#turns out im wearing the stress hahah

[dreamymoomin]

Feeling very emotional in the library today. I can't believe I hand in 4 years of my life tomorrow, it's like saying goodbye to a huge chapter of my life, a collection of very happy and very sad times. I will have finished 8 years of education, all culminating in the title Dr.

[firstdivisiongirl]

hi there <3 I’m hoping that you would be able to do a tokyo revengers matchup for me if its still open :)

my name is Samantha <3

my pronouns are she/her!

my personally type is ENFP!

my zodiac sign in virgo!

if i had to say what alignment i am, it would be chaotic neutral LMAO

im 5’7, slightly on the curvy side. i have long-ish, black curly hair and brown eyes. i wear round, black glasses. i have a couple of pierces and tattoos!

if you go on Pinterest and look up “Tumblr aesthetic 2014 grunge” and that is my dream aesthetic if i wasn’t so lazy - i only wear leggings and hoodies…

my favorite anime right now is Tokyo Revengers <3 also slightly obsessed with hazbin hotel and helluva boss

the games that my friends and i have played / play are - Twisted Wonderland and Obey Me

i have one cat and one dog <3

my favorite food is sushi! i also LOVE DR. PEPPER <3333 its like BAD

i feel like i dont have that many hobbies because i work ALOT. my friends say that i am a workaholic :( when Im at work, i basically run around like the world is going to end if that task isn’t done in the next two seconds. i have the mind set of “if you want things done right, you have to do it yourself” - which stresses me out and idk why I am like that HAHA

but when im not working, i love to write for my friends - mostly it will be about whatever fandom that we are into at the moment. (tbh i never end up finishing the stories because i get lazy haha).

my dream goal in life is to write angsty romance novel - like enemies to lovers (which is my FAVORITE TROUPE) and become an author.

as well, I am IN LOVE WITH MUSIC! every year that my Spotify wrap comes out my friends are SHOOK about how many different genres, artist and amount of time i listen to music for. for example, this year i listened to 75 different genres, 2,864 songs and 1,595 different artist!!

my top artist were : Pierce The Viel, Taylor Swift, Chase Atlantic, Rosenfeld, and Fall Out Boy :)

my top songs were : emergency contact, habits, this is why im hot, cardigan, and ceilings <3

my top genres were : pop, pop : indie, pop punk, rap, and alt z (whatever that is LMFAO)

this year i listened to : 32,897 minutes

my favorite thing to do is make playlist based on shows and characters to show my friends about how I feel <3

ive been told that i look very intimidating and mean, but once you get to know me im an uwu baby. that im very down to earth and emotional. but i make friends very easily - considering people have told me even though i look mean but i have an inviting aura which draws them in.

i’m pretty extroverted lol i make friends wherever i go and always see people i know whenever im out

i have a hard time expressing myself verbally. that whenever i try to tell someone how i feel about something, i start to get tongue-tie and stressed and upset. probably cause i feel too much at the same time :( so what i end up doing is just writing out how i feel and showing them (which is kind of rare lol)

but when Im talking about something that i love - Iiget loud LMFAO I start to talk with my hands more than i already do, i start talking very fast. then when i noticed that im doing that, i stop and apologize for being annoying HAHAH

my friends call me a tsundere (only applies with anime characters - not IRL people) because there will be a character that i cannot stand at first and then i will start to slowly like them and be VERY MEAN AND ANGRY ABOUT IT. eventually that character will turn into one of my favorite characters and i love them with all my heart - but will still be mad about it.

but tbh i’m such a hopeless romantic! if we’re dating i love you with all my heart.

my love language are : quality time, physical touch and words of affirmation. i will want to spend all my time with you. i am a very touchy person. words of affirmation is very important to me because i am very self conscious about basically everything about me *sigh* BUT IM TRYING TO WORK ON IT <3

SORRY I FEEL LIKE I WROTE SO MUCH! SORRY IF NONE OF THIS MAKE SENSE LOL

i hope you have an amazing day! stay cool

Hi there. I can’t stay cool because I’m not cool lol. It makes sense and it’s not too much. The more info the easier it is to find your perfect match. Idk how far you are in Tokyo Revengers. Let’s do this and I hope you enjoy.

You Got…

Kokonoi Hajime!!!!

He loves romance. (If you’ve seen season 3 you kind of get it). Love is something he really wants. And when he falls, he falls hard!

He works a lot too, so don’t worry about him getting mad at you.

He is patient and kind of a sweetheart. He wouldn’t get annoyed by your hand talking and getting passionate.

He’s been good friends with Inui (Inupi, Discount Sabo, etc. Boy has so many names lol!!!!), who does express himself much. He’d be able to figure it out and help as much as he could (his solution probably would include money).

He’d tell you he appreciates and loves you as much as he can. He can be a little emotionally constipated. He’ll probably also buy you stuff to show how much he cares.

If you love a character or band, expect lots of merch from him.

He’d love to hear your stories, especially angsty romance. He’s kind of an example angsty romance so…yeah.

I think you two would have similar music tastes and idk why. If he isn’t a Swiftie, I don’t know anything anymore.

[lnarizakis]

a two-player game (3 lives left!) | k. kenma

masterlist

3 lives left! | a two-player game: kozume kenma x f! reader

STATISTICS

PLAYER ONE: KOZUME KENMA.

APPETITE: — 1/5

JEALOUSY: — — — — — 5/5

BAD MOOD: — — — — 4/5

STYLE: — — 2/5

OBLIVIOUSNESS: — — 2/5

PLAYER TWO: (L/N) (Y/N).

APPETITE: — — — — 4/5

JEALOUSY: 0/5

BAD MOOD: 0/5

STYLE: — — — — — 5/5

OBLIVIOUSNESS: — — — — 4/5

Kenma was coming close at this point. He’s at three lives now; he can’t waste anymore. Lose three more and he could be done for - heartbreak. What did a teenage boy have to do to save himself from such an ordeal? He decided to consult (U/N).

He logged on the game only to find that (U/N) was not online. He wondered what they were doing at the moment. So he sends them a private message.

applepi: hey can i tell you something? please

And so he waited. And waited. And waited. He stayed online for a bit, clearing the level he was currently on. (U/N) would have to thank him for that later, as they were playing together. But even after thirty minutes (U/N) did not log on. Kenma grew impatient, but there was no other way for him to contact them. He just had to play the waiting game.

SIDE QUEST UNLOCKED!

THE WAITING GAME . . . COMMENCED!

It was long and difficult. Kenma cleared another level on the game, and (U/N) still did not log on. He began impatiently tapping his foot on the floor. His breathing became uneven every time he thought about his message he sent. To clear his mind, he logged off.

5 DAMAGE TAKEN!

Kenma played some random game on another device of his to pass the time. It was the same game he was playing when he first met Shoyo. He thought about how kind of a person he was, and how he just radiates warmth. It was in his name, too; Hinata. But then he remembered how there was another person who could outshine his brightness. (Y/N).

Ah, (Y/N).

Ah, damn. He just remembered the message he sent to (U/N).

5 DAMAGE TAKEN!

After some time stress-playing, his mother called him from the kitchen. She had baked him apple pie. Dejectedly, he walked out of his room to sit down in front of the warm slice of pie. It was such a beautiful piece; one could tell that there was just the right type of crispness along with the sweetest apples that hid underneath the crust. It was like the type of pie you could find at the best cafe out there.

Kuroo probably took (Y/N) out on the best date at the best cafe Kenma could hope to imagine.

He lost his appetite.

-1 APPETITE!

10 DAMAGE TAKEN!

Kenma pushed his plate away, towards his mother, who seemed quite concerned for her son. He walked away and towards his room.

“Wait, Kenma! You’ve been in your room all day. Get some fresh air,” she pleaded, “I’d ask Kuroo-kun to come out and play some volleyball with you, but it seems like he’s out doing something else…”

10 DAMAGE TAKEN!

Kenma shook his head as he slammed his bedroom door closed. He stood, pondering his actions for a little bit, then cracked open the door. He stuck his head out as he meekly called out an apology for the rude behavior.

He then decided to take a nap to regain his lost energy from that whole ordeal.

A few hours later, he woke up and the first thought on his mind was the message he sent to (U/N). He turned on his computer and logged on to the game. (U/N) was online. He went straight to the PMs and found one new message waiting for him to open.

(U/N): hi yes sorry i was out on a date!! lol whats wrong???

Dang, (U/N) was out on a date? Go get ‘em, (U/N). Kenma shook his head at the impure thought as he typed a message for (U/N) in the game.

applepi: ok so remember my crush?k;

(U/N) fought an enemy before typing out their message.

(U/N): yes what about it.

Their response seemed unhappy. Kenma worried at the way they phrased their question. But he continued on with his consultation.

applepi: some1 asked her out on a date yesterday & im rly mad abt it,

(U/N): oh

applepi: yea i kinda like overheard it but i walked away as soon as i could before she said her responsee\

They fought some enemies.

(U/N): huh

applepi: yea this happened last night

(U/N): huh thats funny bc some1 asked me out on a date last night too haha

(U/N): i said yes ofc

(U/N): yk to be nice

(U/N): it was so much fun but he didnt do anything to his dumb hair

(U/N): like i think its a fashion choice which he should def change

That got Kenma thinking.

applepi: haha what did his hair look like?

(U/N): it literally looked like a rooster omg

Oh.

Oh.

He was talking to (Y/N). There was no doubt about it. But he had to confirm his suspicions.

applepi: ew please dont tell me his outfit was bad too

(U/N): nah he was wearing this dark red button down w black jeans

Oh God. He knew the exact outfit she was talking about. She was talking about Kuroo’s “date outfit,” which Yaku shamed him for wearing once out on a “team bonding” day.

But the point of the matter was: Kenma was talking to (Y/N).

10 DAMAGE TAKEN!

He told everything, all of his problems, to (Y/N).

10 DAMAGE TAKEN!

His best friend, his comfort and relief, (U/N), was (Y/N).

His internet best friend was his crush, (Y/N).

