#waddleschats in the tags

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ik the writing for season 4 of the umbrella academy was kinda shit but honestly? lowkey loved it idk. there's something about this tragedy actually ending as a tragedy.

diego wanting to fix his relationship only for him to never know whether or not lila loved him. lila losing her family after desperately wanting one for years. allison having to give up her daughter again. klaus having the power that made him ruin his life.

like yeah, they were never supposed to be happy. no matter how hard they tried, no matter how much they desperately wanted it. it's a tragedy for them and them alone and if you look at it that way? maybe it was a decent ending

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my fursona is a capybara!!! i don't have like much about it, just that ends pronouns are the same as mine (it/its & end/ends)

here's a couple of drawings my wonderful friend did (@/maybe.a.ghost on instagram!!!!! please go look at his amazing art if you can, they're so cool <3)

reblog this post with your fursona. doesnt even have to be art it can be a description. show me ur fursonas okay

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thinking about the two (professional) versions of rent that i watched and how one had Angel stay in her normal attire after her death and how the other put her in a suit.

like?? the symbolism of her being buried in a suit, because of course she would've been the 80s/90s were incredibly homophobic no drag queen being buried near a church would've been allowed to be in drag. or her favorite dress/skirt/outfit. she would've been placed in a suit because she's a man and there would be nothing anyone could do about it without potentially outing themselves and being put in danger (even if they are just an ally).

so, if she's buried in a suit no wonder she would appear in the suit as a ghost/angel/whatever she was haha. those are the clothes she's resting in so those are the ones she appears in forever, even if she doesn't like it. it's a reflection of how uncaring the 80s/90s were to queer people going through the AIDS crisis. nobody cared if they died because they were just those fucking queers

on the opposite side of that, appearing in her normal attire would be closer to how people who loved her remember her. they wouldn't remember angel wearing a suit, because that wasn't her preferred attire. that wasn't who she was and despite the rest of the world hating her for merely existing as herself, the ones who loved her and knew her refused to see her in a light she was forceable put in.

it also goes to show how even if they buried her in a suit, taking away her identity, nobody could really change her. angel was herself through and through regardless of how much the world wanted to change her. she died because of her identity but they still couldn't rip it from her dead hands.

anyways thinking about rent. sorry for the ramble-y post i just cannot stop thinking about it lol

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i feel like we should consider the fact that both 2012!Leo and Rise!Leo are extreme fanboys. they would not fight with each other, they would bond over their space shows.

also like, they all skateboard right?? isn't that just a classic TMNT thing? give me the Leo's skateboarding together, they're pals <3

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my desire to write fanfiction vs the fact that i haven't written in months and forgot how

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i wish i had the words to describe how much i hate the trans label but im forced to use it anyways

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i've recently come to the conclusion that i'm somewhere on the asexual spectrum but not fully ace and it's the first bit of my identity that i haven't felt the need to truly label and it's so?? freeing idk

i love labels, i love being able to fit myself into a little box but sometimes it's so difficult to try and explain why i use this label and such. because people are curious and that's fair because i am too. but idk, there's just something so good about not forcing myself to be in a box. i just am and that's great :)

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i saw rent at the oregon shakespeare festival last year (2023) and the costumes were just amazing and stunning. and everyone was just fabulous. special shout out to the mark actor omg <3 i think about that production so frequently i think it genuinely changed my life

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me and my boyfriend were at the fair yesterday and since we look like a straight couple he went "they won't even know we're gay!" and like, why is coding so hard. why can i have the literal bisexual colors as my hair and be assumed straight/cis cause im holding a guys hand? wtf is up with heteronormativity

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my friend told me the other day that you can just be a causal furry. like just have a fursona to draw but not like have a fursuit or anything. genuinely changed my life

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my dad just asked me why we say bless you after we sneeze and i said "so you don't get jesus in your heart"

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text analysis is cool but only on MY terms

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sweden from the minecraft soundtrack save me

save me sweden by C418 please :((

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all the features on here feel like a slightly older version of quotev, i'm so confused but like maybe i should just start roleplaying a character and ill figure it out lol

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woah first post alert

everyone take a nice picture of my cat

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actually fuck it i WILL find the words

(disclaimer that obviously this is not all queer spaces and merely my personal experiences in the communities i've seen/been apart of)

when you don't fall into the gender binary people tend to assume then that you are (the label) nonbinary instead of just being under the nonbinary umbrella. and also because most of the time people don't know about the labels underneath the umbrella they'll just assign you the one they do know.

so despite the fact that i don't necessarily like the trans label, it's easier to explain without confusing people further and easier to get people to relate to you. i WANT to be in the trans community without actually calling myself trans: because i am trans, i fall underneath the umbrella, but because of personal reasons it's an uncomfortable label to use.

but in my friend group i fall into the "trans people" of the group category, because i'm agender and use they/them irl (despite those not being my actual pronouns). when i first came out with my pronouns and name, most people just assumed i was nonbinary (the label) without actually asking

now: i do not expect everyone to know every mircolabel ever. it's impossible and i don't actually know that many myself. the problem comes from the fact that people tend to assume you use a label when you dont and never bother asking. so you are left with two choices: just go with it or actually explain your label.

in certain situations with certain people you can explain but it's not always safe to. I keep seeing stuff that's like "explaining my gender/sexuality to different groups of people" and it's like that shouldn't be a fucking thing!!!! you shouldn't have to be forced to use labels you don't actually use because someone is unsafe or will refuse to understand and it's just so fucking frustrating.

i don't like the label trans and i don't like the label nonbinary but i want to be in those communities because i fall under those umbrellas. and currently the only way to do that is to say i use those labels. even though i hate them and even though they don't fit right.

i wish things were better and easier and i know that's a lot to ask considering there's more pressing issues within the community to talk about. i personally am incredibly privileged within the community, this is just something that really ticks me off sometimes. i just want to exist and use my actual pronouns and labels while still being included in the community.

i'm not entirely sure what this post was tbh, been feeling a lot of things lately since i've only been in places where i have to pretend to be cishet. i hope it made some sense in the mess of my thoughts lol

if anyone has anything to add feel free to! just remember that you cannot claim this doesn't happen at all because this is my actual experience lol

i wish i had the words to describe how much i hate the trans label but im forced to use it anyways