#want more doritos.....

[chrismcshell]

reached out to schedule a tour of a nice apartment but it's already been rented... can't watch the show ive been watching with my sister tonight cuz she's out at a st patricks day party.... ate all my doritos and now i have no doritos..... does the suffering end

[torosdottir]

i cant believe im going to be a real woman soon by finally owning my very own dress. exciting for me

[atreusdoots]

Hello^^ thought I recognized your artstyle a bit.

It’s nice to see you back on tumblr, your art is still fantastic as ever

Hope you’ve been doing better^^

I’m doing as well as I can be, some days are still hard, as is part of healing. But I don't deny that this situation messed up my perception in life and trust in others. But I also know my truths and don’t owe in depth explanations to strangers online, my pain and distress over it was real, and those documents exist for a reason.

There’s a lot of things I’m still dealing with in the aftermath unfortunately; but I do appreciate when people take the time to message me and see my side of the situation, it eases anxieties I’ve been having trying to get back into posting art online.

Unlike Bird, I’m not gonna deny their involvement on things they have influenced me on, or characters and ideas that used to be theirs etc in my OC story. I adore Asher to this day, even SC itself despite what has happened; I’m even making a rewrite of SC2 simply because I enjoy doing it + it’s cathartic.

I’m going to be using this ask to give my thorough thoughts on what happened due to how much I've processed and to make my in depth stance clear, I hope you don't mind, and is going to perhaps be the only time I do so.

I was in heavy denial about Bird being horrible to me, and I’m slowly coming to recognize how I was overall treated like garbage and exploited. They had no excuses and it is deplorable they were willing to work with my stalkers who are bigoted just to coddle to their partner who drew art that was pretty much I’ve come to realize was an indirect death threat. Bird objectively knew all of these things to be wrong.

Many people from an outside perspective have expressed to me how different bird was in their DMs with me compared to the lies and slandering they did in their now deleted callout.

Providing examples because anyone with a rational thought in their head can see what Bird and their partner did was fucked up:

Just. Knowing they’ve declined into something they hate after Bird had opened up to me about their similar experiences with such kinds of abuse and slandering is :/

All of their 180s and switch ups in our DM history always related to Talk. It felt off and uncomfortable, it’s why I had began to express concerns, because there was actual things to be concerned over; like, it came off that Bird has to continuously group themselves with Talk about things like darkfic, ships, characters, and excuse Talk's actions, and say things like "I don't want to make [talk] look like an asshole"/"you don't know the whole story"/"there's more than others see of [talk]"

It’s also just telling with how, Talk and other people’s OCs also having more presence than even Bird’s in the comic + Bird using Talk’s designs + showing bias to characters Talk’s likes, it really makes their “I just want this story to be mine again” more obvious of an excuse. It became an appeasement tool rather than a story they wanted to tell.

Bird had no excuse to claim I was “shoving my ideas into the comic”, because I’d make sure to thoroughly communicate and tell them to let me know if they didn’t like any ideas we were brainstorming together and can reject them if they wish.

About the darkfic, I know Bird is still lying, you can't just get rid of it, especially due to their adamancy to explore dark story plots in Fatal Purity when it had been a personal project between us, not to mention their whole ordeal shipping Scorch/Swift and why it represents major hypocrisy.

Hell, their OWN OC story with their antagonist, Bleaknight, who Bird said was their problematic fav despite Bleaknight in their own words being "a transphobic and sexist POS who takes out his trauma on any women he deems attractive" and their pokemon OC, Wayra, Bird had said grew up in gangs as a teenager and would be SA'd A LOT. They also had some headcanons regarding Redtail when he was apprentice that iirc, instead of Spottedpaw being groomed by Thistleclaw, it was Redpaw. I could go on.

Also this screen alone;

Bird admitted they were raised conservative/christian and it still affects their views, which explains their flippant attitude towards dark fiction (and to be honest, many other things); it just was concerning to just see how suppressed they are to the point they had to keep our friendship secret from others, when they've been into such stuff before me, showing me NSFW art that was 5 years old at the time.

