#ugh. we're going back to 2020 with this one ‼

[m4rs-ex3]

so naturally i was up at 1am the other night watching tdp related youtube videos and i figured i'd watch the 2020 comic con panel since it'd been a while and oh my god some of this shit

(also just me talking about how much i love this cast)

"IT IS I, DARK_MAGE_DAD420" i cannot believe that is real

aaravos: "if i want to do a screen call, i must perform a cosmic blood ritual. with a mortar and pestle. AND FLOATING KNIVES" you are fucking kidding me (edit: i realize that pertains to what he did in s2 but still like "cosmic" "ritual" "knives"? cmon)

jason simpson playing the ukulele. that's all.

jack: *talking about how he had a baby in quarantine* eric: i've been doing a lot of gardening... uh i haven't had a baby, but you never know! i mean if it's possible through social distancing aaron: if anybody can make that happen through social distancing it's aaravos you are F U C K I N G KIDDING ME

racquel: some fun things i did- i uhh died my own hair and burned my scalp and i would like to inform you all it's finally healed and we're good to go, i'm ready to do it again! i'm obsessed with the fact that racquel is quite literally claudia irl

the ttm read is awesome. jack came with the Rayla Voice fucking PREPARED oh my god

i don't think i've ever actually talked about the dnd sketch but it is one of my favorite things in the entire world

rayllum in this sketch is amazing particularly callum he is SO down bad like "my character is a mysterious elf assassin with two beautiful blades to match my two beautiful eyes~~ ✨" like hello that's canon idc if it's a sketch that is canon

"my character cannot help but look at her. he locks eyes with rayla's mage" "....there will be time for roleplaying later" HELLO THATS GOLD

viren in this skit is genuinely one of the funniest things i've ever seen. i cannot emphasize enough this is comedy

necromancer ezran. i think about him daily.

s: "i start swinging my sword at, uhh, idk, rayla's mage" r: "WAIT WHAT" c: "uh wait wait i take it back MY SWORDS GLEAM INTO THE LIGHT AS I LEAP TO THE DEFENCE OF THE BEAUTIFUL MAGE!" s: "hey no takebacks!" sibling ass fight i love them

"LIKE WHAT DO YOU ACTUALLY DO?"

i rolled a 1 😐

i loot their corpses for blood >:D

"do elves have four toes?" "i always assumed that they would have 6 so they could learn how to count to 20" paula my love

someone get sasha some hamantaschen

i don't need arc 3 actually i just need the beta script including as many guns n roses references as possible

racquel: ok call me crazy, call me crazy... jesse: you're crazy, racquel racquel: THANK YOU FINALLY they are literally just them

"I WILL NOT BE POSTING A SINGLE THING ABOUT ICE, FOR I AM JULIA" (okay but.... venous frigoris anyone?)

paula: ugh, no one likes soren jesse: well no one likes rayla racquel: you two should fight 😈

long hard sigh

bonus: jason: literally no one likes viren so let's move on

"how old is bait?" "sasha, how old do you think bait is?" "3."

"is-is a glow toad kinda like a toad?" "................kind of"

i fucking love sasha have i ever mentioned that i fucking love sasha

"i think that he's 56." "either 3 or 56 only, apparently"

the saga announcement is great i love how everyone's is so excited they don't even know all of their characters are about to be destroyed physically and emotionally

the way aaron says it so fucking funny "is there gonna be a season 4?" "uh so i think it's really important to emphasize: yes-"

"i too want to cry" "just cry, just-" "IT'S A PANDEMIC. NO TEARS. THERE'S NO CRYING IN A PANDEMIC." "...where is this rule coming from?"

and finally there were a handful of moments that i could not do justice by transcribing in a post so here is a masterfully edited compilation i made

[snoopyearss]

Here. Eren Yeager x F. Reader

content warning: suggestive!

Summary: Y/n isn't a party person. That’s not her scene. All she wants to do is stay in her dormroom and listen to slowed and reverbed songs and watch gaming videos on youtube. When her extroverted friends convince her to go to a house party, she’s forced to talk to people she normally doesn't talk to. When she goes to the car for some peace and quiet, someone, one of the most popular playboys at the university by the name of Eren Yeager, decides to keep her company. What could go wrong?

We're bringing back the 2020-2021 anime fanfictions vibes with this one. Alll the stereotypes of a college au fic is in this so spare me the bitching and complaining and just enjoyyyyy

Chapter 1: To Marley's

Your POV

I unlocked the door to my shared dorm with my roommates Hitch and Sasha. The three of us are inseparable, but if there’s a party happening at that very moment, they won’t hesitate to leave me.

No hard feelings though. I don’t like parties. Lame I know, but I can’t stand the idea of everyone in a small room, sweaty, and grinding on each other. Blech. But I digress. I walked into the kitchen and greeted Sasha, who was munching on some chips.

“You’re getting crumbs all over the floor. You know this university housing has a mouse problem.” I groaned. “Yeah, yeah I’ll clean it up. Later. How was class?”

“Fucking long. Nothing new. Professor Hange was talking for HOURS. I love her but geez the lady has energy.” Sasha laughed. “Keeps me awake though. Good thing it’s Friday. You get a break and maaybee, come party with us?” She slipped in.

“You’re not gonna get me to go to a party with you Sash. It’s not happening. I don’t do that.” I opened the cupboard to grab the last pack of pop tarts.

“Ugh come onnn!” She pleaded. “You’re always in that damn room. That’s all you do. For once, come out and have some fun! When's the last time you had se-”

“We aren’t doing this right now. Plus I got homework.” I broke a piece of the cookies and cream pop tart and put it in my mouth. “And that shit won’t be due until next Tuesday. What do you even plan to do anyways?” Sasha cleaned up the crumbs from the kitchen table.

“Well I’m gonna-”

“Wait, don't tell me. You're gonna put your LED lights on, listen to the same 5 slowed songs and watch gaming videos. I’m right, aren't I?” Sasha interrupted. “Well, I found one more song so make that 6. So you're wrong.” I stuck my tongue out at her.

“Hopeless. But I guess that makes you happy. Talk later?” She said while getting out of her seat. I nodded “I’ll get Hitch to persuade you.” She whispered as she walked to her room and closed the door.

“And you still didn’t clean these crumbs off the floor! I don’t want mice!” I yelled then got up to do it since I knew she wasn’t going to do it herself.

₊˚✩彡.

Pussy Poppers

Sasha

You guys wanna go to

That new restaurant that

Opened down the street

From the campus for dinner?

Hitch

ooohhhh

yes. i heard their burgers

were really good!

Y/N Loved “You guys wanna go to that new restaurant that opened down the street from the campus for dinner?”

Y/N

Yeah, let's go!

Sasha

Yaaaayy!

:))))

I locked my phone and put it on the charger and got ready. I put on some music and opened my closet. “I have all these pieces, but not an actual outfit.” I said to myself. Remind me to go shopping. After sometime I managed to get an outfit together then went to do my hair and makeup. I heard a knock on my bedroom door.

“Hey Y/n you got a- here you go with the same slowed and reverbed songs on repeat.” Hitch teased me. “You hating and for what ma’am?” I rolled my eyes.

“Anyways you got a tampon? I ran out.”

“Yeah, in the small drawer next to my desk.” She thanked me and walked out. As soon as I finished, I put on some shoes and walked out of my bedroom to see Sasha munching on the same chips.

“We’re going out to eat, why are you eating now?” Hitch questioned her. “Because I’m hungry? What the fuck?” Hitch snatched the bag from her hands.

“Let's go. And when we get back, clean up this mess please Sasha I’m begging. I don’t want Remy and his friends trying to steal ingredients from our kitchen.” Sasha laughed at Hitch’s joke and got up to put her shoes on.

“They're probably gonna show up as soon as we close this door.” I added and the two laughed. I let the both of them leave before me, as I closed the door and locked it.

We all got into Sasha’s car as we drove to the restaurant. “What’s this restaurant called by the way?” I asked. “I think it’s called Marley’s or something I’m not sure.” Hitch answered and I nodded.

“Y/n, you want aux?” Sasha turned off the bluetooth on her phone so I could connect.

“You're not scared I’ll put on the same slowed songs like I do in my dorm?” I said and they laughed. “Nah. You got good taste.” I went on spotify and put on a song from my playlist.

(Play Borderline by Tame Impala)

“Ooh! I love this song! Sash, turn it up!” Hitch squealed. Sasha indeed turned it up, and rolled the windows down.

It was a cool summer’s night. The wind blew through my hair and on my skin causing little goosebumps. I looked out the window. I watched as the sun went down behind the buildings and tall trees, as the sky became a soft blue and pink cotton candy color. I looked at the mirror on the side of the car, watching Hitch dance in her seat with her eyes closed, feeling the beat. I smiled and turned to look at the sky.

I lived for moments like these. Especially with my friends. Sasha and Hitch mean so much to me. Hitch and I were mutuals on twitter since we shared the same interests. I would like the tweets she wrote and she would retweet mine. Next thing you know we were texting in direct messages. We had facetimed on so many occasions so I knew what she looked like. We wanted to meet up in person and to our surprise, we only lived an hour away from each other. Thus, blossoming our friendship.