50 DAMAGE TAKEN!

2 LIVES LEFT!

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hi! thank you for reading! also, if ur prob screaming like y/n how can you not tell that ur talking to kenma or something like that please look at the statistics! 3/5 obliviousness hahah anyways might come out with a new part later today but who knows B)

taglist (comment/ask to be added!): @i-bitch-you-bitch @cadememe

[onepdumpsterfire]

The Love struck neighbors

Modern life!AU

   "Are you spying on her again?" Asked a voice from right besides me. "Gah! Don't do that, Ace. it isn't funny" I say, trying to slow my racing heart "And I'm not spying, for your information. I'm just looking outside, it's just a coincidence that our neighbor, that lives across from us, is uh... Stretching..."

   "Uhu just a coincidence, like the other times that she happened to be doing yoga in her living room," He walks towards the kitchen; all the while continuing his mocking, "or writing, or cleaning or-"

   "Okay I get it!" I interrupt him. "And, by the way, your drooling," Ace shouts over the clattering of pans. "N-no im not!" I reply, quickly wiping away at my mouth. My face is beet red and it'll probably keep getting redder if we continue this conversation. Time to change the subject.

   Getting up I follow him to our cramped kitchen. "Don't touch the food on the stove; wait till luffy gets here and then we can eat"

   "You should just go talk to her, if you like her so much," grabbing a piece of hot food from the stove, he tosses it into his mouth. "Ah, fuck! That's hot."

   "That's why you should wait till luffy gets here in 20 minutes." I usher him out of there before he decides to eat more food. "But it'll be cold then and I'm hungry nooooow, saboooooo," Ace whines. "It's in low heat so it won't get cold, and we're waiting till luffy gets here." I guide him towards the living room. "By the way you haven't answered. Why don't you talk to her?" Stopping us in front of the linen couch, he turns to face me. "I have but it's just so awkward between us? I wish we could just start over but by now she probably thinks I'm a weirdo." Sitting on the couch, Ace pats the spot next to him. "Nah I doubt it. You only, what? Fallen down the stairs in front of her,"

   Groaning, I remember that embarrassing day. I was trying to be neighborly and greet her, but got...distracted and tripped over the last few steps. At least she helped me up. She smelled so nice that day. "Dropped and broke most of her groceries." Remembering that one actually made me flinch. I'd seen her unloading some groceries when I got home from work. I offered to help, but clumsily dropped most of the bags I was holding. I exploded her soda and most of the plastic plates she bought for a get together she was having. She invited my brothers and I after that. I ended up avoiding her most of the time. Ace, on the other hand, tried to talk to her every chance he got. And luffy....ate just about everything there. "Awkwardly talked about labradors, for some reason. Yeah, no I see your point." I just couldn't shut up that day. Grrrr, I'm pissed off at myself.

   "Are you done listing how much of a loser I am? Thanks, man. real motivational pep talk." He turns on the couch, now facing me, he puts a leg on my lap. "Hey, you know what, luffy might have talked to her recently." Now that's news to me. "What do you mean?"

   "Well remember when luffy set that fire to the apartment a while ago? when we were out." Eugh, just remembering makes me wanna throw up. He tried barbecuing for us on the balcony once, but ended up almost burning the apartment down. AND he still made us eat that vile lunch. It makes me shiver at the thought. "Yep. He's the reason we have no balcony, why?"

   "Well she's a firefighter intern or something right?"

   "I think?" I'm not following...

   "Then she probably came here to help put the fire out. And you know how luffy is. He probably talked to her and mentioned we are neighbors and that she had invited us to her place before." My face pales, I'm following his train of thought now. He's probably gonna invite her over soon. He does that with every person he befriends. Oh no. Oh no no no..... If he did talk to her then he more than likely told her about me looking at her through her patio door. He has no filter! I'll never be able to face her again! "Luffy talks way too much! He probably told her that we've seen her through her balcony-" Ace puts a hand up, stopping me. "Hold up, WE? What's this 'we' you speak of? YOU'RE the one spying on her." He moves his arm to the small stand next to the couch, grabbing the controller. "And besides, if he did, she hasn't closed her curtains yet; she probably has a thing for you too."

   If she does I'd probably just about faint.  Considering how awkward things are between us. Man, I hope she does. It would be a big help. My panic subsides and the sounds of the TV provide a nice background noise while I drift off into a daydream about how it would be like to be with her. Being able to hear her voice all the time, see her smile everyday. To BE the reason she smiles every day. She makes my insides feel all warm and fuzzy. Gross, it's like I'm a school girl or something. I'm usually not like this, but she just seems to make my brain go mush. I sigh contently, probably smiling like a fool as I continue to daydream.

   I practically forget why I was panicking before. Then the day dreaming is cut short when I hear voices and the jingle of keys at the door. "Really, it's fine. You don't have to invite me over. It'll probably be awkward."  The door is opened in the middle of the first person's sentence. "No! It's no big deal! Honest, it's a thanks for helping put out the fire that time." Came the other voice.

   That second voice I recognize, it's luffy. But the first..... A girl.... Putting out fires... Oh no. My mind goes blank as the the two walk in through the door. Well, more like luffy walked in and y/n was dragged in by him. Oh god I'm not dressed. Is what I'm wearing fine, Shorts and a t-shirt?Will she like the food? I mean luffy did invite her over so we gotta offer her to stay for a while, right? Right? I hope she likes spaghetti and meatballs. Ace, help me, please.

   As if to answer my silent prayers, Ace mutes the TV and greets the two. "Hey, guys. What's up?"

   "I saw y/n get out of her car, and invited her over for dinner!" Luffy chimes. "That so? Well since Sabo seems to be frozen, I'll serve the plates." Stammering y/n tries to object. "Oh no. You don't have to. I wouldn't wanna impose. I'll just be going now." She turned to walk out, but Ace stops her. "Don't be silly. Stay for dinner, it'll be nice. Plus my brother, over there, made it. He's a pretty good cook, husband material." He winks at her and all the color returns to me once more. I shoot up from my spot, dragging Ace to the kitchen by the ear. "Ow. Ow. Ow. Dude stop." I let go of him, looking mad. I try to glare him down, but that's hard to do with my face being as red as it is. "Oh come on, you were just sitting there, frozen. I had to do something to help my bro get his boo." My cheeks sting from how much blood flow they're getting today. "Don't say it like that!" I whisper yell at him. "Oh calm down. It's hard to take you seriously when you look at me like that. It's adorable." Ace dramatically puts an arm over his forehead. Why, this asshole wants to get punched today. I'm about to blow a fuse when luffy walks in. "Hey guys what's up? Is it not okay to bring her over?"

   "No, no, it's fine. It's not that I uh..." I can't seem to find the right words... "Sabo, just can't handle it right now. His crush is getting him all flustered." Ace answers in a mocking tone. O-hoho I'm gonna kick his ass later. I glare at him walking out of the kitchen. "Just set the table."

   Back to the living room, y/n is standing awkwardly by the door way. "Come on in, the food is being served." She looks at me, god, her eyes. "I understand if you weren't expecting company. I can just go, it's oka-"

   "No! I uh... mean uh.. no no everything's okay, don't feel bad about this. It's nice to have company over for a change." I awkwardly trail off, cheeks still beet red. Swear to god, I'm about to spontaneously combust. "The uh.. Dining area is this way." I wave her over. I'm being awkward, oh god. 'Dining area' who even says that. This is an apartment; he can see it from where she's standing. God fucking djfjfhfuej...

  My head is swarming with thoughts. I can't do this. What do we talk about. Not labradors, please brain, something else. As I plead with myself, y/n takes a seat next to luffy.

  Hold up.... Do I sit next to her? Across? If I don't even go near her, will she be offended?? I must have looked stressed out because Ace ends up putting my plate next to hers. Pushing me into a seat. He sits across from her. Boxing me into a seat. If I move now, next to ace or luffy, it'll look rude. I have no choice, but to sit here.

  As awkwardly fantastic this would be, being next to her and all. I can't help but notice we boxed her in too. She must be feeling uncomfortable by now. Even more than before. Oh geez. Ice breaker. Ice breaker. Something to start a conversation. "S-so uh," my voice fills the, otherwise, quiet area. It caught me off guard, I didn't think this through. What do I say???

  "You helped put out the fire, right?" Ace saves me once again. "Yeah, I'm just an intern so I didn't do much, really" she has her hands in her lap, awkwardly, almost as if she's scared to get closer to the table. "Stop being weird, guys," luffy cuts in, "hey, y/n, is being a firefighter cool? Do you ride in the fire truck? Can you drive it? Have you-"

  "Stop bombarding her with questions, Lu. Giver her time to answer, at least." I stop him before he can drown her in his questions. He's too curious. Chuckling I relax a bit. "So, firefighter, what got you interested in the job?" Y/n turns to me, sending butterflies to my stomach. "Uh... Well," she tucks her hair behind her ear, nervous habit? "I just liked the idea of helping people, and really liked fire trucks I guess?" She forms her response like a question, laughs nervously. "O-oh um.. I don't know what you guys do? It's okay if I ask, you don't have to answer if you don't want to." she waves her hands in front of her.

  "Hahah It's fine. I'm working to be a paramedic. I'm about to graduate, actually" Ace smoothes over her awkwardness. "Oh! That's great, congrats!" Bashfully she congratulates his almost accomplishment. It's cute how flustered she can get. "I'm still in between majors. "I say, swirling some spaghetti onto my fork. "I thought I wanted to be a computer science major, but now I'm not so sure." 

   "I didn't wanna go to college." Luffy chimes next to her, spaghetti sauce on his lips, "more school after school? Boring! I'm working as a mechanic with franky!" He shoves the last pit of his pasta into his mouth. "Mm-sabo more!" 

  "Don't talk with your mouth full luffy. There's more in the kitchen" before I finish he's up and out of his seat. "Franky?" Y/n questions, going back to the previous conversation. "He's owns the shop luffy works at." I fill her in, "he comes by here once in a while. Really cool dude." Running back to his seat, luffy joins in the conversation "he has this cool robot arm and foot! He told me once that some of his head had metal in it! Like a cyborg!!" He's too excitable. "Stop screaming lu, she's right next to you." He practically inhales his next plate of food. "Sorry sorry," luffy mumbles, mouth full of food.

