#ugh i love monsta x so much i miss them

[emeraldbabygirl]

Does anyone write letters to friends anymore? Like pen pals aren’t a thing anymore are they? Now everyone has internet or something so we just message our friends there and I guess in some ways it’s safer that way cause what if the person you’re messaging is one of those creepy people that pretends to be someone else and then if you send letters back and forth they now have your address. And people are just too scared and don’t like telling where they live which isn’t a bad thing btw.

Idk I have friends all over both in the same country as me and other countries and I just kinda like the thought of writing lil letters back and forth like people used to. Minus tying the letter to the leg of a carrier pigeon 😐 bUT! It is faster online messaging and my hand writing is really bad :( I write too fast and then you can’t read anything. Also I don’t think I have anymore stationary that was never something I did really. But just the idea of having cute paper and using colored pens to write with or getting cute stickers and like sending lil attachments like maybe a picture of a pet or printing a meme off the internet and sending it to a friend I love that idea. Of course sometimes postage is expensive ;-;

BUT ALSO cause like for me I have like clothing that is sitting in my closet that doesn’t fit like I bought online and even tho I picked the biggest size I’m just too big for it, like even if I lost weight I couldn’t get the item over my head or around my shoulders so I was just thinking it would be cute to send to a friend if they like it and write a little letter with it :) it’s kinda fun to think about sending gifts to friends back and forth as long as the mail carriers aren’t assholes 😠

On another note when I was super into Exo back in like 2014 I bought so many Exo things on eBay and I still have the stuff and it might be fun to make a post of it sometime. I bought a mouse pad and a really cool mouse that lights up and changes colors when you plug it in and it’s really pretty but not very practical unfortunately and I have some posters too, some from the Nature Republic shooting and I have some themed rings and necklaces AND MY LUHAN HOODIE STILL FITS! And I have a snapback that I wanted cause I thought I was cool omg I was cringe when I was a sophomore :(

Nowadays I have some bracelets made of that rubber stuff with the group name and member names and other types of bracelets and I have a VAV hoodie and a couple of group t-shirts some I bought from Hot Topic, and I have some posters but I don’t think they’re official but I still like them except my Twice poster is either missing Nayeon or Jeongyeon :( and I have a handful of albums and a lil box with all my photo cards that didn’t come in albums, some my sister gave me cause they came in her orders and she didn’t want them or had double. AND I HAVE A CUTE LIL FAN WITH SUNWOO FROM BOYS REPUBLIC 🥺🥺🥺 I LOVE IT SO SO MUCH I LOVE HIM AND UGH I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM. And I also have the monsta x themed toys the nunugom? I think is Shownu’s (I have the shownu one but I’m not sure if it’s called nunugom or not) I have a medium one and a lil keychain that’s on my bag. But anyway I bought a lot of things just cause they reminded me of Exo members lol.

ANYWAY OFF TRACK BUT IDK I think if you really trust your online friends it might be fun to send cute letters back and forth. YOU COULD EVEN MAKE THEM CUTE BRACELETS LIKE EITHER THOSE LOOM BAND THINGS OR CUTE BEADED BRACELETS OMG. I have made a lot of pretty loom bands bracelets (cringe alert: I made one for each member of Exo except tao and chanyeol cause I didn’t have enough bands of the color I wanted but I was like ‘I’m gonna give these to them at a fansign’ 💀) and I have a couple random beads like the pony beads? And some blocks with letters and flat round ones with letters you know those cute bead sets from the 90’s and 2000’s 🥺 omg that would be so cute I love that idea. BUT I ALSO LOVE THE IDEA OF MAKING FRIENDSHIP BRACELETS WITH YOUR FRIENDS Y’ALL I USED TO THINK FRIENDSHIP BRACELETS WERE CHILDISH 😔 BUT FRIENDSHIPS ARE SO WONDERFUL AND WHOLESOME AND MAKING CUTE THINGS FOR YOUR FRIENDS IS REALLY UNDERRATED AND NEEDS TO BE APPRECIATED MORE!

I’m sorry this post flew off the track lmao. Anyway :)

[specialwonho]

hhh ramblings

[ki-chang]

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[santoteez]

Kinktober 2022 - Day Two

Genre: Smut

Idol: Chae Hyungwon of MONSTA X

Word Count: 2,095

Warnings: Director!Hyungwon, Admin!Reader, office sex, unprotected sex, oral ( m and f receiving), Slight dacryphilia,  BusinessPartner!Baekhyun (no smut with him, but still he’s in here), not really caught but almost caught?, facefucking at the end

Sighing, Y/N leaned back in her swivel chair. She rubbed her temples, a negligible reward for the email battle she’d just won with another admin from an outside organization. 

“How is it that you need a favor from us, yet you think you can have things your way?” She mumbled to herself. “Bitch.”

Taking a swig from her water bottle, she checked the time. “It’s almost time for lunch, hallelujah.”

“Not so fast, Y/N.” Her team manager called out as she walked toward the exit with the crowd. “Mr. Chae wants you in his office.”

“Poor Y/N, that man never takes lunch and she pays the price.” Another colleague called out.

“You got this, Y/N!”

“Bye, guys.” She waved, watching them squeeze into the elevator.

The click-clack of her heels echoed through the empty room as Y/N made her way to the lavish office down the hall.

Once she crossed the threshold, she pushed the doors closed.

“They’re gone.”

“I just received an email from our dear partner corporation’s Director, expressing his gratitude for our cooperation and how he’s looking forward to our next meeting. I wouldn’t suppose you had anything to do with this, Miss Y/N?” He spun his chair slightly, extending his hand.

“You know better than anyone that only I can incite such a storm, Mr. Chae.” Placing her hand in his, she allowed herself to be whisked onto his lap.

He made a face. “Ugh, come on. Mr. Chae is my father, and last time I checked he doesn’t work here anymore.”

She smiled. “Forgive me. Hyungwon.”

“Much better.” he leaned in, enveloping her lips in his.

Y/N sighed as Hyungwon lifted her onto the table. She reveled in the feeling of his lips pressed against the tender skin behind her ear.

“Implementing a company-wide lunch hour has got to be one of the best ideas I’ve had in a while.” He said, cupping her cheek to kiss her again, “I get to have you all to myself.”

Hyungwon sat back in his chair, motioning for Y/N to get comfortable.

“Hmm, all the restaurants within walking distance from here and that’s what you want to eat?” She smirked.

He looked up, winking. “Shh, let me have my meal.” He reached up her skirt, pulling her thong down to her ankles, and then to the floor. He leaned in, his tongue sweeping over her plump folds before giving her clit a sweet kiss. Y/N’s body shivered as her fingers clung to the edge of the desk.

“You’re so eager today.” She said, barely able to get the words out as Hyungwon slid his tongue deep inside, tasting the most intimate part of her.

“How could I not be? I’ve been looking forward to devouring you all day. Maybe I should extend the lunch hour to 90 minutes? What do you think?” He asked, slender fingers prodding at Y/N’s sweet cunt.

“Why? Are 60 minutes not enough for you?” Her eyes rolled back, head slumped as he curled up to that dangerous spot.

“Your question insults me. You know the answer all too well.” He said before wrapping her clit in his pillowy lips once again, the final ministration Y/N needed before her thighs clamped down on either side of his head, his hearing muffled as he just barely made out the cries that fell from her lips.

Standing up, Hyungwon loomed over her quivering body, their lips finding each other as if they’d never parted.

“You’re trembling, love. We can stop here if you’d like.” He rubbed her arms in an attempt to calm her down.

She scoffed. “And when have I ever been one to back down?”

He leaned back, smiling as the clink from his belt buckle rang through the room.

“Point taken.”

Hyungwon wasted no time pouncing on Y/N’s anticipating figure, the woodsy scent of his cologne wrapped around her body, not in a suffocating way but rather a silky blanket keeping her impossibly close.

He relished in the gasp that escaped her pretty pout when his hips met hers. As gentle as the much taller man was, his thrusts were anything but. Y/N kept an ironclad grip on his clothed biceps, his pristinely white button-up sticking to his skin as he kept his rebelliously rough pace.

“A director and his subordinate, I wonder what the board would say if they found out about this.” He gritted through his teeth as he continued his sensual assault, the creaks from the desk cheering him on, seemingly motivating him to ruin the woman underneath him.

Y/N whined as Hyungwon’s thrusts sent her sliding across the desk each time, knowingly ruining the business proposals atop the varnished wood.

He smiled, brushing his thumb across her tongue, humming in satisfaction when her lips closed around the appendage. “Always so loud for me. This is a nearly daily occurrence, and yet this pretty little pussy is always so tight for me.” He mumbled, his normally polished exterior crumbling just a bit, the way it always did around Y/N. She was one of the few people, and even fewer colleagues, he could truly be his most honest, unadulterated self around.

“Baby,” She breathed, “I’m close.”

“I know, baby.” He replied. “I got you.”

He lifted her legs, placing each one on a shoulder. Her heels remained intact, straps wrapped around her ankles, just how he liked them. He resumed his brutal pace, the new position allowing him to reach that sweet spot that took her breath away.

He chuckled as he watched tears well up in her eyes. “Feel that good, baby?”

She nodded eagerly. “So fucking good, Hyungwon.”

He tightened his grip on her thighs when he felt that telling tremble, his warning that her climax was near.

“Shit, oh shit. I’m cumming” She exclaimed, her head dangling off the desk as her vision blurred slightly, transforming Hyungwon into an irresistible mirage.

She pulled him in by his tie, kissing him sloppily. She gasped as he resumed his actions, chasing his own high.

Knock.

Hyungwon halted, looking up to meet Y/N’s gaze as if to ask if she also heard it.

Knock knock.

Okay, this time it had to be real. Hyungwon helped Y/N scramble to her feet.

“The desk,” He whispered, “Get under the desk.”

“But…you still didn’t..” Y/N whispered back.

Hyungwon stifled a laugh. Now was not the time to be worried if he came or not.

“Don’t worry about it.” He pushed her shoulders gently until she was on her knees and tucked away.

He took deep breaths as he readjusted his slacks. Sitting down, he called out:

“Come in.” 

Hyungwon watched as the man, much shorter than himself, stumbled in.

“Mr. Byun, to what do I owe the pleasure? Surely, we don’t have an appointment today?”

“Not to worry, Mr. Chae, I will be out of your hair soon. And please, call me Baekhyun.”

Hyungwon smiled. “Feel free to call me Hyungwon as well. How are things at E Corp? I haven’t heard from you in quite a whi-”

He halted as he caught a glimpse of Y/N’s manicured nails reaching for his pants zipper.

“Um, I haven’t heard from you...”

“Yes! Hyungwon, the thing is we’re looking to implement this new technology that would facilitate…” 

Hyungwon apologized silently to the older man in front of him, as he no longer had his attention.

All his focus was now on the woman whose tongue was taking the ever-so-vulgar journey from the base of his shaft to the tip, wrapping her lips around it before making her way back down again.

“...To put things frankly, we’re in need of capital for this venture, and since we’ve made such great magic with Phenomenon Inc. in the past, we wanted to know if you were interested in collaborating with us this time around.”

Hyungwon nodded. “You know, you didn’t have to come all this way to propose a venture. Especially when we know each other so well.” He took a swig from his water bottle. Was the heat on? He wasn’t sure.

“Oh, of course! I just wanted to come in person to ensure that you know we’ve proposed this opportunity not only to meet our capital requirement but because we value your guidance and expertise in the business world..”

Hyungwon watched as Y/N bobbed her head along his veiny cock, careful not to set off her gag reflex and alert the desperate businessman. 

Why was he going on about business expertise, anyway? E Corp was a Fintech business. Phenomenon Inc. was a gaming giant. Not on the same wavelength at all.

Clearing his throat, he extended his hand. “Very well, let’s see your proposal-NO NO, no need to walk it all the way over here. You may set it down on the table.” Hyungwon sighed.

“My apologies, Hyungwon! I just wanted to point out the benefits we have to offer you in the budget j-”

“Budget justification, yes yes. Give me a quick-” Hyungwon took a deep breath. “A quick minute to look it over.” He finished, peeking at Y/N, who was currently giving his balls a languid flick of her tongue.

Flipping to the highlighted page, he noted the usual perks. Help with marketing, extra beta game testers, and things of that nature.

Hyungwon hummed happily as Y/N took his back into her mouth, this time sucking more dutifully than before.

And then he remembered who else was in the room.

“Great proposal, huh? I think this is the project that will finally put us on the map with your help, Mr. Chae!” Baekhyun exclaimed, already ditching the agreement to use first names in a final attempt to seal the deal.

Hyungwon set the papers down. “Okay, let’s do it.”

The way Baekhyun’s eyes bulged out of their sockets was comical. “You really mean it, Mr. Chae? Oh, thank you! You will not regret it!” He extended his hand, confused when Hyungwon wouldn’t get up.

He reached over the desk in an overexaggerated manner. “Trying to limit time on my feet. Pulled a hamstring. Golf tournament.” Hyungwon blurted out, cursing himself for spewing such bullshit.

To his surprise, Baekhyun smiled, shaking his hand. “Chae Hyungwon, you jack of all trades. I’ll have to invite you out to a game of Murphy’s soon. I’ll get going, I know you are a busy man.”

Yeah, busy getting my dick sucked, he thought.

“Say, that admin still works here?” Baekhyun asked.

“Admin?”

“You know, the pretty little thing that had the desk near the elevators last time I was here.”

Fuck, he was talking about Y/N.

Instinctively, Hyungwon glanced down, where Y/N smirked at him while stroking his cock in earnest.

“Yup. She still works here.”

“Oh? I was surprised when I didn’t see her at her desk.”

“She’s out sealing a deal with our foreign investor.” Bullshit. There was no foreign investor and Y/N was far from sealing any deals, kneeling just feet away from the inquisitive elder.

“As an admin? Impressive. You sure know how to pick them, Hyungwon.” He smiled, back to a first name basis after securing his cash. “Well, I’ll be in touch.”

Hyungwon gasped as soon as Baekhyun crossed the threshold. He was sure he didn’t even give him time to close the damn door.

He chuckled as he leaned back in his chair, getting a better view of the sins occurring underneath the table. “You’re trying to get me fired, aren’t you? Sucking me off in front of our business partner.”

Y/N pushed off of his cock with an audible pop. “Hmm, the board would never fire you. They’re much too scared to do that.”

“Is that so?” He asked, running his hand through his hair. “Well, don’t be shy now, finish what you started.”

His hips suddenly thrust forward, Y/N’s eyes widening only momentarily as his cock repeatedly came in contact with the back of her throat. His thrusts were shallow and rough, his climax inching closer and closer to the forefront.

After some time, his hips stilled. His hand reached around to wrap around her neck, holding her in place.

“That’s it, baby. Swallow it all. Don’t make a mess.” He smiled as she followed his instructions, not spilling a single drop. “Good girl.”

Removing himself from her orifice, his hand cupped her face, forcing her to look at him.

“That deserves a raise, don’t you think?”

[kyun-toast]

[MONSTA X] Changkyun - Happy Without Me

word count: 3.8k warnings: alcohol, suggestions of smoking, swearing, suggestions of sex summary: I don't think about you sometimes 'Cause I think about you all the time a/n: I’ve been listening to the All About Luv album a lot recently and Happy Without Me hit a little different the other day. I hope you don’t notice how I slacked off near the end 💜

“Yerim what are you wearing for tonight? I wanna look cute but not like ‘I’ve put effort in’ kinda cute, you know? Like I’m always this cute.”

Yerim laughed as she replied, “You’d look hot wearing a bin bag so shut up and let me know what drinks you want. It’s ‘bring your own booze’ so I was gonna run to the store for extra before we go.”

“Umm, vodka? Tequila? Maybe rum? I’m getting smashed tonight and you’re all going to carry me home, just letting you know.” Soobin winked and blew kisses at the both of you with a coy smile on her face, as some form of ‘thank you in advance’ for the troubles that you would be going through later that night. As much pain she put the both of you through, it was hard not to love her.

“Yeah, you say that as if that’s not what happens every week, you psycho.”

You smiled from the comfort of your sofa as you witnessed the two of your best friends bicker. You were never really one for parties, but you decided to let yourself go after an unfortunate night maybe five? six months ago. You thought that you could vent your frustrations into your notes app and be done with it, but your friends took pity and introduced you to another option. One where you could numb your mind with alcohol and crashing bass, and you figured that it was somewhat more enjoyable than cry-writing shitty poetry on a Friday night. Notes app therapy was now a thing of the past.

Changkyun had become such an integral part of your life that you couldn’t help yourself from unconsciously replaying memories that you had attempted to bury. A simple look at the most irrelevant objects would have him running through your mind before you could even stop yourself. Oh, we bought this mug together. You were surprised he hadn’t taken it with him when he left. It was his favourite mug to drink whiskey out of. Speaking of whiskey, you needed a drink. It had only taken days for him to make himself at home at the forefront of your thoughts but how long was it going to take to rid of him?

