#we ll never get tired of this joke

[fangirlforeversthings]

Obi wan anakin and ahsoka family soap blurb

So i just rewatched one of @zengers star wars ai videos on youtube (which i can only highly recommend they're the best) and heard obi wan calling anakin and ahsoka 'kids'. And this combined with their relationship what was always big bro little sister and their tired single dad i had an idea of soap about obi wan ahsoka and anakin and their daily life:

Anakin and ahsoka being the kids, anakin the older broher and ahsoka the younger sister and obi wan is their tired single dad raising them (also the mom role with their mom satine already passed away who had loved her beloved kids and husband uncondicionally and was so fun and warm and sweet and is missed every day so badly) and r2 d2 being their pet which dad never wanted but the kids found it lost without a home and begged him that they please could keep it an that they would ofc take care of it (obi dad has to take it on walks and feed it and we know it) but in the end he still loves it aswell. Yoda being their unhinged great grandvather already in retirement home telling dirty jokes at the dinner table on thanksgiving and qui gon being their grandfather living nearby teaching them dumb shit joining them on their stupid adventures. Mace windu being their neighbour who hates kids but especially them two who always destroy his peace and quite, windows and lawn. Yelling over the fence to kenobi to get his fucking brood in control while they always play pranks on him all the time. Padme being anakins girlfriend, rex their cousin and cody, quinlan and obi single dad besties, a bros since childhood trio.

Them (the kids and the dad bros) spreading chaos wherever they go. Kids making the dumbest decisions and going on the stupidest adventures together every day, going on their dads very last nerve and not listening to him most of the time. Them accidently almost blowing up the entire city by trying to get him the best gift for fathers day/ his birthday (they probably forgot it in the first place and gotta apologice) trying to show him how much they love and appreciate him and how sorry they are. They would do everything for him and love him uncondicionally. Obi dad sometimes even joining them on their dumb adventures or himself making the stupid decicions and them experiencing all kinds of chaotic days in normal day to day life.

Episodes where the dad bestie trio and all their kids together go on roadtrips camping and get lost and then get chased by a moose through the woods while some funny song playing the background. Or a funny day trip and then at the drive home anakin would be like "...and that was so funny you should have heard that loud splash when i threw her into the fountain, she was so mad tho. But it was so worth it cause it was sooo funny" "Well certainly not for your poor, soaking wet sister" "oh by the way while we are talking about her....where is she?" "What do you mean anakin? She's right th..." and obi dad then turning blank white in the face after looking in the backmirror while driving realising they had forgotten her in the hotel lobby (still dripping wet) and him than doing a 360. turn weels screaching and yeeting of to get her. Her pouting all the way home and obi wan apologizing the whole time "dear i'm so sorry i don't know how that could have happen your brother was going on my nerves with the pool animal and" and anakin just laughing.

Then in the end of the episodes they'd be sitting on the couch in the living room like "dad you know that we love you so much thank you for being the best of all dads" and these were the rare moments they'd be so serious and he'd be like "aw kids even tho you k*ll my very last nerve every day of course i love you guys too more than everything and i could never imagine my life without you two in it" "and r2" "yeah ofc and r2" and then after a cute warm cuddle anakin would say something like "even tho you're old as f*ck" and crack the moment with the invicible audience laughing and obi dad shaking his head sighing and laughing and then the episode ends.

Just their daily life that would be an awesome, fantastic family comedy soap.

Any show title ideas anyone?

[snapesbestbuddy]

headcanons about the young Severus Snape?? I'm curious because I love that character so much (and when he was young I like him more)

I got so many! Almost every second post of mine is about him.

1. He hit puberty when he was 17, until that you could mistake him as a girl, because he was 5'6, unhealthy skinny and obviusly had his long black hair.

2. He did infact smoke from a young age, even he hated the idea of it.

3. Also obvius one he is a mama's boy and always will be.

4. Him and Reggie were besties until the end, I also like to gaslight myself with the idea he switched side because of him, instead of Lily.

5. And if we are at Lily, I'm sure Severus moved on at some point from her. Has he forgiven himself for what he did? No. But he was obsessed with her with all those years? Also not.

6. He loved small animals, especially as a young child. He admired every bug, reptile or even mammal (like cats or rats).

7. He was the type of guy who would either spend time at a play ground or a grave yard.

8. He become close with the black family, mostly after Lucius and Narcissa marriage.

9. In his mind he addressed himself in second person, like he would think about himself things like: "You’re such a loser".

10. Of course he is autistic.

11. He head a weird attraction for evil people, especially if they done somethink evil for him, he really wanted someone to step up for him.

12. I also admire slavic Severus, what is not real, but being half slavic would definitely fit him.

13. He almost k*ll himself after the prank, thanks to the idea of others literally tired to k*ll him. After some hard times he could found enough strengh to not do it, but the thought never really left.

14. The only girl friend he had even in his life other then Lily, was Charity Burbage, and her death destroyed him.

15. Boy know how to steal, he was whole pickpocket, sometimes he done it as a joke with Mulciber or Evans to annoy them, but there was time when he actually stole thing from gryffindors.

16. The only muggle games he loved was card games, Elieen played a lot with him when he was younger, so it was one of his sweeter memories.

I just get all out from myself in the past 20 minutes, I'm sure there would be more.

[ninbinary]

[leighlew3]

now that the show is over and some time is slowly passing, are you willing to revisit the discussion about early show discussions about making Kara pansexual and how it veered away from that?

I mean... I've heard things but you never know what's true.

Look, I have a friend whose friend wrote for S1 under that predatory piece of shit AK, and she was so traumatized by the experience that she refuses to even discuss her time working on the show. So my friend who also watched the show and rooted for an LGBTQ Kara and SC Endgame and wanted to know WTF along with everyone else, rightfully wasn't about to push nor ask about what truly was planned or went on, because it just wouldn't be appropriate.

I also know somebody who is connected to AA's circle and I know AA went through a lot of bad and unfair shit as well. So you never know what plans people had, what long-term outlooks were in mind for characters, but starting off with a lesbian co-showrunner, and sapphic jokes and nods to Kara's possible sexuality multiple times in S1 ("Oh my God you're a lesbian." and Leslie saying she gave off sapphic butch vibes and Kara's comments about Lucy, etc) certainly hinted that she might've been meant to be bi/pan from the get by some. And rumors suggest that too. But maybe CBS got in the way?

And then when it landed on The CW, maybe someone hoped to try again with bringing in a favorite amongst wlw fandoms in the form of KMG, with an "LL" name and red/blue dynamic and her first episode having a Clois save recreation and testing chemistry and such with a 3-episode arc a la EBR on Arrow being hired for just one episode initially then recurring, then being made a regular and Oliver's romantic endgame. It sure seems like it was always something some people were aiming for -- especially after that confirmation from the S2-3 writer who openly wrote "Supercorp" into a script, wrote a scene after Mon-El was sent away where Cat tells Kara that love is still ahead for her and in walks Lena who asks Kara to dinner, and said on Twitter she "was always rooting for those two". But clearly those who rooted for it and tried for it were continuously fought and shut down by somebody... showrunners, networks, EPs, etc -- who knows. I believe even Chyler had mentioned being surprised that Alex would be the LGBTQ character for S2, and I think I read someplace that FL was cast a pretty last minute.

Meanwhile over the years, SG repeatedly lost or never locked down some of their best LGBTQ and SC-heavy writers. Did they simply move on? Were they let go for always fighting for SC? Or were they just sick of hitting walls on what was clearly the most organic path for Kara and Lena and the show, and grew tired of writing forced cheap imitation relationships between the two women and various men due to heteronormativity and homophobia and bts situations forced upon them by somebody above? Nobody knows.

So again, we can't know for certain what everyone's plans were until they reveal it themselves, if they ever even can or do. I do know other writers from the A'verse who fully saw and believed in SC and didn't understand nor agree with what the show did and why they never went there. To me, that tends to suggest it wasn't a DC/WB issue... because if was you'd think they'd know that. So it sounds -- at least to me -- like it was more of a showrunner or EP or network issue.

I will also say, I was shown a DM exchange between a S5-6 writer and a fan in S5 during the height of the writers room getting hammered with negative feedback and reviews where this writer hinted at creative conflict with showrunners and within the writer's room in general, and made it clear that some writers were in line with what fans wanted, but had people above them to answer to.

This also seems to be backed up with JF's recent interview where he stuttered through an answer on SC/queerbait, citing approvals from above being needed and so on, but never giving a direct answer on the issue. Obviously no one wants to break rank or risk future work by pointing any finger directly at any one person or company.

Look, perhaps one day we'll all find out the truth... until then, since Kara's sexuality was never defined as straight, since she slept with one man in the history of the show one time, but also seemed a bit taken by Lucy, openly flirted with Kate twice, had interesting chemistry with multiple women from Psi to Cat to Imra and more, and was established as being soulmates with Lena over the years with all the Clois and other romantic parallels and tropes and framing and the 100th (being mysterious "partners" in a universe where both weren't with others at all, and one could plead the 5th in court against having to testify against the other) and their heavily coded "coming out" discussion and "us against the world defending our family" vibe in the series finale, plus Kara looking Lena's direction while singing "we belong together" and looking/heading towards her after she took off her glasses and walked away, now her true self...

I think it's safe to assume via tons of subtext and even at times maintext in a way, that Kara was in fact pansexual, and Supercorp was truly endgame. So just take that "win" -- which in the year 2021 is an absurd and unacceptable consolation prize, alas...

It is what it is.

[dialovers-translations]

DIABOLIK LOVERS Para-Selene Vol.4 Tsukinami Shin [TRACK 5]

Original title: いつもの日常

Source: Diabolik Lovers Para-Selene Vol. 4 Tsukinami Shin [CD not owned by me]

Audio: Here

Seiyuu: Morikubo Shoutaro

Translator’s note: Look, I actually had high hopes for Shin. He often calls out other characters on their bullshit in tokuten CDs and seems to be decently intelligent. Unfortunately, he didn’t exactly appreciate the MC forgeting all about it and thought it would be a good idea to absolutely traumatize the poor girl in an attempt to help her regain her memories. At least he does snap back to his senses during the final 2 tracks and there’s some genuinely sweet moments which await. uwu

Track 1 ll Track 2 ll Track 3 ll Track 4 ll Track 5

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TRACK 5: EVERYDAY LIFE

*Rustle rustle*

“Nn…Ah…Huh? This is…the balcony…? …!! Hey! Are you alright!? …Hey, wake up!”

