#ugh cant wait to make this grow some more

[sanjisboyfie]

one piece masterlist ౨ৎ

[ keep safe series ] // ongoing, romantic undertones, slow burn, future angst, comedic

-> "it's beautiful, how this deep normality settles down over me. i'm not bored or unhappy. i'm still so strange and wild. you're in the wind, i'm in the water. nobody's son, nobody's daughter." or, joining the strawhat pirates as luffy's childhood friend allows you to make memorie with people who started as strangers, but then became your loved ones.

playlist

๑ prologue

๑ the cursed orphan enters 彡 alabasta arc begins

๑ [name] joins the strawhats

๑ just a friendly competition...right?

๑ heartfelt conversations with a chef

๑ coffee beans

๑ i'm gonna freeze my balls off

๑ i'm gonna freeze my balls off, pt. 2

๑ crimson red icicles

๑ luffy's innate instincts (a hum of the heart)

๑ new crewmate, tony tony chopper

๑ his hand on his ankle

๑ don't you know? "lover" outweights "boyfriend"

๑ i'll kill you, i'll really kill you

๑ "together in chaos."

๑ zoro being annoyed at his captain and [name]

๑ mr. prince and mr. executioner

๑ the dogs are hounding on [name]

๑ wings that made [name] fly

๑ see you later, vivi!

❔[NAME] WIKI - ALABASTA ARC ENDS

๑ more in common than you'd think 彡 skypiea arc begins

๑ robin and [name] make a good team!

๑ we made it!

๑ [name] wants to adopt suu!

๑ that god guy thing

๑ strawhat adventure team, go!

๑ chopper's crown

๑ put a face to the name

๑ mummified [name]

๑ four hundred years is not too late

ꔛ 666 heart special for quotev -> individual one shots with each straw hat, each assigned a representative song that describes the relationship they share with [name]

๑ navarone - g8

๑ davy back fight 彡 long ring long land arc begins

-> frequently used tags:

#≡;- ꒰ ° keep safe series ꒱

#ks

#one piece fanfic

#one piece fanfiction

DOMESTICITY series // based off of keep safe characters/relationships, but can be read as standalone one shots

ꔛ sanji's special dessert -> he prepares a dessert only for you since he knows your likes and dislikes

ꔛ a shared interest among swordsmen -> rare moments of peace and quiet with zoro

ꔛ nami is working, don't interrupt -> she doesn't mind the company, especially if you're peeling her tangerines

ꔛ usopp and [name]'s conversation -> heart to heart

one piece [ smau ] // social media au

ପ strawhats misc. edition

ପ dating luffy edition

ପ dating nami edition

ପ dating sanji edition

ପ strawhat vacation edition

ପ dating zoro edition

ପ dating usopp edition

ପ dating vivi edition

ପ married to law edition

ପ married to franky edition

ପ married to robin edition

ପ dating eustass kid edition

ପ married to doflamingo edition

ପ dating ace edition

ପ married to marco edition

ପ dating sabo edition

-> frequently used tags:

#≡;- ꒰ ° smau series ꒱

#one piece smau

#one piece modern au

[ yandere ]

જ yandere zoro headcanons

જ yandere sanji headcanons

જ soft yandere luffy

જ yandere luffy

-> frequently used tags:

#≡;- ꒰ ° yandere series ꒱

#≡;- ꒰ ° yandere headcanons ꒱

[ drabbles // one shots // headcanons ]

ꔛ playlist : tender by blur [ luffy x male reader ] // based off of keep safe characters, but can read as a standalone one shot. small hints of yandere luffy. // snippet of pt.2

-> tender is the night, lying by your side. tender is the touch of someone that you love too much. tender is my heart. i'm screwing up my life. lord i need someone to who can heal my mind, or luffy and reader reminisce about their childhood memories while cuddling in merry's crow's nest.

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SUGAR DADDY series

ꔛ in a world of boys, he's a gentleman, nami x SD male reader

ꔛ pass the test, nami x SD male reader, the one where he meets nami's friends

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ꔛ shanks being your doting boyfriend

ꔛ random sanji headcanons

ꔛ sanji has a crush on you ♡︎

ꔛ halloween with the strawhats [platonic]

ꔛ a day in the life as a strawhat [platonic]

ꔛ rockstar ! tragalar law headcanons

ꔛ me psychoanalyzing sanji x male reader

ꔛ random individual headcanons ; includes, law, luffy and zoro

ꔛ the type of man . . .

[cult-of-the-eye]

Mag 81 A Guest for Mr Spider

FUCK FORMER HEAD ARCHIVIST

Wait I need to check the timelines - this was 2 days after leitner's death

New spooky music???

My man is so fucking dramatic I love him so much "grand of sand behind my eye" love the way he speaks

Yeah FUCK JURGEN LEITNER

Omg the greying hair is canon??

Child in the 90s makes him at most 27 GOD DAMN. I was imagining like mid 30s...can you imagine a fucking 27 yr old using words like "ilk" when talking to you

Oh shit he's an orphan poor guy

Yeah ok a lot of his personality seems to make sense if you realise he was raised by his grandma

You know those memes that are like people raised by their grandparents are exceptionally polite but in a brisk way, talk fancy and are super posh? Yeah that's him.

Getting such neurodivergent vibes

Yeah he sounds like a main character from the start Jesus Christ he's such a kid who got traumatised and then grows up to be a horror protagonist vibes

My First Leitner lol like kids had to be introduced to them at a young age like those my first toys

He's so funny I can just imagine him as an 8 yr old getting super like affronted at this like how dare my grandma think I am of subpar intelligence he's such a little bitch from the start

"The eponymous Mr spider" even talking about his childhood trauma he's busting out the vocabulary

Fuck that story actually kinda rattled me I had my hand over my mouth in shock for most of it

I think it was the bit where the horsefly brought his son and they were both crying that got me, I could definitely imagine it scaring an 8 yr old

The way it drags out as well, with the pages of the same scene it really heightens the suspense

Is his childhood bully someone we should keep track of?? Love how he says Michael probably cause he sees him as a bully lol

It's interesting how despite him bullying him (quite badly seeing as though he beat him up) he's still like yeah but he saved my life and that means he deserves to be remembered

My bro didn't save your life on purpose, he was just trying to make it worse and happened to come to a terrible fate cause of that

I guess underneath it all he was still a kid who watched someone die, knowing they'd get eaten by a fucking spider, he still held him in some regard

The way he specified the guy was his bully even after he was being eaten though lol

He was desperate to get the book back? That's a leitner thing I guess, the book makes you want to keep it so it can finish whatever it wanted to do to you

On my relisten (which I will do once I've finished the series I'm sure of it), I'll have to look out for any reaction of leitners name

I wonder why Jon didn't react more to Carlos vittery's statement, like it must've terrified him? I saw a post a while back explaining Jon's thoughts and IT WAS GENIUS it was like of course he doesn't react, he must be terrified that someone knew about his experience and somehow did this to mess with him or it was a joke and he can't let anyone know that the Head Archivist is not Good at This ugh it's so good I'll tag it if I can find it

AHHHHH HE REGRETS DISMISSING THE OTHER STATEMENTS AHHHHHH

HE FINALLY ADMITS THAT HE NEEDS HELP WE LOVE THIS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT YES YOU FUCKING DO BITCH.

yeah at least he's right about Elias killing leitner

GEORGIE THE EX GIRLFIEND

ITS SO WEIRD TO SEE HIM ACTUALLY NICE TO SOMEONE WOW HIS VOICE CHANGES SLIGHTLY AS WELL HES LESS ACADEMIC

THE ADMIRAL

Awwww he's so cute with georgie

GHOST PODCAST GHOST PODCAST

THE WHAT THE GHOST T SHIRT IS CANON???? AHH THATS SO CUTE

Can he not go back to his own flat?? Did he bring all his clothes to the archive and then subsequently leave them there? Does he even have a flat??