As much as you tried to keep those thoughts at bay, no amount of alcohol could ever stop them from crashing back over you whenever you saw that little smiley face appear at the top of your Instagram feed.

imnameim. When had he posted a story? You hadn’t seen the pink circle earlier. Would it be too early to look at it now? You couldn’t risk tapping on it only to see that it had been posted 12 seconds ago, just like you had done the other day. And the day before. And the day before that. Should you just make a burner account? No, that’s too far, we’re not going there today, bitch... Maybe tomorrow.

You hated how much power that tattoo face held over you, looking straight into your eyes - almost mockingly. Oh, did I look like a smiley face to you six months ago? Well, I’m a sad face now and that’s all you’re ever going to see.

“Y/N! Hey! You’re going to stare a hole into your phone.” Soobin clapped in your face, trying to get your attention. You looked up, softening your expression to meet Yerim’s eyes.

“Soobin was asking what you’re going to wear tonight.” Yerim said.

“I don’t know, probably that top I got yesterday?” you shrugged, unbothered by your friends’ question. You weren’t going to parties to impress anyone; you were going to drink the last of your braincells away.

“Y/N, ‘that top’ you got yesterday is a free t-shirt you got from the Domino’s pop-up stall on campus. I’m not letting you do this again.” Yerim dead panned.

“OK and...?” You met both of their concerned faces only to have them grab each of your arms.

“Come on. Up. That’s it.” You made unintelligible noises as they dragged you up off the sofa and into your closet. The thoughts about Changkyun’s story were left on the sofa as your mind was now filling with an excited buzz. “You act like you hate this, but I know you love getting trashed with us, Y/N.” Yerim laughed and you knew it too.

-

Changkyun lay in Jae-in’s bed, with her nestled in his chest as he looked up at the ceiling and sighed. Being careful not to wake her, he slowly squeezed his arm out from under her head to lay on his stomach to scroll through Instagram.

He had posted a story over an hour ago, half hoping that you’d see it – a cover of Dean’s Instagram. How ironic.

He shook his head at how pathetic his efforts seemed, whispering to himself, “What the hell are you doing?” He refreshed his feed for the last time to see that you had posted a video of the three of you dancing to a song in your walk-in closet. Probably drunk. Upon re-watching the video on loop for the third time, he concluded that you were most definitely drunk.

Seeing you having fun like this had him torn between being happy for you, moving on with your life and probably on to other men too. Being attractive plus the endless number of parties you went to now was just the perfect recipe. You were bound to have found someone.

And this is where the hatred washed over him. He despised it. Hated seeing you have fun without him, moving on as if he had never existed. Was it that easy for you to just forget? It seemed unfair that he was still struggling to keep you off his mind while you were out having the time of your life, letting your followers know of that fact too.

Deep down, he knew that he wasn’t happy for you at all. He was just trying to kid himself into thinking that he was. Be mature and everything. That was what both of you had agreed to be when your relationship came to an end. After days of what could probably be called a verbal equivalent of a nuclear war, the two of you had given up.

Crying, shouting, complete silence, you had done it all and there was no end in sight. On day three of radio silence, you felt as if you could do without speaking to Changkyun at all. When you brought it up, he admitted he felt the same. Exhaustion making both of you devoid of any emotion, you agreed to disagree and act like the fight had never happened. You were tired and wanted nothing more to do with it. Or each other. Thinking of yourselves as somewhat grown, you decided to be civil since you were in the same circle of friends, not wanting to burden them with any of your problems.

With so many things left unsaid and ties still loose, there was no way that you could just cut clean. But you never so much as bumped into each other since.

You hadn’t blocked each other though, as you both felt that it was some sign of weakness. Yeah, I’m tough enough to keep them on my socials. They don’t bother me. Not at all. But in the small hours of the morning, you were on each other’s profiles, hoping for a glimpse of what they were up to. Wondering if he had finished that song he was working on. If you were eating well. If he was really seeing Jae-in seriously. If you were well and truly happy.

“Hey, how are you doing?”

Y/N’s doing just fine for themselves, everyone can see that.

“Did you finish that essay?”

No, that’s too random.

“I think about you all the time.”

Shut up Changkyun.

Though you had both agreed to be ‘friends’, there was no easy way in going about messaging one another when you had fought so explosively. Changkyun also felt that he had missed the right timeframe for him to salvage whatever there was left of the relationship. Whether it be platonic or romantic. No matter how much he wanted to message you, his pride falsely masked as maturity stopped him from ever doing more than wish for you to call him and say that everything was going to be ok. That you can start over.

“Do you wanna go to Minhyuk’s house party?” Jae-in’s voice was heavy with sleep, squinting her eyes at the bright screen of her phone. Changkyun was startled from his thoughts, not realising that she had been woken up by a text.

“House party…?” Changkyun was dubious.

“It’s ok if you don’t want to, it’s just that we don’t ever do anything besides fuck, and I thought we could do with a change of scenery.”

“I mean yeah it’s just that we’ve never hung out with other people before. Like together.”

He had met Jae-in at a bar a few months ago. Holed up in his studio after the breakup, Changkyun got to channelling his anger into working on his music until his course mate Minhyuk persuaded him out for drinks. Minhyuk had flirted with the girls from the table over to get them to join in on the pity party. Jae-in had seated herself next to Changkyun and a few drinks later, they had quickly bonded over their childhood obsession with Death Note to which she followed up with an invitation to watch it at her place. Who was Kyun to reject? With all this pent-up energy to spare, music wasn’t quite cutting it.  

“I doubt anyone will care that we arrived together.” Jae-in shrugged. “Let’s go.”

-

“Yeah, I invited Jae-in and I think Changkyun might come with her too.” Minhyuk stated nonchalantly over the phone. You choked on your wine and thanked God that the music in your room was loud enough to cover the unnatural sound you had just made. “Y/N, is that ok? I should have asked you befo-”

“No, I don’t care.” You replied a little too quickly, “It’s been months and we broke up on good terms anyway, remember?”

“MINNIE! I MISS YOU!” Soobin drunkenly shouted across the room as Yerim held her back from throwing herself at the phone.

“I MISS YOUR FACE TOO, BINNIE! I’LL SEE YOU LATER!” Minhyuk chuckled as he didn’t hesitate to match her volume through the phone.

“Ugh, you two make me sick”, Yerim rolled her eyes, “You literally saw each other this morning. Just get together already.”

As Soobin and Minhyuk continued to chat, engulfed in their own little world, you reached to grab another drink. If Minhyuk’s predictions were right, you were going to need something stronger than wine to get you through the night.

-

Stepping into Minhyuk’s apartment, Changkyun could feel the bass rumble underneath his feet already.

“Hey! You made it! I thought you guys weren’t going to come, it’s so late! But we have drinks and snacks in the kitchen. Oh, and Jae-in, the bathrooms just through the hallway on the right…” Minhyuk’s voice trailed off into the loud music. Changkyun followed behind Jae-in as his friend gave the newcomer a guided tour of his place.

Though he was familiar with the apartment, it felt a little weird for him to walk through it with someone else by his side. A pack of cards strewn over the floor jogged his memory back to a particularly warm night in June. With the sun just beginning to rise, you both stood below Minhyuk’s balcony at 4am. You shouted,

“HEY MINHYUK, WE’RE GOING TO PLAY UNO AT YOUR PLACE, D’YOU WANNA JOIN?”

“THOUGHT WE’D ASK IN CASE YOU’D FEEL LEFT OUT.” Changkyun added. You both snickered as Minhyuk opened his window to shout back at you, regretting that he had ever given you two the spare keys to his apartment.

“ARE YOU REALLY INVITING ME TO PLAY CARDS MY OWN HOUSE RIGHT NOW?!” Birds fluttered away startled, as a neighbouring window flashed on a light in annoyance. Your shouting combined could never top the sheer volume of Minhyuk’s voice. Changkyun grabbed your hand as you ran into the building laughing before the neighbour could join in on the screaming match.

With classes finished for the year, you had what felt like an infinite amount of time on your hands. Kyun smiled to himself as he was reminded of those summer nights that he had spent with you. Stargazing, pillow talking, daydreaming on repeat.

“Yeah, so you can get to the outdoor space through the living room but I’m giving you special access to my little balcony through my room because you’re uh, Changkyun’s friend.” Minhyuk grinned as he ended his tour.

Upon entering the actual party in the lounge, Changkyun stopped in his tracks at the sight of you on the other side of the room. For a moment, the smoke in the room seemed to clear as his eyes trained on you throw your head back in laughter at Yerim’s animated storytelling. Hearing your voice so crystal clear made his heart swell with something that he couldn’t quite put into words. Half a year had passed since he had last seen you, sat broken on the floor of your apartment, explaining that it would be best to part ways. You had looked so drained of emotion then; it was such a stark contrast to what he was seeing now. He stood frozen, heart beating hard against his chest like a hammer.

“Kyun! Why are you so late?” Wonho, another friend of Kyun’s appeared out of nowhere with a bottle of tequila in his hand. “You gotta catch up on the drinks now, come on, open your mouth.” Wonho went to grab his face with one hand as he proceeded to try and pour some alcohol into his mouth jokingly. Changkyun chuckled as he play-fought with Wonho only to stop midway when he noticed Jae-in smiling at the sight.

“Oh, this is my friend Jae-in.” Kyun straightened up and brushed off his clothes.

Wonho went to shake her hand as Minhyuk snuck up behind him.

"Yeah, friend.” He giggled as he raised his brows suggestively and left as quickly as he appeared shouting, “Binnie! Where are you? We gotta go make those s’mores you wanted!”

Changkyun rolled his eyes and smiled as he guided Jae-in to the nearest table of drinks and set to introducing her to the rest of his friends, hoping that you wouldn’t notice him.

-

At this point, the three of you were beyond gone. Soobin had already passed out with a s’more in her hand as Minhyuk hauled her over his shoulder to put her to sleep in the guest room.

“And she.. she was telling me to sythensi.. she was telling me thynsenise, no, synsi.. she wanted me to synthesise, there we go, snythi…” Yerim tripped over words, dead set on getting her pronunciation right while Hyungwon sat and nodded with his signature painful smile on his face. She was determined, hand on his shoulder with a grip that let him know he wasn’t going anywhere until she had finished her story.

As for you? You were sat next to Yerim, a vacant smile on your face as you struggled to keep your eyes open. Day drinking followed up with a house party in the evening really wasn’t the best idea for the lightweights that you are but there you were, listening to your friend repeat the same sentence over and over again. An urgent voice in your head piped up, letting you know that you should probably go for a breath of fresh air.

“Yerim, hey, Yerim, I’m.. going for some air… stay with Hyungwon okay? Hyungwon, call me if anything happens?” You stood up, struggling to find your balance and teetered across the room to get to Minhyuk’s balcony.

The thing about you is that you are one of those blessed people that can sober up as quickly as they get smashed. You felt refreshed, taking in a deep breath as if to cleanse your alcohol ridden bloodstreams with the cool evening air. Your head still spun a little but as long as you kept your eyes anchored on the moon, you’d be fine in no time.

As much as your body needed a break from the party, it wasn’t the greatest timing for your mental state. Once you had assumed that Changkyun wasn’t coming to the party, you let go of the anxiety holding you back from enjoying yourself. You had been overstimulated from the alcohol, music, and people, not giving yourself a chance to think about anything else. But once those factors were gone, it was just you, alone with your drunken thoughts on a balcony looking up at the moon. And just like that, those suppressed memories regarding a certain boy couldn’t help but unpack themselves from your unconscious. Oh man, this was going to be such a good cry.

-

Changkyun was beginning to feel a little too tipsy for his liking. Though he was having a great time, it felt as if he wasn’t entirely present at the scene, like he was watching and laughing along through a TV screen. He slipped away from the kitchen island to get a breather.

“Oh shit, sorry, I didn’t realise anyone was here.” He apologised, going to close the door of Minhyuk’s balcony to a figure hunched over the railing. You looked up from your hands at him and tried to focus on the blurry face.

His movements faltered when your eyes met, door still open. Just one look at you was enough for that knock back into reality Changkyun had needed. God were you a sight for sore eyes. He drank up the way your cheeks and nose were flushed pink, how your eyes were glossy in the moonlight, eyelashes thick with tears, and the way the softly coloured city lights behind you framed your face. With the night air stained with your perfume and the sounds of muted traffic perfecting the scene, he had never felt so in the present until now. He wanted this moment to last a lifetime.

“Changkyun?” You replied, as you wiped your eyes clear of the tears blurring your vision. You could tell that voice apart anywhere, you only questioned in the slight chance that you were just hallucinating, going insane.

“Are you ok? I can leave if you want, I-” He began hurriedly, knowing that you hated having anyone see you cry.

“I’m fine.” You sniffed.

“Bad day?” He asked softly, bringing himself to stand next to you, looking over at the cityscape.

“Yeah, something like that.” You replied, letting out a small laugh as you wiped the last of the tears from your face. 

Tension hung so thick in the air you could feel it weigh down on your shoulders. Changkyun hated that you, the person he had once shared the deepest parts of his mind with, was someone he was now so uncomfortable with.

You both stood there awhile, looking out at the blinking lights of the cityscape. As quiet as it was, you could almost hear the sound of your brains whirring, going back and forth over whether or not you should say something to break the silence. Changkyun had spent months thinking of questions he wanted to ask you for when this moment came, but the alcohol and nerves fogged up his mind. All he could think of doing was holding you in his arms, hoping for you to be able to feel his apologies, sincerity and promises through the beating of his chest.

A heavy pressing in your lungs only intensified, as you thought about how the present situation had become the outcome of those few perfect years. You regulated your breathing, trying to break down the lump from coming up in your throat, on the verge of tears again. Thinking back, you realised that you probably could have been a little more understanding, could have softened your sharp words, could have opened your heart up some more to allow for Changkyun to do so in return. These thoughts and emotions bubbled up inside your chest to spill out of your mouth before you even knew what you wanted to say.

“Changkyun, I-”

“I found a really nice place for nights like this. Y/N.” he cut across with an anxious tremble in his voice. He could feel the apology ready to tumble from your lips, he had to stop you from apologising for things that you really didn’t need to. He hated that your heart was so big and so loving that you were willing to start trying to mend this relationship first. But he hated himself more for not having the courage to try to be even half as loving as you are.

He continued, still looking out over the balcony, worried that he’d start to tear up if he met your eyes again, “you can see the stars so clearly, it’s insane.”

You turned to him, tears welling in your eyes again. Despite having cut each other from your lives for what felt like a lifetime, it broke you how he could still read you like his favourite book.

“Can we go? Y/N? I’ve waited so long to show you.”

Hot tears fell down your cheeks again as Changkyun noticed and turned to you, pulling you into his chest as you cried out the mess of emotions you had amassed. 

The person you had wanted to talk about your breakup with Changkyun the most, was so ironically Changkyun. He’d know how to calm you down, how to sort out your problems with ice cream in bed like any other issue you were facing. But what were you supposed to do when you had cut the one who understood you the most so bluntly from your life? Who were you supposed to turn to when you wanted to talk about that?

Your cries pierced into his heart deeper with every second that passed, feeling the hurt in your voice in the deepest parts of his soul. He replied by holding you tighter, and you could feel all those things he left unsaid that day you left in the warmth of his chest.

“We don’t have to rush,” He whispered into your hair, “I have all the time in the world for you. Let it out.”

He brought a hand up from your shoulders hesitantly, feeling almost undeserving of comforting you after the pain he had caused you. But to you, his hand stroking your hair was where you found your solace.

So, there you stood, in each other’s arms having poured out your hearts to one another without having said a single word. But you both knew that you felt every single one.

[noonachronicles]

Monsta X S/O Reaction to Their Kink

Loosely based off of a requested by @nemesyis​ but ended up with me really just doing whatever I felt like. lol 

Warnings - As the theme is kinks, there are themes of smut. Please also note, that I took some liberties on a couple of the kinks and they are a bit on the kink lite side of things. Dacryphilia and graphoerotica are typically much more...intense, and often not as...nice. Basically I’m trying to say please be cautious, do your research, and be safe. 

Authors Note - This ended up being really long. Are reactions supposed to be this long? Did I do it wrong??

Shownu - Garters and Stocking – Many men get turned on seeing a woman in this (now) uncommon underwear.

Hyunwoo had sat down at the table to eat his ‘between lunch and dinner’ meal. Which, as you knew, meant it would be the perfect time to get ready, because nothing distracted that man from his food which meant he wouldn’t be hanging around to distract you.

