#we love ourselves a dorky character

[faytelumos]

Oh Faaaaaaaayyyyyytttteee!!!!

I'm your "Know Thy Enemy"-Nonny and I'm so... SO sorry I didn't think of just using the ask inbox again!

I'm so grateful for those wonderful parts you wrote (not just one, but TWO!!!)

Villain and Hero are both so on POINT! Especially Villain...I literally want one for myself xD

They're so sweet together T~T

The whole date was so light-hearted and engaging, wholesome even, I can't wait to read what happens next!

I admire how you write dialogue and how you arrange the nonverbal character interactions in-between. Lovely!

Thank you so so much again for answering this ask in the first place and keep up your great work - I'll be observing from close by :D

I'm so glad you enjoyed it! I wanna thank you for your hand in creating these two; they're so much fun.

Thank you for the kind words! >///< I really appreciate it!

[lightfoot-bros]

hey! i've followed this blog for a long time and just wanted to say i'm happy to see you still posting now and then as it often feels like everyone has forgotten about it and the fandom has totally died, but i still love it and have been thinking a lot more about it lately since it's about to be the 4th anniversary of its release. if i might ask you a random question, what's your favorite thing about the movie?

Hi there! Yes I am still around since almost everyone left the fandom, but Onward will always have a special place in my heart.

My favorite thing would be when [SPOILER ALERT] Ian sacrificed his wish to see his father because Barley needs it more to repent his feelings to their father. Because technically Ian has everything that he was missing because his brother filled in the pieces. So I applaud the life lesson that we don’t need to look outside of ourselves to be fulfilled when we have everything we need right here.

In addition, I absolutely adore that dorky, metal head Barley. A misunderstood character being himself, and he teaches even me to be myself more.

So I will still be around checking out the love for Onward and sharing it with the world (Tumblr).

[ryuichirou]

Replies

I was writing hcs and before I knew it I was out of time lol So only a couple of replies today!

Anonymous asked:

I want to say that I love your art. There are some people who say your art isn’t good because of the ships you do, but I generally love your art, even if the shipping may be wrong in some way. The art style and how you draw the characters are so beautifully done. I admit I am a bit of a fan when I see some NSFW mentions. Lol. Please continue drawing, as I can’t wait to see your future projects.

Thank you for your kind words, Anon!

It does get annoying when people attack the way I draw, but getting messages like yours is very inspiring and always motivating. So I am very happy to hear that you like my drawings.

Honestly, I would love to draw more nsfw stuff lol I always feel like I draw a lot of this kind of stuff, but then look back and realise that the majority of things that we post is surprisingly innocent. That has to change! lol

Anonymous asked:

To the anon simping for skelly-boy:

You're not alone!!!  I'm really starting to adore this dork??  He's just? So cute?!  And dorky?!  And I'd love to listen to him talk as long as he wants?!

And I really shouldn't be surprised by antis at this point.  That explains why my feed went from all skelly to no skelly (I've luckily avoided seeing all the whining though, guess I've already blocked the majority of those people...)

Considering people had zero issue with the simping until his "age" dropped, it's almost like the number these pixels are programmed as has almost no meaning and isn't reflective of being attracted to younger people irl but antis want attention I spose...

and now I'm reminded of that anti who said Sebek was "very obviously 16!" (my dude, it's a pretty boy gacha, the only one who's "age" is obvious is Trein.  And if you take away his wrinkles he'd look like the others)

Anyway!  Cute skelly is apparently my type now (at this point Yana could draw an actual chair with a human face and I'd simp for it) so I too will simp in silence in solidarity with that other anon (if they're okay with my distant companionship of course). 

And thank you Ryu for keeping us fed with the most gorgeous fanart I have ever seen!  I hope you and Katsu are taking enough breaks!

