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#txt#tw#dont read this and i may delete but i just need to say it#i do think about dying a lot#like i dont want to be here lol#people suck big time#everyone here is so nice and lovely and supportive#but you arent physically near me and i guess thats what i need#idk#and i cant just message randoms with all my personal shit all the time#unless i can? idk#the main reason i wont kms is cause my dad wouldnt be able to handle it hes lost too much#i think hed prolly follow suit#and i cant have that#plus other things like my pets etc#but what is the fucking point lol#i know eventually ill move on etc#but the world sucks man#it sucks#i have a good life but my brain sucks and i ruin everything and no one sticks around and i am just a fucked up friend and partner and i dont#see myself getting better#if i told my psych i think about this id get sent off and i think that would make me worse#i just want the future back that i thought i was going to have#that was ripped away from me without warning#no conversation#nothing#and he gets mad at me when i bring that up??????#yeah its so fair you kicked me out etc but im the bad guy for airing my feelings#fuck everyone tbh haha#im just done
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the brushes you use for digital art dont Actually matter that much and its more about core art principles and technique or whatever. but maybe this next brush will be the one
#personal#save me gouache maxpack. etc etc#idk if ill actually get it...need 2 keep thinking about it#unless one of yall has it...i can barter with the brushsets i have LOL
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baby👶 drawings. these are very dear to me rn.. 2nd pic is my Nelavis with @barvin0k's Varonur 🩵 last one is a baby bosmer and snow elf, hairiest of them all. although the bosmer was meant to be my girl Barletta too lols
#tes#skyrim#my art#oc#nelavis#barletta#😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔 babies are so sweetum ugh my heart is crumbling rn#referenced some anne g*ddes stuff for dis#i call them snow elves instead of falmer like g*lebor would want me to#i never really get to talk about my elf anatomies at length cus i'm lazy but i sprinkled some info in the first pic#altmer society is EugenicsLand so you could only tell if your child has 'good' traits when they hit puberty#ex. height and shoulder width is something very important to them#if you don't have those traits ur pretty much a failure#other elves have it easier 🤓#idk i still might make some kinda infographic for the way i picture them but umm maybe not who knows#on snow elves and bosmer the fur is still 'confused' when they're in baby stage and is pretty much everywhere#it evens out w/ age and stays on the back; neck; sides of face the most and in places where human body hair wud be#idk ummm..and i think all elves grow their nails out unless they're very intertwined with humans in their life#ex. my snelf elisif; she has her nails trimmed to be regarded as more human i guess#nails are most important to altmer tho and might be a status symbol of some kind... they like using them in combat too#it's shameful for an altmer to not have long nails for any reason but there can be exceptions#like my el*nwen that can't physically grow nails out because of burn injury#so she has fake ones on her combat gloves#it's cute#elf nails aren't as frail as human nails and are more like an animals claws (corny) but bosmers' are the sturdiest#and their nails are curved in shape. for U know. Climbing and stuff#cause dunmer and altmer etc. have straight nails. they can hit the nail salon
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ok logistically this makes no sense but: what if you put little charms on the chains. like a charm bracelet
#i started this in october but now it can be birthday doodle art lol#maybe in another six months i'll finish leorio's birthday art :')#hbd to the chain bastard 🎉#hunter x hunter#hxh#kurapika#gon freecss#don't ask how the chains are out when he's asleep it's kurapika he's just all chains all the time idk#also technically the charms should fall off when he... un-conjures(?) the chains#Unless#he deliberately decided to conjure the charms too? :')#(also sorry to izunavi and to anyone i forgot. i ran out of charm ideas TvT)
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Vol 3 Jack really went though it huh
#he really did tho that last part man.... i would say you need therapy but your last therapist sucked#Jack needs a vacation#well he got one- they all got one but we all know how that went huh#these characters really can not catch a break#oh also jerry is there but im not tagging him#tales from the gas station#art#artwork#fanart#tftgs fanart#tftgs jack#he did not lie when he said he looks younger when his hair grows out- i remember that#do i tag Ricardo? idk no ones gonna get that unless theyve read the books i doubt its a tag#illustration#tftgs vol3#jack townsend#dont ask why im posting this so late my time
