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Angry Sex
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Rosita Espinosa x Male!ReaderĀ
Word count: 1132
Warnings: SMUT
Y/N: Your NameĀ
Summary:Ā While on a run with Rosita all the anger you have for each other comes to a head.
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Rosita and I were going on a run. Together. Ever since we met, there were strong feelings. We argued pretty much whenever we saw each other. So, this run was about to be worse than the dead walking. It was Rickās idea. Normally I didnāt have a problem with Rick, he took care of me, but right now I was pissed. I knew he was just trying to get us to get along, but she was so intense.Ā
I grunted as I grabbed my run bag. We were gonna be gone for around two days. Rosita was leaning against the car, impatiently waiting for me. I rolled my eyes and tossed my bag in the back, hopping into the passenger seat. Rosita sighed as she sat in the driverās seat.Ā
Once we got to the town we were told to go check out, we exited the car and searched the buildings. It wasnāt too hard since the city didnāt have a lot of walkers in it. After we searched some we drifted away a bit. I was searching some store when I heard a scream. I rushed to where I heard it and found a walker on top of Rosita. I quickly killed it and pulled it off her. I looked around the store and rolled my eyes.Ā
āAre you seriously risking your life for some damn makeup?ā I asked, frustratedly. She looked at me with a slight guilt in her eyes.Ā
āI thought you were smarter than this! You see some makeup and your turn into a fucking idiot?ā I asked, pissed off.Ā
āWhat the fuck did you just call me?ā She asked, stepping closer.Ā
āAn idiot.ā I said, narrowing my eyes. She lifted her hand and smacked me across the face, before storming out of the store. I stood there in shockā¦ Who the fuck does she think she is slapping me!? I followed out and found her leaning against the car. I stormed up to her and grabbed her by the shirt.Ā
āWhat the hell are you doing!?ā She asked.Ā
āIām gonna teach you a fucking lesson.ā I said. I pulled her towards the hood of the car and pushed her to lean over it. I pulled her shorts, revealing that she was wearing a black thong. My dick stiffened and I smacked her ass, hard. She yelped, but I could tell she enjoyed it.Ā
āIf you even think about slapping me again, weāll do this all over.ā I said as I spanked her again. I pushed my bulge against her barely covered pussy and she whimpered. She was grinding back before I gripped her hips.Ā
āIām in charge now. Youāre not getting anything your way.ā I growled. She whined and tried to move again, but I held her tightly in place.Ā
āY-Y/N, pleaseā¦ā She begged quietly. If it wasnāt for the silent city I probably wouldnāt have heard her.Ā
āPlease what?ā I asked with a smirk as I smacked her ass again.Ā
āPlease, fuck meā¦ I need itā¦ā She begged, making my smirk grow. I pulled her against my chest and roughly pulled her shirt off. Her tit bounced a bit from the action.Ā
āI always knew you were a little slut.ā I whispered in her ear. I pushed her back against the hood and unbuckled my belt. My pants fell around my ankles and I ran my finger along the thin cloth covering her pussy. She moaned and I could feel her wetness growing. I bent down and pulled the thong off as I dropped to my knees. She was so wet and I needed to taste her. I moved closer, breathing against her pussy as she shuttered above me. I plunged my tongue into her and she moaned. I quickly smacked her ass as a warning to keep her mouth shut. I didnāt do walkers ruining our time.Ā
I couldnāt help myself, her pussy tasted so good. She clenched around my tongue and I knew she was close. I pulled away just as she was about to cum, making her whine. I chuckled and smacked her pussy. She whimpered, but I watched her hole clench around nothing.Ā
āStop teasing.ā She hissed and I quickly stood up.Ā
āI thought I said youāre not in charge here.ā I hissed and smacked her ass a bit harder. I covered her mouth before she screamed out. I pulled my boxers down and gripped my cock in my free hand.Ā
āSee, bad girls like you get punished. You donāt go around smacking people that just saved your fucking life!ā I growled and pushed into her completely. I didnāt bother waiting for her to adjust, just started fucking her hard. She moaned into my hand and I groaned at the feeling. I wrapped my other hand around her waist and pulled her up so her back was against my chest. I moved my hand that was covering her mouth down to her throat and lightly squeezed. I was grunting and moaning quietly in her ear since I could control my volume. I felt her clench around me and started fucking her harder and faster. She was cumming hard. I let go of her throat and pushed three fingers into her mouth, making her gurgle around them. I groaned as I felt her cum covering me, but didnāt slow down. Her legs were shaking and she whimpered around my fingers. I was getting close. My thrusts were still rough, but I started to stutter.Ā
āT-Too muchā¦ā She mumbled around my fingers.Ā
