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hum-suffer · 8 months ago
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Daddy issues so bad I find anger scary AND defense attractive
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cherrynflowergarden · 4 months ago
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dealer!matt x doll!reader headcanons
an; hi babies!!!! i missed y'all sooooo much my tumblr was acting up sorry i wasn't active since forever:( plus my schedule is super hectic w uni and all anyways does anyone know why tumblr is not letting me see my inbox it's been ig around 2 months and i can't check my inbox:((( i'm so sorry if i missed your request or message but believe it's tumblr who wants to keep us away
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dealer!matt who thinks doll!reader is genuinely an angel.
dealer!matt who met doll!reader when he was half unconscious and high and seeing doll!reader being concerned and helping him in that state, he quite literally fell in love.
dealer!matt who is in denial of his feelings for doll!reader.
dealer!matt who finally snaps and kisses doll!reader when he saw his client get uncomfortably close to doll!reader.
dealer!matt who will go on dates, buy her gifts, kiss, cuddle, make love, do everything a couple would with doll!reader but still didn't ask her to be his girlfriend.
dealer!matt who calls doll!reader his girl infront of others and would not deny when someone asks if she's his girlfriend.
dealer!matt who acts tough infront of others but is a total softie for doll!reader.
dealer!matt who buys cute bows and accessories for doll!reader all the time.
dealer!matt who wears a matching hello kitty batman bracelet with doll!reader.
dealer!matt who can't get enough of doll!reader's kisses. he will kiss her till her pretty pink lipgloss is transferred to his lips.
dealer!matt who keeps doll!reader's photograph in his wallet as well as his phone.
dealer!matt who loves recieving sweet handmade gifts from doll!reader. he appreciates them so much that sometimes he too makes a quick craft for her.
dealer!matt who is inked and lets doll!reader colour them.
doll!reader has really low pain tolerance which is why she can't get the bow tattoo, so imagine her surprise when dealer!matt gets a small bow tattooed on his bicep. (damn me and who)
dealer!matt who was intimated by doll!reader's closet in the beginning of their relationship. don't get him wrong, he loves her clothes on her so much but he can't help but feel a little insecure seeing her soooo dressed up for him while he's just wearing some normal jeans tshirt.
dealer!matt who takes some time to understand doll!reader likes him the way he is. he doesn't need to change his closest or mannerisms to make her find him attactive.
dealer!matt who quite literally but subtly worships the ground doll!reader walks on.
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thisplace-ishaunted · 2 years ago
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Momma always told me how to beat the trolls, with logic.
<bu dum tsiii>
Marina, aka, tumblr user skold, describes themselves as is nonbinary femme presenting, (most specifically "not a woman"). They also choose to use the umbrella terms queer and trans to describe themselves, (as opposed to how some nb people choose to not use the word trans).
Most basic definition of trans: not cisgender.
Marina is afab, and no longer describes themselves as is female. Therefore Marina is not cisgender and therefore trans.
I am afab, and describe myself as am "genderfucked" (or more ~pc~ "femme presenting transmasc"). I use the words trans a queer and fag for myself. I am attacted to all sorts of people, but my attraction mainly lies with other trans individuals. Because they are awesome and hot and I love all the trans homies they just get it.
I love Marina in a trans and queer and kinky way. Our love is based in friendship and brainworms and healing and play and exploration.
My attraction is T4T.
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ping @skold
how is your partner t4t if you’re not trans
well i ain’t cis!! also polyamory exists
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happyspringsunflower3 · 4 years ago
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Y’all need to stop say y’all in every post that you share your opinion
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nocturne-vi · 3 years ago
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Hi Guys. I need your help.
Today is that bad day I woke up in the morning with the sound of exploding projectiles and knew that my native town Kherson was attacted by russian army. There is no food and water at the supermarkets, most of the people are leaving the town, panic is spreading everywhere and ATMs are empty.
I see lots of people all over the world go to rallies and it’s that we need the most now. Also I hope everything will be okey and I will see this world tommorow morning but the situation is really dangerous now for every person that lives in such towns as Kherson, Odessa, Kyiv, Kharkiv and lots of villages near by.
If u want to give some help and support for me u can (but i’m not forcing you to do this) subscribe to my patreon page and get some of my gratitude through sims, cc kits, builds or save file for game, or spread this information all over the tumblr. Thank u guys!
please help @sssvitlans @maxismatchccworld @love4sims4 and everyone who can.
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shortace · 2 years ago
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I posted 2,265 times in 2022
649 posts created (29%)
1,616 posts reblogged (71%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
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@detective-werewife
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I tagged 1,039 of my posts in 2022
#artemis fowl - 382 posts
#fowlfest2022 - 36 posts
#discworld - 33 posts
#writer problems - 32 posts
#eoin colfer - 31 posts
#museums - 31 posts
#neil gaiman - 29 posts
#domovoi butler - 28 posts
#good omens - 27 posts
#terry pratchett - 27 posts
Longest Tag: 128 characters
#opal koboi thinks she's the main character and loses it when she figures out she's the bully who gets two seconds of screen time
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
I was recently asked what I thought was the biggest misunderstanding about asexuality. It's a hard question, because there are a lot. I thought I'd do a list.
1. That asexuals never want or have sex. In fact asexuality is a fairly broad spectrum, including people who hate the idea of sex and people who seek it out.
2. That asexuals are pure, innocent, naïve. Asexuality, even for people who do not want or have sex, does not equal ignorance or innocence.
3. That you can't be asexual if you've had sex or enjoy sex. See above; asexuality is an orientation defined by attraction, not action.
4. That asexuals are immature, haven't met the right person yet, or haven't had good sex yet. Please trust us to know what we're interested in and what we're attracted to. Most straight people accept their straightness before ever having sex; orientation does not relate to experience.
5. That asexuals can't feel love. Asexuality is a sexual orientation, and although it often co-exists with aromanticism, it doesn't always. Many asexuals feel romantic love, just as many aromantics feel sexual attaction.
6. That asexuality is a result of trauma. Some asexuals have trauma in their backgrounds, but it's usually difficult or impossible to say whether or not the one caused the other. Also, it isn't your business to be dredging that up. Many asexuals have not experienced trauma. Either way, their orientation is valid.
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My ex-husband took our daughter to see whatever the new Harry Potter movie is in the cinemas. As a trans (non-binary) person myself, I'm honestly livid. Didn't take one second to stop and think 'Wait, I'm giving money to somebody who actively works to harm people like my kids' mother'. I had already talked to our daughters about why I won't support Rowling, so it's not as though it would have overly surprised or disappointed her.
