#v; sobriety is super overrated.

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starter for @kiiteiru !

  he’s drunk. more than a little bit drunk, actually, and maybe even a bit high on some coke. he’s spent the past half an hour swaying in this stranger’s kitchen with a grin plastered on his face, cradling a bottle of whipped cream flavored vodka. at this point, his high was beginning to wear off and his drunken state was still buzzing through his body. he took a swig off the vodka bottle, draining the last bits of it before setting it down on the living room table, collapsing on the couch. the party was still lively and thriving, people flooding in and out of the two story house with energy. his eyes meet those of a stranger, someone towering over him with an expectant look.

  “ yessum ? how may i help youuu ? klaus hargreeves, resident idiot and medium at your service ! ”

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starter for @kiiteiru ! - song: teenagers by my chemical romance.

  he gives a sigh and flourish of his hand, leaning back against the wall, “ because the drugs never work, they’re gonna give you a smirk, ‘cause they got methods of keeping you clean. ”

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starter for @ycnggods !

  he’d had a migraine all morning. more particularly, when he was awake. he was attempting to sleep the day away since he was actually OUT of pills to pop or something to drink, face down in mara’s couch. the last thing he wanted was to get up, face the day, and find somewhere else to sleep--especially because he was out of money, which meant no drugs, no booze, and no food. so this time when mara attempts to wake him up, he just groans in response, turns over, and rubs hands over his face.

  “ mara. please. kill me. i just want to sleep. like, forever. ” he sighed, voice groggy. 

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starter for @fuckingvictus !

  “ so, ” he begins, clicking his tongue and tilting his head. he takes a look around the room, poking around the various crystals on display and herbs in jars. “ you’re the owner of this place, right ? ”  he gives a slight grin, finger pointed towards the jars. “ you got anything i can smoke ? ” and then, “ kidding, kidding. but you’re the owner, yes ? ” he’s not kidding.

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“i know this hurts, but you have to stay awake.” - jay to klaus cos whoops my hand slipped.

hurt meme !

  his head is tilted back and his eyes keep fluttering shut, a flurry of mixed emotions and sensations floating through his body, delicately, almost, but simultaneously hitting him like a storm. he hums in acknowledgement of hearing their voice, although it was echo-y and distant in his head. he tries to keep his eyes open but repetitively fails–but he’s not worried. he’d done this many times, ten times, a thousand. it wasn’t anything he wasn’t used to. he’d gone through the process of OVERDOSING and coming back far too many to count, and although he wasn’t alone, it wasn’t unlike any of the others. he’d likely make it out just fine, but there was still that distant worry that tapped at the back of his brain, making sure he was right in this thought process. “ ‘m–’m here, i’m…hmm.. ” he mumbled, only then noticing just how dry his mouth was. 

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“please don’t do this, don’t act like you care.” - kat to klaus

hurt meme !

  “ d-don’t act like i CARE ? what do you mean, i DO care ! ” his frustration that she can’t see that is certainly starting to show, hands reaching to rub at the back of his neck. “ i don’t get what i’m doing WRONG here, i care about you, kat, i really do. ” his lip goes into a pout and he takes a minute to take a deep breath, gaze diverting to over his shoulder. “ i mean, what could i do ? what can i do to help you, ‘cause that’s all i really wanna do, kat. i just wanna help. ” 

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klaus, i love your relationship with mara. it seems you are really protective of her & you want the best for her. is she like a sister to you? :D

send me stuff !

  “ yeah, yeah, i guess you could say that ! she’s like, a little tiny puppy dog that needs protecting. ”

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for @ofmagicandpcwer / continued from here !

  he nods slowly at her suggestion, sticking hands deep into his pockets to keep himself from noticeably fidgeting. he had to get used to not being able to protect people he considered family. he’d tried and failed with luther, five, ben, vanya, practically the whole goddamn family. nobody wanted to listen to some junkie who was too busy getting into trouble himself, but he couldn’t help his protective tendencies. he’d seen too much damage. thus why he distanced himself from the rest of them at an early age. if they didn’t want to hear his opinion, then he wasn’t going to stick around for much longer--and with the fact that they’ve reunited recently in light of their father’s death, he felt like he was having deja vu. but hey, he had the end of the world to consider this time...not that he’d mention any details of THAT to anybody who wasn’t involved.

  he sighed and leaned back against the wall, closing his eyes. “ you’re right. you’re right, i can be there for you while you’re here, and that’s all that matters. ” it took a lot in him to not attempt to convince her otherwise. it was just hard, knowing he had such little control over his siblings who were bound to get themselves in trouble sooner or later. mara may not be blood related to him, but he felt a desperate need to take after her. something about seeing himself in her had a drastic effect on the way he felt like treating her. “ of course i’ll stay, of course. you actually listen to me, unlike SOME people. ”

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📱 - jay and klaus! (forgot to do this earlier lol)

send 📱 for five texts my muse didn’t send yours, and one that they did !

 → jay ☆: sometimes i get really concerned about you. i know you insist that you’re doing just fine but i can’t help but worry sometimes. i guess in that way i’m kind of like my mom

 → jay ☆: if you ever need me to help you with something, please just let me know. i know you’re not incapable but sometimes i need to be useful so i don’t get caught in my mind and it’s okay to admit that you need help sometimes

 → jay ☆: i’m about to break and i need to numb it before it gets out of control. i can’t handle things like i used to anymore.

