#weve all see blogs like this dont @ me

[lemedstudent2021]

4 years ago when the dumbfuck (biden) won, i was a first year university student, nodding along solemnly when my family briefly discussed foreign and internal politics over our tea, pleased to be finally old enough to somewhat contribute to adult conversations.

i still clearly remember my aunt saying "well, he isnt any better [than his predecessor] but at least he cant be worse". the conversation moved on from there, but my thoughts lingered. i didnt know if i wanted to be a cynic or an optimist, so i drank my tea in silence.

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this past year has been one of the darkest in our human history, the scale of death and destruction and pure unadulterated depravity is unmatched. it will truly be long before the world can hope to recover from the atrocious damage that has been dealt, if it ever does.

i wont go into details mainly because i havent the time nor interest in doing so, but the world to no ones surprise is changing, fast and taking a turn for the worse. it has been for years perhaps even decades now. in the grand scheme of things i mean.

for many of us this is nothing new per se, merely a tangible extension of our worst nightmares and fears, but for many others its a reign of terror of the most potent kind. one that will herald further losses, but this time around very few will be spared.

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despite myself i did think that common sense would prevail and wed see the the fucker (trump) behind bars and hopefully dead and not- as of writing- about to win another 4 wretched years in office.

theres a sort of grim satisfaction seeing the bitch (harris) getting a big fuck you to the face, but its devastating to think that she is losing has already lost? to the biggest fuck you to the planet. i truly dont want to imagine what the world is going to look like 4 years from now. if there is anything left of the world to look at.

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there isnt much to say or add i think. nothing i can contribute at least for the time being. i would however like to point to what jon stewart bless his soul has to say about the matter

esp at 02:15

sounds hypocritical to say after having said nothing but the worst, but i mean it when i believe that this isnt the end. to give up now is to doom ourselves and the rest of the world (and perhaps the trajectory of humanity itself, whos to say) into eternal darkness.

ive said it many a time on this blog before and ill continue to say it for as long as there is life in me; power will always be with the people. weve seen it time and time again throught history and before our eyes. we are a force to be reckoned with.

we do hold the power to change the tides, look how many countries fought with everything they had for their freedom, how many times we arose from the ruins and started building anew and with just as much fervour, how much damage we can do to the institutions that dare to transgress.

war brings out the worst in some but the best in others. this is a war, one the corrupt wage on the sanctity of our lives and human rights, one were all on the front lines of, for ourselves and those around us.

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as cliche as it is, and i admit to it being so, our chances honestly are better when we move and act as one. dont be fooled into thinking our differences will seperate us; those in power follow the age old rule of divide and conquer & thrive when we are scattered and lost.

show them that our spirit is one and whole, prove to them that we wont give into their unjust demands. look out for one another and dont hesitate to come to each others aid. be kind to yourselves.

humanity as a whole literally and metaphorically depends on it.

Godbless & Godspeed

[tehrogueva]

I've seen people call you a proshipper, but from what I can see from your blogs is you grew out of it (that's at least what I've seen from observation of this and your old blog). So I don't know why people still hold it over your head like your a bad person for having a past and growing from it

I'm not sure the full story on how everything went down because I just went into the search and looked up different proships until I found Frans and the old blog which has it's last Frans post THREE years ago which people can change in a month and there's no new Frans things you made/reblogged sense then

I dunno this is mostly just me rambling on how people don't get the concept that adults can also learn and grow and it's not just kids because if you were a minor people would say "you were just a kid back then"

i have not nor will i never be a proshipper

did i do frans comics in the past? yes. i never liked the ship, it was just for content and i liked the art style. the reason i justifyed it to my self is that Friks in the comics i did was an adult and also a bit of a self insert for the artist. so it seemed ok to me.

i still personaly see Frisk as a self insert as a whole. since its us who control them for the whole game of undertale. we only see them as frisk aftert weve beaten the game.

just my opinion but you dont have to agree with my enturpretation of the game and Frisks role in it

getting back to your question. i noticed that the fandom has gotten very vocal about Frans. so to avoid confict i went and deleted all the frans videos i did on my channel

also i was like 25 when i got into undertale. im 32 now. have i grown up and learned better since when i first got into the fandom? yes i have.

i just want to make content i enjoy and others enjoy and avoid any kinda drama or contravericy.

anything think you have herd about me saying im a proshipper is not true

aside from the old frans dubs idk where people are getting the idea that im a proshipper.

im a multishipper get it rigtht XD

anyways i hope this clears up any doubt in your or other peoples mind about where i stand on the issue