584 notes - Posted April 19, 2022
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Clearly, at some point, I have made mistakes.
644 notes - Posted May 17, 2022
#2
I didn't know asexuality existed until I was in my mid-30s. I spent two decades thinking either something was wrong with me, or the rest of the world was in on some joke and I'd missed the memo. I will not shut up about it, I will shout ASEXUAL from the rooftops if it might help one other person avoid that confusion.
1,054 notes - Posted March 29, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
The fucking audacity of people who touch museum exhibits. This. Is. Not. Your. Wardrobe.
2,756 notes - Posted July 19, 2022
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nurun66 · 4 years ago
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‼️ Sevgili takipcilerim bir yanlis anlamayi duzeltmeye calisiyorum. Bu yazi Tumblr tarafindan gorulmesi lazim. Onlara konu ile ilgili emaillerimi gonderdim hala konuyu halletmediler. Lutfen begeni yaparak beni destekleyin ki burada egitim icerikli yazilarimi surdurebileyim. Simdiden tesekkurler💯 🙏🏻
‼️ To: Tumblr staff,
I have been emailing you, to be heard by you but could not succeed since last week and now placing my request here too..
I have had very serious fight in a few years back that has the same aim with new Tumblr policy wanting to eliminate porn pages.. As you will see/ read here on my side blog x67stories, in my action wording, I had wished many blogs eliminated by, even before Tumblr seriously acted on it. Please read the part written in English, thats what happened while i was trying to bring voices together with my followers so that those blogs would be terminated. And you heard us and terminated many.. Meanwhile, someone misunderstood my action and treated me like I m the one who exposes kids here. NO!! I was so angry then and i am still very angry now because after that person, my blog was marked restricted and as a porn blog. I have been emaling you to correct this. I need my blog’s integrity back because my blog has educational purpose. People cannot reach this blog because of your not fixing this issue. PLEASE INVESTIGATE MY BLOG AND TELL ME WHAT I SHOULD DO to regain it as a normal / unrestricted blog.. I am becoming restless because this issue could not be solved for so long. I DO NOT WANT TO SWITCH ON A DIFFERENT VIRTUAL PLATFORM. I need this to be corrected and not make me wait any longer. Thank you ..Dr. Nur📌
Since even my action letter strangely was marked restricted when Tumblr decided to eliminate porn pages, i am not able to reblog it here, so i am dropping a screen shot and copy pasting my letter also. My blog is again, NOT A PORN BLOG, it uses some images to use visual effects only to educate my followers.
Below, I Copy/pasted from one of my my side blogs as evidence for you.
“THIS IS A GROUP ACTION TO TAKE THIS PAGE /S Down. JUST NOW SOMEONE TOTALLY MISUNDERSTOOD MY ACTION AND MY PROTESTİNG THOSE PEOPLE İN ORDER TO ADVİSE TUMBLR TAKE FASTER ACTİON. BECAUSE I HAD ADDED PICS TOO. In THE PAST I TRIED WITHOUT PICS AND WE HAD A FEW PAGES DOWN BUT NOT MANY. I WANT TO BE MORE EFFECTIVE AND WANT OUR VOICES HEARD AND HAVE TUMBLR DO SOMETHING PERMANENT ABOUT THESE PAGES THAT HAVE EXPOSE CHILDREN. I M BEING ATTACTED HERE BY SOMEONE WHO MISUNDERSTOOD AND DID NOT TAKE INTO ACCOUNT MY ❌❌❌ is THAT MEANS THIS IS WRONG AND REPORT THE LINK I NOTED.. NOW I EXPLAİNED THE PERSON WHO CURSED ME MANY TİMES, HOPEFULLY UNDERSTOOD HİS/ HER MİSTAKES. AND LAST I AM NOT A DUDE I AM DR.NUR, a female MD”
I hope its clear now. Even my action attempt note was marked on my “not marked side blog”.
Thank you..
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madmiriam · 4 years ago
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My Mando (Din Djarin) /oc's backstory idea (includes alot of rexsoka shipping)
Warning!! : I can't spell for toffee and Tumblr deleted all of my proofreaders edits. Obviously she doesn't want to do it all over again so I've had to make do.
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(a clan of three by madmiriam (Me)
We all love the mandalorian, Din Djarin is so sexy as single dad and we all love him for it. But this makes it hard to write and engageing original character to go with this perfect specimen of a man, one that we can really connect with. Well I have a salutation, to connect with a character it helps if that character is also connected to a character/characters that you already know and love. So I give you my original character Jaig.
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Like the picture above, originally I wasn't going to have Din and Grogu in it at first but I have a habit of making life difficult for myself, so your welcome.
Personality:
As an adult, she's calm and patient and has a sarcastic sense of humour.
As a child, she has a bubbly personality, a contagious smile, and an insatiable curiosity.
Strengths:
she finds it difficult to truly hate anyone, no matter what they've done, she proffers to look at the reasons behind the actions of others before jumping in for revenge, that's not to say she doesn't get angry at people, but her anger is not fuelled by hate. She has been fully trained in the use of weaponry, such as guns, granaids and other such, and has had a small amount of training with a lightsaber when she was younger. But afters a experiencing a tragedy at the age of 9 she hasn't touched one since, she proffers the us of DC hand guns. She is also a fairly good pilot and mechanic.
Weaknesses:
back when she was a child she had a hard time using the force when when overwhelmed. If the thoughts and feelings of others got to much, she would become force blind. When she grows older, (for certain reasons you will find out later on in. This story) she completely cuts herself off from the force. Unless her emotions get to much go handle, then the force would almost explodes out of her. She also doesn't do well when she's alown. Having grown up in various large family atmospheres. If she is not around people she cares about and loves, she will become closed off a dipressed.
Back story: (now bear with me, this storyline is set before she meets Din, its just an introduction to this character)
Jaig (due to her small Jaig eye like markings, and her father's personal connection to the simble) is the daughter of ex jedi padawan Ahsoka Tano and her mate/husband Captain Rex. She looks mostly human like her father, with the same amber eyes and his family's dark hair. But with the same facial structure of her mother, and a slightly darker and olive tinged skin tone. She also has distinct white making that were almost identical to her mother's. Except instead of diamond shapes on her forehead, she has jaig eye like markings. She was born 6 years after the clone wars ended, while her parents were on the run from the empire. Rex and Ahsoka had found it impossible to part from one another after the events of order 66, and after travelled from place to place avoiding the empire for a long time. Their feelings for one another grow, and they eventually married through the use of mandalorian marriage vows.
