#ugh cant wait to make this grow some more

[sanjisboyfie]

one piece masterlist ౨ৎ

[ keep safe series ] // ongoing, romantic undertones, slow burn, future angst, comedic

-> "it's beautiful, how this deep normality settles down over me. i'm not bored or unhappy. i'm still so strange and wild. you're in the wind, i'm in the water. nobody's son, nobody's daughter." or, joining the strawhat pirates as luffy's childhood friend allows you to make memorie with people who started as strangers, but then became your loved ones.

playlist

๑ prologue

๑ the cursed orphan enters 彡 alabasta arc begins

๑ [name] joins the strawhats

๑ just a friendly competition...right?

๑ heartfelt conversations with a chef

๑ coffee beans

๑ i'm gonna freeze my balls off

๑ i'm gonna freeze my balls off, pt. 2

๑ crimson red icicles

๑ luffy's innate instincts (a hum of the heart)

๑ new crewmate, tony tony chopper

๑ his hand on his ankle

๑ don't you know? "lover" outweights "boyfriend"

๑ i'll kill you, i'll really kill you

๑ "together in chaos."

๑ zoro being annoyed at his captain and [name]

๑ mr. prince and mr. executioner

๑ the dogs are hounding on [name]

๑ wings that made [name] fly

๑ see you later, vivi!

❔[NAME] WIKI - ALABASTA ARC ENDS

๑ more in common than you'd think 彡 skypiea arc begins

๑ robin and [name] make a good team!

๑ we made it!

๑ [name] wants to adopt suu!

๑ that god guy thing

๑ strawhat adventure team, go!

๑ chopper's crown

๑ put a face to the name

๑ mummified [name]

๑ four hundred years is not too late

ꔛ 666 heart special for quotev -> individual one shots with each straw hat, each assigned a representative song that describes the relationship they share with [name]

๑ navarone - g8

๑ davy back fight 彡 long ring long land arc begins

-> frequently used tags:

#≡;- ꒰ ° keep safe series ꒱

#ks

#one piece fanfic

#one piece fanfiction

DOMESTICITY series // based off of keep safe characters/relationships, but can be read as standalone one shots

ꔛ sanji's special dessert -> he prepares a dessert only for you since he knows your likes and dislikes

ꔛ a shared interest among swordsmen -> rare moments of peace and quiet with zoro

ꔛ nami is working, don't interrupt -> she doesn't mind the company, especially if you're peeling her tangerines

ꔛ usopp and [name]'s conversation -> heart to heart

one piece [ smau ] // social media au

ପ strawhats misc. edition

ପ dating luffy edition

ପ dating nami edition

ପ dating sanji edition

ପ strawhat vacation edition

ପ dating zoro edition

ପ dating usopp edition

ପ dating vivi edition

ପ married to law edition

ପ married to franky edition

ପ married to robin edition

ପ dating eustass kid edition

ପ married to doflamingo edition

ପ dating ace edition

ପ married to marco edition

ପ dating sabo edition

-> frequently used tags:

#≡;- ꒰ ° smau series ꒱

#one piece smau

#one piece modern au

[ yandere ]

જ yandere zoro headcanons

જ yandere sanji headcanons

જ soft yandere luffy

જ yandere luffy

-> frequently used tags:

#≡;- ꒰ ° yandere series ꒱

#≡;- ꒰ ° yandere headcanons ꒱

[ drabbles // one shots // headcanons ]

ꔛ playlist : tender by blur [ luffy x male reader ] // based off of keep safe characters, but can read as a standalone one shot. small hints of yandere luffy. // snippet of pt.2

-> tender is the night, lying by your side. tender is the touch of someone that you love too much. tender is my heart. i'm screwing up my life. lord i need someone to who can heal my mind, or luffy and reader reminisce about their childhood memories while cuddling in merry's crow's nest.

-

SUGAR DADDY series

ꔛ in a world of boys, he's a gentleman, nami x SD male reader

ꔛ pass the test, nami x SD male reader, the one where he meets nami's friends

-

ꔛ shanks being your doting boyfriend

ꔛ random sanji headcanons

ꔛ sanji has a crush on you ♡︎

ꔛ halloween with the strawhats [platonic]

ꔛ a day in the life as a strawhat [platonic]

ꔛ rockstar ! tragalar law headcanons

ꔛ me psychoanalyzing sanji x male reader

ꔛ random individual headcanons ; includes, law, luffy and zoro

ꔛ the type of man . . .

[chromedomeeee]

The worst feeling? Well its a two way tie between the shitshow gig you just had and the angry eyes boring in the side of your head as you drive. Shes quiet, Till shes not.

"What the hell were you thinking? Getting that close to them?" She all but yells. Panam fucking palmer. God, this woman. You wanna fight back (because why in the world would'nt you? Top of the goddamn food chain in this shit city and you have to take this from HER?. Yes. Yes you do.) But you can't. Too focused on both the road and the bullet you caught just twenty minutes earlier. On your way home, Now. To be fair, May have been you. But also nobody expected the guy to turn around on a dime for what seemed like zero reason. Chaos, Screaming, Roll credits. Now you're covered in blood, Yours and others, And you've got the most temperamental Nomad yelling in your ear.

"Please, Pan. Not right now." You mutter out. The pain is little more then a dull ache now. Pain editors, Thank god. "I've been shot. Just...wait till im patched up. At least." Is all the fight you're willing to put up at the moment. It barely registers. Pulling into the garage, Walking. Limping. Hand on your side and your arm slung over panams shoulder. She plops you down on some chair, Kneeling between your legs.

"It nicked you. You'll be fine." She says, Pulling an Airhypo from her back pocket and stabbing you in the leg. Sharp, then calming. Buzzing high. And now shes just...Staring. Watching your measured breaths as you stabilize.

"Dont look at me like that." You mumble. Almost unable to sit still at the growing ache between your legs. Shes heavy, Eyes half lidded and hands moving to your belt. That, And the buzz of the medication...

"You're so stupid." The woman murmurs, Unclasping your belt, Pulling it undone and reaching for your fly. "But maybe...Just maybe...You can make it up to me?"

You know **exactly** what that means. And she knows it. So now shes dipping hands in your pants. Not even trying to oull them off completely, forcing you to swat her away as you sleuth them off, let em pool around your ankles. And now she's...Handsy would be an understatement. Rubbing fingers against the growing ache in your sex. And she laughs softly as you squirm.

"Done this how many times now? Still not used to it?" Is all she says before pulling off your underwear, letting them join your pants around your ankles and letting your member spring free. And she's on it, Like a moth to a flame. Fingers wrapping around the base and stroking. Almost marveling up at it. "Cant believe its not chrome." Ahe murmurs to herself. Because thats what she always says before she wraps her lips around the top. You rut, Squirming up into your mouth. The soft buzzing behind your eyes, Inhibiting all brain fuction for the time being, (Not that you could care), Makes ger mouth hotter. Makes each bob of her head better, and better. And you can't tell if the tightening in your abdomen is from the bullet wound or the orgasm thats already threatening to spill out. And she knows it, and love to torture you. Pulling from your shaft with a pop. Looking up at you, past the thickness of your member.

