#w. rowena

[lastisfet]

Além das brincadeiras praticamente inocentes que Iseret fazia quando mais nova, ela também tinha pego gosto pelos jogos, especialmente os de azar. Ela sabia que Seth não sentia o mesmo apreço pela trapaça, porém ele sempre costumava gostar bastante do caos que se instaurava depois disso; e quando isso não acontecia ela sempre buscava agradá-lo depois. Fazia algum tempo desde o último jogo o qual tinha participado, mas Iseret estava convencida de que poderia ganhar - os meios para isso pouco lhe importavam. "Convencida. Já lhe contaram que isso é uma característica perigosa de se ter?" O que era algo irônico de ser dito justamente por ela. "A confiança exacerbada é o modo mais fácil de se derrubar alguém do cavalo." Não tinha tido tempo de contestá-la antes que começasse, e um pequeno sorriso surgiu em seu rosto ao perceber que começaria bebendo. Ao entornar o copo de bebida, Iseret pensou que talvez fosse sábio seguir o próprio conselho, porém igualmente entediante. Na sua vez ela não teve dificuldade em acertar o copo da outra, e para complementar a ação, disse: "O primeiro de muitos."

──── @lastisfet said: ❛ bet you can't beat me at this game. i'm a pro. ❜

Se as mascaras não existissem, Rowena poderia garantir que a outra pessoa não teria lhe dito aquelas palavras. Pois, se tinha algo que a Llwelyn era conhecida por ser, esse algo era orgulhosa e competitiva, o que também tornava ela uma péssima perdedora, mas bem, na ocasião que se encontravam, ela conseguia perdoar a ousaria que chegou recoberta em provocação. O sorriso divertido adornando os lábios, ou o que aparecia deles através da mascara floral. "Você é profissional? Mm-uhmm... Vai ser um pouco vergonhoso quando eu te vencer então.", replicou convencida, como de costume. Era uma pena que não pudesse reconhecer a figura alheia, adoraria gabar-se disso num momento pós-festa, quando encontrasse outra vez pelos corredores. Posicionando na ponta da mesa improvisada, pegou a bolinha que conseguiram fazer com as embalagens dos doces finos, aquele seria o 'beer pong' mais aleatório da vida de Rowena. "Não vai se importar se eu começar, não é?", perguntou de forma retórica ao lançar a bolinha no meio dos copos, acertando um deles.

[aliusfrater]

related to nick's post. you can't even make this stuff up

[sampegger]

do you guys think the writers would have taken it more seriously if it had been alastair around relentlessly tormenting dean in late seasons as opposed to lucifer with sam

[nexility-sims]

rollin' in the rolls royce corniche or whatever jay said

[pinkfey]

i may be obsessed.

[rowenasdarling]

daily reminder that rowena is not straight nor does she think she is

[solarcas]

Suptober Day 5 - Portrait I wanted to approach this prompt by mimicking old royalty portraits, and the first character that came to mind for me was ofc Rowena!

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[soullessjack]

what’s your favorite Jack whump scene?

ill be honest ive never understood that word and still can’t get behind it But i do understand the sentiment of it sooooo let’s say. All of 14x18 lmao

pathetic wet cat central

[phrysic]

guys pls pls pls tell me what animals u hc tfw2. or spn characters in general as that isn’t moose squirrel or cat

[adhdheather]

following a bunch of spn blogs and sometimes seeing arguments get resurfaced, esp involving dean, does always make me remember the time i was like "so we all know dean is a terrible father" when talking abt how he treated jack, and i found out that we do not all know that

[ardentpoop]

I’m fr such a contrarian when it comes to fiction. the less people like or care about something the more inclined I am to explore it. dean/crowley? you couldn’t fucking pay me to check out the ao3 tag knowing how my beloathed D/C fandom handles that one. dean/rowena which I have not seen a single person on this website mention….. NOW we’re cooking with gas!

[ananke-xiii]

Missing Mothers and Missed Opportunities

Or: There can be three, four fathers in this show but there can only be one mother (and she doesn’t even want to be there, lol)!