They built a home in the stars, and after a few years, to their great surprise and happiness they conserved and had Jaig. Things were finally looking up with the birth of their new found hope for the future.
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(Their new found hope for the future/baby Jaig by madmiriam (me)
But it was not to last. It was hard enough to hide themselves, a clone and a ex jedi from the empire. But now adding a force sensative baby to the mix as well, it made it damn near impossible for them all to stay together. Which; after a terrifying encounter with one of the Empires Inquisitors, forced them to make the difficult decision to part ways. Rex would head off insearch for a new home and hopefully find and de-chip as many brothers as he could. While ahsoka would keep traveling around the stars with Jaig. Avoiding the empire and its ruthless inquisitors, whilst trying to help Jaig build up her Shields. They both agreed to keep in touch and once Jaig's Shields were up and safely secure,(which for the average youngling would take 5 years or so) they would rejoin each other and dicided what to do next. But a year after their separation Rex's comms and messeges had stopped all together, and by the time Jaig had reached the age of five and had built up some suitable shields around her mind, neither she or her mother had herd from her father in over 4 years. Her mother was adament he was still alive, but as she grew older Jaig had a hard time believing her. For if he was alive why hadn't he come to find them? Why was he not answering her mothers messages that she still sent on a regular basis?
By the time she was 6 her mother was approached by Bail Organa, in regards to starting a rebellion, and that is what they spent the next 4 years working towards, staying in the shadows gradually building up a resistance to eventually overthrow the empire.
She and her mother met the ghost crew when she was 9 (the same age Anakin had been when he was found by qui gon) and after an uncomfortably close encounter with a mysterious Sith lord called Darth Vader, Jaig's mother disided it was time to bring her father into the fold, and sent Jaig of with the ghost crew to find Rex.
When meeting her father she had opted to wear a scarf to cover her face markings and, chose to withhold her name, and who she was until she found out more about the man who was her father. She was apprehensive about him. As she had no memorie of her dad, for she was only a baby when he left. The only thing she did have, was this warm comforting feeling that she felt whenever her mother spoke of him. A feeling of being held to a large ferm chest in two equally large and ferm muscular arms. Wrapped in a soft wool blanket. Her mother told her that this was the force making an imprint on one of the more emotional moments of her like. But all the same, she proffered to be cautious.
After spending some time with Rex and his bothers. She found her self really enjoying there company. Aspecially her father's. Who dispite having no idea who she was, had already shown that he had a clear paternal instinct. Particularly when teaching her and Ezra how to fish for "Big Bongo". However Kanan who clearly didn't trust Rex or his brothers had spent most of his time hovering around ether her or Ezra protectively, eventually telling them about his exspirence with order 66, an event her mother never talked about.
After seeing the heartbreak on her father's eyes at the memories he and Kanan spoke of. She desided it was time to tell him who she was. But that decision was cut short however when she overheard Rex telling Ezra that he wasn't going to come back with them. Even though he now knew her mother was alive (1 year after separating when the message's stopped he thought both his wife and child to be dead) Jaig ran of in tears when hearing this. She climbing down the ladder of the the AT-TE and walked ferther in front of the walking monstrosity. Away from everyone else. She had finally gotten used to the idea of her father coming back with them. Had become exited by it even. But now, the fact that he was refusing to come with them. Back to his home, his wife, to her. It hurt and overwhelmed her, more than she could say.
She didn't however see what happened after. When Sebine came out and acused Rex of selling them out, of contacting the empire and never answering Ahsoka's messages; at which point he finds out about how Wolfe had withheld all the messages from Ahsoka for 8 years. Thinking he was protecting his brothers from a potentially vengeful jedi. Rex was furious at Wolfe for hiding his own wife's messages to him, and coursing him to miss so much of his only child's life.
Rex: "we have a daughter Wolfe!!! My Jaig, my baby girl doesn't even know who I am because of you!!!"
Wolfe:(was shocked and full of regret when hearing this) "I.. I.. Didn't know... Rex I'm sorry, I didnt know"
Ezra:(recordnises the name) "wait Jaig? you meen our Jaig, Jaigs your daughter?"
Rex: "wait what?"
At this point they hear a shrill scream coming from down in front of the AT-TE. It was Jaig, she was being attact by the prob droid that had been sent by the empire.
The clones immediately go into action. Rex is handed a rifle and gets ready to shoot the prob as it backs his daughter into the ground. His ames and shoots true, killing the droid with one foul shot and then quickly dashes down to retrieve his daughter from under the sparking remains of the droid.
Jaig is in hysterics at this point. Having been taken by surprise by the droid along with the emotional turmoil of potentially losing her father all over again. She then resigned herself to just sit there and cry over how foolish she was for even seeing the attack coming. But now she was being held in the familiar strong arms of her father as he held his only child for the first time in over 8 years.
Rex: "I'm here sh shh, I'm here Ik'aad senaar (baby bird, a nickname he gave her as an infant) daddy's here, daddy's got you"
He says carefully stocking her familiar dark brown hair (that was now flowing free as her scarf had fallen loosely around her shoulders, revealing her beautiful face to her father who's eyes were now brimming with unshed tears) to calm her down as he picking her up and takes her back to the AT-TE. Where the others are waiting with bated breaths. Wolfe was holding a blanket out to wrap his shacking niece into and Gregor quickly dashing off to get her a hot chocolate hoping to make her feel better.
Jaig: "I was angry. Upset. You said you weren't coming home and, then everyone felt so angry and scared all at once. It was to much. (sighs) I have a hard time controling the force when I get overwhelmed like that. I couldn't even sence the prob. I'm. I'm sorry"
She exsplans after she sits down and has a few sips of the hot chocolate that had been placed in her hands. Accompanied a number of comforting back rubs from both her father and her uncles.
Wolfe apologies to her. Explains that he's the reason her father had been out of her life for so long. That he was just trying to protect his brothers but ended up hurting his other family because of it. And tells her he understands if she hates him.
Jaig: "your Wolfe aren't you? Uncle Wolfe? Mum (she has a slight clone like accent that they haven't noticed before) told me about you, said you worked with Grandpa Plo"
Wolfe: 😳"Grandpa Plo? 😂 Boy he would have loved to have herd you say that"
He said, both of them smile at each other, Jaig having forgiven her uncle for his laps in judgment.
