#twisted transistor

[90s-2000s-barbie]

Korn - Twisted Transistor (2005)

[abyssias]

When your sister is trans but also twisted:

[issuesdolly]

Jonathan Davis Explains the DIRTY Meaning of Twisted Transistor

This absolutely tickled me, guys. I filmed my reaction to this interview. I love Korn's "Twisted Transistor," and it kept sounding to me like Jonathan's lyrics were about a sad girl listening to his music and positioning a radio between her legs and having an orgasm. I thought it was my filthy mind but I was RIGHT haha.

Check out my vid where JD discusses it and I freak out haha:

Tiktok Link:

Youtube Link:

More of my JD fanfics are 'coming' VERY soon guys. Just trying not to overwhelm y'all ;) This man is PURE inspiration ... my god.

[kornquoteseveryday]

You're in a mess, a lonely life where no one understands you

But don't give up because the music do

[ivygorgon]

Ode to Trans Femmes

The first in a set of gender based playlists I made. It is meant to be listened to in order and on repeat. Some song choices may warrant explanation, analysis under the cut.

Ode to Trans Femmes song choice analysis

Man! I Feel Like A Woman!

Song by Shania Twain

To start positive; celebrates vital femininity.

Woman Up

Song by Meghan Trainor

Still celebrating vital femininity

Shea Diamond – American Pie

Frustration Arc

We take a step back to have frustrations about social barriers we face. This song is angry and desperate for the safe Americana enjoyed around it.

The Village

Song by Wrabel

Frustration Arc

This song validates those frustrations and says it isn't our fault. The system was built this way and we can grieve our lost place.

Twisted Transistor

Song by Korn

Frustration Arc

This song pulls from the same frustrations as American Pie and encourages us to celebrate the ways in which we cope, giving the example of music. (Huh, meta.)

Nine Days – Absolutely (Story of a Girl)

We just finished airing out a lot of feminine frustrations and highlighted rather bleak experiences. Here we're bringing them back up, complimenting their smiles and comforting them while they cry.

Steam Powered Giraffe - Transform

Transform pontificates on acceptance and peace but settles at being allowed to exist. (existential)

Alive

Song by Pearl Jam

Authentic Arc

Alive marks the beginning of the authentic arc. The song is about the invisible curse we might find we carry. The subject distances themself from the room they grew up in as "a young man's room" and goes on to describe an encounter with a woman that leaves them dissociated. I interpreted this as the earliest hints of self discovery.

IDK If I'm a Boy

Song by Blue Foster

Authentic Arc

This singer is describing how they relate their given masc identity to their innate feminine nature. They are trying on titles like shoes and grappling with not having femme passing privilege. They sound disoriented and directionless, but convinced that they've taken steps in their right direction.

The Middle

Song by Jimmy Eat World

Authentic Arc

This song replies to IDK if I'm a Boy's uncertainty for the future and tells the subject "not to write themselves of just yet" because the story is still being written. It also invalidates the opinions of the nay-sayers as bitter hearted.

GIRLI - Dysmorphia

Authentic Arc

Dysmorphia replies to The Middle's "disregard the haters, love your self harder" message with "Even if I do, I still have to come home to myself, and she isn't as nice as you."

Let Me Love You

Song by Kobra and the Lotus

Authentic Arc

The song Let Me Love You sees Dysmorphia's plea to acknowledge our inner pain, validate it, and, most of all, accept it, and replies with the unconditional love and support asked for. This song concludes the authentic arc saying: You're loved even still. You are worth protecting and you will never be alone.

This ends the structured part of the playlist

Just a Girl

Song by No Doubt

This song says, so what if I'm just a girl, I still have human rights. It expresses frustration with sexism and reclaims girl power

I love myself today Bif Naked

This song reads as a type of "break up" from yourself, your old definition of self that held you back. You're breaking up from the person whose shoes you are wearing, whose noose you're taking off.

Bad Reputation by Avril Lavigne

A conclusion to the playlist that is meant to impart the beauty, pride, and dignity being found in our messy experiences. Yeah, everything might be a mess right now, but you're YOU, and YOU'RE ALIVE, and you know what to do.

[tunetowntourney]

[angry-depressed-student]

Been thinking about Korn lately

[pikkirat623]

Korn

Disclaimer: I do not own or claim ownership of any lyrics posted here

“Day is here fading

That’s when I’m insane

I flirt with suicide

Sometimes kill the pain

I can always say

‘It’s gonna be better tomorrow’”

Falling away from me

Falling… away from me”

- “Falling Away From Me”

“Keep holding on

When my head’s ticking like a bomb

Guess the black thoughts have come

Again to get me

Sweet little words

Unlike nothing I have heard

Sing along mockingbird

You don’t affect me”

- “Coming Undone”

“Deeper and deeper and deeper as I dream to

Live a life that seems to be

A lost reality

That can never find a way to reach my inner

Self-esteem is low

How deep can I go?

In the ground that I lay

If I don’t find a way to

See through the gray that clouds my mind

This time I look to see what’s between the lines”

- “Blind”

“This time, taking it away

I’ve got a problem

With me getting in the way

Not by design

So I take my face

And bash it into the mirror

I won’t have to see the pain”

- Here to Stay

“I’m feeling cold today

Not hurt just fucked away

I’m devastated and frustrated

God I feel so bound

So why do I feel the need?

I think it’s time to bleed

I’m gonna cut myself

And watch the blood hit the ground”

- “Right Now”

“Now I see the times they change

Leaving doesn’t seem so strange

I am hoping I can find

Where to leave my hurt behind

All the shit I seem to take

All alone I seem to break

I have lived the best I can

Does this make me not a man?”

