#watching legit everyone all the time

[girlishwhimsies]

sky said johnny knows about peril i said oh i’m sure

[cosmogyros]

Literally can't pay my rent until I get paid for September, which hasn't happened yet. Today is Friday, and Monday is the last day of the month. I'm so tired of being poor.

[justafriendofxanders]

*breathlessly* i think a lot of xander's Stuff stems from a desire for dependability and stability and growing up in a volatile home situation where that wasn't guaranteed which is why he constantly seeks out validation from his peers and like, the CONCEPT of what it means to be Cool or Likable and later a Good Breadwinner/Husband because he doesn't have any other models of what it means to Be Okay (whether it's in role models or a personal philosophy) or the confidence (or frankly, especially in the earlier seasons, the emotional intelligence) to trust that he's enough as he is. and i think part of the fucking tragedy of why he ends up pulling the ultimate flaker move of bailing on his own wedding is BECAUSE he takes commitment seriously and he's all too aware of how people can fail in the promises they make to each other, himself included, and he doesn't trust himself to NOT hurt his loved ones.

but i ALSO do think he rushed into marriage because he felt like it was the right thing to do, rather than because it felt right to him, if that makes sense. i think this is related to the meta about the willow/xander arc, which is to say that when you are insecure and it seems like things are falling apart, and you derive a sense of security from your relationships with the people in your life, it makes sense to double-down on those relationships and try to lock them down, for lack of a better word. because what else are you going to do, trust YOURSELF?

and it's this insane cycle where if you're judging xander as a real person you would or wouldn't want to be friends with (as opposed to a fictional rubiks cube i guess), then it's very easy to pick up on his flaws and the ways in which he can be annoying or hurtful or act (apparently) without consideration for other people's feelings. which is like, fine, whatever, consume media however you want. i'm just personally fascinated by (read: tearing my hair out about) the rubiks cube of how xander most often appears selfish and self-centered when he is most insecure and craving some kind of external reassurance. like sometimes i feel like i'm watching this man run around in a rodent shock maze of his own creation.

[lilacerull0]

oh my god jo i totally forgot to tell u this BUT. i'm currently playing jo march in a production of little women and every time i get overwhelmed by it i always remember ur excitement and love for her and her story and i think. i need to make jo proud 🙏 and then i start working even harder on the show. so silly but knowing how many people (like u 💗) care for jo march so immensely motivates me to do the best i can

I AM ALREADY PROUD!!!!!!!!!! AND I KNOW THAT YOU'LL NAIL IT!!!!!!!!! AND THIS IS SUCH A HEARTWARMING MESSAGE TO RECEIVE FROM AN ARTIST DHDJSJKD I AM YOUR FAN!!!!!!!!!! I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!!!! SIGN MY (TEXT)BOOKS PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEE. ALSO I LOVE YOU. CAN I PUT THIS ASK ON MY WALL FJSJDKAKDKSK HIIII JO MARCH HIIIIIIII JO MARCH IN MY INBOX

[wwriothesley]

      his ''fans'' don't much to entice more than a lukewarm response to aknowledge them and their... fawning. the fastest way to be left alone is to pretend to be a clueless dolt when being flirted with- works like a charm and saves his ass every time.

[badboysupr]

this is entirely unrelated to anything on this blog or anything pjo but i have to declare this somewhere, so this is as good a place as any:

please, i am begging you, if you haven't played ou/ter w.ilds (wilds, not worlds: important distinction) and have the ability to, pry yourself off this hellsite and go play it

i don't mean to be pushy or annoying, but i can pretty much guarantee that if i had to choose one (1) game out of so dang many i hold dear and would recommend, that's the one. everyone should experience it

my gf and i finally beat our playthrough of it at the end of 2023, and i have legit not gone a single day since then without the game just crossing my mind, if not being wholly consumed in EmotionsTM and just staring vacantly at a wall trying to process what the crap we went through—and the fact i'd never get to experience that game again for the first time (never in my life have i wanted to forget a game as badly as this just to get to replay it blind)

it's incredible. it's messed with my head in good and bad ways. and i am confident i will never play a game that makes me feel the exact way this game has. that is all. have a wonderful day/evening/whatever (time isn't real) and i will return this blog to regularly scheduled programming now ♡

[cinemacrypt]

So so so fucking angry tonight

[monty-glasses-roxy]

Making this a new post so not to flood people’s dashes with one giant AU post!

@jellycreamjammedart​

Ooooo being away gives him enough time and the space necessary to have the strength to come back at all and Gregory gave him the focus he needed not to get swept away by his own mind... Maybe he stays in touch with Vanessa and they can be talking buddies or he gets an over the phone therapist or something I dunno. Could be fun. Definitely space and time for him to come to appreciate that sometimes arson is the answer to your problems.

Also lmao Roxy yelling at him from across the room to keep his gremlin on a leash. “He don’t bite!” “YES THE FUCK HE DO”

No one tell Gregory the power he has over her now. He will absolutely abuse the fuck out of it.