You wake up.

*Rustle*

“Phew…Thank god. …Wait, no, this isn’t good. I don’t know how, but we ended up outside somehow. Your cold will get worse. Let’s head back inside.”

You shout.

“...!! Why are you shouting all of a sudden?”

You explain.

“Haah…? You remembered…? …What exactly? …Huh? You mean your memories have returned!?”

You nod.

“For real!? Thenーー What’s my name?”

You answer his question.

“You’re speaking the truth…But how? After you forgot everything…”

You tell him you feel better too. 

“Haah…? You have to be lying when you say that your fever’s gone. Show me your forehead.”

*Rustle*

“Hm…? …!? It’s not hot…You got better? Huh? Then…Everything is back to normal!? …Ah. What the fuck!? Ahahaha…”

Shin drops down on the floor.

*Thud* 

“I’m fine. My legs just gave in for a sec. What was all of that bullshit!? Ah, godーー! I said a bunch of really embarrassing stuff…!!”

You chuckle. 

“Haah? What? You were happy hearing me say those things? Excuse me? Shouldn’t you apologize to me first?”

You say sorry. 

“...!! That won’t do at all! I can tell you don’t actually mean it at all. Come on, take two!”

You repeat yourself. 

“...! …I’d prefer for you to lower your head a little more but…Oh well. Guess I’ll forgive you this once.”

*Rustle*

“You better believe I won’t be nursing you back to health or anything next time. I won’t try to recover your memories either. I’ll just push you aside and abandon you. …So don’t you dare ever forget about me again, okay?”

You promise.

“Mmh. …Say? Look this way…”

*Rustle*

“I’ll only say this once, so listen carefully, okay? …You’re the only one for me. And that will never change. …Mmh.”

*Smooch*

*TIMESKIP*

You are cooking in the kitchen again.

“...Making pasta in the middle of the night again? You never get tired of that stuff, do you?”

You turn around in surprise.

“Hehehe…I don’t know whether to call you a fool or just slow but this isn’t the first time I’ve surprised you like this so don’t you think it’s about time you grow used to it?”

You insist that he simply caught you off guard. 

“Liar. You get jumped super easily, even if you’re not focused on cooking, don’t you?”

You ask if he’s here to tease you.

“Hehe~ Exactly! I’m here to pick on you. ーー Or actually, that’s a joke. I remembered something about what happened the other day, so I came to inform you. I figured it’d be pretty sad if you never found out why you were suffering from amnesia.”

You ask Shin if he found out something. 

“Yup. Nii-san actually told me about it quite some time ago. Could it be that you were watching the moon right before you lost your memories?”

You nod.

“See? I’m pretty sure it looked as if there were two moons. It’s a phenomenon called the ‘Paraselene’ and it’s quite the pesky one at that.”

You tilt your head to the side.

“Exactly. You were affected by the disease it brings forth. …If I recall correctly, it’s called the ‘Paraselene Syndrome’. It’s an illness which causes hallucinations. Since you had contracted it, I got caught up in those illusions as well. Honestly, it’s such a ridiculous disease. Ah, right, right! You’re forbidden from looking at the moon for a while.”

You protest.

“What? You can’t do that much? I bet you wouldn’t want to get sick with such an annoying illness again, do you? …Don’t worry. I’m not asking anything difficult of you. I came up with the perfect strategy which even a doofus such as yourself should be able to manage. That isーー”

Shin embraces you. 

*Rustle*

“...Heh. All you have to do is keep your eyes on me instead. Easy, no?”

You nod.

“Hehe…You nodded, didn’t you? There’s no backing out now. If you dare avert your gaze, a severe punishment will await…Understood? Mmh…”

*Smooch*

ーー THE END ーー

[cleumz-moved]

carving pumpkins with them!

(anemo version)

i'll do others if you think i should!!

contains -jean, sucrose, xiao, kazuha (featuring beigguang), venti, aether, and lumine x reader, aswell as sayu but hers is platonic

warnings!! - knife mentioned/implied, mild cursing (in xiao's)

JEAN -

she just had to make time for you! so insistent on this tradition, and when you suggested barbara join in, well how could she refuse!

she carves a simple face, with triangle eyes, and a wide grin.

she doesn't mind touching the pumpkin guts, so she'll scoop them out for you if you really don't like them.

when halloween night falls, after she hands out healthy snacks (kaeya sneaks the kids candy), she sits near your pumpkins, eerie candlelight illuminating her soft smile, she states,

'i'm glad i have some one as special as you to celebrate with'

SUCROSE -

ohh, sucrose, she was so ecstatic you wanted to spend time with her, she even used bioalchemy to make extra big pumpkins! (much to lisa's horror)

she doesn't find the guts gross, and even bakes them to make roasted pumpkin seeds!

her pumpkin has an intricate little flower design on it, leaving you wondering how she's so skilled with a knife!

on halloween, when you set out the pumpkins, near timaeus' alchemy stall, to hand out sweets, she was so blushy when you kissed he cheek under the spooky silver moon!

'oh! i made some special candies, if you wanted to try them! they're made from our pumpkins!'

XIAO -

you wanted him to do what?? why would the vigilant yaksha, protector of liyue, do something so childish and strange?

when you finally convince him, with mild begging (how could he say no to those eyes?), he hated the pumpkin guts. disgusting, slimy and cold. you would have to dispose of them yourself.

when he begins carving, he does so quite aggressively, but when you ask to see what he's done, a delicate bird shape adorns the gourd.

as you eat lots of candy, in celebration, you explain, he looks at you with that soft gaze reserved for his to favorite things, almond tofu, and yourself.

'oH- IT'S ALL GROSS AND SLIMY, YOU EXPECT ME TO TOUCH THAT CRAP?? ABSOLUTELY NOT!!'

KAZUHA -

beidou came to bully (affectionately) him and ning came along, she walked up and did the childish 'oOoOoOoooOo- kazuha and (name), sittin' in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G!' ningguang had to physically drag her away to go to the costume party thet were invited to (ning was a mermaid and beidou was a fisherwoman <3)

once you actually start carving, he'll carve the most intricate thing you've ever seen, and he does it so fast it'll make your head spin.

the rest of the crux catches wind (ha- anemo, get it??), they make pumpkins too! the alcor is aglow with a million little lights, and its docked in liyue harbor.

while the crux goes out drinking, you and kazuha sit in the crows nest, gazing upon the stars, he reaches over, and places his hand on yours, and hums contentedly.

'bei- beidou!' 'ahahah- have fun with your giiirlfriieeend/booyyyfriiieeend/significant ooootheeerrrr'

VENTI -

he was soooo excited! he couldn't wait! he talked about it the night before you planned to at the tavern! (diluc got kinda tired of hearing about it lol)

he is so childish. he threw a handful of pumpkin guts at you. right in your face. you weren't too upset though.

he carved a self-portrait! a messy little thing of his wind spirit form! it was soooo cute.

as i mentioned before, he pretends to be a kid to get free candy, so after sorting it on the rug, he shared some with you!

'wha? you want the sweet flower candies i got from sucrose?! nuh-uh! those are my favorites! ...fiiineee i guess i'll share'

AETHER - (not technically anemo, but my they almost never get included :()

while he is looking for his sister, he wants to spend time with you aswell! he remembers carving pumpkins with lumine in a different world, and gets a little sad, but thinks about how she wouldn't want him to be sad right now!

he actually likes touching the goo! thinks it feels neat. he also told paimon it tasted good, like slime, as a joke, but then she actually enjoyed it! then he tried some, as did you, but it really wasn't great (speaking from experience)

he carved pretty stars on it! nothing fancy. paimon carved a fish.

and you sat, on a rock in the wilderness, telling spooky stories around a campfire, while paimon was cowering. he laughed at all the right points in your tale, and even suggested telling some more in liyue harbor, sure the patrons of tea houses would recognize your obvious talent.

'no really! im serious! it's super good!' 'yeah, even paimon got scared!'

LUMINE -

she really likes halloween, remembering all the times she's scared aether, and planned to scare you!

she went and picked the biggest pumpkin she could find! it was soooo big, you all had to work on it together!

on her portion, she carved a scary face!! paimon carved in some bread.

she went to show the knights, proud of her handiwork, and lisa almost fainted! sucrose wanted to know where she found the pumpkin, for research purposes! and klee said it would be super cool filled with bombs.

'maybe klee's right? oh! we could put firecrackers in it! loud noises are scary!'

SAYU - (keep in mind this is platonic)

she doesn't wanna carve the pumpkin, it'll be sooo tiring, she says, but when told it might help her get taller, she immediately agrees!

she doesn't really carve her pumpkin, but gutted it and fell asleep inside! she also added eye holes!

she watched you carve yours through the little holes, and thought it was sooo cool!!

'maybe celebrating holidays with you is so bad, i think i grew an inch!'

- FINISH

happy halloween everyone!!

[theleslistuff]

Stay

In Casper High strange things can happen...

The hallways are always filled with different kind of rumors going from the caffeteria food being contaminated with ectoplasm to Wes talking about the Fenton boy being a ghost, even though it´s obvious he´s just contaminated with ectoplasm from his parents lab as well as his twin brother and his sister.

But alongside these rumors, one of them is growing strong...

A scrawny girl with long and dirty brown hair like her eyes wearing a purple shirt, black pants and blue shoes carrying a black backpack appears in the school´s football fields everyday at 9 a.m. looking at the nothingness..., even teacher´s are concerned about this..., Mr Lancer has tried to ask her about her parents, she won´t answer... but if you give her food she´ll be gone in a second.

