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kangtaebins · 3 years

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Weird Asks That Say A Lot

I said I was going to just answer all of these bc of boredom,, and so here I am

1. Coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans? Teacups are aesthetically pleasing idc what anyone says

2. Chocolate bars or lollipops? Lollipops

3. Bubblegum or cotton candy? Cotton candy supremacy

4. How did your elementary school teachers describe you? I was told that I was a leader a lot, and was told that I was very intelligent. Ah yes, I suffered from gifted kid burn out in high school-

5. Do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups? Look, plastic cups are the best. Specifically the ones with the lids and reusable straws

6. Pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear? It truly depends on the day bc some days I would say goth and other days I’d say grunge, but most days- pastel

7. Earbuds or headphones? Earbuds

8. Movies or TV shows? TV shows bc- idk actually I’m just not a movie person

9. Favorite smell in the summer? I have a weird obsession with the smell of cheap sunscreen and I have no clue why

10. Game you were best at in p.e.? I hated gym in high school and rarely participated despite the teacher being irritated with me (truly she gave up after a few months bc I really did not care at all) HOWEVER- I went to town in volleyball and still enjoy playing volleyball v much

11. What do you have for breakfast on an average day? I don’t eat breakfast often,,,

12. Name of your favorite playlist? Probably my Navy or Indigo playlist

13. Lanyard or key ring? Key ring

14. Favorite non-chocolate candy? Anything green apple!!!

15. Favorite book you read as a school assignment? I actually genuinely enjoyed Romeo And Juliet tbh

16. Most comfortable position to sit in? I always curl up in a ball on the couch, but in a chair I manspread ngl

17. Most frequently worn pair of shoes? Nike slides <//3

18. Ideal weather? Between 50-70 degrees, sunny but not warm, being able to wear a hoodie and not be hot or cold

19. Sleeping position? I usually either sleep on my left side or on my stomach (my back once in a while when it’s hurting bc I’m a hag)

20. Preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)? I write on my phone more than anything

21. Obsession from childhood? Hm- I was really obsessed with High School Musical as a kid. My friend and I would put it on and lip sync to the songs and pretend we were the characters

22. Role model? Is it- wrong to say myself? Bc I feel like that sounds arrogant but genuinely it’s bc I’m constantly trying to better myself mentally and learn and grow. Idk I just am proud of who I am and look to myself when I need to find motivation

23. Strange habits? Strange? Idk if it’s strange but I’m constantly twiddling with the hem of my sleeves bc I love the feeling of it

24. Favorite crystal? Citrine

25. First song you remember hearing? WH- bitch idk tf

26. Favorite activity to do in warm weather? Stay tf inside in the air conditioning

27. Favorite activity to do in cold weather? Stay tf inside in the heat

28. Five songs to describe you? To describe me?? Girl idk I'm all over the place. How about songs that resonate with me instead,,, Alive by Khalid, Paranoid by Lauv, Phobia by Dvwn, Fake Smile by Ariana Grande, and Breathin by Ariana Grande

29. Best way to bond with you? Truly I'm not very difficult to get along with, just don't be an asshole. Talk to me about psychology, current events, say Soobin is the cutest to exist idk it's not that hard

30. Places that you find sacred? I- hm. I'm not like a church person or anything so idk. Maybe just anything really old or places with very detailed and unique architecture

31. What outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names? I don't own many clothes,,, let alone nice clothes. I also don't really dress to impress I'd much rather be comfortable

32. Top five favorite vines? Oh god if I h a d to pick???? The lipstick in the Valentino bag, they were roommates, it's an avocado- thaaanks, jared 19, and uh,,, zach stooppp you're gonna get in trouble

33. Most used phrase in your phone? Tbh it's probably "girl what-" or "no bc"

34. Advertisements you have stuck in your head? That 877-CASH-NOW ONE JFC

35. Average time you fall asleep? Between 11pm-1am

36. What is the first meme you remember ever seeing? Probably the troll face one or smth

37. Suitcase or duffel bag? Suitcase

38. Lemonade or tea? I mix them together!

39. Lemon cake or lemon meringue pie? Lemon meringue pie bc I don't really like cake

40. Weirdest thing to ever happen at your school? Y'all I- went to a hs/college mixed school,, I've seen it all. Weirdest?? Idk but one weird thing I remember was when we were making whistles in art and some dude made a penis whistle 😭

41. Last person you texted? My best friend :))

42. Jacket pockets or pants pockets? Jacket pockets

43. Hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket? Hoodie 100%

44. Favorite scent for soap? I love soaps that smell like soap. Like ok duh I know that sounds dumb but yk what I mean? I don't want lemon or mint or whatever, I like the plain soap smell

45. Which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero? Fantasy

46. Most comfortable outfit to sleep in? Oversized t-shirt, no pants. I question anyone that is comfortable sleeping with pants on-

47. Favorite type of cheese? Feta!

48. If you were a fruit, what kind would you be? I feel like I'd be a pineapple and I have no clue why

49. What saying or quote do you live by? Not necessarily a quote but more of a thought: live for yourself, enjoy each day, do what gives you joy

50. What made you laugh the hardest you ever have? I have had so many instances in which I have laughed so hard I peed and to even attempt to name one is impossible

51. Current stresses? Making sure my family gets their vaccines and stays safe

52. Favorite font? I don't think I have one? Anything except comic sans

53. What is the current state of your hands? What does this even mean 💀 I mean,, they're holding my phone, cold, and my nails are unpolished

54. What did you learn from your first job? That people are assholes but I'm capable of not giving a fuck bc life is not that damn serious

55. Favorite fairy tale? Is The Three Little Pigs considered a fairy tale?

56. Favorite tradition? Putting up the Christmas tree with my mom :( it's always a lot of fun

57. The three biggest struggles you’ve overcome? Depression, grief, and hopefully one day- smth I'm currently dealing with

58. Four talents you’re proud of having? Makeup!! But also: singing, crying on command, and tying cherry stems with my tongue

59. If you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be? Sick of these bitches

60. If you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be? I don't watch anime so idk

61. Favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.? It's this line from Eleanor & Park: "Eleanor was right: She never looked nice. She looked like art, and art wasn't supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something."

62. Seven characters you relate to? Holy hell, 7?? Probably won't get that many but hm,,, Darlene from Roseanne, Hermione from Harry Potter, Emily from Pretty Little Liars maybe?? Idk I suddenly blanked

63. Five songs that would play in your club? As if it's Your Last by BP, anything from SHINee, anything from Ariana, also anything Rihanna, just a bunch of women tbh

64. Favorite website from your childhood? FUCKING WEBKINZ BRO

65. Any permanent scars? I have a few on my arms idk where they came from tbh, I also have one on my hand from my sister 🧍🏻‍♀

66. Favorite flower(s)? Sunflowers!!! I also really love lilacs 💔

67. Good luck charms? My dog's collar that I wear as a bracelet

68. Worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried? Licorice-

69. A fun fact that you don’t know how you learned? It takes repeating a piece of information 12 times at random to memorize it completely

70. Left or right handed? Right

71. Least favorite pattern? Fucking chevron- and realistic camo, and anything with the American flag

72. Worst subject? Yall im awful at history. American history, world history, all of it-

73. Favorite weird flavor combo? Either pickles and peanut butter or cheese and grapes

74. At what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen? I'm stubborn but also always in pain so I've become numb to a lot of body pains. I have to be at like a 7-8 before I take smth otherwise I'd always be taking it

75. When did you lose your first tooth? I was probably like 5 I was definitely in Kindergarten

76. What’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)? I fw baked potatoes

77. Best plant to grow on a windowsill? I have a love for succulents

78. Coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store? Oh my- I don't drink coffee but coffee from a gas station

79. Which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo? Driver's license for sure

80. Earth tones or jewel tones? Jewel tones

81. Fireflies or lightning bugs? I say both,, but I think I say lightning bugs more

82. PC or console? PC

83. Writing or drawing? Both

84. Podcasts or talk radio? Podcasts definitely

84. Barbie or polly pocket? Barbie

85. Fairy tales or mythology? Fairy tales

86. Cookies or cupcakes? C o o k i e s

87. Your greatest fear? Losing people I love

88. Your greatest wish? To live comfortably and be a great mother

89. Who would you put before everyone else? My family

90. Luckiest mistake? Guessing on 90% of a test and getting an A 💀

91. Boxes or bags? Bags are easier to carry-

92. Lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights? Fairy lights!!

93. Nicknames? Sam, Sammi, my sister calls me Sams, my best friend calls me Bub, and my gf calls me Baby if that counts- 👀

94. Favorite season? Fall omg it's gorgeous and has perfect temperatures

95. Favorite app on your phone? ✨tumblr✨

96. Desktop background? Its literally a pic of Soobin, Taehyun, and Beomgyu

97. How many phone numbers do you have memorized? Like 4-5

98. Favorite historical era? The one where white people learn their fucking place and stop being racist, homophobic, classist, sexist, all the -ists and -phobics,,,, so none. Fuck history :))

#idk what to put in the tags so if you actually read all of these then damn you're the real mvp

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gwoongi · 4 years

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(abandoned) all i want for christmas is woohoo

kim seokjin / kim namjoon genre: uni au, fluff, crack rating: general words: 4.9k warnings: clownery, i knew nothing about uni, character dynamics based off a fic none of u have read a/n: incomplete prequel to the yoonmin fanfic i wrote three thousand years ago. i will never finish this so here’s what i started and left behind for the dogs to have at

The stranger makes a noise of voiced agreement. “Mood.”

September 8th.

One thing they never tell you before going to Uni, is that it’s fucking mental on Move In Day.

Obviously, he had some idea that the student digs would be fairly busy with students moving in, but he never expected to be waiting in a thick line of tired and excited first years for around fifteen minutes, only to then wait another twenty just for the student- who, by the way, was way too busy picking at her purple nail varnish to give two damns about Namjoon’s clearly very important moving in schedule- to find his key on the board barely 50 centimetres away from where she was sitting.

So, yeah- when his sister comes to Uni after him, he’s definitely going to warn her about the madness that is Move In Day, because clearly nobody else had cared if Namjoon was stuck waiting like a doormat for one student who thinks she’s something to hand him a key. I mean, how hard can it be? He doesn’t get it.

“Sorry about the wait,” another male student, who noticed the lack of enthusiasm from second year student apparently named Jisoo, says as he moves from behind the desk to give Namjoon a silver key on a chain, with two other keys present. “Here are your keys- one’s for the front door of your flat, second is for the main building in-case you’re late after hours and the third is for your pigeon box.” He pauses: “no help from your parents?”

Namjoon shrugs politely, “Just me. My parents are back in Ilsang, couldn’t make it.”

“Bummer,” the student replies. Along with the keys, he shoves a brown paper bag into Namjoon’s hands with a toothy smile. “Your complimentary moving in gifts, from the students who moved out! Thanks for picking Blossom Island as your student accomodation!”

Although Namjoon wants to tell him that Blossom Island was the only cheap option out of three absurdly priced accomodations for first years, he doesn’t; instead, he smiles, lips closed and dimples on display, nodding his head and turning all within the same second. The student moves away after, so he doesn’t feel bad about ending the conversation so abruptly.

Blossom Island is located smack bang outside of campus, across a small stream that Namjoon thought would be filled with blossom, but instead is littered with algae and tinfoil. It’s large, tall like a regular apartment complex, with a courtyard out the front with a bouncy castle that Namjoon can already see some people jumping on with what he assumes is their new roommates.

Namjoon leaves the lobby- should he call it a lobby? It was more of a downstairs kitchen and living room, with two small sofas and a mounted flat-screen, a pool table pushed weirdly in the middle of the colourful boxed room and a door near the back wandering into the community study area, another door for what he guesses is for laundry. Hauling his suitcase and big, cardboard box in his arms across the courtyard, he follows the number on the key- number 8, floor 6, Kyoto Building and barely makes it five steps without almost dropping the box entirely, all thanks to some jerk wearing Thrasher and a beanie.

“That’s what you get for not tying your shoelaces.”

Mid-crouch, Namjoon looks over his shoulder and spots Min Yoongi stepping out of the building, followed by a rather proud looking set of parents, preening at the fact that their son is going into Nursing. Due to that, he bites back a curse word he figures would be impolite for the elders, and manages a smile in the sun.

“What? He clearly pushed into me,” Namjoon reasons, standing upright and saying a hasty hello to Yoongi’s parents, who, in all honesty, have never really liked him much. He laughs breathily, waiting for a few seconds before asking, “where are you?”

Yoongi checks his key. “Number 13, Floor 0, Juko Building. What kind of name is Juko, anyway?”

“Beats me,” Namjoon scoffs. “I think Juko’s close to Kyoto. I’ll come visit when you’re all settled and moved in, yeah?”

Yoongi nods, already beginning to walk away. “Yeah, I’ll get your mug out ready.”

That’s the thing with Yoongi, Namjoon thinks as he walks away; he’s always been about the little things in life. In the many, many years that Namjoon has known Yoongi, he’s never really changed- Yoongi has always been compassionate and cutely caring, buying two mugs instead of one and making pasta for two when he knew Namjoon was due to visit on days his parents were working late. And he feels bad, because Yoongi is a giving guy, not a receiving one.

He watches as Yoongi leaves with his parents, and he feels weirdly sad. It’s none of his business, too, as he watches the three Min’s enter the Juko Building, painted a pastel pink with mint compliments, swirling patterns dancing as the leaves on the trees move in the whisper of wind.

Namjoon now has the urge to paint.

In Number 8, Floor 6, Kyoto Building, Kim Seokjin finally sets down the last potted plant on the sparse looking shelf above his desk, and he steps back with his hands on his hips to admire the minimal effort. Although it definitely took some struggle, what with his Dad accidentally dropping his bag with his Nintendo inside and his Mother judging his absurd amount of pink bath-towels, Seokjin has a feeling in his stomach- the feeling where you know that everything is going perfectly.

There’s a smell in the air; blossom from the large tree outside his window, propped open on the hatch to allow a breeze air out the room. Since his roomie hasn’t arrived yet, the least he can do is get rid of the stuffy smell, something strangely similar to pool chlorine. He inhales it deeply, a smile tugging at his lips. Seoul weather amazes him- even though Gwacheon is a blink away, Seokjin is already starting to feel like a new person.

Maybe it’s just University excitement. Maybe it’s University nerves. But, maybe it’s also because he really needs a wee and can’t think properly.

He waits nicely for his parents to finish up straightening every single crease in his bedsheets before saying goodbye. Although he might tease to their faces that he won’t miss them, and they won’t miss him, Seokjin knows from the minute they open the door to head back out to the corridor that it’s going to take a while to adjust to life without the nagging, but endearing, guidance of his family.

Because Seokjin has always sort of been the baby boy of the Kim’s from Gwacheon- his older brother inherited a type of broodiness that Seokjin is thankful he hasn’t got yet, and so Seokjin’s always been the favourite. The favourite crawler, the favourite footballer, the favourite baker and painter- in honesty, Seokjung never wanted any of that. Seokjin’s proud of who he is- he’s so fucking proud of his family. So he sort of takes pride in being the baby boy of the Kim family. He wears it like armour, glistening armour that represents him in front of a whole army of potential threats and friends.

Jinyoung, an old friend, used to say it was embarrassing- as if Jinyoung doesn’t have a comfortable enough life with parents who would murder for him, but Seokjin doesn’t care. Why should he be ashamed of being loved? Most families aren’t as close as the Kim’s, so he takes extra care in making sure his family know that he loves them. That’s the sort of guy he is- giving, occasionally receiving, but giving, giving his whole heart and soul to everybody else in order to make others happy.

Seokjin pinches the bridge of his nose as the door closes with a sickening click, the noise muting around the faint buzz of traffic across campus and the baby birds in the nest a few floors down on a branch, fluttering in the wind like wings. He’s so lost in the way the small twigs are woven together, like the way a spider builds a web, or an ant a colony, that he doesn’t realise three minutes have passed.

Now he really needs a wee.

When Namjoon opens the door to room 8, he’s surprised.

Not shocked, but surprised. Because there’s a difference between shock and surprise- shock is entering a room and finding a serial killer, but surprise is walking into a room and finding a party. The difference is in the level of reaction, and Namjoon hadn’t walked in and been completely thrown off by a wall of cute posters and the obvious collection of DS games and a cool looking computer. If anything, he’s intrigued. Surprised. Pleasantly surprised, perhaps.

To the right, Namjoon hears the toilet flush and he knows that he has a couple seconds to look around the room and plonk his bags and box on the plain bed before his roommate emerges from the bathroom. As he sets them down, he casts a gaze towards the right side of the room where his roomie has claimed a bed, a desk and a small looking wardrobe near the door. On the wall next to his bed, a collection of posters have been washi taped to the boring blank canvas- although, as an artist, Namjoon considers anything blank and white to be inviting and anything but boring, because a canvas holds endless opportunities- and his bed covers are a washed out blue, a colour that now, actually, as he’s looking at it, is becoming more chiffon coloured.

It’s evident his roommate likes video games- half the posters on the wall are related to games he knows that they must like; Animal Crossing, a small Stardew Valley postcard and a commissioned drawing of Jinx from LoL, taped next to a large artwork of Mario Kart and more postcard art of games Namjoon thinks he’s heard of but isn’t sure- The Last of Us, Tekken, Zelda. He pretends not to notice the small Minecraft postcard in the corner of the mural but weirdly enough, he finds it endearing knowing that someone at University still plays Minecraft.

Most of all, Namjoon notices the strange obsession with The Sims, as seen through multiple artworks and the fantastic collection of Sims3 Expansion packs sitting on the shelf above his bed, next to pop figures and a photo frame of a group of friends.

He wonders if his roommate will let him use the expansion packs when he’s bored.

“Oh, hey.”

Clearly having not heard the bathroom door open, Namjoon spins on the spot to look back at the bathroom, where his roommate stands with his hand animatedly raised in a wave, a smile lifting his cheekbones. They look pale, almost watery, but Namjoon doesn’t say anything. He knows why.

“Hey. Namjoon,” he says, leaning forward to shake his hand. For a moment, his roommate stares at the hand, as if wondering what to do with it. “What?”

His roomie shakes his head, moving to shake his hand once, up and down, before letting it drop. “Nothing. It’s just, well, how many people give handshakes nowadays?”

