#we also have that ryan and shane comfort thing going on lmao

[theghoulboysblog]

OH THAT IS SOOO US @thatonegeekygirl WITHOUT A DOUBT!!! 🫶🫶🫶

i am indeed very insanely ryan bergara coded (anxious, talkative, overthinking, easily distracted, and interest-driven!), while you are SO extremely shane madej coded in my opinion lmao. (gentle, creative, accepting, comforting, and also interest-driven!)

SO YES! in summary, we make the best duo ever aurora! <3

[paranormalbadboyfiles]

So

Y’ALL

ANOTHER WATCHER GMM CROSSOVER?!?! 

We start this episode with Daddy!Rhett yup sure okay nothing to see here (and also Shane touching Ryan’s shoulderrrrrrr). 

Dude, don’t get Shane started on cousins...

UGH LOOK HOW CLOSE THEY ARE SITTING. They’ve come so far from “two guys, just sittin’ in a tub, in their swim trunks ‘cause they’re not gay” to being so much more comfortable with each other and I JUST...BYE.

RHETT STOPS LINK FROM INJURING HIMSELF WITH THE KNIFE WITH A SINGLE FINGER ON HIS WRIST SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP.

Someone needed to see these two side by side as well. (It’s me. I’m someone, but I also wanna know who the someone was that edited this). 

O.O

I’m sorry...you what now?

I seriously thought it was just me being my own filthy minded self during this scene until things...well...escalated lmao.

Ryan you are a man of chaos. 

...WHY WERE THEY ALL SO H*RNY?!?!

I can’t...this is literally like some sort of start to a cheesy film made for adults. Notice Rhett’s palm flat on Link’s arm. It was such a gentle push I’m--

...AM I EVEN ALLOWED TO BE WATCHING THIS ON YOUTUBE?!?! 

Ryan follows Rhett’s example, Shane pokes at the tip, and Link is too hot and bothered to take it so he turns away. 

RIGHT HERE IN FRONT OF MY SALAD?!?!

I am looking (dis)respectfully. 

It’s the (quiet guitar music) for me tbh...

JEESUS Rhett. 

AND THAT LITTLE SMIRK AFTER. THE MAN KNEW EXACTLY WHAT HE WAS DOING. 

...is this real life right now? I feel like I need to stick the B*razzers logo in the lower right corner next to the Watcher logo. 

THIS IS NOT EVEN AN EDIT, RHETT STARTED HIS SENTENCE OFF WITH THIS AND RYAN JUST BURST INTO LAUGHTER. THE MAN KNOWS. HE KNOWS. 

Wait, what? How did we get here? How did we get from the banana to the a*us? 

RHETT DON’T YOU MFING PRETEND THAT YOU DON’T HEAR THIS ISH ON THE DAILY ON GMM AND BTS SIR. DONT YOU EVEN PRETEND. YOU JUST WANT HIM TO TALK ABOUT IT MORE. I SEE YOU.

LINK. Pls stop gesturing at the dinner table. 

...

Sir, this is a Wendy’s. 

(Yeah they are the same caption ‘cause part of the sentence is a close up of Link gesturing, and the second pic is Link gesturing as he faces Internet Jesus and his faithful disciples). 

THE WAY RYAN IS JUST LEANING INTO SHANE AS IF IT IS NOTHING. I STG THE PERSON ON THE WATCHER CREW WHO WAS LIKE “LET’S GET THE SMALLEST TABLE WE CAN FOR TWO OF THE TALLEST GUYS ON THE INTERNET WHOSE WING SPAN COULD FILL AN ENTIRE AIRPLANE RUNWAY AND THEIR BUFF COMPANIONS WHO BASICALLY HAVE FREAKING BOULDERS ON THEIR ARMS.” 

(By the way, this screenshot leads into): 

Also I cannot tell if this is a lie or not because this is where we are in November in the year of our Lord in 2022 

EX

FREAKING

‘SCUSE ME. 

SHANE GOT HIS HOLLONDAISE SAUCE ON RYAN’S LAP. I--

HOW IS THIS--

THEY MAY AS WELL HAVE HAD ONE OF THEM WEARING SKIMPY OVERALLS WITH NO SHIRT, PRETENDING TO KNOCK ON THEIR FRONT DOOR, SAYING HE’S THE REPAIR MAN WHO HAS COME TO FILL IN THE CRACKS IN THEIR WALLS. 

I have never heard this phobia phrased this way. Did he need to phrase it that way? No, but the air was so thick with UST, that here we are. 

So this is Rhett’s solution to that. I just--

WHAT EVEN WAS THIS EPISODE Y’ALL.

Nothing says “Happy Holidays” like...this...I guess...

The name of their Just 4 Fans page. 

Oh, and if you were wondering about the one word Link chose to describe this dish? It was SUBTEXT. ONE HE IS LIKELY ALL TOO FAMILIAR WITH. THE CALL IS COMING FROM INSIDE THE HOUSE. ON THE GHOST FILES PHONE.

And the final dish is just...okay then, we’re gonna go super blatant with this and try to ignore Shane talking about his love of mayo like some sort of Midwestern ambrosia salad making mom whose “Macaroni Madness” wins every year at the county fair. 

I mean tbf, that is the face the collective audience makes when we watch y’all but DANG Ryan you didn’t have to SAY IT in front of ALL OF OUR SALADS that you and Shane, and Rhett and Link are just off in your own LITTLE BUBBLES THAT HAVE RUBBED THEIR BUBBLY CHEEKS TOGETHER FOR THIS DOUBLE DATE OF AN EPISODE. 

Link’s word for the last dish. ;-; I JUST. I CANNOT. WHAT IN THE WORLD WAS THIS SURPRISE GIFT THAT JUST FELL IN FRONT OF MY FEET ON MY YOUTUBE FEED LAST WEEK. 

[noa-nightingale]

Queer Watcher 2020

I am looking back on this weird, not-so-wonderful year - and on the ways @wearewatcher made my 2020 so much more wonderful. Originally, I wanted to list all the highlights I could think of, but one of the things I am most grateful for is Watcher’s inclusion and support of LGBTQ+ folks. I am just one queer person but I know there are many more in this fandom.

So, this ended up being a list of things I, as a queer person, appreciate and enjoy, and I am so so happy that I can write this. Buckle up, I have Things to say, and it is going to be emotional.

Ryan’s Pride shoes. I sometimes wonder how many sales Converse owes him. I love my own pair btw.

“Look, all I’m sayin’ is, y’know, hey, uh, love everybody.” - Shane Madej, Gangly Puppet Freak. A PSA from the Weird/Wonderful Shakespeare Theatre vid, regarding bisexuality - he is so awkward with it lmao. Whole video has really great vibes too.

Steve/Stephanos.

Various tweets, including wishing us a happy Non-Binary People’s Day and a happy Trans Awareness week.

Ryan and Shane including their pronouns in their twitter bio. (Little things like this don’t go unnoticed, and they are very appreciated.)

Gay Oars! Ugh, my heart. Their first appearance totally caught me off guard, and I haven’t recovered since. (I also causes me no small amount of joy that the most romantic and tragic song of all time is called “Gore on the Shore”.) I could yell about my love for these guys all day. It is a beautiful thing that these characters exist.

Gay Oars, again - I knew they would show up and I still was not prepared. The song made me cry. I haven’t recovered from that one either. I love the progression from the first, tragic song to the second, joyful and loving song. I have so many emotions about these oars, I probably could make an entire list just for them. (Little fun fact: Even though the song made me cry, my first reaction to that episode was to go on tumblr and yell about it excitedly. Like, I was emotional but in an enthusiastic kind of way. The more difficult emotions hit me about four days later, for some reason. And then I sat in my room and cried my eyes out. Like, as much as I like being queer, sometimes it is just damn hard and the pain seems too much and you have been hurt over and over and don’t know if you can ever recover from it. And it is just really good to know that someone cares about your wellbeing as a queer person. Even if you have never spoken to that someone and he does not even know of your existence. And to be honest, I don’t always know how to deal with that. The kindness? The genuine allyship? I have no idea how to handle that, and it simultaneously heals and breaks my heart.)

Every time the words “his boyfriend” were uttered; I am especially thinking of Are You Scared here.

All the fan art Watcher inspired and continues to encourage and to support. There are many great artists in the fandom! And Watcher’s content inspires me to draw and create more myself! How wonderful!

Toxic masculinity who? It is nowhere to be found.

This... special kind of gentle and kind weirdness? It honestly had such a positive impact on me and the way I interact with other people and let them interact with me.