You were nearly ready, hair done up in victory rolls, eyeliner winged to perfection and lipstick red as a candy apple. You’d just been pulling the stockings up your legs and clipping the garter belt when you noticed you didn’t have the main component of your outfit.

“Crap...” you muttered before walking out to the living room.

You went quickly to the couch were you’d dropped a bunch of shopping bags from your last minute shopping spree that morning. Your mind elsewhere you didn’t even notice Hyunwoo look up from his plate.

It was just a quick glance. He knew it was you when he heard the movement in the adjacent living room but he had to look up, out of habit. When his eyes dropped back down to his plate he gulped. His mouth was watering and he wasn’t sure it was just because of the fried chicken in between his fingers.

“What...what’s that?” He asked from the table.

“What’s what, baby?” You called over your shoulder, still digging in your bags.

“Your outfit.” He said putting down the chicken leg in his hand and sucking on his fingers.

“Oh.” He bit his lip as he watched you bent over the back of the couch. The subtle black seam of the stockings lining the length of your legs. “It’s my outfit for the bachelorette party! It’s swing themed, remember? I told you. I just need...aha! The dress.”

You tugged the dress from the bag and turned around. You jumped back in surprise that Hyunwoo was standing right in front of you. Your forehead creased as he eyed you hungrily, you looked around his broad shoulders to the table where he still had half of his meal waiting.

“What are you doing?” You asked curiously as he lifted his hands to your hips and pulled you closer.

“I’m hungry.” He murmured, his large hands spreading out over your legs and running down the stockings and back up again.

“Well...you didn’t finish your food so...”

“Not hungry for that.” He said simply, leaning in to kiss your neck. “Hungry for you.”

“Oh.” You fisted the dress in your hand as his mouth moved over you. “I can’t, I’ll be late.”

He hummed and kissed the tops of your breasts, his hands moving over the lacy fabric of your bra before dropping back down, “I’ll make it worth it.”

You nodded, “Okay, but... don’t mess up the hair. Promise?”

He’d lifted your leg up against his hip and was running his hand over the stockings, “Only if you promise to wear these more.”

-

Wonho - Dacryphilia - When one is aroused by tears or sobbing.

Hoseok was only half surprised when you burst angrily through his front door. For weeks he’d felt horrible. Something had been eating at him and he wasn’t sure how to explain it to you, so instead of communicating he withdrew.

“Are you breaking up with me!?” You shouted as soon as you saw him. Tears and mascara were already streaking your cheeks.

And his shoulders sank. It was happening again.  

The first time it happened the two of you had been cuddled on the couch after dinner watching Goblin. For you it was the third time through because you couldn’t get enough of it and he was watching because he couldn’t say no to you.

There was a particularly emotional scene playing and he couldn’t bare to watch it, knowing he’d probably cry. Instead he turned his gaze to you. That’s when it happened. You’d already been crying, tears clung to your lashes and streaked your cheeks. He thought you looked beautiful. He was in love with your emotion, your passion. So much that he felt a familiar stirring in his shorts. He instantly felt like a monster! How could he be aroused by your tears? Just the idea of you being upset broke his heart, so he shook it off as residual arousal from earlier and tried to forget it.

The second time had been different.

You’d been laying in your bed together. You were reading a book and he’d been working on music and both of you were taking breaks in between for a little kissing and heavy petting. It was an accident really. He’d been sliding his fingers over your skin when he hit a sensitive spot on your side. When you jolted with a laugh he couldn’t help himself. He had to tickle you more and before either of you knew it, you were crying with laughter. Tears streaming  out of your eyes as you gasped out for air. It happened again, the stirring in his stomach. After that he found it hard to be around you. Just... in case.

“Answer me! Are you breaking up with me?” You asked again.

“I like when you cry!” He confessed.

You stepped back, “What?!”

“I don’t like when you’re sad or upset!” he specified, “Just...when you cry...you’re so beautiful. It’s...sexy.”

“What do you mean it’s sexy?”

“I know it’s weird. It’s why I didn’t tell you. It’s why I’ve been avoiding you.” He looked deflated.

Looking over at him you noticed the bulge in his shorts and raised your eyebrows, “Oh, you’re serious.”

“Yes. I don’t know why it’s happening.”

“You think...you think I look sexy right now?” He nodded and you looked over at the mirror hanging on the wall and quickly turned away in disgust of your hot mess reflection, “Ugh god... seriously? I look like a sad, crazy panda.”

“No!” He stepped in front of you and cupped your cheek. “I’ve never seen anything so beautiful.”

“Hoseok. This is so weird.” You muttered skeptically.

“I know, I’m sorry.”

“So you’re really not breaking up with me?”

“No! I was worried you were going to break up with me.” He was a little worried you still might. “I love you...”

You sighed, “Okay.”

“Okay?” He asked.

“I love you too and as weird as this is... it could have been something weirder I suppose.” you shrugged.

He leaned in and kissed you hard, his arms wrapped around you, nearly lifting you off the ground. He was so relieved. When you had two feet solidly back on the ground you pulled back and looked at him. He’d really been so worried, in retrospect you found it almost amusing.

“There’s like...twenty more episodes of Goblin.” You whispered against his lips.

“Of course! We can do anything you want, for the rest of our lives, whatever you want. Anything to make up for this.” he said enthusiastically.

“No...I mean,” you ran your fingers up from his chest to his neck, “There’s like twenty more episodes of Goblin and every single one of them makes me cry.”

-

Hyungwon - Graphoerotica - Writing words on someone’s body.

You didn’t get a lot of dates with your boyfriend, as he was a very busy man, so when he asked if you wanted to be his date to a charity event you jumped at the chance. Being around so many celebrities made you just a tad anxious so when you found the clicky pen at the bottom of the swag bag they handed out at the door when you came in you held it like a lifeline in one hand while you held Hyungwon’s hand in the other.

He walked you around the party and introduced you to the people he knew and himself to some people he didn’t know yet. He’d met a producer that was interested in his dj/solo work and needed somewhere to take down his phone number. You’d left your phones at the table so you offered him the pen.

“What am I supposed to do with this?” He asked staring down at the pen.

“Write it on your hand...”

He pouted at you slightly and you stuck your palm out with a roll of your eyes. With a small smile he quickly wrote down the number of the producer. Afterwards he looked down at the ink on your skin and hummed thoughtfully before dropping the pen in your hand and going back to his conversation. Leaving you to think nothing of it.

A couple of days later you’d been laying in bed next to one another. Hyungwon was taking a nap and you’d been doing a crossword puzzle when you’d fallen asleep too. When you woke up Hyungwon was missing, likely in the kitchen getting food. Looking down at your arm you realized there was a mark that you thought had just been from knocking into the pen in your sleep. However upon closer review you realized Hyungwon had written ‘Hi Cutie :)’ on your arm. With a small smirk you let it go.

A week after that he’d invited you to the studio. He’d been there for days and missed you like crazy and you’d been more than willing to visit him. You sat on the couch talking to Jooheon about some of the collaborations he’d done on his latest mixtape while Hyungwon sat on the ground between your legs going over some checklists with Shownu. After awhile you felt the wet tip of the marker Hyungwon had been using press against your bare thigh.

“What are you doing?” You asked looking down at him.

He looked up at you innocently as he could, “nothing.”

“Mmhmm.” You hummed trying to look at what he’d drawn but he had covered it up under his large hands. “What are you drawing?”

He shrugged cutely, “Just a turtle.”

“You’re so weird.” You said ruffling his hair with your hand before going back to your conversation with Jooheon as he continued his drawing.

Maybe ten minutes passed when you felt Hyungwon press a kiss against your thigh before getting up to record his part of the song. You didn’t think about it. You didn’t think about the drawing until Jooheon looked down at your leg and chuckled.

“Point made hyung.” He laughed.

You looked down to see he had drawn a turtle like he said, only inside of the turtle he’d written ‘Property of Chae Hyungwon. Don’t Touch’. Your face reddened in embarrassment and you told Jooheon to tell Hyungwon his property took herself home.

When he arrived home later he slinked into the bedroom like guilty puppy waiting to be reprimanded. He was surprised to find you sitting on the edge of the mattress in his favorite lingerie. He stepped between your knees and looked down to see his art from earlier still on your skin.

“You didn’t wash it off yet?” he noted, dragging his finger over the ink.

You shook your head. “I kind of liked it. I like being yours Hyungwon...maybe just not in front of your friends like that.”

“You do?” he grinned.

Lifting your hand you offered him a more easily washable marker. “Do your worst.”

-

Minhyuk - Body Painting – Painting bodies, treating the skin as a human canvas.

Minhyuk and you had been dating for awhile now. He’d been a very ambitious lover since your very first time together, which you always appreciated from him. Recently, within the last few weeks, you’d just felt so comfortable with him. Really loved, like you could confess anything to him and he wouldn’t run away. So you had been. You told him all the weird little things you were into and he tried every single one of them for you with as much or more enthusiasm as you could have wished for.

One night, laying in bed, you watched him move under the blankets and realized that he’d been so understanding of your kinks and you’d never tried any of his. He’d been leaving little bruises on your hips and stomach with his mouth when you tore the blanket from him. He’d already left little love marks on your thighs and chest.

“Everything okay, Jagi?” He asked wide eyed as his head popped up.

“I just missed you.” You grinned, “Come back.”

With a bright smile he moved back up the bed to give you a proper kiss. After a moment you pulled away and gave him a smile.

“Minnie...” you whispered against his mouth, “what do you like?”

“I like you, Jagi.” He said giving you a quick kiss.

You laughed, “No, baby, I mean...what do you like? We’ve tried all the stuff I like. Isn’t there anything you want to do? Something you’d like us to try?”

He thought about it for a moment, his gaze moving passed you as he cyphered through his thoughts. There was a hint of excitement in his eyes but he quickly let it go before looking down at you and shaking his head.

“No. I like what you like.” he answered.

You frowned. “You don’t trust me? Are you...uncomfortable with me?”

“No!” He said reassuringly. “It’s just not a big deal.”

“Tell me, please?”

He sighed, “I guess...I’ve really only thought about it a couple times but, I’d like to...paint you.”

“Like one of your French girls?” You joked.

With a small smile he shook his head. “Not like that.”

“Well,” you sat up next to him, “tell me what you mean. We can try it.”

“Yeah?” You nodded and he jumped up enthusiastically, “okay!”

He left the room for a moment but was back quickly with an armful of paints and a hand full of brushes. Before long he had you lying on your back while he sat on the tops of your thighs. His tongue was sticking cutely out of the side of his mouth as he ran his brush over your abdomen a few more times perfecting his oceanscape. As he looked down at you his chest puffed with pride.

“See? No big deal.”

But it was a big deal. Between not being able to move beneath him and the gentle, wet strokes of his brushes you were trembling. Goosebumps lined your skin and your nipples had been so sensitive from when he painted them that every pass of cool air over the wet paint felt like the flick of his tongue and it was driving you insane.

“Was it horrible?” He grinned. Trailing his fingertip over the spots on your skin that had already dried. You shook your head silently as his hand reached the moist, heated fabric between your thighs. “Oh? I think you liked it quite a bit actually.”

You gasped as his fingers moved under the fabric of your panties and your back arched off the bed. Quickly his other hand was on your hip pushing you back down against the mattress.

“Don’t move.” He commanded, and your jaw dropped at the way his eyes moved over you, “It’s not dry yet. You don’t want to ruin it.”

-

Kihyun - Intelligence Fetish – Sexual arousal from intellectually stimulating conversation or debates.

Kihyun knew you were smart. It was one of the things that had immediately attracted him to you. Your intellect, your sense of humor, your good heart. He just hadn’t realized at first how much your intelligence attracted him to you, and the specific ways it affected him. He didn’t put much thought into the fact that after every debate over politics, every argument about some new scientific development or even little heated conversations about which group had a better comeback this week, he had to have you.

In fairness, though you were smart, you hadn’t put two and two together either. You always figured it was just adrenaline from another hot debate. The thrill of the argument maybe. That and the fact that Kihyun had, surprising to you when you first got together, a sex drive like a machine.

Realization hit him at a truly inopportune moment. The two of you had been having dinner out at a restaurant with Hyungwon and his most recent partner. The four of you had been in a mild conversation that was quickly turning into a heated, yet friendly, debate between you and Hyungwon. At first Kihyun just sat back, enjoying listening to your passionate opinions, agreeing with most everything you said. He was certain you were going to come out on top. You were so quick witted and clever. Even against a professional sass and back talker like Hyungwon.

As time passed, with every new point you brought up there was a new surge of blood to his dick until he was swollen and uncomfortable in his dress pants. He was a little confused by his arousal as you weren’t even arguing with him. He had no skin in the game. He didn’t really even care about what you guys were talking about if he was being honest. Still, here he was, wanting you. Needing you.

He adjusted himself in his seat and an accidental groan escaped his lips. You looked over at him and sighed.

“We should stop. This must be so boring for these two.” You said referring to your dates.

Hyungwon just shrugged, “Already giving up. I expected more from you, y/n.”

“Keep going.” Kihyun muttered from his seat. “Don’t stop.”

“Are you sure?�� Turning back to him you raised an eyebrow, “I feel bad. You haven’t exactly been involved in the debate.”

Reaching down you placed a kind hand on his thigh, this time both eyebrows shot up. He just nodded, “Please...destroy him.”

“Okay.” You said with a blush and turned back to your opponent.

It didn’t take much more time at all, maybe ten more minutes of excruciating fore play, before it was clear the argument was yours. Hyungwon conceded with his pride still intact. And the two of you laughed over the whole thing as Kihyun pulled his wallet from his too-tight pants. He stood up and pulled you to your feet, honestly he just needed to use you as a way to hide his obvious erection.

“I don’t mean to be rude, please don’t take it that way. I had a lovely night,” he said dropping a wad of cash on the table, “If that’s not enough let me know and I’ll get you more later but we need to leave. Now.”

With that he maneuvered you through the restaurant like a bank robber using a teller as a human shield.

You barely heard Hyungwon call out, “Thanks for dinner, Young Flexer!”

Luckily you did hear and you laughed. You laughed again as Kihyun pushed you a little more aggressively and said, “Please, just keep walking I can’t wait any longer.”

-

Jooheon - Wax Play – Play with dripping hot wax on the skin.

The power had been out all day. It felt like you’d been taken back to medieval times once your uncharged phones finally perished. Some of it was nice. Just being with your boyfriend, Jooheon. No interruptions, no social media, no work. It was just the two of you and some much needed alone time together.

He was already pretty turned on. You’d been grinding on his lap for about fifteen minutes worth of make out session by candlelight. He whined when you pulled away, releasing his thick swollen lip with a pop.

“Give me two seconds.” you said, “I really have to pee.”

“Hurry.” He begged.

“I will!” You promised and reached over hurriedly to grab one of the candles next to the couch to take with you to the dark bathroom.

When you turned to get off of him you did so with a little too much enthusiasm and some of the wax from the candle splashed out over the rim and splattered across his chest.

“Oh fuck me!” He cried out.

You stopped everything to tend to him. “I’m sorry, Honey! Oh my god, baby are you okay?”

He watched as you blew on the wax to try and cool it quicker so you could peel it off his skin and as you did he realized that it didn’t exactly feel that bad. It was mostly just shock from the unexpected.

You gently rubbed the pinked skin, and pressed sweet kisses against his chest. “I’m so sorry, Honey. Please forgive me!”

“Babe, it’s fine.” He chuckled lightly, “I’m okay. Just go to the bathroom. I swear I’m not upset, it doesn’t hurt.”

“I’m still so sorry.” You whispered, you were shaking at the sight of how pink his skin still was.

“You’re okay. I’m okay.” He reassured you, “Now go, and hurry back. Just carefully this time.”

You did as he said and disappeared from the room. When you did he gulped and looked over at the other candle burning on the side table before picking it up. He looked back towards the doorway and then quickly dipped his fingertip into the liquid. The sensation sent a pleasurable chill down his spine.

You’d just walked into the door after work a few days later, long after the power had come back on and everything went back to normal. You dropped your keys in the bowl by the door and kicked off your shoes. You were absentmindedly sorting through the mail from the mailbox when you noticed the bag on the counter.

Curious as a cat you peeked into the plastic bag and immediately your brow creased. It was candles. A lot of candles. Picking up the bag and dropping the mail you made your way into the bedroom where Jooheon was sitting up in bed, his laptop sitting on his legs and his glasses falling off his nose.

“Honey...” you said from the doorway.

He looked up and smiled at you. “Jagi.”

You lifted the plastic bag at your side, “Expecting a sudden surge of blackouts?”

He laughed and shook his head, “Did you know you have to use a low temperature burning candle for safe wax play during sex?”

“Excuse me?” you choked out.

“Do you want to try it with me?” He asked enthusiastically, his dimple digging deep into his cheek. How could you say no?

