#ughh thinkin bout it again

[passsionfish]

I may not know well how politics work but i dont think its a political thing at this point. I dont care who you are it takes half a braincell to know that what the people of palestine are experiencing right now should not be happening and its horrific that it is. I understand that it is political in a way with the us supplying weapons to israel I believe? Either way what im saying is I don't think your political standing should affect it? Im not sure if it does I havent done much research to be completely honest. but basically: how on earth are there people that support this or let it happen? how can you be the PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES and NOT do anything about it what the actual heck??? ok honestly i have nothing to back this i may be wrong i dont know man but what i do know is that uhh genocide is happening right now in palestine and nothing justifies that i dont care who you are who your mother is free palestine good lord its really not that difficult to see whats going on

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its been a moment but im thinkin bout pillar fam again... ughhh holly and her momma.. so important for her to have three parents like ughh fuck dude..........

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UGHH SCREAMING!

thinkin bout the saltburn boys dick sizes n agishsskvdjdb

feel like fairleigh would be like long LIKE LONG cause that guy is 6’5 or smthin crazy 🤭🤭 sadly not as thick as Felix or Oliver BUT thinkin it curves to the left definitely hits your cervix /lh

FELIX UGH THAT TALL MANNNNN again thinking like quite long not as long as Fairleigh but thicker not super thick, imagining all his veins as well

Oliver definitely has the thickest out of the 3.. not the longest one but still above average very veiny and pushes against your spot just right

this is my roman empire

[cryptid-bloodhound]

can i just have some fluffy gibby and octane??? that's all i need in my life tbh

IM LATE BUT I GOTCHU FAM!

Thoughts Like Thorns

Ao3

Octavio was bored again. When he was bored, bad things tended to happen. He didn’t mean to cause so much havoc, honest! Well, most of the time he didn’t mean it. All that destruction and chaos was simply a byproduct of his endless hunt for his next adrenaline rush. He really couldn’t help it. That desire to do something - anything - was almost pervasive. It was a gnawing, clawing need that guided his day-to-day life. When he sat idle for just a moment too long, that feeling would well up inside of him again, like nails down his spine. If he didn’t know any better, he’d compare the uncomfortable sensation to anxiousness. It was like something inside of him telling him to ‘ go go go!’ and not doing that was something really quite awful.

Those quiet moments between drops when there was nowhere for him to run and video games just weren’t cutting it was horrible. He’d bounce in place, jump around, and use his fellow Legends as makeshift springboards. Anything to alleviate that need. For the most part, the others tolerated his constant frenetic energy. Sometimes, if the mood was bright enough, they’d join in on his reckless little games. It usually wasn’t a problem for the adrenaline junkie. Hell, he loved the rush so chasing these little highs was awesome! But, there were moments when it was all a little too much. When his attention felt like it was being ripped in every direction and his mind buzzed like a nest of angry hornets. When nothing could satisfy that need of his. It seemed like today was one of those unlucky days.

He was pacing back and forth in the complex, muttering under his breath rapidly as if he could chase away this feeling through cursing alone. His hands flexed, clenched, and beat an uneven tempo against his thighs as he moved on an endless loop. Sometimes he felt like clawing at himself because surely that would feel better than whatever this sensation was crawling under his skin, but he refrained. The last time he did, Ajay scolded him and gave him that ‘I’m-unhappy-but-also-worried’ look he’s so familiar with. He tried playing games but nothing would hold his attention or quell that buzzing. He tried hanging out with the others but found himself too...raw to handle them right now. This uneasy restlessness was killing him.

“Ughh, estoy a punto de enloquecer!”

Octavio was so engrossed in his own static-filled mind that he didn’t notice the rather large figure walking through the door. Really, it should be a feat all on its own to have Makoa Gibraltar of all people sneak up on you. The giant of a man wasn’t the type to sneak around. So, when a heavy hand landed on his shoulder, the borderline shriek that left his lips was all the more embarrassing. Gibraltar looked torn between amused and mildly worried. That expression made Octavio want to shrug the hand off of his shoulder and bolt for the door.

“You alright there, bruddah?”

It was a simple question. It should have been easy to answer. Should . But the nonstop racing thoughts and aching in his nerves told him otherwise.

“Yes. No. Yes! ...Maybe. UGH, I don’t know!”