Namjoon thinks it over in his head. “Well, a lot of people. Useful in business, and stuff. A manager might want to shake your hand at a job interview.”

As he says the words, Namjoon can tell by the passing look on his roommates face that he wasn’t expected to give an answer. He stops talking after that, looking back to his bed with a feeling similar to embarrassment, while his roommate moves towards the window and clears his throat awkwardly.

“Seokjin.” He finally introduces himself. Seokjin- it has a ring to it. Namjoon says it over in his head, growing familiar with it. Now that he’s mentioned it, Namjoon looks back over his shoulder and realises that he looks like a Seokjin. The name suits him. “What’re you studying here?”

“Art and Design,” Namjoon replies with a brief smile over his shoulder. Seokjin isn’t looking, anyway. “Nothing too crazy.” He looks at the wall of posters- “Are you studying graphics?”

“Yeah. I’m studying Digital Art,” Seokjin replies, and it’s clear in the way his whole body moves as he says it that he’s passionate about his subject. He laughs shortly, “Isn’t it funny how we’re both doing art and we got pushed together? Do you think that’s intentional?”

Namjoon shrugs, taking out his clothes first from one of his suitcases. “Maybe. I’m glad you’re Digital Art and not Performing Arts. One, this room is not big enough to dance and sing and two, I don’t want to be woken up by a classical alarm clock. You know?”

Seokjin laughs and it suffices as a reply.

As Namjoon sifts around his bag and pulls out the remainder of his clothes, Seokjin turns around and watches for a swift three seconds, and then moves back towards his desk and absent-mindedly moves around his keyboard, straightening it up.

“Do you need any help?” he asks, and as Namjoon turns to catch his eye, he notices he means it genuinely.

“Uh, I’m alright,” Namjoon replies, and even though Seokjin can clearly see the amount of work he has left to do to his half of the bedroom, he doesn’t pry and decidedly drops it. He shrugs.

“Alright then. I’m gonna head out,” Seokjin says. He gestures with his head to the hallway. “Out on campus, they’re doing that thing. What do they call it- Wildflower? I think I just wanna go meet some people. I can wait for you, and we can go together, if you want?”

Namjoon does want. He really wants to. But he takes several glances back at his boxes and frowns deeply. And anyways, he’ll have plenty of time to hang out with Seokjin later, won’t he?

“I’ll pass,” Namjoon rejects him softly, a smile on his lips as if to say, I do want to come but I’m way too busy. Seokjin’s lips twitch into a pursed mouth and he nods. “I’ve just got a lot to do. We could hang out later, if you want?”

“Sure,” Seokjin replies, already inching towards the door. “Yeah, alright. If you need help, just text me. I’ve got my number on the pinboard above my desk- just incase, you know?”

Namjoon glances over; surely enough, on a corkboard pinned to the wall above his desk and beneath the shelf, he can see the sleek black letters printed with “emergency number” written next to it in messy handwriting. He smiles, mostly because he’s never seen someone have their own phone number hung up in their room before, and nods without looking in Seokjin’s direction. “Okay, thanks, Seokjin-ssi.”

Seokjin makes a sound similar to a laugh, air through his nose, a small intake of high pitched breath afterwards. Out the corner of his eye, Namjoon can see him hovering his hand over the handle and to be polite, he finally looks over. Something tells him he was waiting for that.

“Seokjin should be fine,” Seokjin replies with a smile.

By the time Namjoon finishes sorting out his things (and by sorting out, he means that he’s hung up his clothes and kicked the cardboard box towards his desk out of the way), Seokjin’s still not back from Wildflower, and quite frankly, he’s bored.

As if by a magnetic pull, he finds himself leaving Kyoto building to trudge in the mid-move-in-manic, across the small courtyard where the bouncy-castle has deflated thanks to someone jumping on it wearing shoes, and towards Juko building, a big clump of pastel next to the white blossom tree that Namjoon is jealous of. Yoongi’s room, even back at his home in Daegu- where Namjoon had lived throughout his entire high-school life before his parents moved back to Ilsang during his final year-, was somewhere Namjoon had felt completely and utterly accepted. At home.

He always found it funny how Yoongi said the same thing for him- his bedroom back home was small, smaller than the dorm room he has now. It was an average room, with small bold letters spelling out his name on the front of his door, and his walls were painted a navy blue with dark wood floors that went through the entire house, with thrown around covers and three pillows to sleep with and furniture which didn’t match the colours. But Yoongi’s room was different. Yoongi’s room was Yoongi.

Slanted ceilings and an off-white coloured paint-job on the walls, with grey curtains and white sheets and an electric piano pushed up against the window-wall, overlooking a small line of houses out the front of the street Yoongi lived on, a tree that turned orange in October. On his walls, Yoongi liked to keep it minimal, minus the posters of his favourite artists and a little area above his desk for pictures of him and Namjoon, his first family pet, a ticket to his first family vacation when he was thirteen, dried flowers from a tiny bundle he was given on a Valentine’s Day. His first Valentine’s gift. A memory. A wall of memories, stuck with shimmery tape and dried blue-tac on the white, unremovable, stuck like glue. It was everything Namjoon wanted in a room. It was everything Namjoon needed in a place to feel completely and utterly safe.

Namjoon wasn’t surprised that Yoongi had stuck with the bland style of dorm room, compared to the bed next to him which his roommate- a kid studying Music with an incredible obsession with BoA and Michael Jackson- who, even though he was an amazing artist, Namjoon always felt weirded out by.

He stands by the doorframe as Yoongi shuffles to straighten his blanket at the end of his bed, simply looking at the decor, taking it all in with a deep breath. His roommate stared at Namjoon waiting in the doorway and pulled his lips to a frown, excusing himself, “...heading to Wildflower, bye,” being the only words he ever said to Namjoon.

“Namjoon, I hate it.”

“You’ve been here for two hours,” Namjoon frowns, sitting on his roommate’s bed. He won’t mind (only he does, and he notices the imprint of Namjoon’s arse left behind which he thought would disappear after five minutes.) “It’s not that bad, surely?”

Yoongi shakes his head adamantly. “I wanna go home, Joon. I don’t wanna do nursing.”

“You might really like it, though,” Namjoon sighs. “You never know!”

“I don’t want to study nursing,” Yoongi repeats himself through pouted lips that Namjoon can hear. “I wanted to do art, or music like my stupid roommate. I don’t know why I’m here, Namjoon, I really don’t know why I’m doing this to myself.”

Namjoon knows it’s hard for Yoongi. His family expect too much- like most parents, actually, Yoongi knows they want the best for him. But, the best isn’t forcing him into a nursing degree.

Toying with the frays on Yoongi’s roommate’s blanket, Namjoon says, “hey, hey, calm down. It’s fine- if you don’t like the first three classes, you can’t be expected to stay. You’ve got to do what you want to do.”

Yoongi bites his lip before replying. “I have nowhere to go if I drop out. I’ll do a year, maybe. Maybe half a year. Oh, I don’t fucking know. I don’t wanna give up and let down my family, you know?”

Namjoon does know. His parents had wanted him to be a lawyer. His sister, Kyungmin, wanted Namjoon to do something with his music. But, like the delinquent he is, Namjoon always knew he had a passion for art. Drawing made him happiest- letting his thoughts draw something on a blank canvas was the closest thing to real magic. Singing your feelings is one pleasure, but capturing the colours and movements onto paper was something Namjoon found absolutely rewarding. Thankfully, his parents knew there was no point in forcing him into doing something he wouldn’t enjoy. He was lucky.

“Yeah, I know.”

Yoongi knows Namjoon knows, and he also knows Namjoon doesn’t know what to say. He pulls at the bridge of his nose and lets out a low grunt. “Anyway. How’s your roomie? A weirdo?”

Namjoon shakes his head. “No, not really. I mean, he’s really into video games but it’s not overbearing. Kinda endearing. He’s fun. Seokjin.”

“Oh, cool,” Yoongi replies, nodding slowly. “You get all the good stuff, you know that?”

“What’s mine is yours,” Namjoon says with a frown.

At that, Yoongi smiles. “Yeah. I know, Joon.”

Wildflower lives up to the frantic Google search that Seokjin did moments before heading down to check it out. Even before arriving, he could smell the variety of foods on rickety stalls, and hear the experimental strum of a live band getting ready to play near the main building to the University campus.

Ducking his head underneath the waving arm of another female first-year, Seokjin took a stroll around the small section of Wildflower, politely looking at the bits and bobs he could purchase, like complimentary University flags and tapestries for walls, or a coffee where the change went to a local suicide-prevention charity. He bought one, a tea that was too milky for his taste, and continued walking.

He hadn’t bought much change with him. After the rather awkward first meeting with Namjoon, Seokjin had let it slip his mind. Regardless, he wasn’t willing to let the lack of coins and a credit card spoil his First Day mood. Inhaling the smell of a nearby Jjinmandu stand, he let his stomach steer him towards it, collecting the spare change in his pocket- luckily for him, he had around 4,000 in his jacket pocket which more than comfortably paid for a portion of Mandu.

“Here you go,” the server hands Seokjin his small paper dish of Jjinmandu with a smile, a smile that reminded Seokjin of his third-year teacher back when he was a child. Warm, inviting, kind, a mother’s smile. She smiled toothily when Seokjin handed her more than he was being charged, saying it was a tip, first day luck, or something. She bowed her head meekly.

Without wanting to hold up the slightly growing line, Seokjin moves out of the way and towards a small cluster of metal tables and chairs, shivering as the umbrellas moved in the wind, passing the sauces with a thoughtful pause. He has time to kill; he puts his dish on the small counter and puts a tiny blob of sauce in the corner, and he dips his finger in to taste it. He recoils visibly, finding the taste too bitter.

From somewhere behind him, Seokjin hears what sounds like laughter and he turns, surprised, and finds another student with a bright orange lanyard hung around his neck. He’s a total stranger, with hair pushed into a black beanie and a denim jacket covering a brown shirt, with some black jeans with the knees cut out. On his feet, worn out Converse. Seokjin does a double take.

“You know that’s spicy BBQ, right?”

Weirdly enough, Seokjin finds that he sounds exactly like what he thought he would. He stares at his glasses, first, and the way they slide down his nose, slightly oily because of the heat.

“Don’t you usually have teriyaki with Mandu?” he continues, wandering over to glance at the bottles of sauce, before pushing a slightly stained bottle towards Seokjin with a smile. “There. Honestly, scrape off the BBQ, this will taste so much better.”

Seokjin feels dumb. “I only usually have the tomato chilli. “

“Yeah, and BBQ?”

“No,” he replies, and then he laughs quietly, “no, never BBQ. Let’s call that...first day experimenting.”

The stranger nods along, shoving a mouthful of his own Mandu. Seokjin wants to point out that he has sauce on the corner of his mouth, but it feels rude. He barely knows him.

Glancing at the lanyard around his neck, Seokjin finishes his mouthful- “Are you staff?”

“What?” the stranger asks, caught off guard. Then, he looks down at the lanyard and smiles, politely, not in mockery, and shakes his head, disturbing feathery hairs that were once tucked up into the beanie. “Oh, no. No, I’m a first year.” He chortles at Seokjin’s stunned expression. “What, do I look really old?”

“No,” Seokjin replies. “I was just...surprised. I don’t know- today’s been weird for me. I’m all over the place.”

The stranger makes a noise of voiced agreement. “Mood.”

They stand in silence for a couple moments after that, eating, staring off at the little stream that ran around the perimeter of the small square, listening to the sound of the live band kicking off their setlist with a slow song appropriate for the weather.

The stranger swallows his Mandu, pointing at Seokjin with his spork without really realising, “oh, I’m Hoseok by the way.”

Hoseok. A name to the face.

“Seokjin,” he replies. Now he’s finished his Jjinmandu. “Digital Art.”

Hoseok makes a noise. “Woah, no way.” Gesturing to himself, “Art and Music.”

Seokjin wants to laugh. “That’s so weird. My roomie also does art. It’s like I’ve been thrown into a pool full of art students.”

“Yeah. Well, we are in the Arts Square. Wouldn’t it be weird if I was doing Chinese studies and I hung around in the Arts Square on my first day?”

“True,” Seokjin nods.

Talking to Hoseok is easy. It’s so fucking easy- it’s as if Hoseok has been a friend for years. They walk together, along the small path that barely fits them both, weaving around the stream. Seokjin learns that Hoseok is from Gwangju, and has a sister who designs clothing in the city. Hoseok, in return, learns that Seokjin barely escaped being a lawyer and comes from a family inheriting endless zeros. It doesn’t bother him. It usually bothers people.

“It’s cool that you got to do what you wanted to,” Hoseok says as they walk further along campus. Now, they’ve reach the on-campus convenience store, the artificial lighting making Hoseok squint, even though daylight still pushed on. “Most kids don’t when they’re in your kind of position.”

Hoseok quickly looks over, “I don’t mean that in a bad way, I only-”

“No,” Seokjin agrees, nodding and thrusting his hands into his pockets. He dips his head upwards, inhaling the smell of the sunshine, before looking at Hoseok with a friendly smile. “No, you’re right. Most kids don’t. I’m lucky.”

Hoseok’s grateful Seokjin didn’t misunderstand. “Hm, maybe we’ll be in each-other’s classes.”

He says it with a hopeful tone, lightly nudging Seokjin’s shoulder with a small smile, that caused dimples to spread across his lower cheeks.

“I hope so,” Seokjin replies, but the sound of the stream covers it. Hoseok keeps walking, not making it known if he heard. He probably hadn’t.

Namjoon rolls over the next morning, not quite remembering how he got home and when, and squints at the Sepia screen of his phone. It reads 6:45am, too fucking early to be awake on a Saturday.

did you get home ok yoongi

dont think i care about you or anything yoongi

Namjoon snorts quietly, wincing when he thinks he’s woken up Seokjin across the room. But, when he looks over towards Seokjin’s side of the dorm, he notices that he’s not even in bed. His sheets are tucked in tightly, and his jacket is absent on the coat hangers on the back of the door.

Holy shit, Seokjin gets up early.

yeah. hows minjoon, the name robber joonie

seriously fuck off he’s playing fred videos yoongi

it’s fucking 7am yoongi

Namjoon scoffs, mostly to himself- because who else is he going to scoff too?-, and rolls over flatly to press his feet onto the flattened out carpet of his room. The sun barely peeks through the shitty curtains, and he yawns loudly, feeling the euphoria of a morning stretch. Namjoon sighs with pleasure at the feeling of his body stretching out, letting his arms drop and grabbing his phone to reply to Yoongi, who Namjoon’s surprised is awake, even when Fred is involved.

i thought fred had died, fr joonie

bitch me too but here we have his channel, still screeching away about rubber sharks in his tiny swimming pool yoongi

im really not joking joon. i wanna quit so bad i’ve been here less than 24 hours and i’m already fantasising about drinking the bathroom bleach yoongi

He’s about to reply when the door to their dormitory room swings open, and the hostility of the swing almost makes him drop his phone on the floor. Namjoon scrambles to catch it, staring up with surprise at the sight of Seokjin carrying two mugs of what appears to be tea. Namjoon smells the cranberry as Seokjin comes closer with a sheepish, yet almost smug, smile. Bare in mind, Namjoon hates cranberry tea; at the smell he smiles and fakes joy.

“Saw your post-it saying you had to set an alarm for seven,” Seokjin said casually. “Figured you’d be up by the time I came back with this...hope you like cranberry.”

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5, 7, 11, 13, and 16 for Shoot ? ❤

Yes, ma'am. 💓

Shoot

Bathing/Showering - Shoot would definitely be someone who would have to shower every night before going to sleep. Not only does it help him relax and unwind before bed, but he enjoys the refreshing feeling of a nice hot shower to soothe his day away. He prefers a shower over a bath a majority of the time. Most of the hotel rooms and other places he has to stay in on missions will most likely have a tub with a shower head, but he'll never have the time for a bath. Showers are much quicker and effective. Though he does indulge in a lovely bath when he decides on it. (Could you imagine this man taking a nice, warm bubble bath? I want that. I want that so much.)

Kissing - He is a nice kisser, and he absolutely loves kissing. Shoot is shy and sweet, always polite. With his first experiences with kissing his partner, he's so anxious, worried to death that he'll mess it up somehow. He wants to be brave and initiate, but he can never bring himself to in the beginning. But after some encouragement from them, he slowly falls into kissing naturally. All it takes is some practice. You're never good at something when you first try it out. His favorite kisses are forehead kisses, cheek kisses, hand and palm kisses, neck kisses... Any kind you can think of, he would like. And of course, kisses to his partner's lips. Shoot could be the type of man to just get lost in this activity. It leaves him wanting more. Leaves him feeling so full and warm.

Wardrobe - Oh, his wardrobe! Shoot is always seen wrapped up in bandages and covered up in his robe, but he most likely has a few other clothing items in his luggage. Of course he would have some lounge pants for around the house (or hotel room rather.) Only a few pairs of blue jeans, and only a handful of tops, button ups to casual t-shirts. He might prefer shirts with shorter sleeves so he wouldn't have to worry about tying a knot in his left sleeve. If he has to, he has to, but he honestly feels bad he can't occupy it. He can still get self-conscious about his missing arm. Not too picky on colors, but his favorites are dark blue, gray, and black fabrics. Doesn't mind bright colors to change it up. He really adores the color yellow! Though doesn't wear it at all much. And isn't into crazy and loud prints, usually sticking to plain and simple. He doesn't have a lot of clothes due to traveling so much. And every once in a while he will have a light coat or jacket when it's cooler. Even has a pair of tennis shoes for running errands and being cozy when not busy with work.

Nickname - "Teme..." is what comes to mind. A very disrespectful "You" or an "Idiot" from Knuckle. LOL No, Knuckle just prefers to call him by his name. Simple. I could see Morel calling him "Kid" or "Son" but in the sense of he's his teacher, and basically a father figure. Anyone else would just simply say "Shoot" or his name with the simple "san" honorific following it. As for his partner... Hm. Could you imagine calling him "Shuuto-kun"? I honestly find that super cute, I'm not gonna lie. "Shuu-kun"? Oh my gosh. (I've actually thought of this when I first got into the series. 😌 Embarrassing.) Simply, his partner likes to call him a simple "Sweetheart" or "Handsome" for when they want to call him something cute, maybe even a "Baby", but honestly just calling him by his name is lovely.

