#void + mintea

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{13} bad karma

Body:

Body: Ebody - Reborn

Head: Lelutka - Briannon

Genetics:

Skin: Enfer Sombre - Dollie (porcelain)

Hair: Wings - ER1226 (a + b bangs)

Bangs: Doux - #5 flipped

Brows: Simple Bloom - LivSpring Neutral

Lashes: Void + Mintea - Demure lashes

Eyes: Avi Glam - Malibu eyes

Nails: Conviction - The Claws V2

Horns: Rotten - Chubbi horns

Dimples: Cry BB - Cheek Dimples

Outfit/Accessories:

Collar: Aurica - Doris collar

Bodysuit: Minuit - April bodysuit

Harness: Minuit - Jenna harness

Nostril ring: Dazed - Kawaii nose rings

Septum ring: Punch - Nailed

Cosmetics/Tattoos:

Eyes: Keikumu - Dewdrops eyeshadow

Liner: Hexz - E-Liner V1

Lips: Top1Salon - HD Plump Lipstick V2

Body tattoo: Speakeasy - Pure tattoo (faded)

Face tattoo: Dazed - The Collector (face only, medium)

Bite marks: Dazed - Bites and Scratches (soft) @ Kinky

[curryaboo]

— hiii! i was tagged by @banglatown @bengayli @jentlemahae @chameli aaand @/minteas to do this “get to know me better/20 questions” tag!! thank u so much beauts!! <3<3<3<3<3

🪁 what do you prefer to be called name-wise?

rao is absolutely fine!! <33

🪁 when is your birthday?

oct 13 :) i share it with some,, prominent people in popular culture and politics which aren’t rlly MY personal faves but wtvr it just goes to prove i’m the superior oct 13 baby !

🪁 where do you live?

the uk :<

🪁 three things you’re doing right now?

answering these questions, sorting out some spotify playlists in between answering these questions & casting my eyes between lines of james acaster’s classic scrapes and my phone (sunny @/amarakaran mentioned the book on one of her tag games n very kindly gave me the link to it and i jumped str8 to reading it! u know you’ve watched too many things featuring james acaster when u now read his book in his exact voice :/)

🪁 four fandoms that have piqued your interest right now?

bbc ghosts (ppl have some amazing theories n opinions surrounding it but i would not advise looking up the tag on here and sorting thru recent god bless youse but there are some awful takes there) aaand idk ig a range of kpop groups but i don’t rlly participate in the fandom sides of things anymore (and i’m not consuming a lot of new media or at least keeping up to date with the media that i do to label myself as being interested in being part of the fandom)

🪁 how is the pandemic treating you?

icl now that i’m seeing it in retrospect, it’s been cruel in the sense that it’s taken a lot of important things away from me (my last two years of high school for example i’m rlly bummed abt that) & stunted me in some ways but regardless i’ve learnt a lot about myself and my friends & family and yeah i’ve learnt to cherish myself and my loved ones all the same :)

🪁 song you can’t stop listening to right now?

boy am i glad this question is here bc since yesterday ? maybe i’ve been listening to gal mitthi mitthi endlesslyyy i think my brain chemicals recognise that we haven’t been to a wedding for the past 2 summers so it tries to fill the void by fixating on this one wedding-y song 💔💔

🪁 recommend a movie

PLS if u haven’t already , pls watch assassination nation bc i need someone to begrudgingly revel with in the absolute shit show pisstake of a movie that this is . (as a side note: my soul will not know peace until kennie jd does a video on it) on a more serious side, english vinglish is one of my most favourite films 10000/10 recommend pls go see it if u haven’t it’s an absolute warm hug of a movie <3

🪁 how old are you?

18 :)

🪁 school, university, occupation, other?

gap year babieee my soul is just wondering the place rn

🪁 do you prefer hot or cold?

cold !!

🪁 name one fact others may not know about you.

uhmm i lived in bangladesh for about 9-10 months when i was abt 4 and it was so amazing i miss it very much :’]

🪁 are you shy?

yes quite shy :} but i will always put effort into getting to know someone or initiating a convo !!

