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PARACOSM OF THE GODS.
PAIRING: gojo satoru x f!reader, geto suguru x f!reader | 11.5k words
SUMMARY: ok here we go, canon au, angst, fluff, best friends being in love, stsg being whipped but unable to express it, reader is clueless as usual, timeskips, canon compliant deaths, bittersweet, longing, mutual pining, emotionally stunted teens, dad!gojo makes an appearance, hopefully thatâs it i'm tired of typing
RHEYA'S NOTE: highkey lowkey stressed posting bc this has been sitting in my wips for 4 years now. i honestly didn't have to add much to it i basically just proofread. but yeah when you maladaptive daydream and create a plot where you're a character in jjk and you're also in love with gojo and geto this is what happens. a little sad to let this go but it's time !! plus i can add more parts later. but anyways pls lmk what you think, i'm super curious to know <33
i. the unknown
satoru's first impression of you is anything but kind. Â
his words come casually, free into the wind without care, and they aren't meant for you to hear. instead, they fall only to suguru's ears, evoking a deep chuckle and a slight shake of his head. his bangs swish a little with the movement, but satoru is too busy eyeing you over the frame of his shades to notice.Â
you're lucky to have not heard it, because the intent with which it was said would have probably made your brow tick with frustration. he says it without a thought, as if he hasn't the slightest bit of interest in you as hints of arrogance fill his tone.Â
"who's the rookie?"Â
satoru and suguru sit outside against the patio railings of the classroom they had chosen for the day. it overlooks the grounds of the school, where they have a clear view of who approaches the main entrance. suguru absentmindedly clicks his lighterâshoko had gone to get another pack of cigarettes.Â
it is from this higher point that they have a clear view of you. you're so obviously new to this, satoru thinks as he watches how you awkwardly stand in front of yaga sensei.Â
he already wants to label you as a side character. it's mean, he realizesâcruel even, but he can barely bring himself to care.Â
"yaga sensei mentioned that there'd be a new student joining us this week," suguru says, fingering the bangs hanging in front of his eyes. they roam over you with only slight interest before uttering your full name, just as his teacher had said it.
satoru repeats it with a hum. "not a big name or anything. a small-sized family of sorcerers i think." he shrugs carelessly. "but honestly i never really paid attention to all those stupid clan and jujutsu family lessons."Â
suguru only responds with a good-natured chuckle, tearing his eyes away from the scene to look at his friend. "no shit."Â
the two sit in quiet silence, watching yaga's lips move in structured, emotionless greetings as he shakes your hand. satoru is especially focused on the hunching of your shoulders and the way your eyes nervously dart around.Â
suguru is the first to interrupt the peace.Â
"maybe she's strong?"Â
"are you kidding?" satoru scoffs as he stands up straight, shoving his fists into his pockets. he turns his nose up slightly. "that's not the attitude of someone who's confident in their abilities."Â
ii. routineÂ
"can i ask you guys a question?"Â
a cool breeze tickles your skin, goosebumps rising in its wake, and you suppress a shiver. the smell of the air tells you winter is fast approaching.Â
"you just did," satoru hums, his snowy hair splayed out against stems of green grass. suguru's chuckle reverberates deep in his chest, and you have to push back an exasperated smile.Â
"another one then," you press, leaning over satoru's face to force yourself into his view. his blue eyes pierce through yours over the dark-rimmed frames of his glasses, and even after seeing them so many times, they still feel as dominating as the first. he hums again, and you take that as your cue.Â
"what did you first think of me when we met all those months ago?"Â
satoru sits up quickly, and you can already feel your shoulders dropping when you catch a glimpse of the teasing smirk on his lips. he shifts so that he's directly facing you, leaning close so that the two of you are barely a palm's distance from one another.Â
"thought you were an annoying little rookie~" he sings and you immediately shove at his shoulder.
"'m not a rookie anymore," you huff, and satoru laughs joyously. suguru only grins, his eyes darting between the two of you happily. satoru moves himself into a proper sitting position, digging his long fingers into your bag of chips and popping one into his mouth. you swat at his hand, even though you don't mean it, because though you complain about gojo satoru all the time, you would give him the whole world if you could.Â
you and satoru take turns reaching into the bag. you wonder if the sound of crunching disturbs suguru. he's not asleepâhe's just doing that thing where he keeps his eyes closed and escapes to his own land of tranquility. you'd like to give him as much peace as you can, so you stay quiet. satoru does too, but you think that's just because you aren't talking to him.Â
the quiet is nice when you're with them. sometimes silence makes you feel aloneâparanoid. it feels like there is some impending doom hovering over your shoulder, and all you can do is wait for it to come. but with them it is different. you know that any danger in the quiet will be caught by the two of them. maybe that's why it's so easy to let your guard down around them. you trust that they won't let you die. Â
"i thought you were weak," satoru pipes up after a few minutes of silence. "you didn't seem like you were confident in your abilities, and that's a sign of weakness."Â
after spending so much time with satoru and suguru, the word weak has permeated almost every one of your conversations. later you learned how much more significant it was for them to label someone as strong. you chase after the wordâcrave it.
"and turns out that wasn't true." suguru adds with a smile, his head leaning back against the trunk of the tree. his eyes are still closed serenely and you wonder if he can feel the way you're gazing at him.Â
"yeah and now you act like some big hotshot," satoru grumbles, as though he doesn't want to admit to his old mistake, but you can hear his smile. it annoys you, the way his once degrading little nickname has now somewhat turned into a term of endearment. you would rather die than admit that you like hearing him say it.Â
"well, I'm glad that i was able to prove you both wrong."
the conversation ends there.Â
shoko returns a few minutes later, tossing you a can of soda and suguru a pack of cigarettes. as soon as she sits down in her spot under the tree you're forcing your head into her lap and kicking your feet onto satoru's legs. you ignore his complaints, because you know that in just a little bit he'll quiet down and his hand will rest over your ankle, fingers soft but firm. they'll occasionally drum some rhythmic tune, or draw nonsensical patterns against your skin.
shoko's fingers thread through your hair, just like they always do, and you know that in a few minutes you'll doze off in her lap, just like you always do. it's clockwork, this thing that you have with them. they make the days keep goingâtime doesn't stop for you.Â
a part of you wishes you could freeze time at that moment.Â
but you can't.Â
iii. halcyon
"hey suguru?"
"hm?"
"how come you always do your hair the same way?"
suguru glances up from his book. he's seated at your desk, and for a minute, the breeze pushes your curtains so that they block your view of him. satoru groans lightly from your left, turning on his side to snuggle deeper into your pillow, and slumber overtakes him once more. him and shoko remain quiet, faces free of worry as they dream in a land that is so unlike the real world you live in.
"what do you mean?" suguru asks in response to your question. he has an amused smile on his face as he places his book on your desk, though his thumb and pointer finger keep his page.
"wellâŠ" you suddenly feel stupid for asking, but he's looking at you so intently now. "you have such nice hair. you could style it in so many different ways."
"are you saying you don't like my hair the way it is?" he frowns.
"no no!" you scramble, shaking your head emphatically. quite the opposite actually you think he's so so attractiveâhow on earth did you screw this up so badly? "that's not it i justâ"
he laughs, tilting his head fondly. "i'm just messing with you, hotshot."
you blanch, before crossing your arms with a huff. "assholeâŠ"
he chuckles, before lifting a calloused hand up to finger the tie that holds his hair in a bun. he glances back at you, before a michevious smile settles on his face. he gives the tie one sharp tug, and the bun falls away. black hair drops, resting on his shoulders, and you stare at himâoddly parched. wind brushes through the open window, tickling your curtains, tickling his now open hair. you had seen his hair down before, of course. in the few seconds after a sparring session when the bun had gotten loose, or when too many strands escaped the tie and fell in front of his face (he always pushed them away with an agitated huff). but now he looks differentâgood, you realize. he looks good.
"how should i style it then, hotshot?"
his question shakes you out of your daze. you hum in contemplation. "i don't know."
he laughs quietly, as to not wake the other two. "didn't you just say there were so many ways to style it? enlighten me then," he teases, reaching over to grab a small scrap of paper from your desk. he slots it where his fingers are holding place, and then closes the book. he swivels in the chair to face you completely, rolling over so that he's right in front of you.
"wellâŠ" you start, biting your lip in thought. "a ponytail maybe?"
suguru bunches his hair into his fist, holding it up against his head. "and? how do i look?"
you grin, eyeing the new style with a stifled laugh. "fantastic."
he laughs again, louder this time, before dropping his hand.
"it looked good though!" you laugh and he rolls his eyes fondly.
"yeah yeah," he dismisses with a wave of his hand. he looks back at you, eyes tracing over your hair before he grins wide.
"i like yours."
you blink. "mine?"
"the way you did your hair today," he points to the half up-half down style you've thrown together. a dark blue ribbon holds the hair in placeâsatoru had said it matched nicely with your uniform. suguru's eyes gleam as he appraises it. "it's nice. it looks really pretty on you."
something in your chest feels like it fell off a cliff.
"ohâ" you stumble, before smiling at him because that's all you can do when he makes you feel like this. "thanks suguru."
"do mine like that," he says quickly.
once again, you blink owlishly and all you can manage is a stupid "huh?"
"do my hair like that," he repeats, getting up from the chair to sit at your feet, back towards you. he crosses his legs and puts his hands in his lap, patiently waiting.
"you can't do it yourself?" you tease, scooting closer to the edge of the bed.
"i can," he replies and you can hear the easy smile in his voice. "but i want you to do it for me."
"okay then!" you laugh before gently parting sections of his hair out. and then you work in silence, putting more effort into his hair than you've ever done with your own.
iv. fragility
"lady riko does not have any relations. when she was young, her family was involved in an accidentâŠsince then, i've been her caretaker. so please let her at least spend time with her frâ"Â
"âso that makes you her family then."Â
suguru's words seem to stun kuroi, the weight of riko's situation finally making itself clear as her face crumbles.Â
"âŠyes."Â
you listen to the way her voice wobbles, and try to suppress the poisonous lump forming in your throat.Â
"then we do everything we can to make her happy," you say solemnly, leaving no room for argument. suguru seems to agree and says nothingâsome deeper part of you feels something more than thankful towards him.Â
"you're awfully sensitive for a jujustu sorcerer, you know that?" satoru comments offhandedly. you turn to look at him, meeting his piercing gaze over dark rims.Â
"maybe," you concur. "is that considered weak?"Â
satoru seems to ponder his answer, before shrugging, a light smile on his face. "to some people, maybe."Â
you manage to smile back, and he takes in the expression with an odd look on his face. "say what you want, satoru. but you agree with me, don't you?"Â
he looks away, eyes gazing out to the distance where you know riko is currently in class with her friends, trying to live the life she wants, and something in them softens considerably.Â
"we'll do things the way she wants us to."Â
it's one sentence, said without a smile or laugh, but hearing it fall from satoru's lips makes you beam at him.Â
that's just your kindness, isn't it, satoru?
your heart leaps when you notice the tips of his ears tinge with rouge.Â
v. longing
riko's hand is warm against the coolness of your fingers. your body feels hyperaware of your surroundings, toes deep in hot sand and salty air sticking to your skin. for some odd reason, you can't seem to relax. unconsciously, you tighten your grip around the young girl's palm. she glances up at you, but when you look down at her, she's wearing the biggest smile you've ever seen.Â
satoru's presence makes itself known behind youâhis shadow looms over yours in the sand. "it'll be fine," he says.
you can't see his face, nor can you see suguru who stands at his side, but your shoulders drop slightly, and you find yourself smiling back at riko.Â
"i'm getting in the water!" she squeals eagerly, before dragging a helpless kuroi with her. satoru laughsâa clear, pristine soundâand follows after her. you watch the three of them with a fond smile, something akin to content settling deep within you. Â
"and what are you planning on doing?" suguru asks. you turn to look at him, watching the way his heavy eyes stay focused on you.Â
"hmm," you quirk a brow mischievously. "build sandcastles with me?"Â
suguru blinks owlishly before he breaks out into a good-natured laugh.Â
"deal." he walks closer to the water's edge, where the sand is damper, and crouches down. he turns to look at you over his shoulder. "don't make me do all the work, hotshot."Â
you stand there, taking him inâreally taking him in. he's just as clear as the sky behind him, and the sun shining on his face makes his smile glow. you want him to continue smiling at you like that well into the future. the waves crash onto the shore, as though the ocean is chasing his radiance, and an overwhelming feeling of unfiltered affection swells in your chest.Â
your feet carry you forward, and you think that they might always lead you back to him.Â
the sun rises as time passes, and occasionally you spare a glance at satoru and riko, who are screaming as they splash water at one another. and then you catch a glimpse of kuroi, who stands with her feet in the water, a soft smile on her face.Â
and in that moment, nothing can be ruined.Â
"what's wrong?" suguru's voice calls out, and you tear your gaze away from the others to look back at him. he stands behind you with two strawberry ice cream cones in his hands.Â
"nothing," you hum, a serene smile on your face. "everything's perfect."
his eyes trace your face, stopping to linger on your smile, and they soften. "it is, isn't it?"Â
he turns to the ocean, watching satoru and riko, and his eyes sparkle. "i hope it stays like this always."Â
"me too."Â
he bends down to take his place at your side before he hands you a cone. you take it from him. suguru's eyes drift away from you to look down at his castle.Â
"i think it looks great," he expresses, before taking a lick of his ice cream.Â
you roll your eyes with a huff. "yeah, because you made it look so nice. you're unnecessarily good at this, suguru."Â
he laughs, waving his hand dismissively. "no no, we did it together! and yours is nice too!"Â
"maybe," you grin, looking at his castle. "but yours is extra pretty."Â
he smiles back, before pointing at a small hole in his sand tower. "see this room? it's yours."Â
"mine?" you chuckle.
"yeah, all yours," he hums softly. "this is my castle and you get your own room."Â
"oh? and why's that?"Â
suguru's gaze lingers on you, and his dark eyes soften considerably. "because you'll always have a place in my home."Â
you stare at him, speechlessâsomething hammers away at the inner crevices of your chest.Â
"and this oneâ" he points to another hole a few inches away from the first. "âis my room."Â
"well in that case, that room is mine too!" you declare.
"what?" he barks out a laugh. "how does that work?"Â
"wellâŠ" you grin at him, the sun burning into your cheeks. "because my home is wherever you are!"Â
suguru's cheeky smile fades and his eyes widen. he looks at you, mouth agape, and you're about to say something else before sticky coolness trickles down your wrist.Â
"ack!" you hurry to wipe away the strawberry ice cream dripping down your skin and you completely miss the red that creeps up his neck and seeps into his ears.Â
vi. ice bath
shoko's fingers are unbelievably soft. you're grateful that you were unconscious through most of her procedures on your battered bodyâyou don't think you would've handled the pain too well. she's quiet as she works over the large wound that now covers almost half of your torso. the man with the scar on his lip had done quite the number on you, and you don't think you'll ever forget the searing ache of his blade slicing through your flesh. he had left you in a bloodied pile, isolated, and you hadn't seen what had happened to suguru after the man shot riko. you could only lay there, vision swimming as a bitter taste filled your mouthâa reminder of the life you failed to protect.
the pain had been the only thing you could focus on, until satoru was on his knees at your side and tightly gripping your shoulders. your hazy focus was drawn to his lips as he spewed curses and insults at you.Â
"why didn't you run away, you little shit," he had shouted, a feral look in his eyes. there was something different about himâa change in his very being that you could see even in the throes of death. "shoko's coming, do you hear me? for fuck's sake, keep your eyes open, hotshot!"Â
you swore you saw his eyes shine behind that look of uncontrolled anger. he had been talking a mile a minute and your focus had waned until you could only see his lips move, no sound reaching your ears.
you've never thought satoru looked more godly than he did at that moment.
suguru eventually found his way into your field of visionâknelt at satoru's side. his large hand had squeezed your limp fingers in a death grip. he was sweating, and his eyes were darting back and forth between your pale face and bloodied torso, something akin to guilt swimming in them. you wished that you had the strength in you to squeeze his hand in return. the last thing you remember seeing is his dark hair falling in front of his face as he turned to shout at whoever was approaching.
now you're awake. disoriented and bleary, but awake, and all you can look at is the way shoko's bangs fall over her furrowed brows. she's taken care of the bleeding, and now all that's left is a dull throbbing, reminding you of how close you had toed the line with death. you don't know this yet, but the scar will remain for the rest of your life, and that dull throbbing will be a permanent reminder of your narrow escape.Â
shoko hasn't said a word since she noticed your eyelids flutter open. you want to ask her so many things. important things that cannot wait:Â
where's satoru? how about suguru? i saw them both. satoru's alive, right? and suguru, too? the manâwith the scar. where did he go? he said that satoruârikoâŠ.where is riko? andâand kuroiâŠiâi..couldn't save riko. when did you get here, shoko? and why am i the only one who's being taken care of by you?Â
you want to ask her. but she's making a very odd expression as her hands ghost over your body. you've never seen it before, this odd quirking of her lips. her teeth sink into the bottom one, and she chews and bites and nibbles like it's some kind of nervous tell.Â
"shoko?"Â
it's all you can manage to sayâall you dare. your voice is dry, shaky, and sounds almost foreign to your ears. you're going to ask more, at least one of those thousand questions you had asked in your head earlier, but you don't get to because she speaks before you.Â
"shut up," she spits, and the wobble in her voice has you pinching your lips shut and feeling closer to death than you did before.Â
vii. acid rain
the sound of clapping is deafening. you don't think you've ever heard a sound so horrid in your life before, and you feel as though your ears are bleeding heavily. you can faintly make out the conversation between satoru and suguru, your ears struggling to pick out the tones of their voices.Â
"noâŠ" you hear suguru say quietly. "it doesn't matter if I'm fineâŠ"
you can feel satoru's eyes roam over your motionless body, watching the way you gaze out into the crowd impassively.Â
"let's get out of here, guys."
your feet carry you numbly, and you aren't aware of anything except the way riko's arm is swinging in front of you lifelessly. there are no mirrors aroundâno way of catching the track of tears cutting over your cheeks. the places where the salt touches burn like acid. you say nothing.Â
satoru's gaze feels intrusive. he doesn't need to ask you anythingâhe just knows. it's like your body is radiating the emotions tumbling around in your gut.Â
you're awfully sensitive for a jujutsu sorcerer, you know that?
"do you want toâŠkill them all?"Â
the question stuns you, and for the first time, you can shake yourself out of your daze to look at satoru directly. blood is smeared over the left side of his face, cerulean eyes dimmed, as though something had pulled the shine out of them. red seeps into the fine hairs of his restless eyebrows.Â
"right now, i probably wouldn't even feel anything,"Â he continues, staring at you listlessly.
you think satoru might be feeling just as numb as you are. you don't know what happened to him yet. the last you had heard, gojo satoru had been killed by the man with the scar. he had boasted about it to you before he attempted to kill you too. but then satoru was at your side again, completely alive as he ran your battered body to shoko like a crazed man.Â
you'll find out later who the man with the scar on his lip was, and what kind of legacy he had left behind. but for right now, all you see is a teenager with the weight of the world on his shoulders, and you know your answer.
satoru could help the pain go away; he'd be able to make the clapping stopâmaybe then your ears wouldn't bleed anymore. but you couldn't ask that of him.Â
"forget it. it's pointless," suguru mutters, and you're glad he's on the same page as you. not because any of these people deserve pity, but because satoru deserves a breakâone less burden for him to carry.Â
you hear suguru say more, but you can't focus. you continue to listen to the sound of the clapping, and once again lose yourself as you stare at riko's bloodied fingertips.Â
"pointless, huh?" satoru mumbles in response to suguru's answer. "does there need to be a reason?"Â
"of course. it's important," suguru's voice doesn't carry the same pleasant tone it always does. instead, it sounds strained, and tired beyond belief. unsure. "especially as jujutsu sorcerers."Â
satoru doesn't respond, but you know that he's measuring the weight of his friend's words. that's how it was with the two of them. they both balance each other outïżœïżœtheir moral compasses influenced by one another. but then you feel satoru look up from riko's body and turn to you. suguru follows suit, and before you can wonder why, it hits you: satoru had asked you both.Â
you suck a deep breath in, feeling unusually breathless. the flesh of your stomach tingles with a painful reminder of what might've been, and you make up your mind.Â
"killing them won't change anything," you say, breaking your silence. the tears on your cheeks have dried, but they leave a rigid trail in their wakeâa trail that still stings. "let's just leave it at that."Â
viii. fever dreams
satoru lies next to you.Â
a few nights have passed since riko's death, and you've chosen to stay holed up in your room. you're not sure whyâdeath has always played a big role in your life. you don't understand why it's different this time.Â
tonight is different as well. while you've maintained a distance from everyone since that day, save for classes and passing by people on school grounds, today you've decided to let someone in. satoru's the lucky one, mostly because he would've pestered you until you opened your door for him anyway.Â
it's strange though. he had knocked over and over, and when you finally opened up with a snappy jab at his annoying personality, he had brushed straight past you and laid across your bed. he hadn't said a word since then, and you've found yourself lying next to him in silence for quite a while.Â
his hand stretches out in the darkness and you can feel his fingertips brush over the skin of your arm. it's delicate, like he's testing his limits, but you understand. it's just to ground himselfâto know that you're still here, with him. to be sure that you're still alive.
you think the scar that goes down your body bothers him a lot more than it bothers you.Â
"'m here," you mumble sleepily. your fingers reach up to bump against his knuckles, and you hear him inhale deeply. his voice is throaty when he replies.Â
"i know."Â
ix. doubt
satoru learns that you've never been kissed before and he teases you for it.
not in a mean way, but in a way that has your cheeks heating and your eyes avoiding his. suddenly it feels like the gap between ages 16 and 17 is huge. he's barely even a year older than you and you're in the same year, but it feels as though he knows so much more about the world than you do. you want to ask suguru if it's bad that you've never had a kiss, but you don't. suguru rarely talks these days. sometimes he'll have conversations with you but won't look in your eyes when he speaks.Â
"hey listen, hotshot. if you don't get a kiss byâŠ" satoru hums, an eager smile on his face as he swings an arm around your shoulders and contemplates his words. "âŠlet's say 27, then i'll give one to you!"Â
there's an odd note of glee in his voice.Â
"shut up, toru," you groan, heat flooding your cheeks. "quit joking around."Â
he laughs loudly, pulling your cheek teasingly. "aw, i'm just playing. it's not a bad thing i promise!"Â
your shoulders relax slightly as the snowy-haired sorcerer continues to speak.Â
"i just thought that you would've kissed someone by now," he shrugs. "wasn't there that one guy you went on a few dates with? the one you met when we went to yokohama?"Â
there's an almost sour expression on his face as he speaks, but you're too frustrated to care. "just because i went on a couple of dates with him doesn't mean i kissed him!"
a broad teasing smile appears on satoru's face. "is that so?"Â
"ugh, i'm only 16!" you hiss, shoving him away from you. "besides i'm saving it for someone special!"
"good," you hear suguru speak up, and you turn to look at him. his fingers are interlocked, elbows resting on his knees, and he's staring down at his hands like they hold the answers to some deep questions he has. "it is something irreplaceable after all."Â
x. shadow
satoru's grin is proud as he stands before the three of you, his loose shirt billowing in the summer breeze.
you stare at him, heart thumping as shoko lets out a confused gasp. "huh? what the hell was that?"
"did it automatically choose the target for your technique?" suguru asks.
"yep!" satoru stresses the word, spinning the pencil suguru had thrown as he explains. "though i am the target. i've pretty much automated what i used to have to do manually."
your head is spinning.
"now i can tell an object's danger levels based the strength of its cursed energy, its speed, mass, velocity, shapeâwhatever. i want to be able to discern poisons too but that's pretty hard right now." satoru's voice is even when he explains, though you can make out the hints of pride that permeate his tones. you think his voice has gotten a little deeper too. "basically this is gonna allow me to keep my limitless technique active all the time!"
"that's gonna fry your brain!" shoko interjects, shaking her hair out of her eyes.
"yeah but i can do it while i continuously generate energy on my own. that way my brain stays fresh."
you can't help but let out an amused scoff. "what brain?"
satoru chucks the eraser at you, and you laugh as it bounces off your shoulder harmlessly.
"i've been working on shortening my hand signals so i can activate red and blue simultaneously." he continues, lips twitching upward as he gives you an exaggerated glare. "after this the only things i need to work on are domain expansion and long-distance teleportation. which i should be able to do if we set up some training courses here at school."
you think if someone examined you closely, they would see the stars in your eyes when you look at satoru.
"shoko~" he calls out, grinning eagerly. "think you could get me some lab rats?"
shoko groans as satoru bounds over to pester her more emphatically. you watch him, thinking you've never seen a person quite so magnificent.
god personified into a 17-year-old body. and yet it is a body that stays so close to youâwell within your reach. maybe there's nothing so godly about that at all.
"don't you get tired of getting stronger and stronger, jeez?" you complain, crossing your arms as you raise a brow at him. satoru wets his lips as he throws you a smug smile.
"don't worry hotshot, you'll catch up to me someday!" he gives you an exaggerated wink over the frames of his glasses, and you shake your head somewhat fondly.
"no way! i never want to be at your level," you huff. "i'm very comfortable living in your shadow, thank you very much!"
a strange look passes over his face, almost puzzled, but the dip in his brows melts away as he approaches you. "wellâ" he slings an arm over your shoulder. "if my shadow makes you happy then you're more than welcome to stay there."
you don't have time to reply. pale lashes flutter at youâa backdrop of cerulean. you think white and blue may be the prettiest combination of colors in the world.
"suguru?" satoru's voice is casual, yet the amusement has dropped from it. his arm is heavy around your shoulders. "have you lost weight? are you okay?"
you look up, seeing tired eyes behind dark stands of hair. suguru's cheekbones are prominent, and you have the sudden urge to reach out and trace your fingers over them.
his lips twitch upward weakly. "it's just the summer heatâŠ"
his lavender eyes drift to your face as he says it, and he tilts his head as he scrutinizes your worried expression. "âŠi'll be fine."
xi. hellfire
you hear suguru before you see him.
his breaths come loud as he pushes the door to the morgue open, the metal clanging heavily. his eyes bore into your back, taking in your clenched fists and raised shoulders that seem to tremble.
you wonder who told suguru you'd be here. maybe nanami, who was here not long ago, and had sent you a text that merely said: the mission went badly.
or maybe it was satoru, who had been chatting with you near the entrance of campus when he saw the myriad of emotions pass over your face as you read the text. he had probably called suguru as soon as you left.
it doesn't matterâyou can't bring yourself to care.
you can only think about the way haibara had smiled at you before he left that morning.
now that smile is covered by a dirty white sheet, and you can't tear your eyes away from it. the taste of blood and vomit is heavy on your tongue.
suguru says your name quietly. you can't even look at himâyou're scared that you'll cry if you do.
you don't ever want to cry in front of him. or satoruâso weak in front of those who are so strong.
"he asked if i wanted to go with them and i said no because i was lazy," you hiss, teeth clenched as you spit out the words with venom. "if i had just stopped thinking about myself for a secondâ"
your fingers dig into the flesh of your palmsâdeep, deep, deeper.
you hear suguru click his tongue, and his hands wrap around yours. he yanks your fingers apart fiercely, thumbs smoothing over the bloodied indents you've made in your own skin. you tear your eyes away from the body to finally look at him.
"don'tâ" his breath catches as his thumbs still over your flesh, eyes going hard as he takes in the blood.
he blurs in and out of focus. his head whips up when he hears you sniffle, and his lips slant ruefully. "youâ"
"i'm fine," you interrupt, blinking pointedly and taking a deep breath. "it's fineâi mean it's not fineâbut i câ"
"stop." suguru grabs your shoulders, giving you an even stare. you don't know how you didn't notice it before, but he looks thinner, older. there are dark circles under his eyesâpoison seeping into his skin. "you need to rest."
you stare back at him silently, but you don't feel like you agree. something about this is making you feel restless, like there is so much you need to make up for. his grip tightens, before he's wordlessly leading you to take a seatâhe finds his place next to you.
"satoru took over the mission." he stares at the lifeless body on the table as he speaks. you lower your gaze.
"and nanami?" your throat feels like it's closing. suguru inhales deeply.
"he went back to the dorms."
"okay."
you try to figure out if there is any meaning in having this conversation. despite everything, weren't you expected to wake up tomorrow morning and head out on a mission once more? and when you return, you're sure that there'll be another faceless body taking haibara's place.
the cycle continuesâclockwork. it scares you, just how replaceable you are.
haibara, nanami, you, another, namelessâinterchangeable.
not like satoru. not like suguru. not like the strong.
you lean your head against suguru's shoulder, fingering the hem of your uniform skirt. the fabric is cool to the touchâit seems darker, heavier. heat radiates from the body next to you, and there's something about him that's making your stomach churn with nerves. "suguru?"
his voice sounds far away. "hm?"
"are you okay?"
he stiffens and you suddenly fear you've said too muchânosy, intruding, out of place. you stumble. "it's just, we haven't talked much lately."
"i'm fine," he answers, and you can hear a smile in his voiceâwhether it's real or fake you can't tell. "just a little tired."
you know there is truth to this. but it scares you, how this tiredness of his has lingered for months. you don't know how to tell him that.
"okayâŠ" your voice is barely a whisper, heavy with unspoken words that you don't know how to formulate. somehow you find that silence has always been your only option.
but like usual, silence with suguru has never once been uncomfortable.
haibara's smile burns behind your eyelids.
"it should be a relatively simple mission. if you're not doing anything today senpai, would you like to come with us?"
his voice tickles your ears.
"that's alright! i'll get going then! oh right, today's mission is a little farther than usual, so we'll probably be back late! what would you like me to bring back for you?"Â
hypoxia crushes your lungs, your blood burns. selfish selfish selfish. you've only ever cared about yourself.
suguru's arm curls around your shoulder before you even realize you're crying. his palm is warm as it smooths over your hair, and all you can worry about tainting him with your ridiculous tears.
you don't ever want to burden himâjust want to quietly live in his shadow.