Rumors say she´s just a homeless person from another town, other she´s a ghost for those pecular eyes... this one being investigated by Phantom himself, trying to make her talk or even capture her with the thermos he always carries around..., she stole the thermos, maybe thinking there was soup in it...

The last rumor and the most believed... 

She scaped from a mental hospital, even so... no one has ever called the police since she´s not hurting anyone..., even so..., everyone is kinda scared to get close to her, even bullies...

But that doesn´t stop them from using her to bully others...

Specially the boy that sometimes... spaces out like her...

-Look!, Andy´s girlfriend is here!-

Shouted out Paulina as she was looking through the glass at the scrawny girl...

-She´s not my girlfriend...- 

He murmured, tired of it being the nickname they put on the girl..., he never goes to the window to see her, neither Danny or Sam, except for Tucker... he was curious about this too.

-Come on!, she´s just a homeless girl!, why are they making a circus out of this?!-

Sam said but no one paid attention to her as they were too busy looking at Mr Lancer bringing food for the girl. -Can we just stop talking about this...- Danny said as he felt kinda unconfortable for his encounter with the girl, he got up from his seat, Andy followed suit, in a second both twins were walking away from the scene, Sam tried to follow them until...

-Andy´s girlfriend is getting into the school!-

Dash shouted making everyone panic as they closed the door

-Wait, no!, Danny and Andy are still out!-

She tried to tell everyone but no one cared... except for Tucker

-What do you mean They´re outside?!, that girl had a knive!- 

Meanwhile both boys were walking down the hallway

-So..., where are you going?-

Danny´s twin asked, the kid turned around with a little jump and a scream

-Oh..., it´s you..., you´re kinda sneaky sometimes bro...-

Andy just sighed

-What really happened when you encoutered that girl?..., I can tell something about it is bugging you...-

Danny just looked away

-I just..., I´m kinda... scared..., It´s not the eye color, is that... I saw she carries around weapons in that backpack... and she has a weird smell... like iron..., something in her is really wrong..., I know she noticed... because...-

He looked directly at his brother

-She said she would hunt me down because..., she had never tasted something like me before...-

Andy looked kinda grossed out

-Maybe... she´s just joking around Danny, I..., I don´t think it was true or maybe she´s from the guys in white, I don´t know... or just capture you with the thermos..., like... come on..., how would someone... eat another... human?...-

He tried to calm his brother in the middle of the empty hallway..., even so... they did not pay attention to the footsteps getting closer

[percqbeths]

can we please stop being anti-annabeth solely for not being a cliched female love interest i am so tired of people painting her as manipulative, harmful, toxic, or anything of that nature solely because of some of her natures. annabeth chase is a character who

grew up in a household that made her feel constantly unwanted and a burden, so much so that she fleed

didn't know what a stable relationship looked like–arguably yes she could have seen silena and charlie but they were also teens who were new to it all. she had no one guiding her.

ran away from her home early on and found safety in two people–one of which sacrificed themselves for her and the other betrayed her

has a fatal flaw that causes her to fully believe she could always do everything better than anyone else

constantly seeked approval and praise from a mother who was never there

annabeth chase is all those things. now let me debunk what people believe she is:

"annabeth is toxic." — no, she is not. she is a survivor of a traumatic childhood and doesn't always know how to go about her emotions. camp half blood, for as friendly as it is, trains warriors. she wasn't raised with parent figures teaching her how to communicate her thoughts, in FACT, the only parental relationship she had was parents making her feel unwanted and dramatic (ie her stepmother telling her she's scaring her brothers), so as a result she doesn't KNOW how to talk. if she ever came off as rude or negative it was solely just her lack of being able to talk it out.

"annabeth is abusive." — once again, no. the judo flip scene came from her genuine irritation and the heaviness in her chest of being without percy for so long. it wasn't out of harm, they sparred together all the time, and he laughed it off. also remember annabeth didn't know percy lost his curse of achille's, so in her eyes she didn't think he would feel pain from that flip. so all she did was just tell him i'm so mad at you for being taken away from me and also let out her inner turmoil. she did not expect him to get hurt.

"annabeth shouldn't call him seaweed brain its harmful." – seaweed brain and wise girl are their childhood nicknames to one another. its not harmful–YOU GUYS implying that the nickname implies him being stupid or it hurting him is actually far more harmful. the nicknames hold nostalgia for the both of them: it holds the fact that despite everything they're best friends, that they've come so far from where they started and how even though they disliked one another they fell in love. it's not a harmful nickname, it just shows how much she loves him.

the annabeth/rachel dynamic – i'm sorry, but why the fuck are we crucifying a teenage girl for being jealous? i genuinely do not fucking understand why people r getting so angry at annabeth for being jealous of rachel when she was literally in love with percy and one of his only friends for THE LONGEST time before rachel came along. feelings and romance aside, as a friend (who has been abandoned in the past for others, like thalia did w the hunters) i would feel really jealous as well. the whole botl dynamic is just childhood pettiness and jealousy at its finest, and then in tlo annabeth admits she let percy have a summer with rachel DESPITE her wanting to be with him–how is that bad? she's a teenage girl in love with her best friend who's met a new girl, one who's mortal and comes with far less baggage and who he can just relax with–her feelings of jealousy were completely valid throughout the series, stop hating on her for them. and then as for the whole tartarus "keeping percy on his toes" thing–that was playful. and a joke. and annabeth and rachel are literally friends at this point. calm the fuck down.

while i am on this subject of annabeth chase slander, can we please k*ll the jokes that imply annabeth is a tr*mp supporter, a racist, or a homophobe? if ur a poc and u enjoy those jokes i won't gatekeep u from making them but please remember that a lot of those jokes have hella heavy implications and are very out of pocket. people hate on her because of that page in moa where she says she hates the fact that she's blonde, but i raise u this:

annabeth chase is highly insecure as a character. THE ONLY THING SHE IS SECURE IN IS HER BRAINS, SO OBVIOUSLY THE IDEA THAT PEOPLE MAY THINK SHE'S INFERIOR OR DITZY BECAUSE OF HER HAIR COLOR WOULD MAKE HER FEEL INSECURE! it's VALID of her and y'all literally took it and turned her into a racist who'd spit on me and call me a terrorist and i just–i don't get it.

also just because i think annabeth slander should end doesn't mean i don't think y'all need to stop attacking other female characters as well specifically hazel and piper because y'all seem to just constantly attack these female characters and i am so tired of it.

thank u for coming to my ted talk 😁

[6okuto]

— m3 found family moments

delivery for. . . @soupieluvs !

this was vry cute to think about thank u for the idea/req ^______^ if anything goes against canon it's because ^__^ I haven't touched LL in over a month and fictif is not currently installed on my phone ^__^ pls forgive me..plea

thinking about the first few group meetings with the m3 and how they didn't really know each other as well as they do now. how they gradually figured out each other's habits and mannerisms through many, Many weeks of training and learning

felix and anisa bringing sage back when he's spent a little too long at the tavern. the way he's a little louder or a little closer than usual and they both roll their eyes a little but smile as he tries to crack a joke or says something weirdly sappy. he might forget in the morning but they never do — even when he manages to really annoy them.

i don't doubt for a second they've stayed up together a bunch of times just... talking. about their pasts together or apart, what crazy thing happened last week, etc etc. and maybe they didn't stay up with this as the goal but man it's late and they're tired of working/reading and hey, wasn't it funny when that guy ran into the wall the other day?

sage and anisa Younger Sibling'ing felix. sage tells asks felix to do something and does the "i'm older than you, don't you know you should respect your elders" thing on him. felix says "so you are old, then?" he still probably goes and grabs what was asked but he makes sure to watch sage's processing "Wait." face before walking away

they so very rarely do chores together like grocery shopping. smth smth it can get loud and Disruptive for other people who complain or stare. sometimes though, it works out when they all know they have to stay (semi) focused/be fast and suddenly they all know each other's eating habits and what they're missing and being coordinated

shakes you around and makes you stare into my eyes. sage or anisa asking the other for help with their hair. i don't know what products sage uses he feels a litte 3-in-1 shampoo but his hair is so nice? why? anisa must know.

little moments like anisa going "have either of you seen my purse?" and sage and felix both asking "have you checked your pockets?" without blinking. or one of them making sure there aren't cucumbers in sage's food (unless it's for a prank). or felix finding a new book he's wanted on his desk with a little thank you note for his help on the last mission

or like,, the way they'd process the fact they even know those things. they say stuff like "we can't get that, felix doesn't like the texture" or "anisa wanted to try this, didn't she?" or "this is sage's favourite beer, not that one." and then they take a second to think about how much they know about the others. and it's like...wow ok.

the pranks...the silly scares and whatever else. jumping from behind a corner, throwing things across the room, ruining sage's current flirting mission by embarrassing him, drawing on each other's faces, impersonating each other during a game of charades, yelling and waking each other up for a job that is Definitely happening and Not Fake, How did you forget this was happening???

birthdays... :( little cakes and a little singing. little personal gifts and doing whatever the birthday person wants — maybe not easily or without a few pranks beforehand but hey,, what's family for. it's so important because there's no one else around to celebrate with and wow we really have and take care of each other and save each other's lives and orz

they know the signs of each other being upset and make sure to check in on them, reminding the person in question that hey,, we may not always get along and i know you're having a tough time,, but you aren't alone. and we care about you after all of it. we know you're not taking care of yourself please take this food it's your favourite

these three may not be super into hugs,, especially with each other but. maybe after a big win and celebration they wouldn't completely hate a group hug — you might even find them laughing and smiling at it. will they bring it up later? i wouldn't bet on it really but it's a bit of a core memory the first time it happens

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|| You deserve better,and they know it too. ||

(Fnaf 1) (without foxy)

Summary: you deserve so much better then them. And finally know your worth.

