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Kinktober Day 13 <3
Bokuto x edging
Warnings: NSFW, fem reader
Words: ~1,6 k
Kinktober Masterlist II -> Next day
"You like that? Oh, I can feel you clench, you really like that."
A grin sports his lips as he dives into your pussy again, his tongue relentlessly licking along your folds and teasing your clit. His arms confidently grab your thighs and press you further down on his face, the sudden movement almost causing you to fall over as your hands nearly slip off the bed frame.
"Kou- slow down-" you whine, trying to sit up slightly, but his hands keep a firm grip on your legs and prevent you from moving away from his face. "Close already?" he rasps, attaching his lips on you again the second he finishes speaking. His tongue finds your entrance, ever so slightly pushing inside while his nose nudges your clit. The slurping sounds mix with his groans, your walls clenching every time he rubs against your clit a little harder. You know there is no stopping him once he has started eating you out- he could literally do it for hours, as he has proved to you in the past already. You feel the tension in your body, your high approaching way too fast under his thorough ministrations. He notices how you tense, his golden eyes observing you carefully when you clench repeatedly, and he slows his movements down, just enough for you to take a few steady breaths. "You taste so good, always so sweet for me."
Your hands clench around the wood, your body almost overwhelmed when he presses his tongue flatly on your core, it feels like a sweet torture to know that he won't make you cum just now, yet it still feels so good- but you can feel him slow down gradually until he's just sweetly kissing along your folds. His hand moves to your ass and squeezes the flesh before he slightly lifts you off him, his hot breath now only faintly meeting your clenching core.
You lift your body just enough for him to slide out from underneath you, and he wastes no time to turn your body towards him and to press his lips against yours. The salty taste of yourself meets your tongue, only spurring you on in kissing him even further and allowing him to explore your mouth. He groans, the kiss getting messier with every passing second, and his passion and lust are driving you crazy at this point. He slightly pulls back to look at you, his eyes sparkling with excitement as he leans down to kiss just below your ear. "You were close, right? I could feel it." The kisses turn into small bites, one of his hands now resting between your bare shoulder blades to hold you close. "Hmm, so close, Kou. Only you can make me feel so good." You grab his hair and let your head fall back while you enjoy the way he's kissing down to your chest, making sure to suck a small mark just belllow your collarbones. "I'll make you feel even better. Come here, baby."
Bokuto releases his grip around your body and grabs your hips to turn you around, which you willingly do. He presses your back against his bare front and keeps your legs spread with his hands, effectively exposing your cunt to the chilly air. You know exactly what he's planing to do, but you still find yourself arching your chest when he kneads your tits a few times, his thumbs brushing against your nipples ever so expertly, eliciting small moans from you, before his hands move down between your legs. His fingers quickly find your pussy, rubbing ever so softly along the folds and smearing the wetness along your folds. You gasp when two fingers slowly enter your hole, pumping at a steady and slow pace as he works them carefully into you. Your hips slightly buck into his hands, eager to have his palm rub against your clit and he immediately complies and presses his palm against you the second his fingers are buried knuckles deep inside of you. "That's it, baby, just take what you need," he proudly groans as he watches how his fingers disappear inside of your cunt, taking him so well.
He brings you close again with his steady pace, so deliciously close, yet still not enough. A needy whimper escapes your lips when he picks up his pace, his fingers curling gently inside of you to meet your sweet spot. He almost completely pulls his fingers out before he pushes them inside again, making sure you never feel empty when his fingers keep on fucking you. You feel the coil inside of you ready to snap, your body so, so ready to let go. Your head falls back against his shoulder, your mouth agape- but then he pulls them out for good this time.
"Not yet, baby." He brings his dirty hand up to your tit and squeezes it, smearing your arousal on your body. You're sensitive at this point, your pussy clenching repeatedly in need of more, in the need of your sweet release. "You're gonna cum on my cock tonight," he announces, his voice full of excitement as he has made his decision. "Please, Kou- fuck me then," you whine and wiggle your hips, and he kisses your shoulder one last time before he grabs your hips and presses your back down until your ass sticks out in the air.