All of the wonderful people Watcher brought in. I am sure they will work with more amazing folks and I am really looking forward to that. Personally, I am hoping to see Eugene Lee Yang at some point. (Would be really happy to see Thomas Sanders too.)

Here’s What You Do. Just the whole podcast. It was such a delight.

I was hesitant to include this because I believe many of us have negative memories attached to it, and it was not a fun time for anyone (including the lovely people at Watcher themselves). But, yes, I am mentioning it: That one HWYD episode and the follow-up. I can only speak for myself, but the follow-up has an incredibly special place in my heart. To me, it is one of the most important videos Watcher has created. I watched it several times, I journaled about it extensively and it made me a better ally. Hell, I even showed it to my mother and one of my siblings (like, the entire video). I know it was a difficult thing to talk about but at this point: A HUGE thank you to Steven, Ryan, Katie and Shane for handling this in an absolutely fantastic way. I feel welcome and seen and appreciated, and in the end all I want is this: For people to genuinely give a shit about me as a queer person.

On a more lighthearted note, I enjoy it way too much that Ryan is able to say “LGBTQ” without stumbling over the letters. It seems like such a tiny thing but it brings me an unholy amount of joy.

The Professor. I don’t want to call him LGBTQ+ because that has not been confirmed as canon but he IS comfortable wearing clothes that are typically seen as “women’s clothing”, and as a trans/non-binary person I am kind of obligated to mention it.

I think I had an out of body experience when Ryan said “Oh thank you baby” to Steven in Too Many Spirits. Then I had to pause the episode to finish laughing. And then they brought it back in the next episode. Bless them.

Every time they/them pronouns were said.

The entire Hatshepsut PH episode. What can I say, I like it when gender norms/expectations/roles are broken. And even if we can’t call Hatshepsut trans by today’s standards, declaring yourself another gender has such power.

Without giving too many details: I had my struggles and problems in the past with Christianity and ~certain~ Christian people, and it is really good (and I mean REALLY good) to see someone whose faith and integrity are so interwoven and who is inspired by his faith to do good things and to do right by people. I obviously only know the things about his belief that Steven decides to put on the internet but what I’ve seen is almost healing to me, in a way. I am very grateful and happy that he is willing to educate others and to keep working on himself. Warms my heart.

The certainty with which these beautiful people call themselves allies.

Just... the general kindness and compassion, and the willingness to listen and to grow. I promise you, we notice and we love you for it.

I could have expanded on all of these points but I tried to keep this short.

And look. I don’t want to put anyone on a pedestal; that would not be fair. I am just immensely grateful for kind people who genuinely care and who genuinely try to do right by others and to bring joy to others.

And I know we like to have fun here but Watcher’s content is just a lot more than entertaining, meme-able fun (although it is that too, of course).

I had a blast with it this year and I am very much looking forward to the next year. I feel like I can’t adequately put into words the myriad of little (and not so little) ways these people have made my life better this year. Thank you from the bottom of my aroace, non-binary heart.

[wetookanoath]

Supernatural Season 6 | The Haunting of Loey Lane.

Shane and his Shaggy cosplay are everything I need to know to be asured this episode will be iconic. And look a thim go. I love him.

I am way too distracted by Ryan’s buttons being open, I’m sorry, I cannot fuction now.

“Oh, no voice this time?” Okay, but Shane’s smile is... fjnfiwsmdikr. Why is this man like this? Anyway... Ryan’s laugh and the way he just, turns on Host Mood again, holy shit.

The way Ryan is narrating this episode is even more precious when you look at the credits and see that he himself wrote this episode. “From guru to booru”, I fucking hate you, Shane. Ryan’s face, tho. That look between done and fond, same.

“I was very respectful”, honey you were high in medicine, shut up.

Weekend At Ghoul HQ, starring Ryan Bergara and real size doll Shane. “I believe you believe” it’s the creepiest shit, stop that.

Growing up in a haunted farmhouse? Same. Oh gosh, jokes aside, I’m gonna say this right now... I’m not going to discuss in public whatever I believe in what may happen in this episode or not. I’ve been realizing slowly that I don’t feel comfortable talking about these things online because believing has a lot to do with faith to me, and faith is part of my life in a way that is too important to me. That said, watch me make fun of my own faith all the time and discuss whatever else you guys wanna talk about with me regarding the show, the boys, etc.

Loey saying she has never been scared of ghosts it’s exactly how I feel about the paranormal and the supernatural in general. I mean, I don’t claim having any kinds of powers or touch, or what have you. But god, I would be so happy and enchanted by seeing a supernatural being right in front of me. And whatever may scare me sometime, it’s always human doing, it’s always natural, tangible, there. And even then, I do like being scared. So there’s that, I guess.

“Are we Bruce Willis in this situation?” how the hell did that came from what they were talking about, lmao. Another Willis mention this season, Mr. Die Hard will end up becoming part of the inside jokes in this fandom at some point.

“I love a little stirring” Shane looks so excited about doing Some Bullshit in this episode, and I saw how chaotic he was in his solo, I can’t wait to see it by myself. LMAO, this bit is both funny and kind of adorable. Also, witches AU.

“Why would you come to us uf you want us to fix it?” An excellent question I don’t understand either, to be honest. The show is not about actually hunting enthities or debunking shit, so this is... come on. I think we know what it is, lmao. But it’s fine, I like this House Call shit.

No ofense, but using a 100 hundred years old Ouija board as a decoration is like a horror movie plot where white people are white people about it. I love it.

*Rubs eyes and sighs deeply*

... What is Shane doing with his tongue? I, I, I don’t like that... Not a fan... Put that tongue back in your mouth, Shane. I don’t like this bit.

Shane calling Ryan a, like, passionate paranormal investigator and the bitch immediatelly saying he is insane is my aesthetic and also yet again, a great summary of the show.

“This is the part where you learn how truly boring it is to be a ghost hunter”, lmao. Talking about these parts, I love the colors we get from the cameras each time, I can’t wait to make the edit for this episode.

Oh man, it must be something to see these two grown ass men saying and doing stupid shit to get ghosts to listen to them and do something But also, Shane slowly walking towards Ryan to film a super close-up of his eyes, OKAY. They are so stupid.

That... that is a werid thing, Shane is right. Oh man, this is giving me flashbacks to that serial killer dude in The X Files that was obssessed with women’s hair/cleaning them up for burials. 

Okay, that thing Shane just did with his mouth knocked me out for a bit. Imma head out. “That sounds demonic”, this better not be the season’s demon investigation. And oh look, what’s a supernatural season without Shane giving hints of him being a demon? It makes it funnier how he never really talks about it anywhere. Like he obviously knows aboutt he fandom’s joke, and I’m sure he keeps doing shit like this to feed it, but it all becomes even better when he just... never says shit about it. It’s always Ryan the one who answers when asked about it.

Cats do tend to get spook at everything and look up for no reason at all, every time my cats do that and one of nieces or nephew is around and asks about it, I always go “oh, he is just seeing the ghost that lives here” and then their mothers want to kill me.

Yeah, you don’t... do that. Horror movie 101. Don’t ever give permission to shit to enter. “Hey, can I come in?” “No, bitch, go away” is always the answer lol.

Guuurrrrllll...

This bitch ass thingy in her home really is there because of her. If there’s something in there, it’s not the place, it’s her. Also bitch ass demons as always listening to Shane is everything.

I.. like how Shane looks in that blue lighting. “Oh, you know what? Not bad, not bad”, why is he like this. 

Ryan’s metaphores are excellent, imagine him giving talks to his future children by using weird ass metaphore and the kids just... staring at him. 

“I’ll take you home with me, I don’t care” LMAO, imagine this idiot walking into his apartment, “Hey Sara? I got a demon, can we keep him?” “No” “Too late, I told him he is staying!”

“Assert my dominance” the smile? Awwww. The awkward moves of his hand, fjnvidnfir, Ryan is so fucking cute, makes me cry.

... What is Shane doing? I love how they just leave Shane’s whatever there while Ryan talks to Loey, fkjdniednfirnfgirt. Do that more often. Love that hair, also. Long hair is the best hair.

Shane literally saying he will use all the power he has gotten by defeating demons it’s such a powerful prompt. He is giving us the power to create shit, use it well, demon Shane writers and fanartists. “Alakazam! Big bang boom, hope you like hell, you loser.”, I fucking love this dork.

“What does that mean? You guys have inside jokes?” “Yeah, we bonded” JFNIERDNFIRF SHANE.

Loey is me and Shane is my brother, this is how we usually talk when one of us is saying some bullshit kfdndiofmkirg

“What’s your name? Come on, what’s your name? I know that gives away your power”, Ryan out there getting advice on demon hunting by The Conjuring 2 is the biggest mood. No, but for real-- there’s actually plenty of myths and cultures that believe the way to defeat some sort of evil is by knowing its name. It’s really interesting, the kind of power we really do give to names.