  "Franky isn't a cyborg, he just has prosthetic limbs and a plate from when an accident at the shop." Ace gets up, "you should get one of those cool prosthetics too, sabo." Now in the kitchen, he continues, "anyone else want seconds?"

  "No, this is enough for me." Y/n points at her plate. "Save some for me." I walk to the kitchen. "You have a prosthetic, sabo?" Y/n asks from the table. "Yea, my leg, I lost it in a car wreck when I was little."

  "S-sorry, I didn't mean to-" I stop her mid sentence. "Don't worry it was a long time ago. And Ace, prosthetics are expensive."

_

   After dinner is finished y/n offers to help with the dishes. Ace and I decline, she's a guest after all. "Y/n wanna stay for a bit and hang out?" I ask her, hopefully it isn't too forward. "It's not that late, promise to have you back at yours before 10." I give her the best smile I can. "Sure, haha." I hope that she doesn't feel obligated to stay. 

  "How's your balcony?" She asks no one in particular, "are they gonna start repairs on it soon?" I walk towards the sliding door, next to her. "Yeah, they were supposed to start a few days ago, but with all of the rain these past couple of days..." I trail off. She nods her head, still looking at the charred ground outside. 

  Luffy joins us at the door. "Look, y/n, you can see into your place from here. Sabo sometimes lo-" I slap my hand over his mouth. Oh no. Shit. I hope she didn't understand what he was getting to. "He does what now?" She turns to us all, wide eyed, startled by what he might have said. Fuck.

  "N-no. I don't spy o-on you or a-anything!" My face heats up, bright red. I scramble to find some form of excuse. "I just enjoy the view." I wave my hands wildly around me hoping it'll do ANYTHING to help this situation. "NO! Not what I meant. Outside! I like looking outside." There's no salvaging this situation. I can hear Ace laughing his ass off in the living room. This bastard! "No you don't" luffy says, pulling my hand away from his mouth. He takes a step back, away from my grasp. "Don't you like her?" Why this little gremlin!

  "No! No, of course not." I quickly turn to face y/n, "not that there's anything wrong with that. I do like you. I mean like a friend! Right, but iflateronweendeduotogetherthatwouldntbesobadeither..." I. CAN'T. STOP. TALKING.

  "..Ahahahah umm okay? I like you as a friend too?" She tilts her head. "What was that last part you said? I couldn't quite get that "it's like my body is trying to give me a heat stroke. I'm burning. "N-nothing! Nothing. Phew, is it hot in here? I'm gonna go turn the a.c. on." I grab Luffy's hand, hurding him to the small hallway, adjacent to the dining room.

   "Stop saying stuff like that" I whisper to him. "It's embarrassing." Luffy, completely bewildered, can't seem to wrap his head these words. "Why? Don't you like her? Was I wrong? You only wanna be friends?"

  "No. I mean yes. I like her, okay." I put both hands to my head, pulling at my hair. "And I wanna be more than friends, but she's gonna think I'm some kind of weido if she finds out I sometimes look at her through her balcony." Luffy laughes, to my dismay. "We'll it's a bit late for that." 

   "No, hopefully I can make her believe that I do just casually look outside. Just please stop talking about my crush on her." I give him a pleading look. "No, it's too late." Luffy points behind me, "she's right there." I turn around, abruptly. Shit.

   "I just wanted to tell you that it would probably be best I'd I left" y/n mutteres, her face completely red. She. Heard. EVERYTHING. My mouth is drawn into a taut line; my muscles feel stiff, my hands are clammy, and I can't seem to move from the shock of it all. It's almost like an out of body experience. I wish I could run away like my mind is doing. "You guys okay?" Luffy looks back and forth between the both of us. "Yes, everything's fine." My voice cracks at the end. "Let me walk you home y/n." I walk past her, robotically leading her towards the door.

  "I'm gonna take y/n home." I state outloud; not really noticing if they reach Ace or not. Opening the door, I let y/n pass though first. She walks to the stairs and all I seem to be able to do is look at the door closing behind me. The golden light diminishing into a crack until it's finally gone. I have to turn around now, but I can't. How can I bear to look at her right now? What do I say to her? Do I bring it up or does she just want to forget it?

   My heart sinks even further thinking about that last question. I could have stayed at the door all night panicking about what I had done; but she pulls me out of my anxiety induced hysteria. "Sabo?" Y/n calles out to me, barely above a whisper. I face her, half expecting her to tell me she could walk home alone. "Are you coming?" Her words hit me like a punch in the gut. Violent butterflies swarming inside me, excited about what's to come. Do I still have a shit? "Y-yes. Of course." My mouth pulls up into a smile. I can't make it stop and it'll probably creep her out; but the fact that I may still have a chance. I nearly trip down the stairs again with how much I'm overthinking it. Falling, again? I'd ruin my chances, being so clumsy.

   Walking side by side, y/n decides to start the conversation first. "So...." She looks up at the sky before staring straight ahead. She's nervous, like me, I hope it's for the same reason. "W-what I heard inside....was it true?" Her checks flair, refusing to spare a glance at me. Well, it's now or never. Taking a big breath I tell her how I feel about her. "Yes, I like you a lot." I stand in front of her on the steps to her apartment. I'm just as flushed as she is, but I need to know. "Y/n.... Do you like me?" Y/n stuteres a bit, unable to find the right words. My stomach tightens; taking the air out of my lungs. Please say yes. Y/n fiddles with the hem of her shirt. Please say yes. She looks up into my eyes; hers wide in panic? Embarrassment? Bashfulness? Please say yes. "I-I do...l-like you that is." She looks away, pushing some hair behind her ears. Her words are like electricity running through me. They send a shock all through me. I can't help myself, I'm just really happy, I throw my arms around her. The sudden embrace startles her, but she doesn't pull away. Slowly, she puts her hands around me; burying her face into my chest. I can feel her start to smile. It only makes mine grow wider. She likes me. Holy shit. She likes me.

[beccabubbels]

“My king” Sam x Mika/reader fluff

Authors note: this story was requested forever ago and It took me quite a while to get to it but i finally have time to finish it so here it is thank you @sofieshack for the inspiration I hope this is what you wanted P.s I am offal at spelling and grammar so you have been warned 

       also i own absolutely nothing besides the story line of this little fic ;)

      As I walk down the decedent halls of the castle i now reside in as my home. It is hard to believe just 3 years ago I was kidnapped and brought to this plain, right before my weeding infact. Those weeks of training were such a whirlwind the stratigizing, the training, the constant stress. It feels like only yesterday my father told me i would have to move into my late grandfathers estate . To see were I am now in comparison ...

        It is so insane i went from a shy 18 year old girl who had never been kissed to a demon queen ruling the abyssal plains with my amazing husband by my side. My Sam, my everything. When Diana past Sam took up throne to rule this realm he did not force me to stay but simply asked and who was I to refuse, The man I love the man i was engaged to was asking quite a lot but the love i have for him outweighed every cost.

       There were a few things Im still getting used to everything because I stayed in demon realm i went through a ancient ritual to turn myself into a demon queen but that is not the only thing i have needed to get used to... demons are a lot less influenced by shame accountable to the fact that they do not casually wear clothing  yeah that is a little awkward... still not used to that. Also still getting used to having horns one upside is that my horns in particular were curved downward not unlike my brother in law James horns are so i dont have to worry about doorframes like my poor sam dose often . 

       Oh my goodness I got lost in my thoughts I was supposed to be headed to the throne room to meet up with rabbit since we have been working on a few laws that will insure that animal demons are treated with proper respect. As i remember this fact I quickly scurry down the main corridor to get to the throne room 

         all the thoughts in my head are practically knocked out of my skull as i run directly into the figure in front of me. “Im so so so sorry i didn't mean to i just” the apology start to fly out of my mouth, keeping my head down and sputtering i am forced to think to myself maybe I am still a bit shy. “Thats not the queen I married get up y/n “ my eyes rise to see my spectacular demon husband in his full glory standing above me with a loving goofy grin that always seems to be on his face when it is just the two of us

          “you never have to apologize like that dofus you are a queen..my queen never feel like you have to hang your head in shame that was my love” his words were kind but you could here the slight tone that showed me he was being serious. he offers out his hand to me to help me up i took it gladly and rose to my feet. As our eyes meet calmness flooded my body “ you know sam after all of the time we spend together i will never get tired of that smile” 

         After the words leave my mouth Sams face turns bright red and he begins to studder” umm ohhh i guess thats fun hahah ohh fuck ummm” I saw no other way to stop his bloody stumbling besides 1 thing which is exactly what i did.  puling him into a kiss that  surly shocked him but in no time he melted into the embrace and so did I. Pulling away he simply stated that i should probably get to my business and i stated simply “ I agree compleatly agree but would you accompany me to the throne room my king” as he held out his arm i took it graciously and off we went back to our duty's but no matter what I was his and he was mine me his queen and him my king for all eternity

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4, 6, 7, 9, 10, 16, 19, 24, 25, 27, 28, 31, 34, 35, 37, 40, 42, 44, 50, 53, 58, 68, 70, 71, 75, 77, 80, 84, 92, 96

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4. Would you ever smile at a stranger?

well i am a white person™ so i do the white person smile™ every time i make eye contact with another person so 

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?

yes. 

7. What exactly are you wearing right now?

i’m wearing my lovely bryn mawr rugby shirt, some ripped jeans, and some beautiful designer eye bags. très chic!

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

i tragically don’t own any sweats and i wear jeans basically every day so you do the math ;) 

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2013?

you picked this one on purpose didn’t you? 

damn i hope so 2013 is gonna be my YEAR!!!!

16. Are you going out of town soon?

i’m gonna go home in a week if i don’t die from my finals first rip

19. If you could change your eye color, would you?

honestly? nah i love my eye color. there was a time when i would’ve said yes but i honestly really love them they’re my fave feature not to be narcissistic or anything

24. What are you sitting on right now?

a gross common room chair yuck and my ass has prob been on it for at least 24 collective hours by now. yay finals

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you?

yea you do! and my friends and i love you and them so much

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

im not sure? i went to bed really late and no one was up so im not sure???

28. Do you get a lot of colds?

i get at least one every winter rip 2 me

31. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room?

