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Mapi LĂ©on x reader
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(my first language isn't english nor spanish, sorry for any grammar or spelling mistakes)
Summary :
Mapi is your biggest fan
Being an athletes in a unknown sport you never expect her to show up at a national competition after she told you she couldn't make it due to some "important" football stuff.
Mapi made it clear from day one that you were her priority, unfortunately due to her extremely demanding career you would often be left alone for days. Today was one of those days days, she had left for the US and would be comming back in 2 days, unfortunately meaning she would miss your competition.
You were a "hobby athletes", your sport wasn't know enough to make a living out of it but still to have world championship. Although money wasn't a problem with Mapi, you still preferred to be able to rely on your own.
Today was the first national competition of the season, meaning that if you placed first, you would immediately be qualified for the world championship. As you were getting ready to put your make-up on, your phone screen lighted up, call incoming, as soon as you saw your girlfriend name on the screen you didn't hesitate to answer. Seeing her sleepy face on the screen made it impossible not to chuckle at her cuteness.
(M): Hola mi amor, te extraño
hi my love, i miss you.
Hi bebé, yo también te extraño, ¿cómo estås?
hi baby i miss you too, how are you ?
Estoy cansado, el entrenamiento ha sido agotador. OjalĂĄ estuvieras aquĂ.
Tired, training has been exhausting. i wish you were here
Le deseo eso al bebĂ©, 2 dĂas mĂĄs para sobrevivir y serĂ© todo tuyo para disfrutar.
I wish that to baby, 2 more days to survive and i will be all yours to enjoy.
Tengo que volver a entrenar, te hablo mĂĄs tarde, Âżvale? Te quiero, buena suerte en tu competiciĂłn.
I have to go back to training, i will talk to you later okag ? I love you good luck with your competition
You were left staring at you phone in shock, your girlfriend that would normally wait till the last second to hang up, till Alexia dragged her ass back to the field, just hang up on you without letting you respond.
Finding it weird but not thinking much about it you got your keys and got at to the competition location. Arriving to the parking lot, you meet your coach that informed you of a surprise at the medals ceremony.
Your performance was amazing, not a single flaw, not a single point deducted, just perfect. Right before the medals ceremony, your coach went up to you.
Cuando estés en tu podio no olvides mirar a la multitud.
when your on your podium don't forget to look at the crowd.
Looking at him like he was crazy, he just send a sweet smile while walking away. There was crowd but it was friends or family of the competitor nothing special.
You were annonce first overall, getting up your podium, gold medal hanging around your neck, you smiled happily at the crowd. Eyes zooming over it to find what your coach was talking about, there you find her, your girlfriend huge smile over her face, her barca flag in between her hands, clapping. She was the loudest one in the room, screaming her heart out as if she was in a concert. Mouth hanging open, you got off the podium and run as fast as you could to your girlfriend. Arms wrapped around you as you cried into her neck, the rollercoster of emotion crashing into you.
Si hubiera sabido que te harĂa llorar no habrĂa venido.
if i had known i would make you cry i wouldn't have come
Hitting her in the arm after her stupid jocke, her torso vibrating from her laugh as she hold you close.
ÂżContenta con tu sorpresa?
happy with your surprise ?
You nobbed eagerly, her hand finding your hair massaging your scalp.
ÂżQuĂ© estĂĄs haciendo aquĂ? No se suponĂa que regresaras hasta
what are you doing here ? you weren't supposed to come back until
You were cut off by a kiss.
ÂżNo puedo sorprender a mi novia? Nos dejaron salir temprano, asĂ que pensĂ©: Âżpor quĂ© no ver a mi hermosa novia, la vida de mi vida? Estuviste increĂble, nena, estoy muy orgullosa.
can't i surprise my girlfriend ? we were let off early so i thought why not see my beautiful, the live of my life. You were amazing baby i'm so proud.
Mapi lips found yours one more, hands rooming along each other bobies, you felt like you were the only one left in the world. Until your friend coughed, signaling you that there were kids in the room, you chuckled a bit as you rolled your eyes. Taking Mapi hands in yours dragging her to your car, the drive home was filled with little kisses and sweet words. Arriving home, both tired from your day, you cuddled till you both falled asleep.
Author note :
This is my first ever fic, I know I still have a lot to learn but if you have advice or request don't hesitate !