āDonāt care, Iām gonna fuck you until Iām done.ā I said, making her whimper again. I pulled out to the tip and slammed back into her. Her head flew back and I saw her eyes roll to the back of her head as she screamed around my fingers. I came so hard inside her and moaned in her ear.Ā
Once I was done I pulled out and she laid against the hood of the car. I looked in my bag for a cloth or something to clean her up. Once she was clean I helped her get dressed and placed her in the passenger's seat.Ā
āYou good?ā I asked as I got in the driverās seat.Ā
āYeahā¦ Iāve uhā¦ Iāve kind of been hoping for something like that to happen.ā She said with a blush. I thought my eyes were deceiving me, Rosita just blushed?Ā
āIāve been wanting to fuck you into place for a while now.ā I said with a wink, her blush deepened.Ā
āLetās find somewhere to stay tonight, we can search for more supplies tomorrow.ā I suggested and she nodded.Ā
āMaybe we can find somewhere safe enough for you to really make me scream.ā She smirked.Ā
āMaybe we can.ā I smirked, driving off to find our temporary home.Ā
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What is it with people sexualising modest and celibate women? (Particularly nuns and muslims) Like seriously, even if I run away to a convent the second I get baptised I will still be considered sexy by some creep. Modesty is holy and dressing up in a nun costume and shamelessly sinning while doing so is blasphemy! Even if youāre atheist and donāt care about blasphemy itās just simply disgusting and disrespectful to these women and inherently sexist. Leave the sisters in peace!
#catholic#christianity#catholiscism#christian tumblr#nun#rant#rant post#angry rant#modesty#holy modesty#blasphemy#celibacy#religion#tw sexism#tw sex mention#this is disgraceful#I just want to look at traditional habits and pray#sinning is human#persisting in sin without guilt is demonic#virgin mary pray for us#just had to delete a comment ten minutes after posting this of someone hitting me up :(
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[āBut Iām not even human.āĀ
Miles shrugged. āHuman is as human does.ā He forced himself to reach out and touch her damp cheek. āAnimals donāt weep, Nine.ā
She jerked, as if from electric shock. āAnimals donāt lie. Humans do. All the time.ā
āNot all the time.ā
āProve it.ā She tilted her head as she sat cross-legged, her pale gold eyes were suddenly burning. Speculative.Ā
āUh, sure. How?ā
āTake off your clothes.ā
āWot.ā
āTake off your clothes and lay with me as humans do, men and women.ā Her hand reached out to touch his throat. The pressing claws made little wells in his flesh.
āUrp?ā choked Miles. His eyes felt wide as saucers. A little more pressure and those wells would spring out red fountains. Iām about to die.Ā
She stared into his face with a strange, frightening, bottomless hunger. Then, abruptly, she released him. He sprang up and cracked his head on the low ceiling and dropped back down, the stars in his eyes unrelated to love at first sight. Her lips wrinkled back on a fanged groan of despair. āUgly,ā she wailed, her clawed nails raked across her cheeks, leaving furrows. āToo ugly. Animal. You donāt think Iām human.ā She seemed to swell with some destructive resolve.Ā
āNo no no!ā Gibbered Miles, lurching to his knees and grabbing her hands and pulling them down. āItās not that, itās justā how old are you, anyway?āĀ
āSixteen.ā]
āā
Miles instantly recoiled, cracking his head on the ceiling again because those who didnāt learn history were doomed to repeat it, as Commodore Tung was fond of reminding him. Immediately her eyes narrowed, a snarl creeping over her sharp teeth. āYou donāt think Iām human enough,ā she accused, voice still husky from disuse. āI knew it.ā Her claws slipped back up to the scratches on her damp face, and he jolted forward, batting them down again in a reckless manner.Ā
āNo, itās not that,ā Miles insisted, eyeing the way her claws were curling into fists about the same size as his entire face. āYouāre a child! I canāt do that.ā
āMy life expectancy was barely a few years. The rest of the projects have been long dead.ā
āWell, itās still wrong in human years, which is the point. Thereās plenty of other tests for humanity, anyways.ā Sex was by no means the epitome of human existence. āWhat about Socrates? Human choice motivated by the desire for happiness? Or, oh, what was that test for AI centuries ago? The Tuning Test? That would work too.ā He didnāt remember what it actually entailed. āThereās many tests. You yourself said only humans lie. By your own logic, lie, ergo, human. Human is as human does.ā Thatās what heād meant it to be applied to, anyway.Ā
Her eyes narrowed. āNone of those prove your belief to me. I still like my test.ā Well, naturally. [Sixteen. God. He remembered sixteen. Sex obsessed and dying every minute.]Ā
[āArenāt you a little young for this?ā he tried hopefully.] She started a protest, but he continued. āItās illegal. There. I applied human laws to you.ā Probably a first for Jacksonās Hole. āI also just offered you a job, and regulations ban interrank romantic interactions.ā No matter how much he might want to with one particular Eli Quinn...
