#typing on the tumblr app is sooo not easy

[sara-wawa]

Me back at it again with more dbh fanart bc my thirst for Connor knows no bounds oTL also I really suck at drawing him so I can’t draw him as much as I’d like to oTL [keep the comments on] [do not reuse/repost] [reblog is fine] [do not tag as kin/me/self]

[junisfics]

hi! sooo i’m thinking about maybe setting up an account and starting writing but i’m so nottt used to this platform and i’m really nervous about it all because i feel like an actual 80 year old trying to figure it all out. are there any tips, tricks, tutorials, etc. that you suggest? thank you, pretty! 🤍

hi !!! so i've gotten a lot of questions about this and i've also seen a lot of newer users confused about how to work tumblr so i'll try and help you the best i can :)

i will be explaining in terms of the tumblr app, since most users start on the app and once you understand the app, it will be much easier to understand desktop!

navigation. (the bar at the bottom of the screen)

this will get you everywhere you need to go. literall y this will help you with everything you need.

starting with the right most icon, the home shaped icon, this is your dashboard.

the dashboard (also called 'the dash' or 'the tl') is where youll see all content that's posted into the tags you may follow or the people you may follow (theres also the option where you can see posts that other people like, but i personally keep that off to stop clutter).

when you first make an account, it's probable that tumblr will already have your dash filled with random things based off what you clicked in the sign up process. but dont worry, you can easily unfollow those by clicking on the magnifying glass icon and following one of the things i go over next

search.

search is the next icon. this is where youll look for things you want, find your followed tags, find new blogs to check out, or see the trending tags.

regarding fanfiction, the search is very very easy to navigate. all you do is type in a character name + the content you want for that character (ex. eren jaeger smut, ex. eren smut, ex. eren yeager smut) usually all name variations will work !

when youre in your search results, youll see a bar right under the search bar that looks like this:

this is how youll refine your results.

for example, if you want to look at the most popular posts, click "top"

if you want to look at the most recent posts under that search, click "recent"

if you want to look at only the posts that are tagged as "eren smut" and not the posts that are similar to eren smut, click "tagged". speaking of this, every search you make will have a tag, if you want to follow that tag, click the blue follow icon next to your search and everything tagged as such will appear on your dash.

the next things are the ones i use the least, but its all up to personal preference. gifs are where youll only find gifs, tumblrs are where you'll find the most popular tumblrs regarding that tag (this is an easy way you can figure out who to follow first), photos is obviously just photos, and the list goes on.

creating a post.

the icon shaped like a little pen thats highlighted in blue is where youll create all your posts

you can write whatever you want, include picture, include links, include songs from spotify, include gifs and all that.

while youre typing, and after youre done typing, you have the oppurtunity to include tags on the post you created. these tags will help you show up in searches !

but dont worry, if youre not done with your post but want to save it, you can save it as a draft ! at the top of your screen youll see a "post" icon, and next to that youll see three little dots "..." when you click on these dots youll have a whole bunch of options on what you want to do with your post !

activity/messaging.

the little smiley face panel is seperated into activity and messaging

under activity is where youll see all these things called "notes" (likes, reblogs, comments, mentions etc). notes are NOT just likes, so please dont think you can only liike posts. notes are comprised of all the things i listed. this is not instagram.

in messaging is where youll have all your dms ! to create a new message, just click the little plus at the top right.

your profile.

the profile icon is, of course, your profile.

this is kinda how youll appear to other people. you have your name, bio, theme that your profile is etc

this isnt too important to be honest, what is important is your settings tab at the top.

im not gonna explain this tab cuz thats gonna be a reallllll long time, but a lot of it is self explanatory and is super easy to figure out if you just explore a bit :)

[takemehomefromnarnia]

Hi! I want to organize something like a rainbow lights project for one of Harry's shows maybe, but I've barely seen anyone on tumblr who's going, and I'm afraid it might not reach a lot of people and will ultimately flop. I assume I'm not the only one in this case, sooo... Any ideas? Should I try Twitter? Oh and thank you so much for what you do! 🌈✨

Aaaaah, rainbow lights projects - not the easiest thing in the world to make them succeed! But that’s exactly why they are so wonderful.

You can’t be succesful if you’re not willing to take the risk of failure.