I met Sasha through Hitch as well. We both shared our love for food and that's how it started. I love them with all my being.

The song ended and we were coming close to the restaurant. It was PACKED. It wasn't a surprise, I mean, it just opened and it was right near our campus. Sash managed to find a parking spot and we all hopped out. “I can smell the food from here! It’s like I can almost taste it...” She drooled, Hitch shook her head at her. “Your love for food is so scary sometimes.” I joked.

We headed inside, Hitch asking for a table for three and insisting we get a booth seat or else she won't eat. I jokingly rolled my eyes. The waiter did in fact, give us a booth, and we took our seats.

Sasha looked at the menu. “This all looks so good! Ugh I can’t decide! What are you getting Y/n?” She raised her head to look at me. “Hmm. I’m not sure. Can never go wrong with wings and fries. But knowing me I might just get chicken tenders and fries.” I chuckled. “What about you Hitch?”

“Might get this flatbread pizza, the description is convincing me.” I nodded.

Our waiter showed up to take your orders. “Hello, welcome to Marley’s, I’m your waiter Marlowe, Can I get you guys started with some drinks?” We all told him. I turned next to me to see Hitch’s face bright red. Her head was down, looking at her hands placed on her lap, lips formed into a straight line.

“Uh oh. I know that look. You like him, don’t you?” Sasha teased and I laughed. “S-shut up no I don’t!” She stammered out. Causing Sasha to laugh harder. “Oh? Lie one more time.” I teased.

“He..he has a nice face. I guess” She grumbled. Causing Sasha and I to laugh again

After some time, Marlowe came back with our drinks and took our orders for our meals. Sasha of course, ordering more than one entree. One for now, and one for later.

During that time, we talked about our first week of classes and how college life was treating us, then two boys walked up to our table. “Ayo, is that Sasha and Hitch?” The taller boy said. His hair was in a mullet style, and had stubble on his chin and jawline. The other boy had a buzzcut hairstyle. His eyes were big and bold. Both of them were extremely attractive. Everyone here knew each other. Sasha told me they all grew up together. I transferred here so they were all new to me.

“Jean! Connie! Hiii! I haven’t seen you guys in foreverrr!” Sasha got up from her seat to hug them both and they hugged back. “We saw each other last week, when we went to the beach dummy.” Connie laughed. “What’s up you two?” Hitch also gave them hugs.

Well this is awkward. I’m just sitting here.

“This is our friend, Y/n. She’s new to the area.” Hitch introduced me. I gave a smile and waved.

“Woah,” Connie started. “Yeah woah. She’s bad.” Jean finished. I sheepishly smiled.

“I’m Jean, and that bald fuck over there, is Connie.” He introduced both of them, causing Connie to smack Jean’s head.

“Nice to meet you.”

“So, the school year started, meaning summer is ending. Which meansss…” Jean trailed. “End of the Summer party! At the frat house! Next Friday. Please tell me you guys are coming?” Connie finished.

“You know we’ll be there. Y/n too. Right?” Sasha eyed me. I rolled my eyes. I knew she would pull this shit.

“Nah.” I sighed.

“Aww c’mon. It’ll be fun! It’s the perfect way to start off the school year.” Connie beamed.

“How exactly? By getting drunk until you feel insanely sick, just to throw up everywhere, and feel like shit the next day? Yeah I’m good. Y’all be easy.” I ranted.

“So sitting in your bed, watching Corey Kenshin and Berleezy is your idea of a ‘good time’?” Hitch taunted you and laughed.

“Hey, they’re funny ok! And yes it IS my idea of a good time!” I scoffed.

“I mean, she does have a point. They are pretty funny.” Connie said. “See, thank you!”

“But seriously Y/n come onnn. Just come with us for a few, and if you don’t like it, we’ll go home.”

“This is mass manipulation! I feel attacked!” I joked. “Ugh, fine. Don’t make me regret this.” I sighed and gave in. They all cheered and I rolled my eyes. “Yes! Omg. You’re going to have so much fun! We gotta go shopping tomorrow.” Hitch squealed.

“It’s not until next friday? You guys have like a whole week.” Connie asked. “Stay outta women’s business.” Hitch snapped. Connie raised his hands in defense.

“No we should. I need new clothes anyways.” I shrugged and both girls jumped up in excitement.

“Ok, here are your meals. Oh! Hey Connie. Jean.” Marlowe placed the meals on the table, dapping the two boys up. “What’s up man? How’s the new job treating you?” Jean asked. “It’s great. I’m able to serve so many gorgeous girls.” he eyed Hitch, making her face turn red again. Sasha and I snickered. “Say Marlowe, you going to the End of the Summer party next Friday?” Sasha questioned.

“Yeah I’ll be there. You guys going?” We all nodded. He smiled. “Great. Then I’ll see you guys there. I’m on the clock so I’ll talk to you guys later.” We waved and he left.

“Alright, you two, leave. I’m hungry and I want to eat.” Sasha ordered the two boys.

“See you girls on Friday. Y/n, I hope to see you there.” Jean smirked. “No promises!”

They walked back to their table and we got to eating.

₊˚✩彡.

After we ate our meals and Sasha paid for the bill, we all filed in her car and went home.

I unlocked the door to our flat and kicked off my shoes. Hitch handed Sasha a broom and Sasha sweeped up the crumbs from earlier.

“I can’t believe we managed to convince Y/n to come party with us.” Hitch said in awe. “Yeah me neither.” I grumbled.

“You’ll have so much fun Y/n. I promise. This is like one of the biggest parties of the year. Jean, Connie, and Eren throw one every year. They’re legendary.” Sasha said as she sweeped.

I frowned. “Who’s Eren?”

Hitch cleaned the dishes that were in the sink. “Another one of our friends. He’s pretty chill. Just don’t piss him off. He can get kinda mean.”

“He’s also like a major playboy. Slept with almost every girl at our highschool and possibly here too.” Sasha placed the crumbs in the trash can. “He’ll see you as some kind of new prey so don’t let him get under your skin. And don’t get attached. He doesn’t do relationships.” She warned.

“Good to know. And now what does he look like so I can avoid this walking STD?” I questioned.

“Tall, long brown hair, usually had it in a man bun. Green eyes, has a brow piercing and some ear piercings as well. He also wears a key necklace.” Hitch described him.

He sounds kinda hot…

“And I know you’re thinking “He sounds kinda hot.” Don’t fall for it.” She warned once more.

“I wasn’t!” I scoffed. “Uh huh. Just be careful ok?” I nodded. Not like I was gonna make a pass at him or something. I’m not exactly boy-crazy.

“Now we got that outta the way. Wanna watch a movie?” Hitch asked.

“Sure!” Sasha and I said.

˖◛⁺⑅♡

I started writing this in 2021, after reading every eren college au I could find on wattpad.

[gorekissed]

i can't believe it's already been five (5!!!) years since i first created this character. what initially started as a simple thought of 'ugh, i want a tg muse, but i'm not confident enough to portray a canon one' back in april 2020 has turned into probably the most well-thought-out and developed oc i've ever created. i've never put THIS much thought and care into a muse, and while i've definitely had my ups, downs, and breaks with her, i don't think sayuri has ever been dearer to me than she is right now.

i was hesitant about bringing her back late last year, about returning to this place in general, as my negative feelings toward her and rp as a hobby had built up to the point where i wasn't sure if i wanted this for myself anymore. however, starting over has turned out to be an amazing decision.

i'm eternally grateful for everyone i've had the privilege to engage with these past months — whether we're writing, plotting, or simply chatting, ily and you're a legend. you’re the reason i've found my passion for sayuri and writing again, and why i look at this space with fondness and excitement again. special shout-out to @flybcll, who was one of the first people i engaged with after returning and played a significant role in rekindling my passion for sayuri as a character. to @thstrongest, because putting her in all sorts of situations has been a joy and has brought back my excitement about being here and exploring her character. and to @ghcstwired, who has been there through it all and always been my #1 source of advices and opinions whenever i came up with something new for this girl. but honestly to ALL of you, if you're in my dm's or/and we've got threads going... i'm placing a lil virtual kissy on y'alls foreheads today.

i usually struggle with feeling comfortable and not 'out of place', so being able to express myself freely and creatively around you all — and being met not just with acceptance, but with appreciation for sayu — means a lot to me.

[inkofamethyst]

January 18, 2025

Been thinking about Promising Young Woman recently and ugh so chilling. Part of me wants to rewatch it with my island-friend and her partner and then discuss afterwards because I feel like they would be into it.

Speaking of visual media, forgot to mention some things I watched while home. Finished Superman and Lois with my dad, and it had a sweet ending, something Superman stories so rarely get to do in my experience. Watched binged Agatha All Along with my dad, enjoyed it a lot!! Watched binged Squid Game S2 with my dad (I'd seen one episode of S1 with my sister (the marbles one, also during break) and was able to get by mostly by asking her questions during that episode and during the first episode with my dad) and it was also quite good, loved the commentary.