You gasp for air when you feel the tip of his cock running along your slit, giving your clit, just enough friction to take your breath away whenever he rubs it a bit harder against you.
"Oh, baby, wanna put it in so bad, can I? Can I make you feel good?" He groans when he spreads your cheeks to look at your glistening cunt- almost like an invitation for him to keep going. "Do it, Kou, please put it in. Want your cock, need you so bad," your whole body is aching for him at this point, your pussy throbbing with need and making it impossible to think. A groan leaves his lips when he finally pushes his cock inside, slow and steady, but still determined and strong-willed. He always stretches you so well with his girth, the feeling so welcome and just what you need and you only manage to whine into the bed sheets as he keeps on filling you up. A groan leaves his lips when he bottoms out, and he stills for a few moments, his chest heaving heavily when he takes a few breaths. "Please, please, move-" you whine, feeling like you're going crazy with every second that he's making you wait any longer, and he finally does. His hips move hard against yours, moans leaving your lips at every particular deep thrust, but your body moves on autopilot, meeting each and every of his thrusts, which makes him dig his fingers deeper into your hips. You can't even speak at this point, your body getting closer to your high so fast after being edged for a few times already, yet you don't care, only encouraging him to move faster and deeper to get closer to your high.
His pace is punishing and fast at this point, the sound of skin clapping against skin filling the room, along with your moans and his groans. "Feels so good, feels so good-" you gasp, your body almost burning at this point, so close to stumbling over the edge.
"That's it, come with me, let go for me-" a desperation coats his voice that makes it impossible for you to stay sane any longer, and you find yourself cumming hard on his cock when he brings one hand to rub on your clit, giving you just enough pleasure to lose control. Your back arches further, allowing his cock to slide in even deeper while you moan his name, your walls clenching around him, making it almost impossible for him to move when your walls grip him like a vice.
"So good, baby, so good, keep cumming for me-" a groan gets stuck in his throat and he stops his movements when he's cumming too, your walls fluttering around him while he coats them white. He's calling your name, always so vocal when he's reaching his high, and fucks into you until he whines of overstimulation, but his hands never release their tight grip on your hips.
He slowly pulls out after a few moments, making sure to be soft and gentle, giving your ass a last squeeze before he lets himself fall to the bed dramatically. His hands make a grabby motion towards your body and you weakly comply and lay down on him with your head on his chest, basically feeling his strong and fast heartbeat under your hand. His arms wrap around you immediately, the warmth of his body so welcoming and cozy. "Was that okay?" he is quick to ask, while his arms soothingly rub your back.
"Always so good to me, Kou," you weakly whisper when manages to pull a blanket over the two of you, and he happily hums and presses a kiss to your head. "Wanna spoil you, baby. Wanna give you everything." He entangles his legs with yours, not leaving an inch of space between the two of you, yet still making sure you comfortably lay on top of him. "Get some rest, baby, I'll take care of you when you wake up." You tilt your head and look at him, his smile so bright that it rivals the sun. You weakly whisper something against his chest, and his smile widens when he understands and responds.
"I love you too, baby."
