#unfortunately im not like them and it is possible for me to waste my time.

[bronzetomatoes]

hi guys im back. just spent 2 hours on 17776 before accepting i wasn't gonna get through it all in one sitting 😭

[gibbearish]

oh psa but if you're in an industry that checks IDs and the person in front of you is clearly trans, don't make comments about anything on that ID. for instance saying "OMG your middle name's Danielle? that's my name too!!!" to someone 5 feet tall with a full beard is perhaps not the best choice one could make if one didn't want to put a neon glowing sign above that person's head saying "THIS IS A TRANSGENDER" to everyone they're with

[bazelgeuce]

I can't sleep :(

Rant in tags it's long

[paper-mario-wiki]

i'm loving seeing you post more of your art!! out of curiosity, how long have you been drawing? is there anything specific you do to practice or do you just pick something and draw it? (i've been trying to learn to draw myself for the past year or so, and seeing your art more often has become somewhat of an inspiration for me!)

ive been doodling all my life! thought when i say "doodle" i mean "as an unmedicated youth i was unable to focus on a drawing for more than 45 minutes at a time"

here's some posts from an art blog i had in middle school, and the first year of highschool.

what most critically separates this art from the art ive been doing recently is that i NEVER used any refrence. ever. i looked at stuff to make sure i knew what it looked like, but the rest was always roughly estimated based on what i thought would look good (which was largely based on cartoons).

but i only ever started trying to "learn how to draw" over the past year. here's the thing: spending a bunch of hours practicing drawing cubes and cylinders is like. all you have to do to see yourself start improving in real time.

draw a bunch of cubes and cylinders, and learn how to make them look realistic in proportion to each other using references to guide you. practice drawing stuff like basic buildings, cans of soda, maybe a cake (3 short fat cylinders on top of each other) if you're feeling daring. then try to draw slightly more complicated shapes, like spheres and cones and stuff. layer these shapes on top of each other to make more complicated shapes. you're gettin the picture.

infuriatingly, basic shapes is like 40% of the "getting it to click" work done.

after than, move on to 30 second sketches of nude models using this site. yeah, only 30 seconds. it doesnt matter if it comes out looking like shit, the point is learning how to simplify complicated shapes down into their most basic lines. dont waste time erasing. dont waste time pressing ctrl-z. erasing is your enemy. you arent learning how to erase, you're learning how to draw. (you'll get your eraser back later).

do this hundreds of times. yeah, hundreds. put on a podcast or something. get in a voice call with your friends. but ya gotta practice this one. that's the next 20% of making it "click".

now, unfortunately, the last 40% is just a matter of slamming your head against the wall of art until things slowly start to look better and better. it's sort of like a chemical formula, in that the closer you get to 100% purity, the more and more difficult it becomes to distill it.

the key is to ALWAYS use reference. you cannot learn how to realistically draw something you've conjured from your mind if you cannot depict something that's right in front of you realistically.

im currently in this valley, as most artists are. in fact i dont think it's possible to make art "click" in your mind 100%, but it sure is fun to inch closer and closer!

below is a bunch of art in chronological order from april to now. you'll see that it's not really a straight road of getting better and better, but you'll see my lines slowly getting more confident and details becoming more clearly defined!

[badchoicesworld]

Hi i was wondering if you could do a male s/o that gets super insecure and uncomfortable when people look at his top surgery scars and he hates it when people miss gender him and Miles Morales Miles 42 Hobie Pavitr Prabhakar and Spider-Noir are there to defend or shut the people that miss gender him or glare at them to the point where the other person gets uncomfortable and stop looking at the male reader I'm sorry if it doesn't make sense i just type really fast and don't re-read it at some points

Anyways I absolutely love your writing work I really enjoy it and everything, have a lovely day or night ❤️💕

hobie, 1610!miles, 42!miles, pavitr and noir defending their transmasc partners

ok this took me a while i admit but i hope you enjoy !

established, separate relationships

warnings: i’m sleepy

pairing: hobie brown x transmasc!reader, earth-1610 miles morales x transmasc!reader, earth-42 miles morales x trans!mascreader, pavitr prabhakar x transmasc!reader, spider-noir x transmasc!reader

requests: check out the blog-guide for info !

he’s rapidly approaching

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punk personified

you two were getting ready for a sick concert you’ve been looking forward to for a small while now, moral is high and all’s good

ofc it’s punk, and hobie will be damned if you don’t dress the part with him

he started diying you guys outfits for this specific concert a few weeks beforehand, and he’s super proud of them ! very happy to show you and he hopes you like them

you like them . because i said so

however, it did include a shirt that looks like it had been torn up in every way possible

depending on what ur comfortable with, it can either be a crop top that rides up just a little too much when you jump about and stretch OR it’s one of those tank tops where the sides of your torso simply aren’t covered, very low cut sides

so yeah, your top surgery scars are in the breeze

intentional ? who knows, this is hobie we’re talking about

maybe hobie’s tryna get you to step out of your comfort zone and feel more comfortable in ur skin in an environment where he knows you won’t be judged

perhaps he simply did not take this into consideration because he doesn’t even think twice about ur scars

regardless, they’re out, you both look sick, im forever furious that we were deprived of tank top hobie in low riders PLEASE (he exists in my dreams)

the concert isn’t the problem- don’t call urself punk if ur a bigot we all know this

it’s the walk there that really sucked

you and hobie got some intense stares from people as you walked hand in hand to this thing

naturally, hobie ate that shit up, kept his head high the whole time and doesn’t bat an eye at this people

you’re not as confident, unfortunately . catching people looking at your scars makes you feel all sorts of insecure, which is valid man

hobie also gets this, and god knows he looks for every excuse to antagonise those closed minded people so he’s very content to start a fight

cant care less when it comes to people judging him, he knows who he is and he’s proud asf, not gonna waste his breath on that

but when hobie sees his boyfriend curling in on himself because of strangers in the street that aren’t shit, that’s when he can be bothered to pay some mind to them

it’s subtle, for your sake . doesn’t wanna draw any more attention and risk getting caught up in this when you’ve both been looking forward to this concert for so long

so instead of outright starting a fight, he uses that scary privilege he knows he has and just stared them down in such a disrespectful way

the way that you’re both dressed too, i’m sure that it works

doesn’t relent either, will stare until the other people stop staring

ideally ? he wants to make them walk away and stop bothering you, but he’s alright with exchanging a scowl for the person to look away instead, preferably in shame

when they’re taken care of, that’s that . he wants you two to forget about that and have fun at this gig, sound good ? he wants to see you genuinely enjoying yourself in your own skin, surrounded by the people that make him feel more like himself too

besides, scars are nothing to be ashamed of or to hide

the walk home is a lot more peaceful

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i’m sorry u were ever hurt

you two are off to the water park (using the american word, sorry fellow brits :() together, enjoy ur youth

imagine how cool you two are rolling up in ur swimming trunks

i wholeheartedly believe that miles is an absolute sap and would wanna match- i die on the hill that he’s a born to “hi ( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ” forced to “wsg”

anyway, go have fun at the baths

that’s what miles expects anyway, fun with no strings attached, as most would

but that’s not how the world works, unfortunately

some people live to be hateful and have sad, empty, boring, gloomy, pathetic, waste of space lives, and you have to go through the misfortune of enduring some really vicious stares . all because you’re a guy with a few scars on his chest

people talk, you might overhear some stuff about ur character that makes you really insecure and upset

takes miles a little minute to clock the way you’re trying to fold your arms to hide your scars, but he catches on pretty quickly that it’s because of the people around you

is immediately by your side and looking concerned as hell

initially assumed that you might be in some pain, maybe the chlorine is fucking w ur scar tissue

sympathetic and checking in on you in the gentlest way when he notices that sadness

“w-hey, what’s happenin? you good?” standing really close and tilting his head to make eye contact with you if you’re looking down or away, hands are grazing your elbows to hold you

miles cares, a lot

speak ur mind man, tell him what’s going on

looks over your shoulder and at the people making you feel uncomfortable with that determined look

ushers you away, doesn’t want you around those kind people . bad vibes, he doesn’t fuck w it

probably goes snitch to staff lmao

and that’s how much he cares, he’d get stitches for u (ﾉд`)

but miles isn’t about to let the day be ruined by transphobes- god forbid

so he’s gonna try hard to make you forget about that interaction, it’s like a switch when he suddenly becomes all energetic again and is basically dragging you back towards the water

wants to hear you start laughing real fast

if miles venom striked the pool would everyone fucking die ?

