#uuuugh im frustrated

[chrismcshell]

i haven't been able to get much done over the past couple days because i've been too tired, and i've been too tired because i've been staying up too late, because i am a fool. i am in a hell of my own making. what else is new

[literupture]

Ugh this medication makes me vom and it fucking sucks

Like, it's frustrating bc I feel nauseous from it just about every time I eat, and then a few times now my body has just straight up been like nope, get that out of here right now.

What's worse is that one of my meds has to be taken with food, so like now im just trying to keep down 2 crackers + my meds atm, and it sucks soooo bad man. Fuck.

I'm also up later than I should be because of this. Is like to brush my teeth and get to bed but I'm really just focusing on not vomiting again ;-; uuuugh maybe I should get off this med...

[mistergoddess]

uuuugh fuck >:( fuck it's so fucking frustrating like... there's always an air bubble in my shot?? bc when i change from drawing needle to injecting needle there's air in the injecting needle, and then i have to pull back to make sure there's no blood and that pulls the air bubble up into the syringe... and then i inject and the air bubble goes in and 1 i think it makes it more painful and then 2 im really fucking bad at getting clean entry lmao because im scared as hell of it still so it's still always slow and my hands are shaky and wiggle and ouchy so like i think idk the.... hole... is... bigger???? lol??? than if i just stabbed like ur supposed to <3 AND LIKE. inevitably. right after i pull it out. it just dribbles back out SOOO MUCH of the solution bc the air bubble is like forcing it back up thru the hole?? and it really upsets me to feel like im losing any tiny amount like i need all of it yknow idfk and i try to apply pressure so it doesnt get pushed out by blood or the air but it still just dribbles some out and i haaaaaate i hate that :( i already always feel like i lose some to like, what gets left behind in the drawing needle, and on the second dose in the vial its always way harder to get that last bit out so it's always slightly under the 0.5ml... and ahhh :( aaaaaah... it's fine! it's still working! but injecting is just consistently so fucking hard. ive gotten a lot better at not freaking out so bad but uuugh! ugh! i just feel like im fucking it up and not doing it good enough lmao :(

[corvidinthewoods]

fucking annoyed at the people posting leaked owl house spoilers on tiktok with little to no warning. even if they put a text box on the video, it still starts right away and uuuugh im frustrated

[fucktheroyals]

idk how to explain everyone having a different "opinion" about Anakin and why he went to the dark side and why darth vader does what he does is so fvcking depressing.

[bootlickerhawks]

[blurrysins]

Can I go like??? One week without a nightmare???? Please brain. Or at the very least don't give me sleep paralysis.

[xyfanficarchive]

OOOOOOFFFFF im about three seconds away from writing an alexei fic and i KNOW i shouldnt because i have way more important shit to do and also im getting way too caught up in researching the common grammatical errors in native Russian speakers’ learner English but FUCK i need to put content out 4 my boi becos the tag seems to be slow....

[thewellatsyene]

Also I was browsing through the blue Sargent tag and I couldn't find ANYTHING on how she's a tree person whatever you call it, thing. Like it explains why shes always felt connected to them and apparently also why she loves the stars??? Bc tree people always long to be a part of them or whatever I don't know I have terrible memory but I really really would like to B directed to a ten page in depth discussion on what this means, like this WHOLE other world basically that there is to unload here, and how blue decides to deal with it??? Like??????? Is she going to, ya know just ... Woohoo I'm a tree now idk. Idk idk!!!! That's why I was looking for someone else to do the K-ing for me!!!!

[finex09]

I FORGOT I HAD A HORN LESSON SCHEDULED TODAY AND MY HORN PROFESSOR SENDS ME A GIF OF EMMA STONE SINGING "ALL BY MYSELF" AND I'VE NEVER FELT THIS HORRIBLE AND GUILTY MY ENTIRE LIFE

[meg3point0]

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[jugandbettsdetectiveagency]

I’ve known for a while that I have pcos but it’s been flaring up particularly bad recently and it’s just such a frustrating ailment to have and no one really knows/cares about it. Doctors will say oh just go on the pill and do some exercise you’ll be fine. It sucks.

Not only does it have bigger health risks like increased risk of heart disease, ovarian cancer and infertility but it makes you feel like crap. Most of the side effects seem superficial but can you imagine growing up in a world that constantly pushes the ridiculous, rigid expectation of femininity and beauty on all young women, and have to go through easy weight gain, increased acne (all over your body) and oily skin, dandruff, excessive hair growth all over your body, hair thinning from your head, irregular periods and severe cramping, and commonly pcos is the cause of depression and anxiety. And then being someone who has not just a couple but all of these symptoms.

And it’s not just experiencing these things but also being judged for them, when they are things completely out of your control. To be ashamed for having this genetic disorder, but then unjustified in your upset because it’s just not something people talk or know that much about. Is it really that bad are you just obsessed with your looks, other people have it so much worse than you. Researching and finding out that preventative measures only go so far and will mean having to cut things out of your lifestyle that you love and it just feels unfair.

I will never really feel beautiful or feminine or comfortable because of this thing and the stigma attached to its symptoms and it just really, really sucks.

[depressed-alone]

I just want to take a god damn shower and wash my hair but no the universe fucking hates me once again

[girltomboy]

I'm so sad :( my bf has been... sad I think... today, and we hung out a bit, but he went to "take a nap" around 8pm which I HATE because a) it's a late nap and he almost never sleeps normally afterwards, and b) he for sure isn't gonna wake up when he said he would. And the last time I spam called him to wake up he got mad at me. And it's making me upset that he puts it on me to call him and wake him up instead of setting an alarm, but if I call "too many times" until he wakes up then he gets angry. So I can't win. But I'm legit not gonna call him anymore, idc. And he said a thing tonight that got me sad, which I'm not writing here because I don't want to get sad again when I reread this post later. But after he hung up to nap I cried and I feel like that wasn't all. I'm stressing out again... not having many classes isn't helping much cause it means I don't do much all day. But I think if I had more classes it would have burned tf out of me, since I can barely make it through 2 hours of classes with my attention span intact. Speaking of attention span, I was thinking earlier how bad mine got since... Idk. Being confined at home 24/7 with nothing to do, or with no ability to meet people and socialize. And also being traumatized by an entire year as if it were an evil entity. So I was thinking how to fix it. Like wtf is there to do about it? Do I have ADHD? In fact, I avoid doing a lot of things because they make me depressed, such as watching TV shows or movies, or listening to music, or reading. Everything makes me end up feeling miserable. But anyway... one of the suggestions on google was to meditate. Another mentioned exercise. I definitely want to work out again, but I have to be off my period, or wait for it to be lighter. It cheers me up. I hope it works again.

[toaoti-a]

l mao

[zerotometal]

I feel this so hard it’s unbelievable

I spent the day fighting with my dad on Facebook about climate change, providing endless sources for my arguments, calmly repeating and repeating. He said this (so dangerously close to getting the point)

And then the last bit of contact we had was this

To which I replied "That's exactly what's happening!" And he didn't respond. He's so close to getting it he's just so determined to be right wing he doesn't want to see it.