#upsanddown

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

[justpostingavibe]

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[caethiscaethat]

OWNING A BUSINESS

Learning how to file a small claim in court, so I can go after MF's who owe me money.

THEY'RE GOING TO LEARN NOT TO MESS WITH THIS BUSINESS

[darkcranemedia]

I have found sub-basements to rock bottom, and climbed my way back up. I have endured things that would have made some others give up. I have clawed my way back from the bottom time and again and not only will I continue to do so, I will lend you my hand to help pull you up with me. Never give up. Stay strong. You have it in you to best whatever life throws at you. BB

[tonyastahlrealtor]

😉 Happy National Roller Coaster Day 🎢

[ohhsillybrii]

Working with Bravery & Shutting out Fear

"It is within me, so I have to will it into existence."

Imagine not second-guessing yourself and getting things done. Staying true to your plans and ultimately showing yourself that you are in control. It’s a wild game to play, not to mention fun! I’ve been working on doubting myself less; it gets triggered within me when I get scared. Is this you too? I used to claim the title of perfectionist. It was my go-to strength and weakness when prompted…

[ourinternallandscapetarot]

"Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving."

— Albert Einstein

Instagram @ourinternallandscapetarot

[healing-with-bunnie]

Another horrible, yet wonderful year

It's December again, and I find myself reflecting on where I was at in January. it has been another incredibly complicated year with ups and downs just like the rest.

Exactly a year ago at the beginning of last December, I got out of the hospital again, It's seemingly routine for me for most holiday seasons to need a trip to the mental hospital. A few days after getting out of the hospital it was clear that moving in with my best friend and her partner was the best option for me. Living alone had been incredibly detrimental to my mental health.

Living with my best friend and being in a loving home environment for the first time in my life was quite literally life-changing to me. And I quit my job in fast food management as that was incredibly demanding in ways that were just simply too draining for me. in between that job and my next, I attended an IOP program (intensive outpatient program) essentially equating to 24 hours a week of therapy. which was very hard but in my time there I had made a new friend, and stabilized myself quite a bit. graduating IOP is one of my biggest accomplishments this year.

This year really challenged family dynamics, as due to quite a few different things I was forced to see both of my parents in a horrible new light, which has been incredibly depressing and freeing at the same time. As all i really ever wanted was to feel loved by a family.

While my own family was quite the sore subject, I got closer with my best friend, and her mother who have both been there for me for so long now, it's really been a transition from blood family to found family this year.

then by the beginning of spring, all hell broke loose, as if the ice and snow melting seemingly released some kind of pandora's box on me. Most of spring and summer was kind of a blur at this point.

As I had what I consider to be, the absolute worst month of my life, April 7th my great aunt died, a woman who had been a safe place for me for as long as I can remember. The only family member by whom I felt loved unconditionally, her home had been my safe place. somewhere nothing bad could ever happen. When life was too overwhelming I would escape to her house. Where she would let me eat whatever I wanted, and we would watch whatever I wanted and just talk. I was closer to her than I ever was to either of my parents. Losing her was equal parts devastating and also a relief.

She had been sick most of her life, and the last 3 years of her life were horrible. As awful as it sounds I wished she had died sooner, she was single-handedly the greatest woman I had ever met. She had been a nurse for most of her life, with a very strong attitude and sense of humor. Her birthday was November 11th, and after 2000 she would always use her birthday to remember those who had died in the tragedy. She was truly a selfless woman, being the safe haven for the children in my family who had less-than-stellar parents.

Her funeral was about a week or two later, the second funeral I had ever attended. It was so beautiful and perfect and she would have loved every single detail of it. We spent just as much time laughing as we did crying as she would have wanted. I got the honor of being the last person to speak at her funeral, with a letter I had written to her the day after she died. and I also got plenty of time alone with her urn as people were downstairs.

I got dumped by my boyfriend of 7 or 8 months a day or two later, and it's pretty safe to say I felt as though my life was a complete wreck. And I had just started my new job, and was constantly emotional, crying at the drop of a hat over everything. an overnight shift I had to cover at a hotel for about a month.

A little over a week into that job, my son almost died, and I felt as though I could never catch a break. but I continually used my overnight shift with all of that time alone to myself to journal, and just sit with myself and all the stuff I had just faced.

I'm no stranger to adversity or hardship though, and I just kept trucking through. It seems that the turning point of this year would be my 20th birthday, my son's father and I always made a point to see each other once a year. And I would text him pretty regularly, especially when my relationships would begin to fail and I would find myself single.

Admittedly, I am oblivious, and although my love for him never truly went away even though it had been 4 years since we had ended our relationship I never picked up on the fact that the feeling was entirely mutual.

So when a nasty storm had ruined my plans for my birthday, he drove two hours in torrential downpours to pick me up. two hours back to his mother's in which I would not stop talking the whole time. I wont go into detail of what happened when we got to his home, but I will say this when he kissed me every feeling I thought I had been able to get over finally came flooding back to me.