Note: today I woke up and choose ANGST. also the fnaf 1 gang are mostly humans (minus foxy)

WARNING: TOXIC RELATIONSHIPS, VIOLENCE, GULIT TRIPPING, MENTION OF BLOOD AND INJURES, READER SNAPPING, YELLING AND SCREAMING,CURSING,MENTIONING OF SUICIDE, NARCISSISM,MANIPULATION, CHEATING,GLUTTONY, ALCOHOLISM,POSSESSIVENESS,BREAK UPS,DIVORCE,

READ AT YOUR OWN RISK ⚠️

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Freddy:

You loved him, but he was too much in his own world that it felt like he didn’t love you at all. He used you as a punching bag (metaphorically) and only cared about himself and his reputation, he only accepted to being your boyfriend because it would boost his reputation and fame. He never showed you any sort of love, and just gave you expensive gifts whenever you got angry, which made you angrier because that’s the most he gave you, but never gave you his love or time. And you were sick of it. —————————Maybe it was the fact that he only kept you around for fame, was the reason you snapped. Or maybe because he thought he could fix everything with money and gifts? Any reason gave you good and probable cause to snap. “I’m done.” You finally said after months of (mental) abuse, “what? You can’t be serious.” He said laughing,thinking you were joking. “We are done.” You said again, “wait…your serious?!” He yelled, causing a scene, you both were at a fancy restaurant and he was on his phone the Entire time, mostly posting on social media. “I’m sick and tired of your narcissistic and toxic behavior, at this point I don’t know if you love me or not!” You yelled, some how it lifted some weight off your shoulders, this kept on going for a few minutes before it ended with you leaving the restaurant,

“ i want you to grow up and realize that we all have lives too.”

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Bonnie:

He was just… a guilt tripping manipulative Bastard, he would always guilt trip you iinto stuff you didn’t even want! It felt horrible.every time you wanted to leave, he guilt tripped you. Saying how he’ll k*ll himself and how much he is going to suffer without You. And manipulated you into thinking your the bad guy, always putting the blame on you, even when it’s entirely his fault. This made you feel disheartened at the fact you can’t leave. “I……we should break up……” you said, ‘this is the fourth time I’ve tried…’ you thought sadly,”what!? No! Your the only thing I have left!” He cried horribly. “Was it something I did?! I can change myself for you!” He kept on crying, “STOP!!” You screamed at him, “I AM DONE AT YOUR-PATHETIC,MANIPULATIVE,GUILT TRIPPING, MOTHERF**KING SELF.” You ran to your bedroom and started packing all your belongings, he was right behind you, Wailing about how he’ll k*ll himself and how your the last thing he has left. At that point you couldn’t care less, before you would always get guilty and comfort him and love him, but now you don’t think there’s any love left for him.

” You need to stop being a big crybaby and start going to a therapist. “

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Chica:

She only talked to you when she needed somebody to pay for her food or to get it for her, at first it just seemed like she like restaurant dates but they always ended with you paying, and she drinks alot. She is always either drunk or sober, she would mostly be cheating on you with various woman,men,they/thems, all types of people, she would never let you even near another woman, even on TV she would immediately close it because ‘you might leave me for those other women!’ Her reasoning, and the only thing going on in your mind is ‘but it’s just a commercial?…’ while she’s off making out with people, your back at home working day & night just for her to spend it all on Alcohol it enraged you. “I want a divorce.” You said sternly at the dinner table, throwing papers in-front of her, “what? No!! Your leaving me for one those girls in the commercials! Aren’t you?!” She yelled, clearly pissed off, did you care? No. “Well……I’m gonna take everything away from you!!” She said trying to sound Intimidating,failing at doing so, her voice cracks mid-way her sentence.“I already spoke with my Lawyer, try too.” You said,not breaking a sweat. Smirking whilst doing so.

“I need you to stop going out for party’s and get help.”

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[ephemeral-sorrow]

jake x male!mc as best buddies/partners in crime

a/n: this came up out of nowhere, nevertheless please enjoy. @captainwanderlust78 inspired me

➢ you would have never even entertained the idea of befriending someone so peculiar and extraordinary, but in a strangely comforting way so compatible with you.

➢ jake found himself growing closer to you on the basis of the kidnapping incident. it was the most inappropriate time to encounter someone and, furthermore, discover a special connection between the two of you, while there were currently more paramount matters at hand. however, jake contemplated this issue a lot and rather disappointedly cocluded that he wouldn`t have known you, unless compelled.

➢ during Hannah`s case: you eagerly helped out and supported each other in the times of distress. as you got to learn the hacker`s personality better, you actually found out he`s quite insecure and worried about the situation, if not the most among the group. he tried to conceal his emotions and succeeded in doing so very masterfully. he needed at least some human care and comfort - being the warmth-starved guy he was - he needed reassurance and comrade advice. jake had an undeniably strong willpower and a cold head, but even he sometimes allowed the anxiety to get the best of him.

mc: "man, you sound pretty tired." delivered, 17:03

jake: "do i really? i`m the same as always, mc." delivered, 17:03

mc: "i know i`m nowhere near when it comes to understanding the kind of problems you must endure, but i`m here to listen. don`t feel ashamed to share, just because 'you think you don`t have the right to be weak' and stuff." delivered, 17:04

mc: "well, at least not in front of me. we`re in the same boat since it all started." delivered, 17:04

mc: "are you there?" delivered, 17:05

jake: "yes." delivered, 17:05

jake: "i suppose i need some time to come to my senses. otherwise it`ll start affecting my mental performance, and that would be highly inconvenient right now." delivered, 17:06

jake: "how`s it going with the weather?" delivered, 17:06

mc: "do you seriously want to talk about the weather in my region at the moment?" delivered, 17:07

jake: "that was my way of saying "thank you". " delivered, 17:08

mc: "... dude, you gotta work on formulating that." delivered, 17:08

➢ in spite of jake`s secretiveness, the conversations you shared always seemed to flow in the right direction and held no place for the tension. you managed to discover more and more new about your mutual hobbies and interests, as well as endlessly crack jokes only you two had a knack for coming up with.

mc: "lol, jake, guess what." delivered, 23:42

jake: "i`m still not fond of you saying this strange word." delivered, 23:42

jake: "is this a modern vocabulary youngsters tend to use?" delivered, 23:42

mc: "you talk like my grandfather right now." delivered, 23:43

jake: "..." delivered, 23:43

jake: "yeah, right. so what was it?" delivered, 23:43

mc: "pfffft, don`t tell me you`re sulking. that line is so cliche it`s illegal to get offended and it`s even older than you! :D" delivered, 23:44

jake: "okay then, i`m getting back to work." delivered, 23:44

jake is offline

mc: "dude, come baaaaack, i was only joking." delivered, 23:45

jake is online

jake: "you have an interesting humour." delivered, 23:46

mc: "comes in pair with your responses. :D anyway, want to hear a real joke i intended to crack?" delivered, 23:46

jake: "bring it on." delivered, 23:46

mc: "why has grandpa's origami business gone out? because it folded." delivered, 23:47

jake: "... and who`s the grandpa now?" delivered, 23:48

jake is offline

➢ ... even if it was mainly jake facepalming at your attempts to coax him out of his shell.

➢ overall your mental connection kept on getting stronger by each passing day, filled with upcoming troubles caused by the kidnapper and the joining police forces, and you bravely pushed on towards your ultimate goal to untangle this mystery.

➢ i canon that once you finally met up face to face, the first thing you said was about jake coming barehanded and breaking his promise to take you on the motorcycle ride. his face was priceless, although he regained his composure fairly quickly and smacked the back of your head with the rest of his long hoodie sleeve.

➢ after this you`ve completed the picture by chasing the mwaf alongside others.

➢ after the incident(or i would rather refer to this as the alternate universe in which both you and jake are dangerous fellas, that work together against the underworld):

➢ of course, jake did not agree to this idea right away.

➢but observing your capability to make the ends meet and communicate with informants using sly and clever methods, he couldn`t throw the suggestion off either. his enourmous trust, which you`ve patiently earned drop by drop for the past two years, played a key part in his decision. if it hadn`t been for you, god knows where he would`ve ended up. you`ve become his faithful companion he knew he already couldn`t cope without, whether he realised that or not.

➢ so, this is how it all began. jake was still unsure - especially at the beginning - if he should further drag you into the damn mess his life was. you were his first friend ever, his one and only person alive he could rely on. despite the bond you`ve come to form, jake was terribly afraid something would go wrong and you would end up hating him for ruining your peaceful life.

"even if we end up getting caught, i have no regrets." you mused, taking a slow drag of your cigarette. the snake-like smoke drew unknown and quite peculiar patterns in the air. currently both of you were resting on the roof, can of cool beer in your hands. jake suggested coming here once you were finished with the errands for today needed for executing a bold plan - infiltrating the military cyber base to search the information on the requested individual. he was some sort of a higher up, numerously reported by his subordinates for using his position. unfortunately, the police kept closing their eyes on it, easily seduced by the delicious amount of money the serviceman was granting them.

upon meticulously investigating the subject and collecting the data about the victims, the two of you assented to not wasting any time.

"in spite of being so smart, you sure do spurt nonsense from day to day." jake`s voice was calm and void of emotion, but the way he stared into the distance with a griveous expression spoke volumes. "of course you`re going to regret it." he turned away from the glimmering city lights and sent you a little smile.

"what`s with that face, mate?" you hit the hacker`s shoulder, making him choke on his drink.

"hey." he coughed into his elbow, testily glaring at you.

"in fact, it`s you who says the strangest things. our whole friendship has been a risk since the very start. it`s a tad bit too late to realise that, hm?" your eyes held a confident and lively twinkle and somehow it combined well with the momentous things you were proclaiming.

"..." you were right, and jake didn`t find a proper argument to that. instead, he chose to take a quiet sip from his can.

"don`t you worry."

"what?" the sudden light gust of wind caused jake`s hair to flutter a little. the sounds of cars honking and hundreds of people chattering below drowned your voice.

"i`ve got you and our job. we`ll continue buiding that ideal of ours until it becomes the wonder of this city and to those in despair. you know... there`s something i always knew deep down but never had the courage to do. virtue. and the actual guts to help someone, even if it may cost you something."

jake looked at you curiously and dared to make an assumption.

"you mean my sister?"

