#ty for the ask bb uwu

[songsofdivinity]

@seaprofound sent a meme: + 👪 for a family-themed headcanon

hc + 🧡 for a friendship-themed headcanon

hc + 💌 for a romance-themed headcanon

for all of your muses !!

Aglaea

Family - She loves being a mother, far more than she thought she would. Raising her daughters was a delight, and they are her pride and joy. She would certainly not be upset if she were to have more children, because building her own family is a joy she never expected but is glad she is now aware of.

Friendship - Her closest friend is probably Aphrodite. She serves her loyally, but the relationship is more of a friendship than anything else. She cherishes it greatly, which is why I hc that she asked for Aphrodite's blessing before she pursued anything with Hephaestus.

Romance - Funnily enough, Aglaea never actually gave much thought to finding love before she fell for Hephaestus. She was perfectly content doing her duties as one of Aphrodite's attendants. I think because so many marriages among the gods are strained, forced, or broken, she decided she could live without any kind of relationship. That isn't to say that she didn't have the occasional dalliance, but she never had or really craved anything serious until she met Heph. She does enjoy romantic gestures though, and a good love story does make her sigh dreamily.

Medusa

Family - Medusa has a pretty good relationship with her gorgon sisters and visited them often prior to her punishment. She felt sad they were unable to mingle with others as she did, and her awareness of their hardships is what made her own transformation so difficult for her. After her transformation, I HC they still visit her from time to time and try to comfort her.

Friendship - While she received attention from plenty of admirers with a sexual or romantic interest in her, I feel like Medusa did struggle to make friends with people, as despite her beauty she still was something inhuman, and so always felt a bit of a barrier between herself and humans. I feel like she had acquaintances more than anything. And of course, post transformation, any chances of friendship with people died.

Romance - Medusa did dream of romance as a young girl, however, she gave up the notion when she dedicated herself to Athena. Her love for the goddess outshone any advances she received, and she knew even if she fell in love, most would be put off by her vow that wouldn't allow for copulation. Poseidon was the only one who made her think about romance again, and in the end she couldn't resist the pull she felt towards him.

Amphitrite

Family - One would think that having so many siblings would be hard, but Amphitrite loves each and every one of them in her own way, though I think she's closest to Thetis and spends the most time with her. She'd never admit to having a favourite sister, though.

Friendship - I like to think she's good friends with her fellow Queens, happily spending time with both Hera and Persephone when she can. They probably have a great time gossiping about the happenings in their respective kingdoms, as well as confiding in and supporting each other when things get tough.

Romance - Amphi had a very idealistic view of romance when she was young and wanted something much like what her parents have. It was part of the reason she fled upon being betrothed to Poseidon, upset that she wasn't getting the romance she'd dreamt of and was instead to marry a god she'd never met. Initially I think she was quite cold in her marriage, but eventually she was won over, and she did fall for Poseidon in the end. Turns out she did get her romance, the order was just a little jumbled.

Pasithea

Family - She doesn't get to see her father as much after her marriage, but I think she gets on well with him and enjoys it when she gets to spend time with him. (Update) - She also spends time with Hera, though naturally she never spends time with them both at the same time, as their animosity upsets her. She wishes her birth father and adoptive mother would get on, but she knows it's unlikely to ever happen.

Friendship - She's great friends with the Maenads and sometimes roams with them if the mood strikes. What's better than roaming about with the girls and having wild parties?

Romance - Pasithea had a fair few relationships before her marriage, but none were ever particularly serious or led anywhere. She never really gave thought to falling in love beyond 'if it happens, it happens'. She was surprised when she was promised to Hypnos, but she was actually pretty chill with it, and once she got to know him, she tumbled quite surprisingly in love.

Minthe

Family - Minthe's only immediate family is her father, Cocytus, and she makes every effort to see him when she can. When they're together, it's easy to see where her gloomy personality comes from, so they actually get on pretty well because they understand one another. She loves her father, and truthfully, he's one of the only people she trusts implicitly.

Friendship - Minthe has no close friends, unless you count her father. That's it; that's the headcanon. She is... very lonely.

Romance - Before she met Hades, she had a rather naive view of love, and she assumed her love with Hades would last forever when they were together. After her punishment, that view became tainted, and she now is more guarded with her heart. She still yearns for love, but her already low confidence got knocked even lower after her punishment and separation from Hades, so she fears she will never have it. Especially because she still has some lingering feelings for Hades, making it hard for her to move on.

[x1702x]

1, 7, and 16 for the violence ask game!

1.The character everyone gets wrong

Now, this is a basic answer, but it's Gehrman. Now I know I know, this has been repeated to utter HELL but let's be fair, if it wasnt this common I wouldn't be talking about it. I just HAATEEE when people water him down to some pervert old guy. He's very complex!! Ughhh ily peepaw,,

7.What character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how the fandom acts about them?

I wouldn't say hate at all, I dont hate any BB chars to be fair, although I am tired of how some people act about Laurence. Its either hatred or woobification 😭 I dont hate him in the slightest, yet he can be vile in my own headcanon.

16.You can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

FINALLY I CAN TALK ABOUT THIS OHHHHH.

LAURENCE OVERFEMINIZATION, FETISHIZATION OR TSUNDEREIFICATION. I AM SO TIRED!! SO EXHAUSTED!!

I dont know how popular it is on a broader extent but I've seen it quite a lot myself. Not just in fanart but in fanfiction. Wherever it be making him submissive yet defiant, or anything of the like.

We have to remember what Laurence is, he is the head of a CHURCH, a religious institution. He is a graduate (assuming), a researcher... He is a public figure, someone yharnamites have put their trust and respect on. Im not forcing everyone to be time-period accurate but lets be honest. If Laurence was any of the latter he wouldn't be respected in the slightest.

I am tired of Laurence being the "uwu bottom but angy boi!! Dont touch meh tail!" Kinda mf. Especially when its with a nasty intent. It feels shallow to put this character in specific on such light.

Im not name-dropping yet Ive seen someone with very odd Laurence art, aswell as characterization. He looks rather femenine and childish yet he is supposed to be taken as serious. Ugghhh I dont want to go off on a long rant. But it just bothers me how some people portray him as some "Horny anime girl" just like one of my mutuals mentioned. This man is a VICAR!!

Im NOT saying you cant make him slightly femenine or andorgynous like, have you seen my Laurence? He fits that description and I dont mind! Just dont be nasty and use that feminization as a gateway to fetishize and make nasty stuff.

This is Bloodborne, if you want that, make an oc im begging. You can write as much nasty smut you want with it, just dont use the Bloodborne branding especially if it's going to be so far from canon that if you changed names it could perfectly be oc content.

I also hate the oversexualization of the doll n stuff aswell as other things but my mutuals have taken the words off my mouth fr!!

But yeah thats kinda my whole rant😭😭 ty for asking crow!!

[fmddevin]

👀 will florida daein ever make a comeback?

“uh….that’s a hard one. hopefully the bad parts of him are gone for good, but like…the fun side? he’s never really left, if i’m being honest. i don’t really skate anymore, but like i dance, i party, i drink, it’s most of the same stuff, just not as public obviously. but the truly, truly chaotic florida daein’s gonna be unleashed if me or my friends ever get married. because those bachelor parties…? shit, let’s just hope it’s after my idol career’s over. it’s gonna be so much fun, i can see it. i’m already ready.

[cleverphil]

can i just say that you truly are such a wonderful person and your blog is amazing. you were one of the only dnp blogs that i continued to follow throughout the hiatus and you are just so genuine, kind hearted and honestly deserve all the love ever💜💜💜

Ugh nonnie my heart belongs to you!! Y’all are too sweet and I love y’all so very much! I’m so thankful to have such amazing friends and people who support me it means a lot!❤️

[heich0e]

Here's a prompt for you if u want to!!! In honor of daddy's birthday uwu

You Isabel and Farlan have been trying to get Levi shitfaced on his birthday EVERY year. He never gets a little more than tipsy, maybe stumbles over his words a couple times. But this year? You three SWEAR it's gonna be the year he gets completely smashed at the birthday/Xmas party Erwins thrown at his family's house. He's spending the night so he doesn't have the excuse of having to drive!

a/n: this one... rly got away from me uwu ty ley bb and HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEVI

bubbly levi ackerman/reader (attack on titan) word count: 1.8k tags: modern!au, holiday fluff, friends to lovers, mutual pining, furlan and isabel being menaces

"Hey, Levi!" Farlan called across the party, his voice carrying over the soft rendition of some classic Christmas tune that the pianist that had been hired to perform for the evening was playing. The sandy-haired boy reached up, waving one long arm over his head to capture his intended target's attention.

