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who knew a book abt eels could be so goddamn depressing
#scatmaan complains#i finished it a few days ago#still not doing ok#my guy rlly ended the book on#two examples of times humanity wiped out an entire species#upon first discovering#and both species put up zero fight#and one was even recorded as mourning their dead#several days after one had been killed#:'(((#and then throws the fact that eels are critically endangered#n only declining faster#and then wrote abt his dad dying of cancer#like okkkkk broooo#damn#teared up a bit reading it#also the two species were the dodo and the sea cow
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i think two things can be true at once so when i say i think rick didn't plan on piper being queer until years after she was introduced and until he saw years worth of fan reception and reactions + i think piper being queer is amazing and makes complete sense for her character arc and explains a lot about the way she has acted in the books starting as early as TLH, i do not see them as contradictory or wrong.
#the way he wrote jiper made it seem like he was fully convinced they were good at the time#and were destined to be together#but he changed his mind and continued their story differently#in a way that was still compelling and good#which is great! i love that#and its hard to change something like that and still make it good#and i think he managed to make it better#so this is more praise than criticism#pjo#heroes of olympus#hoo#percy jackon and the olympians#jason grace#piper mclean#also another thought that i dont think makes any of this contradictory#i love how he portrayed piper's confusion surrounding her orientation#especially as a cishet man#it's surprisingly relatable and greatly written#even if jason wasnt meant to be piper questioning at first#he built upon her previous relationship with jason so well#in a way that made her discovering she likes women so relatable#anyways!
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they praise a false idol
#banebabbles#animal well#animal well spoilers#just in case. lol#anyways FUCK these dogs#i got lucky and did this on my first try but the song that the ghost dog makes stresses me out SO MUCH lol#anyways i thought this immediately upon discovering this room so i had to make a dumb post
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Random fun fact about me: when I was about 10-14 years old, I had a phase where I was just OBSESSED with cooking shows like Chopped. I don’t even know how many I watched, it was kinda weird.
Anyway, episode 31—for how unhinged and wild it is—makes me feel as if I was in middle school again, watching these cooking shows with bated breath. It’s nice.
#this and the entirety of the icebound campaign just brings me back to my middle school era#hell that quiz I made?#that was the first fandom related quiz I’ve made since middle school#I even used the same site that I was on during middle school#before i discovered Wattpad or ao3#i honestly think I would’ve really enjoyed loa if I knew of it’s existence in middle school#or if I had given D&D a chance before fhe end of highschool#idk it’s just. they keep giving me an odd sense of nostalgia. it’s nice.#there’s not much I like looking back on in my middle school years#but they’re bringing back the few happy memories I do have of that time period#legends of avantris#once upon a witchlight#ouaw
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What would stick!Alan's reaction to meeting stick!noogai be?
mostly shock and confusion! he's very confused by this and very concerned for his counterpart!
noogai!victim also scares the shit out of him for obvious reasons and as soon as anyone asks about his victim they can unfortunately immediately tell they weren't as lucky.
#tommy's foolery#noogai is actually pretty angry with alan upon discovering he essentially killed victim. they assumed they would have found out either way#and they're not WRONG but they thought it'd be obvious! when you're right there with them it is!#noogai and second like hanging out though. they realize they can dual wield the pens and cause absolute chaos#also is it weird that i think alan!dark would actually not mind noogai as much?#especially if noogai's first reaction is 'OH HEY it's dark!! my friend :D'#my hc is that a lot of their issues come from insecurities about not being good enough for alan OR chosen#so they might actually be okay with noogai. maybe agitated initially sure. but generally fine with them#tommy's stickmen tag#tommy's aus#tommy's stick!alan#stick!noogai#all of the stick!noogai au sticks assume dark is fine and it's very confusing to the others#but dark doesn't SEEM like they're frothing at the mouth and ready to kill someone anymore so it's like?????? uh??? sure i guess????
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extra hour in the destiel ballpit
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I'm actually going to gnaw my own hand off.
