#turns out it's also my 2 year anniversary on this app

[hoetolegist]

Use and abuse me

Summary: You pressed your forehead against the glass and just took a moment to breathe and think. You listened to the sounds of the heavy winds whipping through the trees as you closed your eyes and inhaled. How did you get here? Why did you let yourself get here?

Warnings: consensual drug use, attempted forced drug use, manipulation, crying before and during sex, yelling, gaslighting, implied betrayal, he's very rough when handling her so I'm gonna put abuse just to be safe, explicit language, Stefan is toxic toxic, poor y/n, rough sex, low-key breeding kink, degradation kink, praise kink, oral (F receiving), dirty talk, slow sex, intimate sex, when I say Stefan gives you emotional whiplash I mean it, everything that happens when they have sex is consensual, they are fucking outside btw, on a terrace, on a small glass table, under the bright stars lol

Note: This is FICTION. I obviously would not enjoy seeing myself or anybody else in a situation like this in real life. I don't own any of the characters used (except "y/n" duh)

"You did this to me!" You banged on the table with all the strength you could muster as you pushed your seat back to stand up, the half full cups of liquor fell to the floor with a thud. "All you do is hurt me! Look at me Stefan! This isn't who I used to be" you shouted into the crisp night air

Stefan just examined you like you were a child throwing a fit. He never really looked at you, he examined you, watched you as if you were some science experiment. He watched as your mascara smudged under your eyes from crying, he watched as your knees got scratched and bruised from kneeling and begging, he watched as you lost yourself and who you used to be completely

You heard Stefan sigh loudly, letting you know he was annoyed. "Stop crying" he said, straight faced, as if that was all it took to shut you up. He grabbed a bottle of pills and threw them at you "you did this to yourself Y/n. You were doing this long before me. I just gave you the push you needed to truly accept what you do" he shrugged nonchalantly

You scoffed, not knowing wether you should be angry or sad. You loved him, everything you did was to prove your love to him, hoping in the slightest chance that he would love you back, that he would continue to love you back. If you could've guessed that it would end up like this, you wouldn't have been so stupid, you wouldn't have left your whole life behind for him

But Stefan was right, you did this to yourself. You were fucked up way before you met him, meeting him just intensified all of your highs. He was exactly what you needed at the moment. You craved the way Stefan touched you and you craved the attention that he gave you. He just drug you deeper and deeper into the hole that you already dug for yourself

"You'll never admit it but you wanted this life. I just gave it to you baby"

You flinched at the pet name "no no I didn't" you stared at the pills that spilled at your feet "I didn't ask for this". You squeezed your eyes shut and sunk down to the floor, not having enough energy to keep yourself up anymore

"Fuck fuck fuck" you chanted to yourself, clutching your chest and gasping for air, it felt like a weight was being pushed deeper and deeper into your chest. Stefan was by your side in a split second enveloping you in his arms. "Hey, hey, breathe. You're okay baby" he softly brushed your hair with his hand and if you didn't know any better you would have cuddled into his arms and enjoyed the warmth

You didn't have the energy to push the man back or fight him off, you allowed Stefan to hold you on the empty terrace. Maybe this is the life you were supposed to live, maybe this is what you were looking for all along. To be used and broken into pieces. It's what you need, it's what you deserve

Eventually the heavy breathing turned into loud, body aching sobs as Stefan held you and rocked you slowly. "I love you, I love you so much I feel like I might die without you" you confessed through tears "but I can't do this anymore". Your voice was shaky, no matter how hard you tried to stop it. You wanted to sound confident, sure of yourself, you wanted Stefan to see that you were serious

You pulled out of Stefan's hold, momentarily surprised that he let you. "I won't do this anymore" you pulled yourself up onto shaky legs

But Stefan just chuckled lowly. He grabbed two pills off of the floor before standing back up to face you. He watched as you flinched when he lifted his hand to touch your cheek and he softly smiled at the hitch in your breath when he lightly traced your bottom lip with his thumb

He brought the pills up to your mouth with one hand and used the other to hold your chin "baby, I love that you think you have a choice". He traced your lips with one of the pills "remember when we used to take these?" he questioned with a hum "percs used to get us so fucked up, made you beg for my cock all the time" his warm breath fanned across your lips as he whispered about your past choices

You tensed as Stefan pushed one in your mouth. You guys stared at each other for a second and you saw a flash of amusement in his eyes, you weren't surprised that he was enjoying this. Normally you'd cower down in fear and maybe you should've but instead you spit the pill into Stefan's face, pushed him away from you and used all of the strength you had left to run for the door

Stefan stumbled back but caught himself before he could fall. He watched you intensely, narrowing his eyes as he slowly walked closer to you struggling to open the door. You were panicking. The door won't fucking open and you can feel Stefan burning a hole in your back with his stare. It was scary, you wanted to leave, you needed to get out of there and away from this man. You slapped on the door, hoping someone would hear you from outside the penthouse but then you felt warmth press up against you, pinning you to the door

Stefan pressed his chest against your back then he grabbed your waist. "You think you can just run away from me pretty?" He whispered into your ear, feeling you shaking in his arms. "You think I'd make it that fucking easy for you to run away from me?" his voice was rising with each word that came out of his mouth

"Turn around" he demanded

You pressed your forehead against the glass and just took a moment to breathe and think. You listened to the sounds of the heavy winds whipping through the trees as you closed your eyes and inhaled. How did you get here? Why did you let yourself get here?

"Turn the fuck around Y/n!" Stefan banged his fist on the door causing you to jump and the glass to rattle. You slowly turned around to face Stefan with your eyes shut, you didn't want to see the look on his face. You were scared to look him in the eye, scared that you'd cower down again if you did. He had a way of doing that to you, making you feel like you were beneath him

He grabbed your chin so hard it'll probably leave bruises "didn't I tell you that I don't like repeating myself?". You could imagine the fire in his eyes, the dark look he's giving you right now. You gulped harshly, your throat dried up from the fear that coursed through you. "I asked you a question Y/n, don't piss me off" he talked as if he was counting to ten in his head, trying to calm himself down

You sucked in a shaky breath "y-yes you did" you could feel the hot tears burning your cheeks as they began to fall. It was embarrassing, you always let him win, you can never win and you were tired of it. You couldn't help but be frustrated at not only Stefan but yourself, you were drained and you shouldn't be. You should be trying to fight, trying to save yourself and get back home but you couldn't no matter how hard you tried because you love him

Stefan reached his free hand up, allowing his fingertips to lightly graze your cheek, reveling in the wetness of your tears and the way your lashes fanned across the apple of your cheeks when your eyes were closed

He bent his head down to whisper in your ear "baby" he chuckled lowly. He placed a few soft kisses along the shape of your jawline before sliding his hand up the back of your neck to grab a handful of your hair. He pulled your head back harshly "don't you ever do anything like that again" his lips ghosted across your earlobe "do you understand?"

You squirmed in Stefan's hold, your chest rising and falling heavily. You squeezed your eyes, keeping them shut, waiting for the harsh hold on your hair to let up but it seemed to only get tighter. "Yes I understand" you rushed out, your head was starting the throb and you just wanted it to stop

You opened your eyes to find Stefan looking down at you. You stared into his eyes, searching his face to try and read him, trying to.find just a little bit of emotion behind them. You know that Stefan would never hurt you so long as you show him that you understand, you can't fight back

"Stefan please" you squeaked out, defeated and not having the energy to fight back anymore

"Don't you have something to say to me?" Stefan let go of your hair but still towered over you. He gently dragged his knuckles along your jawline, his raspy voice vibrating through your body "I think I deserve an apology"

You nodded your head "I'm so s-sorry"

"For?"

This was a game to Stefan, he loved having you at his mercy, begging for forgiveness when you did the slightest thing to push him over the edge. He loved that you gave him that power, that control. When he first met you, you were broken, so broken that he knew he could mold you into the perfect compliant little doll just for him and you are, perfect for him and him only

"For saying and doing things I d-don't mean" you felt hot tears falling down your face again "I love you baby" you cupped Stefan's face with your hands "I don't want to run away from you, I didn't mean it"

Truth is, you wouldn't have anywhere to go even if you did manage to get away. You pushed all of your friends away and practically told your parents to fuck off and die. They wouldn't want you back and you could never bring yourself to face them again even if you had the chance. Maybe that's why you never tried too hard to get away, you knew deep down that you'd have no where else to call home. Stefan loves you, takes care of you, doesn't judge you and keeps you safe. Why should you give that up?

You blinked through the blurriness of your tears. Your eyes were starting to burn from crying so much and you just wanted to lay down and sleep in your lovers arms

But of course Stefan wouldn't have that

He lowered your hands then held your chin with his fingers, making you look up at him. His eyes flickered to your lips "you know I don't like yelling at you. You just have to know your place baby" he whispered while softly caressing your cheek and wiping the lone tear that slipped from your eye. You nodded in understanding and wrapped your arms around his waist to hug him

"I love you" he murmured before pulling you into a slow, passionate kiss

Emotional whiplash, is how you would describe your every encounter with Stefan. One minute the man is throwing a fit, punching doors and tables, making you fear for your life and the next minute he's holding you gently, kissing you slowly, telling you that he loves you and making you feel the safest you ever felt

It hurts, how you could feel so safe in the arms of someone so crazy

You whimpered as Stefan began to place feather light kisses down your neck. You wanted more, you wanted Stefan to fuck you hard and rough, you want to forget about everything that happened today

As if he could read your mind he grabbed your ass and squeezed tightly, coaxing a moan out of you. "You want me to fuck you out here baby?" he breathed against your neck, still sucking bruises into the once unblemished skin. You nodded, loving the feel of Stefan's lips on you since you were craving his touch all day. You moaned out at a particular nip under your ear and lifted your hands to run your fingers through Stefan's hair but the contact was taken away just as quickly as it was given

You almost cried at the loss of his touch but when you opened your eyes you immediately lit up at the sight of Stefan sitting at the table making three lines out of some white power that was in one of the bags he put out. "Just for you baby" he said, waving you over

You fixed your shirt and adjusted your shorts before walking over to the small glass table that sat in the middle of the terrace. You sat on Stefan's lap, back to chest and watched in fascination as the man used his blue credit card to make neat lines. "Can I do it?" You turned around to stare at Stefan with the puppy eyes

"Maybe next time" he pulled you back against him "let me take care of you" he murmured softly against your ear

You perked up at the promise of being cared for, you love when Stefan takes care of you. "Mm" you sat back and waited for him to tell you what to do

When Stefan was done he put the card to the side and massaged your hips "go ahead baby". You bit your lip and looked back at Stefan, the man was looking at you so intensely, so full of love and desire. In a situation like this you'd think feelings like that would cease to exist but you can see it, even if it doesn't show as much as you want

You bent down, your nose close to the table and your ass pressed down against Stefan's hardening dick. "Fuck you're so sexy" you heard Stefan groan as he rubbed all over your ass. That egged you on and soon enough you had your finger pressing down on one nostril while you inhaled deeply across one of the lines with the other

The burn always hits you right away, it felt good to have that tingly feeling back. You sat back up and shook your head, "Fuck" you breathed out a sigh of content

It was a sensational feeling, one that you can't get anytime else with anyone else except for Stefan. You were relaxed and soon enough by the time Stefan did both of the other lines, everything you felt emotionally and physically was heightened. You could feel Stefan's hands rubbing all over your body, rubbing up and down your back, his warm breath fanning across your neck, everything. You moaned, high pitched and whiny, not caring about how needy you sounded. You were just intensely horny now

You didn't even realize that you were grinding down against Stefan until he squeezed your hips to stop you. "Get on the table" he smacked one of your ass cheeks and pointed at the table. You didn't want to ask any questions, you just wanted to feel, the urge to feel overrided any other emotion

Without any questions you got on the table, spreading your legs wide. Stefan licked his lips and rubbed his hands up your legs, pulling them apart just a bit more. He pulled your shirt off, eyes darkening when he noticed you didn't have a bra on then he unbuttoned your shorts, pulling them down to your ankles when you lifted yourself up a bit

"So wet for me already"

You moaned softly when Stefan flicked your clit. He knew your body better than anybody else you've ever been with, he touched you exactly how you wanted to be touched. "Tell me what you want me to do" Stefan said while lazily trailing a finger through your folds

You licked your lips "I want you to eat me out and finger me"

With a hum Stefan stood up and grabbed your ankles, making you lay back on the table. He pulled your shorts off completely and threw them to the side. He sat back down, now his face was aligned with your pussy, the prettiest pussy he ever saw. He parted the glistening lips, hearing you whimper from the cool air hitting your exposed pussy. The hole fluttered like it just needed a cock in it but instead of a cock Stefan lowered his head and slowly licked a stripe from your core to your clit

"Fuck, don't tease" you breathed. You let your head lay back against the table as you stared at the sky. You couldn't see Stefan properly as much as you wanted to, the table was too small and your bottom half was literally hanging off of it. You spread your legs out more and held them up

Stefan chuckled, the vibrations going straight through you, making you moan. You let go of one leg to grip Stefan's hair as the older started fucking his tongue in and out of your hole. "Mm so good baby" you whined, grinding your pussy against his face

Suddenly Stefan pulled away and flipped you over so you were on your stomach, feet planted on the floor and ass hanging off the table. He moved the chair out of the way and got on his knees, burying his face back into your pussy. As he licked and nippled on your sensitive clit, he also circled your hole with two fingers and slid both of them in at once. Your knees buckled, eyes rolling back at the pleasurable intrusion

"Tell me how you feel baby. You know I love to hear you"

"Feels s-so good" you whined as Stefan began scissoring his fingers inside, searching for your g-spot. "Right there, right there" you chanted breathlessly when he pressed against your spot. He started ramming his fingers in at a brutal pace as he sucked on your clit harder. Your thighs were shaking and you gripped onto the table harshly, knuckles paling from the grip. It was when Stefan lightly dragged his teeth against your clit that you finally came with a shout of his name

He continued to finger you until you were whining for him to stop because you were getting sensitive. "Okay okay" you said breathlessly as you reached a hand back to pull him away. He kissed your sensitive clit one more time before moving to leave light kisses on your ass cheeks, making his way up your spine until he was standing up behind you, kissing your neck and pressing his clothed erection against your bare pussy

"Wish I had a mirror out here so I can make you look at yourself" Stefan whispered in your ear as he unbuckled his belt. He sloppily kissed and nipped your shoulder as he pulled his hardened cock out. "So needy and submissive, just for me" he moaned softly, now rubbing the tip of his cock between your wet folds

Your pussy pulsated, waiting for him to slide inside of you. "Tell me you need me" he said, leaning back and pulling one of your ass cheeks so he can see as he rubbed his cock against your pussy. "Tell me and I'll fuck you as rough as you want" Stefan wanted to fuck you right now just as much as you wanted him to fuck you but he wanted to hear you say it, he needs you to need him

You looked back at him just as he looked at you, locking eyes with him was scary since he always looked at you so intensely but every time you look at him no matter how scared you get, you also get butterflies in your stomach. You know for a fact that you need him, you really do. He's all you have and he took good care of you when no one else did, you love him

"I need you baby, I need you so much" you replied, not breaking eye contact with him until he began to slowly push into you. You pressed your cheek against the table, mouth open in a silent moan as his cock stretched you open. Once he was fully in with his hips pressed against your ass, he slid a hand up your spine, touch light, making you tingle with anticipation

"Yeah you do" he whispered, more to himself than to you. He grabbed your hair and wrapped his other arm around your waist as he pulled you up, your back just a few inches away from being right against his chest. He started off slow, thrusting in and out at a torturing pace as he left sloppy kisses on your neck. "You'll always need me y/n" he breathed against your neck, kissing under your ear

After that he let you go and set a brutal pace, ramming into you harshly as you balanced yourself against the table. "y-you're so deep" you moaned as he kept hitting a spot that made your legs feel like jelly. He squeezed your hips so tight that you're sure it'll leave bruises but you loved to look in the mirror and see how much he ruined you

"Mhm" he moaned as he pulled your ass cheeks apart and watched his cock move in and out of you "you're taking me like a good slut, making me feel so good" he allowed his eyes to flutter closed as he focused on the feeling of your pussy and how wet you are for him

You closed your eyes as well, your mouth open in a "O" shape. You love when he talks to you like that, praising you yet degrading you at the same time. "Fuck" you shuddered, feeling your orgasm about to hit you head on. Stefan stopped moving when he felt you squeezing impossibly tighter around him, he wanted to fuck you for just a little bit longer

"Don't cum yet baby" he demanded as both of you breathed harshly. He placed small kisses on your shoulder, thrusting slowly a few more times before pulling out completely. You tried to push your hips back to chase his cock but he stopped with a smack on your ass. "Turn around" he said and you didn't dare disobey his commend, quickly turning around. He smiled at you as he watched you sit back up on the table and it was the softest you've ever seen him, he doesn't smile much but when he does it's so beautiful. He looks like a completely different person when he smiles, it reminds you why you fell in love with him in the first place

Stefan rubbed your sides gently, a contrast from the rough way he was just fucking into you. "I love you" he whispered as he slid back into you and started circling his hips against yours. "Tell me you won't leave me" he hugged you to his chest and put his forehead on your shoulder as he continued to slowly thrust in you. You allowed him to hold you tightly as he fucked you slow, but desperately

The sudden switch up confused you, he never really talked like this during sex and he was never really too intimate. Slow sex was never your thing when it came to sex with him but you never knew how badly you needed it from him until now. For some reason it felt even better than the rough sex, you could feel him more, not just his movements but his feelings. He's always so closed off with you but you love him anyway, you want him to open up to you one day

"I won't leave you. I won't ever leave you" you reassured him as he breathed harshly into your neck. You wrapped your arms around his waist and pulled him closer, well as close as you both could get. "Talk to me baby" you put a hand in his hair and kissed wherever you could reach. "Talk to me please, just once" you just wanted him to open up you, at least for tonight. You knew he wasn't going to talk but you were begging for him to open up just once so you could help him

Stefan grabbed under both of your knees and lifted your legs up, pulling them wider apart. He placed small kisses on your shoulder and collarbone "did you take the pill today?" he huffed out between groans. You tensed up against him, you didn't take the pill today. It was a busy day and it slipped your mind completely. Fuck, how could you forget the fucking birth control pill? You didn't want to tell him, he'd be mad at you and you didn't want him to be mad at you, not right now. But you didn't want to lie to him either, what if you ended up pregnant and he stopped loving you?