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cat

GYM BABY

PE class gotta suck with all those bitchy teens being closed minded for no good reason and thinking it’s funny to openly judge and mock the things they don’t understand

miles is very mature and knows that bullying just isn’t cool, downright stupid and bullies should honestly be embarrassed to show their face

but because the changing rooms are so small, he can’t even attempt to ignore the comments he’s hearing, all directed at his boyfriend who’s just trying to change for class

you’re minding your own business, why can’t they mind theirs ?

is another person that doesn’t wanna give you a worse time by antagonising those freaks and picking a fight, will instead just stare over his shoulder

works, miles 42 has a mean side eye, straight up vicious

he knows that won’t resolve the issue, people are so resilient w their hate and

gets insanely irritated if someone suggests you changing somewhere else . honestly would just prefer for there to be some tension in the locker room instead of isolating you away while you changed, couldn’t stand that idea because it’s flat out not fair . on top of a number of other things

can ignore the tension, doesn’t know about you

talks to you about not backing down, you have every right ro be in there and you shouldn’t feel in any way negatively about it

don’t give those closed minded people the satisfaction of making you feel bad about yourself and accommodating to them

makes an excellent point one day

“why are you watchin’ my boyfriend change..?” says it so slowly and it got real awkward after that

won’t tell a teacher unless you want to, then he’ll be moral support and be waiting for you outside the office

anyway, man’s got a killer deadeye to keep people in line and tries to not antagonise people too much

just get changed, that’s what you’re there to do people

stop being weird abt it

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please don’t die

i’m a huge fan of those people that see a trans flag and immediately try to pull a “you’ll never be a real woman >:C” to a trans man

like yeah, thanks man, really appreciate it

it’s happened to you once or twice in the street, you or pav have some kind of pin or smthn and you’re literally just approached by strangers who have nothing better to do with their day

the most meaningful thing abt it is talking to you two honestly, ur just that cool

i can see him reading people just to point out their insecurities because violence isn’t the answer

it’s a last resort, but imagine you two simply minding your own business and this blank slate of a person decides to make a comment on your masculinity

“it’s okay sweetie, they’re just trying to overcompensate for their lack of a personality ! (๑˃́ꇴ˂̀๑)” huh 👁️👁️

pays literally no mind to them, pretends nothing happens and keeps walking with you

it’s like an invisible force field, bounces right off of him and somehow hurts the other person more

walking embodiment of that “i am rubber you are glue, what bounces off of me stick to you” and he probably recites that, too

but yeah, so insanely unbothered that i would maybe check up on him from time to time ? how is he always so chipper ? is bro good ?

but it’s infectious, so you can’t let it get to you either, it’s hard to feel sad around pav

he will somehow coincidentally always find something to immediately take ur mind off if it

after a shitty interaction with someone talking about pronouns and how theirs are an inanimate object, he miraculously spots a food stand you guys haven’t tried yet

does that Σ(ﾟロﾟ) face of his while gasping and drags you over, no questions asked

interrupts the person with the longest gasp, one would assume he hadn’t had a breath of fresh air ever

“look look! we have to try it!” pointing like that fuckin Soyjaks meme and ur gone, bigot is left in the dust

i’ve heard food is great therapy, and he believes so too

so scran down on some good street food while pavitr looks like a beam of sunshine despite just ruining a persons self esteem for the rest of their lie

it’s deserved though, so you can both sleep well

yknow what else slaps ? some chai, go home and have some w his aunty who thinks you’ve a very handsome young man

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why the fuck is he so broad hang on

she/her a he/him and get shot, idk mans got a whole firearm for a reason

it’s takes him a little while to understand trans slander, but eventually it becomes like a fine art to him because i think he has a tendency to hyperfixate on things until he understands them in violent detail (autistic. he’s violently autistic coded. cant read a room, hyperfixated on his favourite colour, struggles to express himself through his tone.. yknow)

so if one day someone happens to catch sight of your scars and starts to talk shit in whatever 30’s slang from his dimension and modern slang from your own, he is so ready to give this speech on discrimination

theres a power point slide too but he doesn’t know how that works

gives up not even half way because he got frustrated and started cursing them out instead

“look, you seem like lovely people- no, no you don’t”

he has anger issues

there’s a lot of “and my boyfriend!” followed by a compliment, he managed to throw a few in there for good measure

says something about the colour purple at one point, i don’t know how that happened

please steer him away before someone gets shot over colour theory (surprised it hasn’t happened yet, ammarite fellow artists ? 😀 )

apologises for getting carried away, has to stop himself from talking about colours again he’s just such a peter and so unserious

“i’m sorry i- that must have been hard for you” clearly it was harder for u dear god

is likely the most insistent on doing anything and everything to make you feel better, is open to suggestions and is basically begging for them

while everyone else is low-key for ur own sake, this man’s about to buy you the world with his 4 dollars which is pretty impressive in his dimension

insists on doing your favourite things, is suggesting this and that, left right and centre

is convinced it’s the end of the world, this is reinforced since you seemed so upset and uncomfortable being misgendered by some people on the street

if you’re plenty happy to settle doing something, he’s thrilled and is giving it his 110% just for you

go watch a movie, careful not to point out the colours of noir will then realise that movies are no longer in black and white and starts asking you if everything is purple

“what a lovely purple :]” pan to like a whole pyramid

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anyway, can you tell that hobie is easiest for me to write for and that i was running out of ideas ?

let me know how you feel about it !

if this flops i’m gonna have to go on a long stroll

[thatdeadaquarius]

OKAY OKAY SAGAU BUT THE CREATOR IS A HUGE KPOP FAN LIKE IMAGINE THE MOST STOTIC CHARACTERS DANCING TO TWICE

ANON I HAVE SEEN UR ASK SITTIN IN MY MAILBOX AND BEEN WAITIN FOR THIS ONE-

GOD IM SO BASIC ANON I ONLY KNOW LIKE 2 SONGS BY TWICE (LIKE "FEELS" OR SMTH POPULAR), I KNOW A LITTLE MORE ITZY, BUT MY MAIN'S JUST BEEN BTS SINCE 2019😭

(send me recs pleassseeee ;-;)

Hey this'll be the last time I use colored words for characters!

I think it's a bit too distracting, and the only reason I was using them was to let ppl know if their fav was in there, but now I'll probably just use CW/TW to mention character heavy asks/fics :)

Thanks for being patient with me for so long if ur still reading my stuff :0 <3

Listen as you read?

EDIT 1/1/24: Hey I expanded more about this on my Eldritch Fanfic Part 2 post, but unfortunately I did a form of exoticism by including the term "Huangdi" inappropiately here. I have since replaced it with "Emperor" as was the original untranslated term I would've used. I'm genuinely sorry that I did this, and will absolutely be on the look out/do better in the future. I hope you can understand.

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AGONIZED OVER THE GIFS THIS TIME THEYRE SO PRETTY AND I WANTED TO GET THEM DANCING ONE OF THEIR CUTER ERA/THEMES ALL DRESSED UP TOO-

also im so sorry?? Idky i was in such a scenario mood today??? Ig im in my exectutive dysfunction paralysis state so maybe that’s why, like it unconcoiusly wants me to waste more time not catching up on uni work??? anyway, hope u like this chaotic addon 😭

or i just love this ask sm, that’s entirely possible too <3

I JUST NEED YOU TO KNOW I PUT ON A MEGA TWICE PLAYIST WHILE WRITING THIS ENTIRE THING LMAO

ok but they’d totally heard ur music tastes thru the screen right?

like just imagine-

the video game music is normalized, and to them its just another one of those “all kinds of magic in teyvat” causing the music, like the seelies wandering around all the time or elemental energy

Jean is flipping through a folder filled with the reports for the week, she’s got to get the routes ready for the week, then there’s the liyue shipments the knights need to help escort over, then checking in on any of the emergency stations/rations throughout Mondstadt for weary or hurt travelers/merchants-

She sighs, and yet another irritated thought is thrown Varka’s way in her mind, she can’t even muster the energy to make it outright dislike she’s so tired…

Jean was so concentrated she just now is starting to hear the Favonious Headquarter’s music once more, it’s peppy upbeat tune… grates like nails on a chalkboard.

and if she has to hear that damn flute for the next hour she works, she’s going to start banging her head onto her desk.

♤

Out in Jueyun Karst, Xiao is dealing the finishing blow to a flying ruin hunter

He’s huffing and stabs his spear into the ground to lean on and catch his breath, the gentle music of the peaks begins to float around him once more

The Yaksha feels the earth beneath his feet shake. Not like from his Lord, not the other adepti angered, but an enemy so large it’s stomps shake the ground he stands on

Xiao quickly straightens less he fall over, pulling his spear out of the dirt with a little more effort than it probably should’ve taken…

The high sounds of the guzheng trickle through the air, a perfect representation of the base of the slopes, trees, streams, and nature all around him

Xiao turns to face the enemy behind him, his arm popping with tired joints,

…A ruin grader, two ruin hunters, and finally regular three ruin guards, follows it. they come around the corner of the bottom of another slope, and they're still simmering with black smoke, curling off their metallic shoulders.

Xiao sees several red targets layer over his chest,

the music fades a little, but sticks around, plucking strings gently. Xiao sighs, exhausted already.