I do have quite a long watchlist to tackle, unfortunately. Arcane s2, LoVM, Dragon Prince, so many CR eps, a bunch of Marvel stuff (we're going to see Captain America for my birthday!!), Halo s2 (even though it won't be getting a s3), Severance s2, Star Trek... maybe I should get Paramount for a bit. I should probably get on Arcane though bc that might be banned soon too lol. And then after that maybe I'll watch some more CDramas. Bloody Romance scratched that medieval-fantasy-adventure itch, so I'll probably look for others of that vibe.

To switch gears, I do actually have a social life, if you can believe it. I've been making a concerted effort these past few days to schedule get-togethers with friends over the next couple of weeks. This upcoming semester is going to be a toughie, but I don't want to completely abandon the relationships that are important to me. So, at least for now while I don't want to hole up in my apartment (at least not all the time), I want to spend time with the people who make me happy :)

But back to me being an ipad kid (im jking im an ipad adult), I barely touched my devices when I was home. I was at PEACE. But my screen time this past week??? yikes. I mean part of it is trying to soak up as much tiktok content as I can before whatever happens at midnight tonight (seeing people recreate 2019 and 2020 memes is bittersweet, as was getting my final dabloon), but it's also that I'm trying to fill a hole or something, I think. As much as I enjoy it here, I still can't help but miss home, a year and a half in. At least I'm not crying at the airport anymore.

Today I'm thankful for the movie night I had with my island-friend and her partner last night. We went to a really swanky part of town that I've never been to before, and the movie was both funny and poignant and we had a nice little discussion about it on the way back. Also I've come to understand why I enjoy their company so much: as an Eldest Daughter I never really got the experience of having someone slightly older, slightly wiser, but still categorically in friendship capacity to hang out with. Outside of them just having fairly different perspectives and experiences from me, there is also this older-sisterly feeling that feels.. nice.

I've long held that I have no desire to settle when it comes to a romantic relationship and while part of that is because feminist movements have made it such that attachment to a man is no longer a necessity, I also feel like I have such solid friendships that have shown me what being cared for can mean. I mean, for example, when my photo-friend and I went to a dance in college, he explicitly said he was going out of his way to show me how I should be treated. And while I understand that romance supposedly has differences, I am thankful that I know not to settle for anything less than what I have experienced entirely platonically. It also means that I know what it feels like when I want to express care for someone and engage in someone's life and be there for someone and want the best for someone.

Downloaded my 1500 tiktok favorites to an external drive. Took four hours. 9 GB. A shame about all the 300+ deleted videos I'd once saved, now lost to time. Even if the president-elect manages to strike some deal to restart the servers.. if today is not the end, the twentieth will be the beginning of the end.

[baura-bear]

💕

from this post

oh my gosh it's so difficult to pick one, they're all so great. I've sat here for like 5 minutes trying to choose one so I'm gonna go with Liebgott.

He is (in my opinion) one of the angriest characters and the way he expresses his anger is so interesting. Him taking it out primarily on Web when he returns from the hospital is such a great dynamic and seeing him slowly warm back up to Web is UGH!

I also love the perspective we are given through his eyes as the only Jewish man in the company (besides Sobel ig if we're gonna include him). His scenes in episode 9 are so soul wrenching and the first time i watched the show in like 2020(?) he was someone who stuck out to me and that episode specifically.

as someone who often takes my anger out on people that don't (or sometimes do) deserve to be targets of it i relate to him so heavily (even if i'm not a war worn veteran you get the gist) and it's just really refreshing to see his rage in a show that often doesn't show that side of the war? we see a lot of grief, regret, etc. but anger isn't really a headlining emotion.

he's also just really pretty and i like staring at him

[oh-cramity-its-amity]

For the toh asks, 2?

HI YES!! Okay!! Thank you sm for the ask and creating the list!!

(Here is the ask game for those who want to follow and ask!)

2.) Ramble about your favorite character of all time as much as you want. We're listening

Oh my titan. WHERE TO EVEN START??

So my favorite character is probably either Amity or Luz. Mostly Amity but I kin Luz and ship Lumity so fucking hard like UGH I LOVE THEM.

BUT LIKE WHY DO I LOVE HER, right??

Me as a person just resonates with Amity a lot. Even though I found the show as I was 17 going on 18 and not at all in the same age range as her. When I first saw the show back during 2020 in the pandemic; I'd seen an Instagram edit. My entire feed was blowing up about this show. Like "Oh my god these two characters are really hinted at being gay!!" Because Enchanting Grom Fright literally was such a big thing, and even though I had no idea what this show would become; it literally was an eye-opening experience.

As I said, I was 17; but I was out as a lesbian (not nonbinary yet but a month or so later I did), and for such a long time I was struggling to find actual mf representation that fit and represented me. That's one of the reasons why I believe shows like TOH are unbelievably important to have-- because that representation can literally save people's lives. Anyway... Finding out that Amity was cannonly a lesbian (or was suspected to be subtext wise) and Luz bisexual, my entire demeanor was like "this. This is absolutely the content I needed when I was younger."

And I love Amity for many reasons, not just as a representational aspect but as her character develops and grows, she starts to change over the course of the show in a way that is healthy. She's realizing how to act for herself-- something I also related to because of semi-not-so-great parents. And her making decisions for what SHE wants.

Her and Luz's relationship as well, it's so undermined as just "oh they're gay" not just that but the fact that Luz is able to show and reveal the parts about Amity as herself, and help her grow; not only as a person but into someone she wants to be?? Amazing. Their relationship is real and feels truthful. Especially when they have that miscommunication about Luz's Dad and them just talking. They aren't perfect, but they communicate, and they do their best to be there for one another.

And not only that but Amity being so worried about not being a good girlfriend for Luz because she cares a lot. Just feeling insecure, but like Luz being her; she doesn't care!! She likes Amity as she is, and she doesn't even think twice if she's "good enough" or not because to Luz, she always is. In combination of that thought too it's like, Amity being afraid of rejection because she feels that Luz can see her for who she truly is despite what guard she projects and holds up from and on the behalf of her family name from the earlier of S1. Just the whole part where Amity over the course of the story changes and is actively flawed in ways that doesn't constitute for dismissing that previous growth that Luz helped with.

She is flawed but she is herself.

Also, not to even cover her designs throughout the show, I absolutely love her timeskip design. The undercut?? Absolutely love. Every fit she has, she absolutely rocks. Same with Luz. They just both look so slay. The absolute power couple.

Anyway, what I'm getting at is that not only because of Amity but also as a whole with TOH (just in this case of her because she's my favorite character) that representation that Dana brought to the table with TOH was so impactful to me and like- Amity is just so cool. I love her.

[anxiousgaypanicking]

Thigh Riding

!a series of me uploading the kinktober fics/drabbles i made years ago because i didnt back in 2020 for some fuckin reason. if these are bad/poor quality its because theyre old, and ive improved since then :)!

Demus (Remus x Janus) Day 3: thigh riding Warnings: degradation, biting, grinding

Remus wipes the sweat from his forehead, as he and his bandmates head backstage. They had just finished a two hour long show, and were all ready to head back home.

Sometimes, their concerts could go on for many hours, but they had to cut this one a bit short due to their bassist's, Virgil's, anxiety. Remus and Janus didn't mind much, considering Virgil's mental health was rather important, and having an anxiety attack is not a good look.

Virgil quickly gathered his stuff up and left, waving goodbye to the other two, who waved back.

Then, he was gone, leaving Janus and Remus alone.

Janus stood in front of the vanity they had, wiping the makeup off his face. Half of it was designed to look like a snake. It was an idea that he'd gotten while Remus compared him to one when they first started the band.

Janus took it pretty lightly, since he couldn't really argue with it. Heterochromia, sharper than average canines, and his snake bites. The piercings actually came after Remus compared him to a snake, but he decided to get them because why not. And also because Remus liked piercings.

Perhaps it was a kink? One could never be sure with Remus.

"You should wash the makeup off your face, love," Janus advises him, using the makeup wipe to scrub off the eyeshadow caked around his yellow-green eye. He heard Remus groan from behind him.

"Ugh, but that's a lot of work. Besides, it makes me look sexy."

"You look sexy all the time," Janus counters, with a roll of his eyes. He throws the wipe into the trash, turning back to Remus. Remus grins at him, and gives him an "I know" sort of look.

Janus has to resist the urge to roll his eyes again.

Remus holds his arms out, making grabby hands at Janus. Janus stays where he is.

"You're covered in sweat, Re," Janus says, his foot tapping against the ground. "All of your jumping and moving on stage has drenched you."

"This isn't even that bad," Remus argues, waving his hand dismissively. "Besides, I want cuddles."

"Cuddles-shmuddles," Janus says, rolling his eyes. "If we cuddle, you're going to end up falling asleep, and we're not sleeping backstage while you have a full face of makeup."

Remus had a habit of sleeping in makeup. He wore some every day, even when they didn't have shows, but never bothered to take it off.

His face was a bit greasy, but other than that, he surprisingly never broke out.

Remus whines, his arms falling sadly to his sides. "But Jaaaaan!"