You slowly shook your head no and closed your eyes as tears built up "No, fuck I- I wasn't thinking I'm sorry" you said before he could say anything. But he didn't say anything and he didn't stop or pull out, he just moaned even louder and picked up his pace. He seemed even more determined to fuck you and the thought of him actually wanting to get you pregnant made your pussy clench around his cock

He looked at your face as he rolled his hips into you, he wanted to see your reaction to everything. "You're so beautiful" he said as he wiped away your tears, he groaned "I'm gonna cum and you're gonna take it like a good girl, okay?". You knew that he wasn't giving you an option, he was telling you but even if he did give you an option, you wanted to feel him cum in you, you want it so bad. You nodded then there was no talking after that, you both didn't break eye contact as he fucked you. It wasn't as slow as a few minutes ago but it was still intimate and he was still vulnerable, you could see it in his eyes

Both of you were now in a trance that wouldn't be broken until a mutual release. You clenched around him as you felt your orgasm building up again, every inch of him was rubbing against your g-spot and your legs were practically vibrating around his waist. "You really want me to fill you up, huh? Fucking slut" Stefan said with a smug smile on his face, he knew that you wanted it and the fact that he knew is what pushed you over the edge into a mind-numbing orgasm

"Don't stop I'm cum-" your sentence cut off into a choked scream as your body jerked and your vision turned white and fuzzy. Stefan kept a slow and steady rhythm throughout your whole orgasm, waiting until you fell limp onto the table, body relaxed and head feeling light

Stefan grabbed your hips, squeezing tightly and increased his speed. Your body bounced uncontrollably as he slammed into you hard and fast, chasing his orgasm and giving you another one. "Ah, slow down" you whined, feeling sensitive and over stimulated. He slowed down and gave you long deep strokes, his cock throbbed inside of you as he neared his climax

A couple more thrust and he groaned loudly, burying himself deep until his balls were flush against your pussy. With a loud and deep moan he released inside of you "fuuuck" he closed his eyes and his body jerked a couple of times as he continued to penetrate you slowly "mm you take my cum so well" he circled his hips as he leaned forward to catch your lips into a slow kiss

It was so exhilarating, you were high off of him and his touch. You wanted more, you always wanted more when it came to him. "I love you so much" you slurred your words a little as sleepiness started to take over. You winced from over sensitivity as he pulled out "and you won't leave me right? Even if I get pregnant?" You felt like words were just coming out of your mouth without your brain controlling it but you couldn't stop, you were feeling so many things at once and something needed out

You wrapped your arms around Stefan's neck as he picked you up bridal style and carried you into the penthouse. He didn't answer your questions and the pout on your face proved that it was bothering you. He sat you on the toilet for you to pee while he ran some water for a bath "are you okay?" He questioned, eyebrows furrowed in worry. You hummed to let him know you heard him and that you're fine

"Use your words baby" he demanded with a tired sigh. Both of you needed some sleep and you were too tired to speak, your high was wearing off and your head was starting to hurt. You got up to get in the bath, slowly sinking down into the warm water and releasing a relaxed breath. You closed your eyes

"I'm fine" you said softly "you- you didn't answer my question" you decided to get the conversation over with. You honestly weren't sure if you wanted to hear his answer because what if he said he can't love you anymore? What would you do? You have nobody else and nowhere to go, he's all you've ever known for the past few years, he's all you ever wanted to know

You relaxed back against Stefan's chest as he got into the tub behind you. "I won't leave you" he whispered in your ear softly, placing a small kiss under it. He grabbed the body wash and squeezed some into his hand to lather it on your skin. "I love you, you're mine forever" he knows how much you love to hear him say that, you are his and he promised to you and himself that he'll take good care of you. "And if we have a baby, then we have a baby. I'm still never going to leave you" he finished, gently massaging your scalp with the body wash

You breathed out a sigh of relief at the confession and the feeling. Of course he loves you, you'd be stupid to think he doesn't. "Promise?" You asked, turning to him with eyes full of joy and hope. He kissed you softly on the lips and smiled "yeah I promise"

Promises are meant to be broken

[spop-romanticizes-abuse]

Heyy! Good to see your ask box back! I'm curious as to why you disabled it in the first place, but that's not why I'm here. I'm here to thank you for the recommendation you gave me for that other SPOP critic. Thank you, they really gave me more perspective. Still loving your posts btw, you give good points and rants and still manage to keep things interesting enough for my ADHD brain. :D

Also here to say.. Today is my 2nd anniversary of getting out of the shitty and ignorant rabbit hole that is thinking C*tra and C//A was in any shape way or form healthy. How do I know this? If I open up my notes app and scroll down, I'll find a note from exactly 2 years ago ranting about how I realized C//A was toxic.

So glad I opened up my eyes. Keep posting, love your stuff, and have an amazing weekend! 💙

good to be back! it's nothing serious, i was just busy irl with moving and starting my post-graduation so i decided to turn off the asks for the time being. i'm free for a couple days now so i'll be able to answer asks!

i'm glad you found them helpful! i actually don't remember whose account i recommended lmao but there are a lot of spop critics on here who make really good posts and in-depth analyses!! ( @my-nitpicking-self , @anti-spop , @antispopausandstuff , @blonde-and-cat-suc , @spopsalt , @80rosequartz08 if you want to discover more of them)

and i'm glad you find my posts interesting too, i never thought they would be compelling enough for someone with ADHD but it's definitely a high compliment!

and congrats! 2 years ago, you took off your rose-colored glasses and saw c//a for what it truly was, and to come to that realization on your own is commendable! a lot of people only realize when they see other people talking about it, and a lot of them refuse to acknowledge it even then. thank you, and have a nice weekend (or just a nice sunday lol) as well!!

[idollandhero]

I think in a year we'll look back at our time with Idol Land and think of it like a weird dream. A time when there wasn't a Pretty Series show announced and everything was in limbo. A time where King of Prism was a dead franchise. A time when songs were performed at Pretty Series live shows that wouldn't premier in the anime for years. The game teaser in every single Pretty Series announcement only for it to be delayed again. The YEARS long gap between episodes 2 and 3. The DISASTROUS launch. When we realized it was just a reskinned version of the switch game. Or when we discovered that it was mostly made by some unrelated dev who had only made one failed mobile otome game before Idol Land.

The Pretty Series' pivot to focusing on AiPri & KinPri instead of Idol Land & DanPri makes the past few years of Idol Land content, and the past less than a year of Idol Land actually being out, feel like an illusion.

It's frustrating because the concept of a PriPara mobile game sounds fantastic! When I play games like SIF2 or Idolish7 or whatever I think about what could have been. Was it money problems? or time problems? Or some combination of both. Regardless I can't help but yearn for a game with a budget that this franchise deserves.

And the web anime was great! But only 12 episodes, and its own budget problems, plus the games delay keeping it finished and in limbo for 2 years! (+ the lack of any western fansubs picking it up, seriously how is do we still only have subs for up to episode 6) meant that it never got the place in the spotlight it deserved. Some people speculated that it was meant to air on TV because the episodes are formatted as such, but with AiPri starting in that slot the same month the show is ending that doesn't seem to be true.

It's hard to say where PriPara is going from here. It's the series 10th anniversary and the arcade game is being shuttered to push players towards AiPri Verse instead. Idol Land's anime finale is going to air to little applause because it's stuck on an app with less than 20,000 active users, and in the same month as the launch of the new series that's slated to be a real PreCure competitor.

Idol Land's EOS hasn't been announced yet, but the missing Nino birthday coord, the April monthly update with entirely rerun coords, and the fact that Idol Land is getting very VERY close to running out of content from the switch game. Well, if not EOS I expect this game to go into maintenance mode pretty soon.

Yeah idk what my point here was exactly, but man Idol Land really was a blur. Sometimes I think we understate exactly how inexperienced the devs really were. The game doesn't have any type of Google Play integration, and when the game launched the account recovery only lasted 15 minutes. I have a newer phone and the game isn't compatible with my hole punch front camera. There's just a black bar there. I only have this problem with older games, anything made in the last 4 years doesn't have this problem except for Idol Land. I honestly think the lack of region locking is because the dev doesn't know how to turn it on. Someone on discord reported that they've been buying gold, and then contacting Google and asking for a Play Store refund. It's worked multiple times and they are not banned. How is a ban for chargebacks not something they implemented day one. Also this game doesn't have any deals or discounts, ever. It's hard to believe that, like every game I've ever played has a buy two and get 50% off the second one bundle. But it's like the devs don't know how to implement anything past basic gacha mechanics. I could also ramble about how expensive the prices are, but I've done it before I won't do it again. Also the photo room, it's implemented pretty badly. You upload a photo for the background and it crops it weird and squishes it and makes it blurry. I didn't know this at launch because it was a paid feature for like six months. The pass itself was a horrible value unless you were buying it specifically to get the episodes early, you got exactly how the amount of gold you paid for. Why not just buy the gold then. But they either realized that, or were preparing for end of service; because they took it down. I'm rambling about things the devs messed up but I haven't even mentioned the first three months of the game. There's been so many points in this game's history where playing a promise was borderline impossible for one reason or another. This game didn't feel finished until that November update that included immediate promises. God there's so much more. The photo competitions just being about editing for some reason. Also they went away, so clearly those didn't work. The amount of coords they've implemented that were broken in some way. Sometimes it was the wrong coord entirely, sometimes the cylume didn't work. It's like the dev team is so small that there's no QA people. Also on that note, Open Dream Land was just fixed in the mid March update. The game went more than 6 months where one of its two unique charts was off sync. Also remember the voice bug, that lasted forever.

I'm sorry I just started rambling lmao. This is the problem when I write posts with speech to text, I say way too much. Ultimately I enjoyed my time with Idol Land, but it's existence feels surreal. Especially because 80% of the features from this game I can turn on my switch after end of service and play, and it's free because I already paid once and never have to pay again. I even have Waku Waku O'Clock on Switch. One day, probably soon from the way things are going, I'm going to wake up and not be able to play Idol Land on my phone ever again. But instead of reminiscing of this game, I will think about the game that could have been if Idol Land got as much love as Prism Rush did.

KASHIKOMA ✌️

[whereisten]

The Marriage Mission

Part 1 | Part 2

Pairing: Secret Agent! Yuta X Secret Agent!Y/N (afab)

Series Summary: You and Yuta are secret agents that are paired up for a big mission, and despite hating each other's guts, you get married..makes sense, right?

Contains: enemies to lovers shenanigans, fluff, comedy?, violence, gun mention, knife mention, cursing, cheating mention, death mention, alcohol use, smut (mask play? g*n play, oral sex (f receiving), overstimulation, multiple orgasms, degradation, unprotected (be safe tho!), thigh riding, impregnation kink, sir kink, toy usage (it's a lot, i know but are we really surprised?).

Word Count: 11K

A/N: this is a short series but it’s definitely one of my favorites!! I hope you enjoy! Thanks for reading and supporting us :))) also! Please check out Yuta’s movie High X Low: The Worst X, it was SOOOO GOOOOOD and Yuta is such an amazing actor!! Go support him❤️

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[One Year Later]

 You stare at the ring Yuta gave you. You’re about to go on a date with a man you actually like, so why wear it? 

 “Do you wear it in memory of someone else?” Jungwoo asked you as you had your first outing together at a cafe a few days prior. You looked at the ring with adoration while spinning it around your finger. “Nah..not really.” You said to him while shaking your head.

 He laughed. “So take it off then…make space for a new one.” You smirked and looked into his eyes while raising your eyebrows. “Bring the new one first.”

 You were only teasing him, but now that you were getting ready to go out again, you decided that you really should move on.

 You slide the ring off and place it in your jewelry box on your dresser before leaving your place. 

[A Week Later]

 Yuta throws his briefcase to the floor and plops down onto his couch. He sighs and lays his head back. He thinks about you and wonders what you’re up to, so as he winds down mentally from work, he decides to open his tracker app and check your movements.

 At first everything seems normal, but then he notices that the ring hasn't moved from your apartment for about a week now. He sits up straight as his brows furrow. Did something happen to you? Did you finally take it off? No, you wouldn’t dare do that to him. Were you killed in your apartment? All these thoughts ran through his head, he was imagining the worst scenarios and it made him go crazy in the confinement of his home. He decides to take a short vacation and pay you a visit.

[Two Days Later]

 You’re having yet another fantastic date with Jungwoo. He’s charismatic, sweet, and just irresistible. You go out clubbing after dinner and get drunk together. You fall into your apartment while making out, your hands pulling his buttons loose as he grabs your ass through your dress tightly. You're so enraptured with each other, giggling and enjoying the cloud 9 feeling of being drunk and lustful, neither of you notice the man in the corner of the living room.

 Yuta flips the light on suddenly, making you both jump and stop kissing.

 He crosses his arms and walks closer. “Oh..am I interrupting something?”

 Jungwoo is frightened, he immediately starts wiping away your lipstick from his lips and stepping back. “I thought you said you were single?”

 You’re frightened too, it’s been so long since you’ve seen Yuta, but he looks exactly the same. Hot and dangerous.

 Yuta stands over you, his fiery eyes boring holes into your skull, and you aren’t sure why this feeling of guilt is overwhelming you. “Single?? Oh wow, that’s news to me. Our anniversary was just two weeks ago, wasn’t it, honey?”

 You step back and snap out of it. “Yuta! What the hell are you talking about?! You know it was just for the mission!”

 “Mission?” Jungwoo asks and your eyes widen, you realize that you almost revealed your true profession to him.

 “Wait..that’s not what I-“ you turn to Jungwoo.

 “Yeah, honey..the mission of creating a marriage between two high school sweethearts.” Yuta continues to lie while Jungwoo buttons his shirt up. You swallow hard and try desperately not to look as drunk as you feel.

 “High-?” Jungwoo asks curiously.

 “Oh, she didn’t tell you? She’s had my heart since the first day of junior year.”

 You turn to Yuta with a look of disbelief. “What the hell?!”

 Jungwoo isn’t sure if Yuta is serious or not but he does know that he looks scary and upset as hell, and that he wants nothing to do with him. “I’ll just leave.”

 “Yeah..you should go.” Yuta still stares at you.

 You turn back to Jungwoo, walking after him as he opens your front door to leave. “W-wait! No it’s not true! I can explain.”

 “Why would you lie about your actual wedding ring? Jesus Christ I’ve gotta go, I should’ve known better!” Jungwoo shakes his head.

 “Wait!” You try to stop him, but he slams the door shut.

 You turn back to Yuta who only smirks. “I’m..gonna kill you!” You launch after him while holding your hand up. You attempt to slap him but miss because of your drunken state. Yuta grabs your wrist and pulls you close to his chest. “I missed you too…sweetheart.”

 “You’re a fucking asshole, you know that?”

 “I should say the same to you, I only came all the way here because I was worried about you.”

 You walk over to the kitchen to get yourself some water. “I knew I should’ve changed the damn locks after you left.” You burp out loudly to annoy him.

 “Wait…Worried about me? After all this time?” You say after realizing what he confessed to you.