#haikyuu fanfiction#haikyuu smut#haikyuu x reader#bokuto#bokuto smut#bokuto x reader#I'm a little late#but I'm sure I'll be back on track in a few days!#uni has started today#I'm definitely not ready ARGH#hope you're enjoying kinktober so far! <3#we still have a lot to go! <3#sleep well everyone! <3#I need to get up in 5 hours#should have gotten to sleep sooner T.T#i did not properly proofread this#my brain is jelly#I just added a few things here and there#I hope it's not repetitive and that it still makes sense#will have a look at it again tomorrow after classes
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i gotta be real for a sec.......... i have been kind of bored of my own characters lately and i find it hard to bring myself to draw or write about them at the moment no matter what i do ;__; i hope it's just my regular october-february depression or the state of my physical health atm and not part of a bigger problem LOL
also i gotta start working on new uni projects soon which is why there will be bigger breaks between my art posts !! xoxo
#talks#i went through my oc folders from 2020-2022 today and it made me sooo nostalgic lol#i want that energy again#i feel like people don't really care as much about my characters as they used to anymore but. approval has never really been an important#factor to me ever since i started posting about them so idk why my brain is doing this rn#but my current uni schedule is so bad for me tbh. i only get to see my friends like 2 times a week and i have 2 days where i don't have to#go to uni. and on monday and wednesday i'm at uni until almost 8 PM when it's already pitch black outside#grrrr i hate autumn/winter sooo much man
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should i come out to my grandma so that she can bond with her friend over having queer granddaughters?
#after the play my mom told me that she (my grandma's friend's granddaughter who i used to play with sometimes when we were kids)#has moved in with her girlfriend who my mom thought was a friend who is a girl and today learned that is a girlfriend girlfriend#and then she started asking me if wouldnt i also like to be in a relationship#like even if i wanted to (which i do) its not one of those things where you say i want that and you just have it#but also you cant get a relationship when you hardly ever leave the house and when you do it's with your family#and at uni all the queer people coupled up the first month and there were only like 10 guys most of whom also coupled up#and most importantly i didnt really speak to anyone who wasnt my friends lol#aaaanyway#i guess i will forever be the loser kid of the family so i might as well just accept that#jo says stuff#personal ramblings
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i found loads of pictures of my uncle i am going 2 cry
#he looked so sweet…..he looks SO much like my dad#i found the last picture of him that my granddad took a month or so before he died it’s so sad#trying to decide if i should tell my mum that i know about him or if i should just keep it to myself#idk if somethings wrong with me maybe it’s because i was already grieving before i found out#but it’s really getting 2 me i can’t concentrate on my uni shit i just keep thinking about it#i think i rlly need to talk about it with someone but i have no idea who or how or what i’d say. but it’s weird because it’s a secret yk#like i’m not even supposed to know he existed#idk. i have a gender clinic appointment next week and i’m going to ask if they can recommend any therapists#me being very very brave and trying therapy again after being forced into it my whole life and ending up a bit traumatised#idk. i feel bad that i’m alive and i’m wasting my life when my uncle got killed when he was just a kid#it makes me feel like i should be more grateful and do more with myself.#and i am going to try but i’d rather he was here instead. same with my granddad#every time i experience something beautiful or good i wish my granddad could experience it because he deserved it more than me#and the best i can do is experience it for him and be grateful. but i would chance places instantly if i could#him and his kid deserve to be here they were so special. i know i don’t know his kid but i’ve heard they were similar#so i know he must have been special too#i found a fb comment today from a family friend i’ve never met and she was saying that she only met my granddad once#but she called him gentle and it made me cry. because he was very scottish and sweary and traditional and masculine#so everyone just assumed he was tough and scary but if you knew him he was really quiet and kind#and i’m glad someone who only met him once could see that#i’m going to be half asleep for the rest of my life i think. i’ve been dreaming since my granddad died and