In terms of tips and tricks, here are a few -  we are working on a full length HOW TO post (anyone has tips, feel free to share and we’ll put them in):

When to/when not to:

- solo shows are better than festival type shows, it’s difficult when half of the audience is not there for the same artist - you’re good there

- time to prepare is needed - you can’t do this on a whim/in a week - harry’s tour is not for ages

- venue with majority seated tickets (otherwise people don’t know which section they should be in)

How to:

- step 1: look for a map of the venue - in the layout for that particular concert (this is crucial) - divide it up in colours - stick to existing sections - the clearer the better

(this one’s for Louis’ Poptopia by the way!!!) - Also make sure you know what to do with the general admission/floor - as you can’t easily divide that up - in Milan they did miniprideflags on the floor instead of lights, in Bologna they did flowers - really beautiful both. 

- step 2: pick a moment in the show when you want to do this (first song  or a particular song that you know is going to be on the setlist) - ideally pick a song that’s linked to rainbow projects - like SoTT for Harry ( like the people in Paris & Oberhausen did) - if you don’t pick SoTT, be aware that during HSLOT 2018, Harry would always ask people to turn up the flashlights for SoTT so people would usually do the rainbow again then. 

- step 3: make it known to everyone who wants to listen that you are organising this and this is the layout, this is the song - the sooner people know and the louder you are - the less chances of “competition” for a different colour schedule or a different project during the same song - we’ve seen it happen - it usually kills both projects a bit - for maximum loudness: use us, use update accounts (the Paris rainbow, the first one that was successful, was organised by an update account), use big accounts, ask everyone for help, use existing tags ( #rainbowlights, and #rainbowdirection ) and create your own (#turnforestrainbow was very successful with that, little followers but the tag went wild) - be on tumblr AND twitter, and IG if you can. create a new account for the project if needs be. (examples: https://twitter.com/NHforestrainbow   @RainbowHProject @msg_rainbow)  that makes it easy for people to find all information easily. tweet often, search people out to rope them in, ask them for help to retweet and reblog and spread the word. search the tags for your show regularly. talk to everyone who is going to that show. talk to everyone who is or ever has organised a rainbow lights project, that will help too

Oh, and it helps to have 1 single picture with all the information on it - so everyone just needs to retweet reblog regram or share that (include your blog your twitter your Ig your FB, your every handle on there

- step 4: little pieces of paper or little stickers work best - so get moving with producing as many little pieces of coloured paper as you will need to hand one to every person in the venue - people have tried with the colour app - you can promote that - but it doesn’t work as well. People don’t download an app on the spot - while holding a piece of paper they’ve been given on the spot in front of their phone flashlight is easy. so you are going to need to bring all those pieces, and hand them out 

- step 5: get in some help preparing the pieces of paper, because you cannot do that by yourself. reach out to people early - you can ask us for help in finding other rainbowminded people going to your concert - but for this you don’t strictly need people going to the concert rope in your friends and family - you’ll be cutting pieces of paper for a lot of your evenings. What has worked wel is little pieces of paper with the instructions on them - or stuck to them.

- step 6: hand out the pieces of paper on the day - there are several ways in which you can make this work - contacting the venue beforehand is always a good idea - they can allow you access between sections  if you cannot find enough people who are going to the concert who are in different sections of the venue. you’ll need to arrive way too early to hand out pieces of paper to everyone separately so it helps if you put the pieces of paper in plastic bags per row and ask the first person to take one and pass it on to the rest of their row. 

You cannot start too early because a lot of people will not yet be there, and so on, and so on... What we’ve also seen that works are posters on poles along the way from public transport/parking to the venue and on the walls at the venue (again something you may be discussing with them beforehand) with the explanation of the project and pieces of paper/stickers  that people can take

Best of luck and ENJOY THE RESULT!!!!

[delciastudies]

Starting up a blog or studyblr (with little or no experience in graphic/web design)!!!