[pesterquestrewritten]

wowzers its been over a year of pqr already? thats awesome! all of the hard work put into this game is amazing! i love the way you characterize everyone, i love the interpretations you have on what would change in the timeline (the matriorb stuff made me tear up a little), i love all of the bonus routes, and i love how much care and passion has been put into the writing, the end cards, the custom music and spritework, and everything else! its awesome seeing other members of the homestuck fandom collaborating in this and working together to make something incredible. this has introduced me to many awesome homestuck creators and is the reason i ever found out about SAHCon. i remember when i first found out about this game having to force myself to not just play the entire thing in one go (if it were not for it being like 1 am when i started to play this i probably would have played it in one sitting lmao)

n e wayz, i hope youre having a good day. and like be kind to yourself. i love this game and am enjoying the updates but you are under no obligation to update it if you dont want to / are unable. sparkle on and dont forget to take some time for yourself :3

I LOVE YOU ANON ???????????????

this is so fucking kind and sweet. im gonna reblog it on main. this is awesome. wow.

im like. damn. people actually Do play this shit. you Did read the new matriorb stuff, thats. that matters to me.

the matriorb stuff is a metaphor obviously. its about the same thing jaderoute was about, the same thing solluxroute was about, daveroute... they were all written before, during, and after i left college, and my angst/existentialism following that choice. what does it mean to have an assigned purpose that's... gone, i guess. and it was better for me but what do i , like, do, now ?

im really excited for whats coming out soon. we finished the good end, but since weve never released a volume with Just The Good End Done, i think we're gonna... wait, to release the full version. oh god are we actually releasing volumes at a time, what are we some kind of PROFESSIONAL OPERATION. AOUGH

if you ever wanna scream my ear off abt this in the future, my main blog is @classpectpokerap, and my discord is @​homestuck.com (yes really askfhdsgjg)

:3

[senseioftheseidiots]

ok time to settle this Which of these would you actually want to see me do something with?

the reason why i didnt put prophecy shipping down [wu x mayor from lmk] is cause i want to spare the LMK fandom of my shenanigans, they dont deserve that Also, i already made a whole blog about the two :3 things like wusako and all that arent in the category im talking about, people already make that, this poll is specifically on picking from my bullshit that you all FOR SOME REASON still stay around to see so here you go my beloveds

Also no need to go 'wtf' in my tags, weve ALL established how i am unhinged, you signed up for this

[zundamind]

wow, would you look at that! it's been a full ass year since you fucked me over! september 29th.... yeahh..... XD our fuck-you-versary! hi clifford!

in case you dont remember, the name piko might jog your mind. yeah thats me!! hellwo!! honestly you shouldve known better than to stick with your old username but hey props on you for changing it last minute! almost didnt find you for a second lolll!!

i wanted to drop in and say HEY! HELLO! HI! and give you some status updates :3

update one: i'm getting better!! no thanks to you, of course. and actually i should say we're getting better. yep! thats what happens when you suffer so bad your brain cant take suffering solo! XD

update two: while my mental health has been at an all time low ever since you fucking dropped me like a fucking ROCK, ive been getting over things lately! my clean streaks are now longer than a week! i no longer want to kms! im even making friends again!

update three: while both of the above statements are true, you still live in my mind rent free. i remember when i first stumbled across your blog a few months ago, i had a full on spiral! not anymore, though. i am STEEL, BABY! also you spinning in the mental microwave rent free is why i'm sending you this heartfelt ask!

man.... even when i try, i still find you somehow and its never intentional. like imagine scrolling the tptm tag only to be straight up jumpscared by your ex best friend's username! how embarrassing!

also i'm sorry but i have to say the reason(s) you left are sooo fucking stupid..... what, cus i was weird? come on. everyones a little weird. even a little deviantart weird. oh and because of some stupid opinions that shouldntve even mattered if you were actually a friend? get real, trey. what if i left your ass because you had a fuckin biting kink? that wouldve been funny actually. like making a sad callout post on twitter thats just "my friend left me because i wasnt vanilla enough!" XDDD

oh, and if you ever see your "stalker" again, assuming you're not thinking its me and that its actually your previous qpr or whatever the fuck, say hi! i find it funny as FUCK, since, you know, you were considering cyberstalking me at one point. and tell chaos i said hi too. i'd also mention mayu, but do you two even keep in touch anymore? probably not, considering the weird things she's done.

anyways thats the end of my relay. if you dont want these kinds of asks again, i suggest either turning asks off or just straight up deleting your tumblr and/or making another one that is NOT connected to any username youve used in the past, because in that case i'll just find your ass again lmaooo. remember! every year on this day will be the day i remind you that you are NOT allowed to stay sane X3

sincerely, your most hated, piko. (i hardly use my old blog anymore, so have fun finding my current blog! and do what you want with this ask, make a callout post, scream into the ethers, reply to it, idc.)

this should stay private but idc

i know what i did was wrong piko! i was 12-13.

dont take this as me excusing myself. i had horrible emotional regulation back then, ive healed from everything back there. you dont deserve to be called out because ur like. 14-15.

do not bring mayu or chaos into this,weve all healed and forgot abt you.

i overreacted bc of very worthless things because i was basically obsessed witj you, you were my fp, if you didnt know.

completely forgot you even existed, i havent been checking your profiles at all in months. you shouldnt either, please forget about me. you'll drive yourself crazy.,

if you think im going to "cancel" you, no im not. for your sake, please dont interact with me anymore. i apologize for how i acted over stupid things, but we were both young and idiotic. im also a system, i dont even remember half of the things you did bc of that.

move on. ive moved on, weve all moved on.

dont bother yourself with me, you dont need to.