The power dynamic was entirely wrong, between his age and rank and the fact he was beginning to suspect he was about to rescue this girl. Or, hell, look at it the other way, at the underlying threat that he must prove he believed her human or die. It was a messed up power imbalance from nearly every angle.Ā
A crumpled look crossed her wolfish features. Miles tried to console her. One for it being the Vorish, gentlemanly thing to do, and two because while he thought it unlikely sheād kill him at this point, he still didnāt want to increase his chances. āIām probably the first nice face youāve seen in a while. Donāt settle for me simply since I got here first. There are plenty of suitable partners once you get out of this basement. Which, reminder, weāre in a hostile environment surrounded by enemies. We still need to escape.āĀ
Moroseness slumped her features. āItās impossible. I stopped trying years ago. Andā¦ā a shudder ran down her strong back, ears flattening. ā...they donāt like it when you try,ā she said lowly. āThey wouldnāt do this to me if I was human.ļæ½ļæ½
āEh, actually they would. I mean, Iām human, and Iām down here, arenāt I? Iāve been deemed subhuman before. It hurts when they think itād be a mercy to āput you out of your miseryā.ā He was going to strangle that scientist.
She gave him an odd look, scrutinizing him more thoroughly. āYou donāt look like Jacksonian work. And you said youāre human. Why isnāt that enough for them?āĀ
Miles spread his hands wide, a wry expression crossing his features. āAh, but Iām a mutant. A weakling. A curse from God upon my fatherās house for every sin they can think to lay at his feet. They will find anything and everything they can to hold against you, Nine, no matter what it is that makes you different. Eight feet tall or four foot nine, unmatched strength or bones of glass; they will despise you either way. Well damn their notion of being born wrong because I intend to be ten times the man they ever could be.ā
āThen itās hopeless.āĀ
āIf you want it to be handed to you, yes. You canāt rely on someone else to give you your humanity, because that implies they can revoke it at any time. Itās a value you have to find within yourself.ā It sounded like some pithy Betan advice he wouldāve picked up from his mother. āWith your test, you wanted your body to feel human. But what about your soul, Nine?ā He paused. āNo, we need a name for you. I canāt be calling you a number like some type of lab rat.ā Something strong and pretty, like her. He fell into that well of old earth philosophy he had initially fallen back on. Socrates, the Greeks, the like. When he finally found the name, it seemed perfect for the girl called a monster and trapped deep in the heart of a labyrinth of labs. Wasnāt Miles intended to be some blood sacrifice to her as well? And hadnāt the minotaur been a child when he was imprisoned for life? Punished for the crime of being born, just like them. āTaura,ā he breathed. āI think I shall call you Taura.ā
She went still, enraptured. āA name.ā Tears welled in her golden eyes. āNo one has ever given me a name.āĀ
āIām not giving it to you. Iām letting you take it, to seize it, to make it your own. As much as Iād like to, I canāt give you your humanity either. Thatās all up to you. Break free of every cruel moniker hurled at you. Monster, mutantā who cares what any of them think!? Prove them all wrong and never look back. Thatās what I did. So here: I may reject your test, but I offer my own. I believe youāre āhuman enoughā because I believe youāre worthy of freedom, of a future, of a name. I certainly canāt give any of that to you, but I sure can help you try.ā Something sparked in her gilded gaze, the tantalizing offer sheād likely never been given before. It was a hope doused quickly, but it had been there at all. Miles had a chance of relighting it, of fanning the flames.Ā
āYou really think so?ā Uncertain, her fangs twisted into a guarded frown.Ā
Miles batted aside a twinge of guilt. It wasnāt just because she was his only shot of escape, and it certainly wasnāt for a particular scientist whose neck he wanted to wring. This was because Taura didnāt deserve to be trapped in a basement eating rats for the rest of her tenuous life. He might have needed her, but she needed him, too, if only for a little while.Ā
āI donāt make offers I donāt intend to provide. So, care to escape with me?ā He held out an arm, almost ridiculously formal, and she took it, choosing to trust him if only hesitantly, if only for that little spark of hope still in here somewhere.