 → jay☆: i hope you don’t think i misuse any of the resources you’ve given me. i couldn’t be more grateful but i don’t know how to express that in a way that seems sincere without getting too serious, too close for comfort.

 → jay ☆: i feel the world slipping around me sometimes

 → jay ☆: do you have any aspirin ? i have a splitting headache. 

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📱eyesxfire!

send 📱 for five texts my muse didn’t send yours, and one that they did !

  → mara ☆: i don’t get why you haven’t given up on me yet. i’m a humiliation. i’m a mess. i don’t do anything right. you should just give up while you can. i’m literally useless.

  → mara ☆: i can’t wait until the day where you eventually find out i’m useless and let me die like i deserve to. i have no use on earth anymore. why do you think i preoccupy myself with drugs? sometimes living is too painful

  → mara ☆: what is there about me to love? i don’t get it. i don’t get you

  → mara ☆: sorry, you’re just wasting your time sticking around a junkie with self esteem issues. i can’t do anything right anymore. i don’t know if i ever have to be honest.

  → mara ☆: thank you for sticking around.

  → mara ☆: uhh yeah i’m fine, why do you ask ?

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“i just want to be numb, i don’t want to feel anything.” // mara @ klaus in her new verse!

hurt meme !

  he furrows his eyebrows and shakes his head, fingers curling into his shirt at his rib cage. “ hey, no, don’t say that, ” his voice is soft, although it carries a slight tone of disagreement, “ that’s absolutely not what you want. it’s OKAY to feel upset sometimes, t-to really get down on yourself, you know ? it’s not a bad thing, it’s just…a thing ! a thing we all have to deal with. a suck-y thing, but it shows you still care, you know ? ”

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❝ nothing’s gonna take you from my side. ❞ // mara @ klaus :D

caring sentence starters !

  he hums a dull note and shakes his head, leaning back in his spot on the counter top. “ well, that’s a SWEET sentiment, but a very untrue one, i’m afraid. ” there were many things that kept from him staying in one place for too long. a perpetual longing to not get comfortable, almost like there’d be consequences if he did. something that itched at his skin like a fever, made his anxiety build until it leaked from his pores. “ sorry to disappoint, ” he sighs.  

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“i won’t get hurt, i promise.” //mara to klaus!

protector / protectee starters !

  “ no, no, mara, you don’t KNOW that, ” he gives a nervous sigh, hands shaking as jitters run their course through his body. he was going through a couple days worth of withdrawal against his will ( ben had gotten under his skin again ) , and it was making it hard when half the people he knew and cared about were deciding to participate in dangerous activities–including mara. “ it’s not safe, you know that. someone else can take the mission, just please, don’t go. ” his ptsd was honestly in full force at the moment. it was a dangerous mission that had killed ben. he just didn’t want to relive that with someone he considered a little sister.

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starter for @pistollips !

  “ look-- ” he glances back and forth down the ally way, tapping chipped black nail polish clad nails against a bony hip before looking back to atty, eyes wide and distraught, “ i know i look like i don’t need the cocaine. BUT--and i make a very compelling argument--i really want some coke. like, badddd. so please, atty ? be my knight and shining armor ? ”

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‘of course i care. you’re my family.’ //vanya @ klaus!

different ways to say i love you !

  he’s almost bordering on angry with her comment, can’t help the way that rage builds in his system and threatens to boil over into something uncontrollable. he swallows the feeling down until it hits his throat, nails digging deep into his arms that were crossed over his chest. “ yeah, sure, ” he plays into it, unable to meet eyes with her. “ because CLEARLY, every family member must care about you, just on the basis that you’re family. ” the glare he shoots her cuts deep, lips pursed unhappily in a line. “ sorry, i just don’t get that family means you inherently care about each other--even if you’re supposed to. ” 

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⎈ //angclwithshotgun :D

letters / prompt meme - 013. a letter from the past !

dear mara,

  “ it’s hard for me to write this, partially because i don’t really know how to explain this kind of stuff. my life growing up was really wild. i was a SUPERHERO–but a useless one. most of my other siblings, with an exception of vanya, had actually useful superpowers. luther had super strength, diego had throwing accuracy, particularly with knives, allison had mind control, five could manipulate time and space, ben had these CRAZY looking tentacles that could come out of his body–and then there was me and vanya. vanya, the poor girl, couldn’t do anything at all, but what could i do ? communicate with the dead ? how should THAT help me on missions ? 

  on top of feeling useless and ignored my entire childhood, we also had a terrible father. he was a shitty dad, to say the least. really, i don’t know why he bothered adopting us seven besides our powers, because honestly, that man was AWFUL at being a father. he’d lock me up in a crypt overnight to erase my fear of the dead, but honestly, it only made it worse. he was shitty and distant and actually the worst thing to happen to all of us. being forced to fight crime while other kids got to watch cartoons was one of the worst parts of it. we grew up far too fast. i don’t really know why i’m telling you this, other than you deserve to know, and i don’t know who else to tell that doesn’t already know. i just hope you’ll listen. ”