"i don'tâ" you internally cringe at the throaty rasp of your voice, swiping a hand at your nose. "i shouldn't be so sensitive aboutâ"
"it's not your fault." he quietly hushes you, grip tightening imperceptibly. through your tears you can see him adam's apple bob, and for some reason that makes you feel worse. you're too scared to look at his expression, even though his voice is resolute. "none of this is our fault."
something has changed in the way he speaks now. something has settled, a confirmation of some idea that has been brewing for a long time now.
you don't say another word, but somehow he manages to sear himself into your very being. he's warm, and fuzzy, and he smells like sandalwood and incense.Â
you don't know how long suguru let's you pathetically sob into his shoulder.
but you think you're embarrassed that he has taken pity on a wounded animal's cries.
xii. split
he looks different, but also the same. you've seen him wear that sweater before. it's plain black, no patterns, and you know that there's a loose string on the inside of the left sleeve that he was always too lazy to cut. you've always liked that sweaterâalways liked the way he looked in it.Â
you liked it so much that you've even stolen it a few times yourself.Â
but now it looks different. older and dirtierâas though soiled by some unknown curse.Â
that's what everything came down to, right? curses.Â
suguru stands in front of you, almost no trace of emotion on his handsome face, and his expression makes you want to turn and run. you miss the calm serenity that normally graced his features, wishing that you had some kind of cursed technique that could turn back time. but you aren't blessed like thatâyou wonder what sin you might've committed in a past life that made you so unlucky in this one.Â
"you look confused," he comments. you reel at how casually he speaks to you, like it's just another afternoon sitting under that stupid tree. like he's leaning his head back against the trunk and watching you and satoru bicker with that fond look in his eye.Â
"suguru," you speak, an odd strain in your voice. you struggle to comprehend this odd turn of events. you've had time to understand that he's now a different person than the one you once knew. you know that he's responsible for killing 112 innocents, including his own parents. you know that he's now an enemy to jujutsu society and you know that you should kill him right at this moment.
but he looks so much like suguru, like your suguru, that you can only manage to stand there, frozen in place. his eyes drift over your body, taking in your pajamas, the bath towel in your hands, and the small drops that trickle from your hair, and you can see the familiarity settle in his expression.Â
"why are you here?" you choke out. you feel an overwhelming sense of danger in your gut, knowing that your family is just a few rooms over from where he stands now.Â
"at your family home, you mean?" he asks casually. a small, almost amused smirk appears on his face. "you said i was always welcome."Â
you did say that. sometime last year or the year before, when you had invited satoru, suguru, and shoko over to visit during one of your quick holidays. suguru had sat across from you at your dinner table. he complimented the food and your father smiled one of his rare smiles. you had chewed quietly to hide your grin.
you don't know what to say to him now.Â
"everything they said about you," you whisper, taking a step toward him. he remains rooted in place, but his eyes follow your movements. they shift when he catches your fingers gripping your towel tighter. "is it true?"Â
"do you think it is?" he asks, and you gulp. it feels like he's baiting you into some kind of trap.Â
"i don't want to believe that it is," you answer, voice shaking. "that you would ever do something soâŠ"
the sentence hangs in the air, and he tilts his head imperceptibly. something in his eyes changes as he focuses on the drops falling over your shoulders.Â
"well i'm sorry to squash your hope," he raises his arms in a shrug. "but everything you heard is completely true."Â
your head aches, but you're not surprised by his confirmation. "why would you�"
suguru hums, a dark look falling over his face. "do you remember the conversation we had after haibara's funeral? do you remember what i told you when he died?"Â
anger flares in your gut at the mention of haibara, and the bath towel crumples in your hold. "don't say his name," you hiss through gritted teeth. "don't act like he's the reasonâjustâŠdon't bring him into this. please."Â
suguru licks his lips, eyes going soft before he tries again.Â
"everything used to make sense back then," he sighs. "back when the strong existed to protect the weak. but it's not true."Â
"suguruâ"Â
"the reason why we suffer is because of them," he interjects evenly, though frustration is clearly evident in the curve of his brows and the volume of his voice. "we clean up their messes. they create problems and we die for it."Â
you're stunned into silence, at the way he's raising his voice at you, at the way he's speaking so firmly about this horrible topic, at everything. he seems to realize the effect of his speech, and he quells his anger to speak quieter. "that's why i'm doing this. i'm going to create a world without non-sorcerers, so that sorcerers like you and i can live peacefully."Â
a lump forms in your throat because god, he's right. he's so right. your life would be a thousand times better without curses. non-sorcerers were the reason curses existed. but the way he's going about thisâŠ
"suguru," your voice shakes, but you press on. "i get it. i really doâ"Â
"i know you do," he interrupts. "you always have. even back thenâŠ"Â
he takes a step closer to you, reaching out to finger the towel in your hands. "but you don't agree with the way i'm doing it, right?"Â
you bite your lip, and he smiles at the sadness in your expression. "you're so easy to read, hotshot."Â
you ignore the way the nickname stings. "i justâhow could you kill innocent people like that? your own parents, suguru."
he looks away from you, steely resolve in his eyes. "if i made exceptions for my parents, that would kinda make me a hypocrite, wouldn't it?"Â Â
you don't know what to say to that. he doesn't seem to have anything else to add either.Â
he looks around your old bedroom, eyes sparkling as they catch a picture of the four of you from your first year. satoru's arm is slung around shoko. the dark-haired female has her elbow resting on your shoulder, her tongue sticking out playfully. you're clinging to suguru's arm, and satoru's free hand is squishing your cheeks together. the four of you are laughing.Â
nobody has laughed in a while now.Â
you tear your gaze away from the picture frame to look at him. he's so unbelievably close, and he's gazing down at you with this foreign look in his eyes, the picture forgotten behind him.Â
he slips his fingers into your hair. his palm is large enough that it can brush the side of your face, and you wonder why your body doesn't flinch away from those bloodstained hands.
"it's okay," he mumbles, a faraway look in his eyes. they remain trained on your hair, but it feels like he's looking straight through you. like you're nothing more than a ghost he wants to erase. he's so closeâyou can count his dark lashes as they brush against his cheeks. "it's difficult. i don't expect you to understand."Â
his words incite a sudden flare of anger in your gut. it burns something fierce, and in that moment you hate him.Â
"no, i don't," you reply indignantly. he pauses, now really looking at you, and his brows quirk upward in what seems to be surprise, becauseâwell, he's never seen you make such an expression at him before. "you never tried to help me understand. you just left."Â
a strained silence follows. his fingers twitch against your cheek.
"this doesn't concern you," he says finally. "i don't need you to understand my actions."Â
you recoil, as though he's physically hurt you, and your expression falls so hard that it almost makes him regret saying it. almost.Â
"if it doesn't concern me, then why are you here?" you ask again, and you see suguru's shoulders drop. "you know that i have orders to kill you. i might not be able to because you've always been stronger than me. but you know that i'llâŠ"Â
go down fighting you, is what you want to say, but the words leave a nasty taste in your mouth. but suguru seems to know what you're implying because a wry smile appears on his lips. his fingers twirl a strand of your wet hair.Â
"i'm here to say goodbye," he says finally. another tense silence fills the space between you both, and suguru can see the way your fingers shake between the folds of your towel.Â
"you're a little bit late for that, aren't you?" you choke out, a strange tilt to your voice as you break eye contact with him. "you left school weeks ago, and you didn't say a word to me then."Â
"better late than never, right?"Â
the softness in his tone makes you turn to look at him again, and you desperately want to ingrain the features of his face into your head. the gentle slope of his eyes and sweetness of his smile. he almost looks like the suguru you once knew, and you suddenly have the urge to mourn his death.Â
his face becomes blurry, the edges becoming less pronounced, and you can see the way his expression falls.Â
"i didn't come all the way here to make you cry."Â his hand drops from your face and he takes a step back. your fingers hurry to wipe at your waterline, and you shake your head.Â
"'m not crying."Â
suguru smiles ruefully, and his eyes suddenly look devoid of life. he takes another step backâyour heart plummets.
he says your name once, quietly, and it hangs in the air as you wait for him to say more.Â
he doesn't.Â
"you know that I'm not supposed to let you leave alive, right?" you mumble, fingers toying with the towel in your hand. "but i can'tâi meanâ"
"hm," he chuckles. "still as sensitive as ever, huh? s'okayâŠ"Â
he moves toward you again and his hand gently cups the back of your neck. "i think it's your best quality. makes you better than most people in our world."
he presses his lips to your forehead tenderly, and you feel your eyes widen behind your tears.Â
you probably could've stopped him, because you're aware that he's now suddenly behind you, and that he's raising his hand. you can stop him, but a part of you thinks that if it's death at suguru's hands, maybe it's not such a bad way to go.Â
you accept your fate then and there.Â
you'll find out later that suguru never had the intention to kill you then. perhaps he was waiting for a more opportune time, waiting for there to be a meaning behind it. you're not sure. but when you wake up tucked in your bed cozily, you'll feel the remnants of him lingering around you.
he was warm, and fuzzy, and he smelled like sandalwood and incense.
xiii. sanctify
satoru's at your door again.Â
you've memorized his knock patterns. he always knocks three times, then leaves a pause, then twice more. for someone so erratic, he can be quite predictable.Â
"what's up, satoru?" you call out, not looking up from your busy hands. there are a couple of empty cardboard boxes open on your bed, and you've been placing things into them all morning. things that should've been put away a long time ago. you pause on one of your old test papers, and in suguru's dark, blocky handwriting you read:Â
YOU GOTTA STUDY MORE DUMBASS.
underneath it, satoru had scrawled:Â
hotshot failing class now huh? :P
and shoko had added:Â
both of you stfu you're failing tooÂ
you had drawn a heart next to her name.Â
"whatcha doin'?" a familiar voice chirps. "spring cleaning?"
satoru stands directly behind you, peering over your shoulder. you can practically feel his aura shift when he notices the items you're putting away.Â
"cleaning of some sort," you sigh, before turning to look over your shoulder. "i've beenâŠputting it off."Â
he doesn't moveâjust continues to stare down at the paper in your hands. you think maybe you shouldn't have let him in. sometimes you forget that satoru might have his own sensitivitiesâyou've always viewed him as the strongest.
a few strands of his hair tickle your cheek, and you scrunch your nose in response. he then turns to you, eyes blinding as he studies you over the frames of his shades.Â
"want help?"Â
"please."Â you don't intend to sound so needy, but the way you whisper the word has him immediately grabbing your wrist and sitting you down next to him on the bed.Â
"how are we sorting this stuff?" he asks, his voice oddly calm. he hasn't let go of your arm yet, and some quiet part of you is grateful.Â
"i was putting our old school stuff in that box. books, papersâŠ" you answer softly, and satoru nods in understanding. "and in the other boxâŠ"Â
you inhale deeply through your nose. satoru waits, strangely patient. you're not sure if you're imagining it, but you think he squeezes your wrist.Â
"âŠare all of suguru's things."Â
there's a moment of silenceâa quick mourning for what is no longer there.Â
"it's stupid stuff that he left behind, you know?" you chuckle, even though nothing is funny. "some old shirts from when you two would sleep over, his old textbooks, a few pictures from our holidaysâshit like that."Â
satoru hums. he's not looking at youâinstead he's staring at the box, a frown on his face.Â
"i guess he didn't really need those things for where he was going. or for wherever he is now," you mumble.Â
"guess not."Â
you're not sure what's going through his head. satoru's reaction to suguru leaving had been chaotic at best. it was so hard to tell how he felt about it. you knew he was angry, confused, betrayed. but he never showed things like that. you think it might have to do with being the strongest. you're not sure thoughâyou never were strong like him.
you wish there was a way to tell him that he could share his feelings with you, but you can't think of a way that won't be awkward.Â
a ticklish sensation crawls up your wrist and you look down to watch satoru's first two fingers tap against the inside of your palm. his thumb brushes against yours as he lets out a heavy exhale.Â
"let's get started then, hotshot."Â
he looks down at you as he says the words, and you think you might cry. but you want to be strong, like him, so you offer him a smile. he gives you one in return. you realize there isn't that much warmth in it, not like it used to haveâyou're sure that yours isn't that warm either.Â
but it's enough for the two of you.Â
"you look tired, toru," you chuckle wryly, reaching up to brush a few strands of hair from his face. his eyes flutter at the touch, and you honestly think this might be the most vulnerable you've ever seen him.Â
"so do you."Â
"i am," you admit honestly.Â
"'s okay," he mumbles. his fingers tap against your palm once more. "'m here."Â
"i know," you answer. you always are.
nothing more is said as satoru stands up. he makes his way over to your desk and pulls one of suguru's old sweaters from your chair. you watch him fold it neatly, smoothing out the creases with care, before placing it into the boxâyou smile once more.Â
you think the scent of sandalwood tickles your nose, but it's gone in an instant. Â
both of you work in relative silence, sorting through the things in your room quickly. you're surprised at how bare it looks as you're nearing the end, as though there's nothing more to your life than old high school recollections.Â
you finish putting the last few polaroids into the box when satoru speaks up.Â
"hey."Â
you look up and find him staring at you, so you turn to face him completely, giving him your full attention.Â
"zenin tojiâ" the name sends a painful tingle up your body. "âleft something behind."Â
you frown. "what are you talking about?"Â
"a kid. he's got a kid. and i was gonna go meet him today," satoru shrugs. you try to read his emotions, but as usual, he's giving you nothing. "the old man said something about the zenin clan buying up his kid before i killed him. i was gonna go see if there's something i could do about that."Â
you sigh before raising a brow, an amused lilt to your voice. "and why have you kept this a secret?"Â
satoru's trademark smirk appears, and he walks over to sling an arm around your shoulders. "who knows?" he quips nonchalantly. "guess i was waiting until we were bored. we need something to do now, don't we?"Â
you glance at the packed boxes on your bed, and then look around your empty room. everything is always changing, but satoru is constant.Â
"i guess so," you grin. his eyes shine, and for a second you see a familiar teenager at the beach, and then a familiar teenager under an old tree. you think you hear waves, and the crinkling of a bag of chips.Â
"good," he chirps, walking you to the door, the arm around your shoulder secure. "his name's megumi, and we're gonna make sure he gets strong."
xiv. idyll
it takes you a little over four months to get used to megumi's eyes. they aren't unsettling or invading, like a certain snowy haired sorcerer, but they do give you chills when you first notice them. chills and a fleeting feeling of metal slicing up and down through your flesh. you just have to steady your breathing and remind yourself that the son is not the father.
tsumiki is an angel. you didn't think that kids that age could be so emotionally competent, but she's a pleasant surprise. she had been awfully protective over megumi, fidgeting with a firm hand on his shoulder as you and satoru invaded their space and upturned their lives. even after they had settled into the humble apartment satoru had purchased, tsumiki was still so overly cautious. it was obvious she still didn't trust either of you, but you thought it was admirable of her, and you relay this thought to satoru one day.
"think they hate us?" he asks, squishing his cheeks between his lithe fingers as he eyes the different milk cartons over the rims of his glasses.
"i'm pretty sure they just don't trust us that much," you reply, placing a few packs of instant ramen into the cart. "can you blame them? we're just random strangers who came up and basically kidnapped them."
"i'd like to say adopted!" he points out with a grin, before he sighs. "but we've already proved we're just doing this to help them. but they still barely talk at all."
"they're just being careful. megumi's still a little young and he looks like he doesn't give a shit about most stuff anyway," you chuckle as you remember the expression on the first grader's face as he spoke to your cocky friend. "and tsumiki's being cautious for both of them."
"she doesn't need to be cautious of us!" satoru dramatically whines, pulling out a carton of whole milk and placing it into the cart. you shiver as the cold air hits your skin, eyeing the sorcerer with an exasperated smile. he shuts the door with a huff. "i've been such a good dad!"
you roll your eyes, shoving his arm as he starts pushing the cart down the aisle. "she definitely should be cautious of you, you creep."
satoru looks down over his shoulder, appalled, though his eyes sparkle with mirth. "and why do you say that?"
"have you seen yourself? crazy 19 year old man that kidnaps kids," you mutter somewhat sarcastically, falling into step with him like it's normal. satoru grins at thatâamused.
"i think it's pretty cool of her to be that responsible though," you continue, voice going softer as you think about them, and satoru hums in what you think might be agreement. you suddenly grab his arm, stopping him in his tracks and he turns to look at you.
"you think we should get another carton of milk?" you question, tilting your head at him. "megumi's been drinking it every day after he comes back from school and tsumiki said she wanted to try making milkshakes."
satoru blinks at you, eyes widening before an amused chuckle escapes his lips. you're about to ask what is so funny but he gestures back down the aisle. "go get some."
he waits for you as you go grab another carton, leaning against the cart easily. when you make it back and place the extra milk in the cart, satoru slings an arm around your shoulders. you raise a brow, but he just continues to push the cart with his free hand and says nothing.
so you don't say anything either.
the two of you continue shopping, trying to remember the things you've noticed the kids enjoying because you know they'll be too uncomfortable to outrightly request them. for every sweet snack satoru puts into the cart, you add something that can pass as somewhat healthy, and he hides a teasing grin behind his fist each time.
when you're almost done, satoru motions to the shelves of snacks, raising a brow at you. "what do you need, hotshot?"
you look up from where you're analyzing the contents of the cart. "hm? oh i don't wanna buy anything for myself. i'm good with the stuff i have back at the dorm."
"great," he shrugs with a subtle shake of his head. "except you're not buying anything this time, i am. so pick something."
"what?" you frown, walking over to him. "we're supposed to split groceries for the kids."
"we can split next time." satoru rolls his eyes at you, as though annoyed by your insistence. "i just got paid yesterday and i wanna waste money. pick something."
you groan. "but there really isn't anything i want. if you're gonna pay yourself then let's just go. i think this is good enough."
satoru looks unamused, his eyes boring into yoursâbright, dominating, mesmerizing. "oh really? nothing you want?"
you stare at him in confusion as he walks over to the frozen section and opens the door. after a few seconds of rummaging, he pulls out a box. "not even this?"
your shoulders drop. he's holding a tub of strawberry ice cream.
he casually places it into the cart, eyes trained on your expression as he bends down. "it's your favorite, isn't it?"
your voice comes out throaty, and you wet your lips nervouslyâhis eyes follow the movement at lightning speed. "how'd you know?"
satoru scoffs out a haughty chuckle, reaching up to knock a knuckle at your foreheadâit's cold. "i know everything about you, hotshot."
he moves to grip at the cart's handle, standing close enough that you can feel the energy radiating off of him. the side of his hand touches yours, still cold. "now we can go."
he sticks by your side, pushing the cart towards the counters as he casually looks around the store. you briefly realize that his shadow doesn't cover you when you're at his side like this. the thought both scares you and pleases you in a way you didn't think was possible.
"thanks toru," you mumble before you can stop yourself. his gives you a sidelong glanceâassessing.
his lips twitch. "it's just ice cream."
"no, it's a lot more than that." you're not really sure why you say it so tragically, and satoru inhales sharply. you notice that his knuckles have turned white as he grips the cart's handles. once again, his eyes dart rapidly over your faceâbetween your eyes and then further down.
then he lets out a hushed laugh, nudging your shoulder with his. "as long as you share with me, hotshot."
everything is always changing, but satoru is constant.
you can't help but smile. "always."
you two don't say much as you head to the counter, taking turns placing all the items on the belt. you quietly watch satoru dig into his wallet, feeling oddly content doing so. you think the stars in your eyes will never disappear.
the clerk eyes you both, and suppresses a fond grin. with your close proximity, shared cart, and satoru's easy going smile, you realize that she's probably misunderstanding, but you don't really know how to correct her. satoru says nothingâhe just continues smiling, oddly pleased.
he smiles all the way to the car. you catch yourself doing the same in the rear view mirror.
xv. retribution
the first thing you notice when you kneel in front of suguru is that he's bleeding all over the place. you have the strongest urge to scramble and grip his fingers tightly, just as he had done for you so many years agoâbut you don't dare. you're too scared that touching him will ruin you completely.
he says your name quietly, and yet it's the loudest thing in the universe to youâcrashing over your ears until you've lost all sense of self.
and then he leans forward, his gaze heavy, and his hand comes up to tangle in your hair. his palm rests on the side of your face just like it did when he visited you at your family home. the last time you saw your geto suguru.
except this time he moves furtherâcrosses a line. presses his lips to yours.
he tastes like blood. you don't pull away.
the feeling of his lips shocks you though, and you stay permanently frozen in place as you feel your eyes glaze over with something you can't put into words.
suguru kisses you slowly, deeply, like he's been waiting but wants to savor it. maybe you've been waiting too. you're not sure. you're so confused.
you don't even process the way his tongue slips past your lips, tasting almost eagerly like your mouth is some kind of conquest he's trying to claim.
it's intrusive, but not unwelcome. slow, but not gentle.
you whimper quietly, feeling acid sting down your cheek as he pulls away and his eyes flutter open. he takes in your expression, and a million emotions pass over his face.
a quiet chuckle. "that bad, huh?"
you shake yourself out of it and try to push away the flush creeping up your neck. "w-what?"
"you're crying," he announces, his furrowed eyebrows paired with a sweet smile that makes him look so unbelievably tragic. "the kiss was that bad?"
your face burns, and you raise a shaking hand up to your cheekâit's wet.
"it wasn'tâi didn'tâ" you struggle. "i meanâ"
he smiles ruefully. "i'm sorry. you were saving it for someone special, right?"
there's a charged silence that follows as you scour your brain for the conversation he's referencing. when you find it, your heart sinks.
"you've always been special to me, suguru." your voice comes out quiet, but he hears it all the same. his eyes widen fractionally and you can see a light pink dust his cheeks before he laughs. it's soft, hushed, and looks like it's painful, but he lets it run its course.
it reminds you of a laugh from so long ago, at a beach, with childish screams echoing against the sound of waves. you think you can feel strawberry ice cream dripping down your wrist.
his laughs die down and he's left smiling softly at you. his lavender eyes sparkle with mirth as he tilts his head. "i'm glad. that you were the one i gave a room to."
you can hear waves in your ears, crashing crashing drowning. sand is in your hands, in between your toes, in your eyes.
he coughs, and his palm shakes against your cheek. you wonder why he doesn't just let go already dammit suguru.
you inhale sharply, trying so hard to breathe because what is that stupid thing that's clogging your throat and preventing you from speaking? there's so much you have to say to him. so many questions. so many things left unsaid. your words are failing you.
but silence with suguru has never once been uncomfortable, right?
you raise a shaky hand to press against his where it lays against your neck. "do you regret it?"
he licks his lips, smiling faintly, as though he's enjoying the new taste of you on them. "no."
"why not?" you whisper. your body unconsciously shuffles closer to him, chasing his warmth because gods is he warm. he's always been so warm, even now, in the throes of death.
"my feelings are still the same. i still hate the monkeys for everything they've done, all the crap they cause." he shuts his eyes, smiling that serene smile. you wish he was leaning against a tree trunk. "i still have no resentment to those at jujutsu tech. and you, i stillâŠ"
he doesn't continue. you don't think you want him to. there's a flush crawling up his neck, the faint pink a stark contrast to the red of blood. it makes you nauseous.
another deep inhale, and his thumb slides over your jawbone, before brushing under your bottom lip. he stares at the flesh heavily, letting his finger press into it. his tongue swipes over his own lips, eyes darkening further.
and then something shifts in his face, and he smiles mirthlessly. his hand drops from your faceâbroken contact.
he doesn't tear his gaze away from you, committing your face to memory. it's almost like he wants to say something, but decides against it at the last minute as he slumps further into the wall behind him and shuts his eyes.
when he speaks again, you know that it is all over.
"you're late, satoru."
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may the best brother win pt. 1 âhughes brothers
pairings:Â quinn hughes x afab!reader âluke hughes x afab!reader â jack hughes x afab!reader â genre:Â romance âbachelorette-esque situations âangst? âfriends - to - lovers warnings:Â mentions of lack of experience with dating âmentions of a bet / competitionâfriendly love-hate relationship â synopsis:Â you have been friends with the hughes brothers for years - but why does this summer feel so different? word count:Â 4.2k authors note: Â this is the first part in my new series on my new blog!! đ I hope you all enjoy. this will be coming out in 3-4 parts so each brother will have his own chapter let me know what you think the other brother would do for their date. (p.s. i will be posting chapter aesthetic pics at the bottom so you can get an idea of what I was picturing :) )
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The Hughes brothers had made a name for themselves over the past few years.Â
Professional athletes.Â
All top ten overall draft picks.Â
Captain of the Vancouver Canucks.Â
Hotshot forward for the New Jersey Devils.
And the rising star defensemen in the league.Â
They had certainly found a way to make every parent look at their own kid and wonder where they went wrong.Â
But no one really knew what absolute imbeciles the Hughes brothers truly were.Â
âIf you put down the pan, Iâll drop your phone.â Jack negotiates, his hands in the air, your phone swinging from the tips of his fingers. You glance down at your right hand, the cast iron pan gripped tightly before shooting your gaze back to Jack, whose face scrunches when he realises youâre not going to concede that easily.Â
âI donât understand why itâs such a big deal. You got secrets to hide or something?â Jack continues flipping the phone into his hand as he tries another passcode for the fifteenth time.Â
âNone of your business, Jack.â You sneer, lunging for the phone again, only for the hockey player to slip just slightly out of reach, his steps backing him towards the staircase.Â
Fuck, heâs gonna make a run for it.Â
âJust tell me what youâre hiding from me, and Iâll give you the phone back.â He quips
âOr I could knock you on your ass with a metal pan.â You respond, your gaze shooting up as you look at the man approaching from behind him. The phone is expertly snatched from Jackâs hands as he lets out a long whine in protest, his lips dropping into a pout as he watches his younger brother gently hand you back your phone.Â
âMaybe sheâs got a boyfriend and doesnât want you to ruin it for her.â Luke teases, giving you a smile as you mouth âthank youâ at him, holding your phone close to your chest.Â
âIf we werenât forced to be friends, I wouldnât think twice about dropping you.â You hiss, pointing an accusatory finger in the thiefâs direction before following his younger brother into the kitchen.Â
âYou would tell me though, right?â Jackâs voice carries as he follows you and Luke into the room âlike if you were seeing someone, youâd tell us?â He continues - sliding into one of the bar stools at the counter, dropping his chin into his hands. âYou wouldnât hide something like that?â You frown at Jack, tilting your head in confusion as Luke bustles about the kitchen pulling out the extra large party pack of chips and a freshly made container of salsa.Â
âWhy would I not hide something like that?â You question back, your words making Lukeâs eyebrows shoot up in surprise as he shoves a chip in his mouth, âI mean you guys hide your relationships all the time - isnât it normal at this age?â You add quickly noticing the way Jackâs face drops a little.Â
âFrom the public.â Luke notes quickly, before dipping another chip into the salsa.Â
âWe donât hide things from you.â Jack says softly, sliding off his seat and making his way out of the kitchen leaving your standing there in confusion.Â
âDonât look at me, I just want to eat my chips.â Luke huffs when you turn to glance up at him, his shoulders shrugging as the eldest of you walking in from the backyard, a towel wrapped around his waist, water already soaking through his t-shirt.Â
âWhat did I miss?â Quinn questions, as you groan and reach over stealing a handful of chips from the bag.Â
âNothing.â You huff, drawing yourself in salty goodness.Â
âShe has a boyfriend.â Luke says, letting out a groan as you shove your elbow into his side.Â
âAnd you didnât tell us?â Quinn asks, his head tilted as your frown deepens.Â
âI donât have a boyfriend, it was a hypothetical.â You shoot a glare at Luke, pointing your finger up at him, âconsider us enemies now, Warren.âÂ
âAnyway, she thinks it would be normal for her to hide a relationship from us if she was in one, and Jack got all pissy because we donât keep secrets from each other.â Luke shakes his head at your warning, handing you the bag as you go to reach for more chips.Â
âWell the point is moot, because I donât have a boyfriend.âÂ
âYeah but how can we trust you now, youâve been suspected as a liar and essentially confirmed you would if you could.â Quinn argues, leaning forwards on the kitchen counter with a teasing grin.Â
âI can one hundred percent confirm that I do not in any way shape or form have a boyfriend.â You swear, holding one hand against your chest and the other in the air, the two boys smiling as they watch your oath, âBesides Iâve never even been on a real date let alone had a relationship.â You sneer, shoving another chip in your mouth as the room falls silent.Â
âWhat?â Quinn is the one who breaks the silence, standing up straight as his brows furrow.Â
âHuh?â You pause your motions.Â
âYouâve never been on a date?âÂ
âYouâve never had a boyfriend?â The two brothers ask at the same time, both glancing at each other before looking back at you. âBut youâve brought people home, Iâve seen you.â Quinn continues, the bag of chips forgotten on the counter as you look around for an escape route.Â
âFirstly, donât be a creeper and secondly I said Iâm a dating virgin, Quinn, not a virgin virgin.â You snort, slowly side stepping the tallest brother as you beeline for the backdoor, hearing Quinn call out after you.Â
âLuke go get Jack, it seems the four of us have some talking to do.âÂ
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âSo itâs in agreement.â Jack says as you all sit around the pool, your legs swishing the water as you grumble under your breath. âWe are going to woo you, give you the real dating experience.âÂ
âI donât understand why this has to happen at all.âÂ
âBecause we will show you how you should be treated on date, and in turn you can tell us who is the best daterâ Jack explains, his brothers nodding in agreement as you let out another long groan.Â
âSo youâre the ones actually using me, donât think I canât read between the lines, Rowden.â You huff, slipping your legs out of the pool and standing in your spot. âYou are using me to settle a bet arenât you?âÂ
âThere may be something like that.â Luke admits softly, his own legs dipped into the water as he ignores the dirty glare Jack sends him.Â
âWell now the cats out of the bag, may the best brother win.â The four of you are silent for a moment, each seeming to be deep in thought before Luke cuts in.Â
âHow do we decide who goes first?âÂ
âI suppose I should go first, considering it was my idea.â Jack responds, nodding his head in determination as he glances down at his watch before looking back towards you.Â
âIâll pick you up at six.â He says quickly ripping his phone out of his pocket and typing away quickly.Â
âWe live in the same house.âÂ
âJust be ready.â He yells as he presses his phone to his ear, talking softly into the device as he leaves the house, his keys pressed tightly in his hand.Â
âIâm going to regret agreeing to this arenât I?â You ask the other two, both of them just giving soft shrugs.Â
âIt might end up being fun.â Luke says, pulling his own phone out of his pocket pulling up google as he scrolls through his search results. You watch as Quinn stands from the deck chair rounding the pool behind you, his hands placed gently on your waist as he squeezes past, his lips pressed to your ear as he whispers, âweâre definitely going to have fun.âÂ
You shiver slightly as Quinn lets your waist go, the sudden rush of warm air behind you making goosebumps rise on your arms.Â
âSo, do you have anything youâre hoping for in particular?â Luke asks slowly, a sly smile on his face, as he waits expectedly for your answer. You let out a soft sigh, pushing some loose hair away from your face, âHonestly, I donât really know, I just wanted a quiet summer, I wasnât really expecting to be apart of a hometown bachelorette.âÂ
âThink of it more as a chance to see what you want from a date, besides competition can be fun sometimes.â Luke responds, quickly adding, âAnd you canât complain you love the bachelor.â You roll your eyes at his words but canât help to small smile tugging at your lips.Â
âGod I hate when youâre right.â
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You flatten out your light green summer dress against your thighs as you look at the reflection in the mirror, jumping a little at a heavy knock on your bedroom door. âThereâs someone here for you.â Luke says as he pops his head through the slightly opened door, his mouth dropping open a little as he looks at your reflection.Â
âDo you think this is okay?â You start turning to face him, tucking your hair behind your ears as you chew on your bottom lip. âI donât know where heâs taking me, and I thought something cute but functionââÂ
âItâs perfect.â Luke cuts you off straightening his posture before clearing his throat and adding, âYou look perfect.â Luke looks away from you his neck burning a bright red as he clears his throat again.Â
âThanks, Lukey.â You coo as you pull your handbag off the bed patting his shoulder as you squeeze past him to leave your bedroom, quickly making your way downstairs skidding to a halt in front of the shoe bench by the front door - pulling on your black and white converse before making your way towards the voices in the kitchen.Â
âAre you going to tell me where weâre going or not?â You mumble as you stop by the counter double checking that you had everything you might need in your purse.Â
âNo that would ruin the surprise and if I tell you then itâll take away half the fuâ holy shit.â Your head shoots up at Jackâs interruption of himself, his mouth open in surprise his brother watching amused as he sputters.Â
âYes?â You question, glancing over at Quinn who glances between you and his bewildered younger brother before sending you an entertained grin.Â
âYouâre wearing that?â Jack stumbles.