Yaaay more Anons simping for Skelly-boy!! Let’s all unite and keep simping lol

It really is very unfortunate just how many people instantly got uncomfortable not because of the age reveal itself, but because they instantly knew that they were about to get harassed over it. It’s so easy to look at the situation logically and realise what is actually going on, and how hypocritical it is (Sebek being «very obviously 16» is very funny…)

And it is unfortunate that you and the other Anon have to simp in silence. At least both of you now know that you aren’t alone, and please be sure, there are a lot of people like you, us included lol I sketched him once already but it’s on Ko-Fi for now, don’t know when I’m going to draw anything proper with him… We’re not going to be silent when we get there, though, hehe, if he turns out to be up our alley.

Thank you so much for your ask and thank you for enjoying our stuff. I am extremely happy that you find it gorgeous!! Always such a joy and honor to hear that. We’ll do our best not to overwork ourselves, so thank you for your concern <3

[cult-of-the-eye]

Who's your #1 favorite TMA character and why?

Oh god I love them all but I'm gonna have to say that Jonathan Sims has GRIPPED ME. That sad little man fills my thoughts constantly.

It's one of my biggest fears that if I'm ever even slightly unlikeable then I'll be unlovable but he's prickly and makes bad decisions and is hell bent on doing stuff on his own and yeah I'm also known to be a maker of bad decisions and not great with people and hugely stubborn and would rather die than ask for help so it's nice to see that when it comes to it, we're both loveable including those parts and not regardless.

He's also dorky and makes terrible jokes and is long suffering and literally same. I love this man.

It sounds weird to be like yeah eldritch antichrist is literally me but I think it's the writing as well that's made so many people just latch on to Jon cause he's just so human, everyone makes bad decisions and can be stubborn and prickly sometimes and so we all see parts of ourselves in all the characters really but especially Jon. He was put in a terrible situation and he reacted like any person would. Just like we do in our terrible situations.

I've got a soft spot for Martin as well because some of my favourite people are very much like him, they just give and give and I feel protective over him like I feel for them. I've also been Martin, just like we've all been him at points of our lives. Also like he's Martin he's amazing he makes tea and likes cows and writes shitty poetry and cares so much!! Who wouldn't like him?? (We also share some trauma so there's that as well lol)

I also really like Tim for sort of similar reasons. I can relate to his reaction to a horrible situation being This Is Unfair and making sure everyone knows that It is Not Right and It Sucks. Cause he's right to do so and it's an understandable reaction even if it's not the prettiest. And I fucking love ugly and realistic depictions of trauma and grief. He thinks he's the only sane one there, the only one willing to see the truth of the situation and that makes him miserable and I understand his rage. He's never properly processed any of his grief cause he's stuck in his rage and it's painfully understandable but also his downfall and I think that's the tragedy of his storyline. He's also a bomb ass bisexual manwhore whom I love dearly.

So yeah, I hope that answered your question!! Thanks for asking it!!

[microposting]

What's the best movie you've seen that involves a giant/tiny premise? Looking up a list of such movies made me find out that in Germany there's a full trilogy of this guy called Felix who shrinks his teacher in one, his parents in another, then his classmates in the third one, and damn Felix I can't help but thinking there's a common denominator here. Everyone in your life should be wary of you, Felix

LMAO I’ve heard of that one

uhhhhh I mean obviously child characters are a no go for me on here but I’m chiller w it in films, like Arrietty is obviously a gorgeous movie. I’d count Ponyo in that too. tiny Rick Moranis was great cause I’m into dorky guys like that but I was only like half watching honey we shrunk ourselves. MST3K has done a number of sizey flicks and I love those episodes I think they’re super fun. obviously the movies themselves are BAD. I can’t remember if I’ve ever gotten like hot and bothered over size diff in a movie tho

[my-ants-are-anxious]

I'm gonna talk about shows in my brain right now, and if you have any thoughts, I would love to hear them! (Especially if you see these in a different way!)

(For context, these are shows I watched when I was young, and I'm just revisiting them in my mind, so I'm probs getting things wrong)

Okay, so-

Hey Arnold: We seek to understand each other and ourselves. By existing in community with one another, our lives will be richer. Be curious about the beauty in the world, and be brave! My only complaint is that Helga feels far too interesting to not be the main character. Also, the background art is so pretty!

