#watch me break my own heart

[clouvu]

Nothing in the world belongs to me But my love, mine, all mine

[sparkdoesart]

(YOU CAN'T LET THEM GO HOME.)

[yea-baiyi]

say what you want about svsss but hands down the most distraught i have ever been while reading a mxtx novel is after the bing-ge extra. what do you mean he asked shen qingqiu to come with him. what do you mean “it’s not fair”. what do you mean he looked back.

[thekenobee]

[stormxpadme]

When even the cartoon gives us better throuple representation than the comics.

[kevinsdsy]

This might be a dumb question but what’s brocedes. I know basically nothing about f1 but i’m intrigued.

AHHHHH IM SO GLAD SOMEONE ASKED ME ABOUT BROCEDES BECAUSE I LOVE TALKING ABOUT THEM

first of all have to say its not a dumb question at all bc it’s f1 lore and before i had gotten into f1 i also didn’t know about brocedes omg

but brocedes is my beloved lewis hamilton and nico rosberg

or like crofty (f1 commentator) likes to say: friend. teammate. childhood buddy. rival. everything, but a lover.

i can’t believe this has actually been said about them by a commentator LIKE

so lewis and nico used to be childhood best friends; they were karting together, sharing hotel rooms, eating pizza, wrestling etc etc just being silly lil kids together— this was before their f1 careers.

then both of them end up in formula 1— although they start out in different teams until 2013 when lewis signs for mercedes and they end up as teammates.

now the thing about being teammates in formula 1 is you’re not only teammates, but also rivals. f1 has a constructor’s championship (for the team with the most points at the end of the season) and the driver’s championship (for a single driver— the driver with most points by the end of the season obviously).

a lot of people focus specifically on the 2016 spanish grand prix— lewis and nico collide taking both of them out of the race and shit goes down. their whole relationship and friendship goes down the drain, but tbh a lot of shit had already been going down beforehand, lewis had already announced they weren’t friends in 2014 due to their rivalry within the team (a lot of shit has gone down between them— but i’m pretty sure him saying they’re not friends was because nico got accused of purposely sabotaging a qualifying session for lewis, i could have my timeline a bit messed up though so i’m not 100% sure at the moment)

but yeah what brocedes comes down to is that they used to be best friends became teammates in formula 1— but also rivals (because formula 1 is toxic like that LMAO) and then their friendship got TOTALLY ruined

they could barely look at each other, even though they worked together, AND THEN nico rosberg wins the world championship in 2016 (by this time lewis had already won the driver’s championship three times; once with his old team and twice with mercedes as nico’s teammate).

anyways nico wins the championship and IMMEDIATELY retires. he has spoken out about how much he had to sacrifice, in both the sport but also his personal life etc., for this win and he isn’t willing to sacrifice all that again for another championship.

their friendship has been stained by their rivalry and it’s never been the same as it used to be— now i know i’ve been talking about them a lot and i promise i’m rounding it up now BUT it’s so important to me that people know about how nico has said they live in the same building complex!!!!!

like after all this they end up living in the same building in monaco ((obviously lewis is still racing so it’s not like they run into each other daily but still a very important detail to me)) and it’s been said (pretty sure by nico himself) that lewis even bought a birthday present for nico’s daughter and honestly i think about it a lot— i think about them a lot.

[tequiilasunriise]

“In another life, I loved you right.”

“In another life, you loved me at all.”

Tag your ship(s).

[ssruis]

(Re: tsukasa post) if you wanted to be a little uncharitable you *could* say that tsukasa cares for others just because it lines up with his goals - as in, he cares for others because he believes that’s what a star should do - rather than just genuine kindness and goodwill, but I would argue

- wrt loved ones: saki specifically (& to a lesser extent toya just because they interact less) is the greatest counterpoint against that interpretation. He wants to be the best brother possible because he loves her, not because it’s what a star should be doing (gestures at the doll event where he brought her the dolls as a kid even before he started the whole I am a world future star thing). Like yes he views that as something he *should* be doing but that’s because he believes that’s what you should do for your loved ones. I think at this point the big brother-dream of being a star thing are so irreversibly intertwined that they’re kind of one and the same. Of course a star would care for others because tsukasa cares for others and he views himself as a star etc etc. He wants to look out for/do things for his siblings/friends because he loves them.

- I guess you could argue him doing the same for strangers is solely because it upholds his star persona/image? But to that I would point out that his whole “I realized my real dream was to make others smile” thing in the main story sort of contradicts that. Given the whole “theatre is life” thing he’s got going on I think making strangers/acquaintance/etc happy in his day to day life is just like. A microcosm of what he aims to do on stage. I think he’s egotistical yeah but I don’t think that has to be mutually exclusive with selflessness. I do think there’s a discussion to be had about tsukasa being self-centered because he *is* and he’s absolutely not the completely selfless guy some people want to think he is but I also think that he can be motivated by egotistical desires *and* selfless desires. Being self centered isn’t inherently a bad thing. Tsukasa is kind because he’s a kind person and because that’s what a star should do in his mind. His own kindness is self serving. Does that make sense (no, it’s incomprehensible) great glad you’re following along. Sliding scale of how selfless his motivations for being kind are depending on the person with saki being on one end and random strangers on the other.

