#unsure if its intentional or not since idk if the flashback is at the point in the timeline that lewis would be in the closet as trans or no

[someone-always-cares]

chapter 4, page 22

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[image description: an sac webcomic page. rami stares back in a confused ‘what the fuck’ sense. “i know parkour” lewis says nervously, shrugging.

“...but. why?” asks rami. the scene changes abruptly, showing a kid running into an alleyway. they have long blonde hair and wearing a generic girls school unifrom with a purple sleeveless sweater.

“there she is!” someone behind the kid yells, two shadows reaching accross the ground. the kid looks behind frantically, trapped, the alleyway ending in a wall, one thats short but still too tall for him. he tries to reach up to the top of the wall, streching up on his toes up to the possible safety of a parking garage. its just out of reach. the shadows reach up and over him, as he turns around, shaking. the kid is a younger lewis, perhaps by a few years at most. he’s terrified, trembling and tearing up, internally repeating the word no over and over. “you really think running would work,  H-” the end is cut off by rami saying lewis’s name. his words are clearer than the blurry words of the memory.

“huh?” lewis jolts back to reality, seemingly neutral but his pupils are shrunk with fear. “oh. i... thought it would be a useful thing to learn?” he fumbles.

“i meant why did you climb the building instead of, y’know, stairs?” ramis asks offscreen. lewis stares back blankly, picturing a bright blue neon sign lighting up with the word “MORON” in all caps. “ah” he says. end id]

parkour is good for running away from your problems

ive been to a fair few schools in my time and theyve all had school uniforms and i hate them. one in particular had this ugly long skirt that was a Bad Texture and i did not like it At All. anyway im my last school they changed the uniform so girls couldnt wear trousers and my closested ass just flat out to wear the skirt. straight up said hey actually fuck that im wearing trousers and you cant make me not. and they couldnt. i wore the boys trousers until i didnt have to wear a uniform

also may not update next tues but will put something up for pride

anyway: these organizations and charities could still really use your money right now

cash bail funds (us and toronto)

MN organizations

a masterpost of BLM links

various black lgbt+ funds

donation and petitions

BLM UK

runnymede

stop hate uk

racial justice network

BLM carrd

black lives matter doc

long list of black trans groups

several of these also include useful resources eg petitions, information about protests, educating yourself and others, ect, so worth a look even if you cant donate

or if you cant spare money:

passively donate money via youtube ad revanue | tab for a cause | cartoonists database

mental health resources

7 Virtual Mental Health Resources Supporting Black People Right Now

Therapy Resources for People of Color

black mental health matters carrd

various helplines (mostly US and UK based)

mental health at work resources

supporting someone during covid 19

A-Z mental health

need urgent help?

Coronavirus and your mental health

(for anyone reading comic backlogues, at the time of writing it is june 19th, 2020, this could mean some of the links may not work in the future. however many are updated regularly and may still need your help. if youre reading this in the future, look into what you can do to help in your present)

[swimminginfics]

Maybe a writing where Luke finds out the Reader’s force sensitive? Can it also be fluffy.... idk I’m a sucker for fluff lol. tysm!

|A/N: I love fluff too so don’t worry haha. I don’t think I did much justice to y’know the whole area in terms of fluff content. And I’m still unsure about the ending. I really hope you like it though!

|Word count: 1,504 words 

|Warnings: none, normal space stuff, Han is space Dean Winchester 

|Summary: This wasn’t supposed to happen, really. When you go on a scouting mission with Han and Luke, you didn’t exactly expect to crash into a Stormtrooper base. 

There were instances in your life when things happened that you’d like to think were very good coincidences. You know? Like when you were with your friends in the cafeteria and got mad that this girl flirted with Luke when she suddenly her hand slipped from your table. Or even further back when you were play fighting with pipes at your father’s worksop with your brothers, and you just could feel when they were going to hit next. You just dismiss it as great intuition, but something deep inside you knew there was much more. Sadly, there was never a proper opportunity to reflect on such things. Ever since you joined the Rebellion. 

Something about today gave you a horrible sinking feeling. Much to your dismay, Leia had set you up to go on a mission with the base’s two star pilots for a small scouting mission. She really is playing the role of matchmaker huh. It could be that, but there was something else telling you visiting this new place was bad bad bad. Nevertheless, you picked up your things, stuffed them in your bag and headed to the Falcon. 

The planet was meant to be a new hideout for the base, it was filled with luscious trees and shrubbery. Opening the hatch of the Falcon, you were greeted with the ever-present smell of a blend of sweet flowers and fallen rain that lingered on your nose. 