♧

Kazuha and Beidou had to redirect the Alcor from a nasty storm at sea that intercepted their usual route between Inazuma and Liyue,

the storm had practically chased them further and further down form the Inazuman islands

it wasn’t until Kazuha, from the crow’s nest, spotted fog on the waters that they realized they’d be forced to go into said creepy fog, what with the crackling looming clouds at their backs pinning them in

“Not good Captain, the fog is miles long, I’m not sure I can see a way around it…” Kazuha calls down to the deck, Beidou letting out a sharp sigh through her nose

“Damn… fucker’s not even sentient and it practically backed us into a corner, feels like we literally gotta escape the damn thing… BRACE YOURSELVES CREW, WE’RE HEADING INTO THAT FOG!”

The Alcor makes it’s way into the fog, a piano swells with a strange tune…

Beidou, Kazuha, and the crew know to listen to the music of teyvat, especially if you have a life at sea, where storms can appear in the middle of the day or other pirates could attack any moment.

The music means nothing good, but at least Kazuha can see the storm staying at the border of the fog, moving no further in, unlike themselves

“Shit… see anything up there Kazu?” the Captain steering the ship doesn’t even reach a shout, for the music has creeped out all conversation on board

“No ma’am, wait,” a chill breeze brushes through the wanderer’s white hair, he feels goosebumps jump on his neck and spine,

“…Yes! Portside Captain, land, no enemy movement yet!”

“Alright, here goes a bad idea…” Beidou’s arms flex as she easily turns the heavy wooden wheel, steering left,

the Alcor gently comes ashore, and they make anchor.

…there are no enemies, like Kazuha said, but the tune worsens, it had gotten louder now that they’re actually on the theme’s land

It plays slowly, encasing the crew of the Alcor in a paranoid quiet, and it almost has a melancholy note

Crows caw and fly off of a stone gate up ahead, they can see flickers of a strange blue light further inland, like figures carrying lanterns everywhere they go…

“Damn music, I wouldn’t feel half this anxious if it didn’t sound like we were walking into a monster infested cave…” the first mate says, the first person to break the quiet the music held over them.

“Yes, while we might need to stay here for awhile, I think we’re all very aware how dangerous this is…” Kazuha agrees, crossing his arms and squinting at the moving blue lights… the piano plays on.

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You open on Spotify on your computer, clicking on your favorite kpop playlist, it’s been rainy all day, so you need the peppiness of this dance playlist to actually not be half-asleep playing Genshin-

You hum along to the Korean lyrics as you boot Genshin up, ugh, ur in-game music is so loud, u forgot u turned it up last time to hear the new Sumeru music…

Turning it down, you let the Kpop songs fill ur headphones as you nod to the beat, your team materializing on screen. Right, off to do commissions first!

♤

Jean is like.. seconds away letting out a scream of frustration, anger, tiredness, loneliness, etc. her hands clenching her hair and ruining her ponytail when, thank Creator, the theme quiets down finally.

The loss of her immediate ire gone, she lets go of her hair, her hands just kind of hovering midair, not knowing what to do with herself, all the negative emotions giving her face wrinkles just melt off, leaving her stunned, blank face behind

🎶 Dalkomhan chocolate ice-cream-cheoreom Nogabeorineun jigeum nae gibun so lovely! Kkamkkamhan uju sok gajang banjjagineun Jeo byeol jeo byeol geu yeope keun ne byeol 🎶

Acting Grand Master Jean actually screams when abruptly a song in an unrecognizable foreign language, blasts into her office, around it, filling the entire Favonius Headquarters with its… cheeriness??

Jean lets her hands fall onto the desk, still in shock

..well, she quickly decides she’s grateful for the new music either Barbatos or the All-Parent had heard her pleas for…

…actually, it’s kind of,, catchy?

Jean takes out her ponytail, massaging her aching scalp, huh, she really did have it tight she’s just now noticing, she feels a small smiles appear on her face,

she actually kind of wants to do something now (she kind of hopes this new foreign bard song sticks around..)

♧

If you asked Xiao what happened in that battle he’d be hard pressed to tell you,

without going completely red in the face. LMAO

He probably wouldn’t tell the other adepti this, especially Cloud Retainer, but Xiao had definitely had to get used to fighting brutal battles to the sound of gentle summer day-esque music

Right as the aruguably, army of ruin machines spotted the Yaksha, he’d launched himself into the air to try and evade the rusted beasts, aiming his jade spear, adding winds to swirl around the staff to better boost his attack, the machines warm up, their targets moved and locked onto him midair, right as both sides launch their attack-

🎶 Geogi neo I fancy you! Amuna wonhaji anha Hey, I love you (Love ya!) 🎶

Xiao nearly falls out of the air.

Quickly recovering, he uses his anemo power to propel himself off to the side dodging, he swears to his Lord and his Emperor himself, delayed attacks, as if the machines were caught off guard too,

missiles whiz by him, exploding behind, the peppy song of foreign women’s voices sings out into Jueyun Karst bright and happy-

🎶 Geurae neo I fancy you! Kkumcheoreom haengbokhaedo dwae 'Cause I need you! (What?) 🎶

Xiao’s face goes from being confused to concentrated throughout the rest of the battle, and the worst part… it actually helps his energy levels.

and he finds himself nodding along

☆

Kazuha takes the lead, his sword unsheathed and at the ready to cut down the slightest movement before it can get to any of the crew behind him,

He’s flanked by the Captain of the Alcor herself, Beidou’s electro shield emitting a deep hum as it blocks in front of both himself, and the crew behind him

all of the pirates have unsheather their own weapons, daggers, swords, claymores, bows, their all on high alert, waiting for.. well, any enemies at all.

In fact, Kazuha hopes he sees hilichurls soon, just for the familiarity it could give him and the his crew-

the music begins to fade away.

The crew stops just shy of the entryway that was perched with crows before they scattered, the white fog hasn’t moved beyond its lazy drifting, but the creeping sounds have stopped entirely. Not good.

Captain Beidou sighs after a few silent moments, other than the quiet breathing and shuffling of weapons from the Alcor crew.

She lets her claymore sword thunk against her shoulder, and just as she opens her mouth, turning to address the all, deciding camping here will have to do for the night-

🎶Fancy! youu, ooh Nuga meonjeo johahamyeon eottae Fancy! youu, ooh Jigeum neoegero gallae Fancy! ooh!🎶

Kazuha’s shoulder shoot up to his ears in a flinch, red eyes wide, he barely stops his reflexes from taking a hard swing with his sword, several crewmembers shriek, collide with metal clinks into one another, Beidou drops low, her sword swinging off her shoulder into almost a full swing at the ground-

…

…..

……..

🎶 Dalkomhan chocolate ice-cream-cheoreom Nogabeorineun jigeum nae gibun so lovely! Kkamkkamhan uju sok gajang banjjagineun Jeo byeol jeo byeol geu yeope keun ne byeol 🎶

the music plays on, the only one making any noise as the entire Alcor crew just, stop. after their initial shock.

Kazuha’s the first to break.

He desperately tries to contain a quiet chuckle, which turns into a giggle, which turns into a full-on wheeze, as he buries his sword into the ground to brace himself on it and one of his knees

the Captain cracks by the time Kazuha wheezes, her laughter going straight to guffaws and knee slapping, her claymore shaking the ground where she stabs it to lean against

the crew erupts into laughter, both as the peppy foreign song echoes into the mysterious fog, and Beidou’s ridiculous laugh, as always

they don’t recover until two songs later when there’s finally a slow kpop song, Kazuha’s had to sit down, tears streaming down his face, Beidou’s half-dead, wheezing out complaints about her stomach, as the crew keep sending each other into more and more laughter right as they think they’re done.

They decide their Akitsu Mikami must have the best sense of humor and must just be sitting on their celestial throne pranking some of their subjects from time to time, and the Alcor crew find themselves all the more appreciative for it, their nerves entirely gone about the island

Kazuha and Beidou are constantly asking other bards they meet to try and see if anyone can recreate the song for the crew sometime they liked the beat and the memory so much, Fancy by Twice will still get a laugh out of Beidou and Kazuha, and they’d quickly let you in on the inside joke so you’d be a part of it too (afterall you did it lol)

♡

NOW MORE IMPORTANTLY, BC IDK IVE BEEN ON A SCENARIO KICK LATELY?? SORRY IDK WHY U GUYS KEEP GETTING SCENARIOS-

There’s only TWO 2 CATEGORIES THAT MATTER HERE-

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Who’s DANCING!! w/o u needing to do anything but play the music:

NILOU (she got those choreos done in like, an hour flat everytime u teach her, shes always begging for “just one more dance lesson Greatest Lord? 🥺”),

YUNJIN (difference betweeen the two dancers is that nilou asks :) → yunjin lowkey demands, she like always gets u into a situation where you have plenty of time to teach her and feel obligated, u just got gaslight gatekeep girlbossed into teaching her another kpop dance LMAO), they also see it as they’re (literally) god-given job to dance better than any idol you’ve seen do it before, esp when they recruit groups of other dancers to join for group choreos