🪁 do you have any preferred pronouns?

i was in turmoil over them rlly but she/they is what i’m comfy with rn ! :D

🪁 any pet peeves?

other than some obvious ones, when ppl open things like crisps packets upside down,, that disgusts me truly

🪁 what’s your favourite “dere” type?

i would be a liar if i said i wasn’t biased towards a good bakadere but not too much that it annoys me lmao

🪁 rate your life 1-10. 1 being really crappy and 10 being the best you could ever be.

hmm rn it’s maybe a 5?? i’m grateful for so many things but there is def a lot of room for improvement :] (actually i just got on a 3 month free trial for spotify today so that just bumped the 5 up to a 6 😌)

🪁 what’s your main blog?

this one right here jaanoo.tumblr.com !!

🪁 list your side blogs and what they’re used for.

i don’t have any but i’ve been thinking of making one for aesthetics or like future references ??

🪁 is there anything you think people need to know about you before becoming friends with you?

uhmm again i am quite shy teehee™️ imo there’s a noticeable difference between when we were yk just friendly towards each other vs when we actually become friends and i’m more comfortable with u . that’s not to say that i was being fake in the earlier instances of u knowing me, i was just a lot more reserved :) i’m also one of those *is online 24/7 but gets virtual interaction burnout every 2 hours so postpones replying to ur message to 3 days later* which sucks skfjdsj but yeah if there was anything that i’d need to know about YOU it’d be if u had any dietary requirements bc i love baking for my friends <333

ok now i’m gonna embarrass myself more than i already have & tag a lot of ppl bc i’m super nosey like that and want to know my mutuals’ answers to these 🥸 ofc u can absolutely ignore this and not want to do it we’re not under any contractual binding here <33 @allenoraaa @okhag @watermlon @gayanese @letteredwingsmain @theropoda @holyself @txtzy @creatures2010 @junqhwans @mistblush @snsdyuri @waterz @derelicthousefootage @killuaology @staycverse @amarakaran @tendermachines @shahrukh-khan @peachysara @firesigns @postmoderncaricatures @horrormanga @iqraars @123dream @sunmisbf @avisachi @bengaligirlfriend @morksuns @czennie-on-top @markvibes @joppin @nyuly @shin-jiyoon @99lover @mithaai @chamelis @thefinalgirlz @nikolailantsovswifey @mehendi @yerification @oneustual @singinginthecar @yejiswife @lovedsoup @mangopickled and uhh tumblr’s not letting me annoy tag anymore ppl so if u wanna do this and ur not on the list (ur in my heart 💕 and in an ideal world where tumblr automatically tags all my mutuals 😑) u can say i tagged u if you’d like!! ^_^

[emanuelstefancu]

I posted 18 times in 2021

17 posts created (94%)

1 posts reblogged (6%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 0.1 posts.

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

Iubirea mea

Descompune... Des, compune... De motif en motif Eeofde. Tu nu dormi vreodată? Tu nu râzi la absurd Tu ești vocea ce mi-a fost dată Dar eu sunt surd. Mă faci și orb? Spui că nu văd? Dar din priviri te sorb Și încerc să mă lepăd. Vreau să regreți Vrei să regret Avem atâtea dimineți Petrecute în secret. Eu - ascuns în torace Tu - printre tâmple Lumile noastre rămân opace Și paharul se umple. Într-un sfârșit e seară Tu mă inviți la un pahar de vorbă Îmi izbutesc o țigară În timp ce tu-mi iei haina la garderobă. Ne privim sub clar de lună Mă știi clișeic și-un romantic fără speranță Îmi faci cunună Și eu cad pradă în a ta aroganță. De vrei să-mi scrii Hai s-o facem reciproc: "Eu vreau să nu mai fii Hai, să fie cu noroc." O vom cânta amândoi când ne-om potrivi Doi afoni aliterați ce caută a se izbăvi Eu de tine, tu de mine Și împreună de Sine. Din gând în gând Ne ferim de virtual Din când în când Ne-amintim de ritual Devenim barbari Tu mă prinzi cu dinții Eu invoc sfinții Și devenim vulgari. M-ai dezbrăcat de formă Eu te dezbrac de orice simț Nebunia ne e dogmă Urcăm și coborâm alt zimț. E miez de noapte Și doar sub ebrietate Te aud... în șoapte "Uite cum se leagă toate." EU este o formă de exprimare Și o să ne regăsim La nesfârșit Iar asta, e cea mai ciudată ♥

2 notes • Posted 2021-12-16 22:41:10 GMT

#4

M-am ascuns printre coloane

Să nu te mai aud

De la bar mi-am luat icoane

Le sărut.