"Its the meds, Isnt it? You're always sensitive when you're jacked up." She teases. And you can't decide whether you try and retort or- And its too late. Shes back on it, Working your length with a practiced precision. And ugh, it hurts to hold it. But shes looking up at you with that fucking gleam in her eyes and a smirk toying on her cock stuffed lips before she pulls off, And you paint her face with sticky ropes of release. She catches some in her mouth. Doesn't even seem to mind the spurts in her hair or that fell onto her clothes. All she does is hums, Smiling as she kisses your softening member. "Good merc." She murmurs, Standing. Leaving you bare as she (presumably) walks off to go clean up.

Goddamn that woman.

[cult-of-the-eye]

Mag 81 A Guest for Mr Spider

FUCK FORMER HEAD ARCHIVIST

Wait I need to check the timelines - this was 2 days after leitner's death

New spooky music???

My man is so fucking dramatic I love him so much "grand of sand behind my eye" love the way he speaks

Yeah FUCK JURGEN LEITNER

Omg the greying hair is canon??

Child in the 90s makes him at most 27 GOD DAMN. I was imagining like mid 30s...can you imagine a fucking 27 yr old using words like "ilk" when talking to you

Oh shit he's an orphan poor guy

Yeah ok a lot of his personality seems to make sense if you realise he was raised by his grandma

You know those memes that are like people raised by their grandparents are exceptionally polite but in a brisk way, talk fancy and are super posh? Yeah that's him.

Getting such neurodivergent vibes

Yeah he sounds like a main character from the start Jesus Christ he's such a kid who got traumatised and then grows up to be a horror protagonist vibes

My First Leitner lol like kids had to be introduced to them at a young age like those my first toys

He's so funny I can just imagine him as an 8 yr old getting super like affronted at this like how dare my grandma think I am of subpar intelligence he's such a little bitch from the start

"The eponymous Mr spider" even talking about his childhood trauma he's busting out the vocabulary

Fuck that story actually kinda rattled me I had my hand over my mouth in shock for most of it

I think it was the bit where the horsefly brought his son and they were both crying that got me, I could definitely imagine it scaring an 8 yr old

The way it drags out as well, with the pages of the same scene it really heightens the suspense

Is his childhood bully someone we should keep track of?? Love how he says Michael probably cause he sees him as a bully lol

It's interesting how despite him bullying him (quite badly seeing as though he beat him up) he's still like yeah but he saved my life and that means he deserves to be remembered

My bro didn't save your life on purpose, he was just trying to make it worse and happened to come to a terrible fate cause of that

I guess underneath it all he was still a kid who watched someone die, knowing they'd get eaten by a fucking spider, he still held him in some regard

The way he specified the guy was his bully even after he was being eaten though lol

He was desperate to get the book back? That's a leitner thing I guess, the book makes you want to keep it so it can finish whatever it wanted to do to you

On my relisten (which I will do once I've finished the series I'm sure of it), I'll have to look out for any reaction of leitners name

I wonder why Jon didn't react more to Carlos vittery's statement, like it must've terrified him? I saw a post a while back explaining Jon's thoughts and IT WAS GENIUS it was like of course he doesn't react, he must be terrified that someone knew about his experience and somehow did this to mess with him or it was a joke and he can't let anyone know that the Head Archivist is not Good at This ugh it's so good I'll tag it if I can find it

AHHHHH HE REGRETS DISMISSING THE OTHER STATEMENTS AHHHHHH

HE FINALLY ADMITS THAT HE NEEDS HELP WE LOVE THIS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT YES YOU FUCKING DO BITCH.

yeah at least he's right about Elias killing leitner

GEORGIE THE EX GIRLFIEND

ITS SO WEIRD TO SEE HIM ACTUALLY NICE TO SOMEONE WOW HIS VOICE CHANGES SLIGHTLY AS WELL HES LESS ACADEMIC

THE ADMIRAL

Awwww he's so cute with georgie

GHOST PODCAST GHOST PODCAST

THE WHAT THE GHOST T SHIRT IS CANON???? AHH THATS SO CUTE

Can he not go back to his own flat?? Did he bring all his clothes to the archive and then subsequently leave them there? Does he even have a flat??

God Georgie is so nice I would kill for her

It's so funny that an apparent supernatural cynic dated a ghost podcaster

WOW SEASON 3 OFF TO AN AMAZING START I CANT WAIT TO KEEP LISTENING IM GONNA TELL MY THERAPIST ABOUT THIS TOMORROW!!!

[kireilien]

heyyy dropping in to ask for the rest of the members in ampersandone with high sex! my bias is seungmo and i was wondering if you could include him?

(i know your love letters are closed, i hope this doesn’t bother you, feel free to do it whenever, yk we will wait for you <3)

part one with kam, jiho, kiah

hi anon! yes ofc, i haven’t gotten a chance to do seungmo yet, hashtag would love to include him! and thank you, it doesn’t, it’s so encouraging to hear that from you ;)

tw/cw. nsfw content, cursing, drug use (marijuana obvi), underaged smoking lol; dom!ampies, sub!reader, fem!reader, race neutral reader, more specific tags will be listed with each member in their own sections so proceed with caution!!! ♡︎

brian ho.

cw. mirror sex, tit play, dumbification, use of “doll”

your back is completely fleshed on his chest, your tits are bouncing every time he fucks his cock so full in you, it looks amazing in the view of brian’s mirror in his room. if he didn’t already love your perfect tits when he’s sober, he definitely loves them now. the blunt is perched on his lips as if it was a simple cigarette, but he can’t help but cup your soft tits when he’s fucking you so silly and dumb. “feelin’ good for me, doll? that’s it. just go fucking stupid for me.” he murmurs against your ear when he sees you moaning mindlessly— probably babbling how his cock is so good, but you’re so incoherent he simply lets you go so stupid on his cock, you’re just so pretty in the mirror! brian thinks it’s even prettier when he hands you the blunt to take some puffs but you can’t! hands are trembling, jaw is slack, eyes so far back you cant even focus on the blunt! its okay, though. brian’s got you!

extra. brian is THEE session crush. he’s so laid back and relaxed, pops a few jokes. stare at him a little too long and you’d accidentally make out w him WHAT

yoon siyun.

cw. stripping, cock warming, groping, use of “love”

i’m a believer that siyun would get a little too “carried” away when he smokes grass... i mean you’re passing the joint all carelessly, not realizing your eyes are low and hot, lips parted cutely, body barely even covered in your thin pajamas. when he takes the joint from you, he simply mumbles, “strip for me.” you almost do a quick double take, but its siyun, you’ll strip for him. he watches as you slip off that stupidly thin tank top and those stupidly loose pajama shorts. you can see how hard he’s getting through his sweats; his tent is growing as he takes another puff, lowly humming, “thats it, love.” when you’re naked, you take the joint from his lips and giggle, “your turn.” he groans but quickly slips off everything, just so he can pull you into his lap and press his cock into you, fully bottoming out. you giggle feeling him squeeze your ass and lay his head on your chest, he needed this more than weed.