You had your blaster holstered to your thigh and the other to your hip. Atop, the green ponchos to blend with the environment. Boots pressing against the humid dirt were your main traitor, leaving light footprints of where you’ve been. Your mind still reminiscing on the moments prior to walking out of the ship. 

[flashback]

“Alright, this is a simple reconnaissance mission, I suggest that we land in the area we scanned that had the most raw materials. If there were to be any stormtroopers setting up a base it would be there too.” You said, standing in front of the table at the cockpit. Walking around and gathering supplies for what was to come soon. 

“That sounds like a reasonable plan.” Han put his hand to his face, deep in thought. 

“Leia said there wouldn’t be anyone in the planet but hermits.” Luke chimed in

“That’s from her sources. We really don’t know what lies there until we head down Luke.” You explained

“Kid, there might be people trying to trick us into a trap.” Han turned to look at the blonde, trying his best to be convincing.

“They wouldn’t have given us coordinates if they didn’t know.”

“Luke, a lot can change in 3 months…Han and I have been doing things like this before the Rebellion.” You tried to reason, “There’s times when people want to see you fall. Or they have been bribed to lie.”

“Which,” Han raised his hand, pointing at the ceiling, “puts us into a more tight spot. If our suppliers have other intentions then we gotta hurry and get the hell out of Hoth.”

Luke pursed his lips, debating wether or not to question the two of you, but remained quiet. 

[End flashback]

You gave a soft hum, still deep in thought, analyzing the flowers blooming above your head. While you felt for him, this time you knew that this was more your line of work than his. You got so lost in thought you were falling behind the two men. There were faint echoes of animals crying up in the trees while the ground carried a soft rumble, barely traceable, it was like a liquid warmth purr against the soles of your boots. You payed no mind and hurried to your teammates who were by a bush, crouching, and looking into the distance.

“So what’s the sitch?” You crouched with them. 

“That’s a base alright, we don’t know if its empty yet, though.”

“Should we go investigate?” Luke turned towards you for confirmation, eyes looking intently at yours, wishing for your approval. A pink tint sneaked its way to your cheeks while Han rolled his eyes at the lovesick puppy that was his best friend. 

“I say, we keep our traps shut and see if there are any stormtroopers around.” Han crouched lower into the bushes. These were by the edge of a steep slope, and at the bottom lied the solid grey block of a building. Minutes were on the verge of melting into hours when an alarm siren started ringing in the block. 

“Well I’ll be damned.” You muttered. The ringing of the alarm was deafening everything around you, leaving a high pitched ringing in your ears. Luke’s mouth was moving…shouting? But you could not hear anything. Panic started to flood your body when you saw Han grab his blaster and start shooting at something. Now with you other senses heightened, you felt the floor started to rumble under you, two speeders were heading your direction. 

You pushed Luke out of the way, only for a stormtrooper to grab you by the collar and pull you with him in the speeder. Through the thick bushes and down the plateau. You started wiggling away from their grip, kicking in the air while your hands were holding onto the poncho. A kick landed on your captors ribs and they let you go flying directly to the concrete wall. Your lungs felt flat, all the oxygen leaving through your gasp upon impact, heaving wheezing mixing with the cracking of ribs. And there you laid, on the ground, gasping for air while arms clutch your sides. The ringing began to cease and your body began to feel heavier by the second. 

Meanwhile, Luke and Han had hijacked the other speeder and chased after you. Only thing was, troopers were now leaving the building to hunt down the culprits. Muffled yells spinned around your head, the red colors of the blasters transforming your vision into a blurred Jackson Pollock painting. Said weapons were going off until they had the two men circled, they dropped their weapons and raised their hands in surrender. One stormtrooper raised their gun and hit Luke across the head, Han yelled and tried to fight back, only to be kicked to the ground.

Things weren’t meant to go this way.

You felt the familiar sting of tears, and a new surge of raw power flowing through you. Your body pretty much lifted by itself. The ground quaked, dirt under your feet cracking, and stones skittered around. The bodies of the stormtroopers lifted momentarily of the ground and all flew towards the building. You reached for your friends but your knees gave up and you slumped to the ground once more. 

It all went dark. 

—

It first started with the twitch of a nose, a quiver of a lip, the feeling of cold air against exposed skin, the familiar hum of machinery, the feeling of fingers lacing into your very own, the feeling of a thumb gently rubbing circles against your cheek. The heavy lids of your eyes gently rose, and light began to refract. 

Oh, 

There you were, lying in bed, in the falcon. Lukes eyes bore to yours with such worry and so much of a feeling you couldn’t recognize.

“Luke?” you jumped at the sound of your own voice, hoarse and crackly. 