You watched as Levi eyed him from his place on the other side of the room, leaning against the wall with his arms crossed - the same glass of whiskey he'd been nursing for the better part of two hours still held between the tips of his fingers. His gaze narrowed slightly, and then the crowd between you shifted and you lost sight of him.

Farlan groaned, his arm dropping much like his spirits. "This is a total bust again."

"How does this happen every year?" Isabel huffed, letting her slight frame slump against yours.

Your eyes were still glued to the other side of the room, and when the well-dressed crowd parted again, you saw that Levi had slipped away, nowhere to be found.

Of course.

"You've almost gotta admire his resolve," you added with a world-weary sigh. "Not even Mr. Smith's open bar can tempt him."

You missed the look that Farlan and Isabel had shared from either side of you the moment that you uttered the word tempt.

"Say," Farlan said, snaking an arm around your shoulder, pulling you into his side, a little further from Isabel, though she let you go willingly. "Have you tried to get him to down anything?"

You blinked up at him curiously -- perhaps it was the champagne you'd been drinking, but the sly tone of his question was lost on you.

"Er, yeah. I've been right with you all night?" Your brow pinched in confusion at his words.

"You know, I think that if you asked him really nicely, he might have another drink," Isabel agreed, tapping her chin thoughtfully as her glossy lips pursed.

"I can try," you said, though your intonation rose at the end as though it was a question more than an agreement.

"Great!" Furlan clapped his hands together in excitement. He turned and picked up the two glasses of champagne he'd secured from a passing server, forcing them into your hands. "He probably went up to our guest room, you go meet him there and give him one of these."

And so you found yourself shuffling along through the sprawling halls of the Smith family home towards the guest room Levi and Farlan were set to share for the evening. You couldn't hear the music anymore this far away from the main part of the house where the party was taking place, though if you listened hard enough you could still hear the faint drone of voices drifting through the sumptuously decorate corridors -- Mrs. Smith really didn't play around when it came to holiday cheer.

You tapped lightly on the guest room door once you made it, waiting to hear any sign of life on the other side. You wondered for a moment if maybe Levi had gone to bed, but it was still only 11, and even if he was feigning slumber you'd known him long enough to be confident he wasn't really asleep.

You pushed your way into the dark room, squinting against the absence of light as you dragged your knuckle across the wall in search of a light switch -- being careful not to spill the champagne in the flute between your fingers.

You gave up trying to find the light, knowing there were lamps on either side of the bed, and treaded carefully towards the bedside table nearest the window where the faintest moonlight illuminated your path.

You nearly shrieked as you turned the corner of the bed and saw a shadowy figure on the ground.

"Jesus Christ, Levi!" you yelped, recognizing the vague, fuzzy lines of the body at your feet as his own. "You scared the shit out of me!"

Levi said nothing, but as your eyes adjusted to the moonlit room a little better, you watched him tilt his head up towards you.

"What are you doing on the floor?" you asked him flatly.

"Sitting."

"Ha, ha." You stepped over him, grateful for the dim lighting so he couldn't see up your cocktail dress, and flicked the lamp you'd been searching for on.

Levi blinked up at you from his place on the floor -- his back against the bed and his legs stretched out towards the wall. His glass of whiskey (still half-full) was resting next to him.

"You're hiding," you said to him.

"I'm taking a break."

"In a dark room, huddled behind a bed?" you asked, tilting your head to the side.

Levi rolled his eyes before shutting them completely, letting his head tip back to rest against the side of the mattress.

"Scooch over," you said to him, and he cracked an eye as he peered up at you. You nudged his leg with the toe of your shoe for emphasis.

He heeded your request begrudgingly, sliding over so there was enough space between him and the bedside table for you to take a seat beside him.

"I brought you this," you said, once you'd settled in on the floor at his side, handing one of the champagne flutes to him.

Levi clicked his tongue admonishingly, but took the glass from you anyway -- fingertips brushing against yours as the thin stem moved from your grip to his.

You raised your own glass of fizzling wine to your lips.

"I see you and the dumb dumb duo are still hell bent on getting me drunk on my birthday, even after all these years."

You nearly choked, spluttering over the carbonation that was rapidly crawling up your nose.

You turned to look at him.

"You knew?"

"You three are about as subtle as an uppercut," he snorted, eyes sliding over to meet yours.

You gaped. "You're the worst!"

Levi laughed at that -- an honest chuckle slipping from his lips as they curled at the corners in a little smile.

"Yeah, guess I am," he said with a shrug, turning to look forward at the wall again. "Mean thing to say to a guy on his birthday though."

"You hate your birthday," you replied, frowning.

"I do," he agreed.

"You don't even let us buy you presents," you added.

"I don't," he said, concurring once more.

"You know, it's Christmas," you said to him after a moment.

"So I've been told," Levi mused, and you resisted the urge to elbow him in the side.

"You didn't get me anything."

Levi looked at you, a little taken aback.

"We never exchange gifts."

"I know that, but you didn't even ask if there was anything I wanted," your lips pursed forward in a little pout as you said the words.

"Well," Levi cleared his throat slightly, "was there?"

"Maybe," you mused, feigning reticence.

"What was it?"

"For you to drink that champagne."

Levi groaned at your obvious ploy, tilting his head back and throwing a crooked arm over his eyes.

You laughed a little to yourself as you sat beside him, sipping your own drink while you let him wallow.

"Well," Levi said after a few quiet moments, and you turned to look at him, your glass still poised at your lips. "It's not fair if I get you something but you don't get me something. It's my birthday after all."

He still wasn't looking at you. His eyes shielded under the sleeve of his dress shirt.

"What do you want?" you asked him, your mouth suddenly a little drier. You took another drink.

For the first time since you sat next to him you became aware of just how close the two of you actually were -- how your thighs were flush, how you could feel the heat from his body radiating into yours, how you could smell the cologne he always wore at the end of each inhale.

"If I drink the champagne, you have to give me it."

You almost could have laughed at how serious Levi sounded, but for some reason, you didn't.

"Okay," you replied, but you found that you could only whisper the words.

"No matter what it is?" he asked.

"Yeah."

Slowly, Levi let his arm drop, peering over at you hesitantly. You watched as he brought the glass of champagne to his lips, taking a healthy swig. Your eyes traced the way his adam's apple bobbed on each swallow -- and after three rhythmic dips, the flute was drained.

"Merry christmas," he said, grimacing a little against what you could only assume was the burn in his throat from the bubbles.

"So what do you wan-"

Levi's face was suddenly very close to yours, a blush on his cheeks too prominent and too sudden to be from the champagne, and you questioned if maybe he'd had more to drink that night than you'd noticed.

"No matter what it is, right?" he said quietly, seeking confirmation as the warm breath behind his words broke across your lips.

Your heart seized in your chest, and all of the carbonation in your stomach suddenly felt like it had gone to your brain -- all you could do was nod slightly in response, your eyes raking over his features.

Levi leaned forward, one hand reaching over your waist to rest on the floor on the other side of you -- effectively pinning you against the side of the bed beneath his frame.

His lips brushed against yours -- so sweet and soft that you half-questioned whether they'd met at all.

Your eyes were open, and so were his. Slate grey peering back at you with a flicker of anxiety behind them that betrayed that he was worried he was taking things too far. He pulled back slightly, staring at you with the same earnest worry as when he'd been kissing you.

"Is that all?" you asked him after a few pulse beats thrummed loud in your ears, the words a little more fluttery than you would have liked them to be. "Seems like a kind of half-assed birthday present."

Levi laughed a little, half-incredulous and half-relieved, his head dropping forward to rest against your shoulder. "Do you have something better in mind?" he asked quietly, so close to you that you felt the words reverberate through his frame.

You set your empty glass to the side, cradling his face between your hands as you tilted his face up towards you again. His blush was so fierce now that even the tips of his ears were red -- but this time you knew the alcohol had nothing to do with it.

He licked his lips, his gaze trailing down to your mouth before flickering back up again -- all of the hesitation in his gaze having fizzled away like the bubbles in the champagne you'd just drank.