#someone gave me a comment that made me go huh#i guess i can actually post vorkosigan fics#when I wrote this i literally didn't even know there was a vorkosigan fandom#i just woke up angry years ago and decided to rewrite this scene#cause like. Lois???#what do you MEAN sex is the defining feature of proving someone's humanity????#like i know im ace but#dude#plus the four different power imbalances at play#and noone can stop me from writing an anti-sex scene#they're such good foils! I wanted to EXPLORE#but no. sleep with a child. good job miles.#he literally calls her a girl when defending her value as a human from the doctor!#dehumanisation tw#sex ment tw#vorkosigan saga#vorkosigan fic#miles vorkosigan#Sargent taura#taura vorkosigan saga#I hoped I captured that passionate way Miles does his arguments#I tried to emulate the emotional philosophy I come to the vorkosigan sage for and DESERVED in this scene
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So I did a sexual thing with a partner for the first time yeasterday morning, and why in the hell did the church tell us this was an evil sinful thing?
It was good, it felt pure and natural, it was the easiest thing I've ever done, like I was put on this earth for doing that. I just don't get how this can be wrong.
And yeah, the answer to why christianity says it's evil is simple, it's just another means of control, but god damn I'm angry about it. Why did sex have to be taught as this sinful shameful thing in any other context than the confines of marrige? Why was the beauty of it never taught?
This was pure, natural, holy even.
What other beautiful things are they keeping behind the barrier of sin?
#ex christian#apostate#tw sex mention#(it was just exchanging hand jobs but still)#I'm pretty fucking angry that the joy this can bring was kept from me
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a small vent post but
Iām I the only one who gets annoyed when someone brings fake teasers or news about stuff like monkie kid season 5 or sonic 3 or those looping fun fact videos or like those annoying ads on YouTube nowadays
like it gets so annoying I canāt even trust anything news related about the said media it just sometimes makes me miss the simpler time in the 2000s and 2010s
yes fandoms and media were still toxic but aleast it didnāt have those annoying loops or fake news hell the ads back then were actually really enjoyable! It just frustrating seeing people just think they can post whatever they want in the internet
Like videos with very gorey situations or sexual undertones in fucking comic dubs (looking at you couger) and most of the comic dubbers are problematic
so are fans in any time of fandom who just hate criticism with a fury any word of said creator media or the fans they release a rage like the person just insulted their entire existence
And donāt get me started on those videos with scary shit like stop scrolling if your a bad person or more
Like can we all just get our heads out of our asses and chill like just relax everyone just watch sometimes nice maybe old gameplays or cat videos or simple as a person just talking about maybe cooking!
anything!
#tw vent#tw mention of gore#tw mention of violence#tw mention of sex#tw angry#fandom sucks#problematic fandoms#media problems#Can we all just fucking relax?#chill out
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Angry Kissing Masterlist
A is for AsphyxiationĀ (ao3) -Ā shieldslut steve/tony E, 2k
Summary: Tony's used to messing up on missions, and he's used to an angry Captain America yelling at him for it... but this? This is new.
Angry KissĀ (ao3) -Ā thegreenwomanswalkman steve/natasha G, 794
Summary: Maybe fighting while angry isn't the best idea, but it's the best way to get over the UST between them.
Borrowed, Stolen, Sworn and SealedĀ (ao3) -Ā Im_The_Doctor (Bofur1) peter/mary jane T, 4k
Summary: Every kiss Peter and MJ share is different but in the end, they all boil down in translation to the same three words.
Don't Talk Just KissĀ (ao3) -Ā Dormammu steve/tony G, 2k
Summary: Steve and Tony are at Club A, each thinking about their never realized friendship and crush on the other and that the other hates him.
