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[jewishicequeen]

some bart art

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[ID: a digital drawing of a young man of Egyptian looks. He’s floating above a pentacle, crossed-legged with his back at the viewer and his hands raised above his head, stretching and looking at the viewer. He has tanned skin, black hair cut in a bob with straight bangs, yellow eyes with feline pupils and sharp canines. He’s wearing nothing but a white linen clothe and gold cuffs on his wrists. The pentacle is drawn in white chalk and have a pentagram in the middle, which has a red candle in each of it’s corners. Between the candles are written the names Bartimaeus, Bartimaeus of Uruk, Sakhar al-Jin, Necho of Jerusalem and Rakhit of Alexandria, all in square Hebrew script. Bartimaeus himself is surrounded by red smoke, that doesn’t leave the confines of the pentacle. The background is solid dark grey. There’s a watermark that reads Jewishicequeen on the centre of the picture. End ID.]

[teapartyprincess4two]

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE WRITE SOMETHING FOR MATT BASED ON THE SONG HEARTBREAK GIRL BY 5SOS.

Idc how long it is (the longer the better)

pls pls pls I will sell my left foot to read it 🙏

Heartbreak Girl- M. Sturniolo

pairing: Taken!reader x BestFriend!Matt

classification: angst

warnings: pining, clueless reader, toxic relationship, jealousy, heartbreak, friendzone, slight cursing, use of y/n, unrequited love, mentions of cheating, panic attack, no happy ending (sorry, the song calls for it)

inspiration: request^^, Heartbreak Girl by 5SOS

summary: Matt’s in love with you, but you’re too in love with someone else to realize it.

Heartbreak Girl PT.1, PT.2

—

Matt’s phone rings loudly on his bedside table, waking him from his sleep. His eyes jolt open, the loud ringing scaring him. He knows who’s calling, but hopes it’s someone else this time so he can hang up without being eaten alive by the guilt. A sigh leaves his lips as he checks the caller ID, your name shining brightly on his phone screen. He rubs the sleep out of his eyes as he answers, “y/n?” Your sobs immediately fill the room as they emit from his phone speaker, he grimaces slightly at the loud noise and holds the phone away from his face.

It was always the same thing with you, you’d call him late at night complaining and crying about something your boyfriend, Mike, did. Matt would comfort you time and time again, advising you to just break up with that loser and sometimes you’d listen. You and Mike would break up, sometimes for as long as a week, but you’d always end up welcoming him back into you life at the slightest apology.

“What did he do this time?” Matt asks, another sigh leaving his mouth. He’s propped up on an elbow, his head hanging forward with his eyes shut as he tries fighting sleep. If you were anyone else he would’ve stopped picking up your calls a long time ago, but you’re his best friend and he feels a sense of responsibility for you. “First, he called me annoying and then we got in this big fight and then he left. He said he’s going back to his ex,” you hiccup, barely sounding coherent through your sobs.

Matt wants to scream into his pillow, was this not the same fight you had with Mike last week? “Well-” Matt begins, but is quickly interrupted by you. “He accused me of cheating too! Doesn’t he know I love him? I’d never cheat!” you exclaim through the phone, your words coming out a mile a minute.

Love. Matt cringed at the word, how could you possible love a guy who’s favorite pass time was making you cry.

Matt could tell you were entering a stare of hysteria, your breathing was erratic and you wouldn’t stop crying. “Alright, y/n. Try to calm down,” he whispers sternly, trying to bring you back to reality. With every late night phone call Matt gained more and more reasons to hate your stupid boyfriend. “Okay… I’m calm,” you reply, bringing your voice down and attempting to steady your breathing. He knows you’re faking it, but he appreciates that you’re at least trying.

“Okay, now telling me what happened,” he instructs, a part of him wanting to hear all the details of your argument so his hatred for your boyfriend would be more justified. You retold the events in excruciating detail, mentioning everything that was said and done. So much of it repulsed Matt, how could two people treat each other like that? He felt his heart breaking with each word, but the anger he felt was much stronger, “he really called you that?!”

Matt’s jaw was clenched, his teeth grinding against each other in the process. He heard your sniffles on the other side of the phone, a part of him wished he could just hold you. “Yeah, but he’s not that bad,” your voice was hushed, almost like you were afraid. You sounded scared to admit it, mostly because you knew Matt would get mad. You, of course, guess correctly because Matt replies angrily, “He’s not THAT bad?!?”

If he had any common sense he’d just hang the phone up now because there was obviously no getting through to you. But, a part of him is praying that one day you’ll realize what a loser Mike is and then maybe you’ll realize that he’s been here all along. “Well, I mean, it takes two to fight,” you reply in an attempt to defend your last statement. Matt rubs his temples, trying to massage his growing headache away.

“Y/n, stop being so naive,” he says harshly. At this point his anger has completely consumed him but he bites his tongue to stop the venom from spilling.

“Don’t be mean,” you mumble. There was no excuse for Mike’s behavior, not that you were much better, but you couldn’t let this become your forever. “I’m not being mean. I’m being real,” he replies, his voice softening a bit when he realizes how harsh his words sounded.

A brief silence settles in the conversation, but Matt can hear soft mumbling in the background. Matt assumes you’re talking but somehow the audio got muffled. “I can’t hear you,” he says, turning the volume up on his phone. The mumbling gets a little louder and then suddenly he hears it, it’s Mike. He must’ve come back once he cooled off, he’s sure to reel you back in with broken promises and empty apologies.

“Matt, I have to go. Mike is here,” you whisper into the phone, clearly scared to be caught venting your problems to your best friend. Mike, Mike, Mike. What was so special about Mike anyways? Sometimes, if Matt repeated the name enough it almost sounded like his own name. Matt, Matt, Matt. He wished it was.

