#w like Diagnoses™️

[8bitgarden-sys]

Ah maybe that means i should try bed again 😅 4am here. I tried a few hrs ago but it was rough. But the day is over. I could just sleep and try again tmrw :/

Hey ur bio made me cry lol /pos i hope ur feeling ok and mood stabilization is blessed to us all

I appreciate you so much! Please don’t cry 🫶🏻 I’m managing, same as the rest of us! Sending you love!

Pro tip: take it all one day at a time.

[heavenly-delusions]

Thistle from dungeon meshi is soo relatable. Hes like "i just wanna vibe w my blorbos forever and ever and ever". and hes so based for that actually

[aspd-culture]

I'm researched self dxed aspd alongside other cluster b's and professionally dxed autism and a hc-did system, and my empathy fluctuates. could my other comorbidities mellow out or maybe even contradict my aspd or make the symptoms milder so to speak?

Absolutely. Comorbidity is fairly well known to cause seemingly contradictory symptoms in all mental health disorders, and that is especially true when it comes to personality disorders and other disorders that cause neurological differences. Your brain affects every portion of your life - your thoughts, words, actions, decisions, etc etc etc. Because of that, ASPD is almost guaranteed to interact in some way with other comorbid disorders, especially for people with more than one comorbid disorder/neurodiversity.

For me, I've also been professionally diagnosed with autism (self dx is valid and that shouldn't be a hot take - that is never why I mention my diagnosis being professional/gen), and it does show through my ASPD in ways that affect the biggest signs of it. Examples below

I avoided breaking laws and rules that Made Sense™️ in my head because of my autistic sense of justice. Instead, my ASPD lack of respect for rules showed with literally anything that didn't make sense to me. You got once chance to explain if I asked, and if that didn't get me an answer then fuck your rule - you'd have answered me if it had any logic at all (see also b&w thinking that could be from the ASPD or the autism, who knows? lol).

I also appear to have empathy for very specific things - not people, besides my Exceptions - but animals and literal objects. Like many autistic people, I have the misplaced empathy thing towards stuffed animals and other inanimate objects - including some that make less sense like electronics. While watching Star Wars, I frequently notice (despite a strong fear of robots) that I only show empathetic responses for droids and animals when they are the victims of violence/mistreatment. Humans and humanoids, on the other hand, cause a severely muted disturbed pang that immediately goes away, if that. My empathy for fictional characters is always higher than for people irl, even though it is still very blunted.

I could give a bunch more examples of this, but suffice to say that comorbidity with any other disorders definitely has a high chance to cause some symptoms to interact in a way that seems to go against the disorders on their own.

There are some elitists who will fight you on this, but they are literally gatekeeping a mental health disorder like it's some secret club and do next to no critical thinking. They are objectively wrong, and I'd advise you to pay them no mind.

Plain text below the cut:

Absolutely. Comorbidity is fairly well known to cause seemingly contradictory symptoms in all mental health disorders, and that is especially true when it comes to personality disorders and other disorders that cause neurological differences. Your brain affects every portion of your life - your thoughts, words, actions, decisions, etc etc etc. Because of that, ASPD is almost guaranteed to interact in some way with other comorbid disorders, especially for people with more than one comorbid disorder/neurodiversity.

For me, I've also been professionally diagnosed with autism (self dx is valid and that shouldn't be a hot take - that is never why I mention my diagnosis being professional/gen), and it does show through my ASPD in ways that affect the biggest signs of it. Examples below

I avoided breaking laws and rules that Made Sense (TM) in my head because of my autistic sense of justice. Instead, my ASPD lack of respect for rules showed with literally anything that didn't make sense to me. You got once chance to explain if I asked, and if that didn't get me an answer then fuck your rule - you'd have answered me if it had any logic at all (see also b&w thinking that could be from the ASPD or the autism, who knows? lol).

I also appear to have empathy for very specific things - not people, besides my Exceptions - but animals and literal objects. Like many autistic people, I have the misplaced empathy thing towards stuffed animals and other inanimate objects - including some that make less sense like electronics. While watching Star Wars, I frequently notice (despite a strong fear of robots) that I only show empathetic responses for droids and animals when they are the victims of violence/mistreatment. Humans and humanoids, on the other hand, cause a severely muted disturbed pang that immediately goes away, if that. My empathy for fictional characters is always higher than for people irl, even though it is still very blunted.

I could give a bunch more examples of this, but suffice to say that comorbidity with any other disorders definitely has a high chance to cause some symptoms to interact in a way that seems to go against the disorders on their own.