Fit The ProfileĀ (ao3) -Ā WaterHorseyBlues loki/mobius N/R, 77k
Summary: Violent attacks, attempted murder and an unclaimed inheritance. Loki's dull life is interrupted when he's unexpectedly taken as a hostage one night. Private Detective Mobius is on the case, and Loki grasps at the chance to turn his life around and hunt down the perpetrator. What at first seems like unmotivated violence caused by an untraceable ghost soon turns into something much bigger than either Loki or Mobius could have expected. Could the answer lie in Loki's past? Or is something far more sinister going on?
He Doesn't Need Me AnymoreĀ (ao3) -Ā loricameback steve/bucky T, 690
Summary: What really happened after Steve rescued Bucky from Red Skull.
In the End in Wonderland We Both Went MadĀ (ao3) -Ā snarkysweetness skye/grant M, 1k
Summary: After a mission gone awry Skye and Ward get into a very heated shouting match that has unforeseen consequences.
Let my love erase all your doubtsĀ (ao3) -Ā Mimisempai loki/mobius M, 1k
Summary: While traveling with Loki in Asgard on a mission for the TVA, Mobius stumbles upon what appears to be a tender moment between Sif and his lover. When Loki finds him in their room, Mobius lets his jealousy take possession of him to Loki's great surprise.
Let's Hear It For Captain America! (ao3) - Magnetism_bind steve/bucky E, 5k
Summary: A missing scene from Captain America: The First Avenger
Marked For GoodĀ (ao3) -Ā buckybarnesdeservestobehappy (hutchabelle) steve/bucky E, 1k
Summary: Steve Rogers is noble to a fault, and that's how he manages to get himself into really dumb predicaments more often than not. Bucky Barnes is fed up. In fact, he's so fed up he decides a spanking's in order. They both end up enjoying it way more than either expect.
Nine Days Of LokiĀ (ao3) -Ā EarthAngelGirl30 loki/sif N/R, 74k
Summary: The Lady Sif has been given a mission. She's been sent to Midgard with orders to bring the troublesome trickster Loki, back to Asgard. He's been in hiding amongst the mortals after fleeing the realm eternal, in order to escape the wrath of Odin, as well as Thanos who still has a score to settle with him. With his magical abilities, Sif isn't able to apprehend him easily and inadvertently becomes his hostage. When their hatred of each other begins evolving into something more complicated, her integrity, loyalty and honour will be tested. Likewise, Loki even begins questioning his reasons for holding her captive in the first place. Unless she can convince him to return, Sif may end up being stranded on Midgard indefinitely, and who knows what fate may befall her captor. But with the possibility of Heimdall observing all, as she's pushed to the limit, will whatever happens on Midgard...stay on Midgard?
oh captain, my captainĀ (ao3) -Ā silentstreets steve/tony M, 1k
Summary: steve's angry so tony's angry and they make out wow
Staring at the SunĀ (ao3) -Ā Silver17Springs yelena/kate E, 11k
Summary: After spending Christmas with the Barton family, Kate remembers the blonde assassin who left and is determined to find her and remind her that she still had people. She finds, her, but the second part doesn't go so well.
Or, the "Yelena is super fucked up and people ignore her trauma" trope where Kate Bishop gets thrown a learning curve about how to deal with a ticking bomb of a human person.
Surrounded, SurroundedĀ (ao3) -Ā ryry_peaches steve/bucky G, 3k
Summary: Before the battle in Wakanda, Steve and Bucky take a little time to catch up, resolve some things and remind one another what they're fighting for.
Take Me, Quake MeĀ (ao3) -Ā tisfan robbie/skye E, 2k
Summary: Robbie's got a demon inside him... And Daisy was never big on caution.
The Only One For MeĀ (ao3) -Ā scarletvisionforever wanda/vision T, 1k
Summary: PROMPT: Fighting that leads to an angry kiss~
under the neon lights (all I see is you)Ā (ao3) -Ā smish1 steve/bucky E, 9k
Summary: Bucky expresses some feelings with the help of karaoke, Asgardian mead and some bad decisions.
We Don't Kiss & TellĀ (ao3) -Ā STARSdidathing loki/tony T, 4k
Summary: The first time it happened, they were in the middle of an argument.