He wants to beg you to stay on the phone, but he knows there’s no use. All he can do is advise you to choose better and hope that this time you’ll listen, “y/n, don’t do anything stupid.” There’s a lot of shuffling coming from your end, if Matt closes his eyes he can imagine every single movement. “Okay, bye friend. Love you,” you say quickly.

Friend. That is a word Matt will be reduced to for the rest of his life. He wants to be more than that with you, but a part of him knows that you two will be stuck going in circles again and again. You fight Mike, you break up, you cry to Matt, you make up with Mike, and Matt’s lost his chance with you yet another time.

Before he can reply he hears the phone click, you hung up. He knows that you’re probably already reconciling with Mike and even though it makes him mad, it mostly makes him feel helpless. Matt tosses his phone back onto his bedside table before dramatically falling back onto the bed. He knows that if you just opened your eyes you’d realize that he was here all along, that he’d never hurt you.

But, despite his better judgement, Matt will keep picking up your phone calls because he’s a sucker when it comes to you.

—

The sound of arcade games echo around the building as Matt and his brothers walk around the arcade in an attempt to find the perfect game. They only had a few tokens left, so they had to spend them wisely. You were there too, but you were so immersed in Mike’s presence that it was like you weren’t. Matt had invited you in hopes to finally get you alone, away from Mike. But, that stupid guy followed you like his life depended on it. You were so enthralled by Mike that you hadn’t even played a single game, even Nick and Chris found it annoying.

“What about ski ball?” Chris suggests, the three of them had lapped around the arcade a billion times and still couldn’t find the right game. “No,” Nick says, peering around the arcade for a better game. “Bumper cars?” Chris suggests again, running out of options to say. “We don’t even have enough tokens for that,” Matt scoffs, joining Nick as he looks around the room.

“Fine you pick,” Chris grumbles, leaning against the nearest game as he waits for his brothers to choose. As they’re surveying the room, Nick and Matt see you in the corner talking with your boyfriend. You two seemed to be caught up in an argument like usual, earning an eye roll from Nick. “I don’t know what she sees in that guy,” he comments, trying to read your lips to see what the argument is about. “I hate that guy,” Chris chimes in, joining his brothers in their watch party.

Matt hums in agreement, not wanting to say too much in regard to the situation. He can only assume that you did something Mike didn’t like and now you’re getting in trouble for it. The conversation seems to get heated enough for you to storm off, making your way towards the triplets. “Oh shhh- she’s coming, she’s coming,” Chris warns, trying to act casual.

Nick does the same, leaning against the machine closest to him. Matt’s eyes widen, all he can think to do is turn quickly on his heel to face his brothers. They immediately engage in a fake conversation in attempt to convince you that they weren’t watching. It seems to work.

“Ah yes, McDonalds does have the best chicken nuggets. Good point, Chris,” Nick says as he looks towards his brothers expectantly, but you’re so mad you don’t even notice the ridiculous conversation topic. “Guys you can have my tokens, I’m leaving,” you say, not even introducing yourself with a hello. You pull the tokens out of your pocket, dumping them all in Chris’s hands. He was so excited to have more tokens that he didn’t even care you were leaving.

“Is everything okay?” Matt asks, watching as you hurriedly try to get rid of all your tokens. “No, bro. Stupid Mike, dude. He got mad that I wanted to play so he brought up his ex again, can you believe that?” you scoff, still fishing for more tokens in your pockets. Why was every argument you had with Mike about his ex?

“Gross. Why are you leaving though? You haven’t played a single game,” Nick asks, taking a few tokens from Chris for himself. He and Chris also disliked your boyfriend because you two were always fighting about stupid stuff. But, they weren’t as involved in your love life as Matt was, so they didn’t know how often you two were actually fighting. “Cause he’s my ride and he said he’s leaving,” you grumble, finally looking up from your pockets to look at your friends.

“We can take you home,” Matt suggests, not wanting you to leave just yet. He says it so quickly and eagerly that his brothers give him a weird look, he catches it and coughs awkwardly. “I mean, if you want to stay,” he mumbles in an attempt not to seem so desperate.

You look between your friends and the arcade entrance, trying to decide whether you should stay or go. Matt bites his tongue, trying to prevent himself from saying something he’ll later regret. He wants to grab you by the shoulders and scream that you should just leave that stupid loser.

“I don’t know, it’s getting late,” you attempt to reason as you check your phone for the time. It was only 5pm, but your heart really wanted to follow Mike before he decided he was done with you for real. Upon checking the time, you see a message from Mike that made your stomach turn.

Mike: I left. have fun with your friends. we’re done.

Matt watches as your expression completely drops, you look like you just got the life sucked out of you. “Did he leave?” Matt asks softly, not trying to upset you more than you already were. You shove your phone into you pocket and put on a fake smile, ignoring his question. “It’s only 5, we got time,” you say excitedly, trying to pretend like you didn’t just receive the most heart breaking message ever.

Nick and Chris don’t know any better, so they immediately perk up at this and drag you back into the arcade. Matt, on the other hand, can read you like the back of his hand. He sees how your shoulders slump and how a frown replaces your smile when you think no one’s looking.

Throughout the whole night he wants to scream out, ‘you can be with me now!’ But he knows that you’re not ready, maybe you’ll never be ready. And that, to Matt, is so frustrating.

—

For the rest of the night the boys work towards distracting you from Mike. They use your tokens to win as many games as possible. Matt is focused primarily on convincing you you should leave Mike for good this time. He watches as you attempt to get the basketball into the net as he says, “I’m just saying, you’d be much happier without that guy.”