"I might have a few ideas."

[excitedlysuffering]

hc for reader cuddling/being touched starved with sai, pretty please? uwu✨

Touch Starved- Sai Headcanons

This brought me so much joy🥰 ty for the request bb! @twinkle toes hope you see this✨

Sai is touch starved too, he just doesn’t know it at first.

Sorry, but he won’t notice that you’re touch starved if you’re not vocal about it, he’s a lot little oblivious.

He will, however, take note of how you’re beginning to cling to him more often without even noticing.

It takes him a while to say something. Someone probably mentioned it first to him tbh.

“(Y/N) seems really touchy. Do you deprive her of attention or something?”

It was probably meant as a joke really, but Sai starts hard core thinking about it and the more he does the more it makes sense to him.

He’s freaking out internally. No one would ever be able to tell but inside he’s like-

“WHAT HAVE I DONE?!?! I’VE PUSHED THEM AWAY THEY DOESN’T WANT ME ANY MORE!”

Anyways, suddenly he’s allll over you. Hugs, gentle caresses, (somewhat awkward) cuddles. It’s appreciated but it’s also sudden.

When you ask him what’s going on, he’ll just... deflate. He looks so worried and it’s honestly heartbreaking.

“Well, I’ve come to realize that I’ve been neglecting you... I’ve been pushing you away... I really don’t want to lose you.”

Do you hear that? It’s the sound of your heart shattering.

You’ll have to assure him that you aren’t even thinking of leaving him (cuz let’s face it, you’re not) and that you’re naturally touch starved, it’s not anything he did.

He’ll be really relieved for a minute like ‘oh good not my fault😌’ then he’s like WAIT. YOU NEED CUDDLES.

Sai isn’t overly physical affectionate, so cuddles are sparse. The only guaranteed cuddle time is when you’re sleeping beside each other.

He’ll definitely ask you to teach him to cuddle you the way you like most. A real sweetheart🥰

He likes having you sit on his lap, facing him. He’ll tell you it’s because masterpieces deserve to be seen at all times *cue nationwide swoon*

He really didn’t know how comforting cuddles were until he started doing it more often.

You two definitely develop little non verbal signs that signal you need him to love on you a lil. And let’s face it, it’s not uncommon for Sai to you use them too.

You guys are so cute oml-

[a-smr-things]

BESTIE CONGRATULATIONS on 200,,,,, u deserve so many more 🌸💕💖

ily bb

also

🤡 - I will tell you something funny/stupid/exciting from my life

💫 - Malayalam movie recs

TY TY TY ILY SIMPYYY

And for the ask game:

🤡

Sooo, it happened a blue moon ago, BC (before Corona)... We were returning from our school Mysore trip... It was the last night of our trip and we dined at this restuarant called Thechi around the Bangalore-somewhere border.

Many fun incident happened in the Thechi but this one is the most tumblr safe, ig. My friends and I had finished eating and were waiting outside the restaurant for everyone else to come out. Someone had bought this rabbit ear thing that Jungkook and Jimin wore and we were all taking turns playing with it.

ASo this Granny was about to enter the restaurant but she didn't realise that the she was not entering through the open glass door and she bumped walked straight into a wall of glass. And my friend who was wearing the rabbit ears hat was playing with it like the gif above, with a clueless expression on her face when the granny hit the glass.

It's not that funny when I type it out, but imagine, a granny walking into a glass door and you are just standing there playing with movable rabbit ears... (I wanted to buy them but they were too expensive)

Also, I can never get over that gif above. Holy schmit. *heart flutters*

💫

You know Chhapaak? Well, we had a malayalam movie with the female lead as an acid attack survivor way before Chhapaak (and it wasn't a biopic- sorry I just had to take a dig at old Bolly and its biopics).

It's called Uyare and the story showcases an ambitious young girl, her toxic relationship with her boyfriend, how her life gets shattered because of his actions and how she regains her strength and goes 📈📈📈 from there. I mean, Uyare literally means high (not that kind of high, you dumbass).

The actress, Parvathy, portrayed her character beautifully. Also, it'd be refreshing for you to see someone who isn't of the Bolly body type play an empowered woman (also Parvathy is gorgeous. She is an awesome feminist actress to look up to). The makeup is fantastic and the songs in this movie are frickin awesome. There's this one song that is a montage of their relationship.

Asif Ali did a fantastic job in playing her toxic boyfriend. He acted so well, it was guaranteed that we'd hate his character by the end of the movie.

If there is a dubbed version, please do not watch it. Remember that subs>>>>dubs. I think it's available on netflix.

[deadontheinsidebut]

first of all, hi! i really love your vlog so much! is in one of top 10 tbh. you’re so talented. my top ten accounts are @/todomochi-uwu, @/starboybokuto, @/kagetobi0, @/heyitsyn, @/haikwritings, @/tetsou, @/tsukkiscake, @/ushi-please, @/nekomasmeow and of course you. now i ask you, what are your top 10 accounts? i will really love to see new content!❤️

OH MY GOSHHHH anon you’re making me blush what the actual— 🥺👉🏻👈🏻💘💓💖💓 you listed some really good accounts!! IK a few but I’ll go check out the rest soon ty for the recs bb!!!

Here are my top 10 in no particular order ☺️

1. @kenmakodzu — her writing never disappoints. Seriously... never disappoints. I love her writing style and she’s one of my best friends too!!

2. @mrs-kuroojinguji — dude her writing has sm range!! You know you’re in for a treat when you visit her for sure. My other bestie that I care for lots!!

3. @katsushimaa — she writes for HQ and BNHA!! She deserves all the recognition she gets and more because she truly is such a talented human being it’s crazy. No wonder she’s my light.

4. @millie-mint — she’s my fluff queen!! Her aesthetic blog and adorable self will never fail to make you smile. My other bestie ily

5. @satorispup — she has a SMAU going on (again) !! She’s actually the queen of SMAUs for me tbh and you won’t be disappointed by her hilarious personality too.

6. @animatedarchives — she writes fics, drabbles, and hcs and they’re all majestic I love it sm. My other bestie YAYAY!! Check her out

7. @bluberryparfait — Blue writes everything. The range is immaculate. I know my stay on her blog will always be a blast. Her top posts are her top posts for a reason.

8. @crocyoota — Nidae writes some spicy things. And their ideas are always out of the box. I’m always like wow... how did you even come up with that LMFAO

9. @xavestory — Xave’s art is out of this world. If you want someone who actually always puts out genuine and amazing work, then you gotta check out this blog.

10. @janellion — ok to be fair... Kayla hasn’t posted a new piece in a little while and she’s on a break rn but I can’t help but put her on my list because her writing style always pulls me in and leaves me with a rainbow of emotions. My bestie who I need to put more time into

I have many more moots that deserve the recognition but as of rn this is my top 10 writers🥺🥺 I’ll make a pt 2 if anyone asks bye

[shishinoya]

a - z alphabet is CLOSED

☾ ⋆*･ﾟ:⋆*･ﾟ:⠀ *⋆.*:･ﾟ .: ⋆*･ﾟ: .⋆ — REQUEST || “Hello! I really like ur writing c: Can i request like the whole nsfw alphabet for Suga?^^‘ i already saw u did two for him but nsfw for suga is quite rare, so i wondered...😅 Ty in advance c;” — anon — PAIRING || Sugawara Koushi X Fem!Reader — TYPE || Headcanons — WARNING || NSFW — WORD COUNT || NA — AUTHOR’S NOTE || this took me so long to get to... i’m so sorry ;-; but the whole list sometimes takes me quite a long time to do sorry bb but I hope u enjoy ittt ☾ ⋆*･ﾟ:⋆*･ﾟ:⠀ *⋆.*:･ﾟ .: ⋆*･ﾟ: .⋆

[ a — aftercare (how would they be after sex?) ]

》 Suga’s a mommmmmm

》 He will make it his life goal to make sure you are comfortable all the time

》 After you two are done with the fucking, he will be quite quick to provide any painkillers, supplements, or vitamins

》 You might not need them, but he won’t take any chances and will quite literally force you to take them

》 Fucking makes you lose a lot of nutrients🥺

》 Will apply any lotions or cooling creams onto your body to ease and make it feel better

》 Will wrap you up in a cozy blanket or bathrobe just in case your temperature drops too much

》 Even if you are warm enough, he will continue to hold you close, cuddling the shit out of you

》 Will caress your arms and any skin that he hadn’t paid attention during your session

》 Soft traces and light kisses too uwu

[ b — body part (what’s their favourite body part of you and what body part of theirs would you like?) ]

》 Your hair

》 He loves being able to play with it even when it’s not involving sex

》 Just being able to see it all messed up because of him

》 Likes being able to tug on it and run his fingers through the strands

》 Honestly, you would love his tongue

》 LOL I know it’s very forward and not that poetic

》 But like

》 Mans can give mad head

》 He’s really good at it and no joke would be your favourite body part

[ c — cum (anything to do with cum) ]

》 I don’t think Suga would be one to really really like cream pies but I still think he would love seeing his cum mixed with yours

》 Would love to marvel at how it covers your inner thighs and drips from your pussy

》 Is also a sucker for cumming on your breasts and stomach

》 Just likes seeing you covered in his cum

》 In your hair, oH yes!

