#volnurability

[ruvi-muffin]

Characters that were never shown love and care and thus has no idea how to show it to others, and yet are brimming with the need to be caring in all things except outward expression, finding love and care through found family and one person who Gets It, who may or may not be struggling in silence as well with things the aformentioned character may or may not be tied up in and boy howdy did that get complicated real quick

[pinkdovess]

Having an aroace moment

[lufifer-morningstar]

please fandom we need to talk about ciel asking sebastian if he wants tea AND that he actually takes the tea and drinks it tgether with ciel, because i am loosing my goddamn mind. this is the first fucking time ciel does something like that.

this scene is so domestic and honest and...loving that..yana...we just keep winning.

ciel doesnt have to ask. no one would care if his butler gets a tea or not, sebastian is a demon, he doesnt have to drink. no...this is, just like sebastian dressing ciel up in stuff he doesnt need to, doting to him; ciel showing volnurability...

we won again...

[halfbakedspuds]

Alright, I see other writing blogs doing this, so here's my writeblr intro. Still needs some work but this'll do for now.

Hi! I'm Logan (Yes, like Wolverine), I'm 18 years old, use He/him pronouns, and I'm from South Africa. My main interests are writing, philosophy, history, binge-reading entire series' at a time and any kind of experimental artistic media. All my characters' sexualities and gender identities are up for interpretation unless explicitly stated.

Despite being an English language writer, English is not actually my first language and thus I do still have my fair share of braindead moments in it. If you notice that I used a word wrong, or if my grammar or a phrase seems little bit off, don't hesitate to let me know.

Below are my current WIP's:

Children of the Stars

Perspective: third person limitted.

Genre: Science fiction political drama and mystery.

Tropes: Slowburn lovers, enemies to friends to lovers (more like mutual annoyances to friends to lovers), a stranger in a stranger land, found family.

Status: Currently being worked on.

First chapter

Lyanni has been condemned and incarcerated, charged with witchcraft under the paranoid reign of her home kingdom. Under the laws of her people, she is offered up to their patron Angel as a gift of thanks for ending a long and bloody war, and to her horror: he accepts.

Soon, however, she learns the shocking truth of the universe. Her people's angels are members of an Alien organisation in service to the Empire of Earth, charged with working from the shadows to foster the upliftment of her people in order to free up the human garrison for the front lines of a star-spanning war, and the same is happening on a thousand other worlds.

This Angel, however- who calls himself Adrian- is about as happy about their new living arrangement as she is, which is to say not at all.

When a ship carrying an experimental superweapon crashes on her world, the two must begrudgingly work together in a desperate race against time to find it, while also holding back the tide of forces that threaten to plunge her world into armageddon.

The Tempest prince

Children of the Wolves

Perspective: First person limitted

Genre: Sci-fi political drama and heist story with some pulp western and cyberpunk elements.

Tropes: found family, heists, honour among thieves, glorious bastards, a lot of gay, high-tech Low-lifes, class divide, redemption arc.

Status: Scheduled to be written sometime after Children of the Stars.

Four years after Children of the Stars, Adrian Castellan returns to Callisto to make amends with his family and tie up the final loose ends of his early life.

Accompanied by Lyanni Sverik and Wilhelm Freedman, he links up with his siblings: Isabelle and Marcus Castellan, and while the trio catch up and scheme to finally exact vengeance for the deaths of their mother and friends at the hands of a rival clan's lord, Lyanni learns the story of why Adrian left his homeworld in the first place.

Seven years before Adrian became an IUC praetor, he was a member of the Volnur, a gang of six young but promising Callistoan gunslingers who acted as the enforcers of clan Castellan.

After a slightly botched trade negotiation with a rival clan forces them to scatter and regroup at home base, Adrian bumps into a mysterious offworlder running from both civil security and the Solar homeguard themselves, and offers to bring him to his clan's holdings for safety.

With supplies running low and the botching of the deal that was meant to save them, the six gunslingers and their new offworlder tagalong begin plotting to rob a Civil Security supply train.