extra. siyun wouldn’t do it often but he needs to LMFAOOO bc of him and his “crash” outs but i actually don’t think it’ll calm him down either... oops

kyrell valentine choi.

cw. mutual masturbation, praise, use of “princess”

ugh ky would love sessions where its just the two of you, his hands find themselves in your panties, slowly teasing your clit to let your pussy juices pool when his other hand is busy with the joint in his fingers. he bites his lip seeing you peel them off, leaving you just in his large shirt. his boxers are struggling to keep his cock in them, so you obviously slip your hands in them. ky giggles as he kicks them off. leaving the both of you bare, playing with each other as the weed starts really kicking in. ky passes it off as you start slowly roll your hand on his cock. you take in a puff as ky hums, “keep going, princess. shit— making me feel so good.” you’re already finding it hard to focus on the joint when ky’s his fingers leave your clit to slip themselves stuffed into your cunt. struggling to even bring it to your lips, your head falls onto his shoulders, but ky giggles and grabs it to help you to take a puff.

extra. ky and them seattle genes make him a good smoker. does it pretty often to relax. he’s #mecore and people don’t expect him to smoke LOL but he does

kim seungmo.

cw. kissing, h*nd h*lding, body worship, use of “baby”

when seungmo finally takes off your panties, he’s impatiently waiting for you to finish your puff just to collide his lips with yours. you giggle into the kiss, “what the fuck?” he simply shushes you, giggling back, “shut up— just wanna fuck you already.” you roll your eyes but seungmo lays you back to grab his cock and slip it past your folds. his head throws back when he’s already halfway into your cunt. you pull his head back as your fingers guide the blunt to his lips. he takes a puff of the kush, exhaling, “thanks, baby. really needed that right now,” all sarcastically. you laugh at his tone, but seungmo doesn’t mind though. his hand snakes up to yours to intertwine his fingers with yours. when he starts rocking his hips, he grunts out a few “pretty ass body,” “i love this pussy, baby,” and feels up your body with his free hand as you keep helping him with his puffs as you moan under him.

extra. seungmo also wouldn’t smoke it up too often, he’d only do it here and there. he’s still a little prankster, but less energetic and more of a teaser

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[jadeylovesmarvelxo]

Hi ☺️ id like to request a vampire!eddie who is friends with reader but they both want more. But maybe vampire!eddie is afraid to hurt reader so he tries to remain friends. Reader finally gives up and tells eddie they can be friends but she needs to move on. She ends up on a date that ends terribly, when she gets home eddie is waiting for her and confesses he cant just be friends and they happily get together bc neither deserve anymore angst lol.

Warnings: Angst to fluff 💕

Dont copy, reuse or repost my work

Request by @swansonron

♥️

Many people have fun stories about how they've met their best friend.

For you and Eddie its no different except for one thing.

Your best friend is a vampire. Yes, exactly like Dracula, Anna Rice's Interview with a Vampire, Angel and Spike from Buffy...

Oh, and he doesn't sparkle in the sun just FYI.

Eddie may be a vampire but he's the sweetest, kindest man you've ever met. He's never hurt a human and you know he'd never hurt you.

You've fallen for him, hard but despite how close you both are, how it's obvious both you want to take your friendship to the next level Eddie holds back.

He's terrified of hurting you, even though you know he won't but he's got the idea in his head that his enhanced strength will end up with you hurt in some way.

Honesty, he's the most gentle man you've ever known and you know accidents can happen, but what they didn't?

You wish deep in your heart that Eddie would give you and him a chance but it looked increasingly unlikely and the more it broke your heart.

🦇

After much deliberation, constantly unsure of what to do and many sleepless nights you had come to a decision.

If Eddie would never accept the idea of you and him together then you had to move on. For both your sake.

You loved his frienship and never wanted to ruin it so maybe moving on would be best for everyone.

Even if you doubted that you could find someone as incredible as Eddie, you had to try didn't you?

Telling Eddie was the hardest part as your heart still longed for him.

"I have to move on Eddie. I want to be with you so much but it's clear you don't feel the same." your heart clenches painfully and you take a second before speaking again.

"We can be friends obviously but I can't keep hoping and waiting for you when this isn't what you want"

Saying all of this is hurting your heart but it needs to be said. You need to move on and stop living in a dream world.

Eddie is quiet as he takes this in and gives a tiny nod of his head.

"I understand princess" There's a hint of pain in his voice and you desperately want to soothe him, take the pain away.

By the time you move forward just an inch to go and comfort him, it's like he puts a mask up, his brown eyes darken and he steps back.

Tears prick your eyes but you swallow them down. Maybe he really doesn't care... He's just your friend and that's it.

"I have a date on Friday. It's with a guy called Jason" he nods and turns away.

"Right, well I hope it goes well sweetheart. I'll see you tommorow" he pauses and then turns back to you and gently kisses your cheek.

The soft brush of his lips on yours, the way his brown eyes meet your gaze for a minute makes your heart race.

When you open your eyes, he's gone and all that's left is a hollow feeling in your chest.

♥️

Shit, could this night get any worse?

Jason was one of those washed up jocks who sat relieving his glory days as a high school heartthrob and football captain.

He barely asked anything about you and when he did it didn't last long.

Long story short? You wish you were with Eddie instead.

Jason gulps down his wine and grows increasingly more and more drunk, conversation is stilted and no matter how many times you pick it up, it doesn't help.

The two of you have nothing in common, in fact he could be the greatest guy in the world and your heart would still belong to Eddie.

This frustrates you. Ugh, so much for trying to get over him. You needed to accept he didn't want to be with you. In some ways you had but your heart was different.

Your heart longed for a happy ending but its obvious you wouldn't find it here.

♥️

Eddie was waiting for you when you got home, he has a determined look on his face.

"Hi, what are you doing here Ed's?" you ask him curiously. Your traitor heart skips a beat as you eye him.

"I wanted to make sure you got home okay. How was your date?" you groan and slump on the sofa.

"Awful, truly awful" he growls and his eyes flash red briefly. Shit he's pissed.

"Do I need to have words with this douchebag" his protectiveness is sweet but you can handle a tipsy idiot.

"No, you'd scare him to death Eddie, I'm okay"

He kneels down beside you and takes your hand.

"What if I just frighten him a little bit? Turn into my bat form and scare the shit out of the dumb fuck?" this makes you giggle at the thought but you shake your head.

"No, remember what happened last time" Poor Miss Dawson is still on edge about bats.

He nods smirking then turns serious, his eyes lock with yours.

"When you were on the date it was driving me crazy. I can't just be friends with you sweetheart, I want more"

After a shitty night hearing this is like a dream.

"You mean it Eddie?" he nods, his thumb circling over your fingers. Sparks and tension comes off the both of you in waves.

Fuck, you so badly want to kiss him.

"I've never wanted anything more sweetheart, I adore you. I've falling for you, hard"

Eddie kisses you. You've been waiting for so long for this to happen and now that it is you can't believe it.

