Downstream by pantheon_of_discord

9. Cas’ Ultimate Pop Girls Mix by watchriverdale

10. By your ancient names by microcomets

11. Honorable mention bc I have to: Dean Winchester’s Take Two by alittleobsessed

AUs:

1. Sir this is a wendy’s by noviembre

2. It’s the end of the world (as we know it) by tiamatv

3. For all you young hockey players out there, pay attention by ThursdaysfallenAngel

4. Shut up (put your money where your mouth is) by kototyph

5. Where there is darkness by quittewandering

[800db-cloud]

spare some spy hcs? 👀

OKAY. ok. so i have been putting off answering this ask because i’m admittedly very shy and very afraid of sharing my headcanons. and also because i have A LOT OF THEM.. but here we are!

here are my headcanon spies :) René works for RED and Jacques works for BLU!

where to start, where to start… i have a LOT of headcanons for them, i’ll be talking for FOREVER here. i’ll just start with story because why not! xP

René’s parents were also agents/spies, so he was always destined to be one as well. And he lives up to his parents’ legacies! He’s most notorious for destroying gangs and mobs and the like from the outside in. He was brought to America years ago to take out a dangerous mob boss, but unfortunately found himself infatuated (and involved) with the boss’ daughter. Luckily for him, the boss’ daughter wanted the guy dead, too.

René’s story is honestly a lot more fleshed out than Jacques’, but here goes anyway:

Jacques’ father was a very rich and powerful man in politics. Jacques himself was the result of an affair, and to keep it hush-hush, his father decided to raise him. Raise is a strong word, though— but he did help his father gain intelligence and blackmail on opposing political parties. Jacques proved to be a promising spy since childhood.

If anyone has any suggestions/ideas for Jacques’ story, let me know haha x) he didn’t have the greatest upbringing per se…

last thing on this section i wanna talk about is the Scouts. René is related to both of the Scouts; he’s RED Scout (Jeremy)’s biological father, and he’s BLU Scout (James)’ adoptive/step-father. Jacques has no relation to either scout, but acts as a guardian figure to BLU Scout.

anyway, this is the part where i continue talking about other miscellaneous headcanons! and these come with doodles :)

You couldn’t catch René DEAD without his mask, or his suit! He’d neeever take them off around other people (‘other people’ is mainly just Scout. For obvious reasons.) Meanwhile, Jacques is pretty lenient in letting his teammates see his face! Everyone on BLU’s seen his face at least once.

A big part of why René refuses to strip down is also due to the fact he has a LOT of tattoos. No doodle for this one because I’ve yet to decide on what tattoos to put on him (ideas are very welcome!!), but yeah! Most of the tattoos were ‘forced’ onto him/he had to get for jobs and ‘fitting in’ with bad crowds, but a good few of them were of his own accord, too.

Jacques doesn’t have tattoos, but he has a myriad of another thing: scars! Lots and lots of scars on this guy. Faded and old, sure, but they’re there. Most prominent ones are the one around his neck (from when the RED Medic beheaded him) and the ones on his forearms (those are from the LAST time he was imprisoned— looong story…)

René doesn’t cook very often for his team, but when he does, everyone’s always BLOWN AWAY by this guy’s cooking! René’s really bad at taking compliments, though— (“Cooking food that’s remotely edible isn’t a compliment, it’s basic survival.”) —but rest assured he’ll be thinking about it for the next month. Jacques, however… Do NOT let this guy into the kitchen. Ever. The BLU base has a special fire extinguisher “In Case Spy Decides To Turn On The Stove”

oooh, this one is an hc and a HALF to me. René much prefers working alone. It’s just in his nature, being isolated and whatnot. He likes to deal with things by himself– maybe he doesn’t want to burden others? On the contrary, Jacques NEVER works alone. It’s a trait he’s had even before being hired to BLU. You never know when things could go wrong, so it’s best to have someone else to fall back to… or someone else you can blame!

these hcs both have something to do with how René and Jacques show their trust in other people :) it’s a bit convoluted but it gets there:

René is, amusingly, very bad at remembering names. Almost laughably bad. There have been many-a-story of his days before RED where he’d get a target’s name wrong, even after he’d repeated it in his head dozens of times over. Names are difficult for him, so if he remembers yours, it means you mean a lot to him! He prefers using his teammates’ names rather than their titles. René is unaware of how charming this specifc trait is to his coworkers (they saw how much work and effort it took for him to memorize their names, they’re just happy with how far he’s come!)