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id fumble him so bad
#really really rushed but ill probably go back and clean these up tmrw anyway#i havent played stardew valley but ive been meaning to because i have a little crush on this guy ^_^ hes cute#idk why but smth about him is really endearing. like between him and sunburst i feel like theres a pattern here but idk what#i guess my type is boys that whimper#the last two images are based on a real conversation i had with my doctor a few years ago lol. deadass stared at me for a good 2 minutes#i wanna make a farmersona too...... if my minecraft gameplay is anything to go by id probably play with animals all day instead of#actually farming........ can i just do livestock in stardew.. i dont have a green thumb i managed to kill a succulent once......#actually idk if my computer is even strong enough to run steam but i dont wanna get it on my phone. maybe ill get the microsoft download#unless stardew has its own website like minecraft. i really dont know anything abt it so im going in blind from the start#my art#myart#doodles#puppysona#sona#sdv#sdv harvey#stardew valley#whats funny about this is i have a classmate who kinda looks like if brian david gilbert and harvey had a baby. i havent told him this
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not enough discussion about the gavins' complicated relationship with feminine-coded/beauty products, i don't think.
#for klavier because it's not as direct it's about how we never see him actually wearing lipstick? even though apollo literally attends#a concert of his which is where you'd most expect him to wear makeup. but apparently he just doesnt. or at least not in public#klavier gavin#kristoph gavin#i feel like there are several ways you can read into it. the misogyny/toxic masculinity one is really obvious clearly with kristoph's#singling out of men specifically and klavier's (probably accidental?) condescending manner of calling women 'fraulein' plus his general#mildly patronising attitude towards many of the women in the game (also probably unintentional)#(i think he's trying to be charming and it's coming off wrong to some of them. like ema. and me.)#but i feel like there's also maybe an element of... inherent perfecfionism to it? like both of these products are conventionally beautifyin#products and kristoph while he is open to showing people he uses nail polish specifically chooses one that's clear and missable unless you#see him apply it. he also feels the need to justify his use of it and specifically spell it out as something he chooses to do rather than#needs to do even though duh. that should be obvious.#idk there's just something about his seeming need to take control of that narrative that i find interesting. his need to spin it into a#'there's nothing wrong with my nails but I had the foresight to see that even the smallest parts of my appearance should be kept immaculate#and it's a choice i'm making to refine an already adequate part of my personage /not/ to cover some unsightly defect.' the need to emphasis#that specifically is so. hm. and with klavier i could see it being a case of him liking makeup liking the pops of colour yet being unwillin#to admit to it because he's afraid that other people might see it as him being dissatisfied with his own appearance regardless of if he is#or isn't. or even just perceiving colourful makeup as being unseemly because it's so overt and unnatural.#like i can see this as them both viewing 'real' beauty to be that which is inherent to a person and seemingly effortless#thus somehow negating the beauty which one achieves through cosmetics or other external means.#and if you want to use external means to achieve beauty or neatness or whatever then your only valid options are those which blend into you#natural state. like clear nail polish. or really awful spray tan.#i feel like klavier's less confined by these ideas (if they hold merit at all) considering he actually owns coloured lipstick and he wears#jewellery (admittedly quite 'masculine' jewellery no gems or pearls or anything like that but jewellery nonetheless) but i think it just#makes it more interesting that he doesnt seem quite able to cross the line anyway. like it's that ingrained into his system.#anyway that's all i've got. you guys should tell me what you think too#annotations
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Y'know about that worst-case neglect route down the acts?
So, what if the menu changes at that point?
Mirabelle
Isabeau
Odile
Bonnie
"a-and Siffrin!"
