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[lvciddreamt]

@divinaoscuridad

continued.

“pirouette?” bette clarified, mouth twisting with amusement despite her bad mood. “yeah, there’ll be plenty of those. my audition piece is from swan lake itself, just to make sure the judges see that i can handle dancing the part. both parts, if it comes to it.” but of course she wasn’t the only ballerina who had her heart set on playing the swan queen. “isn’t the whole selling point that it’s super sour?” she wrinkled her nose in disdain, gesturing dismissively with one hand. “you know i can’t have that stuff. it’s practically poison.” she did love sour things, though. all the more reason for her to avoid even having a taste — it would be that much harder to stop. “so, what’s new with you? i feel like we’ve been talking about me this entire time.”

[angelsdvsts]

shayla cringes as he states that she's just a friend, arms cross over her chest as her eyes falls upon the other. "okay, does she know that? because she's all up on you're her man." she hated how she was the jealous type, but she couldn't help it. "prove to me that she means nothing more than a friend to you."

"Because you have to have some trust in me, Im not trying to be with her , just my friend" the dreaded words every one hated hearing 'just a friend' . Damien sighed "What do I need to do?"

[honeycreammilkshake]

Soooooo I've read your post about your ships AND I started shipping Togachako even though I've never seen My Hero Academia LMAO

Anyways, any thoughts about the last episode? i had 0 context about anything but Ochako saying "the cutest girl in the whole world" made my cry😭

my first ask about togachako! thank you so much, anon <3

i am not going to lie. i almost screamed out loud while watching this. i had read the manga ending previously but seeing it on screen really almost wrecked me.

love stories are fun... until the love story is one of you dies saving the life of the only one who fully understood you and loved you for who you really were.

i think the biggest reason why togachako is my favorite bnha ship is because of the parallels between ochaco and toga, especially in how they perceive and express their love.

toga had previously assumed that the only person who could truly love her would have to be pretty much the same as her. this came from her own experience with her parents and everyone around her, who saw her only as a monster and tried to repress her inner feelings and thoughts, which made her all the more bloodthirsty after such a long time of being literally and metaphorically starved.

she was treated as an unredeemable demon that couldn't be loved by anyone "normal."

this belief of hers that love can only come from someone like herself also correlates with her quirk, as she often tries to drink the blood of and "become one" with those she likes or wants to be closer to, similar to how she drained her first crush of all his blood as both a kind of love confession and as the emergence of her true self.

throughout the series you can see this kind of behavior of hers to try and relate to other people in order to rationalize her feelings for them. when she first fought with ochaco and tsuyu, for example, she told ochaco that they had the same scent, that they both admired deku, and that they were both trying to emulate the person of their affections. and during their fight in season 6, toga says to ochaco "i want to be like you. you're cute too, ochaco. i like you a lot."

the way toga is always comparing herself to ochaco, drawing similarities between them and openly admitting to wanting to be more like her, is the only kind of love confession she can make because she feels that someone who isn't like her couldn't possibly like her.

compare this to how ochaco sees and interprets love.

ochaco's parents loved and supported her even though they weren't very wealthy themselves, which inspired her to become a hero so she could help people like them. she was also inspired by deku, and her admiration of him led to her wanting to emulate him, something toga picked up on and related to.

it's clear that toga wants to find something to relate to in ochaco, and even though ochaco is quite different from toga, there are still many parallels between them, too.

for example, they both hid parts of themselves from other people, ochaco by denying she had feelings for deku and toga by being forced to conceal her true self all her childhood. toga wanted to connect with ochaco over this, but ochaco refused to identify with ochaco at all.

another thing i want to bring up is the symbolism of toga's smile.

when she's confronted by chitose, she's forced to reflect on how society has shunned and tried to reconfirm her, but instead of feeling miserable about it, toga instead says she is happy because she finally has a clear goal in mind: to get closer to someone she loves.