Doug: I truly love the honesty in the character writing, the playful art direction, and the willingness to grapple with difficult emotions, often resolving in messy ways. When I was young, it depressed me to think I might be a Doug (in personality/character). Thought I am dorky, and I love daydreaming, like our titular character, it has delighted me to no end to find out that I'm just as much of a Judy (moreso, even)!

Recess: As a child, I felt filled with joy at the rebellious zest for life of this group of friends, and a fair bit jealous. As I look back, I am a bit depressed imagining a group of rebellious kids slowly stop their fight against "the system" and beginning to drift apart. I don't have any other thoughts here, and I carry both that sadness and that joy with me now, post-reflection. Idk, I just like grumpy buds.

The Muppets (Main show, Muppet Babies, Treasure Island, etc.): I mean, baller show. I really just want to talk about Gonzo (adult-me understands child-me's fascination with the character much better now), but I will refrain. I've decided to complain that Oscar the Grouch was not a member of the Muppets. The Muppets have plenty of great complainers, a few wise-guys, and at least one Monster, but they really could have used a Grouch.

Ahh! Real Monsters! (Not sure if this is the right spelling, but I'm not looking it up): We, as humans, would be so far ahead if everyone could have witnessed thus (joking, mostly). I love this show. I feel kinship, true fellowship, with just about every character in this disgustingly beautiful work of art. My tiny child brain really thought I might have a shot at living in the sewers and dumps as a monster, and that got me through so much, tbh.

Sorry for the many-words, I hope this letter finds you well.

[dutchdread]

Rebirth update 4

Sephiroth: "Cloud, don't let her fool you" Cloud: "This trustworthy fellow makes a good point!" For real though, I am having a lot of fun at the moment, a little behind on where I wanted to be though because I spent more hours that I feel comfortable to admit trying to get a perfect run in the Junon parade. Eventually settled for a full combo with 3 "goods" in there that honestly should have been perfect as well but who cares. I enjoy the minigames but as someone who wants to do everything perfect because of fear of missing out they do really slow me down, but that's a me problem I suppose. I am now no longer neutral with Aerith since the parade gained me points with both her and Tifa. I am really enjoying Queens Blade, although it is pretty simple, and the on-board competition was just fun. Nanaki in his uniform was everything I had hoped it to be and more. And Barret in his sailor uniform speaks for itself of course. I am still unhappy with the weapon upgrade system, which in my opinion isn't really a system at all, I just get a new weapon and I slot a few options in there same as materia, and forget about it. Especially since the folios also feel like a bit of a "we have a sphere grid at home" situation I feel like this could have been handled better. Where the game really shines are its characters imo. Cloud is a great mixture of cool and hidden dorkiness, and his chemistry with Tifa is amazing. Analyzing his little looks and throwaway sentences is fascinating, although I do feel like the solution to the "who is Cloud" twist is a lot easier to predict this time around. Barret is just perfectly done in general with his passion and lovable teddybearness. I hate escort quests so escorting a dog through dangerous territory to deliver some money, rather than doing it ourselves, was silly, but hearing Barret gush of Marlene made it worth it. And again, the chemistry with Cloud is perfect "Barret, get your shit together!". Redxiii is a lot more endearing than he was in the OG and Yuffie especially is a lot cuter and less annoying. Aerith is better in some regards and worse in others. She feels more human now than she did in remake, which is good. But she now feels naive to the point of childishness where I feel she's closer to Yuffie in maturity than to Tifa.

More importantly though, the bros from the 7th are the best characters now and my new family, and the commander is gorgeous, hope we see more of them. Loved seeing Andrea and Madam M again, some of my favorite new characters in the verse and its still hard to believe they weren't in the original. And I know I might be alone in this, but I love Kyrie as well. Always thought she had a great design, the first time I saw her in a remake trailer exiting the train I already noticed her in the background, and I just enjoy every scene with her. Still need to learn to make synergy abilities, with the exception of launching Tifa, a more standard part of my battle plan. And the lack of enough shortcut keys is becoming already more apparent as well. Especially since I am not allowed to determine what R1 shortcuts to. Anyway, I'm in Junon now, and really enjoying myself, time to go to work.