Siffrin's turn becomes automatic and Bonnie becomes a playable character
they just want to be useful
they are desperate to be useful to their team
That's absolutely heartbreaking thank you for the mental image I am in shambles
They will still not let Bonnie fight no matter how op they get, no no no, Bonnie is a kid so no getting in harms way! but siffrin feeling like he isn't part of the game anymore? isn't part of the team??? Agh that's so possible I AM DEAD
#TINY RAMBLING TIME The neglect route is so so so so hard to reach cause the party is very sweet#and you need to have EVERYONE be very neglectful to siffrin WITH CONSISTENCE#think of undertale's 'no mercy route' in the 'you can't reach this path unless the player is ACTIVELY seeking it' way#cause if bombom give sif (WHO IS THEIR IDOL) comfort sweets#or isabeau reassure him people are just very determined about saving and they can (insert future promise that will 'never happen')#or mirabelle apologises (they have as much bad and bothersome memories about sif as they have very sweet and nice sif memories)#they already won't get his 'i can help!' skill#i have so many mental images about this route and how many bad choices need to be done to reach it but idk HOW TO EXPLAIN THEM T-T#i hope you catch the vibe tho
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yk when i think about it, especially when im watching the anime with people who havent read the manga, the reason a lot of people who only watch the anime and didnt read the manga misinterpreted saikis character so badly is definitely in part because of how damn fast paced the anime is 😭
like that little smile and eye shine frame is there for not even half a second in the anime, so its easier to miss it and assume that he really did only finish those workbooks to get coffee jelly ☠️ its much more clear if you get a good look at how he reacts here that hes just a silly little tsundere and a fucking liar
#this might be really obvious but im silly#LET ME YAP !!#dont read this as me making fun of anime only fans#i was literally one until like a few months ago#i just think its unfortunate how different the vibe is#obviously i love the anime though#there are still some things i straight up don't understand how people miss though#like people who watch the whole anime and still think saiki hates teruhashi or nendo specifically#like ? he has some of his most affectionate scenes with them#but i think maybe its because they missed so many of the more subtle details#that by the time they see saikis offu or him saying he and teruhashi make a great team.. it appears more sudden to them than it really is#so they either completely ignore those scenes or dismiss them as fanservice#ugh#its. literally not fan service at all and makes perfect sense if you pay attention#idk how u can watch the sweetest line ever 'we're invincible together' and deny that saiki cares about teruhashi#in general its actually just impossible to end the show thinking he hates any of his friends unless u just ignored things on purpose#even if u ended at the first season like a lot of people#but im just saying i guess i get why its a little less obvious in the show#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#saiki kusuo#meows post
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everyone loves talking about the batshit worldbuilding in WoT but I feel like everybody tends to overlook the Vaguely Evil Elves From Another Dimension that have their own officially licensed chutes and ladders-esque board game that you Cannot Ever Win
#unless you're a 9 year old boy who's surrogate father just broke their entire reality#society when olver won snakes and foxes without cheating#the day I get my hands on a real life snakes and foxes game is the day that I can die happy#but idk I feel like everybody tends to overlook the aelfinn and the eelfinn in favor of like. the ogier and radioactive two rivers#and the many. many. m a n y. other insane worldbuilding Choices robert jordan made#which are all valid I mean WoT is fucking insane#but I think we should have more aelfinn and eelfinn appreciation on this webbed site#like they're so interesting!!!!!! there's so much to unpack!!!!!!!!!#vin speaks#wheel of time#wot book spoilers#wheel of time spoilers#wot spoilers#mat cauthon#the shadow rising#towers of midnight
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i was like Okay i'm just gonna do a quick doodle of Maddie before bed. hour and a half later . whoops !