Not really a fan of this. Man, I really hope this is not the season’s demon investigation.

Ryan Steven Bergara Stop Saying You Are Annoying Or Ugly Or Whatever Negative Shit You Are Always Saying About Yourself Challenge.

This is such a “So... you come here often?” type of situation, djnfisndief, I love this. And we are back at the ‘I hate Shane’ bit again, I really stan a twelve years old. The fond voice with which Shane says “I mean, you are having fun”, awwwwwww. Cuties.

Shane looks hella cute doing his fornite dance, I hate him.

Did that shit just laugh after scaring this poor woman? JFNFIENFIERNIGF

Christ almighty, Ryan looks so fucking small at Shane’s side, what the hell? Also, this is so... damn adorable. Shane trying to teach Ryan how to do the dance, it’s hella cute. Oooohhmmmygoodddddd, I’mmmmm meltinnngggggggggg... Ryan’s little dance, djnfienf he is such a bad dancer, I love him so much.

This poor woman is having a breakdown in there and these two bitches are just being... whatever the hell they are doing, lmao. “You are suggesting a ghost farted in my face?” “Yeah” AHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Ryan suggesting the demon is asking her out for a drink and looking at Shane while doing so, jfniednfir what the fuck is that. This demon suitor just doesn’t know how to ask her out on a date, lmao.

“Our job here is done!” and Loey’s reaction, dkjnfeinfir same.

Get haunted for the aesthetic, why not? Interesting episode.

[sleepycoffins-and-benhargreeves]

hello! sorry to request so suddenly but if ever want a stadamdrew prompt: the boys in suits post-party in celebration of a successful season. can be nsfw if youd like 👀 thank you and i love your writing so much!

OMG YAASSSS A N SFW ASK  👀 👀 👀 👀 luv u so much anon

Also don’t apologize! You guys can send me requests any time or day uwu hell, send me more than one if you want and i’ll work on them lmao

also thank youuuu! <3 hope you like this one~ 

PS: thanks for patiently waiting! Took some time to finish this lmao had to research nice outfits to write them in then i also forgot how challenging it was to write threesomes lol this is only my second time writing it so hope you like it owo  ❤️️

“Cheers!” Steven said cheerfully as he raised his glass next to Adam and Andrew’s. The duo lightly clinking their own beers to the silveret’s. It was way past midnight now and the trio were celebrating the success of their latest season. 

Andrew and Adam were already tipsy, bordering buzzed, Steven on the other hand was already flushed and drunk. They were currently at a formal party that their company had invited every employee to, not their planned way of celebrating the season, but hey there was free alcohol and a chance to dress up snazzily once in a while.

Steven initially, was the one who was very excited at the prospect of a formal party earlier. The silveret being the one to plan their outfits for the night. Steven wore a posh dark blue jacket with floral designs that were coloured in lighter tones of azure. Always opting for the most fashionable and eye-catching design he could find, as Andrew had commented on earlier. Adam was wearing a window pane styled suit, courtesy of Steven choosing it for him of course. The pattern was something that Adam fancied very well, the base colour a dark blue and the patterns in light grey. Andrew, last but not least, was given a black jacket. His preferred style as always, simple and elegant. Yet, to compliment both of his boyfriend’s outfits, he wore a lustering blue tie. 

The party, hosted by their company went went swimmingly well... As with the after party of course.

“He’s wasted,” Adam said as he leaned in close to Andrew, his breath ghosting hotly against the blond’s skin. Andrew shivered, the brunet’s lips barely even touching at his ear but Andrew could feel the innocent action having some effects on him. He ignored the shiver that went down his spine for now to glance at Steven. Their boyfriend was very drunk, but it seemed as though he had no plans to stop drinking any time soon.

“It’s been a while since we’ve seen him this drunk,” Andrew replied back as he leaned in to Adam, he was closer to the other as he spoke. Their after party had ended up in a bar, loud music filling the air and the booze stacked high as their co-workers wanted to get sloshed. Andrew’s lips lightly touched Adam’s ear as he spoke, a fleeting light kiss after his words. Adam’s arm behind Andrew pulled him close, basking in the heat and Andrew grinned at the reaction he got. “Should we call it a night then?” He inquired as one of his hands traveled down to rest against Adam’s thigh and another kiss this time placed on the brunet’s cheek. 

The kiss teasing and promising more for the night.

A groan left Adam’s lips as he looked to Andrew, his eyes dark with want. “Yeah, we really should.” He tells his lover as Adam’s eyes glance at the blond’s lips and stares at them for a couple of seconds.

Andrew leans in close, their lips only a few inches away from each other. “Let’s go get Steven then,” He says as he pulls away and hears Adam whine. Andrew chuckles and he looks around to find their silver haired boyfriend. Steven had been dragged by Shane and Ryan earlier, a couple of drinks here and there before they went to on the dance floor. The blond stood up from his seat and grabbed one last shot and downing it. “I’ll call an Uber.” 

Adam nods beside him and moves to get Steven. There was a wave of people that separated Adam from the silveret, bodies crashing and dancing against one another. A couple of stranger’s hands and bodies tried to dance against Adam, the brunet smiling politely and moving away from them. Once Steven was finally within his reach, Adam placed his hands on the silveret’s waist, pulling his boyfriend close to him as Adam swayed with the music for a moment to indulge Steven.

Steven looked behind him and a pleasantly surprised looked washed over his features. “Adam!” Steven said in glee, his arms trying to wrap around the brunet who was standing behind him. Steven’s hand found purchase in threading his fingers against Adam’s soft brown locks, his other indolently caressing Adam’s nape. “Dance with me!” Steven said loud to be heard against the blaring speakers. The silveret moved his hips closer to Adam, hind rubbing delicately against Adam’s already forming bulge.

A sigh left Adam’s lips as he pulled Steven close to him, his warm chest flushed against Steven’s own warm back. The brunet whispered against Steven’s ear. “We’re going home,” He told the silveret, unable to resist kissing against the skin behind his ear and tasting the salt of Steven’s sweat. 

Steven shivered against the kiss before a whine escaped him. “Already?” There was a slight pant in him as he spoke, Steven wriggling his ass against Adam to tease him further. “You and Andrew haven’t even danced with me yet.”  

“Well, we can continue dancing at home,” Adam persuaded as he kissed down to Steven’s neck, his other hand had slowly crept up to the front of the silveret’s pants, lightly cupping there. “We’ll take care of you there.” He continued off with sucking at the junction between Steven’s neck and shoulder, earning him a whimper.

“Okay, okay,” Steven gave in easily and Adam smirked against the skin. The silveret’s hand that was on his brown hair pulled at the strands, pulling Adam to come face to face with Steven for a kiss. The kiss was sloppy and Steven tasted heavily of alcohol as he slithered in a tongue to brush against Adam’s lips.

“Get a room!” Ryan’s voice suddenly broke through their trance and Adam glared at the co-worker first before moving away from their kiss.

“Shut up Ryan!” Steven argued against the other, albeit playfully as though a kid were taunting a friend. Adam smirked, looking at Ryan as he pulled his middle finger at the other.

“Yeah, fuck you too Adam!” Ryan replied back, gesturing the middle finger to the duo.

“Let’s go, Andrew’s waiting.” Adam said, leaving another trail of butterfly kisses at Steven’s neck and ear, making the silveret shiver.

“Okay,” Steven answered back as he held Adam’s hand and they both trudged their way out of the dance floor. Steven kept himself close to the brunet, his arm wrapping around Adam’s own. Adam was warm and comforting, making Steven sigh and cuddle closer to his boyfriend. 

The duo made it back to Andrew, who had been waiting patiently for his boyfriends to come back to their table. As soon as Steven was in reach, Andrew pulled the silveret to him. He kissed him hard, passionate and hungry that it made Steven weak in his knees. He would’ve fallen onto the floor if Adam hadn’t been holding onto him earlier. Andrew’s hand caressed Steven’s nape, fingers lightly playing with the already long hair. Steven whimpered into the kiss, leaning in closer to Andrew as one hand gripped tighter onto Adam and the other held onto Andrew’s shirt.

“You guys took your time,” Andrew stated haughtily as he pulled back from Steven, the silveret chasing his lips drunkenly. “Uber’s almost here, already paid our tab.”

“Who’s house this time?” Adam inquired as he wrapped his arm on Steven’s waist.

“Mine of course,” The blond replied back as they start to walk out of the bar. 