"she was the main push i needed to realise this, yes. after the incident, i`ve been thinking a lot about the kidnapping, police, our lives and roles in all of this in general... i knew it, but then i felt it: there`s nothing more valuable than saving someone."

you directed your gaze all the way down, where people hurried across the streets like small ants.

"and you want to continue doing this?" unbeknownst to him, a smile tugged at jake`s lips.

"and i want to continue doing this."

➢ you`ve become quite the consultants in the area of accessing to various kinds of information and solving cold cases, long forgotten by the police or marked as "top secret" by government. struggling to find your traces and eventually contacting you through reliable channels, people pleaded for your help. they either wanted punishment or blackmail for their evil-doers and could only hope that the mysterious duo would extend their generous hand and faciliate the judgement.

please tell me if you liked the story and if you want part two.

[cades-outsider]

Eli/Hawk X Reader

Warnings: This may get you in your feels for a sec! Very slight smut warning!

Fighting Gravity

You would be lying if you said it wasn't tough, it was the hardest thing you have done. It's not easy breaking up with someone but you felt as if you had no other choice.

You were with Eli before he turned into Hawk, before he started becoming someone who he despised the most, he became his worst enemy; a bully.

Just as if the day could get any worse you had to be at school, well it was lunch time so it wasn't so bad. I mean you were already halfway through school just two more classes, that you also share with Demetri.

"Listen to me Y/n" Demetri says catching your attention.

You playfully roll your eyes as you know that he's going to tell you a cheesy Star Wars joke, that will most likely be funny to only you and Demetri and we'll Eli if he were a 'nerd' again as he calls it.

"Which Star Wars character works at a restaurant?" He questions, already laughing at the joke he was thinking of.

"I don't know who?" You ask sarcastically.

"Darth Waiter" Demetri says, now fully laughing at his own joke.

He laughs at his own joke caused to you to laugh, plus it was a cheesy move. The laughing dies down as you and Demetri stop, in the middle of the hallway. Eyes subconsciously connecting with each other's, you both feel yourselves being pulled towards one another.

"What the h*ll do you think you're doing nerd?!" You hear someone yell causing both you and Demetri to pull away, have being caught.

"I-uh well-" Demetri stutters before you speak up, Demetri sighs in relief.

"Why do you care? We aren't together anymore" You exclaim, as Hawk walks closer to you both.

"Yeah I wonder why, it's not like I wanted you anyways" He smirks.

You knew what was happening, you knew that he was just putting on a facade to the students that don't give a crap about him.

"Oh yeah? And how's that working out for you" You smirk.

"Quite well actually, I don't have to see your ugly reflection everyday" Hawk snarls.

"Yeah well neither do I" You scoff, almost saying something bad but you bite back your lip. Knowing that's Eli's insecure spot, that you shouldn't bring up.

  You bite back the urge to say something you'd regret in the long run "whatever I'm not even in the mood" you roll your eyes and walk away.

"Come on Demetri" You demand as he follows behind.

  "Uh- what was that?" He asks referring to the almost kiss.

  "I- I don't know" You admit honestly.

  He decides to not ask any more questions even though it kept running around his mind. After lunch, the day went by pretty fast you were driving on the way home when you got a call. It was Demetri.

Both Demetri and Moon decided to get your mind off of things, so she threw you a as she called it a 'get over hawk' party. Which was what Demetri called to tell you about of course.

"Come on Y/n! This will help you in-lighten your inner spiritual self!" Moon says jumping up and down, clapping excitedly.

"Fine fine fine...." you mumble, knowing you couldn't say no to Moon.

"Yay!" She exclaims happily.

"Come on I have the perfect dress for you!" She says pulling you into her closet full of dresses and unique outfits.

"Here! Take this!" Moon pushes the dress into your chest, excited.

  You don't even get time to check out the dress before Moon rushes you into her second closet, "rude..." you mumble playfully.

  You slip on the dress, with no problems at all. It fit ever curve just perfectly. "Wow.." you gape as you spin around looking at yourself in the mirror.

  The dress included a slit in the middle from your thigh and it was a sparkling blue shade, with spaghetti straps.

  Not even a second later Moon barges into the closet causing you to jump, she squeals cheerfully "o-m-g you look so sexy!" She says smirking, proud of herself.

"Wait, why am I wearing a dress when I'm just going to swim anyways?" You question.

"Oh you silly Y/n! We're showing Hawk what he's missing!" Moon says smiling as she grabs some of her green juice that she made.

"Okay.." You nod your head, trailing off.

"Plus I bought me a matching colored dress!" She says holding up the dress.

You gasp "it's beautiful Moon! You'll look gorgeous! As always" You gush.

Moon smiles slightly at the compliment "well what are you waiting for! Let me do your hair" She says ushering you in the chair.

After a couple hours Moon had finished your makeup and hair turning you around to see your beautiful reflection in the mirror.

"Wow.." you gape at the magic Moon had put into.

  "I know right!" Moon agrees.

  "Oo- I'm going to slip on my dress!" She exclaims happily as she rushes into her bathroom.

  An hour went by and people were finally here, kids eating pizza in the corner, some drinking beer, and some already throwing up in the lawn.... 'pfttt lightweights' you giggle to yourself.

  In the middle of your direction you seen Hawk and a group of his friends sitting around him, a red solo cup in his hands as his fierce eyes scan over the partying people. Only to be met with your beautiful shinning eyes.

  His demeanor changes almost immediately, he was tired of putting up this act yeah. But he did not want to go back to the kid with the weird lip, so throwing this act away was a no at least for now.

  His eyes sparkle with admiration as he scans your beautiful features, and your sparkling blue dress. He couldn't help but let his eyes wander to the slit in your dress which revealed your right thigh.

  Just then Demetri walks over to you with a wave "hey Y/n, would you like to I don't know per say go for a swim?" He asks, beating around the bush.

  Sparing a side glance at Hawk you notice his jaw clench as he squeezes his red solo cup causing whatever liquor that was held inside to drip down his hands and onto the floor.

  Deciding what harm could do you nod "I'd love too" you reply as he leads you both to the pool outside, few people in the pool which confused you considering it seems like people always head for the pool first at party's.

  Unzipping the side of your dress you reveal your white bikini that Moon had bought for you three days prior as a best friend-adversary gift along with a matching gold necklace.

  You of course returned the gesture as this was your best friend were talking about, you fold the dress and put it under your towel so it wouldn't get wet.

  Demetri had already started getting in the pool, sitting down as you got in slowly enjoying the cold water against your warm skin.

  "You know Y/n, you look not the term I would use... but you look mighty fine" Demetri compliments causing you to giggle but roll your eyes playfully.

  That is until you hear a cup hit the concrete ground next to you, "you just can't stay away from what's mine can you Demetri" Hawk interrupts.

  You look up at him in shock, obviously it was just a compliment so why is he getting all worked up. I mean when people compliment Hawk you certainly try to start anything with them.

  "Hawk, cool it" You say softly, not wanting to come off as rude.

  "Oh so I'm supposed to 'cool it' while I watch Demetri flirt with you? H*ll no." He states bluntly as he starts walking closer to Demetri.

  Deciding you didn't want to see one of your friends get beat today, you pull yourself out of the pool. Gently you grab hawk by his forearm, grab your towel and push him into the pool shed full of floats.

  Roughly you slam his back against the wall causing a couple floats to fall off the wall "we need to talk" You state.

  Hawk's breathing picks up at how close you both are, "no talking" he says sliding his hands onto your cheek, rubbing his thumb in circles against your skin.

  "Just kissing..." He mumbles before placing his lips upon yours, pulling your body closer into his causing him to get wet since you just got out of the pool.

  You pull away leaving Eli with a hurt look as you push onto his chest pressing him against the wall firmer "we talk and sort things out then I give you what you want." You state firmly.

  Slowly Hawk nods, giving you puppy eyes "Look Eli, I love you I really do. But I don't like watching you become someone who you used to hate, I don't want you to inflict pain mentally... and physically like others did to you" You exclaim softly, rubbing his cheek soothingly.

  His jaw clenches before he soon relaxes "i understand Y/n, and I'm sorry I just didn't want to be the weird kid with the lip anymore..." He mumbles, slowly tearing up.

  "Eli... baby, you were never the kid with the weird lip. I love you for you, not strength, muscles, or popularity but you. I loved your corny jokes-" You rest your arms around his neck "-I loved your shyness, I loved your battle scar baby... it's what makes you my Eli" You finish as a small tear falls down Eli's eye.

  "Don't get me wrong, I love your confidence now and I love your hair but I didn't want you to get to wrapped up in it" You mumble softly.

  "I'm sorry Y/n, I really am" Eli mumbles, digging his head into your shoulder and wrapping his arms around your waist.

  "Don't be Eli, baby I understand what happened and I know why it happened but just know I always loved and always will love the real you" You say smiling as you lift his head up with your thumb.

  You run your finger over the scar on his lip before placing a gentle, loving kiss upon the scar "this is beautiful Eli, don't be afraid to love who you are" You praise as Eli feels his heart warm up with love.

  Eli reaches down and picks you up by your thighs before placing you on the little couch that laid in the room, he places his smooth lips on top of yours letting you feel his vulnerable state.

  He tugs in the middle of your bikini asking for permission if he cold take it off but before you could respond someone busts into the shed causing you both to jump.

  It was some horny couple making out and slamming each other against the walls removing clothing not even paying attention or noticing you two.

  "Seriously?! Get out!" Eli yells, startling the couple causing them to rush out half naked.

  You giggle as you rest on your elbows, sitting yourself up a little as Eli sits on his knees halfway straddling your thighs.

  "You think this is funny huh?" He teases has he bends down leaving kisses on your neck.

  "Yeah, I love the rush of being caught" You exclaim, catching Eli off guard.

  "Oh really? We'll see about that"

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Thank you @peachymelon69 for requesting! I hope you enjoyed!

[lottiebagleywritesobx]

Love Language

At the time they'd made it the language had felt like no one would ever be able to understand it.

They were only 9 and JJ had been granted permission to stay at her house, her parents used to be around a lot, although they weren't anymore, and they'd always welcomed her blonde best friend leading to his near constant presence at their home.