#or maybe 2 hours idk#maddie han#i love herrrr 😚#she is so beautiful i am shocked theres nobody out there just pumping out fanart all hours of the day ?#unless im just somehow missing all of it. tumblr's search function sucks thats like common consensus isnt it.#anyway. there can never be enough maddie fanart in the world... so i will do my part#art on my blog#<- i want a quirky little art tag. is that good. should i switch the urls for this blog and my main blog ? heartonmyblog is soo much cuter#911#911 abc#911 show#911 fanart#theres so many possible variations of a 911 tag and i dont know what the most commonly used one is so. im just gonna leave it at those#maddie buckley
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-turns myself into a Paper Mario Partner-
I'm a Pokey :>
Note: the sprite is incorrect, the regular cactus tail is perfect.
I gave myself arms & hands cuz I thought it'd be funny and tbh I really vibe with the look of it.
you can see my design concepts and 2 other ideas for what species I'd be that I got from 2 different quizzes I took.
In the end I felt like the Pokeys deserve some love, they're just funky little cacti creatures <3
almost forgot the sprite sheet below:
#my art#phone art#paper mario#mario boo#pokey#shadow siren#super mario#mario#my gif#pixel art#gif warning#I've been watching a TTYD playthrough and my brain wouldn't let me rest until I did this sdkjdsfjsfdhhfds#if I had the creativity to do it I'd design a ghost pokey for me. but this is the best I can do cuz idk HOW a ghost pokey could look#I do imagine a ghost variant Pokey would just mindlessly go through walls at a leisurely pace. maybe a slightly different colored--#--variant of the ghost Pokey would be homing in on Mario at all times as an enemy? hmmm...#imagine another variant that starts off looking like a stagnant head but as mario gets closer it reveals its full body and blocks Mario--#--unless Mario runs and jumps just in time. do a spin jump off its head/spikes and bounce right past it
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varric is not a redhead anymore (the iron bull greatly disapproves)
#this is the last one i promise#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age#dragon age 4#varric tethras#had this one my mind since the announcement trailer but now that i had a friend agree with me i can post this without feeling like im#the only one loosing my mind#anyway also have made a discovery that thorin has a haunted look in his eyes for about the majority of three films. which is understandable#but weird that it took me so long to see it#also bioware why is varric not a redhead anymore (the iron bull disapproves)#like i get that he's a silver fox now and honesty good for him#but that doesn't mean his hair had to turn black#unless he's really going thorough it (the midlife crisis) and dyeing his hair while waiting for the world to end#which is also understandable#also idk how lotr years work so i just copied thorin's death year from wiki
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One of the probable reasons as to why Kaeya didn't arrive on time for Crepus and Diluc when they were attacked was because he, and the knights with him, had no vision, and thus, cannot use a teleport waypoint.
Him receiving his cryo vision when he was supposed to get scorched by Diluc was genuinely the biggest slap to the face given to him by Celestia. It arrived just in time to save HIM.
Even now, the vision only heals and shields him alone as a manifestation of his desire to keep living from that fight... but he can't use it to help others.