[seikatsu-ga-tsuzuku]

Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks...

This is gonna be very hard to decide but I'll try my best. Gonna stick this under a Read More 'cause this shit boutta be long as hell:

1) Neku Sakuraba from The World Ends With You

He's the main character of the story that changed my life. He was very relatable to me at the time I first consumed TWEWY over a decade ago, and even now I still have a lot in common with him. Neku is very important to me because taught me a lot and impacted me in a way that I feel like I'd be a completely different person had I never encountered TWEWY during those formative years.

2) Kakashi Hatake from Naruto

I don't have some profound reason for Kakashi like I did Neku. But I think he was the very first character I ever became obsessed with or cared about deeper than just liking them because I liked the media they were in. And realistically, what's not to like about him.

(From here onward the accuracy of the list may dwindle because of the sheer amount of media I've consumed. I'll probably forget someone or important or simply be unable to decide, so take who I choose with a pinch of salt, especially in order. I have many faves and I am only certain about Neku and Kakashi's places on this list).

3) Sophie Hatter from Howl's Moving Castle

Because HMC is my favorite Ghibli movie I may be biased, but I always looked up to Sophie due to her strength and capacity to love free of judgments and despite any ugliness, inside or out. She's pretty, kind, brave, and tough, all the things I wanted to grow up to be as a kid when I first saw HMC.

4) Shizuku from Whisper of the Heart

Shizuku is one of my favorites for a more specific and personal reason; because we're both writers. I see in her a lot of myself when I was younger and even now. Having the desire to write something you can be proud of and satisfied with, to the point of being hard on yourself and emotional when you fall short of your own expectations. She's a complicated ball of emotions, but she's got tenacity and a love for whimsy that she puts into her writing. I just find her relatable and lovable.

5) Haruki Nakayama from Given

I just feel a spiritual connection to Haruki. We're kindred spirits, in the way we act, think, view ourselves. How we experience love and the relationship we have to our craft. He really is just like me fr.

6) The Chocobros from FFXV

Nooow I know this is cheating by including all of them, pero like... Do not separate! No but realistically, I can't choose one of them over the other because I love them all for different reasons, but I'd also be remiss to not add any of them to this list. They all had such an impact on my life, brought me joy during a particularly dark time, and their friendship and bond is something I envy and seek to have for myself someday.

7) Kotetsu T. Kaburagi from Tiger & Bunny

Would y'all crucify me if I said he's my favorite superhero across all media? I mean it honestly. Kotetsu is the embodiment of what a hero should be, his attitude, morals, and passion for helping others. He's like the perfect protag to me. He gets bonus points for being a goofy dorky single dad who's tryng his best, and is also hot.

8) Shigeo Kageyama from Mob Psycho 100

Do I even need to explain this one. Mob taught me so much about being kind and forgiving to not only others but yourself. Not many pieces of media have touched me in a way that MP100 has, and Mob fits into a lot of my favorite protag tropes. He's just a simple, sweet darling boy and he's so cherished and important to me.

9) Yona from Akatsuki no Yona

One of the female protagonists of all time. I love her for many of the same reasons I love Sophie, but she's just 10x more cool. As Spike Spiegel once said, I love a woman who can kick my ass.

10) My OC Seth Manolis

Now I realize this may be cheating but I couldn't decide on the last character, and I'd argue he technically counts according to your criteria, because he's the protag of two novels I wrote myself. I created Seth when I was 14, writing little "journal entries" about his life on Deviantart back in the day to cope with me starting high school, but over the years his story has evolved into something serious and now I'm writing a whole trilogy about him (on the third book now). He's very important to me because writing his story has got me through a lot in my life, and I put so many pieces of myself into him, although not exactly a self-insert. I can go on all day about Seth, but just know he's my special little blorbo who I don't know what I would've done without. (Art is commissioned from @/bumblevip on IG.)