Yoimiya! cutie #1, CHILDE, amber, eula, ITTO, bennett,

Collei (but shes shy u gotta encourage her),

Diona (cutie #2),

FISCHL (would form an actual group to dance all the choreos like a real kpop group),

Gorou (shy #2, needs encouragement),

Kazuha (tbh I think he’d have fun and be weirdly good at it, fem or masc dances),

Ayaka (shy #3, needs encouragement and would rather die than dance in front of ppl other than you),

KLEE CUTIE #3, NAHIDA CUTIE #4,

Qiqi (but u gotta teach her slow bc she needs to memorize it, and also it takes her a bit to write down the dance steps in her journal so she doesn’t forget as much),

Razor (another person i think would just have fun with it! also he’d do it but it would be very, aggressive? like making finger hearts but violently shoving his arm out at ur face lmao),

HEIZOU (shutup he’d actually be good at it and brag- and flirt at you-),

Aether (shy #4), VENTI, xingqiu, xinyan, KAVEH

BARBARA (she literally stalks u around Mondstadt all like “oh hello your highness! just happened to walk by you and was wondering if you heard any new of those “kpop” dances, you know I’d LOVE to show it off at my next show-!” like she hasnt been a block behind you the entire day 💀)

♡

WHO YOU MANAGED TO CONVINCE TO DANCE LMAO-

babygirl Wanderer (he literally surveyed the area before he finally let u teach him any moves, and refused to any sort of dramatic moves, like fem or masc),

Alhaitham (but only like a small part of a guy group choreo like a bit from God’s Menu or smth, he was too lazy to do anymore even for u lol),

Cyno (dammit some of these bitches look way too good doing even girl group dances-),

Diluc (u got him to do like, a pose. LMAO and he saw Kaeya in the distance and quit immediately LMFAO),

Kaeya (but it didnt take much convincing, if anything it just took forever to teach him, he’s talented in footwork for swordfighting but apparantly not dancing, at least not modern dances he tripped so much ur convinced he did it on purpose at one point so he’d fall into your arms again lol),

Ganyu (super shy, wont do it around anyone but you, and maybe Shenhe),

speaking of Shenhe (she just took awhile to teach bc she wanted to stay upright a lot, kinda stiff),

Keqing (once again, another who’d only dance when it’s just u two lol),

Yae Miko (she just wanted to learn the whole choreo that’s what took so long… and now she’s making comments like “My goodness, my god wants me to dance for them? They’ll even show me how? Oh, now I must do it perfectly so I can satisfy you, my Kami.” STOP TAKING THINGS OUT OF CONTEXT UR TEACHING EVERYONE-),

Ayato (he’s acts so theater gay he refuses to do anything but the girl group dances/fem dances lol),

SARA (easy, give her ur strongest, saddest pout and she cracked like glass, u got her to do a whole dance with u/she actually got into it too, its her secret guilty pleasure now lol),

Kuki (did one sort of move then got BARRELED OVER by Itto’s crazied boy group acrobatics he likes so much, u know the backflips over each other type of ones? yeah. ),

Ei (the god herself/not the puppet, catch her never doing that lol, she tried but didnt, get it? she’s also pretty stiff, but she looks like she’s having fun so u just keep teaching her moves, and she likes that its you teaching her something new),

Thoma (shy #5 ? idek what number we’re on anymore lol),

TIGHNARI (u nag that bitch so hard he nearly throws a drink at you to get u to stop bothering him- NO he does NOT think those dances would suit his ears- dammit he wont do that dance, no matter how much he likes you- DAMMIT MY LORD-),

Xiao (if u thought nagging Tighnari was hard, this is like nightmare mode, not only does he not wanna do the dances, but he also wants to understand WHY u want him to dance each and every move- !! bc he would “look cute or cool”?!?!!?!!! …yeah he’s gone, he went so red u cant even get him back with tofu),

Zhongli (would like, be so confused on how to make his body do that, that he ended up just sort of posing, at least he looks cool)

♡

(anyone not on these 2, u did, in fact, not manage to convince, yes, even if their god asked them to, nor are they doing it of their own volition lol)

WHAT THE HELLLLLLL-

THIS IS SO LONGGG IM SO SORRRYYYYY

ANYWAY HOPE SOMEBODY LIKED THIS, DW ILL STOP THE WEIRD SCENARIOS AFTER THIS ASK I JUST GOT IN A PHASE I DONT KNOW WHY

also, im like, three weeks away form graduating uni? NICE, soon i will be free to assault u all with responses mwhahahaha (rubs my little gremlin hands together)

Safe travels,

💀 ♒

♡the beloveds♡

@karmawonders / @0rah-s / @randomnatics / @glxssynarvi / @nexylaza / @genshin-impacts-me / @wholesomey-artist / @thedevioussmirk

[cruesuffix]

that nikki ask already got me in heat with the deranged nikki stans so i’ll beg of all of you to never send me any asks about nikki again, because i will hurt their feelings and remind them they’re stanning a rapist :) idgaf about nikki. i have feelings towards him about the whole mick thing, and with other things he’s done in the past but i genuinely don’t really hate him. unfortunately, you call the mf out and all of a sudden, you’ve got like a bunch of parasocial little girls who want to marry him coming for you if you even mention his name. so now…if you think i don’t like him, fine. if you think i do like him, fine. idgaf anymore. you literally can’t share a damn opinion anymore cause now everyone’s on your ass about “you’re not a true fan if you don’t like nikki.” oh…im sorry, i didn’t know you had to like every single damn member to be a fan. mind you, a lot of you bitches (not on this app at least) think mick is ugly, think vince can’t sing, talk about how tommy looks like he’s on drugs, and don’t even mention the other four members who have been in the band at certain points. you don’t have to like every single member to be a damn fan, and tbh i have problems with a lot of the members in this band. doesn’t mean i hate them all, just means that im at least willing to hold them accountable, something A LOT of you bitches refuse to do. so don’t cry wolf when i give you the hard facts about your favs, if you can’t handle it get right off my page.

and i knew that ask would get me in trouble, but i didn’t think saying idgaf about nikki would result in someone accusing me of not being a fan…why would I make a blog about the damn band if i wasn’t a fan? why would the band appear on my top artists list on spotify wrapped if i wasn’t a fan? why would i waste so much time talking about my loser guitarist if i wasn’t a fan? why would i try to engage with other blogs that are mainly focused on the band if i wasn’t a fan? so, im not a fan if i don’t overlook every single problematic thing my favs have done? im not a fan if i pretend none of it happened? im not a fan for favouring LESS problematic members of the band over the more problematic ones? why don’t you guys just sue me then? kill me, pls take me out of my damn misery if it hurts you so much. stab me in the abdomen and get it over with if im such a problem then. like…i say i don’t care but it hurts me when i’ve done nothing but love this band for almost a year just to get put down and told i can’t possibly love this band if i don’t like ONE (1) member of it. like a year…i don’t usually hold hyperfixations that long. i want my love for this band to last forever but i’ve spent this entire year getting dogged on tiktok by parasocial nikki stans and i thought this would be the one site where that wouldn’t happen. crucify me all you want but you can’t EVER deny my status as a fan. ever.

[thel0llip0p]

A World Without Sonic

a sonadow prime ficlet, you can guess what it's about.

**disclaimer: i'm not a writer and I did not proofread it lol. this was the idea for my next comic but i got lazy to draw it so i wrote it out instead for now.

tags? sonadow , character death/mourning, platonic shadamy, mention of: tails, knuckles, rouge, big, eggman

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Shadow finds himself in the last spot he was in right before the prism shattering, his arms held out and empty where the blue hedgehog once was, feeling disoriented for only a split second.

The cave!

Wasting no time, the black hedgehog dashes away making his way up to his destination. His heart racing wondering if Sonic made it alive and intact. A pit in his stomach grew on his way over, fearing the outcome. Like Schrödinger's cat, unfortunately there was only one way to find out, whether he liked it or not.

He makes his grand appearance at the mouth of the cave, and without thinking calls out

"Sonic!"

"Shadow??"

His heart dropped. At the scene, Eggman and Sonic's friends all staring blankly at him, both parties equally confused. But sonic was nowhere in sight.

This left him no choice.

"Chaos Control!"

and he disappeared just like that, along with the Paradox Prism.

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Warping to a secluded location unbeknownst to anyone except himself, he sheltered the prism.

I guess this will have to do for now.

Against his will, he supposed he'd have to be the guardian of this thing for now, not unlike a certain echidna and the master emerald but he knew he couldn't entrust the prism with anyone else other than himself.

Now that the prism was taken care of for now, he could finally think about the burden on his mind.

Sonic...

Did he really not make it ?

He refused to believe that the bundle of blue joy was no longer in existence. He couldn't leave things at that, this warranted further investigation.

He needed answers now.

And he first person that came to mind was...

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"I really... don't know who you are talking about?" Tails pondered with a hand to his chin. "Are you sure you're feeling okay, Shadow?"

"The name Sonic doesn't ring a bell? Really? Your blue hedgehog best friend? Try to remember."