#FICTIONAL BLONDE MAN HAS ME IN A VICE GRIP I AM NOT OKAY#THIS IS NOT ENJOYMENT THIS IS MY BRAIN GOING ASUHDNJHGJSHMAIKJDGMDKJMAKSDFKMLJSMGKJKJSMLKJSDHGKMJSHFLKADDKSGJMLSKJGSKHLGJM#like I am going to eat my own LIMBS he is giving me MENTAL ILLNESS I DIDNT KNOW I HAD IN ME#I AM CAPTIVATED BY HIS SWAGLESS LOOKS AND CRINGEFAIL PERSONALITY HE IS EATING MY BRAIN#he is going to give me HEART PALPITATIONS.#I need to kill him. violently. but also give him a hug. but first kill him violently.#hE'S JUST LIKE ME FR AND IT IS TELLING ME THINGS ABOUT MYSELF I DIDNT WANT TO KNOW#I've never wanted to strange someone so badly before and that's saying a lot.#LIKE I LOVE HIM. BUT I ALSO DESPISE HIM WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING I NEED HIM TO BE DEAD.#BUT I LOVE HIM I need him to get cuddles :(#but also I need to stab him repeatedly.#I need him and his boyfriend to be happy but I also need them to kill each other.#WHEN IM PLAYING WITH FICTIONAL CHARACTERS LIKE FUCKED UP BARBIES I DIDNT THINK THEYD START FIGHTING BACK#if any of my irl friends see this I promise I'm so stable and I'm so normal and I'll shut up about him. but like only irl.#I HAVE NOT HAD BRAINROT THIS BAD SINCE I FIRST DISCOVERED FSA AND LOZ.#this might be WORSE. THIS FEELS WORSE.#this might force me to WRITE AGAIN.#hhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#IM GOING TO BITE SOMETHING. HARD.#really glad I stalled on getting into this fandom for three years I don't think I could've handled the level of ALL CONSUMING DISEASE#that this man has inflicted upon me.#ahem#anyways#raven rambles
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I can't believe Scout is French smh
#he doesn't give ✨✨✨ vibes ❌🙅#Scout's first reaction upon discovering Spy is his dad “Nooo that means I am French?!”#I saw fanart like that
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i hope u kno i think ur tf2posting is awesome because i am too scared to play it (pvp....) but really love tf2 anyway
AWW THANK YOU SO MUCH I'M SO GLAD TO HEAR GENUINELY!!!!!!<333 i love sharing honestly it feels so special...not to get sappy again but this is my first video game experience like that, since tf2 is the first like. multiplayer shooter i've ever played and it's just. so nice when someone teaches me how to do silly stuff like the "intel funny" or when i have the honor of participating in a server-wide dance party. it's just so!!! well. nice and really cool honestly :]
#ask#like. total strangers i may not stumble upon again are making my day better just because i think we just. like being nice to eachother#deep down kind of#as i said that thrusting sniper may not know how hard that made me laugh and the dude who said 'good job' to me also might not know how#special i felt but. well i feel all of that and i'll remember it. do you get me#love forever ok?#and honestly! i know some fears are hard to overcome i was definitely shaking when i joined into my first match but people are really ok#most of the time! and if they aren't honestly just hit the bricks! if i'm not having fun or see an asshole i usually que for another game#2fort i feel like is also super forgiving since people are kind of expecting silly players? but even on idk payload maps nobody gave me any#trouble for being a 50 minutes of playtime noob pyro. and you get better the longer you play like genuinely!#like with the whole spy thing. you start to get a feel for when someone is acting suspicious#recently i've also been unlearning going with the rocket launchers against pyros but that also took like. 5 reflected rocket deaths to#really stick. ok i'm rambling now but it can be a wonderful game :3#i know this all might sound silly but i started like. kind of genuinely playing games only last summer so discovering all of these new#things is just ahh!!! it's so cool!
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No more floods in 2024 please 😭
#ive been in 2 appartments since moving out 2 years ago#and BOTH got water damage#first place the basement flooded and we discovered mold and didnt have access to the basement for 6 months 👍#and my current place had water leaking from the ceiling a month ago 👍#at least we didnt lose anything from that#except some plates that were too gross to keep afterward#it did force us to clean the kitchen completely which was good#but damn the curse of water be upon me i guess#maybe its because i changed my name from Mer to Winter...........