One way that I like to see the first episodes of s13 is focusing on missed opportunities. Sam’s mind is in the past, he is very much ruminating about his missed opportunity with his mother while Dean’s mind is in the future as he is trying to deal with the fact that Cas is dead (although, to be honest, I think Cas’s death is a catalyst for Dean's much deeper issues related to his identity. As I’ve already said, in s12 Dean was in the process of understanding who he was regardless of his relationships and while he had some sort of reconciliation with Mary, he didn’t have any with Cas).

It’s no wonder, then, that Sam thinks that Cas and Mary might still be alive while Dean doesn’t. In Supernatural the past can come back and if it’s come back once why can’t it come back again? Past is hope. The future, however, is always “doom and gloom” in this series, it’s apocalypses, it’s “it ends bad, it ends bloody”, it is, in other words, super pessimistic. And “The Future” is impersonated in Jack and in the visions of the future he transmitted to Castiel which Dean blames for his death.

Sam is smart but it doesn’t take a genius to understand that if Jack has opened the rift once he might be able to open it again. Therefore, Sam sees in Jack an opportunity: if Jack can control and manage his powers he might open the rift again and Sam could get his mother back. What’s more, he also starts to see (what he thinks he’s) himself in Jack.

Dean: I told him the truth. See, you think you can use this freak but I know how this ends and it ends bad. Sam: I didn’t. Dean: What? Sam: I didn’t ‘end bad’. When I was the freak, when I was drinking demon blood. Dean: Come on man, that’s totally different. Sam: Was it? Because you could’ve put a bullet in me. Dad told you to put a bullet in me, but you didn’t! You saved me! So help me save him! Dean: You deserved to be saved, he doesn’t! Sam: Yes he does, Dean, of course he does!

The “What?” shows how the two are talking about completely different things. Maybe it was the word “freak” that triggered Sam, however I tend to agree with Dean here: Sam and Jack are not “totally different” but they are different. What I disagree with is when Dean says that Jack doesn’t deserve to be saved (Dean, Dean, Dean… you, just like everybody else, don’t need to “de-serve” anything. I swear to God the day we realize what the words we use actually mean maybe the world will really start changing). Because the thing is that Jack doesn’t need to be saved. He’s not a human who drank demon blood for what he thought was “the greater good” but turned out to be the beginning of his end. He was not part of a gigantic, messy, blatant scam involving Heaven and Hell. Jack’s partially the result of both Lucifer’s delusions of grandeur regarding Creation and Kelly’s conservative and dreamy desire to have a baby with the President of the USA (he was never gonna put any ring on it, girl and you knew it. Btw, Kelly is the baby-trapper in this story and no one else, I won’t change my mind ever), but he is nevertheless one of the most powerful beings in all existence. I honestly think that the only character who has ever understood Jack was Donatello.

Donatello: Oh. Speaking not as a prophet but as a scientist, I don’t think teaching him is in the cards. It’s like asking a lion not to be a lion. Sam: But this is not a lion! This is a human! Donatello: With a strong dose of God juice.

It’s not a strong dose of demon blood, Sam. It’s God juice, okay? LOL. Anyway, Donatello is super on point here: Jack is human and not-human. He’s a living aporia, the character where all the false dichotomies of the series show their fallacies. He’s “both… and” incarnated. He’s born and he’s already in his 20s. He’s a child and he’s a not-child. He has an age and he’s without age. Nobody will ever come close to understanding him if they cling close to a “black or white, good or evil” mentality. And this is why the show totally failed (for me) in s14 and how Sam is also failing here because he projects his own (respectable and very real) Lucifer-related issues with evilness onto Jack. Jack is beyond “good and evil” because he’s both human and angel, he embodies two different moralities and also transcends both of them because he’s neither only human nor only angel. To sum up, I don’t think that Supernatural, with its structure and its specific morality, could have handled a character like Jack. And this is why the show has to de-power him, de-soul him, make him die and resurrect etc.