You fumble with the basketballs in front of you, missing each shot terribly, but welcoming the distraction from the conversation Matt was trying to have. He watches as you roll your eyes and continuing trying to play the game, “tell me one good thing he’s done.” This statement catches you off guard, you’re sure that Mike is a good guy, but for some reason you can’t think of a single good thing he’s done.

You scoff at Matt, throwing the last basketball at the net only for it to hit the rim and fall out. “He does a lot of good things,” you reply annoyed, watching as the machine disperses your tickets. All you earned from this game was 8 tickets considering you missed more than half the shots. “Okay, then name one,” he retorts, ready to challenge you whether you liked it or not. Your mind is racing trying to think of one good thing Mike has done that Matt would find valid, but you still can’t think of one.

Annoyed, you snatch the tickets from the machine, accidentally tearing the last one in half in the process. Matt watches you, noticing how the frustration seems to get the best of you. He knows you won’t be able to think of a single good thing Mike has done, especially not after he ditched you here to fend for yourself. “See, you can’t even think of one. He treats you so bad, y/n. You don’t deserve that, you deserve someone who’ll treat you right,” Matt says, the both of you walking in the direction where you last saw Nick and Chris.

“Oh yeah? Who would that someone be?” you retort, looking around the entire arcade in search of Nick and Chris. You desperately needed to find them so they could serve as a buffer between you and Matt right now. He was asking too many uncomfortable questions and honestly was starting to push your buttons, he doesn’t know Mike like you do. “I mean, I’ve always treated you right,” Matt’s reply is so bold that it even catches him by surprise, what the hell was he even saying right now? He knew he was setting himself up for heartbreak and the friendzone, but he couldn’t stop himself from saying it.

You look at him briefly, a little shocked that he’d even say that. I mean, you two have been best friends for so long that a relationship with Matt would be like dating a brother. The thought is weird, but you don’t want to offend him, “yeah, but you’re my best friend. Friends are supposed to be nice to each other.” Each time you say friend it feels like a stab to the heart. He seemed to be stuck in the friendzone again and again.

“Y/n! Matt!” Nick calls out from the ticket machine, both he and Chris feeding their tickets into it. You perk up at the sight of them and walk over immediately You feel a wave of relief wash over you when you see them, finally you’ll be able to escape this awkward situation Matt put you in. Matt can’t help but feel sad, but he tries not to show it.

“We’re gonna get a remote control car!” Chris says excitedly, referring to the prize they were going to cash in for using all their tickets. Without another word he takes all yours and Matt’s tickets so he can feed them into the machine. You chuckle at this, finding it amusing.

Matt offers a small smile.

—

After redeeming your prizes, the four of you decided it was time to head home. You picked out a giant plushie while the three of them combined their tickets for Chris’s remote control car.

Matt pulled up to you house reluctantly, wishing he could kidnap you and take you to their house once he saw Mike’s car parked outside. “Mike’s home?” Chris asks you casually as soon as Matt places the car in park. “Yeah, guess so,” you reply as you unbuckle yourself, trying not to sound too excited. Deep down you were bubbling with emotions, mostly happiness because if Mike is home that means he’s definitely not done with your relationship.

“Bye guys, I had so much fun!” you dismiss yourself eagerly, all you want to do is go inside and reconcile with your boyfriend. Nick and Chris bid you goodbye but Matt stays silent, he doesn’t want you to leave. You hug Nick in the back seat and pat Chris’s shoulder as you open the car door. You offer Matt a small, awkward smile before grabbing your plushie and hopping out of the car.

Matt feels so defeated, if he weren’t such a pushover when it came to you he’d tell you the truth. The truth is that Mike is leading you on, playing with your feelings, abusing of emotions, and flaunting you around like a trophy when he feels like it. The truth is that Matt is in love with you and has been since the first time he saw you, but he’s too scared to ruin your friendship to admit it.

Matt watches as you walk up to your front door, plushie tucked under your arm. There’s an eager pep in your step that makes Matt want to throw up. Chris is scrolling through his phone, forgetting about you as soon as got off the car. Nick is watching Matt, confused as to why he looks so sad. “Are we gonna move? I’m fucking hungry, dude,” Chris groans from the passenger seat, throwing his head back dramatically against the car seat.

You were inside already, but Matt stayed outside your house and watched as the lights in your house turned on one by one. He knew you were searching the house like a madwoman for Mike. “Can you drive?!” Nick chimes in, grabbing Matt by the shoulder to break him from his daze. Matt’s eyes remain trained on your bedroom window, watching as the light turns on and your shadow comes into view as he responds, “yeah, sorry.”

He puts the car in drive, slowly letting the car roll down the street. Matt’s breath hitches as Mike’s shadow comes into view, he’s praying that you’ll just run out of the house and back into the car. The car is slowly rolling down the street, Matt’s foot hovering over the break in an attempt to slow the car down even more. Your shadow and Mike’s meet for a hug and soon enough you’re kissing. Matt’s foot slams on the break suddenly causing the car to jolt forward, he knew it was coming but it didn’t hurt any less.

“What the fuck Matt?!” Chris exclaims, looking up at Matt in bewilderment. The seatbelt was choking him slightly and his phone flew off his lap. Nick’s head hit the front seat headrest slightly, causing him to gasp in surprise. “Matt what the actual fuck are you doing?!” Nick yelled, meeting Matt’s eyes through the rearview mirror.