It was late for two kids, maybe 10 pm, and they'd been wrapped in blankets in her box sized room that felt so much bigger when they were young.

They always got each other in a way no one else understood for reasons way more complex than a secret language they would use to write each other messages, but at 9, all they needed to know was that the language was another thing that tied them together.

It was simple: to spell a word you combine the first letters of the other words.

So to write Hello  you would write Hungry Elephants Love Lollipops Okay

It had stuck a lot at first, they used it everyday and it drove Pope and John B insane, but as they got older it died out.

It was used a few times at 12 when they had an annoying teacher who made students read notes out if they were caught passing them, to everyone else it sounded like gibberish.

It was used once at 15, the world help spelled out when an older Kook boy wouldn't leave her alone and she knew he was reading her phone screen over her shoulder, not wanting to trigger him.

Now, at 17, she had laughed out loud when she'd unfolded the note tucked into her locker.

In JJ's scrawl that only she could read with ease.

 Ukraine

Rollercoaster

Penguin Ranch Eyelash Tractor Tangerine Yoghurt

You are pretty. She blushed a little, looking around for any sign of the familiar blonde boy but he was nowhere to be seen, she tucked the note into her bag, hating the way he made her heart race, before shoving the books she didn't need over the weekend into her locker and walking down the corridor and out of the front doors.

When she arrived at the twinkie her friends were already there "Took your time," John B smirks from his open window, occupying the front seat

"She was probably busy flirting with Mack," Sarah teases from the passenger side

"For the last time Sarah, he just needed tutoring in bio,"

"You are shit at bio," Sarah smirks even wider

"Better than you sweetheart," The girl grins, climbing into the back and diving out of Sarah's reach as she moves to try and flick her. Both girls laughing loudly

"I'll get the door then," Pope chides

"Thanks P, i can't get too close  or Sarah will attack me," She grins, Pope rolls his eyes but sends her a grin as he leans forwards to pull the door to the twinkie closed.

She moves through the seats to her usual space, she always sat next to JJ, no matter what. They could be drinking at the chateau, relaxing at the beach, adventuring on the boat. No matter what they were next to each other. It wasn't uncommon when one of them was feeling tired, or clingy, or touch starved for her to end up in his lap, his arms wrapped around her stomach and his chin on her shoulder.

She leans up pressing a quick kiss to his cheek, it wasn't uncommon in their friendship, often used as a greeting, a thanks or even just out of the blue, and so the other's don't think anything of it even though JJ feels himself melting into a puddle. What is a little different though is the way she grabs his hand giving it a tight squeeze before pulling her own away and settling down in her seat as John B starts up the van. He knows what it is. It's a silent thanks for the note, not wanting to say anything in front of their friends but it was a sign she got it and she was grateful for it.

He wraps his arm around her shoulder, his touch gentle but Pope gives him a knowing look, the touch is supposed to claim her. She either doesn't notice or  doesn't seem to mind though, instead leaning into his now open side as she chats happily with Kie.

**

It's monday morning and JJ is in first period history. He fucking hates history, yet, it had become his favourite subject simply because it was the only one all 6 pogues shared. He opens his school bag with sigh, placing the textbook on his desk and starting to fish around the bottom of the bag for a loose pen.

Pope turns around from the seat in front of him, placing a pen on his desk with a knowing smile. JJ drops his bag to the floor, opening the text book only for a note to fall out.

Her neat writing fills the page and the smile on his face is immediate.

Umbrella

Rocket

Happy Ant Neck Drop Surf Olive Mars Egg

JJ tries to ignore the feeling of a red hot blush creeping up his neck as he turns to look at the next desk along, she's already looking at him with a smirk shooting him a week before turning to face the front, god if JJ can't feel himself falling.

**

It continues for weeks.

Tucked into the wind screen wiper of her old shitty truck.

Taped to the sandwiches she would bring him to lunch.

On her pillow when she went to bed one night.

Stuffed into the pocket of the hoodie she borrowed.

Her school bag.

The bathroom mirror at the chateau.

They both started to home a large collection of notes. Her's placed neatly in a drawer in her bedroom. His tucked in a box under the floor board that lifts up in the room he claims as his at the chateau.

**

"What you writing?" John B questions as he steps onto the porch

"Just a note for y/n,"

"You guys have been passing a lot of secret notes recently," John B comments, JJ shrugs placing the pen down "It's sweet,"

"What d'ya mean by that?" JJ questions, John raises his eyebrows giving JJ a knowing look before having a realisation.

"You still haven't told her you're head over heels in love with her?"

"No," JJ admits, he was way past his days of fighting back when his friends accused him of being in love with her. "I don't know how to. You know me, I never say things right and I just- I really don't want to fuck this up. Only got one shot at it,"

"So write it," John B shrugs like it's obvious

"I can't,"

"You can,"

"What if she doesn't feel the same?"

"JJ, you're the most annoying person I know and she puts up with you all the time and has done since you were 2 . She feels the same,"

**

She's only wearing a bikini and a tshirt that belongs to JJ when she exits her house on Saturday morning. Her plans to meet at the Chateau go surfing with Kie already made, she grabs her board and at first she doesn't even notice it, attached to the cool box full of water and fruit she'd loaded up the night before is a note.

Ice

Art Magic

Igloo Note

London Orange Venus Elephant

Wine Ill Tiger Hungry

Yam One Under

It takes less than a minute for her to decipher the note, abandoning her surf board and the cooler in favour of sprinting to the Cheateau.

JJ is seemingly waiting for her when she arrives, he's pacing in front of the house, going still the second he sees her.

"Are you kidding?" She questions, he's stares, eyes wide not quite able to process why she looks so hopeful. "Because JJ, if this is some fucked up joke I will literally never speak to you again,"

"It's not a joke," He assures

"It's not?" She questions, it's het turn to still, having expected to arrive for him to laugh and ruffle her hair like he was her brother.

"No. I'm in love with you. I've been in love with you since we were 12 and you stole my cap and started wearing it everyday,"

"We were 14 and you snuck into my room because my parents were fighting and you read harry potter to me cause you knew my parents used to," She states

He nods, now it was all out there in the open neither of them quite knew what to do.

"For fucks sake kiss already!" Pope shouts, they turn seeing all the pogues watching them from the porch.

JJ looks at her, an unspoken question in his eyes. "Just promise me if this all goes tits up we will be friends, cause I can't loose you maybank,"

He holds his pinky out, smiling as she loops her with his and squeezes slightly. He pulls her into his chest with their pinkies. Lips crashing onto hers, spare holding her closer to him by the small of her back. Her empty hand moving to play with the blonde curls she's wanted to run her fingers through a thousand times. Their pinkies stay linked by their side, his thumb stroking at her hands lightly.

Yeah, she'd be keeping the note he left in there little love language.

[rphelperblog]

Legend Book Series Rp Quote Meme

“Each day means a new twenty-four hours. Each day means everything's possible again. You live in the moment, you die in the moment, you take it all one day at a time.”

“If you want to rebel, rebel from inside the system.That's much more powerful than rebelling outside the system.” 

“What a joke! Poor little rich girl's fallen in love with the Republic's most famous criminal.” 

“Forever and ever, kid, until you're sick and tired of seeing me.”

“You're brilliant,but you're a fool to stay with someone like me."

Then we are both fools.”

“The memory fades, and I’m left hanging on to the ghosts of his words.” 

“You should have taken me with you," 

“she has never looked more beautiful than she does now, unadorned and honest, vulnerable yet invincible.” 

“You try to walk in the light.” 

“Brave thoughts, but am I ready to follow through on them?” 

“My mother used to hope that I would rise up from my humble roots. Become someone sucessful, or even famous. I'm famous all right, but I don't think it's what she had in mind.” 

“That must be some sort of record. Not that, you know, you’re supposed to do it.” 

“You try to walk in the light.” 

“He is beauty, inside and out. He is the silver lining in a world of darkness. He is my light.” 

“Sometimes, the sun sets earlier. Days don’t last forever, you know. But I’ll fight as hard as I can. I can promise you that.” 

“I’ve been searching a long time for something I think I lost. I felt like I found something when I saw you back there.” 

"You're very attractive in case you didn’t know."

“It hurts every day, the absence of someone who was once there.” 

“You know, sometimes I wonder what things would be like if I just ... met you one day. Like normal people do. If I just walked by you on some street one sunny morning and thought you were cute, stopped, shook your hand”

“The memory fades, and I’m left hanging on to the ghosts of his words.” 

“Love is illogical, love had consequences--I did this to myself, and I should be able to take it.” 

“I hope to get to know you again. If you are open to it. There is a fog around you that I would like to clear away.” 

“I scream for everything that has gone wrong. I scream for everything broken in our lives.”

"Your entire life-your beliefs...Why would you do that for me?"

"You and me? You want to be here, yeah?"

“He loves you, really he does. He'd love you even if it destroyed him. He matches you.” 

See?tricked you. You're always staring at your opponents eyes-but that gives you a bad peripheral view.If you want to track my arms and legs, you have to focus on my chest."

"Can you stay awhile?” 

“Brave thoughts, but am I ready to follow through on them?” 

“Time heals all wounds. But not this one. Not yet.”

“We can heal. Perhaps we can return to that same place we once stood, when we were both young and innocent.” 

“Yeah, something was wrong. That was the understatement of the year.”

"Make them work for it. Punch someone if you have to." 

"You're a scary kid. So scare them. Okay? All the way until the end."

"I have to say, you look better than most people I see. I've heard a lot about you."

'A knife like this'll skewer food, smear butter, and slit throats all at the same time.” 

“Where I come from, we're more about efficiency,'

“(A)ll it takes is one generation to brainwash a population and convince them that reality doesn't exist.” 

“Tell me there is still good in the world. Tell me there is still hope for all of us.” 

“I want to run. To do what I always do, have always done, for the last five years of my life. Escape, flee into the shadows. But this time, I stand my ground. I'm tired of running.” 

“I feel so out of place here. No matter how much money they throw at me, I will forever be the boy from the streets.”