It had only a short wait for their Uber, Steven as usual was a clingy drunk. He kept his arms wrapped around Adam while peppering kisses onto his cheek, neck, and lips. Adam chortled amused, nuzzling against his silver haired lover. 

“Andrew,” Steven called out to the blond, one hand stretching out to be taken by the blond. As soon as Andrew was supposed to lean in for a kiss for his boyfriends, their Uber arrived.

“Later,” He told Steven as he gave him a quick kiss on his cheek.

A pout appeared on Steven’s lips, but he followed his boyfriends inside the car obediently. The inside of their Uber was warm and comfortable. The three of them sat at the back, Steven trapped in the middle between his two boyfriends. He rested his head on Adam’s shoulder, intertwining their fingers together as Steven tried to behave as much as possible. He may have been drunk, but Steven still had half the mind to try and not be too scandalous in public. Andrew’s hand was on top of Steven’s thigh and the warmth from the blond’s hand burned hotly onto Steven. He shivered when he felt Andrew lightly massage him there.

A moan almost escaped the silveret. Steven tried to stay quiet as much as possible, he snuggled closer to Adam, hiding his face. He felt the brunet’s hand brush against his silver locks. Steven tried to direct his attention at anything but Adam and Andrew’s hands right now. They were both easily turning him on and he couldn’t trust his voice to tell them in a low tone to stop for now, afraid he instead might let out a moan.

He could hear Adam chuckle close to him, voice low and alluring. Andrew beside him was talking to their driver. He couldn’t comprehend properly at the moment what he said, probably some weird pun again since Andrew was more vocal with his jokes with strangers when buzzed.

“You alright?” Adam asked close to his ear.

Steven nodded, answering in a small shaky voice. “Are we there yet?”

“Almost,” Adam replied back amusement dripping from his tone.

“He’s drunk and just wants to sleep already,” He heard Andrew tell their driver.

“Well, good thing the bar is close to your place.” Steven could hear their driver’s voice. “He looks wasted.”

“A bit,” Adam answered this time. “He just had a really good time.”

Silence swept in the car and the minutes felt like an eternity for Steven. He tried to distract himself with Adam, taking in his scent and warmth. Both Andrew and Adam were warm as they sat so close to him and Steven wishes he had more control over himself right now, because it was getting harder and harder to keep himself in check. He knows he’s already painfully hard, he has half the mind to try and be decent, crossing his legs to try and hide the tent away.

And suddenly, the car stopped.

“Have a night day sirs,” Their driver called out and they came out through Andrew’s side of the car.

“Thanks, you too.” Adam says before shutting the door of the car. 

Steven didn’t even bother to check if the driver had really left. As soon as the silveret was out of the car, he clung onto Andrew. The blond laughed, but Steven was too drunk and horny to even think of anything else. He wrapped his arms around Andrew, whimpering as he felt Andrew’s own hand wrap around his waist.

“Just a little more,” Andrew whispered to his ear and Steven shivered in delight.

“And I thought I was the impatient one tonight,” Adam said behind Steven as he grabbed a hold of Steven’s free hand. Andrew had let go of the silveret for now so he could open the door to his house. “I forget how easily horny you can get when you’re drunk.” Adam teased.

“Shut up and kiss me,” Steven replied back instead as he took a hold of Adam’s jaw and pulled the brunet to him for a kiss. The kiss was sloppy, messy, and definitely full of tongue as Steven was quick dart out his own in favor of tasting more of Adam. The brunet tasted heavily of blood mary’s and whiskey, and something else that had a salty-sweet flavor to it.

Adam, the one who was less drunk between the three of them, slowly led Steven to the inside of the house as he tried not to break their kiss. Andrew was kind enough to keep the door open for his boyfriends and close it as soon as they had entered. 

“Bedroom guys,” They could both hear Andrew talk behind Adam.

It was a blur from thereon, the three of them shuffling their way to Andrew’s bedroom with a trail of clothes following them there. 

And now, the three of them sat at Andrew’s bed. Andrew and Adam were the ones kissing this time. Andrew was already naked save for the boxers he wore, having already shed most of his clothes on the way to his room. Adam was able to take off his coat and undershirt, letting Andrew’s hands roam freely on his chest. One hand found a nipple and the blond lightly pinched at it, earning a pleased groan from Adam. The brunet’s legs were spread out so Andrew could sit in-between them, beside the duo Steven was already working on unbuckling Adam’s belt and helping the brunet take his pants off.

Adam pulled away to moan when he felt Steven’s hand slip under his briefs to stroke his hard cock. 

Andrew hummed in amusement, his gaze traveling down for a moment to watch Steven please their boyfriend. “Having fun?” He inquired to both Steven and Adam. Steven looked up at the blond, a mischievous grin plastered on his lips as the silveret sat up straight. He kissed Andrew before leading his free hand to grip on the blond hair so that their faces were close to Adam. The brunet immediately leaned in to join in on the kiss. Two lips kissed on Andrew’s own, one was impatient, wanting attention as his tongue darted out to taste his boyfriends. Another, Adam’s kiss, was sweet yet steadily gaining fervor. Tongues darted out and three of them tasted each other, a mixture of different tasting alcohols and something else entirely that was uniquely the taste of their own lovers.

Steven was first pull away from the kiss, much to the displeasure of both lovers. The silveret went back down to the hard-on between Adam’s legs. His hand had been stroking it steadily, a bit dryly, and so Steven decided to solve that problem by taking Adam’s aching cock in his mouth. Adam moaned and Andrew swallowed the sound with a kiss. Andrew’s hand gripped on Adam’s brown locks, his hands playing with the brunet’s hardening nipples, pinching and toying with it between his fingers.

“Fuck,” Adam says as he pulls away from Andrew to take a breath. His hand found purchase on holding tight onto Steven’s silver hair, keeping on a slow pace of gently leading Steven’s mouth to bob up and down on Adam’s dick.

“Someone’s overdressed.” Andrew comments and Adam’s gaze turn to Steven who was still clothed as he made happy slurping noises on Adam’s cock.

The brunet chuckled, his fingers carding gently through Steven’s locks. “He’s taking it so well,” Adam says as he thrust up and they both hear Steven choke a bit at the action. Adam’s grip on his hair tightens and Andrew pants heavily, licking on his lower lip in contemplation.

“I’ll get the lube,” Andrew states as he stands up for a second to retrieve said item from his bedside drawer. He comes back to bed and the sight of Adam was the first thing he watched, the brunet with his eyes closed in bliss, mouth slightly agape, with his head arched back. His hand was still on Steven’s hair, the silveret crouching on all fours as he made pleased noises in blowing his lover off. Andrew got behind Steven, he made quick work grabbing a hold of Steven’s hips so he can get a better position of taking off the silveret’s pants. The action caught Steven off-guard, making him jump a little.

“Ah! Teeth, teeth!” Adam warned as he looked at Steven. Andrew couldn’t help but laugh behind Steven and the brunet had to glare at his other boyfriend. “Haha,” He said dryly.

“You should get used to it, a little bit of teeth feels nice.” Andrew said as chucked off Steven’s belt then continued to take the silveret’s belt off. “Isn’t that right Steven?” Andrew asked as he gave a slap to Steven’s ass, earning a chocked whimper from the other. 

“No thanks, not a masochist like you,” Adam said back as he checked on Steven below him. The silveret was flushed and there were a bit of tears in the corner of his eyes. “Steven, get up for a sec.” Adam told the other and Steven let his dick go with a pop, earning a shiver from Adam. 

“Ha, sissy,” Andrew teased as he abruptly took Steven’s pants off, nearly making the silveret falls down on the bed face down ungracefully if it wasn’t for Adam holding him up.

“Fuck you,” Adam retorted back, without any malice really as he helped Steven sit up for a second so he could help the other take his jacket and shit off.

“Isn’t that the plan?” Steven replied back slurring a little to Adam, a dopey grin on his lips. His lips were red, hair a mess, and he looked thoroughly debauched already. 

“Definitely the plan,” Andrew said behind him as he kissed up at Steven’s neck while helping unbutton his shirt.

Adam kissed up at Steven’s lips again, tasting himself inside Steven’s mouth. He nipped at the bottom lip, earning a whine from Steven as the brunet’s hand caressed his stomach up to his chest, the touch light and fleeting, making the silveret hungry for more. Adam’s other hand grabbed a hold of Steven’s hair again, he pulled away from the kiss, making Steven chase him but Adam had other plans. He directed the silveret back down and Steven complied immediately, going back to his work of sucking his boyfriend off, only now he was completely naked thanks to the duo.