I never judged them for these things, and I still don’t, because it’s clear Bird found catharsis in such themes yet they could twist my trust in them with my dark fiction to victimize themselves. Like, sorry, but if they’re going to be censoring themselves and appeasing shitty people by apparently me under the bus and abandoning me over it, might as well be consistent in it, and if they do still explore dark themes in future works, it’s just a spit in my face and further proof they had no good reason for any of this.

“We just don’t talk about it” is not the healthy boundary you think it is, by the way. Bird even told me NOT to show their partner our darkfic and nsfw art. They both bend their morals for each other, and Bird suppresses themselves for Talk’s comfort.

Acknowledging that romanticizing and relying on someone for comfort, for being alive and glorifying them due to it can lead to very very VERY unhealthy interpersonal relationships, real life relationships aren't something to be romanticized, it's not like "a storybook", just because you have a long history with someone doesn't cancel out the harm you cause when together OR in your desperation to maintain it…especially if it means your willing to condone shit like antisemitism, stalking, and other forms of bigotry. It’s not normal. It’s rose tinted glasses. FULL STOP. Basic common sense.

I don't care if they are together, that’s their business, but objectively, Bird pulled all of this because they couldn't handle the idea of correcting anything and prioritized dishonesty and coddling over doing what's right.

These two know they’re both in the wrong, as evidence by Talk deleting their wc blog and Bird never addressing anything before leaving Tumblr. Talk was not some innocent bystander in this, they took joy in my torment and boasted about it, and Bird makes constant excuses, it really comes off that Bird doesn't want to see how Talk caused just as much harm and how they willingly cover Talk’s ass and put them on a pedestal.

I still don’t understand at all how Bird could be comfortable enough to drop everything and not consider how I’d feel, I cherished their friendship and involvement in Fatal’s story a lot, but they can just ignore that, lie to themselves to excuse their actions and do everything they would've hated happening to them, not being decent enough to at least put themselves in my shoes and understand how that looks.

It'd also just ring as hollow if they addressed anything now publicly. But I hope they break out of all of it one day for their own sorry sake. I really do. If Bird were to ever reach out I wouldn’t be against that or judge them for it, but I’m not going to wait to leave my door open or force them through it.

I want to preface that my frustrations and anger over the situation doesn't mean I hate Talk or anyone enabling Bird. Especially when Talk I’ve come to realise had been just as lied to and blindsided despite their cruelty towards me. I don’t blame them in some areas of this. Being lied to and coddled to feels really disingenuous and frustrating, and I had genuinely wanted to be friends with Talk despite their cold shoulder attitude, and felt empathy for their living situation due to how shitty and similar the UK and AUS mental health systems are.

I kept swinging back and forth between “this is all Talk’s fault and Bird is being forced into this” and “Bird is actually really complicit and disingenuous in this, and Talk has been misled and lied to”. When it’s likely a mix of the two, Bird’s manipulative narrative made it hard to know the full story, and again, only continuing to double down, with friends enabling it.

No matter what Talk believed or was lied to about, dehumanization and being that petty along with gloating victory was flat out cruel. Like most situations, people are allowed to have more than one feeling over something that happened. But it’s been so difficult to process, I was so blindsided by it all, and part of me feels if I had just said something different or done something different none of this would’ve happened; I know I can’t change the past, but part of me is really ashamed for taking Bird’s words as truth and for trusting in them so naively, and not communicating with Talk more directly.

I think everyone should look at the situation with Bird as something to learn from too; learn how to have a more healthier relationship with your art, audiences, writing, reverse parasocialism and not allowing people pleasing to control your life, but also, just, communicating and honesty and comprehension; lying gets no one nowhere. Learn to value the relationships that help you grow, not have you decline. Just those things are so important.

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

Did someone notice how BUFF/ BIG speedsters are?!... no? Just me? K.

