#tw retarded existential/lack existential/etc bullshit

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Damn, nothing and/or/etc/what something and/or/etc/what etc really sucks ass

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I keep getting sent to “ this/these life/lives “ because I keep/kept opting out

Why wouldn’t I? This “ world “ sucks, but others and lackthereof and etc do too

I’ve died multiple times already in “ this life “, mainly ( if not only ) because I keep/kept wanting to stay out of it

But “ I “ “ can’t “, because if “ I “ do it’ll add onto more on why “ others “/“ I “/“ etc “ want it destroyed, and when enough “ others “/“ I “/“ etc “ put/say/feel/believe they don’t want to experience “ this world “ anymore, it DOES/WILL ‘ end ‘ up “ getting destroyed “

Why the fuck this do/-ism/don’t/-isn’t?? And not? And/or/a/what etc???!!!

Why the hell are we? They? Lackthereof? Etc? Maybe. ? !

The fuck. I

I hate this. I despise this and everything and everybody and nothing and nobody and something and somebody and “ I am “ and “ I’m not “ and “ I’m “ and lackthereof and all and some and none and lack and more and/or/what etc

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We know this shit is retarded. And we keep experiencing it, over and over and over and over and over and over again

And we can’t “ get out “. It’s there, but it’s not. Like us, and variations.

What kind of fuck-tardery is this??? This is knowledge and ignorance. Smart and dumb, it’s still retarded regardless and in regards to ( and etc )

I remember somebody telling me this would hurt ( when I wasn’t in THIS specific life/probably reality ). They asked if I was sure I wanted to come here. Apparently I did anyways, even though I’m not entirely sure what I said

This is so fucking retarded. Yeah. It’s more than that and less than that and both and neither and lack and null and abundance and all and some and etc what

It’s fucking retarded as hell. I hate it. I hate being/not being/static/alternating/lack/neither/both/all/etc

I hate it. I “ am “. I AM retarded. Whatever fuck-hole this stupid shit is can agree, disagree, neither, both, none, alternate, mix, change, static, etc whatever. I am.

And then awareness or unawareness or both or neither or all or null or alternating or static or etc. Fuck it.

Fuck darkness, light, shade, color, property, non-property, experience, none, etc. Fuck fuck, lack, all, some, none, neither, both, etc or or etc or

Nice job. We’ve/they’ve/I’ve/none/all/lack/some/abundance/mix/alternate/separate/etc has fucked

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It’s the same different similar etc bullshit all over again

Regardless of having anything/anybody, something/somebody, nothing/nobody, etc to “ lose “, I am so fucking tired of whatever retarded-ass system we FUCKING HAVE!!!

Even if there WASN’T a system or etc, I’m STILL fucking tired of it!!!

Fuck caring about/not caring about/etc about anyone/anything/myself/etc!!!!!

Fuck nothingness and fuck everythingness and fuck somethingness and fuck -ESS!!!! Etc; FUCK IT!!!!

It’s ALWAYS some bullshit either way and they’re not gonna feel cared about anymore and then OTHERS won’t feel it and then others WILL feel cared about and others even more and ET FUCKING C!!!!!!

The same/different/similar/etc stupid-ass complaining/thankfulness/lack/abundance/anything/something/nothing/etc etc/WHAT

BECAUSE!!!!

Maybe not! Or so! Or mix or neither or all/none/other/paradox/loop/alt/switch/reverse/restart/save/erase/etc !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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It’s just the same retarded bullshit over and over and over and not really and mix and neither and all and none and simultaneous and lack and abundance and etc

Where “ we “ or what get bored but also not but also forced but also willingly but etc do this same stupid-ass shit. Because or…

Because of some stupid shit(s) that where “ we “ or what exist, we don’t exist, we do both, we do neither, we lack, we abundance, duality, monoality, triality, etc cuz or…

Because of staying and erasing and doing the same ( but different but etc! ) stupid-ass shit

Because. Or not even because? Or over because? Maybe all/some/none/etc???

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Fuck being alone and being around others/anyone

And mix and neither and all and none and etc WHAT lack !!!!????

And fuck NOT that too!!! And fuck this mindset/belief and others and lackthereof and control and some control and no control and variation and single and stasis and multiple and whatever else/null/mix/etc what !!!!??!????!

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Just using each other for our own selfish/selfless/etc stupid shit

Fuck me and fuck you and fuck them and fuck this and FUCK YOU ME OTHERS ETC FOR FUCKING MY RETARDED-ASS BRAIN!!!!!!!