[22.10.19] ✧

I promised I would make a post about starting up a blog so here you go!! These are the things I found most useful in my time starting up a studyblr, and I was never someone with amazing handwriting or an amazing bullet journal, but I loved writing, I loved taking pictures, and I always dreamed of having my own blog! Hopefully this is helpful information to all of you looking to get started <3

✧ First and foremost, you need to start up a blog that incorporates your interests. Whether that be studying/giving study advice/student experience/really anything academic, that would fall under a studyblr. But there are so many options! Langblr’s for individuals interested in language, bookblrs, literature blogs, travel blogs, you name it. My blog actually began as a travel blog! I still incorporate a significant amount of that into my current blog. Once you find what you’re interested in, you can orient your name, logo, description, and other aspects around that, which takes us into...

✧ ...choosing a theme! My blog is currently oriented around a simplistic color theme. Some blogs do their themes around their interests: for example books! Which might appear in the logo and cover. I’d say the easiest route to take is choose your color template, and decorate/design everything around that. Find what you think fits you and what fits the type of page you want to create. It also helps to look at other blogs for inspiration! That takes us into..

✧.. creating your own work, logo, what I would consider ‘artboards’. This gives you a unique and original touch to your blog, personal autonomy, and you don’t have any worries about copyright or taking someone else’s work. While it is easy to pull stuff from online and other blogs, it is much more fun to create your own artboards, and something that I continuously do just out of enjoyment. :) Here are some of the tools I use (and that I know are quite popular) in doing that:

✧ Illustrator is my main go-to. Whenever I am creating a new cover, profile picture, choosing color schemes or simply wanting to make something fun and cute for my next post, I use illustrator!

     ✧ Pros: allows a wide range of graphics and illustrations; high-tech; popular, so there are lots of tutorials out there for its use

     ✧ Cons: can be expensive (I would advise checking with your school/employer/other institution to see if they offer it for free!); can be overly complicated for someone with no experience in graphic design (like I was!)

✧ Inkscape is one that I have never personally used, but that I hear is extremely popular in the graphic design community. Based on layout images I have seen of it, it seems super simple to use and is definitely a great place to start for beginners. And its free!!

✧ Photoshop is an app that I have access to but do not use as often, but just like illustrator, allows for a wide-range of tools, but can prove complicated for someone with no experience in graphic design; also, it costs.

✧ VSCO is my all-time favorite photo-editing app: I have been using mine for ages. It also is free for some filters, but I personally pay for vsco-pro because of the huge selection of other filters and overall simplicity of it as an app. I also have sooo many travel photos that I post on my vsco page, so check those out. ;) Lastly, and most importantly...

✧... stay committed! This is the deal-breaker, and one that kept ruining my chances at having the blog I dreamt of. While I made my tumblr ages ago and loved using it for travel, I often found myself abandoning it for months at a time. We’ve all been there. Here are a few tricks that help me to stay committed to my blog and use it frequently enough that I consider myself a committed blogger and I feel emotionally committed as well:

      ✧ Put it in your bookmarks tap (in Chrome or Safari), make it an app on your first page, and check it daily!! I used to set reminders to blog, but now I’m at the point where I think about my blog all the time and don’t need to set reminders (wack). I love to check it at the same time I am checking the mail, like it’s my side hustle (even though its just for enjoyment ;,)).

      ✧ Do 100 days of productivity!! To some this might feel like a chore (I’ve tried completing 100 days of productivity 3 times with no success. It takes time), but it will keep you checking and writing on your blog daily. It works!!

      ✧ Get in touch with other bloggers!! Send them messages!! Reblog their posts!! If you’re making friends and feel like you’re a part of your blogging community (which are normally theme-based: I love keeping in touch with other studyblrs and langblrs!!) I promise it will make you feel like you’re reaching an audience and that you have people who are waiting for your posts (cheesy I know). I love sending messages to other bloggers (and my good friend @ginger-biologist-writer​ who I message every time I’m on :,)). Other things that help you stay in touch with other bloggers is challenges (such as studyblr challenges, tag-a-friend challenges, studyblr reblogs, types posts, etc. etc.) While you’re a at it, check out those links and give them a follow!

       ✧ And fun thing about being committed is the more you use tumblr, get acquainted with its layout, and see how other blogs function, the better you will be at figuring out how you want to organize your posts. Some people love masterposts with links to other amazing blogs or their posts: some people will do infographs, some will do a short daily recaps (which I do!), some will do study tips; some people organize their date like a title or italics or [22.10.19] like me or “daily recap // 22-10-19″ or they add emojis or  ✧’s or anything-- find what you like and go with it!!!