"But Reeeeee," Janus mocks, and Remus frowns, crossing his arms over his chest with a huff.

"You're so mean to me," Remus says, with a pout. "After all I do for you."

Janus rolls his eyes, leaning back against the wall. "Oh, yeah, I'm so mean to you. It's not like I'm willing to take care of your sexual desires whenever you need."

Remus had a high sex drive, and Janus was obviously more than happy to help him satisfy it. His words were mostly meant to tease.

But, that gives Remus an idea. He craved physical contact, and he'd get it one way or another, damnit.

"What if I need my sexual desires taken care of now?"

Janus stops, glancing down at Remus's crotch, before saying "you're not even hard."

Remus shrugs, as he gets up and strolls over to Janus. He wraps his arms around Janus's shoulders, twirling him around, before he backed up against the wall. Janus wastes no time planting his hands on Remus's waist, and smirks when Remus leans against the wall, obviously understanding what Remus is doing.

Janus tsks, moving his face so that they're mere centimeters apart. His hands slide from Remus's waist to the man's thighs, squeezing and rubbing them, before he slotted his own thigh between them. Remus whined, as he felt Janus's leg press against his crotch.

"You're such a whore, Re," Janus hisses, Remus whining at the insulting name. Janus grinned, one of his hands reaching up to lightly tug on Remus's hair so he could press their lips together.

Despite Janus's rough grip and degrading words, the kiss is rather sweet. Janus had a way of being so charming, even with his hands tugging at Remus's hair, and his teeth biting at Remus's lip.

Remus gently rocks his hips against Janus's thigh, and gasps, breaking the kiss as his growing hard-on grinds against Janus's leg.

"Such a slut," Janus growls out, his lips moving to attack Remus's neck. He doesn't bother leaving kisses, moving straight to biting. He sinks his sharp canines into Remus's neck, enjoying the moan the man let's out at the action, before he laps up the blood.

"Jan," Remus moans out, grinding down harder on Janus's thigh. His head is thrown back in pleasure, head bumping against the wall every time he rocks back. His cock is aching in his jeans, and he grinds faster as an attempt to gain more friction.

"Look at you; you're so pathetic. Eager to get off in any way I let you, even if it's just you grinding against my leg like some dumb mutt," Janus spits, his nails digging into Remus's waist.

Remus moaned at the name, hands squeezing Janus's shoulders. "Fuck, yes Jay," he whined. "I'm just your dumb little mutt Jay, so pathetic, only for you. Fuck, fuck, fuck..." Remus chants the curse word like it's a prayer, as he grinds down harder on Janus's leg.

"I'm so close, please, Jan, I'm gonna-" He cuts himself off with a gasp as Janus bites down on Remus's neck yet again, and he comes right then and there with a high moan of Janus's name.

Remus pants as he comes down from his high, and Janus presses a kiss to the side of his face.

"I love you, Re," Janus says, and Remus responds with a hum, resting against the wall. Thank God they kept extra clothes here, so that Remus didn't have to ride home with come in his pants. Although, knowing Remus, he probably wouldn't mind.

[totaldramafan-lauri]

First Impressions part 3

Wrapping up the first semifinal!

So, after this post, I'm gonna take a break so I can post a couple CRK things, then I'll come back tomorrow and finish stuff up then! I-I wanted to do this all in one sitting at first, but I don't wanna alienate people for too long, so I'm gonna leave it at these three posts for today ^^

San Marino

What I've heard: Another catchy dance song, "I'm Blue" guy, was used as Sanremo theme song

Right off the bat: This sounds A LOT like the Icelandic song......Like, a LOT-

Which means that I like it! But.....can I put both of them in my top 7?....

Yeah, this is like...major deja vu XD But it's so fuuuuuun! I'm gonna have a loooot of songs fighting for a spot in my head after this....

I'm humming along

Yeah, that was fun!

Better than last year? No

Albania

What I've heard: Fan-favorite, folk song, duet

Wow, I like her voice!

I can see why people love this! This is VERY different from the ethnic ballads Albania almost always send!

Ohhhhh, that second verse is interesting.....This is a journey!

I actually got really into that! It was so unique and kept my attention! This might be my favorite Albanian entry of the 2020s! I dunno if it'll end as one of my favs this year, but I'm not ruling it out! This has been EASILY the most pleasant surprise so far, since I haven't been SUPER feeling any of Albania's stuff since 2018

Better than last year? Yes

Netherlands

What I've heard: Another fan-favorite, in French and English, but I haven't heard much about what type of song it is....I think it's a heartfelt song about the singer's mom or something like that?

Didn't know what I was expecting, but this is nice! The combination of an elegant piano and thumping beat is certainly interesting, but it works somehow?

There are so many catchy choruses this year, dang-

I don't even know what else to say about this! It's really solid!

Better than last year? Umm.....no for now, but it's close for me

Croatia

What I've heard: No one likes this, I've seen it called "edgy", and other than that, it's not being talked about at ALL

I'm not feeling too good about this, with how much I OBSESSED over Croatia last year.....I don't like seeing them get so ignored this year, but.....ugh, time to see why

Hmmmm.....I don't think I hate this? Go on....

"Tasty tasty yum yum tasty"....."Take a bite of my poison cake"....OK now I can see why people don't like this, the HECK are those lyrics-

Is he LITERALLY make poison cake? The title isn't an expression?

I mean, I don't mind this music-wise! I think it's pretty interesting! Nothing else so far has sounded like this!

......OK, the bridge is weird.....

Well, that certainly kept me on my toes! A lot of twists and turns in this song.....but I didn't hate this! I think I even kinda liked it? The lyrics were.....weird, but hey, at least they're memorable! At least to me! I'm gonna have a hard time forgetting about this XD

......A LITERAL poison cake.....? Is this song just a yandere fic.....?

Better than last year? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Cyprus

What I've heard: Dark pop, compared to Belgium a lot, was hyped up a lot and ended up underwhelming people

Wow, this guy is certainly....confident.....I dunno how to feel about the line "I'm famous for my beauty"....

Wait, is he playing a character?

Is this song presenting itself as like....a riddle of some kind? We're supposed to wonder who he is? And we're supposed to NOT say his name? That's certainly interesting-

Music-wise, this is fun, but kinda in Nroway and Belgium's shadow right now. Could grow on me, tho!

Those lyrics are pretty cool, tho...."If you know my name, then keep it a secret"? That's a COOL line, it makes him sound so powerful somehow....

This was a good semifinal! I liked every single song! Will the other be as good? We'll see tomorrow!

Better than last year? No, but not by a lot

[steamishot]

month 6

wow, coming into month 6 in LA living.

work: JD finally started and he's doing a great job. i met him twice so far in person. instead of going in on wednesdays, i decided to come in on tuesdays to train him and be with my old team. i was previously in an awkward place where i didn't truly fit in with any of the two HR teams and was mainly by myself. initially they wanted me to graduate from my old role, possibly form something new/meet with more higher ups, but my new boss is very hands off and unserious, so i haven't received much instruction/direction. i'm also quite passive and lazy so i don't ask questions. i feel like he's the equivalent of an absent father, lol, and it works for our dynamic.

going in on tuesday, i'm able to see a different set of people. i'm slowly getting used to new (>2020 hires) faces, chatting with new/old people. i also talked to our CAO in a 1:1 convo for the first time in ever yesterday. overall, i don't feel as timid or shy as i used to be. although the commute sucks, i'm getting used to it and i enjoy the 1x/week in office schedule for social/professional needs.

health: ugh, i officially also have high cholesterol and high LDL. since my bloodwork (maybe 3 weeks ago now?) we really cut back on doing takeout. i've been drinking green smoothies 3-5x/week, including avocado, spinach, banana, flax seeds and fish oil, as dessert. we're still testing out alternative milks, like oat and soy. still eating sandwiches for lunch. i'm sure our wallets are happy. i'm into chimichurri sauce now. also trying to come up with simple/healthy but yummy dinner ideas.

also got the xbloom! my brother convinced us to get it. it's good because it got us to start drinking pourover coffee/black coffee.

started to lightly run again. i follow matt and his dad to the park now that the sun sets later. while they do their 5 mile run in an hour, the previous time i got in 3.7 miles of walking/jogging. i would chant to myself "i have high cholesterol" to keep up the motivation.

skincare: still keeping up with it! i have a lot of random products. at least i'm being good and consistent with a morning and night routine. i simplified what chatGPT suggested, because i'm learning that less is more. i'm trying not to layer too many products and let my skin ease into new products. i found it shedding which is good for skin regeneration, but it could also mean i'm going too hard.

ceramics: in my second semester now! can't believe we're already halfway through. it's such an expensive hobby, so i do have to evaluate whether life events and such will take too much time from it to be worth paying for another semester. i love throwing when it's sunny out, because i love seeing the drying process in action. due to some ceramics convention, the studio took a week break from firing, so things feel a bit delayed.