-

Changkyun - Exhibitionism - Becoming aroused by the idea of being seen by others, or by the thrill of being caught.

As long as you had known him and in every aspect of your relationship, Changkyun was a limit pusher. He liked to find your line between acceptance and disapproval and then just inch by inch see how far he could move it until he was really in trouble with you. This meant you were both incredibly comfortable with him at all times and uncomfortable, in general, most times. And the fact that he was a bit of an exhibitionist was not a surprise to you. He’d given you about a hundred  breadcrumbs along the path to what would be his eventual end game. 

When you first got together it was hand holding. Were you okay with light PDA? Then it was kissing. First on the hand or the cheek. Then gentle nuzzles against your neck, his leg over your lap. It was cute, you thought,  like a baby koala. Needy and clingy. You didn’t mind at all and everyone else in his life seemed used to the behaviors too.

Then he went a step further. Kissing in front of the others. Not cute, sweet kisses like before. Real kisses. Tongue between your teeth, irrepressible moaning, gentle groping. Kisses that left you flushed and frantically needing him alone afterwards. While he sat smugly beside you. Visibly unbothered by the heat bubbling between you and unconcerned about the disapproving eyes of his hyungs.

Next was a big leap. Miles outside of your comfort zone. Though, somehow, Changkyun had a charisma that made the discomfort more thrilling than anything else so you went with it. 

It was movie night  at the dorms and you’d been snuggled up together in the couch like usual. Changkyun had been whiny and needy all evening begging for you to feed him snacks while held onto you like a sloth on a tree branch. Sometimes it was sweet, when he held you. Warm and cozy. Somewhere about mid movie you could physically feel a shift in him. When you looked over to his face you saw the deviant look in his eye and the evil grin that crossed his lips.

You cleared your throat as he leaned in and kissed your clavicle. You’d been so distracted you didn’t even feel his hand snake between your bodies until it was much too late. You gasped loudly at a scene that absolutely didn’t call for it and several of the others turned to look at you in surprise. Changkyun gave his best sweet boy smile, and everyone went back to the movie.

“Don’t.” You murmured as his fingers teased your panty line.  

“Please.” he begged.

You let out a slow breath and nodded. With your permission he slipped his fingers between your slick lips. He dragged his wet fingers back up and rubbed them slowly against your hardened rosebud.

“Kyun...” you whispered, panicked, “they’re gonna know.”

“They don’t know shit.” He whispered back before leaving a loud smooch against your cheek and turning back to the movie.

You bit your lip hard as he pumped his fingers into you, the heel of his palm, pressing heavy against your clit. After a few minutes all it really took was looking over at the dark look in his eyes and you were putty.

Wide eyed you mouthed, “I’m gonna cum.”

With a broad, amused smile he mouthed back, “I know!”

He was laughing as your head rolled back, and your toes curled beneath the blanket you’d been sharing. At least for him the laughter went appropriately with the film. Once you’d ridden your orgasm out on his fingers he pulled his hand from between your legs and grinned mischievously.

“What are you doing?” You hissed.

“I want some popcorn...” he laughed reaching into the bowl.

“Oh my god.” You groaned, mortified, as he came back to snuggle against you.

“I love you.” He grinned.

“You’re evil.” you sighed in defeat before getting up to replace the popcorn.

[peppusae]

How to say 'I love you' without saying 'I love you' | Chae Hyungwon pt 1

part: 1 of 3

other parts:  pt 1 || pt 2 || pt 3

pairing: chae hyungwon x reader

genre: fluff, little slow-burn and angst, smut

word count: 5.6k words

note: i had a dream about this plot so i must write this because after this dream hyungwon became my bias wrecker and i cry about him every day since pls send help gbye

ugh i love him so much :(((

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How to say 'I love you' without saying 'I love you'

What’s every kpop fan’s goal in life?

To meet their idols, attend a concert, and attend a fan sign, right?

Some others... They aim higher than that.

And you’re one of those people.

In fact, you love k-pop so much that you found your career took a whooping turn and you ended up majoring in language, for the very simple fact that you could apply to join an entertainment company and be a staff/writer, the latter which makes you feel the proudest of yourself.

But life….

Life can be super mean sometimes. And you learn this the hard way, when you get rejected by SM entertainment - your first and actually the only choice because you are a major Shinee fan and life is just NOT fair at all!

One way or the another, after multiple applying, you finally get a good job in another company - Starship Entertainment.

Now, Starship was definitely not one amongst your top 5 agencies. But you always try not to let that affect your work - and over time, you come to love your job.

Especially when you get assigned as Monsta X’s writer and interpreter.

You find the members of the group very very appealing, all of them having their own charms.

Hyunwoo, who goes by the name Shownu and has an appetite that makes everyone giggle; He is such a soft-hearted soul and you really look up to him because he is always kind enough to give you a hand if he finds you doing something like lugging some boxes around, and would give the prettiest eye smiles when he gets a compliment.

Hoseok, who goes by the name Wonho and is probably the person you would sacrifice everything for; because of the heartwarming smile he has to offer, the way he continuously asks you to go through the comments he received on his vlives, and would politely request you to review what fans are saying about him on his posts.

Kihyun, who is very much Korean down to the bone with his extremely polite mannerisms and the way he always makes sure the staff - you included - are always eating as well; even if it’s a show about them. And also, the way he had once asked if he was your bias, and looked shocked to hear he wasn’t - and then continued to do things to get your attention and ask “Am I your bias now?” in the middle, like an idiot.

Jooheon, who also occasionally comes to you and asks for mini English lessons, and then gets bored after learning two or three new words - and then instead likes to chat about random things like the cats he owns, and your line of cacti which he, for some reason, is obsessed with, and your chats with Jooheon usually end with a compliment battle, and he always made you feel proud because he always says that chatting about normal things like that always inspires him a lot too.

Changkyun, who you consider as your bias wrecker because he keeps his own cool, stays in his own bubble and get things done, and doesn’t brag; instead, he’s very gentle, always the first person to notice if you’re sitting out in the lounge by yourself racking your brains for new content, and uses you as a guinea pig for testing out his lame new puns or pickup lines.

And then… Hyungwon, who doesn’t talk a lot when he’s with the rest of the group, but you found to be startlingly talkative when he’s doing a solo vlive or with only a few members like either Shownu or Wonho. In fact, you remember being wide-eyed when he continuously chatted with his fans on a vlive for a whooping 2 hours, and you can’t forget the precious and warm smile he had on his face when you said you liked seeing him so lively and talkative.

“I have a lot of things up my sleeve which you probably don’t know that much about, [Name]-ah.” He had said that time, and sometimes, you can see the way his eyes would filter through the staff during shows and land on yours, and smile at you.

And finally, Minhyuk, who was your absolute favourite out of the entire group, your bias because he gets along so well with everyone, always making everyone - including the staff - laugh, and would not hesitate to call anyone out if they’re doing something they shouldn’t. It makes you giggle, the way he would approach you in the middle of a variety show shooting they’re doing and ask if you were the writer of the show and how you had the audacity to make them walk around like lunatics. He acts like a crackhead like that, but you’ve grown to be so attached to him when you realized that, beyond his bright personality, he also is an insanely sweet person; You found this out when you had mentioned applying to SM entertainment because Shinee was your favorite group ever, and Minhyuk -even if he asked how dare you talk about other men in his presence - met up with Shinee while hosting a show and got the members to sign, and even got Kibum, your Shinee bias, to sign you a message inside their recent album.

Undoubtedly, Minhyuk was your favorite, for a good reason.

But still, to be put frankly, Hyungwon was the member that has your heart, for the simple reason that he was so unpredictable and has his own sense of humour and personality.

Since you got assigned to work with Monsta X, your life has been a messy tangle of fun, a normal day being you having a chat with Hyungwon and then getting interrupted by Minhyuk who would have zero filters and ask “Are you two dating?”, which causes the two of you to flush red for no reason, while Kihyun would overhear this and say “Huh?! You’re picking him to date but you don’t think of me as bias material?”.

The cycle would be endless, with Wonho laughing while watching the entire scene unfold, while Jooheon would join in with Minhyuk while Shownu would butt in and say “Minhyuk-ah, we have to go back to practise now tho,” and Changkyun sticking his head out from his dorm room and saying he still has 5 more minutes to finish the session of his favorite game.

You’ve grown to love this cycle and it doesn’t feel like a job, doing something you love with good people to work with, and life has been even easier after you got a dorm room within the building.

So, even if you had a roommate - and she’s nice, just not too close - things at Starship has been working out well for you.

Your daily chaos started simmering down a little once the pandemic hit, and all of the staff got confined to their rooms for work.

Because some of the shows you’re writing the scripts for are getting approved easily, you feel lucky to be one of the few staff who is now allowed to go alongside the members when they’re out for shows.

The times when you’re working from your dorm room, you feel so tired - perhaps missing the chaos you were so used to for the past couple years.

One day, you get a kakao chat from Hyungwon, asking if he can come over to discuss something with you.

It’s early in the morning - 8:15 am, and you’re half awake but you let him in, trying your hardest not to yawn too much in front of the member you considered the most attractive from the bunch.

Your roommate, Dawon, was kind enough to clean up the room a little bit when you said Hyungwon was coming over - and you said it on purpose because you knew she called Hyungwon her type and admits to having a teensy crush on him even though she knows it won’t work out anyways.

Hyungwon is wearing a caramel sweater and grey baggy sweatpants, and it always warms your heart to see the boys dressed in comfy clothes because they have to spend so much time wearing clothes that probably look good but not feel as comfy.

“Hyungwonnie, come on in!” You greet him, and he reacts with a chuckle and he always does that ever since you started calling him by that nickname after the day he said you should use casual language with him.

Hyungwon gives a little nod to your roommate in acknowledgement, and waits until you draw the curtain separating the room, before he speaks.

“I have a magazine shooting next month, and these are the set of questions they’re gonna ask me.” He says, putting the big envelope he had in his clutches on the top of your desk after he takes his seat. “I need help coming up with answers.”

Hyungwon was usually one of the few members who always comes to use the opportunity; the artists are free to ask the writers for help with answers they’ll give for their interviews, and Hyungwon always makes full use of the opportunity, and Shownu and Wonho occasionally drop by too, as well.

You’re always happy to be asked for help, but today, you find yourself sweat-dropping at the thought. You were so sleepy, the only reason you’re not dozing off is because you had forced yourself not to sit down.

“Why?”

“What?”

“You’re usually always excited when I ask for something like this, so why today?”

Ouch. Sometimes, much like you can read the boy’s faces and know what’s going on, they can sometimes do the same for you, too.

“Well, you see....”

“Have you been getting enough sleep?”

Double ouch. You knew the boys - at least, most of them - were good observers, but you didn’t expect Hyungwon to catch on so easily.

“I actually do get enough sleep, but these days, I feel extra sleepy for an hour or so after I wake up.”

This makes Hyungwon chuckle, putting the papers back inside the envelope and turning back to you.

“Welcome to the life of every human being. You sound like you’ve been babied too much.” He has to say, and you watch the way he gets up from his seat and places the envelope inside one of your drawers.

“Let’s get some breakfast.”

“W-What?!”

This makes the male raise an eyebrow, glancing around the room as if he was unsure if it really was you who said that.

“You’re acting as if we have never gone out for a meal together.”

“Well…” You say, because you’ve actually gone with him a couple of times over the four years you’ve been assigned to them.

That was probably because the boys enjoyed ordering in mostly, and eating at their own free times.

Anyhow, it was only a few times, so it definitely did surprise you.

“Okay. Where do we go?”

“I’m in the mood for some eggs and sausages, do you have anything you want to eat?”

“Hey, we’re gonna split the bill okay!?” You hurry to race Hyungwon outside, who goes out in a very knowing way, one that was like a deja vu of the times when he’d butt in when you’re trying to innocently pay for your delivered lunch tray and he’d ask to tab it over to him.

Kihyun was right, he really was different from the way most Monbebe actually looked up at him.

At the restaurant, Hyungwon takes his mask off only after you two are seated at one of the sectioned booths and have ordered your food.

“The pandemic isn’t good, but this is the only thing that I enjoy about it.” He admits, eyes going over to the lack of people inside the place which would usually be filled to the brim with office workers trying to grab a quick breakfast.

“This pandemic has made me a sleepyhead like you.”

“Hey!”

You find yourself smiling so hard around Hyungwon because during breakfast and after you had forcibly paid for you two, on your way back when he offers to buy you coffee - and even remembers your usual order - and the next two hours he spent with you while you helped him write answers and edit what he wrote, it really does not feel like he’s a celebrity at all; but more so as a close friend who makes you feel warm in ways you’ve never felt before.

“Why?”

You snap out from your little trance and go back to typing your script on the laptop, when he interrupts you.

“Why are you smiling? What kind of madness of a show are you writing now?!”

“Hey! Don’t accuse me of writing madness when your Monbebe loves it so much!”

“Yah, that’s too much! Our Monbebe will love us anyway even if you show them us being normal!”

You giggle, because really. When has Monsta X ever been normal?

---

The next day, right after you wake up, you’re working on the itinerary for Monsta X’s upcoming vacation show - a little too late, you had to admit, and that too, when you’re feeling so desperately sleepy like you’ve been feeling lately every morning.

Dawon had gone out to grab breakfast with some of the other staff, and you’re munching on your melon bread, knowing well that the espresso shot you’ve had just a while ago won’t last you for more than 15 minutes.

And it doesn’t.

In fact, you’re actually snoring when your phone rings loudly, making you lift your sorry face up from your laptop keyboard and answering as soon as you pick up the phone.

“Yes, Manager-nim? I’ll send you the itinerary in fifteen minutes!” You say the impossible, because your task in barely done, and you had a feeling you’d fall back onto the laptop keyboard the second the manager hangs up the call.

The sound of familiar chuckling makes you raise an eyebrow and glance at your phone, horrified to see Hyungwon’s name on the display.

“I need it in ten minutes, not fifteen.” He says in a heavy voice, and it makes you huff in embarrassment, glad that he couldn’t see you.

“Very funny, Hyungwon. What did you need?”

“Nothing. Just wanted to wake you up.”

“I was up!”

This makes him laugh yet again, and you sigh, typing on the keyboard as you think about what good excuse you can say.

“If you were up, you wouldn’t have thought I was your manager.”

You let out a little groan, connecting your headphones to the phone so you could multitask while speaking to the male.

“Really, now, Hyungwonnie, what did you really want? Is there something you wanted to ask again?”

“No, I really just called to wake you up.”

“Well. Isn’t that sweet of you.” You say, sarcastically.

The mini banter and sarcastic comments continue for about ten minutes, by which you’d even finished up the itinerary.

So, even if he did laugh at your sleepyhead behaviour - as if he could talk - you made sure to thank him before you go out to take the printouts and finish off your task.

---

And then, that becomes a ritual.

Hyungwon calls you every day at 8 am, right when you’ve signed in for work and are about to head to get some coffee.

He makes small talk with you, talks about little episodes he’d had, and listens to your ideas.

After the first week, you don’t feel sleepy even if you don’t get the coffee; and you don’t even get sleepy after he hangs up.

Every day, it feels like he’s prepared something new, because he makes you laugh so hard that your sleep completely vanishes.

In fact, after a couple of days, he searches up English songs on Genie Music and sings, butchering up a lot of the lyrics on purpose - you know it’s on purpose because Hyungwon has a really good pronunciation when he tries.

One day, you’re butchering up the lyrics of a song along with Hyungwon while you’re writing talk segments for Monsta X’s comeback showcase. Your roommate has been giving you funny looks recently, especially after she asked who was calling you every day and you couldn’t lie and told her it was Hyungwon.

The sudden sound of your door flying wide open and a blonde Lee Minhyuk barrelling into your room makes you stop your singing.

“Oh. So it was you, huh.” He has to say, making himself comfortable on your beanbag chair, and drawing the cloth partition between your room when Dawon - your roommate - keeps staring.

Really, Minhyuk does not know what filters are supposed to be.

“What do you mean?” You ask, and from your headphone, Hyungwon hears his friend’s voice, so he dismisses the call after saying he’ll see you again later.

“So it was you Hyungwonie has been getting up every morning to sing his heart out, huh?”

You stare at him, baffled. “Well, he does sing some normal songs, but he mostly sings crack-”

“He usually never wakes up on his own even if he has schedules, and now he has an alarm to call you every day? What, are you guys dating or something?”

“Yah, Minhyuk, what are you saying!!” You hiss, horrified, because the cloth partition does little to block out sounds from the other side.

“I always tell people if they like someone, to stop being so obvious and just ask them out. It’s easy!!”

“It’s not easy and omg shut up!! He’s just calling me because he’s waking me up, he’s just being kind!”