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Had an unexpected celebrity encounter
#i completely forgot that the first episode of tma is set in edinburgh#so when i stumbled upon this alley i was like :0#personal#the magnus archives#edinburgh was lovely btw!#however these 'closes' are so deceiving#when i first arrived and saw them i thought 'it's already too dark to explore but tomorrow morning i'm going to check out all of them :)'#and then when walking around the next morning i discovered that almost all of them lead down very steep hills#after going down two of them and then having to struggle back up i just decided that fuck it i'm done exploring these
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That is racist of Dheginsea. Othering the children who aren’t responsible for their parents choices and demonizing them so they have no place to go, and so those children end up with resentment to the Laguz for the way they’re othered and treat. Not to mention it wouldn’t stop Laguz from willingly being with a Beorc despite the consequences, which further leads to both sides hating the other. Of course the narrative of how both sides wrote history to say they alone are descended from the Zunanma rather than admit both are closely related sub species itself furthers the othering as well, as it means there’s no reason to view the other species as deserving to exist when they’re the Goddess chosen people.
I think Dheginsea at least meant well, but he never truly considered the idea that his actions to preserve his species at the cost of a new species(as that’s what the Branded are) caused the same problems he feared for an even smaller minority.
No pbs anon!
That's why I really really really hate the Tellius situation, it's a "divide by 0" equation where no matter what, some people will be screwed at the end.
And that's the issue!
Of course protecting a minority from being persecuted is an obvious step on a path to protect everyone - but it's the ultimate railroad dilemna where you have to choose who is going to be rolled over.
Sadly I've tried to find the chapter from which the Misaha quotes were ripped off on SF but it's not from the endgame?
It's those lines :
"Misaha: All of the apostles have borne this brand. It is our greatest secret. The senators must never know. Because of this brand, I thought that I had been born of some great sin. It plagued me always. Guilt tore at me every day as I hid my mark from my people, deceiving them constantly about my true nature. Lehran: Oh, child...how can I apologize to you? Misaha: And yet, now that I’ve met you, I understand. There is no shame in my heritage. None at all. I will not live in hiding. I will reveal to the world that I am one of the Branded. They must see there is no shame in who I am."
Misaha thinks she was born from a "great" sin because of her brand, most likely hearing the stories of Deghinsea about brandeds being "parentless" children and "sins against the goddess".
But why is Lehran apologising here?
Is he apologising because he participated in that lie, or more twisted- Lehran apologises because if Misaha has a brand and cannot pass as a beorc in Begnion, it's because of "him" for not being a beorc? Is Lehran actually apologising for being born a laguz?? For befriending Altina and getting their first kid?
Granted, when Lehran has his breakdown because of chaotic energies before making the decision to erase both Laguz and Beorcs, it goes like this :
Dheginsea: “You, who have lost your birthright?”
Misaha: “And yet, now that I’ve met you, I understand. There is no shame in my heritage. None at all.”
Ashera: “In deference to you, I will place my faith in your kind one last time.”
Altina: “You… are the gentlest soul of them all, my sweet Lehran…”
Lehran: “Why? Why did I lose my power? Why? Why was my tribe stolen? Why, why, why?”
More than 800 years later, Lehran is still "not over with" losing his powers. Lehran who is kind and gentle, but who wants to help - loses his birthright, he cannot fulfill his promise to Ashera anymore - thus cannot help - his descendant is proud to be, well, his descendant - but he cannot help/save her (as if he had the possibility anyways!) because he lost his powers - and Deghinsea who inadvertently (I think Deg had no malicious intent here) reminds him that he is powerless...
Imo, it encapsulates everything - there is nothing wrong about Laguz and Beorc accepting each other, but why the fuck Laguz lose their powers? ?
As for the lie in itself and crossbreeding...
What do you mean by "weren't taught properly"?
That's precisely the point of that lie, the truth, if taught to the world, would be unearable for both Laguz and, to a lesser extent, Beorcs. Like, telling the truth to Laguz? "Don't fuck Beorcs or you will end up losing your abilities forever" ? But for Beorcs it's just "you're free to fuck Laguz, you'll create another being with superpowers and cripple the laguz that way!"
(also, I think it is most likely taught around, there's the joke UST between Elincia and Tibarn, and Bastian cockblocks Tibarn because they remember this tale?)
Yes, each side think they are the ones who descend from the Zunama - instead of learning the truth of how they "both" descend from the Zunama, but if both sides try to return to, idk, Zunama roots and the original "we were both one" myth, well, one side loses all of its powers, while the other get away scot-free.
