#u know kinds of thinspo

[archangel-aya]

somebody with a lot of hatred in their heart who will manipulate me into hurting myself badly, pls hmu /srs /srs /srs /srs

[swanerotica]

intro

3 / 1 / 25

hii 🖤 welcome 2 my blog. my name is el & this is where i let my intrests & thoughts decay. i am jus a teenage girl with some kind of undiagnosed mental illness that could be diagnosed but i will never talk to my therapists , so it remains unknown. so please don't be weird thanks . i am a chronic overexplainer , i think ive already proved that but atleast you will never misunderstand what im saying.

i don't have a dni outside of pro ana girls. not because you guys are triggering because i trigger myself enough lol but because you people are fucking annoying. like oh my god please can we talk about something other than liv schdmit or whoever the new thinspo icon is !! thanks. yeah no i don't really care if you follow me as a pro ana girl just don't talk to me ill block u anyways its not worth our time. anyways

anyways , back to the fun stuff. my favourite thing ever is music. i mean it. i can be a snob i know my friend has to humble me everytime we talk about music. im not working on it, here are some of my favourite bands / artists though 🤍

lou reed , hole , lana del rey , yes , the doors , nancy sinatra , lesley gore , amy winehouse , janis joplin , fiona apple , nina simone , billie holiday , ella fitzgerald , the poni-tails , the shangri-las , kate bush , björk , the crystals , the ronnettes , grimes & alot more that i cannot be bothered to name. also please recommend me albums i love being recommended music so much consuming art is my favourite pastime

speaking of music , playing the flute is my favourite hobby and i intend to pursue music in the future 🖤 I also enjoy drawing, writing , reading , painting & ive been fucking around with clay recently lol. I want to try textile art too and im very excited for that.

here are some other intrests of mine 🤍

saw franchise , 1960s fashion & music , french new wave , mermaids , X/pearl/maxxxine triology , stranger things ( very passionate about this one and embarrassed about it ), makeup , 1920s fashion, 1940s b&w movies , victorian paintings , religion ( i dont just mean catholicism but it is a personal favourite in terms of symbolism.. i do not agree with their values) , classical music ( i don't really know much but in my flute classes i was required to learn alot of classical music so i have a soft spot ) , gilmore girls ( team rory should have no man and drop paris ) & spoken word poetry

thats basically it , if u wanna find me anywhere else heres my linktree ( im only rly active on pinterest and letterboxd. my spotify may be cool too though ) 🖤<33

linktree

[cosmichealingg]

pinned .ᐟ

Hai !! Welcome 2 my page !

My name is Keith and I’m a non-community aligned adult age regressor! I regress to the ages 0-5 and frequently consider myself 2-3.

I regress due to childhood trauma and pretty severe c-ptsd. I am also autistic and I use age regression to give myself a childhood that I was denied. My regression is a huge, and important, part of my life and I regress/dream near daily. I don’t consider myself a forever kid as I am not always in headspace, though.

I am a cisgender male, though sometimes I feel a little genderflux. I am also MLM and I have two amazing boyfriends. Both are my caregivers and are respectively referred to as “daddy” and “bubba”. We are polyamorous and love each other very much 🫶

My special interests include space, dinosaurs, horror, and health/medicine. I have a lot of hyperfixations and some include Blues Clues, Scooby Doo, Sesame Street, My Little Pony, American Girl Dolls, etc.

I’m sensitive to things like bright lights and loud sounds, and I get overwhelmed by too many things going on or people talking to me at the same time.

Some of my positive triggers are my special interests and hyperfixations, huskies, toy shopping, spending time with friends, baking, and spending time with my boys.

My regression is mostly positive but sometimes it’s impure or involuntary. For me this can look all different ways.

I like to play with toys like little people and food, and I like to color. I like watching cartoons and movies too!

When I’m sad sometimes I like to watch comfort shows and movies. I also like to just cuddle with my cg’s or vent.

When regressed I have issues with bladder control and cues like hunger. This is due to interoception issues caused by my autism. Because of this I use pull ups and diapers and will sometimes post about it. This is a comfort and medical need for me and is never sexual.