God Georgie is so nice I would kill for her

It's so funny that an apparent supernatural cynic dated a ghost podcaster

WOW SEASON 3 OFF TO AN AMAZING START I CANT WAIT TO KEEP LISTENING IM GONNA TELL MY THERAPIST ABOUT THIS TOMORROW!!!

[jadeylovesmarvelxo]

Hi ☺️ id like to request a vampire!eddie who is friends with reader but they both want more. But maybe vampire!eddie is afraid to hurt reader so he tries to remain friends. Reader finally gives up and tells eddie they can be friends but she needs to move on. She ends up on a date that ends terribly, when she gets home eddie is waiting for her and confesses he cant just be friends and they happily get together bc neither deserve anymore angst lol.

Warnings: Angst to fluff 💕

Dont copy, reuse or repost my work

Request by @swansonron

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Many people have fun stories about how they've met their best friend.

For you and Eddie its no different except for one thing.

Your best friend is a vampire. Yes, exactly like Dracula, Anna Rice's Interview with a Vampire, Angel and Spike from Buffy...

Oh, and he doesn't sparkle in the sun just FYI.

Eddie may be a vampire but he's the sweetest, kindest man you've ever met. He's never hurt a human and you know he'd never hurt you.

You've fallen for him, hard but despite how close you both are, how it's obvious both you want to take your friendship to the next level Eddie holds back.

He's terrified of hurting you, even though you know he won't but he's got the idea in his head that his enhanced strength will end up with you hurt in some way.

Honesty, he's the most gentle man you've ever known and you know accidents can happen, but what they didn't?

You wish deep in your heart that Eddie would give you and him a chance but it looked increasingly unlikely and the more it broke your heart.

🦇

After much deliberation, constantly unsure of what to do and many sleepless nights you had come to a decision.

If Eddie would never accept the idea of you and him together then you had to move on. For both your sake.

You loved his frienship and never wanted to ruin it so maybe moving on would be best for everyone.

Even if you doubted that you could find someone as incredible as Eddie, you had to try didn't you?

Telling Eddie was the hardest part as your heart still longed for him.

"I have to move on Eddie. I want to be with you so much but it's clear you don't feel the same." your heart clenches painfully and you take a second before speaking again.

"We can be friends obviously but I can't keep hoping and waiting for you when this isn't what you want"

Saying all of this is hurting your heart but it needs to be said. You need to move on and stop living in a dream world.

Eddie is quiet as he takes this in and gives a tiny nod of his head.

"I understand princess" There's a hint of pain in his voice and you desperately want to soothe him, take the pain away.

By the time you move forward just an inch to go and comfort him, it's like he puts a mask up, his brown eyes darken and he steps back.

Tears prick your eyes but you swallow them down. Maybe he really doesn't care... He's just your friend and that's it.

"I have a date on Friday. It's with a guy called Jason" he nods and turns away.

"Right, well I hope it goes well sweetheart. I'll see you tommorow" he pauses and then turns back to you and gently kisses your cheek.

The soft brush of his lips on yours, the way his brown eyes meet your gaze for a minute makes your heart race.

When you open your eyes, he's gone and all that's left is a hollow feeling in your chest.

♥️

Shit, could this night get any worse?

Jason was one of those washed up jocks who sat relieving his glory days as a high school heartthrob and football captain.

He barely asked anything about you and when he did it didn't last long.

Long story short? You wish you were with Eddie instead.

Jason gulps down his wine and grows increasingly more and more drunk, conversation is stilted and no matter how many times you pick it up, it doesn't help.

The two of you have nothing in common, in fact he could be the greatest guy in the world and your heart would still belong to Eddie.

This frustrates you. Ugh, so much for trying to get over him. You needed to accept he didn't want to be with you. In some ways you had but your heart was different.

Your heart longed for a happy ending but its obvious you wouldn't find it here.

♥️

Eddie was waiting for you when you got home, he has a determined look on his face.

"Hi, what are you doing here Ed's?" you ask him curiously. Your traitor heart skips a beat as you eye him.

"I wanted to make sure you got home okay. How was your date?" you groan and slump on the sofa.

"Awful, truly awful" he growls and his eyes flash red briefly. Shit he's pissed.

"Do I need to have words with this douchebag" his protectiveness is sweet but you can handle a tipsy idiot.

"No, you'd scare him to death Eddie, I'm okay"

He kneels down beside you and takes your hand.

"What if I just frighten him a little bit? Turn into my bat form and scare the shit out of the dumb fuck?" this makes you giggle at the thought but you shake your head.

"No, remember what happened last time" Poor Miss Dawson is still on edge about bats.

He nods smirking then turns serious, his eyes lock with yours.

"When you were on the date it was driving me crazy. I can't just be friends with you sweetheart, I want more"

After a shitty night hearing this is like a dream.

"You mean it Eddie?" he nods, his thumb circling over your fingers. Sparks and tension comes off the both of you in waves.

Fuck, you so badly want to kiss him.

"I've never wanted anything more sweetheart, I adore you. I've falling for you, hard"

Eddie kisses you. You've been waiting for so long for this to happen and now that it is you can't believe it.

You kiss him back with equal fervour and he smiles against your lips.

"I'm gonna love you forever sweetheart"

Maybe happy endings weren't just for fairtytales after all.

♥️

[raevenlywrites]

Time for more The Magnus Archives! Todays listen starts with episode 21: Free Fall through 22: Colony 23: Schwarrzwhatever skipped bc historical shit bores me, 24: Strange Music 25: Growing Dark, 26: A Distortion, 27: A sturdy lock and finally 28: Skintight

(prev episodes here)

Free Fall

Martin! I almosr skipped this one bc one of my fears is "im in a situation i cant walk/climb/swim away from", but my hands were full so i just let it go. and we get an interruption! i love those

Colony

Okay. So I love Martin right off the bat for unfair meta reasons and for pretty legit diagetic reasons. One, I have a fondness for Alex's voice from listening to Rusty Quill Gaming. I always hear him playing this one shot himbo paladin of Apollo, and it always makes me grin. So im just flat predisposed to feel favorably to anyone voiced by Alex.

But two, so far Jon has been presented as kind of prickly. He sounds unpleasant to give statements to, wretched for work for, and particularly hard on Martin. Maybe its justified, maybe not, we havent had a chance to know. So now we get Martin "on camera" and he is immediately cast as pathetic and aligned with the reader: creeped out by all this spooky shit. He goes on to be a very good boy, doing scary shit bc he knows he needs to do a better job for his boss.