Yet other forces move in the shadows, snapping at their people and waiting for their eventual fall, and with a young Adrian's ambition growing constantly, fostered by his mother's guidance as the Lady of clan Castellan, he will eventually come to match wits with some of the most powerful people not only on Callisto, but throughout the entirety of the Jupiter Prefecture, he will come to question who can be trusted, and whether his own well-founded ambition has given way to a fatal hubris.

Perspective: multiple pov first person.

Genre: YA contemporary fantasy with some elements of eldritch horror.

Tropes: Stranger in a strange land, finding identity, causality loop, found family (to an extent), recruiting teenagers with an attitude.

Status: On the back-burner til I gain a little more experience with certain writing skills that'll be necessary to write a 21 book series.

"Congratulations. You are now dead"

Those were the last words he heard before his normal life came to an end.

It was just a another day in February, the scorching, vampiric heat of the sun beating down on the brothers as they slogged through just another school day. At least it was just another day, at least until they stumbled into another dimension and accidentally brought something back with them.

From then on, Jason and Alex Haliday found themselves caught up in a hidden world, one where Jaegers -a race of magic-capable supersoldiers- contain and hunt that which shouldn't be; where ancient gods and forgotten horrors seep through every crack and crevice right under humanity's collective nose. When the brothers show abilities that no-one -Human or Jaeger- ever have, they are offered a job.

Of course, the pair first need to survive two years of training. Noone wants to send a pair of untrained teens into the longest battle of human history, after all. But between a school rivalry, a bloodsport tournament, and a looming ancient threat, it quickly becomes apparent that even while surrounded the extraordinary, their lives still refuse to fall within the established 'normal'.

When their home is attacked: their mother put into a coma and Alex kidnapped, Jason- accompanied by his new Demihuman friend Helga Ravenscar- goes on a manhunt to find his brother against the express orders of some of the most powerful people in the hunter cities. The pair must balance hiding such a dangerous endeavour with excelling in the taxing student life of a mage and a medical officer in training, while eldritch forces plot and scheme in the backdrop.

Echoes of Shadows

Perspective: multiple pov third person limitted.

Genre: Gritty Fantasy-noir detective story.

Tropes: Five man band, (Dunno what to call this but it's like the world is halfway through a transition that'll change every aspect of daily life. Will edit once I've figured it out)

Status: Scheduled to be the next project I finish. Probably.

First chapter

The city goes by many names: Novya Koroleva, Zuidpunkt, De Gat, but the local Ost-Rietlanders simply call it The Pit: the city that'll swallow you whole and spit out whatever bones may remain, a nature that has been exasperbated by the recent surge in mages, splitting the population almost evenly between regular people and the magic capable.

To Johan Suiderkloof and Anastasia Retvenko, the city offered a new start, free of the horrors of their pasts, and among it's verminous populace, they have carved out work for themselves as a private detective agency.

It's a stable job, with many opportunities to find work in the Sodom. By day: the pair investigate cartels, murders, infidelity, all the worst that society has to offer.

But late at night, when Zuurveldt, Ost-Rietland and the rest of the continent of Sumer sleep soundly, they stalk the shadows for leads, tracking down the fanatic followers of dark gods and puttinh an end to their machinations.

When mysterious murders with occult symbolism surrounding them begin to crop up throughout the city and surrounding countryside, the pair find their lot unceremoniously cast in with complete strangers, caught in the powerplay of cults and dead gods as they try to untangle a growing conspiracy that threatens their world as they know it.

The lonely god

Perspective: First person.

Genre: Science fiction.

Status: In the process of being finished up.

The lonely god is a short story I wrote more than a year ago (Originally titled "The last human) and am currently in the process of remastering. I'll be posting it here when I'm done with it.

Some sixteen millenia in the future, humanity finds itself forceably coalesced into a single, immortal being. This individual, born of a trillion infighting souls, is the last human, a species made into a god, and 'The lonely god' follows their story til the end of the universe and beyond as they seek out revenge for what was done to their people while slowly learning to let go of hate.