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â "MY JOLLY SAILOR BOLD." tweels
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SYNOPSIS: You meet two mysterious yet beautiful mermen around your age and you ask them to sing for you. They agreeâthough there's one condition....they want a kiss in return. A fair deal and you decide that nothing could possibly go wrong....right?
âč [ cw ] â suggestive, making out, lovesick/slightly yan-coded behavior, both of them pin for you, drowning, the tweels deserve a warning themselves, fighting, mild blood and injuries, mentions of murder, everyone here is morally greyâ
âč [ tags ] â gn! reader, on my siren eel agenda, flirty pirate mc, siren-eels are not to be messed with but mc is reckless, jade and floyd having an ariel moment but they'reâŠa fucked up version of ariel, typical siren-behavior, floyd calls you prettyâ
âč [ w.c ] â 3.3k+â
WHAT AN ODD LITTLE pirate you were.
Raised by your mother, horrific twisted tales of the deep were practically bedtime stories for you. She was a former ship's captain and a seasoned sailor who had spent more than half of her life at sea.
Mother weaved tales of glorious bloody battles, of thrashing waves, and, most importantly, of dangerous creatures in the sea. Hatred and fear for these grotesque marine creatures have been indoctrinated in you since you were young. It was imbued to the very core of your being, hammered and nailed into your head.
Alas, it appears that you have entirely disregarded the cautions that were issued to you. Any capable pirate knew better than to invite merfolk around.
Especially if you were all alone on a ship.
This year, spring had arrived a little earlier than usual, but you didn't mind at all.
It was at an obscene hour of the night when you were aimlessly paddling your little rowboat over the waves.
Floating a few feet away from your ship, you were gazing out over the sea where the waters were flat and serene, blue as far as your vision would allow. It was a sight you've grown all too accustomed to seeing.
You've sailed a hundred expeditions down this route and you were well aware of the carnage and bloodshed thatâs been wrought here in the name of piracy.
A majority of which you've taken part in asâCaptain (Y/N).
Young as you were, despite your youth, you had ambition. Already having established yourself as a living legendâor, as some have dubbed you, a living nightmare.
Sailorsâyoung and oldâhave perished in your name, ships have sunk at your command, and your sword has spilt the blood of hundreds. You had amassed a great fortune from wandering merchants, and fellow pirates alike, all of which were misfortunate enough to fall upon your path.
These were tales and legends from bygone eras; the golden age of piracy had long since passed. Nowadays, you just cruise the sea anyway you pleased.
Adventure seldom found you.
In the middle of reminiscing, you abruptly became aware of a shimmering brilliance beneath the murky sea.
Oh?
'Maybe it was a trick of the waves? Or was it the moonlight's illusion?' You ponder to yourself as you stand at the stern of the boat and look out into the dreary waters.
The entire ocean sleeps when the moon is full. In the middle of the night, no fish or creature would dare remain thus near a boat...so what could possibly be out there?
Peering down, you make eye contact with a pair of glowing yellow eyes, slitted into diamonds.
Startled, the unknown creature slips back into the darkness with scarcely a ripple to disrupt the waves enveloping all about them. You're hypnotized by their shimmering skin as they moved smoothly and elegantly past the icy surfs.
In those short seconds while staring into the pitch-black sea, your mind conjures only one word.
Mermaid.
STRANGE AND STRANGELY FASCINATING, it was. "It" being the obsessive infatuation the Leech twins had for you.
Since they were little, the two brothers have been watching you grow up on that ship, peeping at you behind rocks and tall clusters of brilliant coral.
Curiosity and an interest for humans drew them to you at first, so they thought nothing of it. However, later, as they grew older, that interest developed into something more.
One that made their hearts feel like it was going to burst, a blood-curdling carnage of red and pink spills gushing out in a splatter. With the mere mention of your name, their stomachs sink and turn. The hems of love along their hearts diving into obsessionâboth feelings closely akin.
Jade and Floyd haven't run upon anyone who was courageous enough to meet creatures like them. Though, they shouldnât have expected anything less from a pirate like you with an astronomical desire for adventure.
As you waved down at them from the ocean's depths, both of them swiftly swam up to the surface, eager to meet you. Their hands were clamoring and their hearts were racing to a tune that sang praises for you.