And then, brilliantly, Jon subverts this dick boss vibe thats been building by offering a room to Martin. He takes Martin's concerns very seriously, because he takes legitimate archives concerns very seriously. Weve seen hints of this with his reactions to things like the Lightner books, but this is the first time hes reacted with a sense of urgency. its a ramping up of the tension, now that weve established the tone of the work and some truths about the world. its really interesting that this shit isnt in response to dreamer, a direct threat to his predecessor, but rather a direct threat to one of his subordinates. It says some interesting things about Jon's character, and shifts my expectations on how he might react to future incidents.

ugh. im remembering the other reason why listening to this at work was a no go. The sound mixing on this is so bad that even with my headphones cranked all the way up, i can't hear shit :/

Schwartzwhatever skipped due to disinterest in historicals, let me know if im missing any vital clues or fun interruption scenes

Strange Music

Not much to say about this one, although it was fun to listen to Sasha and Jon lampshade the problems of audio media and regional pronounciations of Calliope. Has anyone ever actually heard it pronounced Callie ope (like cantaloupe)?

Growing Dark

So, i happened to go back and listen to 9: A fathers love, while trying to calibrate my headphones, and what a happy accident that I did! Hello, The Peoples Church of The Divine Host! Also, connection to Gertrude's "death" (still not 100 that she's dead, just gone)

Flag: TPCotDH, episodes 9: A fathers love and 25: Growing Dark

A distortion

Sasha! This is another one where my experiences with Rusty Quill gaming make me predisposed to like and trust Sasha. But since Jon also seems to trust her, that makes me more inclined to believe their opinion of Martin as a bit of a klutz, the one you trip when youre running from a bear, most likely to be the first casuality

Very curious about Michael, cant help but wonder if theyre going to lean into angelic mythology or not. Tuck that in my folder of "things to wait and see about"

A Sturdy Lock

By all rights this one SHOULD get to me. I dont remember if it did on my first listen, but this time around all I really care about is wondering from a writer perspective if all these "other statements" that get mentioned every now and again are already written/planned, or just mechanism to add to the sense of a larger world. And from a reader figuring shit out perspective, I'm starting to wonder if the archive is such a mess maybe on purpose. Like, was Gertrude a baddy (/IS a baddy????). Or maybe Martin is not as inept as he seems and is secretly moving things about 🧐

Skintight

I LOVE that this one isnt actually about a grey lady. its really fun how they like to set up common tropes and then sideswipe them XD. Plus its a real treat to hear two actors play off of each other. That works so much better for me than suspending my disbelief that grumpy old Jarchivist is recording these statements with such emotion XD

[harmslength]

WE ARE SO BACK!

(we are so not back)

Hello lovelies!

I just wanted to write this as deep and loving thank you to everyone who has supported me, welcomed me and to the people who have been patiently waiting for new fics.

I’ve recently reached 100 followers and over 140k messages on c.ai. I just want to let you guys know how much this fucking means to me!!!!!!! AHHH I’m literally so pumped about it, like genuinely this fills my heart with so much joy. You guys make it so easy to want to keep making stuff and ugh I can’t even describe it.

I won’t yap too much about this though. Becauuuuuseee as a thank you I’m finally releasing more shit!! Yaaaaayy! (Bout’ fucking time)

First — A new Neil Lewis fic which you can read HERE. Purely smut, not a whole lot of plot to it. Definitely read the tags though…

Second — I’m releasing a few new characters for c.ai.

We’ve got:

Jim — from The Delinquent Season: you’re his new babysitter. Jim does have a wife in this so just be warned that he may try some morally corrupt things.

Cillian Murphy: fallen angel AU. He was banished from heaven and placed right on your door step. Will he return to heaven? Who’s to say. Probably not after what you’re going to do to him.

Jonathan Crane — from you already know: Dr. Crane is your therapist. Do what you will with that.

John Skillpa — from Peacock: You and John are long-time friends. John probably isn’t doing too well. Sorry John! I love him so much.

And of course, one that always pairs with the story I’ve written! Neil Lewis — from Watching the Detectives: You and Neil have just gotten engaged and are looking to grow and expand your lives together. How romantic.

Anyways I just want to add this last bit under the cut since this has been such an unbelievably long post. If you’ve gotten this far—thank you. And if you haven’t well, I don’t blame you one bit.

I just want to say that I’m back, I’m here but I will probably not be posting regularly at all. I got clinical major depression and a full time job that I hate so writing comes and goes as it pleases.

To add to that though I do have a lot of really fun fics in the works that I’m really fucking excited to share with you all. I’ve been trying to get more comfortable with writing shorter stuff but I have this problem where I just cant write anything shorter than like 5k, I don’t know I think I need to see a doctor..

Anyways I just want to top this off with saying again that I adore you guys so much. All the comments and messages I have received over the past few months have made me so happy. I’d love to talk to more of you and meet more people so please don’t be afraid or hesitant to reach out! I bite but I promise I just got my rabies vaccine updated. Tootles!

[fallingforel]

Hey!! What’s up? I was wondering if you could do number 3 on the prompt list with Alex Turner but can you make it like a hurt/comfort thing where maybe they get into some sort of fight? I don’t wanna be too specific because I hate taking away creative freedom but I would love you forever🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🥰

CW:MENTIONS OF SICK.

A/N I am so so so sorry that it has taken me more than a month to get to my requests but i have been super super busy with everything just taking some time out for myself but im back and carrying on with everything while dealing with writers block for arabella ahagaha anyway for those wanting to request... prompt list is here. on with the showwww

PROMPT 3: "I need you"

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"ALEX. GO AWAY. I DON'T FEEL WELL. I DON'T NEED YOU HERE. LOOKING AFTER ME LIKE SOME TINY TODDLER BA-" I shouted from inside the bathroom door, which was cut off by emptying the contents of my stomach into the toilet bowl.

"darling I just want to be here for you. help you."

"yeah well not right now. I don't need you getting sick just before you have to leave for tour tomorrow. I can't let you risk it. If you want to help go stay at a hotel so you don't get infected with whatever I've got going on right now"

"okay. okay. I'm going right now. call me if you need anything. promise"

"I promise Alex. go. I don't need you here."

an hour had passed when I had finally gotten up from the bathroom floor. finally emptying all that I could from my stomach.

"knock knock. I'm coming in." Natalie. my best friend had announced herself.

"ugh. not you as well. Nat I'm fine. I don't need everyone babysitting me. I've dealt with sickness on my own before I don't need everyone looking after me I'm not a child"

"oh wow. I was only coming to say hello. but I've clearly hit a nerve. what's going on nobody mentioned you were sick. in that case stay clear of me I've got a shoot in 3 days. I do not have time to get sick"

"cheers nat. Thanks for looking after me."