What does it mean to be alive when you'll outlive even the sand beneath your feet? How do you cherish or love when everything vanishes in but a blink of the eye? How can the product of trillions ever be an individual?

And when the score has been settled; When every trail has been blazed, and all knowledge learnt; When all that is left is to watch as the stars slowly whimper away: how will you find meaning?

[damaged-graveyard]

*rocking back and forth like a crazy person* I cannot be that volnurable again haha I will not be that volnurable again haha I will not let her see that haha I cannot let her see me like that

[kotatko-v-kosicku]

Commatose by glass beach is probably my favorite song of theirs rn. Everything about it just flows so fucking well. It has everything you need in a glass beach song. The screaming, the volnurable, the sick ass solos (i haven't checked yet but there has to be some odd time signatures). The ending is fucking heavenly.

[tonyresnik]

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[futurewriter2000]

Things I'm going through but can't tell anybody:

I don't eat. I eat too little and that is mostly because of my father.

I haven't talked to my father in mo ths even though I live with him. I feel like I'm going to go crazy inside this apartment with him. The amaunt of hatred I have for this man, makes me want to cry. I can't look at him in the eyes, I can't eat his food and I can't be in his presence. I tell people I'm fine but this situation is really torturing me because I see other people having normal fathers and mine is just a selfish drunk, who hates me.

I'm in love with this boy, who we started as friends with benefits and I told him I have feelings for him multiple times but he always shut me down. Somehow, the times we ended things, the whole friends with benefits, we always came back together and I always feel stronger. My feelings for him are so strong he's the one thing I think about when I wake up and before I go to sleep. I dream of him and he's constantly in my head. Now, what I'm doing js avoiding him because I do deserve better than the way he's treating me but it's hard when you love somebody like that. He's became my person through all this year. He became my best friend... And now I have to prepare myself to lose all of that.

I'm the saddest person. I know people see me as funny and happy and a bit crazy but that's all the mask I wear because I deel like I cannot be volnurable with the person I truly am, which is sad. People don't like sad people. They pity them and I do not want to be pitied but deep down I am so sad. Icannot tell you the amaunt of sadness I carry inside of me. I just do. I'm not depressed... I'm just always so sad.

I wish I lived with my mum but my mom doesnt care. She broke a promise by saying she will get an apartment and bring me to her but it's been four years and I stopped expecting that 2 years ago. I love my mom like the world but I'm so mad because she left and now all she saying is "Just get out oft here as soon as possible." Like you're supposed to take me with you! You're supposed to save me from this but you didn't. All you do is 3njoy your own life and dictate mine like its that easy. Do you know how many things I cant do because of the way my parents are? The way my father is? Of course, other people can judge me why I still don't have a drivers license and why I act the way I do and why I needed to add one more year to finish one of the hardest schools everbut they never lived what I lived through and they mever experienced what I did. Most people that judged me had parents that gave them everything, that took away their worries. Mine give them to me. I was taking care of my own finances since I was 15. I started working when I was 17. I had no money for a coffee, for a drink, for anything. It was tortuous being a kid of these two parents. But nobody will ever understand what's it like living a different life than them. And nobody will understabd what's it like not having everything served on their plate and doing everything by yourself since you were 15 year old. Nobody will understand how alone it has felt for 7 years, with no help, nobody to believe in you but everybody discouraging you and judging you and letting you know how stupid you are because you take longer to accomplish things than most people. Well, I do a lot of things by myself with 0 help from anybody. Not a single effort. Everything I do is by myself, every single percent. So I am a sad and angry person deep down and nobody knows that... Because nobody really cares.

[doughnotdisturb]

What if i told you things i hide?

And what if i told you what i'm going through nights?

If i'll be volnurable to you

I'm sure your heart will break in two

[ruvi-muffin]

Me, who has religious trauma: sure wish cr would acknowlege how brainwashing prays on volnurable individuals to make them into perpetrators of abuse, thus continuing the cykle of religious trauma.