There was no way Matt was about to admit that he was watching you through your window. So, he made up the quickest lie he could think of, “Sorry. I got a cramp.” He offered both his brothers a fake smile in hopes that they’d believe his lie. It seemed to satisfy them seeing as they rolled their eyes and returned to their phones. Matt took his foot off the break, looking back at your house one last time.

The lights were off.

—

Matt doesn’t hear from you until two days later. You called him at 12pm, which was completely uncommon for you to do. You were usually calling him at 12am, breaking him from his deep sleep to rant about Mike.

“Hello?” Matt answers the phone immediately, if this is another call about Mike and his stupid actions he’s ready to be honest this time. “You busy?” You ask, propping the phone between your shoulder and your face so you can freely look through the racks of clothing in front of you.

Matt examines his surrounding, trying to decide whether he’s truly busy or not. He’s not. “Mmm not really. Why?” He asks, getting up from his spot on the couch and walking over to his room. He hears the metal hangers scraping against the clothings racks in the background before you reply, “wanted to see if you were down for lunch.”

This was the first time you’d asked him to hang out since dating Mike. He couldn’t fight the smile that grew on his face. “Just you and me or Nick and Chris too,” he needed to sound casual, but he was kicking himself for even mentioning Nick and Chris. What if you said yes to inviting them and his time alone with you turned into a group hangout?

“Up to you, I was hoping for it just to be us,” you reply, picking a shirt off the rack. You examine it carefully as you try imagining yourself in it. You decide you don’t like it and put it back. Matt is doing a silent happy dance on the other side of the phone, he feels like this is his chance to tell you the truth. Plus, you don’t seem to be upset with Mike which means that the conversation probably won’t revolve entirely around that loser.

Matt calms himself down, taking a deep breath before replying, “Cool yeah. Should I meet you somewhere?” He’s trying to act casual, but there is no such thing as casual for Matt when it involves you. “You can. Or I can pick you up?” You reply, walking out of the store and to your car. You walk the street cautiously, thanking the people who let you pass with a small hand wave. For you, this conversation really was normal. Just a friend asking another friend to go out to lunch.

For Matt, this conversation felt like the beginning of something new. A new relationship with you, a new attempt at admitting his feelings, even a new outlook on life. He felt positive. “Yeah that works. Are you close?” He has the biggest smile on his face as he looks through his closet for the perfect outfit.

“I’m like 10 minutes away,” you say mindlessly, pausing as you dig through your purse for your keys. “I’ll let you know when I’m there, okay? Love you, friend,” you finished saying once you found your keys and unlocking your car.

There was that word again. Friend. It made Matt shudder, but he tries ignoring it. He wasn’t going to let that sour his mood. “Alright, bye. Love you too,” he replies, but he means it. He intentionally doesn’t call you friend in hopes that you’ll take the hint.

All you do is hum in response and hang up. It breaks Matt’s heart, but he ignores it.

—

You pick Matt up, arriving to his house exactly 10 minutes later. The two of you decide on a restaurant, engaging in light conversation throughout your meal. Matt couldn’t find the courage to confess to you, especially not with the thought of Mike looming over him.

Matt felt incredibly anxious, his mind racing uncontrollably with all the possible outcomes of tonight. He could confess and it could go one of two ways, you could feel the same or you could reject him for Mike like all the times before. Or he could keep it to himself and remain in the friendzone forever.

The two of you are now walking back to your car, ready to call it a night. “Thanks for coming out with me,” you say with a smile as you hop into the drivers seat. Matt follows suit, getting into the passenger side before replying, “of course, anything for you.” The comment was simple, but it had so many underlying messages that he wished you’d pick up on. ‘Anything for you.’

You seem to pick up some sort of message because you reply with a chuckle, “you’re always saying sappy stuff like that Matt.” He gulps nervously, was this his chance? You start the car, the radio playing dully in the background. The noise replaces the previous silence, only adding to his own frustration, especially because he hated this song. He couldn’t decide whether to do it or not.

“I hate this song,” you mumble, changing the station to another song quickly. He takes this as a sign, a sign to just bite the bullet and spill it all. He needs to start off slow though, if he’s too abrasive it’ll scare you, “so, how are you and Mike doing?”

You two hadn’t spoken about Mike the entire night and for good reason too. The night you got back from the arcade he made a bunch of empty promises, adding in a bunch of fake apologies in between. You, of course, ended up forgiving him only for him to mess up again the next day. So, you decided you were finally done with him and broke up with him for good. Usually when you two would break up you’d allow him back into your life within hours, but this time you blocked him on everything and forced him to move out. Today was your first day as a truly single woman and it felt like a breath of fresh air. You were repulsed by men and decided you were going to be single for a while.

“We broke up actually,” you say calmly, making a long story short. Matt knew all the details of your previous arguments with Mike so there was no point in explaining the obvious. He’s in shock, actually in shock. This is the first time you’ve ‘broken’ up with Mike and weren’t completely hysterical about it.

“When did this happen?!”

You turn the corner onto Matt’s street, nearing his house slowly. “Yesterday morning. I kicked him out and he’s coming for the rest of his stuff tomorrow,” you say like it was the most normal thing ever. How were you so calm? So casual?

Mike moving out was the best news ever, that means that it’s real this time. “Wow. How are you?” he asks. He needs to test the waters before diving head first, especially if he’s going to confess something so important.

“I’m okay. Honestly, I’m not as sad as I thought I’d be. I’m just ready to be single,” you reply, placing the car in park in front of his house. He digests the information, trying to come to terms with the fact that you want to be single. “Right now I’m repulsed at the thought of men. I’m just so done crying over guys, you know? I’m ready to just hang out with my friends and be free.”