"geez with the mood swings. you weren't wanting me to babysit you a few moments ago now you want me to look after you. What's wrong with you anyway"

"well, I've got sore boobs, metallic taste in my mouth all the time, I'm throwing up all the time I'm also tired all the fucking time. I just want this bug to pass so I can go back to happy healthy Y/n"

"Y/n babe when did you last have your period. 2 months ago why???" it took me a moment to realise it. and soon I gasped. "OMG! no I cant be this has come at the worst time I cant be. I'm on the pill and we used a condom"

"not always effective babe."

"okay okay. lets not rush into anything. Can you go pick up a pregnancy test."

"no need. I've got one in my bag for emergencies"

"err... I'm not gonna question that right now, we'll circle back to that one later. but okay I'll go take that right now. you stay here."

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After waiting what felt like an age but in reality only three minutes I flipped the test over.

POSITIVE 3+ WEEKS

"fucking great. just at the worst time." I whispered to myself.

"Y/n is everything okay in there."

"yeah. I need to be on my own. I'm sorry"

"don't even mention it babe. I'll see myself out now. Want me to lock the door"

"nah leave it open. shut it obviously but don't lock it"

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I knew I needed to tell Alex. tell him I was sorry before he left and about the baby that was growing inside me at the minute.

The phone rang once twice three times before he finally picked up.

"Y/n babe is everything okay."

"I need you. so bad" I cried down the phone to him

"I'm coming right now sweetheart. do you need anything?" he asked.

"Just a hug"

"okay okay. I'm on my way. Be five minutes top darling"

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and he really wasn't lying when he said he'd be no longer than 5 minutes because I heard the door go no longer than 3 minutes after I ended the phone call.

"Y/n darling?" he called

"upstairs Alex" I said my voice wavering.

he burst the bathroom door open. and I started sobbing jumping into his arms wrapping my arms round his torso. the both of us swaying from the impact a bit. but we soon stopped and Alex's arms soon wrapped round meeting at my waist. Alex walks the two of us to our shared bedroom sitting us down on the bed.

"woah darling what's this what's got you in such a tizzy?" he asks.

"I'm sorry." I mumble into his shoulder.

"sorry for what sweetheart?"

"sorry for shouting at you. sorry for accusing you for babying us. sorry for the news I'm about to put on you."

"There's no need to apologise for that darling you did nothing wrong." It takes him a moment for him to realise my last statement from my previous statement.

"Y/n what news what are you going on about? You are really freaking me out honey."

"Stay here" I pull myself out of his arms, and walk to the bathroom where the pregnancy test lay on top of the toilet.

"This is the news." I say walking back into the bedroom sitting on the bed next to him and pass him the pregnancy test that lay in my hand.

"You mean- You mean we're going to be parents?"

"Not if you don't want to be."

"Not if I dont? Darling of course I want to be a parent. Do you want to be?"

"of course I do its just-"

"it's just what?"

"Its just. Is now even the right time to become preganant especially when you leave for tour tomorrow. What about in 9 months time? What about when I become too fat to walk anywhere."

"That won't happen sweetheart. because you aren't gonna become fat. You'll have a baby in your tummy. Our baby. And as for the tour. You'll come with me, we can sort out something. we're doing the asia america and australia first and then in 4 months we'll be in the UK and your joining me for every single leg sweetheart the tour wont effect your pregnancy, we'll be home before babys here and there'll still be time for nesting getting baby ready and everything else."

"okay. thank you Alex. for calming my worries. We're going to be parents." I say pulling him into a hug.

"Damn right we are."

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9 months later.

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[voltronisanobsession]

Lance with a Genderfluid S/O who feels Insignificant

Ok!! so this was requested by @girlboypersonthingy , who wanted hcs with Lance and a gender-fluid/non-binary s/o who feels like he’s kinda pushing them aside/insignificant to him!

Ngl I had a little trouble writing this, so I hope i was able to execute this well!

You and Lance have built a really strong relationship with each other

Despite Lances’ initial confusion, he was quick to understand that you didn’t identify as one gender

He’s SOOO supportive of you like this boy would do anything to keep you feeling comfortable in your own skin

But it’s the little things he won’t truly understand, like how clothes never seemed to fit in the right places, or the weird feeling that would rise in you whenever you unknowingly compared yourself to another person

The latter seemed to happen more often though as the boy spoke with others around him

The flirty grins he’d send the girls he met, or the playful comments he would make that were different from the ones he would tell you

Was it just you or did it feel like you guys were growing apart?

It made you begin doubting if Lance even liked you in a romantic sense

Was it because you weren’t like the girls who would return his flirty grins with a sweet smile?

Were you just not good enough as you were? Did he have a preference for a specific gender?

Doubts and insecurities began gnawing in the back of your mind the longer Lance kept up his playboy act

Why didn’t he hold your hand? Was he afraid to be seen with you?

Should you were more feminine clothing? Even if there were days that you didn’t want to?

Lance began noticing the small changes in your appearance and mood though

The way you began wearing a little more makeup, the way you began curling in on yourself whenever there was a girl around

He grew suspicious of your behavior but decided not to say anything, thinking maybe it would pass

Wrong mistake buddy

I think he really starts noticing your changes when you start pulling away from his touch, avoiding him whenever he’s talking to someone or just in general

“Has y/n been acting weird? I feel like they’re acting weird. Are they acting weird?”

“Lance, if you think they’re acting weird, then why don’t you go ask them if somethings wrong??”

Lord someone save Pidge from this dude💔

He definitely drags her around, along with Hunk, trying to find clues on why you’re acting so differently now!

Finally after a couple of days of you avoiding him in the halls of the castle, he decides to just ask you what’s been bothering you

“Y/n hey! Um is something going on?”

“What uh, what do you mean?”

He would start listing all the stuff he’s noticed about you and this entire week, which makes you feel even more worse once you hear how obvious you had been

Lance is just so confused, bless his clueless soul

You would get frustrated and finally just spill it all out

It’s hard for you because it really does feel like your showing a part of your soul, it makes you feel vunerable

“I can’t be like those other girls Lance! I just feel like sometimes you would prefer if I were just a girl or just a boy, but I cant.”

It’s like the whole world stops for him because is this how you truly felt?

Did you really think that he didn’t want you, for you?

“I know I’m not the ideal partner, so if you want to find someone else who can-“

“WAIT WAIT WHAT NO!”

Seeing your eyes, Lance feels so bad for making you think that he didn’t want you and ugh he just feels terrible💔

“Why would you think I would want anyone besides you?!”

“W-well, the way you look at others made me… you know, think you wanted to be with someone else who could stick to one gender…”

Cue loud shattering effect cuz this dudes heart just BROKE

“No! No no aw man! I’m so sorry i made you feel that way! I know I can do that sometimes, habits die hard. But I promise you I don’t want anyone. Only you. Regardless of who you are and choose to be.”

After you both talk it out for a while, it still takes some time for you to feel fully secure in your relationship again

Lance does everything in his power to assure you that you’re the only he wants

When you’re feeling a certain way and want to be referred to a specific pronoun, he’s 100% supporting you no matter what

Fully believes that your gender, or uh lack of gender, doesn’t define your relationship

He’s so respectful of you and is always willing to talk to you whenever you’re feeling upset about yourself

Man he’s just so UGGHHHH💔💔💔💔

He’s so proud of you, and he makes sure to always reassure you about your guys’ relationship

I love Lance so much i can’t even💔

[onyour-right]

S02E05 of wheel of time was amazinggggg omg! It's all starting to come together now and even though this episode answered quite a few of my questions it's also raised so many more, lol, which is what a good tv show should do.

