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#well i put he/she/they/it in my instagram bio anyway and they know my username so. hell with it.
anaalnathrakhs · 23 days
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the little form for the first year students induction party is explicitly asking for pronouns y'all. do i wholeheartedly say he/she/french neo gender neutral and hope i'm not making a huge mistake.
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love-belle · 1 year
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you're losing me !!!
*ੈ✩‧₊˚ in which she's losing him and he's not fighting for her either.
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for when you lose someone you thought you'd spend your lifetime with. ˚ ༘♡ ⋆。˚
social media au // max verstappen x fem!reader
sequel - i hope i never lose you ⋆·˚ ༘ *
warnings - language
author's note - my heart broke while writing this :// still, i hope u like it!! lmk if u want a part ii though i'll write it anyway. i love you, thank you for reading <3
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yourusername when the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst
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username MOTHER?????
username max :///
username if they break up i simply give up, it's that easy x
lewishamilton sending you hugs and love from me and roscoe ❤️
-> yourusername missing you both ❤️
username guys............what if they did b word u word ?
-> username don't spread lies 😘😘😘
-> username they break up and i stop believing in love ☺️
lilymhe i could be a better boyfriend just saying 😮‍💨
-> yourusername you're already my wife 😘
username we really went from "the first flowers he ever brought me became my favourite" to "when the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst" huh
username im just gonna ignore this!!
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maxverstappen1 pole position!!
very happy that we managed to put the best bits together for qualifying today! great work by everyone in the team redbullracing & hondaracingglobal 👏
looking forward to be racing again tomorrow 👌
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username NO Y/N????????
username im delulu
username is it just me or did he not seem really into it like idk
-> username if me and my fiancée broke up i'd be the same
danielricciardo proud of you mate! 👏
username need y/n to comment rn so i can be at peace
username nice prank guys 😐😐 REALLY funny 😐😐😐
username NO BC THE WAY HE ALMOST MENTIONED Y/N WHILE TALKING TO A REPORTER BUT STOPPED HIMSELF
-> username NO BC MY HEART BROKE SEEING
-> username they're really over huh
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f1newzzz formula one driver, max verstappen and singer/songwriter y/n y/l/n called it quits on their engagement, source close to the pair claimed. "they just wanted different things, their goals weren't aligning," the source explained, "marriage had seemed like the picture perfect ending at that time, when max had proposed, but in the long run, they both would've been very unhappy." though the exact reason for their split isn't very clear, many speculate that it was actually verstappen who ended their 11 month engagement. for more details, click on the link in our bio.
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username ur telling me that the woman who wrote "your past and mine are parallel lines, stars all aligned and they intertwined" about her man wanted "different things"??????? ok.
username max i just wanna talk ☺️☺️☺️
username no bc they were so in love everyone could see it
username she did not write "i don't wanna look at anything else now that i saw u" for u to write this fucking shit post
username "she's been my rock, my biggest supporter, my proudest fan and im very grateful for her, forever will be. i don't deserve her and i don't know what good i did to have her in my life but im very glad i do" NO WAY HE BROKE UP WITH HER
username idk man if u write 3+ albums about someone and stuff like "all that u ever wanted from me was sweet nothing" or "all's well that ends well to end up with u" the universe should it impossible for u to break up
username just a daily reminder that u should drink rat poison before falling in love bc it never works out
username the day i stopped believing in love
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yourusername you're losing me is finally yours. this is easily the most vulnerable, heartbreaking, raw and personal song that i have ever written and sharing it with you all is like sharing a big piece of myself. you are, at some point in their life, at a place where you're begging someone to love you the way you love them and i think that's a saddest thing someone can do, i've been there. this song is a messy compilation of my feelings, my thoughts and the enigma in my mind, i hope you like it. and finally, to that one person, thank you for being my forever. it was real.
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username I WOULDN'T MARRY ME EITHER A PATHOLOGICAL PEOPLE PLEASER WHO ONLY WANTED YOU TO SEE HER
username the way we went from "i'd marry u with paper rings" to "i wouldn't marry me either"
username DO SOMETHING BABE SAY SOMETHING
danielricciardo in awe of you and your talent 🤍🤍🤍🤍
-> yourusername danny i heart you
username no bc what really hurts is that throughout her albums and songs she's always been like "i can't wait to marry you!!!!" like from lover and paper rings and now it's hinted that max didn't wanna marry her and the way she's trying not to blame him by saying "i wouldn't marry me either"
-> username "she would've made such a lovely bride what a shame she's fucked in her head" to "i wouldn't marry me either"
username the way that some people were saying that they got married secretly and the whole time they were broken up and she still continued to act like everything was fine like my heart's hurting for her
username "thank you for being my forever, it was real" IM CRYING IH NY GKD
carmenmmundt the most talented person i know 🤍 i love you so much y/n/n
-> yourusername you own my heart 💌
username the 1 is gonna start hitting different now
-> username "it would've been fun if u would've been the one"
username her heartbeat in the song i died.
username thinking about "he didn't try at all though" vs. "do something babe say something"
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idy-ll-ique · 3 years
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Paparazzi.