Back to Sam and his failings. He projects his own stuff onto Jack, he wants to use him as a “can-opener”, he thinks Jack can be saved from “evil” because he can teach him. My question is: how much can Sam be negatively judged for these actions? My answer is: not so much.

As far as projections go, this is what he’s been doing from S1. Per SPN structure, both Sam and Dean have been projecting and identifying their issues onto the monsters of the weeks for 15 seasons. Jack is just the “Monster of the Season”. Projection and identification, identification and projection… I mean, this is what the show is about. If all of sudden Sam had woken up and miraculously solved all his identity-related issues the show would have been over.

As far as the utilitarian aspect goes, Sam has actually made some progress here. He “only” surveils Jack via cameras and tries to convince him to do some stupid exercises with a pencil. Previously on Supernatural Sam had literally enslaved, chained and imprisoned the people/creatures he wanted to use. These kids, they grow up so fast :”).

As far as the “do no evil” teaching goes, now here’s what’s really interesting to me.

The episode is “The Rising Son” and Sam’s passionate plea for Jack’s goodness via his teachings is paralleled to Asmodeus’s attempt at locating Jack in order to find him and harness his “timeless knowledge and unschooled power”. Asmodeus acts like Lucifer acted with Sam in S11 in that he pushes Jack to open up the earth “for God” (“I speak the words of God”, “God has a message for you”, “Do it for God” etc). Since Lucifer’s not here, though, Asmodeus wants to “[have]him (Jack) found and trained to rule. With me as his humble advisor, of course”. Of course we know he will fail because he himself says that he had tried to train the Shedim in the past and utterly failed.

ASMODEUS: I know the perils of Lucifer’s disappointment. DREXEL: He—he did that? ASMODEUS: Long ago. Eager to please, I freed the shedim. DREXEL: You… Oh, I’ve heard stories about— ASMODEUS: Oh, I’m sure you have. Hell’s most savage. Things so dark, and base, God himself would not allow them into the light. But I, in my pride, believed that I could train them. Use them. But Lucifer feared them, as well he should, so he forbade it, locked them up again.

This, of course, means that Sam will fail to train Jack/the Shedim too.

The parallel between Asmodeus and Sam must be explored because the show seems to pass it as an Evil (Asmodeus) vs Good (Sam) training but it’s not as simple as that. There’s even a scene where Asmodeus-as-Donatello talks about Jack with Sam and he seems to agree with Sam’s theory that Jack can be molded. While Sam thinks so because “Kelly was a good person”, Asmodeus-as-Donatello is obviously more interested in his evil father’s lineage.

While it’s true that both of them don’t even consider to give Jack a choice, to ask him questions and to try to understand him, they’re not exactly wrong when they agree that Jack’s powers do need some training, regardless of why they’re interested in his powers, Jack doesn’t have a grip on how his powers work. The show insistence on “good vs evil", however, completely ignores the very valid point where Jack’s powers are simply neither good or evil per se but they are “only” a(nother) force to be reckoned with.

This “good vs evil” thing obscures something very important and I think a distinction must be made here about what "training" really means in this context: Sam wants Jack to learn to master his powers, so that he (Jack) can be in control of them; on the other hand, Asmodeus wants to exploit Jack because of his powers, he wants to be the one who’s in control of them.

Both Sam and Asmodeus have an agenda, clearly, they’re also two characters very much interested in power. But when Asmodeus says that he wants to train Jack what he really has in mind is to groom him. Asmodeus’ techniques are very similar to Crowley’s with baby Amara and Demon Dean (I know Dean was not a child but he was one metaphorically because Crowley calls himself “Father” and “daddy” while he calls Dean “a rather scrumptious altar boy”. Ugh). These are predators’ techniques: their intent is to create intimacy with a person (for instance, Asmodeus takes on Donatello’s resemblance to lure Jack and take him to the Hell’s Gate), usually a child, to make them do what they want and abuse their victims, victims who usually don’t even realize they’re victims (Jack doesn’t know he’s being manipulated).