"There you are." You grinned handsomely, cocking your head to the side. The flowing fabric of your blouse blew wildly in the fresh salty wind, exposing bits and pieces of your chest and neck for them to see. "Hello~"
Big love-tinted eyes peeked up at you, drinking in every feature, blemish, and scar on your flesh. Occasionally, your gazes would meet and they would quickly avert their stareâa deep blue hue creeping up their cheeks, almost as if they felt bashful around you.
Even then, you thought it would be more appropriate if you were the one who was acting timid.
Because, by the gods, their beauty was such a sight to behold above the waters. In all your years out at sea and land, you've seen no maiden nor man with such features.
Such captivating features.
Teal-haired, with keen, slitted eyes that were veiled with thick, drooping lashes. Cheeks colored with a pale touch of death.
They were breathtakingly beautiful.
There was an urge, a pull at your heart to dive down and join themâdrowning yourself in their embrace. Though, you resisted, almost immediately recognizing the sorcery that pulled on your carnal desires.
Mother and weather-beaten sailors had warned you of this. This overwhelming want. This spellbinding stare. Yet as they both drift closer, the forewarned dangers vanishes from your thoughts like mist. You're now left with little more than a hazy consciousness as you see them approach your boat.
You are in grave danger yet you are not afraid. Fear does not grip you as you raise a leg over the side of the boat, swing it over the top of the wood, and then sit over the edge, never taking your eyes off the mermen in front of you.
Their entire body, apart from their eyes, were submerged in the water which made it hard to determine what their species were. Though you could occasionally catch the flicker of their tail slapping against the surface.
Speaking of their tail, it was an utterly resplendent sight! Even if you tried, you wouldn't be able to explain its magnificience as it gleamed brighter than any of the gold or jewels your sullied hands have ever taken hold of.
Its lack of a single color and its vivid, luminous nature fascinated you. Depending on how the moonlight hit it, it radiated a wide range of shades, from the deep tint of blueish teal to a rich shade of bluish jade.
"First time away from your home?" You rasp, waving a hand in the ocean, watching as small ripples curved against the water's surface, tides of the blue abyss travelling outwards.
Minutes pass, and yet you get no response.
"HmmâŠyou two don't talk much, do you?"
Jade and Floyd knew all about pirates, heard every story, whisper, and tale of the bloodthirsty monsters fueled by lust for gold and glory. And yet, they somehow struggle to picture you as the avaricious captain you were labelled as.
Still, while you appeared free and jovial, both of them could sense that you yearned for the thrill of danger, for life-threatening adventure, and for the many fantastic yet perilous things the ocean has to offer.
They exchanged glances, and at that instant, their plan was set in place.
Appearing docile, Floyd shook his head no, hovering near you and spinning around playfully.
"Awe, aren't you a cute little guy?" You cooed, running a rough hand along his back. The mer shivered, preening at your compliment.
"I really shouldn't be so close to you, though. Us pirates usually avoid approaching any merfolk sinceâŠthey feel your methods, your ways of living areâŠ" You trailed off, waving a hand in the air as you searched for the right words.
"Spooky?" Jade spoke out, swimming closer to you with a sinister glitter in his eyes. Breath hitching in your throat, you leaned towards him, an amused smirk slowly stretching across your cheeks. "Oh ho? You do talk."
"I can do much more than that." Jade purred, the tone of his voice sinking into a sonorous lull.
Well, you certainly canât deny that something draws you to these two.
The predictability of your life on these seas has gotten boring to you. Gone were the days of bloodthirsty glory instead, it was always the same routine. Poring over the same ancient yellowed maps, loitering about the deck, and secluding yourself away in the vast sea.
You know your mother would be horrified by your actions, disgusted to see you mingling and, Poseidon forbidâflirting with theseâŠmer.
Though you couldn't bring yourself to care. Speaking with these two was the closest thing to excitement you've felt in a long time.
"That's a pretty voice, love."Â The grin on your face lacks any of the warmth it had in the past few moments.
You tip your head back and giggle, raspy and brittle, "I heard a mer's song was, um, what did those bards call it? Ah, yesâA voice that is so alluring that men and women jump overboard in squadrons."
"Hauntingly beautiful, that's what the poets call you mermaidsâŠ" You hum, watching them slyly from your row boat while reclining back against the wood.