“I always knew, on some level, that I wouldn't live long. It's simply not written in my stars.” 

“My heart's been torn wide open, just like I feared it would be, and I have no willpower to close it back up.” 

“They want an execution? They’ll get one.”

“Without emotion, what’s the point of being human?”

“I make sure to keep a good distance between us, just in case she decides to get happy with a knife or something.” 

“No matter what happens in the future, no matter where our paths take us, this moment will be ours.”

“The boy who walks in the light” 

I would rather die than see them hurt you.”

“Clouds suit my mood just fine.” 

“My heart is ripped open, shredded, leaking blood. I can't let him leave like this. We've been through to much to turn into strangers.”

"With all due respect, I don't see them tacking up wanted posters with your pretty face on them.” 

“I'm so tired. I don't know if I can ever outrun how I used to be.” 

“Well...can't be any more dangerous than your crazy hospital break-in yeah?

“That's why I'm sorry. I'm sorry because you shouldn't have to be everything to me. I had you, but I'd forgotten that I had myself too. It's a new feeling, something I'm getting used to.”

“I’m not cold and I’m not bleeding,keep your clothes on.”

“You paint me as a saint,but I aligned with greed solely to prevent that.”

  “Who said anything about you , sweetheart?” 

"Today's my birthday. Do you know how old I am now?"

“Please don't take him away from this world. Please don't let him die here in my arms, not after everything we've been through together, not after You've taken so many others. Please, I beg You, let him live. I am willing to sacrifice anything to make this happen- I'm willing to do anything You ask. Maybe you'll laugh at me for such a naive promise, but I mean it in earnest, and I don't care if it makes no sense or seems impossible. Let him live. Please. I can't bear this a second time. Tell me there is still good in this world. Tell me there is still hope for all of us.” 

[dialovers-translations]

DIABOLIK LOVERS DAYLIGHT  Vol.5 Sakamaki Kanato [TRACK 2]

Original title: すれ違う心

Source: Diabolik Lovers Daylight Vol. 5 Sakamaki Kanato

Audio: Here (Huge thank you to @filthyhelplessworld​ for providing the audio!)

Seiyuu: Kaji Yuki

Translator’s note: The MC’s health is obviously getting worse and I really fear for her with a boyfriend whose best solution is to completely disregard her concerns and lock her up in the underground dungeon. I’m still betting that all of this karma will come and bite Kanato in the ass though. I’m just waiting for the angsty stuff to kick in because he needs a taste of reality.

Track 1 ll Track 2 ll Track 3 ll Track 4 ll Track 5 + Epilogue

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Track 2: Hearts Growing Apart

You are in the kitchen making sweets.

*Thud*

*Ping ping*

Kanato enters the kitchen.

“Hm...I have no complaints about the scent. Is this the sponge for the cake?”

You nod.

“Your hands have stopped moving. Please continue.”

You continue beating the egg whites in a bowl.

[00:24] “Fufu...Cut the cookies into bear shapes, okay? I want two kinds, both chewy and crispy. I grow tired if there’s no variety in the texture after all. ...Ah, I’d like my pudding on the firmer side with bittersweet caramel sauce on top, okay? I’m especially picky when it comes to chocolate. The cacaー”

Your movements stop again as you grow dizzy.

“...? What’s wrong? Now’s not the time to rest. I want to eat these soon so stop dawdlーー”

You nearly collapse, knocking over the bowl with cream in the process.

*THUD*

[00:56] “...! Ah!! The cream…!!”

*Rustle*

“Tsk...It turned out so well too...This all happened because you were spacing out…!”

You explain.

[01:13] “Hah…! You’re at it again with the sick act? Whenever things don’t go your way, you always blame it on feeling unwell! I bet you’re feeling faint because you let one of the other guys suck your blood, am I wrong!? Was it...Reiji again, perhaps? Even though you promised you would stay away from him!”

“SHUT UP!!”

*Thud*

[01:39] “I thought you were actually being a good girl and making the sweets I asked for but in the end, this is what I get! After you promised me several times too...Honestly...I’m so through with you!!”

*Rustle rustle*

“Haah…”

Kanato starts dragging you along.

“You want to know where we’re going? Oh no, you’re not going anywhere from here on out.”

*TIMESKIP*

*Cling cling*

*Rustle*

[02:23] “No, I won’t stop. Someone like you deserves no better than to be locked up inside the underground dungeon like this.”

You protest.

“Haah...You only have yourself to blame. For breaking our promise and letting someone else suck your blood.”

You deny it.

“SHUT UP! How many times are you going to lie to me? PLEASE DON’T MAKE A FOOL OUT OF ME BY ASSUMING I’D BELIEVE YOUR WORDS OF DENIAL!”

You beg.

[02:58] “...If you want me to listen to the whole story, then promise me you will never tell a lie again.”

You promise.

“Haah...Okay then. I suppose I wouldn’t mind listening a little.”

You start explaining.

“...Your health actually has been in poor condition, you say? You sure are insistent about that part.”

You continue talking.

[03:28] “So? ‘At this rate you will ーー’ What? You’re not going to tell me you’ll die, right?” 

You remain quiet.

“Kuh. CUT IT OUーー”

You nod.

“Huh? ...Say, did you...perhaps nod just now? Do you truly believe you will die if things continue down this path?”

You nod again.

“That...doesn’t make sense.”

You tell him it’s the truth.

[04:14] “You’re just joking when you say you might not have much time left, right?”

You shake your head.

“You want me to mentally prepare myself for the worst…? Ridiculous...I mean, there’s just no way you would die, right!?”

You try to make him face reality.

“SHUT UP!!”

You speak up again.

“SHUT UP!! SHUT UP!! SHUT UP!! YOU JUST CAN’T DIE!! ...Stay here until I give you permission to leave!”

Kanato stomps away.

“Kuh…!”

*Thud*

*TIMESKIP*

[04:59] “Nn...Here. You should try one of the cookies as well. You haven’t been eating at all this whole time, have you?”

You politely refuse.

“Even if you’re lacking an appetite, you should be able to at least eat the things I bring you, no?”

You hesitantly grab a cookie.

[05:26] “Mmh. Better. Umー Where were we again…? Ah, right! I remember now! Honestly, I was so surprised to find out there was another human out there who has blood as sweet as yours! Well, I just so happened to cross paths with her on my way home from school, of course. ...You probably shouldn’t give yourself too much credit for having special blood. If you continue to be disobedient, you might just find yourself thrown aside by me at some pointーー Just kidding. Fufufu…”

You remain quiet.

[06:19] “Hey? Are you listening? You didn't nod off while I was talking, did you?”

You shake your head.

“Good. You’ve been quiet this whole time though. You should say something as well. Anything will do. What has been on your mind today, or what you would like to do if I were to free you from down here, for example.”

You tell him you want to see the outside world. 

[06:56] “Hmph. What will you gain from watching the scenery outside? Your eyes should only ever be on me.”

You go silent again. 

“Hah! Ridiculous! I’m here trying my best to strike up a conversation, yet you have nothing else to tell me?”

You bring up your health.

[07:24] “Aah...But I’ve heard enough about that. I’m sick and tired of hearing you say how you’ll ‘die’ or whatever…”

You try and reason with him.

“STOP! I DON’T WANT TO HEAR IT! ...Haah. We were having such a lovely chat as well, but you completely ruined it.”

Kanato gets up.

“My mood has been ruined. I will excuse myself for today.”

He leaves.

*Thud*

[08:01] ( You told me I was doing the wrong thing time after time. Trying to convince me that locking you up in that dim lit underground dungeon would only speed up the process and lead to an early death. You would even burst out into tears, worried about what would happen to me once I’m left behind. 

[08:19] Every time, I would grow upset and refuse to listen to you, covering my ears while simply turning a blind eye to everything, as I kept you imprisoned down there. Because I truly believed that if I kept at it long enough, you would eventually give in and stop saying that you were dying.

[08:42] ...I wonder why I didn’t just accept your words back then? Why didn’t I try and do something about the abnormal condition of your heart, even though I had taken notice of it? I never thought I would one day ask myself those questions over and over again. )

*TIMESKIP*

Kanato approaches you in the dungeon.

[09:10] “You seem rather out of it today. Do you have any idea how much time has passed since you were brought here?”

You shake your head.

“I suppose you don’t? ーー Or perhaps…”

*Cling*

“I guess you no longer care, do you? After all, right now the only thing which matters to you, is the person standing in front of you, right? Correct?”

You nod.

[09:50] “Fufu. You’ve become such a good girl. Well then, come here. I will let you embrace me as your reward.”

You move closer and wrap your arms around him.

*Cling cling*

[10:12] “...Haah...We will be together forever, okay? Please don’t say you’ll die ever again. ...You’re not going anywhere. You can’t even run. It’ll be just the two of us for eternity. I’m sure you feel the same way right now?”

You reluctantly nod.

[10:50] “...What was that just now? It appeared to me that you only nodded because you had no other choice. I can tell you’re hiding how you truly feel. ...Tell me loud and clear. How do you feel?”

You keep quiet. 

“Haha...Hahaha...So you really can’t let go of the possibility that you’ll die one day, no matter how many times I tell you that we’ll be together forever, can you? ...Cut it out alreaーー”

You speak up.

[11:31] “...’But’, what?”

You tell him he will be okay and can simply find another human to feed off of. 

“Did you just...tell me that I’ll be okay even if you die, because there’s plenty of replacements for you out there?”

You nod.

[11:50] “So...That’s all what matters? No way...What makes you believe you have the right to decide that on your own? Who told you to think that way!? Well...I won’t deny that I discovered someone with sweet blood in town the other day, but you’re still on a whole different level! ...ABOVE ALL!!”

*Cling*

[12:19] “Didn’t I tell you just now? That you won’t go anywhere, nor can you run away, so the two of us will be together forever…! Tsk...Yet...Kuh...Yet you have the nerve to…!! ...Honestly...I’ve had enough of this.”

You try to comfort him.

“Hah! ...Stay away from me.”

He walks away.