My DNI includes:

Anti-agere/petre

MAP/MIK

Ableist in any way

System fake claimers

LGBTQ+ phobic

Gore/thinspo

Anyone under 13

My boundaries are:

Don’t ask to be my caregiver.

Don’t ask super invasive questions.

Don’t baby talk in my dms if we’re not close.

Don’t ask “can we be friends” if we’ve never talked before.

Don’t sexualize my regression or question my intentions.

Don’t ask for face photos or other kinds of invasive content.

Disclaimer:

I am not anti ab/dl or cgl. I prefer nonsexual interactions because this is meant to be a safe space but at the same time it is my safe space.

I do not cater to everyone and if you are uncomfortable with who I follow or who follows me, you are more than welcome to unfollow and there are no hard feelings.

My account is for me and my healing.

I do not, and will not (most of the time) promote kink accounts or share kink content. I may share posts from 18+ or ab/dl affiliated shops but that does not mean that the items are inherently sexual to me.

I am an adult and while I don’t personally participate in these kinks, I do know people/friends who do. I believe that everyone has a right to heal or express themselves in their own ways. I don’t believe that it is right to judge how people cope.

This being said, my account will always be a nonsexual space.

I’m most active on my Instagram, @cosmic.healingg

My dada has an tumblr account too! @neptunedada

Thnk u 4 reading!!

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@benkeibear

@neon-knightz

@bunnysrph

[fitgirlsociety]

second run of 2024! i ran 4.5km, the same route as monday at exactly the same pace - my tracker shows that i ran 0.5km further than last time, but that's just bc i actually remember to turn it on when i started and not when i was halfway down the road.

i found it tougher going this time, which is weird bc i was kind of hungover when i ran on monday 🥴 i think it might be bc i've been exercising a lot this week and i didn't sleep great last night. i had to stop and walk for a min, but hey.

also - i've got some fitness related goals for this year and also weight loss related ones, but i've been hesitant about posting them bc i know they can be kind of triggering and i don't want to encourage thinspo nonsense or give the impression that i support it... what do u think, share or nah??

[madameocotillo]

You know the greatest con that I have ever pulled on my body is how I, through sheer hard-headedness, managed to convince it that flavored sparkling water(note:Not All Flavors) is a delicious, sweet treat. I used to LOATHE sparkling water of all kinds; the carbonation hit like static electricity because the ghost flavors did not come CLOSE to satisfying....until.

I just determined that I was going to like flavored fizzy waters, so I POWERED my through can after bottle of the stuff, because godDAMMIT It it was available everywhere! All the time! If a location had beverages then YOU BET one option would be fizzy water!! If I could get my body USED to fizzy water(note:flavored only if u are into default perrier or smth we are not kin) then maybe I could ENJOY fizzy water! I enjoy beverages a classic white woman amount, which is to say VERILY, and the idea of having a "tasty" beverage available wherever I go(note:in big city america)? Too good to let pass by, but make no mistake.

For a while there at the start, I was inching through things sip by sip. I found it helped to be thirsty for one thing, but also some flavors were DRAMATICALLY BETTER - here's looking at you, 🍑(note:peach). Eventually my tastebuds got used to being waterboarded I guess. 'Cause now not only do I ENJOY fizzy water, when my brain is like, "hmm I would like something Sweet right about Now" I can give it a fizzy water and the dumb thing will be like,"Mmm-Mmm Yummy, this is exactly what we wanted."

And I am not sure how to feel about it right now. One the one hand, I brute-forced my way into having taste straight from a 2010s "thinspo" blog, but on the other... funńi. IDK maybe i'll brainwash myself into liking raisins next or something, sky's the limit

[normanblowup]

Didnt want to rb the post BUT as skinny person I kinda get where you're coming from. Im not "pretty skinny" but Im not fat either. Im in a weird limbo of unfit nerd skinny which is usually seen as unattractive. Pretty = skinny to society but that has standards of skinny. Im sorry youre not feeling the best and I hope one day society can fuck off and people can just exist and be loved

thank you. i don’t know how to articulate my thoughts very well, but thank you for this.