"I feel like, it's supposed to be familiar but I don't really know. Nothing comes to mind. Sor-"

"Never mind, then."

Shadow walked away.

"Umm.. okay?" Tails shrugged him off, thought left a little dumbfounded.

On to the next one..

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"Hey redhead, where's your blue friend Sonic?"

"What did you call me?!" Knuckles didn't take so kindly to the nicknames and much less being interrupted during his midday nap.

"Where's Sonic?"

"Don't know 'im"

He sighed defeatedly and took his leave.

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Tails didn't know. Knuckles didn't know.

Big and Rouge didn't know either.

Of course Sonic isn't going to be anywhere. He's not here. It's like he never existed. And even knowing this was venture was fruitless, he felt the need to ask everyone anyway, as if he was holding out hope for something.

How stupid. This behaviour wasn't like him.

And there was only one last person left, the only person who could possibly understand even a tiny bit how he felt.

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"Oh Shadow nice to see you around. You don't normally stroll around so casually, did you need something?" Amy, oh so very cheerful as always.

"Have you seen Sonic?" Shadow was straight to the point.

"Sonic? Ummm.." she gave it some thought. She felt like she was supposed to know who that was and although she didn't, it did make her heart flutter a bit. "Is he your friend?"

"No, he's not my friend, just someone I'm looking for."

"Oh... well I noticed you've been asking and searching around endlessly. He must be someone important to you."

"...Yeah, I guess so." He melancholically looked off into the distance.

The two of them were sitting on a hill with a nice view of the green hill landscape.

"If you don't mind, can you tell me more about Sonic? Who was he? What happened?"

"He... was a hero, your friend.. everyone's friend.." he trailed off.

"..And I couldn't save him."

Tears began to well as he began to recall his last memories of their adventure together. A surge of pain growing in his chest and his suppressed feelings beginning to surface.

Amy turned to Shadow, concern on her face. He was normally never vulnerable with anyone but in this moment, for some reason he felt like he could confide in Amy with this. Even if he couldn't delve into detail.

"He sacrificed himself to save the universe, and now he doesn't exist and no one remembers him... except me." He did his best to hold back his emotions.

She listened to him with sympathy in her eyes.

"A world without Sonic, is not the same world at all. I can't imagine a world without him, and here I am. Here's not here anymore." Brushing away the tears, he turned away to hide his face from her.

Amy wrapped her arms around him and gave him a hug.

"It's okay Shadow. I'm sure it's not your fault.

Knowing you, you probably did everything you could to try to save him. And surely Sonic is thankful for your effort."

He wanted to believe her but his emotions only welled further.

"It wasn't enough... I wasn't enough, and now he's gone. Forever."

She stroked his back, trying to comfort best as she could.

"As long as you remember him in your heart, he exists and lives on in your heart."

At this point , Shadow was basically crying into her shoulders, and although it was extremely embarrassing he couldn't help himself. The tears flowed like rivers, mourning the loss of the only hedgehog he saw as his equal, rival, possibly friend?

How could he live on like this ? First Maria, now Sonic.

His feelings of remorse, hopelessness and sorrow overwhelming him.

When would it end?

Amy's embrace brought him comfort, but oh how he wished he was in Sonic's instead.

He felt his sense of self drifting away until everything became black.

"Shadow?"

"Shadow ?"

Amy's voice tried to reach him but her voice sounding increasingly faint.

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"Shadow ?"

A familiar voice...

"Hey you okay?"

"Nngh"

Slowly opening his eyes, he saw emerald green eyes looking down at him and a blur of blue and sunshine.

"S-sonic?" A sudden wave of relief came over him.

He sat up. "You're okay?"

"Of course I am?

He realized he had been sleeping on Sonic's lap? And oh, there was remnants of tears on his face?

"What was that about? Bad dream got ya?" Sonic teased as he layed back against a palm tree, hands behind his head.

Shadow sighed. "Guess you could say that," rubbing the back of his neck.

"I dreamt... you didn't make it back to Green Hill and everyone had forgotten about you. It's like you never existed."

"Oh you missed me so much you started crying in your sleep? Aww-"

Shadow grabbed his face with his hand, squishing his cheeks "Shut it, you." And kissed him.

"I'm just glad you're okay."

And the two resumed their peaceful afternoon by the beachside.

[navstuffs]

Sprained Ankle

Pairing: Ezio x GN!Reader

Summary: You fall during a chase, hurting your ankle. Ezio ensures he will bring you to safety.

Warnings: this fanfic could have happened during the end of ac 2 or during brotherhood (you choose your ezio lol), protective/worried/comforting ezio, mention of injury, established romance, my own self-indulgent fanfic, curses in italian using a translator

Author's Note: hii! this idea came to me during an unfortunate event in my real life: i sprained my ankle. since im a sucker for protective/comforting tropes, i decided to do a fanfic about it with ezio auditore. i hope you all enjoy!

It was supposed to be an easy job. A simple kill under Ezio's observant eyes. He lets you do it alone for once, watching closely from the top of a building. The mission was easy: use bombs, kill the target, and get away as fast as possible. Everything went well until three lute players appeared out of nowhere, singing at the top of their lungs. Unfortunately, that also attracted the attention of the guards.

Ezio watched hopelessly as you climbed up the building, making your way toward him. You barely have any time to say anything, following Ezio's lead. The guards didn't seem to give up quickly as you two ran away, jumping from building to building. You two had to be incredibly careful since it had rained the whole morning, and the roofs were slippery. After five minutes of fleeing and not hearing any more noises behind you, you look over your shoulder.

"I think we lost them-"

Your foot loses balance, and before Ezio can react, you slip from the four-floor building, and Ezio can hear your body falling to the ground. With his blood turning cold in his veins, Ezio quickly looks for you, not letting any despair fill his mind. You attract some surprised people's looks, but you seem awake. Ezio wastes no time going down the building as fast as he can, his hands trying not to shake. You are alive, he tells himself as a prayer. When he joins you, you seem to struggle to get up, your hands on your ankle.

"Are you fine, tesoro?" Ezio asks, concerned, kneeling at your side. He scans you rapidly as you shake your head.

"My ankle hurts."

Ezio helps you lift your body. As you try to get in two feet, you hiss, the pain in your heel unbearable. You don't say anything, not looking at Ezio.

"Can you walk?"

You nod as Ezio holds you by your hips. On instinct, you pass your arm over his shoulder. You try to give one step and bite your lips, trying not to groan. The pain is too much, but you deny saying anything to Ezio. He realizes that.

"Tesoro, I don't think you can walk."

"I can do this, Ezio," You argue back, cursing inside your mind. And to make matters worse, not far away from there, you start hearing guard's voices looking for you. Those bastardi never gave up?

"There is no time for this. I have to carry you to safety. We need to find you a doctor away from here."

You want to argue more, trying to put more weight into your bad leg and groaning in terrible pain. The guards seem to be getting closer now. You roll your eyes, embarrassed, and agree, not looking directly at Ezio anymore.

"Hold tight," Ezio whispers after he lifts you. You hold onto his neck, trying to decide if you are angry, ashamed, or flustered to let your boyfriend carry you like this "Let's try not to call attention to ourselves."

Maneuvering between the sea of people, you look behind Ezio's back, noticing the guards are close. Ezio feels you tense up and immediately reacts, turning into the first corner. He holds you against his chest, ignoring the curious looks. He can only stop into a doctor once you are out of danger.

Ezio follows through the streets, deep down, wanting to fight those guards. He knows he can't risk with you like this. You don't say anything, breathing on Ezio's neck to calm down.

"You will be alright, amore mio. Nothing will hurt you. I promise you."

You roll your eyes, almost smiling. Only Ezio to say the cheekiest things while you were being pursued. And to make you feel all fuzzy and warm in your chest.

When you are finally away from danger, you tap Ezio's shoulder, telling him he could put you down. Ezio gives you a half-smile and shakes his head.

"Not until the doctor, tesoro."

You try to discuss, but now that the adrenaline is passing, your ankle starts hurting really bad. Finally, Ezio finds a doctor, placing you carefully on the floor. The doctor checks you under Ezio's close supervision.

The doctor affirms you were lucky you only broke your ankle. He covers it with bandages, recommending you rest for a few weeks. You want to protest, but Ezio pays the man, carrying you back to safety.

-x-

When Ezio finally arrives at the safe spot, he places you into bed gently. You aren't pleased; he can see it as you cross your arms, snorting. Ezio takes his hood down, sitting by the bed.

"You look so charming when angry."

"Vai a farti fottere, Ezio," You complain, frustrated at yourself. How could you let this happen? Ezio needed your help. You didn't like it before you met him when he used to do missions alone, but now you were a team.

"Tesoro-" Ezio tries to touch your face. You block him, knowing you are acting childish, but you are so furious with yourself.

Ezio sighs, rubbing your body. He could finally breathe now. Since you fell from the top of that building, all he had on his mind was to bring you to safety. Now that you were there, safe and medicated, he knew he would have to deal with your stubbornness. He knew how you were feeling: you had nurtured him when he got hurt by Savonarola.