Anger - Shoot doesn't really get angry, nor has a temper like Knuckle's. I honestly see him more calm and collective even when something makes him mad. He does his best to keep a leveled head. If he gets pushed too far though, like if someone was being very rude in public or something just eats at him annoyingly, he will raise his voice just enough and his emotions get the best of him. Especially if he vents to a loved one. Extremely regrets it later if he causes a scene however, which is why he tries to hold himself back and grits his teeth. He doesn't like being angry at all. Too much energy. He's already anxious enough. Shoot definitely is the type of person to never be violent or loud, no matter what. He barely rose his voice when arguing with Knuckle during the Chimera Ant Arc. Shoot is a very quiet, patient man. It takes a lot to make this man genuinely angry. Most of the time, he just grows tired and irked.

#❤#askbox #m3v3 #hunter x hunter #shoot mcmahon #I honestly feel bad for tagging my headcanons and my writing but...what else should I tag them as?#but I really do love writing all of these #always so much fun to be creative with #joy

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bccity · 5 years

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FEBRUARY 2020 BC ENTERTAINMENT SCHEDULES & REVIEW

Members may earn 3 points each (up to 6 points) for writing, by the end of March 7 KST:

A solo para of 400+ words based on their monthly schedule (does not count toward your monthly limit).

A thread of six posts (three per participant, including the starter) based on the monthly schedule.

Threads and solos do not have to take place directly during an important date listed on the schedule, but must be related to what the muse is mentioned to be doing in the paragraph explaining their schedule/the company’s schedule for the month and/or their thoughts on the mentioned activities or lack thereof.

These schedules may be updated throughout the month if new information needs to be added.

Reminder: January schedule posts are due by the end of February 7 KST.

Overall Company

While everything remains as usual on the professional side of the company, on the much more personal side, CEO Kim Byungchul and his fiance of four years, Ma Seri, are finally tying the knot at the very end of the month with a lavish wedding and reception, almost a year after the birth of their first child. All BC artists are required to attend the wedding as they will performers for the wedding reception. The dress code is black tie and plus ones will not be afforded to the artists. All BC artists will also perform acoustic versions of one of their songs during the reception: Decipher will perform “Man In Love (0:00-2:47)”, BEE will perform “Hug Me Once”, Knight will perform “My Lady/My Turn To Cry/Moonlight/Call Me Baby (0:00-5:40)”, Lipstick will perform “Like A Cat (all members)”, CHARM will perform “Pretty U”, WISH will perform “What Is Love?”, and BC Soloist 1 will perform “Cosmic Dust”. All BC artists will come together to perform a version of Ma Seri’s former group R.A.D’s song “Eternal Love”.

Important dates:

February 10: Kim Byungchul and Ma Seri’s wedding and reception at Le Méridien Seoul in Seoul, South Korea.

BC Soloist 1

After her debut, her first round of comeback promotions shouldn’t be anything new. She’ll be promoting on music shows and fan signs, as well as filming a choreography video for Dingo. Her new song is even more well-received than her debut, proving she has more to offer than the buzz around her for being an ex-Gold Star trainee turned BC soloist. Her efforts and BC’s resources put into the comeback pay off well, so finishing promotions without a music show win yet isn’t a problem. To help model the line of NBA clothing in next month’s issue of Dazed, she’ll team up for a photo shoot with Unity.

Important dates:

February 1: Dingo Dance Choreography video filming.

February 3: Fan sign in Gangnam, Seoul.

February 7: Fan sign in Mapo, Seoul.

February 13: Dazed Magazine March Issue photo shoot with Unity.

February 17: Fan sign in Goyang.

February 24: Fan sign in Busan.

February 29: End of music show promotions.

Decipher

Their Japanese comeback has been recorded and there’s no choreography for the title track, so the time they would have spent learning that is instead spent rehearsing a song for an appearance on Two Yoo Project: Sugar Man. While they’ll lose the competition to their juniors, their performance is still well-received and they’re still considered reliable vocalists and performers as they near their twelfth anniversary. A special fan sign based on new Decipher merchandise released by BC has been organized, cliche pink and red decorations and expected fanservice for the special day included. Then, at the end of the month, they’ll shoot the music video for their Japanese comeback

Important dates:

February 7: Two Yoo Project: Sugar Man filming (also appearing: Knight, to be aired: February 21).

February 14: Valentine’s Day fan sign in Mapo, Seoul.

February 21: “LUV” MV filming.

↳ Decipher R & V

No schedules for the month.

Important dates:

N/A.

↳ CHAMPION

With the album all recorded, that means it’s time to learn the choreography for “Jopping” and “I Can’t Stand The Rain”, the main performance tracks, but the applicable members will need to learn choreography for “Super Car”, “2 Fast”, and “No Manners” as well. Dance rehearsals will be done at BC Entertainment’s building as the dance studios there are larger, and near the end of the month, BC will leak pictures and video of all of the CHAMPION members arriving at the building to spark discussion before the sub-unit is officially announced in a few months. For three days, all six members of CHAMPION will be sent on a bonding retreat in Jeonju to strengthen their bond as unit members. This is a genuine effort on the companies’ parts to create better group chemistry, so the will not be filmed during the retreat, although a manager from each group will accompany them on the trip.

Important dates:

February 22-24: Bonding retreat in Jeonju, South Korea.

BEE

Their contract as Mise En Scene ambassadors is coming to an end soon and it appears as though the brand won’t be offering a contract renewal as they seek out a younger group, so the BEE members will do some final fan signs for the brand and record a song for and film another CF. Besides that, they’ll continue practicing for their comeback this month and will attend fittings as well as the music video filming.

Important dates:

February 2: Mise En Scene fan sign in Yeongdeungpo, Seoul.

February 9: MV and stage outfit fittings.

February 16: Mise En Scene CF filming.

February 17: “I Like That” MV filming.

February 23: Mise En Scene fan sign in Gangnam, Seoul.

↳ 2BEE

Though they were already told about plans for the sub-unit last month, BEE’s leader/main vocal/rapper and main rapper/main dancer/sub vocal are called into a meeting with management at the beginning of the month where news of their sub-unit is officially announced to them. In a year filled with sub-unit attempts by the company, BC honestly wants a way to bring more of BEE’s digital power to their name without overexposing the full group with too many comebacks. The unit will debut with only a single, “Ma Boy”, which they’ll record and learn the choreography for this month.

Important dates:

N/A

Knight

Knight ends music show promotions without any wins and both a chart performance and physical sales that pale in comparison to their usual, something management is clearly not too happy about, but they’ll have a chance to make up for it with tour profits beginning again next month. At the end of the month, Knight will be required to refresh themselves on the set list for their tour in rehearsal, but until then, they have a photo shoot and interview for Singles Magazine and will be making an appearance on Two Yoo Project: Sugar Man (admin note: Wooseok’s lines will be split between the leader and the maknae, and the main dancer/vocal gets Shinwon lines), competing against Decipher. They’ll win their episode.

Important dates:

February 7: Two Yoo Project: Sugar Man filming (also appearing: Decipher, to be aired: February 21).

February 8: End of music show promotions.

February 9: Singles Magazine March issue photo shoot.

February 28: Release of Enough English Ver. Live Performance Video.

↳ White Knight

No schedules for the month.

Important dates:

N/A

↳ CHAMPION

With the album all recorded, that means it’s time to learn the choreography for “Jopping” and “I Can’t Stand The Rain”, the main performance tracks but the applicable members will need to learn choreography for “Super Car”, “2 Fast”, and “No Manners” as well. Dance rehearsals will be done at BC Entertainment’s building as the dance studios there are larger, and near the end of the month, BC will leak pictures and video of all of the CHAMPION members arriving at the building to spark discussion before the sub-unit is officially announced in a few months. For three days, all six members of CHAMPION will be sent on a bonding retreat in Jeonju to strengthen their bond as unit members. This is a genuine effort on the companies’ parts to create better group chemistry, so the will not be filmed during the retreat, although a manager from each group will accompany them on the trip.

Important dates:

February 22-24: Bonding retreat in Jeonju, South Korea.

Lipstick

Ahead of the release of their Japanese album next month and concerts in Japan following that, the Lipstick members will be in the dance practice studio to learn choreography for select b-sides off of the album, “Dress To Kill”, “Ms.Independent”, “Triangle”, and “In The Moonlight”. Members with a lower level of Japanese proficiency will also need to begin taking occasional lessons with a tutor to brush up their skills for potential interviews, show appearances, and fan interactions since it’s been a while since Lipstick promoted in Japan.

Important dates:

February 12: Release of “Shh” Japanese single.

↳ Lip Gloss

No schedules for the month.

Important dates:

N/A

CHARM

After coming back on the third, the month is filled with music show promotions and fan signs. They’ll also shoot some videos for Dingo and hold a mini-fanmeeting near the end of the month. The fan meeting will involve performances as well as talk sections. As far as their comeback, the physical sales are wildly impressive, eventually surpassing the sales of nearly every group in the industry other than Origin and Knight, but their last two singles have shown a noticeable decrease in digital performance, signaling to the members and the company that their maturing concept may not click with the public as much as it does their dedicated fans.

Important dates:

February 3: Release of “Fear” & An Ode showcase, promotions continue until March 3.

February 8: Fan sign in Gangnam, Seoul.

February 9: Fan sign in Yeouido, Seoul.

February 11: Dingo Move Rec video and Out Of Nowhere Interview video filming.

February 12: Fan sign in Sangam, Seoul.

February 14: Fan sign in Sangam, Seoul.

February 23: Ode To Youth mini fanmeeting at Mokdong Roun Hall in Yangcheon, Seoul.

↳ CHARM U

The members of CHARM U will continue to rehearse the song a few times this month, but the full group’s comeback takes priority over any schedules for them during February.

Important dates:

N/A

WISH

As major awards season comes to an end, WISH is pushed into comeback preparations. Other than an appearance at The Fact Music Awards on the last day of the month, they won’t have any public appearances in February while they work on preparing all of their music for the first half of the year. This means learning the choreography for their new Korean title track (admin note: this would be a version of the choreography that includes the lead vocal/lead dancer) and going back into the recording studio once again to record the new songs on their next Japanese album. They’ve also been chosen as faces of MLB Korea this year and will begin their duties this month with a CF.

Important dates:

February 9: MLB Korea S/S 2020 CF filming.

February 29: Performance at The Fact Music Awards at Gocheok Sky Dome in Seoul, South Korea (also attending: Alien, 7ROPHY, Origin, Fuse).

#fmdschedule #queued post

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takeoffphilippines · 4 years

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Must Watch Thai Series for #StayHome Weekdays

In today’s current situation of the Covid-19 Pandemic, we are bound to stay at home and just binge-watch everything you see interesting in your Netflix account. I know you’re somehow got bored already in your list of Kdramas like Kingdom, Crash Landing on You, and Also the Spanish Series Money Heist that you’re fascinated into.

Lately, people started to notice various Thai Series especially those with an LGBTQ genre. BL or Boy Love Series are very well-known and well-represented in Thailand wherein they cater to different drama series where both men or women had a romantic relationship. One of which who trended and got viral is the couple Sarawat (Bright Vachirawit Chivaaree) and Tine (Win Metawin Opas-iamkajorn) from 2gether The Series by GMMTV.

Just to give you a synopsis of the story: Tine is a very handsome student and cheerleader in college, while Sarawat is one of the campus’ most popular guys and is also in the soccer and music club. When Tine is chased by Green, who he does not reciprocate feelings for — he ends up begging Sarawat to fake date with him in order to chase Green away.

I’m pretty much sure that people nowadays really are now open-minded in watching this kind of drama that got hooked with this kind of genre. Besides this hype BL series, you can backtrack a couple of Thai Series which will surely mark your hearts.

1.) TharnType The Series

Type is a dark, tall, and handsome freshman. Although he’s a warm boy, he is homophobic because he was molested by a man as a child. His life turns upside down when the new year of college brings along a very interesting person in his life —, a gay roommate, Tharn. Tharn is a very handsome music major with fair skin and mixed features. He is also openly gay. With a gay guy and a guy who hates gay men that have to share a small space together for the rest of the year.

Cast: Mew Suppasit, Gulf Kanawut, Mild Suttinut, Koklian Parinya, Kaownah Kittipat, Boat Napat

Watch Here

2.) Love By Chance The Series

Pete is a handsome and rich university student that is incredibly timid. His shyness is caused by the fact that he tries to hide that he is secretly gay. By chance, Pete gets hit by a kind-heart boy on a bike. The boy, named Ae apologizes and helps him up. Whenever Pete trusts someone they use him for his wealth. While he was getting abused for money, Ae saves him. Over time, Ae protects Pete from the world; he takes care of him. But somewhere between the intense closeness and soft touches, Ae begins to feel more than how a friend would. Yet, Pete doesn't want Ae to know the pain of being ridiculed for dating a man. Thus he ignores his feelings for Ae. But Pete falls deeper and deeper in love with the kind-heart boy on the bike who once hit him, by chance.

Cast: Saint Suppapong, Perth Tanapon, Mean Phiravich, Plan Rathavit, Mark Siwat, Gun Napat

Watch Here

3.) Until We Meet Again The Series

Korn and In's love was bound to be doomed. Midst the chaos, while Intouch kept on fighting for their future, Korn could not deal with all the suffering his lover was facing and decided to give up. Years later, a freshly returned to Thailand, Pharm (19) who is a freshman in T-University has grown up always feeling like he is waiting for someone. Being riddled with sad dreams that always left him waking up with a wet face, fear of loud noises, and a birthmark on his temple, the boy has always felt like there is someone he is missing. Dean (21), the third year swimming club's president at T- University has also spent his life searching for someone whose faces he can not remember. The red thread of fate that had tied them together in their past life once again pulls the two boys back to each other, tying them to each other and a past that might not be worth remembering, but a love that is unforgettable. Because the red thread that binds the two hearts together will always lead one back to the other. Even though it might tangle or stretch, but it will never break.

Cast: Fluke Natouch Siripongthon, Ohm Thitiwat Ritprasert, Katsamonnat Namwirote

Watch Here

4.) 2 Moons / 2 Moons 2 The Series

Wayo is accepted at the Kantaphat University, in the Faculty of Sciences; in the same institution, he studies, Phana, a second-year boy he has always been in love with, though he never managed to talk to him. When Wayo has the chance to become the “moon” of his faculty, the two will begin to spend time together because Phana himself has been the “moon” of the medical school the previous year and must supervise the freshmen participating in the competition. Despite initially the strong character of Phana makes it difficult for Wayo any more simple interaction, the two slowly get closer and closer. So, Wayo began to visit friends of Phana, Beam and Kit; it is the latter who suddenly falls in love with Ming, Wayo’s best friend, who begins to court him despite his initial haste.

Cast: Fluke Natouch Siripongthon, Ohm Thitiwat Ritprasert, Katsamonnat Namwirote

Watch Here: 2 Moons | 2 Moons 2

5.) Why R U? The Series

Tutor is said to be ‘wise’ beyond his age and acts rationally, while Fighter is the emotional kind. They started having some animosity with each other but developed a close relationship right after.

Saifah is a popular musician and is often engaged in acts of mischief while Zon is shy yet stubborn. He is also a sci-fi writer. Due to a bet made with his sister Zol, he starts writing sci-fi stories. But after being scolded by his parents for not studying properly, his writing is cut short. Later, when his friends tell him to steal ideas from his sister, he sees that his name is being used in her fiction along with his enemy, Saifah.

Cast: Saint Suppapong Udomkaewkanjana, Zee Pruk Panich, Tommy Sittichok Pueakpoolpol, Jimmy Karn Kritsanaphan

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6.) Sotus / Sotus S The Series

There's a university system called SOTUS (an acronym which stands for Seniority, Order, Tradition, Unity and Spirit - a tradition in which upper classmen sometimes exploit and even abuse freshmen and others seeking acceptance). Junior level students are required to mentor those freshmen and be respected in return. Enter a rather assertive and vocal freshy at the Engineering faculty named Kongpob who gets to be under the mentorship of Artit, a strict Junior who happens to be the boss of his year.

Cast: Singto Prachaya Ruangroj, Krist Perawat Sangpotirat

Watch Here: Sotus (Also available in Netflix) | Sotus S

7.) Love Sick The Series

Phun has a girlfriend but his father wants him to date his friend's daughter. Phun's little sister, Pang, is obsessed with boys' love. Phun's father doesn't listen to Phun well but adores his little sister Pang. So Phun needs to convince Pang that he has a boyfriend so that she can help talk their father out of the idea of dating his friend's daughter. Noh is in need of a higher school budget for his school club or he will be in huge trouble. Phun knowing he is able to help Noh out with his problem decides to ask Noh to become his fake boyfriend in exchange for helping Noh raising fund for his Music Club. However, the two 17-years-old high school boys eventually fall in love after the deal brought them closer together.

Cast: White Nawat, Captain Chonlatorn, Ngern Anupart, Prim Primrose, August Vachiravit

Watch Here (Also available in Netflix)

8.) Make it Right The Series

Based on the popular BL novel entitled "Make It Right," this drama follows the adventures and love lives of high school students. Fuse is a gentle and sensitive boy who is heartbroken because of his girlfriend who cheated on him, so he tries to get over her by getting drunk with his friends at a party. There he meets his friend Tee and ends up sleeping with him that night. How is he going to cope with his new feelings for another boy and just how many boys who struggle with the same feelings are there at his school?

Watch Here: Season 1 | Season 2

9.) Dark Blue Kiss The Series

The continuation of Kao, Pete, Sun, and Mork's story. Kao and Pete being in a blissful romance, have grown closer. But with Kao being closeted from his mother, he fears the dreaded thought of her finding out. His mother then introduces Non, a son of a colleague, as he requires tutoring from Kao. With Non constantly giving off 'iffy' vibes towards Kao, it only fuels Pete's jealousy. Their relationship is put in strain, but through this, they must ultimately overcome each other's flaws. They both blossom in their youthfulness coated by their everlasting fondness for one another. Surrounded by the wonder of dark blue, Pete and Kao surrender to their feelings.

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13.) Together With Me The Series

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demaury · 5 years

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A battle you don't know about (ao3)

Lucas gets annoyed one time too many by the hottest customer he never had

And there he is again, Lucas thought, somewhat bitterly, somewhat haughtily, as he pulled himself away from the countertop when the bell chimed.