Gaze drifting down their body, your arms folded around your chest and your gaze turned half-lidded, lips curled up in a sensual, cat-like smirk. "âŠand I can see why. Haunted, I am."
Both of them go abruptly silent and you chuckle, staring at them through the wreaths of grey smoke that curled into fanciful hazy whirls from the foggy environment.
Floyd and Jade squirmed as they both felt the strong pull of their instincts, screaming at them to just drag you into the waters already.
Your conniving praises and silver tongue was starting to get to them. One more push andâ
"SayâŠI've been meaning to ask," You murmur, and seem to take a moment to stare into their innermost souls.
"Can you sing for me�"
Something snaps.
Floyd makes a low sound, somewhere between a trill and a growl, while Jade's eyes darken considerably. Beneath your piercing, ice-cold gaze, the twins felt their nerves prickle up like the flickering electric stings of a jellyfish.Â
This is a dangerous game you're playing.Â
"âŠYou're quite the flatterer," Jadeâever so composedâis quick to snap out of it and smiles simply, tapping his talons along the wooden deck. "âŠI suppose I could grant you your wish. Though, there is to be an exchange for it."
"Hm? What's that, mate?" You looked up at your ship from your little boat, eyes darting to the windows of your chambers. "That ol' girl isn't new to the seas so there's quite a lot of stuff there. Maybe some of my treasures will catch your fancyâ"
"No." Jade interrupts you, the shadow over his eyes returns. "âŠI do not wish for any treasure or gold. All I want is a kiss."
"A kiss?" You parroted, an eyebrow elevated and amused laughter peaking from your lips. "I have chests of golds and heaps of ruby-eyed jewelry; yet, all you want is a kiss, is that truly what you desire?"
"Yes."
"Nothin' more?"
Jade ponders and pauses for a while, before turning to face his brother. "Floyd, perhaps you want something as well?"
"I wanna kiss from pretty shrimpy too!" Floyd cooed, pursing his lips at you and imitating kissing sounds by hollowing his cheeks. His strong arms, taut with ripping muscle, are crossed over one other as it rests upon the rims of your boat.
"So, what do you say, Captain? Is it a deal~?" Floyd stretches out a hand expectantly.
And you take it.
"Deal." You smirk. "One kiss for each of you, in exchange for a song. Pirate's honor."
Not like the honor of a pirate was worth much anyways.
The melody lifting from Jade's lips was somewhat familiar to you, yet it was of a faraway nostalgia. You couldnât remember where you'd last heard it, but it feltâŠright. He had a voice that was velvety smooth; thick, and deep like a dream.
"Upon one summer's morning /  I carefully did stray," Jade sang, deep voice flowing off his lips in a sweet honeyed songâits melody lathering itself on your tongue. The saccharine taste of its imbricating rhythm obliterating every bit of skepticism you held towards them. "Down by the Walls of Wapping, where I met a sailor gay."
"My heart is pierced by Cupid / I disdain all glittering gold." Jade continued, tucking the long dark strand of his hair behind his earâleaning his head atop the rickety rims of the boat's mossy wood. "There is nothing can console me / but my jolly sailor bold."
"Come all you pretty fair mers, whoever you may be / Who love a jolly sailor that ploughs the raging sea." Floyd hums along, lovingly tracing a hand up your arm. His voice was a lovely little thing; echoing deep throughout the air.
As expected, they sang beautifully, hauntingly; with an accent in a tongue native only to the sea. There was a mystical lull weaved into their voicesâfitting to their titles as bewitching creatures of the sea.
"My heart is pierced by Cupid /I disdain all glittering gold." Jade stares straight ahead, his sapphire gaze alluringly fixed on you seated in front of him.
"There is nothing can console meâŠ" Pushing himself up the wooden edge of your boat, the eel lures you over and you followed. "âŠbut my jolly sailor bold."
As Jade's song came to its finality, he leaned in close and pressed a swift warm kiss atop your agape mouth, such tenderness in his affectionsâand that of heavily masked lust. The eel parted from you, nipping at your bottom lip and watching with unbridled delight as a flicker of pink hue glazed over your diluted eyes. Â
"Come in the water, shrimpy~"Â Floyd cooed at you, claws reaching out to trace against the curve of the ships side. "We don't bite~"
Songbound, you leaned in towards the two and plunged in.