The sound of the bottle cap caught Adam’s attention and he gazed at Andrew, just in time to see him squeeze the bottle, watching the gel trickle down to Steven’s ass. The brunet gulped in anticipation. 

Andrew let the lube drip to Steven’s entrance first, the hole twitching and he grinned at the sigh. Once the hole had been wet enough, Andrew let the gel trickle to his fingers next. He coated a generous amount of lube onto his fingers before closing the bottle again, then letting the tip of his fingers tease Steven. Feeling Andrew’s fingers on him made the silveret suck deeper on Adam’s cock, the head of the brunet’s dick hitting the back of his throat that made Adam moan in earnest. Andrew teasingly, let his first finger breach the silveret’s entrance, entering tantalizingly slow that it made Steven impatient and thrust his hips back against Andrew.

The blond chuckled, amused at how needy and impatient Steven is. He decided to cut the other some slack, pushing the first finger in fully and gently messaging the walls inside Steven. He heard the silveret whimper, making noises that just sounded like he was begging for more. 

“Stop teasing him Andrew,” Came Adam’s husky voice, the blond looked up for a moment and saw his boyfriend with a heated look in his eyes. He was panting heavily, gaze locked with Andrews as his hand kept up a steady pace of instructing Steven to bob his head and take Adam’s length in his mouth. Andrew’s cock twitched at the sight.

“Where’s the fun in that though?” Andrew chuckled as he licked his lower lip, before suddenly curling his finger inside Steven. He felt the silveret tremble underneath him and Andrew kept up his ministrations. “I’m taking my sweet time with him, opening him up for you.” Andrew told the brunet and Adam groaned at his words. “Steven’s slicking up your cock while I open him up for you to fuck.” Andrew continued off, getting both of his boyfriends riled up. “I wanna watch you pound into his tight ass,” He entered a second finger into Steven, scissoring and stretching the silveret out. Andrew could feel Steven quiver beneath him and he had to hold onto the silveret’s hips to make him stop moving too much.

“Then while you fuck him, I’ll fuck you from behind. Do you want that Adam?” Andrew asked and he heard the brunet curse, watching him thrust harder into Steven’s mouth. “We’ll have you sandwiched between us, have your cock  inside Steven while I fuck your ass.” Andrew growled and he fastened his pace, abusing Steven’s hole until he heard a loud cry from the silveret and Andrew knows he just hit the other’s sweet spot. A grin appeared on the blond’s lips as he hit it again and again.

“Andrew, please,” Adam pleaded and he couldn’t tear his gaze at Andrew, looking at him heatedly, expectantly. 

Andrew leaned in forward, making Steven fold a bit between them and Adam sat up so he could meet Andrew halfway. They both kissed, Adam hungrily and passionately taking in his boyfriend. Their tongues met and Andrew ravished Adam, taking him and dominating the kiss. As he did so, the blond started to add a third finger into Steven, multitasking as he wanted to watch them, wanted to see his boyfriends get fucked and debauched. 

They pulled away for air and as they did so, Adam went back to giving more attention to Steven. He started to slow down his pace, not wanting to cum just yet. 

“Even when drunk you’re still tight as fuck Steven,” Andrew muttered.

Steven pulled away from Adam, he looked up at the brunet. “I’m ready, I’m ready, please,” He said and Adam cupped his face with both hands, one of Adam’s fingers found their way inside Steven’s, toying with the tongue and mesmerized for a moment at his expression.

“Lie down,” Adam instructed.

Steven let out a moan, squirming when he felt Andrew’s fingers left him. But he tried not to pay it much mind, instead he immediately settled himself down on the bed. Adam had help shift him up so Steven’s head laid down against the soft pillows of the bed. As soon as the silveret was in a comfortable position, he spread his legs far apart for both boyfriends, earning pleased groans from both of them.

“Let me get you ready for him,” Andrew said this time as he leaned in close to Adam, whispering to his ear where his breath ghosted hotly on the brunet’s ear. Andrew took the bottle of lube from earlier, pouring a generous amount of his palm before he went to stroke at Adam’s prick. Adam shivered, watching Andrew stroke his cock, lathering it patiently with lube. “Okay, you’re good.” Andrew murmured to his ear, kissing there softly.

Adam found himself in between Steven’s legs, the silveret holding onto his thighs to keep them apart. Adam found himself leaning down, caging Steven beneath his body as one hand slowly led his cock to the silveret’s entrance. His other hand found purchase once again to Steven’s face, fingers finding themselves inside the silveret’s mouth. Steven loved having his mouth full and Adam was nothing but a service lover. He could feel Steven suck earnestly on his fingers, letting out a pleased whine when the head of Adam’s cock finally entered him. His hand finally let go of his cock to rest on Steven’s hips, the silveret thrust back down onto him. Adam could feel Steven’s inside swallowing him up, greedily taking his cock in and the brunet slowly pushed his dick inside till he was balls deep in Steven.

“You both look so good,” Andrew said behind him and Adam shivered, Andrew’s voice was low and husky, oozing with heated lust that got Adam fired up. “Does he feel good Adam? I got him ready just for you.” Andrew continued as Adam could now feel Andrew’s fingers teasing their way behind him, tips gently prodding against his puckered hole. 

“Fuck, Andrew,” Adam said and he pulled out of Steven, wanting to thrust back against Andrew’s fingers. “I want you in me,” He said as Adam thrust his fingers deeper into Steven’s mouth, hearing the silveret choke and whimper underneath him.

“Haven’t prepped you yet baby,” Andrew replied as he kissed down on Adam’s back and it sent a sweet shiver down his spine. Adam kissed on Steven’s neck, leaving love bites on the skin down to his collar bone. He could feel Andrew’s fingers inside him, two fingers immediately scissoring inside him and it hurt, but Adam couldn’t give a damn about it right now because god, he wanted Andrew in him. He wanted the blond’s cock fucking him as he fucked Steven.

Adam thrust hard into Steven, watching the silveret arch his back up as Steven’s hand quickly grabbed a hold of Adam’s own that was on his hip. Adam started to give attention to Steven, taking up a steady pace as he thrust into him, the positions shifting ever so slightly so he could find Steven’s sweet spot. When one particular thrust got Steven whimpering and crying to him, Adam stayed in that position for a bit, letting his cock nudge against the bundle of nerves as he rolled his hips against Steven’s. 

Steven panted harder, “Adam,” He pleaded with a bit of difficulty as the brunet’s fingers were still in his mouth. The sound he made gave a direct reaction that went straight to Adam’s cock. Steven was so hot and tight against his cock and behind him, Andrew was letting out delicious sounds while working his fingers inside Adam. 

“I got you,” Adam muttered. He took his fingers out of Steven’s mouth to kiss him. As the duo were distracted with their kiss, it didn’t occur to Adam that Andrew had now pulled his fingers out of him and he let out a surprised gasp into the kiss when he felt Andrew’s cock entering into him.

“Fuckkk,” Andrew drawled out and Adam had to hold onto Steven’s shoulder for support. 

“Adam, Adam,” Steven called out to him and Adam’s attention went back to Steven. The silveret kissed him, taking his attention away from Andrew’s cock as Steven tightened around Adam’s dick. Adam had to involuntarily thrust back into Steven, making the silveret grab harshly onto his hand, fingers nails biting onto Adam’s skin.

Andrew’s hand grabbed a hold of Adam’s waist, slowly pushing his cock inside the brunet. It almost felt like an eternity, having to indolently thrust into the brunet, but finally, Andrew was able to bottom out. 

“Adam,” Andrew called out from behind him and he could feel Andrew give soothing kisses at his spine and shoulder. The action helped the brunet calm down faster, especially when Steven was kissing him so sweetly and delightfully on the lips, distracting him from the short pain.

Seconds later, Adam moved, pulling out of Steven and thrusting back against Andrew’s cock. The action nearly made Adam see stars and he could feel pleasure coursing through his entire body, making him weak in the knees. Andrew followed his lead, thrusting back and in again whenever Adam had moved. One of Andrew’s hands traveled their way to the brunet’s chest, caressing and feeling him. Andrew’s fingers found Adam’s nipples again, pinching and flicking against it, making Adam let out shaky moans.

He thrust back into Steven and Adam hold onto the silveret. Their hands were now intertwined with one another. One of Steven’s free hand had roamed down to start stroking at his cock. The sight of Steven pleasuring himself was enough to get Adam’s libido to shot up high. Adam’s other hand that was holding onto Steven’s shoulder gripped tight and he started to pound hard into the silveret. 

Steven cried out at the sudden harshness. “Adam!” He called out, making him stroke faster on his cock. “So close, so close,” Steven told him as he closed his eyes and focused on the pleasure.