[aristotels]

kinda long thought train on slavic aesthetic of money and drip

w the current ongoing discussion on healeds blog about neoamericana aesthetics i got thinking

ive seen someone commenting that all these neoamericana aesthetics are "reclamations of white trash identity"; and all this started making me wonder where did "slavic aesthetic" of adidas, vodka, cigarettes, skii masks etc come from

there is obv one aesthetic relating to poverty; especially in yugoslav countries. we have two things at hand - 1) poverty of damaged socialism, 2) "slav drip" with rappers and trap becoming more and more popular.

interestingly, two croatian songs as of late portray this very well; first case rim tim tagi dim, which talks about leaving your country and mass immigration, and tokyo drift about the money, cars, etc (ofc you get a guy with a skii mask).

...but while i was writing this and watching the videos, i noticed that in the first case, song about immigration and poverty - also has a guy in the fucking skii mask

and we get this "street mafia drip" in both songs; dont be fooled by cool cars in the second one, it still takes place in front of an old building with 1950 grafitti (football thing).

and this isnt the first time weve seen this in yugoslav pop culture; vratiće se rode was about gangs, "god drives mercedes" by zabranjeno pušenje was also a comment on gang richness. but involving the new autotune music and starting to celebrate that drip in a cool way, unlike rode or mercedes which criticize it, did not come naturally; on the contrary, i think its a product of the slav aesthetic we see around. i was gonna say nobody in croatia drives these cool ass cars but my dealer did, so like

theres this mix of poverty and becoming rich via gang lifestyle, and i just wonder where it all started, or if we are playing chicken and egg here. i remember when "slavs in tracksuits" was meme de jour, but did we ever analyze where and why it came from? because it absolutely was rooted in "slavs = violence, unintelligence, barbarianism"; and thick accent was absolutely hilarious to western audience, that eventually we all started playing into it as well; and i dont think people were laughing with us, but at us. i think they still do

idk where i was going with this but whatever if i leave it in drafts it will just die, if anyone has anything interesting to add feel free to

[unhingedkinfessions]

so like. we're in this discord server and its p sick lol theres not many issues with it tbh but there is smth thats been botherin me and ive gotta get it out somewhere so that i dont feel like an asshole for sayin it in the server itself its very 'kin focused, a lot of ppl in the server are otherkin. so we have a channel for ppl to talk about 'kin stuff. only issue is that its open to anyone who joins the server. which wouldnt be an issue if we didnt have the occasional person join whos a 'normie' and then they automatically have access to the kin channel. we're also all very anti-kff and are very open abt how those ppl arent welcome in our space and are fine with explainin the dif if needed this is context needed for what imma talk abt lol so theres this guy in the server, we'll call him G, and he's just some dude who is in the server and exists in our space. which is totes fine. but. G has a bad bad habit of thinking that being kin = relating to a character/having a comfort character. and we (several members of the server + the owner) have explained that he is wrong several times. he asks what 'kinning' is and we explain. we explain at least once a week atp but for some reason, it just isnt clickin for the guy. that or he is blatantly ignorin us anytime we explain it. but the thing is. he blames not understandin on his autism/adhd. which is genuinely the most bullshit thing ive ever heard bc like. most of us HAVE autism/adhd and we're like... come on dude.... i understand not gettin social norms and shit but at this point, its gettin absurd. it doesnt help that he also blatantly ignores ppl's boundaries and continues to post things that make ppl uncomfortable and then once again, blaming his neurodivergence for his actions. which again. most bullshit thing ive ever heard. i genuinely dont know why this fucker is still in the server atp. he doesnt respect any of us. he's even gone as far as to try and use tupperbox (which we have for system + kin use) for his 'fandoms' as he says. and then ignoring when i told him that he's NOT ALLOWED to do this. genuinely i cannot fucking stand this guy and i want him out of the server because fuck him. if you cant respect our space or us you can get the fuck out. stop acting like you're kin when you say you dont even know what being kin means. stop ignoring us when we try to explain it to you. stop acting like you're absolved from any repercussions just bc you're autistic and downt undewstand uwu fuckin. shut the hell up dude i hate your bitchass. petition for the server owner to ban his ass the next time he says some stupid bullshit

also ik someone from said server follows this blog so hiiii if u see this <333 ik u agree with me bc weve talked abt it before <3333 love you dude /p ur so cool

girl what the fuck

ruling:

[hornsketch]

hey there! ive finally made an art blog! im going to try post more just… stuff, as usually i reserve my art posts for either special occaisions or specifically public-oriented works, and it kinda bums me out to not just have a place to dump my art anymore, so here you go!