He couldn’t quite prevent himself from looking up at the huge clock above the door, even though he already needed to have a third and fourth hand if he wanted to get every order out before people started screaming at him and his manager came back pestering him.

It was rush hour in the small coffee shop, and the two lines snaking their way through the coffee shop, in front of him and his fellow barista Imane, were leaving them absolutely no rest whatsoever. It used to be quiet, Lucas often thought, generally when the orders started piling up. A quiet job and a quiet workplace, with quiet afternoons where Lucas could get a couple of customers but also get some work done for uni on the side. It had crashed when their manager, Alex, the chillest dude he had ever met, had resigned and had been replaced by a blonde chatterbox called Daphné, who took it upon herself to make it the new place to be. Ever since, they basically transformed themselves in octopuses with barely enough time to catch their breath twice all through their always understaffed shifts.

It was hell. Really. It was stressful and hot and Lucas was now used to burn himself on such a regular basis than he couldn’t even begin to count. People were being people, which meant they were rude and sometimes impossible to satisfy, with stupid questions and long-ass orders that just made Lucas want to roll his eyes. Problem was, he’d stopped waiting for his father’s monthly allowance to live — so he had to make some cash, one way or another, and he wasn’t really fond of selling his body to buy food. So here he was. You would think that meeting cute customers was a nice opportunity, but the hot ones rarely got interested enough to give a number, and when they happened to do so, Lucas generally found himself not interested enough to pursue it.

So there was no point in being even remotely fazed by the fact that Eliott-the-hot-customer purposefully chose Imane’s queue. Particularly when it happened every. Single. Day. At first Lucas had been really, really dumbfounded. He could still remember the first time he had strolled in, one quiet afternoon — before Daphné came in the picture —, at some point last fall. He had this brown jacket on that looked so comfy, with dark, ripped skinny jeans and an adorable smile on a too-perfect face. Every single thing about him was perfect, Lucas had decided as soon as he had witnessed Eliott’s wide smile and soft laughter, his eyes crinkling as he talked quietly to Imane — so soft, so gentle, that he had surprised himself thinking he might, somehow, be her boyfriend.

Boy had he been wrong.

(And not just for the boyfriend thing.)

Eliott (he had found out about his name while casually spying on Imane when she wrote it on the Styrofoam cup) wasn’t nice. Eliott was a fucking jerk. He never took off his earphones, to begin with, which was on the short-list of the things people like Lucas hated the most. At all time of the day, there was always that annoying, loud music blasting from them and he couldn’t believe Imane didn’t find it rude herself.

“It’s okay, he’s always been super nice to me. I know him through my brother, so,” she had shrugged before turning her back to him.

That was how Lucas had been left with no other choice but to feel, on a daily basis, the weight of being hated by a stranger, for absolutely no reason whatsoever. It wasn’t even like he had ever gotten the chance to mess up his order, considering that Eliott was always obstinately going for Imane. He could still vividly remember that time where Imane had already her hands full with four customers, and that Eliott had strutted in. Lucas was still tying his apron since his shift was only starting, when he made him sign to come over to order.

“It’s fine,” Eliott had shrugged, without moving an eyelid. “I’ll wait.”

And with that he had at least doubled the volume of his music, so much that the two girls waiting before him turned their frowning faces back to him. It was stupid, really, but how was he supposed not to take this personally, as yet another rejection of some sort? His cheeks had heated up like he had been slapped, and ever since Lucas had stopped trying to look polite. He had stopped smiling whenever the bell would chime for him and he had stopped pretending like he cared that Eliott chose Imane instead of him. If he wanted to wait fifteen minutes for his drink, it was his problem.

He was fine with it.

Or at least he liked to think he was, which turned out to be a bit far from the truth. It was a Tuesday morning, and Imane had called in sick just thirty minutes before Lucas was set to open — which he found out when Daphné called him.

“Are you fucking kidding me? How do you expect me to manage all those customers on my own?!”

“Don’t be dramatic, Lucas,” Daphné replied far too cheerfully at this hour, “I booked Chloé to replace her, but she’s going to be a little late. Alexia will take over this afternoon as usual.”

“Great, now how am I supposed to handle the 8.15 rush hour on my own?”, he protested adamantly.

“Well, I sure hope with a smile on your face,” she chirped before hanging up, leaving Lucas dumbfounded and profoundly annoyed to stare at his phone.

He wanted to scream. He really did, but the worst part was that he didn’t even have the time for that. Chloé wasn’t a bad person per se, she was actually cordial and efficient and she was handling the espresso bar better than Lucas could ever dream of. On a strictly professional level, she was just as good of a coworker as Imane was.

On a personal level? That was a nightmare. She hadn’t given him more than two words in six months, ever since he had been forced to tell her blatantly after a month of hitting on him that no he wasn’t interested, no it wasn’t because he had anyone else, no she’d never be a girl for him considering he didn’t want a girl in the first place. Back then he was going through his finals and was stressed out because with his third roommate moving out, his friend Yann and him had struggled to pay rent for a little while, so having a twenty-year-old girl with a headache-inducing enthusiasm constantly hit on him when he was as interested in dating her as an ice-cube was to find itself in the middle of the fucking Sahara, there was a tiny, tiny possibility that he might have voiced his opinion on the matter a little bit too harshly.

To his credit he had apologized after that, and although Chloé had mumbled that she forgave him at the time, they had never really talked ever since and so far, successfully managed to avoid finding themselves working side by side. Of course it had to fuck up.

It was a little bit after half-past eight that Chloé made it behind the countertop to help him with the remains of the 8.15 rush, but Lucas already felt like he had been rolled over by a truck and sweated so much that his shirt would never smell anything else but coffee and sweat.

“Thanks for coming,” he groaned more than he said as the last customer walked out.

Chloé shrugged and went to grab the apron she hadn’t had the time to put on yet. Lucas wasn’t proud but he found himself pulling a stupid face at her as she was retreating. That was all her fault anyway, he wouldn’t be in this situation if she wasn’t behaving like she was 13. His mind snapped back into place when the bell chimed, but the smile he put on automatically tightened as he saw Eliott walk in.

“Isn’t Imane here?”, he asked after a second, his pace faltering a little as he remained in the doorway.

Lucas barely held back a scoff. “No,” he said bluntly, then he added: “I know how to make coffee you know. She doesn’t hold the secrets of the universe and she certainly didn’t come up with the recipe on her own.”

Eliott’s brow furrowed and he fidgeted a little, his hand still holding the handle. “Uh. Sorry. I gotta go. Bye,” he mumbled, backtracking outside.

“Bye?” Lucas repeated incredulously. The bell chiming might have made it all the more comical, but it felt like the bell on a fucking boxing ring. He rushed from behind the counter and made it to the door faster than if his life depended on it — way worse, his pride depended on it. He caught Eliott a couple of feet further down the sidewalk. “Hey, what’s your fucking problem?”, he spat out, furious, as he grabbed Eliott’s arm and forced him to turn over.

Eliott’s eyes looked a bit alarmed, panic flashing through them as he recoiled a bit, but even like that they managed to look beautiful. Why did he have to piss off the hottest guy in Paris? What had he done wrong?

“My problem,” Eliott repeated flatly once the initial shock dissipated. “I don’t-“

“Cut the crap!” Lucas interrupted, and he glared at the woman who walked by them with a disapproving glance. “You’re always looking down on me, you’re always going for Imane even when she’s got a shit-ton of customers, and don’t even get me started on all those ‘goodbyes’ and ‘hellos’ you never fucking returned because apparently the shitty dubstep you’re always too rude to lower well and truly damaged your stupid brain!”

Eliott slowly reached up and took off his earphones, so fucking slowly that Lucas thought he might give up on his rule of never throwing hands with someone taller than him (and since he was shorter than most guys it made for a very peaceful life in the end), just for the sake of it. But then Eliott looked at him. Like, really looked. The stormy grey color matched the cloudy sky riding low above Paris that morning.

“I’m not looking down on you,” he said, and he sounded earnest.

Lucas made the ‘bitch really’ face that Yann always called him out about (because apparently it was rude, but he wouldn’t need to be rude if people didn’t do things he needed to react rudely about in the first place).

Eliott pursed his lips a little, fiddling then starting to fold his earphones. “I think you’re cute,” he said in a small, wavering huff.

Lucas’ heart might have skipped a bit, and his anger faded away in a blink. “W-What?,” he said stupidly, taken aback.

The guy looked really uncomfortable and Lucas felt suddenly hyper-aware of the rain starting to drench him, the canopy above their heads managing to pour even more water on him than to actually shelter him. Maybe he shouldn’t have gone running in the street with only a tee-shirt on, uh?

“I- I think you’re cute,” Eliott repeated.

“Then why are you avoiding me?”

He hated the way his voice seemed to become a plea now that his anger had vanished — or maybe it was just frustration, he had always been pretty lame at putting name on his emotions.

Eliott looked down. “The place is often super crowded and loud. Imane knows my usual order and that makes it easier for me,” he said, chewing onto his lip. “I- uh. I’m hard of hearing so it’s kinda tricky.”

“Oh.” Lucas wanted to slap himself. Once, twice. A hundred fucking times. “I’m sorry,” he blurted immediately, feeling his stomach and half of his organs dive in the vicinity of his shoes. “I didn’t mean to-”

“It’s fine,” Eliott mumbled, waving with his hand, his earphones dangling a little. “That’s just awkward now, so I’m just- I’m gonna go, you’ve got customers waiting.”

What do I do now? Lucas thought in panic. He should probably just go back inside and go give a hand to Chloé — aka the job he was paid for. After all he had already done quite some damage that morning and it wasn’t even 10. Nevertheless, he found himself quickening his pace to catch up on Eliott, grabbing his arm more gently than the first time.

“How about you come in?”, he said quickly. “I sort these, and then you’ll give me your order and I’ll write it down so that you won’t have to wait for Imane and Imane only next time?”

Eliott blushed. Was someone like him even supposed to blush? He would have given half the Screen Actor Guild a run for their money in a beauty contest. “You don’t have to.”

“I want to,” Lucas said. “I’ve been an ass. It’s the least I can do.”

When they walked back in the coffee shop, the bell chiming cheerfully contrasted with the angry expression on Chloé’s face. Lucas shrugged it off and walked behind the countertop as she handed their orders to the trio of girls on her side. Lucas took the opportunity to grab a notepad and a pen so that he could make sure he didn’t mess another chance at not being hated by Eliott.

“So, we have a double chocolate chip frappe, mocha sauce and whipped cream,” Lucas summed up, then he looked up at Eliott as he tore off the paper sheet from the pad. “I didn’t know we sold our soul to Starbucks but, eh, that’s gonna be fun.”

Eliott smiled. One of those smiles that made his eyes crinkle. One of those smiles that made Lucas feel warm, even though his tee-shirt was damp from the rain and that he knew he would start shivering in a couple of minutes, when the adrenaline would run out and that Eliott would be gone.

He didn’t want him to leave, for once.

(And not just because Chloé would start pestering him as soon as she would hear the bell on Eliott’s way out.)

He felt himself go ridiculously self-conscious as he scribbled down his name on the cup, which was stupid because for one he didn’t exactly need to since Eliott was the only customer in the coffee shop at the moment, and also because Eliott would probably not even think the slightest thing about what his handwriting looked like. Just man the fuck up, he admonished himself.

“There you go,” he smiled as he handed him his order. “I promise it’s going to go faster next time.”

“Thanks,” Eliott said, nodding at him with a small smile. He grabbed the cup and with a final nod, he was gone, the bell chiming as the door shut itself behind him.

Lucas didn’t really know how long he stood there, staring at the door, but when the next few customers arrived he executed himself as if on autopilot. The terrible feeling didn’t leave him for the rest of his shift, even when he made it to his flat to change his clothes in a hurry before heading on campus for his afternoon classes. This time he didn’t struggle as much as usual to put a name on it: he felt like shit, plain and simple.

He was walking back to his flat after the end of his day when he received a text from Imane.

goodgalimane

+33789661232, here, Eliott’s number

lucallemant

what am I supposed to do with this?

goodgalimane

for *some reason* he thinks you’re out of his league

and that he made a fool of himself

and that he’s never going to be able to look you in the eye again

and now *i’ve* got the flu

and i'm tired of telling him that you’re just a stupid goblin with big hair and an even bigger mouth

in short, you owe him that, so text him already you moron

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waterparchive · 5 years

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Toxic Fandom, Public Heartbreak, And The Feedback Loop

Travis Riddle – October 29, 2019

Fandom by Waterparks is one of my favorite albums of the year, regardless of the fact that…I am friends with the band. There was not a single track that immediately stood out as my favorite like Take Her to the Moon and Peach on previous albums--but I think that's because everything on this one is so good, it's impossible to choose one. I Miss Sex/War Crimes/I Felt Younger would probably comprise my top 3, but every song is fantastic. And the album is on the shorter side but you truly don't feel that length, these songs all go through so many different movements--lyrically and musically--that every song is just dense as hell and it feels a lot longer than it is, while still not feeling overwhelming or messy at all. It flows great and hits some really interesting themes.

This write-up was initially sent to Awsten on the album’s release date, and I’ve edited it a little below for clarity/brevity, because I would not shut up about it.

1. Cherry Red - Starting the album off with that bark/yell is so tight. A year and a half ago in that parking lot going to get crawfish together I didn't really "get" this song, but after hearing the album several times it really clicked for me. I love how it acts as kind of a setup to the whole thing, getting the listener into your mindset and introducing one of the main themes of the album. I also like how it continues your color motifs; "blue and yellow let’s get together and be green" has now gone bad and turned to sour green, and it seems like cherry red is replacing yellow (red + yellow = orange hmmmmm). I also love how "You know I died for you" ties into the closing track, "I said I loved you to death so I must be dead."

2. WWHN - A really great choice for the first full song of the album to set the tone for the Fandom theme in contrast with Cherry Red setting up the emotional side of the lyrics. It's also a goddamn jam so it's great at hyping up right at the start hahah. I've probably told you everything about this already but I like what you're saying in this, and how it's something probably every single artist goes through in their career, but no one seems to say in a critical way (that I’m aware of). I'm sure this and other songs will make some fans upset because they're being called out but I like that, and it's some stuff that needs to be said.

3. Dream Boy - Lots of good stuff about fan expectations in this, dressed up in metaphors and really catchy pop to catch people off-guard. Love the phrase "Build-A-Boy, pick your pieces" and "Do you believe in love and is it because of me?" With people's weird way of crafting their whole lives and beliefs and desires on these celebrities that they don't know personally at all yet are so invested in.

4. Easy to Hate - I feel like this is the most straightforward and "simple" song thematically, but man it is so catchy. The sound effect that I'm sure is your voice in the opening before the verse is so damn cool. I like this first real hint of the colors turning to red. This is thematically pretty similar to other demos like ********* and Play and stuff so with how catchy and big this chorus is, it's easy to see why you chose this one to cover that topic. I'm also a sucker for someone doing the chorus in a song but stripped down like you do here. Those harmonies in the final chorus are also soooo good..........

5. High Definition - You're on some Imogen Heap-ass shit here and it's dope. I like this as a single choice since I feel like the emotional side of the album really hinges on this track--it's not a breakup album in the typical sense (aside from like Easy to Hate and Worst), but rather it's about the aftermath of the breakup and the emotional state surrounding that, the doubts and insecurities and vulnerabilities of losing trust in everybody due to one person’s actions, and this song is such a direct and succinct and sad encapsulation of that. Hate how this whole song makes me feel for my friend but it's also really pretty and good.

6. Telephone - This is some real Hellogoodbye-ass shit here with the ending of the chorus hahah. The juxtaposition between this and High Definition is interesting, basically both songs coming to the same conclusion--not committing to a relationship--but in totally opposite ways. With this one basically being "I won't tell you how I'm feeling, I'll just go write lyrics/sing voice memos/tweet." Is this about the damn pretty Target girl you tweeted about once? "Now I'm living on a target" and "all these aisles feel like miles" hmmmmMMM. This wasn't my favorite when I first heard it but it realllllly grew on me and now I love it. The chorus is so good and I love what you're doing with the music/harmonies in the background of it. Also the dumb shit after "I'll follow" always makes me laugh. Then the dichotomy between this/HD is emphasized in the closing Wedding Singer sample which I feel like represents the fandom; you’re going through this huge emotional turmoil, but we’re reaping the benefits by getting great songs out of it.

7. Group Chat - It works as a goofy little interlude but I also like what it says thematically (if I'm not just pulling this out of my ass anyway). On one hand it seems to me like a commentary on the inanity of some fan group chats, how in some of them they all act like they're best friends but really it's just a surface-level friendship. "My name's [whatever] and we're all friends! :D" and then also with the effect on your voice, seems to imply to me how mentally draining everyone in the fandom can sometimes be on you more so than Geoff and Otto.

8. Turbulent - I know some people just gotta have their metaphors and shit in their lyrics but I love how direct this song is. Just plainly stating things makes them feel so much more raw and real. I can't see how you could more powerfully convey the anger and hurt than with "I'd unfuck you if I could." Also the "sOoOoO" in the second chorus is still best part (also the barks). Also the pitched-down backup vocals are tight in this song, really gets you into the frantic, pissed off headspace.

9. NBA - I like the potential double meaning of the chorus in this one; everyone in LA looks like you cause I'm missing you and seeing you everywhere, but also it’s kind of insulting, like "everyone in LA looks like you, you're not special." But aside from that, another very pretty albeit sad song. The chorus with full instrumentation and harmonies really hits hard. I also like the 11:11 connection with tying breath in knots; you're always really great at bringing back recurring images and lines in your writing, it makes your discography feel really connected and like you're actually writing these things, it's not some producer in a studio writing lyrics for you. These songs all lead into each other; the songs on Fandom could not exist without what came before in DD and Entertainment. That evolution is always really interesting to see, how these different motifs recur and change their meaning over time. I assume the main metaphor of this might also be a callback to Crybaby with “chasing through dreams in bloom.”

10. IMHSBALIDWDA - Definitely one of my favorites, it's just so damn fun. And once again some cool vocal effect you have going on in the background, which I always love. The lyrics here are fun but also biting; I've been thinking of this as a commentary on how fans don't really care about an artist's well-being or life even if they try to act like they do, they just want new songs and good performances and new merch etc. etc. no matter what it means the artist is going through or how they feel when they sing these emotionally devastating songs. So the chorus to me is kinda like a self-care anthem in a way, setting aside all the negative stuff and admitting to yourself hey, at least I feel kind of better now; maybe not entirely better, but I'm getting there.