You kiss him back with equal fervour and he smiles against your lips.

"I'm gonna love you forever sweetheart"

Maybe happy endings weren't just for fairtytales after all.

♥️

[raevenlywrites]

Time for more The Magnus Archives! Todays listen starts with episode 21: Free Fall through 22: Colony 23: Schwarrzwhatever skipped bc historical shit bores me, 24: Strange Music 25: Growing Dark, 26: A Distortion, 27: A sturdy lock and finally 28: Skintight

(prev episodes here)

Free Fall

Martin! I almosr skipped this one bc one of my fears is "im in a situation i cant walk/climb/swim away from", but my hands were full so i just let it go. and we get an interruption! i love those

Colony

Okay. So I love Martin right off the bat for unfair meta reasons and for pretty legit diagetic reasons. One, I have a fondness for Alex's voice from listening to Rusty Quill Gaming. I always hear him playing this one shot himbo paladin of Apollo, and it always makes me grin. So im just flat predisposed to feel favorably to anyone voiced by Alex.

But two, so far Jon has been presented as kind of prickly. He sounds unpleasant to give statements to, wretched for work for, and particularly hard on Martin. Maybe its justified, maybe not, we havent had a chance to know. So now we get Martin "on camera" and he is immediately cast as pathetic and aligned with the reader: creeped out by all this spooky shit. He goes on to be a very good boy, doing scary shit bc he knows he needs to do a better job for his boss.

And then, brilliantly, Jon subverts this dick boss vibe thats been building by offering a room to Martin. He takes Martin's concerns very seriously, because he takes legitimate archives concerns very seriously. Weve seen hints of this with his reactions to things like the Lightner books, but this is the first time hes reacted with a sense of urgency. its a ramping up of the tension, now that weve established the tone of the work and some truths about the world. its really interesting that this shit isnt in response to dreamer, a direct threat to his predecessor, but rather a direct threat to one of his subordinates. It says some interesting things about Jon's character, and shifts my expectations on how he might react to future incidents.

ugh. im remembering the other reason why listening to this at work was a no go. The sound mixing on this is so bad that even with my headphones cranked all the way up, i can't hear shit :/

Schwartzwhatever skipped due to disinterest in historicals, let me know if im missing any vital clues or fun interruption scenes

Strange Music

Not much to say about this one, although it was fun to listen to Sasha and Jon lampshade the problems of audio media and regional pronounciations of Calliope. Has anyone ever actually heard it pronounced Callie ope (like cantaloupe)?

Growing Dark

So, i happened to go back and listen to 9: A fathers love, while trying to calibrate my headphones, and what a happy accident that I did! Hello, The Peoples Church of The Divine Host! Also, connection to Gertrude's "death" (still not 100 that she's dead, just gone)

Flag: TPCotDH, episodes 9: A fathers love and 25: Growing Dark

A distortion

Sasha! This is another one where my experiences with Rusty Quill gaming make me predisposed to like and trust Sasha. But since Jon also seems to trust her, that makes me more inclined to believe their opinion of Martin as a bit of a klutz, the one you trip when youre running from a bear, most likely to be the first casuality

Very curious about Michael, cant help but wonder if theyre going to lean into angelic mythology or not. Tuck that in my folder of "things to wait and see about"

A Sturdy Lock

By all rights this one SHOULD get to me. I dont remember if it did on my first listen, but this time around all I really care about is wondering from a writer perspective if all these "other statements" that get mentioned every now and again are already written/planned, or just mechanism to add to the sense of a larger world. And from a reader figuring shit out perspective, I'm starting to wonder if the archive is such a mess maybe on purpose. Like, was Gertrude a baddy (/IS a baddy????). Or maybe Martin is not as inept as he seems and is secretly moving things about 🧐

Skintight

I LOVE that this one isnt actually about a grey lady. its really fun how they like to set up common tropes and then sideswipe them XD. Plus its a real treat to hear two actors play off of each other. That works so much better for me than suspending my disbelief that grumpy old Jarchivist is recording these statements with such emotion XD

[harmslength]

WE ARE SO BACK!

(we are so not back)

Hello lovelies!

I just wanted to write this as deep and loving thank you to everyone who has supported me, welcomed me and to the people who have been patiently waiting for new fics.

I’ve recently reached 100 followers and over 140k messages on c.ai. I just want to let you guys know how much this fucking means to me!!!!!!! AHHH I’m literally so pumped about it, like genuinely this fills my heart with so much joy. You guys make it so easy to want to keep making stuff and ugh I can’t even describe it.

I won’t yap too much about this though. Becauuuuuseee as a thank you I’m finally releasing more shit!! Yaaaaayy! (Bout’ fucking time)

First — A new Neil Lewis fic which you can read HERE. Purely smut, not a whole lot of plot to it. Definitely read the tags though…

Second — I’m releasing a few new characters for c.ai.

We’ve got:

Jim — from The Delinquent Season: you’re his new babysitter. Jim does have a wife in this so just be warned that he may try some morally corrupt things.

Cillian Murphy: fallen angel AU. He was banished from heaven and placed right on your door step. Will he return to heaven? Who’s to say. Probably not after what you’re going to do to him.

Jonathan Crane — from you already know: Dr. Crane is your therapist. Do what you will with that.

John Skillpa — from Peacock: You and John are long-time friends. John probably isn’t doing too well. Sorry John! I love him so much.

And of course, one that always pairs with the story I’ve written! Neil Lewis — from Watching the Detectives: You and Neil have just gotten engaged and are looking to grow and expand your lives together. How romantic.

Anyways I just want to add this last bit under the cut since this has been such an unbelievably long post. If you’ve gotten this far—thank you. And if you haven’t well, I don’t blame you one bit.

I just want to say that I’m back, I’m here but I will probably not be posting regularly at all. I got clinical major depression and a full time job that I hate so writing comes and goes as it pleases.

To add to that though I do have a lot of really fun fics in the works that I’m really fucking excited to share with you all. I’ve been trying to get more comfortable with writing shorter stuff but I have this problem where I just cant write anything shorter than like 5k, I don’t know I think I need to see a doctor..

Anyways I just want to top this off with saying again that I adore you guys so much. All the comments and messages I have received over the past few months have made me so happy. I’d love to talk to more of you and meet more people so please don’t be afraid or hesitant to reach out! I bite but I promise I just got my rabies vaccine updated. Tootles!

[fallingforel]

Hey!! What’s up? I was wondering if you could do number 3 on the prompt list with Alex Turner but can you make it like a hurt/comfort thing where maybe they get into some sort of fight? I don’t wanna be too specific because I hate taking away creative freedom but I would love you forever🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🥰

CW:MENTIONS OF SICK.

A/N I am so so so sorry that it has taken me more than a month to get to my requests but i have been super super busy with everything just taking some time out for myself but im back and carrying on with everything while dealing with writers block for arabella ahagaha anyway for those wanting to request... prompt list is here. on with the showwww

PROMPT 3: "I need you"

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"ALEX. GO AWAY. I DON'T FEEL WELL. I DON'T NEED YOU HERE. LOOKING AFTER ME LIKE SOME TINY TODDLER BA-" I shouted from inside the bathroom door, which was cut off by emptying the contents of my stomach into the toilet bowl.