Pairing: Sebastian Stan x F!Reader
Genre: Fluff, Angst
Warnings: TOO META, m*sturbation, mentions of s*x
Requested: nope
Summary: I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until you love me... Y/N Y/L/N writes Marvel fanfictions. One day, Sebastian stumbles upon her account and, unable to help himself, reads all the stuff she has written about him. He didn't mean to fall so hard for her but he does. How can he not? She has shown him parts of himself that he never even knew existed.
Author's Note: Hiya peeps! Okay so a few weeks ago I read a similar (but dark) fanfic and I really wanted to write a softer version of it... Enjoy!
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Same old, boring routine.
Y/N hit post and slumped against the headrest of her bed, sighing. She waited; a minute, then two passed and she noticed that someone had liked her post. She smiled to herself as she kept her phone away. Though boring, she wouldn't trade her life for the world. Y/N… well, she was a university student first and foremost but she was also a writer.
Being a big fan of the Marvel Cinematic Universe, she had started writing fanfictions a few years ago. She posted them on Tumblr, where her blog, though not very well-known, stood out enough for her posts to get around 800-1000 likes per post. She loved it; she loved writing, she loved posting her stories and especially, she loved the feedback.
Sometimes people were rude, but most times, the reviews she got were fantastic. She read each and every one of them, smiling goofily as people freaked out over her fanfictions. It warmed her heart. A smile automatically blooming on her face, Y/N lay down on the bed and decided to go to sleep, it being almost 3 am.
Unbeknownst to her, someone else was up at the same time, tossing and turning in his bed, restless.
Sebastian sighed as he sat up, running a hand through his hair. He drank some water and lay down again, closing his eyes but it was like sleep was mad at him. Refused to be anywhere near him. He groaned to himself and picked up his phone from the nightstand, deciding to go through Instagram, hoping he'd finally fall asleep to the glare of the screen.
As he logged into his account, he skipped the activity page and went straight to the explore page. Bored, he continued scrolling until his eyes landed on a specific photo. And the breath escaped his lungs when he clicked on it; the woman in the picture was absolutely gorgeous. He just couldn't resist going to her page, smiling widely when he read her bio.
It gave him her basic information; her name, her age, the university she attended. But what caught his eye was the link below the bio. My Marvel Fanfictions Master List. Marvel fanfictions? She was a writer? Smirking, he clicked on the link and it took him to Tumblr. Of course, he'd heard of the site, but didn't have an account on there. At 3 am, his mind sure wasn't working right.
A post popped up on the screen, the same master list she had mentioned earlier. And his eyes bulged out of their sockets; damn, those are a lot of fanfictions. He went through the whole thing, smirking again when he noticed that she had written the most fanfictions about him. Not Bucky Barnes, no, Sebastian Stan.
He clicked on the first one. The date of posting was way back, in 2019. He started reading; nothing about it felt weird to him; he was intrigued, if anything. And as he continued reading, he couldn't help but imagine her being in the stead of the female protagonist. Her, the writer. The woman whose picture had made him end up reading in the first place.
When he finished the story, his heart thudded wildly in his chest. Wow, she really has a way with words. And he had also noticed how in the author's note, she used a lot of slang but reading the story had made him realize that she had an amazing, extensive vocabulary. He went back to the master list and clicked on the latest post under his name.
Posted: 15 minutes ago.
His breath hitched in his throat when he read the warnings: there was going to be sexual intercourse in this one. For one moment, he hesitated; did he really want to read this? "Oh fuck it," he huffed and scrolled, starting to read. The more he read, the more his shaft twitched in his pants. He wasn't really like that during… but oh damn, he wasn't complaining.
"Oh, Seb…"
His hand slid down and he rubbed himself through his boxers, unable to take his eyes off the text in front of him. His strokes got harder and faster as the sex got steamier. "Ungh, I'm gonna cum—" And he suddenly came in his boxers, groaning. Slumping down on the bed, he quickly finished reading the rest of it, going back to the master list.
He took a screenshot with the account's name in it and then went back to her Instagram account to take another screenshot. Keeping his phone away, he slipped out of his boxers, cleaned himself and pulled the covers on top of him, finally feeling tired enough to fall asleep.
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Y/N was walking across the campus of her university, going to the cafeteria when her phone buzzed in her pocket. Taking it out, she opened Tumblr to read the message someone had sent her just then.
his-username: Hi there! I was binging your account last night, you write really well
your-username: Omg thank you!!!! I really appreciate it, I love getting feedback! 🥺❤
his-username: You're welcome! Especially your latest post, that was really good ;)
your-username: hehe 😈 glad you liked it!
Smiling widely, she kept her phone away and continued walking, not knowing that the person who had texted her was the same man she had written about. Sebastian smiled to himself when he read her text. After getting up in the morning, the first thing he had done was install Tumblr on his phone. Then he made an account for himself.
Figuring out the app was easy; he found out that there was an option to keep your liked posts and the accounts you followed hidden, and selected it immediately. No one needed to know what he did on the app. Then he went back to her account, pressed the follow button and started binge-reading her fanfictions again. Last night had he read only two, and that had left him wanting more.
Funny how much things can change in a night. He liked and reblogged all her posts without a second thought; he even read all her Bucky Barnes posts. She understood his character so well, put him on what he thought was an undeserved pedestal while writing about him. Some of the stories were AUs, which he found out stood for Alternate Universes. Mostly mobster or mafia stuff.