I cant wait for the next episode because I want to find out what happens to my girl Egwene!!! I also need to find out how/why the hell Maksim and Ihvon can even open their mouths to accuse Lan of being a darkfriend, like huhhhh???? I also want to see where he'll choose to go - will he indeed search for Moiraine or will he head to the tower in hope of finding Nynaeve???

I want more of Perrin and Aviendha (they make such a great pairing & I'm so enjoying seeing Perrin come out of his shell and grow into who he's supposed to be). As for Liandrin, I genuinely dont know whether to love or dislike her - either way she's a layered character and fascinating.

I hope Nynaeve and Elayne get some training with this yellow aes-sedai and her warder because boyyyy, the things that are coming after them. They need to be ready.

Ishamael and Lanfear. Just LOL, the way they feed off each other is just, ugh, they're like brother/sister almost. I'm not surprised they're both so obsessed with Rand tho. I really get it, Rand is so baby boy & I think that's mostly because of Josha and his acting.

That head aes sedai, I forgot her name (who supposedly filled in the book saying the trio had gone to Elayne's house or something) I deffo think she's a darkfriend but the show's just wanting us to think that it's only Liandrin so they're not focusing too heavy on her like that.

I feel like the season is gonna end with the whole gang meeting up again at Falme & discovering that Rand isnt dead & also another member of the forsaken gang being woken up/freed.

[superbattrash]

Shut up, I’ll go to bed after this one

These names are….. something

Just call yourself Boom, bro 🙄 don’t put murder in your name, that’s just stupid

If they kill my boy, I’m gonna riot so hard

..fuck. I’m gonna watch one more episode aren’t I?

Oh? I’m another new intro? At least this one is pretty. Still boring tho :/ hmm. Could grow on me ig

So a creepy old teacher? Well that shouldn’t surprise me

That suit is better than the other one, let’s be real

BRO. OLD DUDE ASKED YOU TO DO SOMETHING, JUST DO IT. You THINK TOO MUCH 🙄 the old man is absolutely right. You gotta do whaT YOU TOLD TODOROKI TO DO, YOU IDIOT

Oh someone who doesn’t like Bakugo? Surprise surprise. Huh. Okay, so he gets a calm and collected teacher? That’s good ig

What? He seriously accepted his dad’s offer? Why the fuck would you DO THAT????

You’re getting better kiddo but uh. Still not good 😂

Oh? A young All Might? 👁️👁️✨ Toshinori, yes. I have to remember that.

Ooohhhh :O oh oh oh!!! Now THAT is a hero!!

Aw COME ON I CANT KEEP WATCHING THIS SHOW >:/

..ok one more

Oh handface really is disgusting

Iida’s drowning in his own anger and guilt and hatred, sweetie, that’s how he’s doing

I really like Iida’s teacher dude, he’s a cutie

Why is your tonGUE ALL WOBBLY

Oh ewwwww 😰 there are more nomus????? Yuck

Just get off on that stop, idiot, you know you want to. Oh never mind it’s - OH NO EW IT’S THEM…. Wait, are we gonna get a teacher death???? Nooooooo

NO!!! NO NO NO!!!! IIDA NOOOOO PLEASE DONT!!!! DONT DO THIS BABY PLEASE

OH COME ON STOP DOING THIS TO ME >:(((((

…yeah ok the opening felt like something good for once here

Oh EUGH >:S why are YOU here? Blegh

Iida, my sweet baby child 😭❤️❤️ NOOOOOOOO!!!!!! STOP STOP STOOOOOP DONT DO THIS PLEASE STOP THIS NO NO NO NOOOOO!!!!!!! NO IIDA PLEASE NO

DEKUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh my god first time you’re A REAL HERO MY LITTLE ANNOYING CRY BABY

FOR FUCK SAKE!!!!!! NO NO NO NO NOOOOO

PLEASE BE TODOROKI!!!!!! PLEASS BE OH FUCK YES THANK THE FUCKING GOD!!!!!!!

Oh heheheheheheh he has his number, aww :3 I mean um. Good on u boys

Oh EW EW EW EW LICKING A CHILD???? YOU FUCKING CREEP

Get over yourself, Iida, you’re just making it worse :/

FU C K YEaAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! THAT’S MY BOYS

Oh the music 🥺🥺🥺 oh. Oh my heart 😭 JESUS CHRIST I AM SOBBING?????? 😭😭😭😭

COME ON IIDA PLEASE GET UUUUUP

What

WHAT

HOW FUCKING DARE THEY

..I’m never going to bed 😭

Please. Pleeeeease 😭 please I need you to be okay. Please baby please please pleASE 😭😭😭😭

YEAHHHHHHH BEAT HIS ASS KICK HIS FACE IN MURDER HIMMMMMMMM!!!!!!

Oh another tightening of the fist closeup 👁️✨

OH. GOD. SELF SACRIFICING MORONS I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH COME OOOONNN!!!!!! FUCK HIM UP

FUCK

HIM

UUUUUPPPPP

\o/

Oh ugh back to this guy 🙄 can someone kill him? Or just. Yaknow. Maim him a little? Please? Knock him on his ass at least?

YEAH!!!! Cos your son is AN ACTUAL HERO YOU PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT >:(((

THE FUCKING CHILLS I AM GETTING BOOOYYYS

…ok I’ll admit his theme song thing is. kinda badass. I would like any and I do mean ANY redeeming qualities in this man but. Oh no, did I doom him to die with my hatred? 😬 whoopsie

Oh 🥺 oh my baby 🥺 oh sweetheart 🥺❤️ god this is such a good scene 😭

WHAT THE FUCK I THOUGHT IT WAS O- NOOOOOO NOT AGAIN MOTHERFUCKER

Oh?? Oh? Oh 🥲 what. what are u doing bro??

HOW ABOUT CAPTURING HIM AGAIN, HELLO???? H E L L OOOOOOOOOO??!?!?!!?!!!

His face? Oh what. What is up with his face?? On another note: he is such a good villain!!!!!!

FUCKING DO SOMETHING??? Oh. W..what

That was some intense angry 😰

Fucking finally, an episode I can STOP AFTER JESUS CHRIST

[dreamwritesimagines]

Dream my love!!! I'm back again to say hi! I hope you're doing well darling!

Now... Onto the chapters! Starting with Chapter 6.

"you weren't jealous" Clover stop lying to yourself and everyone else around you. Honey, you ate in ✨Denial✨ If anything this girl is seething with jealousy. (*Cough* I cant wait to see Kitty's reaction when they announce their wedding *cough* *cough*)

I love her aunt and uncle, like they're just so wholesome and sweet I love them so much.

TEDDY CALLING LOTTIE BEAUTIFUL oh my good lord this child is going to kill me he's so fluffing cute!!! And him bowing to her???? This boy is gonna be a heartbreaker for sure!

Also I love Lottie and Clover's friendship its just this:

I also love how Clover's passion is gardening, especially since that's seen as more of a servants job but she wants to do it herself, just furthering her black sheep stereotype.