You donât think about holding your breath.
The water was ice-cold and it strikes at you like a venomous bite. Yet before you could sink, two strong hands grasp at your waist, keeping you afloat in spite of the rough rocks of the sea. Jade was cradling you close to his chest, his hold firm and uncompromising while his tail encircled and bound your legs together.
"Hello, shrimpy~" Crooning, Floyd moved to rest his wet cheek against your tangled hair, talons pushing past the fringes of your damp torn-up shawl to rest against your thighs.
The slippery pads of his fingers trailed up to your torso; Travelling from your hips, past your corset, all the way up to your chest. The eel toyed with the drawstrings of your poet shirt before grasping it tight and yanking you forward.
"You're so pretty~" Floyd trailed his other hand up your neck, sharp talons feathering over your pulse dangerously. The eel craned his head down to meet you eye to eye.Â
"I could just eat you up." The silky strands of his lashes fluttered against his lidded gaze as he leaned in close, breath fanning across your burning cheeks. Floyd pulled you into a deep kiss, loving the way you groaned against his mouth.
Chuckling against your lips, Floyd tightened his hold on your neckâhis claws almost breaking skin, "You like that, shrimpy?"
You return the kiss, dazedly smiling against his lips before pulling away, lungs in desperate need of oxygen.
Floyd could see drops of water resting atop your swollen lips, and as your tongue darts out to wipe them, a fiery desire ignites in the deep curves and crooks of his heart. It didn't take long before he was diving in once more, lips pressing against the side of your neck.
While his brother was fixated on marking your skin, Jade hugged you from behindâaffectionately cuddling into your hair.
The eel ran his hand up your throat and grasps your jaw with webbed hands to tilt your head backwards. He presses his lips against yours, the thick muscle of his tongue prying your mouth open before it darted in.
Floyd glides away from your form after a few minutes, leaving your neck sufficiently bitten and marked. He grinned excitedly and took your hands in his webbed ones, whisking you away from Jade.
You couldn't help but notice how he was gently dragging you away from the rowboat. "Say, shrimpy~ You ever wondered what it's like to swim under the sea?"
A flash of clarity hits you, shattering the enchanting spell that both mermen had cast upon your heart. You sensed danger as both eels started to close in, grinning ominously which revealed their fangsâlong and dripping with thirst.
It seems that your fun little swim was over.
"I can't say I've ever experienced the pleasures of drowningâ" you muttered. "And I don't intend to do so very soon."
The texture of their tails may appear solid and rough, but when you kick your legs at Floyd's, you immediately discover how the skin is supple when touched.
The sharp end of your worn boots cut at his silky luminescent skin, dragging along the scales of his flesh and leaving a deep cut in its wake. A small trickle of blue blood spreads into the waters and the eel hisses, darting away from you.
You try to swim away, but somethingâor rather, someoneâgets in your way.
"My my, leaving so soon, pearl?" Jade quips, grin all-to-sharp.
In hindsight, it was foolish to interact with two mermen you hardly knew, especially ones who were taut with sharp teeth and firm muscles. Any pirate with half a mind would know to turn the other way and flee if these two approached them.
The mer both advanced to surround you, a mysterious glimmer swimming behind the haze of their duo-colored eyes.
A startling epiphany rushes over you.
As slippery as they might be, thereâs no hiding the lethal sheen of pink in their eyesâespecially not from you, a pirate whoâs spent a fair number of their days hauling the cold dead bodies of lovesick sailors away from their watery graves.
These two weren't your run-of-the-mill mermen, no. You have heard about them beforeâin tales and legends.
Mermaids. Vampires of the sea. Water nymphs. Naiads. Sirens.
Many names, yet they are all the same.
A sighting like this is not unusual. This species of mer is mostly found in the deepest, darkest sections of the ocean, and they only come up to hunt at night.
It seems that you've walked right into their trap. Sailors were their easiest prey.
"Ah." You grit your teeth, a low, breathy snarl slipping past your swollen lips. "I should've known."
Thereâs a warm yet strong pressure against your shoulders and arms; followed by an odd feeling of heaviness as you were suddenly propelled down the water's surface. Webbed hands keep you pinned beneath the waves and you're suddenly all-too-aware of your body's exhaustion; of the salty liquid flowing past your tongue and the scorching gurgle that ignites your lungs as water fills it.