âWhat, you donât like it?â You tease.Â
âNo, I do.â Jack rubs a hand down his face, his younger brother giving him a knowing pat on the back as he walks past him to grab a bottle of water from the fridge.Â
âShould I change? I donât want you to be distracted on our date.â You coo, slipping your purse higher on your shoulder as you glance down at your outfit again.Â
Maybe it is a little too much.
 I mean itâs not like itâs a real date, and the low cut of the dress is going to make things difficult if heâs taking you to do an activity.Â
Jack can see your mind start to spin, your teeth digging into your low lip as you adjust the dress a few times, your shoulder sinking as you suddenly become too aware of yourself.Â
âNope, nope. We donât have time for you to change.â Jack interrupts your thought spiral, reaching forwards to clasp your hand in his, âI think I can make this work.â He says, taking one more long look down your body, working his hardest to hold in a grown before shooting a look at his older brother.Â
âWe will be home late. Donât wait up.â He yells as he drags you toward the front door, not giving either of his brothers time to respond as he slams it shut behind the two of you, ushering you to his car, opening the door for you as you slip inside.Â
âJack maybe I should change.â You grumble, crossing your arms over your chest as he slips into the drivers seat, his gaze flicking down to your bare legs, before focusing out the windscreen.Â
âNo.â He says quickly, moving to pull on his own seatbelt before glancing over at you, noticing your belt not pulled over your chest. âWe have places to be, my dear.â He adds, reaching over the centre console to grab hold of your seat belt, his hair tickling the side of your face as he pulls it over your chest, clicking the buckle into the slot, before dropping back into his own seat.Â
âWeâre on a slight time crunch.â He admits, glancing down at his watch before putting the car in reverse and backing out of the driveway.Â
You canât help but laugh at his urgency. âYou sound like youâre leaving the scene of a crime or something.âÂ
Jack chuckles, his eyes lighting up as he navigates the streets, âWell you never know when the cops are going to show up. Iâm just trying to keep the night alive.âÂ
âOh, is that whatâs happening?â You respond, glancing out the window at the familiar neighbourhood passing by - Jackâs quick, snarky responses helping ease a little bit of tension.Â
âOh yeah, this whole thing is going to be the best date youâve ever had.âÂ
âItâs the only date Iâve ever had.â You correct quickly, noticing the quick and very dramatic eye roll from Jack as he takes a familiar turn. âIs this leading to the lake?â Your question is ignored another turn onto a quieter street making you shoot a quick glance over to the man besides you, a knowing brow raised.Â
âStop trying to ruin the surprise.â He groans.Â
âWhat if I donât like surprises?â You huff, Jack letting out another groan, the smile on his face growing as he slows the car to a stop.Â
âTrust me, youâll like this one.â He says as he turns off the ignition, sliding out of the car as he races around to your side, quickly yanking the door open before you get a chance to open it yourself. âMy lady.â He says as he offers you a hand to help you out of the car.Â
You can see the sun descending in the sky as you adjust your dress, watching as Jack shoves the car door closed before holding out his hand for you to take. âHave you brought me here to murder me?â You joke, looking out to the lake, the sun setting a golden glow to the water, Jackâs squeezing yours as he swings them between the two of you.Â
âHmmmm, undecided.â He hums - his steps slowing as you take in the set up before you.Â
The plaid picnic blanket laid on the soft grass, a large assortment of snack laid across the mat as well as two canvases and some paints in the middle. âThese are for you.â Jack says as he lets go of your hand to reach down to the picnic blanket picking up the bouquet of daisies sitting on top of the picnic basket, holding them out to you with a wide grin.Â
âOh my god, Jack.â You gasp taking in the set up basked in the warm glow of the sunset with a look of awe, quickly taking the flowers from his hands to lift to your nose. âI didnât know your brain could even imagine something this romantic.â You tease as he ushers you forwards onto the picnic mat, taking the spot opposite you as he lets out a soft chuckle at your words.Â
âWell Iâm glad I can still surprise you after so long.â He says pulling two champagne glasses from the basket, reaching in to pull out a bottle of freshly squeezed lemonade.Â
âNo, seriously Jack this is amazing.â You continue, gratefully accepting a glass of lemonade from him, taking a long sip as you stretch out your legs.Â
âJust wait until you see desert.â He says with a mischievous grin, clinking his non-alcoholic beverage against yours, âto spontaneous adventures.â He says.Â
âTo spontaneous adventures.â You echo, feeling the warmth of the setting sun wash over you as you settle more onto the blanket, taking in the scene again in amazement. âSo are we just gonna sit here or are we going to do some painting?â You ask.Â
âLetâs eat some snacks first.â Jack says, picking some cheese and crackers off the charcuterie board before popping them into his mouth and motioning for you to do the same. The tension you felt earlier melts away with each shared smile and joke.
âSo tell me honestly,â you start, swallowing whatâs left of the food in your mouth before continuing. âWhat inspired this whole set up? I mean a picnic and painting, seems a little out of the ordinary.âÂ
Jack leans forwards, a mock-serious look on his face as he speaks, âWell I realised weâve spent so much time together as friends, I want to see if I could pull of something a little more⊠special?â He pauses for a moment sensing the shift as he adds, âBesides, Iâve always wanted to paint a sunset.âÂ
You raise an eyebrow, a teasing smile creeping onto your lips. âYou wanted to impress me with your artistic side? Are you sure youâre not just trying to cover up your terrible drawing skills?â
He throws his head back and laughs, the sound rich and contagious. âFair point! But Iâm confident in my abilities. Just wait until you see my masterpiece!â
With a sense of excitement bubbling in your chest, you reach for one of the canvases and set it on the blanket. âAlright, letâs see what youâve got, Picasso.â
âWatch and learn,â he says dramatically, picking up a brush and swirling it through the paint. You canât help but giggle at his theatrics as he begins to paint, his tongue poking out in concentration.
As you start to create your own piece, you steal glances at him, noticing the way the setting sun casts a golden light on his face, highlighting his features in a way that makes your heart flutter. You canât help but feel that this moment is something specialâsomething more than just a casual outing.
âOkay, timeâs up!â Jack declares after a few minutes, throwing down his brush. âLetâs see what weâve created.â
You both hold up your canvases, and the sight makes you burst into laughter. His painting is a chaotic blend of colors that vaguely resembles the sunset, while yours is a collection of abstract shapes and splashes that, while lacking realism, feels vibrant and alive.
âItâs⊠unique,â you say, struggling to contain your giggles.
âJust like us,â he replies, his eyes sparkling with mischief.
As you both continue to joke and critique each otherâs work, the last rays of sunlight disappear, leaving a deepening twilight around you.Â
âHey,â Jack says, his voice softer now. âIâm really glad youâre here. This was my favorite idea yet.â
âMine too,â you admit, your heart swelling at his sincerity. âThank you for putting all this together. Itâs perfect.â
He leans a little closer, the air between you charged with an unspoken tension. âJust wait until the stars come out. I think I have one more surprise.â
âAnother surprise?â you ask, intrigued. âYouâre going to give me a heart attack at this rate.â
He chuckles, then reaches into the basket, pulling out a small, twinkling string of lights. âI thought we could add some ambiance.â
Your eyes widen in delight as he begins to drape the lights around the picnic setup, the soft glow illuminating your surroundings. It transforms the scene, creating an intimate atmosphere that feels like itâs straight out of a movie. As the stars begin to twinkle above, you lean back on your hands, stealing glances at Jack, whoâs focused intently on arranging the lights. Thereâs a warmth in your chest, a budding hope that maybe this night could lead to something more.
âAlright, now for the grand finale,â he says, turning to you with a playful grin. âDessert time!â
You sit up, your curiosity piqued. âWhat did you bring?âHe rummages through the basket, finally producing a small cake adorned with whipped cream and strawberries. âTada! Strawberry shortcake. Thought it would be fitting.â
Your eyes light up. âYou really went all out, huh?â
âOnly the best for you,â he repeats, handing you a slice before cutting himself a piece. The two of you dig into the soft cake, watching as the sun disappears behind the houses, the start shining a bright white as you finish off the dessert, the side of your face burning.Â
Turning your head slowly, to glance towards Jack youâre surprised when you eyes meet his, his gaze travelling over your face before he tilts his head, putting his empty plate down besides him and shuffling forwards on the picnic mat, his hand reaching out towards your face.Â
âHere, you have a little bit of cream on your chin.â He whispers, his body radiating warmth as his finger gently swipe just below your lip, your body shivering slightly as he pulls his thumb away dipping it his mouth quickly to get rid of any evidence of the food he just removed from your face. âAre you cold? Maybe we should start heading back?â He says quickly, his eyes locked with yours as your shake your head quickly.Â
âI donât think the cold is the problem.â You try to joke, your hesitant chuckle getting caught in your throat as Jackâs eye light in knowing.Â
âOh.â He says softly, his hand hovering awkwardly in mid air as he contemplates the choices he has - your body frozen as you wait for him to decide. âIs it weird to kiss on the first date?â He asks nervously, your shoulders shrugging as you respond.Â
âYou tell me, Jack.âÂ
âI donât want to make you uncomfortable.â He whispers, his body shifting closer ever so slightly as he hand reaches up to cup the side of your neck, your eyes searching his.Â
âYouâre not.â You say softer then you thought was possible, the anticipation building in the bit of your stomach, his thumb rubbing soft circles against the burning skin on your neck. Jack pauses for just a moment before leaning forwards to close this distance, his lips capturing yours in a kiss so soft you barely even register that theyâre touching.Â
You sigh into his mouth as your hand reaches up to cup the side of his jaw, your movements all the permission he needs to press his lips firmer against yours as his other hand reaches up to cup the other side of your neck, his thumbs gliding along the underside of your jaw, his hands pulling you closer towards him as your lips move in sync.Â
âWait.â He says softly as he pulls away, his hands moving up to cup your cheeks, as he smiles, leaning forwards to press one more chaste kiss against your mouth before releasing you, and letting out a shuddered breath. âThe mosquitos are gonna come out soon, we should head home.â He says, and you nod, your lips still tingling from where his lips were pressed against them, your head nodding as Jack makes quick work of packing up the date.Â
His hands held out to help you up off the ground as he folds the blanket up quickly, rushing to bring everything to his car and shove it into his trunk. You meet him at his car, pressing your lips together to try and ease the swelling you know will be starting to show.Â
âWell, if I donât win this competition, Iâm gonna say itâs rigged.â Jack jokes as he closes the trunk of his car running a hand through his hair as his words give your pause.Â
The bet.Â
You forgot about the stupid fucking bet with his brothers.Â
âOh.â You laugh, tucking your hair behind your ears in embarrassment.Â
How could you forget about the whole reason he was doing this?Â
The only reason he was doing this.Â
âYeah, I donât know how theyâre going to top that performance.â You let out another tense laugh as you open your own passenger door and slide into the car - trying to ignore the way Jack tilts his head in confusion at your sudden shift.Â
âYou feeling okay?â He asks as he follows you into the car.Â
âYeah, just really tired all of a sudden.âÂ
âWe better get you home then.â Jackâs smile is gentle, as he places his hand on the head rest of your seat before reversing back onto the main road - your body folding in on itself as he makes quick work of the drive home - his hand resting awkwardly between the two of you, as if he was waiting for something.Â
âAre you sure youâre okay?â Jack asks as he pulls into the driveway, killing the ignition of the car before turning to face you, âThat kiss didnât make things weird did it?âÂ
âNo, Jack.â You say quickly, adding âItâs just part of the competition, right?â You donât glance at him as you let yourself out of the car, hurrying back inside to escape to your room.Â
Stupid fucking competition.Â
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hi hello so for any people curious bout the dream beef i am talking about im gon chronicle it all here in a hopefully fully contextual way for both longterm weirdos and new people who dont know bout my parasocial beef w dream. ill try to keep my biases out of it somewhat but anyways,
this began with a podcast Tommyinnit and Jack Manifold have together in which they had philza as a guest. Episode 9 is currently behind a paywall on their patreon but they have a youtube channel where they post them publically as well. Not sure if they make all their episodes public eventually or not but i digress.
Twitter user _constel_ has posted 5 clips from the podcast in question that contain their discussion about dream. I have downloaded the videos but tumblr doesnt want me to put them in this post so i will try and sum up each clip as I go.
Clip 1: Phil starts talking about how once the dsmp was done people would joke about how their 'contracts' would be over and they would be allowed to talk about things behind the scenes. philza mentions the infamous philza tweet in response to dream.
for context, the main discussion is around this exchange from around february 2021, where dream 'jokingly' argues that he is responsible to tommy's high viewership on youtube:
Most of it the tweets are deleted by both parties but it was very much a whole thing. Phil has apparently joked about revealing the context of his reply 'when he retires' (mentioned clip 1).
Jack Manifold had apparently been in a call with tommyinnit when the exchange was happening and recalls tommy being extremely stressed. The context philza gives is that he was texted by tommy to look at the thread while he was going on a walk and tommy was panicking over if dream was genuine (mentioned clip 2). Philza says "I'll find out if he's fucking joking' and that he essentially vibe checked dream. Tommy also states that after the twitter exchange he legitimately wrote in his diary to never be rude to dream: "never be horrible to dream. It's not worth it. It makes me too sad". Additionally jack manifold establishes that he hated dream from the beginning, they hate each other, and that, although he acknowledges dream aided him through the dream smp, he hates how dream 'takes ownership of other people and their accomplishments because he was a guiding hand' (mentioned clip 3).
Jack manifold mentions that tommy was 16 during this exchange and philza additionally says it was out of line (Clip 4). Philza more openly talks about there being 'reds flag after red flags' with dream in clip 5.
OKAY thats honestly a vague description and theres a LOT more so watch the clips if u want. Heres another tweet 'summarizing' it as well. But anyways this of course had people talking about dream again, some people (accidentally?) acting like this is about dream smp lore, and a lot of people concerned about how tommy was afraid to upset dream and would blame himself when dream picked fights with him.
Dream's response on dreamwastaken was to tweet about how he appreciated everyone who was on the server dispite differences, as well as a zip file to download the dsmp server/world file.
Worth noting there is a limitation on how many people can download the file within 24 hours so now people are only getting an error message when trying to access it which is fucking funny. On his private he also tweeted "love and appreciate you guys <3 very happy to be uploading again :) hope to keep it rolling" (Im not cropping out the reply its funny)
Thats all hes said so far, I havent seen tommy or jack manifold talking about it either. technically it isnt outright in response to their podcast but obviously everyone is taking it as such.
final stuff/my thoughts: dream has obviously had a tendency to kinda 'take credit' for 'making' the streamers who were on the dsmp and its notable that in his tweet he still acts like his server was the reason for people's fame and relationships. Saying 'a group of creators most of which would never have collaborated under any other circumstance got together and made something really cool' is just his thinly veiled way of still taking credit for tommy's fame and the relationships he and others have made and its moronic. Not to mention dsmp was very much NOT the server that got these specific people together, i mean techno and phil met through minecraft mondays, tommy and jack manifold met both of them through smp earth i believe. Even if the dsmp wasnt a thing they probably would have collaborated with other members through mcc eventually. the idea that the dsmp was what brought them together and a bunch of minecraft clowns would 'never have collaborated under any other circumstance' is stupid.
anyways sorry this is long as shit. im going to pray dream doesnt let this go for at least 3 to 5 business days as per usual
#fuckit im tagging things#dsmp#dream smp#jack manifold#tommyinnit#philza#dream hate#spent way too much time on this.#if more happens ill add it in rbs. might try n post the clips seperately too#philza says some goodass shit
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what's your edgeslut level?
âš Level 1: drippy baby - you edge for awhile each time you want to cum~ you watch your usual porn. it feels so good! maybe it's getting a little longer each time? there's just no way you could go overnight! unless...
âš Level 2: perverted prince/ss - you like how needy you're starting to get đ your taste in porn is getting a little more degrading...anytime you think about it during the day, your clit/dick starts throbbing. just one more day, and then you'll cum. probably...
âš Level 3: depraved darling - you're starting to crave...permission đ you're edging to edging porn now, scrolling through denial tumblr. you've found yourself trying to look dumb and sexy when you edge, spreading your legs more, maybe sticking your tongue out. you've even submitted a few anon asks or texted your partner begging permission to cum. sometimes you cum anyway, other times you wait. it feels good to get permission, but it's scary: sometimes it feels better to be told no...
âš Level 4: gooning goner - you don't know if you want permission anymore đ it's been weeks now. are you even still keeping count? you're edging to porn of other people cumming. your holes/dick are constantly leaking, and it's getting too easy to start with "just one edge" and wake up to find hours have gone by. when you cum or ruin without permission, you start begging to be punished. mantras are constantly running through your head, even when you're not edging: good toys don't cum. wetter is better.
âš Level 5: needy numbskull - you've lost the ability to cum without permission~ you're edging to recordings of people being degraded and punished. you feel so vulnerable and impressionable all the time; it makes you scared even as it makes you feel aroused. it's hard to think even when you're not edging. the mantras in your head are starting to change: my orgasms don't belong to me. i'm more useful when i'm denied.
âš Level 6: addicted doll - you stop thinking about cumming at all; you stop thinking about whether you should worry about how dumb you're starting to get. you strip naked and kneel every time you edge, tongue out and drooling, feeling only vague embarrassment. you edge to porn of yourself being punished for ruining without permission, or being forced to ruin. there are still certain things you won't do, even for the chance to cum, but you debase yourself almost voluntarily for your betters nowđ§Ą
âš Level 7: useful idiot - you sneak away to edge at work/school đ you don't even need porn to edge now. you don't even need to think about it, or to be told to do it - you just do. you only beg to cum in order to humiliate yourself further for your betters, to give them pleasure in saying "no." you don't want it anymore, hell, you don't want to do anything but please them. you'll hump the air for their amusement, you'll lick their cum off the floor, you'll let them punish your cunt/dick for even thinking it deserves to cum. the mantra's changed again, your final form: pathetic sluts don't deserve to cum. pets like me are made to be needy. if the thought of cumming even crosses your mind, you run to your betters and beg to be punished until it goes away. who needs a chastity belt? you've broken yourself all on your own đđđđđđ
[captioning or tagging this post with my DNI/hard limits will get you blocked. i need to keep my notes safe for me đ]
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WHAT YOU HEARD pt 2
LANDO NORRIS
summary â
: streets are saying yn finally broke up with her loser boyfriend and guess who couldn't be happier? if you guessed lando, you'd be wrong, it's actually her (but lando's a really close second).
category â
: smau.
notes â
: as always times and dates are irrelevant and spelling mistakes are intentional. longer than the last part but worse đ«¶. and when i use those harry styles and taylor russell pictures again, mind your businessđ€« poll at the end!!!
pt 1
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yn_ln back to your regularly scheduled content of my face đ€ did a fun little shoot with with a friend
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user ugh face cardddd
user it's giving retro realness
user ur face card rlly is sum serious
visavni this was sm fun!
yn_ln thank u for always delivering
user always something amazing when y'all collab
user 1st slide is giving scream for some reason
user real "please don't kill me Mr Ghostface, I want to be in the sequel" vibes
user serving 70s editorial
user Already added to my Pinterest board đ
user gagged, died, dead
user And I eat it up everytime.
landonorris real
user ofc instagram user landonorris on a yn_ln post
user not even f1 driverđ
user seeing different concepts from you is my absolute fav thing ngl
landonorris you look leng.
user anyone else side eye at this comment?
user honestly? not really, i'm sure he's said worse things
user legs are legging...
user what does this even mean
user the girls that get it, get itđ
user gah dam why are you legs so longđ€€
user she's so overrated
user now why are you manspreading đ€š do you want people to sit in ur lap???
user me wondering if that seats taken
monaspencer you've done it again! it's giving everything it's supposed to giveđ„
yn_ln tysm mlđ«¶đŸ
landonorris so she gets a reply but not međ«€
yn_ln now what was i supposed to say?
landonorris thank you?
yn_ln you're welcome.
landonorris oh that's no- ykw, you're right, i should be grateful
user damn right
user if he's not like this i don't want him
user He really said when a bad bitch tells me to shut up, I do it.
user i just know that ezra is somewhere sick to his stomach
user personally, I'd never recover
zendaya your shoots are always so good
yn_ln tysm queen. means a lot coming from you<3
user girl you do damage to međ„Ž
user amazing shoot đ
yourfriend7 slenderman proportionsđ€©
yn_ln and if i kill myself, what then?
yourfriend7 đ
yn_ln spawning in your roomđ
yourfriend7 not beating the allegations pookie
user đđđ
user love seeing your face pop up when i open insta
user the only reason people care about you is bc of ezra
user you're joking...
user you're delusional just like ur fav
user and yet here you are, on her page
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motormouth Lando and Y/n spotted out and about via friends and fans. New wag or just friends hanging out? Let us know what you think!
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user tagging them is so messy.
user well it is a gossip page
user but still... the audacity
user man like lando norris yeah
user friends can't hang out?
user The way that one picture looks really romantic until you realise Mona's cropped out
user Ezra was right to dump herđ She never deserved him and she's mid anyway. Never did and never will get the hype.
user stacy why aren't you watching your kids instead of commenting on things that don't concern you? user yeah stacy, why aren't you being a mom to your kids? user stacy is a man who, instead of paying attention to the kids he only gets to see certain times, is out here dick riding someone who doesn't know he exists. user damn, someone named a baby boy stacy? user Well, my mom wanted to be Stacy's Mom but only decided on having one kid, and unluckily for me, I was that kid user born in 2003, named stacy and has kidS (multiple!), yeah, no wonder he's on a gossip page instead of watching those kids.
user he really wasted no time
user i hope he knows he's probably a rebound
user the way y'all purposely hid the fact that mona was also there in the 3rd slide đ
user this the type of timing i need to be on
user i just know that one twitter user is laughing rn
user she's just using himđ
user he's so weird for this, like she just recently got out of her relationship and now this??
user love the fact that they get to hang out more
user It's still too soon since her last relationship, so I'm thinking they're only friends.
user she probably broke up with ezra just to be with lando đ€ą
user did she or Ezra tell you that? no? yeah, shut up
user and who would blame her? NO ONE
user mona erasure, i will not stand for this!
user the way he's looking at herđ”
user fellas is it weird to hang out with your friends?
user only if your friends are the opposite sex, it seems
user they're probably laughing at this (if they even see it)
user i just know lando is giggling
user fr, like dating rumours with her?
user mans is kicking his feet
ezragallagher has uploaded to their story.
user: what you over here being messy for ???
user: bro move on!!!
user: i support you, toxic kingđ
user: ezra, baby, you can do better
sashabardot: really ezra? what the actual fuck is wrong with you
user: bros going through it
user: this is kinda pathetic don't you think?
user: someone's paying attention to their ex
user: babes this isn't your cf
user: don't you have work to focus on?
user: the way this would make me get back with you
user: âââ
user: this feels targeted
user if only i had half the confidence and audacity that you didđââïž
user: this is an... interesting song choice
user: see, me personally, i would never show my face on the internet but you do youđȘ
user: better as in you?
user: hope you guys get back together đ€
user: God, I see how you've given some people the courage of lionsđ
user: might as well have tagged her
user: just how i like my men... toxic and pettty đ *pretty but petty works just as well
user:
yn_ln has added to their story.
user: uhhhhh
user: is this what i think it is?
user: oh!
user: please tell me this is in response to ezra
user: beabadoobee mention!!!
user: I love this song.
user: the way fucking batman wouldn't be able to get this out of me
user: this is wild
user: stop being so cryptic! is this about ezra or not
monaspencer: messy asfđ
yn_ln: he started it, so idgaf also, it could've been worse
monaspencer: true, you could've posted to still your best
yn_ln: lmaooo, can you imagineđđ
user: taste>>>
user: have you ever thought that maybe you were doing something wrong if he cheated on you?
user: oh no
yourfriend: do you ever wonder...
yn_ln: YOU'RE FUCKING SICKđđđ
user: You know what you're implying w this right?
user: publicizing the fact that you've been cheated on is insane
user: ezra fucking gallagher, count your days.
user: ok i alr know this is about ezra but who is the girl???
user: are you not embarrassed?
user: đ€š
user: ik you guys dated and everything but he wouldn't cheatđ you're just making up lies to slander him
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monaspencer spent some time with some of my favourite people... and lando
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user you and luka are so đ„ș
lukacyr that's my baby!!!
monaspencer đ©·đ©·đ©·
user dare i say... couple's trip???
yn_ln hot girl alert!!!
monaspencer love youuu
user lando catching strays?
lukacyr so gorgeous, im so luckyđ©”
monaspencer i love you pretty boyđ©·
user wish i was that cat
landonorris and lando? damn i thought we were bestiesđ
lukacyr we all know she loves you
monaspencer đ€„
landonorris thanks luka, knew i could count on you for the truthâ
user wait, whose cat is that?
user love how they're all just living their best lives.
user oof uno w yn and luka? I just know there was lots of yelling
user them making up their own rules and frustrating those of us who play the game properly đ
lukacyr sorry you guys are boring đ
user ughhhh miss spencer you are looking teww damn foineee đ€€
user sprinted to this post when i got the notification
user mona + yn = the prettiest friends. ughhh, love them
user you and Luka make me feel so single and im in a relationship!!!
user that's -
user just smile and wave
user game night is back baby!!!
user adding the song to my playlist immediately
user slayyy
lilymhe can't wait for the next dinner!
monaspencer you and alex are hosting nexts babes
yn_ln i have a meeting that night
landonorris me too
lilymhe alex will be cooking
yn_ln i will be in attendance
lilymhe hey! i'm not that bad
lukacyr sureeee
alex_albon you are not talking, mr i once set fire to water
user how tf
user i love tht Luka buys her flowers whenever he can
user i have so many questions
user do you and Luka want a third?
user đ„đ„đ„
user your nails in the first slide is everything to me
user not mona and yn having matching rings,,, i love themđđ
user very on brand for them
user they all look so cool, I wish i was apart of their friend group
user real, they all look like so much fun
user TV girl>>>
user face beat is so FAB imo
user wait what's happening to me... đ§ââïžđ¶ââïžđ§ââïžđđŸ
user the dress from the last slide is EVERYTHING
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yn_ln 1st slide is me after thirdwheeling my (girl)friend and her boyfriend đŽ and the last slide is literally them, I'm sickđ
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user girlll
user this said so much and nothing at all
user how can someone be so cute and hot at the same time???
monaspencer ik you're not talking lol
user what does this meannn
lilymhe i would never treat you like that bbg
landonorris don't you have a boyfriend? matter of fact ïč«alex_albon come get your girl
lilymhe snitchđ
alex_albon lily???
maxfewtrell dinner was great, sending mine and p's thanks again
yn_ln tell her she needs to join us for game night next time and you're invited too ig
maxfewtrell im starting to think you like my girlfriend more than me
yn_ln i do!
maxfewtrell fairs, i like her more than you
user last slide unlocked a memory
lukacyr and proud of it
lukacyr you're just mad she likes me more
yn_ln thats so funny considering she's in my bed rn
landonorris should've been me
user I jus know Lando took that 5th photo
user and you know this how...
user idrk but you can always tell when he's the one taking her pictures bc something about it just makes her look.. especially stunning ya know? like you can tell someone who's in love w her took the pic
user you're actually so right
landonorris a whole slide of just me? yeahhh you want me so bad
user i aspire to be this type of delusional
yn_ln oh absolutely
landonorris so glad you're admitting it to the worldđ
user i cannae tell if this is sarcasm or not
user it's ok, neither can lando
user in the words of one troye sivan, "face card, no cash, no credit"
user when he sang "look, look at you", he meant her
user and when he sang "Â baby, I'm first in place" he was singing about Lando
user swear i saw you guys at that restaurant but was too nervous to make sure
user i would have said hello ngl
user i didnt want to disturb and like i said, i was so nervous.
user have i mentioned that i love everything that is happening here, bc i do
user genuinely thought the 2nd slide was y'all eating sushi and was amazed that you got lando to eat it
user same! but i didn't even question it and just scrolled
user would honestly be flattered if i was compared to arnaz and breanna, they were such a cute couple
user true but i still can't get over the fact that her dad was called Flex lmao
user eye cant get over the shows theme song, like i still think it's good
user not to mention Breanna was in her fashion bag, girlie was serving LOOKS.
user Check out my profile for art of your favourite artist's favourite artist!
user omg that's crazy haha, i have 10 lambo's btw, like i am super rich and you'd never be tired around me bc i'd make sure you get 10 hours of sleep (2 extra hours bc you deserve it, must be exhausting being so gorgeous)
landonorris this person literally set fire to my house and is stealing from their job. please report them so i can have some peace of mindđđ
user YOOO, this is NOT TRUE, NOBODY REPORT ME FSTHSNTH
user idk man, why would Lando lie :/
landonorris exactly, for what reason?
user ik this is a lie but imma do it anyway lmao
landonorris why would i lie?
user bffr.
user: i know we're all focused on yn's beauty(and rightfully so) but can we take a moment to appreciate that picture of lando???
user: like hello, he looks so hot
user đ
user LIVING it up
landonorris: you ever see someone so beautiful you start barking violently? cause thats me rn
landonorris: got me acting unwiseâ
yn_ln: please calm down you freak
landonorris: mmm call me a freak againđ©
user: what the
user: he's so real for this
user: jesus h christ
user: think i've had enough of instagram today, peace outâ
landonorris has added to their story.
user: mona's miss steal your girl well not really your girlđ€Ł
landonorris: blocked
user: i want someone to look at me like that
user the art in the background is so pretty
user: damn, you're never making it to relationship status
user: she's wearing orange... interesting...
user: art and art/two masterpieces in one photo
user: guess i need to ask Mona and Yn if they want a third instead
user: i'd say deserved đ€·
monaspencer: you're both such liars
user: waitt,, the fits are eatinggg
user: they literally look like they're in love
user: women *sighs dreamily*
yn_ln: damn, i look good wait when did you take this picture
landonorris: yeah you do. orange is really your colour, you should wear it more often
monaspencer has added to their story.
user: not them getting "this you"-dđ
user: they are never beating the dating allegations
user: exposed in a single photo
user: you're an absolute legend for this
user: this just in, yn ln is a LIAR!!
user: i don't know why you're friends with herđ
yn_ln: you make my ass itch
monaspencer: funny, i was thinking the same thing about you
yn_ln: why do you do this to me?
monaspencer: suffer x
user: my otp!!!
user: ugh, what a eyesore(i'm violently jealous)
user: They look so good together, they should just date already smh.
user: now it definitely seems like y'all went on a couple's tripđ
landonorris: send me thisđđ»
whatyouhe4rd has posted a new article, based on your likes, this may interest you. check it out?
landonorris has uploaded a story.
user replied to your story: you're jokinggg, this is a joke
user replied to your story: you didn't actually post this, im clearly just seeing things im just gonna pretend that it didn't happen since you deleted it
user replied to your story: When I tell you I burst out laughing seeing this, I'm not lying.
maxfewtrell replied to your Close Friends story : you did not delete the 1st one just to post it on your CF
landonorris: it was an accident?
maxfewtrell: an accident that's going to end up on hundred's of gossip sites
landonorris: rachel is going to kill me, isnt she?
maxfewtrell: seriously surprised she hasn't already
yn_ln replied to your Close Friends story : Rachel is going to kill you
landonorris: i just told max the same thing, we're soul mates fr
yn_ln: i'm being serious
landonorris: so am i but did it make you smile?
yn_ln: yes?
landonorris: then it was worth it and i'll die happy
yn_ln: you're so cheesyđ
landonorris for you i will be mozzarella, parmesan, chedda, gouda, brie, cottage, feta, swiss, burrata, cream, etc.
user replied to your story: this is iconic, lando norris, my fav malewife
randomfriend replied to your Close Friends story : i think you've been on tiktok too much
charles_leclerc replied to your Close Friends story : your head must be a fascinating place to be in, how do you do it?
landonorris: my brother in christ and racing, you can not be talking
user replied to your story: you're so right and you should say it
user replied to your story: Sometimes we don't have to share what's on our mind with the world
user replied to your story: I'm fucking creasing
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: heyyyy, how y'all doingđ§... sorry for the wait, i really did have most of this done and in my drafts but then writer's block hit and i left it for a while. also, i kinda suck at making articles lmao. thank you to everyone who reads and/or interacts with my smaus, ily<3.
