#unnonexistence

[ragsy]

some sort of sea monster, requested by @unnonexistence

[setmeatopthepyre]

☎️

☎️ - tommy meets abby [cont. from this]

Abby pulls back, eyes searching his face. This close, he can see the way her eyebrows inch together in concern. Her voice is gentle, like she's afraid to spook him, when she asks, “Was that okay?”

Was it? “Yeah,” he replies quickly. “Yeah, of course.” It should be. “It's just been a while.” And his smile is awkward, he knows, but there isn't any good reason for it to be, is there? Abby is beautiful, and kind, and funny, and she kissed him. That's. That's a good thing.

It's normal to feel nervous when a woman like Abby kisses you.

Maybe that's it.

Maybe Abby will believe that is it.

Something like understanding dawns on Abby's face and for a moment Tommy forgets how to breathe.

“Oh! Of course. I'm so sorry, I almost forgot." She nudges his side, grins. "Not a lot of women to kiss in the army, huh?"

-

[make me write]

[reveriesofawriter]

1, 35, 47 for the bookworm asks!

1 - the best book I've read so far this year - the palace of eros by caro de robertis, probably tied with the pairing by casey mcquiston, both queer and made me feel a lot of things

35 - least favorite trope in my favorite genre - if I'm saying romance is the genre then I will kind of go out of my way to not read accidental pregnancy stories bc the ones I've read in the past feel like they treat the baby like a pawn or at best like some kind of miracle cure for a relationship that wouldn't have worked otherwise, also not a huge fan of a love triangle where it's not a closed triangle like give me queer and messy or don't even bother

47 - last 3 books I read - odd spirits by s.t. gibson (almost 5 stars, I love this universe I can't wait for the rest of the series), the nightmare before kissmas by sara raasch (again almost 5 stars, silly lil holiday romcom where the prince of xmas falls in love w the prince of halloween), and swordcrossed by freya marske (ultimately gave it 4 stars but it was more like the first third gets 2 stars the middle third gets 3.5 stars and the last third gets 5 stars, I had complex feelings about it clearly) also you didn't ask but I'm currently reading triple sec by tj alexander, and disney high by ashley spencer

[toooldforthisbutstill]

Movie Tag game

Tagged by @rifle-yes (tysm!)

Rules: Without naming them, post a gif from ten of your favorite films, then tag ten people to do the same!

Ok now tagging... @ramblingcastle, @katistrophe, @histoire-de, @garnetrena, @toooldfortumbling, @unnonexistence, @odense, @box-keeper, @marmotteb and @yumemangie. No pressure of course!

[unnonexistence]

Unnonexistence's Notecard Method for Learning Mathematics

Hello! This is the study method I developed after flunking out of first-year university algebra and having to retake it! It may or may not be particularly innovative and it may or may not help you, but I did (eventually) graduate with a Bachelor's degree in math despite having unmedicated ADHD, so, y'know, there's that. I owe it mostly to the notecards.

DISCLAIMER that any example cards are my actual real notes & I am not fact-checking them. They lean towards intuitive rather than strictly correct & were only ever intended to be for personal reference. I did pass these courses, and I think most of the cards are pretty good, but like... use at your own risk.

You Will Need:

A pack of index cards. I like the 3" x 5" ones that are lined on the front and blank on the back.

Some pens you like. I use fine-tip markers in about 4 colours, plus a white gel pen for fixing mistakes. Pencil can get smudgy over time, so it's not ideal.

Any course materials you have (notes, textbook, etc.)

Optionally, a nice box for your index cards. (You can also just use a rubber band or something. Whatever).

General Approach

We're making reference cards. One concept per card. You probably have an intuitive sense of how big A Concept is for you - it should be an amount of information that can comfortably fit in your brain at one time. If it doesn't fit on one or maaaybe two cards, it's probably too big.

Here's a topic I broke up into two cards - Chain Rule and Extension of Chain Rule. One IS an extension of the other, but the information is a lot easier to remember in two chunks. (3 pictures, here, because the first card is double-sided).