All seemed well again until the empire calls them back to get the clones to hand over the rebels. The clones now fueled by the new found need to keep their new family out of harms way, tells the empire where they can stick it, and quickly try to usher the ghost crew along with Jaig into the phantom so they can escape While they all get ready to fight.
Jaig: "but I just found you, mum told me to bring you home, I can't leave you behind, da.. Please don't go"
She says clutching at his shirt as he huged her tight before holding her out to face him,
Rex:"no one's abandoning anyone. Jaig look at me (tilting her head to look. Into her eyes, eyes that matched her father's) we're soldiers Ik'aad senaar, this is what we were born to do, but this time we have something to fight for.. Its going to be OK, (presses his forehead against hers) I love you my Jaig eyes, I've loved you from the I first held you. Ha you were so tiny. I didn't want to let you go back then and I don't want to do it again now, but like last time it's something I have to do, to keep you safe, my Ik'aad senaar, (kissed her forhead lovingly) tell your mother I'm sorry I couldn't make it home, and... And I love her ok."
He says before sending her back into the phantom, closing the door behind her before she can stop him.
Things then pan out like it does in the show, the phantom goes back to help the clones take down the walkers and Rex then decides he's not gonna spend any more of time away from Ahsoka and Jaig and choses to return with them and join the rebellion.
The reauion between Rex and Ahsoka continues the same, but insted of just a hug Ahsoka goes in for the kiss (how it should have always been in my opinion).
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(this art work was done by @nottonyharrison (please note: this image was used with the permission of the artist,) please go check them out, as you can see their art work is stunning)
They spend most of there time with the ghost crew, Ahsoka makes the Ghost her base to return to after missions, and Rex teaching combat and war strategies to both Ezra and Jaig, but mostly to Ezra, Jaig was; in his opinion still to young to get to deep into the oncoming war.
Rex:"let her be a kid for a little longer at least".
Jaig and Ezra had eventually become good friends, Jaig looking up to him as something of an older brother, following him every where he went like a little shadow. At first Ezra was annoyed, and try to get away from her at every turn. But after a while he found he quite like having someone look up to him for a change. As before her, he had been dubed the baby of the group with the most to learn. But now he had Jaig hanging on his evey word like it was gold. He found he enjoyed the new found responsibility.
Unfortunately with her shadowing Ezra so much. This meant she got into all kinds of trouble with him. Trouble that mostly involved them running down the corridor with an angry Zeb chasing after them. Zeb really didn't seem to like Jaig very much. Said it was like having two Ezras, and one was quite enough. However other trouble also included a short but terrible trip to malachor, where after being told she can't come along she choses to stow herself away on the phantom in the small rashon hold built into the floor, shielding her mind from her mother as they flow through space.
Ahsoka: (on a call to Rex) "well I definitely out rank you😉... 😟How Jaig doing?"
Rex: "welp she's not happy, she gone and hidden herself in one of thoughs little critter caves again, I'm making her favorite tonight so I know she'll show up by dinner time, but all the same😔..."
Ahsoka: "hay don't take it to heart Rex, you and I both know this is how she deals with being left behind for anything, she finds a small place to hide and sulk it out, just be ready with a plate of nuna and a hug and she bounces right back😄🙁 when she comes out tell her I love her, and I'll be home soon"
Rex: "I will🙂😟... May the force be with you" they hang up.
It's Ezra who ends up finding her, just after they land. Pointing her out to a stressed out Kanan and a very cross Ahsoka,
Ezra: "ummm guys, I think we have a stowaway",
Jaig: "before you get mad..... consider being proud of me, I stayed still for hours in there AND I shielded my mind the whole time, so you non of you even knew I was there"
Ahsoka: "DON'T push it young lady😠what were you thinking!! Your fathers gonna be worried sick!!!! 😤😔 welp since there's no turning back now, the sooner we get this over with, the sooner we can get you back home and thoroughly grounded for a year"
The rest again plays out the same, they find Maul, Maul blinds Kanan, they get the sith holocromb but lose Ahsoka in the fight with Vader, though after seeing Jaig who looks so much like the little snippy girl from his old life, the Anakin in Vader hasitates to kill ahsoka and her child, and insted trys to convince the unwavering togruta to join him with her daughter.
Vader:"the galaxy shall never be safe for her Ahsoka, join me and I can protect her from the emperor. Join me and we can over throw him... Together"
Ahsoka: "how can I trust anything you say. If you were truly Anakin then how can you protect my daughter when you can't even protect yourself"
Jaig: "MUM!!!! MUUUMMMM!!!"
Ahsoka looks at her daughter running to her as the walls of the sith temple come down,
Ahsoka :"I'm sorry Jaig"
She say quietly as she force pushes he child into Ezra outside the temple as it fall around her and Vader out of the site of her family.
When all is quiet and Vader emerges from the rubble, after failing to find his former apprentice, the Anakin in him vows that he will not fail her child, he will do everything in his power to insure his master never find her, even if he has to hide her away himself to do it.
When Kanan, Ezra and Jaig return to base, Rex is in hysterics asking around.
Rex:"have you seen Jaig? Has anyone seen my baby?, its been over two days.. I can't find her..!!."
Jaig:"DADDY!!! 😭"
Rex turns to see her running out of a newly landed phantom in tears. Now knowing exactly where she'd been he quickly runs to her and scoops her up in his arm clucking her close to his chest in relief that she was home.
Rex:"you.. Are going to be the death of me, hey sh shshsh hey, hey what's the tears? what happen? where's your..? ."
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(a father's comfort, ruff drawing by madmiriam (me)
He couldn't finish the sentence as he looked around and sure two other people emerging from a now empty ship, neither one of them was his wife. Ezra looked him in the eyes and with out saying a word, he knew. He knew Ahsoka, his Ahsoka was gone. He closed his eyes, sheding one silent tear as he held his girl tighter, and slowly carried her away, away from the crowd, but not away from the heartache.
After the loss of her mother, Jaig's once bubblie personality had diminishes somewhat. She refuses to leave the side of eather her father or the members of the ghost crew. She goes on a few missions with them and liston to every word her father says about ways of fighting, fighting to protect herself and the people she loves. Before heading to a mission on geonosis he gives he one of his old DCs. (its twin had been lost in battle during the clone wars and he had gotten a replacement pear, but he had always kept his first well maintained in case he ever needed it)
Rex: "I know it's no lightsaber, but if will keep you and the others safe when used properly"
Jaig: "I don't want a lightsaber any more, 😔sabers get you killed"
Rex: " not all of them Ik'aad senaar" he sighs kissing her forehead "not all of them".