“I’m a man. Are you repulsed at the thought of me?” Matt asks in an attempt to make light of the information you just dumped on him. He’s trying not to freak out right now. “No, dude! I mean like men that I’d date. You’re my best friend, it’s different,” you reply, the words cutting into Matt. Everything you just said felt like an insult.

The car is filled with an awkward silence, neither of you know what to say after that. The same song from earlier plays, the song you hate and suddenly it feels more like a bad omen to Matt. You cough in an attempt to break the tension, but Matt remains silent, he feels like he can’t breathe right now.

“Well I had fun today, Matt,” you finally say, unlocking the car so he can use it as an excuse to escape this situation. You don’t know why the conversation suddenly became so awkward, all you know is that this felt weird and you didn’t want to sit in it for longer than you had to.

“Me too,” he replies meekly, struggling to unbuckle himself. “Here let me help,” you offer, reaching towards his seat to help him with the buckle. It all becomes too much as he pushes your hand away, “stop. I got it.” You look at him in shock. What was his problem?

Before you can comment on his behavior, he opens the car door and stumbles out. He can’t seem to leave this situation fast enough. You watch in confusion as he walks into his house without another word. You are worried, but decide he’s just being dramatic and drive off.

Once he’s inside he feels the emotions intensify as he immediately collapses onto the floor. He’s out of breath and his head is ringing with the words you said, ‘No dude! I mean like men that I’d date. You’re my best friend, it’s different.’ He’s hyperventilating at this point, the tears flowing uncontrollably down his face as heaves in an attempt to catch his breath.

Nick and Chris who were in the living room hear this and immediately bolt towards Matt. “Matt? What’s wrong?” Chris asks frantically, getting on his knees to be eye level with his brother. Matt doesn’t respond, instead he grabs onto his Chris and pulls him in for a hug and sobs into his shoulder. He’s desperate for comfort, but nothing seems like enough. Chris understands what his brother needs, holding him tightly in an attempt to console him.

“He’s having a panic attack, let’s take him to his room,” Nick says equally as frantic, squatting in front of his two brothers so he can rub Matt’s back. Chris and Nick attempt to pick Matt up, but he’s glued to the floor, still holding on to Chris for dear life.

“It’s okay buddy, I got you,” Chris says calmly, not wanting to escalate the situation any further. Matt continues to cry, allowing his brothers to comfort him. “Deep breaths, Matt. Deep breaths,” Chris instructs, pulling Matt off of him slightly so he can get it together. Matt nods his head, using all his will power to stop crying and focus on his breathing. Finally, he’s able to calm down and his sobbing is reduced to sniffles.

“Wanna talk about it?” Nick asks lovingly, sitting next to Matt on the floor and rubbing more circles onto his back. “No,” Matt replies, his voice hoarse from all the crying. He looks down at his hands and plays with his rings to occupy his mind. “That’s okay, we’re here for you when you’re ready,” Chris chimes in, taking a seat on the other side of Matt. He rests his head on Matt’s shoulder, patting his thigh to signify that he’s willing to sit here with him for as long as necessary.

“Thanks,” Matt replies sadly, resting his head against the wall behind him. He’s never felt as defeated as he does right now. He’s stuck in the friendzone again and again.

—

MASTERLIST

A/n:

Honestly such a great request, but I had to keep re-listening to the song to write a story as accurate as possible to it. That’s why there’s no happy ending because the song clearly states that he’s stuck in the friendzone again and again, but I’m willing to do a pt.2 with a happy ending or just a diff outcome. Hope you enjoy.

Also, I’ll be expecting the foot

- L.A.M.B👼🏻💗

[spearxwind]

Okay seriously do you have any tips on how to free up computer space? It feels like a constant struggle 😩

OKAY BIG DISCLAIMER I AM NOT!! TECH SAVVY! Please take what i say with a grain of salt Im just out here looking at forums and hoping for the best 🙏🙏🙏

Honestly, it's pretty hard. Generally I have an external memory where i store backups of my old stuff but for the most part i try to keep all my files on my laptop, so i keep the hefty files and everything in my :D/ section since its beefier, but ofc I need certain things on the SSD like games and stuff so they can run properly.

I pretty much just learned everything today, i went into the file explorer for hours hitting 'properties' on all the folders to see which ones were taking up space and which ones weren't, ended up deleting and moving around a bunch of stuff (i had a reference folder on my desktop that i thought wasnt too big and it was 9GB of images.......... woof)

While poking around on threads I also discovered this other app that creates an image of whatever drive you need it to make, and displays every file as a square of proportional size, so you can actually figure out what the fuck is taking up all of ur space https://windirstat.net/

OH AND ALSO, if you right click on the drive youre trying to clear, and hit properties, itll bring up a special properties window with a little circle diagram that tells you how much is being used, and right next to it is a 'disk clean up' button that helped me get rid of a bunch of phantom space. apparently, windows saves previous versions and certain files that just take up huge gigs of space.

another thing that was taking up space for me was the paging file, a necessary system file ofc, but that for some reason was taking up a whopping 18 fucking gigabites. I got that one fixed using this explanation, but also take this with a grain of salt bc i am not a computer expert! idk how reducing this file could impact ur machine (i just did it cause the recommended was way smaller than what id allocated. like... thats a little ridiculous i think.)

Oh and last but not least. Spotify was also taking up like 10 gigabytes on my machine inexplicably so I poked around some more threads and changed where the data was stored so that it was no longer on my ssd. So technically i didnt free space with that i just moved it somewhere else. but it works!

Thats all I can think of rn, I also just deleted a bunch of folders that had stayed behind after uninstalling apps by poking around hidden folders, I do NOT recommend deleting folders unless u know what it is you're deleting for sure

But yeah its all like... just a lot of random files everywhere. eventually it all really adds up.