You are NOT trying to cram as much information as you can onto each card. You are trying to create an easy reference for yourself, which means making the cards as clear and legible as you can. When it's 5 minutes before your calculus exam and you're having a panic attack because you forgot how the chain rule works, you want to be able to flip through, find that Chain Rule card, and be able to absorb the information on there.

For math courses, A Concept is often a definition, a theorem, a formula, or a problem-solving approach. As much as possible, you want to write it down in a way that makes sense to you. Add any helpful tips or intuitive explanations or things you keep forgetting. If your cards are blank on the back, that's a great place to draw diagrams.

(On the back of this card you can see where I wrote "Rho" in pencil and never bothered to replace it with the symbol, lol. My prof had bad handwriting & I wasn't sure how it was supposed to look.)

Proofs are often too long to fit on a card, but if you have a theorem where the proof is important, it's a good idea to write out a little summary of how the proof works/how to do it.

Ideally, you do the work of Understanding The Concept when you're making the card, and then you can just refer back to it in future. I forget definitions a lot, and this saved me so much time that I would have spent reading one confusing page of the textbook over and over or trying to find stuff in my notes.

I try to keep my formatting mostly consistent. Clear title. Card numbers in the top right corner so I know if anything's missing. Definitions in black ink with important words underlined in colour. I tend to use coloured ink for things like examples and personal commentary. I also use it to create a visual distinction when I do need to cram something on there (not ideal, but sometimes necessary).

The Method

Sit down with your class notes or your textbook. Your goal is to get all the important concepts you're supposed to have learned in this course so far onto notecards. (Probably not all in one go.)

The ideal time to do this is right after each lecture (most math lectures are around 2-5 cards worth of material), but that's easier said than done. I always had a hard time keeping up & all my card decks, as a result, get spottier towards the end of the term. It's fine. Do your best.

I mostly went through the course material in order. I kept checklists of which lectures I had already made cards for, and which ones still needed doing.

If you don't really get something, but you know you need a card for it, at least put the definition down. You can make a better version or add more notes later. I sometimes make placeholder cards with just a title so I'll remember to come back to something.

If you write down a definition, and you're like "this refers to another thing, and idk what it is but it's come up a few times now," you probably need to make a notecard for that other thing.

How I Use The Cards

When you're doing assignments, it's really useful to have your stack of cards there to refer to. If something comes up that you don't remember the definition for, you can look it up. If you're doing proofs, having all the theorems from the course handy is a great way of getting ideas for where to start. If you're doing calculations, it's helpful to have the techniques you need written out step by step.

I spent a lot of my exam prep time making cards and going through the ones I'd made. It gave me a sense of what I already knew and what I needed to spend more time on. Having things broken up into small chunks also made it a lot easier for my brain to hang onto them.

After making cards like this for a few terms, I also found them really helpful for reviewing concepts from previous courses. Sometimes you just need to refresh your memory on something from the prereq so you're not totally lost. I've graduated now & I still refer back to my cards sometimes.

Conclusion

Well, that's my (somewhat rambly) explanation of my main study method! I hope it's helpful for at least a few people out there. I wish you the best of luck learning math & whatever else you might be studying. You've got this!!

[zekoagun]

hi hello did i hear something about pacific rim spreadsheets??? 👀 & i'm curious about what you wrote in the tags, what did you mean when you said the whole thing was a reference?

HI HI YES OF COURSE the spreadsheets there are two different ones in here, one for the kaiju and one for jaegers, disregard the jaeger one for your uses of course, NOTABLY: it’s impossible or very very stupid for this to be all of the kaiju specifically because it would mean that so many jaegers haven’t seen combat once whereas others would have seen it wayyy more, which would be weird for the amount of money they cost, but this is what we have right now so we just kind of have to deal haha (and also there’s contradictions like how romeo blue according to uprising canon has only seen battle three times all with lady danger which is wrong for so many reasons, ugh). also included is a list of where the sources come from via the asterixes and red highlights, i’m not sure if this is an entirely complete sourcing list because there are some duplicates (meaning that a kaiju shows up on multiple sources) but every kaiju should have one so 🤷