Jacques has a… to put simply, very complicated relationship with food. But the one thing he’ll never turn down is sweets. His favorites especially being chocolate bonbons. Jacques has a hard time eating in front of others, let alone sharing his food! But if he genuinely likes and trusts you enough, he’d have half the mind to share with you. Admittedly, he hasn’t brought himself to share with most of the members of his team yet, except for a select few. Mostly BLU Medic and BLU Sniper.

—

and of course, eventually, EVENTUALLY, these two also become friends! it took a little bit but believe me, they both respect each other’s skill in their job :)

AHHg i could go sooo much longer about them— from things like their physical traits (how much teeth they have? it’s a pressing question) or different periods of their life (why did rené have to leave his family? why was jacques imprisoned for the last time?) BUT this post is so… so, so long. My fingers hurt from typing

If you’ve managed to read through this Beast, THANK YOU RAAHH!!! thanks so much for asking this, too. i hope to spare more hcs someday. hehe ^_^

[babacontainsmultitudes]

RIP Will Campos the only person who was murdered this episode.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

This one is for all my fellow "My gender is 'I have a job and I can't worry about that right now"'. I see you.

(part 1, part 2)

[avocado62524]

[dekusleftsock]

I think that there’s a fundamental misunderstanding of what exactly is…happening with Izuku’s character. Specifically in regards to chapter 425.

I’m glad that a lot more people generally recognize that Izuku is not a character that can be read at a surface level, given that he’s both a repressed person with built up emotion of basically everything and also a very glaringly HUGELY unreliable narrator, but that doesn’t necessarily mean I agree with the ways I’ve seen this most recent chapter spoken about.

I see posts, comments, etc with ideas like “Izuku don’t suppress your emotions! Open up with people! It’ll be okay I promise!” When that’s fundamentally not what is happening here.

There’s always always ALWAYS been a distinct difference in character throughout horikoshi’s writing when he is showing that a character is:

A—Avoiding emotions, thoughts, ideas less than ideal for them. Not opening up when they probably should about their problems given that they’ve been handed the space to do so. Just genuinely not acknowledging, feeling, or expressing emotions that they don’t want.

B—Reflecting on the ways they feel about the world, themselves, or other people given their new perspective on a situation. Not outright reaching out to others to talk about these problems/feelings, but instead waiting until the moment they feel they have the most confidence to do so with their new outlook on their own life.

And genuinely, guys, to grab your BkDk attention rn, this is the exact reason why Ochako’s reflection on her feelings for Izuku and thereafter decision to pull away from them WAS NEVER GOING TO END IN OCHAKO EXPLODING WITH HER LOVE FOR HIM.

This was another common interpretation I saw of Ochako and Izuocha for a long time. That because she pushed these feelings away, they were somehow going to explode in this unbelievable way and she would “get the boy” because of it. That her arc would surround accepting her romantic feelings and that she can’t just push away how she feels for a career.

But yk. That didn’t happen. At all. Nowhere close even.

The same kind of goes for Katsuki, allmight, etc. They all had moments in their arc where it was spent genuinely reflecting, and the only reason we as the audience never connected it in the same ways we do ochako or Izuku was ALWAYS BECAUSE the narrative showed their inner thoughts while doing so (mostly because Allmight’s arc after losing OFA and Katsuki’s arc on what it means to be a hero were so intrinsically tied, both starting at the same time and ending at the same time during the final war. And because they were so tied this caused their own reflections, development, and thought process to be broadcasted to us frequently throughout their arcs… to each other. They also somewhat shared aspects with Izuku, but these were cherry picked more often than not, like dvk2 for example).