He had the day off, and he spent the entire time cooped up in his apartment, on his bed, reading. The more he read, the more he started fawning over her, over the version of him that she put out to the world. Dominating, suave and just perfect. He loved it. At the end of the day, he decided to text her again, hoping she wouldn't think he was weird or find out the truth.
his-username: do you wanna be friends, maybe? I'm new to the app, don't really have any friends here ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
That was a lie, he knew Mark Ruffalo had an active Tumblr account. But it's not like he could tell him.
your-username: Yes sure!!!! I was also thinking of making some friends on this app lol
his-username: You don't have any on here? But you've been here for years, haven't you?
your-username: haha yeah, but I don't really reach out to people much. Sometimes people leave their feedbacks on my posts, text me but that's that
his-username: Ohhh
his-username: well, let's start with names. Mine's Sebastian
your-username: Really?????? omg that's so cool lmaooooooo (didn't think you were a boy but 😳👀)
his-username: Not a boy, I'm a man 😤😂
your-username: 🤣 im y/n, btw
his-username: Y/N, that's a nice name
your-username: thank you!!!! So, what do you do?
his-username: nothing really that interesting, I'm in theatre
your-username: theatre is nice! I'm studying at [university] in New York lmao
his-username: Wait you're in New York? So am I!
your-username: ASDFHKSHKGF that's awesome!!! also I noticed that you've been going through my account the whole day 😏 notifications upon notifications keeping my phone busy
his-username: Oopsie?
your-username: 😂😂 I really don't mind, it was great! Despite the amount of likes on my posts, I only have a few loyal followers lmao gaining one more felt nice
your-username: You a big fan of Sebastian Stan? Cuz I noticed that you were only reading his and Bucky's fics 👀
Sebastian's face heated up.
his-username: kinda yeah 🤷🏻‍♂️😁
your-username: Cool cool cool, I'm a big fan of his too!!!! also got a crush on him but whatever 😳
Sebastian smirked at his phone. A crush on him, huh? That… was acceptable. He suddenly felt his cocky side coming out; the one she described in nearly all her fanfictions.
his-username: wouldn't blame ya, I mean, look at him. You have also written the most fics about him and Bucky
your-username: right????? damn that man has raised my standards. Anyway, I gtg now, I have to finish a paper before midnight. ttyl!
his-username: Bye! 👋🏻
He kept his phone away and took in a deep breath. This was the most fun he had had in years, and he was not letting her go so easy. He realized he was quickly falling for her; rather unhealthy, but he couldn't help it. Look at her. She looks like a goddamn angel, writes like one, makes him feel like one, do you really expect him not to fall for her? That's insane.
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Months passed by like a breeze. Y/N and Sebastian had become very good friends, and he knew his way around words just enough to keep her from finding out his identity while not lying to her. Y/N also appreciated his friendship, because he was the one to whom she could rant about her most favorite man in the world— Sebastian Stan.
Sometimes, she thought about how weird of a coincidence it was that her new friend and the actor shared the same names, but then she used to brush it off; that was a common name, right? They talked for hours on end; Sebastian (her friend, not the actor) was extremely witty, smart and fun to talk to, she had to admit. Sebastian felt the same way.
His feelings had worsened. Y/N entirely owned his heart now. Somedays, he'd just go on Instagram, go to her account— her username memorized by him— and stare at her photos until he grew tired; he'd never get tired of looking at her beautiful face but his stiff body afterwards begged to differ. She was just so Elysian. He longed for the moment when he could meet her in real life.
His personality had also changed majorly, and people had caught on. Especially his Marvel co-stars, who knew him to be introverted, shy and, in Anthony Mackie's words, "boring". They were surprised at his sudden change in attitude; he knew his worth and Y/N had helped tremendously in finding it. Now, all those adjectives that she used in her fanfictions fit him perfectly.
Sebastian was never tempted to read fanfictions about himself from authors other than Y/N. No, he only loved her work. He was sure no one else could write as beautifully as she did, he was her #1 fan. Y/N even sent him funny Marvel memes she found on the app and he used to enjoy them heartily; God, the others have no idea what they're missing out on. Our fans are awesome.
Everything was going well.
Until one day.
Sebastian was getting bored at home, so he decided to go to the nearby library to clear his mind. He had read not one book in the past few months, hung up on Y/N's fanfictions. At this point, he was obsessed with her and he knew it. It was nothing dark, per se, it was— it was similar to how Y/N was attracted to Sebastian. How she was a fan of his work.
Just the same. He was a fan of her work in the same way. Just how she was attracted to him, he was attracted to her. Walking into the library that he visited often, he gave the librarian a smile and ventured further into the dark place. He checked his watch; the library closed at 12 am, it was currently 9:30 pm.
Not many people were around, heck, nobody was around. He thought himself to be all alone until he heard it. A sigh, coming from a few aisles away. He walked in that direction and peeked around the corner, freezing when he saw the other person. Y/N? Her books were strewn all across the table as she sat alone at the booth, rubbing her temples.
"You okay?"
She looked up and her breath caught in her throat. I'm dreaming. This is not real. Now I know for a fact that Sebastian Stan is not standing in front of me, asking me if I'm— "Hello?" He snapped his fingers in front of her face, pulling her out of her thoughts. "I, uh— I'm— h-hi," she stammered and he almost chuckled. "Hi." She gulped visibly and blinked at the table, not meeting his eyes.