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video  calls  &  sick  days  â  s. kiyoomi
tags   manager!reader,  gn!reader,  fluff,  sickfic,  post-timeskip
notes   wc is 1.5k,  thanks for 2 hunnid enjoy :p
over the few months youâve been sakusaâs manager, youâve ingrained daily video calls into your schedule.Â
it wasnât hard to tell that sakusa thought calls were inconvenient, to say the very least. the slight tick of his eye and the clench of his jaw were difficult to miss, even if he bit his tongue in the name of professionalism. you understood, really. no one would want to be disrupted early in the morning, especially when theyâre someone who has a carefully crafted routine like sakusa â which is why you insisted on aligning these calls with his schedule, instead of deciding for him. it seemed to satisfy the spiker enough, seeing that he appeared much less tense almost immediately after.Â
however, youâre starting to regret not bringing it upon yourself to dictate a time â especially when the back of your eyes are burning and itâs hard to breathe because itâs six in the morning and youâre sick.
âgood morning, sakusa,â you groggily greet. you internally cringe at your voice, scratchy and making your throat hurt. youâve opted to have your camera off just this once â you prefer to keep it on, as it makes these exchanges a little more humane, but you think your appearance is far too unfortunate for someone else to see right now. your hand runs through your hair, and you wince when your fingers get caught in a knot.Â
sakusaâs camera is on, however, and the sound of pots clinking against one another fills the air around you. when he re-enters the frame, heâs focused on the meal heâs making, only mumbling a short greeting back.Â
you take a swig of water and clear your throat, hoping that it helps with the ache, before beginning with sakusaâs schedule for today.
âletâs begin,â you start, âyouâre free until 1 this afternoon, where you have a promotional shoot with hinata, bokuto, and miya. it should last until 3 or 4, depending on how long they take to prepare the four of you.â your words are curt and straightforward, and you hope that sakusa doesnât notice. typically, youâd attempt small talk with him, but youâre currently trying to savor the last of your voice.Â
âknowing miya, heâll probably manage to drag it until 6 in the evening,â the spiker grumbles, and you canât help the raspy (and tired) laugh that leaves you. a cough follows soon after, and if sakusa wasnât able to tell that you were sick before, he definitely can now.
you watch as his eyes flit to his phone, a questioning look on his face. they roam around the screen for a moment, and you nervously wait for his reaction.
âare you sick?â sakusa bluntly asks. his eyebrows are furrowed, and heâs stopped stirring whatever heâs preparing on the stove. despite the fact he canât even see you, you abashedly look away from your screen.
youâre tempted to deny it, but you know itâd be a futile attempt anyway. so, you relent, sighing out an affirmation. âyes, i am. i wonât be present at the shoot today, but you can expect the other three managers to be there. if you need anything, you can call me.âÂ
âno, iâll be fine, but you shouldnât be doing anything if youâre sick.â sakusa replies, turning away from his phone to move his food onto a plate. selfishly, you allow your eyes to rack down the wide expanse of his back, appreciating the way his compression shirt hugs his figure. it becomes clear that you were staring for too long, though, when sakusa turns back around, plate in hand and waiting for your response.
you have it in you to feel the slightest bit embarrassed, even if he canât see you.Â
âsorry,â you sheepishly murmur, âi can assure you that iâll be okay, sakusa. iâll be working from home today.â
âagain,â he says, voice a tad harder than it was before, âyou shouldnât be doing anything if youâre sick. even if youâre working from home. is that everything i have on my schedule for today?âÂ
youâre not sure if sakusaâs being so insistent out of genuine worry for your health, or if heâs concerned that youâll get him sick if you come to work in your state. âsakusa, i promise you that iâll be okay in a day or two. and even then, iâll make sure to wear a mask,â you say, assuming sakusaâs worried for his health. âmoving on, though, i believe thatâs all on your schedule for today. tomorrow you have your shoot with calvin klein, but iâll remind you tomorrow morning. you have some pr, too. i believe a brand sent you pickled plums, which are your favorite, if i remember correctly?âÂ
you watch as sakusa shakes his head, sighing through his nose. âiâm not worried about me. i know that you wouldnât get me sick. but if you keep on working instead of resting, youâre going to get worse, and youâll be out for longer.âÂ
youâre beginning to become slightly irritated â a mix of tiredness, sickness, and sakusaâs nagging (even if it comes from a good place) beginning to annoy you. regardless, you try to pay no attention to it. once youâre done with this phone call, youâll rest for another hour or two before doing whatever work you can from home.Â
âiâm glad that youâre not worried about yourself, but as i said earlier, iâm sure iâll be fine. i can take care of myself, sakusa,â you curtly reply, hoping that the spiker leaves the topic alone.Â
thankfully, it seems like he does, because he relents and asks you to give him the pickled plums later on in the week. a few minutes later youâre greeting sakusa goodbye and hanging up, slouching into your mattress and performing a futile attempt at staving off the ache in your temples.Â
you wake once again hours later to the incessant sound of your doorbell ringing. itâs certainly at least mid-morning, considering the way sunlight is filtering into your room, making your eyes ache.Â
you stumble over to the door, paying no mind to your appearance and throwing the door open. to your surprise, sakusa is standing in your doorway, impatiently waiting for you to let him in, a plastic bag in hand.
âsakusa?â you gape. if you were being completely honest, he was the person you were least expecting to see right now â especially because youâre sick. heâs staring at you incredulously, like itâs not insane for him, out of all people, to willingly be around someone else while theyâre ill.Â
âyouâre sick, right? i have soup and medicine,â he grumbles, âare you going to let me in or not?âÂ
you blink, before barely coming to your senses enough to open the door for him to step through. he does so immediately, taking long strides towards your dinner table to set the food down. then, he turns to you, and you have to resist the urge to curl into yourself. your head is pounding, you can hardly breathe through your nose, and youâre sure you look absolutely terrible right now. fuck professionalism, i guess, you sarcastically think. youâre not sure if youâll ever allow yourself to live this moment down, even if you spend hours trying to forget about it.
âyou didnâtâŠhave to do this, sakusa,â you murmur, still somewhat in shock. and it seems that heâs just full of surprises today, because sakusa laughs, and youâre as surprised as you are annoyed because heâs laughing at you.Â
âyouâre my manager, i canât have you dying on me,â he nonchalantly replies, as if itâs the most obvious thing in the world. ânow get back to bed. iâll prepare the soup for you and get you some medicine.âÂ
youâre tempted to cuss at him, but decide that your entire body is far too weak to stay standing anymore, so you listen and make your way towards your room. sakusa doesnât take very long, coming back with the items he promised and a damp towel â whereâd he even find that?
and you think youâve never seen sakusa so gentle before, placing the towel onto your forehead and handing you the warm soup. you eat it all in one go, not having realized how hungry you truly are, and graciously take the medicine sakusa offers you once youâre done.Â
â...thank you, sakusa, you didnât have to do this,â you say, feeling rather guilty that he took it upon himself to take care of you.Â
sakusa only scoffs in reply. âyou basically decide my entire life. everything would be thrown off-course if you werenât able to work for even a week.âÂ
his response makes you laugh weakly, and you promise him that youâll be back and better soon.Â
âi have to go now,â sakusa says, glancing at his phone. you nod, remembering about the photoshoot you reminded him of earlier.Â
he awkwardly stands still, before his hand comes to rest on top of your head in a strange head-pat. sakusaâs face is slightly flushed pink, an obvious show that heâs flustered.
âfeel better soon,â he mumbles, and you thank him with a smile.
(sakusa was ten minutes late to his photoshoot. when asked why by his teammates, they gave him teasing looks when he said he dropped a few items off by his sick managerâs house.)
(he thinks he may hate his team.)
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Love & Lullabies | Part 3
Pairing: Min Yoongi x female Reader
Summary: What begins as a simple favor for your best friend Namjoon soon pulls you into the rhythms of Yoongiâs lifeâafternoons spent caring for his son, late nights filled with candid conversations, and a connection neither of you thought you needed. Youâre just fresh out of a long-term relationship with an ex who didnât want a family with you, so did you really just stumble into a life youâve always dreamed of? (Thank god Namjoon isnât the only one whoâs clumsy.)
Alternatively: Itâs 2025 and BTS is prepping for their comeback. All members seem to have gained muscle weight from their time at camp. But Min Yoongi has gained a different kind of weightâan 8-pound baby and a fuck-load of responsibility. (Thank god youâre there to help him.)
Genre: Fluff, Angst, Smut, idol!au, Acquaintances to Lovers, Reader is Namjoonâs bestie
Warnings: Yoongi is a DILF (!!!) Thatâs it.
Chapter warnings: GRAB YOUR TISSUES!, this bitch is a whole ass kdrama episode and itâs gonna hurt before it gets better, happy ending tho!, themes of self-loathing, anxiety, and depression (MC), severe postpartum depression (not MC), itâs monsoon season and namgi donât like umbrellas, (____) in the rain cliche scene, NAMTIDDIES because I canât help myself, lastly⊠watch me morph this into another workplace romance/co-workers to lovers story lmao (real)
Word count: ~7k
Posting date: November 21, 2024
Notes: This is inspired by an ask/prompt sent by @yoongznme.Â
I am a clown đ€Ą and a liar đ€„ From pretending this is a two-shot, then a three-shot. It has become a chaptered series, atp. There is a part 4 in the works and I fully intend to end it there, but again, I may have just jinxed myself. Anyway! Enjoy, my lovelies~ đ
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âSheâs Haneulâs mom.â
The words hit you like a punch to the gut.
âWhat?â
âSung Kyung and Yoongi⊠theyâve been good friends for years,â Namjoon explains quickly, his tone almost apologetic. âI didnât think they were dating. But yeah, sheâs his mom. She left for months and when she came back, she'd already given birth.â
You feel like the ground has been ripped out from under you. What Namjoon said made no sense. You clutch the edge of the counter, your mind racing. âWhat do you mean she leftâŠ?â You have never been more confused in your entire life.
Namjoon sighs. âI donât know all the details. You know hyung, he tells you what he thinks you need to know. The rest, he keeps to himself. But I do know they did the paternity tests and everything, and Haneulâs his, theirs.â
Theirs. Itâs easier if Namjoon just slices your heart open at this rate.Â
He places a tentative hand on your shoulder. âItâs better to hear it straight from Yoongi-hyung, since you guys are, you know.â
âIâ I donât know. I donât know what we are,â you say, leaning your weight sideways against the wall to steady yourself.Â
Get a grip. Itâs Haneulâs day.Â
Namjoon stands to shield you from the rest, in case anybody chances to look your way. You probably look like youâre about to puke. You definitely feel like it.
âJoonieâŠâ Your voice is small when you ask, âDo you think she wants to come back now?â
Namjoon lifts his shoulder, lets it sag, âI donât know. Maybe. She wouldnât be here otherwise.â
Your chest tightens, a wave of insecurity crashing over you. Of course, she would want to come back now. Sheâs beautiful, successful, everything youâre not. And most importantly, sheâs Haneulâs mother. Thatâs the kicker. How can you compete with that?
Spoiler alert: you canât.
When you step back into the living room, the first thing you notice is Yoongiâs mom. Sheâs standing off to the side, her lips pressed into a thin line as she glares at Sung Kyung from across the room with a mixture of disapproval and barely-contained irritation.
âShe shouldnât be here,â she says quietly, her voice cold and clipped.
âEomma,â Yoongi grits.
âShe abandoned Haneul, Yoongi,â his mom hisses, her tone sharper now. âAnd she thinks she can just come here like nothing happened?â
Yoongi sighs, his hand briefly brushing his motherâs arm in a silent plea for calm. âNot here, eomma. Please. Itâs Haneulâs birthday. Donât make a scene.â
Of course he is siding with her.
Youâre unable to tear your eyes away from Sung Kyung. How can she look so beautiful even if she looks miserable? She exchanges a few more quiet words with Yoongi near the door, her expression alternating between frustration and what looks like regret. You canât hear what theyâre saying, but you catch the way Yoongiâs shoulders stiffen, the way his jaw tightens as she reaches out to brush his arm. You see Yoongi nod, and youâre so curious, what is he agreeing to?
Finally, after what feels like an eternity, she leaves. The door is closed, but for sure this chapter isnât. Not even close.
You entertain yourself by watching some of the BTS members play some video games. Their antics, as funny as they are, donât really register. Your laughs are hollow, mind totally elsewhere. Itâs a while before Yoongi finally finds you, after he disappeared to his studio after Sung Kyung left and went MIA for half an hour or so.
He corners you near the snack table as you pretend to be engrossed in arranging leftover cupcakes.
âHey,â he says softly, touching your arm lightly.
You turn to face him, your smile brittle. âHey. Howâs everything going?â
âCan we talk?â
You nod, following him toward the hallway, away from the laughter and chatter. The noise completely fades as you enter his soundproof studio and he turns to face you.
He exhales deeply, running a hand through his hair. âI wanted to talk to you,â he says carefully, like heâs choosing every word with precision.
âAbout Sung Kyung.â you offer. He nods, shoulders visibly tense. âYeah. And Haneul.â
The mention of Haneul makes your chest tighten, but you steady yourself, waiting for him to continue.
âShe and I⊠we were close for a long time,â he begins, his gaze dropping to the floor. âAnd yeah, there was a point where I thought it was going somewhere. But then she just⊠disappeared.â
âDisappeared?â
âShe left Korea. No warning, no explanation. Just⊠ghosted.â He shrugs. âI didnât know where she went or why. She didnât contact me for months.â
âAnd then one day,â he continues, âshe called. Told me she just gave birth to a son. That it was mine.â
The words hang between you, heavy and jarring. You donât say anything, letting him get it all out.
âShe didnât tell me she was pregnant,â he says, shaking his head as if he still canât believe it. âI literally only found out after he was born.â
You feel a pang of sympathy, but then youâre also feeling angry at Sung Kyung. âWhy did she wait so long to tell you?â
âShe said she didnât want to burden me. I was already doing my military service and I had that thing⊠that case. She thought she could handle it on her own.â He looks up at you then, his eyes dark and conflicted. âBut after she had him⊠she couldnât. She fell into really severe postpartum depression and some other health issues, basically telling me she was diagnosed unfit to take care of him.â
Your throat tightens, and you clasp your hands together to keep them from shaking. âSo you stepped in.â
He nods, âI didnât have a choice. Haneul needed someone, and I couldnâtâI wouldnât turn my back on him. Heâs my son. It was confirmed by a paternity test.â
âAnd now sheâs back,â you say, more a statement than a question.
âYeah,â he says quietly, dragging a hand down his face. âShe says sheâs better. That she wants to be in his life now. That she can be. And honestly⊠I donât know what to do.â
You study him for a moment, your emotions warring between compassion and your own sense of inadequacy. âWhat do you want, Yoongi? Not for her, not for Haneul. What do you want?â
âI donât know,â he admits, gnawing his lip before he says, âI just⊠I want to do whatâs right for Haneul.â
The words cut deeper than you expected, but you force a small smile, nodding as if they donât sting. âThat makes sense.â
Yoongi takes a step closer as he studies your face. âBut what about you?â he asks, his voice almost too gentle. âHow are you feeling about all this?â
The sincerity in his question takes you off guard, and for a moment, youâre tempted to tell him everything. The ache in your chest, the jealousy you hate admitting to, the fear of losing whatever connection the two of you have built. But instead, you plaster on a smile, shoving all those emotions into a corner of your mind.
âIâm fine,â you say lightly. âItâs Haneulâs birthday. Thatâs what matters.â
Yoongi doesnât look convinced, his gaze lingering on you as if heâs trying to read the truth in your expression. But after a moment, he nods, letting it drop. âOkay.â
Finally, you glance at the door, forcing yourself to straighten up. âWe should probably get back to the party.â
âYeah,â Yoongi says, stepping aside to let you pass. But as you reach for the door, his voice stops you.
âThank you,â he says quietly.
You turn back, your brows furrowing. âFor what?â
âFor everything,â he says, his eyes filled with something you canât quite name.
You donât know how to respond, so you just nod. Because his wordsâwhy did it feel like a goodbye?
The rest of the party passes in a blur. You keep smiling, keep laughing, keep pretending everything is fine. You stand by as Yoongi helps Haneul blow out his single candle, snapping pictures of his chubby hands smashing into the frosting.Â
Youâre wiping stray frosting from Haneulâs cheek when you glance at him and for a split second, you see her. Sung Kyungâs face is right there, faint but unmistakable, in the shape of his eyes and the curve of his brows.
The realization hits you like a freight train. You freeze, the cloth clutched in your hand, staring at this beautiful baby boy who isnât yours. Who will never be yours.
Itâs too much. You set the muslin down, excusing yourself to the kitchen with a muttered, âIâll grab more drinks.â
You donât even make it to the fridge. You stand there by the counter, gripping its edge as you force yourself to breathe, to keep the tears at bay. Youâve never felt more out of place in your life.
Namjoon finds you a few moments later, leaning against the doorway with a quiet, watchful look. He doesnât say anything, doesnât ask if youâre okay. He just stays there, close but not too close, his presence steady and silent. You appreciate him for thatâfor knowing exactly what you need when youâre unraveling. Heâs your best friend after all.
But even his quiet support isnât enough to keep the emotions at bay.
Across the room, Yoongiâs eomma catches your eye. Thereâs something pitying in the glances she throws your way, a faint furrow of her brow that makes you want to sink into the floor. You had the feeling she knows thereâs something between you and Yoongi, but now⊠now it feels like sheâs seeing through you, like she knows exactly how small youâre starting to feel.
Because the truth is, youâre nothing.
Youâre not Haneulâs mom. Youâre not Yoongiâs girlfriend. Youâre just someone who helps out when itâs convenient, and now that they have a nanny, youâre not even that. And it hurts. God, it hurts because you thoughtâmaybe foolishly, maybe selfishlyâthat you were becoming something more. That you were becoming someone to them. That, maybe, you were becoming a family.
But now, as you stand there watching Yoongi carry Haneul to his room, barely sparing you a glance, the truth sinks in like a stone in your chest. Youâre not someone. Youâre a placeholder. A stand-in.
And pretty soon, just like Jiyong, theyâre going to discard you. Because thatâs what always happens. Youâre always easy to leave behind. Always replaceable. Always useless.
The thought claws at you, and you suddenly canât breathe. You grab your things and run. The cool night air stings your skin, but itâs nothing compared to the ache in your chest.
The tears come before you can stop them, hot and angry and full of every ounce of self-loathing youâve tried to bury.
You glance back at the building. Maybe for the last time. Youâre on the outside nowâof course you are. Youâve been on the outside this entire time.
Namjoon must have noticed you were gone because he texted shortly after:
Joonie: You okay? Joonie: Donât worry, I told them you werenât feeling well. Go home and rest. Text me when youâre there.
That night, you ignored Yoongiâs call. You stared at the screen as his name lit up, your finger hovering over the answer button before you let it ring out. He left a voicemail. You deleted it without listening.
The next morning, you wake up to another call from him. This time, he doesnât leave a voicemail. Instead, he sends a message.
Yoongi: Can I come over?
You stare at the text for a long time, your stomach twisting with guilt and anger and sadness. Finally, you type out a single word:
You: No
You throw your phone face-down on the couch, ignoring the way it buzzes again and again and again.
For the next few days, you ghost him.
It wasnât easy. Every time your phone buzzes, you feel a pang of guilt, a deep ache that gnaws at your resolve. But you canât bring yourself to answer. You need time. You need to figure out where you stood in all of this.
His messages come sporadically at first:
Yoongi: Hey, can we talk? Yoongi: I donât know what I did wrong, but I want to fix it. Yoongi: Please. Just let me know youâre okay.
You delete most of them without reading too much into them. But then he starts sending pictures.
The first was of Haneul, grinning in his chair, wearing the capybara slippers youâd gifted him for his birthday.
Yoongi: Haneul misses you
The next day, another photo. This time, Haneul was lying on his playmat, still wearing the slippers, holding onto Bora.
Yoongi: Still missing you
Each message chips away at your resolve, but the one that breaks you comes Thursday evening:
A short video clip. In it, Haneul is sitting on the floor, babbling as he clutches Bora. And then, clear as day, he says it:
âSa-ra.â
Your heart twists painfully. Itâs clipped, but itâs unmistakably sarang. Your term of endearment for him, the nickname youâd called him since he started smiling every time he heard it. Heâd never been able to say it backânot until now.
And Yoongi knows exactly what he is doing, sending this to you.
You stare at the screen for what feels like an eternity, leaving the video on loop, before finally opening your call log. His name was right at the top, of course. You hit the call button, your hands trembling as you bring the phone to your ear.
âHello?â Yoongiâs voice comes through almost immediately.
You exhale shakily. âHi.â
There was a pause. Then he speaks again, and you can hear his vulnerability. âI didnât think youâd call back.â
You close your eyes, trying to steady yourself. âHow could I ignore that video? Haneul⊠he said sarang.â
âYeah, heâs been saying it non-stop since yesterday.â
You swallowed hard, gripping the phone tighter. âYoongi⊠about⊠us.â
âMmh?â He didnât interrupt, didnât rush you. He just waited.
âIâve been thinking,â you began. âHaneul deserves to have a complete family. He deserves to know his mom, to have her in his life. Ifâif thatâs what you both want.â
Yoongi was quiet for a long moment before he finally responded. âBut⊠he needs you, too.â
Before you can back out, âYoongi, I need space,â you say finally, your voice trembling.
There was a pause, and when he spoke again, his voice was quiet. âOkay.â
It wasnât a protest. It wasnât an argument. Just⊠okay. Itâs the most âYoongiâ reaction to things, and you hate it. You hate it so much.
You hang up, staring at the screen until it goes dark. Your chest felt heavy, your heart splintering in ways you didnât know it could.
Youâd told him you needed space and he said okay. The truth is, when you said space, you just wanted him to make room for you. To assure you that you belong with them. That there is a seat, warm and yours. But he didnât.
You miss Yoongi so much it feels like a physical ache. But itâs not just him. You miss Haneulâs face, his giggles, his sleepy weight in your arms.Â
Namjoon has been doing his best to check in. He sends you UberEats nearly every other day, a steady stream of meals you barely touch. The one time he came over, unannounced, he walked into what could only be described as a disaster.
âJesus Christ,â Namjoon muttered, kicking a stray box out of his way as he entered your apartment. The laundry basket was overflowing, your trash can piled up. You were in a 2-day old shirt, hair a ratâs nest, and youâre slouched on the couch with an empty brain.
Namjoon stared at you, his disappointment radiating off him. âY/N, you canât keep doing this to yourself.â
âIâm fine,â you lied, barely looking at him.
He scoffed. âFine? You look like youâve been run over by a truck. Twice.â
âSo dramatic.â You rolled your eyes, but the truth of his words stung.
Namjoon crouched in front of you, placing his hands on your knees. âMove in with me for now. You know I have the space. You canât stay here like this. Itâs not healthy.â
âIâm not moving in with you, Joon,â you said, shaking your head. âIâm not your charity case.â
He sighed, rubbing his temples. âYouâre not a charity case. Youâre my best friend. And Iâm not gonna sit back and watch you drown in your own misery.â
âIâm not gonna live in your and Soyeonâs sex den,â you snapped unnecessarily.
Namjoon just looked at you, shook his head, before he flopped beside you on the couch. He fed you, forced you to go take a shower, and watched some shitty reality show with you. He eventually left, though you could feel the weight of his disappointment long after the door shut behind him. If he only knew how thankful you were of those visits.
A week later, you find yourself standing in front of Yoongiâs apartment. You didnât plan this. You donât even know what youâre hoping to achieve by being here. All you know is that the ache of missing themâmissing himâhas become unbearable.
You knock on the door before you can second-guess yourself.
Mrs. Kwon opens it, her expression immediately uneasy. âY/N,â she says, her tone cautious. âYou should come back another time.â
âWhy?â you ask, your voice sharper than you intended.
She hesitates, her lips pressing into a thin line. âItâs just⊠not a good time.â
âI need to see them,â you insist, stepping forward.
âMy dear girl, please listenââ
But youâre already past her, your determination overriding her warnings.
When you step into the living roomâ
Fuck.
There she is. Sung Kyung, sitting on the floor with Haneul in her lap, holding a plush toy you donât recognize. Sheâs smiling at him, her voice soft as she tries to coax him into playing with it. Adding salt to the woundâBora, the capybara plush you gave Haneul, is discarded carelessly in the corner near the diaper pail.
Your heart stops, and before you can control yourself, you take a step back, your movement catching Sung Kyungâs attention. She looks up, confused. She doesnât know you, why would she?Â
Yoongiâs voice comes from behind you, and you turn to see him emerging from his studio, his brows furrowed in confusion. âWho rang theââ
His eyes widen when he sees you, but youâre already moving, your feet carrying you toward the door in a blind rush.
âWaitâY/N!â
You barely hear him as you bend down and snatch Bora from the floor. Haneulâs voice suddenly cuts through the air, his tiny, excited voice calling out, âSa-ra! Sa-ra!â
Tears blur your vision as you wrench the door open and run, Yoongiâs voice calling after you, but you donât stop.
Itâs raining when you step outside. Great, because this day couldnât get any worse. The cold droplets soak through your clothes almost instantly. You donât have an umbrella, but you donât give a shit. Tears stream down your face mixing with the rain.
You donât know how far you get before you feel itâa warmth against your back, arms wrapping around you tightly.
Yoongiâs voice cracks as he says your name, his rain-soaked body like a furnace against your shivering frame. âPlease.â
He sounds like he is begging, but why? What is he asking? What does he want from you?
You shake your head, your voice breaking. âThis was a mistake. I shouldnât have come.â
âThen why did you?â he asks, his tone desperate, his chest heaving as he pulls you tighter.
âBecause I thought⊠I thought I had a place here. But Iâm such a fucking idiot.â
âDonât say that,â he pleads, his voice barely audible over the rain as he turns you to face him. His hands come up to cradle your face. He was starting to shake too, the pads of his fingers damp against your skin. His eyes search yours, desperate, and before you can stop himâor yourselfâhe closes the space between you and kisses you.
Against the pouring rain, your lips press against each other, clumsy, shaky, unexpectedly urgent. His lips move like heâs trying to say all the things he canât find the words for, like this is his only way to make you understand. And for a second, maybe a minute, maybe more, you let him.
You feel his ragged breaths as he licks into your mouth, his hair brushing your temple, droplets trailing down your skin. His hand slides from your cheek to the nape of your neck, fingers threading gently through your wet hair. Itâs tender and fierce all at once, like heâs afraid you might vanish if he lets go.
But there is a tinge of bitterness cutting through the taste of his kiss. This isnât enoughânot to fix everything, not to erase the doubt clawing at the edges of your mind. Not to prevent the new thoughts from worming its way inside.
Sung Kyung is in his apartment right now. So maybe itâs not just about Haneul anymore. Maybe theyâre reconciling. Trying to sort out their own feelings that they put on ice. Yoongi did say he thought their relationship was going somewhere.Â
God, you do not want to be some homewrecker. You cannot do that to Haneul. Weakly you try to pull back.Â
But Yoongi doesnât let you. His lips chase yours, teeth gently sinking into your plush and youâre unable to stifle the moan from your mouth at the delicious sting. You open up to him, lips sliding against his as his other hand grips your waist now, pulling you closer until you can really feel the heat of his body through the drenched fabric of his clothes. The world feels like itâs spinning, everything is blending into a dizzying blur, and you donât know how to stop it.
Your hand hovers at his chest, not pushing him away but not pulling him closer either. Your heart is screaming to hold on just a little longer. But your head is telling youâ
âNo,â you whisper, breaking away as quickly as you can without slipping on the slick ground. Your chest heaves as you clutch Bora tighter against you.
Yoongi stands frozen, his lips parted as if heâs about to speak, his dark eyes locked on yours. The rain clings to his lashes, his hair plastered to his forehead, and for a moment, he looks completely lost.
âI canât do this, Yoongi,â you choke out, your voice shaking. âI just⊠I canât.â
And before he can stop you, you turn and run again, your feet splashing through puddles as you make your way to the nearest bus stop. By some miracle, you make your way home in one piece. Barring one vital organ thatâs discarded somewhere in Hannam.
My tea's gone cold, I'm wondering why I Got out of bed at all The morning rain clouds up my window And I can't see at all And even if I could, it'd all be gray But your picture on my wall It reminds me that it's not so bad, it's not so bad - Stan, Eminem
Your apartment is cold and quiet, the soft patter of rain against the windows the only sound. The mug of tea on your table has long since gone cold, untouched, as you sit curled up on the couch, staring at that grainy selca Yoongi sent you weeks ago.Â
Youâre startled out of your thoughts by the sound of the door opening. Namjoon steps in, shaking off the rain and holding a grocery bag in one hand, his hoodie slung over his shoulder. Heâs soaked to the bone, but he flashes you his dimples anyway.
âYou know,â he starts, setting the bag on the counter, âfor someone who always claims theyâre fine, you sure as hell donât look it.â
âDonât start, Joon,â you mumble, pulling the blanket tighter around yourself.
Namjoon ignores you, glancing around the apartment with a disapproving look. âSeriously? It still looks like you just moved in. No decorations, no warmth. This part could be a photo wall or somethingâŠâ
You roll your eyes. âAlright, Mr. Art influencer.â
âI need a dry shirt,â he says, gripping the edge of his tee and pulling it up and over his head without fanfare.
Youâve never felt attracted to your best friend in any physical or sexual way ever (seriously, ew), but you can appreciate a good physique when you see one.
âWow, Joonie, are your tiddies getting bigger?â you say as you stand to find a shirt for him from your makeshift closet.
âYouâre an idiot.â
Before you can respond, the doorbell rings. Namjoon straightens, wiping his hands on his pants. âYou expecting someone?â
You shake your head.