[12:57] “I’m sick of talking to you. Or rather, I suppose you could say that my love for you has faded.”

*Cling*

“That’s the key to those chains. From today onwards, you’re a free woman. I no longer care about you. ーー Just like you said, there’s plenty of people who can replace you out there. ...Farewell.”

Kanato leaves.

[13:38] “...Kuh!! She’ll die? Ridiculous! There’s just no way I would be left behind on my own. Yet she keeps on saying that she’ll die and to make matters worse, even has the nerve to tell me I could simply replace her! Where on earth did she get that ludicrous idea from!? ...I should just push her away for a bit. I’ll make her regret her words! Until she lets go of those ridiculous thoughts!”

ーー TO BE CONTINUED ーー

[sparring-hyena]

Ok i got a request . Remember how Chris Kait and James got those special 1 chapter episodes where they go on special dates. It would be cool to see Beccas. So its set after Book 3. Instead of going to the festival with the gang Mc decides to visit Becca first at her lakehouse and then they go to the festival just her and Becca. They ll share lots of sweet moments at the pool more fun at the concert and later on at home things can get a bit heated.

Becca reaches for her phone with the intent to scroll through her social feeds. really, she does. opening her messaging app is a reflex. opening the short text thread she has with Alex is just an accident. and typing out a hey, what’re you up to? is… a mistake? some kind of predetermined notion written into the fabric of reality?

whatever. it doesn’t matter what it is. no, what matters is that she does, send a text to Alex that is, and that she tosses her phone to the other side of couch as soon as she hits send, almost like it burns her hands.

she stares at her phone, waits for it to react to what she just did—maybe it’ll implode. she’s almost surprised when her phone buzzes a few minutes later. and she’ll never admit to just how fast she jumps forward to snatch it up.

it’s Alex. Alex responded. okay. cool cool cool.

my friends and i are on a road trip. we’ve just passed into California. you?

the you? twists itself into Becca’s mind. slips into every nook and cranny until it’s she can think and feel, and her heart is going ba-dum ba-dum and she definitely can’t just say oh, not much. just by myself at my dad’s lake house because he’s trying to buy my love now that my parents are getting divorced. except she does say that. word for word. it tumbles from her mind onto her phone and then she hits send and holds her breath in her throat as she waits for Alex’s response.

want some company then?

and what really surprised Becca is that she answers with yes.

-

in the days leading up to Alex’s arrival she cleans. not that there’s much to clean—the house is big, and she’s kept to one small part of it. she also rifles through her closet and decides, an hour before Alex is due to arrive, that she doesn’t have anything to wear. the clothes laying forgotten on her bed disagree, but she ignores that and feels the anxiety twist itself around her.

and then her phone buzzes and there’s a knock at the door. Alex is here. Alex is early.

shit.

she tosses on the first thing she can grab and runs her hands through her hair before darting down to the front door.

when Becca opens the door, Alex greets her with a warm smile that simultaneously calms and frightens. frightens, because how does her smile have such an effect on me. they stand awkwardly in the doorway until Alex clears her throat and asks, “did you wanna invite me in?”

“right.” Becca steps aside and motions Alex in.

Alex whistles as she looks around, still holding her bag in front of her. “nice place.”

Becca shrugs, because it is nice, stunning really, but the house doesn’t feel quite right—it never really has. it’s big and empty and somehow always manages to be cold even during summer.

“come on, i’ll show you around.”

-

it’s as they walk through the house that Becca realises she’s not quite sure what they are. they aren’t enemies, and now she wonders if they ever actually were. and they definitely aren’t dating. dating implies some level of commitment that Becca doubts she could ever really give. and then there would be intimacy and comfort and little inside jokes that they’d share quiet smiles over.

but that doesn’t matter anyway because she would never want to date Alex—never ever. dating Alex would be complicated and messy and she has a reputation and expectations that Alex doesn’t fit and—

“you doin’ alright there?”

“huh?” Becca shakes the thoughts away.

Alex tilts her head to the side and offers a small curious smile that manages to worm its way into Becca’s heart and find a place for itself amidst all the dark twisty tendrils that have been growing with each passing day.

“why are you looking at me like that?” Becca asks, her tone both defensive and amused.

“like what?”

“like you’re trying to read my mind.”

“i’m not, i just—” Alex sighs and Becca suddenly wonders what she’d been about to say. “you mentioned swimming?”

“swimming, right.” Becca knows a digression when she hears one, but she points to a room Alex can get changed in and says she’ll meet her downstairs.

-

Becca doesn’t actually swim. she sits on the edge of the dock beneath the dying afternoon sun and traces the water with her toes. Alex swims though, splashes around for a short while and tries to gently prod Becca in too. but Becca holds firm and insists that she’s more than happy on the dock.

Alex climbs out later, dripping water onto the dock and creating a small puddle that manages to spread and reach Becca’s leg. she pretends Alex dripping water on her irritates her and pretends to hate it when she flicks water at her.

Alex sits down beside her, and Becca thinks she’s waiting for her to break the silence that’s comfortably settled between them.

“do you wanna talk about it?” Alex finally asks.

Becca wonders which it they’re talking about—her parents’ divorce or the fact that some fundamental piece of their relationship or friendship or whatever they are, is changing. maybe it’s both. maybe it’s neither.

“thank you for visiting me,” she says instead. “i’m sure it pales in comparison to a road trip with your friends.”

“hardly.” Alex smiles and nudges Becca’s shoulder with her own. “we were all cramped in a van that doesn’t have working a/c. besides, i like hanging out with you, it’s…”

Becca raises her eyebrows, curious and nudging Alex on.

“easy.”

Becca laughs, like, full body laughs. never in her life has she been described as easy to be around.

“what’s so funny?”

“nothing, nothing.” Becca tries to suppress her laughter, but it doesn’t work.

“i was trying to be nice.” Alex makes a show of being hurt, even makes to leave, but the smile on her face tells a very different story.

“no, sorry.” Becca places her hand gently on Alex’s arm; wants her to believe the sincerity behind her words. “it was nice and i didn’t mean to laugh. i’ve just never been described as easy before, and with everything going on, i guess it’s been a while since something’s made me laugh.”

“oh.” Alex settles on the dock again and Becca’s hand remains on her arm. “are you talking with your parents much?”

Becca shrugs. “mom’s trying. i think we’re both just having a hard time adjusting to speaking to each other. it’s been good but strange.”

“and your dad?”

Becca barks out a laugh. “i think he’s just as clueless. only difference is he’s not making much of an effort. my sister and i were supposed to spend some time with him here over the summer. look how that turned out.”

“i’m sorry.”

“i don’t need pity—”

“i wasn’t pitying you.”

“i know, but it’s just…”

“just…?”

and Alex’s arm is suddenly very warm beneath Becca’s hand. warm and solid and grounding and— they’ve done this before. played this game where they share their insecurities and offer something dangerously close to companionship.

it won’t end well, she thinks, but her heart thumps along and tells her to indulge just this once. what’s one more time anyway?

“we shouldn’t,” Becca breathes, because one of them needs to say it.

“probably,” Alex agrees, but neither of them move to put some space between them.

“but we could.”

“definitely.”

“it would be” —amazing is the word she thinks— “fun,” is the word she says with a playful lilt to her voice that she hopes distracts from the longing want she can feel in her bones.

they’re closer now, faces no more than a couple inches apart, and the air around them feels stiff somehow, like the world around them took one massive breath and is now waiting for them to do something about the balloon of tension that’s been slowly inflating for months.

and then the balloon bursts, and there’s kissing and moaning and wandering hands and— oh god, Becca suddenly remembers why she wanted to do this again. it feels like electricity zapping up and down her body. it hurts and it heals, and she wonders if they’ll ever do this again—silently hopes that they will.

she pulls Alex closer, decides that it’s still not enough—some tiny part of her heart hums and says that it never will be—and moves to straddle her lap and thread her fingers through her hair.

“here?” Alex asks between frantic and hurried kisses.

Becca hums and urges Alex’s hands further down her body.

it happens quickly after that. the coil inside Becca tightens each time Alex moves her fingers and moans her name and nips at her neck and— it snaps. the coil snaps and its wonderful and horrible and Becca is suddenly acutely aware of the place Alex holds in her heart.

and that— it terrifies her, because for the first time in her life she has no idea how it will go.

-

they head back up to the house not long later, stumbling through the first floor and upstairs as they share laughs and kisses. and when they reach the foot of the bed, Becca pushes Alex back and is quick to return the favour.

-

Becca wakes early in the morning on her side and facing Alex who’s fast asleep and completely dead to the world. she takes this moment, this brief interlude, to consider her next move.

the last time they did this, she left as soon as she woke up. though leaving isn’t exactly an option right now, and Becca finds that even if it were, leaving is the last thing she wants to do.

she brings her hand to Alex’s face and brushes a loose piece of hair behind her ear. the gesture, though small, is enough to cause Alex to stir.

“hi,” Alex says, her voice heavy with sleep and eyes barely open.

“hi.”

“you were right,” she says, sporting a tired grin, “it was fun.”

Becca hums and shifts closer to Alex, tracing lazy patterns on her shoulder. “how long can you stay?”

“how long do you want me to stay?”

“i asked you first.”

“so?”

“humour me.”

their back-and-forth is light, airy. it’s how they usually talk. but there’s insecurity that hides beneath it all. insecurity that itches to be breathed into the world and soothed away.

“well, my friends and i were going to the aurora music festival tomorrow.”

“oh.”

“but maybe, if you wanted to, you could come with?”

“are you asking me to go with you?”

“i asked you first.”

Becca smacks Alex’s shoulder but can’t stop the smile on her face. “yes, i want to go.”

“good” —Alex leans in then, stops only when their lips are just about to touch— “because i really want you to come with me.”

“is that so?”

Alex hums and brings their lips together in a slow and easy kiss that Becca’s all too happy to get lost in.

“wait, hang on.” Alex pulls away, a suddenly serious expression on her face. “you didn’t tell me how long you wanted me to stay.”

forever is the word she thinks, but she just smiles and brings their lips together again, and she thinks that Alex might just understand.