[peachiipark]

hi I'm a new follower and I am so glad I found this blog for hxh content💓So could I have some Main four hcs (Gon, Killua, Kurapika and Leorio) of how they have fun together as a squad(fluffy stuff plz)

happy to have you here, thanks for following! :D i've been waiting for some more main four requests 💗 i love them sm 😭🙏

the main four and how they have fun

even though it'll end in a very heated argument between killua and leorio. BOARD/CARD GAMES.

how did this tradition start? well, killua and gon were talking about the imaginary rules of uno when kurapika walked in

"i don't follow.. why are you two having a discussion about a number? leorio told me that uno is one in spanish."

they sat him down IMMEDIATELY for an uno round bc it turned out that he has NEVER played classic games like those

(he did play poker once)

THEY PLAY MONOPOLY TOO

kurapika silently robs all of them of their money and attempts to apply real life logic in this lawless hell of a game

leorio buys boardwalk but no one lands on it for the entire round 💀 he's also the banker!

killua.. is a con artist and constantly lands in jail

gon is trying to break the tension

THEY PROBABLY WATCH SOME OLD MOVIES TOO

it all started when gon revealed that he had never seen mean girls and kurapika agreed. leorio and killua sat those two mfs down and forced pop culture down their throats

shopping sprees but they all go to different stores 😭

killua goes to hot topic (listen their shit is good)

leorio goes to gucci (as he should)

kurapika craves revenge not clothing. (so he enters a barnes and noble)

gon follows killua around bc he just wants to go to the food court

nen users need to train.. how would they do it together ??

they'd be disrupting public spaces no matter where they went 😭

kurapika pulling up in the most MUTED colored tracksuit with a ponytail as he complains

"i can assure you that i'm perfectly fine. i already stretched before we arrived."

leorio (the cause of kurapika's complaining) is forcing him to stretch before he does anything so his muscles aren't damaged

"yes, and you also sat in a car for ten minutes. refresh yourself! now breathe in-"

gon and killua are doing bad bitch shit and seeing who can climb a tree faster

A POOL DAY OH MY GOD

kurapika is sitting on a pool chair reading a book the whole time bc i can't imagine him actually getting into the water unless one of the other push him in

(they don't dare push him in.. but killua will make an attempt)

gon and killua are having so much fun that it's actually sickening bc of how cute they are

leorio is just trying to keep up with those little paddling mfs

killua godspeeds in the pool

the water has been electrified

accidents.. happened! needless to say that kurapika is very happy that he didn't go into the water <3

sometimes

when they're huddling up for warmth as they watch a movie

they fall asleep and snuggle :(

ILL TELL YOU EXACTLY WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE

we've got gon and killua resting on each other's shoulders

leorio pulling them in with one arm and holding kurapika in the other

and kurapika is always the last one to fall asleep

mostly because of the loud snoring coming from his friends

but because he's grateful that he can even be by them :(((

and he falls asleep with a smile on his face :((

BUT LEORIO WAS AWAKE THE WHOLE TIME SO HE COULD TAKE THEM TO THEIR BEDS

mornings? although id love to believe the headcanon that kurapika can cook, i see leorio as the cooker!

he needs to strap kurapika down just so he can look the breakfast plate in the eye

gon is on the verge of eating his plate too

killua is not a morning person so he'll be down later (don't even try to wake him up.. please)

SIGHHHH i love making myself sad

this was a lot but i hope you enjoyed! thanks for following me :D i tend to go wild on headcanons like this haha

accompany on: to the masterlist!

[cartmankisser]

OKOK HEAR ME OUT CLYDE DONOVAN FLUFF ALPHABET

thwy did him so dirty in the post covid special thing :(

sammie i am so sorry this is from like december and was buried at the bottom on my drafts. just a heads up i am not doing full alphabets anymore (unless i really like the character so maybe give it a shot)

this is an old request please read my rules if u wanna learn more 🙏

putting it under the cut because it is long but no nsfw don't worry

Activities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

likes to go on flashy dates, or dates where a lot of people would see you two together, especially people he knows. if he's feeling lazy (or out of money) then he's cool with just chilling. he really likes watching horribly rated movies and making fun of them/mocking the actors. also i can see him being overly cocky when it comes to board games

Beauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

he's not using you for your looks or anything, but damn aren't you hot. he's an honest man that can appreciate a pretty face, but personality wise he would have to say patient you are. a lot of people, including his friends, get frustrated at him so even if your upset or annoyed, you'll never actually leave him. he likes that a lot :)

Comfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?

he honestly doesn't know so has gonna give you a cheesy ass speech that he heard on a movie or something. you'll have to tell him how to help because homie's kinda dumb be patient he's trying his best

Dreams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?

probably something totally unrealistic like you guys are gonna be the next zendaya and tom holland. realistically if yall end up dating long term, it will be pretty much the same, but a bit less energetic and spontaneous

Equal - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

id say you two are rather equal? he doesn't really mind, but around his friends he gets a bit embarrassed so he likes if you let him be all manly and show off at school

Fight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

bringing this back from the beginning of my account if u remember what post this is from ily to death

Gratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

oh he just adores everything you do for him. like you could pick him up his favorite soda on the way to his house and he would tear up at the fact that you remembered. it's kinda cute kinda dramatic 🤷🤷🤷

Honesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

he couldn't keep a secret if he tried. he's not really problematic so you don't have to worry about him hiding anything bad from you anyways

Inspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

he kinda lives inside his own little bubble,, dating you means that he gets to travel outside of his normal routine, even if it's just a little!! sleepovers on school nights, exploring where you shouldn't be, whatever! he loves doing in exciting stuff with you that he'd normally wouldn't

Jealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

jealous often and easily, but it's more in a petty way than him actually getting angry at you. he just gets whiny and uses it as an excuse to get attention from you

Kiss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

mm average kisser i would say? he likes kissing you on the cheek a lot like idk he thinks it's super cute.

the first kiss was something spontaneous like you both were super excited and jumping around because of some good news and you both just looked at eachother for a second and leaned in i guess

Love Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

he's a pussy i'm sorry he wouldn't make the first move unless he knew 100% that you were gonna say yes

that being said, once he knows you like him back, he goes all out, super flashy and obnoxious, just so everyone would see the confession and he could brag to them about how he's going out with the hottest person in school now

Marriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?

i'm gonna skip this one because i can't stand clyde in post covid 😓

Nicknames - What do they call their s/o?

anything he can think of. he googled pet names to call your s/o

but usually just babe. he whines it a lot like

"but baabbbbeeeeeeee"

On Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?

it's so obvious like he blushes and giggles like a schoolgirl whenever you're nearby,,,

PDA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?

mostly likes to put his hand on your lower back or an arm around your shoulder, but he also likes holding hands and giving you kisses on the cheek

but he will do as as much pda as you will let him,,,

Quirk - Some random ability they have that's beneficial in a relationship.

easily agreeable. arguments don't really happen 🤷

i think it's because hes pretty empathetic (and stupid)

Romance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

he tries to be creative but mostly he likes small dates at either of your homes. like where you light candles and eat pizza and watch movies!!

besides from date, he's pretty cliche when it comes to romance, but it's super adorable

Support - Are they helping their s/o achieve their? Do they believe in them?

clyde is your biggest supporter

he would probably cheer you on if you wanted to kill someone

10/10 great cheerleader believes in you with all his heart

Thrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?

i mean, your routine is constantly all over the place, but he likes the controlled chaos!!

he needs a high energy routine to keep him entertained, but other than that he doesn't need much to spice up the relationship tbh

Understanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?

ive said it before i'll say it again. so empathetic he's cried for you.

on multiple occasions.

he's such a sweetheart he's so understanding of your problems and always wants to help you out

Value - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?

dude you mean the world to him. i don't know how else to say it but your really important to him.

i don't think he would ditch his friends for you if they already have plans together, but he would think about you the whole time

Wild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.

when he goes for hugs/cuddles, he will not let go. it doesn't matter if you're walking or if you have to pee, you aren't going anywhere 😭😭

XOXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

yes read the one above this ^^^

Zeal - Are they willing to go to great lenghts for the relationship? If so, what kind of?

he wouldn't kill or anything, but he would sacrifice a lot for you.

you really keep him happy and shining when he can't get out of bed and he knows he won't be the same without you

[shuckinbeanz]

All I Need is You, You

Credit to the lovely thaidoodles for our daily bread. 🙏

warnings/notes: reader is preggers, ya'll are married ofc like in all the other ones, and i totally think this song fits Denki, our Electrocutie #2. 💞

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~Masterlist~

sickeningly sweet like honey under the cut! <3

You don't know how this escalated. Your husband was absolutely adorable. You had settled in the living room's couch and called the goofball up, missing his voice. He was out of town for a couple months. You listen to him begin to sing yours and his song, giggling happily.

'We are runnin' so fast And we never look back And whatever I lack, you make up We make a really good team And not everyone sees We got this crazy chemistry Between us'

It's been about a week since you found out you were pregnant, and two weeks since he left for work.

'Jump starting your car 'cause this city's a bore Buying e-cigarettes at the convenience store Making new clichés on our own little tour Let's ri-ee-i-ee-ide~'

You snort out laughter at the way he dramatically pronounces, hearing the grin in his voice.

'You don't have to say I love you to say I love you Forget all the shooting stars and all the silver moons We've been making shades of purple out of red and blue Sickeningly sweet like honey, don't need money'

You decide to join in on the fun, yourself, a little bit, singing along with him.

"All I need is you All I need is you, you~"

And he continues.

'We try staying up late But we both are light weights Yeah we get off our face, too easy And we take jokes way too far And sometimes living's too hard'

You join in again.

"We're like two halves of one heart We are, we are, we are~"

He repeats the chorus.

'You don't have to say I love you to say I love you Forget all the shooting stars and all the silver moons We've been making shades of purple out of red and blue Sickeningly sweet like honey, don't need money'

And you sing along one more time.

"All I need is you All I need is you, you~"

'Eat a pill stay and chill, you don't need to go I'm about to bring emo back if you leave my home I'd panic at the disco and you'd rather watch a TV show Then I'll squeeze your booty real hard like I'm kneading dough'

You laugh again, hearing the mischief in his voice.

'Pizza boy, I'm speeding for ya We can get married tonight if you really wanna!~'

You snicker to yourself at his serious tone, "We're already married, ya goof." as he continues.

'Me in a cheap suit like a sleazy lawyer~ And if you break this lil' heart, it'd be an honor~'

He repeats the chorus, one last time, as your mind wanders off. It's been a week since you found out you were pregnant. And he wouldn't be back for another month, at least. So, you figured telling him now would be a good time; better than letting him know when he comes home in a month. When he finishes singing, you open your mouth, the sound of your heart thudding in your ears too loudly to notice the muffled jingle of keys on his end, "Hey, baby?" you call, and he hums in reply, and the moment the front door located behind you opens, "I'm pregnant." you say, hearing his shocked sputtering behind you as well as over the phone, causing you to turn around to see his rather hilarious red-faced expression.