"darling I just want to be here for you. help you."

"yeah well not right now. I don't need you getting sick just before you have to leave for tour tomorrow. I can't let you risk it. If you want to help go stay at a hotel so you don't get infected with whatever I've got going on right now"

"okay. okay. I'm going right now. call me if you need anything. promise"

"I promise Alex. go. I don't need you here."

an hour had passed when I had finally gotten up from the bathroom floor. finally emptying all that I could from my stomach.

"knock knock. I'm coming in." Natalie. my best friend had announced herself.

"ugh. not you as well. Nat I'm fine. I don't need everyone babysitting me. I've dealt with sickness on my own before I don't need everyone looking after me I'm not a child"

"oh wow. I was only coming to say hello. but I've clearly hit a nerve. what's going on nobody mentioned you were sick. in that case stay clear of me I've got a shoot in 3 days. I do not have time to get sick"

"cheers nat. Thanks for looking after me."

"geez with the mood swings. you weren't wanting me to babysit you a few moments ago now you want me to look after you. What's wrong with you anyway"

"well, I've got sore boobs, metallic taste in my mouth all the time, I'm throwing up all the time I'm also tired all the fucking time. I just want this bug to pass so I can go back to happy healthy Y/n"

"Y/n babe when did you last have your period. 2 months ago why???" it took me a moment to realise it. and soon I gasped. "OMG! no I cant be this has come at the worst time I cant be. I'm on the pill and we used a condom"

"not always effective babe."

"okay okay. lets not rush into anything. Can you go pick up a pregnancy test."

"no need. I've got one in my bag for emergencies"

"err... I'm not gonna question that right now, we'll circle back to that one later. but okay I'll go take that right now. you stay here."

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After waiting what felt like an age but in reality only three minutes I flipped the test over.

POSITIVE 3+ WEEKS

"fucking great. just at the worst time." I whispered to myself.

"Y/n is everything okay in there."

"yeah. I need to be on my own. I'm sorry"

"don't even mention it babe. I'll see myself out now. Want me to lock the door"

"nah leave it open. shut it obviously but don't lock it"

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I knew I needed to tell Alex. tell him I was sorry before he left and about the baby that was growing inside me at the minute.

The phone rang once twice three times before he finally picked up.

"Y/n babe is everything okay."

"I need you. so bad" I cried down the phone to him

"I'm coming right now sweetheart. do you need anything?" he asked.

"Just a hug"

"okay okay. I'm on my way. Be five minutes top darling"

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and he really wasn't lying when he said he'd be no longer than 5 minutes because I heard the door go no longer than 3 minutes after I ended the phone call.

"Y/n darling?" he called

"upstairs Alex" I said my voice wavering.

he burst the bathroom door open. and I started sobbing jumping into his arms wrapping my arms round his torso. the both of us swaying from the impact a bit. but we soon stopped and Alex's arms soon wrapped round meeting at my waist. Alex walks the two of us to our shared bedroom sitting us down on the bed.

"woah darling what's this what's got you in such a tizzy?" he asks.

"I'm sorry." I mumble into his shoulder.

"sorry for what sweetheart?"

"sorry for shouting at you. sorry for accusing you for babying us. sorry for the news I'm about to put on you."

"There's no need to apologise for that darling you did nothing wrong." It takes him a moment for him to realise my last statement from my previous statement.

"Y/n what news what are you going on about? You are really freaking me out honey."

"Stay here" I pull myself out of his arms, and walk to the bathroom where the pregnancy test lay on top of the toilet.

"This is the news." I say walking back into the bedroom sitting on the bed next to him and pass him the pregnancy test that lay in my hand.

"You mean- You mean we're going to be parents?"

"Not if you don't want to be."

"Not if I dont? Darling of course I want to be a parent. Do you want to be?"

"of course I do its just-"

"it's just what?"

"Its just. Is now even the right time to become preganant especially when you leave for tour tomorrow. What about in 9 months time? What about when I become too fat to walk anywhere."

"That won't happen sweetheart. because you aren't gonna become fat. You'll have a baby in your tummy. Our baby. And as for the tour. You'll come with me, we can sort out something. we're doing the asia america and australia first and then in 4 months we'll be in the UK and your joining me for every single leg sweetheart the tour wont effect your pregnancy, we'll be home before babys here and there'll still be time for nesting getting baby ready and everything else."

"okay. thank you Alex. for calming my worries. We're going to be parents." I say pulling him into a hug.

"Damn right we are."

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9 months later.

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[freebooter4ever]

Okay i found this ancient article on geno:

And since he's temporarily injured (get better soon!!!) I'm just gonna spend a minute to gush about how somehow the more i find out about this boy the more endearing he is...

First of all, the title alone - like i love how geno's got this 'tall dark and handsome man of mystery' archetype Down. And i dont think it's cultivated. Which honestly makes it even better. He's just Like That. Shy but confident. Mysteriously sexy. Ugh geno, i want to put you in a movie.

The dude who wrote this article very Very obviously thinks geno belongs in a movie too because it is just gushing. Like "there’s something intrinsic and effortless about the way he moves that separates him from the nine other men on the ice" i have not been watching long enough to fully appreciate geno's skills but holy shit.

The anecdote of his shot being so fast and hard that despite the goalie catching it, the force of geno's shot pushes the glove into the net is so wild. And then when that shot ends up being overturned anyway, geno goes and scores again???? This is the stuff Narratives are made of.

"Heads turn looking for Malkin, for any reaction from the big Russian. But his locker stall lies bare; Malkin has left the building." - and then he pulls some batman diseappearing act. Hot. Always leave them wanting more.

"The star-strapped NHL would surely love to have a reigning MVP to promote, someone they could put in front of the cameras, plaster on billboards and help grow the game in the United States. But they won’t find that guy in Malkin; he has the talent to convert newbies to diehards, but not the desire to do so. He’s content—no, determined—to let his play do all the talking. Add it all up, the shy demeanour, the guarded public profile, the terse answers in limited interviews, and there’s a tendency to accept what’s presented. It’s easy to think that Malkin is a supremely talented hockey player and not much else. But that would be a mistake. Because, believe it or not, he does have the personality to bring the game to the masses, the work ethic to inspire a generation of young players, and a sense of humour. He’s not an empty locker."

Its embarrassing how much i am into this omg. Like if there was a big neon sign saying 'WARNING: EXACTLY YOUR TYPE' it would be flashing. And also too late, I'm already in deep.

But more seriously - I think this is exactly why geno gets snubbed in those lists and shit. He isn't willing to play the PR game. Sid does, and sid does it really really well probably because sid doesn't seem to care much about his own persona being percieved. He's all about being a hockey ambassador. Geno, mr man of mystery, seems to care A Lot. He's rather senstivie underneath the hockey machine exterior. But he gives himself to the public in quieter ways - like the geno hat. Or all the signings he does. Or the charities. Geno really isn't about the glamour and i very much respect him for it.