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My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

I think there is some Meta that can be taken from 180 Degree Longitute Passes Through Us, an extrapolation of the very personal story of In and Wang.

There is a certian trauma for us Queers of a certain age who had to grow up and live our lives and make choices based on scripts written for us by deeply homophobic societies. Now, in a world that has changed so drastically but that still clings to the vestiges of its homophobia it feels like we have to confront those choices, the things we did to just survive.

Some of us didn't survive (Siam), and some of us made choices that hurt those around us (In). And some chose to remain blind and cling to harmful institutions that leave us stunted (Mol).

Wang's anger at these systems feels so righteous and powerful, as does his absolution. He represents the generation that comes after the shackles have been loosened, as the healing can now begin and we can connect to the parts of ourselves we may have hidden from for decades out of grief and shame and fear.

59 notes - Posted September 18, 2022

#4

The moment I emotionally invested:

oh.

67 notes - Posted January 17, 2022

#3

Made a gif for all your judgy reaction needs

68 notes - Posted November 17, 2022

#2

Livewatch Thoughts: Kei x Yaku

Episode 1

This show is doing exactly what I need it to do right off the bat (thank you @dangermousie​ but also why did I let you tempt me into a live airing show with only one episode out!?!??)

First off we start with sickly sweet couply nonsense and then devolve right into the **MurDer** 

Con, right off the bat is yes, we are gonna fridge a girl to get some man angst and motivation. Its going to be the premise of the show. Perfectly fine if that isn’t your thing (it’s an annoyance in my book) so warning in advance - and the fridging is violent and shown pretty early on and repeatedly.

Pro is that the character work going on is exquisite. Shiro is a young Yakuza boss shown in bed with another man. Everything about him screams danger and he weilds a sultry sexuality like a weapon, always calculating. Ichiro is an undercover cop tasked with getting close to him - but also desperate to solve the case of the missing girl - his mentor on the force.

The air between the two positively crackles with intensity and it is so. very. very. gay.

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95 notes - Posted January 17, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

The bagel and the googly eye are two major symbols of this film. Not only is it a surprisingly apt and humorous take on yin and yang, but in the same stroke it explores concepts central to Buddhist philosophy. To boil down more than 2,000 years of Buddhist discourse – it is thought that all things exist only through our perception of said things. Therefore, they are without inherent meaning. They’re empty.

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Through the googly-eyed lens, we gain the power to control our infinite emptiness. Waymond (Ke Huy Quan), the dorky husband of Evelyn (Michelle Yeoh), reminds her through simple kindness that there is value where you want to create it and meaning where you choose to see it. In Buddhist thought, it’s our compassion that grounds us – makes us human – and emptiness isn’t the mark of nihilism and despair but an opportunity to leave behind the bad and cherish the good.

533 notes - Posted May 17, 2022

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[parasolids]

man i gotta say... even with YA getting more diverse ms marvel is still my favorite muslim teenager rep bc i feel like it's probably the best story that's still readable/watchable to american audiences, and because kamala is so.... real. like i remember being a dorky extremely online 16 year old with a stuffed animal obsession! if you replaced kamala's avengers obsession with anime and emo bands you would literally have awkward 16 year old me! which meant the world to me when i read it when i was 16, because so much fiction with muslim characters is about the cool-girl valedictorian hijabi, and indeed i was surrounded by cool-girl valedictorian hijabis but was clearly not one myself. i also feel like......... i liked how ms marvel wasnt really romantic. i mean there was romance obvs but it wasnt the main point of the show and i would love to see more stories about muslim teenagers that is less cute YA romance specifically and more science fiction/fantasy or entirely nonromantic. and i appreciated how ms marvel actually showed how horrific the partition of india was, because for all of the education we get on gandhi, we get...... pretty much no exposure to the fact that partition was a mass death event that still heavily affects south asian politics today. we dont even really learn that partition was at all bad unless we look into it ourselves.