He was supposed to be out of town a couple months. Yet, here he was, home in two weeks. "You're pregnant?!" he finally exclaims, door wide open. You laugh, leaving behind the phone to launch yourself off the couch, running around it and into his arms. He hugs you tightly, a goofy grin on his face. "That's good news! Very, very good news! Can't wait to tell the gang!" he exclaims, shimmying you and him away from the door before kicking the door shut. Then suddenly, a pout replaces his grin as he releases you. "Wait. You didn't tell them first, did you? I mean--ow!" you halfheartedly smack him up beside his head, crossing your arms. "No. I was conflicted between telling you when you got home, or telling you sooner." you tell him. And like a switch, he brightens up again, plopping down his luggage before picking you up, making you squeal in surprise. "Good thing you told me now, then! 'Cuz I'm hooome!~" he exclaims, carrying you in a fireman's carry to the back of the house, as you laugh.

[hanafubukki]

Convert Anon💜 Here!!

Yeah you can keep my id public cause I don’t have many friends on Twst but if they want to add me they can :D

And yes you may cuddle me, I have a mountain of pillows besides me and two kitties and some nice blankets

And cuddling Azul in the dark is just *chefs kiss* and him trying to hide how flustered he is is even more *CHEFS KISS INTENSIFIES*

And yeah!! I was thinking about the funky ant controlling mushroom fungus thing and if Jade grows them well, i’d watch the ants and honestly it is cool and we can try to see if we can make mushroom music from it

And all of us on the counter screaming at the bugs and just holding onto each other with a death grip and imagine if it wasn’t just Kalim and instead our bois and Kalim and see us just trying to kill the bug with our screams (Grim in the background trying to light it on fire and now there’s fire everywhere)

I feel like none of my bois would let me live it down and I would probably let Floyd carry me everywhere for a lil bit cause I dont trust that it’s dead for for real

I’m chill with a lot more bugs but centipedes and things like them just make me nervous and i hate them

And Lilia telling us all stories about something and maybe using him as an excuse to get out of doing something like “sorry Ace I can’t help you paint the roses, Lilia ended on a cliffhanger and I need to know how it ends”

Omg, Yes! PLEASE ADD CONVERT ANON TO YOUR FRIENDS LIST 🙏💜💙 their code is 98Ude3Nr 🌸💞

YES CUDDLE BUDDIES *glomps*

Pffft mushroom music, that would be interesting to see. I’ll be on the side with jamil probably because that whole mushroom ant thing kind of keeps me out, especially after watching my brother play Last Of Us that was based on it 🥲

Lmfaooo go grim gooo!!! Be as chaotic as you want to be. I’m sure lilia is just laughing at us, malleus is amused, silver is asleep, and sebek is trying to scream louder than us. And omg, jade is laughing and Floyd is bored, and azul is just “would you like a contract?” Lolol

I don’t think either of our boys will let it go 🥲😭 watch me ask tsunotaro to carry me? He’s tall enough right? I’ll give him all the ice scream. Would you live in the ocean with the merman’s? But they have their own version of bugs don’t they?

I hate bugs especially the crawling ones because I tend to get bitten alot. I would burn them with a flame thrower if I could abdjnsjsdn

I hate bugs especially the crawling ones because I tend to get bitten alot. I would burn them with a flame thrower if I could abdjnsjsdn

BUT YES EXACTLY! I would rather listen to lilia than help ace over stone thing he did anyways, probably got in trouble lolol

[karmanticmoved]

Tell me about your favourite scrimblo. Please

oh god oca you don't even KNOW what you've gotten yourself into 🙏🥺❤ ily

my favorite scrimblo. oh god I have to pick a favorite. Um. UM....... ok. ok. ok.. my favorite current scrimblo is kiyoomi akagi who is my PC in the rwby rpg I'm innnn

^^^ this motherfucker

[ID: a masculine fox faunus (a RWBY species), wearing a short blue cape and holding a large purple and grey battleaxe. he has purple hair and an orange fox tail. /end ID]

he is . well he sucks. like as a person, God, he's awful, but not in an evil way. he just hates people and loves being a menace. a milf sat on his bed (note, she is a very powerful milf. she's got god powers n stuff.) he now had a vendetta against her forever. currently he has A Single Friend which is one of my besties' characters in the rpg and they're friends because they did homework together instead of helping my other bestie beloveds (ridleres) character save their girlfriend.

idk how much you know about rwby if anything BUT there are semblances which are kind of like powers unique to a person. anyway. kiyoomi's power is just "gets more powerful when he Feels Things" because he refuses to feel Anything Ever except extremely annoyed. the more he uses that power, however he gets more and more hurt (both physically and mentally) and that generally just makes him more emotional and powerful. I love making my little scrimblos suffer 🥰 he does get to have cool glowing kitsune tails when he uses it so it all balances out yknow?

um. Um. What else. like 75% of his backstory i stole from killua hxh because I thought it would be funny (it is). he was trained as an assassin. he has a little baby trans sister :) he has an older brother. to be determined if he sucks or not. his parents.... bad. he's just a little guy :) but he does wield a giant sword / battleaxe so a little guy that will kill you.

it hasn't happened in the campaign yet but i am going to desperately try to make it canon in the rwby universe that he coined the term milf. specifically to use against ridleres' character's mom, specifically after she was thought dead and then not dead and he just wants to be annoying about it. im so excited to make your mom jokes forever.

OH yeah. this probably should've been the first thing but since rwby characters are based of fairy tails and myths and stuff, he's based on a kitsune which. im still really happy with :p