Adam focused on his own pleasure as well, wanting to feel that high at the same time with Steven. He sped up his thrusts and he heard Andrew groaning behind him, speeding up his own thrusts. Adam tightens around the blond’s cock and Andrew growls behind him. He was coming, he’s so close that he could feel the heat pooling in his stomach and he doesn’t really need much at this point. Andrew pistons into Adam and he nudges against Adam’s prostate, making the brunet moan louder. Andrew’s grip tightens and he bites at Adam’s shoulder, as he keeps thrusting into that particular spot.

The bite on his shoulder was the last straw, Adam stills and closes his eyes. His entire body quivers as his orgasm shakes him to his core. He spills his seed inside Steven and the action brought a reaction to the silveret. He tightens around Adam, making the orgasm sweeter and seconds later, Steven is cumming at the same time as him. Adam slumps down onto Steven, sensitive from the orgasms but Andrew wasn’t done with him yet.

His stomach rubs against Steven’s own sensitive cock and the silveret cries. 

Andrew thrusts harder, pounds his cock into Adam’s ass. Watching both of his boyfriends cum made him chase his own high. He could feel Adam whimpering and tightening around him. His thrusts were strong enough that he nearly taking Adam’s body with him, his nails bit against the brunet’s skin and Andrew grits his teeth in frustration. He’s there, he’s so close and one more particular thrust into Adam’s prostate and Andrew was spilling his seed inside Adam, thrusting again and again, repeatedly until he could feel his own dick become soft and sensitive from over-stimulation.

Andrew breathed in deeply, stilling for a moment before he pulled out of the brunet and laid himself down next to the duo. Adam, slowly and with shaky legs, got off of Steven so he could lie on the other side. The three of them were silent, only their pants and breathes that were trying to calm down from the high could be heard within the room. 

“That was intense,” Adam commented and he could hear Andrew laugh from the other side of the bed.

“In a good way I assume?” Andrew replied back, still trying to catch his breath.

Adam grinned, “Definitely a good way,” He said and he turned to his side to look at both Andrew and Steven, yet as he did so he came face to face with an already sleeping boyfriend. “Well, somebody looks like they got fucked out so much they passed out.” Adam comments and he sees Andrew sit up to check.

Andrew chortles again. “He’s sleeping already?” He says as he checks by lightly poking Steven, only to find out that the silveret’s already out cold.

“To be clear, he was the most wasted out of all of us.” Adam reminded the blond with a grin. “Also, I got drying cum on me.” He says as he sits up as well and winces as he does so. “I’m gonna feel that till tomorrow,” The brunet says.

“That’s still good right?” Andrew says as he stands up and goes to Adam to give him a kiss. “I’ll get us a washcloth.”  He murmurs softly against the brunet’s lips and he feels Adam smile fondly at him.

He watches Andrew disappear into the bathroom and Adam starts to fix the bed by shoving away the dirty blankets with cum on them. “Hey Andrew, bring extra blankets too!” He shouts a bit louder and he hears Steven groan and shift.

Luckily, the silveret didn’t wake up.

Andrew comes back with a washcloth. He hugs Adam from behind and gives him a kiss on the cheek. He starts to carefully clean the brunet, first on his thighs and ass, then to his stomach where Steven’s cum was drying on him. “Here,” The blond says as he hands Adam a different washcloth for Steven. “I’ll get our blankets.” He murmurs softly, kissing Adam again before moving away.

The brunet smiles and he moves to Steven. The silveret was already sleeping peacefully that not even the cold washcloth stirred him awake. He cleaned Steven up, then threw the washcloth down on the floor along the pile of dirty blankets.

Andrew comes back with a big blanket for the three of them. They settle back into their earlier position, yet Andrew reached his hand out so that he can intertwine his fingers with Adam’s. 

“Good night,” Andrew says as he moves in closer, basking in the heat of Steven’s body.

Adam smiles happily, satisfied as he holds tighter onto Andrew’s hand. He closes his eyes and before drifting off to sleep, he replies. “Good night Andrew.” 

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Notes: So, I hope this was alright and wasn’t too confusing to read owo It’s been a while since I last wrote a threesome fic and I have to admit, this was quite hard but I like it! XD good for improving writing skills =w=

Also, initially, I planned on making this a DP  👀 I wanted both Andrew and Adam to fuck Steven at the same time  👀 But then I thought, maybe for next time, cuz Adam also deserves to have a nice cock inside him =w=

Anyways, hope you enjoyed reading this!  ❤️️

[noa-nightingale]

hello! I feel like I can talk to you at length about how much Steven Lim is a ray of sunshine that seems to bring out such positive vibes from the people around him.

like, every episode of Dish Granted is evidence of this, especially the latest one where he really vibes with Tony. their interaction is such cozy friendship goals. and when he brings out the food, everyone is just beaming with disbelief at how much thought goes into granting their dish and how much Steven values them.

also, and I've only recently noticed this, his energy with Andrew and Adam on Worth It is so distinct that it seems to have brought out the best and shiniest of these two otherwise stoic boys. I look at the way Andrew interacts with people on his other content (e.g. About To Eat, which has been great overall) and it really doesn't compare. when he's with Steven, Andrew seems so loose, so comfortable (he smiles and laughs so much oh my god), and almost vulnerable at times! I really miss standrew on tumblr dot edu

whew sorry for being overlong but I just wanna say one last thing: I hate love the fact that Steven is so much more attractive, especially on Dish Granted. is it the hair? is it the way he carries himself? is it the kindness? it really stresses me out. I just wanna wish him and Tammy and their fur babies the best this life has to offer.

Hello sweet anon! (And hello excuse to ramble about Mr Lim again!)

I am gonna talk about myself here for a moment but I'll try to keep it short - the idea that somebody might enjoy my company and get something positive out of the things I do and say is still really alien/weird/incomprehensible to me (despite some people very obviously finding value in the things I create, but it is just... such a strange concept to me; I blame it on the autism).

That's one of the reasons I find it so fascinating how Steven interacts with others.

I obviously just see the parts and facets of him he decides to put on the internet but it seems to me that he really wants to be part of others people's lives and have these experiences with them. That he wants these relationships, wants to cultivate them.

Now that I write it down, it seems kind of obvious to say it - that people want to be in each other's lives and enjoy their time together. But I am someone who is simultaneously scared and fascinated by that so... it is really really amazing to watch.

I love how he is with Tony. We only get to see how they are around each other on camera but I think he said somewhere that he and Tony are to each other what Shane and Ryan are to each other. (I can't remember where he said that though, someone correct me if I am misremembering it.) And that's just really heartwarming to me.

It is friggin' amazing that he gets to meet all these people and share these beautiful moments with them.

Oh Lord, you made me miss Worth It. ^-^ (And I hope that Adam will be on Dish Granted in a future season too.) It made me think about Andrew's Dish Granted episode - he said the same "Cheers, Steven" that he said on Worth It too and it made my heart hurt a bit. It has always been so lovely to me.

I love the theme of "Steven brings out the positive vibes in others" that runs through your message, and it honestly just confirms for me that Steven in an exceptional person.

And man, you already said it, that guy is just, like... really really attractive. It's mostly the kindness for me, and the warmth. Like, cooking for others and sharing food with others already is such a warm thing and Steven really makes it such an Experience, not only for the people in the episodes but also for us.

(It's also just... he just looks good. I love his little smile, and he has really pretty eyes, and I bet he gives great hugs. I could go on but this reply has been all heart-eyes already so I'll stop here lmao.)

That's it for now, and THANK YOU SO MUCH for putting in the effort of writing a long message and sending it my way, a lot of truth has been said there. ^-^

Sending a hug your way if you want it. I loved answering to you, made my day brighter and better. :D

Thanks again, take care of yourself and may there be a really good meal somewhere in your near future. 💜

[noa-nightingale]

Watcher and Autism

It is April! It is Autism Acceptance Month!

It is Autism Acceptance Month (formerly Autism Awareness Month but we are shifting away from that), and I finally found the time to write about something I wanted to write about for a long time: My experiences with Watcher, as an autistic person.

I already write a lot about being in Watcher’s audience as someone who is queer and I will keep writing about it, but this needs some attention too.

I had plans to write something about Watcher and Autism for Steven Lim Appreciation Week but I decided that it would make more sense to include Ryan and Shane in this too instead of just Steven.

Here is some background: I got my autism diagnosis as an adult (early 20s), and it was a huge relief for me. I finally had an explanation for why I was so “wrong” all the time, and that maybe I was not inherently wrong or broken. I can’t go into detail about my autism here, that would be a post of its own (or many posts) but, unsurprisingly, my autism informs the way I interact with the world; and it informs how I interact with Watcher too.