 “Yeah..the ring stopped moving…you..stopped moving.” He attempts to caress your face, but you brush his hand away as a look of realization crosses your face.

 You look to where the ring is now in your bedside drawer.

 “You—you’re insane..you put a tracker in the RING?”

 He chuckles. “You suck as a spy, I suggest you do something else like become my full time maid.” He sits on the couch and puts his feet up on the center table. “Maybe you’re better at cleaning things up.”

 You scoff and grab the gun under your counter. You walk over to the couch and point it at him, he doesn’t feel threatened at all tho. All he can think about is how sexy you look in your tight black dress and how much he wants to kill Jungwoo for putting his hands on your gorgeous ass. “How dare you get comfortable on my couch after telling me you’ve violated my privacy for a year now?! I’m gonna kill you! And I’m serious this time!”

 He laughs. “Okay, go ahead. But before you do, I think I deserve to see you in the set I bought first.”

 You blink rapidly while trying not to get flustered by how good he looks in his black turtleneck with his long black hair tied back. He smiles while you get angry with him.

 “You’re unbelievable!” You yell and stomp to your bedroom, closing the sliding doors loudly.

 He rushes to the door and talks against it so you can hear him. “Just tell me you missed me and I’ll go away again”

 “Why would I do that?!” You say as you change into your nightgown.

 “Because it’s the truth.”

 “NO Yuta! The truth is that I can’t believe you’ve tracked me this entire time, I can’t believe I ever trusted you and even worked with you. The truth is I was just getting to know a good man, a man I *actually* liked and now..that’s gone, Yuta. The truth is that we never should’ve met.” You say quietly, but Yuta heard you clearly.

 He stays silent, hand falling from the door and to his side.

 After a few seconds, you only hear him chuckle. “That’s fair, y/n…you have your boundaries and I overstepped. I’ll end this game now.”

 You hear the front door lock and you’re saddened to see him go, you’re even saddened that he didn’t call you ‘sweetheart’ just one last time.

——————

[A Few Months Later]

 You’re assigned a solo mission where you visit an art gallery assumed to be involved in money laundering. You wear a baseball cap, sunglasses and a T-shirt to look unsuspecting during your visit.

 While looking at some of the pieces you notice the owner, Miah, is not too far away and could possibly answer a few questions for you, you’d just have to listen in to every conversation she has on the phone.

 “Yes..that date works for me..maybe we could discuss..” her voice gets lower as she whispers. “That..hotel?”

 You lean against a wall as you listen closely. She starts to walk towards her office, you need to get closer

 As you make your way towards her, a man suddenly appears dressed nicely in a shirt and tie and glasses. He leans into her and kisses her cheek. “So sorry I’m late sweetheart, I picked up your favorite though! Boba Tea with extra sugar!” You recognize his voice.

 “No fucking way..” you whisper to yourself.

 He smiles widely  and turns to the side, confirming your suspicion. It’s Yuta.

 He laughs with her and holds her hand as she gazes up at him. It was strange to see him so incredibly sweet for once.

 He looks over at you as they walk away and winks.

 Your eyes widen. Why is he on the same mission as you? But more importantly, why do you feel jealous?

 You roll your eyes and run to the bathroom to check your messages from Haechan. There were no new updates. Could it be possible that Yuta went rogue and decided to do this on his own? Could she really be his girlfriend?

 As you leave the restroom you open the door to find Yuta leaned against the wall.

 “Jesus! You can't just hang out outside of a women’s restroom like that.”

 “Someone’s a little jealous.” He smirks.

 You roll your eyes. “Cut the b.s Yuta, I just wanna know why you’re here?”

 “I should be asking you that question.”

 You show him your phone. “This is MY assignment.”

 He shrugs. “That’s not what it looks like to me.”

 You scoff. “It’s right there..the messages from..”

 You look back at your phone and see you did in fact receive a new message from HQ: 

pull back, target under watch of Agent1111

 “What? It was just there, I swear.”

 “So you can’t do your work well, you can’t even read texts properly and follow orders. Don’t worry though, a position as my..I mean, our maid is open. I’ll talk to my girlfriend about hiring you.” He winks again.

 You kick his shin, causing him to bend over and groan.

 “I’ll make sure to be the one responsible for your death one day.”

 For the remainder of your visit, you stand by and watch Yuta flirt with the lady, you can’t help but feel so jealous. She’s so googly-eyed over him she doesn’t even notice you hovering around a few feet away. They kiss for what seems to be the 30th time within an hour and you decide you’ve seen enough.

 You drive home, unable to watch any more.

 Later that night, you take a nap, having set an alarm to wake up and do computer work. But as you sleep, Yuta cooks dinner for you.

 It’s not until you smell an exciting airman of garlic and onions that you wake up confused and ready to fight.

 You fling your sliding door open while holding a gun and pointing it towards your kitchen. “Who-?!”

 Your heart becomes warm when you see Yuta.

 You sigh and place the gun down on the counter. “Of course.” 

 “You sleep a lot for someone who doesn’t do anything beneficial to the company.” He stirs the pot.

 He wears a white long sleeve shirt and jeans with his hair tied up now. The muscles of his arms and back show through clearly and you become hot at the sight. You take a seat on the stool facing the kitchen and cross your arms. “How’s your girlfriend?” Is the first thing you ask him so it’s clear to see it’s on your mind. 

 Yuta laughs. “Good…nicer than you.” But she isn’t prettier, not even close is what he thinks to himself.

 “She doesn’t suspect you?”

 “Nah..she’s too dickmatized to think about anything else.”

 You grimace. “Ew, listen to yourself.”

 “You just wouldn’t understand.” He shrugs his shoulders.

 “Why are you so sweet to her?”

 “Does it upset you?” He looks over his shoulder and smiles.

 You cross your arms and look away. “Not really…as a matter of fact I’m relieved. I’m not the one that has to pretend to be attracted to you.”

 Yuta laughs out. “Pretend? Whew..we got an Oscar award-winning actress here then!”

 He places the dish featuring sautéed broccoli and chicken in front of you. “Eat up.”

 You pick the fork up and start eating. “Just don’t..call her sweetheart.. it’s corny and..dated.”

 Yuta chuckles. “Sureee, but you need to stay out of my way. All you’ll do is mess things up.”

 Your mouth falls. “That’s not true! And it’s my choice whether or not I want to see this through to the end.”

 He leans over the counter. “It’s not your mission, sweetheart. So stay.out.of.my.way.” He rubs his knuckles into your hair.

 Before you can say anything else he leaves.

[Three Days Later]

 Yuta should’ve known you well enough by now to know that you don’t listen to any man, let alone him. So you follow Miah around anyway.

 You decide to sneak into her house to look for any evidence as her front gate is only open when she is home. Despite being involved in money laundering, she lives in a simple, humble house to avoid any attention from the government. You still disengaged her house cameras through an app before entering though. When you sneak in, you hear quiet whimpers and moans. Could it be…?

 You make a face of disgust as the sounds you hear confirm your question. She was definitely getting it in with someone, making it the best (and probably worst) time to look for evidence. You ignore her moans and search her home office for clues.

 After about 20 minutes, you can’t find anything and the sounds have now stopped. You needed to get out immediately. You tiptoe past her bedroom door, but can’t help but be curious as to whether or not Yuta is the one she’s with. So you peak through the crack and squint.

 But you don’t see anything, you can only hear the shower running.

 Suddenly, Yuta pops up behind you, grabbing your wrist and shoving you into the wall beside it. He instantly notices you’ve started wearing the ring again.

 “I thought I heard something..” he grumbles.

 Your eyes grow in shock. “Y-Yuta?”

 He is shirtless with just a towel around his waist. “What the hell are you doing here? I told you to stay away!” He whisper-yells with an angry expression. “Do you have any idea how dangerous this is?”

 “I-I’m trying to help.”

 “This isn’t your mission, we aren’t working together on this one, why don’t you understand that!” His hold on your wrist tightens.

 For once you genuinely feel scared by Yuta’s expression, you really pissed him off this time. To make things worse, his hair is messy and he smells like women’s perfume. Both his abs and lips are stain with lipstick and its too fucking hot to ignore. Despite being the wrong time, you couldn’t help but remember his kiss and touch the last night you worked together.

 He is weakened by your beautiful eyes below him, he wants to scream. He’s only tough on you because he knows you could get hurt by getting so close, but he also hates how worried he is. He needed to distance himself now.

 “Y/n..I don’t know what you expect from this. For us to get closer or for me to thank you, but it isn’t going to happen. Go back to the office, pick up a case that easy to handle and do your fucking job. Leave this mission and leave me alone. You’re fucking useless.”

 Your mouth falls open as he speaks with genuine disdain, and before you can say anything she calls out for him.

 “Yuta! Where are you, baby?”

 “Coming!” He responds quickly then looks back at you and swallows hard. “Leave now.”

 You nod and hurry out of the house without looking back. The last thing you’d want is for him to see your eyes filling to the brim with tears.

———

[A Few Weeks Later]

 You decided to start a new case, but keep your eye on the art gallery one regardless. Was it for the case or for Yuta? You aren’t sure.

 The art gallery has a major event in which a new exhibition is revealed, so you get dressed up and join as a spectator.

 You wear something calm to blend in with the crowd, a simple black satin dress that falls to your ankles.

 The place is bustling with hundreds of visitors, amongst them are government officials, as well as the Miah and Yuta.

 But even in a thick crowd, Yuta sees you. You make eye contact for a split second, but you ignore him and continue to walk around and look at the art.

 You hoped he’d finish the assignment  up quickly so he could go back to Tokyo and stop haunting you. You just couldn’t get over him with him being so close to you. 

 While staring at a piece, a man walks up beside you. “This piece was inspired by the artist's own psychedelic trips.”

 “Oh..wow! That’s interesting.” You look up at him and realize he is quite handsome. 

 The man looks down at you and gives you a dazzling smile. “I may or may not know him myself.”

 You chuckle and the two of you start to talk. He was a sweet guy, deep down you hoped he could eventually give you some intel once you learned more about his connection to the gallery. If he didn’t, however, he was still nice to talk to.

 “I can show you some of my personal faves…” the man takes your hand and leads you to another part of the gallery.

 Yuta watches from far away, feeling himself grow jealous when you smile and laugh with another man. He looks away and tries to focus on Miah and her conversations with the officials.

 A few minutes later however, Yuta can’t seem to find you anywhere. Last time he saw you, you were walking to a more quiet area with the man. He didn’t see where the man placed a cloth over your mouth and snuck you out through the back.

 You were tied up and passed out in the back of the “nice” man’s car. He completely caught you off guard as he didn’t seem like the type to truly be involved in all this.

 “Yeah..I’ve got her.” The man says over the phone as he drives fast. It’s the last thing you hear before passing out completely.

 Nearly an hour later, you’re woken up by the feeling of cold water crashing over your entire body. You scream and jump up, but realize you’re tied to a chair.

 “Fuck…” you tremble as you open your eyes. 

 “Who are you? What agency do you work for and what are you guys planning?” An older man asks you.

 You refuse to answer, staying silent as another younger man throws his fist into your stomach.

 They ask you the same questions over and over, failing to get you to break the oath you swore to your agency. You put your life on the line to protect everything, it’s what you signed up for. Regardless, you get beat up badly in the process and all you can think is that these are the last moments of your life.

 Meanwhile, Yuta starts to worry and struggles to cover it up. He is absent from group conversations and looks around anxiously.

 “What’s wrong, babe?” Miah tugs his shirt and asks him.

 He quickly looks back at her and gives a small smile. “Oh nothing, I’ll be right back, there’s something I forgot to submit for work. And my buddy just texted me about it. I’m sorry, babe.”

 “Oh it’s okay! Go ahead, I’ll see you later.” She waves him off.

 Yuta carefully walks back to his car, looking around for anyone watching him. Once he gets in, he opens his tracker app in hopes that you’re still wearing the ring. He is relieved when he sees you are. He heads towards your location, hoping that you are okay.

 By the time he gets there, the isolated building is in flames and the men are gone, having left your broken and bruised body to burn to death. 

 “Y/n!” He runs around looking for any opening he can get through and finally finds one. Glass and wood falls everywhere, but he isn’t new to this. He dodges the debris with ease, ducking and jumping over anything in his way to get to you.

 After a few seconds, he finally finds you passed out and tied to the chair. “Y/n!” He shakes your body, but you don’t wake up. You’ve inhaled so much carbon dioxide, you’re unresponsive.

 He quickly unties you from the chair and holds you in his arms as he runs outside. 

 When he gets out, the building explodes, catapulting debris everywhere. He isn’t far enough and a piece of wood pierces your abdomen area as tiny pieces of glass cut his face up. He curses then hurriedly gets you into the back of the car. Your eyes are bruised and your breathing is weak. He notices that a few of your fingers are disfigured and broken, those fuckers really went in on you to get information. 

 To make matters worse a piece of wood now sticks out causing you to cough up blood. He starts to tear up at the sight. “Hang on tight, baby, I’m gonna get you help, okay?”

 You hear Yuta’s voice but it fades away.

 “Just stay with me..because if you die I’m gonna kill you.”

 Yuta gets you to the underground hospital specifically created for undercover agents.

 “Help! We need help right away!” Yuta yells while holding you in his arms as nurses rush towards him with a gurney.

[Two Weeks Later]

 You’re still in a coma after being taken care of at the hospital.

 Yuta visits you every day in hopes that you’ll wake up. The doctors say you’ll recover from your injuries and wake up in time, but the carbon dioxide inhalation may have done irreparable damage to your brain, so when you’d wake up is unclear to even them, the best of the best.

 “You’re the worst spy ever…always getting hurt” Yuta says while standing beside your bed. He feels guilty for not being there fast enough for you. He feels guilty for not watching you more. He wipes his tears away.

 “You said you’d be the one to kill me after I see you in that set, don’t fail on your promise, I hate when people do that.” he says, hoping to hear your laugh and see your eyes open as you prepare a snarky response for him.

 Haechan knocks in the door and steps in. “Yuta, thank you for your hard work. With the evidence you’ve collected we were able to arrest Miah and others connected. But now it’s time to go, it’s been two weeks, you have other cases to pick up in Tokyo.”

 Yuta shakes his head while still watching you. “Can’t..need to make sure she wakes up first…she can’t break her promise.”

 Haechan sighs. “These doctors are the best of the best and if they say she will, then she will, don’t worry, she has more than enough help around here. I think you should get back”

 Yuta turns to him. “Just a few more days…please..” I just want to see her beautiful eyes, one more time, is what he wants to say, but doesn’t.

Haechan recognizes the look of love anyway, he knows Yuta is the one filling your hospital room with bouquets of flowers every day. He knows he has feelings for you and so, he nods. “Okay…I’ll..talk to your boss over there to get you some more time here..only because you’ve helped us a great deal.”

 Yuta bows slightly. “Thank you.”

 “When did you start to like her so much?” Haechan raises an eyebrow.

 Yuta scoffs. “Like who? Her? I’m just being nice.”

 Haechan chuckles. “Yeah..sure.”

[Four Days Later]

 Yuta comes to your room as usual but as he is about to turn in, he hears you laughing. He peaks around the corner and sees you smiling, your pretty eyes crinkling at the sides as you talk to the nurse. He smiles to himself. He hands the bouquet of flowers he has in his hands to another nurse headed towards your room. “Please..give these to her for me.”

 The nurse smiles at Yuta, who she’s seen everyday since you’ve been there. “Oh! She’s awake now sir, she woke up last night. Would you like to go in and speak with her?”

 He shakes his head. “No..I have somewhere to be. Please tell her they all came from Haechan.”

 Her smile drops as she looks at the bouquet in confusion. Why wouldn’t he want to talk with you after waiting so long?

 Yuta remembers how mean he was to you the last time you spoke. He couldn’t bear to see you again, as the guilt weighed heavy on his heart. He did love you and this proved it, but he couldn’t allow himself to show that to you.

 He leaves the hospital and heads home before preparing for his flight.

 Haechan goes in to see you the next day. “Y/n, nice to see you smiling again.”

 You smile back. “It’s all thanks to you and this dramatic collection of flowers you got me.”

 Haechan chuckles. “Actually…that would be Yuta’s doing.”

 “Yuta?” Your eyes grow.

 “Yeah..he saved you from the building and then visited you every day.”

 Your heart trembles.

 “W-where’s he now?”

 Haechan smiled slightly. “He should be heading back home..to Tokyo today”

 You sit in silence as a wave of sadness falls on you.

 “Don’t get any ideas! I don’t know what’s going on between the two of you, but it isn’t permitted within the company.” Haechan says, somewhat jokingly.

 You scoff and shake off your thoughts. “Between me and that guy? Nah..he’s the worst.”

 Haechan nods. “Good.”