homebuying: just a couple of weeks ago, i was feeling content with the idea of renting forever. like ramit sethi and some other financial influencers say, rent and invest the difference. it didn't make sense to me to buy a house in a more affordable area, just to be a homeowner. i didn't want to sacrifice commute time (for matt or i), the safety/convenience of the neighborhood, and location.

last wednesday when i went into work, matt sent me a rando zillow posting for the first time. it was an almost perfect listing. 1.5 mil duplex in south pas with two long term renters. a few days later, we drove by that street and it's gorgeous. on friday, we got pre-approved loans. on sunday, we checked out the house. it felt really small and old, but the renters are also hoarders so i couldn't say for sure. also there were so many people touring at the same time (30 min window) so the whole tour felt uncomfortable. we also felt like it was an invasion of privacy because one tenant family (a couple and a toddler) was just waiting outside. last night on april fools day, we put in an offer. whatever happens, happens.

there was a bit of drama with his mom, again. i vented to my mostly digital friend K and she helped put things into perspective for me, having had much experience with this type of asian tiger parent.

new car: in other news, i upgraded my car. my parents had let me "borrow" their 2013 lexus sedan since moving back. matt and i were sharing a tesla Y and a lexus. my dad eventually decided to gift the car to me in februrary because he didn't want to continue paying insurance on it. i later got the okay from them to sell this car. it's a gas guzzler and averages 19mpg.

i decided to get another tesla, but model 3 since they had a promotional offer of 0% APR for 60 months and i was able to get the EV credit upfront. now we are a tesla family. matt can get free charge for both cars at his work, so i'm happy to not have to pay for gas or electricity, lol, which was a major selling point.

anyway, with the major purchase and decisions recently, car and house, i'm pretty exhausted/stressed out.

friends: my online buddy L is finally leaving the US tomorrow. this has been his plan for the last 5 years or so. i'm happy to be on this journey with him.

my social life is naturally picking up. this weekend is G's baby shower. S is coming down from norcal and we'll basically spend the weekend together. next week, GH is in town from the bay and wants to grab dinner. i have a hangout with S&J who i haven't seen since S's wedding. B from my old job randomly texted me out of the blue after not having talked for 3-4 years? she'd like to hang out too. on the flip side, i do feel like i'm losing closeness to my east coast friends.

also since there was drama between R, her sister B and i, things have felt kinda off since then. i haven't talked to B since she cut me off, and i was only kinda friends with R due to being friends with B. i'm not a fan of R's time management (frequently hours late, or if we'd hang out, it would be dragged on). and how she used to show up unannounced to my NYC apartment. however, because i was lonely and bored in NYC, i didn't complain that much. i know that R senses some distance between us now, and it seems like she's worried about our friendship, because she started apologizing for her past behaviors.

family: my dad left last week to cambodia for about a month. matt and i took him and my mom (for support) to LAX. it means a lot to be able to do these acts of service for my parents again. without my dad around, it means i see my niece less. also, my niece can finally pronounce my name "connie" with a k sound (instead of g)!

[frogsandfries]

My sister wants to go car hunting (again), but she also wants to go to this night market......... So.... I came with her to the gene donors' place and slept in a chair. Since the main event is a night market, I'll be spending another night over here.........

3/10. Too hot, and I couldn't sleep on my side well. My chest is tight from not being able to sleep in a position that allowed me to breathe well.

Also, my dad couldn't wait to take off their top, so that was great...... Go figure, my dad's always been an exhibitionist, so even though they can't stop treating at least me and this sister like children, also we're adults.

The room I'm in is very typical of my dad: crammed with shelves, and the shelves crammed with everything--crayons, coloring books, vehicle models, DVDs, apparel. More chaos than my own workspaces, certainly. Probably more models than one could ever realistically paint it assemble.

The whole trailer house is like this, though. Just like our apartment growing up, just like the motel room. Which causes it to be poorly ventilated, which is probably why their utilities are so expensive.

But what would I know. I grew up to feel like any space where too much of the floor is covered is too messy--even just clothes on the floor, or garbage on the floor. I literally cannot bear the thought of having too much of my walls covered or lined by furniture.

Unfortunately, I don't think you can actually call my dad a hoarder. A true hoarder will hold onto actual garbage and eventually their possessions will overtake their living space. My dad's living space still has walking spaces, and they've been here since at least about 2020. Although, again, what would I know, but I like having floor space. I may walk the same paths, but I have the option, and I don't have to draw my hands in to prevent my fingers snagging something. You know if I catch one thing, fifty things are going to topple down, causing another twenty things to be taken out.

Ugh, y'all. I didn't go to lay down till about eleven. Then my sister put on Zootopia, so that kept me awake till......about the popsicle part. Then she came in after the movie, and she was supposed to sleep on the floor, which is where I had moved because it was more comfortable. So I had to get back into the chair.

I feel really bad for my cats. Well, Scooter. She's already not happy with me because she doesn't get as much attention as she's used to. I'm trying to be purposeful about giving her more attention, making time for her to groom me. And now, instead of one night away, which was already the first in her whole four years since living with me, all of a sudden, another two nights. But once my sister finds a car, this should be over and ideally, I won't have to be away from them overnight for a long, long time.

[bpd-angelcake]

guess who's back 🙃

tw: lots of ed mention

hi lol where do I even begin first off like... lmao every time I come back on this blog I think of that one ask that I got that was like "do u come back on here when things are bad??" and no lmao not always

life hasn't been bad it's just been busy im always busy i work a full time job and my social life has been the busiest it's ever been and im thankful because I love my irl friends so much and I do love my job as annoying as it can be and idk things aren't bad. they're not.

but I know my mental health hasn't been the best lately and I can't even blame my bpd. I had a really bad episode at the beginning of February and I tried pushing all my friends away because I thought they were over me and didn't take me seriously and they all came back to me literally crying wondering what was wrong and I felt so shitty and they don't know I have bpd (I don't talk about it in person unless we're going to date because I hate when people perceive me a certain way once they find out I'm not normal lmao) so we had to get in a circle and talk it out it was so rough but honestly I have never felt more secure in a friend group before in my life it makes me so sick thinking about it because idk what I'd do if anything were to change but whatever.

but idk I was doing so good with myself I was on top of my skincare and keeping my room clean and following through with things and idk everything just fell through the cracks and I feel like I have no control over anything in my life once more. I'm trying so hard to be better but it's hard. I just started saving money again because I spent so much of it the past few months and I'm so disappointed with how bad my spending got and it wasn't even for a good reason lol so I am trying I promise but ugh I feel like I was up there!! and I'm back at rock bottom.

Another thing that's been bugging me a lot is my weight too... back in 2020 I was so thin and I looked good and I had done it the right way by dieting and exercising but covid came and I got into that toxic relationship and I gained so much weight back and I look in the mirror and I am so disgusted with myself and I hate it. I see all these cute plus size girls on social media and I literally love them and think they're so beautiful but I look at myself and I can't even deal. I have to be a bridesmaid for a wedding in October and im dreading it because I'm going to look so bad....

I ordered a cosplay a few months ago and it came a week ago and it didn't even fit 🙃 I almost had a full mental breakdown about it and tbh I am 90% sure it ran small (not cutting myself slack because I know I'm fat but I also know how to measure clothes) but it made me so upset I literally relapsed and I've barely eaten this whole week. I tried to eat a spoonful of rice because I was so lightheaded the second it touched my mouth I threw it up.

And now I feel so fucking lame because I'll go on edtwt and see these girls posting their stuff and they're all in their teens and it's like.... I'm in my 20's dude I shouldn't be doing this shit anymore but I do and I hate it because it's all I know and it's so comforting because I'm literally a professional at it like I know all the tips and tricks I know what to do when I accidentally binge I know how to curb cravings and what excuses to say when I don't want to eat in front of people it's so sad because I thought I was over this but I guess not.

I haven't weighed myself yet, I was going to do it tomorrow but ugh all I need is to see that number go down or else I might kill myself because I can't do this anymore!!!! this is my life I feel like I'm 14 again in the worse way. IDK I might start posting more about it (with tags ofc) so if that's not your thing I understand but it's all I have to make me feel better and I'm not looking for advice I'm not looking for tips I just want to vent and if you're going to judge me do it kindly please lmao bye

[teaveetamer]

I am curious, I've been watching the discourse going on for a bit without getting involved and at this point I feel like I have to ask.

What is the desired result here? Why are you engaging in the discourse at all? Clearly this is not a discussion, so what do you gain from interacting at all?

(I will send this to several people, just out of curiosity)

Alright anon allow me to explain what's been going on with me on my end.

The year is 2019 (yes, we're doing this). FE3H has just come out. I play it and rather enjoy it actually. I've got a couple of ships that I'm into, some fanfic I want to write, etc.

I go onto Reddit to chat with people about the game. Now I don't really like Edelgard, but I'm chill, I'm open to discussing the game and getting alternate viewpoints. Initially it's more or less fine.

Then some posts start coming up. People start getting really aggressive about this. I'm trying to have a conversation, but it feels like their goal is just to shout me down. I get in arguments, I get in fights, I get misgendered, I get called a bigot, I get frustrated, I get ablest rhetoric spewed at me, and I waste my life.