[pyrosomatic-metamorphosis]

dominion smp is powerful enough to take me out of trafficlife brainrot okay THAT is how you know you should watch it. tan and viking are so. . .

[i-like-gay-books]

for the sake of transparency i feel the need to disclose that ive been watching glee again and it is phenomenal

[chisungie]

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[just-rogi]

Ok.. either I am just genuinely so radiant that sometimes strangers just LOVE me… or there is some untapped potential of a racially ambiguous mixed girlie… because there as an absurd and disproportionate trend in my life of going to restaurants run by people of color and the wait staff instantly clocking me as “friend shaped” and then giving me a huge discount for no other reason… like in front of my white friends. I’m treated WAY differently and it’s honestly hilarious?? Like the really cute waitress tonight was on her break when we left and stopped to say “byeeee it was wonderful to have you!!! You were so sweet!!” At like only me, while my two other friends were right ?? there?? She also did not charge me for my drinks at all!?? Which was a slay! And this KEEPS happening?? And only with other young brown girlies and Arab dads/granddads who instantly daughter zone me and refuse to let me pay the price on the menu when they find out my mom is Arab??

[furylad]

I fucking hate living with people man

[tiktaaliker]

hi i am once again thinking about how off the walls bonkers it is that Animal World (2018) is a movie that exists and that i watched it when i did and i looked up the trailer for it and. wow this is so misleading its so fucking funny

like if you watch this. it looks like a weird superhero movie trying to copy the vibe of deadpool and suicide squad. pretty generic if a bit weird, but you'd pretty easily assume that the movie was about a guy who's also a clown who fights monsters, right?

actually no. in the real actual movie the clown thing BARELY comes up and it's not even actually happening. the main character has some extended daydreaming sequences where he pictures himself as a clown who kills monsters. he works as a clown irl for like 5 minutes in the start of the movie and then after the first act the whole clown thing isn't even brought up for most of the movie

do you want to know what the movie is ACTUALLY about??? it's in reality a loose adaptation of the Japanese manga Kaiji. The main character gets into an absurd amount of debt, and in order to pay it off agrees to participate in an extremely high stakes rock-paper-scissors tournament where you're pretty much dead if you lose. (if this sounds familiar that's because Kaiji is one of several inspirations to Squid Game)

whats even MORE funny is that this movie for some reason has some of the coolest and most creative uses of CGI i have ever seen in a movie to date. its fucking bonkers. and the vast majority of it means literally nothing it'll be like a transition shot or a dream sequence that's produced so goddamn well that it makes you want to explode. and like literally none of it is necessary theyre literally just playing rock paper scissors

[egophiliac]

Hello ! I positively adore the running joke of Idia unknowingly finding Lilia to be the coolest guy ever whenever he doesn't know it's him, like when Silver described his father, or obviously with muscle red. I can't say what'd be funnier, Idia finding out his online best friend is actually Lilia, resident spooky hyper fairy; or them both never finding out, and it'd become even more ridiculous as time goes on. How do you think it'll play out ? You're always so on point

(Also, though it makes sense, I'm still devastated bat boy didn't get a ticket for the Halloween skeleton train : ( does anyone mentions him at some point ? Like how he'd have fit right in with all those Halloween town little freaks, and how he'd have impressed them with his spooks and scared techniques; after all he's been every Briar Valley's children worst fear on Halloween for centuries. I'm on the eng server and I didn't wanna spoil myself by watching the whole thing on youtube)

Have a nice day !

you and me both, Idia and Lilia being oblivious online BFFs (+ Idia being incredibly intimidated any time Silver brings up his jock gamer dad) is my favorite running joke/subplot. 🤝 it's SO good, to the point where I also am unsure if I actually want it to ever be resolved or not...maybe, like, as a post-canon stinger or something? everyone's standing around covered in overblot ink, and Idia and Lilia's phones go off at the same time...

(legit I do think this is part of why Idia couldn't be present for Lilia's dream, because for some reason Lilia decided he was going to just. embody his past self online. he probably quotes his own battle strategies or whatever in the middle of boss fights. Idia didn't pick up on the whole "oh how weird that we both live on a super remote island" thing, but he would spend thirty seconds listening to General Lilia describing siege warfare and be like "w-wait")

all that aside, however it does end up happening, I do see Lilia being very blasé and all "oh! cool!" about it. y'know, taking it very much in stride! and Idia...very much not.

(can't tell if tumblr is going to chew this into illegibility or not, this will be a fun surprise ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ)

as for Lilia sadly missing out on Halloweentown shenanigans...he does get one little mention as part of an offhand reference to the light music club, but so far no one has brought up how this basically is just Lost In the Book of Liliatown (Sebek's been too busy yelling about not getting to be in the same group as Malleus). 😔 honestly though, it's probably for the best that he got left out, because he would just settle right in and refuse to ever leave. canon would shatter. we would miss out on all the delightful angst of episode 7 because Lilia is too busy eating poisonous shrubbery inbetween practicing his very best screams, and no one can pull him away from it.

(I can hope for a sequel next year though...)

[pondscummy]

gonna fucking run away from home but as a 28 year old