Also if we're going off the Lottie and Anthony, technically Lottie, Clover, and Daphne will all be sisters. Just the three of them together would be so fun, I feel like when they're older they'll have a bond much like lady Danbury and Violet.

The greenhouse... I'm starting to see a pattern here dream.., Haha, all the bridgerton boys are just being mighty scandalous in a greenhouse

"older husbands move slower" Oh God clover your father was awful I can just tell. The more and more that's revealed about clover makes me think. A lot of the time people's love styles or how they view it is how they saw it growing up. It makes sense why Clover has such a twisted view of love or marriage for that fact. This is why I'm even more grateful little Teddy is growing up with their aunt and uncle and not their parents.

✨protective Benedict!!!✨My heart can't take this, but him just getting so worked up about even the thought of someone hitting clover.

Alright... Chapter 7 lets go!

The fainting scare. I'm sure this was just terrifying to Benedict due to how his father ya know died in a garden.... Her aunt being so worried about her shows how much she cares for her. Also, do her aunt and uncle know how bad their home lives were?

Hold on this is so off the wall but Hades, you know how in Enamored, one of the ball themes was legends? All I can see is Clover being Persephone the dread queen and Benedict being Hades.

haha Benedict having to stay in the carriage while Daph and Lottie visited, poor man probably looked like a kicked puppy sitting there.

him painting her favorite flower!!! Dream my heart!!!

the rooftop scene was so cute yet heart-wrenching at the same time. No matter how much she wants happiness or love shes gonna deny it for herself becuse she dosent think love is worth it. Where is chérie when we need her??

Okay onto chapter 8 the big boy

Teddy and Clover baking is so sweet, and Teddy being scared that shes going to abandon him when she gets married, like sweet boy. Bro their parents messed them up BAD. I think I have the let's beat up Clover's parents petition all done so all we need is people.

Them both being frozen in time when they see each other in the ballroom is just so precious. then their dance is just so amazingly written. I love how benedict says that she torments him, its such beautiful wording.

Ah the Gazebo... oop- that got a little ✨spicy✨ Just the tension build up then that. ugh dream you're amazing.

"and then someone gasped"

oh shit

oh my lord, Benedict standing in front of clover. Also, I'm just gonna slap lady fetherington. Like girl I know you're having some marital troubles but atop being a cackling hen.

"Were going to be married"

DREAM THE CLIFHANGER!!! HOW DO YOU EXPECT ME TO WAIT A WEEK?????

Overall this story is AMAZING I'm so exited to see where you take it!! sending love! Mwah!

Darliiiiing, hiii! ❤️❤️❤️

Omg I'm so exciteeeed! 😍🥰❤️

I feel like Clover will be in denial for her feelings for a long time, especially after this last chapter 😏And Kitty will be so furious when she hears, because she thought she was the one who was going to marry Benedict after their dance😈

Her aunt and uncle love her and Teddy so much! ❤️

Aww Teddy is so well behaved and I'm sure their uncle taught him to be a gentleman and to respect ladies even at that age, so he will be bowing to them and pulling their chairs and such😂 Even if the chair is taller than him😂

LOLLL THAT'S DEFINITELY LOTTIE AND CLOVER'S FRIENDSHIP😂

Yesss exactly! Like, ladies loved flowers but they didn't exactly....spent that much time in gardens to grow them and plant them and such ❤️ Clover on the other hand could just spent her whole day in the garden and not even notice the time passing ❤️

Aw they will be sisters and they will be very close with each other! ❤️🥰

Can you tell I love greenhouse settings yet? 😈😂

A lot of the time people's love styles or how they view it is how they saw it growing up. It makes sense why Clover has such a twisted view of love or marriage for that fact. THIS! THIS IS SO TRUE! ❤️ She grew up in a really bad home so she is convinced that it's like that most of the time😱

Benedict saw red even at the thought of someone hitting Clover yessss ❤️

I think he was very worried about her when he heard about her fainting ❤️ Her aunt and uncle have an idea about how bad it was back then, but they don't know the details because Clover refuses to talk about it 💔

Clover as Persephone, I CAN TOTALLY SEE THAT😍❤️

He will paint lots of stuff for her🥰

Where is chérie when we need her?? Omg we definitely need her here 😂 Like, she would have worked her matchmaking magic on them nonstop until they got together 😂❤️

Oh their parents messed them up so so badly, and it'll come up a lot in the following chapters ❤️ Benedict doesn't even know the half of it yet, but he will learn ❤️

I can totally sign that petition too😂

I love how benedict says that she torments him, its such beautiful wording. Awww, it makes me so happy to hear this honey! 🥰❤️❤️

oh my lord, Benedict standing in front of clover. YOU NOTICED THAT! OMG YOU NOTICED THAT DETAIL!😍❤️ That was my favorite detail in the whole chapter! 😍

Darliiiing, you're so sweet, thank you so so much for this! ILYSM! ❤️❤️❤️

[aquasandyled]

Just venting a bit hehe

God im not dealing with things very well this week…. Im so scared bc i feel like im gonna do okay and like im gonna achieve my goal but also i never set my expectations high. Whenever i do i never get what i want yknow? Or at least it feels that way.

I really really reaaaaally want this. Ive been very consistent in my studies and ive been doing maybe not my bestest but my… i-wont-kill-myself-for-this-est i guess. Its gonna be so fucking embarrassing if i fail. Kinda wish my parents wouldn’t go with me lmao but ugh.

Been slacking off this last week and im just exhausted. I want it to be over already. Its been a literal year since i started studying i realized, thats just… kinda nuts… cant wait till its over and i can let my brain just waste away a bit and i can play some videogames and watch movies.

But honestly? Learning shit is fun af. Knowing shit is fun af. Cant wait to know more and work with the people i wanna work with and maybe ill grow a bit more. Everything will be as it should. Ill make it happen! Its gonna be fine.

[hekkoto]

Killing evil growing inside you~ I cry river of tears but nobody can hear that, sometimes it would be better if they all disappear Okay, Im feeling quite good today soooo why not come back today? ^^ I had some thinking in last weeks and I will gladly share them with you. I guess videos will be the best so I hope to start recording today/tomorrow <3 I guess I wanna start with video about staying strong and not giving up no matter how bad stuff is. Dont worry, I have a lot of experience in this ;p Ugh, I had to make super hard decision.... Being forced to choose between my grandma and my best friend. After talking with my husband I guess I must go to my grandma's party cause everybody will think Im asshole if I wont come. Of course it will be soooo much fun, whole family and in restaurant, I cant wait to fuck up my mental health, its not like I fought almost 2 months to stop wanting kill myself every second of the day. Im sure nobody will respect my health and needs, nobody ever did. Im still learning myself how to take care of myself, being neurodivergent and having chronic illnesses is hard itself, having it all neglected my whole life sucks even more. I have often nightmares related to my family, if this situation will make them more frequent again I will probably once again fall deep into addictions to escape real world.... eh Oh btw, have you heard about upcoming expansion pack to The Sims 4 – Life and death? They gonna release it on Halloween this year! Damn, I never buy packs for The Sims at full price, honestly I dont buy any games for myself at full price since many years but now.... if I will have money I gonna consider it cause it looks super interesting. And I hope for Grim Reaper career ^^ Probably will focus a lot on arts and video games to make myself feel better and maybe come back to some kind of routine. Im quite bored of watching YT all the time, it was fine for pushing through this awful time I had lately but I wanna start doing stuff again. Without it my life feels sooooo pointless wanna support my evil dark empire? Im accepting souls on Patreon and Ko-fi! -> Hekkoto Huge thanks to all of my Patrons and people who donate <3

[personallylivingeasy]

I dont really know what to do right now. I'm so happy i heard from you but I know you are going to say you are not ready for a relationship. that you want to work on yourself and all that jazz. which is understandable, admirable. but if i could, without interruption, hesitation, or restraint i would tell you this.