》 Running down the sides of your arms, he ready to nut again

》 In your mouth? Hng

[ d — dirty secret (learn a dirty secret they have) ]

》 He will DIE if you ever found out

》 Sometimes when you’re sleeping

》 He would just dry hump you 

》 Because

》 You know, men have problems

》 And when you have a problem, u solve it

》 If you wake up during it, just stay quiet or else he’ll be too embarrassed and you won’t hear him silent trying to say your name while not waking you up

》 The noises are kinda cute uwu

[ e — erogenous (what’s their sensitive spot that makes him putty in your hands?) ]

》 His cheeks

》 ASS CHEEKS AY YOO

》 No, just kidding

》 He really likes it when you cup his face in your hands

》 The warmth of your hands just comfort him so much

》 With melt further into your hands when you do it

[ f — favourite position ]

》 Either cockwarming or fucking your while spooning

》 He’s a sweet lover and cockwarming is just a more intimate version of spooning

》 Cockwarming often ends up with him fucking you because it kinda gets uncomfortable

》 And as your pussy just squeezes are him, he can’t help it

[ g — goofy (are they more serious in bed or more likely to laugh?) ]

》 NEITHER

》 HE’S MORE LOVING IN BED

》 But if it had to be one

》 It would be more goofy

》 I don’t think he’ll be very serious and just wants to love you

[ h — hair (how well are they groomed? do they like it when you pull their hair?) ]

》 I don’t think he would really clean himself

》 He may be an amazing lover but he can be lazy

》 Sometimes he forgets to trim and it might get a bit long whOOPs

》 Running your hands through his hair soothes him but like also turns him on LOL

》 He likes a little tug but not too much cuz it hurts :(

[ i — intimacy (how intimate are they? how long into the relationship does it take for them to want to get intimate?) ]

》 Very intimate right off the bat

》 As soon as you too get into a relationship, will be all over you

》 If you aren’t ready yet, of course he won’t push you

》 But he will be really touchy 0.0

[ j — jerk off (when would they masturbate?) ]

》 Ah, sweet babey needs to relieve himself 

》 It would probably be at night time when no one can catch him in the act LMAO

》 He gets embarrassed so he will have to do it when no one is awake or not at home

[ k — kinks (do they have any kinks?) ]

》 I don’t think Suga is a very kinky man

》 Maybe a bit of bondage here and there to tie your hands or something

》 But either than that, I don’t think he really has any

》 I think of him as a switch as well so there’s no dom or sub to him

[ l — location (where do they like to fuck? favourite place? how open are they to the public?) ]

》 The couch of the bed

》 Like I said,

》 He gets embarrassed so fucking belongs in the bedroom or somewhere you two are just alone together

[ m — motivation (what drives them in sex?) ]

》 When you say his name

》 The noises he makes

》 Even the scratching and shaking can turn him on as well

》 They all tell him that he’s doing a good job making you feel good

》 And if you are feeling good, then he’s feeling good

[ n — NOs (what are their turnoffs?) ]

》 Anything that involves impaling the skin

》 Not even spanking

》 I don’t think he can handle the fact that he hurt you and will not be comfortable with it

[ o — oral (do they like giving it? do they like receiving it?) ]

》 HE LOVES TO GIVE IT

》 Loves being able to make you squirm and moves to the movement of his tongue

》 Sometimes even loves seeing the tears and hearing the whines when he stops and edges you

[ p — pace (how fast are they? how rough are they? how considerate are they of their partner?) ]

》 He is mostly really gentle and loving during sex

》 But when you want it rough

》 He can give it to you rough ;)

》 Slow, sensual sex is his go-to though

》 Rough, steamy sex is only for when he’s really into the role and the mood is right

[ q — quickies (do they enjoy them? where is their favourite place to have a quickie?) ]

》 I don’t really see him doing any quickies

》 He takes his time in bed

》 Loves to make it last

》 So quickies are not very common

[ r — risk (are they open to new experiences?) ]

》 It’s really up to you

》 If you want to try something new he would be down

》 As long as he’s comfortable with everything you ask him to, he will happily go along with it

[ s — stamina (how many rounds can they go? how long can they last?) ]

》 Not that long to be honest

》 I mean he’s pretty decent

》 But doesn’t have hulk-like stamina that ushijima or bokuto has

》 He can probably last 1 maybeee 2 if you stretch it

[ t — toys (do they use them? do they enjoy using them? what is their favourite toy?) ]

》 Nah nah

》 This bb is vanilla

》 Loves a good old cock in pussy action

》 He wants to be able to make you feel good by his own power so he would  avoid using any toys

[ u — unfair (how much do they tease you?) ]

》 Suga can tease quite a bit

》 Like he might not look like it, but he’s kinda a little shit

》 Will edge you and wait for the gasps and water-works until he’s satisfied with how much you are babbling his name

》 Since he might not last long, he will make sure that you will feel good for a lot longer than what his dick can do

[ v — volume (how loud are they?) ]

》 Suga is vocalllll

》 He will say your name, moan, grunt, groan

》 You name it

》 He does it

》 He can’t help it so don’t tease him

》 Babyyy get’s embarrassedd

[ w — wild card (know something about them) ]

》 I take him as a strawberry eater

》 Chocolate covered strawberries

》 Right before sex

》 Perfect

[ x — x-ray (how would they look like without their clothes on?) ]

》 Suga is fit, but not jacked

》 He’s got a slim build and not too too muscly

》 He’s more on the smaller and skinner end of the ruler

[ y — yearning (how high is their sex drive? how often do they think about sex?) ]

》 I doubt his sex drive is high but his love drive is high

》 LOL will never pass up a chance to give you love

》 Even if it leads to sex, it will be the sweet loving type

[ z — zzz (how quick are they to fall asleep afterwards?) ]

》 He will take all the time in the world to make sure you are feeling great and loved

》 If you have the slightest look of uncomfortable on your face, he’s up and asking questions

》 After everything, will fall asleep with you in his arms

[jae-canikeepyou]

wip folder game

tagged by: @dejvns my bb sis uwu ty <3

rules: post the names of all the files in your wip folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. then, people can send asks with the title that most intrigues/interests them and you’ll post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it!

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sun & moon

ocean waves

some world

adjacent

nineteen 97

the wedding

signals

detached

into you

— series

love alert

silver lining

fireflies

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i’m happy to answer you if you’re interested what i have in my drafts atm! :D i’ll probably tell you genres as long as i don’t spoil any content~

tagging: @espresseo-cafe @ppangjae @cupofjae @ncthothours @lovemenowjjh01 @cozyjsuh @renjunvinates @afishcalledfatin @127-mile @bunny-doyounq @suhpressed

[muwur]

hiii can I request hcs for Bokuto, Oikawa and Kuroo crushing on a shy s/o :3 tyyyy

crushing on a shy s/o

✧ hc’s ✧ for Bokuto, Oikawa & Kuroo

❧ gn reader

✎ 1.6k words

a/n: ty for the request ! <33 idk y everytime its like headcanons mixed w scenario frjffgt i hope das ok w yall my definitions of all these intersect too much--

Bokuto

✧ mans sometimes has trouble knowing people’s boundaries

✧ PERO bby is just being himself, we lov a king

✧ I DIGRESS. N E WAYS

✧ when he has a crush, he just wants to give you a lot of attention

✧ your shyness is just an added uwu factor to him, he craves seeing how surprised you get whenever he just so happens to pop up out of nowhere to say hi!