I believe it is even a big part of why I love this content so much - and Watcher is 100% a Special Interest of mine.

First of all, what are the defining traits of autism? Officially, it is defined as a neurodevelopmental disorder (I have Opinions about that but that, too, is another post), and its “symptoms” are difficulties with social interaction and communication, and repetitive behavior. There are many more traits associated with autism though, and I am just a little bit disgruntled that it is so often only defined by the things that are “wrong” with a person. Personally, I like being autistic and I (mostly) like my autistic traits.

Now, let me talk about the Watcher fandom for a second: It is a huge advantage for me to be able to communicate with y’all online. It is more accessible, not only because I would have problems to find so many Watcher fans near me (I mean, we are from all over the world, how effing great is that!) but also because my difficulties with social interaction and communication don’t feel as heavy when I can communicate in written form. I don’t know how weird I actually seem here but if you’d meet me in person, it would become pretty obvious pretty fast that there is something strange about me. (I also sometimes just go semi- or non-verbal, and that does not happen in written communication.)

I never had a stable friend group offline, I never really felt like part of a group offline, and I have difficulties making friends. So, let me just admit it now: I don’t have offline friends. Like, I do have friends that are not in the Watcher fandom but those are not offline friendships either. I don’t see my online communication as a consolation gift or some weak copy of the “real deal”. On the contrary.

Now! Watcher! First thing that comes to mind - Watcher’s special kind of compassionate weirdness just works for me. It seems very non-judgmental, and as someone who gets judged from all sides (sometimes outright, sometimes more subtle - we live in a society etc etc lmao), that’s just very refreshing and soothing. It makes me feel like I can be weird too. (I mean, there is something to be said about allistic people being praised for being weird while autistic people get shamed for it, but allistics being weird is not the problem with that - everyone has the right to be weird. Btw allistic = non-autistic.)

I also have to talk about Steven Lim here. Because I effing LOVE his awkwardness. I am the King of Awkward, and to see someone who is so awkwad and so loved is just so so SO good. And personally, I love him because he is awkward, not despite of it. He is also so... earnest. So passionate and sincere. I have those traits too, and I often feel like I am Too Much and Too Intense, or like people think I don’t have a sense of humor. (Don’t know how it is online but I don’t think people think I have a significant sense of humor when they meet me offline. I feel a lot more like myself when I can talk online. All the clumsy social stumbling falls away to a degree.)

I remember some moments from Here’s What You Do (and maybe also Watcher Weekly) where Steven did not know a certain phrase or expression, and Shane and Ryan explained it to him - without judgment, without shaming him, even if some people probably would think that you “should” know it. Again, this is very relatable to me, and I wish people would not act like there is something strange about it when I don’t know things that “should be obvious”.

We, of course, also have to talk about Mr Bergara’s ability to just say what he thinks. I am not the first person to say that he sometimes does not seem to have a filter, and holy damn, it is beautiful to watch. It is comforting to me, especially because I overthink EVERY interaction I have with other people.

Also! Fashion! Shane said (several times, I believe) that his goal is to look as weird as possible in his 30s, and it gave me the confidence to get some new clothes too. Just a year ago, I NEVER would have dared to wear them. My approach to life always was, don’t stand out, don’t attract attention, you will get punished in some form. I tried to make myself small and unthreatening, occupying as little space as I could. Watcher and their lovely, lovely wackiness gave me the confidence to stand out, and folks, I love it. (Today’s outfit was this: Pride Converse, jeans, Ryan Bergara self portrait shirt, pink demin jacket with a bunch of pins and buttons, Shane Madej Headband. It felt really good, and I have some other outrageous clothes now.)

(I also WISH I could have a mustache but that’s a whole other story lmao.)

I also have to mention Watcher’s integrity. A while ago, I read a study about autistic people and that one reason we sometimes seem like we stick to the rules so much is that we just have a strong sense of what’s right. Sorry for the awkward wording, and I don’t mean to say that allistics can’t have integrity (obviously) - but my own integrity feels very attached to my autism, I can’t untangle that. It is the most important thing in my life - is this kind? Is this right? Am I doing right by people? And I feel like that is reflected in Watcher’s values.

I could say a lot more but I will leave it at that for now. I am just beyond grateful that Watcher exists and that I get to have this Special Interest. This is so important to me, and it is really really fulfilling. I don’t know if I really could convey properly how an autistic brain works buuut I hope you got at least a little tiny glimpse. (Also, obligatory “I am just one person, I don’t speak for other autistic people” disclaimer.)

My queerness, my autism and all my other traits are all interconnected, and Watcher just seems to be a near perfect fit.

Happy (rest of) Autism Acceptance Month, friends! And thanks for giving my awkward, weird, Too Much self a cozy little home here.

[wetookanoath]

I’VE BEEN WAITING LIKE CRAZY FOR THIS VIDEO. Bless Freddie and Kristin for We Styled Ryan & Shane • Ladylike!

Kristin burning Ryan since the beginning is exactly what I’m here for. Bring it in, queen. Burn Ryan’s closet down.

Ryan and Shane look so confused about what is going on and how this happened, but they are here for the ride it seems. “If you got one of the boys, you get the other” I will never not love this. Also, Ryan’s heart eyes at Shane, mood.

“I can have the same outfit for, like, three days” FEDDIE’S FACE IS MY FACE, TOO. OH MY GOD.

“Do you guys wash jeans...?” “... What?” OH MY GOD, SHANE WHAT THE FUUUUUCK. YIKES.

“Like a teacher, a professor that thinks he is cooler than he is” Ryan about Shane’s stye. I’m living. Except for SHANE’S FACE WHILE RYAN IS SAYING THIS, OH MY FUCKING GOD, HE IS GOING TO DESTROY HIM WHEN IT’S HIS TURN TO DESCRIBE RYAN’S STYLE. Oh, Jesus, he’s pissed. “You don’t have to demostrate”, oh my GOOODDDDD, HE IS PISSED. SHANE NO.

“Aaaahhhh, sporty. Lazy. Trendy... ish”, “Those three words sound incongruous“ “Yeah, that’s it. He’s incongruous“ OUCH. But lmao, sort of. “I wear more buttun ups than you do” “That’s because I’m lazy” SHANE’S FACE WHEN RYAN SAID THAT, LMAO SAME. “I think you dress up like a teen dad” AAHAHAHAHA, YES FREDDIE, DRAG HIM.

“For the record, Ryan has asked me where do I bought certain things” “YOU ASK ME THAT, TOO”, yeah because that’s very important, lmao. This is the hurt ego video and I love it.

“I’m just trying to not walk on the street nude” SHANE.

Ryan has a katana and that’s everything I care about. I love it.

Shane trying to make Ryan talk about his guitar lessons and so, while Ryan tries his best to escape from Shane’s bullshit is the biggest mood.

Shane immediatelly claiming Ryan’s bed while the girls Suffer in Ryan’s closet is me every day of my life.

RYAN HAS 12 BASKETBALL JERSEY’S, I’M SCREAMING.

“Ryan is somebody who's afraid of statement pieces and you shouldn’t be afraid of the statement piece” I love that.

Oh, Jesus fuck. He really likes his sneakers. Oh my God.

Did he just said that he gave Shane those shoes he is ALWAYS wearing? The red ones? I’m sorry, this doesn’t have subtitles and my english is not that good. Did he said he recommended them to him or that he gave them those? Either way, that’s cute. I love that they really do match most times because they keep giving the other advice on what to wear/where to find it, or just giving the other a thing or two they nEVER STOP USING.

Shane looks enourmous in his own apartment. How the hell does this man lives? And he talking about his struggle to find pants it’s so familia. My boyfriend heights the exact same as Shane and when he finds one (1) model of pants that fit him well? He buys them in every single color he can find them, and sometimes he buys two pairs of the same color because he never finds anything ever. So yeah, I know that struggle.

I’m gonna say it. I love Shane’s closet.

"Shane cleary knows what looks good on him, he knows what he feels comfortable in, and he really doesn't venture too far outside of those bounds". I actually like the first part of this, “Shane cleary knows what looks good on him” because that’s true (I mean, all of this is, but this in particular) and I fucking love it.

Shane has an electric guitar in his apartment and I’m starting to think it may be his with how much he insists on Ryan playing guitar. I saw it first in one of Sara’s videos and my brother was able to tell me the model (listen, my brother is a musician and has 12? 13? electric guitars) and it’s a way too expensive model to just have it there in the corner. So someone in that apartment plays guitar good enough to jump to an electric one and that’s cool.