This is NOT what Sam means when he says he can teach Jack. Sam’s utilitarian mindset can be reproachable but his intent is not the same as Asmodeus. Sure, it’s still absolutely problematic but, again, his intent is not to open up the earth to release the Shedim and use Jack to rule Hell. He wants to open the rift to the Apocalypse World to find his mother. He is, in other words, being a softer version of John Winchester. In fact, he is replicating John’s methods because this is what he grew up with and this is what he knows. Avenging Mary’s death, finding Mary in the AU… even if the intent might be comprehensible it doesn’t justify both John and Sam’s attitude towards the reaching of their ends. Yet, their ways are still not the same ways of a Crowley or an Asmodeus.

The other thing is that John was Sam’s father. He was father to two human children whom he raised as if their childhood was a huge, endless military training. Training someone, as a concept, is not evil: if you have a skill or a talent or whatever, you need to train and learn and explore your limits. Having someone who believes in you and wants to help you in your training is not evil too: in fact, it might be a very good thing. It’s a problematic thing, however, when your caregiver is more focused on the training than the care. It’s even more problematic if said caregiver is a paranoid who raised his sons as soldiers. But this is still NOT the same thing as demons such as Crowley and Asmodeus do.

The differences in "training" and what Sam fails to understand about what happened with Asmodeus is explained in "Patience":

SAM: Even with Asmodeus, that just happened?

JACK: No, he made me. It was like, like he was in my head.

SAM: Okay um, then uh… Imagine him doing that.

JACK: No!

SAM: No? Why not?

JACK: Because I don’t want to! It’s just… I can’t do this! And you keep staring at me, waiting!

Asmodeus made Jack use his powers, he was in his head. He had also abducted him, manipulated him: he wasn't trying to train him, he was trying to groom him. Of course Jack doesn't want that.

If Sam is replicating his father's teachings we must then ask: who is Jack to Sam in this moment in the narrative? He’s definitely not his son nor his sibling. But he's not someone Sam keeps in locks either. As I’ve said, Sam has never been above imprisoning people in his dungeon to reach his goal, yet he takes another road with Jack, maybe precisely because he’s identifying with him and projecting onto him his own fears and issues with “being evil” and “being a freak”. There is something very similar between the two but what is it? And why is it not expressed? Maybe Sam is not Jack the way he thinks he is but they do share one thing: they have both missed the opportunity to create a bond with their respective mothers.

Sam only really utterly fails Jack when he’s dishonest with him. He eventually understands that and comes clean with him but I think that a lot of the initial issues happened because he was not communicating with Jack at all. And he didn’t even give him a choice. I think that if Sam were honest with Jack and gave him the choice to help him he would have discovered another thing that make them veeeery similar: both of them are okay with twisting human morality and… sort of… manipulate people a little to get what they want. Does this make them evil villains? To me, no. Does this make them human, layered, compelling characters that raise interesting moral questions more than give black and white answers? Totally yes!

Sam and Jack are not “totally different” but they are different. Conversely, they are not “totally similar” but they are similar. The Rescuing of the Mother can happen because The Loss of the Mother is something that Jack can deeply understand and relate to. He doesn’t want to save Mary just to please Sam and Dean. I think it’s deeper than that.

In case it wasn't clear, the conflation of Mary and Kelly is very clear in "The Big Empty":

MIA: You’ve lost someone recently? DEAN: No. JACK: My mother. SAM: Uh, our mother. We’ve having a difficult time.

Mary-as-Missed/Missing-Mother is such a central theme in this season that the Apocalypse World is a literal ramification of the Original World that's solely dependent on Mary Winchester’s choice to not deal with Azazel. John is never brought back and, more importantly, Sam and Dean are never born. This is a world where she’s not the mother. But why is Mary’s choice so vital it can create different timelines?