- I think it’s inherently difficult to ascertain whether the motives behind kindness are self serving or not. Does someone being kind because it makes them feel good mean they’re selfish? Humans are a social species, we enjoy making others happy because it makes us happy. Evolutionary adaption that helps the survival of the group. I think the idea that true kindness depends on your altruism making you miserable is stupid, although I guess you could argue that a kind person chooses kindness regardless of how it makes them feel. But then there’s the question of what motivates your kindness (a sense of doing the right thing? Upholding your morals? Because the guilt of being selfish is something you can’t bear? Wouldn’t that be just as selfish as wanting to feel good?) Whether or not true altruism/selflessness exists is a philosophical debate I don’t really feel like having over characters from the gacha miku tap tap game. Whatever. Would like to point out that tsukasa has canonically chosen to do the “right”/kind thing at the cost of his own benefit before (giving up on winning the pxl show contest/chance for a big break in favor of putting on the WMS show, which he was a little upset about doing).

I think people tend to err too far on the side of “he’s super selfless all the time with a pure heart” because they don’t want to admit their fave is an absolutely bizarre guy with a massive ego that comes into play for more than just his funny little speeches about being The Most Special Guy Alive which is tragic because Tsukasa Tenma is truly an interesting critter. He doesn’t do things solely out of the goodness of his heart but he also doesn’t not do things out of the goodness of his heart. He’s complex. Layered. A weird little freak. I’m studying him like a bug. You understand.

[thychesters]

so in marineford garp tells luffy that here he is not his grandfather, he is a marine admiral and he is a pirate and he will not simply let him by because he wants to get to ace, his brother he wants to save as he is another pirate, he is touted as one of the strongest marines there is, he will have to fight him and he will not hold back,

and then luffy just decks him and i think that’s beautiful

[martianbugsbunny]

Obsessed with "my power comes from here, it comes from..." *gestures at his heart* "...and it's broken"

[nicosraf]

do your friends and family know you published a book about gay angels?

I actually don't own a physical copy of my book because I can't have anyone know I wrote it. It's something that makes me really sad :')

Though a few of my irl friends know! I had a really funny interaction the other day where a friend texted me "you're Nicolas aren't you?" and I got very embarrassed and said "what makes you say that." He said "all the angel stuff mostly. And the gay part did give it away."

Oh and my brother knows! He's kept it a secret for me. Bless him

[saunteredserpent]

I'm sorry not sorry, but

it's 'missing stevebucky in 2024' hours

[envolvenuances]

love is stored in the kitchen for real

[depressedstressedlemonzest]

I'm about to be INSUFFERABLE with these next scenes.

Shes looking at his lips, slowly moving closer.

He's still hesitant. Probably trying to figure out what she's doing. "I dont need cpr, why is she moving closer?"

SHE'S STILL MOVING CLOSER EVEN THOUGH HE ISNT MOVING YET.

He's moved the TINIEST BIT CLOSER

And she's still right there.

Breathing his air, giving him hers.

Her eyes ARE CLOSED SHE IS READY FOR LIP SMACKS WITH RUMPLE.

*FROTHING AT THE MOUTH, TEARING PAPERS AND JUMPING ON FURNITURE*

Their TIPPY TOP LIPS ARE TOUCHING

Just BAAAAAREEELYYYYY

THEY'RE KISSING

He's still just frozen in place.

To be fair if this gorgeous woman was kissing me I'd be frozen too.

She's already blissing out over this kiss.

🎶this kiss this kiss🎶

HIS LIPS ARE A PUCKERING HERE HE'S KISSING HER BACK!!!!!!!!!!!

The little furrow is there which means he's going right back to when he first leaned what a kiss was and how to do it correctly.

Like he's been out of practice for a millenia and needs to remember where everything goes.

(Lip on lip and maybe just a slip of tongue rumple)

HER WORLD HAS BEEN FUCKING ROCKED.

HE IS FUCKING DAZED BABEY!

And look! A little less green!

[narakoi]

"It hurts a bit. But I'm very happy. Because Koichi can appreciate it."

[dylanconrique]

i need lucy to be taken care of. she always goes so far out of her way to help others in need and i love that about her, but i don't think she's had a real break since her recovery from being kidnapped and so much has happened to her since then that i just need her to be hugged and taken care of. not only by tim, but by everyone else too. 🥺💗