Ezio couldn't support even the thought of losing you. He had already passed this with Cristina, and it was so painful.

When he fell in love with you, and you chose the same path as he did to help him with his vengeance, Ezio almost thought of breaking up. The thought of you hurting or dying because of him was too much. He chose to be selfish and keep you close. He knew it was wrong, but the pain of having you away from him was much, much worse. That's why he was training you to be the best Assassin you could be. Luckily you were turning into a cautious, ruthless, and silent Assassin.

He just needed to keep an eye on you until you got better. It was hard for him not to go there and kill those pezzi di merda who dared to hurt you. Or just intermediate. No, he knew you had to do it alone.

"Okay, tesoro. I understand you are hurt. I know you feel this is a step back but look. At least we are alright. You will be back in a couple of weeks, now, how about-" Ezio suddenly changes his tone of voice, which he uses to seduce you. He rubs your upper tights up to your stomach and your arms. He kisses the side of your neck, whispering, "I strip you from those dirty clothes, give you a warm bath, get us a warm soup, and rest together. What do you think, mhm?"

You don't think, simply letting your body reaction answer to him. It was ridiculous, with chills all over your body. Any trace of anger leaves as you melt in his arms. He notices your expression softens and smiles victorious, giving a small bite to your neck, his beard rasping against your skin.

"Fine, fine, you win, Ezio. Take care of me as you want."

"Come si desidera."

Pezzi de Merda = Pieces of Shit Vai a farti fottere = Go fuck yourself Come si desidera = As you wish

MASTERLIST | EZIO'S MASTERLIST

[stainedglassandpigs]

Ruskaina pt 3

-Laying down some more lore for the main character I think imma do a time jump after this because I wanna write Y/N meeting Rayleigh saurrrr bad . Also I fear imma make y/n a witch im really fkin with that idea, although definitely not set on that ideas

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“THANK YOU FOR THE FOOD!”

He wasted no more time with pleasantries as he began tearing into his breakfast like it was a gourmet meal.

Watching him eat was interesting to say the least, it was almost like he was unhinging his jaw to fit as much food into the void is his mouth as it would allow him.

I used to think that I was could chow down pretty fast but my eater ability’s were being put to shame by a vast amount by him easily.

Maybe I really was that good of a cook. Being just me and Athena here alone in the cave I had gotten so used to just feeding us I never even thought much bout if it that good or not.

Taking my first bit of my food I made two realizations.

The food was mid asl, and this man truly was very peculiar we needed to be friends.

The meal went on uninterrupted by either of us, him to focused on winning his own personal man vs (mid) food and me wondering what could have possibly brought him to this crazy island in the first place.

When I got the mission to be sent here I was very skeptical I was even fit for the role. But Sabo insisted I could handle it , and he threw in the fact that they would make my accommodations to my liking and I was sold. Unfortunately the ability to decorate a space was my greatest foil the blonde demon knew that too.

The island classification was type s meaning it was of the most difficult to inhabit, so what was he doing here?

Trying to think of all the people I knew who could even manage to simply survive here narrowed the list of reason down drastically.

Definitely not a Marine.

He sure was no White Beard pirate that was for sure but they were the only crew I knew dumb enough to send one of there men on a mission here, but I knew a pirate when I seen one.

And he was unquestionably a pirate.

No matter what they looked like the months on the sea gave them all a signature tan. Not that I was looking heavily at him or anything of course but his skin was bronzed in an admittedly beautiful way.

Another sign was littered all across his body, the scares that no doubt were from the many battles pirates regularly get into, not to mention the big one across his chest

His chest scare formed a distinctive x shape, I remember seeing it last night it seems different from all his others.

Newer.

A would have to ask him about that when I got the chance.

Another thing that gave away his pirate status was his confidence. I mean what normal person just brazenly rushes into a random fight with a beast like he did ?

Or goes through a strangers fridge ???

Also his straw hat, other than when he was unconscious he always had it on. Pirates always had something weird going on with them, there was buggy and his whole clown thing or the big ma pirates and there breeding kink and sugar problems.

Always something with that lot of sea dwellers.

On second thought he might just be a beautifully bronzed idiot. A Loud beautiful bronzed idiot.

I go to eat another bite of food thinking about all the pirates I could remember and all there little quirks when the straw hatted young man cleared his thought obnoxiously.

Looking him in the eyes I wondered what he could have wanted. I fed him like he asked, maybe he was still in pain.

“are you gonna finish that?”

I look at my hand that was clearly going to eat more food and then at my plate and his. Mine had only a few more bites left and his was… licked clean.

He looked eager to hear my answer, maybe food made him heal faster.

“Okay but-“ I didn’t even get to finish my sentence before he was stretching his arms to grab my plate.

And fork.

He really did not gaf either.

I would roll my eyes but this seems like something I was going to have to unfortunately get used to if we were indeed going to be… friends.

Watching him eat for a moment I thought about how it was well past time we should introduce ourselves.

I had already got personal with his body… in the sense that I had to patch him up of course. And he had you know literally saved my life so it was high time I learned his name.

Now it was my turn to clear my thought to get his attention.

Not really knowing how to go about this I just stood up and stuck my hand out.

“Hi I’m Your/Name, Idk if you know this but you saved my life yesterday. Thank you sincerely, what is your names ?”

That was good, I said my name and thank you. I did good, good job y/n. Although the hand shake is very formal in hindsight were not in an official meeting, but I have to stick it through now.

At first he just looked at my hand and me blankly.

Which immediately made me overthink

Was I to forward, wait do pirates hide their name ??? Did I do something wrong ??? WHYS HE JUST STARRING

I was just about to take my hand back when he broke out into a gummy smile and stood up too. A wave of relief washed over me, he was just processing what I said and I was being hasty.

“My name is Monkey D. Luffy” he paused and took a deep breath for the next part of his introduction.

“AND IM GONNA BE THE PIRATE KING” he smiled wildly at me now, taking my hand in his which was still covered in food I noted.

In the back of my head I could feel I had heard that name before somewhere but in this moment all the excitement finally just knowing his name made whatever thought I had disappear as soon as it came.

“It’s nice to meet you y/n, we should be friends!”

“I was just about to say the same thing Luffy!”

His smile was infectious, I couldn’t help but mirror his in tandem.

For a moment it was just us locking eyes smiling as the morning sun peeked in on our new found friendship.

His hand was warm and large enough to almost engulf mine and most importantly it was so comfortable. (And a tad sticky from all the food)

He didn’t try to hard to grip my hand or shake it obnoxiously. There just a just enough of a squeeze so as to say hi but nothing disagreeable.

In all honesty I didn’t want to remove my hand from his but the time we had ours clasped together was growing long and I was being to get nervous under the weight of his unyielding gaze.

It wasn’t that I felt judge, far from it, his eyes and body only seemed to wanna invite me into his world in every way possible even if he knew nothing about me that did not seem to bother him.

But then again I always over conflated my own importance in others perceptions and only knowing luffy for this short period of time I already wanted him to like me.

Overthinking pointless things as always.

When I removed my hand from his I felt a bit of a resistance. He didn’t want to let go ?

I was probably imagining it.

“Luffy are you done eating ? I should start cleaning everything up today’s yet another busy day especially if I hope to take advantage of this summer season. That damned beast will be out again they don’t take being bucked up to kindly. It will be looking for you now” taking his old plate and holding my hand out for the other.

There were a few pieces of food left but they were just scrapes so I figured I would just compost it.

“Good, makes my job easier. Our fight wasn’t finished” Luffy then proceeded to bring my plate to his mouth and shove the rest of the scrapes into the void in his mouth with his hand.

And just when I thought it was over he then proceeded to licked it clean.

I was still waiting for him to pass when his plate when he got up and casually walked over to the sink while talking about about what he was going to do the next time he seen the behemoth hog.

“The old fart told me I gotta use my haki if I wanna get better but ughhhhh every time I try those bastards just get the upper hand on me. He’s gonna make me do extra training when he hears what happened with the damned over grown bacon pig!”

Joining him at the sink I turned the water on and we both start cleaning the dishes. He didn’t even offer to help just began doing it without sparing a second thought about it.

“old fart ? Training ? Haki ??? Wait is all that why your on Ruskaina? Because I thought it was only me on the island for months cause this place is so dangerous. Hell my mother almost kelled over when I told her I was stationed here” as I spoke I cleaned off a pot and handed it to him to dry off we had fallen into a sort of rhythm.

We both would clean but if someone finished the other would dry that dish off for the other, it was kinda like a dance how we moved between each other silently giving the other permission to invade each others space when need be.

Not that it matters of course, and I didn’t think about it long after.

No, no, no.

But sometimes our hands would over lap when handing a dish off. He didn’t seem to notice or care, and of course neither did I.

Feeling his warmth pass over my hand just for that moment didn’t drive me crazy at all.

No,no,no.