There's a ruckus around you, and you can barely hear Jade's voice, who was eerily calm in the midst of your murder. A bottle is then abruptly forced into your mouth, the potion within it spilling down your throat and leaving you disoriented.
It appears that today is the day that the monotony in your life finally ends. The pull of unconsciousness becomes too strong to resist, and the world darkens.
TO BE CONTINUED...?
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âš Analysis of Mattâs Recent Dreams đđ
In the recent Sturniolo Triplets video (Aquarium Adventure + Boys Trip) Matt talks about having dreams of killing people, specifically his brother Chris and some random King and Queen of an unknown area. This is actually so interesting to me from a spiritual analysis perspective.
A lot of people automatically think that âdreams like this mean that you actually have the urge to kill someoneâ, when in reality thatâs actually usually false!
Letâs break down what these dreams could mean together. Maybe they can help anyone who has been having dreams similar to these as well!
Firstly, there were 16 people in total in his dream about him traveling to an unknown area (the 14 strangers plus him and Nick). The number 16 revolves around change, love, and intuition. Matt might be going through a spiritual change that is either about to become physical or is already becoming physical. The number 16 is reminding him to love himself and take care of his family. In that specific second dream, he is trying to save both his and Nickâs passports, so he is literally taking care of his family (But then he and Nick have an argument by the end, so it means that they have some things they have to talk about in the material world). The number 16 shows Matt has to build on trusting himself and others as well in order to work on himself and progress in different aspects that will be further discussed throughout this post.
Theyâre all paragliding, and flying is a pretty common dream that can signify overcoming problems and rising above them to free yourseld. He was flying with a tool (the paraglider) which means that in the physical world, he has the tools to overcome certain problems or worries he may have; he just needs to open up his mindset and remember that he has those tools so that he can use them and free himself.
There were snakes below them all, and the snakes could represent bad or toxic people that he wants to avoid in his life, or they could represent challenges in his life that he wants to avoid as well because he might lack the confidence or willpower to face them.
There was a very tall fence (he said like 80 feet, which I will get back to in a second đ) that was used to protect the occupants of the paraglider. This could indicate that there are boundaries he has set or that he needs to set in order to help him progress. Since the fence protected him from specifically snakes (Remember that snakes = toxic or bad people), then that means he needs to set and/or maintain boundaries with bad-minded and shifty people, whether itâs some fans, or some people already in his life or who are about to be in his life. Set a fence that can prevent people from harming him and his mindset.
Back to the fence being specifically around 80 feet tall, the number 80 can represent that he has people around him in the physical and metaphysical planes that are protecting him from evil energies. The fence was there at the right time (to save them from the snakes) and the height number of 80 can also be a reminder to Matt that he is in the right place at this moment in his life. He shouldnât dwell and worry about his past or fear his future. He needs to appreciate the now more (which I feel like heâs been doing a lot recently), and needs to remember that he is indeed in the right place.
Matt mentioned they were stranded in a foreign area and didnât know how to get home. This oneâs kind of self-explanatory: Maybe heâs feeling a bit stranded and might be feeling angry at the thought of feeling that way.
The boy that they survived with who was only there for one moment was a fan of theirs. When the fan was helping them in their journey, he was sneaking a video of them between his legs, which is interesting because theyâre in a literal life or death situation. This fan could represent his relationship to his fans in the sense that while itâs nice to have them because theyâre helpful and have gotten him far in his personal journey, sometimes they can still catch him at his most vulnerable moments and would still want a photo or viral moment. I have to clarify because some people might take this whole part the wrong way: He doesnât hate his fans. Heâs just trying to think of ways not to have a parasocial relationship become an issue or become too invasive and weird.
Matt mentions how he and Nick stole things to survive, Matt taking the essentials such as food and water, while Nick stole a notepad and a pen. Maybe there are things that he thinks Nick may be putting off telling him. Or maybe there are things heâs not telling Nick. Or maybe (and this is the one Iâm leaning towards) Dream-Nick is telling him that âthe pen is mightier than the swordâ, meaning that writing things down and rationalizing his thoughts and feelings are much more effective than trying to solve problems with force or unnecessary violence. Weâll come back to this thought when we start to talk about the King and the Queen.