- “Alone I Break”

“You say you’d love to

But you’be lots left to do

Almost decided to stay

Cause of you

And I hate to tell you to exchange your dreams

For a one way ticket

No return”

- “Hushabye”

“I can’t wait to rip my eyes out and look at you

Peace through pain is precious

Especially when it’s done by you

Itching is the pulse inside

Creeping out to come alive

It’s just doing what it’s gonna do

- “Get Up!”

“I don’t know why I’m so fucking cold

I don’t know why it hurts me

All I want to do is get with you

And make the pain go away

Why do I have a conscience?

All it does is fuck with me

Why do I have this torment?

All I wanna do is fuck it away

I tell my lies and I despise

Every second I’m with you

So I run away and you still stay

So what the fuck is with you?

- “Trash”

“I’m just a pretty boy

Whatever you call it

You wouldn’t know a real man if you saw it

It keeps going on day after day, son

You fake! If we don’t want none

I’m sick and tired of people treating me this way everyday

Who gives a fuck?

Right now I got something to say

To all the people that think I’m strange

And I should be out here locked up in a cage

You don’t know what the hell is up now any way

You got this pretty boy feeling like I’m enslaved

To a world that never appreciated shit

You can suck my dick and fucking like it”

- “Faget”

“It walks with me

It takes its time

It sinks it’s teeth in one at a time

It loves to feed

It loves my past

Its always taunting but somehow out of grasp”

- “Can You Hear Me”

“Everyone is looking at me

I can’t get out of bed

There is evil in my head

Everyone just let me be

Because when I hit the stage

It is gone and I am free”

- “Beg For Me”

“Humiliating

I fall to its craving

It feeds on the doubt in my heart

Sinking and fading

Our feelings I’m saving

To fix what I tore apart”

- “You’ll Never Find Me”

“Re-entering my head

Feeling like I’m… god

With the world around me

Can’t you feel this… pain!?

Reading through my… heart!

Screaming through my… voice!

Nothing I can… kill!

Screaming a… lie!… I!… am!

Can you tear… my!… eyes!… out!?

Can’t you take my… heart?…”

- “Chi”

“To all these nameless feelings I can’t deal with in my life

To all these greedy people trying to feed on what is mine

You’ve got to fill your hunger and stop fucking with my mind

I know it’s time to leave these places far behind”

- “No One’s There”

“There’s nothing wrong with wanting to be loved

Is there something wrong with me?

For once in my life, I’d like to be

Really set free

Let me be me”

- “B.B.K.”

“Time is ticking, it makes me feel content

With what I have inside

Constant paranoia surround me

Everyone is see is out to get me

So I fall face down in a rut

I can’t seem to get out of

Please wake me, please give me some of it back

The feelings I had”

- “Let’s Get This Party Started”

“You know what?

Fuck you

I’m fed up with you

I’m not as good as you?

Fuck no, I’m better than you”

- “Divine”

“Sad things fly all around me

Welcoming sight from the past

Somehow they make me feel something

Even if it doesn’t last

So I do anything to be able to get away

Bad things always flock to me

It seems to be that way”

- “Lost in the Grandeur”

“Prey for Me

I think I owe you an apology

Somehow you bring the violence out of me

I’m just a shell of what I used to be

Passion is sometimes a fucked up thing for me”

- “Prey For Me”

“Crawling down the path, I’m helpless

Reaching for the light I see

Every time I get to close

The light proceeds ahead of me

Digging deep, I take a step

Standing up, I take a breath

Running towards the light

I feel the fingers wrapped around my neck

God is making fun of me

He’s laughing up there, I can see

God is making fun of me

He’s laughing up there, I can see

God is making fun of me

God is making fun of me

God is making fun of me

He’s laughing up there I can see

God is making fun of me

He’s laughing up there I can see

God is making fun of me

He’s laughing up there I can see”

- “Idiosyncrasy”

“Can you see it in me?

Skin cold from touch

Each day confronted

With what I have done

You pull me closer

I push you away

You tell me it’s okay

I can’t help but feel the pain”

- “Need To”

“What is the is I’m feeling?

Is it a new beginning?

Am I purging past regrets?

Facing the hurt I’m dealing

How does one start healing?

The darkness is revealing

The bittersweet reality

That this is the help I’m needing”

- “The Darkness is Revealing”

“The hating

Its pulled inside of me

They’re trying

To test my sanity

It’s in there waiting

It’s all make believe

And they’re ripping

The child within me”

- “The Hating”

“I’m not doing great

I feel like I’m dead

Not thinking straight

Inside my body troubled

Full of hate

I had to let it out

Before it’s too late

- “Deep Inside”

“I’m done being there for others

They have their pain and so do I

Don’t need to feel it all over

I try to hold on and you bring me down”

- “I’m Done”

“I’m… staring at a face

I don’t recognize

Rotten and replaced

Lifeless and benign

You can never say

That I didn’t try

I cannot erase

What’s in my mind”

- “Bleeding Out”

[lovinafternoon]

Ranking Korn albums (pt2)

Untouchables (1st)

Take a Look in the Mirror (5th)

See You on the Other Side (2nd)

Untitled (7th)

[weiner-enjoyer]

my sister came out and changed her name. at her coming-out celebration, she won at twister.

call that twisted trans sister.

[whatwutwhat]

psychotic transfem korn fan, or as i like to call her, a twisted trans sister

[wolkenkratzerz]

twisted transistor

[macabrecocktail]

look at this detail!!!

[the-limp-linguine]

🕯🎵hey you,hey you this won’t hurt a bit🎵🕯

[are-we-really-doing-this]