“On the first day he was here, he didn’t say a word,” recalls Letang

And

"Malkin trailing Gonchar like a puppy waiting for supper during those early years."

Ok but Shy Baby Geno would have been the death of younger me like total kryptonite direct hit oh my god. 22 yr old boots you had no idea the crush you were missing out on here. Sometimes i read old fan blogs from that era and i keep kicking myself because younger me would have had so much fun. He was So Damn Cute.

This quote: "on the road, Malkin seldom went out, instead Skyping with friends and family back home, watching movies in Russian—mostly comedies—or, more commonly, studying English using Rosetta Stone." makes me go 🥺

Cause like it must have been so hard on geno, i cant imagine. I didnt have the language barrier and moving within the same country but just from WA to pittsburgh all alone was hard enough. i was definitely the shy weirdo who the first friday night i was alone at college spent the evening knitting and watching singing in the rain instead of attending the freshman cruise.

"childhood friend–turned–longtime training partner–turned current roommate Max Ivanov, who runs a hockey camp in Pittsburgh"

so thats who max is??!? an old friend from his hometown who followed him to pittsburgh???? 🥹 that is soooooo fucking sweet. i do get the feeling that if geno cares about anyone, he will probably care about them for life - loyalty and devotion and all that.

"think he plays it off with the media that he doesn’t speak as well as he does just so he can avoid interviews" this will never fail to crack me up and 100% do not blame him.

"He’s still reserved and will usually opt to go home after a game to break down that night’s action with Ivanov. Malkin received a massive chess set for his birthday last year and you’ll often find him huddled over the board across from Ivanov"

geno is just....so not what i would ever have imagined some big sports star to be????? or maybe im just clueless and too judgemental of most of the jocks i knew in high school and such.

like if 2012 geno and i actually had met and sat down and talked in some hypothetical language barrier free universe, i dont know if i even would have clocked him as a sports guy??? the more i find out the more curious i get, like why is he so reserved? but also definitely wants to be seen as being in the ranks of the famous stars? its something i can sympathize with, not that my career is anywhere close to being as storied but while ambitious ive always mostly wanted to be good enough to work with my heroes than become them. my favorite art stuff is the backend. let someone else be the big name creative directors and concept artists.

ugh geno, man of mystery, you are fascinating

[onyour-right]

S02E05 of wheel of time was amazinggggg omg! It's all starting to come together now and even though this episode answered quite a few of my questions it's also raised so many more, lol, which is what a good tv show should do.

I cant wait for the next episode because I want to find out what happens to my girl Egwene!!! I also need to find out how/why the hell Maksim and Ihvon can even open their mouths to accuse Lan of being a darkfriend, like huhhhh???? I also want to see where he'll choose to go - will he indeed search for Moiraine or will he head to the tower in hope of finding Nynaeve???

I want more of Perrin and Aviendha (they make such a great pairing & I'm so enjoying seeing Perrin come out of his shell and grow into who he's supposed to be). As for Liandrin, I genuinely dont know whether to love or dislike her - either way she's a layered character and fascinating.

I hope Nynaeve and Elayne get some training with this yellow aes-sedai and her warder because boyyyy, the things that are coming after them. They need to be ready.

Ishamael and Lanfear. Just LOL, the way they feed off each other is just, ugh, they're like brother/sister almost. I'm not surprised they're both so obsessed with Rand tho. I really get it, Rand is so baby boy & I think that's mostly because of Josha and his acting.

That head aes sedai, I forgot her name (who supposedly filled in the book saying the trio had gone to Elayne's house or something) I deffo think she's a darkfriend but the show's just wanting us to think that it's only Liandrin so they're not focusing too heavy on her like that.

I feel like the season is gonna end with the whole gang meeting up again at Falme & discovering that Rand isnt dead & also another member of the forsaken gang being woken up/freed.

[rawandrealme]

Magic

As a mom she promised herself that she would be there for everything. Every school dance, every school event she was going to be the volunteer for field trips and just be that mom. She was praised by many people tonight on how much of an amazing mom she is. Oh and not to mention the eyes shes gotten. Those who recognized her in a friendly manor did a polite wave, others engaged in some small talk, there were even a few glares like ugh shes still pretty. It felt good, especially because she didn't care what they were thinking she was dancing with her son and having a blast. Her son did test his limit but she kept her cool and it was all good. She really thought at one point she would lose her cool but she remained calm. Even though her anxiety was through the roof. She had a great night with her son. He took her out of comfort zones she would've never left. He taught her tonight to just dance like no one is watching and just have fun. Like all good nights it came to an end, but he hopes they do it again next year because he had that much fun. In the back of her mind, she hopes shes well enough or here to go too. On a side note she let some silence in through a crack. She was getting tired of the constant nonchalant ways of him trying to reach out to fix what was broken. She chose to stay silent refusing to think about it because she didn't want to cry. Shes still pretty angry with him, and catches herself wandering what he's up too, and then quickly reminds herself she cant go back. She has to heal herself a little more in order to be the woman he expects her to be and he needs to grow up before their story continues. Shes not expecting it to take weeks, shes thinking years. She has a gut feeling her years are numbered, not sure how many but she doesn't want them to be struggling for years or even miserable. She wants to make memories and let go and just be herself without any ties for a little while in order to heal some broken pieces left behind by others and empty promises. Maybe by the time shes all healed up he will grow up and be the man she needs him to be. A partner instead of another child. She hopes that no matter where life takes them, whether it be apart or together again that both of them are happy. Till then shes gonna dye her hair, plan little alone trips, and just enjoy what she can by herself without anyone watching her or telling her she cant do something. She knows what shes looking for and until she finds it shes gonna keep searching. She wants to just lay on the beach and enjoy the sounds of the ocean and just stare out into the ocean. Toning it all out and just listening to the seagulls and the waves crashing against the sand. She wants to take hikes in the mountains and just breathe in the air and look at all the beauty around her. She needs to find her magic, all the magic she lost fighting and hoping and not understanding. She doesn't consider herself taken, yet shes not single either. Shes trying to love herself, which is new territory for her because shes never loved herself. Free and fun. Random nights with friends going on a search for lava cakes, then not being able to wait so they go to a truck stop to use their microwaves, so they can eat them in the parking lot. Just listening to music and talking random memories, pure fun. Like it used to be before sex was involved, sex makes everything messy, its not fun it feels like a chore. She doesn't want a sexual relationship, she just wants friends to hang with, to be around to laugh with and go on crazy adventures with.

[aquasandyled]

Just venting a bit hehe

God im not dealing with things very well this week…. Im so scared bc i feel like im gonna do okay and like im gonna achieve my goal but also i never set my expectations high. Whenever i do i never get what i want yknow? Or at least it feels that way.

I really really reaaaaally want this. Ive been very consistent in my studies and ive been doing maybe not my bestest but my… i-wont-kill-myself-for-this-est i guess. Its gonna be so fucking embarrassing if i fail. Kinda wish my parents wouldn’t go with me lmao but ugh.