 But you lied, you felt an attachment to him, maybe you did love him.

[A Few Months Later]

 You decided to take a trip to Tokyo to surprise Yuta after your full recovery. There’s just one little problem. You don’t know where he lives. 

 So you break company policy by overriding the firewalls protecting each agent’s private information. You look Yuta up and successfully get his file, complete with his address, biography, and case history.

 You hurriedly write the address down and prepare for your flight.

 A week later, you find yourself getting ready to meet Yuta. You admit, you feel somewhat pathetic for getting all dressed up for him. What if he didn’t accept you? What if he wanted nothing to do with you? What if he lives with his parents?

 Nonetheless, you put on a tight black dress with your butterfly set underneath before taking a taxi to his house.

 You knock on the front door of the serene house, but don’t hear anything. No one’s home. You sigh “That’s fine, I’ll just wait for him.” To your surprise, the back door is unlocked so you let yourself in. It’s quiet, nice and clean, and you’re surprised by how easy it was to get in.

 You walk around, taking in how beautiful his place is. Eventually, you arrive at his bedroom. There are many picture frames on his dresser and 2 on the walls and when you take a closer look, you’re shocked.

 You lift a picture up towards you to see Yuta and a beautiful woman smiling and holding hands while at a beach. The photo beside it made your heart drop. It was a wedding photo of the two. You carefully place the picture back down and look into the bathroom.

 You see “Him” and “Hers” labeled towels. Beside the bathroom is his closet, filled with a woman’s clothes.

 “Of course..of course he’s married” your eyes become watery and you go to leave immediately. Yuta had been leading you on this entire time. He was using you for when he got bored of his wife back home, turning you into a fill in while taking on missions outside of Tokyo. You feel even more pitiful than you did before. How could you be tricked so easily? But then again, Yuta did tell you that you were nothing together, that that one mission was simply..a duty.

  You take the tracker ring off and place it in a decorative jar beside his front door, but remember to leave through the back.

 After taking a taxi back home, you adjust your return flight for the next day.

 When Yuta gets home, he resumes his daily habit of checking on you. He opens his tracker and is confused to see that your ring is…right there with him. He stands up from his couch and looks around carefully. He steps into his bedroom, wondering if you’re there hiding. But out of the corner of his eye, he notices something out of place on the dresser.

 One of the picture frames had been moved slightly. You were here and when you picked the picture up, you  placed it back incorrectly. He swallows hard when he realizes you‘ve discovered the truth.

[Two Months Later]

 Things go back to normal. You start to take on other missions and train harder to develop your skills. You’re getting stronger, smarter, and faster, but it doesn’t help that you think of Yuta nearly every second of each day. You wonder what he’s up to and why he never told you about his wife. Did you really deserve that information though? You’re secret agents at the end of the day, it was never supposed to be this personal.

 It’s time for your fencing class, a one-on-one battle with a new partner from the agency while your trainer watches. You’ve beat every partner thus far, making you the top contender, so you aren’t worried about this match.

 You step onto the mat and assume your starting position. The person in front of you does the same. And so, you begin your battle, dodging their speedy attacks. They do the same, never letting you get close to them after you swing. 

 “Agent 73.. Focus!” Your trainer yells. After several minutes of fighting the most difficult opponent you’ve ever had thus far, you start to grow upset. You were doing so well, annihilating anyone that challenged you, but somehow, this person is just as good.

 They let out a grunt after sliding to the right to dodge your quick attack, letting you know that your opponent is in fact a man. Based on the size of his feet, you had already suspected, but weren’t completely sure.

 You just can’t seem to catch them off guard, no matter how fast you move and in a fit of anger at your incompetence, you “accidentally” elbow his face. He steps back in shock as his mask falls to the floor.

 You gasp when you recognize the handsome man’s face. Yuta.

 He smirks and wipes blood trickling from his nose with his thumb. You drop your sword while frowning. Why’d it have to be him?

 You walk away before he can say anything, stomping through the girl’s locker room as he runs after you.

 You swing your locker door open and start to take the uniform off. You drag your shirt over your body quickly as you hear him step in anyway.

 “You’ve still got that short fuze, huh?” He leans against the locker beside yours. 

 You ignore him, still shoving your things in your backpack.

 “Come on, y/n..I’ve got a pretty bad nose bleed because of you, the least you could do is give me a welcome back kiss.”

 You slam the locker door and turn to leave, but he blocks you. You glare at him. “Get out of my face.”

 “Aren’t you happy to see me? You hit me like you hate me, but I kinda liked that.”

 You scoff. “Oh really? What does your wife have to say about that? Huh? Does she like it when you flirt with other women?”

 Yuta’s face falls, he’s about to respond, but you interrupt him. “I don’t know if it’s some kinda kink of yours to cheat on someone, but I’m not gonna be part of that, so fuck off. Don’t come by me again, don’t even look at me. And you can take that set back too! I bet she’d look better in it.” You push past him.

 “W-wait, y/n..” he runs after you as you stomp through the workplace halls now to get out. You bump into anyone standing in the way, too furious to even apologize.

 “You’re an insane, lying asshole that fuels his confidence by flirting with women and leaving them high and dry. Don’t you feel pathetic? Don’t you feel like a whore?!” You say loudly in the halls, gaining the attention of many agents walking by.

 “Y/n! Don’t do this..” he shakes his head and grabs your hand, forcing you to stop walking.

 You pull it back while grunting. “Why not, Yuta?! Let’s let everyone know, I’m gonna give everyone a fair warning! This guy is a damn good spy, but you know what he’s also good at? Fucking around to get information, all while his sweet wife waits for him back home in Tokyo!! Shall we give her a call too?!” You yell loud enough for everyone to hear.

 Yuta stares, but it’s not in anger, but something else. He swallows hard. “Y/n..you don’t understand.”

 “What’s there to understand? You’re just like most men out there. You pretend to love your wives, you pretend to love your mistresses! You only love the attention. You’re afraid of commitment because deep down, you’re insecure!”

 He shakes his head. “No..I never pretended..I never pretended to love—“

 “Don’t!" you put your hand up to stop him. "don't..give me that!” You yell even louder.

 Haechan sees you and everyone else staring in the halls. “Hey! What’s going on here? Everyone get back to whatever you’re doing.”

 “73! In my office now! Yuta?! Out of here before I call your boss!”

 Yuta walks away, his eyes looking glossy before he turns away from you.

 You follow Haechan to his office and sit down with practical smoke escaping your ears.

 “Y/n…what the hell was that?!” Did he just call you by your real name? Oh you’ve genuinely upset him this time. “You know some agents already believe you’re unfit to be working here again and here you are acting like this in the halls?! Do you know how unprofessional this is?”

 “I’m..sorry, I..don’t know what got into me.”

 Haechan sighs. “This is exactly why we don’t allow work relationships to fester.”

 “I’m sorry sir, it won’t happen again. And definitely not with a married man. I apologize for being unprofessional and untrustworthy, it must have been a shock for you to see me like that.”

 “Wait..wait did you say “married?”

 You nod and figure you might as well tell him everything while you’re already embarrassing yourself. “I hacked the system sir..I found Yuta’s address and-“

 “Well if you hacked the system, you’d see Yuta is a widow…”

 Your mouth falls open as your eyes widen. “A..widow?”

 Haechan nods. “So you broke company policy by hacking our computers and didn’t even take the opportunity to read his file completely?” He scoffs. “His wife passed away from a car accident a few years ago. The guy who hit her was in a high-speed chase from the police, she was in the wrong place at the wrong time, and suffered from the criminal’s irresponsible actions. The criminal got away because of his connections to some pretty powerful people….That’s what made Yuta join us. He wanted to bring down high class criminals like him in an effort to honor his late wife. Eventually, he killed the man himself and decided to stay in the force to bring others to justice.”

 Your mouth falls in silence. Tears come to your eyes. You were such a jerk to him because you thought he was a cold-hearted cheater.

 Haechan crosses his arms and rolls his eyes. “Women…always jumping to conclusions. Why didn’t you just ask him?”

 You blink rapidly. “Well..I..I saw the wedding pictures of them together in his house.”

 “He’s had a difficult time moving on, as any of us would.” He looks out of the window. “But it was nice to see him smile when he was with you…I haven’t seen him like that before.”

 You quickly get out of the chair and run out of the building to find him. “Hey! Y/N! I’m not done with you!” Haechan yells after you but you ignore him.

"God, I am going to fire her one day." Haechan grumbles.

 “Yuta!! Yuta!!!” You yell, but can’t seem to find him. 

 He’s gone, completely out of your sight. 

 “Damn it!” You say to yourself while in tears. How could you be so terrible to him?

 You run back into Haechan’s office.

 You pant. “Phone number, I need his phone number, please.”

 Haechan stares at you with a look of disbelief. “Have you completely lost your mind? You know I can’t give you that!”

 “Please…I’m begging you..I have to apologize..I promise it’s the last thing I ask of you.” You place both hands on his desk and look into his eyes.

 He nearly falls for the desperate look in them, but shakes his head. “It’s an absolute no-no in our company, y/n. I’m sorry..”

 “Ugh!!” You leave his office and head home.

[Five Months Later]

 There’s an international conference that is done ball-style to celebrate all of the agents. It takes place in an underground facility. You get dressed up and wear an emerald green gown with fallen sleeves. You look and feel gorgeous as you run your hands down your sides while looking in the mirror one last time before leaving.

 You aren’t sure if Yuta will be attending, but you hope he does so you can apologize.

 You enter the gold-filled mansion and join arms with your partner, Mark.

 He smiles widely. He looks spectacular in a velvet red suit and large gold watch. He smells amazing too.

 “You look stunning, y/n.” He speaks softly.

 You fail to hide your flustered feeling, smiling uncontrollably while twirling your thumbs. “Thank you..Mark.”

 He laughs and takes you to the floor where you meet other agents you’re familiar with.

 Yuta spots you from the balcony and thinks of how beautiful you look. He swallows his champagne and turns to walk outside to the balcony, but just before he does, he sees your partner, Mark, take you by the waist and kiss your cheek as you smile at him fondly.

 For about an hour, you’ve walked about the party saying hi to everyone, a bit disappointed that Yuta isn’t there.

 “Hello agents! It’s time to announce our evening awards!” Haechan stands on a lifted stage and speaks into a microphone. You all turn towards him to wait for the announcements. The final award of the night is the biggest of all. The company awards the Agent of The Year for their dedication to their job and expertise.

 “This award goes to..Mark!” Haechan begins clapping as does the large crowd.

 You turned to Mark and smiled widely. “Congrats!” You give him a big hug.

 Mark thanks you, then goes to make his acceptance speech. “I’m more than honored to be receiving this award tonight. There are so many talents here and I’m truly inspired by all of you. I would like to thank you for the opportunity, but I would also like to thank my beautiful..wonderful partner…y/n. She keeps me going, she lifts me up when I need her the most.” He looks down at you with wide eyes filled with love. You nod and giggle.

 “He isn’t just getting lifted up by her..is he?” Yuta says to himself while crossing his arms in the corner of the ballroom. He is jealous and suspects that Mark may have a crush on you, he just doesn’t know if you like him too.

 You enjoy the rest of the night with Mark who can't stop looking at you or touching your waist, with your permission of course.

 He leans in close while staring at your lips, but suddenly Yuta walks up behind him and clears his throat.

 Your eyes grow. “Oh! You’re here! Mark, this is Agent -"

 “Yuta..” he interrupts you and shakes Mark’s hand. “May I have a word?” He looks at you sternly.

 You nod quickly, feeling somewhat nervous when finally getting what you’ve been begging for, a meeting with the man you can’t stop thinking about. “Oh..ok, um excuse me Mark..”

 You and Yuta talk outside on the balcony.

 “Yuta…I’m..so so sorry for what I said and for making assumptions. I don’t know anything about you, and it was wrong for me to attack you. Haechan explained everything to me, and I really am sorry. I would’ve apologized sooner, but he refused to give me your contact info in respect for your privacy.” You look up at him, begging for him to look down and give you one of his smug smiles. But he doesn’t, he only looks out into the night and stands beside you. “Yuta..I just-“

 “Are you guys together?” He interrupts you again.

 “W-what?” You’re confused as he doesn’t seem interested in your apology.

 “You and Mark..are you fucking?” And that’s when he turns to you with furrowed brows. He feels weak by the sight of your gorgeous eyes under the moonlight and the way your features seem softer at night. You smell like raspberries and roses, and he loves it, it reminds him of springtime. It’s his favorite time of the year as Cherry Blossom Trees bloom.

 “Yuta!” You gasp.

 He smirks as you become flustered.

 You shake your head. “N-no we aren’t! But..wait, why does it matter to you anyway?”

 He shrugs his shoulders. “Just curious.”

 You smile slightly. “Huh..still the jealous bastard after all this time.”

 “And still the useless prude.” He pats your shoulder. “Glad you’re feeling better…sweetheart.” He says before walking past you and into the party.

 “W-wait..that’s it?” You turn to follow him, but he’s gone.

 “Damn he’s good at disappearing..” you huff.

[A Week Later]

 You drift into sleep while in the bathtub after a physically draining day at work. Two well trained criminals put up a pretty good fight when you captured them.

 Yuta makes himself at home and pours himself a glass of wine. He then sits on the couch facing your sliding bedroom doors where he’s able to see when you come out of the bathroom through a small crack in between them.

 He had placed your butterfly lingerie set out onto the bed.

 After a short nap, you rinse yourself off and come out. You start to lotion your body in a slight daze after waking up, Yuta watches your delicate fingers caress your smooth skin and wishes it were his, gliding up and down your ankles and thighs.

 He decides it’s time to let you know he’s there. You hear a gun cock from outside of your bedroom door.

 “Put it on.” A dark voice altered by a voice changing box says.

 You nod and look back on the bed at the set. You slowly drag your panties up. “Yuta?”

 “Shut it. Keep moving.”

 While standing in the gap between your doors, you face the man, attempting to make out his face. You squint while tying the bra in the front of your chest slowly.

 He wears a ghostface mask over a black turtleneck and black pants.

 You carefully reach over your dresser beside the door to grab your gun.

 Then swiftly pick it up and point it towards him. The man chuckles then stands up and walks towards you.

 “You won’t kill me because you’re not sure who I am, isn’t that right?”

 You nod. “You know me so well already..so that means..you won’t allow me to do this.”

 You point the gun to your temple. The man hesitates when walking forward. 

 After a few seconds he laughs. “Are you sure you wouldn’t be doing me a favor?”

 You smile slightly. “Maybe..maybe not.”

 “After all, I’d finally be able to think clearly again.” 

 “You and I both know you want to be the one to kill me. Who am I to take that away from you?”

 You place the gun down and raise your hands. “So kill me Yuta..”

 “Not until I’ve fucked the pride out of you.. get on the bed.”

 You do as he says and kneel on the bed while looking at the mask.

 “Can I at least see your face?”

 He shakes his head. “No can do, sweetheart, I like watching you like this.” He sits beside you then taps his thigh. “Come on.”

 You ride his thigh as he continues to point his gun at you. Part of you felt more turned on by the role play, causing you to move faster. One hand rests at the small of your waist, carefully digging his fingertips into your soft skin. He smells so good, like citrus and cedar. He looks amazing too, his shirt hugging his arms.

 After just a few minutes you reach your high, but he doesn’t allow you to stop, he pushes the barrel onto your skin. “Keep moving, whore.”

 You do as he says while he holds your hip down with his other hand.

 He pushes the fabric of your panties to the side and puts his fingers in, making you cry out as he brushes his thumb onto your clit.

 “Ah! Yuta! Please.”

 “It’s “sir” to you.”

 You nod. “Yes, sir.”

 “Say you’re mine.”

 “Make me,” 

 “You’re a little slut, look at you getting so turned on by this…well I’ve got something for you.” 

 “Look at what I found..you even suck at hiding things.” He shows you your vibrator you his in your bedside drawer..apparently not well enough. 

 “Damn it..” you chuckle and close your eyes tightly.

 He takes his shirt off and pulls you over on top of him so your back rests against his chest as he rests against your headboard. He intertwines his legs with yours so he can control how open you are.

 With your knees now bent and your chest heaving, Yuta turns the vibrator on and places it onto your clit. He uses it mercilessly and on every setting, causing you to cum multiple times while crying out his name and grabbing his arm. 

 You squirm in his strong arms in an attempt to get away from him and close your legs, but he just won’t budge. “Don’t fight me, you know you’ll lose, sweetheart…just give me one more..you can do it for me, right?” He whispers into your ear and his husky tone sends chills down your spine.

 You cum again, trembling as you leak. You’re a mess, the sheets are a mess.

 He places the vibrator down, to flip you over on top of him. He places you on to his large, painfully restrained bulge. With his hands on your hips, he moves you up and down onto it. 