S12 and S13 implicitly seem to tell that everything that happened was because of Mary’s choice and… it’s, like, not true? Sometimes Sam and Dean are so ultra-focused on “free will” and “making the right choices” that tend to forget the part where both them and their parents were part of a larger scheme that was predicated on people ultimately being herd towards a designed pen. Like, while I think that Dean and Sam having issues with their mother is completely real and plausible, I don’t understand why the narrative re-frames itself in this way… I understand that they were going for a specific retelling of the first seasons but this is not just retelling, this is demolishing the premises of those series. S4-5 were precisely about the mystification and the perils of a glorified, Grand Destiny that in reality was nothing but a Big Scam. It’s not your destiny if your destiny is something that somebody else is telling you about and when this somebody else has a vested interest in you believing that you have that specific destiny. Or if somebody else is removing all of your choices leaving you with close to nothing to choose from.

Apocalypse World is, thus, such an unfair double-edged sword, cause on the one hand, it gives Mary agency but on the other it shows us that both choices resulted in… well, frankly, catastrophes. And I think it’s unfair to throw this huge weight onto her shoulders after they had dug her up from her grave while completely ignoring the whole thing about senior management angels playing puppeteers with the Winchesters.

Kelly-as-Missed/Missing-Mother is the other side of the coin of this little argument of mine because in s13 the writers demonstrated how Kelly must stay dead because one mother is enough and they didn’t know what to make of Kelly since she was not a hunter. She was just, as a character, Jack’s mother. The rift to the Apocalypse World was even possible in the first place because she (more or less, it’s complicated) decided that she would.have.her.baby. But, just like Mary before her resurrection, if his actual mother were back in the game it either meant that Jack was out of the game or that they had to include her in some capacity into the Winchesters dynamics and they didn’t want any of that. Mary’s death meant that Sam and Dean entered the hunters’ life, Kelly’s death assures the same for Jack. Plus, they all have an angel watching over them, isn't it just great? But hey, wait, this is the absent fathers show so we’re gonna give this kid three, four, five fathers!!! (sarcastic). Also, Alive Kelly wouldn’t be the Good, Perfect, Dead Mother that she is to Jack because, well, she would be a Real Character, not a memory on a pen drive and Alive Kelly would be so faaaar from the Good and Perfect Mother. Do we have to try to write another complex mother? One is enough!!! (sarcastic).

In conclusion, in s13 Sam’s (and Jack’s) huge missed opportunity stays… missing. Jack will go to the Apocalypse World and fight the angels with Mary whereas Mary decides to stay there (lol!) to help with the fight. They literally have to find a bus and move all the remaining AU people to the Original World because Mary has decided that she wanted to stay in a world where she didn’t choose John and she didn’t give birth to her sons (me asking Sam who has just died and was resurrected by Lucifer only to find out that his mother didn’t want to be saved: are you REALLY okay? LOL). I’ll stop here cause this is getting way too long but maybe, just maybe, s13 as a whole was a giant missed opportunity.

[throwupgirl]

i love to be a little controversial with my season 10 in second place (SO FAR. WE ARENT DONE WITH DABB ERA YETT). you all look fake as fuck when you reblog the prisoner scene is all im sayin.

[telescopic-camera-nod]

its always sunny in lebanon kansas

[rigil-kentauris]

Prompt #25: Zip

this is slightly too long for my tumblr but im putting it on here because its one of the more mmm. well it isnt Spicy but it is one of the more charged things ive written and im proud of it so im holding it up to the security camera meme style everywhere i can

jessie/rowena

This is not the worst day of Jessie Jaye's life.

Abandoning her parents. Defecting from Garlemald. Carteneau. Those are bad days.

Getting dressed up and going to a fancy party where fancy rich people are eager and excited to give her company - Cid's company - money? This should be the best day of her life.

She gulps. The zipper on her dress is stuck.

A knock on her door. "Jessie, time's a'wastin'!"

So, Rowena is an objectively bad person. At least, an unethical person. Anyone who you have to clarify her relationship to debt slavery is probably comfortably in the unethical corner. The fact that she is wickedly smart, devilishly effective, and terribly attractive has no bearing on that, true, but Jessie is the CFO of the Ironworks which means not only is she smart she definitely (should) rank up there with the greats.

