#uowipoa

[obstinatecondolement]

Relevant to many of your interests: sign ups for the Mom I'd Like to Fic exchange are open until June 7.

[alwaysbeyondhope]

just had a video call and I guess it’s good that we didn’t talk about anything personal because I would have gotten emotional but I’m emotional now.

I don’t want to do this without her.

And now I’m crying which makes my head hurt and my head’s been hurting the past few days and I don’t want to be sad about this but I am.

I’m just not ready for her to leave. Like at all.

[alwaysbeyondhope]

are we the same person? we seem like the same person

not me always simping obsessing over older queer coded women in media to the point that i spend an inordinate amount of time watching (and rewatching) a movie or series until it becomes uncomfortable for everyone around me because i can’t stop talking about whoever my latest lesbian fixation is lately.

[chicago-geniza]

in the process of doing this research i also learned that stefania was only 6 years younger than jelonka's mom & unfortunately my first thought was "wow, that's hot" even as i was staring at the screen of a holocaust victims & survivors database. i hate it here (my brain)

[unopenablebox]

had a bewildering interaction recently in which some other people in my program argued that it’s good/fine to have a crush on your boss/advisor, because it motivates you more and makes you want to impress them

i have several points of disagreement with this question, but in particular: why on earth would i want to have to put even more effort into policing all of my reactions and communication at work than i already do

[unkenreflex]

sex or something idek

a ton of new ppl recently joined our lab, and thus our hilariously prolonged 2-hr lab meeting, and that’s fine except there’s one postdoc who is like-- mid/late 30s, very much this sort of ordinary-seeming like-- erudite thoughtful person, for sure, but not in any way that’s particularly contextually remarkable, she’s very smart and good at science but so are lots of other people at in that room

and she’s like, very nice-looking and wears her slight, early signs of aging very elegantly, but isn’t striking in any particular way i could identify

but oh, my god, do i ever spend like 70% of our meeting time every week wanting to just kneel at her feet while she tells me to do things

[alwaysbeyondhope]

As this is just such a prime example of Unavailable Older Women in Positions of Authority, this is just so on brand for me.

Have I mentioned how much I love the Gill-Rachel/mentor-mentee relationship? No? Well, I’m gonna. I love it hard, so hard. (And, this is my ***th rewatch.)

[spaceshipignition]

also idk if frankie ballard is literally the 50-year-old lesbian of my dreams or is just playing one in this video but i’m sure paging em @spectralprojection abt it

[venndaai]

little-brisk replied to your post “Who is into women and didn’t have a crush on Galadriel, honestly”

the ultimate #uowipoa

oh god you’re right. oh god

[aeide-thea]

[sex cw]

a problem with all this fic-reading, or not a problem except that sex is not a realistic prospect anytime soon, and also good luck @ me with finding anyone to humor honor my understanding of myself, is that like, periodically i read a thing ft some level of feminization, right, and typically that’s reserved for characters whose bodies aren’t already getting read that way, right, but now my weird little birdbrain is like, hm what if someone lovingly/condescendingly used some language for us that we normally bitterly resent, what then, is humiliating feminization even a thing that makes any sense in the context of an afab body particularly when god knows who in the world i could bear to imagine being involved in that with me (okay, i do have any Thoughts on that front but hush. possible also that the right triad dynamic would really be the optimal space for that which like. good luck @ me achieving that ever again!)

also obviously i Contain Multitudes & reserve the right simultaneously to kind of want/be Intrigued by this concept & also to absolutely resent & hate the idea. pile of sex feelings & pile of… other sex feelings. etc.

woof okay.

[alwaysbeyondhope]

uunnggg she is so fucking hot here. Not just in her looks, but the way she carries herself, how she commands the room…

I’m such a slut for UOWIPOA.

Maybe you’re not such a mad notion after all.

[alwaysbeyondhope]

sidenote: just started to watch that Gillian Anderson Sex Education ASMR video again...this time with headphones.

fjksdalfjs

the headphones make such a difference.

because HOLY FUCKING FUCK

that is no longer something I can listen to or watch while on the clock.

[metatheatre]

little-brisk

wait what

little-brisk

WHAT

little-brisk

kelsey have you never seen voyager

little-brisk

the most amazing thing that happens on voyager is at some point you start liking tom paris and you are like 'what happened. how did i get here.'

little-brisk

but KELSEY how have you lived this long without Captain Katharine Hepburn and B'Elanna Torres's Excellent #UOWIPOA Adventure ? ? ?

IT’S TRUE i have straight up never seen voyager! i watched tos, tng, and ds9 in order and like, nothing could ever top ds9 so for a long time i was like WHAT IS THE POINT. but the point is MORE STAR TREK!!! can’t wait to liveblog this shit to everyone’s annoyance.

[hypokeimena]

its 330 am and meda inspired me so

t.az characters i Would

1. magnus: STRONG. not interested in romance. “magnus rushes in”

2. lucretia: (spoilers). uowipoa.

3. killian and carey: self-explanatory. they are married monster ladies. holy shit, getting in on that would be the fucking GOAL.

4. kravitz when he’s a skull death monster

5. honestly? the disco elves. 

6. ........uh. cam.

7. jess the beheader???? YEAH.

8. kravitz when he’s handsome

9. *** & ****** sorry for the censor bars but the worst most embarrassing

10. taako, who is on the list mostly so he can be LAST on the list, because i think it would be hilarious and we would go through a lot of hijinks to avoid actually having to have sex and then he would teach me how to make macarons.

[chicago-geniza]

Once again channeling gay adolescent Raya (playing Zemfira face-down on the floor in my room to psych myself up to send an email like an athlete in the locker room playing their pump-up jams before the big game)

Real Manuela von Meinhardis hours. НЕ МОЛЧИТЕ В ЭТОЙ РЫХЛОЙ ТИШИНЕ Я ПОГИБНУУУУУ

[lostcorpseroad]

going to dinner tonight at the house of my extremely #uowipoa genetics professor, like, she is SO terrifying and really short and makes hilarious derisive comments about non-fly genetics biology fields, and um, anyway i’m dying and also straightening my hair about it