De tâmpla ta îmi sprijin

Dorul mut-

De-ai avea glasul mai blajin

Aș fi mai puțin pierdut.

Mă unduiesc în vină

Poate altă voce o să vină

Să îmi țină de urât

În locul ăsta sfânt.

Sunt un intrus în Rai

Un cărăbuș la final de Mai

Îmi las mintea să zburde

Să mă ducă oriunde.

Miaun-

Stau pe scaun

Aplud cu picioarele

Camera se învârte cu platanele.

Zgârii un gând

Mă las purtat de vânt

E frig, e bine

Nu au cocktail cu măsline.

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2 notes • Posted 2021-12-19 21:00:47 GMT

#3

Portrait for Iulian

You have no arrogance. You just have the illusion. You are a hallway of mirrors pointing at each other: the infinite reflection, the eternal recurrence knocking at one last spot - the one in there but none outside. You are the last dot which by itself it is the Universe. The uplifting downfall of eternity

3 notes • Posted 2021-04-21 19:12:41 GMT

#2

Friend

„Fever paint me a shiver down my spine Like a river of emptiness flowing from head to toes Wrap me in your thorns and make me your rose And bury me in my absurd desire and let it shine: Morph my crumbs into one stone On which one's head can fall asleep On a bed of dirt, dressed up in scorn A Russian doll inside its keep.” Reminiscence of a dying world Diadem on a demon wearing my forehead as shield I look at it; it is so cold By I, I had us healed. I lay down by the stone I flirt with the fever We sync in the river You are no longer alone.

13 notes • Posted 2021-08-13 19:32:23 GMT

#1

It was the lack of attention from my parents which led me here. I kept searching for an intimate partner to fill up the void left by my mother. I kept searching for a friend to fill up the void of my father.

The rest is who I am.

13 notes • Posted 2021-12-06 18:11:56 GMT

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[cronicilenicaieriului]

am visat ca am treaba cu Andrei pe un camp. and you know what that means, right? dark times aheadof me. m-am trezit pentru prima oara in 3 luni si eu dimineata si simt ca am mazga in creier si mucegai in nas si plamani, ma scufund in ele, in cutia mea toracica si ma detasez pana si de urma de ciot a egoului meu, sau ce a ramas din el. Acum sunt nimeci, deci pot sa aleg sa fiu oricine vreau. Azi sunt Iuli si vorbesc in mintea mea cum vorbeste el cu el insusi. Stiu, pentru ca barbatii sunt fiinte necomplexe, usor de citit. i find myself burdened by my wishes and wants and then wishing to dont want anything ever again, to stop being a me, to stop being part of an us. a varied web of consciousness tangled between each other, suffocating me with the inferiorities of human nature, with the undereye circles and fine wrinkles and the loss of hair strains. im so so tired no matter how i sleep. In the hood te shrinks would call this high functioning depression. but even i cant blame myself. not after remembering a little bit of my childhood every day, building me up to the day it can brake me down entirely. The day i will remember will be the day i leave, cause would you, kind stranger with hitten intentions, live the reality im cursed to exist in? To those of you who wish you'd be able to wake up every day and be someone else, im warning you those childish dreams aren't something you actually long for. I am someone new a couple of times a day, puzzle pieces that are placed together in the silliest ways. But does it matter? what do i live for besides the urge to keep the atoms of my flesh together, to consume some nature, some oxygen and leave my dirty prints all over everything i touch? would i change anything in the course of human existence if i stay alive like this? would it matter to you? would it matter to me?  life is a series of rooms and with whom we are in the room makes us who we are, do unto others as they do unto you- these and other principles that build the base of my nature are the things i cling to when i forget i have a face and a name, that im someone's daughter, sister, niece, girlfriend.  I live by taking a breath and then another, doing what im supposed to do while i coexist with the tumor, the void that keeps feeding off me at all times. The void of ghosts and aliens and men with their floppy dicks that haunt me in my dreams, that make me want to master my hidden brain so i can control that when i cant control my body. Control. what a funny concept. like we can do anything to stop what's happening, like we are less than gods who forgot they are just playing a simulation with themselves. like we forgot we are just meat and there is nothing after the great beyond. good morning, im going back to bed.