11. War Crimes - Another song with sad lyrics but musically it goes so damn hard, another favorite. "I'm forgetting how to hate myself" is one of my favorite lyrics on the album, as is "My death will be the fandom." I don't even totally know what to say about this song cause sooo much is going on and it's just crazy. "Let's go!" is also a favorite moment. And the "I saved my own life" calling back to Not Warriors is tight.

12. [Reboot] - Hey is "I need to sleep alone" a reference to Sleep Alone!!!!!?!???? I've already talked to you about this song a lot too so I don't have much new to say. The vocal effect on the bridge is dope. The breaths before verse 2 are maybe my favorite part, as well as what you do on "all on you" including holding out "you" into the chorus. And whatever's going on in the background at the end of that second chorus, I can't tell if it's vocals or instruments or what, but it sounds really cinematic and cool.

13. Worst - This new version is so cool, it has so much texture that the demo didn't. Vocals are also really pretty. The added bass and electronics really add a lot of rhythm and an interesting vibe to this; the bass is almost jazzy in a way? But then the electronics/percussion are almost like a dance beat but really stripped down? I dunno, it's such an odd combination, especially with the guitar just being acoustic. One of the most interesting songs on the album sonically despite being comparatively "simple" at first listen.

14. Zone Out - My least fave just because it's such a simple interlude, but what I like that it does is like...basically comments on the preceding songs I guess? It's like a question to the listener. At the beginning you've got Dream Boy setting up their expectations, then this comes at the very end and essentially asks them, "After hearing all of these angry heartbroken songs, am I still your dream boy? Do you still think love exists because of me even though I've gone through all this and don’t believe in it myself?" I like that it makes the listener confront their previous feelings and expectations before we dive into the finale.

15. IFYWWM - First off I absolutely love the effect you put on the vocals at the start of this, especially with how that effect abruptly cuts off; it's so weird and interesting and I never get tired of hearing it. The difference between the demo and this final version is amazing, I love this song. And "I said I loved you to death so I must be dead" is such a great one-two punch; it hits hard as a "fuck you!" line with being a way to say you don't love her anymore, but then you realize how sad it is that the effect has been this emotional death that pervades the entire album and eventually leads right back into Cherry Red. Which is also a depressing ending; it's so abrupt without any closure about anything talked about on the album, and the way that it circles back into the opener kind of implies to me that maybe there's a sense of circularity to everything, it's unending, the songs will always be fueled by heartbreak and the emotional trauma will never go away and dealing with it in the public eye of the fandom will always be overbearing.

http://www.travismriddle.com/blog/2019/10/29/toxic-fandom-public-heartbreak-and-the-feedback-loop

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zodiacal-dust-and-curls · 6 years

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Meant to Be

Word Count: 3.3k

Warnings: None that I can think of. Let me know if you see any!

A/N: I hope y’all are ready. This is a little ridiculous, but I had fun writing it. The reader’s character has a name! But her perspective will be in second person and physical description will be vague. (Sorry, I needed a pretty distinct name for this.)

Thank you to @im-justatrashcan for the request and as always a big thank you to my proof-reader and PSM @mollymarymarie

All your life, you’d had the name ‘Ben Jones’ written in black ink on the inside of your wrist. A common place for a soulmark, really. Absolutely nothing out of the ordinary about it. Including the name.

It was very frustrating, honestly. It had exhausted you since you were thirteen and everyone else started meeting their soulmates left and right, literally. You’d watched both of your best friends, at the ripe old age of 15, turn opposite directions and bump into their soulmates. From that day forward, their marks had been so beautifully colored and their soulmates never too far away.

But ‘Ben Jones’? That was like finding a needle in a haystack. Your wrist might as well have said ‘John Smith’. It haunted you.

By the midpoint of senior year, ninety percent of your schoolmates had found their other halves and you were still alone.

Then one day, in early 2012, you noticed something. Your mark no longer said ‘Ben Jones’. It now read ‘Ben Hardy’ and you felt like life was just about to get more complicated.

Ben had always wondered how he’d meet you, the mysterious ‘Cheyenne Williams’. Tattooed on his tricep, destined to be his forever. Just from your name, he could tell you weren’t English.

It excited him. He always wondered where life would take him, and he knew for sure he’d get to travel at least part of the world.

Growing up, he was never too concerned with meeting his soulmate. Lots of his friends met theirs between 13 and 18. But it never seemed to bother him. He knew he’d find you one day. It certainly seemed like it wouldn’t be anywhere near his home.

When he started his career, he worried about you being able to find him. He had to change his name, there was just no way around it. Even if it was just a stage name, it would still be the easiest way to recognize him.

He worried over something else, too. Because of his career choice, he’d need to cover his mark. It felt like he was hiding you from the world. Even though he hadn’t met you, he never wanted you to think he could be ashamed of you. That just wasn’t true. He just didn’t want anyone to lie to him and use your name to hurt either of you. It was hard to explain your motives to someone you still hadn’t met.

You were the only one that noticed the change in your mark. As long as the first word was ‘Ben’ and it was still black, no one else really seemed to care. Which, helped you avoid a lot of trouble, honestly.

You really had to fight the urge to google the new name. The development had you stuck somewhere between worry and wonder. Worry for your soulmate’s safety, could something have happened to him? Wonder for yourself, had anyone else ever had their mark change?

The best course of action was to not call any attention to it. You didn’t want to become a case study. There was absolutely no one that would be helped by that. Well, out of the people you were truly concerned for (yourself and your soulmate), no one would probably be helped.

Years after the change, only your mother and best friend had noticed. It took them months to see any difference at all, and it wasn’t the mark that caught their eye. It was your demeanor. The girl with a slightly bitter heart and too many choices had finally seemed hopeful. It threw each of them for a loop, but they’d each asked as curiosity got the best of them.

One day in 2016, your best friend, Tyler, convinced you to see a movie with her. She seemed really excited about it. She said it was going to restart the X-Men franchise and give rise to a whole new generation of superheroes. With all her excitement about the film, you couldn’t say no.

That’s how you found yourself transfixed on the pouty blond angel only a few minutes into the movie. You couldn’t quite put your finger on it, but you felt like you’d seen him before. Somewhere. . . But where?

To say that Ben was a little disappointed that he didn’t find you while shooting his first American film wouldn’t be incorrect. He tried to reassure himself that he’d only seen a small part of the country during pre- and post-production, and there would be plenty more to see later. His career was just starting, really.

There was still plenty of time.

Oh my God. Was that really him? You were so glad that Tyler had run to the restroom immediately after the post-credit scene. You needed to talk yourself out of this. Now.

There was no way your soulmate was an actor. Let alone one that had acted alongside some of your favorites. What am I gonna do? What am I gonna do? What am I gonna d-

“Chy? You look a little lost there. Are you okay?” Tyler was back. Oh man, this could be really bad.

“I’m fine, Ty.” You smiled at her, storing all your thoughts away to freak out over later. “Let’s go get dinner, yeah? That movie was crazy long.”

With a roll of her eyes, she agreed. “Leave it to my bestie, with the freaky Mark, excuse me, the mutant Mark, to have that look on her face because she’s hungry.”

You just stuck your tongue out at her and promised yourself that you would check his IMDB later for interviews. Maybe life would be interesting after all.

By mid 2018, Ben still hadn’t met you. He felt like he’d traveled a fair bit. Met new and exciting people. But you were the only person he was just dying to meet.

Okay, maybe that had changed for a hot minute in 2017. He was cast to play a living legend. Could you really blame him for wanting to meet Roger Taylor (the drummah from Queen)?

Ben decided you could probably let that slide. It was just one small request on his growing pile of things to ask forgiveness for.

Hopefully, the upcoming press tour would help him out.

Except that he wouldn’t be going on the American leg of the tour (all the boys had agreed that the name was definitely American, more than likely Southern) due to work. Fate, what game were you playing?

Stalking may have been a tad excessive to describe the ferocity with which you watched a certain Mr. Hardy from that fateful day in the movie theater to now.

You’d looked up several of his interviews, especially any that mentioned his mark, or rather lack thereof. He never brought it up on his own and always seemed ready to deflect with some other comment when asked. There was no way he was your soulmate. He clearly was just one of the UnMarked and wasn’t comfortable talking about it.

It hadn’t even shown up in any of the candids or BTS content you’d seen. He just didn’t have one. It was that simple.

That didn’t stop you though. You still managed to see all his projects. The latest one seemed promising. He was set to play Roger Taylor, yes the Roger Taylor your own mother was in love with as a young girl, and they would even have a press tour stop close to your home town.

Ty had, of course, figured everything out that first day and encouraged you to chase it.

(“He could just be a really private person, Chy. What if he covered it up to protect you?

“Right Ty, I’m sure that’s exactly what some English actor that knows nothing about me did.”

Tyler just narrowed her eyes at you, wishing you would regain a little of the hopefulness you’d had back when the change had happened. “I’m right. Just you wait.”

“I certainly will wait, but don’t expect me to hold my breath.”)

So, you and Tyler had made plans to go to the stop. It could be fun, and maybe you’d finally know if she was right.

“Cheyenne Montgomery Williams, get out of the bathroom or you are gonna miss the whole thing. Jeez.” Ty screamed through the door at you. What were you even doing here? He wouldn’t be here and you knew he didn’t have a mark. He’d never confirm that in interviews, but you just knew it.

“First of all, that’s not my name and you know it.” You pushed the door open with enough force to bump Ty back a little and leveled her with a narrowed glare. “Secondly, so what if I missed the whole thing? He isn’t here.”

“Excuse me?” You heard a voice come from your side. “What did you say your name was?”

You looked in the direction of the voice and released Ty from your stare. “I didn’t. She -,” you used your head to gesture to Ty, hands still poised on your hips and stopped. Joe Mazzello was looking at you with a ridiculous amount of glee in his eyes.

Ben’s phone buzzed from beside him. It was late evening in Rome, where he was filming his newest project.

Joey: Oh, Benny Boy. You aren’t going to believe this.

Benny Boy: Believe what?

Joey: On second thought, I’ve decided not to tell you.

Yet.

When will you be able to visit me in the states?

Ben just shook his head. He was sure Joe had good motives, but all he wanted to do after this film was go home and sleep for a few days. He missed his bed and his Frankie.

Benny Boy: We talked about this.

I’m going to go home for a bit. I can come visit you in December.

Joey: That’s so far awayyyyy.

But I shall wait for you.

Until then, Jonesy.

JM: Are you ready?

The CW: Nope.

JM: Perfect. It’s showtime.

You had just pulled up to the shop Joe had been bothering you about. The man loved donuts and apparently these were the best in Dallas. It was a bit too far from your hometown for you to be overly familiar with the area, but you allowed Joe his indulgences.

It was weird to think that you got a celebrity’s phone number. Much less for such innocent reasons. He really did just want to check on you and figure out who you were before he introduced you to Ben. There was a good chance Joe was more nervous than you were.

“Mate, why am I filming you eat this donut?” It was the one question Ben felt Joe could actually answer. It wasn’t the only question he had, just the only one he thought he could get an answer to.

“It’s going to be transcendent.” Joe fixed his gaze on the prize in his hand, which was possibly the shiniest donut Ben had ever seen. “ Just shut up and point the camera at my face, Jonesy.”

“Really, Joe? Is that anyway to treat your friend?” Ben could have sworn he’d heard that voice before. It sounded like home, but with a drawl.

“Really, Joe? Is that anyway to treat your friend?” You smiled at Joe over the blond head in front of him.

“You know what, Chy? I think it is.” He couldn’t help but grin back at you. “Besides, this one,” he gestured to the man seated in front of him, “has kept the both of us waiting long enough. Don’t you think?”

It seemed like it took him an eternity to turn around and face you. But when he did, you couldn’t look away. Those eyes, the same ones you’d seen all those years ago projected in front of you, were even more breathtaking in person. The mouth that you’d watched form countless words in dozens of interviews, was right there and you waited for it to move.

“I think you’re absolutely right, Joey.” But you couldn’t tear your gaze from Ben. He was here. He was real. It was finally time to see if Ty was right.

“Cheyenne?” He breathed out with a sense of wonder, as if trying your name for the first time.

“Cheyenne?” Ben couldn’t believe this was what Joe had been hiding from him for 2 months. It was you. He found you, the only thing that was still missing from his life.

“It’s very nice to finally meet you, Ben.” Your voice was like music to his ears, especially when you said his name. He didn’t think he could ever get tired of the sound.

He had honestly never tried to imagine you, and he’s very glad he didn’t. Whatever he would have dreamed up wouldn’t have been as good as what was standing in front of him now.

Hesitantly, Ben stepped toward this astonishing woman that was meant to be his. Joe was basically forgotten behind him as Ben moved in to hug you.

The next thing you knew the two of you were moving towards each other. You reached out and hooked your right forearm behind his left shoulder and pulled Ben to you.

Distantly, you could hear Joe cheering. Two of his new favorite people were finally together. First contact had been made. It was finally time to see if Ty and Joe were both right or if they’d just been feeding you false hope all these years (and months).

But he didn’t intervene immediately. Joe let the two of you lose yourselves in the embrace. You were grateful for that. After 20+ years of waiting, at times not so patiently, you felt like you’d finally found your home.

“Okay, lovebirds. You don’t have to completely disentangle, but there’s something I gotta see.” Ah, Joe. He’d waited as long as he possibly could. But Ben supposed he was owed this. To be the first to see his colored Mark.

Ben felt a little wistful for not taking a minute to admire it in the mirror this morning. He wished he would have known that he’d never see the familiar black script on his skin again. It had been replaced with some vibrant color. He was sure of it, and the possibilities of the new discovery left him a little giddy.

Slowly, Ben pulled you to his right and twisted his left arm forward. Sure enough, there in a jeweled red was the name he’d been looking at all his life. But now he had new hope attached to it.

Joe was possibly the most impatient person you knew at this moment. All you wanted to do was hang on to Ben a little longer. You weren’t ready for reality to come crashing down on you.

Ben slowly pulled you to your left and started to twist his arm.

You decided it was time to take the plunge and glanced down at your right wrist. There in a striking red was his name.

The sight brought tears to your eyes. You thought this day would never come. You thought that Fate had been playing a cruel trick on your whole life. But here it was. Living proof.

“Oh. love. Don’t cry.” Ben heard a sniffle come from your direction. He paused his celebrating to take care of his soulmate. He really could get used to that, his soulmate. “What’s wrong?”

“I just,” you were still fighting tears in the little shop, “I just never thought this day would actually come.”

To hear that broke Ben’s heart. He had always justified his actions to himself (hiding his mark, deflecting in interviews, letting Roger Taylor take your spot as the #1 person he wanted to meet) and now it was time to justify them to you.

“Let’s get out of here, yeah?” Ben rested his forehead against your own. “We can go talk somewhere private.” His voice had softened and taken on a concerned undertone.

“That sounds good. Let’s go.” You waved towards Joe and blew him a kiss. You could see the excitement on his face for the both of you. He was a good friend, truly. You’d have to find a way to thank him for putting the two of you together.

Ben was so relieved that you took him to a park towards the outskirts of the big city. He preferred to think and talk while moving, It helped him focus.

“So I’m sure I owe you some explanations.” He began. He made sure to loop your arm with his not wanting you to get too far away or for his voice to get so loud that passers-by would hear your conversation.

“Yeah, just two really.” He was shocked that you agreed with him. Most of the soulmates he’d seen were so instantly in love, he wasn’t ready for any push back.

“Which one would you like first, love?” If there were two you wanted now, he wanted to be sure they were the ones you wanted and not the ones he thought were most important.

“Why did my Mark change?” That . . . may have stopped him in his tracks a little.

“Your Mark . . .changed?” He was a little confused. He’d never heard of Marks changing.

“Yeah. One day it said ‘Ben Jones’ and the next it said ‘Ben Hardy’. I always worried that something bad happened.” You looked up at him and back down quickly before admitting the next bit. “I may have googled you after X-Men came out and found out that it’s just your stage name.”

Ben wracked his brain for an answer to that one. “I don’t know about that one, but we can figure it out together.” He smiled at you.

“The next one is why haven’t you admitted to having a Mark?” There it was. His biggest fear to have to explain to you. Of course, you would want to know. It probably would have gotten you together faster if he’d just made it public information.

Ben stopped and pulled you closer to him with a hand on either side of your face.

“That was the hardest decision I’d ever had to make.” He looked so sad as he met your eyes. “I wanted to protect you, and myself. I wanted this life and career. I made this choice. You didn’t.”

“Are you joking?” You blinked, a little dumbfounded. “I am never going to hear the end of this from Ty.” You shook your head and grabbed his wrists to pull his hands away from your face.

“Let’s see it then.” You fully met his eyes, a new determination in your own.

“Well, alright.” Ben gave you a cocky smile and turned around to pull his sleeve so that you could see your own name in a startling blood red on his skin. “What do you think?”

Before you could respond, you reached out and ran your hand from his elbow to his shoulder following the path your name made. “It’s incredible.”

Ben had just watched your face and taken in the quiet astonishment that played across it. He could never have guessed that you really thought this day would never come.

Quickly, he fixed his shirt sleeve and turned back to face you. “Can I see yours?” He asked quietly.

You extended your wrist out towards Ben and he took it carefully, almost as if you would break. He brought himself around to stand next to her so that he could read his own name appropriately.

“I can’t believe it’s really there.” He took in the wine red stain on your wrist that was his name and rubbed the pad of his thumb delicately along it. “Ben Hardy. Who would’ve thought that it would change to my stage name?” He asked mostly to himself.

“I certainly didn’t, but I’m so glad it did.” You placed your hand on top of where his thumb was tracing your Mark and gave him a genuine smile. The one you got in return was absolutely blinding.

“I guess Fate decided that we were meant to be.”

A/N: I hope you enjoyed it! See y’all sometime next week. I’m going to go be murdered by these two tests. Have a good day, lovelies!