There are some elitists who will fight you on this, but they are literally gatekeeping a mental health disorder like it's some secret club and do next to no critical thinking. They are objectively wrong, and I'd advise you to pay them no mind.

[crab-people-overlord]

Intro 🧡

guess I might as well do an intro

diagnosed adhd software engineer here (🩷💜💙 bruh why tf is there no bi emoji), coming to you from the Rocky Mountains (where rich people's empty ski homes are literally everywhere and driving up costs….. pls send help)

quick stats:

mid 20s and fresh out of college

chronic procrastinator turned aspiring hobbiest writer who still has a lot to learn (bear w me you guys; I studied computer science in college and just BS’d my my way thru the required English courses 😭)

ex-mormon who served a mission (emphasis on the ‘ex’- 🫡 🥲 god the stories I have lmfao) also I surprisingly still haven’t watched the BOM musical despite this?? tho I know the soundtrack by heart lol (turn it off is too painfully real fr- ‘turning it off’ is a really cool fun Mormon trick and hack 💡)

works in tech and works from home

professional south park hyperfixator™️

builds legos and is an incredibly nerdy gamer when not crying over learning how to write (most of my nights are spent either gaming w friends via discord or building legos or both)

I love all the main 5 equally and think they all have strengths and weaknesses that are often over generalized in fandom (tho view Eric specifically from a well written/complex antagonists lens and not as an apologist. I think he’s a racist and sexist sob with occasional good traits that don’t otherwise eliminate the overall bad he does. I think he’s literally meant to be the main antagonist, just as Matt and Trey intend him to be.

Though the other main four (butters, Kyle, Stan, and Kenny)- I will always be their lawyer and apologist lmao. I can’t stand when people view a couple isolated episodes for any of those four to demonize them (they literally all have an equal screen time of shitty behavior so it pisses me tf off when some focus on one over the other as evidence of being ‘worse’. I genuinely think they’re all equal from a moral lens; just in different strengths and ways. Feel free to ask for more details cuz I’ve got lots of opinions on this lmao) Butters, Stan, Kyle, and Kenny all try their best and I’ll accept no lasting slander on any of them 🥹 (tho of course will always accept nuanced views of them cuz none of them are close to perfect (this is what makes them realistic 😭- and love writing them w their flaws and all :)

so yeah!! south park has basically been my comfort show/emotional support media for as long as i can remember. like it's literally been keeping me sane through… everything

currently vibing in the fandom space (though still learning all the rules so pls be patient w me 🥺 I am NOT new to South Park, but am new to fandom, so… im genuinely open to any feedback. at the end of the day I don’t want any drama and just want to vibe w you all in the SP fandom). if i mess up tags or anything else or whatever just let me know!! I genuinely do want to be respectful but am brand fucking new to the fandom space/etiquette and it’s a little overwhelming tbh lmao. But I’m so down to learn.

writing stuff + ao3 link

working on a canon-adjacent story about the main kids. it’s a short story so will be done soon :) and I hope to focus on more short stories in the future.

also doing a south park/good place crossover because why not

wrote this thing called "the cultish conundrum" which... exists... (planning to rewrite it someday when i git gud™️) (wrote this when I knew NOTHING of fandom so I did try to be canon-compliant but knew nothing of creative writing when I first started, so I hope to revisit to rewrite it to be actually… good one day lol)

Also if you’re an ao3 writer of your own and want me to kudos/comment just lmk!! I know this isn’t an excuse but my adhd makes it so bad for me to read others works but if I’m instructed to I genuinely love it and want to support y’all as from what I’ve seen, there’s SO many talented SP writers out there that I genuinely want to support so badly but am literally so bad at committing when there’s so many choices lmao

absolutely down to chat about anything!! just use my ask box or dm if you're 18+ (minors welcome to interact via reblogs/public comments/ask section, just please no dm!). i promise i'm super chill and literally just here to vibe with other cool humans who don't tolerate any transphobic/racist/etc behavior.

SP style is honestly my OTP and what even compelled me to look into the fandom space in general tbh (and is kinda funny because most of my life I’ve just viewed them as canonically super best friends lmao). Even with style being my OTP, I love their deep friendship first and foremost even before any romantic ship. Don’t hesitate to reach out with one-shot requests in the ask-box tho! I’m happy to help to work on anything, really- even if style is platonic. I really vibe w Craig, for example.

also i have discord if that's more your thing!! (18+ only pls).