       ✧ most importantly, we are rooting for you. I have not met a single blogger who doesn’t absolutely love other bloggers and isn’t always willing to help out. That’s what we’re here for really... we like to blog, we like to show people how to study, we like to share our experiences, so we like to help! Send a blogger some questions and don’t ever be afraid to reach out.

I hope this helps to all our new bloggers-to-be; just remember, we’ve all been there, and we’ve put in our time and investments to make the blogs we run today. We wanna see yours grow too ;,)

xxx

[familiaanteomnia]

all the things for the get to know the mun meme !

¯\_(ツ)_/¯:  do you have any tumblr friends? if so, who are they?: A few? I guess it’s a loaded topic cause I’m not sure what qualifies/who is like ‘oh yeah that idiot over there’s my friend’. Naming names seems extreme. But I bet the guilty parties know who they are. 2 of which have literally put up with me for years now. 

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°):  relationship status?: Single, an fool with no dating savvy. Consider testing my luck on apps for lols occasionally though. 

ಠ_ಠ:  what is your biggest pet peeve?: There’s a few but I’m generally pretty too chill. Like if somebody’s doing something I find annoying generally I’m like ‘-’ 

(ಥ_ಥ):  finish this: i hate it when…: I hate it when people think they’re opted out of being gross, or hateful just because they’re lgbt+. That popular posters in fandoms tend to be all ‘wow I’m Woke’ but fill the tags with gross content. And I should get paid for it because wow then I’d be able to live a great life, donate to good causes,etc. 

Like the sheer amount of times I literally have seen ‘I’m a wlw so its fine if I really sexualize mlms, trans men’ is- scary. Not to mention the ones who are all ‘I mean but like is the f slur really that bad?’. Like basically can people respect each other??? Or could I at least make money for their gross behavior- to at least like fund people’s transitions,etc. 

ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ:  what is your favorite animal?: I have to pick.. Beta fish; emotionally speaking fish mean a lot to me. Otherwise I like cats, dogs, eucalyptus parrots. 

(☞ﾟヮﾟ)☞ ☜(ﾟヮﾟ☜):  who is someone you can tell everything to?: Nobody, I’m not good at human interaction/feel very limited in confiding because a fair amount of everything around me’s so messed up and I’ve hurt people even vaguely mentioning it cause it’s like ‘oh shit that’s messed up’. 

(づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ:  are you a hugger?: Depends. Like I’d totally love hugs if I was initiating them/certain people and same with just like sprawling across a lap like ‘look I’m cuuute fight me’. Because I’m touch starved; somebody give me basic affection. I’d like to be but also I’ve had hugs, touch used as manipulation tactics. Not in the way people would think either. 

Like then other factors but I take comfort in one armed hugs where possible. But goal ideally at some point I’m certainly going to be like ‘I offer and receive affection fight me- platonically especially screw ‘traditional’ nonsense’ 

(╯°□°)╯︵ ʞooqǝɔɐɟ:  besides tumblr, do you have any other social media?: Depends what classifies. I’ve got a newish fb for my future. Meaning to start i.nsta up for real (I like taking dumb pics even if I don’t have a fancy camera available/phone camera that’s decent). Then just like various this or that. Meaning to start up a yt. Got d.iscord though I rarely use it. 

﴾͡๏̯͡๏﴿?:  how old are you?: Almost 19 which like honestly given I’ve had to be the adult in rooms, most my life and things- feels more like going on late twenties. Plus nobody ever interacts with me like ‘oh wow you’re not that old’ because of it. Though I certainly look 19 most likely cause I got hormonally screwed for now. 

(╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻:  what are your thoughts on school?: Education, learning and growing is important. However there is plenty flaws in the system at times. But most of all I hate the attitude society can have about it, about ‘drop outs’ . There’s this assumption I’m never going to live any sort of life, that I must have stopped attending for stupid reasons. Cause high school is easy, online school too right? There’s that option. 