Namjoon strides to the door, glancing through the peephole with a tsk before pulling it open. He doesnât seem to care that heâs shirtless, which would be awkward enough if it were anyone else standing there.Â
But itâs Yoongi.
Yoongi stands in the hallway, his expression strained, his eyes immediately scanning the room behind Namjoon until they land on you, curled on the couch. You clutch the t-shirt you were about to lend Namjoon tighter against your chest, unsure whether to feel relief, anger, or the painful longing thatâs been gnawing at you for days.
âI need to talk to her,â Yoongi says, his voice calm but heavy with emotion.
Namjoon steps into the doorway, crossing his arms as he blocks the entrance. âMaybe not today, hyung.â
Yoongiâs jaw tightens, but he doesnât flinch. âI have to. I need to explain.â
Namjoon doesnât budge, his voice soft but firm. âSorry, hyung. Not after everything.â
Yoongiâs eyes flick to you again, desperate. âI just⊠fuck,â He swallows hard, his voice breaking slightly. âI canât let her think she doesnât matter to me. She does. More than anyone.â
Namjoon hesitates for the first time, glancing back at you. His expression softens briefly, but when he turns to Yoongi again, itâs your voice that responds.
âYoongi.â Your voice is quiet, but it cuts through the tension like a blade. Both men turn to you, and the hope that flashes across Yoongiâs face makes your lungs shrivel.
You grip the fabric in your hands tighter, willing yourself to stay firm. âYou should go.â
Yoongiâs lips part as if to argue, but the look in your eyes silences him. He nods once, slowly, his expression crumbling for just a moment before he turns away.
âIâm sorry,â he whispers, his voice so soft you almost donât hear it.
Namjoon watches him for a moment longer before stepping back into the apartment and shutting the door.
The first step is always the hardest.
Namjoon didnât sugarcoat anything when he told you to get your shit together. âI love you,â he said bluntly after Yoongi left that rainy night, âbut youâre the only one who can pull yourself out of this. No one else is coming to save you. Not me. Not Jiyong. Not Yoongi. Just you.â
You hated hearing it, but he was right.
So you took the first step: you called a therapist. Twice a week, you sat in that tiny, clinical room and talked about everything youâd buried for years. The abandonment issues youâd carried since childhood. The shame you felt after your relationship with Jiyong fell apart. The way you constantly give pieces of yourself to others, just like you did with Haneul and Yoongi, leaving nothing for yourself. Thinking thatâs okay.
Session by session, the fog began to lift. Slowly, you started to understand that happiness couldnât come from someone else, no matter how deeply you loved them. It had to come from youâbuilt piece by piece, nurtured, protected.
You realized that loving yourself wasnât selfish. It was necessary. And for the first time in months, you began to believe you were worthy of it.
At home, you started small. One night, you finally tackled the pile of laundry that had been haunting you for weeks. Another night, you scrubbed down the kitchen until the counters gleamed. And then one weekend, you went to IKEA and bought a bed frameânot just a functional one, but a beautiful one that made you feel excited to wake up in the mornings.
You even hung up paintings on the walls, little pops of color that made the apartment feel like it was actually yours. Namjoon gave you some from his collection, too.
Running sucks, but it became your nightly ritual. At first, it was hard. Your legs ached, and your lungs burned. But the more you pushed yourself, the better it feltâthe rush of endorphins, the rhythm of your feet hitting the pavement, the way your thoughts quieted for just a little while.
Bit by bit, you started to feel lighter. Like you were shedding layers of weight you didnât even realize you were carrying.
And then there was Yoongi.
He was still a constant name on your phone, though the tone of his messages had shifted over time. At first, his texts were full of apologies and pleas for a second chance:
Yoongi: I know I messed up. Please let me make it right.
Yoongi: Iâm sorry for everything. I hate that I hurt you.
Yoongi: I need you, Y/N. I should have told you sooner.
Yoongi: Can I come over? I really want to explain everything.
Yoongi: Iâm an idiot.
Yoongi: Iâll wait for you. Just tell me when youâre ready to talk.
Then came the texts about Haneul:
Yoongi: Haneul misses you. Not to one-up my own kid, but I miss you more.
Yoongi: Han said your name today. He kept pointing at the door like he was waiting for you to walk in.
Yoongi: I bought him a new Bora. This giraffe is lame. [image attached]
Yoongi: Hanâs been carrying Bora 2.0 everywhere. He even tried to feed it rice last night.
And now, weeks later, his messages had settled into something different.
Yoongi: I was in the studio all day, and Hobi made me take a break. We ended up eating too much fried chicken and now I have a zit.
Yoongi: How was your run today? Namjoonah says youâre joining a mini marathon. Good luck!
Yoongi: Still have boxes of Silver Moon tea. Itâs too bougie for my ghetto taste buds. Lmk if you want it. Yoongi: Actually, no need. I'll send it thru Namjoonah.
Yoongi: I fucked up the choreography to our new track at Mubank today like an amateur. I hope you didnât get to watch it.
They were simple, almost mundane. But Yoongiâs texts had a way of hitting you square in the chest. You think back to that conversation in his home, the one where he admitted how lonely he sometimes feltâhow he wished for someone to talk to about the little things, the big milestones, everything in between. Someone to share life with. And now, with every message he sends, it feels like heâs choosing you.
Even though weeks have passed without seeing him, heâs still there. Reaching out. Trying to stay connected. Even when you never reply.
But his messages have become tiny bursts of dopamine in your otherwise quiet days. Youâre both surprised and relieved he hasnât stopped trying, that he hasnât grown tired of pouring himself into the void of your Kakao.
Namjoon told you recently that Yoongi and Sung Kyung have started co-parenting Haneul. She gets supervised visits twice a month. At first, the green-eyed monster threatened to come out. But your best friend tells you that Yoongi never wanted to rekindle anything with Sung Kyung, which gave you some peace. Maybe if youâd been braver back then, you couldâve asked Yoongi yourself. Maybe if Yoongi had been better at communicating, he would have told you then it wouldnât have felt like such an uphill climb.
But, he was also having such a difficult time, sorting through his own circumstances. And your insecurities at the time were too heavy, too overwhelming to sift through. You probably wouldnât have believed him then. The progress youâve made nowâto love yourself firstâfeels hard-won and necessary. And maybe Yoongi also needed to go on a journey to really know what he wants for him and Haneul.
Youâve come to realize through all this that you donât really hate Sung Kyung. Maybe you were angry on behalf of Yoongi and Haneul for all the secrets she kept, for the ways her choices hurt them both. There was even a night when you found yourself doing a Naver search on postpartum depression. You hadnât understood how debilitating it could be, how it could turn even the strongest person into a shell of themselves. It didnât excuse everything, but it gave you perspective, especially as you battle your own demons.
Still, as you journey forward, there are moments when you imagine the âwhat ifsâ with Yoongi, if Sung Kyung hadn't showed up that day. Sometimes, late at night, your mind drifts back to him. You replay his kiss, remembering the way it felt, the way he tasted. You can still conjure the image of his face under the rain, the way he looked at you in that fleeting, heart-wrenching moment.
You wonder if he thinks about it, too. You know heâs waiting. You just hope that when youâre finally ready to let him back in, heâll still be thereâon the other side, willing to try again.
One evening, Namjoon called, his tone unusually excited. âHey, Iâve got something for you.â
âNo, I donât need more lube, Iâm stocked,â you joked, just to be a piece of shit.
âShut up and listen,â he said, laughing. âHybeâs opening a daycare for employeesâ kids. They need someone to run it. Youâre perfect for this.â
Your stomach flipped. âWhat? Joonie, I donât evenââ
âDonât even try to argue,â he interrupted. âYou have a degree in early childhood education. You love kids. This was your literal job in the states. Câmon, this is made for you.â
âWhat if Iâm not ready?â
Namjoon sighed. âYou are. Iâve seen how much work youâve been putting in. Youâre stronger than you think. Just⊠apply. The worst they can do is say no.â
Youâre quiet, so he added. â...and they wonât. Iâll have each member of Bangtan sign a recommendation letter for you.â
âYouâre too much, Joonie,â you laugh. But you surely wonât put it past him to do that. âBut ok, Iâll apply.â
So you did. And a week later, you got the call.
Your first day at Hybeâs daycare center feels like a dream you didnât know you had. The space is beautifulâsunlight streams through floor-to-ceiling windows, casting a warm glow over the colorful toys, tiny tables, and pastel murals. There are only three kids who pre-registered, but you were expecting more to walk in.
Namjoon is there, truly your ride or die, sitting casually on your desk with his ever-supportive grin. âYou nervous?âÂ
âNope,â you say, trying to sound confident. But the way your voice wavers gives you away.
Namjoon chuckles. âRelax. Youâre going to crush this.â
Before you can respond, the door swings open, and in walks Hobi with Yunjin and their toddler, Jeongyeon. The little girl looks adorable in her sunflower-patterned overalls, her tiny pigtails bobbing as she walks toward the play area.
âJeongyeon, say hi to teacher Y/N,â Yunjin says, gently guiding her forward.
âHi!â Jeongyeon squeaks.
You crouch down to her level. âHi, Jeongyeon! Youâre gonna have so much fun today.â
âFirst kid of the day, ayeeee!" Hobi says, high-fiving Yunjin, before she runs to Jeongyeon who is mounting the toy pony. Then he turns to you, âCongratulations, Y/N.â
Just as theyâre leaving, Namjoon nudges you. âBy the way, did you know thereâs a capybara mascot today?â
âWhat?â you blink, confused.
Before Namjoon can explain, something soft and warm suddenly envelops you in a hug. You turn to see a capybara mascot wrapping its plush arms around you, its giant head tilted adorably to the side.
âWhat theâŠâ You laugh, surprised, grasping its arm. âHybe really went all out, huh?â
Namjoon smirks. âOf course. First-day activations are a big deal here. And look at that, your favorite animal. What a coincidence.â
You grin, stepping back to look at the mascot. âGuess Iâm a little biased, but this might be the cutest thing ever.â
The mascot gives you an exaggerated thumbs-up.Â
Shortly, Haneul arrives. The moment you see him toddling through the door, all your nerves, all the weight youâd carried for weeksâgone. Thereâs no ache, no tension. Just pure, uncomplicated happiness.
His nanny, a kind older woman, walks him in, holding his hand as he peers curiously around the room.
Haneul bounds toward you giggling, his gummy smile stretching wide as he lets go of the nannyâs hand and waddles toward you.
âHi, sarang,â you say, crouching down to scoop him into your arms. He smells like baby lotion and sunshine, and your chest feels full as he buries his face in your shoulder. âI missed you.â
You glance toward the door, your eyes darting around instinctively, but thereâs no sign of Yoongi. A small pang of disappointment settles in your stomach before you shake it off. Heâs probably holed up in his studio, working on something brilliant. It would have been nice to see him though.
The capybara mascot wanders over, drawing Haneulâs attention instantly. His eyes light up as he points at it, giggling.
âAppa!â Haneul says excitedly, punching the knee of the mascot with his tiny fists.
You laugh, brushing a hand through his soft hair. âThatâs not your appa, Haneul. Heâs probably in one of the big studios upstairs working very hard right now.â
The mascot gives you a pat on the head, and something about its movements feels oddly familiar. But you donât dwell on it, too caught up in Haneulâs delighted squeals as the mascot does a little dance for him. It sure loves to shake its ass.
For the rest of the morning, youâre in your element, guiding the kids through activities, wiping tears, and singing songs during circle time. Every so often, Haneul points at the mascot and calls out âAppa!â again, and you canât help but laugh.
And if the capybara mascot seems to hover a little longer around Haneul, or if it lingers near you whenever thereâs a chance, well⊠you just chalk it up to coincidence.
(One day, much later, youâll find out the truth. But for now, youâre content not knowing.)
That night, your phone buzzes in your pocket, and you pull it out to find another message from Yoongi.
Yoongi: Congratulations on your first day!
You stare at the screen, your thumb hovering over the keyboard. For the first time in weeks, as you look at your thread of messages from him, you let yourself smileâa small, cautious smile, but a smile nonetheless. And for the first time in months of radio silence, you type up your first reply to him.
You: Thanks, Yoongi. Iâm really happy. :)
His reply came almost immediately.
Yoongi: You deserve it
And it may have taken a while, but you finally believe that. So you decide you are also finally ready to do this.
You: Can we talk? Yoongi: giv me 10 mins im cming overr
:)
A/N:Â
Alright!! Wheeeew! You good? How are you feeling?!?!? As usual, please sound off in the comments. đ
I just want to say that am so proud of this chapter. I think I wrote my best, angst work here. Plus - Kissing in the rain? Namtiddies? A taste of smau? Hee hee. đ€Â
If you make it to here, thank you so so much for reading this story, you lovely, beautiful, human! xo
Part 4 is coming uppp and itâs gonna be a doozy~ đ€
P.S. As some of yâall know I am a mom and I have experienced post-partum depression before. It was nowhere near the severity of how it is depicted here (a condition that is grave and rare because the character also has other mental struggles), but I empathize. I cannot imagine being truly unfit to care for my own baby. So I request that we do not vilify L&L! LSK. She fucked up real baddd, she couldâve involved Yoongi earlier, etc etc but again she is trying to do better. Plusss, it needs to be said, she does not want Yoongi. Gasp. Yâall can rest easy. Heâs yours! đ
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Sleep walk BTS post!
will go in depth with my process and put better quality drawings in here!
Before any of this i was listening to several fiddauthor/ford playlists to hear a song that really got my brain moving. Funny enough i didn't get Sleep walk from one of the 100+ song playlists i was listening to, it was in my oc playlist (thats a mad scientist who would've thought). Originally i wanted to make a fiddauthor animatic (who knows maybe i will), but THIS SONG just caught my brain in a way i couldn't refuse.
So i technically started working on it the late night of September 27, exactly a week ago! which yes yes i hear you all in unison go "WHAT???" to that, and all I have to say to that is.... I have untreated adhd and lots of caffeine in my system! (honestly felt like ford sometimes while workin on that animatic)
Started it off with some notes, then thumbnails. I had my tbob AND J3 open next to me stood up with clips for reference (prob looked a little insane looking back but its fine)
now for the rough animatic! i did this in Adobe animate 2022 (i'll get back to that later) the only thing that really got changed was i wanted to add the diner scene from j3. i realize now that it messed up the timeline i was going for with the animatic but i like to think things are out of order because of the state ford is in, things start to merge together.
After i sat with this rough animatic for a bit, i wasn't sure if i was going to make it in Adobe animate (what i usually do) or make it all in Clip Studio Paint. I wanted this animatic to be way more visually interesting then i usually do, so CSP it is. But! i only have CSP Pro, so i had to draw and export every single new frame from this animatic.
it was a little tedious at first (again never done an animatic like this before) but i got used to it! I edited it all together in CapCut and thats really it!
The missing J3 pages from TBOB spoke to me in a way that im not fully comfortable talking about to my followers. I put a lot of myself in this animatic then i'd want to realize, it's very important to me. The night when i uploaded it i was literally shaking with anxiety (and caffeine-) but the overwhelming support for it is really amazing, thank you so much! if you have any more questions please ask away i love talking about the art process.
Below im going to talk about the code and put HD backgrounds!
thank you for dyemro on here for cracking the code first! now i can talk about my insane little thought process about it
So i never planned to add a code until halfway through with the animatic. i was watching ThatGFFan videos and him talking about gravity falls codes got my brain cooking. i wanted something sweet and simple (i realize with dyemro's post it wasn't as simple as i thought, give me some slack it's my first time). like what you should with making codes you start at the end. And i wanted something that was a nice send off for drawing ford be fucking miserable for 1 minute and 30 seconds.
so i got this. (honestly every time i look at this drawing after finishing the animatic it makes me real emotional)
There are 4 codes in this whole animatic 0:02, 0:15, 0:30, and 0:58
wanted the first one to be REAL noticeable so people can stop and be like "wait... theres stuff in here". people usually think to use the bill symbols, but no! from the description theres a little hint to use the Author symbols
doing that code it leads to: imgu r.com /a/uZa iVfu (and if you know that double line a under a letter means capitalization + im a dumb dumb that used a code image that didn't have a Z so thats just a normal Z)
it makes a LINK! > imgur.com/a/uZaiVfu <
now enough of that boring stuff, heres some HD screenshots and backgrounds of my fav parts
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Jersey Talk
nico hischier x fem!reader, jack hughes x platonic!reader, luke hughes x platonic!reader
summary: reader finds herself engaging in a lot of jersey talk
notes: part 3 of my lil unnamed nico series!! i loved writing this part and hope you enjoy it as much as i do đ„č also, i didnât really proofread so ignore any mistakes. and just a disclaimer, i donât claim to know everything there is to know about any of the players mentioned in my writing, so if thereâs inaccuracies on timelines or personality traits, just ignore them and assume itâs for the plot đ
p.s.!! iâm thinking about starting a tag list for this/any of my writing i post so if you want to be a part of that, let me know!!
part 1, part 2, part 4
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You absolutely love how foot travel friendly New Jersey is. Coming from an area where foot travel is virtually nonexistent, the change is a welcomed one. You appreciate being able to simply grab your favorite totes, your headphones, and make the fifteen-minute walk to the small corner store. Surely in the winter youâll feel differently about the five-block trek, but hopefully youâll have your car by then. For now, the comfortable Autumn air makes the walk enjoyable. The fresh air, the beautiful buildings, and the surprising friendliness of the strangers you pass on the street make you feel like you made the right decision in relocating your life to the garden state.
Luckily this grocery run was fairly light, only needing to pick up some essentials until one of the boys gives you a ride to the larger chain grocery store on one of their upcoming off days. You really just needed the ingredients to make dinner tonight, making good on your promise to be their personal shopper and occasional chef in exchange for a place to live. You even stopped in a small bakery about a block from your apartment and picked up a few assorted pastries for a sweet treat later, knowing how much Luke loves his dessert.
As you walk into the apartment, courtesy of your shiny new key Jack gave you last week, you see both him and Luke on the couch, each with one hand on an iPad held out so both could view the contents on the screen. You assume theyâre watching game film, preparing for their game later in the week against the Rangers. Your assumption is confirmed when you hear the unmistakable sound of sticks slapping against pucks and ice coming from the iPad in question.
Theyâre both so engrossed in the game film on the screen that they have no clue that youâve even walked through the door. You make your way to the kitchen to unload whatâs in your hands, putting away what little groceries you bought. Once youâre finished in the kitchen, you make your way back out into the living room, wanting to catch up with your roommates on how their midday practice had gone. As you walk towards the living area, rounding the loveseat adjacent to the sectional where the boys sit, Luke catches your moving figure from the corner of his eye. His body jerks slightly, clearly startled until he notices its only you.
âOh my god you just scared the shit out of me,â you hear him exhale, holding his hand to his chest.
You just chuckle as you see Jack whip his head up, confused as to what Luke was referring to until he saw you sitting down, tucking your feet up under your legs to get comfortable.
âWhen did you get home? Have you been here the whole time?â Jack asks, pausing the game film and sitting the iPad on the small coffee table in the center of the room.
âNo, you two were just lost in hockey land when I came in. I went to the corner mart a few blocks down to get stuff to make dinner, then put it all away before coming in here. Thought Iâd give you guys a few more minutes before I came in here and interrupted,â you replied, resting your chin on your hands that are placed on the arm of the loveseat.
âWell, you have our full attention now. Whatâs up?â Jack leans back into the couch once again, stretching his arms above his head.
âJust wanted to talk to my boys. See how practice went today. Figure out how you guys are going to fare against the Rags,â you throw in a small dig at their biggest rival team.
âThe Rags? Since when do you participate in hockey talk?â Luke chimes into the conversation, laughing slightly at your attempt to assimilate into the world of hockey.
âSince I overheard a conversation at this cute little bakery down the street. While I was waiting in line there was a man in front of me with a Devils hat on and the guy working the counter was asking him about his thoughts on the game this week. He was talking about how much he wishes âthe boys can pull their heads out of their asses and beat the damn Ragsâ and I thought it was funny. Figured I should probably adopt the local vernacular if I want to fit in around here. You know, participate in the Jersey talk,â you recall with a shrug of your shoulders.
The two brothers let out a little chuckle at your story, amused at your attempt to insert yourself into their world. The two of them and Quinn taught you a lot about how hockey is played and the rules over the years, but their hope of you fully getting involved in all of the aspects of hockey and the fanbase quickly dissolved. They would sit and force you to watch reruns of games with them over the summer at the lake, and you would sit there and whine because of how badly you wanted to go out on the boat or drive the golf cart down to the local ice cream shop, not listening to a single word the trio would say to you. Once you made the decision to move in with the two youngest brothers, you figured you should probably put a little more effort into the whole hockey fan experience, considering you would likely be attending games on a regular basis.
âWell, weâve been preparing for the Rags, so that old man in the bakery can rest easy knowing weâre working our asses off, which our heads arenât in, by the way,â Jack speaks, correcting the strangerâs statement.
âYeah, weâre doing really well, actually. We keep splitting the team up and forcing one half to mimic the Rangers and some of their techniques, so weâre actually getting really good at stopping them from getting the puck into our zone. Plus, our goalies are putting out some insane stops during practice, so I really think weâve got this in the bag,â Luke adds, excited to showcase their hard work.
Youâve noticed that practices must have been hard for the boys this week. A lot of naps and ibuprofen consumed. You havenât really seen much of them, if youâre being honest. Theyâre usually gone by the time you wake up in the mornings and so tired by the time they come home that they go straight to the couch or their bedrooms and fall asleep. By the time they wake up from their naps youâre usually already cooking dinner, at least getting to chat a bit while you cook. After finishing dinner theyâre back to the couch, watching game film or heading back to the arena for various events and strategy meetings. They go to bed fairly early, considering all of their early morning starts, so evenings are usually spent in your room by yourself watching tv or catching up with your friends back home. You suppose you should get used to spending time by yourself, though, knowing youâll be here by yourself more often than not during the season.
They had a game in Boston a few days prior, leaving you with your apartment to yourself for the first time in the two weeks youâve lived with them. They were only gone for one night, but it was definitely lonely. You really havenât been here long enough to have an abundance of people to call up anytime Jack and Luke were unavailable, so you had passed the time by exploring the area around your apartment complex a little, finding the perfect park to go sit at to soak up some much-needed sunshine. You couldnât hide your excitement when the two brothers returned home the next evening, though. You got up from the couch and ran over to the door, ready to greet them and ask them all about the game (you had watched it on tv, but you really just wanted to talk to someone after a full day with no oneâs company but your own), but you were greeted with tired eyes and frowns, despite their win the previous night. You simply gave each of them a hug and then sent them off to bed, knowing once they got some sleep they would be up for conversation.
This is why, right now, even though you have zero knowledge of what preparing for a rival hockey game consists of, youâre taking in every word the two have to offer about the subject. Youâre just happy to have a few uninterrupted minutes to sit and talk with them.
âGood! Thatâs great! ReallyâŠgood,â you say, giving a thumbs up and awkward smile after failing to come up with a better response to Lukeâs statements.
Luke just laughs, appreciating your attempts at interest in their jobs.
âYouâre coming to the game, right? We put back a ticket for you, but if you canât make it thatâs okay, too. Got you a pretty sick seat, though. Glass seat, right beside the net,â Jack reveals, raising his eyebrows a bit, as if trying to convince you.
âOf course Iâll be there, I wouldnât miss it for the world!â you exclaim, a little offended at the mere thought youâd skip out on such a big game for them.
âYou wonât be disappointed, I swear. Weâre gonna kick some major Rags ass,â Luke adds, excitement showing at the idea of you being in the crowd.
âThe real question here shouldnât be if Iâm coming to the game or not. Itâs whose jersey am I going to wear?â you throw out, poking fun at the two.
âPshh, câmon that oneâs a no brainer. Youâll obviously wear mine, Iâm your favorite,â Jack waves off your words, fully confident that youâll agree with him.
âI donât know, Rowdy. I feel like plenty of people will have 86 jerseys on. It is Mooseâs rookie season, maybe I should wear his so he feels included.â
âYeah, dickhead. You have a whole arena full of people wearing your number, she should wear mine. We all know itâs the better number anyways,â Luke retorts.
Jack rolls his eyes, opening his mouth to fire back an insult at Luke, but heâs cut off by a knock at the door. You look over at the two boys to see if they know who might be at the door, but both of their faces mirror your confused look. So much for your uninterrupted time with them.
âDid you guys invite someone over? Or should I be worried that thereâs a murderer standing on the other side of our door right now,â you ask.
âWell first of all I donât think a murderer would knock on the door. They would probably pick the lock or something. Isnât the whole point of murdering someone to do it when they donât see it coming?â Jack responds, standing up. âSecond of all, itâs probably just Nico. I had mentioned watching game film together at practice earlier and he told me heâd see how he was feeling later. Kinda forgot about it, if Iâm being honest, but this is around the time he wakes up from his post-practice nap.â
You sit up a little straighter when Jack mentions his teammate and captain. You hadnât seen him since your first night in town about two weeks ago. Youâd caught little bits of information about him in passing from both Jack and Luke, but tried to keep your questions about him to a minimum. The two of you were still practically strangers, not having had any reason to communicate after that night. You assume heâs been as busy as Jack and Luke, coming and going far more than you. Still, youâre surprised you havenât even run into him once. You figure his captain duties keep him far busier than even Luke and Jack.
You hear the front door open and then two sets of voices making their way down the short hallway. You look over to see Nico in a hoodie and sweats, a hat hiding his long hair. You think back to that night at the bar when his hair was uncovered and he was having to push it out of his eyes for most of the night, wishing you could catch a glimpse of the brown locks right now. The two were continuing their short conversation from the door, so Nico had yet to acknowledge you or Luke yet. You look away, starting to pick at a loose thread on your socks, knowing you needed to avert your eyes before you were caught staring.
Unknown to you, Luke had already noticed your stare, observing how fixated you were on his captain. You look over to find Luke staring at you, an undecipherable expression on his face. You give him a puzzled look, as if to say âwhat?â and he responds by simply shaking his head and shrugging his shoulders a bit.
âOh, hey you two. Howâs it going?â Nicoâs voice pulls you from your silent conversation with Luke, noticing Jack was no longer next to him.
âHey, man. How was your nap? Your shoulder okay?â Luke asks him, adjusting his body slightly on the couch to make room for Nico to sit down.
You turn your head to look at Nico once again, a small hint of worry surfacing. He doesnât look injured? His arm isnât in a sling or anything, and heâs not holding it in pain. You watch as he sits down to see if even the smallest wince makes its way across his face as his back comes to rest against the plush cushions. If heâs in any sort of pain, heâs not letting it show in his actions.
âYeah, perfectly fine. Donât give yourself that much credit, kid. You donât hit nearly as hard as you think you do,â Nico chuckles, taking his hand and tapping Luke on the knee a few times.
âTrying to hurt your captain before a huge game, Luke?â you speak for the first time since Nico entered the apartment. âMaybe I should wear Jackâs jersey on Saturday.â
âI knew it! See, my jersey is clearly the better choice, Moose. Sucks to suck, huh?â Jack interjects with a grin, walking from the direction of the kitchen, glass of water in hand.
âNow câmon, Y/N, that isnât even fair. It was an accident!â Luke cries out. âWe were running drills and I was trying to stop, but I misjudged and ran into Nico. He didnât even hit the glass that hard, you heard him!âhe argues, looking between you and his brother.
âAll Iâm saying is, it wonât look good if the rookie is the reason the captain canât play against public enemy number one. Then youâll become public enemy number one, and I canât be caught at a game wearing the new public enemyâs jersey. Iâm already a newcomer, I canât tarnish my reputation this early,â you hold your hands up in defense.
âWhat have I just walked into?â Nico asks, eyes darting between the three of you.
âWell, right before you walked in, we were talking about which jersey Y/N was going to wear to the game on Saturday. I told her the obvious choice was mine, but she decided to spew some bullshit about there being too many 86 jerseys already, so she should wear Lukeâs since heâs new and needs to feel included,â Jack uses finger quotes around the last part of his sentence.
âWell, she has a point.â
âSee! Even Cap thinks so! Thatâs it, youâre wearing my jersey, Y/N. Capâs word is final,â Luke leans back, taking in his assumed victory.
Your mind wanders back to Nicoâs words he spoke to you at the bar a couple of weeks ago, wondering if Lukeâs statement includes those words, too.
âMaybe I should be fair and not wear either jersey. Just go down the roster and pick a random name and then buy it,â you joke, watching the brothers widen their eyes like you just told them you ran over their childhood pet.
âThatâsâŠnot even funny. How dare you even joke about something so important,â Jack stares at you, seriousness painted on his features.
âCâmon, Y/N, thatâs justâŠthatâs just cruel,â Luke emphasizes the last word dramatically.
âI think you should do it. In fact, I have a spare jersey I think you can wear,â Nico adds, looking at you with mischievous eyes.
âOh, well that actually sounds lovely, Nico, thank you! What better way to show my support at my first Devils game than sporting the captainâs jersey?â
Jack and Luke both turn their heads to glare at their captain sitting between them. If looks could kill, the poor Swiss man would be six feet under right now. The Hughes brothers donât play around when it comes to their jerseys. You remember when you had gone to one of Lukeâs games while he was playing for Michigan, wanting to buy a Michigan jersey in support, but the gift shop had run out of Lukeâs number once he announced his contract with the Devils. You knew you could have simply asked him for a jersey, knowing he had several lying around his dorm room, but the trip was supposed to be a surprise.
You were forced to buy a random jersey with some lesser known last name on it, because you still wanted to show up in Michigan attire. You donât even remember whose name and number it was, but you remember the look on Lukeâs face when he saw you during warm ups, going from pure joy to disgust in seconds. He skated off, going to the locker room briefly before returning with a yellow Jersey that he then threw over the glass to your seat, motioning for you to put it on. You just laughed and did as you were told. Youâve had similar arguments with both Jack and Quinn over threatening to wear a teammates jersey over the years, but you just like to poke fun at how protective the three are over you. Jack explained to you that they want you to wear their jerseyâs because it shows their teammates that youâre to be left alone, knowing the reputations of their fellow players.
âCap, please donât make me kick you out of this apartment right now,â Jack looks at Nico with complete seriousness.
âMaybe I need to work on my body checks in practice tomorrow, Cap,â Luke tries to threaten.
Nico simply laughs, shaking his head at the sudden unity between the two bickering brothers.
âAlright, chill out you two, all jokes. UnlessâŠâ You trail off, standing up.
âNo, no unless. Youâre wearing one of our jerseys, preferably mine. Hey! Where are you going, this is serious!â Jack yells after you as you walk towards the kitchen.
âUnless you want to starve tonight, someone has to start making dinner. Plus, I have some jersey shopping to do,â you say, hearing Nicoâs laughter ringing out once more as you enter the kitchen.
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âHey, Nico! Are you staying for dinner? I need to know how much pasta to make!â you shout from your spot by the stove, having just sat down a large pot of water on the hot eye.