 He lets your hips go as you ride him on your own, but you’re so tired, you begin to move slower and close your eyes. He points the (empty) gun at you. “If you stop moving, I will shoot you.” Seeing you like this over him feels like a dream, he never imagined you’d be into this.

 You keep going, trying your best not to plead for him to take over, but you’re so tired, you can’t help it. “Yuta..I’m..tired.” 

 “Such a whiny brat, it’s only going to get worse for you.” He grabs your waist to hold you up slightly while sliding further down the bed. He then forces you down onto his mask. He makes you move back and forth while it’s on his face. 

 “Ah..fuck!” You grip the head board for stability, but the bumps and ridges of the mask nearly drive you insane. You feel crazy doing this, but for some reason you continue. You feel good and hot. Yuta is commanding and you feel the urge to do as he says.

 Just watching yourself right now, naked and riding a Halloween mask is turning you on more and more. What’s gotten into you? His hands still on your waist he chuckles when your whimpers become louder and louder until— your fingers go weak from gripping the headboard, your toes curl and your back arches as you release onto the mask. But he keeps you moving with his strong grip, even as you shake your head.

 “Please sir..can’t move anymore.” You’re overstimulated and tears fall out of your eyes.

 “My dick isn’t even inside you yet..keep working for it.”

 He pulls his mask off finally to reveal his tempting smirk. “Come on, let me taste you.” His tongue takes a deep dive into your already soaked flower, making you shake uncontrollably and cry out his name.

 He holds you still by spreading your buttcheeks with a tight grip and licking you all over.

 “Yuta!” 

 He spanks your ass. 

 “I’m sorry sir, so so sorry, please I can’t take more.” You try to pull away but fail. He only laughs and teases your swollen clit with rapid movements from the powerful tip of his tongue.

 “Oh my..fuck!” You climax again while he flattens his tongue.

 He flips you over so he’s on top of you now and pulls his pants down while sticking the gun into your mouth. He palms himself. “Is that how you’d suck me off?”

 You nod and sniffle as it goes deeper.

 Yuta is so turned on by the sight of your wet eyes, full cheeks and ruined face he goes crazy.

 He takes the gun out and runs it against your panties while making out with you finally. He takes your tongue over, forcing you to taste yourself as he moans.

 He then pushes the gun into the fabric to tease your clit once again. You struggle to move away, you try to push his hand away, but he giggles and pushes the gun against you harder.

 “You should be happy this isn’t a knife.” 

 He places the gun to the side and pulls your panties down while licking his lips. He kisses your scars and all the way down your belly before breathing against your opening. He teases it with his fingers while watching your face above him. “Ready for me, baby?”

 You nod and he finally pushes his length into you causing you to curse in harmony at the feeling of being connected after all this time. Despite being tired, your body grips him, taking everything he has as he forces his entire length into you at once, making you move against the sheets on your bed.

 You wince as he stretches you. “Slow..please..”

 He shakes his head. “Too much for you already?”

 You groan. Unable to talk as he goes in even deeper, your pussy betraying you by swallowing him in like it’s been begging for it for years.

 He pulls out completely before rubbing the tip along your folds to gather more essence and dipping into you again.

 You grab his hip with one and the sheets beside you with the other, reaching for anything that will get you through this and keep you sane.

 “I said..is it too much?” He grunts, thrusting into you hard. You arch your back and cry out.

 “Look at how desperate and pathetic you look right now, you can’t even speak straight can you? What happened to my smart talker? Got nothing to say while my dick is in you huh?”

 His cocky talk, low tone and look only adds to your arousal.

 He watches your breasts move in the pretty bra he bought you and you watch as his tongue darts across his lips. He loves to ruin you with every powerful thrust, and honestly, you love it too.

 You cum hard, growing dizzy as you try to push him away.

 He laughs at the way your weak hands press against him. “Come on sweetheart I’m not done with you yet, look at how tight you are, still need to make sure this pussy remembers me after tonight.”

He flips you over and takes you from behind, using your limp body to milk himself clean. Your velvet still grips him hard and it drives him crazy, the random clenches, the moans that vibrate through your body and onto him.

 All you can focus on is the warmth of his skin against yours and the way his fingers grip your skin. 

 He leans over and whispers, you can feel his long hair delicately touch your neck. “Do you like it when I’m inside you, fucking you silly like this?”

 “Yes…sir.” You let out embarrassingly. He squeezes his fingers into your cheeks as he grabs your chin.

“You don’t even remember your own name, do you, sweetheart?” He slams into you harder and grunts, your eyes shut and you let out a high pitched squeal.

 “You’ll never think of anyone else but me when I’m done with you..when I’m done filling you up until you leak for days.” 

 You clench at his words causing him to laugh and push even harder.

 “Who do you belong to, sweetheart?”

 “Y-you..”

 “Huh?” He slaps your ass hard. “I didn’t hear that.” He pulls your hair so your head goes back

 You squeal. “You! Belong to you, sir.”

 “Good..then I’m gonna fuck you..again *thrust* and again *thrust* and again *thrust* and again *thrust* and again *thrust and slap to your clit*“

 You cum instantly while screaming into your bed. You shake and grab Yuta’s shoulder behind you. “Sir..fuck..oh god.”

 He pulls out watching as your essence drips down your legs. He bends down to face your opening, licking it up slowly and using his fingers in combination to abuse your pussy and clit even more.

 Placing his arm under you, he turns you over so you lay on the bed face up.

 You watch him as he hovers over you, twirling the strings of your butterfly bra with his fingers. “Shall I unwrap my present?”

 You bite your bottom lip and nod.

 He smirks while pulling the strings slowly, carefully pulling it apart to reveal your breasts. The way he watches you through low eyes as his fingertips touch your sensitive skin ever so lightly makes you needy. You swallow hard.

 “Fuck..so pretty..” he gazes at your naked chest, the sight being incomparable to anything he’s ever seen. He’s so hard, it’s unbearably painful. He leans down to lick each hard nipple while you run your hands through his hair.

 He sucks them hard as his thumb runs your clit. He’s hypnotized by your chest, but it doesn’t distract him from his main goal of getting you to cum in his mouth again.

 He lowers himself so he can lick your aching flower.

 “Y-Yuta..” you pant as oversensitivity makes you so light headed you fear you might pass out at any moment. “Please sir..can’t —t-take.”

 You grab his long hair.

 “I decide when I’m done with you, got that? So stop begging, before I fuck you with my gun too.”

 You hiccup at his threat and fall back into the bed.

 After making you cum with his mouth again, your hold on his hair weakens. He holds onto the headboard and uses his other hand to guide his cock through your folds, coating it with your release to ease himself once more. You flinch and push yourself up on your elbows away from him.

 He clicks his tongue, still sliding his tip in between. “Where you going, sweetheart? Didn’t you say this pussy is mine?”

 You nod. “..but..I don’t think I can…” you can barely croak out.

 Yuta makes a pouty face and kisses your lips to distract you from the fact that he’s burying himself into your sopping pussy once again.

“Yeah you can..be a good girl for me, I just wanna see you swollen with my babies..let me do that for you, sweetheart..that’s what you want right?” He whispers huskily against your lips and rubs his thumb along your cheek.

  You nod and whimper. 

 “Good girl..” he leans back to watch himself enter you with ease. He places his hands into the crooks of your knees and pushes them down towards your chest, allowing him to see more of you.

 “You’re so beautiful..I missed you.” He whispers as he takes long deep strokes into your body. “What’s my name, baby? Say it for me. Who is making you feel this good?”

 “Yuta..yes, Yuta! Yuta, right there..oh my..” your breath hitches as you unravel and quiver again.

 It doesn’t take long for him to empty himself deep inside you as your pussy clenches and milks him dry.

 You cry out his name and dig your nails into his back.

 “Ahhh…fuck ..that’s it..” he runs his thumb along your lips and he closes his eyes tightly. It feels amazing to be this deep inside you, finally filling you to the brim like he’s fantasized about since the night of your mission together. A part of him doesn’t want to stop, but when he opens his eyes after nearly 2 minutes of enjoying the feeling, he sees that you’ve passed out, your hands now at your sides as you rest.

 He pulls out and watches a stream of cum leave your pussy. He could fuck it back into you, fuck you back awake but he decides to let you sleep.

 He grabs a cloth and cleans you up before carefully taking your bra off completely so that you can rest comfortably. He lays down in bed while holding you in his arms. And after draping the blanket over your bodies, the two of you sleep quietly. It’s the first time in a while that he’s felt his heart yearn for someone.

 The next morning, you wake up in Yuta’s arms and remember all that happened and that it wasn’t just an amazing dream. Your body is still sore and tired. You stare at his facial features as he sleeps quietly.

 “I’m sorry..I’m so sorry..” you whisper as you place his hair behind his ears.

 “I know..I forgive you.” He opens his eyes to trace over your lips.

 You kiss him deeply, holding his face in your palms while falling into him. You pull away after a few seconds and rest your forehead against his.

 “Why do you keep coming back?” You ask him.

 He laughs and tries to think of a smart remark but fails. “The truth is…I don’t think I can ever live without you..” he smiles then kisses you again. “You’re the worst spy, but the best companion”

 “So..what do you say?” He asks curiously. “I mean, someone has to take care of you..” He rubs your back slowly. It’s new, but nice to see him like this, completely captivated by you.

 “Hmm I say..you need some mouthwash right about now.” You tease him before jumping out of the bed and running to the bathroom.

 “Hey!” He runs after you.

 You decide to date after, continuing to insult each other in your daily lives all while remembering that you’d sleep together at the end of it all. And eventually, you do get married and become a badass spy couple.

[The End]

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Phome is where the heart is (ao3) - blossomsphan

Summary: dan and phil go shopping at target while in Seattle for tit. they’re feeling festive for the season and a little sappy bc, well, duh 🧡

place your head on my beating heart (ao3) - lesbaurinkos (pluginbaby)

Summary: slow dances in the kitchen of the forever home

sensitive (ao3) - intoapuddle, jestbee

Summary: "Do you like it?" Phil asks again. He doesn't know why he wants to hear Dan say it, but he does.

"I like it," Dan nods, tipping his back to bare his neck to Phil's teeth.

Shuffle My Board (ao3) - danisnotonfire

Summary: What happens after a game of shuffleboard gets unbelievably horny? The winner gets to fuck the loser.

Talking to the Moon (ao3) - uptownsteve

Summary: After a risque photoshoot, Phil wants to show Dan just how beautiful he is

"that's what makeup is for!" (ao3) - latenightfanfic

Summary: dnp finally have a night alone to themselves in a hotel after a few drinks after being cooped up in a tour bus.

The Anniversary (ao3) - Anonymous

Summary: It is fifteen years to the day since Dan's suicide attempt, and Phil endeavours to make the day as normal as possible.

The Box Under the Bed (ao3) - Nefertiti1052 (Succubusphan)

Summary: Dan is a guy with a plan but when his idea goes sour he finds other ways to pass the time.

Or how Dan found Phil's secret box and was caught red-handed.

The Masked Man (ao3) - cosmic_angel_writes

Summary: There’s many break ins going around town. Dan’s house might just be next.

the perfect first date (ao3) - pasteldanhowells

Summary: Phil takes Dan out on his first date.

Together Like This (ao3) - iihappydaysii

Summary: Dan has always liked the idea of a sexy outfit in bed and Phil knows it

Twirling in Tulle (ao3) - intoapuddle

Summary: Dan wears a skirt. Phil gets stupidly horny. Bon appetite.

Uncle Dan (ao3) - Ragopamplina

Summary: Dan is a Lester. He knows it, but still, he enjoys little reminders.

Want (ao3) - yoidnp

Summary: It was a rare night alone in a hotel room away from the confines of the tour bus. Dan and Phil discover a few things about each other.

welcome, love (ao3) - angelmichelangelo

Summary: coming out isn't easy, but it's a little less shit when you're surrounded with family

wheel of luck (ao3) - plasticheart

Summary: phil is an over caffeinated ra. dan plays the keyboard until the study rooms close.

wherever you stray i follow (ao3) - calvinahobbes

Summary: Dan brings Phil with him to therapy.

you drive me crazy when your hands start to wander (ao3) - t_hens

Summary: Phil has a surprise for Dan to show him how much he appreciated Dan’s Halloween costume

your love is my drug (ao3) - antiadvil

Summary: Phil wakes up with a migraine.

[tekdecksmtg]

From the Archives: Wilds of Eldraine Prerelease

As I recently did the Bloomburrow Prerelease, I thought I’d look back on my first prerelease, which happened to be my first in-person Magic event since getting back into the game!

I was writing some logs at the time on my experiences but didn’t post them anywhere. I still remember how much excitement I had coming out of this event, just it being my first tabletop Magic in person in like 25 years. Let’s see what I thought at the time!

Archive:

First ever prerelease event and first time playing in-person MTG in about 25 years!

I’m given my prerelease kit which contains a promo card Restless Vinestalk and six Wilds of Eldraine draft boosters from which I need to construct a 40 card deck. I open my packs and then sort all my cards by color.

While I had some nice white pulls, I knew that I needed to focus on creatures and interaction. After sifting through all my cards I eventually narrowed down to green and black for my deck.

Match 1: After the construction period, the Magic Companion app tells me where to sit. I’m put at Table 4 against white/green. Can’t believe I’m about to play my first game!

Game 1: Got out some creatures and damage, but he had a flying griffin that was just too strong and ultimately beat me. I had seven mana up for Virtue of Persistence but it was worthless to cast as I needed an answer. Went into desperation mode digging via my Collector’s Vault finding a flier to block one turn but inevitably nothing else.

Game 2: More of the same considering decks are only 40 cards. He was able to pump up creatures with Royal Roles, copying them as well. I was able to take his flier by casting a fight spell targeting it versus my Scream Puff, but his tramplers were a problem. Ultimately ran out of time in our match and he was ahead on life so he was awarded Game 2 (though he was in control anyway) and subsequently the match.

First match lost 0-2-0.

Match 2: As we get ready to move tables, the Companion app tells us what’s next and I’m surprised to see that I have a ‘bye’. As there were uneven players someone had to sit out each match. I would’ve preferred to actually play but fortunately having the bye awards me the win at least.

Second match won 2-0-0.

Match 3: I’m slotted back at Table 4 again for my match against an opponent playing predominantly blue and black.

Game 1: Quite a bit of good back and forth, creatures attacking and damage being dealt. The game turned on him being able to get me to sacrifice a couple of creatures followed by fliers that I couldn’t stop and ultimately beat me down for the loss.

Game 2: Really close and intense game. Lots of back and forth for a while with creatures trading off, but the game changer was my Virtue of Persistence which started bringing back creatures from a graveyard each turn, focusing on his dead fliers and my food creators first for defense then moving to offense. Overwhelmed him and won my first game in person!

Game 3: A little close early but I was able to drop my Sentinel of Lost Lore which got rid of his creature/adventure in exile as well as his graveyard. Then I was able to bargain my Hamlet Glutton on T5, followed by more creatures the next turn. He appeared to get mana flooded and I was able to take down the game pretty easily!

Third match won 2-1-0.

Overall I finished 2-1 (4-3-0) and in 11th place out of 25. The two wins awarded me two Set Boosters and I was also given a Magic 30th anniversary harvester of Souls for participating.

Absolutely incredible event; just such a fun time and made me realize how much I’ve missed playing Magic in person, especially at an event like this where everyone is on equal footing. Can’t wait to go for another; might have to sign up for the Legacy Open next!

Additional Notes:

* Virtue of Persistence was my favorite card from the deck, so powerful to get that early removal and game-changing if you can get the enchantment side out later.

* Collector’s Vault did absolute work, letting me cycle cards to rebalance my hand while also making Treasure tokens that could fix mana and allow me to cast more spells.

* Hamlet Glutton was only seen once but dropping a 6/6 trample on T5 is quite nice with the bonus 3 life gain coming along with it.

* My deck had no way to deal with creatures with evasion; I need to remember that for future events. There needs to be a way to stop fliers especially.

[ziggy-strdust]

At That Moment I Should Have Left Part 2

A/N: This directly follows ending to part 1. The next parts will be if you stay with Shigaraki,I have also have an alternative version where you get revenge with Dabi. (Let me know if y’all want that one posted as well.) 

This one is on the spicy so Please IF YOU ARE NOT 18 PLEASE DON’T READ

 ---------Now onto the story---------

Tears prick the corners of my eyes. Quickly wiping them away I grab the remote and pull up the Hulu app selecting IT. As the opening credits start up he walks in with a tray and an assortment of snacks, a bottle of my favorite strawberry wine and a couple of glasses. He sets them down right next to his phone, not even bothering to check it or pick it up. He grabs one of the glasses, handing it to me then grabbing the wine and pouring me a glass.