Cr: the bad cult magician has religious trauma.

Me: *is triggered*

Me: i don't know what i expected tbh

[nadied]

GOD! This is maybe my last time here. Such a volnurable moment. I'll do my best loves♡ #volnurable #goodtimes #adreamcometrue #asummertoremember #sotired #minimal #ifanxietyhasaface #grownup #amfitheatrofoviaenopsi #lovemylife #kiasgkriniazw #lustforlife #believeinyourself #loveyourselffirst #nids #nadiaisdeadsimon #nadiadrogouli (στην τοποθεσία Patras, Greece)

[lylethewarblerguy]

2, 10 and 17 for the ask game

2. Are there any popular fandom OTPs you only BroTP?

I’m not really into romance at all so I feel like most fandom OTPs are BroTPs for me. But some examples would be Faberry, Hevans, Quinntana, Tartie, and St. Berry. Now idk how popular any of those are but I see them a fair amount.

Honestly the only pairings I actively ship are Brittana, Tike, Kurtbastian, and Burt and Carole (idk what their ship name is). Everyone else I either don’t care about or just broship.

10. Most disliked arc? Why?

The Klaine SA arc. I hate that they did that and then not only did they not even acknowledge that it was SA. But they made KURT apologise! For what? Not going along with being assaulted??? After which they went forward like that wasn’t a big deal.

Second most disliked is the Klaine emotional abuse arc in tested. Where Blaine straight up admits for wanting Kurt to be volnurable and dependent on him. But then the show spins that into being like totally normal for queer couples. Which it isn’t??? It’s literally the definition of emotional abuse. And then the show just moves on from that like it was nothing.

Really all the abuse stuff. Like every time they’d have someone do something abusive and then just not acknowledge that it was abuse and move on like it’s normal. Which happened way too much. And which was even worse with Klaine because they kept spinning it like that’s just how queer relationships are.

17. Instead of XYZ happening, I would have made ABC happen…

I have a lot of answers to this. I mean the main one is that I would have made Klaine break up forever, at any point really, and just made Kurt either end up happy and strong on his own or get an actual healthy relationship.

But, for the purposes of not just talking about how much I hate Klaine all the time, another thing that I would have done is change the season 4 Warblers arc.

It just doesn’t make sense to me at all why they’d do drugs and risk getting disqualified, getting suspended, getting their reputation tarnished, and, for those in sports, getting kicked off their sports teams for what? To win a competition that canonically they’ve never lost? (If I remember correctly) And they didn’t even do anything extreme or anything that needed them to do drugs, so it was completely unnecessary.

Not to mention they’d already be better than the New Directions anyway?? Cause they were shit. Which is another point, I would’ve made the New Directions actually good enough to compete with the other teams.

What I would’ve done instead of that arc depends. First off I’d make the Warblers win outright, rather than because Marley fainted. Then, if I needed the New Directions to go on in the competition, I would have either made the Warblers get disqualified for something else that’d be actually in character for them. Or I would have made just Hunter the only one doing drugs. And then I would’ve made them need to do a redo of the competition. At which point I would’ve made the New Directions actually good and had them win for real.

[ehud1564]

AU where Theo could only fly for one episode. He loses his ability after that episode. Either because he thinks it doesn't worth it because it requires too much concentration and leaves him volnurable. Or because he finds it burning him out.

[realtransfacts]

I think I am a trans boy, but I am scared to identify as that because I don't know if it will change my relationship with my best friend. I know he will still love me and he will always support and accept me, but... I was always so proud of our girl/boy friendship, especially because so many people told us that "girls and boys can't be friends". And I'm scared that he will feel different about me when I'm no longer a girl, even though he would never tell me that...

It’s okay to be scared. Coming out is almost always a nerve wracking experience, even when it’s to someone who you know you can trust. Sharing such a personal part of yourself with someone puts you in a very volnurable position most of the time. So it makes sense to worry.

