#tw ed encouragement

[geneticautist]

Big guys brush their teeth

[doublequaterpounder]

Hey yo potentially triggering discussion of EDs in conjunction with feedism

So yeah some posted an anonymous comment on one of my posts asking if feedism is just another form of ED and the answer is complex but short answer is NO

This kink while wonderful and i wouldn’t change it for anything has in the past had a negative impact on my EDs. when i was skinny i was in such a shame spiral with societal desires to be thin but also being really attracted to fatness and deep down wanting to be fat. this period of my life where i was really fit was real bad for my ED and my desire to be fat really affected that. in the long run letting myself get fat and enjoy myself and enjoy food has been a super healing process in recovery from my ED

but here comes the turn side of that. when i started trying to get fat on purpose i think with my previous disposition of body image i got another ED. i don’t think this form of ED has an offical title or even clinically offical but im convinced im not alone in this. when i first plumping up on purpose i became obsessed to an extent where it’d be considered disordered i was weighing myself multiple times a day and being disappointed the number wasn’t going up. i was eating as much as i could making myself super uncomfortable even chugging water so the number on the scale would move up and when i would wake up the next morning with the number being lower i would beat myself up over it a return to the cycle.

this is a super unhealthy way to approach this but cause i was so repressed with my feelings and restricting myself that when i decide to get fat and it wasn’t happening at the speed i wanted it too i got into patterns mirroring that of an ED, idk if this does have a name it’s different to a BED but just obsessive over every details of whatever makes the scale go up.

THIS DOESNT HAVE TO BE THE ONLY WAY TO GAIN WEIGHT OR ENGAGE IN FEEDISM

so for me when i first started in feedism with myself yeah it did amalgamate in the form of an ED but i learnt how to cope and exist in this kink in a healthy way for my lil brain but feedism is not an ED but i do think there needs to be more education and research into feedism induced EDs and there are other ways to gain than stuffing everyday and making yourself uncomfy and beating yourself up over scales and numbers.

currently i’ve been making sure i’ve been eating three (hearty) meals a day snacks making an effort to eat good but not going too overboard. i’ve gotten better about weighing myself and setting realistic expectations with gaining i still have a lil voice in the back of my head that’s disappointed when the number isn’t what i want but it’s a lot less loud

talking about weight gain and feedism outside of horny hours has been extremely healing as well. people don’t say gym goers have an ED but just like most things people can go overboard so there is a way to fatten yourself in good ways

sorry for the long one it’s a bit more serious and stuff but i hope this helps anyone who has struggled with this or is struggling currently and has decided gaining weight isn’t for them because of similar experiences i just wanna let yall know there are ways you can do it and there is another side and it’s pretty fat over here :)

[mishaenjoyer]

Sério que você vai gastar dinheiro com COMIDA?

Poxa, eu pensava que você queria ser magro(a).

Mas em vez de fazer um exercício ou uma dieta que preste, você enche o seu corpo com calorias sem fator nutricional nenhum, que só vão adicionar alguns gramas a mais de gordura nesse seu corpo horroroso. Parabéns, você é um FRACASSO! ❤️❤️❤️

[4ng3l1xx]

ehhhehehehe drugs, sit ups, and music

[doublequaterpounder]

Like the vibes here, I'll follow

what IS your fat story? Like there's a big diff in Sw and CW and Im curious.

Keep up the good work!

Firstly thank you!!! and bless you’re soul!

but yeah my fat orgin story is i was always fit as hell growing up crossfit, dancer gym every morning and running but alas i always had this fascination with fatness the whole time (thanks sims 3 character editor)

despite being skinty as hell i had pretty bad case of the ol body dismorphia that eventually evolved into a full blown ED. the dichotomy between my fitness lifestyle to keep up appearances and my deep desire and curiosity of fatness and being fat became overwhelming. society’s game of fear of fatness was winning inside of me and i hated it

when i graduated from school and removed myself from the toxic fatphobic institutions i had lost all the fitness desire as well as a holiday to America that significantly increased my weight over a short period of time which really started the ball rolling into full blown fatness.

I wish i could say that it was a smooth journey from there but my weight yo-yoed upwards and sometimes downwards over the next 5 years with old habits dying hard. the first few years of embracing a fatter life where an adjustment but now i haven’t had a relapse in a few years

frankly i’m fat as hell now and getting fatter just eating what i want when i want to, i have an amazing partner who is also into this whole community who is incredibly supportive. just lovin no holding back, no restricting just enjoying my fat self!

also if anyone has asks please ask away!

[bluegangster]

“controlled descent.”

feeling snacky. not technically an eating day, but food noise has been relentless lately, so here i am, making a snack. of course. haven’t been as disciplined with fasting since disneyland, since mexico last month. apparently, a cruise has a way of smoothing out the sharp edges of routine, dulling the urgency of goals. a little too much relaxation, a little too much indulgence, and suddenly you’re watching the structure you built slip through your fingers like sand. ugh. and i’ve been progressing so well over the last year.

summers right around the corner. need to lock back in. work, school, fasting, fitness, calories, discipline. the version of me that moves toward the life i want isn’t built on hesitation.

so, i cheated the fast today, but not in a way that derails anything—just a slice of cheese wrapped in smoked turkey, wrapped in cabbage, a little mustard. i can live with that. i’m learning. there’s a version of me from my past that would have grabbed a box of donuts or ripped into a plate of fluffer-nut sandwiches. but i didn’t. if i’m going to stumble, at least i can control how i fall. there’s something to be said for that. that’s still progress, this is me trying.

[2snuffseb]

to be in a store buying emetics, or not to be in a store buying emetics, that is the question..

[onemillionfurries]

how the actual fuck do these incompetent assholes always end up ruining one thing and then immediately get hired to ruin something else??

[mishaenjoyer]

quero começar uma dieta só com frutas gente, sera que é bom?

[nausea-nymph]

Wouldn't it be fun to make me smoke until I'm all dry-mouthed and spinny before hanging my head over the edge of the bed and fucking my throat?

Wouldn't it?

...Or am I just a pervert?

[falloutnewnobody]

playing disco elysium while attempting recovery from an eating disorder is insane like every other line regarding harry's addiction (especially on the sobriety path) feels like a roundhouse kick to the chest

[mishaenjoyer]

GENTE BANIRAM MINHA CONTA DE MAIS DE 1K DE SEGUIDOR AFFFF 😡🖕me ajudem a achar meus moots pfv 😞 to mto triste

[ch3rrycoke-addict]

When I was at my HW I used to say "I just need to lose 20kg to look good". Now 32kg lighter, I feel even fatter. There will NEVER be a skinny enough but 4n4 makes me so happy.