i’ve had a lot of issues with my body, both with health and self esteem. it’s hard to feel like i’m attractive especially when i know that if most people looked at me they wouldn’t see me like that either. and it sucks cus i don’t see any body positivity posts for people like me at all. because most people who make those post only think fat or other type people need them, and i understand that “skinny” is seen as typical and average. but that’s a very specific kind of skinny, there are so many others.

and even if somebody is the “right” kind of skinny, that doesn’t mean they aren’t allowed/or can’t be insecure. i think everyone deserves to feel good, to feel attractive or whatever it is they need to feel. both fat people and skinny people deserve to feel positively about their bodies, and i don’t think it should be something we divide ourselves over. cus i think a lot of people think that they have to be positive about fat people and fat people only and that anyone else doesn’t need it or shouldn’t get it. which isn’t a very good mindset.

there are lots of different bodies, big ones small ones and medium ones. and anyone who has any one of those bodies deserves to feel good in them.

[sleep-sounds-nice-rn]

Thinspoopy imagine!!!

thank u @peachjambobatea for this idea <3333

disclaimer: this is SATIRE, i don't personally post or support thinspo so if any kind of thinspo is super triggering for you and you don't wanna interact with this, do not read it

You wake up under 6 layers of blankets, and light from between your curtains glows across your angular face. You slowly shift the blankets aside so you can get out of bed, your tiny arms slightly shaking from the weight. You slide a delicate leg out of the blankets, smiling since you don't have to body check to know your hands can fit all the way around your thigh. You immediately start shivering once you are out of the warm covers, but nothing matters since you are sure you have lost weight since yesterday. You enter the bathroom to weigh yourself, and you hold your breath before you step onto the scale. You quickly exhale when you realize that holding your breath will make you weigh more, and you stare down while you wait for the number to show up. A pound below your ugw, the weight you had been dreaming of for years. You step on and off the scale, and it still stays beautifully low. You run to the mirror, excited to see your reflection after all your hard work.

When you catch a glimpse, you gasp in surprise when you see your tiny waist, even smaller than it was yesterday. The sight will never get old, and you would do a happy dance if the movement wouldn't hurt your fragile body. You finally fulfilled the vow you took, that for halloween you wouldn't be wearing a costume, you would just be a skeleton. You decide to celebrate with some coffee, so you walk to the kitchen to make yourself a classic black iced coffee. Being the superior ana you are, you don't even add sweetener, and you wrap your slender fingers around the glass. After savoring your coffee, you go back to your room to get dressed. You choose and xxxxxs small sweater, sliding it over your head and admiring how your collarbones and tiny frame make you look small and dainty despite how it's too big for you. You put on a pair of xxxxxxs shorts, and they slide off your hipbones. You sigh, finding a belt with many, many holes poked in it and using it to keep your shorts from slipping off. You would wear thigh high socks with the outfit, but nothing stays on your legs since your thighs are skinnier than a monster can. You instead wear normal socks and doc martens, which make your ankles look even tinier in comparison to the big boots.

You leave your house to go on a walk, not needing your exercise watch to let you know that your every day walk 15.3k steps. You listen to your favorite eating disorder songs, which still keep you going even thought you've memorized every single one by heart. You can see people staring at you as you walk by, looking at your emaciated body in impressed horror. You soak up the attention, this only makes you more excited to see your friend at the library this afternoon. After you finish your walk, your legs are tired and shaking but you feel exhilarated knowing that this is helping you stay lower than your ugw, even helping you get lower.

You drink 10 liters of lemon water to help your metabolism and bloating, and you love the feeling of the cold water hitting your empty stomach. You leave the house again after resting, and you wait for your friend in a front table at the library. Your stomach aches in a comfortable way, stabbing pains that would make anyone else unable to move. As your friend enters the library, you wave to make sure the recognize you. It's only been a month since you have seen each other but you have gotten three times as small. Their jaw drops in horror, and they run over to you.

"How are you doing? You look so fragile I'm afraid to touch you in fear of breaking you," your friend asks, looking at you with worry in their eyes.

"I've never been better!" you exclaim, laughing as you give them a hug. You feel superior with your bones poking against their normal sized body.