His hands went from tapping his thighs to gripping at his hair as he fought himself for a moment of respite. After seeing the almost volatile reaction to his touch earlier, Makoa resisted the urge to lay a reassuring hand on the younger Legend. It wasn’t often that Octavio had a bad day like this but it happened just enough for Makoa to recognize the signs. After a moment of thought, Gibraltar shifted his presence, expression dropping from openly worried to casual friendliness. That same sort of warmth colored over the darker tones of his voice. He didn’t want Octavio focusing on the bad - especially if it was thanks to the way he was acting.

“Hey, I seen you’re pretty good at art, yeah?”

The question was so unexpected and lax that it actually threw Octavio for a bit of a loop. His grip loosened and he squinted in slight confusion at Makoa. When he spoke, his answer was drawn out and pitched as if it was a question.

“...Yes?”

That seemed to brighten up Makoa’s disposition immediately. He gave one of his famous thousand-watt grins and threw open his arms in a grand gesture.

“Perfect! I got a cake here that needs some serious decoratin’ and you’re just the guy for the job!”

There wasn’t a singular part of this shift in conversation that didn’t confuse Octavio. Granted there were a great many things that did confuse him. In his defense, however, he rarely bothered enough to pay attention to, well, anything really. So, he just let his arms drop back to his sides as bewilderment overtook his features. Seeing the shift, Makoa kept on going. Anything to keep him distracted was good in his books. As he spoke, he subtly herded Octavio toward the kitchen area where a tasty but objectively plain cake sat. Next to it was a slew of decoration tools and what looked like a rough image of what Gibraltar wanted on it. It was pretty, certainly something he could imagine giving to a significant other if he were feeling romantic. But his way of drawing was a bit more, ah, stylized than what was pictured. As he started imagining what it’d look like in his own design, Makoa continued on.

“It’s my anniversary soon and I wanted to do somethin’ nice. I made a cake but I don’t have an artistic bone in my body. Figured I’d ask ya for help, shortstack. We can work on it togetha ‘n you could tell me what’s botherin’ ya.”

At the reminded of his earlier unending nerves, Octavio frowned. Without meaning to he started bouncing back and forth on his feet as that prickling sensation started taking over his attention once more. Without wasting a second, Makoa barreled on as if nothing changed.

“Or, I could tell ya about that time I stole my dad’s motorcycle to go on a joyride with my boyfriend.”

Again, the switch up blindsided the younger Legend. The mental image of The Gibraltar doing something so reckless and immature as stealing his dad’s motorcycle absolutely floored Octavio. His jaw dropped and that jittery discomfort was replaced with a sort of giddiness. That sounded like something he would do and not the unofficial Team Dad.  

“No. Way.”

“Way.”

There was a smug sort of smile pulling wide at Gibraltar’s lips as Octavio stared at him with wide eyes. He figured if there was a story to draw him out of a bad spot, it’d be a crazy one he could relate to. The air was filled with the rapid little ‘tinks’ of his feet as he danced in place with all that pent up energy he was so well-known for. He wanted to hear more about this crazy tale. It was drawing his mind away from all those sharp, intangible edges he could never figure out.

“Let’s do it!”

And so they did. They set up their impromptu cake station as Makoa spoke about the shenanigans he managed to get himself into in his wilder days. Of course, he left out the darker parts. No need to drag the kid back down. It warmed something in his heart to see Octavio calming down. His mind was distracted by the story and attention needed to detail the cake while his hands were busy drawing out lines of frosting. It was engaging enough to keep him entertained without being self-destructive (or any kind of destructive, which was a step up). So, when that story ended, Makoa conjured another, and then another, and another. However many it took until that frantic tension melted away from Octavio.

“So, when ya gonna pop the question amigo? Time ain’t waitin’ for any of us! We won’t stay this young and good lookin’ forever. Well, you won’t. I’ll always be this gorgeous. ”

It was Makoa’s turn to be surprised at the unexpected words. Maybe it was the shock, maybe it was the cocky, over-the-top attitude, or maybe it was just the irony that the usually oblivious one here hit the nail on the head. Whatever the case, Makoa let out a deep belly laugh and clapped Octavio on the shoulder. The force behind the gesture was still enough to cause the much smaller man to jolt forward.

“Ha! Keep it up, shortstack. I’ll remember that next time we’re on a team and the enemies are lookin’ for a punchin’ bag.”

Rather than respond verbally, Octavio just stuck his tongue out and gave a rather colorful hand gesture. Though the way his lips turned up at the corners in a grin spoke volumes of his current bright mood. After a moment, Makoa sighed in a way that Octavio could have sworn would be considered ‘dreamily’. He did very little to hide the amused snort at the action. ‘What a big softy.’