Stop. Take a look at myself. I'm literally sitting here arguing about Edelgard von fucking Hresvelg for hours of my day. I'm annoyed, I'm irritated, I'm always in a bad mood. Ugh.

Now it's 2020, early times I think. I resolve to stop looking at Reddit so much with regard to this game. It's not worth the hassle and the frustration. I should be, like, out doing things and having fun not wasting my time arguing with a bunch of weirdos on the internet. I want to have fun again, not be angry. I delete the Reddit app from my phone and install a blocker on my web browsers, even.

Start using Tumblr for more than just shippy stuff, and find people who agree with me, who are saying the things I've been saying. I stop feeling crazy for liking the game the way I like it. I make a few posts on my main blog but you know what, I don't really want my main blog embroiled in this shit, though I want to add my voice to the conversation. So I make this side blog.

Make some posts. I get flooded with asks from other people about the game, saying they agree with me and they're thankful that they aren't the only ones who think the way I do. I think within like a month of existing this blog had double the posts of my main blog (which has existed since 2016, so for four years at that point), most of them from asks.

The blog was initially for me to vent and throw in my two cents here and there, but I figure I'll keep it around in regular use because people seem to be benefiting from it.

Early on I tried to establish a rule for myself that 1) I wasn't going to go looking in any main tags (e.g. the Edelgard or Edelgard Positive tags) for stuff to reblog or talk about, and 2) I wasn't going to go into any Edelgard specific spaces looking for stuff to talk about (e.g. r/Edelgard or even Dimitri-critical tags). However, anything maintagged that was looking for a fight (e.g. a Dimitri-critical post in the main Dimitri tag) was fair game.

I'm not perfect, but I did try to stick to that rule. I talked about things that happened on the main FE Sub or FEH sub. I did my best to encourage my anons to not go seeking out stuff to bring back to me from Edelgard spaces. After all, this blog was meant for venting and having my own personal space where I could talk about my views without getting accosted. I thought it would be petty for me to go bring back stuff from other places.

Moving into 2021, I was kind of done with 3H. I was still getting like dozens of asks a day about 3H discourse. I'd answer one and five more would pop up in their place. By now we're like, well beyond 3x or 4x the amount of posts I have on my main blog. I'm getting kind of tired of it. It's a lot of the same points over and over and over. We're in pandemic times, so I can't even walk away from it and do something else IRL for a while before coming back to it. I feel like I'm wasting my life again. I feel like I've said anything and everything I could have possibly said about the subject. I ask people to stop talking to me about Edelgard. Eventually, everyone mostly obliges.

I still chat about it here and there, but I'm chatting about other stuff too. This blog is still about venting just about venting about more than 3H. A lot more petty fandom shit in general.

Now we're in, like, 2022. I don't remember exactly, Pandemic Time makes some of this a bit of a blur. I notice a new kid on the block, doing basically what I'd noticed happening on Reddit. Going into the wrong tags. Picking fights. Posting things in the wrong tags. Picking fights.

I'm over it, I'm done, I don't want to deal with this shit anymore. I block the dude. Most people I know block the dude or ignore him. We figure he's new here, he just hasn't learned the etiquette.

He gets increasingly hostile. I'm not really paying that much attention, just getting info about it from the fringes. Again, we figure eventually he'll just go away if we ignore him.

Then Nilsh gets harassed off the platform.

My mutuals are getting increasingly hostile anons and combative reblogs.

At this point I'm relatively unaffected. I guess because I don't tag anything, so he didn't find it.

And you know what? I'm still like "he'll get bored. He'll leave eventually." We were all like "just ignore him, he'll leave eventually."

People try to explain tags to him. Try to help him curate his experience so he quits arguing with people who don't want to talk to him all the time.

Then Moonlitboar gets harassed off of the platform. They take the URL. He's bragging about having done it. He's spreading this vitriol to other platforms and convincing others to join in on the harassment.

And I'm like. Okay. This dude isn't leaving. This is what he wants. His goal isn't to talk about this game—his goal is to hurt us.

I unblock him and respond. We go back and forth. He stops... for a time.

Here's the thing. I didn't re-block him after that, and I didn't do that for a couple of reasons. First, because at this point I'm still hopeful that he's just unaware of what he's doing, and that he'll acknowledge how messed up it was and apologize. I'm all for second chances. The second, because he's dangerous and I'm worried that if I don't keep tabs on him, he's going to try to hurt me.

It's not long until he's doing the same shit again. He tries harassing BWIIDT, he tries harassing FantasyInvader, he tries harassing Ezra, he tries harassing RandomNameless, he tries harassing Emblemxeno, he tries harassing Gascon, he tries harassing people I've literally never even heard of. I keep calling him out, and he tries harassing me. He calls me hysterical, accuses me of acting like a victim. Tries to make me feel stupid and small by saying I don't have anything worth his attention to respond to.

(By the way dude, my point about that was that you were being misogynistic but treating discourse like it was only worth responding to if it came from a man. See, I noticed that you only liked to attack people you thought were cishet white men like yourself, even if we were saying basically the same things at times. The fact that you continue not "debunking" any of my posts doesn't upset me; it proves my point)

He blocks me. I can't say for certain why, but my bet is that he realized people were actually listening to what I had to say, and having a queer woman question the actions he purported to be for the benefit of queer women wasn't a great look for him.

He's still trying to harass me. He's taking screenshots, he's using my name, he's @ ing me. He's casually lying about me. He's using sexist rhetoric implying that I shouldn't be listened to because I'm just too ~in my feelings~ and he's the true victim of my hysterical victimized martyr complex (geez, you sure a a feminist ally for that one, aren't you?)

You know, I did actual research when one of my anons accused him of being a trump supporter and tried to lie about him? I burned an entire evening on that, because I didn't want to be spreading lies about people. Meanwhile he lets his anons casually and repeatedly misgender me without so much as a passing correction, and he hangs out with people who spread lies and slander accusing others of heinous crimes.

And you know what? If I knew it was going to be like this? I'd still waste that evening and correct that anon. It's not about getting a petty win or convincing people he's a bad person for me. It's about being respected.

So to get back to your question. Why am I doing this? Because I have to. Because I know that if I don't he's going to hurt someone else, just like how he hurt Nilsh and Moonlitboar. The best predictor of future behavior is past behavior, after all. We ignored him and he didn't leave, so now we have to say something.

What's the desired result? I want to be respected, like I've tried to respect them for almost the entirety of this blog's existence. I want my boundaries acknowledged. I want him to stop hurting people for no other reason than to hurt them, because they don't agree with him.

When will I stop? When he stops.

[braindead-virtually-tv]

Caught up on last night's RAW this morning thoughts under the cut, all things I wrote as I was watching 😂:

- Listen Randy is a legend, but hearing the the crowd go feckin' wild for him in 2022 is 😍😍😍😍

- Glad they're keeping the Street profits relevant but it seems if you're not chasing a belt there's nothing for you in the tag division. They feel like a cliff note for the Usos & RKBro

- I have no doubt this US Title match will end in DQ as the Cody/Seth feud doesn't feel finished. But also the US Title does seem perfect for Cody. I need Theory to have little longer with it now, all that build would feel for nothing if he was to lose it now

- People are all like, "Oh that's dumb, we all knew Rhea was gonna join JD." Here's the thing, we all live in an IWC bubble the casual audience isn't going out of their way to read a Dirtsheet or keep up with backstage info, for them this is a surprise.

- EDGE CUT HIS HAIR. His hair kinda matches Rhea's 😂

- Edge shoots on the Hall of Fame and your friend Mark lololol 😂

- I said this last week, but for Edge a Hall of Famer, a Legend, to pull this amount of heat from an audience is nothing short of spectacular.

- I feel like Rhea could have delved into the Liv thing a bit more instead of doing the 'Audience sells my autograph shtick' but it was fine and I'm very excited to see where this goes

- Edge broke up Goth girlfriends how dare you sir

- Liv getting some very good offence in beginning & end and not just being squashed you love to see it

- The image of Morgan tryna struggle to the ropes while in that Clover Leaf submission is POWERFUL and ugh so good, I feel so bad for Liv 😭

- Finn I'm glad you came Liv is struggling 😭 Uncle Allen you're here too, one of you help Liv please

- They just gonna stand there and do their entrances huh? 😂

-Oh Finn v Damian we've seen this but I'd gladly watch it X10 more times

-Ngl my knowledge of the bullet club is about next to nothing, but regardless excited for the prospect of Finn & AJ teaming

- LET THE MEN FIGHT RHEA SHE CAN HANDLE IT

- Jokes aside I do understand why they don't often do intergender stuff but if you're not going to do it you're gonna have to work around it a bit better than having Rhea stand around and when she gets involved have the dudes look really goofy.

- Chad Gable is absolute comedy gold. Also Kevin, "You have friends at the DNA lab 😃😃😃" 😂

- Kevin's 'brother' oh god this is going to have me in stitches 😂

- We're finally kicking off properly Omos under MVP I'm hoping for big things as MVP done absolute wonders for Bobby.

