#trying something there

[uselesseaweedbrain]

Supercorptober - 16. Karma

It's been barely a second since Kara landed in the Phantom Zone. It's been barely a year, barely a decade.

Kara is alone - again - so she does what she did all these eons ago: go through Rao's twelve pillars.

Earth calls them the twelve principles of karma.

Kara finds it funny that every civilisation seems to recreate the same things, one way or another.

Reflecting on oneself is essential, and- Kara probably hasn't done it enough, back when it mattered.

1. Cause and effect.

If Krypton hadn't exploded, Kara and Kal would have never come on Earth.

Lex would have never gone crazy.

Lena would still have an older brother.

Alex would still have a father.

Kara wouldn't be stuck in the Phantom Zone again.

This train of thought is fruitless, looping around itself like a looming prison. Kara has enough of one way of torture. She moves on.

2. Creation.

Kara, and Cat, would have never created Supergirl. Maybe Earth would have never needed her, either.

Kara doesn't know if she should bring herself to regret it.

3. Humility.

Kara likes to think she is humble, would have been convinced she was, once upon a time, but Kryptonians are proud people, and there's a familiar voice ringing in her head-

You really do have a God complex.

4. Growth.

This, Kara has done a great deal of, since she landed on Earth's foreign soil, so, so long ago. She's learnt and forgotten, and hidden and lied, and sacrificed and grieved,  and let go and forgiven, and- if this is growth, why does it feel like running out of air to breathe?

5. Responsibility.

For once, Kara thinks she did take responsibility, at last. 

It's her, there, tortured and alone, isn't it? It's her fault, her responsibility, and her punishment. She just hopes Alex sees it that way, too. Lena- Lena probably doesn't care too much for her anymore.

6. Focus.

If only she could- sometimes there's a string and a pull and Kara longs to follow the feeling, but inevitably a Phantom comes to engulf her in nightmares, and the tug vanishes as if it were never there.

7. Giving.

Kara would. Maybe she's been taking too much. Maybe that's the problem, maybe that's how Lex was able to manipulate Lena so easily, maybe that's why Kara expected her betrayal before it happened, maybe that's why Kara deserves to be here as penance. 

How dare Kara take and demand everything from a person who had already given so much? How had she thought that crumbs of affection could preserve the balance? Maybe this- though- maybe giving her present, her past, and her future, maybe this offsets some of what she took so greedily.

8. Present.

The Phantom Zone doesn't have a concept of time. Infinity is an endless ellipsis in which Kara has already lost herself long ago.

Is losing herself again. 

Continuously.

9. Significance.

Ever since she forsook Rao, Kara has struggled with meaning. Has struggled, for all her inspiring speeches, with good, and bad, with the significance of her acts and her suit and her heroics and her mistakes. She doesn't think she'll find the answers there, though.

The emptiness is jarring like the edge of a precipice too full. 

10. Patience.

Can you be patient outside of time? What would Kara even be waiting for? She doesn't really know anymore.

11. Change.

Nothing does, and nothing will, until the end of time. Whatever Kara does, at least, there- she won't hurt other people anymore.

12. Connection.

Kara wants to laugh at the thought - there is no connection in this infinite emptiness. Kara wants to laugh like she did all the times before and all the times after and all the times during and all the times she went over that point.

Kara wants to laugh for the infinite-th time, but, this time, she doesn't.

Suddenly (how can a place without time surprise her?) - suddenly, and slowly, and all at once, Kara feels the tug, and the long forgotten warmth- there's a ship over her head, and the sun on her skin, and the feeling of home at last.

[dredsina]

Ive said this before but swear the biggest skill to learn as an adult is how to resist high-pressure sales tactics. You do NOT have to answer questions with anything other than "Sorry I'm not interested." No matter how nice they are or no matter how many follow up questions they ask or even how agitated they get when you stand your ground. Just keep saying I'm not interested. Don't answer their questions. Don't give them an opening to try to push back on your reasons. Be a fucking brick wall of I'm not interested.

[incessantlark]

made some icons of the pony crew !!

[soaptaculart]

The cat and the dad she said she "didn't want"

[i-am-a-fish]

please learn how to code

like, if you're bored today, and not doing anything,

learn a little bit of coding please

[shesmore-shoebill]

"I had choice paralysis :(" is a KILLER line.

He's such a comedic powerhouse, I'm glad more people are getting exposed to him :'D

[zytes]

this manatee looks like it’s in a skyrim loading screen

[obsob]

i am a being capable of immeasurable love and whimsy

[wasabi-gumdrop]

local ladies man’s signature move totally useless against autistic monster enthusiast. more on Kabru’s fumble era at 6

[baristabomb]

...weird amount of dunmeshi fans have been saying being a caretaker in a relationship is the worst thing ever..marcille must want to killl everyone soo bad because doing things for people suuuucks sooo muchh

it's an act of love, not just a job i promise. we all want someone who's willing to take care of us in some way, just like how senshi shows care for others by cooking for them :'|

[gibbearish]

love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking

[bacchuschucklefuck]

couldnt draw my thang for mid-autumn so treated myself to a calne redesign instead

[stemmmm]

more people gotta try this shit where bill has not improved and will not change but he's just chilling so its fine probably. its great

[goddamnshinyrock]

people not realizing the extreme rarity of captive walruses is k i l l i n g me dear god. Just any old zoo does not have them! They are hard to transport, hard to care for, and hardly ever successfully breed in captivity so zoos only get them when an injured or orphaned individual gets picked up by a rescue in the arctic and is deemed unreleasable. That’s not a frequent occurrence! This isn’t a tiger king situation with backyard breeders all over the place!

[mrtequilasunset]

Listen man, you guys can't be like "you guys need to be normal about asexuality" and then turn around and get weirdly judgemental when you find out someone doesn't have sex by choice. Like that's weird that some of you do that.

[inkskinned]

this is just my opinion but i think any good media needs obsession behind it. it needs passion, the kind of passion that's no longer "gentle scented candle" and is now "oh shit the house caught on fire". it needs a creator that's biting the floorboards and gnawing the story off their skin. creators are supposed to be wild animals. they are supposed to want to tell a story with the ferocity of eating a good stone fruit while standing over the sink. the same protective, strange instinct as being 7 and making mud potions in pink teacups: you gotta get weird with it.

good media needs unhinged, googling-at-midnight kind of energy. it needs "what kind of seams are invented on this planet" energy and "im just gonna trust the audience to roll with me about this" energy. it needs one person (at least) screaming into the void with so much drive and energy that it forces the story to be real.

sometimes people are baffled when fanfic has some stunning jaw-dropping tattoo-it-on-you lines. and i'm like - well, i don't go here, but that makes sense to me. of fucking course people who have this amount of passion are going to create something good. they moved from a place of genuine love and enjoyment.

so yeah, duh! saturday cartoons have banger lines. random street art is sometimes the most precious heart-wrenching shit you've ever seen. someone singing on tiktok ends up creating your next favorite song. youtubers are giving us 5 hours of carefully researched content. all of this is the impossible equation to latestage capitalism. like, you can't force something to be good. AI cannot make it good. no amount of focus-group testing or market research. what makes a story worth listening to is that someone cares so much about telling it - through dance, art, music, whatever it takes - that they are just a little unhinged about it.

one time my friend told me he stayed up all night researching how many ways there are to peel an orange. he wrote me a poem that made me cry on public transportation. the love came through it like pith, you know? the words all came apart in my hands. it tasted like breakfast.