"Are you sure you're ok?" they ask, shocked by how sharp and gaunt you are.

You laugh again, reassuring them that you are alright. You have a fun and relaxing afternoon picking out books and reading together, and finally it is time for you to go home. Once you get home, you break your 1,000 hour fast with a peeled cucumber, sliced into the smallest slivers. You enjoy it with the comfort that you have earned it, and you go to bed knowing you are the skinniest person on the planet.

[neros-stim-blog]

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Hello friends!

My name is Nero. I use they/he and do stimboards, neopronouns, and names!! Mostly for kins, das/irls, and introjects, but others are welcome to request!! Please specify if it’s for kins, fictives, etc etc or I’ll just default to tagging it as kin

Note: I will do any fandom, but please specify what themes u want unless it’s on the main source list ^^

Requests are closed :(

DNI and will/won’t do is below the cut! ^^

DNI:

Proship/Ship “neutral”

Any assholes, exclusionists racists etc etc

Thinspo/Proana

Pro-life

Think it’s okay to send people threats, no matter what their views are

Now that that’s over with, here’s a will/won’t do!

Will do:

Certain ships

Ocs/Sonas/Self (you can only request this if you specify what you want, unless I know you personally ^^)

Most fandoms

Certain content creators

Sfw agere

Won’t do:

Incest/pedo ships

Ships of content creators, even if they’re okay with it

Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss

Harry Potter/adjacent stuff

Vore themes

Lunter (Toh)

Huntlow (Toh) (shippers free to interact!)

Vanilliam (Fnaf)

Willry (Fnaf), unless it’s a pre-murder/good!william kind of deal

Clay or Bloberta Puppington (Moral Orel)

Needles/IVs

Organs (especially beating hearts)

South Park

(Excluding introjects! Introjects are fine for the ship ones, I just don’t like them in fandom ^^)

Main sources:

Fnaf

The Owl House

Dsmp

Qsmp

Youtuber Egos/Sanders Sides

Marble Hornets (never read the comics, still free to send reqs!!)

Spooky Month

HLVRAI

Portal

The Warner siblings (Animaniacs)

Little Nightmares

The Magnus Archives

Coraline (movie)

The Mechanisms (Band)

Steam Powered Giraffe

Stellar Firma

Slime Rancher

Moral Orel

TF2

Other stuff:

Don’t send me discourse-related asks /srs

I’d prefer you don’t send me specific fanart to use in a stimboard unless you have explicit permission from the artist. Like heavily prefer

Mspec lesbians/neo users/”weird” queers are and always will be welcome here!!

We're a system! We go by the Roman System :]

Homestuck fans, Dsmp fans, etc are welcome here as long as they are critical of the things the content creators have done and do not support the problematic parts of the media or fandom.

My blog is a safespace for people with npd, bpd, aspd, and any other disorders considered “dangerous” by society. If you think people are dangerous because of a diagnosis, then kindly fuck off /srs

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I’ll update this when I have more rules!! ^^

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[squinkpup]

｡*ﾟ+ about me + *ﾟ｡

hi, welcome to my gender hoard blog >:3

my name is casper finn! i'm 19 years old, transmasc, biromantic questioning acespec, polyamorous, + a lot of xenogenders and other labels lol. nicknames i go by are cas(s), finn, ghost (our system name), and bug :) my birthday is august 11th! i have three lovely, amazing partners, who i live with <3

important information under this!

here is a link to my carrd! i'm still working on it n stuff but yea!

my main pronouns are he/him and i always prefer those ones, but i do have lots of neopronouns. find the list of neopronouns i use on my carrd linked above! i'm pretty much fine with any neos but if i ask you not to use specific a specific set pls respect that !! i might try out pup themed first person neos soon ;; 👀

i am a white american. i don't really associate with any religion because of trauma.

i am autistic and the host of an OSDD-1b system; i also have adhd, bpd, cptsd, tics, depression, and anxiety. i am physically disabled.

i love making friends, so feel free to shoot me a message if you'd like! but please read my boundaries (down towards the bottom) before you do! <3

dni information

discourse makes me incredibly uncomfortable and i don't want any part in it at all, so this userbox generally stands:

that being said, i don't want anyone to think that i condone things that i don't, so here is a rather wordy dni i had up at one point:

(i'm not going to go through my notifications constantly and check to see if people are violating this dni, because i get quite a lot of notifications and i genuinely do not have the time for that in my adult life, but please just be a decent person.)