#themculibrary#marvel#mcu#masterlists#smut#sex tw#angrykissing#angrykissing masterlist#angry#kissing
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if you think you can police what our littles can and cannot do i will literally fucking murder you
fun fact!! a common childhood trauma is your status as a minor being used against you since the adult will tell the child that they don't know better and that the adult has to decide for them and force them into situations they don't want to be in. the adult can control the child and the child is helpless
our littles will swear if they want. they'll listen to explicit music and watch violent media. they know what sex is. they know how it feels to be drunk. they went through horrific abuse and aren't uwu smol beans to be protected from the evils of the world. they survived these evils. and they are now finally in a position where they don't have to let themselves be objects for adults to use. they have autonomy over their own lives and if anyone is trying to take that from them once again, they're lucky i'm not about to go to prison. our littles are free people and we can take care of ourselves
strangers have no fucking right to try to control the behaviour of an adult bodied person. that's invasive, abusive and extremely ableist. don't treat us like a child, because we aren't one. show a survivor of early childhood trauma some fucking dignity and respect or shut the absolute fuck up
#tw death threats#tw child abuse#tw violence#syscourse#tw abuse mention#tw sex mention#tw mature#tw alcohol#actuallycdd#actuallydid#angry vent#kink dni#levi.speaking#my.posts
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#hiiii I feel sO angry#sa tw#thereās this guy that I recently became friends with#and he had a big crush on me but for me it was only platonic#Iād met him because he worked at the gas station near my house lol#he turned out to be an asshole and it turns out that heās been telling all of his coworkers how awful I am and etc likeā¦#he had his ego crushed because I wouldnāt have sex with him so he told me to go fuck myselfā¦thatās whaT actually happened#an important draft because he ended up talking shit about me to his coworkers(they told me) so f him Iām posting this#!!!#personal
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An Open Letter to My Ex (Part 3.25)
So we took each other's virginity. It was sloppy. I remember your mom, friends, or something else kept pounding on the door. I think we ended up going for a walk after. Oddly enough, those are not the memories that are burned into my head. Although I remember the first time you made me take Xanax, maybe you didn't "make" me, but the peer pressure was there. I completely fell apart; I just cried and didn't move for hours. Your dad drove me home, may he rest in peace, and I was still crying. I cried a lot. I cried because I was scared, I cried because I was unhappy, and I cried hoping someone would do something. No one ever did. They listened and saw, but it turned out I was the only one who could do anything to get myself out of the situation I put myself in. `Years and years went by like this, getting high, having sex, and getting high and having sex. Honestly, that's all that comes to mind. For almost 5 years. I worked a day job, I went to school, and you did whatever the hell you were doing, but all I thought about was drugs and sex. Everything else was a chore. I wish I was more present in my life. I remember the first time we did acid and the first time I had morphine and cocaine, or maybe it was heroin or horse tranquilizers. I don't think you ever told me the truth. Long story short, we threw our teenage years away. We ended up engaged at 18 and broke up before the summer even ended. Six years down the drain is not much of a loss, considering I don't think either of us were ever happy. I wish we never met. I mean that. We were so toxic to each other. Who would I be today if it wasn't for you? Oddly enough, I think I would have taken the same path with a different partner in crime. I feel like I was destined for suffering. I walk past you, and we are complete strangers. What a weird world to live in!