HA no i just mooch off other people

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

ooh damnnn idk!!! maybe my senior year of high school that was a tranwreck tbh

35. Did you have a dream last night?

yea actually i did! i had a dream that this person i’m friends with and i were gonna be roommates next year in rhoads and i honestly don’t remember much else hahah

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

5 years?!?!? omg no way i hope not 23 is so young!!!!

if i am tho i hope it’s a good marriage

40. Did you have a good day yesterday?

meh. i guess it was good even though i spent most of it writing my papers. again yay finals

42. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl?

probably! my friends and i are gonna study for poli sci together so yes i believe so!

44. What’s the best part about school?

the community!!!!! everyone’s so cute and friendly and the traditions are great and bring everyone together i love it, im not feeling like i fit in too much rn but i hope i do next year bc i really do love it

50. What are you supposed to be doing right now?

HA you caught me i’m currently putting off writing my conclusion for my poli sci paper oops y a y f i n a l s

53. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

haha yep. that’s basically how all my crushes start out tbh

58. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys?

girls definitely. i haven’t really been close with too many boys and honestly i’m just more comfortable with women in general 

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?

fortunately no except once my bikini top came off on a water ride thing at a water park but no one saw thank god

70. How do you look right now?

probably very exhausted and half dead

71. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around?

yeah! you and my close friends! it takes time for me to be comfortable w people but once i am i can always be myself around them

75. Did you wake up cranky?

not really just kinda lazy and stressed about having to finish my french paper (most of these answers are finals based im so sorry)

77. Are relationships ever worth it?

oh man of course you’d ask me this!! hahah ughh i don’t knowwwww. right now my mind is like noooo way but im sure they are w the one you’re supposed to be with. i just find them so stressful and unnecessary at this point in my life though. idk i guess they are

80. Name something you have to do tomorrow?

turn in my french and poli sci papers T_T

84. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?

listen….idc who it is even if it’s god himself i would be working on my damn paper (right after i finish this ask ;*)

92. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael?

not really anyone im close with but yes i know some michaels

96. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive?

uhhhh DUH of course she’s gorgeous!!!!!!!!!! her name’s addie i can give her ur number if u want i swear shes s t u n n i n g

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i was tagged by @cuddlyjongin literally like a year ago maybe?? found this in my drafts and i was like ok sounds like fun

1. LAST TEXT SENT: I texted my boss that i won’t be going on vacation with my family this summer hahah 2. LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: umm thats so hard but like yellow, grey and blue idk?? 3. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY: ten am i think 4.WHAT WERE YOU DOING LAST NIGHT AT MIDNIGHT: driving home after hanging out with friends :’’) 5. NAME SOMETHING YOU CANT WAIT FOR: hmmm i guess living alone and hopefully being able to work as a musician if that works out 6. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOTHER: about three hours ago when she came to my room to say goodnight aaaa luv u mum<33 7. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU CHANGE ABOUT YOUR LIFE: ooh thats tough, no idea tbh??? life is pretty good atm 8. WHATS GETTING ON YOUR NERVS RN: the slight headache im starting to get :((/(/ 9. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: ?¿?¿+? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 10. FAVORITE TV SHOW: oooh uh skam, oitnb, sense8 and steven universe were the first that came to mind 11. FIRST BEST FRIEND: hmmm probably Ami when we were like 10-12 i miss her :///( 12. LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: london grammar yass 13. 3 FEARS: the ocean, spiders and failure lmao 14. 4 TURN ON’S: cute butt, nice hair, cute laugh and being funny (this is all v generic but come on its tru) 15. 4 TURN OFF’S: being rude, disrespectful towards people, hateful towards people and mean to animals 16. SEXUAL ORIENTATION: g a y 17. MY SENIOR QUOTE IN MY YEARBOOK: that’s not a thing in sweden lol 18. FIRST THING I NOTICE IN A NEW PERSON: their smile maybe 19. SHOE SIZE: about 42 20. EYE COLOR: v dark brown 21. HAIR COLOR: (dark) blond 22. FAVORITE CLOTHING ITEM: hmmm maybe one of my soft sweaters 23. WHAT COLOR UNDERWEAR I’M WEARING RIGHT NOW: dark blue 24. ULTIMATE BIAS: 25. ULTIMATE BIAS GROUP: 26. FAVORITE SEASON: autumn i think 27. HOW MUCH TIME I SPENT ON DESIGNING MY BLOG PAGE: literally haven’t touched it in 2 years 28. THE REASON I JOINED TUMBLR: i think my friend showed me but i don't remember exactly 29. LAST BOOK I READ: currently reading “goodnight mister tom” it’s probably my favourite book (apart from hp) 30. DO I EVER GET “GOOD MORNING” OR “GOODNIGHT” TEXTS?: yes but we don’t actually say good morning lol 31. WHEN DID I LAST HOLD HANDS?: this morning mmm m<32 32. HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE ME TO GET READY IN THE MORNING?: like an hour?? 33. HAVE I SHAVED MY LEGS IN THE PAST 3 DAYS?: no lol 34. WHERE AM I RIGHT NOW?: my bed <3 35. DO I LIKE MUSIC LOUD OR LOW: not too loud but not actually low? 36. 3 THINGS I LOVE: music, my mum and dogs 37. HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW: tired and a lil stressed 

38. SOMETHING I REALLY, REALLY WANT: more cuddles  39. 3 THINGS THAT UPSET ME: people who are mean to animals, feeling like im not appreciated and when people don’t listen to what i have to say 40. WHAT I FIND ATTRACTIVE IN OTHER PEOPLE: woah too much to make a list, pretty eyes and lips i guess 41. 3 HABITS I HAVE: getting anxious over everything, drumming on my phone and biting my lips 42. SOMETHING I FANTASIZE ABOUT: life :) 43. MY OTPs: idk ?¿ 44. SOMETHING IM TALENTED AT: doing music™ 45. THE BLOG I GIVE MOST NOTES TO: no idea 46. THE LAST PERSON THAT RE-BLOGGED FROM ME: idek 47. DO I SMOKE/DRINK?: nah not really 48. MY FAVORITE FOOD: i just really love vegetables so stuff like stir fry, curries, ratatouille <33  49. MY FAVORITE DESSERT: ice cream??? or maybe cheesecake mm 50. WHAT I DID YESTERDAY: i did an application test/interview thingy for music school aaaaaa also hung out with friends and cuddled 51. NUMBER OF KIDS I WANT: one or two 52. NUMBER OF SIBLINGS I HAVE: one asshole brother 53. SOMETHING THATS CONSTANTLY ON MY MIND: school and music 54. LAST PERSON I MESSAGED ON TUMBLR: @singlemomsforfree​ 55. CAN I DRIVE: yeh love driving  56. WHAT STATE OR PART OF THE WORLD DO I LIVE IN: sweden 57. AM I IN SCHOOL?: for like 3 more weeks oanfoiadnfodf 58. DO I GET GROSSED OUT EASILY?: depends, kind of? 59. SOMEWHERE I WOULD LIKE TO VISIT FOR A WEEK: i d e k  i want to go to so many places 60. I’LL LOVE YOU IF…: you show me photos of ur pet!!!! 61. LAST SHOW I BINGE-WATCHED: umm stranger things maybe? i don’t binge that much 62. WHAT WORDS UPSET ME THE MOST: “öh” my brother’s way of communicating with me 63. WHAT WORDS MAKE ME FEEL THE BEST ABOUT MYSELF: no idea? 64. A WISH THAT I’VE WISHED FOR REPEATEDLY ON 11:11: i don’t really do that 65. WHO I WOULD SWITCH LIVES WITH FOR A DAY: umm idk a cat maybe 66. MY FAVORITE ICE CREAM: magnum strawberry white maybe??? do u have that outside of sweden 67. ALLERGIES: im sensitive to kiwi and pineapple 68. SEXIEST PERSON TO COME TO YOUR MIND IMMEDIATELY: um idk 69. MY CHILDHOOD CARRER CHOICE: musician i think??? 70. ONE OF MY INSECURITIES: my voice 71. HOW MANY BLOGS AM I FOLLOWING: like 350 i think 72. HOW MANY TABS/DIFFERENT WINDOWS ATM: three 73. COKE OR PEPSI: neither tbh but coke if i had to choose 74. TEA OR COFFEE: tea <3 75. MOVIE OR BOOK: i love books so much ok 76. A SENSE I WOULD BE WILLING TO LOSE: i immediately thought between hearing and vision but smell feels like the least devastating lol 77. QUOTE I LIVE BY: idek 78. TYPE OF ACCESSORIES I WEAR THE MOST: i wear a belt every day lol 79. LAST AWKWARD SITUATION I FOUND MYSELF IN: i walked into the same guys twice in the grocery store yesterday 80. WHAT TIME IS IT RIGHT NOW: 01:16 fuck i need to sleep 81. A SONG THAT’S MADE ME CRY: save myself i love that song so much 82: FIRST SONG I EVER SANG AT KARAOKE: no clue

im tagging @singlemomsforfree and @adeliciousdonut !!!!