• basic dni criteria

• anti-mogai, TERFs/SWERFs, aspec exclus, anti-pan, pronoun policer, gendercritical, nonbinary skeptic, anti-queer, anti gnc, radfem, anti-neopronouns, zoophile/supporter, super straight/bi/pan/gay/etc., anti pronoun-nonconforming people/think pronouns = gender, think expression = identity, anti aroallo

• MAP/p3d0/whatever they're calling themselves now, pro-ship/anti-anti, anti sfw agere/petre, if you sexualize sfw age regressors, minors in kink/supporters, fetishizer (mlm, wlw, trans people, poc, etc.), support incest, anti sex work

• anti BLM/ACAB, pro-blue lives matter, believe that reverse racism/cishetphobia/etc. is a real issue, antisemite, nazi supporter/sympathizer, alt-right / conservative / right wing / etc.

• cringe/flop blogs, anti cringe culture, you make fun of anyone for their interests/identity/etc. (educating people about harmful things doesn't count but don't harass), fakedisordercringe supporter, any cringe account supporter in general

• anti-self dx, autism speaks supporter, anti-kin, anti DID/OSDD/systems, system skeptic, thinspo/pro ana, if you infantilize mental illness or neurodivergence, sh blogs, gatekeep kin, s*1c1d3 bait people, harass or threaten people, use high/low functioning terms, fakeclaimer or support fakeclaiming, stigmatize mental illness, syscourse

which can all be summed up as: don't be an asshole

boundaries:

• do not interact romantically, s3xually, or flirtatiously if you are younger than 18 or, like, way older than me (hopefully this should be obvious)

- (if you're joking, please use tone tags. i won't know otherwise and will probably block you)

• as stated above, PLEASE use tone tags when communicating with me.

• please do not talk to me about discourse, like at all. i don't want any part of it. especially not syscourse of any kind - do not ask me where i stand, please. it's triggering, uncomfortable, and makes me very anxious and stressed. if i have done something wrong, please let me know so i can fix it, but otherwise please leave me out of any drama, discourse, etc. this blog is a special interest blog and a safe, comforting space for me and i'd like to keep it free of stress and negativity.

request rules:

i'm opening requests! here are some things to keep in mind:

• please be nice!

• my requests are always open, but i will get to them on my own time.

• types of requests i will do are pronoun flags, gender flags, and terms; i have never done orientation flags/terms, but i can probably try if you give me enough information!

• i will try my best to help find names, labels, pronouns, etc. if requested!

• i will not make anything relating to communities i do not belong to, such as poc specific terms, religion specific terms, cultural specific terms, terms relating to disabilities/disorders/etc. i do not have, etc. (i will, however, make things relating to angels, demons, and stuff like that if requested)

• i reserve the right to deny requests that make me uncomfortable or that i feel i cannot do

• i cannot promise anything. i have severe executive dysfunction and my motivation/ability to complete tasks/focus on things is absolutely not consistent. if i haven't completed your request, know that i'm trying my best and i apologize.

• i am okay with creepy, gory, horror, and/or (some) s3xual related themes, but as i stated before, i reserve the right to deny a request if it makes me uncomfortable

- do not request anything s3xual if you are a minor. i would prefer s3xual requests to be off-anon so i can make sure, but obviously i can't enforce that, so please just. respect this. i'm an adult and i do not want any type of inappropriate interaction from minors. please.

taglist:

i don't really have a fancy tagging system yet, so i'll update this section when i do!

for now, my only tag is:

#casper coins - which is. you know. things i coined/created

sorry this was so long !! i hope you like my blog (*＾3＾)/～♡

[mrs-nate-humphrey]

ok so we have seen over and over again people's assumptions about how gg main characters's instagrams would look like but how do you think their secret tumblr blogs would be? 👀

hmm! i just went over tumblr in general, because i don’t think all of them would have ‘secret’ tumblrs per say? everyone’s thing under the cut, cause it got SO long. i did not mention chuck because i don’t rlly see chuck as having a tumblr in any universe tbh - i feel like he would think it takes away from his businessy vibe or something.

dan's main would be something with a ts eliot url, like, a snippet from one of his poems, or it would be a whitman url, a snippet from a poem again (i see him with a whitman url of some kind & maybe his blog title is an eliot reference.) dan would 100% have the whole dark academia thing going in some ways, i think his blog would be organised as a grid, and he would reblog pictures of libraries, museums, occasionally of art, and also, quotes. so many quotes. so much literature. if you've been on tumblr long enough you know exactly the kind of blog i'm talking about.

dan's tumblr sideblog, on the contrary, would have nothing to link it to him. it'd probably be the tumblr default theme, pastel colours or something... i feel like dan is the specific genre of trans kid who uses a different set of pronouns online for anonymity purposes and then goes "wait a minute i like these pronouns BETTER". his url would be something extremely mundane and random like coffeeaddict779 or something, and it would be all #vent and #dont reblog. nobody who's following his sideblog knows what his main is, and vice versa.

serena would i think have one of those "be kind, do no harm :)" kind of hipster tumblr blogs, except she's incredibly sincere. she wouldn't have a sideblog, i don't think? and i don't think she'd attach her name to it in any way, probably just pronouns in bio and maybe a 'call me S'. she and dan would be mutuals on dan's main! her blog will be very, uh. aesthetic pictures, reblogs of dolphin videos and music and WIP art videos and anything else that'll catch her eye. she'll tag blair in fashion vids, nate in sailing posts, dan in literary stuff, and vanessa in film related/photography related things. she's having fun! every now and then she'll post a vent post but it's extremely vague and it's either something everyone who knows her irl already knows about her ('i hate my mom so much') or something that says practically nothing ('i am so worried about my brother and wish i could do more to help him.')

jenny's fashion inspo blog!!!! what more do you want me to say. she'd make it big in the fashion community and get anons all the time and she'd probably also have an etsy where she sells things she's sewn and made. everyone sort of knows she's an up and coming designer and she'd find a good community online hopefully!!! her blog would be something simple, with a url like jennydesigns or something (i bet that's taken rn, i havent checked) and her theme would be one of those themes that allows for u to have big images. she would probably post vents in the same way serena does, tag them #personal or #rambles, and have that neat code that allows for the tag to be filtered out whenever anyone views her page on desktop, you know?

i think eric would not have anything specific that he posts. he would just reblog random things - memes, things he finds interesting, jenny's original posts, stuff serena tags him in, cat videos, lgbtq+ positivity, etc. he'd try and stay out of drama (i think he'd turn anon off eventually.) he’d also post a lot of music reblogs or links, i feel?

vanessa's main blog would be one where she posts her own photos and films. because she's professional about it, it'd probably just be @ vanessaabrams. she'd have a sideblog specifically for reblogging other people’s work because she wants to support other artists, and it would be vanessareblogs or something like that, and her bio would mention “main tumblr @ vanessaabrams”. she’d be much adored in the photo/film community and just in general, because she’s one of the few people who hypes up other creators all the time and leaves nice comments in tags and all that. every now and then serena reblogs vanessa’s photography onto her blog and it almost always blows up, but vanessa doesn’t mind. i don’t think vanessa would have a vent blog or even a personal tag, she gives me big ‘i wanna keep my business totally off the net’ kind of vibes.

nate’s blog would be a lot like serena’s except, uh, more openly wanderlusty i think. a LOT of ocean reblogs. every now and then he reblogs keroauc quotes from dan which the girls find extremely hilarious. he talks a lot about sailing and gets a lot of sailing anons. he’d reblog a lot of positivity (mostly because he knows his friends are following him and he wants to brighten up their dash.) dan and vanessa jokingly dm him weed aesthetic posts all the time, but every time they do he reblogs and tags it ‘sent to me’ or somehting like that, and they cant decide whether to be flattered or embarrased. i think nate would also attract a lot of anons who ask for advice and it is something he never expected people coming to him for, but he definitely listens and shares whatever he’s got to say all the same. he’s this blog who should be weirdly niche but everyone sort of knows him and likes him.