✧ tbh he spotted you from like a mile away and pretended like he needed to go in the same direction just so he could talk to you--

✧ doesn’t hesitate to compliment you! will ask if you did anything different (you: “not really” ) and then always says “you always look great, anyway, no need to change anything!”

✧ invites you to his games, hyping up his team and insisting that if you come, he’ll play even better because of your support

✧ has to control himself from leaping with happiness and giving you a hug when you respond a bit bashfully, agreeing to go like 👉👈 “oh, sure, ill come” bc a cutie just asked you to come watch him play

✧ however, when akaashi mentioned once that Bokuto might be coming on a bit strong for your more timid nature, he tried to tone it down

✧ but then he got sad thinking that maybe he was actually overwhelming or annoying you and he sulked for three and a half days despite akaashi insisting that you probably didn’t feel that way, otherwise you would just avoid him

✧ you noticed recently he’s been acting a bit off, and it made you a bit sad to see him looking upset

✧ so you decided to make a sign for him for his upcoming game!

✧ you lugged it around with you when you entered the gym, backside facing forward to hide what it said

✧ you were a bit self-conscious, to say the least

✧ you got settled on the bleachers and watched the game

✧ but Bokuto rlly seemed out of his element; he missed a few potential points and the other team eventually got in the lead

✧ thinking that he needed a pick-me-up, you held up your large sign overhead sheepishly during a time out, hoping that Bokuto would notice

✧ everyone on the team started to snicker when they read your “You got this, Bokuto! Go Owls!” and gave suggestive looks to their team captain

✧ he was confused (Bokuto: “why are you all looking at me weirdly??”) until he finally turned around and saw your sign

✧ and fell 10x more in love with you

✧ and now he can die happy

✧ turning back to his team, tears pricking at his eyes, he quietly choked out:

✧ “(Y-Y/n) made that...? F-For me?!?!??”

✧ now that he’s fIRED UP, Fukurodani easily gained back their momentum and won by a landslide

✧ you stood around outside the gym after the game, wanting to congratulate Bokuto and the team but ovERthInkING iT and you were about to chicken out when

✧ “(Y/N)!” a voice called out loudly

✧ and you were met with a crushing hug

✧ never in your life were you more pleasantly surprised and embarrassed at once

✧ Bokuto’s back on his bullshit, always tryna talk and impress you

✧ and everyone wonders why y’all aren’t dating yet cmon just love each other already--

Oikawa

✧ a big tease and a big flirt

✧ never fails to tell you how lovely you look everyday

✧ a bit embarrassed, you’ll always thank him (which he points out is cute, saying there’s no need to be shy)

✧ overall, he’s rlly sweet doe

✧ he was out with his teammates once when he saw you, so he called you over by name

✧ but since you’ve never met any of Oikawa’s teammates, except Iwaizumi, you were a bit hesitant

✧ seeing this, he goes over to you, gently grabbing your arm and pulling you over while reassuring you, “C’mon, I want you to meet my team. I think they’ll like you!”

✧ will introduce you as his friend

✧ however everyone sees through this (except u) and knows boyo wants mor

✧ makes sure to include you in any conversation, asking you for your input

✧ piss Oikawa off

✧ until he rlly does get pissed off and excuses both of you, deciding to just hang out with you because his teammates are meanies

✧ so we may conclude he can be a bit protective

✧ always staring or looking at you, secretly hoping that he catches you looking at him (gets disappointed when once again, no, you were not looking at him)

✧ checks himself in the mirror even MORE now that he has a bit of an infatuation-- (Iwaizumi: *to Oikawa, who is inspecting his face* “you can only do so much to look human, give up”)

✧ politely excuses himself from his horde of fan girls just to talk to you

✧ always trying to find ways to talk to you in hopes you’ll open up more to him and in general

✧ will offer you help even though you obviously do not need any (again, just to talk to you)

✧ and offers you other things he has on himself, like gum

✧ speaking of gum he’ll always have gum or mint on him in general but espeeeeecially if he knows he’ll be around you bc boyo want his breath smelling fiinneee

✧ eventually gets you to be quite comfortable around him (yes!), so you have nice conversations every once in a while

✧ he’s also v considerate and likes gift giving! bought you milk bread from his fav place because he talked about it the other day, and you mentioned you were curious to try it

✧ one time after you told you that you looked pretty, you paid him back with a compliment as well

✧ he got quite flustered himself, trying to hide his blush by turning his face to the side and then excusing himself-- (smooth)

✧ mans just left you confoozed, but you shrugged it off

✧ he digged the compliment tho, it made his heart swell and his ego skyrocket LOL

✧ his crushing gets worse after you start showing up to his games to support and cheer for him

✧ gushes about you mid-game to Iwaizumi, who looks like he wants to off himself every time--

✧ once you’re a bit more comfortable around him and after “hanging out” (Oikawa: “nOT a date oKAY”) a few times, that’s when he thinks he should ask you out (like on a date date c; )

Kuroo

✧ (totally unrelated but i had a weird dream recently where kuroo and i became buddies bc we found each other’s finstas--)

✧ ok im like 99% sure all these bois would love to get some sort of reaction out of their shy crushes cuz they think it’s cute, they just do it in different ways

✧ kuro’s a bit of a tease

✧ but only because he likes to see your reactions, thrives off of them n eats that shit up like salted mackerel-- (not literally)

✧ likes to look in on what you’re doing whenever you’re just minding your own business ( “whatcha got there?” )

✧ gets a bit close to you as he looks over your shoulder (doesn’t matter wut ur height is; this mf tall tho)

✧ will call out your name and wave when he sees you in the distance, then walk over to you and start a conversation, asking you about your day, what you were doing, etc.

✧ will leave his other friends to talk to you, so much for bros b4 hoe5

✧ always respects your boundaries, though. he’s quite perceptive and is able to tell whether or not you’re uncomfortable

✧ and if you are, he’ll do whatever he can to lessen it (sometimes without you even realizing it)

✧ invites you to study with him after school in the library (and thanks the universe when you agree)

✧ tries to be sLICK when y’all are studying

✧ like he’s extra attentive so when you drop your pencil this man zooms for it before you can even blink so he can pick it up and maybe touch your hand as he hands it to you

✧ “oh, you dropped this,” he says, iNNOcENtLY

✧ you just smile and respond with a “thank you, kuro”

✧ may or may not have done this also so you could smile and thank him—

✧ will also try to impress you with his knOwLedGE and is eager to help when you don’t understand something

✧ tries to fix his bedhead ;((( but fails (Issok bb u perfect already)

✧ will kinda flex about his team and being captain (“oh yeah so we’re going to nationals pretty soon”),,, hoping to convince you to come to a game

✧ which,,, you do (much to his content--)

✧ luckily for him, you end up easily vibing with both kuro and kenma

✧ occasionally you see both of them and are comfortable enough to approach and say hi

✧ after a while tho kenma just disappears and ur like ?? where’d he go ?? and kuro genuinely did not know

✧ kenma just wants to give y’all sum alone time,,,, but y’all dont know that (except kuro when he confronted him later n all he got as a response was ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

✧ always asks you about your interests, mentally taking notes on them (he believes that info will come in handy in the future)

✧ and he likes to surprise you with the things he remembers (ie. your fav colors, snacks, scents, hobbies, etc)

✧ is kinda comfortable with how things are between you two

✧ but also really want something more; will probs end up asking you out suddenly when y’all are hanging out >.>

✧ embarrassment and uwu’s are shared

[socialistsooner420]

3 and 7 for Fallout ask?

ahhhh ty for doin it uwu

3. OTP!

hmmmmmmmmmmmm thats a hard one.

i mean i wrote a fanfic a long time ago about the original vault dweller and harold running away together and living irradiated platonic lives in necropolis so i think that maybe might be my otp, harold, bob, and my dweller hero retiring and goin ghoul. thats the dream right there.

maybe sole and hancock bc he reminds me of my irl fiance too

7. 3 favorite companions?