Drifting over to the House of Splendors everyday to check on their contracts personally with Rowena is a very stupid idea.

Agreeing to go to a fancy dinner shoulder-rubbing investor shindig with Rowena was an exceptionally stupid idea.

Getting a little tipsy on gloomwine and buying a long, tight, fuck-off dress and then not returning it in the morning and packing it up and getting on the airship and landing with nothing else to wear to this thing but that was, possibly, the worst idea anyone at the Ironworks had ever had. And Jessie is including everything Cid's ever done on that list.

"A minute!" she calls weakly.

Outside the door, Rowena pauses. "I'm comin' in."

Shit! "Shit! I mean- Wait!"

The door opens and closes too fast for Jessie to protest. In the mirror, she see's Rowena's eyes widen for a second before her regular composure asserts itself.

Rowena is wearing one of her more delicate business togis. The slit on the side goes all the way up to the top of her bare thigh. She appears to be wearing a bracelet around the soft skin of her upper thigh and little else. Fuck.

"I'm fine!" Jessie coughs. Squeaks. Says. Conveys.

Rowena arches an eyebrow. "Stand up straight," she orders.

"Wha- why?"

"This is no time to be waitin' around. There are deals to seize. Didn't take you much for the dallyin' type, no?"

Rowena steps up to Jessie very bare and exposed back. She's got this horrible feeling that Rowena is about to help her. Sure enough, she feels a slight tug on the fabric where Rowena touches the zipper. Rowena leans forward, and tilts her head over Jessie's shoulder. She looks at her in the mirror. She pulls the sipper slightly, and her fingers brush Jessie's spine.

"Fuck!" Jessie says, accidentally, also accidentally nearly jumping out of said skin.

Rowena just tuts, and tugs the zipper up a little higher. "Jumpy," she says. "They'll eat you alive out there like that."

Rowena's eyes are entirely focused on Jessie's in the mirror. Jessie tries not to jolt at the feeling of fabric sliding over her suddenly hyper-attuned skin as the zipper closes. She watches herself almost succeed.

Rowena smiles slowly. Her finger hooks under the zipper, resting between it and Jessie's back. jessie hisses a breath.

"Sorry," Rowena says evenly. "Don't want it catching on you. This's a tight one. Where'e you get it?"

The sharp tip of Rowena's nail drags very slowly up Jessie's back as the zipper makes a long, low click.

"The store," Jessie manages to say.

"Hm," Rowena rumbles.

She pauses, right in the middle of Jessie's shoulder blades. Jessie catches herself pushing back into Rowena's touch. Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck.

"You know," Rowena purrs. Her breath is warm on Jessie's neck. "You can always come to me with these sort o' things. Me and my girls'll treat you better than... 'the store.'"

Only want you, Jessie thinks, and then says 'Thank you but no thank you.'

Only she does not say that. She says, "The girls? What, no personal touch?"

And then she snaps her mouth shut. Her cheeks color. Rowena's grin widens.

"You'll have to stop by and find out," she says, and with one final quick motion zips the last of Jessie's dress straight to the top.

She lets her hand fall by her side. She looks Jessie over in the mirror from bottom to top, a long, low, slow look.

She nods.

"You look good," she says. "Very fine. What say you?"

Jessie thinks she's in trouble. Jessie thinks she is a boneheaded fool. Jessie thinks she is not going to be able to concentrate on business for the rest of the night.

"I'm ready to go," she lies.

Rowena's grin sharpens in a way that tells Jessie she did not believe Jessie for a second.

"O' course you are." She nods, and steps back. She breaks her gaze with mirror Jessie and turns to regard Jessie for real. In only that shortest span of time, she's put back on her business mask.

Jessie nods. Yes. Yes. Yes, she can do this. She is strong and powerful and smart. Hm.

Rowen clips forward, and opens the door.

"After you, then," she offers.

And Jessie strides out quickly.