“I’m here, I’m here…” Tears welled up in his eyes, “I-I thought you…” He shifted his arms and cradled your body. You knew what he meant.

“You know I can’t leave, if I leave, who’s gonna be there to fix R2” You wheezed a joke.

Silence followed, there was a lump on your throat while Luke nuzzled his head on the crook of your neck.

“Han told me you saved us, I-why—how—Why didn’t you tell me you could use the force?” he mumbled 

“I didn’t know I could,” You gripped your arms tighter, “I was so scared, so scared to see you die. I don’t know how—or, or why, but one moment I felt like I could climb a mountain, and then they all flew.” 

“We’ll figure this out together, I’ll help you in using the force.” 

You shifted back, trying to get to see his face, your eyes locked into his, speaking a language fo their own, repeating those three words that you were so afraid to say. His hand moved to brush a hair strand behind your ear, his fingers lingering on your cheek and down to your bottom lip. Both of your forms inched closer to the other, until they molded together. Those three words were finally spoken, as you continued to hold each other for the remaining of the flight, thanking the stars.

The end 

[might come back to check spelling and all that]

[solidburnreturned]

by popular demand, here is my oc chatter regarding stuff like relationships n random character traits. its rly long oops but i divided it by character at least lmao,, these are all things that i think id also wanna use if i ever use these characters as humans (which i def will at some point honestly)

- i thinkkkk i want toad and pike to date. toad would come across pike in their lagoon one day while hes wandering around on another wonked exploration and pike is like hey lol :B with their pointy teeth and long ass hair and toad is like :0 he just sits and talks with pike for hours and comes by a few times a week to hang out with them. they fall in LOVE

- fred and lani are def gonna date too. two butches who use he/him pronouns fuck yeah? they have a powerful relationship. mega BDE. power couple. not a lot of pda but alone together theyre both very loving and tender, its a vulnerability thing for both of them. like lani is very cool and can be either stoic or borderline obnoxious while fred is punkish. fred is very head over heels for lani tho 

- mardi n berg.....complicated....i gotta figure out how they actually end up together. berg is a jogger and mardi is a piercer/tattoo artist so that doesnt....make them line up very much in that department. ill think about it more and figure something out. itll probably have something to do with berg’s nose stripes and eye rings

- also side note on mardi......i want his backstory to include a grey period set off by his brother being eaten when they were both young at the troll tree. like he becomes angry and depressed, sorta like branch, his tattoos that he gives himself the only color on his body, until he learns to let go and his colors come back (high key this was inspired by 21 savage, mardi’s voice claim, and the line in his new song A Lot “my brother lost his life and it turned me to a beast”). ill develop this idea further but i just wanted to get it written down

- bismuth.......unsure. they had a crush on pepper and kept trying to ask her out until she came out to them as a lesbian, then they were like :’) but theyre ride or die theyre not gonna be an ass to her because they cant date her. they just care a lot about her. its like icarly

- gazpacho and jupiter CUTE two small trans trolls in That Love. i need to develop them more but. theyre just cute 

- talia is still a little too new for me to develop her......but im thinkin about it...

- kinda same with ernie and olive. they kinda mostly just exist as cute babby characters right now? if anything olive is a trouble maker and ernie is a chatterbox

- clem and thursday also fuckin cute as hell......clem was a nervous wreck asking thursday out but theyve been together like ever since, which is more than a few years. they have a rly cute gentle lovey dovey relationship. thursday is usually hanging around up on her gf’s shoulder giving her kisses on the cheek

- bea and crystal.......adorabl relationship......crystal is another character thats kinda nervous but bea is so chill n confident is helps calm her down. theyre both trans and love the hell out of each other. rly slow n steady relationship, bea is very patient

- pj and marcus!!!! dumb mlm rep relationship. pj is so so gay for marcus he can barely comprehend it. its a dumb ego boost for marcus but hes also very in love with pj, he just expresses it in a weird cocky way idk marcus is a nerd. i need to make more content for them i think about these two way more than it seems

- dwight!! he has a boat. he lives on the boat.....ive thought about maybe pairing him with toad and pike. deciding on his voice claim has been the most difficult thing ever

- kass and current HELL yeah buff gf and tol gf......they spar with swords and wrestle for fun and hang out at the beach a lot. kass fuckin loves the gem on current’s back. i gotta make more content for them 

- celia......i wanna do more with celia. friends with berg probs theyre both sporty. shes just a sweet giant troll who loves mushrooms. i gotta pair her with someone whose palette goes nicely with her pastels 