I know you are going to say you are not ready, and i respect that, i do. But while respecting that, I want you to know that not talking to you this year was so lack luster. not that i didn't have things going on, it may have been the busiest 9 months of my life. But in every fun outing or funny moment i so wished you were there. And when i was with my family and i needed a drink out of the garage i was like ugh it was so nice when jack was with me at my aunts house and we could joke and have fun while also attending a family function.

thats really just a side note. and me easing into actually being vulnerable. Which i am not good at nor do i enjoy doing.

I don't even really know how to say anything i want to say so bare with me. I don't know if you remember saying to me that if i said yes to us dating, that would be it. I'm at that place. This would be it for me, in fact i've kind of made up my mind that you are the person i want to be with. And i'm saying that as you are now. not as you should be or could be or fully healed and whatever. As you are now and how i've known you. again i'm not saying this to pressure you into starting out a relationship now. in no way do i want to do that. But i also don't want you to think that because you are working on yourself everything else has to go on pause.

I don't know how to say these things without it sounding like an ultimatum or something. I just want you to know where I'm at, how sure I am. I don't know what to do from here but i know i cant do another 9 months of no contact. I think this is a lot more grey than it is black and white.

If i could write out how I'd like it to go it would look something like this, we don't do anything different. We hangout as friends and let it progress naturally. no titles, no hard and fast rules, just as we were. obviously it won't be exactly as it were, but i think the more we put rules on it the more serious the situation is. and really it isn't all that serious.

I just feel like it's so simple. we have such a good friendship foundation. I already know all of you or at least most of you and vise versa. If it can really only go up from here with working on ourselves, then what is there to be worried about. As your friend nothing would change with you going through this, except maybe less drinking more running. But i wouldn't stop being your friend. nothing would change in that department.

So like i don't want to date while you are not at all ready. I want you to feel settled. But know that nothing is going to be perfect neither one of us is going to be 100% ready. So lets move at a glacial pace. neither one of us are in a rush to have babies, get married, move in together, so why act like that's the next step when it totally isn't.

what i don't want to see happen is we wait and wait and one of us grows resentful and our friendship goes away and then the potential for a relationship goes with it. I just really think that would be my biggest regret and what if of my life lol

idk i just think there is an answer here that neither one of us considered that makes us both happy, both able to work on ourselves, gives us space to do so, but still keeps us together on some level.

I'm saying all this as if we have remotely talked about anything important. all we've said is that we'd like to see each other. something i will be hanging on for awhile lol

i miss you, i wish you knew that. I wish you knew i want you as you are. which is good for me.

[ungirthed]

want to make a place for my thots of anything with no viewers if i remember to come on here. i cant believe i keep having to make these since i end up getting followers and interacting. but i'm an adult with shit to do irl and things to fight and this fandom is almost 20y old so idt i will do that. lol. just finished atla like 20y too late cos my parents hated me and my bro watching tv growing up. journaling/blogging thots!!! ugh. i wish i didnt hve adhd and dyspraxia lmao gonna split them up so i dont get overwhelmed reading my bullshit. if u stumble upon this it doesnt make sense sry

politically a lot of critique that i have to think about. character and plot wise it was pretty good and tight esp for a kids show. amazing female characters. can't wait for the bi agenda from LoK but i may take a while for that. p much i have to say these are great characters and i could talk a lot about them but i'm shocked at what i took away with regards to the romantic rships from the show and the characterization via it.

re love lines:

i wish kataang was written better in the show (MY opinion if any1 stumbles upon this). i don't ~ship~ zutara bc i am an adult and even back then no cos who cares lol but i see the appeal and am attracted to that. i do think we have to retire the trope of the "both sides but falling in love" not because it isn't possible but because post 10/7 (free palestine) i don't think it's worth it to look at it this way anymore. until someone proves themselves not worthy of death because of the resistance fighting back then they NEED TO PROVE THEMSELVES IMMEDIATELY. no more of this i'm in a concentration camp but he's a nazi bullshit. no more i'm a slave but he's the slave master's son (i mean in this case u could have been related but no1 listens to me!) it's repetitive, reductive, and untrue.

that being said: i just never care about the typical bildungsroman love story. you see the One Person bc i guess the kids tasked with saving the world have to be monk-adjacent (in aang's case quite literally) bc understandably theyre so fucked up lol. but it's always sooooo boring to me esp if it's f/m.

katara is such a complex character and mae whitman brings a wisdom to her voice that can be frustrating to connect with for me but her character arc, her strength, her MIND, her heart, and her fists. i think ppl probs like zutara the most when shes' going batshit and no one can understand aang's perspective. but aang is one of a kind and the cutest smartest sweetest loser ever. not my fav char but i love him. he's like if i had a younger brother and not an older one lmao.

of course they're (kataang) together. they were meant to be from the moment they saw e/o and that stupid cave kiss...this is why you don't wait until 32 to watch this lol.

but nothing surprised me and it was meant to be the way it was written. that's also why i find it understandable but shocking people in the universe and apparently outside of it were surprised at aang's turmoil over ozai. like are you joking? he's a 12 year old vegetarian monk. which: i loved his vegetarianism and obviously he was going to be but very casually they put in a line that hints as to why he would be and why many of us are...so i am dedicated to it again.

so wrt that and zutara...the episode where he's with her with the dude that killed her moms and his support of her i can see why people like them. the cave ep obviously but this show is veryyyyy free with affection i noticed and there's some jealousy but they all get over that pretty quickly. i read some of the comics and i could see different rships happening and i definitely think this world lends to queerness (me personally i love monogamy but a certain type lol so not rly interested in much poly but i do like a throuple) but i could see most being bi+ or having identified as that in the past, or labeling themselves but nto limiting. that's just an aside for meee...

so like katara was being katara. i could see suki and zuko being romantic but also a deep friendship that could be deeply affectionate either affect or physically or both bc that's who these ppl are. katara is a very intense person and that's part of why she can be annoying. that's part of why they ALL can be overwhelming. theyre intense, traumatized, repressed kids and teens with mostly good hearts (or just a person so disconnected from herself but also a fascist so u know. her going nuts lol)

hmm what else oh yea. so i came away with maiko......gjpasig the show was paced and plotted well. i am a libertarian communist (anarcho-commie) so MANNNNN i wish they did better on that front but again i must remember i am 32, ancom, and the world is diff. but anyway lmao so team avatar is who i would want to spend time with but i got so interested in mai and ty lee (mailee...). that beach ep conversation was so good, that whole ep, their argument. it was extremely teenage and showed how fucked up they all are. how confused and fucking lost and pathetic. how small their lives are. how boring....so mai...