- CEDRIC!! I like this character of him clamouring to get back to MVP and it's honestly entertaining. Puts more stock into MVP too as a really great manager.

- I never clowned on Lashley before MVP but I just wasn't all that into him, but now I hear those opening bars of his theme and I just pop! Bobert I love you and only want good things for you

- Adam grow a pair of bawls and just tell Sonya she's fired 😂

- OH SHE'S ACTUALLY FIRED I WAS ONLY JOKING DAMN

-ALEXA'S BACK! Is this like a fusion of the spooky and the goddess gimmick? Oh this is cool.

- I am glad Sonya is getting back into the ring more regularly, she went through an absolute harrowing experience in 2020 and I'm glad she feels fit to get back to in ring action.

-Oh wow Sonya got SQUASHED. Great come back for Bliss but damn that was unexpected.

-Lmao Byron about Sonya, "She'll get over it eventually" 😂💀

- Props to Kevin Owens who has essentially built this Ezekiel gimmick and got it over. It was always going to be hard sell but they've done a really good job.

- IT'S KEVIN IN A WIG. Lmao @ Corey "With a little Just for Men Ken could be Kevin" 😂😂

- "Hello Ken" 😂😂😂😂

- "I'M KEVIN" "WHAT!?" 😂 I AM DYING

- Chad kneeling over Ezekiel "THANK YEWWWWW"

- I love Becky arguing the logistics of getting a title shot

- This version of Becky and Asuka is giving me life, 'YOU DONT ACT LIKE MOMMY' 😂

-I love that Asuka is a thorn is Becky's side and we're not pulling into a full on intense feud it's great.

- Hello mr.jobber, you're significantly larger than Veer's last opponents but you're still gonna die. Ah going with the 'I have kids' promo I see 😂

- I do wonder with Gunther, Raquel and Veer in this jobber loop who are going to be their first actual feuds? Veer's been at this a while so I wanna see him moved out of this soon.

- Cody cuts a good babyface promo here in WWE, seems like his heads a bit straighter than in AEW. Putting over your opponent while just edging your way just above them in regards to Seth.

- The little kid tryna capture Cody's entrance on his phone, kids are the best wrestling fans man 😭

- This match started off great where both opponents are tryna get a read on each other.

- Theory doing the Stardust taunt!!!!!💀

- This match has been really competitive so far I'm loving it. I like Theory's character work of working his way out of offence

- Double Crossbody? I've never seen that before it made me giggle 😂

- Ah Seth I knew you would be here. God this was good they timed it PERFECTLY.

- In this week's episode of my weekly bullying of Seth Rollins, why is he out here looking like Michael Jackson 😂

- I was afraid the table was gonna collapse during that curb stomp 😬

- Nikki and Doudrop, this gonna be cool. I haven't seen Doudrop since her Bianca feud. The women's tag division is in desperate need of teams

- I glad Sasha and Naomi are getting so much TV time between the two brands, it's what they deserve 💅

- Lmao Nikki, "Don't worry about it I've got it!" 😂 *proceeds to get pinned*

- This might be end of Nikki A.S.H gimmick, which is sad because there was lot of potential in it. But let's see what's going on going forward.

- Miz special guest ref, there's going to be many shenanigans.

- I like Ciampa feuding with Ali first before he hits the US Title, but still keeping the Theory feud in the back of everyone's minds.

- I just need Ciampa to talk I NEED TO KNOW WHY'S HE GOING FOR ALI SPECIFICALLY

- I feel like Ali is gonna finish up with Ciampa pretty quickly and have him head into a feud with Miz @ HIAC

- Lashley going for a steel cage match yes!!!!

- Tamina and Dana divorce, run off together ladies!!!

- "He got you candy and some limp flowers" "She got something for you" "DIVORCE PAPERS!?" 😂😂😂

- CGI Big Time Becks isn't real it can't hurt you 😟😟

- Asuka sporting that Jason mask I live 😂

- Asuka is just back and we're already in an Asuka v Bianca match my life, my love 😍😍

-Becky was great on commentary, but it did distract a little. But furthering Asuka v Becky which will probably be a HIAC match (maybe?)(hopefully?)

- OH SHE WENT FOR BIANCA NOT ASUKA

- oh now she's going for Asuka

- Good ending tho keeps Bianca & Asuka at the top of the game

[deviliciousdev]

MBTI✨☃️The Great Christmas Debacle🎄pt.1

infp (the mediator)

x

entp (the debater)

couple

+

entj (the commander)

best friend

(ft. entj x intp couple)

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[at infp & entp's townhouse. the day before christmas eve]

infp: [opens door to let entj in] i can't wait to show you all my christmas decorations! c'mon, c'mon!

[entj looks at entp worried. entp raises eyebrows adding to anticipation]

[infp leads entj into living room]

infp: [throws arms up] ta da!

[living room is covered in decorations, fake snow, huge tree, the whole nine]

entj: oh my god... it's like christmas threw up in here... and had diarrhea.

infp: [looking around with a huge smile] i know right!

entp: infp wanted to call it winter wonderland but it's more like christmas thunderdome

infp: ok, ok, i know it's a lot and usually i do a lot but i know this like a lot... a lot. BUT it's been a super hard year and since we're hosting friendsmas this year i thought we could all use some christmas cheer... i just want one thing to go right this year, and i think i nailed it. ugh i'm so excited. not even 2020 can take christmas from me! [raises fist like braveheart ✊]

entj: well, i applaud you 👏. i mean it does look like a lot work too, did you make all ten of those ginger bread houses?

infp: yeah! me and intp made them last week when we all got together for game night.

entj: wait i was there? i remember all four of us drinking spiked eggnog, trying to build gingerbread houses, and then playing pictionary but when did you two build TEN gingerbread houses?

infp: oh well after entp couldn't build theirs and threw that hissy fit, and we started playing pictionary, it was when you two started screaming at each other and drawing over one another that intp and i kept building.

entp: THE GINGERBREAD KIT WAS DEFECTIVE!

entj: i was not screaming, ok. i was just talking at a loud-ish volume to get my point across, BECAUSE entp cannot COMPREHEND the rules of pictionary.

entp: i understand the rules PERFECTLY, it's not my fault intp draws like a three year old that has lobster claws for hands.

entj: *gasp* [in a "loud-ish" volume] YOU KNOW THEY HAVE A VISUAL LEARNING DISABILITY THAT DEALS WITH SPACIAL RELATIONS. ITS WHY THEY'RE TERRIBLE AT GEOMETRY!

infp: HEY! HEY! THERE IS NO FIGHTING IN THE WINTER WONDERDOME! AND YES I SAID WONDERDOME!

[entp and entj glare at one another and then relax, like nothing happened]

infp: *exhales* ok so nooowww i wanna show you my absolute favorite part of the winter wonderdome.

[motions to huge christmas tree]

infp: [with a big smile] my opus of christmas! so all of the ornaments are either for someone we love or stuff both of us like. so for example, here's my ornament it's a little giraffe with a santa hat because as you know i love giraffes 🦒 and here's entp's satanic snowman 👹⛄️ ornament.

[infp moves to ornaments below theirs]

infp: and here's yours, see it's mrs. clause as a business woman.👩‍💼🧑‍🎄

entj: aww she's even got a little cell phone she's talking into.🥺

[entj looks at ornament next to mrs. business claus]

entj: oh my god. what the hell is that?😳🤨

entp: oh that's intp's. it's a historically accurate depiction of the German folklore christmas cryptid, Krampus. sort of a half goat, half demon entity that hits misbehaved children with bundles of sticks and then eats them annnd takes them to hell. intp was very specific in what ornament they wanted.

entj: yeah that sounds about right.

infp: hey where is intp?

entj: oh they're waiting for an amazon package. they're convinced the woman who lives in the condo across the street from us is going to steal our mail. they said she was "eyeing" our porch the last time she passed by walking her teacup poodle.

entp: wait isn't that lady like 80 years old?

entj: yeah... and when i reminded intp of that, they said and i quote "yeah, 83 years old and onnne crafty bitch" as they had their binoculars wedged between the blinds on the front window...

infp: 😳... annyyyy wayyyy, so don't you love my opus of christmas 🎄😆

entj: it's great infp. [pats them on the back briefly]

infp: yeah it's pretty much the only thing that brings me joy anymore. *claps* ok, entj let's hit the grocery store and dont let me forget to get marshmallow fluff!

entj: what do you need that for?

infp: you'll seeeee 😁

entj: [looks to entp 😳]

entp: 🤷‍♂️

[trivialoveclub]

2020 Year in Review!

hey! i was tagged by the absolute angel that is ⚘ @unefleurofferte ⚘(tysm my love! 💞) for this 2020 tag! first off (even tho it's the middle of january already 🤡) i wanted to wish everyone a happy new year! not to get sappy 💀 but even tho i don't rlly talk/interact that much, it brings me a lot of happiness seeing u guys on my dash 🥺💗 i genuinely am supporting and rooting for you all and i wish u guys all the love and kindness in this new year bc you deserve it babes 💖

Rules: answer the questions about 2020 and tag some people to pass it on!