she then uses the blood she has left to turn into ochaco, which chitose believes is only so toga can die while looking cute, but toga realizes in that moment that she wants to be close to someone like how toga is close to deku.

she wants to be just like ochaco.

in short, drinking ochaco's blood returned toga's will to live, as she was able to find what she wanted in life and even uncover a new side to her powers she didn't realize she had before. she even says that living as someone like ochaco, a cute high school girl that others enjoy the company of and that life treats "easier" is the goal she wants to achieve.

by briefly experiencing what life was like for ochaco, someone who could be close to the person she loved and even get them to trust her (something toga was denied over and over in her childhood), toga realizes that she wants to be more like ochaco. in fact, she might even love ochaco.

and the way this scene was animated is just amazing.

i love the way half of ochaco's face and half of toga's face are merged together, while she gives her widest unhinged grin.

as toga said, she smiles when she's happy, and being close to someone she loves creates that feeling in her. that's what she wants in life: to love and be loved for who she truly is, to feel that deep closeness with someone. and reflecting back on her relationship with both deku and ochaco made her want to live her life, despite the pain she'd experienced before, so that she could live as she wanted to, love someone who loved her for herself. someone who accepted her normality.

and although ochaco initially rejected toga's attempts to connect with her, making toga feel like ochaco would be just another hero who would kill toga without regret, it makes it even more interesting and beautiful when ochaco reconsiders and chooses to reach out and connect with toga, despite everything.

ochaco is someone who wants to save people, who knows what pure love feels like and knows how to give it in turn. she was at first disturbed by toga's strong feelings and her teeth-bearing smiles, because to her those forms of expression went against her ideas about what love is and how people show it. but now ochaco admires toga's smile. she's even jealous of it, and at how toga so easily expresses her emotions and her love.

they were both jealous of each other. toga was jealous of ochaco for being able to have normal relationships that allowed her to get close to people, to be trusted by them, to feel cute and wanted. and ochaco was jealous of toga for being able to be so upfront and even headstrong about her feelings, to express her true self with such rawness and honesty.

and despite how toga was willing to kill ochaco, the other girl never uses her powers to harm toga.

though they both know zero gravity can be lethal and toga even used it to kill chitose and her army, ochaco is still unwilling to use it to harm her and is tender to toga throughout their entire confrontation.

this goes against everything toga feared and maybe even believed ochaco would do to her. ochaco is not willing to kill toga like the heroes killed jin, and though she won't forgive every terrible thing that toga has done, she is still willing to hear what toga has to say and to even comfort toga through it.

it's such an important detail to me that ochaco literally keeps toga tethered throughout this entire conversation. she's showing toga that it's not a matter of pity or ego that she's doing this, but she truly wants to hear toga's side of the story.

and despite how toga keeps trying to harm her, ochaco never flinches away and never stops listening.

if the manga was way too emotional already, the animated version of their last battle almost broke me, especially during this scene.

i can't get over how ochaco doesn't look away from toga the entire time. the fact that it's so important for her to let toga know she finds her smile beautiful means so much, both because of how toga wants to be found cute by someone and because toga smiles when she's happy, so ochaco is saying she values toga's happiness and that expression of her true self.

toga's smile is wide, unhinged, maybe even a little monstrous to anyone else. but to ochaco, it's wonderful. because toga is happy, free to express herself without holding back or donning anyone else's appearance to do so. her natural face, her natural personality, who she really is... that's what ochaco finds cute.

and it's so telling that when ochaco thinks about how she loves both deku and ochaco, her smile is more worried than happy. yet when ochaco confirms that toga is cute, the cutest girl in the whole world, toga's smile is pure and so wide.

ochaco made her happy, even at the very end. toga couldn't even imagine a world without ochaco in it being one worth living in, so she decided to give up her life to save ochaco's own. because ochaco's love is what gave toga happiness, and she knows that a world without happiness, without that person who makes her smile, would never feel the same.

they will forever be one of the most tragic love stories of all times, but also the cutest and sweetest... if only they'd had more time.