Taglist: @rogers-wristbands @deakydeckme

#ben hardy X reader #ben hardy fluff #soulmate au #ben hardy imagine #borhap imagine #t writes #this was longer than i expected #sorry y'all #also im a ho for smily ben #he deserves to be happy #joe is fine #he's a big boy with a car #he did not get stranded

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clarkgriffon · 5 years

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tagged by @supernovablake @montygreen :D

rules: Pick 5 shows, then answer the following questions. don’t cheat. tag 10 (or however many) peeps.

my shows:

1. the 100

2. the good place

3. cloak and dagger

4. OUAT

5. stranger things

questions:

1. who is your favorite character in 2?

— chidi!! eleanor is a close second, but everything about chidi is such a mood. eleanor is a mood in a different way- like who i wish and aspire to be, chidi is the mood of the eternally anxious.

2. who is your least favorite character in 1?

— i mean, e/cho, we been knew.

3. what is your favorite episode of 4?

— OOF. Favorite episode of Cloak and Dagger? maybe B sides. It was ridiculously good, and we got to see ty and tandy live so many lives. B sides or (and I’m blanking on the name) the one very soon before the S2 finale where Tandy fights her dad and Ty fights himself and they switch partners? Iconic.

4. what is your favorite season of 5?

— definitely S1. it’s just incomparable to 2 and 3. 2 and 3 are good, especially 3 I enjoyed, but S1 is just on another level for ST.

5. who is your favorite couple in 3?

— TYRONDY TYRONDY TYRONDY

6. who is your favorite couple in 2?

— Cheleanor, but second favorite is Janet x Jason.

7. what is your favorite episode in 1?

— probably I Am Become Death (1x10). It’s just a classic and Season 1 is my favorite season. S6 has been so good, though, that I’d say 6x09 is edging it’s way into second place.

8. what is your favorite episode of 5?

— i don’t remember episodes well off the top of my head for this show because i binge it but the one where el saves mike from falling off the cliff is a good one. the s3 finale was great too.

9. what is your favorite season of 2?

— season 1 probably. like i said, i’m a ho for an origin story. s2 is not as good, s3 is really good again, but s1 is my fave.

10. how long have you watched 1?

— since the hiatus between s4 and 5. i started RIGHT when s4 ended.

11. how did you become interested in 3?

— being in the t100 fandom and following a bunch of multifandom blogs, i saw a lot of bellarkes freaking out about tyrondy and decided, what the hay, i’ll give it a try. glad i did.

12. who is your favorite actor in 4?

— Jennifer Morrison. jmo has a hold on my heart, but i loooove josh, ginny, and colin too.

13. which do you prefer, 1, 2, or 5?

—though i wish i didn’t, i gotta with 1. it has a death grip on me and won’t let go. i wish i could like TGP or ST better, but man, the 100 is 3/4 of my personality at this point.

14. which show have you seen more episodes of, 1 or 3?

— 1, just out of sheer episode count.

15. if you could be anyone from 4, who would you be?

— i was going to say emma swan because light magic fuck yeah, but she’s lived kind of a hard life. you know what, how about david. he grew up on a farm being a shepherd, then got to be a royal, then found true love. sounds like a pretty charmed life to me.

16. would a crossover between 3 and 4 work?

— oof? okay. well C&D is part of the MCU, right? So, in the MCU, there’s the town of storybrooke, originated from the fairytales we read about. nick fury stumbles upon storybrooke somehow and needs someone to tackle the problem/get a read on the situation. ty and tandy have just left new orleans for their “make the world better” mission at the end of S2, and this is their first assignment, checking out storybrooke. we follow the misadventure of Tyrondy trying to figure out what storybrooke’s deal is while the storybrooke citizens desperately try to hide their magic and go “what the fuck are these random teens doing here???” just realized this said would it work not HOW would it work oh well im not changing it

17. pair two characters in 1 that would make an unlikely but strangely okay couple

— i’ve always thought a good one would be monty and clarke. they’re very like-minded people (which is perhaps why that can’t work) in terms of their morals, their level-headedness, and their brains. they both make up two of my OTPs (marper and bellarke), so i could never actively ship it, but like... they’d be good together.

18. overall, which story has the better storyline, 3 or 5?

— i think cloak and dagger? it has a clear purpose, clear villains, it knows where it’s going. ST I think stalled out a little after S1- they didn’t know where to go or how to expand on being a retro horror show.

19. which has the better theme music, 2 or 4?

—gotta go with OUAT on this. I love the musical cues in TGP, but OUAT has one of my favorite soundtracks of all time.

tagging @talistheintrovert @fen-ha-fuck-you @clarkegriffinlovebot @hostagetakerandhistraitor @nvermindiseeyou to do this if they want to <3

#tag game

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fineillsignup · 6 years

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Covering Your Ears to Steal a Bell update and wild speculation re: Gan Ning

So in the latest chapter of my (dark fic!! history is dark!! warnings!! read them!!) fic Covering Your Ears to Steal a Bell, I weave a blend of Dynasty Warriors tropes, popularly accepted history (the Sanguozhi), and the 14th century novel Romance of the Three Kingdoms (Sanguo Yanyi) to form my own fic. When you consider that ROTK is basically historical RPF and that the late Qing reform era Anti-Romance of the Three Kingdoms (Fan Sanguo Yanyi) was historical RPF fix-it fic where the author’s OC got to marry his favourite character (whose OC I have borrowed for my own fic), I am truly standing on the shoulders of giants when I wildly speculate on what a) actually happened b) would never have happened but is fun to imagine.

Now there’s a reason why my doc file for this Gan Ning centric story is “nice pirates are still not that nice”, and that attitude is basically how I approach this character who was, after all, a pirate living in decline of the Han dynasty China. Now, note, I’m not saying “everybody has to like Gan Ning, it’s compulsory”; but I am explaining why I like him and am not ashamed of it, even knowing all I know. Gan Ning gets the longest original section in volume 55 of the Sanguozhi, and the most later annotations, so you know what, people have liked talking about this guy for a long time. Was he their problematic fave too? Probably.

Gan Ning: Chinese pirate, my problematic fave

For people who aren’t aware, but for some reason want to try and follow along at home, the background: Gan Ning was a Chinese pirate active in the southeast-ish part of China around the year 200AD as the Han dynasty was falling apart. As regional warlords jockeyed for power, he joined up first with one (Huang Zu) and then with another who was going to beat the first (Sun Quan). The second one turned out to be pretty good at consolidating power, and carved out a kingdom called Wu in southeast China that became actually the longest lasting kingdom among the titular Three Kingdoms era of China.

They make him look something like this in the game series Dynasty Warriors. The bells and the feathers were actually his Marketing Trademark, and people remember them 1800 years later which goes to show how important it is to market yourself.

So when people are like “OMG did you know Gan Ning LIKED to KILL PEOPLE???” I’m like:

"Yeah but you don’t understand he liked to kill people for NO REASON!”

Yeah I’m still sitting here not terribly shocked. Even assuming the worst stories about him in his pre-Wu days were true—that he deliberately waited in houses where the occupants were away, just so that he would get to kill the people who lived there, instead of simply looting the houses and moving on—and not embellished to make him sound like more of a terror.... well, the end result is that he sounds like a terror, which, if you are trying to make your living as a pirate, is exactly the reputation you want? Or, to come at it with the same result but reversed, a person who is that eager to kill by nature is exactly the kind of person who would rise to significant power as a pirate in a chaotic era. So look at Captain Kirk there again for my reaction.

And again, it’s the era. What’s the difference between small-scale freelance murder and theft, aka piracy, and large-scale wholesale slaughter and theft, aka invading and conquering? In the latter case, often somebody to retroactively declare that you were emperor all along. In such an environment, I am even less eager to pass judgment.

And then there’s of course, the id. “Aren’t you tired of being nice? Don’t you want to just go apeshitt” as the meme says. Well, actually, I’m fine with being nice in my real life, but as Lin-Manuel Miranda says, some part of you wants to experience everything. And stories—and historical stories are still stories—are a way to do that.

So that basically takes care of “he was a killer!!” as an objection to liking him, in my books.

So in this particular chapter of my story, I deal with the other reason people usually bring up for hating Gan Ning, which is a story from the Sanguozhi (and therefore probably at least somewhat true) that involves a kind of controversy about child death (I’m on the side of arguing: probably not a child), but even without the age controversy, definitely involves murder; so not everybody wants to read it, so it’s under a cut. It’s a really fascinating story on a lot of levels so if you can handle stuff like “what happened to the princes in the tower” and similar historical horrors then you should be able to handle this.

Alright so here’s the relevant section from the Sanguozhi, the more-or-less intending to be accurate historical record from the Jin dynasty, written by a man named Chen Shou who, to be clear, was not even born yet by the time that Gan Ning died. So “what REALLY happened???” can never be fully known in all details, particularly the little anecdotes that would naturally grow in the telling. But that just means that “so why did they write down THIS and in THIS WAY?” becomes its own interesting question.

Everyone who comes at this history seems to say “Chen Shou was biased in this and that way and what the truth must actually be is this, which coincidentally is my bias” so I might as well do that too.

So here’s the incident in question in the original Chinese in the Sanguozhi:

寧厨下兒曾有過，走投呂蒙。蒙恐寧殺之，故不即還。後寧齎禮禮蒙母，臨當與升堂，乃出厨下兒還寧。寧許蒙不殺。斯須還船，縛置桑樹，自挽弓射殺之。畢，勑船人更增舸纜，解衣卧船中。蒙大怒，擊鼓會兵，欲就船攻寧。寧聞之，故卧不起。蒙母徒跣出諫蒙曰：「至尊待汝如骨肉，屬汝以大事，何有以私怒而欲攻殺甘寧？寧死之日，縱至尊不問，汝是爲臣下非法。」蒙素至孝，聞母言，即豁然意釋，自至寧舩，笑呼之曰：「興霸，老母待卿食，急上！」寧涕泣歔欷曰：「負卿。」與蒙俱還見母，歡宴竟日。

I took only two semesters of classical Chinese but I never like anybody else’s translation of classical Chinese anyway so here goes (I also consulted a modern Chinese gloss). I am bolding stuff I am going to talk about.

[Gan] Ning’s kitchen boy [more on this in a minute] committed a fault, and ran to throw himself on Lü Meng’s mercy. [Lü] Meng was afraid [Gan] Ning would kill him, therefore he would not return him. Later [Gan] Ning brought many gifts to [Lü] Meng’s mother, going up to the house in person, so that the kitchen boy would be returned to [Gan] Ning. [Gan] Ning promised [Lü] Meng that he wouldn’t kill him. On the way back to the boat, [Gan Ning] tied [the servant] to a mulberry tree, and he himself drew the bow to shoot him dead. That accomplished, he ordered his boatmen to lengthen the mooring rope, and laid down in the boat with his clothes loosened. [Lü] Meng was enraged. He hit the drum to summon soldiers, and immediately went to the boat to attack [Gan] Ning. When [Gan] Ning heard it, he didn’t get up. [Lü] Meng’s mother ran out barefoot and scolded [Lü] Meng saying: “Our lord has treated you as his flesh and blood, giving you dominion over great things, so how can you kill Gan Ning out of your own personal anger? If [Gan] Ning dies today, even if our lord ignores it, you will have broken the law.” [Lü] Meng was always extremely filial. He listened to his mother’s words, and in a flash he comprehended their meaning. He went personally to [Gan] Ning’s boat, and called out to him laughing: “Xingba [Gan Ning’s style name, used between peers; here shows affection or comradery], my mom’s got food ready, hurry up!” [Gan] Ning shed tears, snorted, and sobbed, saying, “I let you down.” Then he went back together with [Lü] Meng to see his mother, and they feasted all day.

Okay so the first thing is this critical phrase 厨下兒 which has been glossed into some English translations as “kitchen boy” and similar and which English speakers have then looked at and then gone “oh my God Gan Ning killed a child, a literal child, a tiny baby boy”. Ok, Hold on. Please.

So modern Chinese gloss I consulted translates this as “廚房的僕人” which just means “kitchen servant”. Yes “兒“ means child but it has so many other meanings especially in a compound like this; and this “child” is not specifically the “under a certain age” form of child.

Moreover, even in English, when we talk about English phrases like “kitchen boy” or (more prominently) “cabin boy” we are not talking about a five year old or even necessarily a ten year old. A 13-16 year old could easily be covered under that phrase in English. So please understand how a Chinese phrase like this could also cover such an age range, and remember also, that in this era, Ling Tong was on the front lines of the battlefield at age ~15 with his father when he died. So the idea of when a kid is fair game to be killed as an enemy is not our own.

So I’m even willing to go with the phrase “kitchen boy” because I feel the original conveys the sense of a minor servant. I’m certainly not going to rule out that the servant was, by modern standards, a child. Gan Ning is doing something really bad here. He knows himself it’s bad, and that’s where it gets the most interesting.

The second point I want to bring up is what it put across in the phrases “On the way back to the boat,” “he hit the drum”, and “ran out barefoot”, which is everything happens so fast. Gan Ning doesn’t even wait to get the servant home; instead, he kills him between Lü Meng’s house and his boat (which presumably was how he traveled to visit Lü Meng). And he does it by tying him to a tree! Not exactly subtle! And then he goes to his boat and just starts chillaxing! When he tells his sailors to lengthen the mooring rope, he’s doing the opposite of trying to run away. If you wanted to get away quickly, you would untie the mooring rope, or at least have it ready to untie fast. But Gan Ning deliberately makes it difficult to escape. And then the story mentions that Gan Ning loosens his clothing, or could even be interpreted as undressing, and that he lies down. Again, is that what you do when you expect to want to get away?

And then we’re back to everything happening so fast: Lü Meng, it seems finds out that the servant is dead very quickly, immediately hits a drum to summon soldiers and just runs out. And when Gan Ning hears this, he doesn’t get up. Now some people interpret this as cowardly, that Gan Ning was hiding from Lü Meng in not getting up to meet him. But if Lü Meng’s mother hadn’t caught him in time, would Lü Meng not have known where he was? No, Lü Meng knew exactly where he was. His boat was still tied to the dock by the mooring rope, and all of Gan Ning’s sailors, remember, would strictly speaking have been under Lü Meng too.

So then Lü Meng gets scolded by his mommy and realizes that he has to let Gan Ning off the hook. And he goes and the way he speaks to Gan Ning, in the original, is so casual and affectionate, which is why I translated it as “my mom’s got food ready”. Now within Chinese culture, as in many cultures, this invitation to food is in itself a mark of affection.

And then we come to the most interesting part of all: the original uses four characters to describe Gan Ning’s crying. Now, Chinese is terse, and classical Chinese is ULTRA terse. These people are not using any more characters than they have to. Yet Chen Shou spend four whole characters to describe that Gan Ning was not only “shedding tears” but “snorting” and “sobbing”. Holy shit. Believe me, if you read a lot of classical Chinese, this rings like a klaxon. The person writing this down thought this was important.

Gan Ning’s motivations throughout all of this are just so opaque. Impulsivity? But it involved a certain amount of planning. Did he want to be punished? Did he have even a death wish? Why was he so fixated on this escaped servant? (The silence of the original text as to what the servant did wrong exacerbates this. It could be almost anything.) Why did he, in some ways, play it so coolly and so arrogantly (the tying to a tree, the lying down half-dressed on a drifting boat), but then suddenly flip to abject, sobbing apology? Was the latter apology as much of a lie as his original promise not to kill the servant was? Or was Gan Ning truly stricken with remorse?

And what do we learn from the story? Utility to the state as a way to escape consequences? Crime and punishment are difficult to separate from personal considerations of revenge and anger? Efficacy of shame based on personal connection over physical attack? Chinese mothers are always right? (It’s that last one, isn’t it.)

So that’s why I had to write my own version. And yes, it’s a version that, while not condoning Gan Ning’s many horrible actions, does portray him as a person sympathetically.

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olusegundare · 6 years

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PRAYER POINTS FROM THE BOOK OF GENESIS CHAPTERS 16-30

PRAYER

"And the angel of the Lord found her by a fountain of water in the wilderness, by the fountain in the way to Shur" (Genesis 16:7)

PRE-PRAYER FLASH Hagar the maid servant of Sarai misbehaved because she has become pregnant for Abram...and her mistress became harsh on her, her mistress showed her that a superior person can make one miss his/her way (ẹnito junilọ le juni nu)... So she fled from her presence. While in the wilderness suffering came...but God sent His Angel to her...

If you know someone who has been of immense help to your success in life, please, do not mis-behave or maltreat the person, try and be fair to him/her...

1. Oh Lord Send your angel to me in Jesus name,

2. Oh Lord take me to the fountain of earthly success/breakthrough etc in Jesus name,

3. I shall not lack your comfort in Jesus name,

4. In the wilderness that I am in, oh Lord get me out of there in Jesus name,

5. Open my eyes to the earthly fountain of breakthrough in Jesus name,

6. Let my angels locate me where I am in Jesus name,

7. Etc

PRAYER

"Then Abraham fell upon his face, and laughed, and said in his heart, shall a child be born unto him that is an hundred years old? And shall Sarah, that is ninety years old bear? " (Genesis 17:17)

PRE-PRAYER NUGGETS

Earlier on in the course of the discussions between God and Abram, He told him that he would be bearing a new name which He name him Himself. This new name would give room for other good things to come to Abram's life... And he was named Abraham. God also has a new name for each and everyone of us, and this new name would only be bore by us if and only if we have come to the knowledge of God. The knowledge of God comes via us knowing the Lord Jesus Christ. Knowing Jesus Christ is of paramount importance in life we want new things to come into our lives and above all if we want to inherit the kingdom of God. I presumably assume that you also have it in mind getting back to God after this world, then, you need to know that the key to inheriting that kingdom is you accepting Jesus Christ into your life now...