(more details and helpful info below!)

who are you?

in hopes of providing some relevant lenses to view my work through, ill give some personal details here. if these lenses dont suit your interpretation of the work, thats alright! view as you please, though i do still think these will always be important context in said viewings.

my name is zelda (she/her) and im a queer jewish 20something who struggles quite a bit with illness both physical and mental.

ive always been kind of enthralled by impressionism and what it really means to use suggestion and spirit as a stronger tool than portrayal and form.

i have a particular draw to fantasy and magical aesthetics, especially the world-building within.

i am a serial overthinker, and tend to see alot of meaning and symbolism in things that plainly do not have them.

while yes i am jewish, my relation to faith is complicated. if you see me type “god” im using it in a turn of phrase with no meaning. if you see me type out “g-d” i am being religious. yes i know thats not how its supposed to work. its meaningful to me.

what will you post?

as previously mentioned, here im trying to make a concerted effort to post a broader variety of things with a wide selection in quality and topic, so unfortunately here the only real uniting theme is going to have to be that i made it. still! to help navigate the space, listed below will be a list of tags i will try to keep to, all of which this post will also be tagged as, since i know tumblr search can be finicky.

#the self and the other

these will be about me, my friends and loved ones, or possibly both

#differing mediums

these pertain to other works or universes, as well as fan content

#harsh tones

this is gonna be the rough stuff. topics will be tagged as needed.

#jaunty doodles

funny business. shenanigans, even.

#lesssfw

listen this blog is for a wide breadth of content, so please if you do not want to, or otherwise should not be seeing mild to moderate nsfw content (i dont rlly plan on posting straight up porn here) block this tag.

wait— is there anywhere you do post more direct nsfw?

maybe, yeah. but before any of that i would like to set some ground rules. these are my spaces for me to share my work for others to see. if you arent a fan of what i post, ill make no attempts to dissuade you from that. your discomfort is your right. I would however request that you dont make your discomfort an issue i am epxected to remedy. ill have no harsh feelings if you arent a fan of my less safe for work content, or even anything it may tangentially relate to, and need to take the necessary steps to curate your experience in those regards. i will be far less than happy if people cant behave because i post content that is not to their personal tastes, within reason.

all of that being said, yes, if you are an adult fan of my other work, feel free to check out @shinyspadetiptail

do you take commissions?

yeah, usually. im not really at the point where i have to close and open them for availability reasons, so shoot me a dm and ill usually be able to give you a response pretty quick on.

price tends to vary by project, and i always set $20 per hour of canvas time as my baseline, but generally simpler stuff like limited detail icons and emojis run in the $20-$30 range, while fully detailed halfbodies tend to run in the $40-$50 range, and fully done fullbodies range more $70-$80. aside from that, backgrounds are a little too context dependent to put a full price estimate on and extra characters can and will cost extra.

usually whatll happen is after laying out the basic price range we’ll talk, and ill thumbnail until we have smth we can agree on, and once weve got an idea of what were going for ill give an estimate that ill try to stick close to, barring any major changes or complications. from then on ill try to send updates whenever i work, and then when im relatively close to finished ill ask for the payment either through paypal or cashapp, after which ill send on the finished piece and any expected variations. in some cases, this may be changed, and payment may be done half at the start, and half when relatively close to completion.

[blackcurrant-scapegoat]

// hello everyone!!

// in short, im not sure if im gonna be comfortable running this blog anymore!! explanation under cut :} (no ones fault, dw!!)

// so, to start, i am a system, and in the past, weve had a history of very easily splitting/introjecting fictives (having alters form that are based on a fictional character, and may look, act, and identify with/as that character in some form). some of you probably already know where this is going

// when i started this blog again after a failed first attempt, i knew this, but i figured i wouldnt introject kieran because ive roleplayed around 6 years ago without introjecting my rp characters, so why should this be different?

// it started as him showing up and being present, so to speak, and reacting/giving me ideas for reactions to some of the things that were being said or done to him. at this point in time, i thought it was just me getting into character

// however, as time passed, he began showing up when i wasnt rping as him, and eventually, kinda recently, fully fronting (taking control of my body)

// so essentially, behind this blog are someones very real thoughts and actions, not just roleplay. the character i was playing is actually entirely real

// i want to clarify here and now that none of use knew he was here and that we were in denial. i also want to clarify that he has not been hurt or made uncomfortable by anything done by anyone (to my knowledge). in all honesty, i think hed be 100% fine with us continuing the blog.