[lucidrims]

˖ ࣪ . ࿐ ♡ ˚ . continued from here | @dysnomiias

          aiko would be lying to herself if she said she didn't expect this kind of answer from atlas himself. with a solemn, accepting smile, she nods, " you're right. nothing has changed, you're still you and i'm still me. " the stark reality of their situation still stands, yet she couldn't seem to shake off the warmth he brings to her life - one thing that has yet to be replicated. " what made you agree to hang out with me today, then ? was it just . . out of courtesy, or - ? "

[honeyhour]

"sorry," she mutters, though a hint of doubt to his intentions still remains. "i guess i'm just surprised. people don't tend to think i look very friendly."

" i'm not tryin' anything , was just being polite . not interested in making friends either then ? "

[atoriv-art]

Heeyyy so sorry if this has been asked before buuuttttt.. What are ur thoughts on the sand siblings?

this made me realize i didnt include their rs in the chart i posted REST ASSURED I LOVE THEM. anyway hehehe :3

a lot of my takes on them are headcanon-based (like even more than the hyugas id say) But i assume thats what people r here for anyway. Sooooo

i really like the suna siblings bc their relationship pre-chunin exams is very, like… dysfunctional, but at the same time stable? temari and kankuro are obviously afraid of their brother, and gaara is deeply unhappy around them, but they've all clearly found a "safe" position to exist in yk?

my read on those positions is that temari actually feels more conflicted about gaara than you would think — she's the oldest and therefore the one most aware of how 'wrong' their family is — but she puts her and kankuro's safety first, therefore she resorts to appeasing gaara and generally staying out of his way. kankuro is more of a show-off and while he is afraid of gaara, it's in a more grounded way, if that makes sense? he taunts him like one might taunt an angry dog, he's afraid of him because of what he can do, vs temari who dreads being around him because she's aware of what gaara carries on his shoulders and Represents

i actually 👉👈 have a suna family-centered fic i've been slowly working on 👉👈 that ive been too shy to mention on main LMAO but since we are on topic here u go [link]. it's yashamaru-focused (my WIFE) but it brushes upon the entire family :3 it'll be slow to update since i've been busy with things but if u don't mind that. i mention it here since i use the extrapolations im mentioning here to write it….

aaaanyway. the kids' relationship with rasa isn't very defined (esp for kankuro and temari) but i interpret their situation as the classic… yk, father lost his soul after the mother died sort of thing. it's a bit cliche but it makes sense LOL while the only kid we know for sure rasa was cruel towards is gaara i don't find it a stretch to expand it towards the other two, even if it wasn't as extreme.

so, with that in mind: my personal interpretation is that temari — in addition to getting the usual heir responsibilities — got put into a caretaker role for kankuro, pushing her towards cynicism and self-preservation above all else (she's also the one most likely to remember their mom, and an early loss like that can push one into hyper-independence), while kankuro was left with a bit less pressure but as a tradeoff grew hungry for acknowledgement, eventually feeding into him becoming a bit of a bully as he gets older. i think he was the one with the most... "normal" relationship with their father, but i wouldn't necessarily say that's a good thing lol

gaara is in a unique position because he was not fully raised by rasa, and his relationship with him is a lot more shallow and extreme as a result. instead gaara ended up being built into who he is almost exclusively through yashamaru's kindness and subsequent betrayal — and this is only accentuated imo by the fact that gaara does not (iirc?) at any point willingly bring up yashamaru. he badmouths his father and blames him for who he is, but the formative moments of gaara's childhood that we see are of him with his uncle. isn't that interesting? to me it reads like that's still a wound so deep he can't even bear to acknowledge it; rasa treats him like a monster so gaara is free to spit poison back at him in return, but gaara did wholeheartedly believe his uncle loved him at a point, and the idea that he did not was so world-shattering that he can't even bring himself to acknowledge his existence

all that being said, gaara as we meet him in the exams treats his siblings like strangers and i can't fully blame him for that; while the compounded traumas of 1. losing their mother and 2. the shift in rasa's disposition, cannot be understated, i think what truly "broke" the siblings' dynamic is the way gaara was likely forced into kankuro and temari's lives after yashamaru died. while they'd certainly met before, there's a world of difference between knowing you have a distant, troubled younger brother vs having that brother violently placed into your home in his most vulnerable state after another familial loss.