But even this would not last. When it came time for the empire to attack chopper base. Vader sends his own secret troops of undercover purge troopers to find and retrieve Jaig, and to also fake her death so both the empire and the rebels would not come looking for her. This of corse left Rex in his lowest point yet. After watching the ship he had put his daughter on to be evacuated blow up before it even left the ground. He found it hard to not simply drop all his defences and just calming walk into the flames after her. If it hadn't been for Zeb he probably would have. These kind of thoughts invaded his mind so frequently after that day, it was hard to remember when they didn't. He had lost both his wife and now his child. His hope and his reason for fighting were gone, and he wanted to go after them. But he couldn't. Not while there were still people to fight out there, the people who took everything for him and was still grabbing for more. People who his wife started this whole rebellion to fight against. No, he would keep fighting, as long as there is still even one imperial still left alive he would live and fight, until every last one of then were wiped out of existence. (that's gonna take a while)
Meanwhile Vader and Jaig finally meet properly face to mask. Jaig is having a hard time counselling her fear. But Vader was also having difficulty concealing his pain. Pain that had lingered since the moment he had emerged from that crumbled down sith temple, with no sign in the force or otherwise of his once padawan,. The last family he thought he had, that had not betrayed him, who had(once she had seen his face underneath his freshly cracked mask) said she wouldn't leave him, not again. But she had left him, not by her own design he knew, but she had left him all the same. And she had also left a child behind, a child like the one Padme would have given him if it weren't for both the sith and the jedi.
The jedi, who had forced his hand in turning to the dark side, by telling him he should just let Padme die for the good of the galaxy. The jedi who had abandoned his padawan, his little sister, his first child (if he could go so far as to say) in her time of need, and then exsept her to come back all smiles, acting as though her whole ordel was just a trial to prove herself to them. When it was them who should be providing themselves to her.
And the sith,. The sith who had manipulated him from day one to become what he is now, the sith who had taken every thing he had, his wife, his child, his brother/father figer, his little sister/daughter and his friends. The clones. His home all gone for the sake of his masters new empire😡. Yes he new this had been his master's plan all along, the war the clones, the inhibitor chips. All to gane more and more power for himself and to distroy the jedi in his wake. Dragging Anakin down into the darkness with him, and he would do the same thing to Jaig given the chance. Vader could feel the raw power of the force rolling of her, the energy mix with her fear would be a prime canderdate for Sidious's manipulation, should he ever discover her existence.
No!!! That would not happen, neither the sith or the jedi would have her, he would not alow it.
Jaig:"I know who you are.. I know what you did... You tryed to turn my mother before killing her, but you wouldn't turn me, you hear me, I.. Will.. Not... Turn"
She says her voice shacking with her body in fear.
Vader:"no... You will not..."
Jaig: "then why am I here? I haven't done anything to make you hate me.... At least... I don't think I have"
Vader:"I do not hate you Jaig, like your mother, much to my masters great..... disappointment... I could never hate you"
It was true. He couldn't hate her. Couldn't bring himself to hate her. But he couldn't love her either. He had no more love left in him to give. But he could protector for the sake of someone he had loved.
Jaig: confused "then.. Then please let me go, I won't tell anyone if that's what your worried about, I just want to go home, I want my dad, please I just want my daddy😰"
Vader: "you father's fate is.... Regrettable. However it is a necessary evil, it is emperative that he believes you to be dead"
Jaig: "why what did he do to you? what did any of my parents ever do to you?!"
Vader: "as shocking as it may sound, these actions are not done out of hate. You will know this soon enough but for now, I must focus on getting you as far away and as hidden as possible" he then calls in a trouper with red and black armor.
Vader: "CC-2224 I trust your men are ready"
Cody: "ready and awaiting orders.. Sir"
Cody says through gritted teeth not bearing to even look at his once general's masked face.
Vader:"good, I trust the surgery was a success for all of them?"
Cody: "yes.. Sir.. Though we are all having adjustment issues due to recent ... and.... less recent events"
Vader: "thoughs... issues.... had better not interfere with the performance of your mission commander, you and your men have been chosen for one reason and one reason only, and it is for your loyalty to her safety. I can feel your hatred for me commander Cody (Cody inhails sharply at the sound of his name) but I also know enough about you and your brother's to know that they will not let this anger get in the way. I trust you all know the consequences that await you should you fail"
He ignites his blood red saber to put more emphasis on his point.
Cody:"yes sir"
Vader:"very well, now take her and go, and protect her with your life, I shall make my own way back to base as some as I can, her training with began immediately after my return, so be sure to proper her, but until then you already know what to do".
Cody noded before walking over to Jaig, then bent down and gently but fermly lifts her out of her seat, and quickly carry her out of the cell, down the hall and, through the, docking Station towards a unmarked referbished gunship.
Jaig: "where are we going? "
She said with a soft whimper. She was relieved to be away from Vader but still felt apprehensive with the idea of being taken away yet again in the arms of this.. Purge trooper, at lest she thinks it's a purge trooper, she had never seen one before so she could only guess.
Cody: "sh sh it's gonna be OK little one, I'm taking you some were safe, but we have to hurry now"
Jaig:"why?"
Cody: "no one on this ship other than Vader knows we're here and we have to keep it that way kid"
Jaig:"why would you need to hide from your own men"
Cody:"cuz you never know whos watching, I'll explain more when we get off this ship and into hyperspace"
Once they were on board the gun ship, that had been modified to acomidate long period space travel. The modifications included everything from comfortable seating to a working hyperdrive. Cody set her down in one of the seats and strapped her fermly in before heading to the cockpit, leaving her now surrounded by four more purge troopers (hardcase, fives, dogma and waxer, who I'm gonna say lived, cuz I have attachment issues, boil is in the cockpit piloting the ship) who are all looking at her intensely through their helmets. (hardcase and fives are in borrowed discises, after Fives finds out about the chips he and hardcase desert the army and decide to strike out on their own to try and find out more about the chips and their perpose, unfortunately they were too late to do anything about it before oder 66 happened. They have been on the run ever since, until Vader aproches them, informing them that he has been keeping tabs on them, and had been insuring the empire believes them both to be dead, and tells them of the mission, they agree to help because it's Rex and ahsoka's daughter they'll be protecting, but only under the condition the they only report to a de-chipped Cody and all other clones included in the mission must also be de-chipped as well. Vader had agreed to this as he was going to have their chips all removed anyway, to prevent any itchy trigger fingers being near his new force sensative)
Once they're in hyperspace Cody returns to the main area of the gun ship, where the other clones are crowed around a frightened looking Jaig
Waxer: "is this her? Wow she looks so much like her mum"
Fives: "she has our eyes though, our wonderfully handsome eyes"
hardcase: "and out hair, Ha!! I knew Rex's hair wasn't naturally blonde😂"
Dogma:" technically Hardcase, her hair being brown isn't proof that his is to, she could have just gotten the hereditary Jango gen of dark hair"
Fives:"aww suck the fun out of it why don't you"
Cody: "guys back up, give her some space, your freaking her out, and take off your buckets, I don't think they're helping"
When their buckets were removed Jaig was shocked to see five versions of her father's face looking down at her, all old and a little worse for where's, but all very much clone. She recordnises three of them from her father's holopad.