THE HEIGHT DIFFERENCE IN THE ONE WEEK LATER JUMP, WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK. I still love every time Ryan calls Shane ‘big guy’ and I love he does it outside Unsolved, which means they do it just... every day.

Everyone calling out Ryan for not knowing what a french thuck is, aksjndskdjfdskdj.

RYAN’S LAUGH. Same, same, same. I don’t... really like Shane’s look. But I love the shirt, good call in there. BUT RYAN. HOLY SHIT. GOOD JOB! And also, I think we know he has decided to keep some of that, so that’s nice. I really like it.

“I think you are just not use to the fit” YEAH, WEAR MORE FIT THINGS RYAN, KILL US WITH THOSE ARMS AND THOSE FUCKING PECS, HOLY SHIT. He actually looks shy about showing off and fucking love him more for that, oh my God.

“Milky bottoms Bergara” Shane, no.

LMAO, LOOK AT THEM JUMPING. I HATE THEM.

Okay, night looks. Love Ryan’s jacket, it’s really a great look, holy shit. Shane’s look, NICE-- but it may be too much? Too much pattern? I don’t know, these girls know of fashion, I’m just a writer that wears the same thing all week, so like lmao.

Ryan feeling Shane’s pants is killing me. “They feel like home”, WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN.

“Yeah, I’m really tall” oh, honey. Okay, I’m noticing Shane’s arms again and alright, I def like good arms. I’m an arms and bear girl, it seems.

I love blazers, I love blazers on my man and on my girls, wear more bleazers, people.

“Ryan looks like your bodyguard right now” SJHFDSKJFH AHAHAHAHA, GIRLS NO. RYAN’S FACE, THO.

SHANE WEAR MORE V NECKS, PLEASE. God, I love that shirt, Ryan. Please, wear it every day. 

RYAN DON’T DO THAT, OH MY GOD.

[wetookanoath]

Yesterday, I was wondering how this time they didn’t do a like Q&A for this season, but they disappoint me and did this out of fucking nowhere today. Thank you for my life, boys.

Look at them, I love them! They are so handsome!

Ghoul HQ, “you look like my parents trying to go live” true. Also love them accepting their dadness in this.

Today in Shane thinks weird ways to die are cool: Eaten By Birds.

The only camera man for them in my heart is TJ, so... “He’s a very... stoic man” “I’ve seen him smiling” “It looks like a struggle” LMAO.

I love Shane’s hair. And I love how fucking big Ryan’s arms are, I’m fucking dying, holy shit. Crush me in those biceps, sr.

“Ryan you have something on your teeth” OH YOU LIARS, also jdnsndskdmkdsdmkf. Shane realizing he is staying alone in the room, lmao. “LET’S HEAR YOUR BEST HOTDAGA QUESTIONS”, I love him.

HotDaga coming back this week, baby! Also, Shane saying “we’re back, baby” does a lot of things to me.

GUYS, stop asking them the same question. They have talked a lot about what their favorite location has been. Enough. But yaass, New Orleans has good jazz, check out their jazz.

These guys sure have a lot of Bad Food experiences during their trips, oh my god.

Well, I think it’s p obvious the story part of the show is writen down and the rest of it it’s... just what happen while they walk into location, Shane’s reactions are all real. Remember he knows shit about the case until he listens to Ryan’s script.

I kinda agree with Shane in this, “I woke up” stuff is kinda-- I don’t know. Also, I know some folks have been worried that others think Shane presents as disrespectful to people who believes, and this is a good time to say that he doesn’t and he is not. As said by him and supported by Ryan in this moment, he is not.

“And one of my fave characters is dead” oh my god, I’m sure they are talking about Infinity War, but these two-- oh my God, their faces just CHANGED. They are such dads, don’t do that to them, pals, they seriously care.

Ryan smiling at Shane live is the reason I wake up this morning it seems. Oh, look at Shane looking at Ryan, that’s the other reason I woke up today.

Every time I see Shane talking about videogames and Ryan going ?, all I can think about is @void-bee‘s fanart for the crack AU with Gamer Shane and Beauty Guru Ryan.

Heart Monitors and Shane goes immediately THAT’S A GOOD DIEA, he’s so excited-- freakin’ demon, you want us to see you seriously are just standing there humoring Ryan or what.

Guys, save me from this hell of getting Emotions out of the way Shane smirks while Ryan is saying he has gotten a little braver, and the way Ryan laughs about it while looking at Shane smirking, like... save me.

I love their laugh. I love seeing them laughing together.

A WHAT STOLE A BABY? Okay, I need to get from under my rock my often. Also, Shane going immediatelly to “that’s devastating” is such a mood.

The fact that they don’t know if TJ and the rest of their crew are boogaras or shaniacs is amazing, lmao. 

Ryan looking at Shane to confirm he agrees with him every single time is everything.

I love Shane’s jacket.

Hey guys, remember when we thought Shane was possessed but it turned out he had some bad food? Shane making fun of himself with the bad hotdogs story is such a mood, and the fact that Ryan will never let go of it it’s jdnsufdi. I love a friendship.

That’s a good quesiton, facebook person-- if Ryan would still be a skeptic if the toothpaste hadn’t fallen. But yeah-- I guess it was the whole trip that convinced him, that little thingy falling was just the cherry on top. Also-- the way turned on by itself? My english sucks today, it seems. I didn’t understand.

Shane talks about that day in the Queen Mary like if he was there and that’s... such Foolish Mortal mood. Also, I’m sure he knows Ryan’s pals by now, and that’s pretty cool, too.

Oh, God-- stop. The discourse is coming again, I can feel it. But also, the fact that these two seriously appreciate their co-worker should be enough for your people to shut up a little, holy shit.

Look at them roasting poor Steven and agreeing Andrew would be like :l all the time in location. How about you invited both to it? Please?

Bragging the boys with popcorn seems to be the answer to everything. Also, that story of Ryan looking at pictures of popcorn while with his friends, oh my God. How obssessed can you be? HOLY SHIT.

Space Invaders is a great movie, by the way. Is a lot of fun. It’s ridiculous, but fun.

Yeah, please bring in Jeff Goldblum. Can you imagine weird yet hot as fuck Goldblum with weird yet hot as fuck Shane? I want that.

I love the fact that Ryan doesn’t get scared with scary attractions and scary movies because all our fanfics are inacurate, so we need to start writing something else. But also-- it fuels that one headcanon, you all know which one I’m talking about 👀

Going again with looking at Shane to see if he agrees with what he’s saying. Mood.

“Yeah, I was. I feel comfortable to be out in the forest” he is, in fact, Bigfoot.

“Would you consider coming back to Mexico?” LOOOOOOK AT THE BEAUTIFULLLLL SIIIIGHT OF VALIDAAAATIOOOOOON. “Yeah, like go there-- I can touch, like, a bunch of my own culture.” LA VALIDACIÓOOOOON, ES TAN BUEEENAAAA. On your fucking ugly ass racist face, anons!

I love how much they hate the Island of the Dolls because I love that place so much, I feel so comfortable in that place and its story is resonates so much with me and the story of my cochina af city, it’s amazing. I’m gonna send me pictures of Alicia just to fuck with them.

Ryan confirming they do search for places where they can do more than the investigation, jdsnmknjdskmnj.

Can’t wait for this Post Mortem, seems like we are going to have a lot of things coming, dnsknfir. Included the Hotdaga, lmao.

PACKAGE!!!!!! What did you guys sent them now? I love you all.

They answered where they weren’t going to ever in the last live Q&A actually. Also, my boys respecting cultures and people’s struggles. I love them.

Glad you guys know how funny you look with all the gear you carry around. Also, WE NEED BEHIND THE SCENES OF THESE THINGS, COME ON. They need to do this at least ONCE, they must look Aesthetically Nice gearing up.

@ BuzzFeed give my mans money so they can keep travelling outside the USA.

Ah, the spirit box tweet. You guys say Ryan’s face is smug and therefore it must be real, but honestly? No, that’s not smug. He looks done. I’m even more sure than before that is bullshit. That “okay...”, yeah no-- it’s bullshit. Poor Ryan, save him from this demon.

We have hear the holy water story three times, guys... the same questions... ask other things, please.... Also, lmao, Father Thomas Mention(tm). Drink every time the boys mention Father Thomas in the Q&As.

“I hope we can get back in touch with him” “Yeah, I’m sure he is very disappointed in us” totally. I wonder if Father Thomas knows he is a meme in our fandom and recurrent character in fanfics?

Honestly, I’ll watch you two talk about shit for four hours straight if I could.

“It was good times, it was good times” it sure looked like it in the instastories.

They are such dads. I love them.