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The Ultimate Relationship Tag

Send ‘✩’ for the following:

Under the cut because it’s long as hell

Disagreements:

Who is more likely to raise their voice? Jason, though Tim is certainly close behind himWho threatens to leave but never actually does? Probably Tim tbh, I feel like Jason would be too scared to actually threaten that. He would just be like ‘lmao im a piece of shit why you with me?’Who actually keeps their word and leaves?TimWho trashes the house? Tim, he’s such a messy person but claims that he ‘knows where everything is’Do either of them get physical? Jason probably has without really thinking about itHow often do they argue/disagree? Fairly oftenWho is the first to apologise? Both are pretty good about that unless its a bad fight then I feel like Tim would

Sex:

Who is on top? Usually Jason but Tim likes to spice it up now and againWho is on the bottom? Usually TimWho has the strangest desires? I feel like Tim has asked Jason to do some weird thingsAny kinks? BDSM probablyWho’s dominant in bed? JasonIs head ever in the equation? Of courseIf so, who is better at performing it? JasonEver had sex in public? YesWho moans the most? TimWho leaves the most marks? Both mark eachother up so muchWho screams the loudest? T I MWho is the more experienced of the two? JasonDo they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’? Both, fucking is more likely thoughRough or soft? Rough but soft does happen on occasionHow long do they usually last? From foreplay to coming is probably like an hour or so maybe longer or shorter depending on the circumstancesIs protection used? Tim prefers to because he hates the feeling of cum but it’s not always used esp if its really spontaneousDoes it ever get boring? No, they keep it interestingWhere is the strangest place they’d have sex? Wayne Enterprises roof

Family:

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children? I think they’d be too scared to have children and bring kids into their life styleIf so, how many children do your muses want/have? If they did, probably just oneWho is the favorite parent? Jason is probablyWho is the authoritative parent? TimWho is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? Tim, Jason thinks school is very importantWho lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around? Both without the other knowing lmaoWho turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children? Both of themWho goes to parent teacher interviews? BothWho changes the diapers? Tim hates doing it and makes Jason do itWho gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby? In turn, Jason makes Tim do this (plus Tim is usually awake anyways)Who spends the most time with the children? Both spend as much time as they can esp Tim because he doesn’t want his kid(s) to grow up without the connection like he didWho packs their lunch boxes? Jason tries, Tim micromanagesWho gives their children ‘the talk’? TimWho cleans up after the kids? JasonWho worries the most? B O T HWho are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from? Jason

Affection:

Who likes to cuddle? BothWho is the little spoon? It switches but Tim likes to be the big spoonWho gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places? They’ve both bad for thatWho struggles to keep their hands to themselves? JasonHow long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable? Till an arm falls asleep or necks start cramping even then, they don’t always say anythingWho gives the most kisses? Jason is suuper affectionateWhat is their favourite non-sexual activity? Watching tv together or readingWhere is their favourite place to cuddle? In bed or on the couchWho is more likely to playfully grope the other? TimHow often do they get time to themselves? Fairly often, esp because work schedules don’t always match up

Sleeping:

Who snores? Tim but if you ask him, he denies itIf both do, who snores the loudest? Tim but he doesn’t snore very loudlyDo they share a bed or sleep separately? ShareIf they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart? Starts up close together then drifts apartWho talks in their sleep? JasonWhat do they wear to bed? Underwear or nothingAre either of your muses insomniacs? Both of themCan sleeping pills be found by the bedside? Tim has a prescription but he doesn’t take them oftenDo they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side? Pretzel it up bitchesWho wakes up with bed hair? BothWho wakes up first? Jason, Tim sleeps in so long if you let himWho prepares breakfast in bed for the other? Tim can’t cook well so JasonWhat is their favourite sleeping position? Tim likes to curl himself around Jason or when hes cold he likes to curl up into Jason’s sideWho hogs the sheets? JasonDo they set an alarm each night? NoCan a television be found in their bedroom? YesWho has nightmares? BothWho has ridiculous dreams? TimWho sprawls out and takes up most of the bed? JasonWho makes the bed? JasonWhat time is bed time? Past midnight is the only consistent thing Any routines/rituals before bed? Good night head kissesWho’s the grumpiest when they wake up? Tim dear god, he’s not even grumpy, he’s just a fucking mess

Work:

Who is the busiest? Both, Tim is a workaholic thoughWho rakes in the highest income? JasonAre any of your muses unemployed? NoWho takes the most sick days? Both are the kind to work even while sickWho is more likely to turn up late to work? Jason to piss of BatmanWho sucks up to their boss? TimWhat are their jobs? VigilantesWho stresses the most? BothDo your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations? It has its pros and consAre your muses financially stable? Yes

Home:

Who does the washing? TimWho takes out the trash? JasonWho does the ironing? JasonWho does the cooking? JasonWho is more likely to burn the house down just trying? TimWho is messier? TimWho leaves the toilet roll empty? NeitherWho leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? TimWho forgets to flush the toilet? NeitherWho is the prankster around the house? JasonWho loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? TimWho mows the lawn? They don’t have a lawnWho answers the telephone? TimWho does the vacuuming? JasonWho does the groceries? JasonWho takes the longest to shower? TimWho spends the most time in the bathroom? Both

Miscellaneous:

Is money a problem? NoHow many cars do they own? One car and they both have motorcyclesDo they own their home or do they rent? OwnDo they live near the coast or deep in the countryside? CoastDo they live in the city or in the country? CityDo they enjoy their surroundings? YesWhat’s their song? Creep (that reminds me of them but tbh them dancing and signing to Danger Zone by Kenny Loggins)What do they do when they’re away from each other? Work and worryWhere did they first meet? Somewhere in GothamHow did they first meet? Jason tired to kill TimWho spends the most money when out shopping? BothWho’s more likely to flash their assets? TimWho finds it amusing when the other trips over? BothAny mental issues? HAHAHWho’s terrified of bugs? NeitherWho kills the spiders around the house? BothTheir favourite place? A small restaurant down the street from their placeWho pays the bills? BothDo they have any fears for their future? A lot and they all have to do with deathWho’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? TimWho uses up all of the hot water? TimWho’s the tallest? JasonWho’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other? JasonWho wanders around in their underwear? TimWho sings the loudest when singing along to the radio? J A S O NWhat do they tease each other about? Jason teases Tim about his height and Tim teases Jason about is helmet tbhWho is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times? Tim @ Jason tbhDo they have mutual friends? Sort of?Who crushed first? TImAny alcohol or substance related problems? HAHAWho is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am? JasonWho swears the most? Jason

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1-50

u trying to kill me ma man. ill just leave out the ones i already answered k

1. Who was the last person you held hands with?

i honestly dont know…i never hold hands

2. Are you outgoing or shy?

shy with strangers, outgoing w my friends

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?

my friend rosalynn who i met on here and has turned out to be one of my best friends, who has been dealt a bad deal of cards and also @ice-kookie because she is a saint 

4. Are you easy to get along with?

i hope so

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

i dont drink and i dont plan to so…

6. What kind of people are you attracted to?

fuck fuck fuck dont make me go into this…

someone who is nice to their friends and doesn’t treat them like shit, considerate and knows how to flirt hella well, gets good grades and actually cares about their future, doesn’t smoke, drink, or do drugs (i joke but that is nasty as fuck sorry if u smoke and ur offended soz man its my opinion and i practically choke whenever i pass by someone smoking oop), messy hair but NOT greasy u know what i mean, morning voices, why are shirts a thing???, 

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

i hope so but no

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

this guy in my history class i need to get over him that little shit

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

my friend ashleigh

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“goodnight” lmao im so typical

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

changes on the daily but (not in order)

caroline- aminé

dive- salvatore ganacci

oui- jeremih

sweet child o’ mine- guns and roses

money for nothing- dire straits, sting

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?

only if theyre attractive r my best friend and they dont mess it up too much

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?

hell yeah

15. What good thing happened this summer?

a lot of good things i cant pick :)

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

fuck no

17. Do you think there is life on other planets?

we cant really be that self-centered to think they is no one but us in the world

19. Do you like bubble baths?

bring on the bubbles i say

20. Do you like your neighbors?

dont really know them…they are interesting i guess

22. Where would you like to travel?

everywhere!!!! i really want to go to the bahamas, bora bora, uganda, austria, argentina, el salvador, japan, canada, spain, etc.

i have been to ireland, england, italy, france, germany, mexico, ecuador, australia (just got back a few days ago!!!), cayman islands, galapagos island :)

23. Do you have trust issues?

is that even a question

24. Favorite part of your daily routine?

going to bed hA

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

my boobs tbh literally theyre so small whenever i wear a bathing suit it just doesnt fit right jiniew

26. What do you do when you wake up?

go back to bed HAHAHHA

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

wish i was a little tanner but im good

28. Who are you most comfortable around?

my friend ash and rosalynn

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

nope

30. Do you ever want to get married?

yes :) i want a big white wedding

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

my hair is soooooo long its insane

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with?

no

33. Spell your name with your chin.

sikderfrfzzza = sierra

34. Do you play sports? What sports?

horseback riding, skiing, basketball, volleyball, track and field, etc i love sports man. is scuba diving a sport?? bc

35. Would you rather live without TV or music?

tv. i could not live without music 

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

HAHAH STORY OF MY FUCKING LIFE

37. What do you say during awkward silences?

i just tap my fingers tbh unless its my friend then i do something embarrassing because why not

38. Describe your dream girl/guy?

plays volleyball and runs track, is sweet with words, considerate, loyal, doesnt have to be popular but confident, knows what they want to do with their life, cares about their grades, doesnt do drugs, smoke, drink, whatever, knows how to party, respects my morals…okay lets get into the good stuff hehhee….pleasant to see without a shirt ;), great kisser, knows how to treat me, can afford my expensive sport- horseback riding, horses are expensive as shit-, has hair i can run my fingers through, fuck i love people just give me someone

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?

brandy melville, topshop, BP in nordstrom, express, target!!!