ANYWAY yes, i’m pretty sure it was a reference to independence day (or at least i heard someone say that, i don’t know if it’s true or not since i haven’t watched it) which isn’t unreasonable since their whole signal whatever was also a halving countdown but in the other direction i think,

if you have any more spreadsheet questions feel free 2 ask me :D

does tumblr send a notif if i reply? idk i’ll cover my bases @unnonexistence

[justconstantly]

nine people I'd like to know better

thanks @knifepadme for tagging me!

last song I listened to: I have music playing so as I'm typing this it's looping by Charlotte cardin, I'm just letting my music app play a track mix off of dive by Olivia Dean right now, bc I wanted something chill but not sad

currently watching: only thing I can think of is dungeon meshi? I'm not a huge tv person and I usually watch half a season of something and then forget it exists (case in point even tho I love it I'm like 4 episodes behind dm releases lmao)

sweet/savory/spicy?: also have a major sweet tooth, and I love to bake and have been prolific with all my free time lately, but also a ton of my cooking recently has been focused on spicy, and I don't feel content if it doesn't have red pepper flakes or chili crisps or smth on top

relationship status: nonexistent (asexual 💜🤍🖤)

current obsession: I guess dungeon meshi, lightly? also in general sci fi, I've been reading more lately, irl about 70% of my daily thoughts are taken up with my houseplants tho

tagging (no pressure) @azertykeys @karmajam @belladonnafey @myladyvesta @bromaine-lettuce @junewild @navigatorwrongway @unnonexistence @owlmylove and anyone who sees this 💖

[minipliny]

@unnonexistence The Memory Police i would definitely recommend but should be read when you are feeling broadly emotionally balanced because it is a really existentitally bleak book! I thought it would be more of a story of externally enforced forgetting and a sort of totalitarian future society, but so much of it is internal - the horror of gradually losing yourself. You can read it as an allegory a number of ways but the face value of the story and the reality it pulls you into are very vivid and coherent. I thought it was brilliant but a tough read (and if you've had anticipatory grief for someone with dementia it might hit you there as well). There's also a lot of really well done detail of everyday life and people's plans and strategies for survival, which just adds to its coherence and reality.

[mcmissileproof]

nine people i'd like to know better

thanks for the tag @unnonexistence :V

last song I listened to: whatever was on in the car earlier. I truly do not remember but every time I try to think about it my brain starts playing Choices by The Hoosiers and I guess in a way that makes it the last song I've listened to.

currently watching: dungeon meshi :) usually I'm violently allergic to whatever media tumblr is hyping up at any given time, so keeping up with the big thing is an exciting change for me. I'm having fun and I love all the weird freaks (complimentary) in this cast dearly

sweet/savory/spicy?: tough choice but right now at this moment I'm saying spicy bc I had some good spicy noodles for dinner

relationship status: I had a dating app 4 years ago but deleted it when someone almost took me up on an offer to swordfight but ghosted me when he realized I meant literally fencing. if that's the dating pool I'm working with then why even bother.

current obsession: fire emblem throuses. coming up on a year in and the brainworms show no signs of calming down.

tagging: @pirdmystery @blaiddydboyfriend @targentis @strixhaven and whoever else wants to do it, no pressure if you don't tho B)

[byjillianmaria]

Rating OC Headcanons

I was tagged by @cwritesfiction!!! I followed the same format and ranked each headcanon on a scale of 1 - 5, with 1 being the least accurate and 5 being the most accurate. I'll tag @unnonexistence @brionysea anddd @flannelandsarcasm

Use this headcanon generator to generate some headcanons for your OCs! How accurate are they?

Cleo chews their nails when nervous. — 4. I don't think she actually chews on the nails but homegirl's cuticles are ragged.

Cleo knows fnaf lore. — 5. She's a horror nerd living in the present day. She at least knows the basics of the FNAF lore. It's inevitable.

Cleo is unemployed. — 5. Cleo is in high school and spends most of her free time daydreaming about making movies while never actually finishing a script, oops.