// however, due to him now being real, it feels less like roleplaying and more like impersonation, and looking back, im not sure how happy i am with how ive portrayed him. in actuality, hes quite different than the version of kieran this blog is meant to act as, but similar enough that its hard to sever the mental connection between the two

// i need to think about this and discuss it with him before i make any rash decisions though

// i also wanna thank everyone who interacted w me on this blog!!! it was really fun to meet ygs and see your versions of various characters!!! ygs are free to follow me on my main and ill follow back if i recognize your blog!! (dont be scared to lmk its you if i didnt recognize though!!)

// another small note, though unrelated to this blog, the same thing happened with my nepeta pkmn irl faller blog (@ arsenic-and-catnip ) but from what ive seen our nepeta is having a lot of fun pretending to be in the pokemon universe, and shes characterized pretty similar to how the real deal is, so that onell stay up for now, but if we change our minds well make a post over there!!

// i hope you all can understand. thanks for everything!!

[agp]

theres something so cruel about being so used to having any language or symbol or idea your community develops to express the harm youve endured being turned into a weapon against you that your first association with these ideas being displayed publicly becomes the chains they can be turned into. this could apply to many things but right here right now the way its affecting me is not that big a deal and could serve as a good example to illustrate this phenomenon.

i found a womens hockey blog with a trans flag icon last night. i dont know why they have a trans flag on their icon or what theyre trying to signal, but i am tempted to be very doubtful that it primarily has to do with trans women. i believe its much more likely they want to be inclusive of transmasculine and nonbinary people who were cafab. you know, on a blog about womens hockey. i have no reason to believe they feel the same desire to include transfeminine and nonbinary people who were camab, because, yknow, its a blog about womens hockey.

those are two very seperate things to transmisogynists and i am expected to respect them when they employ the notion of trans inclusion or the trans flag to insist on the cisexist inclusion of anyone assigned female in womanhood, regardless of whether they explicitly pair it with the exclusion of trans women. to insist on interpreting the personhood of anyone assigned female through the vector of womanhood is not and will never be trans inclusion, even though a significant amount of what claims itself to be trans inclusive is done as an attempt to express this cisexist logic. that phenomenon weve been calling 'women and femmes' lately

and thats the thing: im running all this math in my head. im imagining possibilities. i kind of dont want to reach out and confirm my suspicions because i believe the odds arent in my favor here. im so restricted by my experiences with transmisogyny that im forced to anticipate retaliation. i see a public association between the concepts of trans and woman and i get ready to run like hell. and when i dont run i am consistently punished for it. because those two things are separate and theres only one good way to synthesize them as a transmisogynist. and frankly i dont know how to proceed. just gonna keep posting in fear ig

[xxxg0ryygurlll13xxx]

school and other things

UGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH i have to go back to the educational prison that is my high school tomorrow >:/ luckily afterward tho i get to visit my auntie and uncle to drop off some soup. i rlly hate that i cant wear fun tights to school, i have to wear my boring black ones instead of my stripey ones or new cool af skeleton ones! just in general i hate that i have a stupid uniform. only upside is its a great excuse to continue making kandi. welp back to eating lunch in the library and accidently eavesdropping on ppls drama. only good thing abt highschool is everyone has drama and they loooooove to tell it to/around me for some reason. ig i look like i wont tell anyone. i mean theyre right tho i tell my best friend (shoutout to him cause weve been friends for 10 years now, a full decade!) everything but he doesnt kno any of these ppl and neither do u dear follower, at least i hope not. I like the idea of imortalizing my highschool experiance on the internet just shouting my grievences out in the void of 0s and 1s that is the internet. its fun. ill look back on it later in life and maybe cringe but i hope not lol. welp at least im not peaking in highschool! god thatd be so much worse ive heard those ppl never turn out well and seeing the obvi peaking girls in my school i can tell why. i recently got into Class of 09 and its made me think of my high school career, how its going, how it started, how itll end etc etc. kinda want it to end already like cant i just graduate already! its only been a year and a few months but that has felt like decades. "best years of ur life" my ass. only thing worse was middle school. wouldnt do that again for all the love or money in the world!!!!! anyways this blog post has kinda gone off the rails and i kno yall dont read my longer posts so ill end it here lol

[askfairyromano]

you HAVE to keep me updated on how francis manages to eat dear mumsy's old recipe. im sure she was a lovely woman, and who knows maybe it is good! but if it's not....please spare no detail, i am enthralled with whatever fallout happens here. youve got me invested. ah young love! does your brother even like him back??? or is this just like a guy not really getting the hint? and i can tell you with full certainty that people have a crush on you. being 'broken' has nothing to do with people thinking youre a total baddie with the prettiest eyes in the realm. youre a hottie!! and youve got a bangin sense of humor! like, youre absolutely lovely! im telling you right now with 0 doubt in my mind that there are people who are SO into you, but are just too shy to say anything or just dont know how.