You walk over to the cabinet to grab the box of pasta and a couple jars of sauce, waiting for an answer from the living room. You decided to go with just simple spaghetti and salad tonight, not really in the mood for having to prep a ton of food and spend an hour and a half cooking. Jack will probably complain about the amount of carbs heâs consuming, but heâll get over it. As if he doesnât burn enough calories from practice and his personal workouts he does on a daily basis. Luke will just be happy to have something that isnât chicken, seeing as thatâs all you made for the first few days of your new living arrangement, trying to stick to the meal plan Jack had the nutritionist send you.
After the third night of some form of chicken and vegetables, Luke was quick to inform you that no one on the team follows the meal plan so strictly. You also learned that Jack is going through some phase of eating nothing but chicken or steak and brown rice, Luke revealing thatâs what the two mostly lived on during the weeks leading up to your move. You had told Luke he should learn to cook for himself, and then he wouldnât be forced to eat what Jack or you decide to make if he doesnât like it, but he had rolled his eyes and told you âthis was the agreement, right? We wonât let you pay rent, so you told us you would contribute by cooking. So really, Iâm just helping you fulfill your roommate duties.â
You still donât have an answer from the three in the living room. You figure theyâre too busy with game film to hear you, so you decide to just make enough for Nico, too. You can always pack up the leftovers and have them for lunch the next few days if needed. You dump what you think to be the proper amount of pasta for four people into the pot once it reaches a boil, then work on pouring the sauce into a pan to let it heat up. You cheated on the salad, too, deciding to just buy two bags of salad mix, dumping the bag into a large bowl and adding the small packets of toppings. Youâve just dumped the now done pasta into the colander in the sink, turning to put the pot back onto the stove to cool off a bit when a voice causes you to nearly drop the hot pot in your hands.
âIt smells delicious in here,â Nico announces his presence, walking through the doorway towards the fridge.
You settle yourself before setting the pot down safely on the stovetop before speaking. âYou know, I really need to get on ordering those squeaky shoes if I want to avoid a heart attack by 25.â
Turning your body, you see Nico hunched over looking in the fridge, arm reaching towards a water bottle before raising up, flashing you a smile.
âNah, even if you buy them I wouldnât wear them. This is like, our thing now. Me sneaking up on you, you getting mad, me getting a good laugh out of it,â he stands back at his full height now.
âHow comforting that you find enjoyment out of my jumpiness. Such an admirable trait to have,â you grumble, taking the pasta from the sink and transfer it into the pan filled with sauce. âI was going to ask if you wanted to stay for dinner, seeing as it looks like I made enough to feed the entire team, but I think Iâll just leave you to fend for yourself. See how funny that is.â
This earns another laugh, Nico moving to lean against the counter opposite of you, watching you try to combine the sauce and the pasta without making a giant mess.
âWhy donât you just put it back in the pot you cooked the pasta in. Youâll be able to mix it easier.â
âBecause apparently that would have been too easy,â you step back and huff, wondering why you didnât think of that before you created an overflowing mess of sauce and noodles.
Nico makes his way over to you, placing his hands on your shoulders to move you out of the way. He picks up the pan and dumps the contents into the pot sitting next to it, not spilling a single drop.
âThere, now you can mix it easier and it wonât spill out over the sides and cause an even bigger mess,â he states, placing the dirty pan in the sink behind you.
âOkay, captain chef, next time youâre cooking dinner, since you clearly have more kitchen skills than me,â you tell him, making your way across the kitchen to collect plates to sit on the table.
Nico just chuckles as he watches you grab the plates, sitting one in front of each chair around the small dining table that sits in the kitchen.
âIt smells so good in here, please tell me its almost done,â Jack enters the kitchen, Luke trailing behind him.
âIt is, just finished actually,â you look up, Nico carrying the pot of steaming pasta from the stove to the table, careful not to drop it.
âRowdy, grab the salad over there by the sink for me while I grab some forks for everyone,â you move towards the silverware drawer, walking around the Swiss man in your kitchen, having to turn your body slightly as he steps back from the table.
âWell, I better get going, my leftovers arenât going to heat themselves up,â Nico announces, starting to make his way out of the kitchen.
âCap, are you crazy? Do you not see how much food Bouy made?â Jack places the bowl of salad next to the pot of pasta, taking his seat at the table.
âJack, Iâm being so serious right now, if you keep using that stupid nickname for me I will sneak laxatives into your protein shakes.â You take the seat across from Jack, Luke falling into the seat to your left.
âWell, as long as itâs okay with Bouy, Iâd love to stay.â Nico walks back over to the table, taking the seat next to Jack, smirking while avoiding eye contact with you.
âI know where you live, so the threat extends to you too, Capâ you glare at Nico.
The rest of the meal is mostly filled with talk between the three hockey players, you chiming in here and there, until Jack shifts the topic of conversation to you.
âSo, whatâs the update with your new job? You have everything lined up and ready to go?â
âYeah, talked to them earlier today, actually. They said theyâd have my office ready in about a week, so I should be starting not long after that.â You shrug, not wanting to bore them with the details of the corporate scene in New Jersey.
âWhere are you going to be working?â Nico asks, genuine interest present in his tone, wiping his mouth with his napkin.
âI got offered a position with a small publishing company not too far from here, actually. Mostly independent, up and coming authors, but still exciting,â you reveal, perking up a bit at the opportunity to talk about your passion.
âWas super worried I wasnât going to be able to use my degree after college, seeing as the market for English lit degrees isnât too wide unless you want to teach. At least, thatâs how it is back home. After I graduated and Jack offered the spare room here, I applied to a few positions here in Jersey and a few in New York, willing to make the commute if needed. Only heard back from one place, though. And it just so happened to be a thirty-minute drive from here, so I accepted and started packing,â you explained.
âIt was meant to be. The gang back together once again,â Jack beams.
âWell, the gang minus Quinn. The fucker just had to end up in Vancouver of all places,â Luke grumbles, still upset the oldest Hughes is so far away.
âLucky for us I can work remotely if I ever need or want to, so this summer at the lake we can all be together again,â you try to cheer Luke up, knowing how much he wishes the three brothers could have played on the same team while making their dreams come true.
âThatâs what Iâm talking about!â Jack celebrates. âThis is going to be the best summer at the lake house yet. Weâre all grown, most of us legal drinking age, but donât worry, we wonât tell if you wonât, Lukey,â Jack winks over at Luke, knowing the underage drinking rule has never really applied in the sacred space of the lake houses, âand weâll all finally be there together again after, what, like 6 years?â
âItâs been awhile, at least that long,â you try to think back to the last time everyone was there together.
It was the summer before Quinn got drafted. Quinn had signed to play hockey at Michigan a few months before everyone was set to arrive at the summer oasis. You remember being so proud of him. You couldnât wait to finally see him and congratulate him in person, knowing how hard he had worked for it. You figured things would stay the same for a few more years, expecting him to come home every summer for the next four years before moving on to the NHL. You had no clue that he would be drafted only a summer later and that it would be the beginning of the end for the summers of fun at the lake house.
âNico, you should come up this summer! Itâs always such a good time!â Jack pulls you from your reminiscing.
âI mean, maybe. Iâve been talking to my parents about flying home during the off season this year, since I didnât make it over there last year. But I could probably come for a few days, at least,â he shrugs his shoulders.
You try to picture Nico at the lake house, hat covering his hair, swim trunks and a t-shirt covering his body. You picture him lounging on the boat in the sun while Jack takes everyone out for a midday ride, finding a secluded spot somewhere on the lake to stop and swim for a while. You picture him trying to wake surf, wondering if heâd be instantly good at it or if he would end up wiping out in the water. You picture him sitting around the fire at night, a light hoodie on to the mask the chill that never fails to make an appearance on Michigan summer nights, the glow from the fire illuminating his face just enough for you to admire him. You picture him with a slight sunburn on his nose, tan skin glowing from being in the sun so often.
You must have been lost in your thoughts for longer than you realized, because you came back to the conversation with several calls of your name from the seat next to you.
âAre you even listening to us anymore? Or do you really not want Cap coming to the lake house?â Luke looks over at you, slightly waving his hand in front of your face.
âWhat? No,â you say, looking around at the expectant faces surrounding you. âI mean, no I donât care if he comes. It would be fun, yeah. If he can make it, of course. You heard him, Iâm sure heâs excited to see his family.â
âIâm sure I can work something out. Have the best of both worlds. These two have talked about the infamous lake house so much Iâm curious to see if it really lives up to all the hype,â Nico leans back, nodding his head towards both Jack and Luke.
âThen its settled! Cap is coming to Michigan this summer!â Jack cheers, throwing his arms up in celebration.
You laugh in response to Jackâs excitement, noticing that everyone seems to be done eating, plates clean and glasses empty. You stand up and start to take some of the dishes to the sink, setting them in there before walking back over to the table.
âSince youâre in such a good mood, I think now would be the best time to tell you that you and Luke have dish duty tonight.â You clear the last of the dishes off the table.
You watch Jackâs face fall, while Lukeâs does a sharp turn in your direction. You turn your back to them to walk back over to the counter, opening the cabinet below you to find Tupperware to store the leftovers in.
âOn that note, I better get going. Have some laundry I need to get done before practice in the morning,â Nico stands, bringing over a few stray pieces of silverware you seemed to have missed.
âOh, no you donât, Cap. You heard her, she cooked, we clean,â Jack turns to look at his captain as he makes his way to the sink.
âNo, I said you and Luke have dish duty tonight. Nicoâs name was never mentioned. Guests donât do the dishes, Jack. I know Ellen raised you better than that.â
âNico is hardly a guest. Heâs over here all the time!â Luke chimes in, opening one of the drawers by the sink, grabbing a towel to dry dishes with.
âHe doesnât pay any rent for the apartment, therefore heâs a guest. Just accept your fate, you two. Youâll survive, I promise.â You hand the pot you just emptied to Jack, taking the food in your hands to the fridge a few steps away.
âYou donât pay any rent, and youâre not a guest,â Jack mumbles, hands covered in soapy suds.
âExactly! That means I donât do the dishes, either. I knew youâd catch on eventually! And they say youâre just a pretty face,â you shut the fridge door, looking over at Jack with an amused grin.
âThatâs not what I meant and you know it!â Jack whines.
âCâmon, man, you walked right into that one,â Nico adds, laughing at his teammate.
Jack glares at the taller man. âI thought you said you were leaving, that you had laundry to do or some shit.â
âI am, I am,â Nico throws his hands up in defense.
âIâll walk you out, Nico. Leave the children to pout while doing their chores,â you jest, walking toward the kitchenâs exit.
âThanks for dinner, Y/N. Ten times better than whatever I wouldâve found in my fridge,â Nico says as you pass through the living room.
âAnytime, Cap,â you use his title, blaming Jack and Luke for the new habit. âAfter all, I owed you for rescuing me from sleeping in the hallway.â
This earns another one of those laughs you love to hear fall from his mouth, smiling to yourself as he follows you down the small hallway towards the front door.
âI feel like you definitely had to put in more effort on your end of that deal,â he steps through the door youâre holding open.
âIâll just wait until you owe me a favor, then Iâll make sure to cash in some extravagant request,â you joke, leaning against the door as he stands in the hallway.
âIâll be eagerly awaiting the day.â
Nico takes his apartment key from his pocket and unlocks his door, opening it and stepping inside, turning around to face you once again, his stance mirroring your own in his own doorway.
âSo, Iâll see you at the game on Saturday, then?â He stalls a goodbye.
âYep, Iâll be there. Still deciding which brother Iâm going to piss off,â you reference the earlier argument over whose jersey youâll wear.
âOh, that reminds me-â Nico says before propping his door open, leaving you alone in your doorway, confused as to where he couldâve gone.
After about a minute of you standing there, wondering if he was going to come back, he returns, holding a red jersey in his hand.
âHere, figured thereâs no sense in you going out and buying one if you really wanted to mess with their heads.â
He hands you the jersey, stepping back into his doorway. You unfold the jersey and notice the big black C on the upper left corner of the jersey. It was a solid red jersey, the teamâs symbol in the middle, two black stripes on the forearms of each sleeve, more black accents on the shoulders of the jersey. You look up at him, a little surprised.
âI- I canât take one of your jerseys, Nico. What if I mess it up, or spill something on it? Iâll just wear one of the ones I have. This looks too nice to risk it,â you attempt to hand the jersey back across the hallway.
âNo, I insist. I think itâll be fun to mess around with them a little. Especially Jack, since he seemed so convinced you were going to wear his. Theyâll never even see it coming,â Nico refuses.
You run the idea through your head for a second, thinking about how it would be a funny little dig at the boys. You also think about the implications of wearing a jersey that doesnât belong to one of Hughes brothers. Itâs harmless, though, right? Nico said it was just a fun way to get under their skin. âDonât jump to conclusions, Y/Nâ you think to yourself, trying to kick your habit of creative narratives in your head.
âOkay, but if I end up getting kicked out of my apartment Iâm knocking on your door to sleep on your couch,â you finally agree.
âMy doorâs always open for you.â
You look back down to the jersey in your hands to hide the blush that appears on your face at his words. You know youâve only known him for a short period of time, tonight being the first real chunk of time youâve spent in his presence, but Nico is making it really hard for you to keep your feelings for him casual. Youâve always had a habit of getting a case of the heart eyes fast, but youâre trying to be normal, for once.
Heâs likely just being his normal, personable self and youâre letting every smile and joke go to your head, placing more meaning on them than is warranted. Thereâs just something about him, though. Heâs extremely attractive, for one. But itâs more than that. From all that youâve learned about him through Jack and Luke, and the easy conversation that has flowed between the two of you from the moment you first spoke to him in the hallway, you canât lie to yourself and say youâre not drawn to the Swiss captain.
Your mind circles back to the idea of wearing his jersey this weekend and what Jack and Luke will think. What if you seriously hurt their feelings? What if it affects how they play because theyâre mad at you? What if they ignore you the whole game? You know the two brothers love you, but you also know how petty they can both be when mad.
âStop overthinking it. I can see you getting lost up in that head of yours. Itâs a harmless joke. Theyâre not going to freak out on the ice or anything. And if they do, Iâm in more danger than you are,â Nico reassures you, pulling you from your thoughts.
âYou better at least score a goal if Iâm risking being homeless for you,â you tell him, looking back up at his face.
âHow about I do you one better. If you promise to wear my jersey, Iâll score a hatty for your first ever New Jersey Devils hockey experience,â Nico offers, his eyes flashing with something you assume is delight at a challenge.
âWell then you better work on your slapshot tomorrow morning, Captain. Iâll be holding you to that Saturday night,â you take the bait, knowing how difficult a hat trick is to pull off.
âNo need, I know Iâll have the right motivation night of to get it done,â he winks at you, causing your stomach to fill with butterflies. âAnd if I donât, consider it your IOU for that extravagant request you might need one day,â He responds, crossing his arms and shrugging his shoulders, the nonchalance of his body language making you hope for his failure, just so you can think of some ridiculous task for him to perform.
âThanks for the heads up, Iâll get right to brainstorming,â you respond, trying to prevent your thoughts from spiraling yet again.
Nico lets out a small laugh, standing up straight and placing his hand on the handle of his door. âThink hard. Let me know what you come up with. Have a good night, Bouy, see you Saturday.â He shuts the door before you can berate him for using the nickname you hate.
You walk back into your apartment, door shutting behind you, going straight to your room to hide the jersey before either of the boys see it. You think back on the entire interaction, a smile on your face at the possibility of being able to have Nico do anything you ask him. As youâre walking past the kitchen you hear Jackâs voice.
âLuke, am I stupid or did Y/N call me stupid earlier?â he recalls your earlier comment about him being âjust a pretty faceâ.
âThink about how you worded the first part of your question and youâll have your answer,â you hear Luke respond as you make it past the kitchen unnoticed, making you stifle a giggle so you wonât be discovered.
Oh how you loved being back with your boys.
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SYNOPSIS: you were supposed to be home about thirty minutes ago. mingyu doesn't know why you aren't home yet and all his calls are left unanswered and his texts, delivered, but not read.
PAIRING: mingyu x gn!reader
GENRE: fluff, established relationship
WORD COUNT: 1.1k
notes: this is pretty self indulgent y'all also also omg first written piece that i've posted for the world to see in 4 years???? also im not very satisfied with how i ended this so my bad y'all but hopefully i get to write more in the coming weeks !!
hpr btw
'i'm close by, i'll be there in five mins !!!'
going by your last text, you should've been home about thirty minutes ago. needless to say, mingyu was beyond worried, pacing back and forth in your shared kitchen while he also he kept an eye on the boiling pasta.
'y/n.'
delivered.
'y/n why aren't you answering my calls???'
delivered, yet again.
delivered, but not read.
mingyu's anxiety, which had picked up upon the ten minute mark, only increased as all his texts were left unopened and unanswered.
the pasta had finally come to a boil. as mingyu turns the stove off, a soft tune fills the otherwise empty house.
his phone was ringing.
mingyu goes to pick his phone up, his speed only picking up when he sees your name illuminating on the phone screen. he attends your call, ready to chide you as he adjusts his phone so that you could see his (rather upset) face.
"y/n, why the fuck won't youâ"
"i don't think i'm coming home tonight," you cut him off.
mingyu raises an eyebrow. he knew exactly why you were late the moment he saw you sat, leaning against a wall that looked much like the wall of the entrance to your apartment complex.
you angle your phone towards your lap, and there it was. the reason why you weren't home yet.
laying down cozily on your lap was a sleeping cat, pearly white fur with specks of dust and brown spots. if mingyu was right the stray was probablyâ
"i think he was abandoned," you pull him away from his thoughts, gently swiping your fingers over the cats ear that was cut at the tip, indicating it was spayed either by a rescue team or its previous owner. your free hand goes to cradle its head as it tips back.
a soft smile falls on mingyu's slightly chapped lips, his eyes gazing at his screen with so much love. he leans closer to the camera. "you don't even look at me with this much love," mingyu jokes, causing you to chuckle softly, "i'll bring him something to eat yeah?"
you nod and allow mingyu to cut the call. a shiver runs down your spine while you wait for your boyfriend to come down to join you. it was a particularly chilly evening. as you wait for mingyu, you watch the cat as its body rises and falls in a gentle rhythm. you had placed your woolen scarf over the cat earlier, when it had fallen asleep, afraid that it might be too cold for him. you sit there, wondering how confused the cat must have felt upon being thrown into the streets to fend for itself after being sheltered for so long. you felt sorry. the world is too cruel, you think to yourself.
"hi," mingyu's voice pulls you out of your thoughts. you lift your head to look up at your grinning boyfriend, the scarf wrapped around his neck doesn't hide his sharp canines shining under the dim light of the lamppost.
"hi," you whisper back as mingyu squats down across you. with all the sudden commotion, the cat stirs awake, sleep eyes blinking up at the new figure before him. "he's awake," you note, eyeing the cat cautiously, praying that the presence of another person doesn't scare him.
the cat sits up immediately, the scarf draped over his body, slipping onto the ground. its eyes land on the small tin of cat food which mingyu had bought along. good thing mingyu had bought a bunch of those since you have a habit of feeding strays in your area whenever you come across one.
you loved cats. mingyu knew that much. going out on walks with you almost always meant that you'd both would have to stop somewhere in the side of a road because you came across a stray cat. sometimes, you'd stop mid conversation if you see one, rushing towards it, muttering a soft "look! cat!" mingyu doesn't mind, though.
in fact, it was this quality of yours that made him fall so deeply in love with you. despite the pain the world had given you, love was all you ever gave back. that too with a big grin on your face. when you'd run towards a stray cat mid-conversation, you'd miss the fond smile that'd fall on mingyu's lips. when he'd go shop for groceries, you'd miss the absent-minded smile that'd paint his lips when he'd inevitably walk down the aisle containing pet food. when he'd see you sat beside your potted plant, talking for hours about anything and nothing at all while a slow song plays in the background, you'd miss the way he'd look at you, with hearts in his eyes.
they can hear you. it helps them grow better, you had told him.
once again, you had missed the way he was smiling at you. "or so it seems." a puff of air briefly forms in front of mingyu's mouth as a chuckle escapes his lips. the cat jumps out of your lap and approaches the can of food cautiously, almost as if it'd disappear if he'd look away. gently, mingyu pushes it closer towards the cat, assuring that the food is, in fact, for him.
you sit on your knees, your freezing hands falling on your lap as the cat takes his first few bites, his entire face fitting into the can. when he lifts his head, his overgrown whiskers are coated with minced meat. you and mingyu coo softly as the cat looks up at the two of you with his minced meat clad fur and whiskers.
you laugh, your eyes crinkling at the sides. you sounded so beautiful. music that mingyu wishes was only reserved for his ears; for him to listen to and cherish. but alas, the world knows your name.
"you've taken quite a liking towards him," mingyu points out.
you look at your boyfriend, "i wish we could take him home." an unsaid plea.
mingyu laughs softly, reaching forward to gently pat your head, "i'm free tomorrow. i'll pick you up from work and we both can take him to get vaccinated, alright?" he smiles, mirroring your own beaming smile, "i'm sure bopeul would like a friend or two when we go visit my family when i get a break."
"and, i'm sure dollop would love bopeul too," you say.
mingyu raises a brow, "is that what we're naming him?"
"yes."
"dollop it is then," he smiles, reaching down to gently boop its snout.
you miss the way mingyu smiles at you when you aren't looking. but, you never miss the way he loves you. all the little ways he's shown his love. you've never once had to ask for something. he'd know.
maybe this was what the world had to offer for all the love you've given it.
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My Secret Desire | AESPA Winter x Male Reader
I decided to post the new chapter today because I was supposed to post something else today. But as you can guess, I did not liked it enough to post it. So enjoy the new chapter!
4. The Package
She send me a pair of her underwear. With a little note on them saying âMake good use of them until i come back and get them.â And she drew a little emoji winking at the end.
But she wasnât coming over. Neither to school nor my house. She was barely texting me. And when she does, she only makes me horny and disappear completely. I asked about her to one of her friends but they were in it too. I all got for a response was to wait. So I waited. After nearly a week and a half later, my door was knocking. It was her. I looked at the peekhole. I opened the door. She went straight in. Saying nothing. She took off her shoes and jumped to my bed. Getting ready to take a nap. I closed the door and started watching her. After a moment of silence I wanted to check on her. She was sleeping. She literally was gone for nearly two weeks and now she is back sleeping in my room.
But no. This was my time to act. I couldnât just let her win every time. I sit beside her and woke her up. âWhat?â she asked me. Her attitude was making me angry. This attitude of her was the main reason I hate her as much as I love her. âWhat do you mean âWhat?â!â âYou come into my house, crying. Youâre not saying a single word. We fuck, you disappear for nearly two weeks. Than you sending me your panties. And after a few days later you appear on my doorstep and pretending none of this happened?â She looked at me. Holding her laugh. âYes.â She said. Then burst into laughing.
I hold her arms. I mean, I hold them pretty tight. Her laugh was disappearing quickly. She realized that Iâm really angry now. But she was not holding back either. âCome on big boy, what do you have in mind?â
I knew her intention. She wants sex again. But no. She needs to know that she does not always get what she wants from me. We fuck when I want to fuck. She grabbed my cock. But my cock was not hard this time. Because I was furious. âCome on, stop resisting. I know you want me.â She was thigtening her grab as she talks to me. I pushed her to the bed. âOkay, now weâre talking.â She said. But the following event was not someting that she would expect. I dressed up, took the keys and locked her inside my apartment. She has no other option to wait for me. My apartment was pretty high up so she couldnât use the balcony to run away. But also, I had zero worries that she wants to escape. I was confident that she will wait for me. No matter how long I took to come back to my apartment.
I grabbed some ramen from my favourite store. It was just around the corner of my apartment. Then I rented a film from one of the stores that is not far from my apartment. Then I go to my apartment. Opened the door. There she was. Sitting on the toilet without closing the toilets door. âYou should at least close the door.â I said to her. She rolled her eyes and answered. âYou should be grateful that I did not pissed on to your carpet. You dick.â She was acting just like I imagined she would. âI am hungry. You did get something to eat, right?â I showed her the ramen I bought. âYouâre the best boyfriend in the world.â Then she added. âProbably.â I asked her while I put the ramens on the kitchen counter. âWhat do you mean boyfriend?â She got up and came towards me. âDuh, dude you fucked me and cum into my throat. And I fucking swallowed it. What do you think we are? Study buddies?â
âSo, you loved me from the beggining.â I asked. âBoth.â She answered. âI fucking love you so much and I hate you so fucking much.â She also said. I can take that. âI love you because youâre the most precious person ever. I hate you because youâre too precious to be real. That you will gone to your own country an forgot about me.â
Her words hurt me a lot. But not in a bad way. I was hurt because I did not see it before. She was never bullying me. She just wanted my attention. Because she was thinking that I will leave her because she was not clever enough. What a bad way to think about yourself. And this was the exact reason I hated her to my guts. She was so hard to get along with. She was meaning the world to me. Yet, whenever I tried to show her this, she accused me by being delusional. Saying she is not enough for me or so. I may be too harsh to say I hated her just for this, trust me this kind of toxicity can kill. But my love for her was always getting the spotlight. It was the same for her too.
âI am so sorry If I ever hurt you with my words. I was never a bully. I just wanted your attention. And you werenât giving me.â She hit me with your little fist as she talks. I hugged her. âNo, I wonât be going anywhere. Not now at least.â She showed me her middle finger. And then she realized the film I rented. She took the dvd and started inspecting it. âI heard that this one is so shit.â She said. âIt is pure shit.â I answered. Her response was hilarious, and expected. âThen why the fuck you rented this?â It turns out that this was just the way she communicates. Not exactly helping her with the social life but, kind of makes her hot and cute. Or I was just obsessed with her.
I prepared the ramen and we started eating. âPut the film on.â She said. I put the film on. In under ten minutes our meals were finished. She paused the film and said âOkay letâs agree on something.â I said go on. âIf i get bored in the next ten minutes, we fuck. If I donât we donât fuck.â I was confused a little. âWhy do I get punished for choosing I film that you probably like?â I asked. âHaha. That is how I work, honey.â
She watched that entire film. I can realize that she wasnât really liked it. But she did it because she wanted to annoy me. But I wanted her. So I started to kiss her neck. âNo hickeys.â She said. âMy mother will fucking kill me.â Of course I was going to give her a hickey. âIf youâre going to give me a hickey just do it on a place my mother wouldnât be able to see.â She said. I took of her tshirt. I left a hickey on her left shoulder. âYour mother wouldnât see that, I think.â I said. She mimics me. Then laughs. âYou ruined the ending.â She said. âCome on! It was already shit how I could possibly ruined the ending.â I answered. She nodded.
âIâm just going to give you a blowjob, and get the hell out of here. Iâm already late. I was gone to buy some rice. My mother still waiting me to bring rice.â She said. âI have an unopened package of rice. You can take it on your way out.â She gave me a thumbs up. Then took off my pyjamas. She was on her knees. She licked my cock over my underwear. Then she took of my underwear. Took my cock inside her mouth. Her mouth was so warm. And I already knew that she is very skilled when it comes to sucking cock. But she was too shy to make eye contact. I did not pushed her to her limits just yet. I just let her give me head peacefully, in her own terms. âAre you going to swallow it again?â I asked. She took it off from her mouth to answer me. âWell, i want to but you bought me a gigantic ramen. I donât want to throw up the first meal you bought me.â She started sucking it again. I asked her to look into my eyes. She started to look up. She was looking so good with my cock in her mouth. I mean, she was probably the cutest girl Iâve ever seen. And she was my girlfriend.
âIâm going to swallow it.â She said. âDo not pull it out when youâre about to cum.â I pulled my cock out. âWhat makes you change your mind.â I asked her. âYou forgot to buy me beverage. Can I please finish it and go???â âOkay, okay sorry.â I answered. âAll yours.â She got faster and faster. Then I came into her mouth. First she showed me her mouth full of my cum. Then she swallowed it and showed me her empty mouth. I pull her closer to me and kissed her lips. âYou just kissed your own cum.â She laughed. âBut off your mouth.â I answered. âBut it makes you gay.â She answered. I looked at her face laughing. âOkay, Iâm going. Give me the rice.â I give her the rice I bought the other day. âHey, mom! I just blowed my boyfriend and he give me a packet of rice.â She was laughing out loud while saying that. âAt least you keep the money.â I said. Â âYouâre so very right sir. Goodbye.â She saluted me and went out the door. I followed her. âNo kiss goodbye?â She came closer, I was taller than her. She signalizes me to bow down. I did. She put her middle finger into my mouth. âHereâs your kiss.â
God I love her.
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Darlin' pt 6
pt 1 / pt 2 / pt 3 / pt 4 / pt 5 / pt 7 (SMUT)
Cooper Howard/The Ghoul x f!reader (Romance)
Description: Cooper and Reader feel the effects of the radiation.
Notes: My tags are still goofy I don't know what is going on I am sorry. When I am writing the post your profile comes up and I click on it but then when I post it it doesn't work? Help? You guys may have to just keep an eye on my posts. :(
Cooper still hasn't told us where he is taking us yet. The sun seemed to get extra hot as the day went on. I knew the irradiation of the river was starting to hit me, just like it was the vaultie. We both had sunken, dark eyes and pale skin. Radiation sickness was starting to set in. Cooper made sure I stayed close to him, his eyes only leaving me to bark at the vaultie when she slowed.
"This damn sun," I whined.
Without saying a word, Cooper took off his hat and dropped it on my head. I smiled ear to ear, the idea of wearing his hat filling me with joy. "Thanks, Coop."Â
His footsteps stuttered at the nickname. Little did I know, it brought back a flood of memories that were long forgotten. "Just don't lose it, darlin'." He mumbled.
The show of affection filled me with a burst of energy, adding some pep to my step as we trekked along in the sand. Eventually, we happened upon a small, derelict town. The old homes were covered almost half up their sides with sand. The houses now were all the same tan color as the ground, a reminder of the harshness of the wastelands. We walked up to a building with "Westside Medical Clinic" written on a big sign out front. As soon as we stopped walking we heard it. The yelling.
"Roger! My name... is Roger!" A voice roared from inside the building.Â
The three of us exchanged looks before Cooper pushed the vaultie towards the door, making her go first. "Stay behind me, sugar." He said quietly to me.Â
We slowly continued into the building as the snarling grew closer. The vaultie hesitated, not wanting to get any closer to the danger inside. This caused Cooper to give her another harsh shove. The fear swirling in my stomach made me feel like I was going to throw up. I grabbed onto the back of Cooper's coat for purchase. We finally made our way into the room where the voice was coming from. A man, or a ghoul, was sitting in the sand, mumbling and snarling.Â
"Hey Rog," Cooper greets him.
"Hey. Hey." the man laughs, relieved to see his friend. "Fancy seeing you here. You out for that bounty, too, huh?"
"Yep," Cooper responds as he knelt in front of his friend.
You all stand there in silence for a bit, listening to Roger snarl and whip his head around.Â
"Oh, shit," Roger says between wails.
"How you feelinâ?" Cooper asks quietly, already knowing the answer.
"Oh... you know," Roger replied. "It's hard out here. Dang smoothies can be so unkind. I see you got some smoothies of your own." He says as he looks over at the vaultie and me in the corner. "That one is cute with your hat on."
I give him a small smile as a blush warms my cheeks. "You like it? I'm thinking of keeping it." I say, trying to lighten the mood.Â
Roger lets out a gleeful laugh, "Oh, I hope she rubs off on you. Keep her around."