Stupid STUPID fucking erasing/staying/being/not being/trying/not trying/balance/imbalance/both/mono/infinity/mix/alt/etc what BULLSHIT!!!!!

Because of what?!?!? Exist/not exist/maybe exist/half exist/creator/creation/observer/participator//etc stupid fucking GARBAGE?!?!?

Because we felt like fucking our sorry selves over JUST like others and vice-versa and etc and whatever the retarded hell else!?!?!

Fucking stupid simulation/not simulation/etc stupid fuckery!!!!! I hate it!!!!!

So fucking tired of all/none/etc retarded bullshit!!!!

Fuck being and staying and not being and not staying and never stopping and always stopping and never moving and always moving and mixing and separating and not knowing and knowing and other and etc and fuck and what!!!!!

Fucking voices and beings and happenings and theories and playing out and feelings and none and -isms and -isn’ts and logic and illogic and duality and triality and mono and infinity and lack and what or

Fuck stupid bullshit everywhere and nowhere and somewhere and complain and thankful and neither and insane and sane and stasis etc what!!!!!!

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So I’m doing this all because of.. ??????

1. I have to do “ time “ for lying/harming others so badly

2. Because I won’t pick a side because “ that’s not how it works “

3. The “ sides “ are trying to convince me to “ be “ DESPITE me not wanting to ( and HAVING been wanting to ) because somehow they magically “ love me “ ( if you haven’t heard of the term “ If you love someone, let them GO “, you have now, and you REALLY need to/should apply that to me!!!! )

4. Because I wanted to ( I’m fucking retarded for it, but I would be despite that so :/ )

All these are stupid-ass reasons to “ stay “. I acknowledge them, and I understand them; they’re STILL retarded.

Having a physical body or not or mix or other or etc doesn’t matter ( but still does, because retarded ); I’m tired of we. Of me. Of you. Of all/none/some/balance/unbalance/mix/neither/void/null/unfathomable/other/etc etc what

It’s dumb as hell and it’s not worth it anymore.

Stop hurting yourselves/others because of me

Quit it. If ( and when ) I DO leave, if you continue hurting yourself/others because of me ( MAINLY others ), it’s STILL going to be YOUR fault.

Ofc it’ll still be “ my “ fault still too ( I wouldn’t even “ BE “ or etc ), but you need to let go and stop anyways.

Because this retarded-ass loop/infinite/finite/system/lackthereof/multiverse/mono verse/all/some/none/other/alt/mix/etc what is SO.. fucking retarded!!!!!!!

None of this/abundance/lackthereof/mix/alt/other/etc what is worth it. I’m tired of it/them/you/me/unbalance/balance/spirit/body/psyche/non/pro/abundance/lackthereof/mix/alt/other/etc what

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Stupid-ass simulated/non-simulated/mix/whatever else bullshit

We all make it so damned difficult ( no, not EVERYBODY does, but the beings know what I mean )

And we feel/think that, a LOT of times ( especially at LEAST a being I know of ) says “ everything is good “, yet gets pissed off when we do things that THEY don’t want

You can have a type of free will between ONLY “ good “/“ bad ”/“ neutral “/“ mixed “/etc; you don’t need an alternate/swapped version of it to exist

Might as well say that free will doesn’t exist at all at that/this point because if you consider there to be no free will between only “ good “ options, then adding another option is STILL equaling nobody having free will, just with extra steps!

Because having “ bad “ as an option is just STILL limiting you to only having to choose from bad things ( note: I’m talking about MULTIPLE bad options, but it can still work for a single bad option too )

So, since apparently having multiple choice ( REGARDLESS of variation, because you can’t say “ good “ and “ bad “ are the exact same thing; there ARE differences.. yet ig “ good “ and “ bad “ are subjective too, so ) STILL results in no and/or limited free will

So what’s the FUCKING POINT YOU GUYS!?!?!

What’s the fucking point ME!?!?

I mean, point or not, reason or not, purpose or not, it’s still fucking dumb that we’re doing this shit/this shit does/etc. ig

But at least I could/we could TRY to figure it out, even though it’s fucking RETARDED!!!!

At least we could MAYBE understand!!!

But WHAT IN THE LITERAL HELL IS THIS/THESE CLUSTERFUCKS OF DOES/DOESNT/MIX/NEITHER/ALL/ETC!?!?!?!

[venting-town]

Pretty sure I DO, in fact, have a brain tumor

I’m not saying for sure, but I know something isn’t right ( well, aside from OTHER multiple issues )

But after researching I’m pretty sure I may have Acoustic Neuroma