Oh, the Dorito model? Yeah speedsters typically come in two builds: Lean Mean Fighting Machine and Dorito. Sometimes they even alternate.

Wally is full blown Dorito. So is Jay.

Barry is typically LMFM. Bart is LMFM until he's an adult (then he's Dorito).

The reason for that is that speedsters naturally burn calories and build muscles like crazy but even though they're super active they usually don't have enough food to really bulk up. So an average speedster is zero percent body fat, skinny as a twig but all muscle. That's the Lean Mean Fighting Machine build.

But a select few speedsters work out and actively try to build bigger muscles. Wally and Jay would be the two biggest examples of that. So they usually look like Doritos. Super lean anywhere they didn't specifically work out and really big arms/shoulders. Really just triangle shaped dudes.

[nopes-and-dreams-and-nightmares]

What do we think about making Iris fat

[umbane]

I think the most diabolical part about h.s kayn's unhinged recipes is that they actually taste good in the end

[bsaka7]

idk if this is the taper or what but i've truly been craving every kind of super sugary or super salty food you can possibly imagine this week.....often i do a LITTLE but it's not often this....constant?

[c0rpseductor]

im so bummed out ;-; i wanted to get one of the plushies that they were giving out as part of the mtn dew x ffxiv promo if you get enough points, and i started entering my codes and they were all already sold out!! not that i had enough to get them yet anyway, you need the codes from like 40 bottles of soda bc theyre 4k points so i figured i would just do it slowly over the course of the promo since i thought it went on until like, january or something. all i really wanted was to choose between the plushies so now im like, "man i have all this mountain dew." bc theres three bottles in my house rn.

[satansfreshhottiddymilk]

hello! just wondering do u have any Kari & Ollie art cooking? miss those two and their insane size difference 😔😔😔

YEAH trust me i got plenty of ideas for them that i simultaneously wanna draw but my dumbass is so backed up with everything i wanna draw atm 😂

[decidueyedreamerdetails]

🖊 Dorito?

‘Enigmas of Paldea, File #11 Iron Hunter: An AI Went Rogue?!

This peculiar creature's name comes from an invention in the enigmatic Violet Book.

Theorised to be the result of a research project attempting to revive the extinct Hisuian Decidueye, using what information remained of it, and Alolan Decidueye as a base. However, something went horribly wrong, and it began attacking everything in sight.

In addition to its heartless nature, the cannons on its wings and its powerful legs make it a dangerous foe. Eyewitnesses report that it will not give up on its prey until it has succeeded in eliminating them.’

Dorito is the specific Iron Hunter referenced in this Violet book entry! Its original purpose was to observe and preserve Pokémon habitats, but due to an error in its coding, it sees all living beings as a threat to be dealt with.

However, upon arriving in the present, Dorito sustained major damage, both internal and external, meaning it is far less of a threat now! (Maybe even, the internal damage will fix some of its buggy systems, causing it to be less hostile… only time will tell!)

Link to ask game here!

[chika-nyan]

Lies down. So it looks like my job is actively trying to moorder me so I’ll probably be mostly ded for a while. Honestly at a breaking point, can you believe vacation was just last month? :) Gonna keep doing my best to hold on for that mid-late spring exit/quitting time with next vacation but it’s going to be a trial forsure.

[mymanymerrymuses]

Okay but imagine Revali but human but still with wings (also the wings are still blue and so is his hair) looking absolutely terrifying in the air and then he swoops down and lands at the head of the rito troops (all human looking with wings) and still tries to look intimidating but he's literally like a full foot shorter than every other rito

[omnisreblogs]

Noo don’t kill him

You just need to stop him making the biggest mistake that started it all, not hurt the baby Dorito

The squishy baby dorito is too squishy and too baby to kill

[abbey-abdominal]

If I don’t get a Zooble plush soon I’m going to go apeshit

[lunaechaos]

can't believe it's that time of the year where i have to actually care about the US again

[isaacathom]

once again i have left the art night with many snacks. my victories continue