40. What do you want to do after high school?

it changes everyday tbhhhh.

i want to a large animal veterinary surgeon, plastic surgeon, dermatologist who specializes in cosmetic surgery, physical therapist, I DONT KNOW THSI SI TOO STRESSFUL

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

it depends on the situation tbh

42. If you’re being extremely quiet what does it mean?

im super nervous and dont know what to say…thats what it means… or i like you… or i hate you

43. Do you smile at strangers?

of course

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?

ive been to bottom of the ocean many times so outer space hehe

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

my mom yelling at me :)

46. What are you paranoid about?

the question should be what am i NOT paranoid about

47. Have you ever been high?

no

48. Have you ever been drunk?

no

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

not really im p good

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?

pink

ill post the rest tomorrow im so tired

ask away

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IM LATE TO THE PARTY: ♛ fill in the blanks | fluff otp edition for norick and trace xo

Have I told you that you’re the absolute best because you are. Here you go, below the cut –

NORICK:

Who’s more likely to find who wearing their clothes?: Nick definitely finds Norah wearing his shirts.Who initiates hand holding?: Norah, but I feel like once they’re actually together, then the both do.Who likes having their hair washed by who?: Norah likes when Nick washes her hair.Who likes to slow dance?: Ooh, this is a tough one. Probably both, again once they’re together.Muse that’s more likely to fall asleep with their head in the others lap?: NorahMuse that does all the cuddling in a blanket fort?: Both.Who hogs most of the covers at night?: I wanna say NorahMuse who nuzzles the others shoulder to get them to give them a head rub?: Hmmm, I don’t think Nick would do this so Norah?How do they share a dessert? Two forks or one?: Depends on the dessert. Usually, they have their own utensil.Who gets jealous more easily?: Hahah, NorahWho gets angered more easily?: Again, NorahHow do they go to sleep at night?: Nick doesn’t get a ton of sleep so they don’t go to bed together every night. Or if they do Nick waits until she’s sleeping before getting up and doing some work. Who gets the most shoulder rubs?: I feel like Norah would ask for them more and Nick would give them to her.What are their arguments/fights like? How often do they fight?: They used to fight all the time, mostly just comments that get under the other’s skin. Sometimes they are yelling. I feel like once they’re together they will work on not fighting so much.Who is more likely to throw things in fights?: Neither. At least not with the other one present.How do they make it up to each other/apologize after an argument?: Again it depends on the fight, if someone stormed off and what not. Both are stubborn and don’t really apologize so when they do it’s difficult for them. Do they have nicknames for each other?: Norah calls Nicholas, Nicky.Caring for each other while ill, how does the other muse go about it?: Nick would definitely make Norah’s favorite foods, or foods that will help her get better faster. He’d make sure she rests. Norah would try her best to get him to rest but he’s a workaholic.Who’s more likely to be patching the others wound?: Both would do this if the other was hurt.Muse that says ‘I told you so’, after they come home from the beach and other muse is burnt to a crisp while whining how bad it hurts for not listening and putting on sunblock after the other muse repeatedly told them they’d get burnt?: Nick lol.Your otp has a newborn baby, who gets up in the middle of the night when he/she cries?: They take turns, but since Nick rarely sleeps anyway, he probably does a lot of the night time care.Your muse’s of the otp reaction to finding the others crying about something? And how do they make them feel better?: Nick would immidiately be concerned and figure out whats wrong and do anything to make her feel better. I don’t think Nick would cry in front of Norah.What would they be like as parents?: Nick would try to be like his parents but make sure the kid follows their own path. Norah I think might be freaking out a lot, especially if it’s kid numero uno. Both would support their child though, and do whatever it takes to make them happy.What would they have been like as childhood sweethearts?: They kind of were??? But it was forced and when they found out they were supposed to marry things went to shit. Their good friendship turned into loathing. If it had happened naturally they’d be way happier. They’d be sweet together.Who initiates taking a bath together?: Both, If one knows the other had a long day or is stressing about something, they’d probably try to get them into the bath to take a break and relax.Who likes who playing with their hair?: Nick secretly likes it when Norah plays with his hair.The place they most likely accidentally fall asleep together?: The couch.

TRACE:

Who’s more likely to find who wearing their clothes?: Grace would wearing some of Trevor’s clothes, especially if he left a shirt with her or something at college.Who initiates hand holding?: Grace wouldWho likes having their hair washed by who?: Grace likes when Trevor washes her hair.Who likes to slow dance?: I feel like this is Grace again.Muse that’s more likely to fall asleep with their head in the others lap?: Trevor would fall asleep with their head in Grace’s lap.Muse that does all the cuddling in a blanket fort?: Grace.Who hogs most of the covers at night?: lol probably Grace...Muse who nuzzles the other's shoulder to get them to give them a head rub?: Trevor might, Grace wouldn’t.How do they share a dessert? Two forks or one?: Two if they know their sharing, one if the other decides they want some of the dessert.Who gets jealous more easily?: TrevorWho gets angered more easily?: TrevorHow do they go to sleep at night?: While Grace is at college I imagine they skype when they go to bed or at least text each other until falling asleep.Who gets the most shoulder rubs?: I think this is pretty equal.What are there arguments/fights like? How often do they fight?: They are sarcastic with each other, but can tend to snap at each other too. They know how to get under each other’s skin. Who is more likely to throw things in fights?: Trevor would, but never at Grace.How do they make it up to each other/apologize after an argument?: It takes a lot for Trevor to admit he’s sorry. Grace comes to terms that she’s wrong more easily and will apologize pretty easily too. Do they have nicknames for each other?: Trevor calls her Golden Girl, which she won’t admit she’s gotten used to.Caring for each other while ill, how does the other muse go about it?: Grace goes into full on nurse mode. Trevor does too, having taken care of his aunt for so long he would know how to take care of Grace.Who’s more likely to be patching the others wound?: Both. Trevor already patched Grace up once.Muse that says ‘I told you so’, after they come home from the beach and other muse is burnt to a crisp while whining how bad it hurts for not listening and putting on sunblock after the other muse repeatedly told them they’d get burnt?: Grace, but also Trevor. They both take any opportunity to say ‘I told you so.’Your otp has a newborn baby, who gets up in the middle of the night when he/she cries?: Grace sleeps like a rock, Trevor would probably be the first one to wake up and take care of the baby.Your muse’s of the otp reaction to finding the others crying about something? And how do they make them feel better?: Trevor would be ready to fight whoever made her cry. Grace would try to cheer him up with kind words and baked goods.What would they be like as parents?: Trevor would be a fantastic dad, though I’m sure he’d be terrified as hell. Grace has strong motherly instincts, she’d be a good mom.What would they have been like as childhood sweethearts?: They’d be opposites attract. Unlikely friends that grew really close until falling for each other.Who initiates taking a bath together?: Trevor probably, especially in the early stages of their relationship. Grace is too innocent.Who likes who playing with their hair?: Grace likes it when Trevor plays with her hair. The place they most likely accidentally fall asleep together?: Maybe the car, if they go stargazing. But if they’re at home, the living room.

[poppoppopprophet-blog]

19th december 2016

Okay Okay Okay Uhm First things first, (I'm the realest) I'm fucking nervous for this new therapy thingie I'm go Freedom, I don't feel that. Imagination, I do have that. And I can imagine what Freedom feels like. Like.. Uhm Like stepping out the door and it's really cold out and you're still comfortable from the warmth inside and you're wearing warm clothes and you don't know where you're going and the light outside is bright and you bite for that first heap of air. That first breath. That's what I imagine Freedom feels like. That's what I know Freedom feels like. Problem is tho. It's not a constant. Far from it. For almost constantly I feel pressed. Stressed. Afraid even. I mean, fucking laugh all you want, but I'm genuinely scared for a third World War to break out. And I ain't fighting for a country that I don't feel a part of. I'm not fighting for borders I don't believe in. I'm not fighting for a system that's not built for me. I'm not fighting to protect the generations above me that are fucking me over. I'm not gonna protect a people or a country or a system that has never picked up responsibility. Fuck that. And fuck you. I would fight tho. Not for you. For me. For my generation. I'm afraid I'm able to pick up arms to fight the ones that never claimed responsibility. I'm able to terrorize. My generation is capable of terrorism. HOW IN THE NAME OF FUCK DO YOU SPREAD IDEOLOGY WITHOUT IT LEADING TO VIOLENCE?! There's Extremist Buddhists right now! Are you reading this?! Extremist, violent, killing, terrorizing, FUCKING BUDDHISTS?! what the fuck (I luv buddhism 😭) (I luv marxism 😭) (If I was born two hundres years ago I would have luved kapitalism) Okay Okay Okay Gaaaaaaawd Let's talk, shut up Ghiel. Let me write about this upcoming third year exhibit. I figured I was done for that. Or well, that I had my concept ready, and that's like half the work. But! Talking with Juf yesterday and talking with my new psychologist fucked this up. See, my idea was to present my readymades; Britney (2007), Kim K (2016), Nicolas Bourriad on fb and Marina and Ulay on Tumblr. Now, I had the intention of showing this in an art context to see what would happen, how people would respond, what they would think and learn. Basically it being an extension of the research that I'm already doing while finding these readymades. And so, I wanted to talk to all of the viewers and visitors and hear them out. But I cant be everywhere! So insert: Doubles! Dopplegangers, lookalikes. I've been wanting to work with doubles for quite some time now. Ever since I was starting to work with fashion. Seemed like a lot of fun! Hahah and it clearly makes a statement on fame and the artist myth and the artist's created persone. Lyfe as a form of art! Persona as a work of art! And then I envisioned my Doubles to have my readymades on their laptop/iPhone/iPad. And then what? Will they approach every visitor? Will they walk around the exhibit? Will they have to stay in the exhibit? Do they have to stay in one place? Should they wait for visitors to address them? I DONT KNOWWWW OKAY so juf warned me that all these layers could get in the way of eachother. And then my psychologist today was talking about communication and how multiple layers of communication get in the way of eachother and are confusinf. I don't want this to happen. I think. The thing also is that I'm not working with one statement here. I'm uhm.. it's research. And that's what's fucking me up right now. I cannot implement clear communication into this exhibit if I don't have anything to communicate. What the fuck should I do? The commision wants the application in two days and I don't have a clear ideea to start working with. Fuuuuuuuuyyyyyycj Maybe doing research isn't a bad thing. It could be super interesting. I was also thinking that I don't have to be in this exhibition. If I think about 'the greater whole' I would much rather be in your phone, in your pocket forever than in your face for about a minute. Fuuuuuyyyck im soooo lossssst This fucking pressure. Goddamn I could also Have the readymades hung up on the walls. Neat. Nice. Empowering. Monumental. And now, it's a one night exhibit. So everybody wants to talk to the artist, right? Insert doubles. Fuck! No! The doubles lose all their function. Do they? It's still a statement on the artist's created persona. God, I'm so lost. I hate everything coming out of my brain right now. I just wanna make music, fam. First things first. Jezus Zo de weg kwijt Okay Okay Okay Let's see Chapters? Ja sure let's do this Chapterssss... Uhm.. Omggg Daily Wisdom? Philosophy? UTOPIA icons, iconoclasm? The way every human being comes to fruition? Is there a word for that? My god, I feel like these chapters are gonna change every single day. Whats the point of this? WHATS THE POINT TO LYFE? Ah, existentialism is another one I think. Do I have too many already? Looooooost (boys) I feel like these chapters are intertwining. Wait, that's allright, right? Like Fuck Idk Cos Me now starting with music is mostly Daily Philosophy, but also a part Iconoclasm and icons Yes those two go together! What the fuck! 2k16's so weird! I have to prevent WW3 I don't feel like I will ever be an essayist like they're supposed to be. Jesus I'm all over the place Fuck conservatists Fuck patriarchy Fuck sexism Fuck you I'm so energetic and soooo tired at the same time I got this hyperfocus going on but it's going eeeeeverywhere How to spread ideology (without violence) is a chapter i think Let's see What do I have so far? Everyday Philosophy Utopia Iconoclasm Human being to Fruition Existentialism (Idiot, that's equal to the first one) Spreading Ideology (on your bread!) Okay Let's put them in order of what's chronologically kinda possible slash logical hahahaa fuck me Everyday (i dont like that word) Philosophy Ordinary? Daily? Common? Idk? Iconoclasm Daily Philosophy Human being to Fruition Spreading Ideology UTOPIA I feel like there is so many joints and bridges that these topics turn into a fucking paste in my head. And I feel like anyone can see that and that makes me feel dumb. Are these all the chapters? Who knows? You don't even know, Ghiel. I want a blog. For all my diaries and thoughts and sources. And i wanna start on my youtube channel. I tried changing my age on facebook. I couldnt? Huuuah? Daily Philosophy is the means, no the medium to handle EXISTENTIALISM thats the chapter. Lets see Where the fuck am I in these chapters? EQUALITY: iconoclasm EXISTENTIALISM: daily philosophy EQUALITY AGAIN?: Human being to fruition UTOPIA: Spreading ideology Utopia Equality+existentialism=utopia? Again EQUALITY EXISTENTIALISM UTOPIA Betekenisvolle naïviteit That's what I have to grasp. Meaningful naivity. Giving meaning to your lyfe in order to survyve. Okay God I'm so tired now. EXISTENTIALISM is the chapter I'm in right now. My works; Destruction Is Followed By Growth, Kijker=Kunst and (You're) Welcome, Not Welcome all dealt with ICONOCLASM. ICONOCLASM to me is fucking up authority, power, expectations and elitism. In my personal lyfe I resist against authority. I don't feel like anyone deserves it. In the bigger picture it's resisting against, well, in the forenamed cases: the zeitgeist, the pedestal and, yes, the police hahaha. Kijker=Kunst dealt with EXISTENTIALISM as well (and even utopia) and well, see, uhm.. Once you (I) dealt with Iconoclasm, you're on your own. You are by yourself. You are selfreliant. (Jesus fuck, terrorist attack in Berlin? Fuuuuck) I am on my own. What will I do today? Tomorrow? For the rest of my life? My friend Joost said the legendary words: 'Giving meaning to your lyfe is a way of survyval.' For without it, you will kill yourself. (Omg did he just say that?) Ja, the case is I neeeed existentialism, I neeeeeed a reason, I neeeeed a meaning. Therefor you, yes YOU need this too. See, this, our time is post-theosomething.. There's no religion. There's noone giving you meaning and without it you are in danger. Jesus, this sounds dramatic. I can't focus anymore. Imma pee. Basically, I wanna save the world hahahah save every fucking human Or well, I care for people. I really do. And I consider the globally ignoring and not knowinf of wishes and initiatives is one of the greatest problems facing us. And I see an outcome or a solution in existentialist philosophy. Problem with this is that philosophy is packed in thick books that barely anyone ever gets to reading and truly understanding. So I feel I should take this knowledge I've taken and developed and pour it in a shape that's accesible. And above all: fun. Yes, it has to be fun. If it doesn't have entertainment value it will only be interesting to a certain few and like I said: I care for all people. So I will do my best to reach as many as possible. Without compromising. So right now I will build, create, shape an album. A music album. To reach people with abstract knowledge packed in words in a form that is entertaining and accesible and is from all media that I know most likely to be repeated the most.