If you really want to come out to him but can’t manage to do it face to face, coming out through text is a valid option. Though a text message, a letter, whatever you want. That also gives you the opportunity to phrase yourself exactly how you want and you won’t risk stumbling over your words. Even just writing what you wrote to me here could function as a coming out text!

[justgleekout]

Top 5 head cannons? :)

Omg, sorry these are so LONG! but I think about this stuff a lot. Oops. 

1. After the wedding crashing in s6 Kurt decides that a wedding like that isn’t what he wanted. He wanted to plan his wedding since he was two years old so they needed to redo it. “Thanks Britt and Santana for letting us crash your wedding but it wasn’t very us so we’re gonna do it again! Soz!” So Kurt and Blaine get to plan their own wedding and they make it excactly the way they want it. Kurt get’s to be a groomzilla from time to time but Blaine always manages to calm him down. They invite all their own friends and family. COOPER WILL BE THERE. They sing duets and they have a first dance. The warblers come and perform. And Kurt honers his mom and Finn. Getting merried is wonderful but doing it without your mom and brother is hard and this should be mentioned!!! Finn is Kurt’s best man in spirit. 

2. (I’m sorry, this one is about who tops. SUE ME. I’ve just thought about this a LOT.) As time went by they became versitile, but it didn’t start off that way. Blaine has always been a very happy bottom (yes even their first time) liking all ways of having sex and just enjoying all kurt gives him. PowerBottom!Blaine for the win! Kurt wasn’t always as confidant about sex. He also struggled with feeling very exposed and volnurable. That’s why he felt more comfortable with the controle of topping, being able to set the pace, etc. Blaine likes it when Kurt takes controle because Kurt is confidant and comfortable and just so very, very sexy. As time went by the boys just tried more and more things and so they started trying to switch things up. Maybe Kurt still tops a bit more often but he now feels comfortable enought to just go with the flow and let Blaine take him apart.

3. (This one is a little sad sorry... also I don’t know how much of this is canon and how much of this is a hc) In s5 Kurt was a distant from Blaine, not really letting him in as he used to do in s3 especially after Blaine moved in. I think this is still because of Blaine’s cheating. Like I mentioned above Kurt struggles with letting himself be voulnerable. After the cheating Kurt becomes very apprehensive. He gets is scared of intimacy (as mentioned in s6) he finds it hard to completely trust Blaine again. Kurt doesn’t want to be fully dependend on Blaine and their relationship. He needs to be his own person so he doesn’t completely fall apart if (god forbid) something happens again. Blaine on the other hand just want to make it right and show Kurt he doesn’t need to be afraid of him ever doing something like that again. This only pushes kurt farther away to the point that he feels too crowded and they break up for second time in s6. 

4. Blaine’s dad isn’t a bad guy. He just struggled with the idea of having a gay son in the beginning, coming from a more conservative background. He tried to make it easyer by the car fixing (doing this moslty to try and keep a connection with him), but he later learned to except and love his son just the way he is. (in Shooting Star Blaine says he stayed up all night hugging his parentS).

5. Kurt secretly likes Blaine’s nerdy things like starwars and superhero stuff. He manages to hide it for nearly 5 years but then Blaine catches him watching a movie without him and to this day he still teases Kurt about it. But tbh Blaine is mostly just exited he gets to bring someone to the new marvel premiere. 

I have more silly ones like the last one but I needed to get the top four off my chest hahaha 

send me a “top 5 ...”

[kmp78]

Only extremely weak and confused people look up to celebs for that kind of assurance and life lessons, if you ask me… - yes, K, you are absolutely right! To be honest, look at his fandom. Most of people, u can find there are lost, volnurable ones with low self-esteem, looking for some "sense" in their life. When u called yourself Echelon you are a believer. Believer not only in dreams come true, but believer about priciples, values, etc. This community has some philosophy, K. U know, I am right.

Sadly indeed, anon!

JL sure knew which strings to pull to make all those halfwits fall for his cult bs... 🙄