“Hyungwon never wakes up for us, he’s never kind to us, then! And he’s always still sleepy even if he wakes you up, because he goes straight back to bed after he wakes you up!”

You sigh out loud in frustration, shaking your head. “Come on. What did you want, Minhyukkie?”

Minhyuk gives you a knowing smile before he shakes his head, handing you the binded notebook he had in his clutches.

“You’ll give me a read-over, right? I told you about the radio-show I’m gonna start hosting in a few weeks, right? The concept is clear, but I have some topics I want to talk about and I made some scripts about how I could continue the talk.”

“You got it. I’ll need some time, though, how does Thursday sound?”

“Perfect. Thanks!” He gives you a flying kiss that makes you laugh, and then he’s out as fast as he came barreling in.

---

You expected Hyungwon to stop the calling after the confining to your room rule gets lifted up and you’ve started to go to the office for work.

But he doesn’t, and he sounds as if he’s never been as prepared before as he is now.

Even when the comeback is near and he must be practising into the late hours of the night, he never misses a single day.

A few days before the comeback, you find him having lunch with Shownu, and it’s the first time you’ve seen him in a while - and you hadn’t seen his new hair till then too.

For the first time in the four years you’ve been assigned to work with Monsta X, you take a good look at Hyungwon.

A really, really good look.

At first, he hadn’t noticed you, and while you’re refilling your water bottle with chilled water, you notice the way he’s smiling a little while he listens to what Shownu is saying. The way he uses his hand to brush the fringe of his hair he’s dyed blonde is attractive for the first time - and you’d always thought he was a really, really handsome young man… But this is the first time he looks so attractive that you feel like you’re in a daze, staring at him until chilled water fills up your bottle and pours on your fingers, finally catching your attention.

What gives?

The little yelp you let out makes both Shownu and Hyungwon glance over at you - noticing you for the first time. Hyungwon’s eyes go wide, the top of his palm going up to cover his mouth.

“Ah, [Name]-ah. How are you?” Shownu calls over to you, ever so naturally, and you greet him with a smile when it looks like he’s motioning for you to come over.

“I haven’t seen you in a while. Are you doing well?”

“I’m doing good, Hyunwoo-oppa. You guys must be working super hard for the comeback, right?” You say, glancing at Hyungwon, and for the first time ever, you think he’s actually… blushing ?!

It makes you flustered, thinking about what Minhyuk had talked to you about, while he accused you two of dating. Really, Minhyuk had no filters, it never fails to drive you insane sometimes.

“Yeah! You can expect a lot, please do support us a lot!”

You turn to look at Shownu, beaming at his friendly and charming smile before you excuse yourself and head back before you felt your head would explode.

Now, what the heck was that all about!?

Whatever it was, you were definitely going to blame Minhyuk for this!

---

It absolutely surprises you when Hyungwon doesn’t fail to call you, even the following morning.

You guess you had just imagined it in your head yesterday when Hyungwon looked flustered to see you.

Stupid Minhyuk! It was all in your head after all.

“Now that today’s dumb song segment is over,” Hyungwon says, after he sings a butchered up version of Pretty Please, “I’m gonna sing a song from our album!”

“Oh? Will that be okay?”

“Well, you’ll hear the album preview later today, so, why not?” He has to say. “It’s one of my favorites from the album.”

And then, he sings up to the second chorus of Beautiful Night - a song you fall in love with instantly, because the lyrics are so beautiful and Hyungwon sings as if he’s doing so with his whole soul. It almost makes your eyes teary, and you can barely tell him that you love it, before you have to excuse yourself with a little lie.

Since when did Hyungwon’s voice sound this emotional? It’s been over four years, but his voice has always been the same, beautiful voice as before. You open up Genie music, playing some of the older albums, listening to Hyungwon’s voice in the songs, and you feel like you’ve missed out this side of Hyungwon completely, this madly romantic side of him that sounds so sincere that it makes your heart race.

What is going on, seriously…

---

As the days pass by, the little tingle in your heart whenever you see or hear Hyungwon keeps on getting more and more painful.

In fact, by the end of Monsta X’s three-week promotions for Fantasia X, hearing Hyungwon singing songs for you become almost unbearably sad.

Despite having to wake up earlier, or even having to excuse himself in the middle of getting his hair and makeup done, he makes sure to call you - even if you’re sitting and listening to him when he’s in the same room as you are in.

You realize you can’t hold out your expressions if it’s in front of him, so you make sure to get up and go away somewhere when Hyungwon’s call arrives every day at 8 am on the dot.

It’s a warm Saturday morning, and you’re on your bed, your earpods on and listening to Fantasia X on Genie when Hyungwon’s call of the day arrives.

Today, it’s different.

Usually, he sings a trot song, or a really ugly version of an English song with the hopes of making you laugh so much that your sleep completely vanishes.

But today, he doesn’t say anything and immediately starts to sing soulfully; today, he sings Newton, one of your absolute favorite songs by the group, and…

The way he sings it is so, so sad .

Something inside your heart feels like it is burning, and unknowingly, your eyes brim with tears, because…

All the things Minhyuk had told you, all the things you’ve been thinking about Hyungwon lately, all the little glances he sends your way and then looks away when he sees you’re watching…

You feel your emotions going haywire, and your wishful thinking makes you start crying and you pray to god that Hyungwon, who’s singing the chorus so beautiful and sincerely does not notice.

It’s almost unbearable, and you take off your earpods and have him on speaker, thankful that he doesn’t notice you’ve reached for tissues to wipe your tears.

Since when did I start feeling this way about him?

How can I think this way about one of the members I work for?

Why does Hyungwon sing as if he’s singing just for me, and only me?

Why does it feel like we are never able to meet eyes now?

You have so many questions and no answers, and your hands are shaking as you try to press record on your phone because he sounds so, so beautiful and your crying is not helping you in focusing on his sincere singing.

It is at this moment that the door to your room flies open, and your roommate, Dawon enter the room, then freezes when she sees you crying.

“What’s going on?!”

You’re only able to hand over the phone to her, and mumble a little “Please record it for me” through your sobs.

Dawon looks very confused, raising an eyebrow when she looks at the receiver and sees that it is Hyungwon, on the call.

At that moment, Hyungwon wraps up his singing, clearing his throat a little and speaks for the first time today.

“[Name]-ah.”

You find yourself sniffling, glancing at Dawon who looks visibly upset now… and you can’t even blame her…

“[Name]-ah.” He calls your name again, and this is one of the things that makes you sad in regards to Hyungwon, because… He is a member of Monsta X, one of the manlier groups in the industry for sure, but… He’s so gentle and sweet, a kind-hearted soul, and he does not lack in anything, as he has proudly claimed so.

Even the way he calls your name out is so gentle that it makes more tears stream down your face, and you’re almost scared at how to answer whatever Hyungwon would ask from you.

“[Name]-ah. I have something I have to tell you, in person.”

Your eyes meet with Dawon, who now looks wide-eyed, and you were sure you would probably look the same.

“I… I have to tell you this in person, so, if you… If you’re willing, would you like to… go for dinner with me today?”

More tears stream down your face, and now you know you can never look Dawon in the eyes either so you bury your face on one of your pillows, heart aching too much to do anything else.

“Hyungwon-ssi.”

Dawon speaks into the speakerphone, and it makes you glance at her, wondering what she was going to say.

Hyungwon replies with a loud ‘Huh?’ in confusion.

“Hyungwon-ssi, I’m sorry, but [Name] is outside and she left her phone here.”

Dawon looks at you, lips pressed into a thin line. You feel so uneasy, and it felt like Hyungwon felt the same, because he starts to stammer.

“Wh-Wha? What?! If [Name] wasn’t the one who answered, then wh- Whaaaaa!” You hear a loud whine before the call gets disconnected with a quick mumble of “Sorry!”.

Dawon hurls the phone at your bed, and leaves the room without a word, and it pains your heart so much that you feel like you’ll die.

A text message pops up on your phone a little while later and seeing the text makes you feel a little dizzy, even.

‘If you’re freely going to allow other people to roam through your phone even, I don’t think I have any other choice but to come to see you right away.’

What?

Wait, does he mean-

You hurry to grab your phone and iPad, wiping your face as best as you could and going out of your room. You find Minhyuk and Kihyun using the Xbox in the lounge, so you quietly take a seat near them, greeting them and opening up your iPad without another word.

“[Name]-ah, why do you look so weird?”

“Yah, Minhyuk, how can you say something so rude?!”

You shake your head and give a weak smile at the two, opening up your notepad and leaning against the couch.

A moment passes by, and Minhyuk moves closer to you on the couch, so close that you actually move a little back as well.

“What?”

“I finished my game with Kihyunnie. So. Why? Why do you look so sad? Did Hyungwonie hurt you?”

Now, you’ve been doing a good job of not crying since you got out of the room, but seeing Minhyuk’s worried face and then remembering Hyungwon’s words - along with Minhyuk hitting a bullseye right away… All of that combine together and it makes you start to cry again.

“Wha? Hey?!” Minhyuk looks very startled, and he usually never looks surprised like he doesn’t know what to do, but today he looks like he’s at a dead end, and you allow him to grab your hand and tell Kihyun he’ll be right back, before he hurries to drag you over to the other end of the lounge near the vending machines.

“Yah, what is going on with you lately? Hyungwon really said something mean to you, didn’t he? Sheesh. Acting like he’s in love with you and then making you cry like this? I didn’t expect him out of everyone to behave this way.”

The more Minhyuk spoke, the worse you felt, and you’re barely able to ask him if he could be kind enough to leave you alone for a second when you hear a familiar voice calling your name.

“[Name]-ah…. Minhyuk-ah?!”

You and Minhyuk glance up to see Hyungwon approaching you, and you hurry to take your hand away from Minhyuk’s clutch.

Really, Hyungwon couldn’t have caught a worse timing.

Minhyuk shoots you a sad look, then gets up from his seat, goes to say something to Kihyun, then the two of them leave while Kihyun glances at you with a worried look on his face. You can’t get yourself to look at Hyungwon, so you’re looking at your hands, fingers fumbling while Hyungwon stands in his spot in front of you, not saying a single word.

More tears fall down your face when you remember Minhyuk’s words - and how wrong was he to assume the worst from the sweetest person you know, and it pains your heart because you knew if you looked in his eyes, you wouldn’t be able to stop crying.

“Why?”

Hyungwon says a single word, and honestly, that was the only thing you didn’t have an answer for.

Why were you crying?

You didn’t know.

Why can’t you look at Hyungwon?

You had no clue.

Why did Minhyuk know right away?

That too, you didn’t know at all.

Why can’t you answer him?

You had no reason.

So instead, you find tears streaming down your face, and you wish you could leave, but you felt like you owed Hyungwon at least this much, to hear what he had to say even if you felt like something was cutting through your heart.

“Stand up.”

It’s the first time you’ve heard him ask you to do something in that voice, an angry, impatient voice you’ve never imagined you’d ever be on the receiving end for.

“[Name]-ah.”

You hum in response, eyes on the ground. Hyungwon lets out an exhale and you can feel your hands trembling because it’s while you’re looking at his shoes with an aching heart, that you realize something you’ve been wishing so hard was not true.

You were in love with Chae Hyungwon.

Out of completely nowhere, so naturally.... You were so madly in love with Chae Hyungwon; so much that looking at him now would be too much to take, now.

“You heard everything I said, didn’t you?”

Now, that’s something you didn’t expect to hear from him. He had sounded so worried and embarrassed on the phone so you didn’t think he would have any suspicious, but here he was, showing you that he certainly did.

It makes you look up at his face for the first time today, and it pains your heart.

It paints your heart, because he’s wearing clothes with a lot of creases - something he’s been wearing to sleep, and he has on a beanie that covers most of his messy-looking hair, and he’s looking at you with puffy eyes and a frown that hurts so much to look at.

You couldn’t bear to look at him anymore so you shake your head in response. Hyungwon looks visibly disappointed, like he knew right away that you were lying. You think he has something more he wants to say, because his lips part a little… And then, he lets out a sigh and shakes his head as well.

“If you are this burdened by how I feel, then…” Hyungwon’s voice trails off, taking a step back and then turning around. You watch the way he walks out of the lounge without a word, and if you felt like you’d never been more hurt before, you were completely wrong, because nothing pained your heart more than watching the male leave like that, as if he had so much to say and couldn’t…. Just like how you felt while you sink back on the couch and cry your heart out.

And from that day onwards, Hyungwon doesn’t call you again.

-----

[bausbitch]

Different music tastes

Reid x kpop Stan! reader

Crack and fluff ig idk lmfao

Lmfao I'm writing this on my phone and it's one am but fuck it 🤪🤩

In which Spencer's s/o //read: you// likes kpop 🤪

!!! Gif not mine I also don't know where I got it just check Pinterest!!!

You were,,, in fact,,, a kpop stan

And so were most of you friends

But your bf, none other than doctor spencer reid,,,, was not

He didn't know when he started dating you

In fact

He didn't know until you moved in 2 yrs later

So it was a big surprise for him

When you came in to your newly bought shared apartment with a box

"Hey honey I got the last of my stuff I'll unpack it later I'mma take a shower" - you, right before disaster

Ok so before the shitshow lemme explain how y'all met

You were, in your humble opinion, Garcia's best sibling

And you were kinda funky too

Y'all shared the same energy yknow???

And so one day

You went to bring her food

And the bau was in the middle of staying overnight for a case

So you were like

I'll be the best sibling™

And bring everyone food

So when you walked in there at like

What

3 am???

Chewing gum by none other than my boys nct dream in your headphones and a nakamoto mf yuta photo card in the back of your phone

Can you tell they're my ult group???

You looked like a h*cking angel with bags of take out as wings

They greeted you v v nicely

The young doctor

Who you so happened to be the same age as

Paid a lil bit extra attention to you

And blushed a lot

But he

Omg poor boy

Noticed

FREAKING

Christopher bang from stray kids

As your wallpaper

And he thought he was your bf

Ugh I wish

And he asked he was like

"Your boyfriend seems nice"

He asked bc like

You are so fine and he can't not talk to you

And Penelope was like

"Pfft! She wishes!" P, before you kicked her leg under the table

Spencer was like

Huh???

Wym wishes???

But he wrote it off and kept talking to you

And then you fell in love

Once in a while you'd call him crying at 3 am

Probably because of a comeback you weren't prepared for

Or because you missed him

Probably the first one

Ok an e WAYS

Remember the box???

Yeah

That was your merch

Ok maybe it wasn't just one box

But you had like

Put that in other boxes

So you could be discreet

Shhh

Don't be suspicious

But that box in particular

Had like

Your photo card album

And like

A few of your most precious albums

And maybe like the mamamoo lightstick??

Ok ok ok I'm getting ahead of myself

While you were singing to something Spence couldn't hear because of ✨shower noises✨

Probably like fancy by twice or something

He was like

"Oh hey let me surprise them by helping them unpack this mysterious box" - doctor genius

When he opened the box omg

There was an album that looked pretty normal

And he was like

Aww my baby's memories :(!!

So he opened it

And bam

Chaeyoung from twice

Xiaojun from wayv/nct

Yeji from itzy

Taeyong from nct

And a bunch of other hot Asian people

Staring back at him

And while he may be a genius

Ya boy didn't know much about Korean pop

So he

Omg

He thought you knEW ALL THESE HOT PEOPLE

And he was

Astonished

To say the least

He saw wonho from Monsta X and he was like

*woah he's hot"

Bisexual reid is cannon stfu 😤

But then he realized how ripped he was

And he's like

Damn

I'm skinny skinny

But he was like

Yeah but they knows him

But

They're dating ME

Que dramatic hair flip

And he kept flipping and he was like

My baby knows so many people wow

So he put that off to the side

And kept looking

And then hoe found the lightstick

HE THOUGHT IT WAS A VIBRATOR

SO HE WAS LIKE

"Uuuuhhhhhhhh-" While shoving it back into the box

And then he saw the albums and he was like

He didn't open them though

NCT???

Maybe a cult or smth

2 times????

Twice

Lost children????

Stray kids Spence honey please focus

Isn't red velvet a cake flavor

Peekaboo is a game

Love talk???

So he looked it up

Big mistakes

Why?

Because the song he looked up

Was LOVE TALK BY WAYV

If you don't know the song

Lmfao how'd you get this far

Some of the songs very colorful lyrics include

"Touch me, tease me, feel me up" WayV, 2019

Spence was

To say the least

Very flustered

And ya boy was like

Wtfwtfwtf

Who are these people

My so knows famous people

Uhhh

And has a photo album of them

Umm

I'm proud ig???

And so you walk out

And you're kinda like

Surprised Pikachu

When you see him

With the box open

And you both look at each other and he goes

"It's actually more common to meet a celebrity when you don't actually know who they are"

And you start WHEEZING

And he's like

Huh

And you're like

"Did you think I know all those people???"