ultimately i am very excited for polite society because 1) i have been waiting all my life to see a pakistani teenager throwing hands in full desi formalwear and 2) nimra bucha absolutely KILLS the evil mother vibe in ms marvel so im very ready to see it again in polite society

[leelee120000]

My Chemical Romance’s Reunion Perspective

November 26, 2019

As a person who still hasn’t grown out of their emo phase, my perspective on My Chemical Romance’s (MCR to fans) reunion is one of relative rareness. I was eleven when my best friend really exposed me to the scene, before that I still loved Fall Out Boy (FOB) for “Thnks fr th mmrs” and Panic at the Disco! for “I Write Sins Not Tragedies,” off of their 2005 album. 

But being a little kid, I hadn’t experienced their albums or much of anything like that. If it wasn’t on the radio, I didn’t know it existed.

My BFF’s emo band of choice? MCR. She sent me links to MCR albums on YouTube and it became a great pastime of ours to discuss and debate them. Her favorite album was “Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge,” she practically lived in her t-shirt with the album logo in spite of it attracting taunts.

My favorite was (and still is) “Danger Days” for it’s bright and colorful fun sound almost hiding it’s anti-capitalist and anti-war themes. We would make fan fiction featuring ourselves as KillJoy characters. Exceptionally dorky, I know. But hey, we’re both great writers and it was fun.

In those early days of my participation in the MCR fandom life was great. She and I went from friends to best friends. We were having so much fun from this common interest.

Songs from “Conventional Weapons,” a project that was scrapped with tracks that had never been heard were being released to the public! Everything looked like it was only going up!

Everything changed on March 22, 2013. I remember her calling me, weeping. At first, I thought it was a joke. It obviously wasn’t. To say we were a wreck was an understatement. Here was a band that had given us everything, eloquent ways for us to express our sadness, and identity, and poof, it was just gone.

A year later we got the greatest hits completion, “May Death Never Stop You.” It was a small spark that kept die-hard fans hopeful that a reunion could happen. Conspiracy theories floated around for the next six years..

Things like, “Danger Days” takes place in 2019, MCR might return then! Gerard said they wanted to be like Smashing Pumpkins, who took a six-year break. And the absolute best, the band could avoid becoming a teenager (song reference) by taking a break on their 12th year and returning on their 19th. The shocking thing is, that as laughed at as these theories were, they were true!

The fandom was burnt before. Back in 2016, Warner Music decided to post a teaser of MCRX, I lost my mind thinking it was a reunion. We all, us fans, went crazy. Once we found out that MCRX was nothing but a hits album, oh boy, Warner Music must’ve had thousands of hate messages.

But I wouldn’t trade this pain for anything else in the world. Some of my greatest internet friends came from the fandom. The lack of official content forced fans to become creative. If you need me, I’ll be throwing on eyeliner and joining The Black Parade once again.

LeAnne McPherson

[1im-perfect1]

A whole essay could be written about names in What we do in the shadows and how well they describe each character but to get to the point:

Nandor attaching The Relentless to his name, even if it’s a title he had as a human, is him being trapped in the past and the impossibilty of enjoying his existence as a vampire or as a being with emotions and not only a tyrant.

Nadja underlining that she’s from Antipaxos is her being proud of her origins and reclaiming her poverty as a sign of strength on how she can succeeds and make a name for herself but also makes her hotheaded and hides a thinly veiled insecurity.

Laszlo is a chosen name but Cravensworth is his father’s, he can never escape his family’s baggage but at the same time he uses to his advantage with what it has taught him, the privileges that come from his background, he’s also the one that has a name and a surname, integrates the best in the modern world and enjoys it the most.

My point is of course we know de la Cruz is an important surname that links Guillermo to both his Van Helsing and mexican heritage but what I’m interested in is how people use his name: to Laszlo, Nadja and sometimes Colin he’s Gizmo (a familiar at first and a friend now), to his family he’s Memo the dorky baby of the family, to his boyfriend he’s Gigi (a nickname used in 2x1 “it’s better than Gizmo” but not as good as Guillermo).