Cleo can't spell resturaunt. — 1. The fact that it's misspelled in the prompt would be INCREDIBLY annoying to her. She's one of those people who judges typos in texts (although she'd never actually say anything).

Cleo is in your house. — 1. She lives in my brain, but I am not in my house right now, so Cleo certainly isn't. She loves how ominous this headcanon is, though.

[ragsy]

19 for the spotify wrapped thing!

19. Hatef--k by The Bravery

There will be no tenderness, no tenderness

I will show no mercy for you

You had no mercy for me

The only thing that I ask, love me mercilessly

[setmeatopthepyre]

47 for the spotify wrapped thing

47. kacey musgraves - dinner with friends

+ fav lyrics:

the shape of his eyes / the shape of his nose / the cute way he mispronounces certain words / the smell of his clothes

[myautisticpov]

Hi, feel free to ignore this if you'd prefer not to amswer, but I think you said something recently about ADHD medication that helped with your ADHD symptoms and like 80% of your anxiety symptoms, and I was just wondering what medication it was? I have ADHD + health anxiety, & I'm looking into medications that might help me with both.

I’m just on standard methylphenidate hydrochloride (so stimulant medication), and I take two fast-release doses a day.

Stimulant medication can make anxiety worse for some people, but I found that my anxiety was a way for my brain to deal with my lack of stimulation. Like, if I didn’t have enough stimulation to do a thing, I would get anxious, which would eventually help.

Except then it expanded from academic and social anxiety to health anxiety as well and that’s pretty much never helpful... And neither were the panic attacks, tbh.

Anyway, it seems that giving my brain the stimulation it’s craving stops it from picking at my anxiety triggers to get said stimulation. And the extra focus helps CBT to stick a little more.

Though my meds do wear off by nighttime, so my anxiety will often return in full-force before bed. But a tiny bit of exercise as well helps with that anxiety (literally 5-10 minutes of yoga) and the ADHD meds help me to do that regularly.

Also, a slow-release version of the medication might not have that drop-off at night (idk, I haven’t tried it), but you can’t mix the meds with alcohol, and stimulant meds being so heavily regulated means that you can’t pick and choose on the day whether you take fast or slow release tablets, and even though I’m not a heavy drinker, I prefer sticking on fast-release so that I can choose not to take my afternoon meds if I’m going to a thing in the afternoon where I’ll want to drink, but still be able to take my morning meds. Rather than sacrificing entire days off my meds or going 100% sober.

Also, in contrast, before I was diagnosed with ADHD, beta-blockers (which kind of do the reverse of stimulants) were also super helpful for my anxiety. So, idk, different stuff works in different ways, and it seems with this kind of thing, it’s best to just try stuff out.

[justconstantly]

MY TOP 9 ALBUMS OF ALL TIME

tagged by @belladonnafey

couldn't sleep, saw ur tag zoph (<3), and here we are. I'm a big album listener so this was a struggle for me, but I tried to avoid all my short term obsessions and only pick my absolute favs, ones I could listen to no skips at any time (order here isn't a ranking or anything, solely was aesthetic for the collage)

lungs (deluxe) - Florence+the machine

fav songs: I'm not calling you a liar, bird song, kiss with a fist

every spare moment for the entire summer of 2014 my brother and I played Minecraft on a LAN server together and I listened exclusively to a YouTube playlist of this album on repeat and that's definitely part of why I am the way I am

heretic pride - the mountain goats

fav songs: autoclave, lovecraft in brooklyn

funnily enough, not one of the three goats albums I have on vinyl, the others are better for living room activities that my record player is good for (lounging, plant watering, etc) but this one is still my all time fav

wasteland baby - hozier

fav songs: almost (sweet music), wasteland baby

RIP my college roommates in spring 2019 because I listened to only this album for approximately 2.5 months and I think they hated me for it (blasting it out loud, singing badly, etc)