Cooper smiles in response, "Plan on it."
Roger cried out again, ripping the smiles off everyone's faces.
"You're turning," Cooper says reluctantly, he exchanges a worried look with you.
"Yeah maybe, maybe." Roger says on the verge of tears, "Maybe. Hey, you don't happen to have any vials, do you? Just one little puff and I'll be back on my feet. You know I'm good for it." Roger pleaded.
"I'm sorry Roger I am all out," Cooper says, looking sorrowful.
"That's okay. That's okay." Roger mumbles. "Though, um, you and your smooth-faced friends, you um... you might want to clear out before things get ugly."
Roger started to snarl again, he was growing louder and louder. It was horrible to watch. "Is this what will happen to Cooper?" I thought to myself.
"I did okay. 28 years since I first started showing," Roger said, before snarling again. "Oh, hell! Not as long as you are though." He pointed proudly at Cooper, "You've outlasted us all. How long since you first started wastelanding?"
"A long time," Cooper responds while shaking his head.
"That's a lot of vials," Roger said quietly.
"Well I've always been good at making money, Roger." Cooper exhales as he stands up. "Say, you remember how good food used to taste?"
"Yeah, BlamCo Mac and Cheese!" Roger says excitedly.
"Ice Cream and Apple Pie." Cooper countered.
"Hot damn! Apple Pie." Roger said, joy lighting up his face, even making the vaultie smile. "You know my mother used to-"
Before he could finish, Cooper shot Roger threw the head with no warning. I stumbled back in shock, tripping and falling on my butt and landing in the sand.Â
"Why did you do that?" The vaultie asked with tears in her eyes. "He was sick."
Cooper ignores her and starts making his way toward me while he holsters his gun. My eyes were glued to the man, lifeless on the ground.Â
"Darlin'." Cooper says pulling me from my thoughts and he crouches in front of me.Â
I look up at him with weeping eyes. "He...." I trailed off. I didn't know what to say. "I'm sorry," I whispered as the tears started to fall down to my chest.Â
"Don't be sorry, darlin'. Can you do something for me?" He asked calmly.
"Yeah." I managed to respond between sniffles.Â
"Wait in the hallway." He replies, rubbing my shoulder reassuringly. I give him a confused look before he starts talking again, "I don't want you to see this."
Realization washes over me. "You gonna eat him?"Â
"Just - just wait in the hallway." He says as he pulls me up to my feet. "Okay?"
"Okay," I mumble as I slowly make my way out of the room. I lean up against the wall and close my eyes. It's only a minute before I hear the vaultie begging.
"Stop. Stop Stop." The vaultie pleaded, "Please, I know it's hard out here but you don't, you don't have, you don't have to resort to... to..."
"What'd you say your name was?" Cooper asks her.
"Lucy MacLean." The vaultie replies hesitantly.Â
"MacLean?" Cooper asks a hint of recognition in his voice. "Huh. Well, Lucy MacLean, it ain't all peaches and marmalade left up here, sweetheart. Sometimes a fella gotta eat another fella."Â
Even from the hallway, I could hear the squishing from whatever he was doing in there. I felt nausea settle into my stomach, whether from the radiation or what Cooper was doing in the other room, I didn't know.
"You know, my vault has endured hardship too," Lucy said, pushing back. In the great plague of '77, everyone had to quarantine, they couldn't work the farms together, people starved. My mother included. My dad dropped to 128 pounds, and he still refused to do anything like this."
Cooper let out a deep chuckle at her words.
"What? What's so funny?" She asked, her voice dripping with venom.
"Well, there's what people say they did and what they really did." Cooper said, his accusation heavy in the air. "I'll bet your daddy was first in line at the cookout. I bet he had a bib with a drawing of his neighbor's ass on there."
"How do you live like this?" Lucy asks. "You obviously know it's wrong you sent her to the other room. So how do you do it? Why keep going?"
I open my eyes slowly at the mention of me. I didn't know if I could ever live like that, so Lucy's question piqued my interest as well. There was a heavy silence as I heard Cooper's footsteps making his way across the room.
"Well, one good question deserves another," Cooper responds, his voice was dark, sending a shiver down my spine. "Why the fuck am I doin' all the work? Now come on vaultie, ass jerky don't make itself."
This was a side of Cooper that I had not seen since the night we met. Ruthless. Cruel. It made me wonder was this who he really was. Or was the sweetness he has shown me his true self? It was probably a little bit of both. The silence in the building was deafening. It was a moment before I heard Lucy's soft footsteps in the sand.Â
"She is actually gonna do it."Â I thought to myself in horror, letting out a soft gasp.Â
Once they made their way out of the room, Lucy's hands were covered in blood and she had an empty expression on her face. She was clearly traumatized by what she had to do to Roger. Cooper didn't look at me as they made their way past. "Come on, darlin'."
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It felt like forever since the incident with Roger, but it was hard to forget as his skin hung from Cooper's pack. The three of us hiked in silence, tension had returned to Cooper and me as neither of us knew what to say to the other. Cooper had started coughing some time ago. This filled me with dread, we needed to get him some Jet fast. Let alone, myself. I was getting sicker by the minute as I struggled with the poisoning from the river. My feet dragged in the sand behind Cooper as I struggled to keep up.Â
Cooper dipped his canteen into some water pooled in an old barrel. My chest filled with jealousy. I ran out of water some time ago and the lack of food and water was becoming painful. He made eye contact with Lucy as she watched him drink. This wasn't the first time he had teased her about her lack of water. Desperate for a sip, she fell to her knees in front of the water, scooping it into her mouth.Â
"Now you're gettin' it." Cooper mused as he watched her. "How does that golden rule jibe with what's goin' through your head right now?"Â
"What are you?" Lucy asked angrily.
"Oh I'm you, sweetie, just give it a little time." He responded.
"Because of the radiation poisoning?" I asked, my voice cracking from dehydration.
Cooper turned to me with a serious look on his face, "Not gonna happen to you darlin'."
I gave him a small nod before I squeaked out, "Okay." I trusted him completely.Â
As a coughing fit took over the ghoul, Lucy took her chance to make a run for it. I was torn between chasing after her and staying to comfort Cooper. Cooper started waving after her, signaling for me to chase her.
"Hey! Stop!" I yelled as I ran after her.
As we rounded the corner, she stopped to stare at the huge crater in the ground. I ran up next to her as I also marveled at the sight. I had never seen anything like that before. Suddenly, Cooper's lasso secured itself around Lucy's midsection as he pulled her down onto the ground.
"Where you think you're goin'? You ain't goin' nowhere." Cooper said as he stepped over her, leaning down to grab her face.
Lucy immediately responded by biting onto his finger and ripping it off with her teeth.
"Oh my god?!" I gasped out as I ran toward them. "Cooper."
He continued to keep his attention on Lucy. "There you are, you little killer." He said as he lifted her to her feet before grabbing ahold of her matching finger and cutting it off with his knife. "Now that right there is the closest thing to an honest exchange that we've had so far." He pocketed her finger before reaching down to pick up his own. "Here darlin'," He said as he handed me the rope that was tied to Lucy.Â
I hesitantly took it as I watched him rummage around in his pack for a small rag to wrap his finger in.Â
"You don't hurt, right?" I asked him.
"Don't feel a thing, sugar." He said smiling as he took the rope back from me.Â
This exchange seemed to have depleted Lucy's resolve completely as she quietly obeyed from there on out. It wasn't long after that that we reached an old building with the word SuperDuperMart written on it. It was surrounded by a broken-down fence and had some old cars in the front of the building. I was nervous, but Cooper's confidence calmed me as we approached the building.
"Transaction," Cooper said as he pressed on some sort of communication device. He threw his bag into the dirt next to him. He looked tired.
"Yes?" Someone responded.
"Two month's supply of vials. Exchange one female mint condition." He stated before looking over at Lucy's hand, "Near mint condition."
"Condition grading requires physical evaluation. Please send her in." The voice responded, there was something strange about the voice that I couldn't recognize. It almost didn't sound human.
The door to the building buzzes and slowly opens. Lucy watched it with concern evident in her eyes, "What's in there?" She asked.
"You're about to find out," Cooper replies as he cuts the rope that bound her wrists.
"You're selling me?" Lucy asks, a look of disbelief on her face.
Cooper pulls a gun from his hip and cocks it, "You got problems out here too, sweetheart. Best you try your luck behind that door. Go on." He says as he shoves her.
I watch on from behind Cooper as Lucy shuffles her way into the building, giving a nervous look back before she enters.
Once she enters, Cooper deflates. He was obviously putting on a show for her. Pretending he wasn't as sick as he really was. "Y/n?"
"Cooper?" I ask breathlessly. Â
Instead of responding, the ghoul collapsed.
"Cooper!" I yell out as I shake him. His eyes are open and he's still awake but for some reason, he was not able to move.Â
I pushed the button he was using to communicate with the man inside the building. "He can't wait he needs it now!" Only to get no response. "We will give you another person! A female near mint conditon." I say, describing myself.
Cooper whispered out, "No." I could barely hear him.Â
I crouch down next to him and place his hat next to him, "It's my turn to take care of you." I declared, giving him a sad smile.Â
I took his gun and tried to shoot the door to break it. I had never used a gun before, so it took me a minute or two to figure out. The glass, however, appeared to be bulletproof.Â
"Shit," I mumbled before placing the gun on the ground.Â
I then decided to try and pry the door open with no such luck. I run between the cars around us, searching for anything I can use to open the door. In one of them, I find a crowbar. "Yes!" I yell happily as I run back to the door. I wrestled with it for a while before I finally was able to get the crowbar inside, finally, I had some progress. I yelled out in frustration as I tried to open the door. It was the heaviest thing I have ever felt in my life. Moving it just an inch took more strength than I had, especially in my state.Â
After a couple minutes of struggling, I collapsed to the ground in exhaustion. I looked over at Cooper only to see he hadn't loved an inch. "Cooper?" I call out as I crawl towards him. I sit next to him and gently lift his head onto my lap, rolling him onto his back. "You'll be okay," I say quietly before looking up at the door. I was hoping that soon they would come out to give him the vials he was owed. The silence felt like it had been going on forever when there were suddenly gunshots coming from inside the building. I help Cooper a little closer, afraid and confused. I grabbed his gun again and held it close to my side.Â
"I've got you, Coop," I whispered to him.
The building then went silent again. There was a moment before Lucy strolled out the door, covered in blood.Â
"Lucy? What happened?" I gasp.
"They were going to harvest my fucking organs!" She yelled angrily as she sauntered over to us.Â
I shakily hold up my gun, causing her to stop in her tracks.Â
"He doesn't get these, he turns into one of those? That how it works?" She asked, holding up a couple vials.Â
I lower the gun and start begging. "Please, Lucy."
She crouches down next to him and contemplates for a moment before saying to Cooper, "I may end up looking like you... but I'll never be like you." Before getting up, she gently puts some vials in my hand. "Golden rule, motherfuckers."
"Thank you! Thank you so much!" I cry out happily as I start rummaging through Cooper's pockets searching for his inhaler. "I've got you, I've got you.." I kept repeating as I shakily put the vial in the inhaler and hold it up to his mouth. It takes a couple tries, but ultimately, he gets ahold of it and breathed in the contents. I make a happy squeak as he starts to move again.Â
He lets out a soft wheeze before saying 'Why the hell would you do that?"Â
"What?" I asked him confused.
"You were going to fucking sell yourself? For me?" He states angrily as he sits up to a sitting position.Â
"Well-" I start.
"Well, nothing. Never do that again." He shouts as he stands, pulling me up by my collar. The fear on my face softened him as he released my shirt with a sigh, "I ain't worth it, darlin'."
"You are to me," I say quietly. "You are never getting rid of me."
He lets out a small laugh as he smiles wearily, his resolve dimishing. "You are way too good for me, sugar."
"Well too bad, Cooper. You've got me." I say as kiss him on the cheek.
Just as I was pulling away he grabbed hold of my hip "Come here." He says as his lips crash into mine.Â
I let out a squeak in surprise before I started to return the kiss. It was sloppy and heated, filled with pent-up emotions. It was everything I wanted.
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Trial By Combat - 4
Requested By: No One. Original Work.
CW: Post-SAGAU Imposter AU, Mentions of killing a divine being, kidnapping, drugging, manipulating people
Summary: Your health takes a turn for the better.
Note: 4.0 Archon Quest Spoilers.
Part One Part Two Part Three Part Five
It was only under exceptional circumstances that the harbingers would return to the homeland. If one of them managed to obtain a gnosis and further the Tsaritsaâs plan, a celebration was in order. Yet even then, it would be miracle for all to appear .
However when one of Tartagliaâs subordinates returned holding the newest edition from the Steambird, the Tsaritsa ordered all of them to return Snezhnaya.
The deafening silence filled the hall, encasing the walls with anticipation. As the pages were passed to the last harbinger, they were suddenly slammed onto the table before fluttering gracefully onto the floor.
âFocalors proves time and time again that she is not worthy of being an Archon.â Arlecchino spits. âI will go there and rip that gnosis out of her dead body.â
âWait just a second.â Tsaritsa calls out. âBefore we act, we must find out if their Grace is still alive. This paper gave no details of their condition.â
âHer Majesty is right. If their Grace is still alive we need to prioritize bringing them here.â Pulcinella adds.
Arlecchino scoffs, âI can do both. Iâll get the gnosis, kill Focalors, and get Their Grace.â
âThatâs a bit ambitious. Donât you think?â Pantalone questions, his voice as sweet as honey.
Alrecchino digs her nails into her palm. âThis isnât the time to pick a fight when Their Grace could be dying in the so-called Nation of Justice.â
âI agree.â The Tsaritsa begins, âAlrecchino will go to Fontaine but the Gnosis and Focalors are not the priority. Getting the Creator back to Snezhnaya is the only thing that matters.â
ââand if Their Grace is dead? What shall we do then?â
Everyone turns to stare at The Doctor. Although none of them wanted to think about the worst case scenario, it was still something that needed to be addressed.
âThen Focalors will beg for a quick death.â
-
When you woke up, you were greeted by more Melusines. They stood resolute in your room, as if they were guarding you. While the Melusine in front of you held a tray with food on it, it was plated beautifully. It was fixed with great care and itâs easy to tell a lot of attention was put into making it perfect.
âDid Neuvillette send you all again?â Are the first words to leave your lips once you sit up in the bed.
Blathine, who stood the closest to you, nods. âMonsieur told us to watch over you.â
She slides the tray carefully onto your lap being careful to not let anything fall. You look down at the tray licking your lips, you didnât even realize how hungry you were until food was right in front of you.
âThank you.â You smile picking up a piece of the sliced bulle fruit putting it in your mouth. It was sweet and refreshing, you craved more, desperately famished.
As you eat, you canât help but notice how the Melusines get closer and surround your bed their eyes on you. You hesitate for a moment, dropping the piece of fruit back onto the plate as you wipe your mouth.
Their eyes followed every move you made, it was clear that the species was interested in humans but this felt like something else. Like how a child would act with their parent.
âI thought Melusines were responsible for guarding Fontaine?â
These five Melusines were apart of the Marechaussee Phantom, the blue uniforms and hats made it obvious.
âMonsieur Neuvillette increased the number of Gardes and Gardemeks around Fontaine so that we can prioritize your safety.â Menthe explains.
âMy safety?
âLady Furina and Monsieur Neuvillette prioritize you over everything. Everyone does.â
You want to scoff at their words, if you really were as valued as they say you wouldnât be in this hospital bed right now.
âYour GraceâŠ?â
You look up noticing a woman in a white coat standing by the door. Her blonde hair was pulled into a low bun and her red lips stretched into a welcoming smile.
âIâve been assigned as your personal nurse and Iâm here to change your bandages,â she explains. âAre you finished eating?â
You look down at the tray and the half eaten food on it. You still felt a bit hungry but having all these eyes on you made it difficult to eat. You push the tray away slightly as you nod at the woman.
The woman takes a step to enter the room but the Melusines were quick to approach as they checked her and her bag for anything suspicious.
The nurse places her bag at the foot of the bed opening it. Inside were multiple different medical supplies, bandages, and gloves. She grabs a pair of the gloves sliding them onto her slender fingers.
âHow have you been feeling Your Grace? Any pain in your abdomen?â She asks.
âNo. No pain.â You reply shifting slightly.
She looks over at you giving you another smile, âdonât worry Your Grace Iâll be quick. We just donât want your wounds to get infected.â
You lay down on your back as the nurse slowly lifts your shirt to reveal the golden stained bandages wrapped around your torso. Carefully, she begins to unravel them making sure not to cause you any pain or discomfort.
Once the bandages were fully removed, you notice her eyebrows furrow. She bites her lip slightly as her eyes dart all across your exposed skin.
âIs something wrong?â You ask feeling a sense of dread creep up your spine.
âIâ Your Grace.â She stammers, âYour wounds, theyâre already healing.â
She touches what was left of your injury with her gloved hand. The gash was already almost closed and there was no more blood leaking from it. The wound looked more like a large scratch rather than something that couldâve killed you.
âHealing!?â You reply, âAlready?â
âItâs fascinatingâŠâ she breathes out, âI never seen anything like it.â
The nurse begins to notice your discomfort, she clears her throat as she bows slightly to you. âI apologize for my behavior Your Grace. That was very unbecoming of me.â
She grabs the fresh bandages from her box and quickly wraps your abdomen back up.
âI do not believe you need these bandages anymore.â She says as she secures the bandages with medical tape. âhowever I will wrap them just as a precaution.â
Once she back away and pulls off her gloves you pull down your shirt and sit back up in the bed.
The nurse closes her bag and picking it up to put back in her shoulder. âAlthough you are healing much more quickly than expected, you should still drink plenty of water and get some rest.â
âI will inform Monsieur Neuvillette of your condition. I think by daybreak tomorrow you should be able to leave this bed.â
It was relieving to hear that you would be able to leave this bed soon. Being cooped up in the same room for days at a time was mentally draining. Especially when the only ones who visited you (excluding the Melusines) all groveled at your feet for an apology.
âEnjoy the rest of your day Your Grace,â she bows again, âI hope that you will be able to enjoy everything Fontaine has to offer you soon.â
She turns and walks towards the door, her heels clicking as she walks.
As her footsteps fade, the room grows silent again. You pull the blankets off your body standing from the bed. The Melusines watched your movements before Blathine speaks up.
âDid you have somewhere to go?â She asks tilting her head slightly. âWe have been instructed to follow you.â
âI want to speak to Neuvillette.â You reply stretching your sore limbs, suddenly not feeling anymore pain in your abdomen.
âMonsieur Neuvillette?â She repeats, âShall I bring Lady Furina as well? Sheâd love to talk to you.â
You shake your head quickly, âNo. I only want Neuvillette.â
Blathine nods as she skips towards the exit of your room.
âVery well, I will return with the Iudex immediately.â
-
For the first time ever, the Northland Bank was closed and no outside personnel were allowed to enter. In fact, no one apart of the Fatui had been seen in the past twelve hours.
Except for Lyney and Lynette.
The magical duo who are loved by everyone in Fontaine, or at least they were before people found out they were from the House of Hearth. Although their name had been cleared from that case, no one would trust anyone associated with the Fatui.
That didn't stop them from entertaining the people around Fontaine with their latest tricks.
Even after Father returned from Snezhnaya the night before.
Alrecchino's visits were always sporadic, the children understood, she was a Harbinger. However this time it felt even more unexpected. The children had never seen her look so angry in their lives but she would never take her anger out on the children. There was one person in particular that she wanted to lash out on, but she has to focus on whatâs important.
Lyney and Lynette were the ones pulled aside by Alrecchino, the task she had for them now was bigger than finding out the true nature of the Oritrace.
Yet the twins knew that a second chance will not be an option this time.
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Getting into the hospital where you were being held would be impossible, that much was true. The level of security around that building alone was enough to rival any trial that had ever been held in Fontaine. No one would be getting into that building unless cleared by the ludex or the Archon themselves.
There was only one person that wasnât a notable figure in Fontaine that was able to enter that building. The nurse who went through so many clearances and was lucky enough to provide the Creator with any medical assistance they needed.
When she had stepped out the building, the nurse was immediately surrounded by reporters from the Steambird who wanted to know anything about the Creators current condition.
âCould you tell us anything about how the Creators doing?â
âAre they healing? Have they woken up?â
âWill we be able to see them soon?â
âI apologize,â the nurse begins as she glances around at the crowd. âI cannot give any information on Their Grace at the moment.â
The reporters visibly deflate at the news, or rather the lack of news. She pushes her way through the crowd to head towards to Palais Mermonia. The streets of Fontaine were empty, most people were too focused on The Creator to be bothered with anything else.
âExcuse me, Miss?â A voice calls out.
The nurse stops walking and turns around to see who called out to her.
It was the twins, two faces anyone in Fontaine would recognize.
Her face brightens slightly, âLyney and Lynette! I love your magic shows!â
Lyney gives her a sly smile as he takes a few more steps to be closer to the woman, his sister follows but doesnât say anything.
âIâm glad youâre a fan!â He exclaims, âMy sister and I have been working on our latest trick for our newest show. Would you mind if we showed it to you?â
The nurse hesitates, âActually I donât think I canââ
âItâs just one trick!â Lyney interjects, âIt wonât take too much time, I promise.â
âAlright fine.â She concedes, âI can only stay five minutes though. I have somewhere important to be.â
The twins exchange glances while nodding.
âVery well! Prepared to be amazed!â Lyney exclaims.
Lyney and all of his siblings knew how awful that Fatui was. The group has done unimaginable things and ruined many peopleâs lives. However, the children also knew that the Harbingers has their own aspirations that had nothing to do with the group.
Arlechinno only had the best intentions for her homeland Fontaine and the Creator, that is one thing Lyney knew for sure. So if getting the Creator out of Fontaine was the best option, then he would feel no remorse for what he had to do.
The trick was simple, something Lyney wouldnât use during one of his shows just because itâs not entertaining enough. Yet he isnât here to entertain this woman, all they have to do is keep her distracted long enough so Fatherâs plan can work.
Lyney pulls off his hat and bows to the nurse who only laughed and clapped.
âThat was amazing as always! I cannot wait to see it in your next show!â
His smile fades as he fixes his posture placing his hat back on his head. âIâm glad you enjoyed it. Iâll be sure to reserve you a special seat in the front.â
Her laughter soon died down as she stares at the twins. Their warm welcoming nature was devoured by something more malicious. The nurse subconsciously takes a step back, the hand that held onto her medical bag began to tremble. Lyneyâs face was devoid of emotion and Lynetteâs gaze seemed to be focused behind the woman.
However, she had no time to turn around. Two large hands grip firmly onto her shoulders.
âYouâre coming with us.â
The nurseâs eyes widen as the two Fatui Skirmishers forcefully pull her back towards the direction of the Northland Bank. She glances back at the twins who only watch silently as she is dragged away.
âWhat do you want?! Please donât hurt me!â She cries.
In almost a blink of an eye, the woman was gone. With no witnesses or trace of her presence, the twins didnât have to worry about being put on trial again.
Lyney sighs as he looks down at the pavement.
His sister places her hand on his shoulder, âOur job still isnât finished. We still have to deal with the traveler. They cannot intervene.â
Lyney nods at her words as he readjusts his top hat, âYouâre right. Letâs go.â
-
âYou wished to see me Your Grace?â
Neuvillette stood by your doorway as he bowed respectfully to you. He spoke in a soft tone and he refused to meet your gaze.
âYes. Thereâs something I needed to talk to you about.â You reply.
As he enters your room, the Melusines exit the room quietly leaving the two of you alone. Neuvillette stands by the window facing you. âHow can I help you your Grace?â
âIâm sure the nurse has already told you, but my wounds are healing.â You say.
His eyebrows furrow as he brings his gloved hand up to his mouth, âNo she hasnât told me anything yet, but maybe sheâs already waiting at Palais Mermonia.â
Neuvillette smiles, âbut Iâm glad to hear that you are feeling better. I will discuss your condition more with the nurse so I can make the preparations for you to leave the hospital. I want you to be as comfortable as possible in Fontaine.ïżœïżœïżœ
âThereâs no need for that.â
His eyes widen momentarily but his expression doesnât change, âWhat do you mean? If you donât mind me asking.â
You look down at your lap as you fiddle with your fingers. Although he was trying everything in his power to make you feel comfortable, you still felt uneasy around the man. The last time you actually had an conversation with him, he considered you a criminal.
âI want to leave Fontaine.â
An awkward silence settles around the two of you as you wait for him to respond to your statement.
âI seeâŠâ Neuvillette begins, ââŠIs there a nation in particular youâd like to travel to?â
You ponder his question for a moment, you never really thought about where youâd go after you left the Nation of Hydro. It didnât matter, you just wanted to get out of here.
âSumeru.â You reply. âThat is the closest nation, right?â
Neuvillette nods, âIt is Your Grace, but to get to Sumeru city youâll have to pass through the desert.â
âThatâs fine I justââ you pause, you didnât want to say anything that he might take offense to.
âI can make the preparations for you to leave as early as possible. I will reach out to the Dendro Archon to make her aware of your arrival.â
âIs there anything I can say to make you change your mind?â Neuvillette asks quietly.
You look away from his gaze, âNo. I donât think you can.â
Neuvillette nods as he lets out a breath, âI see⊠was there anything else youâd like to discuss Your Grace?â
You shake your head, âNo Iâd rather just be alone right now. Could you send the Melusines away too?â
You could tell by the look he gave you he wanted to refuse your request but he doesnât. He gives bows again as he begins walking back to the door.
âOh Neuvillette!â You suddenly call out.
He turns to face you again, âYes Your Grace?â
âThank you for the flowers by the way.â You say sheepishly, âtheyâre beautiful.â
You see his pale cheek grow red slightly as he quickly turns away from you. âIâm glad you liked them. Iâll be sure to bring you more.â
You couldnât help but smile at his embarrassed reaction.
âYour Grace,â Neuvillette says after clearing his throat, âI brought you another gift. Iâd be honored if youâd accept it.â
You fix your posture, interested in what this gift could be. âWhat is it?â
He gestures for Blathine to enter to room, she was holding a nicely decorated vase in between her tiny hands as she holds it out to Neuvillette. He smiles down at her as he grabs it with one hand, using the other to pat her head lightly.
Neuvillette walks over to your bedside with the vase in hand, âItâs water Your Grace. Some of the best water you can find in all of Teyvat. I collected it specially for you.â
He places the vase next to the bouquet of flowers.
âThank you Neuvillette,â you reply, âIâll be sure to enjoy it.â
As you accept his gift you notice that his mood seemed to lift, almost like you never told him you wanted to leave Fontaine in the first place. Neuvillette gives you one last bow as he heads back to the exit.
âI will return personally to check on you in the morning Your Grace.â
Neuvillette and the Melusines leave without another word. Just like before, you were left alone with your own thoughts. You could only hope that Sumeru was better than Fontaine, but Nahida was the God of Wisdom so surely she wouldnât accuse you of anything without evidence?
You let out a sigh as you relax back into the bed glancing out the window. The sky already had a orange hue signifying that the sun would be setting soon. You didnât even realize how fast the day had passed, spending all your time in this room.
ââŠYour Grace..â A soft voice calls out.
You glance over at the door, it was a nurse, but not the one you had earlier today. Under the white coat she wore an unusual outfit, wouldnât it even be comfortable working in an thing like that?
She seemed to notice your gaze on her appearance. âI apologize for my clothing Your Grace, but the matter was important.â
You stare at her a guarded look on your face, âwhereâs the other nurse? She was the one assigned to me by Neuvillette.â
She nods, âYouâre right Your Grace, but there had been a complication with your injury and I was tasked to bring you medicine.â
You raise a brow, âThe other nurse said I was healing? How could that change so quickly.â
The mysterious woman enters your room fully, her footsteps as silent as ever. You could hardly see her face as the light began to slowly drain from the sky.
âAfter checking your old bandages we are worried that an infection is already growing within your body. I brought a serum to stop it before it gets worse.â
Your eyes widen as your hand rests on your torso. An infection? Just when you thought you would be able to leave this nation, you could be stuck here even longer.
âWill this medicine heal me quickly?â
âOf course Your Grace. Your health is our up most priority.â She replies quickly.
She walks to your bedside pulling out a small bottle from her coat pocket. The liquid within it was clear as she holds it out to you.
âHere, you have to drink it all.â
You grab the bottle from her fingers taking out to cork as you smell it. The medicine had no scent. Slowly, you bring it up to your lips letting the medicine spill into your mouth as you drink it in one go.
The woman smiles as she takes the empty bottle from your hands. âWonderful Your Grace. Youâll be feeling the effects very soon.â
Your head suddenly felt heavy as if the world was spinning around you. What the hell did you just take?You look up at the woman and she just had a small smile on her lips not saying anything else.
You felt uncoordinated as you reach over to the vase Neuvillette had gifted you to take a drink of water. Maybe some water would help wash this feeling away.
The vase slips from your weak grip crashing onto the ground, the glass shatters as the water splashes everywhere. The overwhelming feeling to close your eyes was growing stronger as you take one last glance at the woman, but this time you see someone standing behind her.
This woman had white hair with raven streaks, her eyes were black with and her pupils were X-shaped.
âDonât worry Your Eminence,â the new woman says, her voice soft and graceful, âI will take care of you from now on..â
You couldnât fight the feeling anymore, your eyelids close as you rest limply in the bed.
âLady Harbinger. Itâs done.â
The Knave enters the room fully stepping over the shards of glass the was scattered across the room. She kneels down in front of you bringing her hand up to cup your face.
âTell the others to prepare the ship. We are leaving Fontaine immediately.â She whispers as if youâd wake up if she spoke too loudly.
âAnd what about Their Grace? Are we taking them back to the Zapolyarny Palace?â
âNo.â Arlechinno replies curtly, âI have other plans for Their Grace.
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⥠I See You - LN 4 âĄ
Summary: Lando is under immense stress due to his career and he can't drag down his love with him. Will their relationship survive a horror movie?
Author's Note: This was requested and as soon as I saw it, I was excited to start it and I had so many ideas for this so I hope y'all enjoy it!