The only person that never NEVER uses a nickname is Nandor a line I really like in 2x10 is when Nandor can’t find him he looks at the camera and says “It’s Guillermo” after describing how he’s surprisingly sneaky, acts like a kid and likes to test his patience because it feels so affectionate, he doesn’t want Guillermo to be any other way and it’s important that they all get introduced to another part of Guillermo that same episode “de la Cruz” and how Nandor from then on tries to get it right to get to know that part of him, even the pronunciation, I know we make fun of ourselves for having ground level standards with Nandermo but the significance of Nandor doing his best to acknowledge that part of him and include it everytime he asks something of great importance is just so meaningful to me.

And also why my favorite line of the all the “love of my life” spiel is “I may not remember my beloved’s name” right after Nandor gets beaten by one of his wives (the same thing that happened right before he proposed to Guillermo) because it starts with the opposite of what Guillermo is and highlights that whoever gets chosen at the end won’t be anywhere near the right person and seeing how badly that ended reinforces how both Nandor and Guillermo function as characters.

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[lady-of-snails]

its 5pm that means its time for me to sit here and contemplate the fact that like thousands of people have read my writing and liked it enough to let me know in some way and also some of them talk to each other about it in real life without me being directly involved like huh. like that one ask i got a while back about someone talking about my fics with their bff like HUH. 

that means i have contributed joy to this world. like that’s a real thing i have done in a very small yet individually meaningful way and thinking about that is so?? wild?? i give people the same kind of happiness that i’ve been given every time i see some dope ass fanart or some adorable or well-written fic/book or yell about beloved book characters with my friend. each of us have some kind of a skill and passion that can undoubtably bring something good into this world, no matter how much we doubt our or our creations’ abilities, and literally all we have to do is put ourselves out there a little bit. its not even that fanfiction in itself is particularly meaningful or special its that creation is meaningful and special and community is meaningful and special and feeling like we’re not alone in this world is meaningful and special. and it may seem dorky or “not that deep” but that’s what fanart and fanfiction is - its using our joy of things to create, to reach out to others and form friendships and out silly little mutual connections that can mean so much to someone in dark times; its fuel for real-life connections and its proof that other people exist and care and do the little things that bring them joy that bring you joy. it doesn’t matter if its the fiftieth time you’ve read a story about two anime characters falling in love or its just the bit of inspiration you feel when you see a post of your favorite book character drawn really well, that’s still a net positive impact on the world!! i guess what i’m trying to say here is that somewhere out there in the world there are two people that are friends and they talk about something i created and it helps them pass the time; or there is someone out there that’s just been having a really rough day and they use something i once posted on a whim to make them smile. and that is so fucking rad.

[cheerstofandomfamily]

Well it's officially been 15 hours since I began realizing that my hopes were about to be crushed, and my fears would become reality.

I stepped away from Supernatural earlier in season 15 because I knew the only ending to this show would be death for at least one brother. I knew that for my mental health I needed a break, or to step away entirely, from Tumblr and from the show. It was consuming me, and I was letting it.

I didn't think Destiel would ever happen. I had made my peace with that, and I left the show during a time where not a lot of drama was happening. It worked, and I was able to continue loving Destiel through fan fiction, and occasional moments that I would later on see on Tumblr.

Then 15x18 happened. And the whole world exploded in rainbows and black goo. And I said to myself, "Well if they're going to let THIS happen, then it might soften the blow of seeing one of my boys die a perma death."

It did not.

Supernatural, I cried myself to sleep last night. And I'm crying again writing this post, because you took my hope, gave me a HEARTBREAKING death scene, and then NOTHING to tape my heart back up again.

To Jared & Jensen - you performed the most emotional scene I have seen in an incredibly long time. And I applaud you for it. I'm mad at how it went down, but I give you credit for making me feel feelings.