Been slacking off this last week and im just exhausted. I want it to be over already. Its been a literal year since i started studying i realized, thats just… kinda nuts… cant wait till its over and i can let my brain just waste away a bit and i can play some videogames and watch movies.

But honestly? Learning shit is fun af. Knowing shit is fun af. Cant wait to know more and work with the people i wanna work with and maybe ill grow a bit more. Everything will be as it should. Ill make it happen! Its gonna be fine.

[personallylivingeasy]

I dont really know what to do right now. I'm so happy i heard from you but I know you are going to say you are not ready for a relationship. that you want to work on yourself and all that jazz. which is understandable, admirable. but if i could, without interruption, hesitation, or restraint i would tell you this.

I know you are going to say you are not ready, and i respect that, i do. But while respecting that, I want you to know that not talking to you this year was so lack luster. not that i didn't have things going on, it may have been the busiest 9 months of my life. But in every fun outing or funny moment i so wished you were there. And when i was with my family and i needed a drink out of the garage i was like ugh it was so nice when jack was with me at my aunts house and we could joke and have fun while also attending a family function.

thats really just a side note. and me easing into actually being vulnerable. Which i am not good at nor do i enjoy doing.

I don't even really know how to say anything i want to say so bare with me. I don't know if you remember saying to me that if i said yes to us dating, that would be it. I'm at that place. This would be it for me, in fact i've kind of made up my mind that you are the person i want to be with. And i'm saying that as you are now. not as you should be or could be or fully healed and whatever. As you are now and how i've known you. again i'm not saying this to pressure you into starting out a relationship now. in no way do i want to do that. But i also don't want you to think that because you are working on yourself everything else has to go on pause.

I don't know how to say these things without it sounding like an ultimatum or something. I just want you to know where I'm at, how sure I am. I don't know what to do from here but i know i cant do another 9 months of no contact. I think this is a lot more grey than it is black and white.

If i could write out how I'd like it to go it would look something like this, we don't do anything different. We hangout as friends and let it progress naturally. no titles, no hard and fast rules, just as we were. obviously it won't be exactly as it were, but i think the more we put rules on it the more serious the situation is. and really it isn't all that serious.

I just feel like it's so simple. we have such a good friendship foundation. I already know all of you or at least most of you and vise versa. If it can really only go up from here with working on ourselves, then what is there to be worried about. As your friend nothing would change with you going through this, except maybe less drinking more running. But i wouldn't stop being your friend. nothing would change in that department.

So like i don't want to date while you are not at all ready. I want you to feel settled. But know that nothing is going to be perfect neither one of us is going to be 100% ready. So lets move at a glacial pace. neither one of us are in a rush to have babies, get married, move in together, so why act like that's the next step when it totally isn't.

what i don't want to see happen is we wait and wait and one of us grows resentful and our friendship goes away and then the potential for a relationship goes with it. I just really think that would be my biggest regret and what if of my life lol

idk i just think there is an answer here that neither one of us considered that makes us both happy, both able to work on ourselves, gives us space to do so, but still keeps us together on some level.

I'm saying all this as if we have remotely talked about anything important. all we've said is that we'd like to see each other. something i will be hanging on for awhile lol

i miss you, i wish you knew that. I wish you knew i want you as you are. which is good for me.

[ungirthed]

want to make a place for my thots of anything with no viewers if i remember to come on here. i cant believe i keep having to make these since i end up getting followers and interacting. but i'm an adult with shit to do irl and things to fight and this fandom is almost 20y old so idt i will do that. lol. just finished atla like 20y too late cos my parents hated me and my bro watching tv growing up. journaling/blogging thots!!! ugh. i wish i didnt hve adhd and dyspraxia lmao gonna split them up so i dont get overwhelmed reading my bullshit. if u stumble upon this it doesnt make sense sry

politically a lot of critique that i have to think about. character and plot wise it was pretty good and tight esp for a kids show. amazing female characters. can't wait for the bi agenda from LoK but i may take a while for that. p much i have to say these are great characters and i could talk a lot about them but i'm shocked at what i took away with regards to the romantic rships from the show and the characterization via it.

re love lines:

i wish kataang was written better in the show (MY opinion if any1 stumbles upon this). i don't ~ship~ zutara bc i am an adult and even back then no cos who cares lol but i see the appeal and am attracted to that. i do think we have to retire the trope of the "both sides but falling in love" not because it isn't possible but because post 10/7 (free palestine) i don't think it's worth it to look at it this way anymore. until someone proves themselves not worthy of death because of the resistance fighting back then they NEED TO PROVE THEMSELVES IMMEDIATELY. no more of this i'm in a concentration camp but he's a nazi bullshit. no more i'm a slave but he's the slave master's son (i mean in this case u could have been related but no1 listens to me!) it's repetitive, reductive, and untrue.

that being said: i just never care about the typical bildungsroman love story. you see the One Person bc i guess the kids tasked with saving the world have to be monk-adjacent (in aang's case quite literally) bc understandably theyre so fucked up lol. but it's always sooooo boring to me esp if it's f/m.

katara is such a complex character and mae whitman brings a wisdom to her voice that can be frustrating to connect with for me but her character arc, her strength, her MIND, her heart, and her fists. i think ppl probs like zutara the most when shes' going batshit and no one can understand aang's perspective. but aang is one of a kind and the cutest smartest sweetest loser ever. not my fav char but i love him. he's like if i had a younger brother and not an older one lmao.

of course they're (kataang) together. they were meant to be from the moment they saw e/o and that stupid cave kiss...this is why you don't wait until 32 to watch this lol.

but nothing surprised me and it was meant to be the way it was written. that's also why i find it understandable but shocking people in the universe and apparently outside of it were surprised at aang's turmoil over ozai. like are you joking? he's a 12 year old vegetarian monk. which: i loved his vegetarianism and obviously he was going to be but very casually they put in a line that hints as to why he would be and why many of us are...so i am dedicated to it again.

so wrt that and zutara...the episode where he's with her with the dude that killed her moms and his support of her i can see why people like them. the cave ep obviously but this show is veryyyyy free with affection i noticed and there's some jealousy but they all get over that pretty quickly. i read some of the comics and i could see different rships happening and i definitely think this world lends to queerness (me personally i love monogamy but a certain type lol so not rly interested in much poly but i do like a throuple) but i could see most being bi+ or having identified as that in the past, or labeling themselves but nto limiting. that's just an aside for meee...

so like katara was being katara. i could see suki and zuko being romantic but also a deep friendship that could be deeply affectionate either affect or physically or both bc that's who these ppl are. katara is a very intense person and that's part of why she can be annoying. that's part of why they ALL can be overwhelming. theyre intense, traumatized, repressed kids and teens with mostly good hearts (or just a person so disconnected from herself but also a fascist so u know. her going nuts lol)

hmm what else oh yea. so i came away with maiko......gjpasig the show was paced and plotted well. i am a libertarian communist (anarcho-commie) so MANNNNN i wish they did better on that front but again i must remember i am 32, ancom, and the world is diff. but anyway lmao so team avatar is who i would want to spend time with but i got so interested in mai and ty lee (mailee...). that beach ep conversation was so good, that whole ep, their argument. it was extremely teenage and showed how fucked up they all are. how confused and fucking lost and pathetic. how small their lives are. how boring....so mai...