“Here love, I also grabbed that popcorn you love and I was able to find the strawberry and white chocolate truffles.” He has a light tone, a small smile creeping up at the corners of his mouth. He lifts the small plate containing two normal chocolate truffles and five strawberry ones, grabbing a strawberry one from the plate he holds it up to my lips. I lean forward a bit lightly biting into the top. The combination of flavors hit my tongue and I moan slightly, these have always been my favorite and an easy way to butter me up. Pulling away I smile at him scooting to closer him leaning against his shoulder. As the movie progresses Tomura jumps at any little thing making me giggle. “Oh hush you. You know I don’t handle scary movies well.” He nudges me. I flop dramatically to the other side, laying against the arm of the couch lifting my feet up. I place them on his legs. He rests his hands, my shins rubbing up and down. He has not once tried to reach for his phone or even glance at it.

“Hey Tomo your phone went off a bit before the movie.” I casually drop that into the air.

He just shrugs looking over at me, “Eh it can wait whatever it is. I’m enjoying spending time with just you.” That answer surprises me, a blush starts to creep up on my cheeks. He just laughs and turns back towards the movie, right as Pennywise is doing his dance. I feel him shudder, “Now that is a sight I would never want to walk in and see. He is simply terrifying.”

“Oh don’t be a baby, he's not that bad.” I giggle in response, “It’s not like he is real.”

“But he is still scary. I mean do you see those teeth, I would have peed myself if I was one of those kids.” Tomura confesses. As the movie ends I am dozing off lightly when Tomura suddenly moves beside me. Jolting awake I groan rubbing my eyes, as I sit up yawning. Looking over at my boyfriend I see that he has his phone in his hand, his mouth is pulled into a frown, eyes harden.

“What’s wrong Tomo?” I question as I sit up leaning on his shoulder looking down at the screen of his phone. The notification that one that haunted me, how could I have forgotten about that? I stiffen starting to pull away from him, he immediately reaches out trying to hold onto me. I slap his hand away. “No you don’t get to touch me. Have you really been talking to her again?” I sit there staring at the photo of us on the coffee table. It’s from our 3 year anniversary when he surprised me with a trip to the pumpkin patch and we did a haunted tour that night. Tears start to build in my eyes. I thought we were past that, he promised we were past that.

“No, I haven’t spoken to her since that day. I have no idea why she is messaging me now. I made it very clear to her that I was over it and that you and I were working on things. Even Toga and Dabi jumped in when she would try and open into a jump with us. They would instantly kill her over and over or they would kick her out of the server if they could. I would make sure that she wasn’t in one of the rooms if I wanted to play a certain game that we had in common. And if she was, I would wait for her to leave that game, or I would go pick a different one.” The honesty and desperation in his voice make me want to believe him. But that nagging little voice in the back of my head is telling me not to.  Why would she suddenly just messaged unless they have been talking still. She is obsessed. Maybe there is something more to it. I hate this. I want to be able to trust him, but he really broke that. I put my head in my hands letting the tears fall. Feeling broken, the small crack that was starting to mend, suddenly spider webbing and shattering into a million little pieces. I can hear him panicking next to me, trying to talk to me, trying to get me to listen to him. “Please, I haven’t been talking with her, I swear. Baby please. I haven’t been. I can try and prove it to you. Just look, there are no messages between us on here.” He gently grabs one wrist pulling it away from my face showing me his phone. He wasn’t lying. The last message on there was from before I caught him. But my gut is still turning with the thought of her being in contact with him. I hate feeling this controlling of him.

“If I ask you, will you block her? On everything?” My voice is small, cracking part of the way through that sentence. He pauses, my heart feels like it stops beating. Then his hands are moving, going to her contact information, scrolling down to the block button and hitting it. A small weight feels like it is lifted when he does that. My trust in him just rose a bit. Still cautious, he hands his phone over to me showing me. I nod my head handing it back, giving him a small smile, he relaxes. Leaning back against the couch we sit in silence. Both of us were just processing what had just happened and all the emotions that it caused.

“Do you want to take a bath?” His voice is shaky as he stands holding his hand out to me. I gently take it as we make our way down the hall. “Go pick out some pjs and I’ll get it started ok?” I nod walking down the hall to our bedroom, opening one of the drawers as I look through my options. Hmm to go sexy or do casual, maybe sexy casual? I pull out two sets, a light blue silky bralette and pair of short shorts then a black lace bralette, a pair of black lace panties and a small pair of pink striped shorts and a matching robe. Looking between the two I decide on the blue set, not feeling overly sexy right now. I then go to his drawer looking for a pair of boxer briefs and a shirt if he wants one, as I grab a pair of boxer briefs that are similar to my set, noticing an odd lump under the next few pairs, me being curious I move them over. Once I do, I uncover a velvet box. My breath catches in my throat, oh holy shit is that what I think it is. My mind is at war with itself, half wants me to open it and the other half wants me to leave it alone. I lightly touch the top of it, not going to open it, as soon as my finger makes contact with the top Tomura’s voice calls out letting me know that the bath is ready. I quickly jerk my hand back, covering it back up and making my way out of the bathroom.

Making my way back to the bathroom, I gasp when I walk in to see him waiting for me. I take in the sight, the bath is steaming, the smell of honey and almonds fill my nose. There are a few candles set up around the tub. The wine and truffles sitting on the bath tray. My favorite lofi playlist is playing in the background. I look at my boyfriend, who is extremely nervous, fingers twisting in his shirt. “I love it.” He visibly deflates, giving me a smile. He leans down pressing a gentle kiss to my lips, I press back allowing for the kiss to continue on. Gentle running his tongue along my bottom lip, I part them slightly to tease him before closing them again and pulling away. I hear him whine slightly from the lack of contact, when he opens his eyes he blushes. His eyes never leaving mine I reach the hem of my shirt slowly bragging it up my torso when I reach the bottom of my bra I turn it around pulling it off the rest of the way. Allowing it to fall to the floor, I hook my thumbs in my shorts sliding them down my legs. Stepping out of them I turn back to him in just my sports bra and a pair of boy shorts. He is standing there leaning against the counter, a small smile on his lips, blush spreading across his cheeks. He doesn’t try to reach out and touch me; he is just staring, his eyes dragging up and down my body. As if he is trying to memorize every inch of me. Taking the three steps to close the distance between us, I wrap my arms around his neck. Pressing my lips to his again, his hands wrap around my waist pulling me tight against him. His lips wander down my jaw, nipping at the corner then making his way down my neck. He latches onto my just under my ear, sucking and biting. He keeps moving down, biting down on my collarbone. Gasping, I look down as he latches lips to the top of my right breast sucking a smark there. Moving even further down his hands move up fingertips to the edge of my bra lightly pushing it up. Eyes look up at me, “Can I?” nodding my head he stands again, fingers gripping the edge and pulling it up over my head. “You are literal perfection” before I could reply he dips his head back down, lips wrapping around one nipple and fingers going to the other. The biting and twisting sensations make me gasp clutching the back of his head, fingers twisting in his hair pulling slightly. He pulls on switching sides, opening his eyes. He looks up at me, eyes filled with promises and love. Pulling off that nipple he gently kisses down my stomach biting lightly at the pouch that has formed over the years. The moment his lips make contact I suck in slightly not wanting to be found unattractive. Biting down it takes me by surprise, causing me to gasp. “Stop that like I said perfection, don’t suck in. I love every inch of you.” He continues his path down. Reaching the top of the boy shorts he gently runs his fingers along the outside of my thighs then moves to the inside, making me squirm. As his finger brushes against the damp spot on my underwear he lets out a light laugh. Gently pressing his finger upward I gasp out.

“Tom-m-moo. Don’t tease please.” Whining to him just wanting him to continue. He hooks his fingers in the waistband, yanking them down and letting them pool at my feet.

“Spread your legs a bit, baby.” He nudges against the inside of my thigh. Slowly moving my legs further apart, I can see the look of desire flare in his eyes. “God I love you.” Before I could reply he is eating me out like a man on death row who just received his final meal. His tongue strokes up, lips gently suck on my clit as his fingers slowly work their way inside me. Two gently stroke up curling with a precision that only he has mastered over the years. The double stimulation causes an orgasim to creep up faster than expected. With another curl of his fingers I feel the crashing sensation of it ripping through me. A long drawn out moan comes from my lips, knees buckling making me cling to the counter, unable to stop him from continuing.

“Tomo, please more.” Wanting more and more. He doubles his energy making me feel like the most beautiful girl in the whole world. After making me cum one more he pulls back wiping his face with his shirt, crashing lips into mine. Licking into each other's mouth, the taste of my cum sits on his tongue. Moaning, I reach down feeling dick through his pants, with the first contact it jerks. Grasping it in my hand I move up and down. Reaching for the button of his pants I pop open his jeans looking at his eyes. “Can I?” He nods so fast I thought he was going to give himself whiplash. Pulling down the zipper I push them down along with his boxers. Wrapping my hand around his dick, I start moving my hand up and down. Squeezing towards the base, twisting around the head. I start going faster when I notice his moaning is turning into higher pitched whines. “You close Tomo, want me to keep going?” He nods, leaning back against the counter.

“Please baby, I’m so close. I just want to cum. I’ve missed this. You are perfect. I lov-“ Flicking my wrist just right he cums all over my hand and some lands on his chest. I continue stroking up and down until he hisses from overstimulation. Bringing my hand up I lick it clean. His eyes bug out, “God if I hadn’t just cummed, I would have at that sight.” Pulling me towards the tub, holding his hand out I step in sighing in delight at eh warm water. Sinking down the water sits just at my chest level. He doesn’t immediately follow me into the tub, I reach a hand out for him. “One second baby I need to check on something ok?” Nodding my head he walks out the door footsteps padding down the hallways. Sighing I lean back, closing my eyes enjoying the music and the warmth of the water. I hear his footsteps pad down the hall again, walking back into the room I see he has my phone in hand. “Just in case you wanted it” He says as he places it on the tray. Tomura slips in behind me pulling me against his chest, reaching out and grabs the glass of wine bringing up to my lips. I sip the wine a few times, pulling back he snags a truffle holding it out to me. I bite into it enjoying every bit of it. “I love you baby. I’m sorry I fucked up so badly.  I am honestly working on it. And I will continuously work on it for the rest of my life. But I have something to ask you love, if you say no that is fine I know I have a lot of work to do to get back to the level of trust I had. But I was wondering, WIll you marry me?” He opens his palm, in it rests a hazel ring with a black pear shaped diamond. I gasp a few tears slip down my cheeks, turning in his grasp I throw my arms around his neck. Crashing my lips onto his. Pulling back I have the biggest smile on my face. “I would like to hear you say it please.” His voice is small and hesitant.

“Yes, I will marry you. I love you. I can see you are really working at earning my trust back. I love you. Now put it on my finger.” Holding my hand out to him, he slides it on. It fit perfectly, looking down at it I can’t help but smile, it is absolutely perfect, I could not hope for anything better. He leans his forehead against mine. Closing our eyes we just enjoy each other’s presence. Pulling back after a minute I reach for my phone. “Can I post it?” He nods against the side of my neck, opening my camera. I hold out my hand, having it focus on the ring the background blurred. Snapping the photo I go to my instagram account, posting the picture with the caption,’Guess who said yes!’ Immediately notifications come in, I giggle, turning it off and tossing it on our clothes. “I love you Tomo.”

“I love you too baby.”

[amisbro]

Let's Discuss: Broccoli's new app

So if you haven't heard then allow me to give you the skinny

This is an article that was posted a few days ago and it was about a "Game App" that Broccoli was working on...yes you heard that part right because this one ISN'T under the control (to the best we know) of KLab whom currently still runs the JP server for Shining Live. Now what is fascinating about this is we have only the one screenshot in the post (which is also on Broccoli's Press Release) with STARISH standing on a stage. I THINK (and I could be wrong) but I think these costumes come out of "Maji Love 2000%" which is INTERESTING if you know anything about "Start Dates" for the Anime seasons See the Date for "Maji Love 2000%" was April 8th of 2013 and this image was posted on April 14th of 2023...yes friends this is literally around the 10th Anniversary of that season! I find it fascinating that they are actively doing a callback to that season in their own way but then again when you also think about the fact that they are also going to be incorporation "Raging Entertainment" now its gonna be a lot of fun! Yes kids...HEAVENS makes their official game debut! Now we have to ask some questions 1. Visual Novel or Rhythm game? If you ask me I think this will be another Rhythm Game BUT I think they will take the approach that Happy Elements does when it comes to EnStars in that they are going to do long chapters with segments voice acted per usual. I also think however that the story will actually lead to something (The UtaPri Awards Showdown. SSS ,or maybe a new contest) so that the game doesn't feel "Aimless" which was a big criticism of mine 2. How would songs unlock? If this is a Rhythm game I think we are going to see more of the Happy Elements approach in that songs will be unlocked after events and that there maybe be other ways too (like the equivalent of a "Live Fes" from EnStars). so there is that also. 3. If It's not a Rhythm Game at first could we see "Idol Training game"? Oh sure! Like since we have Shining and Raging Entertainment its not out of the possibility to see that happen. Like literally in EnStars (Basic and Music) there is "Yumenosaki Academy" and "Reimei" so if we go the route of a game like "ES Basic"...sign me up! If you notice that I am using the "Happy Elements" approach its because of the fact that they OWN their games so they don't have to ask for permission to get songs from someone. I think that might have been a problem for Shining Live a little bit because KLab never owned the content for it. I imagine having to ask for permission a lot is quite the tab Now the big thing is this When does it release? We just really heard about this a few days ago so I suspect that we'll not hear about it again (at least in terms of a title) in June when the 13th Anniversary happens. At that time (if we do hear about it then) I suspect the name and game format to be explained and (POSSIBLY) the "Sunset" of SL for the JP server. I only say "Possible" because it still has a lot of players but again this is all speculation on my part. If you ask me about Dolce Vita...I still think that game could be announced also but then Broccoli would have to think about this: If you announce Dolce Vita that HAS to be the only game announcement for the year. You CAN announce the name of the new Game App but I wouldn't announce a release date because people might be more interested in Dolce Vita honestly. I also think that if they do announce that this new game is a Rhythm game and people don't get a proper update on Dolce Vita then there is gonna be a problem. We know about the "BackPri" issue and how that didn't go well with people so I could see that being a real PR issue if something isn't said about DV Anywho fam that is all I have for right now but I am curious to what you think about this because I am really hyped no matter WHAT it turns out to be...not gonna lie I'll be happy as hell if we get a new rhythm game but sad if that means getting rid of Shining Live altogether. Take care fam and talk to you again soon

[kithtaehyung]

HLJ told me to send this to you. She's so supportive and I love her immensely 😘😘😘😘😘

I filmed my first ever dance video 🫣 I went to hit the upload button and almost threw up from anxiety, but hey I'm having fun and that's all that matters. Plus I think the Tannies would be proud of me for taking a leap like this even though I've been terrified to put myself out there for years. I also filmed Run BTS to upload on the 1 year anniversary and that turned out cool as hell too. Eeeek here's to me saying fuck it!

https://www.instagram.com/reel/Cs2VjP0OGIz/?igshid=MzRlODBiNWFlZA==

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRo2rRgC/?t=2

KATY. HOLD TF ON……. THIS IS UR FIRST DANCE VID?? LIKE EVER?

alright. i am here after watching both the reel and the clock app a billion times.

1) FACEEEE YOU GAVE IT I am telling y’all like i appreciate facial expressions and presence during performances and.. this does not look like your first rodeo🤣 objection, ur honor! we need more evidence to this claim!