To do that, you need to know yourself a sinner, repent of these sins, confess those sins to God through Jesus Christ and ask God to make your life His dwelling place.... 1. I receive grace of constant communication with you as from now on in Jesus Christ name,

2. You God who sees the most hidden part of the hearts of men, come and satisfy my heart desires in Jesus Christ name,

3. What I don't think would happen to me positively, make it (them) happen to me in Jesus Christ name, 4. Let me acquire what I think by the virtue of my age I can never acquire again in life in Jesus Christ name,

5. The impossible questions of my heart oh Lord answer them to the letters in Jesus Christ name,

6. Obstacles to my acquiring (getting) blessings from you should be removed in Jesus Christ name,

7. Let me receive a promise that would make me matter to my generation in Jesus Christ name,

8. Etc

PRAYER "And he lift up his eyes and looked and lo, three men stood by him: and when he saw them, he ran to meet them from the tent door, and bowed himself toward the ground" (Genesis 18:12)

PRE-PRAYER OUTLOOK The incidents recorded in this chapter by prophet Moses were essentially crucial, for those incidents marked what permanently changed Patriarch Abraham's life and ministry... And of course showed us what God meant when he said He would destroy the world by fire. Abraham was neither expecting visitors nor knew those people he ran to meet before then, but because it has been his manner to accommodate visitors, his spirit was again stirred that day to welcome those men. The welcomed men happened to bless him and his household in return, giving him undeniable sign of what shall happen to him. (Hebrew 13) You and I also need to know how to welcome people, our level of hospitality needs to change from its present state to a level higher. Although the world at the moment is perverse such that one could not be certain of people, for some may deceptively seek for assistance just to injure the helper... So as not to become a victim of such, that is why the Lord promised us Holy Ghost. This Holy Ghost would not just enter anyone's life, the Holy Ghost would enter the lives of those who have become His'. The works of the Holy Ghost amongst others is guiding believers, instructing believers on what and what not to do. By this He would prevent believers from becoming a victim to liars and dubious people. Having this Holy Ghost requires man to come to Christ and after coming to Christ Jesus, God would release this Holy Ghost into the believers lives. Do you wish to be saved from doubtful and dubious people parading themselves as good people? Then you need Holy Ghost to do that...

1. Oh Lord, let me see beyond ordinary... Let me see beyond the physical in Jesus Christ name,

2. I refuse to be spiritually blind in Jesus Christ name,

3. Give me the spirit of hospitality in Jesus name,

4. Increase my level of hospitality in Jesus name,

5. Everything that is preventing me from assisting others be destroyed in Jesus Christ name

6. Heal me of the nasty experiences I had assisting others in Jesus Christ name,

7. I refuse to miss the angels you send to me in Jesus Christ name, 8. Etc

PRAYER "And while he lingered, the men laid hold upon his hand, and upon the hand of his wife, and upon the hand of his two daughters; the Lord being merciful unto him: and they brought him forth, and set him without the city" (Genesis 19:16)

PRE-PRAYER WORDS Millenia back, it is on record that a town existed called Sodom and Gommorrha. The inhabitants of these towns increasingly became sinful before the Lord God... So many reasons may have led to this, one of which readily come to mind is delay by God to execute judgment on some people, known sinful people... Because of this, the people who were initially doing right too joined those who were doing evil... On and on and the number of people doing right in these towns decrease drastically until it was near zero percentage of the two towns population. Today, something akin to this is also happening, because when people people see that those who are doing evil are those making it, so many people in the present dispensation also joined those doing evil to do evil. You and I may have fall into this category, but, God is not expecting that from us, He wants us to correct the seen anomalies, he does not want us to join the multitude to do evil. However, we need to know that everyone of us has fallen short of God's glory to meet up with God's set mark or standard, we have to come to the Lord Jesus Christ, repent of our sins accept the Lord as our Saviour. When we do this, we shall measure up to the standard of God.

1. Every demons of sluggishness get out of my life in Jesus Christ name, 2. Send your angels to rescue my family and I out of our present situation in Jesus Christ name, 3.! Every thing tying me down should be broken or destroyed in Jesus Christ name, 4. Oh Lord shower your mercy on my family and I in Jesus Christ name 5. Let your angels set my family and I on a safe place in Jesus Christ name, 6. Let your angels take me out of danger zones in Jesus Christ name 7. Let your angels blindfold my enemies in Jesus Christ name, 8. Send your angels to rain fire on my enemies in Jesus Christ name, 9. Etc

PRAYER

"But God came to Abimelech in a dream by night, and said to him behold thou art but a dead man for the woman which thou hast taken; for she is a man's wife" (Genesis 20:3)

PRE-PRAYER KNUCKLE Many of the so called dreams that we dream today (I mean in this dispensation) can they be said to actually originated from God as those dreamt by these Patriarchs' of old? I said this because many of our so called dreams, visions, revelations, prophecies etc do NOT COME TO PASS despite the fact that we usually allege that they originate from God.

The bible says, let every man be a liar, and He, God, be true... and at another place of the bible, we read that His (God's) word be yea and amen. In other words, God's words will come to pass, that is the yea and amen there. But today, if we say yea and amen to any of the supposedly dreamt dreams etc we will only discover that we have erred and we ought to have say "no and nay" to such dreams or revelations.

The ipso facto would thus reveal to us that the kind of interaction that existed in the olden days between the Patriarchs of old could not be said to bbe in existence during this dispensation of ours despite the fact that we have books of the religious laws and have laid claim to have more knowledge, understanding etc that those who had lived earlier. Yet, our interaction with the Lord can only be said to be shalow...

The most professed or assumed Holy person in this dispensation does not experience or enjoy something like this, receiving his/her dreams directly from God...

This is why today we see so many people go into error when they lay claim to a certain dream that they have had.... Some actually backslided when they lay claim to certain dream etc that a certain "prophet or seer" has received for them but which does not come to pass.

Another thing of note in this chapter is that Abimelech was not a friend of God as Abraham nor Lot was, but yet He received directly from the Lord. He had God's hot-line.

This should mean that irrespective of whom we are, God knows us and loves to have relationship or interaction with us as a person, an individual entity.

The route for God to have interaction with you and I in this dispensation is via you and I coming to Know Jesus Christ. Thus, I wish to ask you that have you known Christ Jesus?

If you are yet to know Him, the time is now for you to know him... Come as you are, repent of your sins, confess your sins, forsake them all and ask God to make your heart His dwelling place as from thenceforth. Knowing Him will bring you and I into inntimate relationship with God.

As someone who has known the Lord, may we ask ourselves that why are our dreams today not originating from God, but yet we will claim that they originate from God.

Let us say these words of Prayer: 1. I want to be enjoying your presence on a daily basis on my life and on everything I do in Jesus name,

2. Every pollution and polutants in my dream be removed now in Jesus name,

3. The grace to decipher God's originated dreams from others' give me now in Jesus name,

4. Visit in your anger anyone who unlawfully has my properties or belongings in his or her possessions in Jesus name,

5. Let your mark be on my bbelongings or properties in Jesus name,

6. Retrieve for me all my properties/belongings (living and non-living) in the hands of the enemies/poweful people in Jesus name,

7. Let me know where I have erred oh Lord in Jesus name,

8. The grace to correct/make ammendments give me now in Jesus name,

9. Correct me in your Love oh Lord in Jesus name,

10. Etc

PRAYER "And Sarah said, God hath made me to laugh, so that all that hear will laugh with me" (Genesis 21:6)

PRE-PRAYER MAGNIFICATION Both major worldly religions have something written about Abraham and Sarah. In their write ups they do not deny the fact that this couple had to wait for decades before they got an issue. Christianity's main focus on the couple's waiting started post-emigration of this couple from Haran where they had been living with their parents. This focus essentialy stemmed out of the fact that, that was when God made a promise with the man, Abram, as such the counting of the duration of his (their) waiting started post-emigration from Haran.

Those of us who have been studying bible documentations wil notice that prior to this emigration, the bible had recorded that "Sarai was barren" (Genesis 11:30)

Naturally, medically & Biblically before a woman can be called barren, such a woman would have been married with un-interupted sexual intercourse for nothing less than 5 years. During these years, this couple had been trusting gods of the land of Haran to perform wonders in their lives. It would not be an understatement saying that Abram's father before his death would have proffer some solutions to them, as being directed by their gods or priests of the land then because he wanted to see his grand-children.

All these and yet others from other quarters were done but all to no avail.

The possiblity of this is hinged on the fact that they were basically yet to meet with Jehoval Elohim then.

After these attempts failed, and may be during the course of other attempts, God met with Abram & decided to call him.

For all we know, it may even be that it was the search to get an issue of the womb for the family that brought Abram in contact with Jehovah Elohim.

We all know that nothing happens by accident, something would stir the coming to God of Abram, thus, saying the barreness of the family was the enzyme or catalyst that facilitated such reaction to occur may not be an under-statement.

Having tried the major gods of the land of Haran for solution but failing thereby, Abram met with God who asked him to drop, to leave those ways he had been trekking and He would surprise him.

In ensuring that he be completely free of those ways, God took another step and asked Abram to leave his family, land and kindred to an unknown land (Genesis 12:1).

By now and from this, we would see that God said what He said because:

1. He does not want Abram to return to his earlier position/vomit,

2. He wants him far and delivered from temptations,

3. He wants him free of mockers and mockery because if he stayed around with them he would constantly be mocked,

4. He wants to groom him,

5. He wants him to have genuine knowledge about what he had been called into,

6. At the new land, people would not be able to talk about the history of his life unlike if he stays back at Haran,

7. Etc.

Again, God possibly did not tell him about the land He was leading him to because:

(i) If He had done that he would likely tell one or more of his kindred,

(ii) One of the people he will tell would one day try to trace him out,

(iii) One of his close friends too may one day go in search of him,

(iv) Etc.

These factors were probably considered by God, as such He decided against notifying him ahead for I assume we know that God knew afore time that He was leading him to Canaan land because the bible says He knows the beginning from the ending.

May I say that it is something that brought you and I to Jesus Christ too, something catalysed our salvation, ordinarily, no man wants to leave sin, this is becaise sin is appealing...

As our salvation has been catalysed by something, God may perhaps have been laying it in your hearts after you have been saved to leave something or to do one or two things. However, you are yet to yield to what has been laid in your heart. My advice is that you try and do that.

From this story, we will again discover that it is usually not easy waiting or looking unto God for something for years, but irrespective of that, God still expects you and I to wait as this family had waited until their victory appeared.

If you are yet to know God, as Abram and Sarai before they knew God, God is using what you are experiencing to call or draw you to Hisself. What you should do is do not resist this pull, yield yourself unto Him, God, as Abram did and you will see the changes as did Abram in which essentially assisted him in staying with the Lord.

What you are passing through is being used by God to draw you to Him Accept Jesus Christ now and all shall be well.

Shall we offer some prayers?

1. Give me a word of victory oh Lord in Jesus name,

2. Make my victory obvious to all in Jesus name,

3. Let people felicitate with me in Jesus name,

4. Take away my shame & reproach in Jesus name, 5. The good thing that everyone 6. Let what happen to me increas others reliance & dependance on you, 7. Etc

PRAYER

"And said, By myself have I sworn, saith the Lord, for because thou hast done this thing, and hast not withheld thy son, thine only son" (Genesis 22:16)

PRE-PRAYER TABLOID The history line here is not obscure to people (many a one)..., how God tried his friend, patriarch Abraham, to offer unto Him his one and only son. What God required of him to do was not denied God, as He took the bold step of faith to offer his son unto God.

(Before I continue I have to say that after this, God does not ask for human sacrifices again from anyone and that is why it is a great and grave offence for anyone to sacrifice or shed blood of man again... The highest human sacrifice has been done in the person of Jesus Christ.)

Apostle Paul had to talk about the taken step of Abraham the friend of God of all times that he believed God cannot lie (unto him) this is because God had abinitio made promises or say covenant with him that the same child he would sacrifice in him, Isaac, would the covenant He is making with him be fulfilled, be established, but never in the son that the slave lass had given birth unto for him. (Hebrews 11:17-19)

This statement was uttered by God unto Patriarch Abraham before this trial. This thus gave father Abraham an uncommon faith that if God could ask himm to kill his son, offer his son as a sacrifice, it then means that He, God, will bring him back to life after he might have slaughtered him, Isaac, because He, God, cannot lie and since He had not uttered any contrary words from the ones earlier spoken, it means, He wants to raise the child back to life after doing what He had asked him to do...

Then resurrection was uncommon, this thence show Father Abraham's uncommon faith, un-paralleled faith in Elohim.

His demonstrated faith was suigeneris and the God who knows and reads the intents of all inhabitants of the earth's hearts saw that father Abraham's thoughts were balanced by his actions, thus he decided to step-up in His interactions with father Abraham by swearing before him. It was as if God was placed in the court of law or something and was asked to swear. In other words, father Abraham's thoughts and actions cornered the Lord, placed the Lord in an oath taken box and He swore before and with father Abraham...

PRAYER POINTS: 1. Oh Lord, increase my knowledge of you in Jesus name,

2. Oh Lord, What I will do that will give me uncommon breakthroughs in life, help me to do those things in Jesus name,

3. What I will do that will launch me into uncommon covenant with you, help me to do it in Jesus name,

4. Everything that I am with-holding from you which I ought to have surrendered (or given) to you, oh Lord, help me to release them unto you in Jesus name,

5. Give me victory over the flesh oh Lord in Jesus name,

6. Etc

PRAYER

"And Sarah was an hundred and seven and twenty years old: these were the years of the life of Sarah" (Genesis 23:1)

PRE-PRAYER INFORMATION We often times become surprised these days seeing someone as old as this as if it is never achievable again, but the bible in no where specify that achieving such age as this is not possible. We quote several verses and books of the bible to show that we are actually nay ready for longetivity, yet we will quote and recite (off hand) Psalms 91 where God says that He will satisfy those who dwelt in His shadow with long life and peace. We negate God's promises even by the same God's word. Little wonder that many people in this dispensation do not live long again.

God has not said, the technological developments and other scientific innovations would shorten our life span but the followings bring about reduction in our life span: 1. Unbelief: Many of us are unbelieving believers, we do not see possibility in any thing and if a certain celebrated/popular minister has spoken we just take it as if we come to the world the same time, as if we can not read the scriptures ourselves,

2. Negative words that we usually speak to our lives, particularly so when we are passing through some hard times,

3. Negative thoughts: This also is directly related to passing through troubles/problems... The troubles and problems that have defied all known remedies, which go on year after year. Because of the longetivity of the problems we start to have negative thoughts, about ourselves, our future and of course start wishing that it is better we even die that the suffering is much as if God is deaf, blind and has embarked on a trip as such does not see what we are passing through. When such negative thoughts become subsuming then we start having health failures with the manifestations of all forms of diseases known and unknown, treatable and untreatable and what would be the outcome? Death.

4. Failure to give ourselves rest: Do you know it is possible for someone to sleep but his/her spirit (soul) not be resting? So, the rest I am talking about here is when one actually gives his/her soul rest. This is only achievable when we take all aspirations off our hearts: ambitions to become Doctor/Professor/Marriage/ Having Children/President/Governor/ Richest person on the planet etc. All these are good, but when we want to rest, we must take those things off our hearts and that is when we can actually be said to be resting. In this part of the world we do not value recreation like those who are living in the advanced clime and we need it, for sound health and longetivity,

5. Obeying your Husband: This is perhaps lacking in many of our women today all because of education. But, me suppossedly assume that education ought to make our women wiser than those who are nay, but over the times this has not been so. Mother Sarah listened, obeyed her love till her death, little wonder she lived long. (Note and this is why we often admonish the singles that a man you think you cannot obey, do not marry him, irrespective of whatever is leading you to go into relationship with the person because when you start living together it would even be more difficult for you to obey him)

6. Etc.

PRAYER POINTS: 1. HELP me to fulfil destiny in life, in Jesus name,

2. Oh Lord let me live a fulfilled life on earth in Jesus name,

3. Oh Lord, let my days on earth always proclaim the Gospel in Jesus name,

4. Oh Lord, I refuse to die prematurely in Jesus name,

5. Oh Lord, the Power that gave mother Sarah victory at her old age, let that power envelope me now in Jesus name,

6. Oh Lord, the Power that gave mother Sarah victory at old age let that power give me victory in Jesus name (may be this prayer is for old persons alone I cannot say, but I can equally say the prayer can work for the young ones too),

7. Oh Lord, redeem all my un-accounted for years for me in Jesus name (or say, Oh Lord, redeem all my wasted years for me in Jesus name),

8. Oh Lord according to your word that says you are going to give your people long life and peace, satisfy me with your peace and Long life in Jesus name,

9. Oh Lord, things I am doing that is silently sending me to my early grave, help me to stop those things in Jesus name,

10. Etc

PRAYER

"AND he said, O Lord God of my master Abraham, I pray thee send me good speed this day, and shew kindness unto my master Abraham" (Genesis 24:12)

PRE-PRAYER KNUCKLE It is no gain saying re-iterating here in that some people are designed to serve some people, and in doing that they shall prosper. This we do not like in this part of the world and that is why there are so many chaos. The Yoruba fathers used to say, "ọwọ́ ọmọdé kò to pẹpẹ, bẹna ni ti àgbàlagbà ko wọ akeregbe" (translation "as a baby's hand cannot reach the roof so does the adults hand cannot enter the guord"). What I want to infer by this is that everyone has a place in life. That night guard that you belittle has his importance, that road sweeper that you think her enemies has successfully altered her destiny has her importance... May I be pardoned to say that some of our uncles, brothers etc who travelled overseas what do we know that they are doing there? Some are doing more horrible works than those we under-valued here, but because the founding fathers of those advanced climes valued every discipline, our uncles, friends, brothers find it easy to make it there without being rubbished.

The inhabitants of the Northern part of Nigeria also do not see anything wrong in someone being this or that, but this could not be said of those of us in the south-western part of the nation, that is why we see several spiritual attacks, we see people dying young, due to enemies attacks, because we envy those who are our leaders and would want to assume such position at all cost even when we are not talented to occupy such exalted position...

This man, was satisfied being a worker of father Abraham, he never envied him, he never said he wants to go and establish his ministry, he never attempted to murder father Abraham, and little wonder God blessed him.

I also have to say that father Abraham also do not belittle this man, he was according to him and his family what was needful at all times. Our leaders also need to inbibe this in them, they ought to value or count those followers of theirs' as somebody, as people and we will see them giving us their bests.