"Can I have a seat?" He wants to sit with me?! "Y-Yes, sure, sir," she blurted out and he easily slid into the booth next to her. "Hey, please, call me Sebastian. What's your name?" He gave her a friendly smile, even though all he wanted to do was push her back into the booth and kiss her wildly. His shaft twitched just by thinking about it; Y/N was a thousand times more beautiful in person.
"I'm Y/N, it's very nice to meet you, I'm… I'm a fan," she admitted, playing with the ring she wore on her left thumb. I'm your fan too, sweetheart, the biggest one. "Y/N, nice name. You come here often? I haven't really seen you around." She shook her head. "Oh no no, I moved to this part of the city just a week ago, this is my first time here. The library is cozy," she shrugged, easing out of her tense position.
Sebastian nodded. "Yes, I know, this place is awesome. Got all my favorite books here," he chuckled and she smiled at him. "What's all this?" A groan left her lips. "Ugh, stupid university work. I have to write a book report but I don't even know what to write about." He smiled gently. "Well, I have a few favorite books, would you like some suggestions?"
"Oh, please! Tell me!"
He started listing some of his favorite works and Y/N noted the names down until he said the last name. At that, she froze. That's the name of my latest— She looked up but he had a smile on his face. "Oh, and the last one is by my favorite author." He took a pause. "Y/N Y/L/N." She froze completely, staring at the man with her jaw dropped.
Sebastian grinned. "We finally meet, Y/N, I've been waiting for months." Her mouth opened and closed several times as she recalled every interaction she had had with her online best friend— scratch that— her celebrity crush. All the times she had confessed her love for Sebastian Stan, all the dirty and inappropriate memes that she'd sent him…
Embarrassment flooded her entire body as she exhaled shakily. "It was you," she croaked out, "On Tumblr, the account— I'm so sorry—" Sebastian frowned in confusion when she blinked back sudden tears, a few still rolling down her cheeks as shame replaced embarrassment. "Y/N, please don't cry…" She looked up at him, his figure blurry due to her tears.
"You've read everything, haven't you? I just— I'm sorry, I don't want to make you uncomfortable—" He pulled her into his arms, hugging her tightly. Y/N couldn't hug back, though she appreciated the hug especially since it came from him. "You don't know how much you mean to me, doll," he mumbled into her shoulder, using the nickname she often used in the stories she wrote about him. He grew accustomed to it easily.
"Huh?"
He pulled away to wipe her tears. "It was an accident," he admitted, "But I stumbled onto your Instagram account from my explore page. Then I clicked on your account, saw that you wrote Marvel fanfictions and I just couldn't resist the urge to read what you had written. Blame it on 3 am me, to be honest. You're a great writer, and I was immediately drawn to your works. They're awesome.
"They've helped me so much in the past few months. You see this changed attitude that everyone's been talking about lately? All because of you, sweetheart. I'm sorry for keeping my identity secret, but after reading your works, I knew I had to get closer to you. I made the Tumblr account just for you, just so I could talk to you. I'm sorry for lying, but thank you."
Y/N dumbfoundedly stared at him for a few moments, her heart beat getting steady with each thump. Here was a man she admired, loved more than anyone else in the world, telling her that he harbored the same feelings for her. How crazy was that?! Not trusting her words, she simply pulled him into another hug. Sebastian wrapped his arms tight around her, pulling her flush against him.
"Can I kiss you, doll?"
She slowly pulled away from him and nodded, shyly biting her lip. Grinning at the endearing gesture, Sebastian cupped her face and leaned in, gently pressing his lips to hers. The kiss grew hungry in a matter of seconds, and Y/N responded just as eagerly. His hands slid down to her waist and tugged on it, pulling her on his lap. She straddled his thighs as they continued kissing.
"Fuck," he groaned when they finally pulled away from each other, out of breath and panting. "You see what you do to me, doll?" Sebastian spoke huskily as he took her hand, placing it right on top of the tent that was forming in his pants. "Oh," Y/N whimpered when she felt him, the sound going straight to his shaft. "How about I take you home and we recreate some of the scenes from your stories, hm?"
"O-Okay."
"Good girl."
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A/N: What a meta experience 🤡 Leave a like if you enjoyed, thanks for reading!
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comparisons ~ machine gun kelly
word count: 2195
request?: yes!
“Can I get a Colson Baker one where you’re dating after him and Megan where you get a bunch of hate and they both defend you against the hate please”
description: when her boyfriend’s ex is one of the most beautiful actresses of this generation, she finds herself being constantly compared to her and receiving hateful messages
pairing: machine gun kelly x female!reader
warnings: swearing, hate messages, insecurities
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There was some sort of assumption that when you start dating someone, you immediately hate their ex. That could not be further from the truth for me and Colson. In fact, Colson’s ex-girlfriend introduced us shortly after their break up, and had constantly pushed for the two of us to get together.
Megan was basically the backbone in our friendship. She pushed me to pursue my dreams in acting (as well as helped you with that since she was so much more famous than you were when you started), then she pushed me to start auditioning for bigger roles. The moment she introduced me to Colson, I knew exactly what was coming next.
“That’s weird, Meg,” I had told her. “Isn’t there, like, a girl code about dating your best friend’s ex?”