So, are they that "closely related" as sub-species as they are supposed to be, in one species "dies" when it breeds with the other? We know they are, as they both descend from the same "ancestor/species", but the result of the two breeding says the inverse.
Of course the lie wouldn't stop Laguz and Beorcs who like each other a lot to live together and get kids, but the Branded's sheer existence, regardless of Deghinsea's words and edicts, is something of an anathema to Laguz, as we see with Vika and Miccy's base convo :
Micaiah: You always run away from me… Did I do something to offend you? Vika: No, I’m so sorry. I can’t explain why this happens. I get so jumpy around you. There’s just… something about you. Micaiah: Oh… Vika: Oh, but please don’t be sad! It’s not you. It’s me. I get… confused… sometimes. I really admire you, and then I get a bizarre feeling, and… Micaiah: It’s all right. Sorry to bother you. Vika: …No. Wait. Micaiah: Hm? Vika: I want to overcome this. I don’t like that I feel I must avoid you for some inexplicable reason.
Why Laguz, in general, feel Branded are people "they must avoid"?
Is it because to Laguz, even subconsciously, a branded's existence means one of them "died"? Or in a more metaphysical sense, because Brandeds herald the end of the Laguz race (because if more brandeds are born, it means more laguz "die" ?)
Misaha didn't only want to end injustices and racism against the Branded, she wanted to stop racism in Begnion against Laguz (thus by proxy, against Brandeds).
In conclusion, Deginshea's lie created discriminations against Brandeds, but I think it's more nuanced than a general "to protect one race he put another under the bus".
When Soren goes :
Hate… That I could understand. This was denial. They made me feel like I wasn’t supposed to exist at all. That my simply being alive was an affront to the world.
It's painful to read, because no one should ever think they shouldn't have been born, or their mere existence is "an affront to the world".
Tibarn puts it this way, talking about "an old song" :
It is said that the goddesses forbid laguz and beorc to procreate. If a couple breaks the taboo, the punishment is dealt to the laguz parent. She or he loses the power of the laguz and becomes something that does not belong to either species.
Deghinsea created the "taboo" and the decree, but he wasn't the one who created the "punishment".
Heck, the punishment is the reason why the "taboo" was created, to reduce the number of "punished" people, but also, and maybe, to find a reason why those "punishments" are given?
The sitation becomes unbearable : we have people who are shunned hated and at times even killed for "existing", and we have people who "die"/lose their abilities/are "punished" automatically when the first people mentionned start to exist (iirc Almedha lost her powers when she became pregnant).
For what it's worth, per Nasir, both Beorcs and Laguz came to accept the concept of Deginshea's decree :
Nasir: Even so, the taboo was broken several times over the next few decades. Usually no child was conceived, but when there was, it was swiftly covered up. The parents soon learned what it meant to bear a child who possessed both laguz and beorc blood. After they learned of the consequences, none of these parents ever rejected the edict forbidding it.
Of course comes the obvious question of did anyone even thought about asking a Branded their opinion on that decree ? Miccy is part of that conversation too, and reacts when "honor killings" of brandeds are mentionned.
But afaik, we don't have Miccy's pov about that edict - after this conversation - and the game sure as hell doesn't want her to talk to Lehran (all of his convos are reserved for Sanaki!) - whose fault is it that Lehran lost his powers, thus direct line to the goddess, thus will to live? Hers because she was born (or her ancestor's)? His, for loving Altina? Whose fault is it that Brandeds are shunned? Deghinsea, who made that decree, or Laguz in general who can sense what they are and see through them the extinction of their race, or an unfair "punishment" from whoever ?
As always, with complicated questions, Ike is nowhere to be seen, but even without Ike, what would be the best solution?
Of course, stop persecuting and denying the existence of Brandeds would be a good start.
And then?
When Laguz and Beorcs will argue againt about something stupid, reject coexistence because, to Beorcs, Laguz are beings that "stop existing" as soon as they shag? And to Laguz, who will feel cosmically "cheated" because they are the only ones who receive "punishment" from miscegenation, to the point of thinking maybe Beorcs are really the superior race?
It's why Lehran's tale is so sad, he wanted coexistence but was punished for it by his very own world - why did he lose his powers?
What kind of solution can be found in a world that pushes for equality between races, but also reveals when they coexist, only one race is "punished"?