“Yeah the granps is amazing ! He really pushed me to be better and it gets hard but I have to be better. I’ve been doing all this training these past few moths so I can get stronger for my crew.” Luffy slowed a bit now after mentioning his crew, he appeared lost in thought.

Athena’s music was playing low in background and the streaming of the water over dishes almost drowned out what Luffy said next but I still manage to hear him mutter it.

“So that day never happens again” in the corner of my eye I can see the glint of a tear trailing down his cheek.

Whatever it was clearly hurt him deeply. His brows knitted together and eyes glossed over as if he was being forced to relive the worst moment of his life all over again.

Unsure of what to do to ease whatever was causing him so much pain I thought to just ramble, bringing up the first thing that came to mind, my research.

“I’m here training too! Well a bit more than just training, I’ve been researching how to build houses better in extreme conditions. We want to be able to help as many people as possible but it became very obvious that us worst generation were more fighters than builders. We want to help the ppl, but we believe giving the tools to do so it vastly more important than just doing it for them. ” I attempted to make a joke about how once I witness someone almost hammer a nail into their hand trying to fix a broken wall. I laugh a bit trying to ease his mood a little.

Luffy lets out a small laugh thankfully my stupid anecdote was successful even if it was just enough to make him not as sad.

“We?” He looked at me curiously.

“Y/n are you on a pirate crew !” His wonder had brought him back even further from the grips of whatever fog he was in earlier.

“Well sorta kinda, Im part of the revolutionary army. Not technically pirates but we are kin in our hate for the world government. Useless bureaucrats the best thing one of them can do is die and put us out or misery.”

Handing luffy the last utensil I dry my hands off and lean on the counter as we continued the conversation.

“Ohhhh my grandpa told me bout’em before. wait so does that mean you can fight !? Can you show me!!!”

“I not the best fighter admittedly, but I can show you my powers. There are bit of a secret tho so you gotta promise not to tell anymore”

Holding up my pinky I mimicking our earlier promise. He eagerly took hold of my pinky with his.

“I pinky promised not to tell anyone about your powers y/n”

“Bet, we gonna have to go outside for me to show you my powers tho luffy

And with that the man was damn near dragging my outside so I could show him what I could do.

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- the vibe I want mc house to have, think of it with more richer red and blues colors kinda like that one room in howels moving castle but in a cave and the stone I feel like would be more like picture 2, darker and more brown.

[flicker-confessions]

FLICKER CONFESSION #0062

Submitted by @cringelordofchaos (me):

imagine mason and aadiv.. liek imagine aadiv gets transported into a flicker game .... and liek. its said that aadiv is missing. and we all know mason wont give up on finding aadiv and everything. he takes every chance he gets to find him or to find out more abt him. he even talks to ppl whocan see literal ghosts and can sense the future if aadiv is ok. mason himself actually has some dreams where he sees aadiv in some weird place but he doesnt know what it means. anyway imagine he at one point he starts losing hope, optimism. he just thinks hes never going to see aadiv again. but someone helps him regain hope. and he gets hopeful again. and he gets so sure that hes going to find aadiv. but then like if its a fanfic imagine the scene immediately turns to aadiv in the middle of a flicker game getting murdered that night. or getting voted out idk. and like you see mason. hes absolutely sure and hiopeful that hes going to find aadv now. but the readers, the audience knows that aint possible anymore. that aadiv is dead. and we just have to see mason spiral into insanity and toxic positivity. for now hes blissfuly unawar e but as more time passess he will NEVER. find. out what actually happened to aadiv. the horrors. hell just die not knowing anything and wishing he couldve saved him or helped himor feeling like he wasted his life or that it was incomplete or unfulfilled or that he failed and hell just feel so guilty ahahha anyway separate confession but flicker would totally work as a really interesting novel. fight me on this idc

Blog runners' note: "woah a confession post !? are you immediately returning to confession posts now!?'" you might ask. unfortunately no (or at least not for now). this was just iin my drrafts and i forgot abt it so im posting it now. also i am so insane abt maadiv (not as much anymore but thye r literally the reason i almost failedhistory class. couldnt focus on studying bc i was thinking of them )

confession type / blog - fandom - general

[hahaalaine]

this one client im doing consult for is literally looking for every possible way to charge a different price for every day of the week AND do the math for when the prices crossover (i.e. Monday's price x Wednesday's price on a 2 day stay). There is no sustainable, easy way to do that and I've demonstrated it a few times in demos but they're still asking me to waste my time. Like they do not care about the downturn their business will take and they keep ignoring the technical aspect. I'm at the point of telling them to get the fuck off this software, stop wasting our time, and to spend their time & money in creating their own proprietary software.

Unfortunately I can't say shit like that until I have physically built out every possible set up just to be sure. This next iteration will require the customer to do massive amounts of clicks because they have to add a 3 night stay to their cart 3 separate times in order to attempt to calculate the price.

[sieglinde-freud]

For the ask game: Ophelia and Camillia

HELL YEAHH hi stedy :) starting with ophelia

How I feel about this character

shes so cute. obviously super similar to her dad and while i feel like she doesnt do the chuuni thing quite as well, i think its cute that its mostly in an attempt to emulate her father, the bestest guy in the world to her, which differentiates it from odin’s mannerisms that were formed as a coping mechanism. shes just very happy and i love that for her :)

All the people I ship romantically with this character

i remember really liking her with hisame at one point? i think i still do but i cannot tell you what their support is about. i forgot entirely. honestly, i need to brush up on the fates second gen because theyre a huge blank spot in my mind 😭 but like, conceptually, i also like her with shiro, caeldori, nina, forrest, and mitama. i just have to actually read those…

My non-romantic OTP for this character

i like her little trio with forrest and nina :) theyre so cute in heirs of fate… i wish we could see more of the second gen dynamic like that. in my head i also like her friendship with soleil, but… in terms of whats given to me in the game… its just… eugh.

My unpopular opinion about this character

i dont think she’s a better unit than odin in conquest. i guess it can depend on who her mom is, but odin is generally going to have much more survivability due to his defense and hp + joining you pretty early, making his role as a nostank reliable and costs zero effort. ophelia takes time, and ideally you want to hold off on getting her for skills/offspring seals. any early game build can be done with nyx or elise, to less potency maybe, but with way less effort especially now that the best way of support grinding (mycastle easy seize) is no longer possible. of course, you can use dlc maps but if you take dlc into account conquest is a whole different game.

One thing I wish had happened

how about something i wish didnt happen? her support with soleil is genuinely one of these most uncomfortable things i have ever read in fire emblem which is saying a lot! because the writing in these games suck! for the most part it is soleil’s problem and not ophelia’s, so maybe i shouldn’t be complaining about it here, but i dunno man. its just… its so bad. i cant even read it in game like it gets a physical reaction out of me and not a positive one.

ok camilla now :)

How I feel about this character

i love her lots :) my savior on conquest and she had the best hair in the game. her supports are… pretty unfortunate most of the time but i think the ones that matter are really good and she’s a really sympathetic character when you get over intelligent systems not trusting in her enough to be popular and slapping the gooner bait “big sister” crap on her

All the people I ship romantically with this character

i really dont have a major preference for her? in game, i usually prefer pairings that give her a kid because 1) woag god stats and 2) her hair color is sooo good i cannot waste it. but in terms of just shipping, shes good with like. everyone. some supports are bad but i can get over most of them if i like the ship as a concept. but off the top of my head i like her with selena, beruka, takumi, saizo, peri, laslow, odin, niles, hinoka, charlotte, arthur, reina, probably more but. yeah shes versatile to me. godmilla

My non-romantic OTP for this character

leo!! all the nohr siblings really but i think camilla and leo specifically are just. they give me lots of brain worms. elise obviously wasnt born yet to exeprience the concubine wars, and as the heir and, iirc, the only legitimate son garon had, xander didn’t really get involved as much either. im sure it affected him, but he wasn’t there actually taking part in it. leo and camilla shoulder a lot for their siblings and i think its very interesting that despite it all, theyre probably the only people that can ever really understand what the other has been through. and i enjoy their supports too, with leo wanting camilla’s attention but not being willing to voice it, and camilla understanding that her smothering would probably just piss him off so she tries to avoid it, until they ultimately find a healthy medium and can start to kind of… work on their relationship with eachother after everything. i love them lots :)

My unpopular opinion about this character

im not sure i have one? i feel like opinions on camilla are so all over the place so its kind of hard to have one thats “unpopular.” but i’ll say that i prefer her in malig knight rather than wyvern lord which is probably the worse play in most scenarios but… oohh hot lady on undead dragon… im very simple.

One thing I wish had happened

more elaboration on her past and her mother and some more story relavance for her. she just kinda… fades into the back after leo and xander come which happens with the other sisters too, but still……

[two-calicos-in-a-trenchcoat]

When I was binding my plant book I spent about an hour digging around online to figure out which stitch I would use and researching the different binding methods to figure out what would work best.