“I’m literally shoving you onto him,” she had responded. “I think you’re fine with the girl code.”
A few months after meeting, I finally caved and asked Colson out on a date. Six months later, I was still thanking Megan for giving me that push.
Shortly after making our relationship public, however, the happiness slowly came to a stop. For me, anyways. Colson, bless his heart, was blissfully ignorant to the comments his fanbase started to send me.
“yikes, he really downgraded huh?”
“how do you go from megan fox to...that?”
“guess mgk couldn’t keep up his streak of hot girlfriends”
Hate comes with fame, I knew that. I had my fair share of hate comments ever since the start. It was easy to ignore them when they were just a handful of hate comments here and there, but this was different. This was a bombardment of hate that was so heavy I could barley go online.
Colson was oblivious for a while, until he found out I had deleted all my social media accounts.
“Did you delete your Instagram babe?” he asked the minute he got home the day I had done it.
“Yeah,” I responded, nonchalantly. “I deleted all my social media.”
“Why?”
I shrugged. “I just thought it’d be better for me mentally. They say being so attached to social media is bad for you or whatever.”
“But you weren’t even addicted to social media. You just liked sharing your memories - our memories.”
I shrugged again and turned back to my cooking. I wasn’t about to tell him his fans drove me off the internet. He loved his fans, I couldn’t fuck that up for him, even if what they were saying hurt me so much.
My back was to him as I cooked, so he couldn’t see my reaction when he asked, “Is it because people were comparing you to Megan?”
I froze completely. I could feel his eyes staring into the back of my head, but I just couldn’t convince myself to turn around to face him. I knew that if I did, I’d crack. I had gone too long pretending everything was okay, keeping this secret from Colson, to finally let it slip now. I just had to throw him off of his thought process.
“Where did you get that idea?” I asked, trying to keep my voice light.
He was next to me suddenly, holding his phone up so I could see it. On the screen was a picture of me at a red carpet just below a headline that read “(Y/F/N) deletes social media accounts amid hateful comments from boyfriend Machine Gun Kelly’s fans”.
I sighed in frustration. Of course the tabloid vultures had already written articles about it. I had only done it a few hours earlier, but they always had to be the first ones to write another story about me.
“I didn’t even know I was getting hate,” I said, trying to keep up the lie even though it was pretty obvious I had been found out. “I just decided to delete my accounts, it must be a coincidence.”
“Really? Because this article says you were receiving so much hate that you couldn’t even go into the comments on your pictures or replies on your tweets without seeing a mass amount of hate from my fans.”
I turned off the stove and turned around suddenly, abandoning my cooking completely as I quickly walked out of the kitchen and towards mine and Colson’s room. I felt a lump forming in my throat, and the last thing I wanted was for Colson to see me cry.
I wasn’t shocked to hear his footsteps coming after me. I forgot how much longer his legs were than mine, so it didn’t take long for him to catch up with me and stop me before I could get too far away. He took hold of my arm and turned me around to look at him. The moment my eyes landed on his face, it felt like someone had finally broke the dam holding back my tears.
Colson pulled me in for a hug and held me tightly as I sobbed into his chest. Every ounce of overwhelming feelings I had been bottling up for months was finally starting to come out, and I realized it was long overdue when I eventually began to grow tired from my crying.
I felt Colson pick me up and bring me to his bed. My eyes were starting to grow heavy despite how much I was fighting against them to stay awake. The minute my head hit the pillow, I was out like a light.
I wasn’t sure how long I was asleep, but it was obvious I had needed that rest, because when I woke up again I felt more well rested than I had in a long time.
I opened my eyes to find myself facing the window, which helped me to pinpoint that it was now nighttime as the sky was pitch black. I rolled over, expecting to find Colson asleep next to me only to find that I was alone in his bed. I was confused at first, forgetting the events that happened mere hours earlier.
I could hear a distant voice talking and was able to identify it as Colson’s. I got up from his bed and made my way towards the stairs, hearing it get louder as I stood at the top.
“I wish she would’ve told me,” he was saying. “I don’t know why she would’ve kept this a secret from me.”
“She didn’t want you upset with your fans,” came another voice. This one was distorted like it was coming from a phone. When she spoke again, I realized it was Megan’s voice. “And she’s stubborn. She was probably determined to deal with this by herself.”
“I just hate that she felt that way,” Colson sighed. “I don’t want her believing anything any of those people said to her, but I saw screenshots and fuck...they really did just bombard her with hate.”
“I know, but none of us could’ve predicted this. Your fans were so cool with us dating, I thought they’d love (Y/N) since we’re so similar.”
I sat down on the top of the stairs and peeked down enough that I could see Colson without him seeing me. He was laid out on the couch in just his sweat pants. In his hand he was holding his phone up, the other was slung over the back of his couch. I could see the guilt on his face, which broke my heart to see. I didn’t want Colson feeling guilty for something that was out of his control.
“You think what I posted will do anything?” he asked Megan.
“I don’t know. It’s hard to tell. When people want to hate, they just want to hate.”
Hearing that Colson had posted something made me curious. I felt around my pants for my phone, but realized I had probably left it in the room or downstairs somewhere. I was in too deep now to give myself away, but I really wanted to know what he had posted about the situation.
“Thanks for talking to me about this, Megan,” he said.
“Of course, Colson. Anytime.”