That I can’t learn things, cause if you’re not in school/with some stupid piece of paper saying ‘you tested well congrats’ you’re adverse to learning. Not educated. Like I had lost my ability to even pass, or do anything. Mentally I was in a whole sort of other hell that nobody should ever know. I’ve got literal amnesia from how depressed I was. That while being told to absorb new information, trying but I couldn’t was hell. 

The terrifying thought of the crowded graduation ceremony, hearing the name that made my skin crawl and yet another dumb piece of paper with that printed on it? Didn’t help. I think it can be lovely, that people certainly need to learn things and have that. That I admire people who pull through it/willingly go through intensive college,etc. Personally I’ll do my ged when I’m in a better place, or something but I chose life/hope to get better then and I still am putting getting better first. 

| (• ◡•)| (❍ᴥ❍ʋ):  favorite tv show?: I have too many tbh. S.hadowhunters, T.ua, Tales Of The C.ity *the new n.etflix show*, n.bc’s Constantine, Faking I.t, F.ringe, s.yfy’s Almost H.uman, B.elieve *whatever network did it*, just to name a few. 

(ง'̀-‘́)ง:  are you okay?: Not really- working on it though so like it’s whatever

(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:  ･ﾟ✧: sexual orientation?: I’d jokingly say complicated but.. Gay, asexual. I really really like guys and well details aren’t necessary in the latter department but the sexy isn’t appealing to me. It’s just like ‘meh’ literally. 

┬┴┬┴┤(･_├┬┴┬┴:  are you a people person or a loner?: Loner, though I’m also a people person want to be/tend to be by accident? Supposedly I have an attractive personality. I’ve always had people, kids just chat at me even if I didn’t know them,etc. I can be sitting grumpily in a corner and an old lady is like ‘do you perhaps know the time’ instead of to anybody else. Etc. Honestly it’s a ? type of situation/answer. But I do best with myself/prefer my mediocre company to like challenging my anxiety,etc for sure.

ლ(ಠ益ಠლ):  do you have any siblings?: Two brothers, one sister. And I’m the second oldest but truthfully basically the eldest.  Really complicated relationships. The eldest, I actually literally refuse to interact with most the time. Because of all the abuse and stuff that happened. Like even after apologizing, supposedly feeling bad- still screws me over at times. 

ಠ╭╮ಠ:  have you ever self harmed?: Big time, I’m clean now for the most part because I mean technically anything harmful to you done purposely,etc counts as it… But like yeah for years it was terrible and sometimes I still get the urges,etc. Like I’m recovered generally to a point it’s like ‘oh wow I don’t know how long its been since I was doing that, when I last did it’. 

(づ￣ ³￣)づ:  have you ever been in love?: Well that version of thinking you are when you’re young. Or trying to convince yourself that you are. So I guess. But on the other hand not really.

(☞ﾟ∀ﾟ)☞:  would you rather be hugged by a bunny or kissed by a doe?: Hugged by a bunny, I mean both sound adorable but I’ve had a bunny rest its head on my knee before so like that speaks for itself. 

(ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻:  how do you let your anger out?: I usually don’t? Like whats a coping mechanism for 100? I’ve seen too much anger issues so generally, also being soft spoken I really don’t act. Venting into the void be it a mental health app, or some blog usually does the trick. Or listening to music, writing it into poems,etc. 

ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ:  are you active?: Not really, I want to be/for the right reasons at some point for sure. For now it’s usually sporadic like ‘eh I guess I can do a few things health! yay!’ 

ヾ(⌐■_■)ノ♪:  what are your favorite band(s)/artist(s)?: Sooo many… C.OIN, Mother M.other, W.eareskydive, Seth C.orbin, M.allrat, L D.evine, The L.umineers, L.IGHTS, A.nna Clendening, B.astille, The R.egrettes, A.JR, F.LETCHER, W.rabel, G.erard Way/M.CR. Cavetown. Ryan A.rmdor. T.ransviolet.  E.DEN. Classic rock artists… the list goes on for ages. 

（╯°□°）╯︵(\ .o.)\:  who is your least favorite person?: Real life? Online? Celebrities? Can’t pick, don’t feel can single just 1 person out regardless/bit cruel to have somebody top that list alone.

♥‿♥:  tell us about your crush!: uwu I don’t have one currently

◔̯◔:  what time is it?: 8:54 PM

◕‿◕:  what is your guilty pleasure?: Frosting with pretzels? Lots of salt. Junk food. Dancing around like an idiot to music. 