-River
#diary#dear diary#open diary#diary entry#drug abuse#raw truth#love#dear journal#flash fiction#tw drugs#dear ex#open letter#sex and drugs#war on drugs#teenage years#engagement#wasted#ruined#angry#scared
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okay going to sleep so i stop feeling bitter and sad
#timothy's txts.#like it's not that serious because i know i'll feel better after sleeping#and i'm not even that upset#but i'm thinking about how i haven't even come out as ace to my parents yet#and its like i can't stop counting the times my parents said i havent found the right person#and that you can't have a healthy relationship without sex#and. etc etc etc.#i'm sick of this fucking grief! i'd be my parents son if they'd let me! i'd be truthful! i'd be sincere!#i would be myself around them!!#i'm sick and tired of feeling guilty for hiding stuff from my family when the reason i do it is to keep myself safe#like i'm finally realising i don't just want to stop hiding because i'm tired of being afraid#i want to stop because i want them to know me#when i was younger i thought i was fine with hiding it. i was angry at them. but i love them so much that i want to show them this part of#me. i want them to know me. and....... i can't risk showing them.#what a shame right? we both want the same thing. we both want me to be honest. stop hiding.#tw transphobia#tw acephobia#tw aphobia#just. covering all my bases there.. yeah.#anyway its genuinely not that bad rn dont worry. just wanted to be upset about it for a minute so i can pinpoint things for therapy thusday
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#gonna vent a bit#food tw#anxiety tw#i guess#idk if this is me being a younger sibling or always being āpossessiveā with material things but i always found it so frustrating#when someone buys food in particular thatās meant to be shared and not everyone gets the same amount#but like to the point where i know x amount is the fair amount and iām incredibly anxious and territorial about getting my fair share#like it causes me anxiety to think i might have to give up my fair amount so someone else has a fair share#when thereās probably one person getting MORE than the fair share#it makes me so ANGRY for someone to unfairly get more than their share#and then the āoh heās a boy so heās gonna eat moreā āoh heās bigger so he gets moreā SPECIFICALLY WITH SEX AS AN EXCUSE#fuck you fuck off i should get my share and no one should have special privileges and if not just have them buy/make something else#this is a stupid rant but iām so anxious over this right now to the point of i donāt even want food anymore bc i donāt want to make a fuss#also this is for quantitative items like a pizza with 8 exact slizes etc not like a plate of fries you know
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I obviously didnāt get my ābad personā intuition from my mother if she supports THAT fucking cunt
#I never liked trump before I found out the shit heās done#and I hate him even worse now#I just donāt understand how she can fuckin support him#*oh heās done a lot of good things* like what hm? tell me please so I can understand ur adoration#*he built a wall to stop illegal immigration* and?? anything else??#*oh they lied about the sex offender thing* DID THEY NOW??#vent#Iām fucking furious rn and Iām not even American#I didnāt get sleep cuz of this election shit#thatās how angry I am#I think she only likes him cuz of the abortion thing#Tw swearing#sorry for the swears Iām just so fucking angry
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i can't handle things being unknown when rides are planned through insurance or people who have to help me don't answer to soothe my anxiety. my autism can not handle unorganized time management sorted in this way. i need precision and specific details. if I can't have that I literally want to hurt myself or die like I do right now. i already tried calling the crisis hot line and others. everyone is busy. everyone is always busy. i can't do this. I will stay in my room and never leave until the earth stops. i will end this pain in any way I can on my own. i now crave sex and hard drugs because i can't understand how people deal with this sober. i can't understand. - the Hoard, Sammi, Kiki
#did alters#tw drugs#sex tw#self harm tw#tw suicide#i hate myself and the fact i know that this isnt eational and we still cant fucking stop fwelinf angry and shitty about it all#i fucking hate being autistic and having no outlet to stop freaking out#autistic system#trans autistic
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MOMRAD JUST SIGHS LOUDLY
It started out as just your best to try and comfort your lord. Getting him out of his armor and washing his skin... his pitch black eyes looked even darker as the bit of light that was in them was gone. Your clothes clung to your body as you rubbed the soap across his skin, just cleaning the flesh that had not been cleaned in who knows how long. The water turning red at different points but you said nothing.
The noble primarch looked devastated and heartbroken you wouldn't be surprised if you would be quietly killed for what you've seen... Lord Corvus Corax at his emotional lowest. You wash his hair being gentle as you work out the knots in his hair, broken strands of hair wrap around your fingers and cling to your arms like blackened veins.
"I'm going to kill them..." Corvus finally speaks. You pause as this is the first time he's spoken. His head lifts up as he looks at you with a calm look on his face, "I'm going to kill them." The rage barely restrained as you swallow but you nod.
"I know you will my lord." You dare speak and you feel his mouth crash into yours.
It started out as you trying to comfort your lord. Your eyes are glazed over as you arch moaning into the bed as you tighten around the thick cock pushing in and out of your sex. Fucking you through your orgasm as that only kept it going and easily building you up for your next one.
"You're going to give me more ravens." Corvus moaned as his hand cups where your womb would be though currently you were full of cum.
"Yes!" You moan out pushing your hips back to his. You were covered in bruises and your shoulders had bites marks oh if you were to die after this you certainly would die happy. "I give you sons!" You wail out as another orgasm crashes into you.
Corvus stills inside of you his hands pulling your hips flush with his as he throws his head back groaning and just shallowly thrusting into you as he cums inside of you again.