They said their goodbyes and hung up. Colson tossed his phone onto the coffee table and put his arm under his head. “Are you gonna come down babe?”
I wanted to ask how he knew I was there, but instead I stood from my spot and made my way down the stairs. When I entered the living room, Colson just looked up at me for a moment, almost expectantly. I smiled down at him and laid on top of him with my head on his chest. The arm that was over the back of the couch wrapped around me and he gently kissed the top of my head.
“How much did you hear?” he asked.
“Just the last bit,” I admitted. “Something about a post you made.”
Colson hummed, his chest vibrating underneath my ear as he did. “I wanted to address the issue, and I knew you wouldn’t let me do it if you were awake.”
“I still don’t like that you did it now,” I said, half joking. “Can I see the post?”
He moved his head to look down at me. “How do I know you’re not going to delete the post?”
“You don’t,” I responded. “You’ll just have to trust me.”
He smiled and reached over to grab his phone from the coffee table. He opened it and pulled up a post he had made on Instagram: it was your usual white background with text post you saw celebrities make from time to time.
It read:
“I love my fans so much. You guys are my EST family, and I’m so proud of this family that we have built over the last few years. However, it came to my attention today that some of you have been less than nice to my girlfriend to a point where she felt the need to delete her social media accounts. I will admit, I was oblivious to this at first as I am not one to go onto other people’s social media to read comments and replies, and (Y/N) kept this to herself instead of telling me about it. But now that I do know, I have to say I am beyond pissed. (Y/N) is the most beautiful girl I have ever met, inside and out. She is not Megan, and honestly - with all respect to Megan - I’m glad that she’s not. I love Megan as a friend, but truly that’s all she is to me. (Y/N) is my soulmate, the love of my life. These comparisons and jabs at her because she isn’t my ex are absolutely disgusting, especially coming from people who claim they love me as much as you guys do. Please learn how to treat the people in my life with love and respect, or else take my face out of your profile pictures and my name out of your usernames/bios as you are not a true fan of mine. From the bottom of my heart, fuck you to anyone that made my girlfriend feel like shit.”
I scrolled down to see the comments and saw that the top one was from Megan, and was already liked by Colson.
“(Y/N) is not my competition, nor is she my enemy. She is my friend and she has been since before Colson and I were ever together. The fact that people feel the need to pit two women against one another just because they both dated the same person is absolutely appalling to me. I’d like to emphasis Colson’s statement - fuck you to whoever hurt my friend.”
I handed Colson his phone back, not wanting to read any more. I could feel a lump in my throat again, but this one was from happiness. I felt so lucky to have two amazing people in my corner during a time that was otherwise very trying for me.
“I’m sorry I never told you,” I said as I rested against his chest again.
“You shouldn’t be sorry, (Y/N). I’m sorry this happened to you.”
“You don’t have any reason to be sorry either. You can’t control your fans.”
“Then neither of us will be sorry.”
I chuckled at this. For a moment we were both silent, the only sound being Colson’s heart beating under my ear. It was a soothing sound, and combined with his fingers tracing over my back, I was almost lulled back to sleep.
“I love you,” he mumbled against my hair.
I lifted my head to look at him. “What?”
“I said I love you.”
I was speechless. It was the first time he had seriously said those words and he had managed to shock me into silence with them.
He looked at me, his face slowly becoming concerned with my silence.
“I love you, too,” I finally managed.
A smile broke out across Colson’s face as he wrapped his arms around me and held me tightly to him. For the rest of the night, he would whisper those three words to me randomly, and I would whisper back my response every time.
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Badass Boys - Chapter Eighteen
First, Previous, and Next.
Masterlist/Outfits
Series Description: Virgil has always been known as a bad boy, Logan very recently has been considered a bad boy. However, no one knows that these two bad boys are gay.
Chapter Description: Virgil and Kyla meet.
Pairings: Analogical (Side Royality)
CW: Strong language
Criticism is appreciated!
“Can I tell you something?” Logan asked.
“Yeah, of course,” Virgil responded as he scratched his ear.
“I, um, got into the university.”
“Really? Oh my God, Logan, that’s amazing!” Virgil beamed as he managed to give Logan a hug while they’re sitting.
“Yeah. So… have you applied yet? The deadline is next week.”
“I’m almost finished with the application. I’m going to finish it, Logan, I promise.”
Logan sighed and said, “Virgil.”
“I know, I know, I’m sorry,” Virgil apologized.
“Hey, don’t sound so sad. It’s fine, just make sure to get it done before the deadline,” Logan reassured with a soft and gentle voice.
Virgil smiled as he laid his head on Logan’s shoulder.
Loud footsteps and laughter roared through the hallway, then Brooklyn and Kyla stormed into Logan’s room.
“Loganbear!” Brooklyn shouted as she tackled Logan into a hug.
“So you’re Logan’s new boy toy,” Kyla said as she put her hands on her hips. Her lips are neutral, but her eyes are smiling.
Brooklyn stood up and playfully punched Kyla’s stomach.
“Don’t word it that way, Jesus,” Brooklyn said.
“Actually my name is Kyla, not Jesus.”
Logan chuckled before saying, “this is Virgil, by the way.”
“Virgil, what a weird name,” Kyla said.
“Thanks,” Virgil said in a deadpanned voice.