2) the production value?? the multiple angles and transitions?? damn how many times did you record! you obviously have huge talent bc filming something multiple times while making it look seamless is 👍👍👍

3) your dancing is so gOOD. powerful moves, switching up the textures, knowing how to accentuate the hits… wow. literally no pressure but i know everyone is gonna wanna see more than one other video from you and I’m just saying i don’t blame them and count me in😂 sitting patiently for run bts😤

4) you’re amazing, you know that? putting yourself out there is a very big step, and i completely agree that bangtan would adore you and think you’re so fcking cool for doing this. hobi would for sure shower you with praise😭😭😭

Gahhhh amazing amazing job and I am so proud!! Thank you HLJ for thinking of me and thank you Katy for sharing your talent with us💕

[winderlylandchime]

I still cannot believe someone from Europe cares about my brother watching a tv show. Actually I still can’t believe anyone including you cares about him. But to explain how we/he watches the episodes: at the beginning i was in full control of the dvd cases because there are episode descriptions on them. And when you click on the episodes to play it also shows descriptions. So the way we at first did it for him to avoid any spoilers (his wishes bc he absolutely hates spoilers) was that he would close his eyes until the episode started. BUT then he started to care a lot more than he expected and tbh he was less high from his meds so I couldn’t win fights anymore so he wanted to control the dvd cases and the cds and all that. So he made me tape a piece of paper over the descriptions on the cases and then, like a fucking child, after I/he puts the cd in, he selects the ep number and then closes his eyes and either makes me press play or he hopes for the best and does it himself. One time he pressed play and one of the bts interview videos started playing and he covered his ears and screamed like a child until i turned it off. Anyway all he’s seen so far is the dvd intro with the episode numbers and nothing else. He hates spoilers of any kind so he’s treating this like his life depends on it. Few years ago when the Avengers movie came out (the one with iron man’s death) he didn’t leave the house for 2 days because he was scared of spoilers and he even deleted his entire social media cause of it l so this is not even the top 20 most dramatic things he’s done when it comes to shows/movies. So what I’m saying is, he has no fucking clue about episode titles or anything, so all will be news to him. And tbh I’m very happy about that because 1) in the ep descriptions Vic’s death is also revealed in a description later on so he’d for sure see it and 2) I completely forgot the 10th episode title and when I saw your response with the screenshot I actually felt relieved that he’s such a drama queen because I cannot wait for him to see that little moment so if itd be spoiled for him, id riot.

OH your brother has fandom blood running in his veins. His commitment to avoiding spoilers for his media is commendable. I had to do the same thing when I was traveling for the end of last season of RPDR (btw I adore Jinkx! Good taste brother anon!). (And then I realized that because I was abroad the WoW app would actually show the American franchise episodes and I could watch it.)

There are fans from Europe here on tumblr and the person I text with was on tumblr but deactivated while making me promise to keep them appraised of your brother’s reactions. We’re all invested because this is the most exciting thing to happen in the fandom since 2020 20th anniversary YouTube thing. And Gale didn’t show up so this is even better because your brother is wholly focused on Britin (sorry Scott ILY but no one cares about Ted). (Also remember the early days of the pandemic when we could just watch hours of our favs from an ancient tv show catch up?)

I promise that every single person is holding their breath for your brother to watch 510. His reaction is going to be everything.

[cocaineavalanche]

It's my 9 year anniversary on Tumblr.. damn.

I didnt even plan on living that long.

I did medically die a few times but well, they resuscitated me, (un)fortunately?

I'm closer to my goals than EVER.

I know that in a year, or two, maximum 3, I will live my perfect ideal life, my desired future.

I'm 20,5 now, will turn 21 at Aug 24th.

It's just so unbelievable to me that I've been almost a decade on tumblr..

I know I was 11, started with an ED/depression blog, turned into a drug blog, then slowly into a manifestation one. First LOAttraction, then finally LOAssumption, also shifting and the void. (And some 18+ stuff, hehe LMAOO. Just 2 horny, desperate and boyfriendless damn lmaoo)

I'm so happy about my transformation, my change, my growth.

I'm excited for the future, I know I will live my best life. Better than my desires ever could be.

Even if I'm talking with so much optimism and hope, my mental health has deteriorated.

To be honest, I'm.. lost? I don't know. It's just so bad, and I don't tell anyone how bad it actually is. I wanna be a rock, a cliff which people can hang on, I wanna be that one thing which is constant in their lifes. Where they can let out all their emotions, worries, fears, but also hopes, wishes, dreams, motivations. Just everything.

Sometimes I wish they knew what I'm doing..

Okay, I'm drifting off.

Thank you so much for 9 years on this app.

Much love to everyone.

Never lose hope, never give up on life.

Love y'all <3

[shop-korea]

ITZY "UNTOUCHABLE" M/V @ITZY

DEAR - KOREAN - GIRLS

WITH - INDIA - MALES - WE

ARE - INTRODUCING - TRUE

BETTER - THAN - KOREAN

MALES - GENTLEMEN AND

COMPUTER - EXPERTS

INDIAN - MALES - DANCE

SING - BRITISH - ACCENTS

ALSO - GIVING - INDIA YES

BETTER - PLACE - THAN

ENGLAND - WHERE - NO

FIREARM - SCOTLAND YARD

FEMALE - WAS - TRYING - TO

KILL - MY - PREGNANCY

UNITED KINGDOM - UK

HAS - BAYONET - COMBAT

KNIFE - AT - TOP OF RIFFLES

WHEN - THEY - TRUST - ON

GUT - 2 - END - PREGNANCY

THEN - YOU'RE - STILL ALIVE

SHOOTS - PREGNANT - GIRL

WITH - RIFFLE - HUGE BULLETS

ENGLAND - SMALL - PLACE SO

UNITED - WITH - NORTHERN

IRELAND - WALES SCOTLAND

2 - FEAR - THEM - FORMER

BRITISH - EMPIRE - DREARY

NO - SUN - WINTERS

LOTS - OF - INDIA - PEOPLE

IN - ENGLAND - BRINGING 2

ASIA - AND - OTHER - EUROPE

COUNTRIES - INSTEAD

KOREAN - GIRLS - INDIA

MALES - DELICIOUS FOODS

UNITE - WITH - BETTER YES

MALES - WHEN - THEY DANCE

LIKE - TAHITIAN - HAS - TRULY

MEANING - NCT - BOYS - ARE

DISPLAYING - STRENGTH

THEY'RE - STRONG - AS THEY

ALWAYS - WITH - EACH OTHER

INDIAN - MALES - DANCE WITH

THEIR - HANDS - AND - HEARTS

COMING - 2 - THESE - MALLS

BARBIE - WORLD

ITZY - HELLO KITTY - WORLD

AESPA - CHARLIE BROWN MALL

BEAUTY - PAGEANTS

KIDS - TEENS - YOUNG - ADULTS

ADULTS

WE'LL - FIGURE - ALL - OUT

NOT - ALL - HAS - ALL ALSO

EXAMPLE

MS - BARBIE - BABY

MR - KEN - BABY

MS - BARBIE - TEEN

MR - KEN - TEEN

EASY - 2 - APPLY - USE - APP

LOCAL - AND - WORLD

NO - HUMAN - CONTACT

NOW - GROWN - UPS

WORLD

MS - WORLD - BARBIE

AGE 19 - 25

SINGLE - ONLY

LOOK - LIKE - BARBIE

LARGE - BREASTS

TALL - BARBIE

BARBIE - WORLD

DISCRETION - BUT - FREE

NUMBING - CREAM

PLACED - ON - BREASTS

THEN - CHEST - BALLOONS

WHY - 2 - FILL - UP - WITH

BABY - MILK - B 4 - BABY IS

BORN - FLOATS - U 2 - POOL

CHANGE - YOUR - HEIGHT

BARBIE - WORLD

PLASTIC - SURGERY

CHANGE - COLOR - OF EYES

CHANGE - HEIGHT

WE'RE - ISSUING - EVERYONE

NEW - SOCIAL SECURITY NOS

NEW - COUNTRY - ID - NOS

LEGAL - DUPLICATION - ALL

IDs - PAPERWORK - DEBIT &

CREDIT - CARDS - KIOSKS

WE - TAKE - CARE OF PHOTO

BARBIE - TV - STUDIOS

MS - BARBIE - (LOCAL)

MS - WORLD - BARBIE

MR - KEN - (LOCAL)

MR - WORLD - KEN

AGE 19 - 25

MALLS - WILL - HAVE - STAGE

TELEVISED - AND - AUDIENCE

INSTEAD - OF - WALKING

AUTO - BRINGS - U 2 - STAGE

TURNS - U - AROUND - AUTO

BIKINIS - BARBIE's - BODIES

PUSH - UP - BRAS - INSIDE

HOW - 2 - APPLY

WORLD - BY - APP - WHEN

U R - SELECTED

500 BILLION - TAX - PAID

OTHERS - SELECTED - WHO

IS - BEST - 2 - REPRESENT

500 BILLION - X 3 - TAX PAID

ALL - EXPENSE - PAID

BARBIE - HOTEL

NO - ROOMMATES

REQUIRED - TONGUES

SINGERS - ONLY

SINGLE

KOREA - SEOUL

TOKYO - JAPAN

BOTH - LOCAL - PAGEANT

WINNER - 500 BILLION X 5

WORLD - WINNER

500 BILLION - X 8 - TAX PAID

REQUIREMENTS

MALE - CAN'T - SUGGEST

ABORTION

GIRLS - CAN'T - HAVE YES

CLINIC - ABORTION - CAN

NOT - HAVE - DOCTOR

ABORTION - OR - U - LOOSE

ONLY - TITLES

EXAMPLE

AESPA - CHARLIE BROWN

MS - PEANUTS - BABY

MR - PEANUTS - BABY

KIDS - TEENS

MS - TEEN - PEANUTS

MR - TEEN - PEANUTS

NO - ADULT - BEAUTY TITLES

SO - DEPENDS - WHEN

HOST - AESPA

HOST - ITZY

CALLING - ON - WORLD - YES

BEAUTIES - 2 - HELP

MS - UNIVERSE - 2017

SOUTH - AFRICA

MS - UNIVERSE - 2018

CATRIONA GRAY

2015 - PIA WURTZBACH

2 - HELP - HOST

SO - THESE - MALLS - WILL

HAVE - IT - ALL - 2 - KEEP US

ALL - SAFE - BULLET - BOMB

FIRE - WATER - SOUNDPROOF

PREPARING - 2 - LEAVE LIBRARY

BARBIE - HOTEL

FR - ELEVATOR - THEY - STEP

2 - BRING - 2 - ROOM - NO WALK

INSIDE - ROOM - THEY - STEP - 2

BRING - EVERYWHERE

SMART - HOTEL - REMOTES

LIKE - SMART - HOUSE APTS

HIGHEST - TECHNOLOGY

BARBIE - WORLD

WINNER - BECOMES - DOLLS

THEIR - OWN - BARBIE DOLLS

INCLUDED - IN - COMICS

THEIR - OWN - COMICS ALSO

DURING - 1 YEAR - REIGN

OWN - BARBIE - COMICS

BARBIE - STAMPS - ALSO

WHEN - THEY - HUMILIATE

WOMEN - KILL - THEM - IN

ANCIENT - CHINA

MS SAIGON: 25TH YEAR

ANNIVERSARY

ILLEGAL - PROSTITUTES

IN - VIETNAM - CONCUBINES

BURIED - ALIVE - WITH THEIR

CHINESE - MALE - EMPEROR

KILLED - AS - NO - CHILD - AS

CONCUBINE - 1 BED - SHARED

EVEN - WITH - EMPRESS LIVE

SONG - AMERICAN - GOV'T

ISSUED - SOLDIER - SINGS

'THERE's - A - PLACE - WHERE

YOU - (GIRLS) - HAVE - MORE

WORTH' - 'I'LL - TAKE - YOU

THERE' - OF COURSE - BIBLE

'LYING LIPS - OF - FOREIGNERS'

NEVER - MADE - THAT - GOOD

VIETNAMESE - MOM - KILLED

HERSELF - THESE - MALLS - 2

BRING - WORTH - 2 - WOMEN

2 - THE - POOR - OF - INDIA &

MANY - COUNTRIES - AS - WE

MAKE - THIS CHANGE IN ASIA

BEIJING - SHANGHAI

HORSE - LANES - 4 - BLIND

DISABLED - AND - KIDS ADD

SEOUL - KOREA

TOKYO - JAPAN

NEW - BEAIUTY - PAGEANTS

2 - BRING - US - MORE WORTH

BIKINI - REQUIRED - AS BARBIE

SHOWS - HER - STRENGTH - AS

SHE - WEARS - WHAT - USA YES

CREATED - THE - BIKINI

SPOUSES - CHURCHES - YES

TRIED - AND - MURDERED US

BUT - ADAM - AND - EVE

GARDEN - OF - EDEN BOTH

WERE - NAKED - CLOUDS

COVERED - THEIR NUDITY

THESE - BEAUTY - PAGEANTS

CONTESTANTS - NOT WALK'G

AUTO - WALKS - THEM - SO

NO - MORE - FALLING - NO

MORE - FEAR - NOT - HARD

QUESTIONS - NATIONAL

COSTUMES - IMPROVOED

BARBIE - WORLD

ITZY - HELLO KITTY - WORLD

AESPA - CHARLIE BROWN MALL

COMING - 2 - SEOUL - 2 - TOKYO

[shirogane-oushirou]

1, 2, and 7!! :3

hello niiiiick! 🥰💕 thanks so much for the ask~!! i hope you've had a wonderful anniversary today!!!! seeing all of your older art for the first time has been such a blast 💕💕💕

1. have you gained any new F/Os this year?

ren my best friend ren!!!!! i'd list any new fandom-related f/os here but... tbch, i haven't played or read much of anything this year ;;;; also ren has had a stranglehold on my brain ever since he showed up at the start of may, so i doubt anyone new could have broken through that... hell, even the one other f/o i added is just an AU version of ren kjsdnfnkj.

2. if you did add any new F/Os to your list this year, was there someone who you absolutely didn't expect would end up becoming an F/O? if so, did it take you a long time to realize you like them, or did they take your heart by storm?

went to sleep one night thinking about [][][][]ing mars, woke up maybe 4hrs later, half-asleep, ready to put a ring on some other Guy my brain cooked up for me jkngkjngekj. could never have expected ren or his au counterpart, and they've rotted my brain ever since. a little more on the unexpected side, i was finally able to compartmentalize my feelings wrt boris hnkna! he was the first character i f/o'd (platonically) from hnkna, but in college, i introduced an online friend to hnkna and he felt a kinship w boris.... when things broke bad w him (hi, chat app trauma~~~), it broke bad with boris as well. he was "covered in The Ooze" and all of that. BUT! he lives with gray (rom f/o) and nightmare (other platonic f/o) in spade, so seeing him in a new setting, having learned from mistakes from previous games, hanging out with my husband and bestie, and his romantic route being much less squicky.... i finally felt comfortable adding him back to the platonic f/o list! 💕💕💕 he's actually one of the reasons why i decided to add platonic tags at all!!! i'm so excited to have my beloved punk catboy back!!

7. in a similar vein, were there any special/memorable moments you had with the selfship community this year? (this can be anything from taking part in an event to receiving a particularly kind message - no matter how big or small!)

genuinely the Whole Thing. All Of It. i initially made this blog a year ago as a place to dump my "cringe ass selfship posts" for oushirou, isolated from any other blogs, just for me because i didn't have the social capacity to join a big fandom... but then i saw an artist i like being completely open about her selfships on twitter, which inspired me. i decided to put the social skills i'd been practicing for several months to the test, opening myself up to a community i knew NOTHING about, with people i had ZERO connection to, who COULD be super clique-y and mean.... and i was pleasantly surprised. it turns out there are some absolutely amazing, wonderful, funny, friendly, kind, caring, thoughtful, skilled, creative people in this community who were welcoming despite my newness! (not to say parts of it AREN'T clique-y and mean -- pretending otherwise would hurt people who've been targetted -- just that there are more chill people than i expected ;;;) safeshiptember is probably the one thing that really kicked it off for me! that's when i started creating things Specifically for this blog and putting things in the fandom tags. people found me and i found them through our works, we started chatting a bit, started sharing each others' work with positive notes, and created real connections. i feel connected to people for the first time in 8 years, in a more "real" way than stream chats. 💗🥰

[waywardccd2023]

The Top 5 iPhones of All Time

The Top 5 iPhones of All Time

The first Apple iPhone was announced 15 years ago, and we've reviewed nearly every one. These five are the best of the bunch

Apple started 2007 with a single product that made a big splash. But over the past 15 years, there have been far more than 15 iPhones, as the company rolled out big ones, little ones, cheap ones, and costly ones.

The plan was one iPhone a year until 2013, when the iPhone 5c joined the iPhone 5s in a dual release. Since then, we've gotten up to five iPhones a year, in the banner year of 2020 when we saw the iPhone SE 2, the 12 mini, the 12, the 12 Pro, and the 12 Pro Max.

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iPhone 3G (2008)

The app store makes the iPhone. Apple's original iPhone was interesting but limited; I wouldn't even really call it a smartphone, because I define a smartphone as a device able to run third-party apps. It had lousy phone-call quality and couldn't show many desktop Web pages. I loved the interface, but the experience could be pretty rough, as I said in my original review of the first iPhone.

iPhone 5 (2012)

The iPhone broke free of its AT&T shackles in the 4S year, but thanks to 4G LTE and the larger 4-inch screen, the iPhone 5 was the one to really take advantage of being on every US carrier. This was just a beloved, well-made phone, which I called "faster, less frustrating, and less fragile" than the 4S in my review. This was the first iPhone I feel like I saw everybody holding at once.

iPhone SE (2016, 2020)

As the decade began to turn, smartphones became steadily larger and more expensive. The iPhone SE (and its successor, the SE 2) were joyous correctives to those trends—affordable, powerful phones that fit smaller hands, but got you into the iPhone ecosystem with finesse. They showed that you didn't need to empty your pockets or fall back to an older model to get those treasured blue chat bubbles. I have high hopes for an SE 3 coming soon.

iPhone X (2017)

Apple's tenth-anniversary iPhone piled in new design ideas and features that played out over the next five years. It was the first iPhone with an OLED screen, the first without a physical home button, the first with Face ID, the first with notable AR capabilities, and the first one to cost $999. Whether or not you liked those changes—and a lot of people still don't!—the iPhone X set an agenda that the iPhone 13 family is still working from.