◔ ⌣ ◔:  are you a virgin?: Okay so I don’t quite believe in all the ‘virgin’ ‘first this or that’ nonsense cause like? Not going to go there but what is the clarification honestly… But yeah I’ve not done anything with anybody. Or kissed somebody just yet and that’s okay. Hell with the sexual crap it’s like bliss for me because also people can be so uneducated,etc like phew no worries for me in that department.

[3shaaamazng]

Reason for a Season

Since I’m like Lana Condor who write letters to all the boys she liked.. I realized I’ve been doing that here on my tumblr.. and idc if they get to read it. I think if it’ll even be better if they do because they can read what I thought about them. haha anyways..

This one is for hopefully the last guy I met from a dating app (for now since I’m quitting it and just gonna try the in-person mingling way since I actually meet more people in person anyway and my personality can)— and seem like none of people from dating apps worked for me. I’m not meant for it. I dont have time for games. I am more convinced that dating apps are not meant for me.

but hey..Just want to let you know that you’re the first one I ghosted that I had a connection with. HAHAHA! well, you kinda already did in a way, it’s just we ended up talking again. But this time, I decided to stop talking to you...

I just watched this movie called Exes Baggage. and the guy reminded me of you. I know you have baggages from your previous relatiionship. We all do..

but the guy really reminded me of you because he can’t decide what he realy wants to do yet..

but okay.. let me go back how I wanted to really start..

Mr. G,

I’m glad we met. Hope you were also glad to meet someone like me. For the past 3 months that we were talking, I was confused if you just wanted to be friends or more than that. I was going with the flow and see how things are. Because I haven’t talked to someone like you in a long time. Someone who I can text in essays and talk about things I like, I do, I feel,I experienced..etc. For me, talking to you was TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE. Because it’s rare to find someone who can match my energy when it comes to my talkativeness.. I’ll miss that.. I do miss it now. Like what I said, I’ve been just this strong and independent woman. So things like that makes me weak. I dont’t know how to talk to guys... and so for me, talking to you was like “WOW FINALLY AGAIN A DECENT GUY I CAN TALK TO!” (Because back then it was P)

Anyways../

You were cool. You got to hang and chill with my friends.. You’re easy to get along with... and even made an effort to drive in the snow.. I appreciate it!

I was enjoying your company.. I like how finally after a long time, I have something to look forward to again.. But believe me, I was overthinking. I was already preparing myself that you’d break me at some point. I was looking for flaws, something I know you’ll mess up one day.. something you’ll do to disappoint me.. my friends told me to stop doing that to myself in every guy I get to talk to and just Enjoy the moment.. so I did. 

But when did things go wrong?

Idk.. you tell me... you got into a a fight in a party where I did my best to get you out of.. I took care of you.. I do not mind. I saw your embarassed and ashamed expression the next day that made me believe that whatever they were accusing you was not something you’d do by nature. We had our deep talk about relationships for the first time.. which I finally got to figure out why I met you.. because for some reason, God always make me meet broken hearted people.. so from there, I just feel like you’re just lost.. and I’d be here willing to help you since I’vebeen doing that to people anyway.. From our talk, I decided that I’ll stay as your friend and who knows maybe later on... things would be different. I asked myself, do I like you? Answer is I was interested because I had that connection with you. I enjoyed your company.. and also maybe yes, i was starting to like you. But At the same time I’m actually not sure about it. I’m in the middle. It takes some time for me to like someone.

Then.... one night, you failed to give me an update for our plans when I was expecting you to pull through.. I told you how to improve it.. You said you were willing too make it up.. but bruh... you did not even ask me if our plan that day was still going to happen... we also had our plans on another day (Tuesday) to watch a movie.. but still you did not even bother to hit me up and follow through about that..