(omg mun im your favorite anon??? stoopppp i love winning on a technicality. listen, i have been hooked since i stumbled onto your blog. youll have to pry me off with a crowbar if you ever want me to go away (or just say youre not interested in the convo anymore i promise i wont be upset!!). also i saw your pinup post on twitter and its STUNNING as usual. your art is gorgeous, but thats not surprising weve all known that <3 also, feel free to change up the convo as much as you want if theres more you want roma to talk about or if theres something you wanna explore artistically! ill play along with whatever you want, im just happy to see your gorgeous work!)

[a-very-tired-raven]

Aw dammit, you guys are makin me wanna post this now(10:05) instead of 11:00, but im strong lmao (WARNING, long post ahead)

Anyways, i wanted to start this post off, by giving a thanks to all the truly wonderful people ive met on this platform from this year, last year, when i first joined, and the years to come. Youve all made my experience here wonderful, and to be honest youve made me feel so very very welcomed, and especially loved.

I came to this (wonderful)hellsite during a really lonely time in my life. A few years ago, around the later days of june, 2019, looking for more undertale content. What i didn't expect to find at all, were all the wonderful people im so so so very glad to now call my friends.

All of you, and i mean all, of you invited and welcomed me into your blogs with open arms, kindness, and silly jokes. Even going to the lengths introducing me to your other friends and making me apart of your friend groups. And...i genuinely cannot express how thankful i am for that.

Im so serious, i feel so loved and cared for every single day now, i always have someone to vent or talk with, someone to joke and ramble with, so many people that ive intertwined into this little online family of mine.

Weve all been through..a lot these past three years. What, with covid, loss, hate, and so much more. What im grateful for, is that i havent lost any of you, which not only am i suprised about, but also so grateful. You guys make me feel like the best verison of myself, and make me feel..well..me. we've all stuck together and looked out for each other, helped each other out with our problems, and shared art and stories.

Ive had the pleasure of meeting some very fine, brilliant, and respectable people thus far, and have had the honor of talking with some astonishing young friends. Ive even had the pleasure of gaining followers, and have received fanart of my own characters!! Which, i would have never guess would have happened. Ever. And yet it did, and that means so much to me.

So i suppose what im trying to do, or well..say here, is that all of you have turned my life for the better, and id like to thank you for that.

Thank you, @let-love-run-red @ratsoh-writes @und3rwat3r-a5tr0naut @vrnicky @a-gods-somewhat-mortal-form @icelingbolt @shimmer-lamp and @glaucus22 for being my very first friends in here, for welcoming me so warmly, and sharing your art and introducing me to so many cool people. I wouldn't have had as good as an experienced as ive had with you to have shown me kindness in the way the way you did

Thank you @glitchysquidd for giving me the honor of seeing your artwork, and goofing off with me from time to time.

Thank you @mochamashi @kuvvydraws and @underfell-crystal for being so nice to me, and taking time out of your days to chat and listen to my stupid little jokes

Thank you @luminawithherdaemonlinh @wisteria-and-crocuses and again @mochamashi for all the fanart youve sent me iver the months, and all the kind and craziness youve shown me. Thanks for going on crazy little rants with me wisteria, and a big thank to you lumnia for supporting me and my art for so long

Thank you @shimmer-lamp for being there with me since day one, for letting me vent and trusting me enough to confide in me at times.

Thank you @rainbowut @the1920sisntaphasemom and @scienceisfood for giving me so many ideas and laughter, i really do appreciate you guys and i feel as if i dont say it enough. You guys so are hilarious- seriously, i appreciate it

Thank you so so much @hearty-dose-of-ranch @kioko-noodles @fruitsnackart @skele-fucker @sendryl and @und3rwat3r-a5tr0naut taking me in your friendgroup so fast, and so warmly. Before you guys took me in, all of you inspired me and my art so much...i could hardly believe i was actually talking to you guys and was considered a friend??! My hands were shakey, my breath was wobbly, and yet you guys never thought twice about including me. You all have been there for me since ive met you, you all have (patiently)listened to my stuttering and ramblings without a second thought, youve all introduced me to so many cool things and have made me feel so so loved..i cant possibly thank you enough. Youve done so much for me

Thank you @ratsoh-writes for enduring my chaos and bad jokes. Youve made my dumbass feel incredibly welcomed, not to mention being such a big fuckin inspiration??? Youre one of the reasons i started to get confident in my art man. Ive used your art as references so much- and youve been such a good friend to me as well?? Be angry about me gettin muchy all you want, i love you ya stinky sewer varmit.

Thank you @springbon-t-art for showing me kindess even more since i joined the hellscape that is tumblr. Youve showed me nothing less then gentle smiles and kind words, and i thank you for that. Your art has inspired me for years, and most likely years to come from now. So thank you for inspiring me enough to pick up a pencil and start scribbling down on the floorboards

And a big big thank you to @let-love-run-red love...i dont even know where to begin. You've helped me through so much, you've inspired and taught me so much fuckin stuff...you've been one of the best damn friends i could ever have. You've supported me and my cringe drawings since the day i entered your inbox as that shy little anon on that late August day.