The iPhone 12 Pro is a true professional camera phone.

iPhone 12 Pro (2020)

I'm the 5G guy! So I have to give a nod to the first 5G iPhone, even though 5G networks haven't lived up to the promises Verizon's Hans Vestberg made at the phone's launch. The 12 Pro also introduced the latest sharp, square-edged design and dramatically improved camera night mode, probably the top camera feature average people have asked for.

[bciwasinlove]

Hey what are your thoughts to the 2 years reference in Louis and Harry's songs? Too young - "it's been two years since I have seen your face" and Hunger - " as one year turns into two I am still not over you" surely this can't be a coincidence. But the question that arises do you think they were on a time out or a break for 2 years?

Hi anon had a feeling someone would come mentioning those lines. It's all anyone has to grasp at for proof of a break up. I'm pretty sure I've explaining this before to many others but I'll explain again bc the app sucks making it hard to find any old posts.

The way harry has what we refer to as "stunt songs" or just songs where he added something to the song to allude to one of his fake gfs like the fake VM from camille in cherry well louis does the same except for him he just does a few "stunt lines" here and there so people don't realize who the songs are actually for.

In WMI there's the uni line "Meet you at your uni [...] share a single bed and tell each other what we dream about." This alludes to the song being about eleanor and their time spent together when she was at Manchester Uni [allegedly.] I do think originally the message was about L&H nights spent sharing a bed at the xfactor house and they just changed it to uni so people go 🌟 eleanor 🌟. We know thxs to the 2017 leak song snippet that louis did change lyrics so this is most likely one of them.

The line you mentioned "two years since I've see your face" from to young is a similar deal of a lyric change to allude to eleanor. My main theory is the song lyric was originally "two weeks since I've seen your face" which would line up with harry's "two weeks and I'll be home" from CM alluding to the two week theory that basically is they never went more than two weeks without seeing eachother. It would seem for at least 7 years they managed that but as harry started doing acting and louis started doing solo touring it's been harder to do so.

They probably changed two weeks to two years bc E&L had broken up for a year and some change. Yes two years is technically more but when have they ever been accurate/consistent when it came to eleanor relationship timeline? They have never even been able to keep it to one straight story on how they met or their anniversary it's pathetic.

It also logically doesn't make sense [taking the offical line at face value] that they didn't see each other for two whole years. From 2010 to 2015 they were in 1D together seeing eachother literally everyday for 7+ months. In 2016 there are pictures of L&H both at the xfactor when louis was there performing with steve plus the harry pick of him headed into the hospital and without going into sad details we can figure out why he was there.

I do personally get so upset when people bring up 2016 as "break up proof" knowing what was happening then and why L&H would have looked upset/sad then. Anyways in 2017 we had Jamaica larry with louis being pictured in Jamaica while harry is there working on HS1 [and right before the louis pics we had receipts of louis being seen on the beach with mitch it was humm but once pics came out placing louis in Jamaica it became 😳]

Plus once HS1 tour started later that year louis many times was spotted out in random cities he had no reason being at and the only thing going within the next coming days was a HS1 concert. And naturally those louis spottings were the HS1 concerts where harry was lovingly singing up to a mysterious person in the VIP box. I could go on like the sharing of vintage clothes during quarantine and HS3 being very I STILL FUCKIN LOVE YOU BABE with a very I've been commited since I was 16 vibe BUT you get the point.

Moving on to just the concept/notion of them even being able to stay away from eachother that long makes no sense. In late night talking one of the lines goes "it's only been a couple days and I miss you" and when I heard it it reminded me of those late 1D receipts of harry when going out to clubs with nick and other friends [nights when louis didn't join them] he would just get drunk and be needy complaining about missing his baby.

And of course when it came to prime 1D larry louis after seeing harry everyday for 7+ months straight and FINALLY getting to go home and see his family asked if they could invite harry's family over for the holidays bc he would miss harry. I think both have made it plenty clear they can BARELY handle a week or two apart and some think they would not see eachother for TWO YEARS. The times they did have an argument of some kind I assume one would jet off to another city stay for a couple days and than come crawling back home bc they missed their baby. Harry does seem like the dramatic type who would write a song about something like "oh I jetted off to LA for the week and couldn't handle my baby not around me."

Now as for the Hunger song lyric "as one year turns into two I'm still not over you." Side not fuckin love this song it's beautiful and I'm mad it wasn't on an album. ANYWAYS this song is kind of tricky bc it's just a leaked 1D demo harry sang so we don't technically know when it was written or by who. I DO think it was a four demo and most likely harry DID write it based on how harry's voice sounds, the emotion harry carries when singing it and the genre of the song.

I will continue my thoughts based on the notion he wrote it and it's about larry. So to me as always they were put in a shitty situation as a closeted gay couple in a MI that thinks that wouldn't sell or make them a popular artist. With Louis song WMI he talks about their younger selves and how if only their younger selves could see their older selves and how they made it and YES they are STILL madly in love louis is STILL the love of harry's life regarless of what outside people have to say about them being in love. Well I see hunger in the same light. Young harry was so insecure when it came to many things most likely one was about how he was in love with louis and "certain people" didn't agree with it.

The one year... than two... is older harry reminising on the past. Like shit we were just two young teenagers falling in love and in the blink of an eye one year passed and than two where has the time gone? And even though many years have passed since those days in the xfactor house "he [harry] is still not over you [louis]" he is still the love of his life as he always has been nothing anyone tells him will ever change that.

My biggest deal when it comes to "they broke up" is it's usually people who don't understand a thing about long term relationships and ended up making larry into something toxic where they were constantly breaking up and dating other people. Larry has made it clear that's not who they are. Did larry have issues ABSOLUTELY especially given the situation they have been put into but larry has made it very fuckin clear they didn't just pack up and leave behind the best person they ever knew.

And they certainly didn't allow those assholes who told them they wouldn't last and shouldn't even be a thing to end up being right. Louis WMI DC MV, almost all harry FL MVs show how hard they fought to make it work and escape the glum of being around those assholes and into the sunlight their SO provided.

I just don't see how would just walks away from the person they always called home and got many matching/romantic tattoos together. The tattoos will ALWAYS be the biggest deal to me bc most don't even get one matching/romantic tattoo with their SO so for larry to get as many as they did. You just don't get that many tattoos with someone unless you know without a shadow of doubt this is the one I will be with till my last breath. Point blank I don't think they officially broke up [certainly not two years] and nothing will ever change my mind on that.

[livebloggingmydescentintomadness]

the cockles masterlist, part 3

split in six for link limit reasons

WARNING: this post glitches and crashes on mobile. it’s recommended you view this on your desktop, or at least on your mobile browser rather than the app. if my desktop theme is hard on your eyes, try an extension such as Just Read or Reader View to customize the layout and colors.

if you’re still having trouble viewing, or if you don’t want to have to switch between the five posts, here’s all of the links compiled into a google doc.

welcome to the cockles masterpost, a labor of love/insomniac hyperfixation.

i recently wrote this cockles manifesto, but after it got a lot of notes and i kept adding more links to it, i decided i should just go through my 8 years of archives and compile all the cockles posts in a much more accessible and navigable way. after everything with the series finale and destielgate, i figured we could use some happiness, and it turns out there are a lot of people who’ve never heard the cockles gospel.

important disclaimer: yes, i do think that jensen and misha have a private romantic/sexual relationship, but no i do not, in any way, think that they have ever cheated on their wives. we think they are polyamorous, which is a real and valid thing, and misha is openly poly. some people love more than one person, and that’s okay. their families are close and we love and support all of them.

second important disclaimer: despite the amount of innuendo below, this is not about fantasizing about two hot guys fucking. cockles is about the joy of witnessing two people who love each other and make each other happy and are disgustingly cute together. we’re not fetishizing, we’re just appreciating what they publicly share with us.

third important disclaimer: because some of y’all don’t know, the cardinal rule of cockles is that we don’t talk to cockles about cockles. DO NOT leave any comments on their social media accounts implying anything. not even green and blue hearts. they know that we know, but it’s on us not to make it weird. if we’re too obvious and say too much, they might start sharing less. don’t say anything.

NOTICE: if this list is too long or you don’t know where to start, i wrote a post that one might call an illustrated guide to cockles that breaks down many of the most important moments and what i think they mean.

for the sake of my sanity, these are in no particular order.

last updated: 12/13/22

🐚 denotes new content

part 1 (That’s Suspicious, mishananigans)

part 2 (#pray4jensen, gag reel hijinks, some posts i’ve written about cockles and rps)

part 4 (the glory of jibcon)

part 5 (just for cute)

part 6 (jibcon continued, just for cute continued)

know your cockles history:

The epic love story of Jensen Ackles and Misha Collins | that time misha accidentally (?) tweeted it out

that fucking tree | more gifs

the ten-year anniversary post

the matching bracelets/first ring jensen gave misha | more ring photos | better view of the bracelets/charm

different matching bracelets

another ring jensen gave misha | bonus | also: it’s a thing for queer people to wear their wedding rings on their right hand

matching necklaces jensen bought

the sunset photo | the jumping sunset photo | telling the story of the sunset photos

that time misha reenacted the fake orgasm scene from when harry met sally and jensen..... liked it | a lot | more gifs | callback years later: “if you could do any movie together, what would it be?” | ”i’ll have what he’s having”

misha’s boat trip photos | jensen’s boat trip photo | jared: “and they haven’t released the nudes!”

the boat trip story | jensen closeup | more on the boat trip...

“dmitri, bring it out”

alona tal: “have you ever kissed jensen?” misha: “umm...”

the story of jensen draping his whole body around misha while misha signed autographs + blurry photo

the valentine’s card | video | more gifs 🐚

jensen telling the story of how they met misha (for the hundredth time)

jensen talking about his first scene with misha

the story of the first time the went to dinner together (despite jensen otherwise insisting he can’t remember that far back)

jensen reminiscing about when they met

the mirroring compilation

the infamous reverse french mistake edit

jensen calling misha his ‘pebble’

the chest-to-chest selfie

that time they had a private mass at the vatican??

the family ice cream date

“hey big boy”

people’s choice award acceptance video (gifs)

selfie at the last spn sdcc panel

the time jensen pied misha to haze him when directing his first episode | more gifs | more gifs | jensen complaining that jared pied misha too roughly :(

the cat video dramatic reenactment | more

“would you just drink your fucking water and get off the stage?” | more gifs

the bridal carry photo op

clothes sharing compilation

“i couldn’t see you for a while. got a little nervous.” | more gifs

the temporary breakup speculation

detailed breakdown of events surrounding the potential breakup

misha gave jensen west’s old baby blanket for jj

west took his first steps in jensen’s garden

a collection of favorite cockles moments

some cute moments from the early years

YANA campaign videos: 1 2 3 4 | gifs

cas looked so happy because jensen was making misha laugh

“what were you born in a barn?”

“if your characters had dating profiles, what would they say?”

“i’m not normally one to talk about coworkers, but jensen just let me take this picture of him shirtless”

old interview moments

the time jensen jumped on misha’s back

“it feels like there’s this angel standing over me” | more gifs

the “are these engagement photos?” photo ops | close-ups

jensen looking heartbroken when fans said they didn’t want misha to come back to spn | further context

the mr. and mr. smith photo op

the time jensen walked into radio shack and found a portrait of his face done in skittles (because of misha)

the rugburn™ | the rugburn visible in 8x07

jensen made spn shut down filming because misha was too sick to go on

jensen getting in the question line to ask misha to do a dean impression

the already infamous anal sex fart joke

jensen’s more intimate photo op touches the weekend misha was mugged

last dead guy robe picture

jensen and misha's last on-set photo together

jen crashing misha’s panel with seb

jensen kissing misha just behind the green room door at jib3 2012

eyes like the sky beer

very early smiling at each other onstage

the cockles easter egg in the last of us 2 | full explanation | misha’s tweet  🐚

my alma tag

early years pictures and gifs

the head-leaning hospital photo

misha’s blanky

i’m one of the poor souls who didn’t know that jensen and misha lived together in a vancouver apartment from 2017-end of show | further details

jensen released the song “angeles” on september 18 2012, the fourth anniversary of cas’s first episode. lyrics include, “so glad to meet you, angeles.”

what “aloha, cowboy” actually means

danneel’s photo of jensen reading misha’s poetry book by a fire

my denvercon cockles tag, for everything cockles-related that happened on october 16, 2021, at the first in-person spn con since covid, the destiel confession, and the series finale.

video of misha crashing jensen’s denvercon panel

misha walking out to hug jensen from behind at denvercon | video

discussing how when they hugged, misha was surprised by jensen’s muscles and jensen was surprised by misha’s softness; “like an angel plushie”

the way jensen turns, leans back, and spreads his legs at denvercon | another angle

unicorn laugh at denvercon

leaving together at denvercon

jensen... had his car sent to misha’s house in washington?  

video of jensen draped over misha’s shoulder, discussing fanart they’d seen at the con and how they’d each defaced it. “you drew the black penis?” | gifs  

everything cockles that happened at nov 6-7 ‘21 charcon: “whatever you say, mish” and “i live it”  

“okay, babe.”

the “possessive” photo ops from nolacon ‘21 

the tender and loving way they hugged for photo ops in 2021 

sunrise photo shoot from dallascon ‘22

misha and jensen discussing how they’ve given up saying no to photo op requests

misha stating that jensen’s song ‘watching over me’ is about destiel 

everything from the njcon ‘22 cockles panel | complete panel video

“This guy is always partially-obstructing my view of sunsets” 2019 tweet 

misha telling the story (again) of how jensen made him break with kissy faces | talking about the face/doing the face jib2 & jib6 | imitating the kissy face | more imitating the face | jensen talking about the kissy face | it’s jensen’s favorite ‘prank’

cw upfronts misha Gazing at jensen photo | edit

jibcon12 misha/jensen panel transition hug | video | more gifs | photos | more photos | MORE photos

fighting over whose sunglasses they are | video

jensen: “and you looked AMAZING”

misha posing as audience member to ask, “do you usually at night watch misha collins videos with your wife?“ | jensen discussing the lazarus rising watch party: “had like a three-way... video conference”

@theyarebothgunshot‘s “and they were roommates” timeline of cockles cohabitation

the ew photoshoot of champagne + cheek kiss fame | outtake photos  

misha’s detour at ‘22 denvercon to hug jared and jensen | more gifs | mooore gifs | photos | video 

jenmisheel tag 

"[danneel] does refer to misha as her boyfriend. which is funny, because so do i." | video |

jensen serenading misha with "angeles" | video

the destiel song they improvised together | video |

2009 highlights

2010 highlights pt 1

2010 highlights pt 2

2010 highlights pt 3

2011 highlights pt 1

2011 highlights pt 2

2015 highlights

2016 highlights

2019 highlights

2021 highlights  

2022 highlights

the i n t i m a c y:

misha tenderly caressing jensen’s back (jibcon) | more

misha tenderly caressing jensen’s back (phxcon) | another angle | hd photos | yet another angle

jensen wrapping his arm around misha’s waist | followed by an ass slap | sharper gifs: x, x

hands on thighs

the neck kiss

whispering compilation

more whispering

jensen shoving misha face away | alternate angle  

hug + cheek kiss (ew photoshoot) (photo)

head boops

kisses compilation

jensen dropping his head to misha’s shoulder

slow dancing

touching compilation

beginning/ending of panel

heads on shoulders | video of jensen laying his head on misha’s shoulder  

the way they shake hands | bonus | a breakdown of a handshake

face stroking

more face stroking

comfortingly rubbing each other’s backs

a hug photo

the sdcc hug/head lean (gifs)

patting jensen’s head | more gifs

undercover hand lovemaking | another angle 🐚

jensen’s hand sliding down misha’s arm

eyes closed hugs

His. Hand. Was. Determined. To. Stay. On. That. Leg.  

excessive hand touching

how they hug

hugging/rubbing each other’s shoulders

hug compilation

jensen's hand sliding down misha's back  🐚

and lastly... please, nobody tweet this at misha (or any other cast member), but misha, if you do see this... please don’t tweet it either. thank you.