#until it felt like an overly ambitious teacher but not an enemy

[caffeinatedopossum]

Idk why but I feel like this awakened something in me. Public therapy session between me and myself was a success 👍

reminder.... bad people aren't worried that they might be a bad person.

Thanks 🥺

(skfjgh sorry I'm about to rant)

I used to think this a lot to reassure myself but now I think my ideas of what good and bad are have gotten more complex. Like, someone with good intentions can do a lot of harm because they aren't making any effort to reflect on the actual effects of their actions. And some people know they're a bad person but are okay with it. Or some people have bad motives to do good things so does that make them good or bad?

I think I'm just scared of being one of those people. I don't want to be someone who doesn't know or doesn't care how I effect other people and I don't want to be someone that tries not to effect people at all either anymore. I used to try that but it's impossible and it's also not what I want. I exist and I want to help people with that existence. Not to make up for my existence but to actually just help people.

But because of that, I think a lot about this. And I don't always know if it's good for me. I worry a lot because I care a lot but the worrying tends to take over

[wcrworn]

𝑠𝘩𝑒’𝑠  𝑏𝑒𝑎𝑢𝑡𝑖𝑓𝑢𝑙  ,  he  thought  ...  but  there  was  something  more  than   a  little  unsettling  about  𝖗𝖊𝖉 𝖊𝖞𝖊𝖘 .

𝓲.  𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚃𝚂

full name.  wanda django maximoff kenobi

nicknames.  scarlet witch , ana , queen of chaos , little witch , fine sorceress

age.  thirty-two

gender & pronouns.  cis female  &  she/her

sexual & romantic orientation.  pansexual  &  panromantic

species.  mutant

family.  erik lehnsherr , magda eisenhardt , pietro maximoff , lorna dane , billy kaplan , tommy shepherd  (  canon  ) , ben kenobi , jacqueline kenobi , richie kenobi  (  aurora  )

godly alignment & temperament.  hecate  (  witchcraft  &  ghosts  )  &  melancholic  (  detail-oriented , introverted , thoughtful  )

distinguishing features.  glowing red eyes when using her chaos magic abilities , various scars from her previous life

𝓲𝓲.  𝚀𝚄𝙴𝚂𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽𝙽𝙰𝙸𝚁𝙴

𝘩𝘰𝘸  𝘸𝘢𝘴  𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳  𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴  𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦  𝘴𝘰  𝘧𝘢𝘳  ?

in a word  ;  peaceful . wanda maximoff was adopted into a loving family  -  the maximoffs . she has one sister  ,  they’re not very close but wanda cares deeply about her . she’s never questioned her birth parents and instead embraced her adopted family ever since she was adopted as a toddler . she’s known very little about loss and true pain . her life has been ... blissfully happy aside from a few ups and downs , but she’s taken all of them with stride . 

her family moved to aurora during her senior year of high school , which was actually the most difficult years of her life  (  she sees it worse than the months following her divorce with her now ex husband  ) . she was always a weird kid . goth . introverted . unsure of herself and her abilities as a student . struggling with mental illness . questioning her sexuality . so pretty much any kid in high school . 

wanda started college with a major in english  &  a minor in psychology . again , she was a loner . she’s never been much of a  “  social  “  person . she kept a lot to herself and focused too hard on her studies  -  which ended in her graduating a few semesters early  (  doubling up on courses  ...  taking winter  &  summer courses  ) . she had always been an overly ambitious student and eager to do everything with perfection .

after graduating , she got a job as a high school english teacher . it was an intense year filled with parent - teacher meetings , everyone telling her she was doing her job wrong , parents who acted like they knew more than her despite wanda being the teacher . a lot of ups and downs . 

during her first few years as a teacher she fell in love with ben kenobi . and fast . wanda has always felt emotions so passionately and falling in love was no different . soon enough they welcomed a beautiful  &  healthy baby girl , who they named jacqueline . jackie for short . she is truly the light of wanda’s life  -  wanda would die for jackie and kill anyone who tries to hurt her . wanda and ben’s love burned brightly for awhile  -  but they eventually divorced , despite their love for each other . they blamed it on not having enough time to spend together and their lives going in two different directions . they were once a binary star  ;  one star system consisting of two bodies . but those days were long gone . 