Jaig: "Fives?"
Fives:😃 "yeah! Yeah kid, that's me your☝️ Uncle Fives (he kneals down taking her hand in his, giving it a quick squeeze, before turning to Cody) she recordnised me first that must kill you😁"
Cody: 😠 "only cus you have a, dirty great 5 on your forehead You Di'kut"
He said before knealing down in front of her
Cody:"hey kid, sorry I couldn't introduce myself earlier, I'm your.."
Jaig:"Uncle Cody"
Cody:😁 "yeah kid (to Fives) SEE!! over there are your uncles Dogma, Waxer, Hardcase and back there in the cockpit is your uncle Boil, I know your probably not used to this many of us, but there's more we're we came from where we're going, though they live un a different fasilaty to ours, but every single one of them would be whiling to keep you safe if they knew. So you don't have to worry, we're not gonna let anything happen to you"
Jaig "but Vader.."
Cody: (places both hand at the side of her head and looks her dead in the eyes) "isn't going to TUCH you, not if we have anything to say about its, he may be our sponser, and he will be coming round every so often to check on you and train you. But you'll have several hundred or so uncles on the planet ready and waiting with fully loaded blasters should he ever try to hurt you, us 6 especially as we're the only clones there that know about you yet and we're gonna be living under the same roof, as you and one of us will always be close by to help you. OK kid, it's all gonna be ok (he says hugging her) your safe now"
Jaig: "but I don't want to be trained by Vader, I said I wouldn't turn and I meant it"
Cody: "it's alright, its alright. The one thing Vader has assured us of, is it he will not be training you in the dark side. And judging by the amount of effort he's putting into keeping you hidden, I'm inclined to believe him. He told us that you must block your self off from the force, what ever that means. Which is what he's going to show you how to do. Apparently it's the only way to keep the emperor off your scent. But like I said, one of us is always gonna be there should he try anything"
Fives:"yeah we'll look out for you kid, I know you miss your dad, and we're pretty poor substitutes, but we're here for you all the same"
Hardcase:"and we're not leaving anytime soon"
Dogma: "well not if we can help it"
Jaig "but where are we going?"
Cody: smile "to the closest thing we clones have to a home... Kamino"
Kamino had changed over the years, once the emperor had ordered to stop to any more clones creation. The cloning fasilaties had been abandoned by the kaminoans, along with all the rest of the untrained cadets who were all shipped of to the mustafa system to be trained and bred as the empires elite force of purge troopers.
The cloning facilities were left to the old now retired clones, to live out their days away from civilisation, many now wolowing in sadness and regret for their actions under the influence of their now un activated inhibitor chips.
The place Jaig and her other uncles were heading, was just a few hundred miles of from the main cloning compound. It had been kitted out with everything they might need, weaponry, shields, a food station, bedrooms, a bunkhouse, a training ground, and a shooting range. The only beings abord were now the clones, Jaig, the cook and the maintenance crew, well I say crew, it consisted of one male Ugnaught named Kuiil and three droid assistants whom he had reprogrammed to help with any and all clean up and maintenance duties.
Jaig would continue to live out there with her uncles for the next 5 years. They would go on to train her with any and all things clone, weaponry, though she had learnt a lot of that from her father's teachings, and the language and teachings of the mandalorian. The boys were insistent that she learn all of what little they knew of their heritage, as they were all descended from Jango, who was of mandolor. Any clone would tell you how proud the clones were of this heritage, and now they had someone to pass it all down to. They even taught Jaig the mandalorian wars songs that they had all learnt as cadets, and the Clone Haka, that had been performed by many clone troops over the years, before battle,. Much to the confusion and quite frankly terror of the B1 battle droids who witnessed them.
Fives: "ha your mum was pritty good at this to"
Jaig: now 12" my mum knew the Haka? "
She said, trying to picture her calm and serene togrutan mother, chanting, stomping and banging her chest along side millions of clones Warriors, all while making different faces and throatle sounds at the droids on the other side of the battlefield.
Hardcase: "oh yeah!! She was a natural, always shouting the chant in her loudest voice and making her scariest war face, like this 🤪😜🤪"
Fives: "and that my dear Jaig, was when your father fell in love🥰"
Vader came over as often as he could spare, when he was sure he couldn't be directed be his master or that anyone following him. Teaching Jaig how to disconnect herself from the force, telling her that if she continues to use it, the consequences would be severe.
Vader:"if the employer was ever to discover you exsisens, he would hunt you down in an instant, and kill anyone who trys to hide you from him. This is why you must never use the force again, and you must never leave. If anyone outside this fasilaty were to learn of your existence, you would be in mortal danger, as would everyone you care about"
Jaig: "but why couldn't my dad come? You could have had both our deaths faked and brought him here with me"
Vader: sighed "he is to mixed up with the rebel alliance, and besides, it was his reaction that sold your death to the universe. A trick I learned from my old master...the hard way"
He said bitterly.
Jaig knew she should hate him, he had taken her from her home, her friends and family. He had taken her mother, and it was because of his foolish decision to trust, a maniac, power hungy, sith Lord, that her family were forced to live in the shadows, and her mother, and father were force into separation when she was just an infant. She didn't like him by any means, she frequently tryed to avoid his at any turn. But she still couldn't feel hatred for him.