And he's like

"Well yeah you have a very well put photo album of their selfies and they're albums and I recognize two of them from the back and wallpaper of your phone the night we met"

And you explain

Kpop

Biases

And all that stuff

And he's like

"So what's that green vibrator thing?"

And you're like????

Then he motions to the lightstick and you laugh once again

And you're like

"We bang those around at concerts to show love and stuff"

And so you go on

With life

And you guys even end up going to a concert together

It's an ateez concert

And he's very surprised when the crowd yells

"Bad bitch Puerto Rican" Out of nowhere

And at the office he's even funnier

"Did you know there's a Korean boy group with 21 men in it? They're called NCT, neo culture technology and-"

AND JJ IS LIKE

"what the hell is he talking about"

And Penelope's like

"Yn why must you do this"

And you're like

"He figured it out on his own ok he opened my box 😤"

LMFAO WHAT GOES THROUGH MY BRAIN

Also!!! My requests are open and I only do bullet stories!!!!

[xxbluestrifexx]

My Top 10 Japanese Releases

10th: Everlasting Shine - TXT

- such a bop

- perfectly suits the boys and their vocals

- also it’s anime opening meaning it is 1000x more epic than before

- the chorus is so impactful I love it so much

- it took two listens for this song to make itself on this list

- choi line really came for my neck with their vocals (kai killed it too with the vocals in the chorus)

- please listen to this track it is so awesome omg stan txt

9th: Bibouroku - Got7

- a chill vibe song

- I didn’t even know they had a japanese album but this song slaps and suddenly I play it constantly

- the beat is really catchy, like the fact it stays constant is really cool

- mark’s rap is so chill, I love it, same with bambam’s

- YUGYEOM’S REGISTER WORKS SO GOOD FOR THIS SONG

- so does Jaebeom’s (all of their vocalists pop off)

- listen to love loop cowards, especially bibouroku

8th: Electric Kiss - EXO

- HYPE HYPE HYPE HYPE

- I love this album so much guys I can’t

- electric kiss is literally one of EXO’s best title tracks (the fact that it got a short mv pisses me off)

- kyungsoo, kai, baekhyun vocals *chefs kiss*

- Chanyeol’s rap is epic I love it

- in conclusion I listen to this song 7393727374x a day and you should too

7th: Tattoo - The Boyz

- iconic Japanese debut

- anytime sunwoo opens his mouth y’alls ears are blessed

- prechorus is the best thing ever

- NEWS VOCALS DURING THE CHORUS SLAP BEST MAIN VOCAL EVER

- the styling is also epic- we love green and black

- the mv is gorgeous

- kevin & Jacobs bridge parts (all of the bridge tho)

- seriously tho, sunwoo’s rap is literal fire

- yalls rappers could never

- STAN TBZ

6th: Breakthrough - TWICE

- first listen I fell in love; this song got me into twice

- the music video is so aesthetic I love it

- the outfits are so pretty I can’t (twice is so pretty I can’t)

- I love the chorus a whole lot especially nayeon & jihyo’s parts

- CHAEYOUNG OMG

- THE SASS- THE RAP- THE HAIR

- I’m wrecked I love her

- This song was so good and I feel like it was just overlooked when it’s so iconic

- the last chorus with no bass line is amazing omg I can’t get enough of this song

- listen to breakthrough for clearer skin

5th: TOP - Stray Kids

- imma be real honest with y’all this track would’ve been first if I didn’t like the korean track more

- this song is literally perfection

- the choreo is so satisfying to watch, especially the chorus parts I love them

- the mv is so cool and clearly had a lot of time and effort put into it

- I love the track- the raps are so good per usual

- also tower of god is one of my favorite WEBTOONs ever so when I found out stray kids was doing the tracks for the anime I screamed

- idk what else to say this track literally should be first except the other four exist and I like the korean version more :///

4th: Call Call Call! - SEVENTEEN

- this song dropped right when I’d finished memorizing SVT; I watched the mv on repeat all morning while I got ready for school

- the mv is so well done from the styling to the locations to the stunts and acting

- I love the choreography as well- Hoshi and their choreographer come up with the best and most fitting dances for their tracks

- vocals and raps were on point (that beginning though)

- THE BRIDGE

- MINGHAOS MULLET

- so many things I love about this entire era that I had to put it fourth

3rd: Breaking Down - Day6

- again the first day6 that came out when I was first getting into their music

- I’m a huge fan of rock music in general so the beat and hard rock aspects of the song were very satisfying

- also the lyrics are so awesome

- I love the second chorus when young k is singing his heart out and then Jae comes in just as strong

- “find my pieces and put me into one” I FELT THAT

- also the non vocal bridge slaps

- I love my emo Japanese rock music

2nd: Don’t Leave Me - BTS

- do I really need to explain why this song is on this list

- this songs lyrics are so meaningful I cry every time

- the vocal line being powerful as fuck during the chorus is so iconic

- jungkook’s pre chorus makes me so emotional his voice is so good I love him mom

- I love EDM and this song satisfies a lot of those needs

- the bridge leading into the high note is epic

HONORABLE MENTIONS:

- DREAMCATCHER - I Miss You

- BTS - Your Eyes Tell

- SEVENTEEN - Fallin’ Flower

1st: Livin’ It Up - Monsta X

- yes this is my number one don’t judge me

- there is not an Mx song that I dislike

- to start, this mv is fantastic omg like wow

- the vocal line sounds so good especially their falsettos

- changkyuns rap is so iconic I love it especially the choreo during his rap

- I love Kihyunn and Minhyucks parts during the chorus (hyungwon too my bb)

- the best part is the bridge between Jooheon and changkyun

- that last chorus where the instruments back off UGH

- stream living it up

[silvertae]

sorry this looks like a mess  @jeonjunghoseokook​ tagged me moons ago to post the albums of 2020 that got me through the year!! thankfully without a limit.....bc i had the hardest time narrowing it down lmao anyway thanks sally~

since i procrastinated on this and haven’t been online much idk who has/hasn’t done this :( i’m just gonna throw out some names in hope that some of you were waiting for a chance to share your music taste: @taemines​ @clouds​ @daechwitamv​ @holy-yeosang​ @leeminos​ @kihyunsgf​ @yutaphoria​ @hosnack​ @softesthobi​ @mainvocaljin​ @jeongookie​

the albums are listed in chronological order since i wanted to waste time and i also thought it’d be a good idea to spend 2 hours briefly listing the albums and recommending their b-sides/why they made my cold heart feel emotion:

Dreamcatcher: Dystopia: The Tree of Language i’m obsessed with them...the only thing this album is missing is handong :/ recommend: In the Frozen & SAHARA

BTS: Map of the Soul: 7 there’s a lot going on here but it made my 2 hr commute to school bearable recommend: Black Swan & Interlude: Shadow

DPR LIVE: IS ANYBODY OUT THERE? PLEASE sit down and just listen to the album from the beginning to end. ugh recommend:  GERONIMO! & OUT OF CONTROL

HA:TFELT: 1719 yeeun is the reason why i started listening to kpop way back in 2007 lol i’m so happy she released another full album after so many years!! the first song hurts on a personal level and i just love her i guess idk what else to say recommend:  Satellite & Sweet Sensation

Day6: The Book of Us: The Demon day6 have never released a bad song......and zombie plays in my head everyday recommend:  Love me or Leave me & 1 to 10

TXT: The Dream Chapter: Eternity i didn’t listen to anything else when this came out to the point that i was nervous my neighbors might get concerned recommend: Fairy of Shampoo & Maze in the Mirror

NCT 127: NCT #127 Neo Zone: The Final Round nct 127 held my hand through spring midterms and finals......actually  recommend:  NonStop & Boom

Agust D: D-2 this came out right before my birthday and i was so annoying about it recommend:  28 & People

Baekhyun: Delight no one does it like him 😤 recommend:  Bungee & Underwater

WAYV: Awaken the World i’ll admit the last song isn’t my jam but the REST is legendary  recommend: After Midnight & Electric Hearts

WOODZ: EQUAL from his uniq days til now i’ve been a little in love but this album sealed it recommend: Accident & NOID

A.C.E: HJZM : The Butterfly Phantasy 🗣MY FAVORITE BOYS ARE BACK. look no further-- they have all the talent recommend:  Baby Tonight & Clover

TAEMIN: Never Gonna Dance Again : Act 1 i wanted to cheat and also put act 2 :( anyway criminal deserved more recommend: Black Rose & Clockwork

STRAY KIDS: IN生 (IN LIFE) not joking this one takes the cake for most listens....god’s menu saved my 2020....i’m still obsessed and want nothing but the best for these kids recommend: Any & We Go

Monsta X: FATAL LOVE this was my driving music for like a month lmao recommend: Night View & Sorry I’m Not Sorry

Honorable mentions:  ATEEZ - TREASURE EPILOGUE: Action to Answer | MAX (Changmin) - Chocolate | TWICE - Eyes Wide Open | CIX - HELLO Chapter 3: Hello, Strange Time | KAI - KAI (开)  

+ so many more but i don’t want to be super annoying hohoho

[adonis-koo]

Hi um, this is for the anon that was talking about their friends that wouldn’t treat them the way a friend SHOULD. I really hope that things work out for you and your friends. Something similar happened to me today, well, not similar but it made me remember it. Today someone I considered a “friend” posted on their Snapchat story that if they’re a kpop stan to unfollow them, so me being someone that stands up for myself and what I like and hates being disrespected, I swiped up commenting “say no more” and unfriended him immediately. I’m going to be honest, it really hurt, cause even though our friendship was drifting apart anyways, we were close at one point and he KNEW that I liked kpop. He also has mentioned before how much he hates it, even though I never mention unless someone brings up the topic of music and I mention what I like, or if someone asks me what I’m listening to or watching. And also HE HIMSELF would bring it up 🙄 I’m not someone that mentions kpop all time. I’m the kind of person that you would have absolutely NO IDEA that I stan kpop unless you see my phone (cause of my photo card and lock screen) or if I mention it. My “friend” didn’t know I liked kpop so we were perfectly fine, until I mentioned it and that’s when I knew how much he despised it. He said I was “chill” though so he didn’t mind, but he would still talk VERY negatively about it and the community (even though I have to admit that I even get annoyed by kpop stans sometimes). So after I unfollowed him I posted this on my story

So today I officially lost a friend 🤷🏻‍♀️

I’m about to get deep and emotional right now so... yeah. In January I lost my best friend. I kinda saw it coming so I wasn’t as fazed by it but it still hurts. Our friendship didn’t end cause of kpop, but it was still one of the problems.

First let me state that I was NOT the problem. I didn’t mention kpop cause I knew how much she DESPISED. Like, you can FEEL the hatred she has for it. Whenever I would mention it she wouldn’t interrupt me or tell me to shut up, she would still listen which is something I respect from her. But after I would finish, she would bluntly disrespect kpop and talk SO MUCH SHIT and say the most negative stuff and talk badly on the idols and call them so many names (ok now I’m crying) KNOWING how much I LOVE kpop cause not only do I watch or listen to it for entertainment but it’s also my COPING MECHANISM. Whenever I feel down or I feel like screaming or hitting something I go to kpop. Whenever I argue with my family (which happens frequently) I go to kpop. She KNOWS it, so her disrespecting something I use to COPE with never sat well with me. We’re still friends, but our BEST friendship is lost so I’m glad that I don’t have to go through that anymore. Not gonna lie, I miss going to her to talk about my deepest thoughts, but I did what was best for ME.

So now I’m going to tell you, anon, this. Don’t be friends with someone that disrespects you and what you like. It’s going to be hard, trust me, as you can tell from my experience, but in the end it’s going to be worth it. You can end it completely, or just distance yourself, do what you think is right and what is BEST for YOU.

(also UGH! just started playing so now I feel powerful typing this out 😅).

Now this is to EVERY kpop stan that sees this.

DO NOT feel burdened with liking something that your closest friends don’t like, something different. Yeah almost the whole world is against kpop and us kpop stans, but we’re STRONG, DETERMINED, and PROUD. WE like what WE like. WE cope with what WE cope with. WE find HAPPINESS in KPOP and that’s what a lot of people don’t notice, but (excuse my language) FUCK THEM

WE ARE KPOP STANS

WE SUPPORT AND DEFEND OUR IDOLS

WE SUPPORT AND DEFEND THEIR CULTURE

and even though they don’t personally know us

THEY LOVE US AND APPRECIATE US

Idols KNOW what we international stans go through and they ALSO give us their thanks and encouragement

So again, don’t feel sad or burdened for being and liking something different

Sorry guys, I didn’t plan on making this so long 😅 I really hope I helped anon with this long ass submission, we’re all here for you ☺️

And now I will end this with the words of Im Changkyun (I.M from MONSTA X)

“These people who think kpop is a bad thing, LETS MAKE THEM SHUT UP”

“... there’s lots of people, like kpop haters, well let the haters bark, I don’t even care about it”

Peace out 😗✌🏼

[fromzerotoeuphoria]

i’m watching a video of someone reacting to Middle of the Night by the loves of my life Monsta X...and i’m literally about to cry because of how beautiful they are and how beautiful the song is and how heartbreakingly gorgeous Wonho’s voice is and stunning shownu looks and ugh i just miss them so much.

[kebinwooo]

tagged by @theyoungflexer! sorry for taking so long! school has been absolutely kicking my butt :(( anyways i both loved and hated this bc i can wordvomit about all the kpop groups i listen to but then also i had to cut down a lot bc if i were to ACTUALLY write down everything, it would go on for like twenty pages lmao (and bc of that everything will be under the cut; i promise it didn’t reach twenty pages tho!)

— fandoms:

kissme, carat, monbebe, wenee, unme, myday and i partway stan a bunch of other groups: currently a baby fuse, choice, insomnia, fantasy, tomoon, goldenness (and so so so many others)

— ult bias(es):

kevin from ukiss! except he’s somewhat fallen out of favor for junyoung of ukiss recently lol also joshua ^^ (BUT NEVER IM CHANGKYUN 😤)

— ult group(s):

ukiss (ULT OF ULTS; FOREVER AND ALWAYS), seventeen and monsta x 

— other groups/soloists:

WONHO!!!!!!!! (/chants WOLO) but again if i were to list all the groups/soloists i love and follow and listen to, this would go on forever. here’s a small preview tho: eric nam, ailee, day6, onf, oneus, a.c.e, dreamcatcher, sf9, the rose, unb (missing them ;;), kard, golden child, pentagon, mamamoo, got7, teen top, infinite, b.a.p (also missing them ;;), vixx, the legend (ugh missing them too), royal pirates (MISSING THEM MOST), and honestly just about any 2nd/early 3rd gen kpop group. i also stanned a lot of nugu groups before like 2015. basically you name them, i most likely stanned them at one point or another LOL

— biggest wreckers:

literally everybody in svt and mx LMAO but also leedo from oneus makes me feel many things 😳 and junhee from a.c.e 😳 and brian from day6 😳 also wyatt from onf is my favorite emotional support himbo LOL (again this is what i got off the top of my head... i’m sure theres more)

— favourite songs:

OH BOY. I WILL TRY MY BEST TO LIMIT IT TO MY ABSOLUTE FAVES

ukiss: someday, neverland, 0330, standing still, tick tack, heartless, stop girl, one of you, a shared dream, one call away /trying to refrain from listing half their discography/ also including junyoung's solo songs: phenomenal world, curious about u, be your man

seventeen: pinwheel, kidult, good to me, snap shoot, call call call, run to you, clap, highlight, pretty u

monsta x: lost in the dream, destroyer, mohae, stuck, livin’ it up, dramarama, stand up, by my side, misbehave, beside u, she’s the one (also since i still consider wonho part of mx even tho he’s solo now) open mind!

day6: love me or leave me, colors, sweet chaos, days gone by, shoot me, letting go, you were pretty, congratulations, man in a movie, i smile, dance dance (and basically the rest of their discography LOL)

unb: black heart, feeling, dancing with the devil, only one

the rose: sorry, black rose (/SOBBING), she’s in the rain, red (i also love sammy’s/woosung’s face... like the song but i do like his face as well LOL)

— favourite albums:

again so many.... so i’ll just do my absolute faves again

ukiss: neverland album (SO GOOD UGH), also their stalker album was pretty good, i also really liked their one shot one kill album BUT ITS NOT ON SPOTIFY AND IT GOT TAKEN DOWN FROM YOUTUBE SO I’M SAD. WHY IS IT SO HARD TO ACCESS JAPANESE MUSIC ARGHHHH

monsta x: take 1. are you there is the queen. all about luv is good too. and even tho it hurts me, i also really like follow: find you

seventeen: an ode THE ULTIMATE QUEEN. but i also really like al1 and teen,age too

day6: EVERY SONG OF THEIRS IS A NO SKIP FOR ME SO EVERY ALBUM IS A FAVE. but if i had to choose: the book of us: entropy, the book of us: the demon and sunrise. 

also an honorable mention to sf9 bc i listened to their entire discography like two months ago and i realized they had some absolutely solid music as well. their 9loryus album has been on REPEAT

— kpop doppelganger:

lmao definitely none but i relate a lot to hyungwon LMAO also i have the same birthday as ft island’s seunghyun but hes like a lot weirder than me LMAO 

—

if you made it this far, thank you so much for reading!! it really took a lot of self-restraint to not write EVERYTHING i like but this still ended up so long lmao.... anyways tagging @xfirebenderx, @bookwan and @nebulouswaters but don’t feel pressured to do this! 