(yashamaru's rs with his other niblings is never really touched upon but i do think about it often. he was so close to their mom i doubt they had no relationship at all! but that's. you know. what the fic i mentioned is for.)

it inherently puts the kids into an adversarial position, especially with how rasa doesn't try to argue for gaara's humanity. so gaara, freshly traumatized and distrusting, is met with siblings who are terrified of him and a father who he knows wants him dead. to make things worse, yashamaru (my king.) made sure to crush whatever goodwill gaara still had towards the world before he died, so there's no part of him willing to give anyone the benefit of the doubt. no one has any interest in fixing this situation so this is the dynamic they settle into.

yet! they are still family and there are certainly glimpses of that. one of my favorite moments is temari looking out for gaara for, in our pov, the first time

it's really simple but it always gets an emotion out of me, it's why i think their relationship bothered her the most… one of my biggest gripes with the suna siblings is honestly that we just don't get a lot of them after a point! i would have loved to see them getting closer after gaara takes the first step in closing the distance.

kazekage retrieval arc is easily one of my favorite arcs in naruto it's soooo sweet to see kankuro and temari fighting so so hard for their baby :( i really like the quiet moments where you can tell there's still a lot of guilt over how things were, i wish we got to sit with it a little more because part of the reason i like their bond so much is because of those moments of doubt, you know? i think it's far more powerful for gaara to wonder if he's been fully forgiven, for temari to grapple with the guilt of not having been a good sister to him, than for them to easily slip into a healthy and stable dynamic as a trio.

how do they feel about their father? their mother? how do they feel about their uncle? they are three different people with similar but not identical experiences with all of them, and it makes you wonder how they might navigate unpacking all of that while not jeopardizing their fledgling bond. for example i'm personally a huge fan of gaara coming to view his uncle in an imperfect but ultimately empathetic light, while his siblings see little reason to extend him so much grace.

their personalities in shippuden make a lot of sense to me taking their upbringings into account too; kankuro and temari are predominantly rasa's children, and therefore have rougher edges and are way more averse to earnest displays of affection. gaara meanwhile had yashamaru's influence in his formative years; he knows how to articulate his emotions and acknowledges the importance of sincerity and kindness. i dunno if this was intentional but i think it's a neat detail!

soo much of the suna family follows this pattern of love breeding resentment (rasa's love towards karura breeding resentment against gaara, yashamaru's love towards karura breeding resentment against gaara and rasa, gaara's love towards his uncle being twisted into hatred against the world, the siblings' love for each other being corrupted then saved) it's sooo. chef's kiss. again my only complaint is that we don't see more of them. literally who cares about konoha i want to be in suna forever

[unicornpopcorn14]

omg so like, Dazai and the shipping container incident with him getting shipped overseas got me thinking... (I am super late to reading it 😭)

Chuuya, unaware of what happened in the moment because he had been sent overseas himself for an international mission, and he had to go out and scout a foreign shipyard for illegal weapon shipments.

AT THE SAME TIME, he conveniently receives a message forward by Mori to be on the lookout for one of their own agents because a Port Mafia member had been taken hostage around the location Chuuya was in.

Chuuya's ??? because why hadn't he been notified that someone was also either on the same mission as him or had managed to be such a bumbling fool that they got caught by foreign enemies. ANYWAY, he keeps an eye out for anything suspicious while still working on his own mission when he sees a particular area of the shipyard had been surrounded by armed foreign criminals, so he's ready to go bust some ass when they all swing the shipping container doors open and barge in to see Dazai there.