SOME PRAYER POINTS: 1. Oh Lord, Distance me from those leaders who have no vision/view of tomorrow in Jesus name,

2. Oh Lord, connect me with leaders that have visions of the future in Jesus name,

3. The power that helped my leader (or mentor) to succeed, let that power overwhelm me now in Jesus name.

Note: You may want to say that you neither have a leader nor a mentor, that is a possibility because of the ways and manners some people are behaving these days. Albeit, I want to tell you that you can make JESUS CHRIST your mentor and leader. If you are however yet to make Him your leader, I am counselling you through this medium to make Him your leader and mentor. If you can make Him your leader, mentor and Lord, you will have no reservations whatsoever to cry aloud that:

Oh Lord, the power that makes Jesus to suceed on earth overwhelm me now in Jesus name so that I will also succeed in my eadeavours on earth in Jesus name,

4. The power that makes Jesus a success on earth begin to work for me in Jesus name,

5. Give me clear visions of tomorrow oh Lord in Jesus name,

6. Give me clear visions of myself oh Lord in Jesus name,

7. The Living Bible translations says of the c part of this verse that, "make things go smoothly", therefore you and I will say this loud and clear,

Oh Lord, make everything go smoothly with me in life in Jesus name,

8. Oh Lord, the Power that makes things go smoothly with people, bless me with that power now in Jesus name,

9. On this planet called earth oh Lord, show me your kindness in Jesus name,

10. Oh Lord, let me enjoy your kindness in my remaining days on earth in Jesus name,

11. Etc.

PRAYER

"But unto the sons of the concubines, which Abraham had, Abraham gave gifts, and sent them away from Isaac his son, while he yet lived, eastward, unto the east country" (Genesis 25:6)

PRE-PRAYER FOCI It shall do us good to remember that father Abraham had to relunctantly yield to the pressure mounted on him by mother Sarah due to God's intervention and send packing Hagar and her son, who (was) is also father Abraham's first son, naturally speaking.

Mother Sarah died @ age 127 and we shall also not forget that father Abraham was approximately 10 years older than mother Sarah, thus, when mother Sarah died, father Abraham would be 137 years old.

After mother Sarah's burial, perhaps 6 or more months after, father Abraham took another woman to wife called Keturah. This young woman also gave birth to children as well as other women father Abraham was involved with after the demise of mother Sarah.

As we can see the incident that followed the death of mother Sarah, some of us who have come of age have discovered that when a woman (wife) died before her hubby it is always not easy for the man, particularly those practising monogamy.

Although, greater percentage of the children of the woman, in monogamy families would not want their fathers to take up another woman (women) because of some reasons an example of which is, if the woman gives birth to children now, trouble will arose in the family etc.

But, I have come to understanding that some of those children (who would not want their father to re-marry) are not being realistic.

It is true that some after they lose their wives may not take up another woman in marriage again, but the we need to know that it is not everyone that has such gift, just as it is when we are youths. Some may live up to 35, 45, 50 years without knowing a man or woman, being virgin before they get married but some cannot live up to that age before their "instruments" start to make them uneasy, as such get married early. In fact for some, if it is not that God has said we should multiply and replenish the earth, they would never have gotten married at all...it is a gift, not everyone has it.

Just as it is applicable to the youths, or marrying at different times and ages, so is it applicable during old age too when a man losses his heart-throb. This does not mean that the man does not love the woman nor his children, but the truth be said, the children play different roles in the lives of parents from someone who will be close to the man.

In addition, we would not forget that while it is very much easier for a woman to be visiting her children or even children's children, that may not be too easy for men as such the option to take up another woman.

In this technology driven age, we will notice that hardly do one finds a child who will be living with their parents after coming of age and most importantly after marriage. Some will talk about getting a house-maid for the man and all what not, how many house-helps can anyone get for his father that Father Abraham did not have? In fact those he trained himself, in other words those who had known his likes and dislikes were numerous, but yet he took other women.

Another point we will see is despite the fact that Isaac was living with him, overseeing his assets, he yet married other women, and we do not have records of Isaac's antagonisms nor behaving unruly to his father.

Are you having difficulties accepting this for your father who has lost his love, your mum? I think you should have a re-thinking today...no one prays to lose his love but when it happens life must continue and to prevent another immediate death, this may be necessary for the man.

SOME PRAYER POINTS: 1. OH Lord, give me the grace to settle my family before I die in Jesus name,

2. I shall not lose my covenanted child in Jesus name,

3. I shall not endanger the lives of my covenanted child(ren) in Jesus name,

4. The blessings I need to take care of my family, father give me in Jesus name,

5. Give me understanding children in Jesus name,

6. I shall not do what will destroy my lineage in Jesus name,

7. The grace to accept my father's decision or step for his longetivity give me in Jesus name,

8. The required wisdom to control my family give me in Jesus name,

9. I shall not be the cause of my father's sudden death in Jesus name,

10. Etc

PRAYER

"Sojourn in this land and I will be with thee, and will bless thee; for unto thee, and unto thy seed, I will give all these countries, and I will perform the oath which I sware unto Abraham thy father" (Genesis 26:3)

PRE-PRAYER TABLOID All bible students know that God was the one speaking here and his speech was directed to patriarch Isaac.

We will equally not forget that the incidents that preceeded this utterance was not too good as such father Isaac wanted to move out of where he was, he wanted to go for a greener pasture.

All plans have been in place then God spoke to the man, his friend's son.

Just as we know how our bowels move for our friends' children when we come across anyone of them, with that eyes view what has transpired between The Elohim here and father Isaac.

In fact for some of us, even when we see anyone that is very close to our friend, may be his/her niece, nephews, cousins, siblings, we would go out of our ways to start assisting such a one because of the love, interest etc we have for our friend/s. If we can do this for a close person how much more will we do more for the person's child/ren if she or he has any when we come across them?

We will not forget that that was what king David wanted to do for Hanun the son of the late king of Ammon in second Samuel 10.

Based on the above ipso-facto we shall see and understand better what the Jehovah Jireh was up to when He was talking to Prophet Isaac here.

Another thing we shall understand from this before our prayers is that, apart from the fact that Father Isaac was the son of God's friend, Abraham, he (Isaac) himself has developed friendhsip with Jehovah Jireh. Explaining this using Yoruba proverb "A bi Isaaki, Isaaki nã tún tún arã rẹ̀ bí" (translation: "Isaac had a re-birth despite the fact that he had been begotten (by Abraham")).

It was because patriarch Isaac had had a re-birth, not relenting on the experiences of his father with God alone, but ensuring that he also had a personal relationship with Elohim, that was why it became easy for God to speak to him. You will see that such did not happen between king David and the son of his friend (II Samuel 10).

This should now arose our individual minds' as a person that it is not enough to be a pastor/prophet/prophetess etc son/daughter but we need to also have personnal relationship with this God. If you and I have not gotten a relationship with God, we are not doing well we therefore need to ensure that we get a personnal relationship with Him today.

Having a relationship with God is not difficult at all. All that is required of us are: 1. Know ourselves a sinner, 2. Repent of our sins, 3. Confess our sins to God, 4. Determination not to go back into those sins again, 5. Ask Jesus to come into our lives, 6. Start studying the bible and 7. Practising the bible.

When and if we can do these, we would be communed with by God, we will hear Him speak to us, give us instructions on what to do and what we ought nay to do.

May the Lord help your decision in Jesus name. Amen.

FEW PRAYER ITEMS FROM HERE: 1. Let me know your voice oh Lord in Jesus name,

2. Enter with me your covenant in Jesus name,

3. Direct me to where I shall make it in life in Jesus name

Lead me to where my fulfilment is in Jesus name,

4. I shall not destroy the covenant you have with my family in Jesus name,

5. Do not leave me un-attended to in the journey of life in Jesus name,

6. The grace to obey your voice give me in Jesus name,

7. Etc

PRAYER

"And Rebecca said to Isaac, I am weary of my life because of the daughters of Heth: if Jacob take a wife of the daughters of Heth, such as these which are of the daughters of the land, what good shall my life do me?" (Genesis 27:46)

PRE-PRAYER WORDS When children come of age and are ready to (choose) take up someone in marriage, so many forces (seen and unseen) come into play. At such times, children need: patience, good counsellors and counsellings, prayers amongst other things to successfully scale through that hurdle.

Since our fore-fathers error, we all know that the world is under the influence of the wicked ones, thus the forces that actually want men (us) to fail are at our disposal and finger tips than those that want our success.

For those who have knowledge of the word of God, we would say, "nay, nay, nay, pastor, the forces that want us to succeed are at our disposal than those that want us to fail". But if we would be more realistic and factual, we will know that it is because of our knowledge of the scriptures that makes us say that, but in an actual sense, literarily speaking, the forces antagonising our successes in life are more than the agonist forces supporting our successes.

Having said, this, we will know that, the steps taken and or untaken at this juncture when a man/woman wants to get his/her fiance/fiancee is verily important and this would determine to a larger estent the person's journey in life, the person's relationship with God (may be there shall be any relationship at all or there wont be again), their parents continuous mood (joy/sadness) afterwards on them.

The question we may likely ask ourselves is that are we giving our children who has come of age the necessary counsellings not to miss it in life? Are we praying for them?

FEW WORDS OF PRAYER 1. I refuse to miss it maritally in Jesus name,

2. Powers that want me to be a failure maritally should die in Jesus name,

3. Put by me good and Godly advisors at this stage in Jesus name,

4. The grace to yield to good and Godly advices at this stage give me in Jesus name,

5. Blind-fold me to ungodly children or persons so that I don't choose wrongly in Jesus name,

6. The grace to give my children the necessary supports during this stage give me in Jesus name,

7. Forces of failure antagonising my marital success be annihilated by fire in Jesus name,

8. Forces of failure antagonising my children's marital success be destroyed now in Jesus name,

9. Power of marital success enter my children in Jesus name,

10. Power of marital success enter me in Jesus name,

11. Let there be separations between me and un-godly children in Jesus name,

12. The wisdom and knowledge I, as a woman need to discuss with my love (hubby) give me now in Jesus name,

13. Etc

PRAYER

"And behold, I am with thee, and I will keep thee in all places whither thou goest, and will bring thee again into this land; for I will not leave thee, until I have done that which I have spoken to thee of" (Genesis 28:15)

PRE-PRAYER UNDERSTANDING The parents of Jacob; Isaac and Rebecca, called the son who could control his instrument, they called Jacob who was not in a haste to mamrry, I hope we remember that Jacob and Esau were twins, begotten the same day by the same mother and father. They were though unlikely to be identical twins because of their "phenotypical" description by prophet Moses, the writer of the book of Genesis.

Why did I bring it out that they were twins? I so did because I want us to know that when some people have the grace/gift (as apostle Paul puts it in 1st Corinthians 7:7) to control their instrument (sex organ and sexual desires) some are not so gifted. And because some are not as such gifted that does not make them sinners, promiscuous or all what not, as some may want to think/infer.

These twins: Esau and Jacob, show this difference and their lifestyle invariably tell us that we should learn to appreciate and accept individual differences as presented in individual persons we encounter on the planet...

Some may decide to marry at age 15 (after all some religionsists say a child that has clocked 12 years has known her/her left hand from his/her right and that is why they conduct baptism for person as from age 12 basing it on what happened in Luke chapter 2. (Lk. 2:42) They based this baptism on the fact that such a child could decide whether she/he wants to serve Jesus Christ or not as it happened that Jesus waited behind in the temple.

Many Medical personnels may not approve this, neither do I support marrying at this age too, but the truth is that it is happening here and there. No one could actually say the actual age of mother Sarah when she married Abraham. It was not documented. What we only know was when he, Abraham, left his father's place, but they had long been married before this emmigration from Haran, in fact by biblical documentation Abraham and Sarah had been married before Terah's emigration fromm Ur of the Chaldees.

In other words Sarah married early because early marriage for ladies were in vogue then, their marriages do not stop them from performing their duties...(Genesis 11:29-31)

What I am saying is some may marry early while others may not, it is bc of the difference in the fifts possess by individdduals and we should learn to accept that and live with it.

Their parents called Jacob and sent him away... He obeyed and left.

While on his journey, he had to put up at a place, resting and while resting the Lord appeared unto him and had words with him.

God valued to a great extent children's obedience to their parents, and most especially when such parents are Godly parents it is a double honour.

For those who are yet to be saved, we are ostentatiously disobeying our heavenly father, and except we obey our heavenly father, we may not make appreciable progress in life.

Aint you going to accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Saviour now? I, in strong terms, implore you to do that because tomorrow may be too late.

SOME WORDS OF PRAYER FROM HERE: 1. Let me enjoy your presence in my daily endeavours in Jesus name,

2. Let me enjoy your guidance in my daily endeavours in Jesus name,

3. Give me your words of promise oh Lord in Jesus name,

4. Until I attain my goal in life do not leave me oh Lord in Jesus name,

5. What I will do that will make you alter your promises for me, do not let me do it in Jesus name,

6. Etc

PRAYER

"And Leah conceived, and bare a son, and she called his name Reuben: for she said, surely the Lord hath looked upon my affliction: now therefore my husband will love me" (Genesis 29:32)

PRE-PRAYER BUTTON We often think and say that it was only mama Rachel who was barren, but this may not be totally true considering the biblical documentations.

In the bible documentation, we know that father Jacob had to confront Pa. Laban the father of his wife for not dealing right with him by giving him mama Leah instead of mama Rachel that he loved most and had laboured for.

Pa. Laban had to tell Jacob to work for another seven (7) years to get the woman she loved and desired. The deal was made and sealed, thus Jacob started working.

But we all know that when he started working for his in-law, the bible did not say that he sent Leah out of his house nor that Leah moved out during those period. During those periods, we equally know that he, Jacob did not stop to have sexual intercourse with the woman.

If the above is true, therefore, according to the experts, Gynaecologists, an un-interupted coitus for seven whole years without pregnancy is considered an infertility.

This thence means that Leah too was barren for 7 years and some months.

Albeit, when the Lord sees that Jacob and Rachel did not Love Leah, He, God, decided to discipline Rachel as such He shut her womb and opened Leah's womb.

May be God decided to shut Leah's womb for 7 years and some months to show Jacob that He heard and acknowledged his desire, but when Jacob after his wedding to Rachel failed to recognise that it was God's hands that forbade Leah from taking in, he decided to discipline both of them.

You may also be there having delays in taking-in, becoming pregnant, this may be happening to you because of the hatred you have for that sister/brother.

Jacob and Rachel's hatred for Leah brought barreness on Rachel.

We will all agree with me that anybody that one hates one would not speak well of him/her, one would not interract well with him/her, one would be speaking evil of him/her in the secret, one would be making jest of him/her in the secret, one would never see the person's good and or strong sides, one would only be seeing the person's negative and weak sides... This may have been what was happening in the family of Jacob after taken in Rachel as wife.

These incidents spurred God to act the way He acted, shut Rachel's womb.

Shall we pause here to ruminate on the delay/s in taking in that you are passing through? Could it be because of your hatred for sister/brother Q? May be they were the ones who anta-gonised you marrying that brother/sister. May be they have done you an evil/another. May be she was the one who brought about the separation between you and your first love, and you have hated him/her ever since then till death. May be seers and prophets have tagged her/him your enemies? Or may be you have even dreamt dreams showing that they are your enemies. May be your parents/Guardians have told you that some people are your enemies, the family's enemies and should be distanced from etc?

Whatever the source of the hatred is, from this recorded incident to Rachel, don't you think you need to stop hating the person? (Genesis 29:31)

I think you need to stop hating the person. The bible also records that no hatred would inherit the kingdom of Heaven.

Hating someone, apart from being the likely cause of delay on our paths, it will as well debar us from inheriting the kingdom of God. Dont you want to get to heaven? I know you want to be there, therefore, I, in strong terms implore you to stop hating the person and act as normal to him/her.

We however should not mistake this for stopping to pray against all hinderances and enemies, but in praying against enemies one is expected not to have anyone in mind, the Lord who knows all things know how to deal with them.

For you who are yet to be saved, it is easy for you to hate because you are yet of the devil. What is needful of you at the moment is accepting Jesus as your Saviour and Lord, doing this will make Jesus to wash your hearts clean with His blood and hating another person would no longer be easy. PRAYER POINTS: 1. Oh Lord, look upon my affliction today in Jesus name,

2. Oh Lord remove my affliction today in Jesus name,

3. Forgive me the sins of hatred I have committed in Jesus name,

4. Wash my heart clean by your blood in Jesus name,

5. Restore/Repair all damages done by hatred in my life in Jesus name,

6. Give me the grace to love others in Jesus name,

7. Stop the negative effects of hatreds in my life in Jesus name,

8. Give me what will make my wife/hubby love me the more in Jesus name,

9. Open my Womb to conceive oh Lord in Jesus name,

10. Let me concieve good things in Jesus name,

11. Demons of barreness get out of me in Jesus name,

12. Etc

PRAYER

"And God remembered Rachel, and God hearkened to her, and opened her womb" (Genesis 30:22)

PRE-PRAYER NUGGETS The writer of the book of Hebrews said, "it is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of the Living God" (Hebrews 10:31)

When Jacob and Rachel decided not to treat Leah the first wife and Rachel's elder sister well, they did not know that that was how it would play out, they did not know that God would attach importance to it. When God did attach importance to it, He dealt with them such that the duo's love was even threatened.

When they came to their senses and changed, committing their estate to prayers, God afterwards hearkened unto their prayers.

We also least know that what we were doing afore time would turn out the way it turned out for us, but despite the fact that it turned out the way it did, God through this is saying it is not too late for you and I. God wants us to retrace our steps and change. After we might have changed, God requires of us to commit our lives to prayer, commit those things that have gone awry to prayer and as he answered Rachel He promises to answer us too.

Do not think it is too late for you, in as much as you have your breathe in you, it is not too late.

It is not too late to be saved, are you yet dilly-dallying with the matter of salvation? I sincerely beg you not to belittle this important matter again. Repent of your sins now and give your life to Jesus Christ and start doing his wills and all shall be well with you.

FEW WORDS OF PRAYER 1. Oh God, pardon me my sins in Jesus name,

2. Oh Lord was me clean by your blood in Jesus name,

3. As you remembered Rachel, Almighty God remember me for good today in Jesus name,

4. As you hearkened unto Rachel's voice, hearken unto my voice today in Jesus name.

5. As you opened Rachel's womb, open my womb now in Jesus name (Those trusting God for fruits of the womb should place their right hand on their tommy or abdomen as they pray this prayer... In case you are offering the prayer for someone at a far place, place your right hand on your tommy by faith for her having this in mind that the God with you there covers the entire earth)

6. Shall we again say, open my spiritual womb to conceive good things in Jesus name,

7. Put in me things hidden From the foundations of the world in Jesus name

Oh Lord let me discover new things hidden from the foundations of the world in Jesus name,

8. Power to conceive (physical and spiritual) give me now in Jesus name,

9. Everything disturbing my conception be destroyed in Jesus name,

10. I refuse to die barren in Jesus name,

11. Etc

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