[drabblingnonsenseofthings]

Best Friends

A/N: I’m just a drabble writer! Something small and quick to get off my mind and something to share with the fellow fans of the fandom :) I hope you do enjoy! I do not take any requests! Since I drabble on my current obsessions :)

Ignore any grammar mistakes, I got lazy.

Super cliche but you can’t stop me 8D

Best Friends

Kihyun/Reader Word Count: 2700+

Breakups are hard. Especially if since it was a one sided breakup. That's why you're glad to have a best friend to comfort you when you're down in the dumps over some guy who decided to break your heart.

"Thanks Kihyun. I definitely needed someone today. I just don't understand why he decided to do that. Am I not enough?" You groaned and curled into Kihyun's embrace on the loveseat in your apartment. “He just doesn’t see what I see, okay. He’s losing a great woman. His loss.” Kihyun said as he holds you closer.

You and Kihyun are both curled up on the couch binging a show on Netflix together. The one thing you normally do when you’re heartbroken. Also one of the rare times he has to see you when he’s not traveling around the world for his tour and promotions. This was weeks before he had to start Monsta X’s world tour. You loved the days that you both can do nothing but binge a show and relax. He’s an idol. And you’re busy with your work life. 

“Screw him. All I need is you, Kihyun. Plus you’re leaving me for like three months, how could you. I need to have all my Kiki time I can get before I won’t see your face for so long. How am I going to even last.” You whined and hold him tighter. You felt him laughing. “You should come to one of the shows then. You already went to the first show, why not the last US show? Cause I’ll miss your face too.” He said while playing with the ends of your hair. “If I got the time, I will. But otherwise you need to keep messaging me every day and send what you’re eating cause no matter what I’m going to get jealous for going overseas.” You were jealous of Kihyun being able to go everywhere and eat everything.

“Wow, you’re getting jealous of me cause of the food? Woooow.” He threw out an exasperated sigh. “I’m jealous of the food. You’re not going to even miss me.” He pouted. “Nah. Of course I’m going to miss you. But real talk. I’m jealous that you get to eat food. Speaking of food, we should eat something. We’ve potato’d long enough.” You got up from Kihyun’s arms and pulled out your phone.

“Should we order food? Chicken?” 

-

Kihyun left for his World Tour. You were definitely lonely without your best friend. It’s like a giant void. He does try and keep you updated on where he’s at. You would talk at odd times of the day when you can. He tells you that when they got to Europe, Hyungwon fell sick. He told you everything and sent photos in mass loads when he can. The thing he never forgets is to say, “Good Morning” and “Good Night”. 

What did you deserve to have a Kihyun in your life?

Within the month he was gone, you tried to fill the void he left. Such as going out on dates again. You were still sad about the last break up but life moves on, so do you. 

The new dates never prevailed though. You kept comparing your date to Kihyun. This was one of the longest times he had to leave without coming back. 

After a month of him leaving this time around, you realized. You were in love with your best friend. You fell for the most typical thing. Falling in love with your best friend.

And magically you decided to just book a ticket to Los Angeles, after begging your boss for a week off. You wanted to surprise him by showing up at the concert. You kept in contact with the one person who can hold a secret, Changkyun. He helped you get the concert ticket being as sly as he can be to get a backstage pass for you. 

Changkyun helped you fully realize what your feelings were towards Kihyun. And he fully supported it. Changkyun also kept you updated on Kihyun as well. How he does become sad when he misses you. He talks a lot about you when you both are apart from each other.

-

The concert day arrived. You arrived at the venue early to meet up with Changkyun before soundcheck. They did rehearsals the day before. After meeting up with Changkyun, he sat you down for a little bit.

“I’m not sure if hyung said anything to you last night. But he fell in rehearsals and fractured his ribs. He probably didn’t say anything to you because he didn’t want to worry you.” Changkyun told you quietly. You stared at him like he had three heads. “.... That idiot. No, he didn’t say anything like that at all to me yesterday.” You sighed. Your heart feeling really heavy with worry.

“Wouldn’t this affect the concert? He shouldn’t be able to perform. He went to the hospital right? Ugh I hope he’s okay. He didn’t even tell me this. What is wrong with him?” You threw one too many questions at Changkyun. He looked a little solemn at the situation. “Well, he insisted to perform sitting down. He is very persistent on this stage. Because it’s the Staples Center. The stage we all wanted to stand on together.” You bit your lip. He wasn’t wrong. If Kihyun didn’t perform on this dream stage, he would regret it for the rest of his life. 

“There will be a doctor on site for the concert, and he’ll be on some strong painkillers at least. But he will have to rest and sit out on the rest of the L.A. schedule.” Changkyun told you. He looked at his phone and stood up. “I need to get going before it too suspicious on me leaving for a long amount of time. The other hyungs besides Kihyun-hyung knows that you’re here. I told them last night. If you have any problems getting in, call me.” Changkyun waved you off and ran off into the venue. 

You debated if you wanted to go in the venue early and scold Kihyun for not telling you that he got hurt. You ended up just sitting there contemplating on what you’re going to do when you see Kihyun in person after 2 and a half months. 

Get mad at him for not telling you that he got hurt?

Confess your feelings for him before the show?

Not see him at all until the concert starts, so he stays focused and not hurt himself even more?

You groaned and laid your head down on the table. You want to see him but you realized you should really wait until after the show to see him. He might see you in the crowd anyways. He knows how to always find you.

With that thought in mind, you decided to go see him anyways. You’re worried that he will over exert himself on his injury. A little scolding doesn’t hurt.

Strolling through security and into the backstage area, you manage to not get too lost on maneuvering around to the backstage area. You’ve seen a few familiar faces but not alot. Eventually you bumped into Jooheon who was playing with his niece Oli. Jooheon’s face lit up and directed you where Kihyun is without disrupting his play time with his niece. 

Your heart felt heavy at the same time fluttering being able to see the best friend you fell in love with. You knocked on the door lightly and waited before hearing a confirmation on the other side.

You peeked your head in, and see that Kihyun was laying down, not in his full stage outfit resting on the couch that was provided. He had his eyes closed but you can see him breathing slowly to reduce the pain from his chest.

“Hey.” You said. And immediately Kihyun whipped his head over towards you with a giant shock. Struggling to get up safely to greet you better, but the pain got the better of him and he groans out, plopping back down on the couch. “Yah. Stay down you idiot. I don’t want you worse before your show. Why didn’t you tell me you hurt yourself?” You said as you pulled up a chair to sit next to him by the couch.

“You didn’t tell me that you were coming.” He pouted. You rolled your eyes at him. “Because it was a surprise. My surprise was getting news of you hurting yourself.” He pouted and looked away. “I just didn’t want you to worry. Granted you would’ve gotten really mad if you learned it from the official post the company is going to post soon.” He said as he looked elsewhere besides your face. Sighing away, you grabbed Kihyun’s hand that rested on his chest and rubbed it softly. A little dry due to the weather, but it’s Kihyun in front of you, still alive.

“Just let me know next time.. You make me worried. I miss you, ya know.” Mindlessly rubbing your fingers on his hand, like your hands are trying to memorize his hands like it’s the last thing on Earth. You didn’t notice that he was staring at you as you started talking again. “I begged my boss for a week off to see you. Be happy about that. I’m happy I’m here to see you but I can’t even hug you after not seeing you for so long cause you’re hurt. All I can do right now is to hold your hand but it’s not enough for me.” You ranted. 

You were definitely in love with Kihyun. 

Never feeling like this before, where you want to cry after seeing someone you love, in pain.

“Don’t just lay there, say something Kihyun…” You pouted and looked up at him and locked eyes with him. His face was definitely pink. You can see a slight sheen of sweat on his forehead. You bit your lip in resistance because of your heart about to burst out of your chest. 

Kihyun opens and closes his mouth a few times and swallowed. His heart felt so full. He can’t form the words to say to Y/N. “I…--” 

Suddenly interrupted by Minhyuk who opened the door abruptly. “Ah! Y/N you’re here! Thank god. Kihyun would not shut up how much he missed you. I kept telling him to tell--” Minhyuk rambled on and Kihyun panicked. “MINHYUK. What is that you need?” Kihyun interrupted his monologue. But also took his hand away from Y/N because he shouldn’t have yelled like that cause the pain just shot up quick. The interruption from Minhyuk quelled down his feelings.

You were a little shocked from the outburst from Kihyun because it was a lot louder than he should have shouted. You glared at him and he gave a small ‘oops’ grin. “Oh what was I here for again? RIGHT. We need to get ready. Show starts in 45 minutes! Gotta finish putting costumes on and we gotta take some pictures and get ready!” Minhyuk said helped Kihyun up from the couch. You helped out as well. 

“I’ll go see the other guys. Go get ready first. I’ll talk to you later.” You waved him off as he gets kidnapped by Minhyuk off to the coordi. 

-

You got to see Monsta X as a full group and completely dressed. You gave them your luck and told them that you’ll go out with the crowd to watch the stage from the frontal view from the General Standing with the rest of the Monbebes.

As the concert progressed you do see the chair dedicated for Kihyun. And everytime he stood up, you wished you could go on the stage and tell him to sit his injured butt back down. You were pretty sure almost everyone else who saw the message also was like that man needs to sit down. 

You were proud of him though. Withstanding the pain from his chest to show his compassion for the LA show to the Monbebes at the venue and those who were watching on VLive around the world. You definitely could not keep your eyes off of him though. His unit stage, where he literally looked like a boss. His body rolls, that he shouldn’t be doing at all, during Oh My. His high notes during any song. The love in his eyes for Monbebes.

That’s your best friend. On stage being the best he can be for his fans. The one and only Yoo Kihyun. 

Right before the show ended, you went backstage to greet them and congratulate them on a wonderful show before greeting the Monbebes for their event. 

When they all came back, they all had a sad smile because it was their last show for the US tour. They see the end of their concert tour. Of course they were greeted immediately by their makeup crew and coordi. Kihyun was seen by the doctors immediately after the stage, making sure everything is ok with him because he has definitely overexerted himself for sure. After he was attended to. He was to sit down before the hi-touch event. 

Kihyun had waved you over and grabbed your hands as soon as you came within vicinity. Everyone else was prepping for the hi-touch. He looked up at you, since you were standing in front of him. There was a certain look in his eyes that you couldn’t pin down. You looked a little confused, but at the same time, your heart couldn’t stop beating so fast.

“I wanted to tell you something before Minhyuk interrupted before the show.” Kihyun said, then started to mimic the way you were playing with his hands before the show. 

“We’re best friends right?” He asked. You simply nodded. “What happens if I… If I want to be more than that?” He looked straight into your eyes like he was trying to find the answer that question. “I love you, Y/N. Like more than a best friend. These past almost 3 months have been painfully hard for me. I knew in my heart I loved you, I was just in a lot of denial. I missed you too much and nagged the guys to the point they figured out that I like you. ALOT. Soooo… will you do the honors and be my girlfriend?” He whispered to a point no one else around us can hear him but just you. 

You wanted to jump on him and say yes. You had to soak all of that in. Yoo Kihyun confessed first. He asked first. You opened your mouth but your words couldn’t come out. He looked slightly worried since you haven’t moved or said anything in a disturbing amount of time. “Are you breathing, Y/N?” He questioned your state. “Yes.” That’s all you can manage out of your mouth at that moment. “On both.”

“I like like you too, Kihyun. I love you more than a best friend.. It took me those months as well to figure out that I liked you a lot as well.” You whispered to him as well. You can feel your face burn up quickly into a blush. You looked away from his face but he just moves with you to see your reaction. And all you can see is Kihyun’s big grin and pink ears from his sudden confession. His hands gripped a little harder.

“Wow can’t believe we both fell for the best friend trope.” Kihyun remarked. “I’d kiss you right now but that’s not a good idea.” He grinned. “Of course it isn’t a good idea. We’re surrounded by too many people.” You told him while swinging his arms gently back and forth. 

“Also Kiki. Do Monbebes, me, and a doctor a favor. And sit your ass down more often. You know many times I’ve heard, ‘Kihyun, sit your ass back down’ at the concert. Too many. But otherwise, you did wonderful. I love the show. It was amazing, even if you messed up a little bit.” You told him and stuck your tongue out at the end of your little rant. He gave you a little face. "Don't remind me. Everyone else has laughed at me for it." Kihyun whined. "But what are best friends for?" You remarked and winked back.

[silkkpopbonnet]

7 Nights of Monsta X

Night Four

Mornings were always hard to wake up to, mostly it was the sore muscles, but it was also the cold bed that Alexis rolled over in. Ugh, she hated being sappy, but being in Jooheon’s arms last night was paradise. He held her close through the night, pushing his nose against the back of her neck. Before she left that early morning, she held his face tight, thumbs moving over his dimples as she kissed his lips gently. 

“Do you want to get lunch later?” He asked softly, laying on the bed he tried to drag her back into it. 

“I have some things to do later.” She felt bad, the sadness mixed with fatigue saturated his eyes. “We can have dinner tonight when I come back.” 

“With the guys?”

She chuckled. “Yes.”

“Naw, me and you.” Jooheon pulled her in for another kiss. “We can have dessert with them, early dinner with me and that gives Minhyuk enough time with you tonight.”

“Sure thing casanova.” 

Now as she lay in bed, replaying the conversation from early this morning, Alexis took a deep breath and waited for some aspect of facing reality to pop up in her head. She was in her last semester of school, only 1 class left and after that? Who knows, she hadn’t thought of much of what to do after this. Escorting was something she honestly loved to do, talking and getting to know people and how they thought. The secrets she knew and held were the most interesting. Did she want to do this long term? No, however, she had no plans to go forward after this, Alexis was a, live each day as they came kind of person and now she wondered if she should make some plans. 

Rolling out of bed, she looked down at her phone to see a missed call and few messages from her primary benefactor. Answering them, she sighed as he asked her to lunch, she knew he would. He was beginning to irritate her, and Alexis wondered if that was because she was getting so much A+ dick, or if she was realizing that he was truly annoying and sub-par to her guys in more ways than one. 

Either way, he was providing the most money. Good thing it went by fast, the lunch and sex. Quick and easy in the car was what he wanted, and as Alexis got back home and soaked herself in a bath, her heart jumped at the thought of dinner with Jooheon. She was excited, something she hadn’t felt in a good while and the idea of him made her smile. She’d look her best tonight. 

“I’m just saying, I thought it was funny.” Jooheon continued to laugh as he held open the door for Alexis. 

“I’m laughing,” Alexis poked her cheeks trying to stop them from hurting. “I am, I just don’t understand why you guys pick on Shownu so much.” 

“He’s fun, and he’s a good sport.” Jooheon held her hand in the elevator. “Did you have a good time tonight?” 

“I did, thank you for asking.” He closed the space between them gently, his hand gently holding Alexis’s chin. 

“If I had it my way you’d be on your knees right now, but,” He sighed heavily. 

“But what?” 

The very thought had Alexis rubbing her thighs together gently, she needed a good orgasm, she hadn’t had one today and they were therapeutic. 

“Finally!” The elevator doors opened and Minhyuk held his phone up shaking it at Jooheon. “I know you heard me calling you.” 

“I ignored it.” Taking Alexis purse from her hand, Jooheon winked at her before leaving her with the pink-haired singer. “See you soon babe.” 

She waved at him, noting that Minhyuk got in the elevator. “Your feet aren’t tired are they?” 

“No, why?” 

“We’re going to an ice cream place not far from here.” He pressed the button for the first floor. “If that’s ok with you.” 

Alexis chuckled leaning back against the railing. “You just pressed the button, I don’t see how I have a choice.” 

Minhyuk wrinkled his nose. “You always do, we’d just go back upstairs. I just want to talk a little. Jooheon got you to himself,” As the elevator stopped, he held a hand out so she wouldn’t step out the door. 

Positioning himself so that he was standing in front of her, Minhyuk let the weight of his body settle on Alexis frame, as his hands caressed up her sides. “I am a jealous man, Alexis, and I’ll do whatever it takes to keep you smiling with me more than the others.” 