Hell, you're the damn reason i started writing. I still remember the tips you given me, all the advice and confidence. And i sincerely thank you for that. You have shown me nothing other then kindness and hardcore support. And i cannot express how much that means to me

And theres so many more people i have yet to thank but unfortunately cannot due to tag limits and my memory. Id have to make another post and make sure i havent forgotten anyone lmao, but thank you all!! To my close moots and followers, to the big inspirations ive yet to summon up the courage to talk to

I seriously, would have not made it this far without you dorks, and i sincerely, and genuinely, hope ive made an impact at least a fragment of the size you guys have made on me. Thank you all for giving me a place to call home on this little site.

Right now the time is 10:41 as i wrap this up, so im gonna go ahead and post this(probably willl be 11 or 12 by the time you twerps get to this point lmao)

So HAPPY NEW YEARS!!

And happy many years to come!!! I cant wait to see what this years brings us, what bonds strengthen and friends we'll meet. Thank you for the wild ride and for all the adventures to come!!

[test-tube-iii]

hey. wow my identity has been revealed. its me! look its me cloud anaon. cloudy. cloudy with a chance of meatballs. the idiot that wants to punch you. you now know my identity. anyways i have a drawing for you so epic took me an hour

yeah i got bored. uhh ummm uhh i did this on ibis paint on my computer.... uhh i used the font called "Baloo" so you dont have to see my horrible handwriting. uh um the bookmark or rectangle thing is my object sona but i guess cloudy is also my object sona too. i have two now. theyre multiplying what. also yes my object sona includes you/test tube um uh im nervous a bit uhh do you like it. i have absolutely no idea what the back of bookmark would look like so. i just did a single color. i hope thats good mcdonalds mentioned twice. fan looks like mcdonalds. everything is either a reference to something that happened on any of ryu's blogs or its.... actually everything is i dont see antyhing that isnt. i didnt know what to do for the background so. stripes. im so sorry im just rambling i dont know how to showcase art ive only done this. once. not even on tumbrl. actually three times but still not even on tumblr. uhh so sorry for rambling hope u like it thats all i guess

-☁️ (cloud anon thats no longer anon. just. cloud. or whatever. zee. bookmark. the idiot that cant type. whatever you want to call me!)

AHA I WAS RIGHT!!!!

i win i win *limey burner dance*

HEHEHHAHAHAHAAH

I LOVE IT AND IM GOING CRAZY HEHEHEDHHHS

#### I DONT KNOW HOW TO RESPOND AJJSJSKBDKSJSBXK

though wait youre right fan kinda does look like mcdonalds wih the colour scheme and all maybe fan is ronald mcdonald in disguise and we have caught 2 secret identities in one post

weve gotten so good at cqtching secret identites were about to get batman next

hhehheehehhahahhahahahaj

I DIDNT RESPOND AS TEST TUBE TO THIS CAUS I GEN DONT KNOW HOW TEST TUBE WOULD EXPRESS THIS MUCH JOY

CAUSE TEST TUBE IS MORE OF A STABLE CHARACTER WHILE IM HERE LIKE A FERAL POSSUM

ALSO SORRY ABOUT ALL YOUR LAST ASKS I WAS ASLEEP AND IT WAS 3 AM WHEN ANSWERING YOUR ASKS

[bedeion-legion]

mk ik this isnt in the exact theme of the blog but here me out (also HEAVY spoilers for sc/vi, please for the love of god play it first if you're interested because gamefreak did it!!! the story goes hard!!!!!)

i never got the impression that Geeta was evil. like never, shes just a bossgirl girlboss whos like a pretty decent boss. average stuff all around from her.

however, i strongly, STRONGLY, believe that Geeta is an android

SHES NOT REAL!!!!! SHE IS NOT A REAL PERSON!!!!!!!! SHE IS NOT REAL SHE IS NOT REAL SHE IS NOT RE-

the way she talks the way she acts, EVERYTHING about this woman screams to me 'i am a manufactured human being'.

this isnt to say she doesnt matter somehow or she doesnt have feelings/thoughts/emotions. she clearly does. but so did AI Turo/Sada. she could still very much be an android whos able to think and feel in a similar way!!!!

if this isnt the case/isnt brought up in the DLC i will legit be surprised. theres SO much evidence to her being one in-game that its a bit hard to pick out examples, its just kind of in everything shes in and does.

like ill no means be mad at gamefreak, i myself cant really think of a way Geeta is able to walk around outside the crater if AI Turo/Sada couldnt. maybe its something to do with the way tera orbs work? maybe something to do with those weird panels mentioned in the scarlet/violet book in the academy? dunno, but i dont think it's impossible to make it so it doesnt undermine AI Turo's inability to leave the crater while making sense in the worldbuilding weve got. AIs are new to the series after all, theres a lot more stuff they can do with em.

and whether or not this theory is/isnt true, shes still an android to me. idc what gamefreak says shes not REAL!!!!!11!!1!!

and again, by no means her being an android makes her bad/evil. i just think the potential character drama from the gym members, school staff, main characters, and general public is SO golden. like imagine you find out that your boss is actually an artificial AI, i'd have a panic attack. the potential for varying reactions depending on each character, especially the gym members, is SO so good.