[beeblugbug]

A Story (Chapter 1)

Author’s note: I’m not a writer, I’m not born to write. English is not my first language but I’m comfortable using it although i’m not good at it. This story is a mixture of recent dramas I watch and my fantasies. I just want to write it and read it for myself later (when i’m older and wiser) as a keepsake of my lonely youth. BTW i wanted to write an R18 story but i can’t vividly describe r18 stuffs so i give up. maybe. 

She rubs her eyes as faint sunlight touches her face. She realizes she is not alone. She’s lying beside a guy she just met last night. They are in an unfamiliar room that looks like a room from a low class motel. She pulled the bed sheets to cover her naked body. Her heart is throbbing, she’s sweating and feeling scared. She checked the clock. It’s 7 o’clock in the morning. She is bound to death when she goes home. She doesn’t have an excuse. She gathered herself altogether and began to pick up her things with a blanket wrapped around her body. She checked the guy she slept with and he is still sleeping soundly as if he’s sleeping in his own room. She changed into her clothes and checked every corner of the room in case she left something. While looking at the guy she slept with, she walk through the door cautiously and made her exit. She was still nervous. Memories of last night began flashing into her mind. She’s embarrassed and hating herself. She grabbed a taxi and went straight home.

She bit her fingernails and grabbed the door keys. She opened the door as quiet as she can. She felt relieved that no one have woken up yet. It’s 8:20, she began to change into comfortable clothes. She heard from the outside that someone have woken up and is now walking to her room. She hurriedly lied down and pretends to sleep. It’s her mother.

“Elysse are you awake?”

 Elysse’s mother woke her up and asked what time she went home. She lied and said she went home at 3:27 am. She made it odd to make it believable. Her mom just told her to sleep more. Her mom gets her laundry and walked out of the room then she fell asleep.

The man in the hotel scratch his head as he woke up. He suddenly get up in awe that the girl he slept with last night is gone. He checked his wallet and phone first in case the girl stole something. Fortunately, his things are all complete. He changed into his clothes and walked out of the motel room like nothing happened. He’s an expert. He slept with numerous girls before, but he’s worried of thievery and getting STD. He was sure the girl won’t have STD because she’s a virgin. He get his car and drove to his dorm. He’s a 3rd year College student. He practically lives in a dorm and never comes home even in vacation. His family is well-off but they don’t have good relationship. He showered as soon as he got home. 

2 weeks later

Elysse’s packed her things. She’s moving into a dormitory. She’s a freshman college student. She’s older than any freshman because she stopped for two years after she finished high school. Her mom bid her farewell and her dad took her to the dormitory. It’s 7 hours ride from their home (including the traffic). Her dad accompanied her to her room and helped her unpack her stuffs. 

“Elysse, you better study well and don’t go in late. There’s strict curfew now, so always check the time”

“yes, dad”

She kissed her dad and said good bye.

Elysse doesn’t have a room mate. It’s a high class dorm so each dormers have room of their own with own bathroom. Each room is small but big enough for someone living on their own. They have a common dining area, laundry area and a lobby for guests. Only relatives are allowed in the dormitory. It’s a coed dormitory with guys living at the right side rooms and girls at the left side rooms. All rooms are airconditioned and has a big window overlooking the campus. 

She decorated her room to her liking and setup her study table.

She logged into facebook to check messages. Her mom and sister messaged her and told her to stay safe. She send picture of her room to her mother and sister. She browse facebook and saw posts of her high school classmates. She began to tear up not because she misses her high school classmates but because she felt lonely. Everybody seems to get along with each other well. 

Elysse doesn’t have anyone she can call friends.

They’re classmates, groupmates, schoolmates, neighbors but never friends.

She’s a loner and doesn’t converse well with others.

She quite and can’t stand to be in big groups of people.

She’s the worst type of introvert

Elysse loves to read books most. Her genre’s are random (according to her mood) but most of the time she reads romance and psychology.

Her school will start in 2 days. She went to her dorm early to get used to it. She have troubles sleeping in new places.

While reading her book, she remembered her first night with a guy…

(1 month ago)

She’s anxious going to college. She heard many or most college students goes to parties to relieve stress. Elysse can’t stand the crowd but she want to change her college life, far different from her lonely highschool life. She searched online what clubs college students go most. She decided to try going to one. She also consulted online what clothes to wear and make up. She told her parents she’s going to a friends birthday party. They were happy (since she rarely have this kind of event) and permitted her to go home late but don’t spend the night. She thanked her parent and began to prepare. She leave their home at 7 o’clock in the evening. The club was so loud as she expected. She’s alone and began to feel anxious. She sat on a free seat when suddenly a man approached her.

“are you alone?”

“ah.. yes..”

“Hmm relieving stress?”

“..yeah, kind of”

“why don’t you join our group?”

Elysse followed the guy. His group look like students of her age, consists of 3 girls and 4 guys. They were very friendly but Elysse can’t get into their conversation since it was about their lives (which she isn’t included to). They played never have a ever game.

“never had a boyfriend/girlfriend”

all laughed

“comeon guys we’re not kids“

“it’s just a tryout question hahah”

they were surprised when Elysse shot a glass

“you really.. didn’t have a boyfriend?”

“not even a fling?”

Elysse shyly said yes. The grouped laughed in disbelief. 

“it’s okay, you’ll find one”

said a guy while he wrapped his hand around Elysse waist.

“hey, don’t even dare. Elysse don’t give him your number. That guy’s a player”

Elysse just nods and the game continued.

She made an eye contact with the guy in front of her. He’s not the one who invited her to the group, neither the one who held her waist. He’s the guy who caught her attention from the start. He is handsome. Maybe the most handsome guy Elysse have ever met in her life. He’s silent and doesn’t laugh much as others. He oftenly whispers to the girl next to him. Elysse assumed they’re in a relationship.

They’re eyes locked for a second but Elysse hurriedly look in another direction. Her heart is breathing fast and her breath feels warm. She’s having a crush on a guy he just met. 

As the game progress, Elysse have taken alcohol beyond her limit. She began to feel drowsy. The man beside her whispered to her

“do you want to go out?”

She shook her head and insist she will continue the game. The girl beside her told her she should go home. In Elysse mind, she wants to know the guy’s name in front of her. She looked at him with her half asleep eyes. Unlike earlier, she didn’t bulge when their eyes met. She smiled like a moron

“ohh, look like this girl is interested with our Shin”

“You better not dare Shin”

“I don’t know”

Shin smiled.