That's why I mentioned the divide by 0 equation -
The Tellius equation has no solutions.
#anon#replies#tellius stuff#i wanted to reply earlier but I had rl stuff to deal with lol#and this is a heavy subject to I wanted to check SF first!#I think it's still different in archanea bcs manaketes degenerate naturally#it's still stupid but#they're not punished for the 'sin' of living with someone different#that's why this Tellius aspect is imo one of the worst things to have come out from the FE series#of course neither ike or even stefan hear the laguz part of the tale#would they change their pov? I don't think so because it's still brandeds who are persecuted for existing#would they reveal the truth and say the goddesses never thought about it it's just that laguz are inferiors to beorcs? thus start a new war#idk#I think the writers wrote themselves in a pit with this#Gareth even says Deg regretted his lie and wanted to have revealed the truth#but what about his earlier misgivings? are they just shat upon?#wouldn't that lead laguz to hate the brandeds even more?#would almedha have wanted to discover the world if she knew the truth?#wouldn't dragon 55 and 58 want to raze Daein if they learnt their King/Prince made their princess 'lose her abilities'?#wait i'm suddenly wondering#if Almedha has a kid with a rando red dragon would that kid post soren be a laguz or a branded or something else?#a beorc?#Fe tellius
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Not so casual reminder to once again, not interact with me if you are a minor
Not on anon, not off anon. I don't care if you think you are mature enough to do so. I can't stop you from reading, but *please* do not try and interact with me.
It's something that genuinely makes me feel disgusting. It really kills motivation to write and answer asks.
It's a boundary, respect it.
(regular pinned)
#context: anon came off anon a while back and i just realized they're a middle schooler#i cannot express the genuine distress it invokes in me to realize something like this. i'm good at brushing things off that annoy me on the#internet but I think it's quite understandable to be upset at discovering a minor put the word ''adult'' in bio to get around blocks#by randomly stumbling upon their actual age further down in their blog when looking out of curiosity#UGH. first time i've gotten genuinely upset at something in a while. I typically just block and move on but the fucking audacity for them#to have lied and put the word adult in their bio around the time i do my purges makes me so mad. i specifically remember checking their blo#during my purges too because i thought their theme was pretty. they interacted with and tried befriending me on my main blog too 🙃🙃🙃#i've gone through and deleted all the asks they've sent me but i still feel digusting#i may or may not delete this post (or at least my tags) after a while once i get over it a bit. idk. i'll probably be pretty bothered by#this for a hot sec so we'll see#delete later
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I love your header, what's it from?
Short answer: ancient marvel comics I think
Long answer:
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I feel like it possibly says something about me that the very first Andrew Peterson songs I actually remember hearing are "The Rain Keeps Falling" and "To All The Poets". and that they made enough impact on me to remember lying in bed listening to them and trying not to openly weep because I was only about 15 and crying, especially over music, was still humiliating weakness to me.
#like I'm sure I heard random other songs by him at various points before discovering those two#but those were /my/ AP songs for ages#and I don't really remember any others before them#those were the ones that actually slotted into some little empty place in my heart and made me just want to sob for the way they said#things that resonated with me#anyway. I'm listening to the After All These Years collection while I do housework and thinking about how I first stumbled upon this music#that's gone on to mean so much to me in the past few years#andrew peterson#music#gurt says stuff
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two separate endings where raymond's like 'lol glad it was you not me' just straight up to your face, he's the worst, i desire him carnally
#tbf in one of those endings he immediately becomes meatball so#but seriously i need to keep that energy when im writing him he is such a DICK#genuinely strikes me as a result of his maladjustment and not any actual desire to put rebecca down#like he doesn't laugh it doesn't get played like a joke and in ending 2 he says it so??? gently???#like in the tone of voice you'd use to ask a sick person how their night went like maybe that's what he was going for?#and it came out like THAT??#it's so good though esp in ending 3 where he kinda sounds proud like yes i DID just trap this woman in the mortuary and she is alive#on the floor#like honest to god i know im reaching real hard especially for a man who is such a jerk#but i think what he was going for was something along the lines of#'i've been doing this for years im exhausted do you understand me a little better now?'#which even on it's own is a WILD first thought to have upon discovering someone just coming back to consciousness but likeee#bbgirl is soooo pathetically lonely it's all he can FUCKING think about
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