Corvus swallows feeling his cheeks flush red as he looks down at you being blissfully fucked out of your mind. He swallows as he doesn't regret any of the filthy things he whispered into your ear... in fact it only seems to rile him up again. He pulls himself out missing the warmth of your body around him. You moan softly as you lay there, the smile on your lips genuine, "Anything else you need Corvus?"
His breathing deepens at the sinful way you say this name and as much as he wants to breed you until you pass out... he can restrain himself, "Just stay."
"Of course." You say opening your arms embracing Corvus as he lays next to you, "I'll stay till you dont need me any more." And that is a promise you keep.
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tbh the opportunities for rough breeding kink with corax are endless. like... it's after the drop site massacre, the raven guard has been decimated, he's broken and angry and his sons need to be replenished asap, and there just happens to be a very cute and sweet serf girl right there... i'll see myself to horny jail šš
You are so right anon, ily
That poor serf girl can in no way repopulate the Raven Guard, but she gonna fuckin' TRY
#in reality Corvus is so damn depressed and some physical contact would help him forget but the breeding kink comes out accidentally#he don't realize until it's too late#< prev tags#surprise breeding kink#tw breeding kink#corvus corax#primarch#primarch x reader#corvus corax x reader#warhammer 40k#my man went into sex angry and came out with a breeding kink#tw cumflation#just only a little#you got stuffed#Momrad's blurbs
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How My Views and Thoughts Were Skewed and How I Un-Skewed Them (Read tags before reading, please.)
For a short time, I felt wanted. I thought I was loved.
You said I was hot and that you thought often about railing me, whatever that meant.
I thought thatās what desire was.
During the rare times I truly felt confident in myself to wear something that showed the tiniest bit of cleavage or my thighs, youād tell me that you had a boner (which never made sense, considering you were non-binary and didnāt haveā¦ those parts, but who was I to discredit however you saw yourself and your gender?)
You were utterly obsessed with porn and that funneled down to me. You told me youād tie me up so vigorously that it could break my wrists and you said youād choke me so hard that it would kill me.
I just thought, āWell, some people are kinky.ā and excused it. Rationalized it. But my gut and my body knew better, fear wrecked me. The idea of lying under such crude and uncaring hands wrecked my soul and make me ill.
Youād watch unethical porn and it would get into your mind and funnel down to me. But you had rules; I couldnāt ever try to seek out something like that myself, even when I knew how to find ethical and morally-sound adult things. That was, ābeing lustfulā, sinning after others as you called it. Iāve never even believed in God, but I didnāt want to make you mad.
When we broke up, you called me a whore and a slut, when Iād never done a single thing wrong. I followed your rules (What relationship has rules? Who are you to strictly tell me what I can and cannot do?) and went along with every violating, grotesque thing you talked about doing to me, and I let you shove me into the hard-set box of being your submissive, delicate thing to use and the mere notion that I could have some control or say was always, always brushed off.
But Iāve learned that Iām not supposed to want to vomit at the thought of sex.
Iāve learned that sometimes, showing my thighs is just that, showing my thighs or cleavage or a bit of my stomach. I like shorts in the summer and the occasional crop-top. Iām allowed to wear it and just have it be a cute outfit.
Iāve learned that sex is supposed to be warm. Pleasurable and fun, of course, but warm and intimate mostly.
Where itās never railing, but lovemaking or just the word sex. I prefer the word sex over anything youād ever say.
Where thereās a mentioning of aftercare and where thereās a mutual agreement to communicate and truly listen to what the other person wants to do or try.
Where Iām allowed to say no.
Itās taken so long to not freeze up at the mentioning of sex, to open up again and not feel vile when I have sexual thoughts or fantasies of my own. Itās taken so much mental work and re-wiring of my thoughts.
But Iām learning. Iām still learning. Iām learning and working hard to shake off the bitter, violating taste that you left in my mouth.
Thereās still a long road ahead of healing and communicating. Helping my partner (who actually gives two shits about my boundariesā¦) to understand me and to help them in any way I can, in return.
Itās a long road ahead but itās a road I can take to dispose of all your true sins. You call me the sinner, when you should take a good, long look at yourself.
#vent post#about my ex#tw sexualization#tw violent sex mentioning#oversexualization#tw crude language#tw violent imagery#this is majorly calling them out but I donāt care anymore.. they messed me up and Iām allowed to be angry about it#abusive ex#might delete later
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