I also wanted a good written tutorial for how to do the stitch i ultimately chose (the coptic stitch) because I do not like video tutorials. Unfortunately none of the written tutorials had exactly what I needed. Specifically none of them told you what to do if you ran out of thread before finishing the binding. Their advice was "make sure to cut enough thread from the beginning" which was not going to work for me. While there is a way to measure out how much thread you need, I would likely still need to know how to add more thread. My plant book is quite a bit thicker than the books being made in the tutorials. And I dont know if you've ever tried to hand sew something by hand and thought "ehhh ill just cut off a bunch and hope its enough to do this in one go," but it NEVER works out that way.

DO NOT LISTEN TO THAT VOICE. THAT IS THE DEVIL SPEAKING.

All that will happen is you end up with a giant tangled mess of thread that you can never untangle. And im pretty good at untangling threads but its a pain in the ass and just not something I would like to waste my time on. Not to mention the wasted thread. So I ended up having to watch part of a video tutorial to figure out what I was supposed to do when the thread inevitably ran out. And I told myself that the next time I did this, I would make my own written tutorial with pictures showing what to do and also showing how I reinforce the spine because I go a bit further than any of the tutorials I found.

(Tutorial under the cut)

Most people seem to choose the coptic stitch because they like how it looks and they keep the stitching exposed. While I agree that it looks good, I dont personally like the exposed stitching. I like people to look at my books and be surprised when I tell them I bound them myself. And making a book that looks professionally done accomplishes that. Also I prefer it over the exposed stitching, ALSO I don't use proper bookbinding thread cuz I do this on a budget with stuff I can get at walmart or already have lying around the house and covering the stitching helps reinforce it. I ultimately decided on the coptic stitch partly because it allows the book to lie flat when open, but also because every article I read on different stitches to use said that it was the most complicated one and I looked at that and was like "pffffttt cant be that hard." And honestly I think I was right. Its pretty straightforward.

So what youre gonna need is some paper. Personally, I like to take those sketchbooks that are bound with tape or glue and pull all the pages out. This way you also get a front and back cover.

Again, every tutorial was telling me to fold the pages with a bone fold, which is nice if you have one, I guess, but I do not, so I used the clip on the side of my mechanical pencil to fold the pages in half. If youre using regular sketch paper then you wanna make some signatures which is a group of 4 to 5 sheets of paper, folded in half, and placed inside each other. But for something thicker like watercolor paper, I just sew each individual sheet on separately.

Next, you're gonna wanna take the hard piece of cardboard at the back of the taped together sketchbook and cut that shit in half. I use an exacto knife but ive also used scissors for this in the past. I do not recommend using scissors. Its possible to do but not worth the hand cramps. And then BOOM you have the covers of your sketchbook.

Another thing most people tell you to use is an awl to punch the holes in the paper. Again, I do not have an awl. Nor do I have the money to buy one. At first, I just punched the holes in with a thumbtack but thumbtacks are tiny and after awhile your fingers start to hurt and you may start to lose your grip on it and its just generally a bad time. But, ya bois got a lot of sewing needles (I kept losing them for awhile there and would give up and buy new ones only to then find the pack I lost. So I have like 3 packs of sewing needles.

Thats not counting the ones my mom has also bought because she's done the same thing) and out of frustration from using the thumbtack I decided to try sticking a sewing needle into one of my mechanical pencils and seeing if it would fit and not just immediately push back in when I tried to use it. And what do you fuckin know?

It worked extremely well and I wish id thought of it sooner. I cut the time spent poking holes into the signatures in half and it doesnt hurt my fingers at all.

Youre also going to need thread, of course. I use embroidery thread cuz thats what I already had. Normally you should go for a thicker thread. Preferably a waxed thread. And most people would recommend using a curved sewing needle. This is the one thing im considering getting for myself at some point. You CAN do it with a straight needle but a curved one would definitely make some aspects of this significantly easier.

Now to start off, you wanna take your string and put it in the needle and fold it in half and tie the ends together and then

You wanna thread the needle through the first signature and then

Pull it up through the bottom of the first hole in the cover and loop it around twice and pull it tight

Then push the needle back into the first hole in the paper

And put it through the next hole in the signature

Then repeat that process til you get to the end of the holes. When you get to the last one start like you did with all the others but after wrapping the thread around the cardboard twice you get the next signature

And push it in through the first hole and back out the second (tbc)

[wuffgang-ameowdeus-moozart]

what qpr ships do u ship that most see as allo & why do you ship em in a qpr/pr way? like what makes them interesting for you?

basically.....every ship to be honest?

tho it is especially bad if you are particularly fond of female characters specifically (✨ misogyny✨)

there are three main reasons why I tend to prefer qprs:

1. I hc a ton of characters as aromantic and while it is theoretically possible to be an aro in a romantic relationship (if you're a happily dating aro-spec more power to you) I personally could never. and thus my version of the characters that live in my soul and love gnawing on my remaining braincells wouldn't, either.

2. fandom and spite. I'm just so tired of all the stupid "there is no platonic explanation" (yes there is, it is called loving your friends) or "a platonic friend wouldn't do that" (yes they would, it is called loving your friends) or (picture of two people hanging out) OH MY GOD CHECK OUT THEIR ROMANTIC DATE FULL OF ROMANCE (<- cannot stress enough how these are just two ppl enjoying each other's company. do allos just hate their friends)

the most annoying part of that is the way it devaluates every friendship that isn't somehow (forcibly sometimes) linked to romance (they only sacrifice themselves for each other because of their *romantic* feelings specifically, everything they do with and/or for each other is basically just buildup for their REAL important relationship - as if, if they never started dating, it would all be "a waste" or "for nothing")

3. we've all seen it. two perfectly fine complex layered interesting characters become a couple and along with their new relationship status they also receive a new personality trait: being a couple. unfortunately for them, that is now also their only personality trait.

but I think that with qprs that is much more difficult to do? when you speak of romance everyone has a pretty clear picture in mind for what that means; qprs however are by definition undefinable. meaning that in order to make a qpr work you are more or less forced to have a little character study (even post relationship): how do they perceive the qpr? how is it different from other friendships and/or past romances? or even: how do they deal with being in a relationship outside of the widely accepted romance/platonic binary? (and that's just off the top of my head)

(though I think that another big thing for me is that for the longest time I thought that "being in love" and "having a crush" were synonyms. my nine yo brain thought that after confessing (regardless of the outcome) these feelings just started fading after a while since theyd outgrown their usefulness. so even if the feelings were reciprocated you just stayed together out of convenience after a while - until you "fell in love" with another person. I know by now that that's ideally not the case but I think that I've thought of it that way for long enough for it to be baked into my worldview lmao)

ft rant below the cut

its probably bc I'm thinking bout her a lot but it's pretty bad with Lucy Heartfilia. I feel like the devaluation and dismissal of Natsu's and Lucy's friendship is so bad (especially considering they are at the core of the show) ,,,,,, I honestly believe that if they were to start dating it would actually take away from their dynamiC AND! UNDERMINE!! THE!!! ENTIRE!!!! MESSAGE!!!!! OF!!! THE!!!! SHOWWWWW (THIS IS LITERALLY THE POWER OF FRIENDSHIP MANGA GUYS THEY ARE ALREADY SOULMATES STOP ACTING LIKE THEIR BEAUTIFUL RELATIONSHIP IS JUST A STEPPING STONE IM GONNA START BITING FOR REAL)

anyways. thanks for coming to my ted talk<3

[ghostfest]

Hi. I’m really sorry to put this on you. I don’t know what exactly I’m doing wrong. Everyone keeps telling me to affirm and persist but it’s been MONTHS. I have no idea what in the hell im doing wrong cause I read stories here and people get their desire or go into the void in few days. It’s incredibly depressing.

I’ve also tried hypnosis videos, subliminals and more like that one anon has said on your blog. I just feel so sick to my stomach right now cause it feels like nothing is working. My home life is so bad and I unfortunately don’t have the means to leave. My birthday is coming up and unfortunately I just feel like I want to unalive myself :(

I feel like such a loser cause I paid for a fake blogger here to enter the void for me. I was so desperate at the time that I got scammed (I got the money back though). I have nothing going on for me. Nothing to be proud of..

I keep reading success stories and keep trying new things like delta and theta waves but I really don’t feel myself shifting to the void. at this point, I’m beyond desperate. I literally wasted my life and I reached a breaking point. I keep internally panicking and crying now

Anon I just want to say you're not a loser. The real loser is the person who went ahead and manipulated people who trusted them and took their money. You're not a loser, all you are is someone who just needs help. I know what it's like to feel like nothing's working, and I know how hard it is to not be desperate when everything in the outer world feels hard or you're on a time crunch. First, know it's possible to change everything. You can live your dream life. Remind yourself of this. Even if it's hard now it's possible to change it all no matter what. Next, please try to focus on what you like to enter the void, not someone else's likes. If you've tried several methods, do you have a favorite? Do you have anything that relaxes you that you know about? See if it helps you in enterring. Anon I believe in you. I know it's hard, but I know you can do it.