[pinkfey]

OC TAG GAME ｡*･♡;

i was tagged by the lovely @noonfaerie to categorize some ocs + use this picrew; tysm ambie!! 💕💕

♡ FAVORITE OC.

ursula — baldur’s gate 3

my three favorite ocs always alternate between ursula, thea, and audra, but as of right now i’ve really been on an ursa kick!! probably my most universally beloved oc as well?? u guys already know everything abt her—a sailor, a tyrant, a lesson in pride, and the rest!!!!! her backstory makes my soul ache and i just love her sm celebrate pride this year by driving ur gf to her death just like ursula !! 🌈 🌈

♡ NEWEST OC.

lacie lane — infamous (if)

my gorgeous gorgeous girl!! my cocky ex gf!!!! my problematic lead singer!!!!!! u guys know the gist. what can be said abt lacie other than she’s toxic and beautiful and not as in control as she thinks. i’m really eager to see infamous develop so i can think of some juicy lacie/seven content bc as of right now i’ve been in a creative drought 😔

♡ OLDEST OC.

rowena cousland — dragon age: origins

so rowena is technically my second oldest oc (the honor of first belongs to silla 💕) but i’m listing her instead of silla because her story and personality has been consistent for the past ten years whereas silla has evolved!! rowena is proud, stubborn, and clever as the devil—and each of these traits have been both flaw and merit. her relationship with alistair is complex and tragic but mended with a bit of time.

♡ MEANEST OC.

kinasi irress — star wars

honestly ursula and jael were both strong competitors for most cruel oc, but kina takes the cake because, unlike the other two who cultivated strong affinities/bonds in their youth, kinasi has never known kindness. for over thirty years she lived in an environment of fear, hatred, and isolation. all she knew was the vie for power and all she knew was punishment if she failed the social climb. in a world of every-man-for-himself and please-your-master-or-fall-from-grace, community-centric skills such as teamwork, generosity, and emotional support were nonexistent, and so she never developed them. to be “mean,” which is putting it lightly, was just their nature. dog eat dog. need against need.

♡ SOFTEST OC.

ellery lux — pillars of eternity

the sweetest weirdo who ever lived!! ellery is a druid who, after being separated from her parents, raised herself in the forest with no one but the creatures and sun-dappled greenery for company. everything she learned, she learned from the woods—tenderness a kind of virtue no human could have taught her. she’s decisive and gentle and accepting and doesn’t care for social conventions in the slightest AND!!! i love her so much 🌿🦌🤍

♡ MOST ALOOF/STANDOFFISH OC.

salylia dreneri — the elder scrolls: morrowind

she doesn’t mean to be this way, but she’s a stranger in a strange land and her former partner just framed her and there’s some freak talking to her in her head and she can’t help but put herself at a distance from everyone !! though she was always the cool, quiet one—tennebrae did most of the talking.

♡ DUMBEST (AFFECTIONATE) OC.

bright — dungeons & dragons

her true name eaki, bright was given to a halfling village deep in the bramblewood when she was just an infant. an odd combination, tiefling and halflings, but they understood social scorn and ostracization and accepted her completely. when her adoptive sibling fell mysteriously ill, bright, at the behest of the village herbalist, sought out an ancient forest entity, and struck a deal—the life of her sibling (and many boons) in exchange for a favor when the time comes. all this being said, she is not the wisest warlock around. bright is bright for her charm and silliness, not her brains.

♡ SMARTEST OC.

jael khatri — pathfinder: wrath of the righteous

this was another tough one between jael and cath, but jael won because she’s, in the most reductive of terms, a sexy evil experimentalist!! everyone already knows everything abt jael and how her cruelty is clinical and her wit is sharp as a knife from when i first played pwotr last year but i’ll never stop being obsessed with her!!!

♡ OC YOU’D BE BEST FRIENDS WITH IRL.

corintha trevelyan — dragon age: inquisition

this isn’t because i think i’d get along with her best (i think that would be emika or honey??) but because i love a DELUSIONAL girlie. i’d kill to pick her brain fhdjfnfnfbd

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