Cody: "na that your mother in you, she was never one to hold much of a grudge ether. She got angry at people don't get me wrong but she never hated them. She cryed over the potential execution of a woman who had Framed her for Murder once. And had taken the time to give all her deceased troops, who had tryed to gun her down a funeral. Even though she and your father where now on the run from the empire"
Over the years living there, she became closer with her uncles, or at least most of them. She argued with Boil on an almost daily basis, but they had their moments, she told him and Waxer how she met Numa, who was still fighting for the freedom of her home. She had a difficult time connecting with Dogma. He was very distance from her and didn't talk much. However she did like listening to him read. Dogma who had been a stiff by the book solder his entire life, and had been through so much, found he secretly quite enjoyed the company of his niece. But she spent most of her training with Fives and Hardcase. Both clones always new how to make her smile and told her many stories of her parents during the war, stories not even her parents had told her, (though they never much liked talking about the war), and she had given them a new lease of life, and new perpose. She was probably closest with Cody, he had know her father since they were both cadets, and was determined to teach her everything he knew, but he also showed his softer side with her. There were many a time he would be seen walking down the corridor carrying the young girl who was really getting a bit to big to be held, in his arms fast asleep from a long day.
She had also become quite good friends with Kuiil the maintenance manger, she learnt that he was paying off his debt to the empire through prolonged servitude, he had been in many battles he didn't believe in, until Vader; after seeing his reprogramming skills had, offered him a place on this secret compound. Kuiil had also taken quite a shine to Jaig, she was kind, and eager to learn the inner workings of the machines he fixed.
But yet again, even this would not last. After the destruction of the First Death Star, Lord Sidious had been furious with Vader, he tortured and demoted him. But through his touture he discovered the existence of the child Vader had taken such lengths to keep hidden from him. And through this new information, he devised a plan.
To brake his apprentices even ferther, he would force him to chose, chose between the life of his padawans child, who he had swarn to protect, and the life of his son, that he did not yet know about. But unfortunately for the emperor, he did not bargain for the tactical brilliance of the Clones.
When the empire, came to take the now 15 year old girl, they had already divested their own escape plan. They sent Jaig along with Kuill over to the kaminoan cloning facilities, turned clone retirement home, before the empire even entered the atmosphere. There she was frozen in to carbonite and fastened to the inside of the newly alcoved underbelly of a small one-seater Y wing (to insure the if the empire should come across them she would be well hidden and undetected, Kuiils cover story being that he was delivering supplies to the clones) there Kuiil would then fly far away from any siverlized planet. While, the clones continued to fight and defend the compound as though she was still there, and then proceed to escape themselves, using an old subship left over from the battle of Kamino. But not before bowing the place sky high, making it seem like the empires had fired at the fewl tanks corsing the whole building to be destroyed along with anyone who was inside.
This was not the out come Sidious had wished for, however with the now almost certain death of his ward, Vader plunged ever ferther into the void of darkness and hate. So the desired effect Sideous was planning for was reached anyway.
After being unfrozen from carbonite, Jaig and Kuiil parted ways. She chose to for her father, but it became fruitless. Chopper base had long since been evacuated and the rebel alliance was always one step ahead of her in their attempts to avoid the empire. For 2 years she searched for them, and fought the Empire where she could, until she finally stopped, delving into the belief that what ever family she knew was now gone, she rejoined Kuiil on a deserted planet called Arvala-7, while the galaxy celebrated the fall of the empire. Where for the next 5 years they would both try to live out their lives in peace, working the land and carrying for blurgs, until a mandolorian arrives on their planet, looking for a little green bounty, which starts of a whole new adventure for our now Adult Jaig.
OK guys let me know how I did, and if you would like to see Jaig's adventures with Din Djarin and little green bean Grogu. Let me know. I'm not much of a writer,. But I always got so irratated when reading Din Djarin/oc fics where to make her interesting, they give the oc force powers, with either no build up to it, or she's a run away jedi, which kind of defeats the whole purpose of season 2 were they're trying to find the jedi, so I thought I'd write my own. I wanted to have a character that has both a clear connection to both the mandalorian culture and the force, without making her a mary su. She has a connection to the force. But she can't use it, or control it. Therefore she can't train Grogu to use it. Which would mean they'd have to find the jedi, to help him learn to control his powers. Plus I don't want to just giving her everything with no preplanned reason. So here is my preplanned reason. I know these short scenes and conversations don't really delve much into her personality but that's were you come in. Tell me what you think of her, and what you think she's like as an adult. I wrote a few things like her kind nature and her sarcastic humour. But I could do with some ideas on what you would like to see. Let me know, and...
May the 4th be with you,😉
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just-a-poor-boy-queen · 3 years ago
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you: if what i post bothers you so much to the point you have to write a long thinkpiece about it every time, maybe it would be healthier for all of us if you just stopped following me!
general response: i'm forced to agree with your stupid opinion or i'm attacted. also you're a cult.
you don't have to post this if don't want, but that's exactly what i got scrolling through tumblr yesterday. i hope you're feeling okay!❤
Thank you for checking in, I really, truly appreciate it🤍
Yeah, I mean. It was one person who said that, and they’ve said other things in the past that have rubbed me off in the wrong way. So I wasn’t all that surprised.
But yes, I think by now a whole group of people consider me as an immature twat because I shit on my blog, reblog the posts I agree with on my blog, and essentially, run my blog according to my own views. I am not sure when I have attacked anyone, but oh well, apparently I am tone deaf, so I must’ve done it.
And look, I will be honest. I will not understand the view of the ‘other side’. Like nope. I have tried and tried and failed. And yesterday I talked to one of them after the tumblr fiasco (not the vague blog person, though they said that they weren’t vague blogging - yeah, sure) and they confessed that they don’t understand my views either. So essentially, we’re both here not understanding the other side, and ranting about it on our own blogs. Ranting about our own views and opinions, and how the ‘other side’ is getting it all wrong. So I legit see no difference between myself and them. If I am good or bad then they’re just as good or bad as me. But guess who is compared to a crazy person. Guess who is called immature and disrespectful and intolerant and rude.
Anyway, I am now not inclined to get involved in any discussion with other people under their posts. I already do not do that in group chats I am in, but I think I’ll just limit airing my opinions about everything and not just this, to my own blog. Not sure if anyone wants to hear them here either, but oh well. I’ll leave that up to all of you to decide.
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womansfilm · 6 years ago
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half of the old hashtags of mine that were chosen for this memories april fool’s thing ar elike.... men who were outed as abusers fdfdfdf this is awful
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wonderwafles · 4 years ago
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Loot Drop Meme
No one’s tagged me in this but it’s making its way through my Tumblr friend network and it looks fun so I’m muscling my way in! (Concept: What’s on your loot table after someone enters your dungeon and farms you for long enough?)