and you responded to my text 2 days later and I felt like it was not even sincere.. I started to question if everything you told me were fake.. you said I’m awesome and you feel lukcy to have met someone like me who is supportive.. but what happened when I just confronted you with one thing?? if you were a friend or if you at least value me as a person.. you would have been able to show that.. you would have made more effort. But I guess that was me expecting more from you.. because I’m the type of person who always give andI don’t receive as much back... I wanted to change the tone of our conversation and let that go, so even if I should not talk to you anymore at that point, I went ahead and made it more friendly..but then.. you sent something flirty again that made me question.. what do you really want? What’s all these mind games? now youi’re playing with me?? shouldnt you already know what I feel about guys when I opened up to you? anyways.. I was already disappointed with that faking shii.. then you be playing mind games with me.. so that’s when I stopped.. Mixed Signals are UGLY. And i’ve gone through that. I don’t want to deal with it again so I stopped. You like the attention I give you, but you don’t want to do anything about it. Idk which direction we’re going if it’s just friendship or more than that cause honestly I was down for Friendship. I at least want you to be a friend and help you as a friend. But then, idk. I just started to feel that maybe you’re fake to me all this time. You’re all about talking but no actions. You’re a talker and not a doer...

I was like.. if you can’t be a friend to me (at least) and if you’re someone who I won’t date.. then you are  just another temporary person in my life.. they say we meet people for a reason and some are for a season. lol

But really what I want to say is that.. I hope you get to fully move on from your ex.. It takes time. I know you are trying to explore options right now.. meeting other girls, etc.. But what I truly believe that you should work on first is yourself.. loving yourself more. I know how painful it is to be betrayed by someone you love.. and going through a divorce is not an easy process.. it’s painful.. Don’t rush in falling for someone again. Like what you said, you do not know what to do with relationships yet. Don’t make a girl fall for you, lead them on if you are not sure yet, and eventually feel that you’re not ready to enter another relationship. You’ll just end up hurting her (the movie I watched was about this. You should watch it lol) but you get it? Make friends instead. But it’s okay to get to know someone, just be aware what you’re making her feel.

You are by yourself right now in a place where most of your family and close friends are far.. but maybe this can help you better to move on and shape yourself to be the better version of you.. someone better than who you were when you were with her.. Show to that b**tch how stupid she is for letting you go, for hurting you... But don’t just work on yourself to prove her wrong, work on yourself because it’s an investment for yourself in the long term.. because you have to love yourself first before you love others. 

Trust me, I’m so good at telling other peole what to do, but I, myself still in the process of working on that... working on loving muself more and work on my insecurities on my own so I am more prepared to enter a relationship later.

I wish you’ll find that girl who can take all those fears away.. I know you’re scared to love gain.. I know how that feels.. but hey at least you’re going out there and see the world.. see options..but love yourself first.

there’s this scene from the movie that I watched that hit me hard that I also want you to keep in mind.. 

this was the scene. **translating the tagalog stuff**

“Nix: I’m just scared to love again because I’ll get hurt again..

Pia: why you gotta be scared? I’m not belittling your feelings but I feel like the people who are scared to love again did not truly love in the first place.. because if you loved, you shouldn’t be scared to feel the pain again, you must endure it all so you can feel what love is again.. it should be like that because love overpowers pain”

That line hit me hard! Cause like you, i’m scared to love again. But Genno has been telling me the same thing Pia said. It’s just hearing that way made more sense.. soo

This year, I told myself i’ll mingle with people.. enjoy wthe moment. if someone approach me and he is decent... I’ll give it a try... but also I’m focus on working on myself..

Meeting you made me believe that decent guys are still out there because I really lost hope on that every now and then.. you showed how not all the time it’s girls who get cheated on.. that guys can love deeply too.. It gives me hope that my future someone is just there also learning for himself.. Like what Genno told me, you have added contribution to my experience and now I can level up.

I take this as a lesson.. yes i am still this hopeless romantic girl.. but I am more hopeful now. I’d do whatever just to feel kilig again.. just to feel what love is again.. but first I will work on being more confidnet in talking to people and stop being picky.. (but soooo hard) haha

I will also work on myself.

I know you’re not a bad guy, you’re a good guy.. just ended up being  or looking $hiity with your actions because you dont’ know what to do.. you were weak just cause I confronted you (well apparently Californians do not like confrontations sooo..) Anyways, I wish you the best... if ever you get to read this,that’s cool! Glad you made it here... If you ever want to catch up, I’d be down...

But I don’t know when I’ll ever see you again.. 

Thanks for stopping by in my life :)