Chuuya just facepalms himself in disbelief because he can't believe Dazai followed him all the way to another country (even though it was totally coincidental) but also, he's not even surprised that Dazai managed to get himself caught by the enemy. Again.

They kick some enemy ass and Dazai gets shipped back home on the next plane back to Yokohama, and Chuuya overhears Dazai complaining to Mori on the phone: "What about my home?!"

Omggg you read my silly shipping container fic hehe *hidesss* /silly

Thank you so much for this omg <333 I genuinely cackled. There really is no end with the shipping container shenanigans huh jknfjew

Lmao Mori telling him to be on the lookout for an agent without specifying that it's DAZAI so Chuuya can take this seriously pffff

I can imagine Chuuya's shocked then angry as heck face when he spots Dazai like,,, he'd probably do a double take at first being like "is that really who I think it is?" and it quickly turns to "Fuck it is who I think it is..."

Dazai would be adamant that that was part of his plan (when it really wasn't) and complain that Chuuya's ruined it and it is somehow Chuuya's fault that he has no home now fjsbfkjebaf

Which will earn him a (justified) kick to the head 😭😭

[crimsonandgoldthieves]

"Oooh, so scary. Too bad they don't know you're a bottom, huh Ringy?"

@toranoya

"Shut up.. I am not. You shouldn't mention that so casually Malik.." His face heated up because he damn well knows why its being said so confidently.

[sweetheartofmine]

daphne had the poise and elegance one would expect from a princess. she did not flinch or shy away from morganna's gaze, hatred in those dark eyes. the queen was not discouraged. she had received the same defiance from many of her pets, and welcomed the challenge of taming the girl. the comment about bowing made morganna's lips break into an amused smile. "oh, you will bow. i find the position full of possibilities." she gestured to a nearby servant, who brought forward a rectangular box. inside, nestled in velvet, were several tools for impact play. she selected a riding crop of soft, dark leather. "i intended to teach you this command, however, not for this reason. i suppose we can give it dual purpose." taking hold of daphne's leash with her free hand, she bent to pull the girl downward by the pressure on her neck. the golden collar looked delicate, with its frills and jewels, however it was thick metal and had been carefully soldered closed. it could only be removed by the castle's blacksmith. when daphne's head reached ground, morganna released the pressure and rose. "down, pet. there you go." the end of the crop trailed bare skin as the queen circled the princess once more. "do not rise, unless you wish to be punished. when i tell you down, you will assume this position. you will learn all of your commands in time." one heeled foot nudged daphne's legs apart, eyes critical again. "good dog. or perhaps you would prefer kitten? i am open to the animal role you assume. i am not an entirely cruel mistress." morganna's smile widened as she could see the rosy buds tipping princess's full breasts brushing the ground, the honey between her thighs as she stood behind her. "sweet dove, it will not be difficult for me to break your mind. i will not need to try hard to control your will. in time, you will find that your head contains less else than the thought of me."

Princess Daphne’s chest heaved with barely contained fury, her skin crawling as the golden leash bit into her neck. Every inch of her screamed in revolt, but she remained still, her back straight and her eyes cold. She refused to show weakness, though the disgust she felt deep in her gut was overwhelming. The queen’s words were like venom, dripping with cruelty, but Daphne’s pride burned hotter than any threat. "I am not your pet," she spat, her voice low and filled with revulsion. Her gaze met Morganna’s, unflinching, her heart pounding with a mixture of rage and disgust. "You may have forced me here, but I will never bow to you." The scent of oil and perfume, the touch of Morganna’s inspecting gaze, made her skin crawl. Daphne wanted nothing more than to rip the collar from her neck, to escape the suffocating presence of this queen who saw people as nothing more than toys to be played with. She could feel the humiliation threatening to break through her resolve, but she pushed it down with all the strength she could muster. "You think I’ll be grateful for this... treatment?" Daphne’s words were a bitter hiss. "You think I’ll ever thank you for this? For turning me into one of your… animals?" Her throat tightened as she spoke the words, but she refused to lower her gaze. The collar around her neck burned, the leash heavy, but Daphne could feel the fire of resistance growing stronger. "You may control my body for now, but you will never control my will. I would rather die than become one of your pets." She leaned forward slightly, her eyes fierce. "You have no idea what you’ve taken. And you will regret it."