“Anyways, we came up here because we want food. Let’s go make scrambled eggs,” Brooklyn said- more like demanded.
“Then we would be leaving Kyla and Virgil alone,” Logan said.
“And? Kyla’s not planning on murdering him. As long as Virgil isn’t planning to murder Kyla then we should be fine.” Brooklyn crossed her arms.
Logan sighed before saying, “fine. Let’s make some food.
“Yay!”
Logan and Brooklyn left the room, which left Kyla and Virgil alone in Logan’s room in silence.
“I know that we don’t really know each other but, are your legs ago. There are some faint bruises on them,” Kyla said as she gestured to Virgil’s legs, which are bare since he’s still wearing the shorts that Patton gave him.
“Oh, uh, yeah, I just bump into things a lot,” Virgil lied.
“Hmm,” Kyla mumbled, clearly displeased.
“I like your hair,” Virgil said in a lame attempt to change the subject.
“Thanks. If I’m being completely honest, the main reason I dye my hair is to get more likes on Instagram,” Kyla admitted.
‘Oh, so she’s one of those people that admit everything to strangers. No filter, no problem,’ Virgil thought.
“Ooh, what’s your Instagram, I wanna follow,” Virgil said as he pulled out his phone.
“It’s queenkylamarie.”
As he clicked follow his eyes trailed down to her bio, which is: ‘bi lady that loves teal hair and button-ups.’
“You’re bi?” Virgil asked.
“Yup,” she looked at her phone, “Really? Your username is daggerteen666?” Kyla asked as she clicked follow.
“Look, I was an edgy fourteen-year-old when I got this app, okay?”
“How’d you get 5.7k followers?” She asked.
“I mean, you’re not that far behind, you got 1.1k followers.”
“Yeah, but that’s like nothing.”
“Listen, kid, don’t focus on the numbers.”
“Fine, I’ll ask Roman then.”
Virgil chuckled while saying, “you do that then.”
“Now, you and Logan, what’s up with that?” She asked as she crossed her arms and legs while standing.
“I, uh, have no idea how to answer that- or what that question even means.”
“Are you two official?” She asked.
“Nope.”
“Have you two made out?” Kyla asked while she wiggled her eyebrows.
“Oh Gosh Kyla, stop being a weirdo.”
“Tell me,” she whined as she sat down next to Virgil.
“Fine, yes, we have once,” Virgil admitted, and Kyla squealed.
“I love young budding romances,” Kyla said dramatically.
“God, you are so fucking weird,” Virgil said as he chuckled. “So, what about you? How’s your young budding romance, if you have any?”
“I hardcore flirted this boy named Wyatt to make Brooklyn jealous, it um, worked a little too well,” Kyla admitted as she looked down and scratched the back of her neck.
“Why would you do that?” Virgil furrowed his brows.
“She has been oblivious to me flirting with her so I thought I’d get a little push, but she just got upset.”
“Which is reasonable.”
“Yeah, well, I didn’t really think my plan through.” She crossed her arms and looked Virgil straight in the eyes with an intense gaze. Virgil looked away from her gaze and asked, “so, how do you feel about Brooklyn?”
“Well, we’ve been besties for years, she’s really cute, and I want to lick her face,” she said matter-of-factly.
“Ew.”
“Kyla! Virgil! Get yo eggs!” Brooklyn screamed from downstairs.
The two walked to the dining room where Logan, Brooklyn, and Mr. Woods are sitting at a table while eating scrambled eggs. There’s one plate full of eggs in between Logan and Mr. Woods, and one in between Mr. Woods and Kyla. Virgil decided to take the seat in between Logan and Mr. Woods.
“So, Virgil, how are you doing?” Mr. Woods asked.
“Pretty good,” Virgil answered before taking a bite of the eggs. They’re perfectly average, like all scrambled eggs. Virgil glanced up at Mr. Woods, who had a curious glint in his eyes and had furrowed his brows.
“Are you-”
“So Logan, are you going to live in the dorms?” Brooklyn interrupted Mr. Woods.
‘Thank Pete Wentz for Brooklyn,’ Virgil thought.
“I, uh, was actually planning to get an apartment with Virgil,” Logan said as he smiled at Virgil, who smiled back.
“Really?” Mr. Woods asked.
“Yeah, it’s going to be great,” Virgil can’t stop smiling at Logan.
“What about you Brooklyn, what are you planning to do?” Mr. Woods asked.
“Listen fam, I’m too young to think about getting an apartment, going to college, any of that shit-”
“Language!”
“-and I’m not about to start stressing ‘bout that stuff yet,” Brooklyn ranted.
Logan closed the door after Virgil sat onto his bed.
“Why is your room so much smaller than Brooklyn’s?” Virgil asked as Logan sat down next to him.
“Her room used to be mine, but she kept complaining that she wanted the bigger room, so we switched,” Logan explained.
“Oh. That’s not nearly as interesting as I thought it would be,” Virgil admitted, and Logan chuckled.
“I got a job at Starbucks,” Logan said.
“Lo, that’s spectacular!” Virgil exclaimed as he turned so that his whole body is facing Logan. He put his hands on Logan’s hips and put his head on Logan’s shoulders. Logan turned so that the position felt less awkward.
“I wanna get you out of your house as soon as possible, Babe,” Logan whispered.
“I know.”