nowadays , wanda still considers ben as one of her closest friends . and still that person who knows her more than she knows herself . she’ll always love him  &  care about him . it’s just who she is as a person . she cares too much and can’t let people go . they’re not that divorced couple who can’t get along and end up hurting their child in the process  -  they’re the opposite of that .

wanda can usually be found at the local high school , grading papers and setting up classes until it gets dark . she pours her entire being into her job and wants to be the kind of teacher that leaves a good impression on their students . and if some of them end up english majors ? or as teachers ? or learning about their love for books because of her ? then she’s done her job right . she’s an extremely kind and empathic woman who watches out for the 

𝘸��𝘢𝘵  𝘸𝘢𝘴  𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳  𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘴  𝘧𝘪𝘳𝘴𝘵  𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘦  𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵  ?

pain . loss . grief . her first recurring nightmare was about the events leading up to house of m . she hasn’t quite grasped the events that were taking place , it’ll take a few more nightmares till she can process the whole thing  -  what she remembers is feeling negative emotions so intensely that she became catatonic . she remembers losing herself to her feelings  &  the pain associated with the children that she lost . she remembers doing something drastic  -  manipulated into it , maybe , but it was her spell that did the damage . it was wanda that altered the fabric of reality to suit her family and save herself from being put down like a dog .

𝘩𝘰𝘸  𝘢𝘳𝘦  𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺  𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨  𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩  𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘪𝘳  𝘧𝘪𝘳𝘴𝘵  𝘧𝘦𝘸  𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴  ?

wanda wants to ignore them ... but she doesn’t . she can’t help but question her nightmares and what they mean for her and her future . for her daughter . she’s so comfortable with the life she’s living now that she doesn’t want anything to change let alone the pain that will come with all of these nightmares . she’s been doing yoga a lot lately and more often than usual . when she did it in her previous life it was because life was stressful and she needed a way to calm her mind . she’s started meditating a lot too  -  which she hasn’t done since she was a teen .

𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨  𝘦𝘭𝘴𝘦  ?

wanda is moreso comic based with mcu influences . instead of being an enhanced human by hydra experiments she’s a mutant who’s abilities were augmented by hydra  (  which she didn’t willingly volunteer for  -  hydra sought out her and her brother and kidnapped them to take part in the experiments  ) .

she’s the daughter of erik lehnsherr  &  magda eisenhardt . 

childhood is more based off of the comics  -  mcu comes in after her and pietro leave the brotherhood of evil mutants and join the avengers . it’s a weird timeline that i’ll write out ... eventually !

everything up to uncanny avengers is canon for wanda , including house of m , m-day and finding the reincarnated versions of her twin sons  !

she still wears a lot of red clothing  &  is weirdly interested in witchcraft .

regularly deals with mental illness and sees a therapist . she hardly drinks alcohol due to the medication she’s on .

she’s also a vegetarian  !  and was raised jewish by her adopted family  !  (  unlike in the comics where her father is jewish but she wasn’t raised that way due to being adopted by the maximoff’s  )

experiences weird feelings of shivers and chills at random moments  -  which is associated with when she was turned to dust by thanos . 

wanda always wanted children but only truly had that for a small amount of time . the moments before chthon absorbed the twins  &  the time during house of m . she has a weird relationship with tommy  &  billy since they were raised by different families . she isn’t even sure how they came to be her reincarnated sons . she has a feeling that the original twins replaced tommy  &  billy at some point and if that’s true  -  she has so much guilt already , she isn’t sure if she could handle more . 

𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠  𝑙𝑖𝑠𝑡  !

obi wan  “  ben  “  kenobi  -  ex husband , father of their daughter

richie kenobi  -  surrogate son uwu

daenerys targaryn  -  ex gf , close friend

luke skywalker  -  ex fling

lucifer morningstar  -  hookup

anakin skywalker  -  fwb

ahsoka tano  -  co worker

grace burgess  -  close friend

yennefer  -  close friend , girl squad with dany

qui gon jinn  -  remained friends after her divorce w/ his best friend

bella swan  -  past student , motherly towards

chloe price  -  past student , motherly towards

james  macguire -  past student , motherly towards

poe dameron  -  frenemies  ?  enemies  ?