[numum]

Any Eda, Raine, or Reada in that beautiful sketchbook of yours? And sorry about the bots stressing you out.

not in my traditional sketchbook, but i do have this raeda piece i never got around to finishing 🥺 plus an owl beast doodle

[luinen-bluewater]

14 and 35 for the durge banter / dialogue

Hey! Thank you so much for asking!! <3 So, here we go: 14. Looking at a globe: "Hmn, weird. That is a very round object for being a map. Everybody knows the world is clearly flat." - And if Gale is in the party in that very moment, he'd reply to Tino's comment: "Um... I have news for you, my friend..." 35. How would your Tav/Durge greet a player character if they were a companion at low, neutral, high, or romanced approval? Low: "Yes? What is it?" - clearly a bit annoyed Neutral: "Looking for any murder tips?" -with an amused tone High: "Oh, hi! Came here for gossiping?" -starts speaking louder and ends up whispering a little, with complicity Romanced: "Hey. I was starting to miss you. What do you need?" -keeping the voice needy and soft, with a little smile

[ahopefulbromantic]

Hai! You seem like a pretty cool Christian ace person. I’m not sure if I’m on the ace spec myself but I know my friend is aroace. She struggles a lot with people telling her that not getting married is not apart of God’s plan which is sad cause there’s a whole variety of love to show than just romantic/sexual. And I know your content is uplifting to people like her who are ashamed or put down for their asexualism/aromanticism. Keep up your content! God bless! ❤️

Hi! Thank you so much for your kind words, i really appreciate it! ❤️And i agree 100% it's so dumb to put down aspec people and especially for Christians??? Jesus Himself was not married and said that celibacy is a great vocation so what the heck?! He literally said there is no greater love than giving your life up for your friends? Not your spouse not your children but your friends! (John 15, 13 aka probably my favorite verse of the whole Bible)

I'm happy that God can bring you both some comfort through my words. God bless you, too, dear anon, and your lovely friend! You're pretty cool yourself hehe 😎

[exactly103]

i just saw the substance in theaters and it was life changing but just like in your case there were men laughing while i was sitting there with tears in my eyes utterly horrified at the tragedy of elisabeth’s self destruction. anyways there were three of them next to me laughing and chatting and on their phones and i wanted to yell at them but i was so scared but halfway through i lost it and told them to either shut the fuck up or move seats and it worked. so in conclusion that movie fixed me thank you miss fargeat

omg as you should!!! being on your phone in a movie theater (especially during a serious movie) is CRAZY to me like. just do us all a favor and watch it at home at that point. anyways! i feel you so hard - i also teared up - and i genuinely cannot fathom not having such a visceral reaction to that movie. i went with a few other people and we were all clutching onto each other for the last 15 minutes, it was SO incredibly horrifying (and i mean that in the best way possible)

[sugarsnappeases]

GIVE US QUILLKILLER THOUGHTS!!!!!!

i would be delighted to!!! i’ll try to say things we (@quillkiller and i, we’re conjoined) haven’t said before lol…. please be warned. this post got LONG (lots more under the cut)

so for me the general trajectory of the quillkiller relationship is devotion -> betrayal -> haunting (and the devotion and haunting are sort of synonymous, no? different shapes of the same undying love) so i’ll try to follow that trajectory in this post too

so. Devotion. we’ve said before that a big part of bella’s character is her need to devote herself to something. she’s a follower at her core, and before she meets voldemort, she finds this in rita. rita who’s mean and nasty and genuinely believes she deserves to be worshipped (major god complex). bella who wants to worship her, wants to give her everything, wants to give herself up to rita like an offering, a sacrifice.