(also im not mentioning team star in this case because i dont think theyd really care all that much? like yeah thats their new boss of 2 weeks and yeah shes La Primera n all but they werent exactly a fan of the system in the first place, and while they probably dont hold any bad feelings towards the system anymore, they havent really been given much urgency to care all that much. as long as Geeta is nice to Penny, they wouldnt really care if Geeta's an AI. theyve all dealt with being outcasted for being different, theyre not gonna do that to someone else just because theyre an AI. Penny will probably find out Geeta's an android first but again i think she'd be chill about it. she'd probably be like "oh rad a robot mom, just like my videogames" and then work on antivirus programs meant for Geeta in order to sorta pay her back for taking Penny under her wing)

but yea thats pretty much my thoughts on robo Geeta. is you can see i have a lot of thoughts on this!! hope yall enjoyed me spiraling over this revalation

[darkbluekies]

☁️  (1/3) hey! im back ^__^ sorry ive been away for quite a while. irl stuff has been taking up most of my time lately T__T ... but i still try and check up on your blog when i can. i have a lot to say hehe >:] so now FIRST OF ALL... lets talk about my previous ask.

— I CANT BELIEVE PEOPLE USED TO COPY YOUR STORIES WTF... what happened if you dont mind me asking 😓

— OML THE HUGGING DR KRY FROM BEHIND. IM SO HAPPY YOU WROTE IT TBH LIKE THAT WAS SO GOOD. i didnt know how much i needed a oneshot where his darling gets a panic attack but here we are 😭 THE CONFRONTATION TOO!!

— ... you shouldnt have said that. YOU SHOULDNT HAVE SAID THATTT!!!!HSJKS!!!JS!!SKD!!!! sqUEEZING dr kry's ARMS ? BUFF ARMS ? MAN WHAT IF I BITE IT TOO HUH??? WHAT IF I WHAT IF I (dashes to my secret stash of dr kry ideas)

AAAAAAAAA MY CHILD IS HOME I WAS THINKING ABOUT YOU EARLIER TODAY

Don't apologize!!! Please make sure to take care of yourself<333333

Im she/her!!

I have a wattpad, and my readers send in when they find someone copying my stories. When I see that someone does, I message them and ask them to change or put me as the cred. I usually help them with a new idea and with the writing if they're understanding. One time someone copied a oneshot of mine and uploaded it to YouTube and took all the cred ... so mh readers helped me get it down!!

DR KRY SUPREMACY I LOVE WRITING ABOUT HIM. he's such a cold character to other people than his darling <333 ID SAY BITE IT, HED PROBABLY LIKE THAT-

The cynical playhouse is probably my favorite oneshot I've made to date (it contaisn EVRRYTHING FROM GORE TO FLUFF). I've finally started to find my old style again. When I was like 10-15 I wrote in a very graphic and violent way which I lost when I was writing fanfiction because I have limits when it comes to real humans :/ but now that i have made my own characters, I've managed to let lose and found back to the old style, especially with the cynical playhouse!!!

Please show me your drawing someday :((( I see the room in my mind and it's basically a rectangular space with the bed I the middle towards the bed, windows and Dr Krys desk on the readers right (when they're in bed), the door out to the corridor on the left and the door to the bathroom in front of them!! The bookshelf is on the empty wall to the left!!

PLEASE SHARE YOUR DR KRY IDEAS WITH ME IM DYING FOR IT</3

For me it really doesn't matter how people see my characters!! If you think he's blonde, make him blonde haha, I have the OG design but if you think he looks hotter in another way, imagine him however you want :>>

I KNOW IM SO SHOCKED, I LOOKED AF THE GROWTH THJNG AND WEVE GROWNED IVER 260 FOLLOWERS OR EVEN MORE IN A MONTH. I REACHES 300 A FEW DAYS AGO😭❤️

Blue is so cute :(((( my favorite color is dark blue (hence my username) and sadly, I don't have a lot of nicknames. My friend calls me (my name)-cita my family has a joined nickname for me but it's so ugly that I won't tell you haha. I'm perfectly fine with Blue, it's so cute :>>

I'VE MISSED YOU NOW TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND GET SOME WELL DESERVED SLEEP