Tycho- bc hes pretty wise and badass

RAUL- hes so sweet i luv him so much (and i have a special edition nv players guide where danny trejo signed his concept work and he was so adorable about it and was like "you like my character??? omg thank you!!!!" ansnndnwjab it was so cuuuuuuuute)

The third is such a toss up god i wanna say hancock bc i lov my commie ghoul bae buuuuuuuuuuuut im gonna act like fo4 doesnt exist rn soooooooooo

ARCADE GAT DANG GANNON my sweet bb i just want to read books with and talk about dead languages and society

[dettea]

in OTHER news, 1 & 2 for Byron pls! Also, tell him I love him uwu

oc questions:

1: their voice

okay, i can’t find a suitable voice claim but i imagine byron to have a very deep voice that’s smooth like butter. now imagine him reciting poetry to you

(⺣◡⺣)♡*

2: their smile

he mostly smirks or gives tight, close lipped smiles (they just make him look like he’s in pain sggs) but when he genuinely smiles, his eyes would soften and he’ll seem x10 younger lmaoo

ty for your ask finn bb! i’ll send byron your love hehe💞

[ad1thi]

48 was made for BuckyTony! Also how are you bb

i’m going to go ahead and assume that this was from the kiss list

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#48: one person has to bend down in order to kiss their partner, who is standing on their tip toes to reach their partner’s

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i literally just rb’d art where I talked about a kiss like this, so this is fate

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also you saved my life and found that technophobe!steve post for me as i was writing this and i didn’t wanna stop writing this but KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU and you have all my uwus you amazing person

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Bucky didn’t do well under stress

He got clammy and sweaty and his hair refused to stay up in a bun and just covered his eyes and he’d been known to be very close to having a Britney Spears in 2007 moment multiple times

He hated being under stress, and he hated being under pressure because it reminded him of being back at HYDRA High, where they would work him to the bone and leave him with barely enough energy to do more than flop against the ground and hope it swallowed him up

Bucky didn’t do well under stress

Which is why when Coach Fury comes up to him in a locker room, taps him with the back of his wooden board and grunts, “Barnes you’re starting”; he’s very confused

He’s extremely and utterly confused and forgoes tying his laces to race after Coach, panting between words when he asks, “Coach wouldn’t Stevie be a better option?”

Coach levels him a glare from his one free eye, “Steve’s knee has been acting up all night and he’s tapping out. It’s the finals and you’re the only one who knows HYDRA’s tactics inside out”

He crosses his arms against his chest, “Or are you telling me you’re not up for it Barnes?”

“No its not that I’m not up for it,” he’s jogging to keep up with Fury’s long strides, “It’s just, Coach, I don’t do well under stress”

Fury spins around, and his longcoat flaps behind him menacingly, “You got about half an hour to deal with that”

—

He’s screwed

He’s completely and utterly screwed and -

Tony

His head whips up from where its buried between his knees, and sure enough, Tony’s ambling down the stairs of the stands- fingers wrapped around a huge styrofoam cup and swimming in Bucky’s varsity jacket

“I see your golden retriever instinct isn’t dead,” Clint says from behind him; and Bucky flips him off before jogging across the field

He’s not wrong though

Every single time Tony walks into a room, Bucky just knows it; he feels it in the back of his neck and his head snaps up until he spots Tony, and he imperceptibly settles

Tonight is no different

Tony perks up when he sees Bucky near the stands, pushing his styrofoam cup into Bruce’s hands and flitting in and out between the crowd

“So I hear I’m dating the starting quarterback,” he says; leaning over the barrier, “how you feeling?”

Bucky leans up and Tony gets the hint; dangling until his body is half over the barrier to press his lips against Bucky’s; slow and steady and familiar in a way that calms Bucky in his bones

They stay like that for a couple of seconds, lazily exchanging kisses until Bucky’s neck can’t physically take the strain anymore

“You look good in my jacket,” he whispers against Tony’s lips before moving back, “and I have to say- I like the change of pace”

Tony hums, “Its not my fault you’re built like a Greek God,” he pulls the jacket closer around him, “some of us are normal sized”

“I think you mean pint-sized,” Bucky ducks when Tony squats at him; catching his hand and pulling Tony in for another kiss

“For good luck,” he says softly before nipping at Tony’s bottom lip- slipping his tongue in and trying his very best to make Tony’s toes curl

They break off as the whistle blows, and Bucky can feel Coach’s glare from all the way across the field

He steps off the barrier, helmet under his shoulder- and is half way across the field back to his team when he sees the huge banner that Tony and Bruce are holding up

Bucky’s gonna fuck you harder than he pounds me into a bed at night

The sign lasts about 5 minutes before Vice Principal Hill notices and makes them put it down; but it’s enough to put Bucky at ease for the entire game

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They win by a landslide, and Coach is calling for Bucky to come meet some college recruiters who were sitting on the benches; but Bucky is more focused on the brunet with a button nose who’s waiting for him near the locker room

Fin

[lordofassgard]

Friend Zone

Requested: | yes | no |

anonymous said: okay wow you are a freaking KILLER writer, you got me in tears bro :,) Could you do one for Jungkook? All i know is i want ANGST but i’m kinda a sucker for a happy ending too uWu ty 💛💛

Pairing: Jeon Jungkook x Reader gender neutral

Summary: you’re stuck in the friend zone again and again

Genre: non idol!au, angst, fluff

Warnings: cursing, mentions of drugs

Word Count: 3.6k+

A/N: hello, i’m back :) thank you for the request bb. i enjoyed writing it but it wasn’t as angsty as i wanted it to be maybe i’m finally getting it out of my system lmao also the summary is pretty much heartbreak girl by 5sos. anyway, i hope you enjoy :)

masterlist in bio

gif credits to nochuie

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There wasn't a time where you didn't know Jungkook. He had been there when you were running around in diapers, when you started school, when you started high school or when you got your first tattoo. He had been there and you had witnessed him going through the same things. Your moms were longtime friends and having kids the same age brought them closer and it was only normal that you and Jungkook would be friends, best friends in fact.

You told each other everything and you were there for each other in somehow important moments of each other’s lives. You were there when he had his first cigarette at thirteen, in his backyard one afternoon after school and watched him almost cough up a lung right after. You were there when he drank alcohol the first time and he shared with you, both of you tipsy in your basement on a Friday night when your parents were out of town during sophomore year of high school. You were the first person he told about his first kiss, his first relationship.

In fact, you had been there to watch the rise and downfall of his countless relationships. During and after high school you had been introduced to several different people who were dating Jungkook at the time. It wasn't that Jungkook was a playboy, but people seemed to always leave him and you were left to pick up the pieces of Jungkook’s broken heart. You didn't mind being the shoulder he always cried on, you didn't mind spending nights awake gluing the pieces of his broken heart back together as Jungkook cried in your arms. But it hurt. It hurt because you didn't like to see him suffer, it hurt because you knew you wouldn’t do the same thing to him.

Every time he came back to you, with tear stained cheeks and empty chest you were already waiting with blankets, tissues and ready to hear all about how he was tired of falling in love with people that kept hurting him over and over. So for months, years, you set your feelings aside knowing that you’d always be Jungkook’s best friend. It was something you were proud of, but sometimes you hated it because you were just Jungkook’s best friend. Nothing more.

And then the vicious cycle would repeat itself all over again, he’d get his heart broken and you’d be there like you always were. Your stomach twisting itself and your lungs closing up because he didn’t love you back. It had been that way since that dumb afternoon he smoked his first cigarette when he was thirteen, in the backyard of the house he grew up in and you grew up as well. No one knew about your feelings, and no one could. You didn't want to risk it, you’d rather have Jungkook by your side and be just his best friend than to not have him at all.

So it didn't really come as a surprise to you when he showed up at your apartment one night, hands deep in the pockets of his leather jacket, brown hair messy from running his hands through it way too many times and eyes filled with tears like a kicked puppy. And it didn't really come as a surprise when you felt that old ache that had found its home in your chest so many times before. It didn't come as a surprise that you let him in, ignoring your own feelings and focusing on his until he was okay again.

You didn't ask what happened, you never did. Sometimes he told you, sometimes he didn't, the pain in his chest too strong for him to talk about it and you were okay with it. You were okay with everything because for Jungkook you’d do anything just to see him smile even if it meant ignoring the feelings that you had so desperately tried to push away for the past few years. And it was worth it as you looked at his peaceful face, tear stains still evident in his cheeks as he slept with his head on your chest and arms around your waist after crying himself to sleep.