and it digs deep into the both of them, this devotion, claws its way into the marrow of their bones until they can’t let each other go. they’re in different hogwarts houses and come from what feels like different worlds but bella’s sneaking into the ravenclaw common room at night, they’re passing notes in class, exchanging looks in the great hall, meeting up in secret nooks and crannies. bella is getting married but rita is the journalist at the wedding, kissing her before she walks down the aisle, sneaking off to fuck in one of the side rooms later. bella sending patronuses like ‘come over’ or just showing up at rita’s flat, clinging onto each other even when they know they probably shouldn’t and that it can’t last and that it’ll have to end at some point, taking as much of each other as they can get bc they know that it can’t be forever and they didn’t even think it would last this long… i imagine them waking up together like this:

and the thing is!! there’s so much love. so so so much love. like even w bella married and everything, that’s never an issue at all. they’re happy, they have fun and they make each other laugh and they love each other so so much and so so well even if they both think that’s it’s ultimately gonna fall apart. and that brings us to Betrayal.

it’s the idea that both of them are selfish and obsessive and cruel but before they’d always been all of these things together. but bc they are these things and bc they’re always pushing each other and challenging each other and making each other more, they’re always, inevitably, gonna cross a line that the other cannot. for rita, this is her article, and for bella, this is her dark mark.

and to me, their respective betrayals happen kinda concurrently, like either one of them could happen first, but they don’t fully fall apart until both of them have happened bc, for example, if the article happened first, bella wouldn’t forgive rita (it’s disloyalty and bella can’t understand or forgive it bc she’s unendingly loyal <- another core bella trait) but bc of the disconnect there, the way they both can’t quite understand how unforgivable what they’ve done is to the other, i don’t think rita would necessarily see a huge issue. like they’ve fought before and it hasn’t been final and if rita called, bella would still show up, ofc she would. and vice versa. if the dark mark debacle happened first, rita can’t forgive her for that (bc no matter how morally reprehensible she is, rita can’t justify or support genocide and doesn’t understand how bella thinks she could), but if bella called, rita would go.

that’s them one betrayal in ^^ (i.e. rita post bella’s mark showing up at lestrange manor bc bella called. or bella post rita’s article showing up at rita’s flat bc she called). and they need both the betrayals to happen to be fully over (and obvs both the betrayals are inevitable bc of who they are and the circumstances they find themselves in even if they’re trying so hard to cling onto each other). i think by the time of both the betrayals, they’re already hanging on by a thread - hanging on so so tight, don’t get me wrong, but things are already falling to pieces, they just haven’t noticed yet, or haven’t let themselves notice yet.

it’s been building and building bc they both want everything, they want to have their cake and eat it too, selfish and hungry and wanting, that eventually they cross they line and it all falls down. they lose their ‘one good thing’ (<- bella says this about rita), they lose the woman that they still love, the only woman they ever have and ever will love, bc they just kept pushing for more:

and it’s both of their faults but they blame each other and hate each other and love each other just the same and they don’t realise that the closest they ever were to everything they ever wanted was when they were together. until later. thus. the Haunting.

and i have a lot of visual aids (quotes) for this part lol. this spans the rest of their lives, and i tend to mostly consider it from rita’s pov bc she’s not in azkaban and a lot more mentally present and also lives a lot longer so i think it’s more tragic for her (bella is also very much tragic but i will say that by the end of her time in azkaban, she’s really not much more than a shell of herself and she would’ve had most of her happy memories (a large part of which are w rita) sapped from her by the dementors and therefore it’s hard to say how much capacity she would’ve had for being haunted, being as, in and of herself, she would’ve been little more than a ghost x)

we’re gonna kinda gloss over everything here bc i have lots to say and this is already so so long but i have quotes that refer to a) rita’s general existence after the break up:

(obvs we're referring to her articles here. and just everything she writes in general. and everything she does. and everything she is.)