To us Katsuki never seemed to be.. idk, suppressing his anger in any way because we were always told what he was doing and why (side note: this is why I’ve always thought arguments against Katsuki were so weird, bc unlike characters like endeavor or Ochako he wasn’t like… hiding who he was and how he was changing. Ever. Like the audience knows at all times past basically season 3 what Katsuki is thinking and doing. Like how do you watch this happen, stare me dead in the eye, and tell me how much of a terrible and awful teenage boy he is. Like damn I didn’t think we were this dumb. This is also my theory as to why he’s most popular, his arc is very… in your face if that makes sense). Katsuki’s entire mini arc on reflecting his mistakes and his childhood and his future is spent TELLING YOU that it’s what he’s doing. (I’m referring mostly to the endeavor internship arc, the provisional license exam makeup, and basically everything in the war arc related to him leading up to bakugou Katsuki rising here)

And see, Horikoshi will stare you dead in the eye, tell you “this girl has taken into consideration that she doesn’t want to waste her time training her career focusing on a boy because he kinda caught her fancy”, and y’all will still say that this will explode in her face.

Y’all this is a series about learning how to manage emotions, maturity in relationship to one’s emotions, how to feel an emotion, but in a way that is helpful. Horikoshi isn’t telling you “go buck wild, feel everything all the time and always express it”, in fact he explores why you DONT do that! Through Toga or Shigaraki, they show how grief and anger can genuinely consume you. But he also shows why you shouldn’t just put everything in a box to never look at or acknowledge, or why you shouldn’t just let your grief destroy the world around you, or pretending that some emotions simply don’t exist.

I can’t say this enough, so let me say it now, mha is about the extremes of your psyche. That you should control something, but not too much. Everything can be harmful. Everything can be good.

Izuku is not controlling too much, he’s expressing just enough.

I LOVE shaming this dickhead at all times in all my posts. I love saying he’s an ignorant dipshit with a weird amount of distaste for a girl who just confessed to him. I’ve joked that chapter 348 is basically an entire chapter spent on Izuku calling Himiko a mean dyke. And yet I also believe he’s doing nothing WRONG here.

In fact, I’ll even say that this moment right here?

ISNT EVEN IZUKU DOING THE SOCIALLY APPROPRIATE THING ABOUT IT! But he’s still TRYING to reach out to someone he thinks MIGHT be able to understand. (And frankly, this moment is far deeper than what it’s being made out to be, to me it reads more like an unrequited friendship that Izuku both desires and has thought of them to have, while simultaneously showing the distance Ochako has successfully wedged between them for her own sake. Maybe it was always there though, maybe in weird, miscommunicated Horikoshi fashion, this is a representation of how Ochako always read all those “fun friend hangouts” as a little more than that, and without those feelings the friendship never really held any substance to her in the first place. Where Izuku saw his first real friend at UA, she saw little more than acquaintance)

Simultaneously, Izuku is genuinely reflecting on what it means for the world to change, to be a hero, to live after loss—and trying and failing to gain the connection he desires from individuals who can not and will not afford him that.

Izuku is ready for the world to change, a few select characters are also ready for the world to change (mirio, for example), but not nearly enough are. So maybe I’ll have to take this back if I’m proven wrong and I accidentally looked into this far past what everyone else did for no reason, but I genuinely believe with moments like this

And this

Aand this

That Izuku has come forward with that aspect of his character development. He’s reflecting on his new beliefs, not repressing his emotions for them.

[ayzaart]

graffiti (pow-pow and jinx)

[milkbreadtoast]

Oh my god.......

[inconveniently-discorporated]

So far I've read up to Pyramids (going in publishing order) and the thing I love about every opening so far is that they immediately tell me what I am investing my time in and why I should.

But like, it's not just handed to you. It's like Pratchett takes out the most interesting puzzle pieces, hands them to you, and says, "Now wouldn't you like to see the full picture?"

I took a break for a little bit to read some other books and I realized that A LOT of books just... feel so aimless for the first 1/4 at least. I continue because I figure I might as well, I've gotten that far, but it's difficult when I'm this far in and I don't even know what the book is really about yet or why I should care.

Anyway, I'm onto Guards! Guards! and I am yet again in love with the opening.

A little whimsy about dragons, and then suddenly: "And presumably, somewhere, there’s the key."

The what?

You just expect me to know what that is?

It's not "a key", it's not any old thing -- it isn't even described, it's just "the key". The knowledge is presumed, because of course one knows what THE KEY is.

Oh, but I don't, how embarrassing. I'm missing out. This is clearly some kind of exciting adventure. Only exciting adventures are befitting of the key. I need to remedy this situation, and get to reading immediately!

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

[luck-of-the-drawings]

[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]

saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.