That kiss felt like it was the most right kiss in my entire life, like every other time anyone else had ever kissed me it always felt wrong and uncomfortable. and at one point he looked into my eyes and said that they were still so beautiful. I was still fighting my real feelings so I punched him in the chest and called him bro.

That afternoon changed the course of my life, as I was only supposed to be living with my best friend until October. though it was only I was struggling to find a place for myself one that I could bring my son to. (I would like to note that I am leaving out some other important details of what happened this year as that is a story for another day)

The next day my son's father started his apprenticeship, as he was finally home from all of his navy training. we would continue to see each other in secret, and talk non-stop. I finally broke down and explained some things to him about my life that I had been keeping secret from everyone. and He promised he would help me.

we officially started dating almost two weeks later at the beginning of August, and by the end of the month he had found an apartment for us then by October he and I began to set in motion something to fix those background details. Which again is a story for another day when I am actually able to tell it.

But as it stands now, here in December, looking back on the crazy rollercoaster that was my 2023, I am thankful, I started this year feeling completely defeated and alone but through the love and patience of my best friend and her partner, I was able to pull myself out of that dark spot enough to finally begin working on myself and growing. I was able to heal and grow enough to impress my son's father, show him how much I had truly changed since we broke up in 2019, and rekindle our relationship. Currently, our relationship is better than it has ever been.

And I am more hopeful than ever, that finally after 20 years I will be able to get free of the blood that has poisoned me for all of my life and build bonds that will free me.

While I know life won't be easy, finally for the first time in my life I know I will never face anything as hard as I have in the past. I will face more unexpected challenges, but now I have the strength to pull myself up and support that will catch me if I fall.

[digital-bud]

Poem | School of thought | Steering wheel

Poem | School of thought | Steering Wheel

Image Courtesy: pixel.com On the road of life, with a steering wheel in hand,I navigate through twists and turns, it’s just as planned.But when traffic jams and potholes abound,I keep my sense of responsibility, and my spirits unbound.With honks and chaos all around the lane,I find a funny twist to ease the strain.A chuckle in the traffic, a smile behind the wheel,Motivation to stay calm, it’s…

[theloulouge]

Reminder Reflections 81

I’m thankful for all of it.The highs. The lows.The blessings. The lessons.The setbacks. The comebacks.The hate. The love.Everything.

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

Some days, I’m healing, and some days, I break again.

[thetshirtlady]

Life will have its ups and downs but stay Persistent! 🙏🏽🌞🌱🖤 #Persistence #Life #UpsAndDowns #DontGiveUp https://thetshirtlady.com/product/persistence/

[teamoatedepois]

Ups and downs routine

At times, I become overwhelmed by my own thoughts, and everything around me begins to hurt me once again, more intensely than before. It's a feeling that prompts me to retreat and seek solitude to avoid the escalating, excruciating pain. People don't always understand what I'm going through, but it's okay. They still care about me and want me to be happy.

We all have different ways of dealing with tough times.

In my case, I have discovered that my way of dealing with pain is the best for me, and I cannot do it any other way.

I take slow, deep breaths, maintain faith in the path ahead, and seek divine guidance to overcome the pain. Despite the agony that persists, I've found the most effective for me to progress.

[edgeinc]

Life is like a roller coaster

G'day mates! 

Today, I'm gonna spin you a yarn about living life through the ups and downs, as they say in the land down under. 

Life is like a rollercoaster, mate, with its highs and lows, twists and turns. 

But if you hold on tight and ride it out, you're in for one hell of a journey.

First up, let me tell you a little story about my mate, Barry. 

He was a real Aussie bloke, tough as nails, and always up for a good time. 

But one day, he hit a rough patch. His missus left him, he lost his job, and he felt like he was stuck in a rut. 

But instead of giving up, he decided to take control of his life and make some changes.

He started hitting the gym, getting fit, and looking after himself. 

He applied for a new job and nailed the interview, landing himself a sweet new gig. 

And he even started seeing someone new, a real corker of a sheila. 

Things were finally looking up for Barry.

But then, just when he thought he had it all figured out, life threw him another curveball. 

His mum got sick and needed round-the-clock care. 

Barry was torn between his job, his new love, and looking after his mum. It was a tough time, mate. 

But he soldiered on, knowing that he couldn't let his family down.

And you know what? 

He made it through. 

His mum got better, he found a way to balance work and his personal life, and he even managed to take a much-needed holiday with his new sheila. 

Barry learned that life is all about taking the good with the bad and riding the ups and downs with a positive attitude.

So, what's the moral of this story? 

Well, it's simple, really. Life is unpredictable, and you're gonna face some tough times. 

But if you keep your head up, stay positive, and take action, you'll come out the other side stronger than ever before. 

So, grab life by the scruff of the neck, mate, and enjoy the ride.

[keithbfitness]

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