i don’t feel like i ever woke up#nothing has felt real since i was nine years old. everything just stopped and never started again#i’ve just been waiting. i’m waiting for him to change his mind and come back. idk. i don’t know what to do with myself#and i continuously feel fucking insane and stupid for being this way. it’s like fresh grief all the fucking time#but it was fifteen years ago. why does it still feel this way#i can’t even tell people because they won’t understand why i’m still so bothered by it#he was my parent for nine years. i lived with him he was my sole caretaker#i was nonverbal and him and my brother were the only people on the planet who knew what my voice sounded like#he’d think it was silly if i failed my exam because i was crying about him instead#he’d tell me to whisht and stick in. so i will
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i am having many thoughts on how Dazai's humanity has shifted from his pm days to now, at the ada, and how this has effected his relationships with various people in different ways and i--
#hello yes i do have a big assignment due today#why do you ask?#dazai is a damn parasite and i can't stop thinking about him#but just. JUST#one example#skk in the pm days#such an interesting dynamic and i love them#but#BUT#i don't think any sort of real relationship could have ever happened#Dazai was actively pushing away his humanity at the time (perhaps one day i will elaborate what i mean by this)#versus now#Dazai is more in touch with his human side#still confused and a bit lost#but more human and more open (which is to say. he sort of expresses himself. sometimes.)#so 22 skk can be something so much more#the way he interacts with Atsushi vs Aku is a very very good example of the ways he has changed#and the ways he views humanity in himself and in those around him#and don't even get me started on him and Kuni or Ranpo or--#bsd#anyway#back to suffering uni work#but i will (maybe) come back to this with more cohesive thoughts
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wait hold up you're telling me I can just. edit what my name is on my uni systems by myself without having to scary convo or scary email someone. what. huh. this uni goes wild
#it's only for the uni systems as well so I wouldn't have to worry about ¿ letters to my house and stuff being sent with my name ¿#this is...really quite cool and useful and interesting. I will think on this. because I am very very tired#or I can just make the brave decision now and do it. It's been bugging me specifically today I guess#it's just. the group project. everyone adjusted to calling me my name really nicely actually#so it feels weird that my legal name is plastered all over the thing still because it kinda has to be because that's my name in the system#but tbf I also don't know if I would be allowed to put my name on my assignments still even if I did do that?#and also my student ID card idk if that has to be my legal name as well?#still some outstanding questions I guess. it's a start. whatever this is tho#:}#android.txt
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day 1. bee!
#didnt have the mood to do the day 7#didnt like the prompt#so i went and did a 1st one bc i didnt do it because i wasnt aware that october has already started lmao#ang's design#technically#but it's not a design#it's literally a drawing of a bee#designtober#peachtober#felt so unispired today#spent the whole day making pictograms for uni my creative juices are not juicing today!
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i did it guys, i turned my thai drama obsession into my bachelor thesis
#well not yet#i actually have to write it first#but i talked to my prof today and she officially approved so!!!!#i plan to write about the difficulties of translating thai into english when it comes to pronouns/particles/honorifics#and if i have enough word count left then i want to also ask the question of how the translation might be in german#(or how it might differ from the eng translation. how the translation strategies might differ)#and i'm gonna base my analysis on the eng subs of gmmtv series fkjfjfjrhd#my prof loved the idea she was super interested fkdjjdjd#she did also mention that she recently started learning indonesian so i guess she'll probably be curious about#whether there's anything in my thesis that'll be familiar from her indonesian studies hahaha#or at least there's a curiosity about asian cultures/languages that she has which will def help since she's overlooking + grading my thesis#i can't believe i'm ACTUALLY gonna analyze thai drama for uni. LOVE that for me#airenyah plappert
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computer how do i stop feeling insecure on my writting so that can i write. computer please