saving the best for the last, lol. i have SO many thoughts about blair’s tumblrs. 

i think she’d have a main tumblr that’s solely for classic film stuff (audrey! and more) and that’d be @ blairwaldorf, because, well, duh. i think she’d pay for a tumblr theme and get one of those really fancy and cute ones, like a floralcodes ms paint theme. i think she’d also have a sideblog that’s less serious, where she’d reblog things from tv shows, reblog things serena or nate have tagged her in, write her own meta for fandoms she’s in, just generally be a multifandom mess with a #personal tag but nothing too personal. it would still be classy, because she’s blair, but on this blog, she’s just a girl having fun.

and then she’d have a THIRD blog, a sideblog that doubles up as a vent blog. and this one isn’t linked to her other two in an obvious way, nobody knows it’s her, etc. on here she’d probably post a lot about her ed (but i think in a  ‘i am struggling and i want to bitch’ way, not in a thinspo way - that’s a whole conversation i have no spoons for, so let’s not go there), she’d post about her insecurities and worries but it would be extremely untraceable. she’d have a fancy theme on this one too, despite it being a vent blog. 

hm. now im thinking of the potential of like. dan and blair interacting super frequently on their vent blogs and neither of them knowing it’s the other person!

[hillary---faithhh5418]

okay so Ik like no one is gonna see this so it’s kind of like my perfect place to rant and I honestly don’t come on here much or look at anything besides thinspo or ed stuff, but I’m honestly tired of being fat and then not eating for days and then people starting to notice and then having to eat but then feeling bad and wanting to just rip ur stomach out Bc u have to stare and look at the rolls. And then the constant judging of others like getting jealous when u see another girl that’s skinner than u and wanting to be her so other girls can look at u and be jealous. I’m aware that sounds bad but I want to be so pretty that people look at me and say I wanna look like her or the girl other girls cry over at 3 am Bc they know they can’t look like me. anyways I’m done with my rant

[juupajaa]

I literally have no idea how I look anymore

Because I see myself as this extremely big amd grotesquely built creature who should keep losing weight until I look like a normal person again but at the same time people around me are calling me thin and when I refuse something because ✨restricting ✨ give me the look I myself usually give to extremely pretty people talking about how ugly they are. Like, I know we've grown up in the same society and it fucked me up but?? Why are u fucked up the same way; you literally look like an ethereal being???

If I myself think I'm not small enough to be considered.. even normal, honestly, not only thin, someone in my circle of friends thinks I look normal, some think I'm way too thin, then what the fuck am I exactly??

You know, sometimes I just want to be a buzzing mess of abstract shapes, free to see things objectively and not subjectively because BOI IS IT HARD TO REACH THE RIGHT CONCLUSION

AHHH SAME DUDE. I still have no clue what my size is or what I look like, and if I'm going through bad days, my mirror literally feels like a funhouse mirror. Sometimes I can straight up see myself get bigger if I look at myself long enough. And also, comparing to others has been very difficult, since I can look at someone who's objectively bigger than me, and yet somehow I can't tell if I'm bigger or smaller than them until I straight up start measuring us and even then I'm not 100% convinced. Ed related body dysmorphia is damn insane and here's some tips on how to deal with it:

Step away from the mirror once you've taken a look. Don't get caught in a staring contest. Walk away right after you've checked your appearance and fixed whatever needed to be fixed.

If you have someone who agrees to do this with you, you can get reality checks when you're confused or unsure. You can ask them if you look ok and you can compare body parts to see what's the reality.

You can also do reality checks by yourself, for example with your own clothes. If the same pants that fit you yesterday, fit today as well, it means you have not changed overnight.

Remind yourself that no one else thinks this hard about your appearance. You don't loathe people by looks alone, so you can safely assume that they don't loathe you by looks alone either. In general people have very neutral feelings about strangers they see along the day, even if they look abnormal in some way.