WC: 6k+ with some instagram posts
CW: poor mental health, a bit of angst, a kiss here and there, happy ending
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f1 Just one lap couldâve made all the difference for Landoâs race đŁ
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User32 Lando needs to stop thinking he âshouldâve wonâ itâs starting to seem a little entitled.. The two ahead of him have 165 wins between them
User33 They completely ruined Oscarâs race
User34 the only thing he brings to McLaren and F1 is shame
User35 Geez people in the comments are so quick to say hateful things but donât think about how their words hurt, lando is pressuring himself into doing good and yall just wanna hate on him at any chance you get
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f1gossip sources close to the couple are saying that Lando Norris and Y/n L/n have split after just 7 months together
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User22 she was just one of the girls heâll date for like a summer then leave when heâs bored. Canât wait to see who the next slut is
User67 she lost color in her face since sheâs been with him, glad she finally knows her worth
User54 she looked so bored recently, and i mean itâs her right since he practically love bombed her
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âI canât break you when Iâm breaking.â - was all you heard before everything went silent.Â
You and Lando had been together for about 7 months, not all of which was rainbows and daisies.Â
When you first met, it was like stepping into the sun again after having spent so long in the dark. You had your fair share of heartaches before Lando. It was hard for you to give in to him at first, but after a few weeks, you gave in and youâre grateful for giving not only him, but yourself a chance.Â
You knew what you were getting into when you started dating him. You knew he was a driver in F1 and that his fanbase could be quite protective of him. You also were aware of his crazy schedule with the races and meetings and training. Lando also told you about how he and his ex had to break up due to the invasion of privacy that was experienced, and how his ex simply couldnât do it anymore, which is more than understandable. But even with every warning he gave you, you still stayed.Â
These past few weeks have been chaotic though. Lando is a strong contender for the WDC this year against Max and thereâs pressure and eyes all around him. Youâve watched as the media berated him for weeks and weeks, never letting up. Everyone has high expectations of him and itâs slowly destroying him, even if he canât see it yet.Â
You wonât lie, it has indeed had an impact on your guysâ relationship. Not only is distance and time difference straining you two, but the constant analysis and comments from the media have taken a toll.Â
It was obvious to you that Lando would be gone for most weeks out of the year, but now, even when he is home, heâs not fully there. Itâs like heâs a ghost in his own home, his own body.Â
âYouâre not breaking meâ - you tell him. But you both know youâre lying. As much as you may love him, his distance has been something that has destroyed you. You started to wonder what you were doing wrong, how could you fix this?Â
âI am, and itâs hurting me so much that Iâm doing this to you when you donât deserve all this shit. You deserve so much more. You deserve all the good things in life, like seeing your partner for more than a week, going to the grocery store without being stalked by fans, having someone who can be there for you, someone who wonât drag you down.â he says, tears streaming down his face. His hands are shaking at the thought of losing you, but he knows he loves you too much to let you down. Heâs completely broken now. His heart aches and sinks every time he thinks about how youâre being treated. He doesnât want to be the person who takes your sparkle, who makes you feel less of a person.Â
âYouâre not. Iâm fine. Weâre fine, love. I can handle it, all the shit thatâs getting thrown at us. We can survive this horror movie.â you try to convince him⊠convince yourself, as tears are now streaming down your face as well.Â
âWe canât. Iâm not the way I was, Iâm not the same person I was when we met.â you watch as he takes a shaky breath in, trying to compose himself, âAll I ever wanted was to drive and race in Formula 1. But now that I have it, it doesnât feel enough. As soon as I joined, so much pressure was put on me to be the best. When I started, the car was shit, so I helped make it better, and I did. I feel like all Iâm doing is trying and trying to please everyone and to be who they want me to be, but itâs so hard. And this isnât what I wanted. I just wanted to race and have fun, not drive myself to the point of destruction. I donât want to be the machine that the team, media, and fans want me, and expect me to be. I feel like Iâm giving my all to the team and to the sport but itâs not enough and itâll never be enough. I feel like Iâm stuck and I canât get out no matter what I do. The one thing I wanted all my life, and now itâs mine. But it feels like Iâm theirs.â he lets out an ironic laugh.Â
You slowly walk to him, moving to hold his hands in yours. Without missing a beat, one of your hands gently lifts his chin, making his eyes connect with yours.Â
âTheyâre feeding you to the wolves and itâs unfair. They cheer your name until the lights go out, then they throw you to the side and disregard you till the next time they need you. Theyâre not fair to you and itâs draining you. You have a look that I canât recognize. You used to love this sport with all your heart but now itâs the thing thatâs killing you.â
âBut I need to keep going. I need to prove that I can be what they want. I need to prove that Iâm not just some spoiled, ignorant kid who paid his way to this place. I need to show that I earned my right to be here and to have this seat.â he tries to explain.Â
âI understand that, Lan. But we need to find a better way to handle all this. Itâs clearly taking a toll on you and your health. Itâs been a long year. Youâre constantly watched and analyzed, with people documenting your every move to create sickening plots for their stories of you, of us. They expect so much, so youâre expected to follow, but thatâs not how itâs supposed to work.â He pulls back from you, removing his hands from yours and taking steps back. You watch as he begins to pace the room, shaking his head as he speaks.Â
âTo know me is to hate me, and to hate what Iâve become. Itâs to watch me fail over and over again, and I canât keep doing this to you. I canât let you hold my hand in yours anymore.â he says as he stops in front of you, trying his best to refrain from spilling more tears but itâs merely impossible. His biggest fear is coming into fruition, heâs losing you. Heâs letting you go. He wanted to let you out of this mess before it was too far gone for you to come back to life. You gave him all of your best self and your endless empathy.Â
âWhat are you saying, Lan?â you barely let out as a whisper, afraid of the answer.Â
âIâm letting you go. I know Iâm gonna sound like an asshole but I have to do this. All this shit is just gonna hurt you more. You canât do this to yourself. Itâs killing me to know Iâm just bringing you down with me.â he practically pleads.Â
âI stay because I want to, not because I feel forced to or like I have to. I do it because I love you.â your voice cracks with the last bit.Â
âIâm sorry for all this. I care about you a lot and I hope everything goes well. I hope you get everything you could ever want. Iâm sorry for all the mess.â
âDonât be sorry. You are worth all of the shit. But can you please let me stay?â you beg through tears.
His lips are quivering, tear stains paint his face as he breaks himself in two. Cause truthfully, you will always hold a part of him. Through all the obstacles and shit, you stuck by him.Â
âGoodbye, y/n.â is all he says before he turns his back on you, walking out the door.Â
He didnât even wait for your response, leaving as soon as he could because he knew if he stayed any longer, he wouldnât have followed through with the breakup.Â
You werenât sure how long you stood there, in the middle of your living room. You had to watch the person you thought you would marry, walk out the door. You thought he was your forever. You shared your dreams with each other, planned out the house you two would grow old in. The house where you would have rocking chairs on the front porch where the two of you would watch the neighborhood kids run by, yelling at them to stay off the lawn. What dreams those were, dreams that would remain just that, dreams.Â
For a while after the breakup, all you did was lie in bed either sleeping the days away or doom scrolling on social media. It got so bad that your roommate/best friend had to physically drag you out of bed after a week of letting you rot in it.
The first day of what your best friend liked to call âpost breakup, glow upâ, you guys decided to just have a self care day where you took it easy and ordered in food and did face masks while coloring in some books.Â
It was fun and a nice distraction until your phone dinged. The look on your face scared your best friend so she looked over your shoulder to see who it was. Landoâs name was displayed along with a message, âHey, how you been?â.Â
Was this how exes interacted after a breakup? Typically after the breakups youâve experienced, there was no contact. Whatâs Lando up to? You knew he didnât keep in contact with any of his exes after their break ups, so why was he texting you?Â
When you snap back to reality, your friend is giving you a concerned look, wanting to know what was going through your head so she could help in the best way possible.Â
âShould I text him back?â You asked.
âI donât think itâs a good idea, babe. He still hurt you towards the end of the relationship, although not intentionally, but it still fucked you up a bit. I donât want you to lose the progress youâve made.â
âYeah, I understand. I wonât text him back then.â You tell her as you turn off your phone and throw it to the side, picking up your marker and starting coloring again.Â
You lied. You ended up texting him back later that night once you were back in bed, ready to end the night with what hopefully would be a decent sleep.Â
You and Lando exchanged a few texts, mainly just catching up and seeing how the other was. You werenât gonna lie, it felt nice to talk to him again. But what was this gonna lead to? Hopefully getting back together, but what are the odds?Â
The occasional text conversations took place over the course of a few weeks. Lando knew he shouldnât have been texting you, but he couldnât help himself. The weeks following the break up, he went back and forth on whether he regretted it or not. He wondered if it was the best thing to do.Â
Every day, he saw you in everything he saw or did. When he goes to get coffee, he swears he can still hear you laughing at the mustache of foam that would appear on his face after his first sip of coffee.Â
When heâs outside in the park for a run, heâs reminded of you when he sees the rabbits hiding in the bushes. You always used to squeal out of joy and cuteness from the rabbits, even if youâd already seen them about 20 times prior.Â
Every song, every film, every color reminded him of you. He thought about you every single day, wondering what you were doing and how you were. He even went as far as stalking your Spotify profile. He knew you made playlists for everything and he would watch your listening activity to see what mood you were in.Â
He wasnât surprised when he saw you listening to Taylor Swift and Gracie Abrams for hours on end. Those two were your go to sad girls. But he was surprised when none of the songs were about how shit the guy was. All the songs you were listening to were about regretting breakups and just missing someone.Â
The night he texted you for the first time since the breakup, he had been gaming with Max and a few of his other friends, trying to take his mind off things.Â
He didn't know what he texted you, he just did. He didnât even have a plan for what he wanted to say. It turned out all right in the end though. You guys had a peaceful conversation and shared a laugh or two, for which he was grateful.Â
Maybe you guys could remain friends?Â
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Asking God to wash you from my soul
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User4 heâs a waste of running mascara, youâre on to greater thingsÂ
alexandrasaintmeux the most beautiful girl in the world
User97 ummm, whatâs lando doing in the likes?! Didnât they break upâŠ
User23 she was a fool for thinking she could be enough for him
User10 lando leave the poor girl alone, youâve done enough damageÂ
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Everytime he texted you, you came back. Heâd ask to try again and youâd say yes. Youâd come back to his place and spend nights there, only for him to break things off again. He keeps saying he can fix it and do better. But then he sends you on your own again. He keeps telling you how much he loves you, only to tell you heâs not good enough for you and that you should break up, again.Â
For two months, the two of you went back and forth. You would break up one week then get back together the next. It felt like a game that you kept losing and you were tired of it.Â
It felt like you were always taking one step forward and two steps back. Now you know, none of this is fair to you. You keep trying to give him your all, trying to be there for him when he needs it but he still doesnât change.Â
You know youâre not falling out of love for him. But you think you have to fully let him go now. Do what he did to you to protect you, but actually block him out after. Instead of stringing him along like he did to you.Â
Itâs a week before the Belgium GP so itâs now or never.Â
You asked Lando to meet you in your shared hotel room as the Hungarian GP just ended earlier. Heâd gotten P2 which is amazing. But he still wasnât entirely happy with his performance as he thinks he couldâve done better. The team thinks he shouldâve gotten P1 and that it wouldâve helped gain more points for the championship.Â
You wouldâve preferred to pick a better time to do this, but there is no other time, at least anytime soon. But you donât want to be stuck here forever, in this loop of false hope.Â
When Lando gets back to your shared room, he finds you sitting on the edge of the bed, picking at the skin on your fingers.Â
âHey, stop doing that. Itâs not good for you.â He gives you a smile as he takes off his shoes and meets you in the bed. As he sits next to you, he lands a kiss on the top of your head and then a kiss on your cheek before finally connecting your lips with his in a sweet, warm kiss.Â
âYou said you wanted to talk to me about something? Whatâs up? Everything alright?â He asks, a bit of concern laces his words.Â
You take a deep breath and sit up straight, trying to gain the courage to follow through with your plan.
âI canât do this anymore.â You say. Landoâs heart drops at your words.Â
âWhatâd you mean?â He stutters a bit.
It takes everything in you to look him in the eye as you say âIâm breaking up with you, for good.â
âOh.â Is all that comes out of his mouth. Heâs turned his body forward, staring blankly at the wall as he processes this.
âIâm sorry, Lando. But itâs not fair to either of us. We keep stringing each other along. Hoping for something thatâll never happen. Iâm tired. It feels like Iâm the only one fighting for us.âÂ
Lando suddenly sucks in a breath of air, furrowing his eyebrows and turning his body to you before telling you ânoâ
âNo? Lando, what do you mean no?â
âNo, weâre not breaking up again.â
âYou canât just say no. Iâm- Iâm making this decision for the both of us. For our best interest, we have to break up.â
âNo, Iâm not having it. Iâm not doing it. Itâs you and me til the end.â
âLando, please can we ju-â
âNope.â
You sit there dumbfounded at whatâs happening. Is he refusing a breakup like itâs a piece of fish?Â
You sit there and stare at him for a hot minute before crossing your arms and asking âwhy?â
âCauseâ, is all he says before he stands up and goes to take a shower.Â
Ainât no way.Â
Youâre so confused and amazed at what just happened. He really just denied a breakup.Â
As Lando took his shower, you took this time to process what happened and how to go about this conversation again once he comes back.Â
After about 15 minutes, Lando leaves the bathroom in fresh clothes and stands in front of you, âwhatâd you want for dinner?âÂ
âDid you disregard my breakup speech?â You stand and ask.
âYes. Now, whereâs the room service menu?â He asks as he pads around the room, genuinely looking for the room service menu.Â
You bring your hands to your face and roughly rub your eyes to try and approach this correctly.Â
âLando, stop thinking about the menu for 5 seconds and look at me.â
Heâs stopped dead in his tracks and looks at you innocently.Â
This guy.Â
His bottom lip begins to quiver and his eyes become glossed with tears.Â
With a bit of rasp in his voice he tells you âWeâre not breaking up. I canât lose you again, I wonât do it. Youâre the best thing Iâve ever had and pushing you away was awful. I missed your laugh, I missed your jokes, I missed your loose hairs all around the flat, I missed your snoring when I tried to sleep, I missed you. Please donât go again.âÂ
Tears are streaming down his face as he begs you to stay.Â
âLando, we canât keep doing the same shit over and over again. We break up one week then get back together the next. You tell me youâll do better and youâll fix things but nothing changes. Youâre still under immense stress and letting people walk all over you. I donât know how we can survive this anymore if you donât try to change that.âÂ
You start to wonder if breaking up really is the best solution. You would still be sad about losing him and you would still constantly worry about him. He would still be stuck in this toxic place where everyone puts all their expectations on him. Everyone would still harass him and analyze his every move. What would breaking up really fix?Â
âPlease. Iâm standing here trying to be honest. Weâre a thousand miles away from the day that we started, and Iâm still in love with you. I just wanna forget everything thatâs come and gone cause I hate not being with you. The stars donât shine as bright when youâre not here.â
Slowly, you walk up to him, reaching for the sides of his face and using your thumbs to wipe away some of his tears. He instinctively moves his hands to your hips, holding you as tight as he can, as if youâre water in his hands. You look him in the eyes and realize you love him too much to let him go. You two love each other too much to leave it like this.Â
âHey,â you say softly, âwhy donât we do this? The Belgian GP is next week, right? Youâll go do that and Iâll go home for a bit. After the Belgian GP, Iâll meet you in Glastonbury, yeah? Weâll spend your break there and weâll try and sort out whateverâs going on up here?â You ask as you gently tap the side of his head.Â
All he can do is smile, grateful for you and your patience with his shit. He nods his head yes before pulling you closer and holding you tight, burying his face into your neck.Â
With a deep breath, you feel Lando relax in your arms.Â
âThank you.â He whispers in your neck. He canât believe heâs able to keep someone as special as you in his life, even with the war in his head.Â
âWeâll be alright. Weâre okayâ, you donât say anything else, just holding him closer, knowing itâs enough for him right now. Maybe you two could try to go back where you started.Â
Lando booked a flight from Belgium to go back to his hometown almost immediately after the race. He just couldnât bear being away from you for so long, especially after all the shit you guys have been through, especially after all the shit he put you through.Â
You decided that since heâll be landing quite late, the two of you would spend the night watching movies and eating some home cooked food. The beginning of the healing journey could start tomorrow.Â
When he landed at the airport, he was greeted by you with a massive sign that said âLando Norris - STD clinic emergency shuttleâ.Â
The amount of laughs that the sign got was a joy to you. Especially the laugh Lando had let out upon reading the sign. He knew you were gonna pull some shit like this, although he was surprised you didnât wear scrubs to add to the bit.Â
With a big warm hug, Lando finally felt like he could start to relax and let go, at least until the next race.Â
The two of you made your way to your car, then headed back to a secluded airbnb that you had rented for the next few weeks. Although the two of you were more than welcome to stay with Landoâs family, the pair of you thought it would be best if Lando had a place with some real peace and quiet to be able to sort through his mind.Â
During the drive to the airbnb, you put on a playlist that you had made for drives with Lando at the beginning of your relationship. It had been a while since youâd played it, so it was a pleasant surprise for him when he realized what playlist was playing after a few songs.Â
âI forgot about this playlist. Missed it." He gives a soft smile. The one he used to have before all the chaos had been inflicted. You can tell this little break will definitely bring back at least a small piece of your Lando.Â
âI did too. Found it the other day when I was clearing my playlists. I added a few more songs as well. I know we usually pick the songs for this playlist together but I thought itâd be nice. Hope you donât mind.â you tell him, wondering if maybe heâd be upset that you messed with the playlist without him.Â
âNah. I like it. Like a bit of a surprise for me.â he says as he shrugs his shoulders. You smile as you look at him for a moment. Your boy is coming back to you, slowly but surely.Â
âOh, donât speed here. Thereâs always this one fucking guy sitting in a corner, ready to give anyone and everyone a ticket.â he tells you as you turn onto a certain street.Â
âYou know every road in this county, don't you?â you tease, watching as he gets a bit shy.Â
âYeah, letâs just say he may or may not love to see me coming. He used to catch me speeding all the time and he gave me too many fucking tickets.âÂ
You just sit there and laugh at him. Of course the Formula 1 driver always gets caught speeding.Â
Once you pull into the driveway for the airbnb, Lando is smiling, already getting out of the car and closing his eyes, breathing in the fresh air and taking it all in. Heâs excited and grateful for this break from the races. As much as he does enjoy the actual racing, all the other factors were pushing him to his breaking point. The sun was collapsing but he didnât realize until everything came crashing down all at once.Â
Heâs pulled out of his thoughts when you close the car door. He starts moving to the trunk of the car to pull out his luggage. You wait by the front of the car, watching him roll his way to you and taking your hand in his as he leads you to the door of the house.Â
The second you unlocked the door and opened it, Lando ran in like a kid and immediately dropped all his belongings before flopping onto the couch.Â
Yup, thatâs my man.Â
âYou like it? Out of all the rentals available, I thought this one was the best. Itâs a bit far from everything and thereâs a hiking trail not far.â you tell him, walking to the kitchen to prepare dinner.Â
Lando is rolling on the couch as if he were a dog trying to get into a comfortable position. His head pops over the back of the couch to look at you, âYeah, seems quite cozy. Thanks for this, darling. I know I donât really deserve you but Iâm really grateful that youâve given me so many chances.â
âDonât thank me, love. I love you and I want you to be okay,â his cheeks blush at your words. Itâs been a while since youâve called him âloveâ, âPut something on the tv and lie down for a bit while I prepare dinner, yeah?âÂ
âYou sure I canât help you? I can peel a potato or something⊠okay maybe nothing as advanced as peeling a potato but I can boil noodles or something.â he chuckles a bit.Â
âGorgeous, last time you tried to boil noodles, you burnt the water. I still donât know how you managed that.â you couldnât contain your laugh at the memory. It was one of your first dates with Lan and heâd wanted to make you a home cooked meal. Take out ended up being delivered.Â
âYeah, alright. Weâre watching Hannah Montana.â he said as he flopped his back against the couch.Â
When dinner was cooked, you and Lando plated the food before moving to sit on the floor in the living area, using the coffee table to eat off.Â
The two of you continued watching Hannah Montana until the episode where Blue Jeans became ill. Lan immediately changed the show to play the movie rather than the tv series.
âLan, you do know Blue Jeans recovers at the end of the episode, right?âÂ
âYeah but he still has to go through the traumatic experience of being bitten by that snake and I just canât. Weâre gonna watch the Hannah Montana movie now and slow dance to âCrazier', cry to âButterfly Fly Awayâ, and dance to âYou Can Always Find Your Way Back Homeâ.â he tells you sternly. He's made up his mind and nothings gonna change that. So thatâs just what you do.Â
When Taylor Swift appears on the screen and starts singing âCrazierâ, Lando jumps up off the floor and leans his body towards you, holding his hand out for you to take. Once you place your hand in his, he pulls you swiftly off the floor, pulling your body close to his. You wrap your arms around his neck while his hands are secured on your waist. The two of you swing your bodies slowly and effortlessly to the melody thatâs playing in the background.Â
When the lyric âyou lift my feet off the ground.â Lando does exactly that. Heâs gripped your waist and lifted you in the air, bringing a squeal out of you as you were not expecting that. He keeps you above him as you let out a fit of giggles. Once your feet land back on the ground, you fall into Lando, trying to catch your breath. You listen to his heartbeat and hold him tight. He really is your favorite person.Â
In true Lando fashion, he knows all the words to this song. As he should since he decided it was one of your songs a while ago. You watch as he sings the words to you, and you realize just how truly in love you are with the person in front of you. You would wait forever for him. Heâs the closest to heaven youâll ever be.Â
Once the song ends, the two of you sit back down and continue watching the movie. You were cuddled up to Lando, wrapping yourself around his arm as he rested his head on yours, occasionally leaving soft kisses.Â
The beginning chords of âButterfly Fly Awayâ play and Lando is already in tears. Heâs already buried his head into your shoulder as he sobs about how emotional the song is. âHe was always there for her. He tucked her in and turned out the light. He had to do it all alone!âÂ
All you could do to comfort him was hold him close to you and rub his back. You hummed along to the song, Lando loved it when you did that. You never sang in front of him, but when you did, it was like God's greatest gift to him. Â
The end of the movie was near as the opening chords of âYouâll Always Find Your Way Back Homeâ. The two of you were already on your feet, ready to dance and sing along. Lando had even pushed some of the furniture out so that there was more room for dancing.Â
With some crazy moves and a whole lot of jumping around, you and your love had the time of your lives.Â
Lando is pointing at you when he sings the lines ââCause, when Iâm feeling down, and Iâm all alone, whoa, oh. Iâve always got a place where I can go.â singing completely off key but who cares, heâs having fun, and so are you.Â
When the song comes to an end, youâre in Landoâs arms, trying to catch your breath again. But it feels impossible when everytime you look at him, he takes your breath away. The most beautiful man ever is yours? Crazy, really.Â
You stay in his arms for a moment, looking into those eyes that looked like sunlight was filtering through leaves.Â
âHome.â he breaks the silence, smiling down at you wholeheartedly. He cocks his head to the side before continuing, âYouâre my home.âÂ
It took everything in you not to break down into a puddle of tears at that moment.Â
Instead, you bring your lips to his, connecting them in a sweet, soft exchange.Â
After putting the furniture back in place and cleaning the dishes from dinner, you lead Lando to the room youâll be sharing during this little vacation.Â
After a quick shower, Lando meets you on the bed, almost collapsing onto it due to the exhaustion heâs been in.Â
Thereâs no need to exchange any words at this moment. You just pull Lando into you, watching as he rests his head on your chest and wraps his arm around your waist. You scratch the back of his neck, messing with his curls a bit as your other hand draws patterns on his bare back.Â
After a minute, you feel Lan relax into you, watching as his breathing becomes shallow and steady. It didnât take long for him to fall asleep and you're thankful. He truly does need sleep, especially for the talk you two will have in the morning.Â
You follow suit with Lando and fall asleep soon after him. It was the best sleep youâd had in ages.Â
The sun shines through the thin, cotton curtains that cover the windows. Landoâs chest is warm against your back, his arm wrapped around your torso, keeping you close to him. The steady breathing lets you know heâs still sound asleep. You check the time, reading 7:24 am. Itâs still a bit early so you decide to get some breakfast prepared for when Lando wakes up.Â
You slowly and quietly move out of his arms, careful not to wake him as you know he wonât stay in bed if he knows you arenât next to him. Once youâre out of bed, you brush your teeth andÂ
make your way to the kitchen.Â
Breakfast is kept simple, just some overnight oats with some fruit and honey. After a few minutes of washing and cutting some fruit, you watch as Lando emerges from the bedroom, sleep lacing his features.Â
âI didnât hear you leave the bed.â he frowns at you.Â
âSorry, darling. I knew you were tired and I didnât want to wake you so soon. But your timing is perfect! I've just finished preparing breakfast.â you smile gleefully, presenting him with a beautiful bowl of fruits and oats.Â
The smile on his face is enough to brighten the whole room. âThanks, baby. Looks amazing, as always.â, he walks around the kitchen counter to kiss you.Â
Once heâs sat down and begun eating, you tell him your plan for the day, or his plan.Â
âI was thinking we could go on that hiking trail I told you about. Getting some fresh air and some sun could be good for you. We could also talk a bit? About everything?â
You can tell heâs a bit uncomfortable from the way he stiffens when you mention wanting to talk. He was never really one for talking about himself and the things heâs struggling with. He much prefers listening but he knows he has to let you in a bit.Â
Without looking up at you, he responds, âYeah. Sounds good.â continuing to stuff his face with his oats.Â
Once you two had finished breakfast, you put on your shoes and made your way to the hiking trail.Â
During the beginning of your walk, you decided it would be best to get Lando to feel comfortable before jumping into the whole discussion of him and his mental health. So you begin by asking, âSo, Tarkov, how have you been doing in it?â
He looks at you with genuine surprise, wondering why the fuck youâre asking about Tarkov when he knows itâs not your type of game. But, he answers anyway, âErm, itâs turned into more shit and giggles if anything. A lot of messing with Max and them. Oh, the other day I stabbed Maxâs character in the leg cause he stabbed my foot. And then I stabbed him again but his game was glitching so he couldnât heal. He was actively dying and couldnât stop it so I shot his guy. Letâs just say he wasnât exactly joyful about that. But in my defense, he wouldâve died anyway. It was a mercy kill.â he laughs to himself.Â
After almost 45 minutes of walking, you guys stumbled upon a nice lake that was surrounded by trees. There was a shore with some large boulders so you led Lando there for a bit of a break from walking.Â
You two sat there for a moment before you broke the silence to try and talk to him.Â
âYou know I love you right?â you ask him, watching him look down at his hands and start to fiddle them.Â
âYeah.â he responds quietly.Â
âI want you to be okay, Lan. I can see you being torn apart by everyone and everything. I donât want to watch you fall because you donât deserve that.â âItâs hard, being me. I know I should be happy for everything that I have. I mean, I have money, a house, so many fucking cars that I donât need, a loving family, and the most amazing and beautiful girlfriend. But, it feels like Iâm drowning in everything with racing.â - he confesses, his tone is low, matching the way his reality makes him feel so small.
You scooch closer to him, taking his hand in yours, âI know itâs been hard. And you have the right to feel the way you do. Youâre the person who gets the most shit right now with the media. Theyâre all twisting shit to fit their narrative. But you need to keep pushing back, donât let them walk over you anymore.â âMy mind is complicated. But when youâre here, next to me, it quiets a bit. I know that when Iâm with you, everything is easy, like a million things can be thrown at me, but at the end of the day, if youâre here, Iâll be okay. I know I sort of broke you, someone I love so much. Itâs all me, in my head. I burned us down and Iâm sorry I did that to you. I donât wanna lose you.â âYouâll never lose me, Lan. Iâll keep your hand in mine, until weâre food for the worms to eat, til our fingers decompose. This love of ours isnât temporary. So Iâm not gonna give up on us, on you.â - your hand touches the side of his face, bringing him to meet your eyes before you continue, âIâm still yours, even when you lose your mind and try breaking up with me a million times. None of this is your fault. Youâre all I want.â
Tears begin to stream down his face as he leans his forehead against yours, âI just want you to know who I am, outside of the racing and the drama. I donât want them to see me, just you, cause youâre the only one who understands me.â
You lift his chin so he can look in your eyes again as you say, âI know who you are. Youâre the best thing thatâs ever been mine, and Iâm never letting you go again.â
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F1 au/fic: in which, daniel attends the met gala and meet his ultimate crush, y/n l/n.
daniel ricciardo x actress!reader.
fc: jasmine tookes.
note: the timing is terrible
when you finally finished your interview with emma chamberlin, you saw in the corner of your eye a man looking at you, smiling from ear to ear. you didnât recognise him but by his looks you knew he was someone important. you walked up to him and smiled back, his cheeks were red and he struggled to hold your gaze now that you were in front of him.
"hi! first time here?" you asked, waving at him, "iâm y/n l/n." he smiled again and scratched his neck. "is it that obvious? and i know, iâm kinda your biggest fan, daniel ricciardo itâs nice meeting you." he shook the hand you were giving him and gave it a gentle squeeze, you didnât fail to notice how big his hand was and how it engulfed yours. you laughed and put your hand against your heart. "oh really? what is your favorite work of mine?" you asked him, genuinely curious. you didnât know why but you were drawn to his energy. he looked up and thought for a second before answering. "there is too many, but i really liked you in the marauders, couldnât think of a better actress to play dorcas." you laughed and thanked him. "to be honest, itâs not my best work." he looked at you like you just said the most out of pocket thing in the world. "excuse you? you were amazing! you perfectly portrayed dorcas and the way you showcase emotions just with your eyes is just incredible! seriously youâre one of the best actresses out there and i-âŠ" his eyes were full of sparkles, like a kid talking about his favorite football team, he stopped himself when he saw you look at him with a huge smile. his cheeks were even redder and he couldnât look at you anymore. "i talk to much, right? iâm so sorry, i do that a lot." you brushed him off and patted his shoulder. "daniel, youâre adorable." he smiled fondly but before he could speak again, your agent came to you. "we have to go y/n, donatella is waiting for you." you nodded and waved at daniel. "it was great meeting you daniel, i hope to see you again soon!" he watched you leave and couldnât wipe off the smile on his face, he knew how good looking you were but seeing you and talking to you in real life was different. from that small interaction only, daniel knew how much he was infatuated with you.
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y/n: you guys know how much i love going to the met gala, but this year was even better. thank to anna for inviting me again this year, and i hope to see you again next year! huge thanks to donatella for customising this dress for me, youâre a legend.
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donatella_versace: donatella VERSACE đ
zendaya: iâm on the floooor girl
fan1: not daniel liking with all his accounts
fan2: the queen of the met
fan3: the dress looked so good!
fan4: y/n never misses
fan5: whoâs daniel?
fan6: @.fan5 y/nâs future husband
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fan7: WTF DID DANIEL JUST LIKED THIS COMMZNT???2âŹ:8:9
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y/n: we worked so hard on this one so iâm glad itâs finally out! the batman is out in all theatres so grab your pop corn and go watch it!
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selenagomez: such an icon
fan1: y/n as catwoman is something i HAVE to witness with my own two eyes
fan2: y/n and robert pattinson flirting in imax is going to be the death of me
fan3: i hope daniel can fight because y/n and robertâs chemistry is insane
fan4: @.fan3 leave daniel out of this theyâre not even friends
fan5: @.fan4 yes theyâre not friends, theyâre soulmates.
fan6: i understand danielâs obsession tbh look at HER
fan7: y/n better get her emmy after that movie
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y/n: appreciation post for my number one fan, danny ric. i suck at love confessions so just listen to daylight by my good sis taylor swift <3 (idk why he loves taking pictures of me but heâs ALWAYS pointing that camera at my face)
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danielricciardo: thatâs because youâre my favorite view, my love.
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fan1: AWWWWWWW
fan2: daniel really went from watching her from afar bc he was too shy to talk to her to him being her bf
fan3: my favorite couple
fan4: donât EVER breakup
taylorswift: you guys are so cute đ
fan5: daniel is the perfect man for y/n tbh
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