#talking tag;#ok so. story time sure why not#today is my first day of uni and i had classes from 8.30 am to 11:45 which was. fine i was exhasuted but it was fine#and then i had to wait to meet some friends for lunch and i started writting and it just hit me that totp is actually over 50k words#and it's like brooooo i literally wrote a novel length fic (that's still not done btw! not close!) and for whattt who even has the time#to read something like that like why bother. it's not even (directly) about the main characters and i just#i'm afraid that i'm repeating myself i'm afraid that chracters are not being developed like i hoped they would i'm afraid that no one will#care and i'm also afraid that the people that do care won't like it#and then i met with my friends who study cinema and they bumped into people from their classes and i was just.#there listening to their conversations without interacting like what the FUCKKK am i doing here pretending that i fit in with the cool#cretive people and that my prose is any good at all#just. 50 thousand words of fanfiction and i'm worried that none of them are any good#but lately my motto is that i will figure it out so. i will figure it out#i did cry about it (lmao) which i'm counting as progress from the empty nothingness i felt around this time of year a year ago#but yeah man it sucks. totp is my baby but (just like kim lmao) my default is being hard on myself. i just can't not be#i think i'll write on my diary about this and then!!! we move on. oh well#i will finish totp that's a promise but yeah. today just hasn't been great i guess#and i have no one in my life to talk to about this so!!!!!! shouting into the void i guess
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Language schools listing the courses they offer are like:
English A1
English A2
English B1
ENGLISH CAMBRIDGE EXAM PREPARATIONS
Calls for the official English accreditation exams
English B2 (FIRST)
English C1 (ADVANCED)
English C2 (PROFICIENCY)
English intensive summer courses
English for business
ENGLISH ONLINE
English semi-online
Other special English courses
*in tiny minuscule letters*: (We also offer French, Chinese, etc)
#i'm on the mailing list for my uni's modern languages school because years ago I did italian there#and every time they send me an email it's like this#today's email has a total of 26 lines:#2 are saying hello dear (name)#17 are about english courses and exams#1 is saying ''besides English we also have FRENCH CHINESE ITALIAN and PORTUGUESE!'' in smaller letters at the end#3 more lines are saying you can fracture the payment and the last 3 are signing with the name and address#they offer more languages than english chinese italian french and portuguese btw. they just didn't bother including them#i went to their site to see if they do C2 Italian but I had a hard time finding the sections for things that aren't english#turns out they've stopped doing any Italian course besides A1 (the most basic) 🤦#then i looked at the government's official language school and the index on their website had 3 sections: English (and a list of many#English courses of many different levels and topics) then German (and a list of about as half) and then Special Courses#(which once again starts with English special courses and then lists French Chinese Italian)#I understand that English is mandatory for going to uni and for most jobs but 😭#💬
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its actually stupid to be so down on my art ive been drawing for like. 5 years. only. and look at how much better ive gotten. everyone u compare urself to's been drawing for over a decade. youve got 5 years more. imagine what it'll look like then <33
#^saying this but really its that. ive so. lost the story part. lost the characters lost the ideas lost the creativity.#i got too into the grind i forgor what made art nice.#but then i also. Social Isolation 9000'd myself which might be part of it.#And i havent been reading i havent been reading gah.#i literally shouldnt be so sad i got into a uni i can actually go to on the other side of the country i should be overjoyed. theres light.#(i also got into nyu but. thats really impossible. 60000 dollars a year wgat was i thinking.)#i want. to draw tender love. and also stupid silly funny guys. but the melancholy too much of a boring bitch.#+ i think recently the down on myself + social isolation has made me want attention silly mode#(which. funfact. is actually why i started drawing i wanted attention)#and. well. that comes from social media. so numbers huh.#i have. people who like myart and are so nice to me that should be enough. even one person. but. alas.#anyway todays catboy might be a line drawing i think i need. A Break. from drawing To Improve.#and get back to drawing so i can see cute boys hugging and kissing and having love in their lives.