And you knew exactly how things would play out for the next few weeks, maybe even months. He’d stay at your apartment for a while, or you’d stay at his. You’d listen to him pouring his heart out to you at three in the morning for the first few days. When he finally managed to get a good night of sleep, he’d walk around moody the next day because he had dreamed about his latest heartbreak. He’d become clingy, arms wrapped around your waist and head buried in the crook of your neck as you cooked, legs over your lap when you sat on the couch, arm around your shoulders or intertwined with yours as you walked down the street, face buried in your chest and hands on your hips as you slept and so on. You never complained, but it took a lot of self-control to tame the butterflies in your stomach and the fireworks that seemed to be left behind in wherever part of you he had touched.

After the second week, he’d start to be his normal self again. You’d wake up to the smell of something burning in the kitchen only to find that Jungkook had burned his attempt of breakfast. And no matter how many times you tried to stay mad at him, all it took you was one glance at his sheepish smile and doe eyes and you’d forget all about it.

After the third week, he’d start going out little by little, mostly at night. And he wanted you to tag along, so you’d go to places that you’d never find yourself in if it wasn’t for Jungkook. At the end of each night, once the moon was high in the sky, he’d drive to an empty field and you’d stargaze like you used to do back in your hometown when you were teenagers.

The two of you would sit on the hood of his car, music playing softly from your phone and a blunt in between his fingers. You’d sit in silence, looking up at the sky and in the meantime, his free hand would rest on your thigh as if he was reminding himself that you were there, that he wasn’t alone.

“The sky is dark.” Jungkook pointed out one night, not tearing his eyes from the sky.

You weren't looking at the sky, instead, you had been staring at him, a look of adoration in your face. It was so evident that you wondered how he never noticed it. Maybe because he never thought of you that way. It hurt, but doesn't the truth always hurt? With a quick glance at the sky, you acknowledged his words with a small hum before looking back at Jungkook, who was still staring at the starless sky.

You didn't tell him that the reason the sky was empty was because all the stars were in his eyes.

You never quite understood why people left him. Jungkook had everything anyone could possibly want in a boyfriend. Maybe he attracted the wrong kind of people, the ones who used him for their own selfish purposes and then left him with an aching chest at your doorstep not caring if you could put his heart back together or not. Maybe it was Jungkook’s problem for being too näive when it came to love. But if Jungkook was näive then what were you? Being in love with someone that would never love you back put you in the same spot, didn't it? You couldn't help it and neither could Jungkook. You were just two fools in love and unfortunately, not with each other.

He’d end up getting back on his feet after a lot of tears, burnt breakfasts and blunts. Little by little, Jungkook would become less clingy and instead of being with each other all the time, you’d only see him every couple of days. You were happy that he was okay, whatever okay meant for him after so many heartbreaks, but you couldn't help but miss him. It was only when he was dumped that he hung out with you as if to forget the pain in his chest.

“You’re like my happy pill.” Jungkook confessed one night as you walked through the busy streets of Seoul.

The lights coming from shops and restaurants’ signs could’ve overwhelmed you to the point where you had to blink a couple of times in order to get used to them. But not when they were reflected on Jungkook’s features. The same lights you learned to hate ever since you moved to a big city, when reflected on Jungkook’s face, amazed you. They casted a soft glow on his skin, making his doe eyes sparkle and you wanted nothing but to stare at them until the sun came up.

“What do you mean?” You asked, eyebrows furrowed in curiosity.

“Whenever I’m with you I don't have to worry about anything. It’s like…” He trailed off, trying to find the right words to say “I’ve never been hurt before.”

His words, probably meant as a compliment hurt. That was why he came back to you everytime he was hurt. He just wanted peace, even if it was temporary. You fought the urge to say something and only leaned against him as you walked in silence. If you opened your mouth he’d start asking questions and you didn’t want to give him the answers. You didn't want to tell him that you accepted him every time he showed up at your door because you loved him. If you opened your mouth, you’d ruin the night. So you kept quiet and only your night was ruined.

The calls and the texts would stop coming. Jungkook would stop showing up at your apartment and ask you to go to his. You'd start having too much food in your fridge and you’d stop waking up to the smell of something burning. That's when you knew he was okay. Other than the pictures displayed in pretty frames all over your apartment, there was no evidence of Jungkook’s existence. The smell of weed and cologne that hung on his clothes and in your sheets would soon fade away and silence would ring in your ears like loud music at a club. He was okay, he didn't need you to fix him anymore.

So when all of this happened, you weren’t surprised. He was okay, he didn't need you anymore. You were just sad and tired. Tired of constantly putting all your feelings aside just to fix him and then be left alone to deal with your own heartbreak. You had to end that toxic cycle because it was harder to pretend you were okay each time Jungkook showed up at your door.

Three weeks after you last saw him and several failed attempts of giving up later, you found yourself at Jungkook’s door. After spending so many years trying to let him go, you knew you weren’t going to be able to. He was stable enough to handle a confession and even though you weren’t stable enough to handle a rejection, it was crucial. You’d end up hurt whether you ended the cycle or not. You knocked and prayed he was home, scolding yourself for not texting him before you got there. Maybe it was better that way, you’d just say what you had to say without having time to think about what you were doing.

Jungkook opened the door, his face lighting up when he saw you. Your foot tapped impatiently on the floor and your hands, balled up into fists inside the pockets of your hoodie were shaking.

“(Y/N), I was about to call you.” Jungkook smiled “Come on in.”

“I can’t.” You shook your head “But I have to talk to you.”

“Okay…” He trailed off, eyebrows furrowing in confusion.

You took a deep breath and looked him in the eye, hesitating for a second.

“I’m in love with you.” You blurted out “I’ve been in love with you since the day you had your first cigarette on the backyard of your parents’ house. And I’ve sat here for years wiping your tears and pushing my feelings aside...and then you leave and next time I see you is when you introduce me to someone new and then I see you when they break your heart. And then I think about confessing to you when I think you’re ready but you’ve already moved on and I know that it’s gonna end badly and that I’m going to end up being the one who takes care of you.” You breathed out “So, yeah. I know you probably don't love me back but...I needed you to know that I am in love with you and the way your eyes sparkle and your failed attempts of cooking breakfast in the morning and when you text me stupid memes at 3 am. And I hope I’m not too late.”

You didn't expect him to yell at you or close the door in your face. But in that moment, it seemed like a better option than just silence. You dared to look at him, his wide brown eyes were already on you, his mouth open as if he wanted to say something but forgot how to speak. A few seconds went by, although they felt like hours to you and the more time passed, the more you were regretting showing up at his door. What were you thinking? You had probably ended your lifelong friendship because you couldn't keep your mouth shut. Reality was starting to hit you hard and you just wanted to disappear. If you could only turn back time, you would’ve stopped yourself from showing up and fuck things up.

Jungkook was still silent and wide-eyed, unable to react as you squirmed under his gaze. And that’s when you heard it, an unknown voice and footsteps coming from inside the apartment.

“Babe, who is it?”

Your eyes widened as you made eye contact with Jungkook hoping, praying that it wasn't what you were thinking. But soon enough, someone else, another face you wouldn't remember and another name you wouldn't memorize showed up looking at you curiously. You were too late.

“I-I’m sorry.” Your voice trembled as you took a step back, ready to leave.

After you turned your back, you heard Jungkook close the door as he was still being bombarded with questions about your presence. You weren't worried about it, he’d figure it out. What you were worried about was the damage you had inflicted on your friendship. What would you do without Jungkook? How were you supposed to live without someone that was like the air in your lungs and the blood in your veins?

The drive home was terrible as you tried to hold in your tears. And the days after that were horrible too. You called him, but he never picked up. You texted him, but he never replied. And after twenty years of friendship, you didn't have the guts to show up at his door once again and apologize. Lie, say everything was just a misunderstanding. Anything to get things to how they were before.

Seoul was starting to suffocate you because everything reminded you of Jungkook. The restaurant you’d get takeout every other night held so many memories of your late night dinners with Jungkook. Every park in town was a place where you had stargazed curled up against each other when life was too much. The streets filled with restaurants, shops, and food stands made your chest ache as you walked past them. The lights overwhelmed you and you could only remember, with a bitter taste in your mouth, how good they looked on Jungkook’s skin. Jungkook’s happy little pill ended up in an overdose and you were the one to blame.

Heartbroken and with guilt weighing on your chest, you decided to go back to your hometown, at least until things settled down. You’d deal with things when you finally got enough courage to get back to Seoul.