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1/2We are on 4x08 and he is sitting with his fingers crossed and repeating to himself ‘not cancer, not cancer, not cancer’. ‘BRIAN IS BACK AT BABYLON! SEE! It was just a scare. Where’s Blondie? Go find him- VIC?! WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON? Vic, i miss you baby. I miss you so much. What’s with the old guys? Oh fuck. I don’t like the sight of Brian in a hospital bed. Horrible’ ‘is Ben still a bitch because Rage might become a movie? Grow up man.’ Deb is shopping for the gravestone ‘promise me, you wont pull some type of shit like that. Just give me a little stone and write ‘well fuck’ on it and that will be perfect.’ ‘BRIAN IS BACK! He looks like shit, poor baby. *jumps up and screams* HE HAS TO GET TO CLASS! HE WENT BACK TO SCHOOL! HE LISTENED! Of course Brian wants to drive him. (Cuts to britin in the car) LOOK AT THEM! Brian, you gotta come clean. HE MISSED HIM! HE FUCKING MISSED HIM! The man who was willing to do anything to get rid of him in season 1, just casually said “i missed you”. I AM NOT OKAY. (Brian tries to prove justin he missed him with a kiss) oh just suck his dick! (Justin keeps saying he’s not convinced and brian laughs) THAT RIGHT THERE IS SOME BIG DICK ENERGY. He has that man wrapped around his finger. Good for you Blondie. (brian takes his shades off) oh poor baby, he looks exhausted.’ ‘I don’t know what this lindsay and the painter bullshit is. But i need it gone because it is taking air time away from Brian’ the Justin/Mikey/Keller scene is up ‘oh is this the producer or whatever? Why does he looks familiar? I have a very soft spot for Justin calling Brian his boyfriend.’ ‘Aww look at Brian listening to Justin. Unlike some other boyfriend. How is he planning to hide the surgery from Justin? HE DOES LOOK TIRED! Brian just tell him. Does he plan on not having sex for a whole month or? (Justin is about to hear the voicemail) oh no. SHIT. OH SO THATS HOW HES GONNA FIND OUT?’ Justin is now confronting Mikey ‘oh poor baby, he looks so sad. He looks like he cried. Wait? He’s gonna tell Mike? Dude, go to Brian! WHY IS NO ONE TALKING TO EACH OTHER IN THIS FUCKING SHOW? It wouldve made more sense to go to Ted than Mike. Or Cynthia! Mike is gonna blow this out of proportion like i would. NO HE CANT HAVE CANCER! Okay, here’s what we’re gonna do fellas. Mikey you keep your mouth shut. Justin, you go to Brian and have a talk with him and I will continue to freak out’ and now we are at Brian in the office scene ‘you can hear it in his voice that he isn’t okay. Baby, please tell Justin. He looks and sounds like shit. Ted looks worried as fuck. THIS FUCKING SUCKS. All of it. He cant catch a break. Why didn’t he tell Ted? That would make sense.’ Deb has a breakdown in the diner: ‘oh my poor sweet Deb. This is gonna be me though if something happens to Brian, just so we’re all clear on that’ He is now groaning because of Linds and Sam ‘I don’t like this. He grabbed her ass. He suggested a threesome. She calls him a pig or whatever and now we’re friends? Weird and i hate it’ and we are now at babylon ‘Justin is trying to be sweet and caring and Brian is trying to be the Brian Kinney that Justin knows. If only this could be solved by, oh I don’t know…TALKING. (mikey tackles Brian) is he fucking stupid? Be honest? I swear he’s dumb. WHAT DID I SAY, he’s worse than me. He shouldve gone to Ted. Or Emmett. EXACTLY JUSTIN TELL MIKE HES BEING STUPID. I don’t like this producer dude, but that could be just because i don’t trust hollywood people. Ben really is a piece of shit. This is some shit Brian would pull in season 1 not mister Buddha.’ And we are at Britin scene ‘aw Justin’s not feeling well. ALL IT TOOK WAS CAN YOU COME WITH ME AND BAM BRIAN DROPS EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING FOR HIM! Although why is he peacocking? He clearly cant fuck right now so who is he trying to impress with these dudes?’

BRIAN DROPPING HIM OFF AT SCHOOL IS EVERYTHING. It's such an incredible scene.

Sam! That's the fucker's name! Ugh what a terrible arc.

And yes, the failure to communicate about the cancer... so frustrating.

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FUCK HER DAD OMFGGGGGGGGGG!!!! THE TEARS THAT ARE SPILLING FROM MY EYES OMGGGG!! I know I tend to take my time to try to make my thoughts sound okay but I CANT RN OMGGGGGGGGG!!

I was so happy for them to be with each other😭 like I just wanted her and Harry to be okay and I’m SO GLAD SHE MADE HIM STAY BC HE WAS HURTING ME WHEN HE SAID HE HAD TO LEAVE! Also omg the mention of her asking to still go with him back home for Christmas😭😭😭 and him giving little updates to his mom❤️💔💔 I kinda love how fondly he speak about his mother 😭 his little note to her omg it was so cute, I love him but fuck I didn’t think this note would lead to another plot twist

HONESTLY FUCK HER DAD LIKE HE NEEDS TO BE EXPOSED GO TO PRISON BC DEATH IS TOO EASY FOR HIM !!!!!!! BC THIS MF TRIED TI KILL HER BEFORE AND SHE LOST HER MOTHER BC OF HIM WTF I HATE HIM THE PAIN OF I WENT THROUGH WHOLE REAIDNG THESE PARTS OMG!?! AND TH WFACT THAT HARRY PIECED IT TOGETHER TOO😭😭💔💔💔🚬🚬🚬 LIKE HELLO THIS IS SO HEARTBREAKING SHE DESERVED SO MUCH MORE GROWING UP QND NOW!!! AND HARRY FINDING HER AN STHE CLIFFHANGER😭😭😭😭

I’m sorry if this feedback isn’t great but you truly never disappoint and you and your stories make me feel so much! Definitely more than some published books!!! I’m so anxious to read what’s next!!! Ugh I love you so much !!!!!!!!! -💜

AHHH! I've been waiting for your thoughts and don't apologize honestly I'm obsessed with the chaos (and I don't even think you're being chaotic, but I thrive in it, ya know?)

HE WAS THE WORST. IMAGINE TRYING TO LEAVE. Like you already broke your protocol Harry shut UP. I think Harry at Christmas is my favorite idea/dream. I hope they get to England hehehe

I've literally had this plot twist written since I started writing the series, it's nice to throw it out here now.

(It's me, hi. I'm the one with daddy issues, hi.)

THIS FEEDBACK IS WONDERFUL. YOU SENDING A MESSAGE IS WONDERFUL IN ITSELF. STOP.

Thank you so so much for writing to me, sorry you have to wait until Monday 💕

xoxo