- carrot and harriet are literally cricket and tilly from big city greens just older. yeehaw siblings. havent thought about relationship stuff with harriet yet.....i think she also needs ANOTHER redesign her colors are just too heavy still. maybe if i can make her colors compliment celia’s that could work as a pairing? hm hm.....carrot tho is dating ford’s oc rye theyre gentle country gays

- rainer. hm. i dont think theyre rly the dating type......theyre just chill with being them. they just wanna swim and be funny

- hammond and andromeda are probs two of my least developed characters.....hammond still needs a redesign. he might be cute to pair with walter, theyre around the same age. andromeda tho i have no idea. she might be a nice pairing with eve? if i ever feel like pairing her with someone...who knows. eve is very carefree and might find andromeda’s energy too intense

- radish i wanna make more content for!! i rly like her a lot....i think shes another troll who isnt interested in dating. shes very focused on being a chef instead. loves her friends a lot!

- mack and pepper 2gether 4ever obvs......they have a relationship that gets richer with age for sure

- im just gonna ramble about mack. i thinkkkkkkk i wanna make her half latina? columbian specifically. she doesnt quite read as white and i didnt make her with the intention of making her white. anyway i love mack a whole lot and should really develop her backstory more. its not rly as like...””tragic”” or whatever as pepper’s i know that but she def has layers. i wanna give her whole family more depth. she has a very complicated relationship with her own feelings and motivations that i need to think about more fully. my powerful femme tho i lov her

- mack’s parents, robin and champagne, i need to like....think about them more. they have kinda a comedic relationship thats sorta inspired by roger rabbit and jessica rabbit. robin is a very caring, gentle troll who’s very smart and cares a lot about his nursing responsibilities in the village. champagne is very relaxed and the “voice of reason” character of the family. she loves a good party and has her party planning down to a science. both are very successful power parents. kickass family

- i already talked about topaz and marney in a separate post but i still love them both so much. big wesbiabs

- pepper....pebber. im gonna talk about her the most obviously gfhjdkrs i wanna talk about her mental health i feel like i think about it a lot but i never write about it explicitly? this is gonna be long oops hgjfksd she has depression and ptsd stemming from the trauma of her crash...im thinking she also has adhd and thats just something shes always had. her depression rly got heavy during her recovery and right after like...she hated being bed/housebound and felt rly powerless to her situation and just let it eat at her until her personality had actually changed considerably. like extroverted wild child rebel to introverted, soft-spoken sulker. this got better with time but she still is pretty introverted, just turned her moodiness into chill energy. 

- she has bad depression habits like letting dishes, old food, laundry, or just stuff pile up in her room until it gets overwhelming and she spends like two days just manically cleaning; or staying in bed for way longer than she should and messing with her hygiene; or eating way more or way less than she should eat in a day. just stuff thats hard to completely break out of when youre recovering. her color is pretty consistently the dark red but if shes having a particularly rough day she might look a little paler, or like a muddy brick color at her worst. thats kinda rare tho

- her ptsd is the thing she hates the most. for a while it made her feel very weak and she’d beat herself up over being traumatized by the crash which was obviously not helpful to her mental state but she was really all over the place during her bodily recovery. its part of the reason why she started working out, she wanted to reclaim some sort of feeling of strength and power that she felt she’d lost completely. she still gets really frustrated with this feeling of loss but she gets a lot of support from loved ones which has helped her not self-blame so much. her ptsd manifests mostly as nightmares/insomnia, chronic headaches/stomachaches, intrusive thoughts and sometimes flashbacks. the nightmares are what rly get to her, she really doesnt get a lot of good sleep and it can get to the point where she just doesnt want to sleep sometimes and she’ll stay awake until she crashes hard

- her scars used to be a big trigger for her ptsd, which is why she has her bangs covering the one on her face and wears long pants (her knee braces are too bulky for pants and would force her to wear shorts which would force her to expose her scars). she just. really really hates them. this is something she struggles with for a majority of her life

- once she and mack start going steady with their dating and start consistently sleeping in the same bed, pepper starts to sleep better. she still has nightmares that wake her up at least weekly, but having mack there to comfort her (whether she wakes mack up accidentally or if mack is already awake) helps a TON with getting her back to sleep soundly. it also just helps her sleep in general to have that comforting, loving presence in her bed snuggled up to her ;w; mack is a big help in general with pepper’s mental health, pushing pepper to make better, healthier choices and get out in the village more and have fun. mack for sure does not “”cure”” pepper of anything but shes a very positive light in pepper’s life that helps her pull thru tough times!

- i love all my goofy trolls so much. its so fun to just chill and blab about them to relax between working on big projects ;o; ty if u cared enough to read this whole thing ur so rad