Logan stroked Virgil’s hair and closed his eyes.
“We can start looking at apartments online right now,” Virgil said.
“Okay.”
Virgil gave Logan a quick kiss before taking out his phone and went on safari. After a couple of seconds, he landed on a house finding website.
“Alright, Florida- how many bedrooms do we want?” Virgil asked.
“Put 1+,” Logan said.
“Alright, 1+ bathrooms.”
“This place is nice.”
“The kitchen is so small though.”
“What about this one?”
“The kitchen is even smaller.”
“What about this one, the kitchen is a nice size, and we’ll have a guest bedroom.”
Logan looked through the photos of the apartment and smiled.
“I love it,” he breathed.
“Chocolate or strawberry?” Virgil asked over the phone.
“Don’t you mean chocolate or vanilla?” Logan asked.
“Never say that foul word ever again.”
Logan chuckled before saying, “chocolate.”
“Cool thanks, bye,” Virgil said before hanging up.
“What was that?” Roman asked as he ate one of Owen’s granola bars.
“Virgil asked me chocolate or strawberry.”
“Don’t you mean chocolate or vanilla?” Roman put the empty granola bar wrapper onto the counter instead of the trash.
“Exactly!” Logan threw his arms up in the air with an exasperated sigh.
“So, eighteen, huh?” Roman said instead of wishing him a happy birthday.
“Yeah, it’s so weird to think that today I’m an official adult. I can like do taxes now and legally become addicted to nicotine or die in war.”
“Okay well you started off weak and ended with death, but I mean it is actually cool that we’re both eighteen now,” Roman’s eyes lit up, “hey, now the whole gang’s eighteen! Except for Leo, he’s nineteen.”
“And except Valerie, since she’s still seventeen.”
“Who’s Valerie?” Roman furrowed his brows.
“Oh my goodness gracious we need to go to the library as soon as possible. You can’t go through life and not know the absolute preciousness that is Valerie.”
“You done with your rant?” Logan nodded, “kay, good. First of all, we can’t go to the library on your birthday. Second of all, Patton is absolute preciousness and no one can replace him. Third of all, do you have any more granola bars?”
“Those are Owen’s Roman, you can’t eat those.”
“Look, man, if he didn’t want me to eat them then why did he buy caramel and chocolate ones? He should know they’re my favorite.”
“Yeah well, they’re Owen’s favorite as well.”
“Are you too seriously arguing over granola bars?” Brooklyn asked as she entered the kitchen.
“How dare you, I am very passionate about food,” Roman said as he crossed his arms.
Brooklyn filled a cup of water before chugging it down in seconds, then instantly grabbing her stomach and groaning.
“Pro tip: don’t chug water when you’re incredibly thirsty, you will get a stomach ache,” Brooklyn complained as she put the glass into the sink.
“Yeah, that’s common sense,” Logan sassed.
“Whatever.” Brooklyn rolled his eyes before leaving the room.
Knock knock.
Logan went to the door with Roman following close behind and opened the door to see Virgil holding a cake and a paper bag.
“Happy birthday, my favorite bitch,” Virgil greeted before saying, “and Roman.”
“Thanks.” Logan kissed Virgil on the cheek before moving out of the way so that he can walk in the house.
Virgil went into the dining room and put the cake on the table. It’s a generic chocolate cake that was bought from a grocery store.
“I would have gotten a proper bag for the present, however, that shit costs money so it was either buy a bag and a shit present or buy the present I want to get you. I, obviously, chose the latter.”
Logan grabbed the bag and reached inside of it. The first thing he pulled out a book about astronomy, and on the cover, it read ‘Congrats on being an adult! -Virgil’ and ‘Happy Birthday -Val.’
“Virgil, I love this-”
“Keep opening,” Virgil demanded.
“Okay okay,” Logan said as he reached his hand into the bag. He pulled out a sock monkey made with different patterns and colors.
“I know it’s kind of nerdy but Valerie and I made that for you.”
“Okay, this is in no way nerdy, also this is so cute-”
Virgil cleared his throat. Logan pulled out a picture frame out of the bag. The picture in the frame is a photo of Logan and Virgil hugging. Virgil’s face is hidden by Logan’s arm, and Logan’s face is hidden by Virgil’s head and curly hair.
“Aww-”
“There’s one more thing.”
Logan pulled out a mason jars full of chocolate kisses that says, ‘KISSES FOR WHEN I’M NOT AROUND.’
“Babe,” Logan breathed before giving Virgil a tight hug.
“You two are so cute that I might vom,” Roman said before Logan and Virgil separated.
“Says you. Come one, you and Patton can hardly keep your hands off each other,” Virgil said as he leaned onto the table.
“Yeah yeah. Did you tell Logan the news?” Roman asked.
“I’m pregnant,” Virgil said.
“Virgil.” Roman rolled his eyes.
“I have a job interview Friday,” Virgil revealed.
“That’s exciting,” Logan said as he grabbed a plate and a fork, “now cake.”
Virgil chuckled before he and Roman also went to get plates and forks.
As they sat down and started to eat the cake Roman asked, “so, any updates on the apartment?”
The apartment is based on → this!
(Please don’t send the retailer weird stuff, I only put the link so that people can visualize the apartment. If I find out people are being weird, then I’ll get rid of the link.)
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Next Chapter (Coming July 4th)
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