“To tell ya the truth, I been thinkin’ ‘bout it. I wanna do it soon. Hey, how’d you like to come ‘n help me pick out a ring, huh?”

The invitation was a surprise. Seems like today was full of those - mostly good, at least. It made Octavio smile wider than he has in a long time. Again, he couldn’t help but do an excited little jig in place, prompting Makoa to laugh at his antics once more.

“Hells yeah!”

His brain was already rushing ten thousand miles a minute picturing all sorts of expensive and fantastical bands. That led to him also picturing crazy wedding ideas and - ‘Oh! Wonder if I’ll get to be a groomsman!’ His colorful and exciting daydreams were interrupted by Makoa as he peered over his shoulder at the cake and spoke up.

“This looks great, Octavio, but uh...you spelled his name wrong.”

Sure enough, when he looked at the wonderfully decorated (in his humble opinion) cake, he had forgotten a letter in Makoa’s boyfriend’s name. With a groan, he slapped a hand to his forehead and accidentally smeared icing on his face.

“Mierda.”

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Log 2 | Day 2

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Kosuke sits on his bed, face grim. He lacks his signature lab coat for now and definitely seems uncomfortable because of it.

“Hey, Rosetta,” he says, waving to the tablet but lacking much energy. “‘Bout that kid that died yesterday, I’ve cleared my head enough to talk about him now.

Kinda sucks, Evander-chi was pretty cool. I thought we might be a bit similar, that… mmmmmaybe we came from similar backgrounds? So, I was pretty hyped? Especially because… he actually wanted to talk to me! ME, Rosie! It was wild, he didn’t even try to shove me in a locker or call me a furry or anythin’. Uh, then he got shanked by that pissy itsy bitsy lil Spiderbot. ‘Cuz… of course he did. Got my labcoat all bloody when that one pink haired chick - think it was the cardiologist, Sakura? Eh, I’ll get it eventually. ANYWAYS, she tried to stop the bleedin’, but he was loooooong gone. It all happened so fast, and then… he was dead. 

If it was you tellin’ me this b.s., I’d tell ya to stop pullin’ my leg.”

“...anyways, yeah. LOTS of people on this ship. It makes me… really nervous, actually. Haven’t willin’ly been around this many peeps since high school - normal high school, not Hope’s Peak. Cuz they just let me fuck off and do whatever. But, uh! I hope they don’t think I’m weird or anythin’!” He laughs, scratching at the back of his head for a moment. “...ok, maybe I’m kinda weird. You’d say that, anyways. But. I think… maybe it’s good to be around peeps more? Ok, I’ll probably take that back once I say somethin’ without thinkin’ and I’m in the no friends zone, but. For now, guess I should try my best? For whatever that’s worth anymore.

...maaaaaaan. If ya were here, ya would smack me upside the head for worryin’ what others think so much.”

Huffing, Kosuke sits up from the slouch he’d gotten into without realizing. “Hey! But I’m gonna try not to focus on my complete and total lack of social skills from spendin’ half my time in the lab or pettin’ cats! I’m gonna, uh, try to not also get fuckin’ shanked! Not like I have my brass knuckes in my pocket anymore, those were confiscated, but mayyyybe if I make nice with everyone, it’ll be ok? I’ll… try, anyway. Not really optimistic, but… the nerd always lives to the end of these things, right? Right! Nyeheheh!” 

“Sooooo… yeah, Rosetta! I’ll make these logs addressed to ya so I don’t lose my fuckin’ mind. We can get a good laugh out of ‘em when I see ya next, k?”

Kosuke then looks at something offscreen, shaking his head. He looks back to the screen again, voice weary.

“...I should prolly go wash all that blood out of my labcoat, eh? Ughh, but that’s… so much work.” He flops back onto his bed, causing the Modelpad to fall screen first onto his bed. A muffled “uuuuuuuuugh!” can be heard off-screen. He then picks up the tablet again, scowling. “...that’s my half-decent lab coat, I like that one. I’m gonna go clean if off in the public bathroom before the stain sets in more… and I guess it’s kinda inconsiderate to leave it makin’ a puddle in the corner, eh? Oh! Oh! I’ll tell ya ‘bout my roommates next log I make.” He attempts to crack a smile, but it falls flat. “Catch ya later, Rosie! Ya better be feedin’ my cats right while I’m gone!” 

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