[winderlylandchime]

1/2We are on 4x08 and he is sitting with his fingers crossed and repeating to himself ‘not cancer, not cancer, not cancer’. ‘BRIAN IS BACK AT BABYLON! SEE! It was just a scare. Where’s Blondie? Go find him- VIC?! WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON? Vic, i miss you baby. I miss you so much. What’s with the old guys? Oh fuck. I don’t like the sight of Brian in a hospital bed. Horrible’ ‘is Ben still a bitch because Rage might become a movie? Grow up man.’ Deb is shopping for the gravestone ‘promise me, you wont pull some type of shit like that. Just give me a little stone and write ‘well fuck’ on it and that will be perfect.’ ‘BRIAN IS BACK! He looks like shit, poor baby. *jumps up and screams* HE HAS TO GET TO CLASS! HE WENT BACK TO SCHOOL! HE LISTENED! Of course Brian wants to drive him. (Cuts to britin in the car) LOOK AT THEM! Brian, you gotta come clean. HE MISSED HIM! HE FUCKING MISSED HIM! The man who was willing to do anything to get rid of him in season 1, just casually said “i missed you”. I AM NOT OKAY. (Brian tries to prove justin he missed him with a kiss) oh just suck his dick! (Justin keeps saying he’s not convinced and brian laughs) THAT RIGHT THERE IS SOME BIG DICK ENERGY. He has that man wrapped around his finger. Good for you Blondie. (brian takes his shades off) oh poor baby, he looks exhausted.’ ‘I don’t know what this lindsay and the painter bullshit is. But i need it gone because it is taking air time away from Brian’ the Justin/Mikey/Keller scene is up ‘oh is this the producer or whatever? Why does he looks familiar? I have a very soft spot for Justin calling Brian his boyfriend.’ ‘Aww look at Brian listening to Justin. Unlike some other boyfriend. How is he planning to hide the surgery from Justin? HE DOES LOOK TIRED! Brian just tell him. Does he plan on not having sex for a whole month or? (Justin is about to hear the voicemail) oh no. SHIT. OH SO THATS HOW HES GONNA FIND OUT?’ Justin is now confronting Mikey ‘oh poor baby, he looks so sad. He looks like he cried. Wait? He’s gonna tell Mike? Dude, go to Brian! WHY IS NO ONE TALKING TO EACH OTHER IN THIS FUCKING SHOW? It wouldve made more sense to go to Ted than Mike. Or Cynthia! Mike is gonna blow this out of proportion like i would. NO HE CANT HAVE CANCER! Okay, here’s what we’re gonna do fellas. Mikey you keep your mouth shut. Justin, you go to Brian and have a talk with him and I will continue to freak out’ and now we are at Brian in the office scene ‘you can hear it in his voice that he isn’t okay. Baby, please tell Justin. He looks and sounds like shit. Ted looks worried as fuck. THIS FUCKING SUCKS. All of it. He cant catch a break. Why didn’t he tell Ted? That would make sense.’ Deb has a breakdown in the diner: ‘oh my poor sweet Deb. This is gonna be me though if something happens to Brian, just so we’re all clear on that’ He is now groaning because of Linds and Sam ‘I don’t like this. He grabbed her ass. He suggested a threesome. She calls him a pig or whatever and now we’re friends? Weird and i hate it’ and we are now at babylon ‘Justin is trying to be sweet and caring and Brian is trying to be the Brian Kinney that Justin knows. If only this could be solved by, oh I don’t know…TALKING. (mikey tackles Brian) is he fucking stupid? Be honest? I swear he’s dumb. WHAT DID I SAY, he’s worse than me. He shouldve gone to Ted. Or Emmett. EXACTLY JUSTIN TELL MIKE HES BEING STUPID. I don’t like this producer dude, but that could be just because i don’t trust hollywood people. Ben really is a piece of shit. This is some shit Brian would pull in season 1 not mister Buddha.’ And we are at Britin scene ‘aw Justin’s not feeling well. ALL IT TOOK WAS CAN YOU COME WITH ME AND BAM BRIAN DROPS EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING FOR HIM! Although why is he peacocking? He clearly cant fuck right now so who is he trying to impress with these dudes?’

BRIAN DROPPING HIM OFF AT SCHOOL IS EVERYTHING. It's such an incredible scene.

Sam! That's the fucker's name! Ugh what a terrible arc.

And yes, the failure to communicate about the cancer... so frustrating.

[1d1195]

FUCK HER DAD OMFGGGGGGGGGG!!!! THE TEARS THAT ARE SPILLING FROM MY EYES OMGGGG!! I know I tend to take my time to try to make my thoughts sound okay but I CANT RN OMGGGGGGGGG!!

I was so happy for them to be with each other😭 like I just wanted her and Harry to be okay and I’m SO GLAD SHE MADE HIM STAY BC HE WAS HURTING ME WHEN HE SAID HE HAD TO LEAVE! Also omg the mention of her asking to still go with him back home for Christmas😭😭😭 and him giving little updates to his mom❤️💔💔 I kinda love how fondly he speak about his mother 😭 his little note to her omg it was so cute, I love him but fuck I didn’t think this note would lead to another plot twist

HONESTLY FUCK HER DAD LIKE HE NEEDS TO BE EXPOSED GO TO PRISON BC DEATH IS TOO EASY FOR HIM !!!!!!! BC THIS MF TRIED TI KILL HER BEFORE AND SHE LOST HER MOTHER BC OF HIM WTF I HATE HIM THE PAIN OF I WENT THROUGH WHOLE REAIDNG THESE PARTS OMG!?! AND TH WFACT THAT HARRY PIECED IT TOGETHER TOO😭😭💔💔💔🚬🚬🚬 LIKE HELLO THIS IS SO HEARTBREAKING SHE DESERVED SO MUCH MORE GROWING UP QND NOW!!! AND HARRY FINDING HER AN STHE CLIFFHANGER😭😭😭😭

I’m sorry if this feedback isn’t great but you truly never disappoint and you and your stories make me feel so much! Definitely more than some published books!!! I’m so anxious to read what’s next!!! Ugh I love you so much !!!!!!!!! -💜

AHHH! I've been waiting for your thoughts and don't apologize honestly I'm obsessed with the chaos (and I don't even think you're being chaotic, but I thrive in it, ya know?)

HE WAS THE WORST. IMAGINE TRYING TO LEAVE. Like you already broke your protocol Harry shut UP. I think Harry at Christmas is my favorite idea/dream. I hope they get to England hehehe

I've literally had this plot twist written since I started writing the series, it's nice to throw it out here now.

(It's me, hi. I'm the one with daddy issues, hi.)

THIS FEEDBACK IS WONDERFUL. YOU SENDING A MESSAGE IS WONDERFUL IN ITSELF. STOP.

Thank you so so much for writing to me, sorry you have to wait until Monday 💕

xoxo