The whole concept of âdeathâ from a spiritual perspective means that something is transforming or transitioning. Itâs like finishing a chapter of a book and turning the page to a whole new one. Seeing all of those people die who were on the paraglider with him could represent old ideas and mindsets that are also dying that he wants to leave behind as he grows. Matt also mentions that he kills three lives himself (one in one dream and two in another). That could mean Matt is âkillingâ old chapters of aspects of his life and starting new ones. He could also be wanting to free himself from old habits and old chapters.
However, Matt mentioned he killed specific people (Chris in one dream, and the King and Queen in another).
Letâs start off with his brother Chris. It seems so morbid that he would do that to his own brother in a dream, but remember that your dreams donât have a direct translation to reality, so he wouldnât actually want to harm Chris. What that could mean, however, is multiple things. Maybe he and Chris had an argument on that day and he was repressing some anger towards him that manifested into that dream. Or maybe thereâs something that Chris did that upset him and caused him to feel anger or negative emotions that he repressed. I truly donât know the reason because itâs not for me (or anyone) to know, only for Matt to know and figure out.
Letâs move onto the King and the Queen. Whatâs interesting about the King and Queen is that there are 4 âKingâ and 4 âQueenâ cards in tarot. The King and Queen were holding some things of value to him (the passports and basic needs). But they were also holding his weapon of choice: the knives. What this can indicate to me is that the tarot cards these royal beings could be related to are the âKing/Queen of Swords (the knives)â and âKing/Queen of Pentacles (his valuables like the passports and food)â.
The King and Queen of Swords represents rational thought, order, and achieving goals through intellect and then taking action. The Queen plans the action and then the King takes the action, both with the use of logic and lack of emotion. Matt still killing The King and Queen with their own swords yet doing so reluctantly shows that he is wants to kill off the ideas of overusing logic, but is still confused with his emotional side. He has to learn to balance his use of logic and impulse of emotions when dealing with situations. He probably is avoiding rational thinking and clear, direct communication with people about the way heâs feeling because heâs afraid of not knowing how to properly balance logic and emotion.
The King and Queen of Pentacles represent the master of material things both for stability and comfort, the King representing stability and the Queen representing comfort.
Maybe the King and Queen can represent an older couple in his life that provided those things for him (Iâm very certain itâs his parents or grandparents, but Iâm leaning towards parents). Iâm uncertain of the full meaning behind this (maybe because itâs simply not meant for me to know), but I think itâs saying that he isnât communicating the way he should be with them, and thatâs why they want him to stay in that stranded, unknown place. They want him to open up more about his emotions and be kinder to himself, and thatâs why they took his valuables. Again, not gonna go into full detail about this because I simply donât know what this really means, and I honestly feel like thatâs only meant for him to figure out for himself. Matt says that in the King and Queen dream, he was crying while killing them as well, and this remorse or guilt is similar to how he felt when he killed Chris in the previous dream. He might already know that heâs not being open with them about his feelings and thoughts, and thatâs why he feels this guilt.
At the end, Dream-Matt felt like he killed the King and Queen for no reason because he couldnât get his valuables. But, it turned out that Nick had already retrieved the passports anyway. This ties back to the âpen is mightier than the swordâ idea. Remember how Nick stole a notepad and a pen? What Dream-Nick might represent is that sort of alternative route one can take to achieve his goals. He didnât have to kill the King and Queen, so he didnât, but he was able to do what Matt wasnât able to do himself: retrieve the passports. Matt was too busy killing the King and Queen that he didnât even notice Nick taking the passports. Matt probably still has to learn to take those alternative routes in his daily life: Donât be impulsive or resort to physical, damaging expressions of his emotions; be logical, think things through, and express yourself to a journal or those your trust. You will achieve your goals.
If Matt somehow magically finds this and says âthatâs a whole bunch of hullabalooâ, thatâs totally okay. And if he sees this somehow and is super interested, thatâs also totally okay. I just personally thought it was interesting as someone who analyzes spiritual stuff like dreams for a living (take the âfor a livingâ with a grain of salt because Iâm not a professional and I donât get paid for this đ). I feel like it would be nice for him to see this, but again, I donât even care that he does. If anyone who reads this finds some sort of explanation to their own dreams, then thatâs all that matters to me.
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