Grace - Jeff buckley

fav songs: lover you should've come over, dream brother

this album is so so cool, I mean even discounting Jeff buckleys angelic voice, the haunting guitar? the early modern English hymn?? lilac wine AND hallelujah??? makes me feel incredible

sound and color - alabama shakes

fav songs: this feeling, shoegaze

this whole album makes me just dance/sway around my apartment feeling like I'm the most soulful and tender person alive

post-war - M. ward

fav songs: Chinese translation, right in the head, rollercoaster, magic trick

makes me so indescribably nostalgic for a life I've never lived. when I heard Chinese translation for the first time I was like hmm I'm different now

collapsed in sunbeams - Arlo parks

fav songs: too good, eugene

got the vinyl from my library on a whim to listen to while me and my roomie did a puzzle and spent the next 2 weeks of the hold just glued to the record player, haven't bought my own copy yet but it's on my wishlist FOR SURE just perfect lazy living room vibes for me

crawler - IDLES

fav songs: the beachland ballroom, meds, car crash

massive thank you @azertykeys for recommending me idles bc this album is a go to for me when I'm coding and/or also just in my feelings

bridge over troubled water - Simon & Garfunkel

fav songs: keep the customer satisfied, the boxer, the only living boy in New York, why don't you write me

my parents listened to quite a bit of Simon and Garfunkel when I was a kid and I didn't realize I knew them until I was like 20 and my friend was playing their greatest hits and I knew every word to every song. she was like why do you know so much Simon and Garfunkel and I was like oh is that who this is? anyway love this album, my vinyl is a treasured posession

only reason mitski isn't on this list is because I can't choose between any of her albums

other honorable mentions:

<COPINGMECHANISM> by willow

hospice by antlers

woman on the internet by Orla gartland

case/lang/veirs by case/lang/veirs

transgender dysphoria blues by against me

fetch the bolt cutters by Fiona apple

she won't make sense by the harmleighs

this was long so absolutely no pressure, but tagging @azertykeys @heart-to-hearts @bromaine-lettuce @junewild @unnonexistence @navigatorwrongway and anyone who sees this and wants to give it a go

[keatonkeatonkeaton]

@unnonexistence I hate to be that annoying correcting person but he didn’t injure himself doing this stunt, it was one take and he did it perfectly. He did however break his neck falling from a water tank onto railroad tracks making Sherlock Jr, got up and carried on working and didn’t find out until a medical exam nine years later 👌💕

i don't care if the ghost of buster keaton suddenly appears in my bedroom and drops a train on me, killing me instantly—I'M VOTING HARRY BELAFONTE!

[right after i vote, the ghost of buster keaton suddenly appears in my bedroom and drops the entire front of a house on me, killing me instantly]

Buster Keaton vs Harry Belafonte

[vincentbriggs]

(sorry if this sent twice, I think tumblr messed up the first time) Hello Vince! I really like reading about your sewing projects, and I've sort of been working my way up to making some clothes of my own. I was wondering: how do you wash your 18th-century garments, particularly the ones with a lot of hand sewing? Can they go through the washing machine, or would that damage them? (fabric permitting, of course - I know the wools and silks probably can't)

Hello! 

I hand wash my shirts and hang them up to dry. They could theoretically go through the washing machine and survive, because the hand stitching on 18th century shirts has to be sturdy and small so they withstand washing, but I don’t like to. 

I don’t think they’d be likely to get damaged unless there was really delicate lace ruffles, but machine washing is more damaging over time. Clothes wear out faster when you machine wash them, and even worse if you tumble dry them, and I want mine to last for as long as they can.

Plus, I find that greasy shirt collars just don’t get as clean in the washing machine. You gotta put soap right on them and scrub them by hand to get them to not be gross.

And yeah, wool and silk outer garments aren’t really things that get washed. They’d get rumpled and limp, and probably the dye would run if they were patterned. The linen underwear protects them from getting sweaty, and they wore washable linen or cotton outer garments in summer. 

I don’t know what you do do with silk when it gets dirty, but I guess I’ll find out once my silk things get dirty. I have carefully hand washed my plain wool breeches and waistcoat, and they did get kind of rumpled, so I wouldn’t do that with my fancier stuff.

Edit: oh, I had forgotten the thing about spraying stuff with watered down vodka! I haven’t done it before but I’ve heard it’s great at getting rid of stink.