b) rita after bella breaks out of azkaban in 1996, and she sees her on the cover of the daily prophet:

and c) basically just rita for the rest of her life. forever. til the day she dies (this quote makes me a little insane...... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!):

IT IS MY KNIFE AND MY HEART TOO!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! anyway i'm gonna stop talking here bc i've rambled on for far far too long (although i have more to say if anyone wants... i'll always have more to say about them i think) but for now!! i'll love you and leave you with a few links to posts/fics that i think vaguely encapsulate our quillkiller conception (and by that i mean reccing jen's fics and a couple other things i've said):

life-changing fic 1 (rita writing bellatrix's obituary) | thing i wrote (unsent letter from r to b after azkaban break-out) | life-changing fic 2 (bella visiting rita post-azkaban break-out) | thing i wrote (another kinda quillkiller thesis...) | life-changing microfic (nsfw, that good old bellatrix black devotion)

[mysteriousxgirls]

"Sir Morrigan," the princess began, her voice soft yet trembling with an undercurrent of emotion as she placed a gentle hand against his cheek, "you are not ‘just a knight.’ You are the bravest, most loyal soul I have ever known. You are the one who shields me from harm even when I do not ask it of you. You are so much more than you believe yourself to be." She stepped closer, her fingers lightly brushing against his skin. Did he think a title or a noble blood defines worthiness? If that was true then how could her heart have chosen him long before she even realized it. He was the one who taught her sword fighting, he wanted her to be able to fight in situations he could not be there for her. He had been by her side more than anyone else and she had slowly fallen for him even if she never wanted to admit it- until now.

Daphne looked away for a moment, as if gathering her courage, before meeting his gaze once more. "I have always had feelings for you, Morrigan. Always. You are the only one who has ever seen me for who I am, beyond the crown, beyond the expectations. It has been both my greatest joy and my deepest sorrow, for what we feel for one another cannot change the reality before us." She hesitated, pain flickering across her face. She knew they had no future together but why did she want him to still stay by her side? Was this selfish of her? She had to know how he felt knowing she would wed somebody else, if he could stay by her side still.

"Now I must ask you something I fear I already know the answer to. How do you feel about me marrying the prince of another kingdom to stop this war? Can you stand by and watch me do my duty while we both know what it will cost us?" Her voice cracked slightly, and she stepped back, wrapping her arms around herself as if warding off the chill of the night. "I must know, Morrigan. Because every step I take toward that altar will feel like a betrayal of what we could have been. Of you."

Morrigan stayed silent for some time as he looked into her eyes though he didn't say anything to her. He couldn't get her out of his head no matter what. As a knight sworn to his duty to protect her father and his children he knew he never should have gotten himself involved with her in this way. But the truth was he simply didn't care. His heart ached for her and his body yearned for her. He simply couldn't get enough of her and it was horrible knowing the truth that she was to be married to someone else. Then again it wasn't like he would have expected anything different. She was a princess after all. It was natural for her to wed be some noble or a prince or whatever. Certainly not with some lowly knight. But that didn't stop him from being pulled in by her and desperately wanting her more than anything. Now that they were alone in the garden Morrigan wouldn't need to pretend that nothing was happening between them and he could show his affection to her however he wanted to do so. For a moment or two he didn't say anything and focused on only kissing her until she stopped him. He didn't say anything to her and found himself eyeing her softly before he cleared his throat at her again.

Her words stung him deeply though he didn't move or say anything. But he couldn't find himself pulling away from her as he sighed softly at her before looking into her eyes and finally responded to her. "I understand. I am in no illusions about that. I know we could never be together. You are a princess and have your duty to perform. Which is to wed someone who is worthy of you. And I am just a knight who will stay here and continue to protect the king and his heir. " He said to her softly. "It was foolish anyway. To expect something could happen between us in the first place. " He said to her calmly.

[anakinstwinklebunny]

HIIIII 🫶🏻🫶🏻🎀

I know we never interacted but I saw you in the dms of Rain and you’re really cool so…why are you so beautiful ? (friendly flirting)