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#it's been a while that I put something in the tags but Im very lost atm for reasons i don't know#i don't know if Im nervous to see my friendgroup from uni again because my ex crush is going to be there and I have to pretend everything is#fine while also not getting frustrated by that toxic friend that I can't stand anymore#or if it's because im feeling so damn empty from getting on a dating app after being rejected by said ex crush#i don't know know why Im on there my friend said it was an good idea but Im already regretting but I can't just delete it or whatever#because I actually have some people I have been talking to but why do I feel so empty then??#why does it feel like my life has been sucked out of me today? it can't just me the amount of interaction im sure that's not it.#i thought ... i thought this would make me happy to try bew things to get more attention from people get more confident#but why can't I shake this depression like feeling off#because I know this feeling well but I hope it doesn't stay please don't stay#how will I get better like this? am I still healing? i know I am but I was fine just yesterday just yesterday I didn't think of him#so why can't I shake this?#i have no answers I have nothing and I can't talk to anyone about it either because I don't even know what's going on#please just let me understand so I can heal this fix this#please just make me okay again#i can't start the year like this#please
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every time I watch Hannibal I’m like girl be so careful
#the girl is Hannibal#I don’t want him to be caught#will just said he finally finds him interesting#we’re finally getting to the part where Hannibal starts to corrupt him I knew this was going to happen#I know this sounds deranged but I can’t wait for will to kill people lol#I love it when protagonists get worse as the story proceeds#will saying he fantasises about killing Hannibal with his hands and Hannibal smiling and being so proud I’m going to scream#also will’s hair after he gets out of prison has me shaking and crying why is he so handsome#im watching my ninth episode today and I’m planning on skipping uni tomorrow to watch the rest of season 2 lmaoooooo#Hannibal#hannibal spoilers
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Why is it when I have a big task to complete that should take days to do, I procrastinate the hell out of it when I have plenty of time but when it comes down to the absolute last minute, I can do a couple of days work in a couple of hours? What the fuck is wrong with me? Why couldn't I do it casually over a couple of days but can do it in matter of hours?
#ace is a mess#Tag talk#personal#i started to organising/clearing out my room at my parent's four days ago did half of one aspect of it did the other half of it two days#later then did nothing else and yet today ive done pretty much everything else that shouldve taken days in 3 hours? wtf#im losing my room when i go back to uni its being repurposed for someone else and so i needed to actually all of the sht i havent organised#since we moved in in 2018 then made even more disorganised when i moved to uni in 2020 i havent organised ANYTHING the entire time weve bee#here because i was supposed to be getting different furniture and then that just never happened and then im rarely here and just end up l#living out of my suitcase and between switching out cold weather and hot weather clothing over breaks its just become more chaotic and has#been too big of a job for me to even contemplate tackling and now im leaving tomorrow and i have literally choice and have done 5 years wor#in a couple of hours like why? why do i intentionally stress myself out like this? why cant i make decisions if im not at peak stress level#why dont i have any motivation unless im literally feeling ill with stress? why do i work like this?#also yes i know its ridiculous ive been living like this sincee sept 2018 but consider most of the problem was closed inside drawers and#therefore i couldnt see it so it didnt exist. that and im not here much i guess
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Summary of my week (it's Tuesday)
#personal#okay technically its wednesday but i dont think it counts just yet#anyways#how have yous been?#uni has been kicking my ass and i have been so fuckin tired as of late#just today i had a class from 4 to 6pm and dinner in the dorms starts at 5:15pm#we got back like just before they closed up#but i was so tired that i just. fell asleep and woke up at like 9#tmrw i have to wake up at 8 for a meeting for my group project in drama#and i do not want to#honestly#the funniest thing abt this meme is that like. all of this weird drama has just unfolded tonight#i just happened to be in earshot and now im somehow??? involved??? and also the catalyst??? of this shit???#im not saying anything#but just know#at one point there was a group therapy session#i wouldnt say im a gossip#but if ur interested in knowing...my dms r open 👀#but until then#goodnight yall#if u see me reblogging stuff after this no u dont ❤️
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i need to read n take notes on one more introductory text today which is perfectly manageable buttttt i was planning on doing it directly after uni but i also had to watch this lecture on worldbuilding n then went to the queer group thing so now i need to do it at HOME my god how i suffer. no but for real i want to get this done today so i can concentrate on the american studies seminar reading tmrw . wait i just remembered i also have to watch a film for that. wäh
#girl has regular uni workload for the first time since she's started studying .#no it's going okay so far i haven't procrastinated... i am worried abt the PVLs... hmm#like i made a preliminary study plan for myself today but i haven't rly factored in any of the graded work yet so. krhshs#like just the homework alone is kind of a lot.. but actually . ah i should just see how it goes .#elli.txt
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