Also remind yourself of the fact that you have a distorted image of yourself, so you ought to try your best to not let that distortion dictate anything for you. Better trust other people's eyes for now, until you get yours back into reality.

Avoid things that you know will make you question your body's proportions, whatever they might be, for example: reflective surfaces. I spent several months avoiding mirrors and windows just so I could get a break from the constant misinformation that my eyes were giving me. It helped me a lot in recovery.

Adding onto the last point, if you've formed sort of a thinspo source, get rid of it. You need to be looking at several different shapes and sizes of bodies to get a sense of variety back.

Get distractions for your eyes, so they have other things to look at, such as cool earrings, a new hairdo, fun colours, new shirt, whatever you can come up with.

And finally, try to sense your body through the other senses to give less attention to sight. Take care of your hygiene, pamper yourself, get things that smell nice, stetch your body more often to get a sense of space. One of my favourite things to do is to take a tennis ball or something similar and kind of roll it along my whole body. Helps me to calm down first of all, and secondly, it helps with being more connected to my body so I get a clearer picture of it.

[kannodan]

i’m looking for apple body type thinspo! please, if u have any thinspo with ‘bigger waist and boobs’ and wider arms, let me know! it kind of sucks looking at people with )( <- this waist while knowing you’re never gonna get one, no matter how skinny :/

[devotedlyquitting]

tw/ mention of ed, gender dysphoria

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wait wait are any other transmasc individuals in recovery not affected by seeing "thinspo" because its of girls like 98% of the time and knowing i'd look more feminine if i lost weight genuinely discourages my ed from getting worse, thank u gender dysphoria today ig

shush ik theres male thinspo too but being frank i coudlnt care less what kind of a body i had if only i could be a cis dude,,, iguess the only reasons i liked my ed was because i lost boobs and my period lmao

[dainty-limbs]

Okay, so,, this will be like a semi-serious post, considered to my usual, but, like I am in no way, here to fat shame anyone, or anything (?), I just,, feel like with my extremely overweight family (I have a 9 year old cousin who’s 4’11 and 210LBS) I’ll never be able to lose weight, because everyone’s ALWAYS eating, I can’t go 10 minutes without seeing someone stuff their face with something I WANT, which it’s also kind of thinspo for me, because I never want to end up looking like them, ivE LITERALLY,, GOTTEN STRETCH MARKS AND I HATE IT SM LIKE,, :( I feel gross and fat, and I’m always hungry, AL W AY S h U NG R Y, So I can’t go into the living room and watch movies with my family because my stomach will be louder then the TV :( which is really horrible, I myself love feelings empty, but I also feel gross?? Like I’m so fat?! I’ve gained sm weight in the past 3 months and I hate myself for it because I’ve let myself get so far lost?? Like,, can someone give me tips for exercises, or just tips to hiDE it because I also share a room with my cousin and :( I don’t want her catching onto my habits because she’s always talking about how she’s fat, and shaped weird, and I caught her counting her calories once which I like told her not to do because it does nothing for you ((I know it’s kind of a mean thing to say I guess,, but I don’t want her to get as bad as me with it??)) I’m not sure how to feel, and I just want to be skinny:( like:(( 130LBs and 5’4 is horrible and my doctor said I shouldn’t gain anymore weight otherwise I’m gonna become overweight and I will LITERALLY hURT MHSELF if I do, I haven’t been able to weigh myself (it’s been like 2 weeks I guess?) and I think I might be gaining even more:( but last night I ate greasy fries that I cooked myself with hot corn puffs and,, like,, hOW AM I SUPPOSED TO SUPPRESS MY APPETITE SOMEONE HELP 😭any tips will be useful pls help <33

[blue-shaded]

lmfao what kind of weird cartel shit is this? what sort of information are u handling, anon? and why the fuck are you so thirsty for it, blue? you both sound fucking ridiculous having this weirdass convo. it’s a thinspo blog not fucking meth.

sdflkjsldf I’m not thirsty for it I just want to know what the fuck this anon’s problem is. Thing is. I’ve had this anon before. I know exactly who it is, and I know they are not gonna give me any more information. I just wanna see what the fuck their problem is.