#ngl this description was a shock to see purely coz wtf were inazuma vision bearers doing lmao#unless they didnt want to leave their countrymen alone while the decree was still up#kaeya#kaeya alberich#yeah idk what else to say about it other than the fact that Kaeya's vision is the biggest middle finger from celestia#celestia: lol f this kid specifically. he did nothing wrong but his fam sure did#1 more thing but do they have to approach a teleport waypoint to use it?#im assuming they do purely coz they dont memorize where all the other waypoints are#ngl this opens up to other ideas like cyno tighnari and collei travelling instead of teleporting is coz nari hasnt been to mond#same with others taking a boat coz they havent encountered that waypoint yet#i guess that explains things for most inazuma vision bearers actually :O they havent left the nation so they cant unlock the other waypoints#wow i have a lot of thoughts here in the tags yet again. kaeyachi with the tags that can be a whole entire post instead.#right back to kaeyangst but seriously what a wicked timing. him receiving it too late to prevent everything#him also receiving it just in time to let him continue living his life full of lies...(his own words not mine)#did he start learning how to use it immediately? did he fear its usage because it meant celestia was watching him?#did he stare at it in betrayal? throw it off a cliff? hide it in his drawers?#so many thoughts hnghh
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"to even give people the mere chance of starting to understand how you feel about this character and this story you made up around them you have to actually draw that comic, you are at chapter 2, even just the rough draft for it took you a year despite your best efforts on being faster"
#ganondoodles talks#zelda#i am#at least right now and sleep depreived#feeling so much about demise again#hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#no one can understand it all unless i draw it alll#why am i so slowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww#theres so manythigns that happens so far into the story and i cant reveal yet bc it wouldnt have any impact#and spoil it#even thoguh i dont think its all good enough that spoiling it would do anything#maybe the wait isnt worth it idk#but i wanna yell about my blorbo#so much feelings argh#and theres ALSO so much lore that wont come up at all in the comic#i dont know why i have it and i dont know what to do with it#all those backgrounds make the characters into what they are#but its not relevant enough to put it into the main story#AND IM SO SLOW ANYWAY#ARGH#you could ask me about any of the characters in destiny (my comic not the game ..) and i could write half a novel
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I know this isn't only an autistic thing or always an autistic thing, but over the least few years, I've realized that a lot of my difficulties with humor are not actually with humor itself. If anything, there are specific kinds of humor that really work for me and I end up laughing so much harder and longer than everyone else that it's uncomfortable or embarrassing.
But a lot of popular humor fundamentally relies on saying things that aren't true. Sometimes this is drastic exaggeration, sometimes it's OTT parody that is far more about Being Funny than about the actual thing being parodied, and often it's flatly false and that's what is supposed to be funny about it. And yes, that's a humorless and ungracious way to describe that kind of humor—I don't mean to say that this is objectively bad or something.
I even understand the jokes intellectually. But in the vast majority of cases, there is something deeply unfunny to me about jokes reliant on something that is either obviously untrue or which I firmly disagree with.
I've seen quite a few posts recently about how, in online fandom, mocking your faves or being amused at other people mocking your faves is an important part of fandom culture. But for me, jokes about my faves based on things they actually said or did, or qualities they clearly possess, can be very funny, while jokes that are based on misrepresentations—even obvious, it's-all-in-good-fun-and-we-all-know-the-truth misrepresentations—are tedious at best.
For an easy example: Anakin and Luke Skywalker are two of my main Star Wars faves. Jokes about sand or Anakin mass-murdering children in his good phase or Luke being far less concerned than Han over the revelation of who his twin is or "it's not faaaaair" can still be really funny to me when told right. Jokes about Anakin obviously mind-tricking Padmé or Luke being obviously an eternally optimistic loser twink are intensely annoying to me regardless of context or delivery, not because they're comparably objectionable or anything but because they're not true.
Functionally this does cut out a lot of humor—especially online humor—but it's not that I literally don't understand it. I get it. I just don't get it.
#anghraine babbles#long post#sw fanwank#rare breed of attack unicorn#general fanwank#etc#it was a couple of lotr joke posts i've recently seen that were based on blatantly untrue things about gondor that got me thinking more#i didn't correct them (and usually don't!) but when someone else does#and the ops are like 'well actually i'm right because [another comedically false statement]' it's this weird mix of understanding the humor#and understanding it in a way that is the mental equivalent of eating boiled unseasoned vegetables. allegedly there is value but ugh#and a lot of jokes and especially mockery hit that way for me unless it's clearly true#and then it can be absolutely hilarious shit. idk.#this came up in my autism diagnosis and is well established in the literature blahblah so i know it is very often an autism thing#but in any case: probably a disproportionate number of people in fandom /can/ take jokes and mockery of their faves#they just don't find the 'make up shit about them with little to no basis in characterization and keep repeating it' form of it funny
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