Common drop: A large book of very obscure video game lore, along with my annoying opinions on all of it penciled into the margins.
Uncommon drop: A strange and seemingly useless object. Usually something like a spoon or a weird-shaped plastic thing. Either way, it’s very fun to hold.
Rare drop: A Christmas tree you can use to customize your player-owned house during holiday events. Instead of a star on top, there is an unsettling talisman used to attact strange and ambivalent gods to your homestead. They need holiday cheer, too.
I cordially invite @saiansha to this meme! <3
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xxlet · 4 years ago
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JJDKJCJDJSJSJSHD DO YOU KNOW HOW SPAM MESSAGES SENDERS HAVE NAMES LIKE "harley sent you photos ;;;)) SOMETIMES TO LOOK HUMAN OR WHATNOT well i JUST OPENED MY SPAM MAIL AND THERE WAS ONE WITH THE DEADNAME OF THE ASK GUY FROM MY PREVIOUS TUMBLR AND I ALMOST HAD AN HEART ATTACT DONT TALK TO ME
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prozaac--nation · 5 years ago
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July 26, 2020
I've recently regained access to my tumblr accounts again. I read a lot of my old diary posts on here, of course I simulaniously kept a physical diary too.
I guess I should update, I am alive and much MUCH better than I used to be. Most days I am actually okay. I am still with dave although after 6 years our relationship is facing some problems but we constantly work on it. I live with him and our 2 cats (i got new ones). I broke off contact with sara on december 31st 2018. I often miss her and the connection we had but I know it is for the best.
I still have contact to mary, or again. We had a hard phase again a while back but i think were fine now, we keep talking usually on a comfortable level. I started talking to jonny again a few days ago and god did I miss him. We werent in touch much over the last few years bc life happens. I still dont speak to my dad, his wife left him and he got another child with her shortly before that. Me and my brother are good, we dont see eachother that much but we chat on whatapp and send eschother memes and stuff. I dont have many people left in my life and i still get left a lot by others. My best friend right now is Amel, he was in the apprenticeship with me.
I have grown a lot more selfconfident and stopped selfharm pretty much entirely (including hitting myself or tables etc). I didnt cut in years. I stopped smoking cigs and on april 1st 2020 i stopped smoking weed bc it was giving me bad panic attacks. I tried it again on friday but it still gave me a rlly bad panic attack so now I think i might stop for good. I still drink a little sometimes but can also not really handle it very well at the moment. Anxiety is getting the better of me and I get heartraces really fast from various things. But im dealing with it and avoiding what needs to be avoided.
This year I really tried to be better to myself, to love my body and take care of it. I also started working out and eating healthier vut the last 2 weeks ive been falling into old habits with food. But im doing my best.
I would say my life is pretty good compared to what it used to be. I still struggle a lot sometimes but thats just how life is. The hardest part is trying to not fall back into the negative thought patterns I used to have as this blog clearly shows. Its to tempting but since I got a lot more spiritual and have been working with the law of attaction i know its something i cant allow myself, or at least not very often. I have to stay positive no matter what and it really works.
I also started tattooing 4 years ago and have build myself something nice, even if i cant live from it yet.
Im gonna add a recent picture of me now. I am proud of what a strong woman I've become and how much I changed for the better.
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azulsartdump · 5 years ago
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Azul, my dear, you feeling called out by my meme just made me laugh out loud. Well, anyway, your art is fantastic and your OC is very beautiful, my gay ass likes it. [0beyme|tumblr anon]
My dude. My buddy. My homie. I love you, but I came out here to have a good time and I’m feeing very attacted right now.
In all seriousness though thank you for your memes. They always make me laugh. 💖💖💖
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nis17sstuff · 5 years ago
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good to be back @ my tumblr acct. wasn’t able to post anything kasi wala namang nangyayare lately pero feeling ko kasi magsasawa na mga tao sa twitter ko posting pics and everything about my boyfriend. la lang sobrang miss ko lang sya to the fact na sa lhat ng gawin ko or sabihin ko sya naaalaa ko. I’m so lucky to have this guy not just a boyfriend but also a partner and a best friend, minsan nagiging tatay na din sya sakin sa mga pangaral nya sakin. sinesermunan nya rin ako not to attact me but to correct me. kahit na malayo kami sa isa’t isa at di makapagkita ngayon, pinaparamdam nya sakin araw araw kung gano nya ko ka love at tine treasure 🥺 I’ve never felt this way before. And I’ve never been this happy mula lang nung dumating sya sakin. he always say na sobrang swerte nya to have me pero mas swerte ako kasi minahal nya ako 😭 this got me teary eyed at ang dami kong sinasabi hahaha pero i just can’t contain this happiness i have. thank you Lord for giving me this man. thank you love for loving me and supporting me in everything i want to do and i want to pursue. know that I’ll do the same for you. thank you for sharing your life to me, for giving me the opportunity to love you and build a future with you. i’ll always love you my engineer ❤️
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futurewriter2000 · 5 years ago
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It's time to catch up with you again💜 I had several mental break downs in past few weeks but I'm dealing with it. It's mostly because of school because it's super stressful and I am extremely overwhelmed. And because I really NEED to focus on school and also on myself, I wanted to let you know that I'm going to take a break from social media. I'll delete Tumblr from my phone tonight so I hope that you'll answer before then... I also hope that you're still there when I'm back🤔💜 how r u? Luv u
Hey Boo. You do whatever it takes for your health.
I have been dealing with stress and school as well. Had an awful panic attact two weeks ago and I had to go to the hospital last friday but I'm doing fine for now. I have a doctors appointment on Friday, so fingers crossed he won't send me to psychiatrist or give me any pills. Cuz there is nothing wrong with me. Just stress and anxiety kicking in strong.
But he told me to do anything that relaxes me and opening up to people, so I am writing when I feel inspired , drawing, listening to music, dancing, tumblr, whatever relaxes me, I'm trying that.
My grades are good for now (except math bc I dont get that shit at all. I am so far behind). Worried about chem test I had today and germantest I have on Wednesday. And loads of things that are coming towards me. Like a fucking truck.
But you do you. Don't be a stranger, okay? I hope that everything will turn out smooth as butter and don't worry too much. You're smart, you'll make it far.
All the love 💜
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