5 Fav Films You Watched in 2020

🎬 Soul (2020) "Your spark isn't your purpose. That last box fills in when you're ready to come live."

🎬 Onward (2020) "I never had a dad, but I always had you."

🎬 Klaus (2019) "A true selfless act always sparks another."

🎬 Diecisiete (2019) "You think I'd be doing all of this if I had no heart?

Maybe you're trying to get it back."

🎬 East Side Sushi (2014) "You know behind every great restaurant here, there are great latinos, in the back, in the kitchen, hidden. Prepping the food and making you all look good. Well, I don't want to be in the back anymore."

5 Fav TV Shows You Watched In 2020

📺 Like in The Movies (2020) "Do you ever feel like you're not the protagonist of your own story?"

📺 Given (2019) "Do you have anyone you like, Haruki-san? If that person suddenly disappeared from this world, what would you say?"

📺 Banana Fish (2018) "My soul is always with you."

📺 Masterchef Junior (2013-) Not a quote but Gordon Ramsay always says the dishes has "finesse" and now i can't stop saying it in everything 😭

📺 Next in Fashion (2020)

5 Fav Songs You Listened To In 2020

🎶 UGH! : BTS 🎶 "You're allowed to be angry, but bothering someone else's life, I don't like"

🎶 Fuyu No Hanashi : Given 🎶 "Just like the snow that hasn't completely melted in the shade I continue on with these feelings inside of me."

🎶 So Beautiful : DPR Ian 🎶 "My love is turning kinda gray / My heart is looking the other way."

🎶 PSYCHE : Joohoney 🎶 "All of the world pay attention"

🎶 Stay Tonight : Chungha 🎶 "Tell me what you wanna do, run away or stay tonight"

Top 5 Albums of 2020

💿 Map of The Soul 7 : BTS

UGH! ⏯ Black Swan ⏯ Inner Child

💿 Fatal Love : Monsta X

Sorry I'm Not Sorry ⏯ Nobody Else ⏯ Guess Who

💿 Ungodly Hour : Chloe x Halle

ROYL ⏯ Forgive Me ⏯ Lonely

💿 Mixtape [ PSYCHE ] : Joohoney

PSYCHE ⏯ Intro (Ambition) ⏯ DIA

💿 Chromatica : Lady Gaga

Replay ⏯ Sour Candy ⏯ Alice

Top 5 Books You Read in 2020

🤡 🤡 🤡

...i haven't read for fun in years 😔 i used to read a book every single day :(( but! i already have a list of ones i want to read so this year for sure im gonna be that girl again 🤧💅🏼

💌 How did you spend your birthday this year? 💌

uh hahaha 🤡 suddenly i can't read 🤡

well...i had to take my drivers test but i had no idea how to park so i mean obvs i was gonna fail 💀 so i got super anxious and then had a breakdown in the back seat when it was getting closer to my turn 😭 my parents had to reschedule it and take me home. i felt like such a disappointment. so it started off absolutely horrible, fortunately the rest of the day was a lot better but oof 🤪

💌 What was your most memorable day? 💌

i honestly cannot remember anything 😭 it's like one big blur but ummm...probably finishing high school! i felt like i could finally breathe 🥲

💌 What was your most memorable meal you had this year? 💌

hmm...ooo probably when my abuelita made us a bunch of paches de papa 🥺 i ate them for a whole week and i loved it entirely...my heart is pache shaped 🤧💘

💌 Did you find any new hobbies or interests in quarantine? 💌

hmm i don't think i got any new ones but i did get to be reminded again on how much i genuinely enjoy making food and like decorating/personalizing things! ☺💖

💌 What was the last big event/thing you remember doing before covid? 💌

uhhh i honestly can't think of anything? i literally don't go out 🤡 like im in chilling in this quarantine lifestyle bc nothing has changed for me 🤪

💌 5 good/positive things that happened to you in 2020? 💌

🌱 i finally escaped high school! 🎓🎉

🌱 i decided to take a gap year and the burnt out student inside me feels like she can finally exhale

🌱 i can't remember if it was in early 2020 or late 2019 but anyways I GOT MY DRIVERS LICENSE 😝😝 i honestly...do not know how i got it...i took 15+ minutes to park (as u can see your girl didn't learn her lesson) but bless that man for passing me i hope u have a beautiful life sir 😭💖 however i have not stepped in the driver's seat since then 💋 i refuse 💋

🌱 i honestly would say watching Soul 🥲💗 i've always been obsessed w my meaning and purpose in life and that movie rlly just hit home for me...i think about it everyday and im literally starting to tear up right now so let me just stop 🤪

🌱 hmm honestly just being home 💗 i now have an excuse to stay in all time and that brings me so much peace in my heart 🤧

💌 Biggest messages or lessons learnt from this year? 💌

that there's a lot to live for. and i rlly want to enjoy it? and like w the gap year i still feel guilty and still feel like im wasting time and not being productive (love being a capricorn 🤪) but im trying to not think like that...and the fact that Soul came out and it's whole message is literally like life is beautiful and it's meant to be lived 🥺 it rlly like...set that for me u know...there's so many little things that truly make me excited about life and i want to enjoy it and after those 4 years in high school of constant work and stress and losing my entire mind maybe i actually deserve it 🥲 so um yeah..sjdkajd

💌 And what are you most looking forward to in 2021? 💌

a lot ☺ everything honestly...wow omg that's so weird asjakjd ahhh 😭😭💘 [insert that paul rudd who would have thought not me meme] but i wanna do sm much!! bake and cook and learn to knit! and personalize my clothes and READ! and watch movies and shows! and i'll also be going back to school so i rlllllllllyyyyyyyy want to learn how to manage my time bc my procrastination truly fucked me in the ass in hs 🤡 but yeah im excited ahh! ☺

And We're Done!

oof my memory is so awful i feel like i can't remember anything that happened in 2020 🤡 this ended up being a bit long 💀 so if u made it to the end...thank u for reading...ily 😚💌 besitos for you! 💞

tagging these cuties 💘: @moonlattae @fluorescente @glossierjoon @ardores @star99 @jooniephoria @ahearthrob @catboyjm @yoongidisease @violetmoonlits @koyan @stardustyoongi @7blueside @m1amor @sobsyub @m8nstruck @souheii @1okyos @virgomoon @alevchaan @jihyoist

[coast2coastcreative]

Let's start with a history. I grew up in BC. Loved the ocean. Wanted to be a marine biologist. The whole 9 yards. But, life didn't turn out that way. Instead, just before my 21st birthday, I ended up facing homelessness and moved to Ontario, hoping to find more job prospects. Well, I found that, plus a husband (eventually). We did some post secondary education, had 4 boys, and then moved to Montreal for work. Never thought I'd end up in Quebec. Wish I never had. I'll just say it wasn't good for any of us and leave it at that. Anyway, in October 2019 we took a road trip to see the Maritimes. We'd never been there before and since we were homeschooling we thought we'd go off-season and avoid the crowds. Best decision ever. It. Was. Gorgeous. The leaves were all changing colour but hadnt started falling yet, so every drive we took (and there was a lot of driving. We saw as much as we could over just one week.) was absolutely breathtaking.

Back in Montreal, we had to decide between moving in 2020, or trying for one more baby (hopefully a girl this time). I didn't want to move while pregnant (BTDT) and didn't want to put off a baby until I was nearly 40, so we decided baby first, then move. Well, Christmas morning we got the good news that I was pregnant already. And then the pandemic hit. So, we hid in our home, not knowing what covid would do to a pregnant woman or the baby, and then after giving birth (to our 5th boy) trying to keep him safe from everything.

We had a deadline though. Homeschooling in Quebec was getting harder and harder as the government put pressure on parents to educate their children the "right" way (i.e. their way. No room for change if your children have different interests, strengths, disabilities, etc). Even in the pandemic, with children being forced to go to school in buildings with failing air systems and very little options for kids with compromised immune systems or high risk family members at home, the government still kept putting more pressure than ever on us. I knew that in the 2021-2022 school year, they would be implementing mandatory exams (ensuring we followed their curriculum to the letter), so we needed to move before then. And if we could move before June 15, 2021 then I wouldn't have to submit the year end reports (which can be dozens of pages long for each child, and I had 3 to report for, while taking care of a newborn). I looked at the Ontario housing market and knew immediately it was still out of our league. But the Maritimes? That we could do. I got a realtor, a mortgage specialist, and started searching. We found an amazing home and put in an offer, but it was priced to be very competitive and we lost out. But the next home we put an offer on was accepted! We had our home! And then Nova Scotia closed its borders a few days later. Ugh. Luckily we didn't have to change our closing date, and we were able to get into our new home on time, after a 15 hour drive with our 5 kids and 3 cats piled into the back with as much stuff as we could fit in. (The moving truck came a couple days before so we had enough stuff to keep us going without our possessions.)

So, now we're here! We finished our quarantine and have started to do a little exploring. And I've started to do some redecorating. I thought some people might be interested in the before and after, or the process,so I'm here. I hope you get something out of it 😊

And since I can't figure out how to delete pictures from here yet, here's some of the before!