He kissed her gently, letting his teeth nip her lower lip before he captured her hand and lead her out of the building and down the street.

“I didn’t take you for jealous.” Alexis fell into step with him, pulling her coat closer around her neck. “One would think that you and Kihyun were close.” 

“That I enjoyed sharing with him?” 

“Something to that effect.” 

“Sometimes.” 

Minhyuk let his words drift off as they approached the building. There was no one inside, as they were close to closing for the night, the normally bright overhead lights were off and the yellowish glow of the backlights illuminated the store. 

“What can I get you?” A cheery voice sounded from behind the counter. “We’re almost out of chocolate peanut butter fudge, you can have the rest.” 

“No, do you have vanilla?” Alexis walked up the counter, taking in the three different flavors of vanilla. 

“Vanilla?” Minhyuk was still wearing his mask. “So plain.” 

“I’ll get some sprinkles.” She smiled as the woman began to scoop, and dipped her cone in chocolate dots. 

“I figured you as more a, I don’t know, adventurous flavor kind of lady.” He chuckled and ordered himself some strawberry/chocolate truffle on a sugar cone. 

“I think I have enough flavor in my life, sometimes I like to be plain. There are hidden notes in the monotony that I enjoy.” 

“Really?” Paying for the treat, Minhyuk hooked his arm around Alexis' waist as they exited the store. “You don’t seem like the type.” 

“There’s comfort in routine.” 

“Could you get used to one with us?” 

Now there was a question that had no easy answer. Swirling her tongue around the frozen dairy allowed her some time to think, as Minhyuk led them back to his building. 

“It depends on where I see this going and what I decide to do with my life.” 

They were headed to the roof, Minhyuk pushed the button for the top floor. “You’re a philosopher, I’m sure that has its merits.” 

“In some ways.” 

There was a gazebo of sorts on the roof, small and wooden it looked out over the city. Pulling back the flap, Minhyuk indicated Alexis should sit as he turned on a small heater. “Explain this to me, I want a better understanding of you.” 

She hadn’t heard that before, clients were not interested in who she was, only what she did and how she made them feel. What was it with these seven?

“I think I’d like to go into psychotherapy.” 

“Help others with their issues? You’re a good listener, I can see why. That and you have a good head on your shoulders.” 

Alexis raised an eyebrow as Minhyuk finished his cone. “Really.” 

“I’m not being an ass,” He wiped his hands on his jeans. “I mean it, you’re level-headed, rational, you’re a take-charge type of woman, you see through BS and can pick out what’s wrong and why. It’s highly attractive, yes, but it would help you immensely in that line of work.” 

“You make me sound tough.” Alexis grinned, finishing her own cone.

“I make you sound like who you are, who I like.” 

She smiled watching as he came closer to her, hand on her knee. 

“What else do you like about me?” 

“I can show you better than tell you.” 

“My,” Alexis tapped his nose. “Minhyuk, are you trying to seduce me? On the roof?” 

“No,” He leaned back, unzipping his jeans. “I’m offering you mutual pleasure, if I was truly trying to seduce you, I’d have you under me already.” 

Alexis watched as he pulled his length from his jeans. Long, with a slight curve to the left, he began to touch himself looking directly into her eyes. 

“I could stand up and go downstairs.” 

“You could, but why?” 

“Kihyun, Shownu, I.M.” 

Minhyuk smiled, it was a more of a  devious smirk really, especially with the way his eyes sparkled and the soft sheen on gloss on his lips. 

“All wonderful prospects, truly.” He stood up, long, pale fingers still wrapped around his shaft he was pumping steadily, rubbing his thumb over the mushroom-headed tip. 

Alexis found herself breathing deep wanting to catch his smell, see if she could taste him on the air. She leaned forward as Minhyuk came forward, that same look of curiosity in his eyes as he raised his hand to his mouth. “Sometimes I get excited and a little messy, sorry.” 

Snatching his wrist, Alexis inspected his hand, fingers moist with precum, she licked her tongue around the digits and watched as he shivered. 

“Maybe I can help you clean up?” 

“You’d be so kind?” 

“It would be my pleasure.” 

And that was how she found herself on her knees, head bent back while Minhyuk stood over her and fed her his dick. Little by little he held his shaft as Alexis continued to swallow his length. What Minhyuk wanted was for her to choke on it. He wanted to hear her gag and watch the saliva pool around the sides of her mouth. He could take his time though and that’s exactly what he did, as Alexis eyes watered. He was touching her uvula now, the soft area at the very back of her throat and his body was pressed against her face. She was breathing against his pelvis, her warm breath on his already heated skin. 

“Ah, don’t try to talk sweetheart, actually,” He pulled out just enough for her to form a sentence with a mouth full of cock. “How does it taste?” 

“Wonderful.” Or at least, that’s he thought she said before shoving his cock into her orifice once more.

“I’d like for you to taste yourself after I’m done wrecking your pussy, how does that sound?” 

He started moving his hips, holding onto her shoulders as Alexis groaned and coughed. Tears came down her eyes, making Minhyuk moan with pleasure. She was gorgeous with a mouthful of his dick, she’d be even prettier naked, bent over with his thumb in her ass while she sucked him. He’d save that for later, for now, he couldn’t fight the urge in his bones to move. Holding the back of Alexis's head, Minhyuk let his thumbs graze gently over her cheeks. 

“Forgive me, sweetheart, the louder you gag on me the more I’ll fill your throat, so do me a favor and let me hear you loud and clear.” 

He didn’t give her enough time to answer, only to take a breath and let it out quickly as he slid his cock into her throat. She knew what she was doing, relaxing her muscles enough so that he could slide the head of his dick into her esophagus. Alexis was working her tongue against his balls pressed tightly against her chin. The continued slapping of his balls against her chin, combined with the steady moving of her tongue, had Minhyuk groaning as he slowly pulled out of her mouth and helped Alexis to sit on the couch. 

Laying down on the other side, he beckoned her over and pressed her face to his pelvis as he raised his legs up. Drool accumulated on Minhyuk’s thighs, his heavy moans inside the tent as Alexis's nails scraped gently down his legs. He was so close, and she was going to swallow it all. The tightness of her mouth as she clamped her lips around his cock combined with the wet heat of her mouth, made him explode. Hot and salty into her throat and down the sides of her face, as Alexis coughed and gagged while Minhyuk held her still. She was gorgeous, wet eyes, runny nose and thick white ropes of his sperm covering her mouth. When he let her go, she took a deep breath, coughing, trying to breathe as he smiled at her, dick still hard. 

“Let’s go downstairs.” 

Alexis had her back against the wall, while Minhyuk held her off the floor. They stopped at the foyer for Minhyuk to help her remove her shoes but that ended up with him pulling her pants down and off. He was currently holding her, mouth buried in her pussy when Shownu walked pass the hall and spotted them. 

“If you need help taking her to the room…” He let his words linger until Minhyuk gave one more long lick to her pussy before speaking. 

“I can handle it hyung, thank you.” 

Letting Alexis down, he ordered her to strip, taking her clothes neatly he marched behind her like an eager pup as Alexis waved to the rest of the guys before walking into the room that was her space for now. 

“Excuse me.” Minhyuk smiled, tossing Alexis panties at Kihyun’s head before closing the door to the room. 

Now Alexis was on her back with Minhyuk perched over her in 69. His mouth ravaging her labia, as he licked and slurped somehow keeping time to her sucking as he forced his cock into her mouth. His goal would have been to have cum ooze from her nose, but was she ready for that? 

Probably not, instead he smacked his lips loudly and slapped his fingers on her sloppy pussy before shoving his cock into her. 

“Let them hear you out there love, I want to give Kihyun something to aspire towards.” 

Night Five: Shownu

[bebecue]

0214 - wonho

wonho x reader | fluff | 1890 words

“I want that.”

You and Hoseok come to a sudden halt - well he does, and you almost lose balance when his hand, the one holding yours, drags you back to where he is.

You lower the corndog from your mouth, and follow Hoseok’s gaze to the prizes gaudily displayed on the walls above some game machines. Most of them are plush toys, ranging from your normal toddler-sized teddy bears, to ones that would need a truck to be transported to anywhere outside of the amusement park.

You see the one that caught Hoseok’s eye. It’s a baby blue plush bunny, its eyes black marbles the size of your fists, its ears probably as long as your legs. If you stood it up, it would probably be as big as him, and it looks like it’s made out of the softest material on earth. You could understand why Hoseok would want it. It’s basically him embodied in a plush toy.

“You have so many of those already,” you tell him, starting to pull at his hand. His feet stay planted where they are, his eyes still on the giant bunny. You sigh, and stand next to him again.

Hoseok turns his head towards the bunny, then towards you, then back towards the bunny. You raise your eyebrows at him, waiting for his reply. His eyes stay fixated on the massive plush toy.

“I really want it.”

You groan inwardly. When Hoseok becomes fixated on one thing, he’ll stop at nothing to make sure he gets it. It’s one of the things you loved about him, and it’s probably what makes him such a successful artist. But it doesn’t just apply to his work, as you are now currently realizing.

“Okay, how many tickets does it cost?”

“Ten thousand,” Hoseok, replies, still not looking at you.

You peer around at the stalls and games spread out in this area of the park. You and Hoseok would have to work tirelessly for a few hours and spend a lot of coins in order to get the tickets you need. You look back at Hoseok and almost groan. He’s got that fire in his eyes. He’s not going to give up.

“Okay,” you say, somewhat reluctantly. “Let’s get to work.”

---

You and Hoseok decide that the quickest way to get the tickets is to beat records that have been set by other people.

Hoseok races up to the dancing machines, immediately jumping on the brightly lit dance pads. An LED screen lists all the names and the scores of people who have ranked the highest on this game, and you grimace at it. Hoseok would have to get a perfect score on a level 7 song to even rank.

“Let’s do this!” Hoseok exclaims, already bouncing up and down on the pad.

“Okay, hold on,” you laugh, reaching for the tokens in your pocket. You slot a few in and the game greets you with a loud jingle.

You’re about to step onto the pad, when Hoseok holds a hand out to stop you.

“I’m gonna do this by myself,” he insists, selecting the ‘One Player’ option on the screen.

“Hoseok, what-”

“Just let me!”

You raise your hands in defeat, and you stand back to watch him as the game starts.

“This is gonna be easy,” he mutters, loud enough for you to hear. “I’m a dancer, how hard can this be?”

Turns out that Hoseok completely overestimated his abilities. Or underestimated the game. Not even ten seconds in, you see him go wide-eyed and frantic, his feet barely able to keep up with the arrows flashing across the screen.

You suppress a laugh behind your hand as the song finishes in ‘Failure’, not even halfway through it.

Hoseok crouches down into a squat, panting.

“You done, Mister Dancer?” you question, in a teasing tone.

Hoseok shakes his head. “One more,” he affirms, his hand motioning towards the console.

You shrug and insert another token, and Hoseok takes a deep breath before standing up. He selects the next song, and you notice that it’s a level 3 one. You nod in approval as it starts, and he works through it diligently, his teeth buried into his bottom lip. He misses a couple of steps, but otherwise finishes the song off strong. You clap and whoop, and he takes a small bow, his mouth widening into a pleased smile.

The console spits out some tickets - a few dozen. Not bad, but it’s far from what you need.

“Let’s find something else,” Hoseok declares, grabbing your hand and pulling you towards another row of arcade game machines.

You roll your eyes for what feels like the millionth time tonight, but let him drag you along anyway.

---

“This,” Hoseok breathes, excitement lighting his features. “This one. This one was made for me.”

You peer at the machine. It’s one of those punching games, one that quantifies the speed and strength at which you hit the target, and assigns it a number out of one thousand. You look at the rankings on the screen again and press your lips into a tight line. The highest score on the board is 976, and belongs to some person named “ARM”.

You turn back to Hoseok, and you see him stretching, then do a couple of practice pumps before stepping up to the target. You snicker behind your hand and force your mouth into a frown when he glances at you.

“I’m going to knock this target off the machine,” he states, shaking his hands out.

“Okay, well it’s ready for you,” you inform him after inserting a token into the console.

Hoseok does a small run up to the machine, brings his right arm back, and slams his fist into the target, causing the machine to tremble violently. The numbers on the machine flash brightly for a few seconds before revealing Hoseok’s score. 891.

“Wait, wait” he protests, rubbing his right arm. “There has to be a mistake. This machine is broken.”

“Excuse me!” he hollers over at the attendant who is busy restocking the crane machine a few meters away. “I think this machine is broken!”

The attendant looks up from the machine, rolls his eyes, and gives Hoseok as small smirk. “Yeah we get that complaint all the time, but we check those machines every week. They’re all in good condition.”

“But-but…” Hoseok sputters as you take the tickets from the console. A few hundred, not bad.

“Let’s go, you buff bunny,” you interject, placing the tickets into his hands. He looks down at them. “I don’t want to get kicked out of this place.”

---

“I’m such a loser,” Hoseok sighs dejectedly, his elbows on his thighs.

You rub small, comforting circles into his back. “Of course you’re not,” you assure him, giving his back a light smack. “Don’t talk about yourself like that.”

“Everything I thought I was good at, I’m not,” he whines, refusing to accept your comfort. You roll your eyes again. He could be such a baby when his ego is hurt.

“Listen, Hoseok. Those games are rigged. They’re meant to be won by one person in every thousand that plays them. The odds are never in your favor.”

Hoseok sighs again, but this time, looks up at you with a shy grin. “Okay, I give up. Buy me a corndog?”

“Sure,” you beam at him. “I’ll buy you as many corndogs as you want.”

You take his hand, and help him stand from the bench. He rises with a groan, and the two of you scan the area for the nearest food stall. You see Hoseok’s eyes zero in on a stall, and suddenly, another fire is ignited in them.

Uh oh, you think, striding after Hoseok as he makes a beeline for it, unable to stop him.

---

“Are you sure you want to do this?”

In front of Hoseok is a mountainous pile of nuclear noodles, covered in bright red sauce, freshly cooked. Your eyes go from the noodles, to him, and then back to the noodles. This is insane.

Hoseok nods. “This is one thing I’m sure I can do.” You feel like you’ve heard that from him countless times today, and you’re not sure how much faith you can put into that statement.

The challenge is called “5 under 5”, and it is simple. Finish five packs of nuclear noodles in under five minutes, and you would be given twelve thousand tickets. Enough for a giant plush bunny, and then some.

Hoseok had to sign a waiver before he participated, and had gathered a small crowd around him when it was announced by the stall attendant that someone was going to take the challenge.

You felt nervous for him. What if he threw up in front of all these people, and someone was recording it? It would go viral. ‘Wonho from Monsta X gets destroyed by instant noodles’. You shudder at the thought.

The attendant places a hand on Hoseok’s shoulder, the other one holding a stopwatch. Hoseok looks up at him in anticipation.

“Aaaand, go!” the attendant yells, starting the time on his stopwatch.

For the first few seconds, your heart feels like it’s going to beat right out of your chest. But as soon as you see Hoseok practically inhaling the noodles, you start cheering for him, and so do the others in the crowd. It’s not long until he finishes the whole pile, and the attendant yells “Four minutes, thirty-eight seconds!”

The crowd whoops, and Hoseok stands from the table, flipping the large bowl over his head to show that it’s empty, his broad smile lined by bright red sauce.

---

“Hoseok, are you feeling alright?”

Hoseok looks at you through heavy eyelids. He groans, and covers his mouth as he lets out a small burp.

“I could really go for some ice cream right now,” he mutters, his hand going from his mouth to his stomach. You notice that it’s slightly bloated, but stay silent.

You’re in the backseat of the cab, heading back to his dorm. The bunny he had won takes up an entire window seat, while Hoseok is in the middle seat, his head resting on your shoulder.

“What are you going to do with that huge thing, anyway?” you question him, looking at it over his head.

“It’s….” Hoseok mumbles, his last few words incomprehensible.

“It’s what?” you iterate, leaning closer so that you can hear him.

“It’s… It’s for you…”

You recoil in surprise, almost displacing Hoseok’s head on your shoulder.

“Ugh, please,” he moans, his arm snaking its way through yours, pulling you back.

“What would I do with this?” you sputter, looking back at the bunny. It somehow now appears larger than it did before.

“I got it for you… to remind you of me.” Hoseok’s words leave his mouth in a quiet mutter.

“By… by eating a whole pile of nuclear noodles?” you ask, incredulous.

“That wasn’t the plan at first,” Hoseok insists, looking up at you. “I just wanted to show you how strong and cool I am.”

You laugh, and kiss the top of his head lightly. You’ve known Hoseok for a while now, but the stuff that goes through his head still routinely surprises you.

“Let’s go get you that ice cream, okay?” you whisper into his hair.