To Misha - you deserved better than to be an extra they had to cut due to covid. I'm devastated for you.

To the Supernatural fandom - I don't know what I'll do without you guys now. I truly cannot grasp the reality that I'll never be able to analyze another gif set, or image of Dean's bedroom, or wonder if Sammy is going to get hit in the head again. I'll never see green and blue the same. I'll never be able to listen to Carry On My Wayward Son the same, if at all. I'll never hear the words "you changed me" again without wanting to punch something.

To the friends, and mutuals I was interacting with and had to step away from - I'm truly sorry that we have been so misled by the story. I've enjoyed the last two weeks immensely, and can't put into words how much I will miss this. (Alphabetically tagging a few specifics that have been either on my mind or in my notifications recently, but there are SO many of you that I will miss dearly.) @amyoatmeal @dean-is-bi-till-i-die @emblue-sparks @legendary-destiel @madimoo31 @mmangoss @mrsaquaman187 @savannadarkbaby @savemecastiel @shippsblog @spn-bitchh @spnjohnlocked @verobatto-angelxhunter @weird-dorky-little-d

Each and every one of you has made this experience so meaningful. You asked what about all this was real? What the point was? We are.

To the writers - I have no words. I know you did what you thought would be a great ending, and maybe I'll look back in another 15 years and be at peace with it.. there were some good moments, but for me I will always remember what was missing.

I understand now. You were the Empty and WE were Castiel. The moment we let ourselves be happy, you came for us. The moment we FORGOT and let the sun shine on our faces, you brought us to nothing. And then left us to burn with our regrets.

I suppose I should thank you for letting me see Sam shirtless one last time, but then you destroyed that with a stupid wig too. I should thank you for the fact that Cas was in heaven and was able to fix it with Jack, and spend eternity as TFW after all, but we didn't even get more than an eyebrow raise and half a smile. You couldn't have used his voice in this episode instead of 15x19? Now I'm mad about Lucifer again. I will never be over the fact that you thought we'd want to see him again, instead of literally any other character.

I'm ENRAGED. That you took my Sammy, and all his character growth, and leadership development, and said "the only peace for him is if everyone he loves is taken from him and is left with only one path in life, and that's the apple pie life where he can grow old and have a kid" WHAT.

I might add more later, I don't know. Right now I am sick with grief over this finale. I know I can't look at it objectively, I know a lot of people out there did enjoy it. I am not one of those people. And I knew better.

[bimney424]

We honestly care about the characters that make up this dorky ass game that we watch live every Thursday & countless times throughout the week. Why? Because they are relatable as fuck. We can all see ourselves in at least one or maybe more of these imaginary characters who are played so brilliantly by genius actors. We sit around & hang on every word that comes out of Matt’s mouth as he sets the scene, for better or worse. We laugh out loud at Jester’s antics & Veth’s trolling. Grimace at Beau & Yasha’s awkwardness. And revel in the awesomeness that is Caduceus’ mind. We want them to succeed in their adventures, all alive & intact to fight another day. To have them fall in love & be happy or just get the closure that they so desperately search for. We love them to the point that, even though they are not real, we feel it. We become so invested in them that we feel their anxiety, we pick up on their emotions (good or bad), & it consumes us to no end. We speculate & build theories on conjecture because we want to believe that no matter what, nothing bad will happen & they will make it out of this. Intact. Some focus on a date that might not happen, feeling without it, the relationship will crumble. The reality is, the date is a formality. These two would still be in love without it. Others focus on a cult of Nine Eyes that is trying to worm it’s way into two brilliant minds & disrupt the dynamic. Could all of this just be a smokescreen that will dissipate after Lucien is gone? We collectively hold our breaths waiting to see what will happen, because we genuinely do not know. Part of the reason we love this show & these people is their ability to make us believe in everything that is happening. AND WE LOVE EVERY HEART WRENCHING MINUTE OF IT!

Who would have thought a game with a bunch of nerdy ass voice actors who sit around & play Dungeons & Dragons would have such a profound impact on the world.