They ended their game because most are drunk. Elysse passed out since round 1. Nobody tried to take her home because they don’t know her home and she’s not waking up. Shin is still wide awake and a sober. He haven’t drink much. He pretty much done everything. 

Elysse opened her eyes. Other’s were dancing crazy on stage. Others are sleeping like her. Shin is just sitting staring at her with a glass of beer on his hand. She sober up. Her heart beats crazily when she realizes Shin was looking at her. She felt hot with his gaze alone. She crazily asked Shin to go out and grab a coffee at the nearby coffee shop. She is expecting to be turned down but Shin stood up and asked her where they should get their coffee.

Elysse thought they should be getting coffee for everyone but Shin told her the club doesn’t allow outside food and drinks. They went into a nearby coffee shop and talked for a while.

“You really didn’t have a boyfriend?”

“no..”

“Are you a minor ?”

“no”

“you must be a nerd?”

“no.. im.. i just”

“You don’t need to explain haha”

Her heart stopped beating for a bit with Shin’s short laughter. Their coffee was ready. There was an awkward tension between them. They have nothing to talk about. Elysse tried to break the ice asking if Shin if he has a girlfriend. Shin said, at the moment he doesn’t. Elysse said she thought Shin has a relationship with the girl beside him.

“You really didn’t have a boyfriend haha”

They’re conversation began. Shin talked about how relationships are like and such body contact doesn’t mean they are into a relationship. He taught Elysse how to differentiate those who are in a relationship and flings and those who are just touchy. Then asked Elysse who she thinks in the group are in a relationship. She answered correctly in her 2nd try. They laughed and looks like their conversation will be long.

Their conversation touches relationships and sex but they talked without malice. Elysse felt like she was learning a lot about life. Shin is really good with his words. He gave advises which as really true and useful. Elysse felt comfortable with Shin. She felt he’s a good man.

Their topic suddenly went to playboys. Shin told Elysse what kind of guy she should avoid if she wants serious relationships. 

“What about you?”

asked Elysse

“Are you the kind of guy for serious relationships?”

“are you even listening?.. What do you think?”

“ My first impression? Hmm I find you attractive and all but I thought you’re a playboy but now I’ve talked with you.. I think you’re someone that can be trusted”

“I taught you a lot today.. Do you think so?”

“why are you always giving back question when I ask something about you?” It was a rhetorical question but Shin replied in spite

“You want to try?”

“What?”

Elysse knew what Shin was asking about. She knew but despite of that she was feeling adventurous and wanted to try something she never done. She’s still half drunk and maybe the alcohol is the one making her daring

She just followed shin outside and they went into a motel nearby. Elysse hesitated as they entered the motel. Shin looked at her

“are you sure?”

She continued walking and Shin just smiled. They had their first night. It was Elysse first time so Shin only lead her. Shin was gentle to her. She was scared at first but Shin was really gentle that she felt safe. She just go all the way and didn’t care what her next day will be. She’s feeling daring for the first time and she’s making the biggest mistake she ever did all her life. She doesn’t think about anything else. She’s stressed, depressed with her current life situation. She wanted to do something out of her character.. The alcohol still has influence on her. 

Shin began to kiss her. They make out and slowly undress themselves…and that’s how their night began..

[sc87confessions]

Here We Go

You were bustin your ass at the gym in order to relieve stress. You'd go with or without the guys. It had been about a week since Sidney had kissed you, he had texted you apologizin but you never replied. Tyler kept tellin you to drop it about the fight and to give Sidney a chance. You had been at the gym for a few hours when you decided to treat yourself to some ice cream after. You went downtown to a mom and pop shop that you had really liked when you ran into Flower and his family. "Hey (Y/N)" Veronique said "Hey! How are you guys?" "Doing well thankfully, so I'm just going to cut to it, why haven't you replied to Sid?" "Uhh guys I've been busy and frankly I don't know how to apologize to him after the embarrassment I caused him at Phil's" "Look, we know it wasn't right that he fought Tyler but the man likes you a lot, and maybe he does need to learn how to tell someone he likes them haha." " girls flock themselves to him so he doesn't have to do much until he met you" "He genuinely likes you" added Flower "Well look, I have to work the next few days but I'll let him know for us to meet up or somethin, how's that?" "That's great, you both need it" "Alright see y'all later" You were scared but ended up textin Sidney to let him know that you'd accepted his apology but would like to talk to him in person, he agreed to as well. You decided you'd meet up after your last overnight shift which you wouldn't get out of until around 7 am. Things however went a bit south on your shift. You had been car chasin a guy who had kidnapped a child. It was about a 30 min car chase until you were able to fence him in, he however got out of the car and ran. "Fuck this, meet me around Jake!" you said as you got out of the car to chase the suspect You were right on his ass as the gym and training had definitely helped with how fast you were keepin up. "Suspect running north bound on Cherry St" you dispatched You and him were jumpin fences, you knew you'd get him, you had to. He all of a sudden stopped and turned to hit you but only grazed your right cheek. You threw in a good punch which dazed him a bit, when you tackled him you guys were wrestlin for a bit, you felt a sting on your ribcage but thought nothin of it. You finally got on top and pinned him down when Jake caught up to arrest him. "Way to go Wonder Woman" he joked causin you to laugh You got up but felt dizzy, you didn't think anything of it as you thought it was from all the runnin and jumpin. When you guys were about to put him in the cop car you almost lost your balance and felt like you couldn't breathe, thats when you knew something wasn't right. The other units were searching the area where you had arrested him as they found a knife with blood on it. "The child is all well so who did he get?" They asked. Jake immediately looked at you and saw that you were bleeding profusely. Next thing you knew you fainted. When you woke up you were in the hospital. Jake, Casey and your chief were right next to you while the other units were waitin outside. They were all glad to see you were doin okay "Well good mornin" Jake joked "Hey what happened?" "Welp turns out in your little wrestling match which you won, you got stabbed, luckily he didn't puncture anything but stabbed you enough to make you lose a lot of blood which I gave you so I guess we're blood related now hahah" "Seriously? Hahah aw man, how about the child?" "Safe and sound" "Awesome, do you know when I can leave here?" "Really you want to leave you just woke up hhaha" "Wonder Woman" said your chief "You two should be proud of yourselves" he added motioning to you and Jake. The doctor walked in to see how you were doin "Well its always great to see someone doin well unfortunately you won't be able to go back to work right away" "Whyyy?" You asked like a little 5 year old "Hahah (Y/N) you have a sprain on your right leg and you have been stabbed in your ribcage" "To be safer we don't want you to do any physical activity for about a week, don't lift anythin more than 15 pounds as it can reopen your wound and I will give you a brace and crutches for you to use for a week" "Mannn this is goin to suck but thank you doctor I appreciate you sowin me back up haha" "If it makes you feel better, after I finish your paperwork in a few, you are able to go home but please get some rest and if you do go out, wear everything I told you to" "Yes sir" you said giddy as you couldn't wait to get out of there. Just as you thought shit I missed meetin Sidney someone came in with balloons and flowers, Sidney, the rest of the team followin him in. He looked at you serious but then smiled a bit "Hey Sidney, I'm sorry I couldn't meet up with you" "No no no, no need to apologize I know what happened" "Who told you?" "Uh it was on the news" You turned on the tv, sure enough it was. You checked your phone and saw that you had a ton of messages from everyone, missed calls from your family so you texted them back saying how you were. "How are you feelin?" Sid asked "Good! Just a little sore on my leg and ribs" "Look at you gettin in a fight haha, I'm really happy to see you're okay, I don't want anything happening to you (Y/N)" He said more seriously "Thanks Sidney and thanks for the balloons and flowers" you said as you saw how many you had from everyone bringin them. "Yeah there's a bunch, make sure you don't fly away when you leave hahah" "Haha we'll see in a bit since I can get checked out soon" "Nice! Goin straight home?" "Nope Im starvin hahah plus I have to go to the store to get healthy food because I won't be able to exercise at all for a week" you pouted "You'll be fine haha I'm glad to take you though, I don't want you driving right now in your state" "You should see the other guy hahah" When you got checked out the doctor gave you a list of what you couldn't do. You were just glad to be gettin out. The boys brought you some clothes as you headed out to get food. You guys went to a small restaurant that was empty enough to sit the entire crew that came with you. As you got food and talked for a bit, you were startin to feel tired when Jake said he'd to the grocery shoppin for you to get some rest. Everyone said goodbye and to call them if you needed anythin. Sid drove you home, bringin in your dog who was lickin you like crazy and helped you get upstairs. You couldn't as you felt tired within the 4th step so Sid went upstairs to get your stuff so you can knock out on the couch He brought pillows, one for your leg and one for your ribs. "Sidney you don't have to do this" you told him shyly "I want to, now get some rest. I'll be here watchin tv if you don't mind" "No no help yourself" you said as you started to close your eyes. Sid looked at you as you slept and knew this is what he wanted and he wasn't goin to let his fear stop him from makin you his. The next day the guys and the team came to visit you bringin food to grill. Somehow Phil saw your list of what you couldn't do which you hadn't read yourself. "Hahah no action for you either" Phil said "What action?" "You know...sex" "Ohhh yeah like I get a ton haha" Within the week Sid stopped by everyday to see how you were doin. You guys hadn't talked about what had happened at Phil's but you knew as you got better eventually you had to. You went to the hospital to get your stitches out and luckily you were able to get back to work soon. As you walked into work they yelled out "welcome back!" They put up a sign and brought balloons too, even a cake. You teared up a bit as you saw how much you were appreciated at work. Jake was very happy to have you back as he had been patrolling on his own for the first time. On your first day back you were textin with Sid all day Sid: so when are we goin to meet up? You: soon, I'm off on friday Sid: we have a game but maybe we can meet after? You: sure or we can meet before for lunch or somethin? Sid: Or both? Hahah jk lunch sounds good Friday came soon, you had come back from the gym as you were gettin ready to have lunch with Sid. You kept your makeup natural, wore some jeans and a thick jacket as it was freezin outside. Sid had offered to pick you up but you declined because you didn't know how the conversation would go so you wanted to have an exit strategy. You walked in to a nice little restaurant and saw that Sid had picked the booth all the way on the back for privacy, good choice. Here we go you said to yourself.​​