[heelhausen]

❤️ - any favourite reoccurring scenario? :-3

Honestly I LOVE the “Crash is stupidly competent at fixing problems when he gets butler-stipulationed into helping out his romantic interest” bit I’ve come up with

there’s a different version for each partner that kinda adds a different flavour to the relationship.

w/ Max it’s helping him through an injury sustained in the match that he won against Crash and Max getting incredibly testy when Crash just keeps managing to pull off the near-impossible tasks Max sets for him, until Max cracks just enough to let himself admit that yeah, he does enjoy Crash’s company and is in fact going to be constantly calling Crash to come fix stupid shit around his house even after the stipulation is over

w/ Roman it’s Crash saving the entire Bloodline a massive headache by being able to diagnose and fix the problem with the rental truck quickly enough for the crew to get back on the road without completely fucking up their schedule. Like he’s still not sure he trusts Crash entirely because he KNOWS Randy’s intent with “loaning” Crash to the Bloodline was to see Crash’s chaos rip them apart from the inside. But the more Crash works with him, the more convince Roman is that Crash isn’t in on Randy’s plan and is genuinely just trying to be useful

& w/ Gabe it’s not actually a butler stipulation, it’s just Gabe going to a nascar event and seeing Crash working as a part of pit crew with his mom and sister for his dad’s car and making the connection that Crash’s kayfabe persona is 100% him committing to the bit on elweewee grounds. Prior to that Gabe had trouble figuring out where The Lock™️ ends and Kris the guy who wrestles sometimes begins. But after watching him in his element captaining Car #63’s pit crew and directing the flow of movement, Gabe starts to find little hints of Kris underneath The Lock™️ when they’re back in the ring.

The huge underlying theme is the partners realizing Crash’s jack of all trades random ass skill set is equal amounts of correlation/causation with who he is as a person. An ouroboros of tomfuckery.

+ the “romantic interest goes dirtbiking with Crash for the first time and realizes he’s batshit insane” bit

[lizardboy66]

did posting on here bc…this is the void

idk if I have did tbh but like maybe I do guys…maybe I do because why do I keep experiencing symptoms of did u know…

I’m diagnosed but like I wasn’t properly screened for it and I rlly rarely black out so idk? like the current theory is that I’ve been lodged in front bc pre learning that I have did I did have memory gaps sometimes and also vivid memories of being like “I shldnt be here for this long…where are The Others” and that was like a running theme idk.

BUT ANYWAY I’m gonna complain

so general system knowledge to have: in 2022 Syd (host) and Andrew (protector/secondary host ish?) fused as fuck to create Xander who is tbf way more balanced, cool and collected than either of those fuckers ever were. which is fine except at the same time ronan (long time annoyance) (he’s a secondary host or smth w persecutor tendencies bc of an old fusion they went through) FUCKING DISAPPEARED and sometimes we wld get the classic ronan accent™️ (Essex, of course) so Xander assumed that ronan had also integrated but we just like didn’t have his # mems. but I believe he has risen once again. in late 2021 ronan went dormant for 3 months w no word and then came back again so maybe they just did that again. of course. and now it’s weird bc Andrew and ronan were like quite involved emotionally and homosexually speaking but now it’s Xander and like she is still my ex…and I’m mad at them 😶‍🌫️.

stay tuned for more did. complaining while I figure out if it’s really did or if I’m delusional or smth. bc I’m literlaly not lying for attention all of these things are stuff I have to learn from these assholes over time but maybe it’s like long term psychosis or smth.

[nature-played-a-trick-on-me]

Mmmm not excited

[bunnywand]

gahhhh it’s my first appointment w/ the nhs gender clinic doctor 2moro and i’m So fucking anxious abt it.. 😣

like, on the one hand i’m excited abt it cos like, i’ve been Waiting 4 this for 3 and a half years!! but on the other it’s like godd.. i’ve been waiting for this for 3 and a half years.. what if it all goes wrong now 😞

i mean i don’t see why it would, i’ve already been thru this process before w/ a private doctor and got diagnosed Transgender™️ but idk.. i don’t kno if the nhs doctors are stricter and like, if they’ll hold it against me i wasn’t ~out~ at my last job, or that i don’t want surgery, and they’ll decide i’m Not Trans Enough and then i’ll be Stuck.. 🙁

mostly i think it’s gonna be fine!! but it’s just like.. been Highly Anticipated and there’s a Lot 2 worry abt.. 😭

[squishybons]

Everytime i jump into a new fandom, my grubby lil hands grab every character in sight, and im like “hmm...you are now diagnosed w gay....YOU are now diagnosed w Trans™️...diagnosed w Love...all of you...” and tbh, its literally so much fun...10/10 do recommend...

[too-tired-to-function]

well this bitch was just diagnosed w bipolar disorder and ptsd so like it’s swell i can get treatment but also Big Scared™️