“Hi, Jungkook it’s me. Uh, I know you probably don’t want to talk to me but...I just wanted to let you know I’m going back home for a while. My train leaves tonight. Once again, I’m sorry.”

As you waited by the platform for your train with your suitcase next to your feet, cold and alone, you wanted nothing but to stay. Turn your back and walk to your apartment, forget about all your problems, forget about the world and for the first time in a long time feel at peace. Unfortunately, things didn't work how you wanted them to and it was best for you, for Jungkook, for the two of you if you left for a while.

There were only a few people on the platform, who seemed exhausted and also ready to go home. You wondered who they were, where they came from and if they felt as bad as you did. You spotted your train and grabbed your suitcase. You let the other people get on the train first and before you followed them, you stopped. The silence of the station rang heavy in your ears and you took a deep breath before walking up to the entrance.

“(Y/N)” You quickly turned around, fearing that you were just hearing things.

But you weren't. Jungkook ran up to you as fast as his long legs could carry him and stopped a few feet away from you.

“What are you doing here?” You asked surprised.

“I heard your voicemail.” He replied slightly out of breath “I can’t let you go.”

“W-What do you mean?”

You glanced at the train that you should be getting on and back at Jungkook who walked closer to you. You didn't know what you were supposed to do. Part of you was happy that he was there but another part, a bigger part, was scared. Why was he there? What if he was there just to tell you that he didn’t love you back? It was nothing new to you, his silence had given you the answer to a confession you really didn't think through.

“I can’t let you go because…” He hesitated “I have to tell you that I’m in love with you too. And I’m sorry I didn't realize it sooner.”

You didn't know how to react. Jungkook had probably expected you to run into his arms or maybe slap him across the face for playing with your feelings. Instead, he got wide eyes and open mouth as you tried to come up with a sentence, but your brain didn't seem to be able to put words together in that moment. The silence was killing him and it was killing you too.

“I didn't realize that I was in love with the way you look in the morning when you wake up or the way you look under the stars when I take you out to stargaze. Or the way your nose scrunches up when you eat the food I cook. The way you’re there for me and never ask for anything in return. Every happy memory I have, you’re there and along the way, I’m not sure where I fell in love with you.” Jungkook paused “I hope it’s not too late.”

You tilted your head, wondering if that was the way he confessed to all the people who broke his heart and left you to deal with the wounds in his chest. Jungkook closed the distance between the two of you, your chests practically touching as the train started to leave. And without hesitating, you kissed him. You kissed him like it was something you had been doing all your life like it was something you were meant to do. Your heart was thumping in your chest, to the point where you felt like you were having a heart attack. But it was just Jungkook’s presence that made you feel that way. It didn't matter if it’d kill you, it’d be a good way to go. Your hair was being swept by the breeze created by the train and you dropped your suitcase to cup his face with both hands. It was too late to leave, but it wasn’t too late to love Jungkook.

When you pulled away, Jungkook’s hands still planted firmly on your hips as if he was scared you’d disappear, you smiled at each other. Jungkook leaned his forehead against yours and pecked your lips one, two, three more times. It was like he couldn't get enough of you. But to be fair, you couldn't get enough of him either.

“I love you too.” You confessed, the weight of the guilt caused by your sudden confession finally lifted off your chest.

And it was in that empty train station that you realized that all the times you pushed your feelings away hadn’t been in vain, neither were Jungkook’s countless heartbreaks. Everything led up to that moment, it was written in the stars. The two of you were meant to be. Walking out of the train station towards Jungkook’s car, one of his hands grasped yours tightly and the other carried your suitcase, he looked up.

“The sky is dark tonight.”

You looked up as well, noticing that he was right. Only this time you told him why.

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who is your bias: renjun

what made you notice them: renjun is really underappreciated,, he can sing really well and dance really well too. honestly, the first thing i noticed and loved was his lil snaggletooth (rip) and his dimple uwu

what’s your favorite thing about them: oof just one? well too bad... here’s a list: his old snaggletooth, his left dimple, his birthmark that he calls a mole, his really unique singing voice (bc it’s low and mature and silky), whenever he’s asked to dance it’s not awkward wiggling like he knows HOW TO DANCE, his dance moves are so precise and powerful (i binge watch fancams 25/8 fight me m8), his smallness ? it’s so cute how small he is next to EvEryONE, renjun’s humor is underappreciated he can literally make anyone laugh and yall have the nerve to call him no fun, he’s hella aggressive and roasts everyone (which is also underappreciated bc damn that boy’s on fire), renjun is so versitle like one minute he’s all cute and a lil baby but next he’s some mature 25 year old who works in an office, has a wife and 2 kids, lives in a humble home, and owns a dog named scorp, his we young hair and style like pls @ stylist noona bring it baCK, his pretty and SMALL hands so are cute i just wanna hold them forever :’)), renjun’s style is also sO UNDERAPPRECIATED, aND HIS VISUALS YALL SLEEP ON A BED AND NOT RENJUN HMPH (he’s just overall underappreciated sigh), his SMILE OOF IT’S SO BIG AND BRIGHT AND HIS EYES CRINKLE AND HE G L O W S, and a lot more things but i’ll stop here bc it’s too long : ) 

who would initiate skinship more: definitely me bc I Need Attention 24/7™ and also i love him so much i wouldn’t be able to leave him alone :’)

who would hog blankets more: both? maybe me more?? honestly idk i loVE soft things and pile myself in blankets even tho i live in 90 degree fahrenheit weather but like renjun is a baby iDk

who would be more clingy: uhh mE i feel like scorpios aren’t really clingy but i’m a disgrace to my zodiac so umm yeah i would koala hug him everyday even tho we’re the same height and i would weight him down

who would say “i love you” first: probably me? i say it religiously already but um i feel like we would both wait to say i love you but it would prob be me first ?

who would be more easily flustered: renjun? i don’t get flustered that nuch idk why (or maybe no one was ever good at making me fluster?) renjun isn’t really panicked either but prob more than me so renjun

what cuddling position would you two have: I WILL BIG SPOON SMOL JUNJUN IF IT’S THE LAST THING I’LL DO

which colors remind you of them and why: YELLOW! - his bright and glowy like yellow and plus he looks really good in yellow too. waRM TONES/NUDES! - whenever he laughs or smiles, it radiates warmth and makes me fEEL all warM. pink - idk he’s just so soft and like a rosy or light pink suits him or darker pinks too! (the seasons greeting’s pictures oof). 

which season would you like to spend with them: fall to winter !! it would be so cute to bake cakes and decorate them together or just cuddle in blankets bc it’s hella cold and watch scary movies or classic christmas movies, and renjun in sweaters/long sleeves = sweater paws !! 

who would bake cookies and who would steal the batter: renjun is addicted to sweet things like he damn squirted codensed milk into his mouth and i don’t really like sweets that much so mostly likely renjun will steal spoonfuls of batter while i yell at him that he can get salmonella from the raw eggs 

which one of you would make bad puns and how would the other react: we’d both make a lot of bad puns but i REALLY like making puns so i’ll prob say one and before i can even finish the punchline, renjun has me in a chokehold #goals ?

which one of you would nearly burn down the kitchen trying to microwave a pop tart and who would come to the rescue: no hate or anything but poptarts are: disgusting. so in this household, we eat real food : ) 

who like to lean over tall railings and who pulls them back: i loVE HEIGHTS idk like people are scared of them but i love looking at the view from really high places and i’m not bothered by it. on the other hand, renjun being the scared lil baby he is will prob pull me back from falling tbh

what would watching a horror film with them be like: OOF I LOVE HORROR MOVIES AND WATCHING HORROR/THRILLERS so i would prob be too invested in the movie while renjun cuddles and hide in my arms bc he’s scared uwuwu 

who would be the cheesy flirt and who would be the smooth flirt: i don’t think i’ve ever seen renjun flirt but honestly i think he’d be the real Smooth Criminal™ while i make terrible puns that’ll prob make him break up with me oof

who is more competitive: ME ! i’ve play like 5 sports so i get hella competitive,, he’ll prob end up crying (i’m sORry bb ily) 

who would have to be given constant reminders (reminders to eat, don’t forget your keys, etc): mE,, i can’t remember things for shit so renjun will have to spoon feed me reminders sigh

who sends memes and who sends cute “ i miss you “ texts at 3am: honestly renjun and i would be both,, like send cute messages then spam memes that coinhere with them

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tagged by: @softrenjuns ty babe!

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